#IM EITHER CRAZY OR. IDK MIGHT BE ONTO SOMETHING

[miquellah]

…..hornsent and the greater potentate both had gold eyes. they were graced….. shut up about potentate!hornsentnpc for a second. shush. shush. listen to me

grace is bestowed to Her People… post-her godhood transformation anyway. people under her rule, minus the blue of the carians i think. anyway

marika made her citizens immortal, so unless theyre outright killed, they dont die. and when they die, they just get reincarnated. this is the justification for a lot of the enemy respawning, yeah? and this is also present within the lands of shadow, yeah? i guess that place could essentially be a time capsule, sure, but otherwise. isnt it weird that all of those people there haven’t DIED died yet

also we, as tarnished, and all of her citizens are known as “marika’s progeny”, presumably noting that we come from her lineage in some form or way or distance. and even if not literal in that description— where the fuck did all of the citizens in the land between COME from? her entire village was decimated!! so many other villages lost to the saint jars!

anyway here’s my totally crackpot theory: the hornsent were REINCARNATED into becoming her citizens, lost of their original markers. its fucking. eugenics. that’s how she got her people, with only a very specific and direct subset of progeny becoming true demigods. and this is also WHY omens are born among her new people— it’s the law of regression at work !!!

this is also why it took marika so long to actually start exacting her revenge, she needed to build her own ranks. its why the hornsent said she betrayed them, having graced them in the first place. it is a TRANSFORMATION of the hornsent into something else. and also, my god, its a direct parallel of real-world eugenics and genocide

[deakwithit]

how can someone look me in the eye and tell me oswald doesnt have bpd guys pleaswe this shouldnt even be up for discussion....

i have bpd and ive never related to a character more, especially this scene

the ranting, taking everything personally (despite the context of the scene being a pretty obvious personal thing), the anger, spilling something and ed having to tell him to breathe (which, also implies this happens a lot, especially with ed's slightly annoyed tone).

in many other scenes, ESPECIALLY ones with isabella, it clearly shows him displaying traits of bpd and time n time again i see "hes crazy" or "hes a sociopath" (which makes no sense and is just ableist)

hes someone with likely multiple complex mental disorders, but bpd especially sticks out to me bc of how obvious his case is

like i was sitting there watching the isabella dilemma thinking "man hes so me" bc he was splitting just as violently as i do

and as someone with multiple complex mental disorders, i fantasize about killing people i split on too (he actually does it, i dont, but i understand it). ive had homicidal thoughts (not urges, thoughts, clear distinction guys im not gonna murder someone) about the people ive split on, ive thought about the things oswald does, though not as cartoony as some of his, considering theyre in a fictional universe.

i fully belive edward was not oswalds first fp either, his mom to me is the first who comes to mind as his attachment figure, the only person he can rely on, his favorite person but also in a way his only person. she gave him love, gave him care, gave him all he needed to survive, and oswald clung onto it.

edward gave him "love", attention, care, and after oswalds mom had been gone, he needed that. so he needed edward. boom, fp moment

we constantly see how emotionally invested oswald is in ed, how much he cares for him, how much edwards words control his emotions, and we see how he once again, violently splits on someone, but for the first time, its on the one he "replaced" his mom with.

i wqont even lie i might be lowkey headcanoning some of this maybe or making shit up cause i havent watched gotham in a long time but oswald so clearly struggles with emotional regulation and anger. its 0-100, its black and white, its night and day, he is always overcome by his emotions. the way he yells and rants with ed in the scene i shared, the way he felt learning mr penn had betrayed him, the way he felt when his mom died, the way he felt about edward, or even isabella, is so clearly the way someone w bpd, such as myself, would react.

anyway im crazy idk share ur thoughts

[cerberus-new-owner]

im not much of a poster on tumblr (or a writer) buuuuuuuut.... my brain came up with a dumb little headcannon for mams and i just gotta share it (might be a little ooc idk)

so we all know mammon can be a bit gullible in game and that made me think 'this man 100% at one point was either given gold glitter as a prank from someone or found gold glitter sitting on the shelf at a cheap shop (does the devildom have those??) and dead ass thought it was real gold for atleast a few hours maybe a few days even'

which lead me to think about what he would've done with said gold glitter he most likely attempted to sell it for way more than a small tube of that stuff is.

