#IM EITHER CRAZY OR. IDK MIGHT BE ONTO SOMETHING

[miquellah]

…..hornsent and the greater potentate both had gold eyes. they were graced….. shut up about potentate!hornsentnpc for a second. shush. shush. listen to me

grace is bestowed to Her People… post-her godhood transformation anyway. people under her rule, minus the blue of the carians i think. anyway

marika made her citizens immortal, so unless theyre outright killed, they dont die. and when they die, they just get reincarnated. this is the justification for a lot of the enemy respawning, yeah? and this is also present within the lands of shadow, yeah? i guess that place could essentially be a time capsule, sure, but otherwise. isnt it weird that all of those people there haven’t DIED died yet

also we, as tarnished, and all of her citizens are known as “marika’s progeny”, presumably noting that we come from her lineage in some form or way or distance. and even if not literal in that description— where the fuck did all of the citizens in the land between COME from? her entire village was decimated!! so many other villages lost to the saint jars!

anyway here’s my totally crackpot theory: the hornsent were REINCARNATED into becoming her citizens, lost of their original markers. its fucking. eugenics. that’s how she got her people, with only a very specific and direct subset of progeny becoming true demigods. and this is also WHY omens are born among her new people— it’s the law of regression at work !!!

this is also why it took marika so long to actually start exacting her revenge, she needed to build her own ranks. its why the hornsent said she betrayed them, having graced them in the first place. it is a TRANSFORMATION of the hornsent into something else. and also, my god, its a direct parallel of real-world eugenics and genocide

[deakwithit]

how can someone look me in the eye and tell me oswald doesnt have bpd guys pleaswe this shouldnt even be up for discussion....

i have bpd and ive never related to a character more, especially this scene

the ranting, taking everything personally (despite the context of the scene being a pretty obvious personal thing), the anger, spilling something and ed having to tell him to breathe (which, also implies this happens a lot, especially with ed's slightly annoyed tone).

in many other scenes, ESPECIALLY ones with isabella, it clearly shows him displaying traits of bpd and time n time again i see "hes crazy" or "hes a sociopath" (which makes no sense and is just ableist)

hes someone with likely multiple complex mental disorders, but bpd especially sticks out to me bc of how obvious his case is

like i was sitting there watching the isabella dilemma thinking "man hes so me" bc he was splitting just as violently as i do

and as someone with multiple complex mental disorders, i fantasize about killing people i split on too (he actually does it, i dont, but i understand it). ive had homicidal thoughts (not urges, thoughts, clear distinction guys im not gonna murder someone) about the people ive split on, ive thought about the things oswald does, though not as cartoony as some of his, considering theyre in a fictional universe.

i fully belive edward was not oswalds first fp either, his mom to me is the first who comes to mind as his attachment figure, the only person he can rely on, his favorite person but also in a way his only person. she gave him love, gave him care, gave him all he needed to survive, and oswald clung onto it.

edward gave him "love", attention, care, and after oswalds mom had been gone, he needed that. so he needed edward. boom, fp moment

we constantly see how emotionally invested oswald is in ed, how much he cares for him, how much edwards words control his emotions, and we see how he once again, violently splits on someone, but for the first time, its on the one he "replaced" his mom with.

i wqont even lie i might be lowkey headcanoning some of this maybe or making shit up cause i havent watched gotham in a long time but oswald so clearly struggles with emotional regulation and anger. its 0-100, its black and white, its night and day, he is always overcome by his emotions. the way he yells and rants with ed in the scene i shared, the way he felt learning mr penn had betrayed him, the way he felt when his mom died, the way he felt about edward, or even isabella, is so clearly the way someone w bpd, such as myself, would react.

anyway im crazy idk share ur thoughts

[cerberus-new-owner]

im not much of a poster on tumblr (or a writer) buuuuuuuut.... my brain came up with a dumb little headcannon for mams and i just gotta share it (might be a little ooc idk)

so we all know mammon can be a bit gullible in game and that made me think 'this man 100% at one point was either given gold glitter as a prank from someone or found gold glitter sitting on the shelf at a cheap shop (does the devildom have those??) and dead ass thought it was real gold for atleast a few hours maybe a few days even'

which lead me to think about what he would've done with said gold glitter he most likely attempted to sell it for way more than a small tube of that stuff is.

but what would his reaction be if he saw a small child like for exmple luke just putting a little bit onto a card for simeon or micheal (for fathers day ofc. idea and materials supplied by mc ofc, mammon only tagging along cause he's their frist and whatnot) and mammon just went crazy mumbling something along the lines of

"why would ya waste so much gold on a card!" and "all of the precious profits."

as he's desperatly trying to gatter the glitter that hasn't already been glued to the card into a little baggy as he's grabbing the tubes/packets full of the gold glitter (rather clumsily probably spilling a few onto tha table) and luke and mc are just kind of sitting there shocked like "we're going to have to explain to him that the glitter isnt actually gold."

and as he's scraping the table for every last particle of the glitter mc is awkwardly trying to explain to the demon in a way that wont break his heart that all the online listings he had uploaded trying to sell the glitter for like thousands of grimm are useless cause no one wants glitter unless they want to find it stuck to every surface in their home including themselves even if its like 50 cents at a human world cheap shop.

not to mention they'd also have to explain that the glitter is just made of a bunch of plastic and that its not acctually gold.

ohhhhh glitter boyyyyyy

[dollivication]

dolly!! i was thinking…. who in dmc would be prone to turn into an incel? in my opinion i totally think itd be v LMAOOO but idk i wanna know ur thoughts…. ur always so smart >:3

NAWNIE YOU ARE ONTO SOMETHING!…. analysis mode activ8ed…. sorry for the rant aaa..

so. somehow,, somehow. SOMEHOW. vergil. without really fucking TRYING managed to not only capture the interest of a woman, but also knocked her up. and then he was gone like the wind LMFAO??.. & im thinking that because vergil is so focused on bettering his abilities, on gaining more power (kinda why dmc5 happened)—as much as he might crave romance or someone to simply touch him with warmth deep down inside—just doesn’t have time for that anymore. he’s not a friendly person, and i’m pretty sure he himself is aware of this, so he doesn’t put in the effort to change or put himself out there in hopes of attracting someone because there’s really no point to it. for vergil, time is always ticking, just waiting for the right moment to strike with yet another tragedy. getting laid is most likely the last thing on his mind because he’s got other stuff to worry about, and likely has a low sex drive. overall 12% incel rate methinks.

