#IM HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN OVER HERE

[cow-wizard]

presented without comment

[partoftheairforce]

oh em gee fuck me

[butnotbubblegum]

using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

[itzsana-kiddingmenow]

guys my mom apologized to me today for being harsh and asked why im always sad and whats wrong, and that i can talk to her.

i honestly cried because i have so many mixed feelings; i know she loves me and she wants the best for me, but everything she's said...all those horrible things that only crawl in my brain and the main reason i have severe anxiety and depression...they won't leave me alone.

i wanted to run back to her, back into her arms and cry and tell her everything...but i didn't. my instinct was telling me not to trust her. to keep everything bottled in. and the worst part? i couldn't tell if it was my anxiety or my brain telling me this.

i avoided every question, she asked me why i don't talk to her...i just said i was sick and a little tired.

she also asked why i was so irritable all the time. the truth is...i really don't know. i don't. i'm rude to everyone in my family who tries to know more, who tries to break that barrier.

i feel like i'm becoming my parents. nobody wants to know more. i have no true friends, merely acquaintances in my life. i never get too close...i can't. i'm unable to be close with anyone.

and i can't tell them...anything.

[ectopuppy]

i love gwen and kevin all silent and fucked up over dying and coming back to life and bens just like 'teehee same shit as always right guys???'

[three-bunnies-in-a-trenchcoat]

Oh this is kind of banging

[lanshappycorner]

delete later

[dandyshucks]

experiencing my bimonthly (every two months) morality spiral of "it's bad that i like men, why am i not as attracted to women, i must be a misogynist if I personally am not as often attracted to women as i am men"

i would say i need to go touch grass to get over it but unfortunately I do that at least once a day and it does not seem to help 😔 (this second paragraph is half joke)

[todayisafridaynight]

never think of ichi getting a haircut and being upset with the result while getting your own hair cut lest you also be cursed with a cut You Did Not Want

[sovaharbor]

my dad totally has a stomach bug and just got a call from his doctor he needs to take antibiotics for a couple days to see if that finally nips it in the bud for him because apparently this has been Ongoing for a bit and i'm being really not normal about this, thanks

[cutearose]

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[pepprs]

feeling misery and despair about going back to work btw. im trying to suppress it and i did a good job but the inevitable is inevitable

[gibbearish]

u ever have to back out of a drama explained video bc ur like. i agree that that person was in the wrong but the way youre presenting them is just unsettling

[lovingempress]

Week 3 of nursing school and still questioning why I put myself up to this

💀

[harrowharkwife]

tbh i feel like we're all maybe forgetting that 6A was kind of destined to be a little bit boring or slow-paced from the get-go because of how 5B ended so *perfectly* with everything tied up in a neat little bow. i mean 5x18 was literally called "starting over," and this is a show that (for better or for worse, this specific post is not pro-911s-pacing or anti-911s-pacing but a secret third thing, confused-and-trying-to-make-sense-of 911s-pacing) routinely and consistently takes right around ~10 episodes to cash in on big narrative plot points. not situational or episode specific or more technical plot points, like madney going from unsuccessful house hunting to finding a place within 2 episodes, or buck agreeing to be a sperm donor inside of 1 episode- those are typically resolved pretty quickly, within an episode or two. the show scaffolds these more-quickly-resolved plot points together into larger, more character driven arcs that typically always take around ten episodes for the full emotional fallout and significance to play out. 911 has always been a show where what happens matters a hell of a lot less to the story than how the characters feel about what happens, so because this is such a character driven show, inside of those ten set-up, pawns-on-the-chessboard episodes, it can be pretty difficult at times to figure out what they're angling at, or where they're planning on going (buck! where the hell are you going!), or how any of the plots are going to coalesce into something useful, profound, and cohesive. typically, the B season ends with at least a *couple* of loose threads that carry over into the arc-resolution-conclusion phase in the following A season, giving us an A season that's like 70% setup for new arcs and 30% wrapup of old arcs- but 5B ended on a true blank slate, so almost *everything* in 6A (with the exception of the conclusion to hen's super-drawn-out-but-very-realistically-paced med school arc) has been... scaffolding from the ground up.

and scaffolding looks pretty unimpressive and odd and boring on its own, like a big pile of ugly junk getting in the way of everything, but put it alongside the Sistine chapel ceiling it was built to accomplish, and suddenly it seems a little more worthwhile.

[dreamer-of-the-dark]

I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home