but what would his reaction be if he saw a small child like for exmple luke just putting a little bit onto a card for simeon or micheal (for fathers day ofc. idea and materials supplied by mc ofc, mammon only tagging along cause he's their frist and whatnot) and mammon just went crazy mumbling something along the lines of

"why would ya waste so much gold on a card!" and "all of the precious profits."

as he's desperatly trying to gatter the glitter that hasn't already been glued to the card into a little baggy as he's grabbing the tubes/packets full of the gold glitter (rather clumsily probably spilling a few onto tha table) and luke and mc are just kind of sitting there shocked like "we're going to have to explain to him that the glitter isnt actually gold."

and as he's scraping the table for every last particle of the glitter mc is awkwardly trying to explain to the demon in a way that wont break his heart that all the online listings he had uploaded trying to sell the glitter for like thousands of grimm are useless cause no one wants glitter unless they want to find it stuck to every surface in their home including themselves even if its like 50 cents at a human world cheap shop.

not to mention they'd also have to explain that the glitter is just made of a bunch of plastic and that its not acctually gold.

ohhhhh glitter boyyyyyy

[hiroshotreplica]

im sorry you probably dont want this in your askbox but i dont really think it makes sense to talk about madness and leafi the same way for a lot of reasons. Idk maybe im just seeing a transgirl getting relentlessly dogpiled because of old screenshots and having an over-empathetic response but fuck man she was 13 when those screenshots were taken. Shes not even 18 right now shes crazy young for her level of play (like literally should be community banned for lying about being 13 for multiple years during splatoon 2 to get around discord community guidelines but thats a tangent). She said in her apology she was trying to fit in with a real shitty group of people she doesn't associate with anymore and fuck man im probably giving herself way too much grace cause i seeing a terrifying exaggeration of something i went through on a public scale but like people are editing HER face onto memes and talking shit about HER and constantly misgendering her when madness is not only an actual adult but has been ACTUALLY DOING THIS SHIT RECENTLY. im not saying the shit she was saying wasnt heinous but fuck man this isnt gonna help her and i dont want the dumass bullshit she said when she was a middle schooler to ruin the rest of her life. sorry for the white girl mental illness blast but there is important context in this ranty anxiety and projection goop

anon asked for a tldr for the situation w/ jackpot as a whole, which included leafi's part in the situation. as the post was about how jackpot as a team has made racist statements. i chose screenshots that put my point clearly, which just so happened to be screenshots with madness and leafi. i'll go more into it here, though

i did not mean to compare her to madness when including screenshots of her old statements. i was compiling the most blatant screenshots from the thread i had originally linked in a prior post. i was going to include other things, but didnt have the time to compile them and was beginning to get stressed about being the source of this info on tumblr.

i was also going to include this video of her saying racist statements in 2024, but i didnt want to include a twitter link for an anon that couldnt access twitter. im realizing i shouldve done so

i do feel bad for her getting involved with a group of people THAT bad if she was truly that ignorant when she was younger, but thats where my sympathy ends. she still acted racist and still associated with clearly racist people even when she was older and more mature. ive learned since making that post that she was born in 2007. 16 is still an age where you should be mature enough to understand that those comments are racist, even with america's shitty public education system glossing over racism.

i definitely see why this can look like people dogpiling on a trans woman though, and the people doing memes and editing her into them in general about this situation are disgusting. i had no idea she was trans and that people were misgendering her. anyone making this situation about her being trans are awful and not people i stand by.

but all of that, including her being skilled despite her age, still doesnt forgive or erase her actions. nothing like that does for the other members of jackpot that have also stated racist things. nothing like that does for any other comp splatoon player that has said anything similar. the apology she put out was needed, but from what ive heard from others, it wasnt the best. she is writing another apology, though, so it couldve just been rushed.

no one has to accept her apology, either. as a white person myself, im not one that should even be one to accept her apology. it wasnt an apology for me, and it isnt one for you, either (if you are white as you say but i might be misreading). people should not be painted in a negative light for not accepting her apology even if it were an amazing one.

the way some people are reacting to this situation is not okay, but she still did awful things that she should be held accountable for. the other guilty members of jackpot are not better than her, but theyve all still said fucked up things. none of them have done anything to prove they arent racist, and theres only more evidence coming out that proves that they have been, so its hard to process at the moment.