now lets get the obvious knocked out of the way… nero has kyrie. their relationship is the healthiest one shown on screen, and even if it’s a little odd acknowledging the fact they’re technically step siblings, at least they’re not BLOOD related so LOLS it could be worse. he’s getting kisses and hugs and cuddles on the daily and living a good life with a sweet girl. helps orphans also! he’s also laik.. the most normal compared to the sparda twins and v. has the most valid reactions to crazy shit (i.e frustration, cursing, etc..)…but also because he’s like the most sane, he’s definitely got the occasional need to cum. it’s not a terribly high sex drive but it’s not as low as vergil’s either. considerably moderate, and is probably to be more focused on his gig of devil hunting and taking care of the orphans with kyrie. 15% incel rate methinks—still pretty low.

and here comes dante. look.. that’s.. a flirty man if i’ve ever seen one, a little pervy, but not a complete degenerate. yanno what i mean? like, sure he shamelessly looks at adult mags out in the open, even has some pages of nearly naked women on the wall of the Devil May Cry, but he’s never touched any woman inappropriately. in dmc3, the most he did was get super close to lady and get up all in her face, did try to shoot his shot with her, but when she clearly wasn’t having it he immediately backed off. theyre chill now, and hasn’t exactly shown any flirtatious behavior towards her anymore (not that i’ve seen..),, and in dmc5, he could’ve had the chance to get touchy with trish when he saved her as she was nude, but instead he exhibited nothing but real concern for her wellbeing. (maybe that’s because she looks like his mom, and they’ve been good friends for some time, that it’s a natural reaction. but you’d expect an incel to disregard this and take it as a chance to explore anyway.) so dante’s clearly got morals and some dignity and can control himself. regarding his libido, i’m pretty sure he’s hornier than nero and vergil. if dante sees a pretty person, he won’t be afraid to make his interest known. he’s got a lot on his plate too, and since he doesn’t smoke and isnt a full blown alcoholic, he most likely vents any stress by jerking off. for him there’s probably nothing better than a proper orgasm for temporary relief. he is aware of the disaster that follows him and is too afraid to engage romantically because of it, but i imagine he does want a little something more than his hand and does often crave a relationship.. 33% incel rate

v.. you’re right about him LOL. imagine and put yourself in v’s shoes: a constant desire to be loved which stemmed your former self, endless want for security, new to this world and have no clue how it really works or know what’s taboo and what isn’t with only a few memories to guide you along the way (which don’t really guide you at all, but instead taunt you with the traumas and experiences your former self has undergone, and provide insight about the kind of person you were) but now your own person with a conscience and liberty? curiosity is bound to find you, and there will probably be a lack of understanding of boundaries with others. e.g, if trish hadn’t explicitly stated that she wasn’t eva, v probably would’ve clung to her thinking she was his beloved mother (or at least recognized her as someone he cherished deeply.)… v is probably more prone to developing obsessions that can be unhealthy, and since hes got a human body (he IS the embodiment of vergil’s humanity)—he’s obviously going to have human desires that would be pretty strong. i reckon he wouldn’t know how to deal with himself and would be restless to understand these needs, so he may come off a little too forward to others when asking for assistance. that would undeniably freak people the fuck out and push them away from him even if it’s not intentional on his part. (nero had even questioned v’s motives himself, and v is naturally just.. mysterious yet straightforward at the same. it’s safe to assume others are put off by v’s demeanor too.) 40% incel rate.

soooo… vergil is least likely, followed by nero, then dante, and v is most likely to be prone. methinks anyway :3

[hiroshotreplica]

im sorry you probably dont want this in your askbox but i dont really think it makes sense to talk about madness and leafi the same way for a lot of reasons. Idk maybe im just seeing a transgirl getting relentlessly dogpiled because of old screenshots and having an over-empathetic response but fuck man she was 13 when those screenshots were taken. Shes not even 18 right now shes crazy young for her level of play (like literally should be community banned for lying about being 13 for multiple years during splatoon 2 to get around discord community guidelines but thats a tangent). She said in her apology she was trying to fit in with a real shitty group of people she doesn't associate with anymore and fuck man im probably giving herself way too much grace cause i seeing a terrifying exaggeration of something i went through on a public scale but like people are editing HER face onto memes and talking shit about HER and constantly misgendering her when madness is not only an actual adult but has been ACTUALLY DOING THIS SHIT RECENTLY. im not saying the shit she was saying wasnt heinous but fuck man this isnt gonna help her and i dont want the dumass bullshit she said when she was a middle schooler to ruin the rest of her life. sorry for the white girl mental illness blast but there is important context in this ranty anxiety and projection goop

anon asked for a tldr for the situation w/ jackpot as a whole, which included leafi's part in the situation. as the post was about how jackpot as a team has made racist statements. i chose screenshots that put my point clearly, which just so happened to be screenshots with madness and leafi. i'll go more into it here, though

i did not mean to compare her to madness when including screenshots of her old statements. i was compiling the most blatant screenshots from the thread i had originally linked in a prior post. i was going to include other things, but didnt have the time to compile them and was beginning to get stressed about being the source of this info on tumblr.

i was also going to include this video of her saying racist statements in 2024, but i didnt want to include a twitter link for an anon that couldnt access twitter. im realizing i shouldve done so

i do feel bad for her getting involved with a group of people THAT bad if she was truly that ignorant when she was younger, but thats where my sympathy ends. she still acted racist and still associated with clearly racist people even when she was older and more mature. ive learned since making that post that she was born in 2007. 16 is still an age where you should be mature enough to understand that those comments are racist, even with america's shitty public education system glossing over racism.

i definitely see why this can look like people dogpiling on a trans woman though, and the people doing memes and editing her into them in general about this situation are disgusting. i had no idea she was trans and that people were misgendering her. anyone making this situation about her being trans are awful and not people i stand by.

but all of that, including her being skilled despite her age, still doesnt forgive or erase her actions. nothing like that does for the other members of jackpot that have also stated racist things. nothing like that does for any other comp splatoon player that has said anything similar. the apology she put out was needed, but from what ive heard from others, it wasnt the best. she is writing another apology, though, so it couldve just been rushed.

no one has to accept her apology, either. as a white person myself, im not one that should even be one to accept her apology. it wasnt an apology for me, and it isnt one for you, either (if you are white as you say but i might be misreading). people should not be painted in a negative light for not accepting her apology even if it were an amazing one.

the way some people are reacting to this situation is not okay, but she still did awful things that she should be held accountable for. the other guilty members of jackpot are not better than her, but theyve all still said fucked up things. none of them have done anything to prove they arent racist, and theres only more evidence coming out that proves that they have been, so its hard to process at the moment.

could things change? yes, of course, but as of right now, leafi has stated racist things as recent as 2024 and put out a poor apology trying to defend herself. people are handling it poorly and trying to make it about her identity and making memes on it when it is not the right thing to do. these racist claims are being put w/ other racist claims made by other jackpot team members so it was included in my tldr post about the entire situation.

i apologize for poor wording in this, im not the best w/ these kinds of posts

[thetangibleghost]

okay. TW for implied sexual violence. but like you kinda gotta read between the lines.