could things change? yes, of course, but as of right now, leafi has stated racist things as recent as 2024 and put out a poor apology trying to defend herself. people are handling it poorly and trying to make it about her identity and making memes on it when it is not the right thing to do. these racist claims are being put w/ other racist claims made by other jackpot team members so it was included in my tldr post about the entire situation.

i apologize for poor wording in this, im not the best w/ these kinds of posts

[sovawife]

tell the class all your favorite parts about sova maybe? like what made you really fall for him and all of that!

ok this also might get long i am sorry. thank u for the ask tho its nice to hvae smth to do. either way uhh lets get started

ok so i might have mentioned this but i had a small crush on him a few years ago? i think since like 2022. back then i shipped with cypher and was super fixated on him but i think sova was always in the back of my brain as a crush, although at the time i only had him as a platonic. also cuz one of my good friends who doesnt anymore used to ship with him so i didnt wanna overstep or anything.

anyways im not even sure how i suddenly decided to latch onto him, i think my fixation on yone at the time was starting to fade and my brain just randomly chose to fixate on him even tho he was still a crush at the back of my brain lol. and look where we are now/lh

as for what i like abt him, i think one of the biggest things i like is how polite he is/kind to others. i think thats like a rlly important trait in someone for me if i were like to date someone else and hes just rlly nice in general and very lovely, hes such a big sweetheart :)

also ok im gonna sound crazy here but my friends keep saying im a circle bcuz he rlly fits one of my types which is like the holy trinity of yone vergil and wyll. who are all like, responsible, serious, yet like kind and deeply caring. and sova definitely fits into that archetype haha even though hes not exactly the same?? most of those guys arent exactly the same but theres a huge overlap of similarity with them.

i do also think he is very pretty even tho he is unfortunately white/lh :') (or at least i smacked this guy with the asian beam. get wasian'd) idk i suck at explaining exactly why i like this guy, again i think a big part of it is how kind he is to others!! its again just smth i rlly value in a partner, he genuinely cares about others/esp people hes close to like his grandma. and is very thoughtful. also i like that hes super down to earth and humble like this guy is incredibly talented yet never brags about it at all hes just very modest. smug people drive me nuts so im glad hes not like that lol. he also is very passionate abt his interests like archery and also he does photography! i like to think he also does things like hiking, birdwatching and maybe some gardening in his spare time. idk its a shame we dont get too too much info about val characters although the lore is always constantly growing. i do think he does like lots of outdoorsy hobbies hes very respectful to and attuned with nature i think.

sorry this is getting so long omg. im trying to think of any last things to throw in... i think another thing i rlly love abt him is how calm he is. it kinda balances me out bcuz i tend to be a really hotheaded person but it takes a LOT for him to get bothered by something, or at least lose his temper. in the lore we've never really seen him lose his temper or anything like that? the closest it's gotten is that one image when they were releasing fade where it was like a flashback to him losing his eye and he looked super animalistic. actually i think that in general for him to get that mad or whatever it would probably have to involve one of his loved ones being in danger. which is nice bcuz it shows that he rlly cares.

anyways this is getting so long so i will cut it short but i love my wife <3

[peachpopfizz]

yk the first couple of episode drops were a bit ehh to me but like.. these two just hit Right. maybe bc i knew what to expect pacing/story wise now? either way, they're def my faves so far, especially ep 5. that's my Favorite favorite :]

spoilers for both eps under the cut, mostly just me blabberin abt what i liked (warning: its alotta alastor)

for ep 5, at first i thought charlastors/radiobelles were winning (and while i don't ship it myself, i was happy for em) but then the realization of 'wait wait wait this isn't romo at all, alastors tryna be a FATHER FIGURE?!' hit instead and i went WILD bc thats 1000% my preferred dynamic for charlie and al. so uh.. yippee dadlastors, sorry charlastors..? gsjahafdaj

also the "Ha! Fuck you." im normal im normal im NORMAL im SOOOO FUCKIN NORMAL (IM CRAZY IM VRAZY I CRAZY IM CRASTY IM FUCKI)

mimzy!! (mimzie??) her intro was abrupt, but she seems like a doll, and her hug with al was real cute. tho i do think she needed that metaphorical kick in the ass abt al's thoughts when it comes to her leeching off his strength for protection. about that..