Park:

Just got off the phone with someone I know in the states. The Truman show delusion is really bad for me, but I said that I would keep my US number on till the 12, even though it's like 6 dollars a day. And I would do that for most people I guess. He was like. He exists. When I talk to him on the phone, I hear his voice. this is worse.

Vent:

💥, I really wanted it to happen again. I liked the way 💥 looked at me, and I liked the way you could see that 💥 was thinking. It didn't seem unfair, looking back I understand more, but there was no betrayal or anything. It was like I poked the bear. I had... fun. it felt really good, but that's kinda why it was fucked up. I feel like everyone can see me all the time, like they can just think about me and know what I'm doing. Friday helps by narrating what the crowd of sometimes specific people are taking about. But I think it's just a feeling, Friday helps give insight though.

〰️:

I look for ➖ everywhere, I saw her in 💥, I see her in everybody. When I got to know 💥 better I realized they were pretty different and liked them both. I didn't think ➖ and I ever expected eachother to be committed or anything, or four the to be any sure if relationship beyond what happened. nobody in the system believes me that she existed. Nobody believes 'Vent' about 💥 either. It's hard to keep faith that ➖ is even alive, it seems unlikely. I didn't think either of them would like present day us very much either. I'm suprised the guy who we talked on the phone with still talks to us, I think it's more of a convenience thing. I had a lot of questions to ask ➖. I never really got the chance, or I was to scared. I really wanted to ask her if she believed in God and what her God what like. I think she would've thought I was joking. The other alters think it's all metaphor, that it's me latching onto stories. They're the ones that actually believe the Truman show shit idk why I'm the fucking crazy one for being like "u know how we have the forget you childhood trauma disorder? well there were some people we forgot". I always back up other alters when they come forward with stories or forgotten faces, but they never return the trust, the integrity. It's like I'm just the fucking crazy girl. I feel so fucking alone without her, even after learning about how people get endoctrinated into this kinda stuff I still feel like my parents should have understood, that they were choosing to do that to me. like, Abraham didn't have to bring Isaac up the mountain, he could've said "my God would never make someone do that, my God wouldn't want me to kill my child." but I bet he was excited to try. And I bet he'd wanted to before. I don't even like that God, That's the God they were always saying was my God. They never told me about the Bible or much about Jesus or anything. And they told me so many lies. They didn't like the Bible, but it had to be that one because they mentioned Jesus. We never even went to church. A few years ago I was looking through a box of my mom's things and found out id been promised to the Evangelicals. its not the same as a baptism, I think it might have been for my grandparents or something. It's not like this was some long running family thing, like why did this happen? Who's God were you serving? was it anyone's at all? it sometimes felt like you really did believe what you were saying. I blame the internet.

Love:

I keep thinking he's fucking outside my fucking door. I think he's an introject of ➖. He keeps telling me real and he's coming to save me. he keeps telling me to do things. So many of my alters just ask me to do things. When they're not fronting, they like to sit next to me and lie about everything. Sometimes It's like I back up and I can see the shape of this whole thing, these parts that don't have so much control, just working with old tools, ticking clocks, old mindsets. Im embarrassingly dependant on him. I just remembered a section of the innerworld, some bit of story but I didn't remember the context. some post apocalypse or woods outside of a war zone... I think didn't starve characters are involved smh. teen getting his face pressed to a grill over a fire. I HEAR LAUGHING ALL THE TIME OUTSIDE, normal but the timing always seems... well timed! Every time I hear it. Since he woke up last November I've associated Friday with laughter, not always good. I was in the hospital and there was a guy laughing, like uncontrollable joker-type laughing, I was so convinced it was him, because it started after I had thought about him laughing! Everything just seems so connected. Whenever I look outside or open the door he's never there. I think it might be the audience messing with me, everyone has decided I don't deserve to balance on the tightrope, so they shake it. and I'm so scared. Nothing makes sense. There's a dead snake in the road. My eardrums are blown out like daisies. I'm growing crystals in my throat, purple. People don't bleed, that's a myth. You soft boys love to beat people with your pillow fists, claiming physics isn't real, claiming the lion is the winner, claiming teeth never dull, claiming claiming claiming. I want to rip your feathers out with my teeth, make you incapable of flight. I'm so jealous that you all get wings. These flashbacks are so embarrassing, full body plays, I just feel like a nymphomaniac. I'm so tired of it all being so serious. 💥 was nice because Vent got to say what she/he always wanted to say, no punishment, love like how the tires love the road enough that the bones break and the organs spread like butter. as opposed to an impact, to a hunt, to photographs of dead bodies in snow, like the cold was the killer when really the killer was warm. It's all just an means to an end with this kinda stuff. Friday said that after it happened 💥 noticed rope burns on our wrists, but that 💥 was uninvolved. I don't remember ever having rope burns, but someone drew a picture once. We were older in that picture than Vent is implying though. The guy we just got off the phone with reminds me of ➖ too. but in a weird way I'm not used to. I think we're forgetting her, we've always been forgetting. but I think it's to the point now where there's barely any left at all. I know that's not what everyone says, I'm sure 〰️ disagrees. Idk if she really existed anyway. Idk if any of this stuff is real, or just another means to some unknown end.

Last four lines of Tulips by Sylvia Plath

"And I am aware of my heart: it opens and closes

Its bowl of red blooms out of sheer love of me.

The water I taste is warm and salt, like the sea,

And comes from a country far away as health."

as I get older the meaning I take changes, but my favorite line has always been "And I'm aware of my heart: it opens and closes"

I wanted to get it tattooed on the outside of my shoulder for a while. like sort of American traditional style but just the line art, and then the red roses. But idk. what if someone skins it off of me or something.