ALASTOR ACTUALLY CARES. HE CARES. (seemingly, at least). LIKE, HE ACTUALLY LEGITIMATELY, NON-FANONILY, GIVES A DAMN ABT THE HOTEL. HE WENT OUT OF THE WAY TO PROTECT THE PLACE AND TOLD MIMZY TO LEAVE IF SHE DIDN'T COME FOR REDEMPTION. MAYBE ITS IN HIS OWN WEIRD-GUARDED-PETTY WAY BUT FUCK FUCK HOOOLLLYY FUCK ALASTOR CARES

and one more thing b4 i move onto ep 6, i've already seen some ppl comparing what al did to husk in the hall to angel and val's dynamic, and while i do agree the two are both trapped in unsavory deals (loser, baby literally confirms this) i don't think al's ANYWHERE near as bad as val. was what he did fucked up? oh, yes, definitely. but it really?? shouldn't be surprising??? al's in hell ‘n has all this status for a reason, so i was really just waitin for a moment like that to happen. however, it didn't do any lasting damage. at least i really wouldn't say so. most it did was scare the shit out of husk for a minute, nowhere close to what val does to angel on the daily (see: episode 6). tho im willing to admit i might be lookin thru rose colored glasses bc i love al as a character. my opinion might change when/if the actual conditions of al and husks deal are revealed, but as of rn, i think al acted as he did there bc husk attacked a reeeally sensitive subject. he would've just been the petty bitch he always is if husk said like.. anythin else. oh and uhh yeah im abt 85% sure he and lilith have SOMETHING goin on. idk who the hell else would be powerful enough to have alastor on a leash

..oh yeah, lastly, lucifer was cool :] silly silly guy (with lotsa trauma) that hit me right in the daddy issues. funny tho, i rlly dont have much to say abt the guy despite the ep literally being focused on him. his song with charile was spectacular though, i need to listen to it on its own immediately

okokok, episode 6, finally, hopefully shorter than the mess of text above

first off. vaggie = fallen angel theorists, i would like to bow down and apologize for ever doubting you. i was one of the skeptics, i really was, but the show did it in a way that (albeit rushed, but what hasn't been so far?, thaaanks, 8-episode limit..) made it seem believable, with assdam calling her out for it..

but putting adam aside, uh, lute?? maam?? holy fuck, step on me??? please???? i mean uh. sick character design yk ahah ^^

whats her name.. emily? the younger seraphim girl, i liked her, she was a cutie. she really did just seem like heavens version of charlie. and the older seraphim woman i (expectedly) have mixed feelings abt. i feel like all would've be great it adam got outta her damn ear cause she might've actually be down to try the hotel with em gone.. angel was doing so well

speaking of angel, ANGEL!! oh lookit that character development, charlie's gonna be so fuckn proud!!! also, CHERRI!!!! saw someone else say cherris the devil on angels shoulder while husks the (heh) angel, and i have to say i agree. they both want the best for him, they just have different ways of goin about it.

unsurprisingly, fuck Valentino. although i did notice he was wearing a dress today, so. (through gritted teeth) slay.

thiiink that's all i gotta say for today?? besides the fact that next week is gonna be agonizing, ofc :] buckle up ppl we might get a genuine, emotional chaggie fight come next thursday

..oh yeah!! molly!!! we briefly saw molly!!!! i hope youre absolutely thriving girl, you deserve no less <3

[glasspyramid2211]