[sovawife]

tell the class all your favorite parts about sova maybe? like what made you really fall for him and all of that!

ok this also might get long i am sorry. thank u for the ask tho its nice to hvae smth to do. either way uhh lets get started

ok so i might have mentioned this but i had a small crush on him a few years ago? i think since like 2022. back then i shipped with cypher and was super fixated on him but i think sova was always in the back of my brain as a crush, although at the time i only had him as a platonic. also cuz one of my good friends who doesnt anymore used to ship with him so i didnt wanna overstep or anything.

anyways im not even sure how i suddenly decided to latch onto him, i think my fixation on yone at the time was starting to fade and my brain just randomly chose to fixate on him even tho he was still a crush at the back of my brain lol. and look where we are now/lh

as for what i like abt him, i think one of the biggest things i like is how polite he is/kind to others. i think thats like a rlly important trait in someone for me if i were like to date someone else and hes just rlly nice in general and very lovely, hes such a big sweetheart :)

also ok im gonna sound crazy here but my friends keep saying im a circle bcuz he rlly fits one of my types which is like the holy trinity of yone vergil and wyll. who are all like, responsible, serious, yet like kind and deeply caring. and sova definitely fits into that archetype haha even though hes not exactly the same?? most of those guys arent exactly the same but theres a huge overlap of similarity with them.

i do also think he is very pretty even tho he is unfortunately white/lh :') (or at least i smacked this guy with the asian beam. get wasian'd) idk i suck at explaining exactly why i like this guy, again i think a big part of it is how kind he is to others!! its again just smth i rlly value in a partner, he genuinely cares about others/esp people hes close to like his grandma. and is very thoughtful. also i like that hes super down to earth and humble like this guy is incredibly talented yet never brags about it at all hes just very modest. smug people drive me nuts so im glad hes not like that lol. he also is very passionate abt his interests like archery and also he does photography! i like to think he also does things like hiking, birdwatching and maybe some gardening in his spare time. idk its a shame we dont get too too much info about val characters although the lore is always constantly growing. i do think he does like lots of outdoorsy hobbies hes very respectful to and attuned with nature i think.

sorry this is getting so long omg. im trying to think of any last things to throw in... i think another thing i rlly love abt him is how calm he is. it kinda balances me out bcuz i tend to be a really hotheaded person but it takes a LOT for him to get bothered by something, or at least lose his temper. in the lore we've never really seen him lose his temper or anything like that? the closest it's gotten is that one image when they were releasing fade where it was like a flashback to him losing his eye and he looked super animalistic. actually i think that in general for him to get that mad or whatever it would probably have to involve one of his loved ones being in danger. which is nice bcuz it shows that he rlly cares.

anyways this is getting so long so i will cut it short but i love my wife <3

[peachpopfizz]

yk the first couple of episode drops were a bit ehh to me but like.. these two just hit Right. maybe bc i knew what to expect pacing/story wise now? either way, they're def my faves so far, especially ep 5. that's my Favorite favorite :]

spoilers for both eps under the cut, mostly just me blabberin abt what i liked (warning: its alotta alastor)

for ep 5, at first i thought charlastors/radiobelles were winning (and while i don't ship it myself, i was happy for em) but then the realization of 'wait wait wait this isn't romo at all, alastors tryna be a FATHER FIGURE?!' hit instead and i went WILD bc thats 1000% my preferred dynamic for charlie and al. so uh.. yippee dadlastors, sorry charlastors..? gsjahafdaj

also the "Ha! Fuck you." im normal im normal im NORMAL im SOOOO FUCKIN NORMAL (IM CRAZY IM VRAZY I CRAZY IM CRASTY IM FUCKI)

mimzy!! (mimzie??) her intro was abrupt, but she seems like a doll, and her hug with al was real cute. tho i do think she needed that metaphorical kick in the ass abt al's thoughts when it comes to her leeching off his strength for protection. about that..

ALASTOR ACTUALLY CARES. HE CARES. (seemingly, at least). LIKE, HE ACTUALLY LEGITIMATELY, NON-FANONILY, GIVES A DAMN ABT THE HOTEL. HE WENT OUT OF THE WAY TO PROTECT THE PLACE AND TOLD MIMZY TO LEAVE IF SHE DIDN'T COME FOR REDEMPTION. MAYBE ITS IN HIS OWN WEIRD-GUARDED-PETTY WAY BUT FUCK FUCK HOOOLLLYY FUCK ALASTOR CARES

and one more thing b4 i move onto ep 6, i've already seen some ppl comparing what al did to husk in the hall to angel and val's dynamic, and while i do agree the two are both trapped in unsavory deals (loser, baby literally confirms this) i don't think al's ANYWHERE near as bad as val. was what he did fucked up? oh, yes, definitely. but it really?? shouldn't be surprising??? al's in hell ‘n has all this status for a reason, so i was really just waitin for a moment like that to happen. however, it didn't do any lasting damage. at least i really wouldn't say so. most it did was scare the shit out of husk for a minute, nowhere close to what val does to angel on the daily (see: episode 6). tho im willing to admit i might be lookin thru rose colored glasses bc i love al as a character. my opinion might change when/if the actual conditions of al and husks deal are revealed, but as of rn, i think al acted as he did there bc husk attacked a reeeally sensitive subject. he would've just been the petty bitch he always is if husk said like.. anythin else. oh and uhh yeah im abt 85% sure he and lilith have SOMETHING goin on. idk who the hell else would be powerful enough to have alastor on a leash

..oh yeah, lastly, lucifer was cool :] silly silly guy (with lotsa trauma) that hit me right in the daddy issues. funny tho, i rlly dont have much to say abt the guy despite the ep literally being focused on him. his song with charile was spectacular though, i need to listen to it on its own immediately

okokok, episode 6, finally, hopefully shorter than the mess of text above

first off. vaggie = fallen angel theorists, i would like to bow down and apologize for ever doubting you. i was one of the skeptics, i really was, but the show did it in a way that (albeit rushed, but what hasn't been so far?, thaaanks, 8-episode limit..) made it seem believable, with assdam calling her out for it..

but putting adam aside, uh, lute?? maam?? holy fuck, step on me??? please???? i mean uh. sick character design yk ahah ^^

whats her name.. emily? the younger seraphim girl, i liked her, she was a cutie. she really did just seem like heavens version of charlie. and the older seraphim woman i (expectedly) have mixed feelings abt. i feel like all would've be great it adam got outta her damn ear cause she might've actually be down to try the hotel with em gone.. angel was doing so well

speaking of angel, ANGEL!! oh lookit that character development, charlie's gonna be so fuckn proud!!! also, CHERRI!!!! saw someone else say cherris the devil on angels shoulder while husks the (heh) angel, and i have to say i agree. they both want the best for him, they just have different ways of goin about it.

unsurprisingly, fuck Valentino. although i did notice he was wearing a dress today, so. (through gritted teeth) slay.

thiiink that's all i gotta say for today?? besides the fact that next week is gonna be agonizing, ofc :] buckle up ppl we might get a genuine, emotional chaggie fight come next thursday

..oh yeah!! molly!!! we briefly saw molly!!!! i hope youre absolutely thriving girl, you deserve no less <3

[glasspyramid2211]

headcanon that ace is a age regressor or has delayed maturity/development. cuz i literally cannot imagine him as a 30 yr old. i like the idea of him being an age regressor more though bcuz i guess i can picture him acting mature (not serious, just mature bcuz he is THE SILLY EVA!!!!) sometimez and ztuffz. also bcuz i actually relate to him so much it is not funny and i can and will project myself onto him (treating it as a headcanon of course). im such a mix of maturity and immaturity to be honest (probably because im so multofaceted) and the worst part about it is that it isnt balanced either LIKE WTH UNIVERSE AT LEAST GIVE ME SOMETHING GOOD HERE IM STRUGGLING ENOUGH WITH MYSELF AS IT IS i mean what im literally perfect in every aingle way idk who said that ANYWAY. i think it has to do with how bright i am when i desire and then also how actually immature i can be with my jokes and then childish as in my interests and my behaviors and my childlike curiosity, trying to learn everything, and actually so much more and that. that my friends is a recipe for disaster. and i hc that ace has the very same problem bc uh hes just like me fr!!! also he gives me the vibez of like zome chronically online person like me like this whole little orbit (probably another reason why i kin him) which probably will not be canon and will never be canon but WHATEVER I CAN DREAM!!!!! i need to give ace a really big hug LIKE RIGHT NOW!!!!! GIVES ACE A REALLY TOGHT HUG SQUEEZES HIM WITH ALL MY MIGHT AFFECTIONATELY RAAAAH HE DESERVES IT!!!!! (also sorry for yapping about ace. sorry for going on a rant about my ace hcs and how hes literally me even though hes only been public for two weeks im just a hit crazy)

I like the interpretation, but, alas, ace is a simpleton. He copes by being a silly billy, and is INDEED chronically online (Doing paperwork is fucking boring he'd rather play games online or chat on social media) He's just how I'd imagine a happy-go-lucky-yet-deeply-conflicted man who just wants to have fun in the boring, bleak adult work! (OOC)

[childrenrecord]

rant about this novel cover under read more

just want to talk abt this novel cover for a second because it's one of my favorite kagepro official arts ever sorry if this sounds insane or doesnt make sense im just ranting kagepros everywher. anyway. the use of negative and positive space is used so well here by sidu idk art terms all that well (fake artist) butttt i just think the placement of the objects along with shadows really place the focus on marry's expression here. my eyes go from marry's face to the blood splatter, and because the red is reaching to each corner of the page, it lets me see all of the painting as a whole. it allows you to take in the full drawing, and understand what's going on even though at a first glance this drawing seems cluttered and messy. the longer u look at it though that's definitely not the case. the objects around marry are meant to be circling around her, the stop sigsn taking up the foreground, then her spike things??? taking up the background to form a sphere like image. in a way it reminds me of the golden spiral. uhmmm disregarding that the symbolism here is crazy i guess you could also consider the composition a symbol in itself since it's supposed to be circle like and time loops etc but besides that the bandages, or ribbons idk either one is possible since theyre both facets of marry's design or it's just inconspicuous cloth. it's grabbing onto her and holding her down or possibly dragging her down. i think holding down might be more accurate because of the way marry is posed? looking up entirely focused on a specific point, as if she's trying to reach something, yearning for it. the stop signs are supposed to be representative of the kagerou daze obviously, so in a way i guess this could be interpreted as the daze is the thing holding her back, which makes sense as her role as the medusa. being a medusa means you are tied to tragedy, and the kagerou daze is a literal representation of tragedy, and here marry is being tied down to it. moving on to the red blood splatter, like i said in the first part it's spread to every corner of the drawing, so basically all encompassing. basically i think it's to do with marry's role as the medusa, death will follow her everywhere she goes. on top of that, the splatter is shaped like an X, like marry is a target. she literally is being marked for tragedy here. the splatter is bursting from her heart specifically as well, alluding to how saeru believes it's love that put marry, and azami, in such a state of suffering. it's their fault for loving too much, for allowing their heart to be seen. last thing, the spike things form a half circle around marry almost like a protective shell. i think those r supposed to represent the mekakushi dan, and in turn their snakes, because there's 8 of them. so here they surround marry, to marry the mekakushi dan are what protect her from falling into despair. it's the main reason why she resets every time they are killed at the end of each route. but noticing here, they arent completely circling her, which makes sense because in this novel do we see specifically marry's strength. how because simply the mekakushi dan gave her their love, she can keep fighting for the happy future she has learned she deserves. she can keep going, even without them, because she remembers the feelings she experienced during their time together. i guess put simply they have her back, almost literally in this art.

[ambrosialdesire]

im feeling a little silly think abt cacoëthes reiner and what if the reader was or had become mute? (Idk why i love mute characters because they are so expressive in body language)

ooo this is an interesting idea anon!

reiner would be frustrated at first if reader became mute, not completely understanding why she started to do this, contemplating if it was because out of spite, anger, or a combination of both. he'd get mad cause he expects verbal communication to be reciprocated (it's like expecting eren to join forces with him and bert back when he confessed that they were the armored and colossal 💀), forcing her to try and speak again but since it's only harming their relationship, he stopped and started to adapt to her new "habit" rather than try to change it. reiner started paying even more attention to very small details in her expressions and movements, now causing him to fall even deeper in love with her LMAO cause nothing can really make bro stop loving reader, we appreciate our delusional king here ‼️

since she's not talking, she thinks that he can't read her anymore but it's becomes the opposite effect. like the smallest twitch of her mouth downwards indicates that she obviously doesn't like something, the shifting glances towards a particular object constantly during shopping means that she likes it and wants to get it, closing her eyes with slight scowl means that she wants to be left alone (he gets that a lot haha), etc. even during sex, reiner's attentive towards what she likes and what'll get her off quicker, even if it's just from her sounds. you can blindfold bro and he'll still manage to make reader cum like crazy LMFAO

and then let's say she was born mute (like her vocal cords were never properly developed) or she's been mute since reiner met her (like they were damaged from something WAIT OMFG IMAGINE SHE SCREAMED SO MUCH AND SO LOUDLY WHEN HER FAMILY DIED THAT IT LITERALLY SHREDED HER VOCAL CORDS TO THE POINT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO BE FIXED/USED ANYMORE THE GUILT REINER WOULD HAVE OVER THAT BC IT WOULD ESSENTIALLY BE HIS FAULT), he adapts much faster than if she started to become mute during their married life. if the reader knows sign language, he'll learn it just for her and during this time (since they're still cadets), she appreciates his willingness to communicate with her like this and actually will start to have a genuine crush with him since he's the only one that's talking to her in the way she likes/knows best (canon cacoëthes reader did like reiner and thought he was attractive from time to time, but never had a long-lasting/actual crush on him). everyone else either just talks to her and lets her only listen, or she uses a notepad to respond, but with reiner, she doesn't have to do that. it's pretty cute since they're the only ones that know what they're saying to one another, and reiner sees this communication as something special between them, like he's the only one that listens to her yk. just like in the other paragraph, he learns what her expressions and movements mean as the days go on and when he kidnaps her, he could never forget that look of fear and hatred and betrayal sewn onto every detail on her face.

first few months, she'd close her eyes and put her hands over her ears to ignore him and he understands why, but gets so frustrated to the point where he rips her hands away from her ears and threatens her that if she keeps on doing this, he might as well take her hearing and sight away since she likes doing that so much. that's the only time he'd actually threaten to severely harm her to the point of disability (cause i'm gonna be so fr, i don't remember if i ever wrote reiner threatening reader like that in the entire three parts besides him telling her he would A. unalive her (he won't and ik i said that in the third part, but reader constantly assumes he's gonna moider her) B. impregnate her C. slap/hit/choke her D. shoot her and well, we can see which ones he chose without even saying it 💀💀) and safe to say, she immediately stopped and was forced to start communicating with him again.

sorry i made this hella long LMAO but i found this really fun to think about, thanks for your ask anon!!

[h5eavenly]

omg i literally sent you an ask like two hours ago thinking "well this can't get any worse now we're gonna be so up from here on" AND IT SOMEHOW GOT WORSE?????? AGAIN I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WOAH yeji having it out for y/n over something that happened years ago and that hyune obviously got over is just soooo.. like she has so many reasons to give y/n a piece of her mind for and she chooses /this/ hill to die on?? AND not addressing her directly???? babyyyy this ain't it!! i think this is also a way of evidencing how distanced yeji and hyune have grown more than the distaste that she has towards y/n, like she doesn't know about hyune and her's connection and where they stand as much as the others do bc yeosang drove her away from them all which is so sad :-( sometimes she frustrates me a bit but i have a lot of sympathy towards yeji especially in this situation bc i know how hurtful it is to feel ostracised from your close friendships due to a toxic relationship and trying to hold on to the things you knew about them while not realising that they've changed bc you haven't been there enough to witness those changes :-( idk if this was your intention when you wrote it but it's really accurate. i know there's a lot of bad blood between yeji and y/n, now more than ever with the yeosang situation 💀 but i really do wish they can have a heart to heart sometime bc both of them have been so wronged and hurt by evil men and idk if a friendship between them is possible tbh but i feel like they can find a support system in each other even if they aren't friends. i just want my girls to be happy and i know there's a long way to go but they both deserve healing smsm :-(

now WDYM MFS RAIDED HYUNE'S HOUSE OH MY GOD????? this is y/n's fuckass father FOR SURE his ass wants to play gangster so bad HE AIN'T SHIT!!!!!!! i'm so flabbergasted i swear i never saw this coming??? i never thought that bum would ever go to this length to try to impose control on his daughter like that man's crazyyyyy. at first i thought the raid was bc of yeosang but you know that man ain't got no friends and is a coward he could never pull up like this 😭 so that's why i think it's y/n's father who's behind this bc he wants to have his godfather moment for some reason 💀 yk how weird men go crazy once they realise they can't control the women they feel entitled to so i think y/n moving out made him feel some kind of way. i can't wait for that asshole's downfall i swear i'm praying on it im going to church over it im manifesting it 🙏🏻 unless hyune is onto something that we're not aware of??? which idk im not sure about that honestly but i didn't see like half the things that ended up happening coming either so you knowww im seated, hyune and hannie living with y/n will be so cute too!! we love to see domestic hyune+y/n content we used to pray for times like this 🥹 so we might be kinda up after all maybe

thank you sm for the update so soon!! you're working overtime for this and it's sooo appreciated you deserve the world fr 🫂🩷🩷

genuinely curious what made you think "its only up from here" cus... 🫡efuhhfihw fyi anon i take my angst tag VERY seriously 🧐 some may say i'm not trust worthy but i just like being unpredictable

about the whole yeji situation it is intentional yes! im so glad you noticed its kinda hard to write such subtle things in smau without it being in your face because it's one of those things that i want ppl to notice but sometimes im like ahh idk if anyone would notice, i think for her she obviously views y/n as a rival but because she's left out (hence jinnie growing more distance ever since yeo came into her life) she tries to attack y/n with the only available card she has which is "you did smth bad to my friend" bc she doesn't know anything else and she wasn't even there when it all happened she only got snippets from the story and from jinnie's side when he was still feeling resentful towards y/n and you see the difference in this specific subject between her and lix (bc lix was there) he gets their bond sm more and it's so much easier for him to not hold it against y/n

listen y/n's dad might be a little worse than her mom idk they're competing for that title rn, ty for being so kind baby as alwayys i enjoyed reading and im sorry for talking sm i just get excited about my characters🥰🥰💞💞

[dromaeo-sauridae]

hey roach, i've been fiddling w/ one of my specbio species and, if its cool w/ you, i need your opinion on smth

for one of my species, the one thats similar to a gorgonopsid, i'm debating on whether or not to keep the enlarged canines OR potentially go with split jaws/mandibles as lower jaw instead (maybe adjusting the tongue in turn but idk-)

(closest animal that has the 'jaw style' i might be thinking of is goblin shark, but i dont think thats quite it disofsdf)

OOOOO fuck yes, with something like this id consider what the animal would be using this hardware for. with long saber teeth the animal would be using those to quickly stab and kill prey, going for the throat and punturing vital organs. this is something you see in cats, who have long and thin fangs (i believe either the clouded leopard or the snow leopard has the longest fangs relative to its size). whereas something like a split jaw, which you dont really see in mammals but you do see in things like snakes, would be used to grab onto very large areas but might not be able to hold on as tightly. (also, the goblin shark type slingshot jaws are seen VERY often in fish, as well as doing things like sucking up prey, cuz fish can only really use their mouths to grab onto things and having jaws you can shoot out of your face and snatch prey out of the air is VERY beneficial in something as thick as water. also dragonfly nymphs have FUCKING CRAZY JAWS. GO LOOK THEM UP)

SO kind of a word vomit, but studying what type of animals have that kind of jaw and what they use it for is the most helpful thing you can do. and also, saber teeth are fairly easy to evolve. its not something crazy and highly specific like making wings out of hands. and a split jaw would probably be something inherited from a distant ancestor, which begs the question of why did the ancestor have a split jaw?

i like both options and i think if you got weird enough with it, you could even manage to mash em together and have some crazy ass fold out fang tri jaw nonsense that has no business even existing. but its your playground, go crazy, go stupid aaaaa. im actually also in the process of making the mouths of some of my animals weird and fucked up funny enough (not the hexapods, but marine animals :)). for weird unique jaw structures id highly recommend researching arthropods, especially for mouths with multiple different parts.

[i-am-literally-deranged]

idk i can totally see how for some people it's easy to cross the line but like. personally i feel as though if it's at least somewhat based in canon it's fair game. like there's a huge difference between "character x has a childhood history of parentification and i have a history with childhood neglect so i want to reflect that onto character x and examine how already written character traits in them could be seen as symptoms of this specific type of trauma," and "character z has a good relationship with their parents which is portrayed in canon multiple times and i have a history with childhood neglect so i want to write about how character z ACTUALLY was abused this whole time because i want representation for my specific type of trauma." but im certain there are much more grey cases than that which would be more tough to decide if you're being crazy there or if it's Real

but simultaneously im very much the type of guy to stick to the "if your headcanon doesn't make sense for this character Find a New Character that it makes sense for there are SO many fucking characters in the world" mindset. probably why AUs are always so hit or miss for me

You make an excellent point. However, it's also so incredibly easy to forget where exactly the thing you're saying came from. At least to me it's a slippery slope thing where I will start with "Yeah this makes so much sense for this guy. Here's something he does that goes hand in hand with this other thing, and Here's something he said once that could be read as him implying this." And accept this thing that's very plausible (but still only my personal Interpretation of the work) as basically canon. And then considerably later I return to the topic, and I remember the thing, but I don't remember where this idea came from in the first place. Is it canon? Is it fanon? Is it something I personally came up with? I don't remember.

Also with fanon and headcanoning, there's this tendency for it to build up on itself. And fanon can kinda cannibalize itself this way. It starts with one really plausible theory that's very closely connected to canon and backed by real evidence. And then if you assume that to be canon, then it suddenly makes this other related thing look really plausible too. And it builds on itself like thay. Until you reach like, fifth degree fanon, where all of the supporting evidence that made you come up with this idea in the first place is fanon based on fanon and whether it remained actually plausible and grounded in canon or not, either way there's this level of abstraction here. And this isn't a bad thing. I actually really appreciate the almost folkloric way that fanon grows and builds on itself. It's something I enjoy a lot about participating in fandom. I like tracing the genealogy of common fanon through specific posts and fanworks that made some interpretations of the characters start to eclipse canon.

But enjoying watching this process personally or not, either way I am scared of letting myself forget where different ideas about certain characters come from, and winding up making a post that is perfectly reasonable to my own little insulated community, but someone who comes straight to my blog after only ever consuming the source material sees what I said goes "What the FUCK is this guy on about???" And I'm also scared of allowing my interpretations of certain characters be clouded by consuming too much fan Interpretation of them and allowing that version of them to eclipse the verison of them rooted 100% in canon within my mind, and accidentslly misinforming someone about something because I'm talking about fanon with a degree of confidence and familiarity without specifying that it is in favt fanon that someone might mistake what I'm saying as a piece of canon that they just missed somehow. And I'm also also scared of being wrong on the internet (Death Penalty

Anyway, in short I'm constantly at war with myself about the need to dilligently cite my claims because I'm torn betwen fandom as a curative experience and fandom as a creative experience. There are two wolves inside of me.

[rarepairnation]

im feeling FERAL tonight and i feel the need to elabourate. well denethor lives au navigating aragorn's return to minas tirith specifically regarding the. situationship. i wrote a post about this literally a month and a half ago and let it disappear into my drafts because i wasnt brave enough to post it for real but ive grown and changed. or something. maybe for the worse LOL anyway the thesis statement is truly. aragorn: well i don't think more gay sex can fix him now but i might as well give it ANOTHER good college try. denethor: well he IS still hot and i AM mad about it i GUESS we have to make out about it. well the real thesis statement is that well what happens when you see your ex-situationship after FORTY YEARS and A WAR have passed and he’s waltzing back into your life to claim the throne you denied him when you were thirty and he’s not even going to be good at the job. so you can have it, and the consequences too. condolences, congratulations. your majesty. i just they are so different and there is so much spite and resentment and political strife that separates them and there is no reason to make it any more complicated AND YET. they see each other and too much is still the same. and what if they both made the bad decision<333

more chatter under the cut bc u know i love to talk

- idk if i can put it in the au because i have a complex about it. like the au is my big serious project and if everyone isn't in character along the lines of my Main Interpretation of them ive fucked it up. but i also love myself. so in THIS particular timeline denethor rides either onto the pelennor to meet aragorn with the armies of the dead, or to the black gate with the army of gondor. or both if im really feeling spicy. i just the idea of the first time aragorn sees him in forty years being as The Steward Arrayed For War...........delicious.

- and that being immediately followed by aragorn walking into the throne room for the first time and seeing denethor out of All Of That for the second first time and realizing abruptly the toll that all these years have taken. the toll that they haven't, not really, taken on aragorn himself. i want it to trigger a guilt complex SO BAD. like. i had the choice to leave and he didn’t and i knew he wouldn’t have come if id asked (and he asked me to stay (he didn’t but he did) and i didn’t). i want him to pity him and denethor to know it and want to fucking kill him about it. you RAN and left me ALONE to fight this unwinnable fight and now you think you’re at a ground high enough to pity me from? just because you’re waltzing back in here with your legendary sword? go fuck yourself because im certainly not doing it (lying).

- and don’t even get me STARTED on the psychic aspect of it. denethor has always been powerful and known it and wielded it. but when aragorn touches his mind - by instinct, maybe, because that was what they always did, that was always their secret dimension of their relationship and he doesn’t even pause to think - oh, the shock and the horror. oh its so bad. for him. to expect a soft place to land (probably never that soft at all. but there was a certain level of familiarity) and encounter a blade…and for his first thought to be “what have you done to yourself”…..girl its crazy. and the natural response. “what was needed. unlike you.” prime time for a “you’ve aged, lord steward”/“you left, your majesty” moment if im being so honest. which is really just a disguise for “what happened to you”/“you happened, and you left, and i’ve beEN PICKING UP THE PIECES OF THE MESS YOU MAAADE”

- denethor knowing that he is much better suited for the lordship of gondor than aragorn is but! this is the will of the people in the wake of the war! and that is one thing he Will acquiesce to! he’s got the legal right to deny him but the consequences of that might be ruinous. so he looks at aragorn and goes, this is what you wanted the whole time wasn’t it? the throne. even forty years ago you had it in your mind while you played my loyal second for my father’s favour. then here. you can have it, and the consequences too. condolences, congratulations. your majesty. yeah i said this already but it was THEE image that captured my mind when you mentioned that lyric.

- an addendum to the previous point: the way that they argue has NOT changed even though they haven’t seen each other for forty years it is still as singleminded and vitriolic and homoerotic as it ever was and not a single other person in the room exists when they really get into it. denethor ONLY calls aragorn your majesty in an unapologetically spiteful and also horny way. he DOES think it’s hot and DOES hate himself a bit for thinking it.

- except he also thinks about their incredibly high-functioning military and political partnership and how no one else in all of gondor has ever been able to match that for him and thinks that perhaps…this steward-king relationship might not all be lost. perhaps, as he had thought all those years ago, aragorn could be a powerful weapon in his hand, if only he could put him there. (and maybe he looks at him and in a secret part of himself thinks, well, i missed you.)

anna you mentioned condolences congratulations the mountain goats the other day and i just want you to know it awakened the world's craziest idea inside of me and i MIGHT be stealing it (give or take 12 business months. well the novel. that the au is)

the way I Would Love To See This....... abby i am sending u my strongest energies

[mouthfulloftoothpasterry]

Idk why but I just feel like Eddie 100% would eat pussy for his own pleasure, like he’d spend hours eating you out because he absolutely loves eating pussy and he’s definitely not stopping until you cum at least four times

I about just (s)creamed in a house full of sleeping people… 😢😢😢

NO I COULD GO ON ABOUT THIS FOR HOURS AND I JUST MIGHT

He would sit with her legs either squeezing his head or her legs flung open, his hands squeezing the outside of her thighs

And he’s looks up at her through his lashes with his pretty innocent eyes with his mouth working wonders over her clit while his nose is pressed on her mound and he’s practically suffocating

But it’s something about the way she feels on his tongue and the way she taste that he can’t get enough of

And I feel like the first time he ever ate y/n out he could cum in his boxers (it’s giving kat from euphoria) and he would be so embarrassed like “oh, Um, I really don’t know what happened it just…. Happened… 😯”

And her talking to her friends like “No, believe me. His mouth doesn’t just know how to scream in the cafeteria!” STOP IM PLAYING HEJD no but I feel like they are def gossipers to their close couple of friends when it comes to their relationship

She’s like “No, you’ve got to trust me. I know he seems all nerdy and he never shuts up but his mouth definitely gets put to good use.”

And idk it was the 80s so his friends were probably like “you’ve got to be crazy to eat pussy” and he’s taken aback (bc honestly I feel like y/n might be the first girls he’s ever eaten out. Like he wasn’t a virgin but girls only really wanted to fw him on the low since he is nerdy and stuff and they just wanted a quick fuck) and he’s like “um no, you’ve got to be crazy to not eat pussy??? Are you serious???”

And he would be so into it 😢

Leaving full bruises onto her thighs from his hands and rings

She’s cum over and over again and each time he acts like it hasn’t happens and just continues to lick around where ever he pleases

And the first time he gets her to sit on his face

Pure heaven for him… 😢

He gets to be suffocated with her thighs and it’s a guarantee that she’s going to be directly on his mouth for as long as he wants

And his tongue would be so sore

And his jaw would ache so bad

Getting a full migraine

But he wouldn’t stop

It would only egg him on

He would only stop until she absolutely had to or he absolutely had to because his tongue just simply gave out no matter how much he wanted a taste.

Oh god…

He would love to make out after eating y/n out…

Like making her cum, licking her up, and as soon as he’s done just rising up and then yanking her the rest of the way so he can give her a wet, sloppy kiss, spit and wetness already dripping down his chin

And he would be pulling out his cock, and softly jerk himself off while he kissed her with the leftover taste on his tongue

Oh my god

Or rubbing himself over his jeans while eating her out

I feel like he’s slow and taken his time

But he’s also so sloppy with it

Just wet licking noises and squelching along with their panting and her moans of his name

And he legs him hands wander all across her legs while his tongue works it’s magic

And his hair would feather into his eyes and annoy the shit out of him but it didn’t matter, he wasn’t stopping unless it was a life or death situation 😢

And he would be so out of breath

And it was almost a ritual that after every time he was done eating her out he would let out that evil chuckle, so out of breath, but then he would yank her down by her hair and kiss her

And the amount of times he’d call her over just to yank her in his room and drop to his knees, acting all urgent, just to yank her panties down and shove his head up her skirt…

Plz and sucking dick at a drive in movie? No, he’s got his head shoved between her legs

Road head? No, he’s pulling the car over, shoving her in the back of the vans and shoving his tongue between her legs until the cops show up

HELP CAN YOU TELL I LOVE THIS CONCEPT 😢😢😢