headcanon that ace is a age regressor or has delayed maturity/development. cuz i literally cannot imagine him as a 30 yr old. i like the idea of him being an age regressor more though bcuz i guess i can picture him acting mature (not serious, just mature bcuz he is THE SILLY EVA!!!!) sometimez and ztuffz. also bcuz i actually relate to him so much it is not funny and i can and will project myself onto him (treating it as a headcanon of course). im such a mix of maturity and immaturity to be honest (probably because im so multofaceted) and the worst part about it is that it isnt balanced either LIKE WTH UNIVERSE AT LEAST GIVE ME SOMETHING GOOD HERE IM STRUGGLING ENOUGH WITH MYSELF AS IT IS i mean what im literally perfect in every aingle way idk who said that ANYWAY. i think it has to do with how bright i am when i desire and then also how actually immature i can be with my jokes and then childish as in my interests and my behaviors and my childlike curiosity, trying to learn everything, and actually so much more and that. that my friends is a recipe for disaster. and i hc that ace has the very same problem bc uh hes just like me fr!!! also he gives me the vibez of like zome chronically online person like me like this whole little orbit (probably another reason why i kin him) which probably will not be canon and will never be canon but WHATEVER I CAN DREAM!!!!! i need to give ace a really big hug LIKE RIGHT NOW!!!!! GIVES ACE A REALLY TOGHT HUG SQUEEZES HIM WITH ALL MY MIGHT AFFECTIONATELY RAAAAH HE DESERVES IT!!!!! (also sorry for yapping about ace. sorry for going on a rant about my ace hcs and how hes literally me even though hes only been public for two weeks im just a hit crazy)

I like the interpretation, but, alas, ace is a simpleton. He copes by being a silly billy, and is INDEED chronically online (Doing paperwork is fucking boring he'd rather play games online or chat on social media) He's just how I'd imagine a happy-go-lucky-yet-deeply-conflicted man who just wants to have fun in the boring, bleak adult work! (OOC)

[childrenrecord]

rant about this novel cover under read more

just want to talk abt this novel cover for a second because it's one of my favorite kagepro official arts ever sorry if this sounds insane or doesnt make sense im just ranting kagepros everywher. anyway. the use of negative and positive space is used so well here by sidu idk art terms all that well (fake artist) butttt i just think the placement of the objects along with shadows really place the focus on marry's expression here. my eyes go from marry's face to the blood splatter, and because the red is reaching to each corner of the page, it lets me see all of the painting as a whole. it allows you to take in the full drawing, and understand what's going on even though at a first glance this drawing seems cluttered and messy. the longer u look at it though that's definitely not the case. the objects around marry are meant to be circling around her, the stop sigsn taking up the foreground, then her spike things??? taking up the background to form a sphere like image. in a way it reminds me of the golden spiral. uhmmm disregarding that the symbolism here is crazy i guess you could also consider the composition a symbol in itself since it's supposed to be circle like and time loops etc but besides that the bandages, or ribbons idk either one is possible since theyre both facets of marry's design or it's just inconspicuous cloth. it's grabbing onto her and holding her down or possibly dragging her down. i think holding down might be more accurate because of the way marry is posed? looking up entirely focused on a specific point, as if she's trying to reach something, yearning for it. the stop signs are supposed to be representative of the kagerou daze obviously, so in a way i guess this could be interpreted as the daze is the thing holding her back, which makes sense as her role as the medusa. being a medusa means you are tied to tragedy, and the kagerou daze is a literal representation of tragedy, and here marry is being tied down to it. moving on to the red blood splatter, like i said in the first part it's spread to every corner of the drawing, so basically all encompassing. basically i think it's to do with marry's role as the medusa, death will follow her everywhere she goes. on top of that, the splatter is shaped like an X, like marry is a target. she literally is being marked for tragedy here. the splatter is bursting from her heart specifically as well, alluding to how saeru believes it's love that put marry, and azami, in such a state of suffering. it's their fault for loving too much, for allowing their heart to be seen. last thing, the spike things form a half circle around marry almost like a protective shell. i think those r supposed to represent the mekakushi dan, and in turn their snakes, because there's 8 of them. so here they surround marry, to marry the mekakushi dan are what protect her from falling into despair. it's the main reason why she resets every time they are killed at the end of each route. but noticing here, they arent completely circling her, which makes sense because in this novel do we see specifically marry's strength. how because simply the mekakushi dan gave her their love, she can keep fighting for the happy future she has learned she deserves. she can keep going, even without them, because she remembers the feelings she experienced during their time together. i guess put simply they have her back, almost literally in this art.

[ambrosialdesire]

im feeling a little silly think abt cacoëthes reiner and what if the reader was or had become mute? (Idk why i love mute characters because they are so expressive in body language)

ooo this is an interesting idea anon!

reiner would be frustrated at first if reader became mute, not completely understanding why she started to do this, contemplating if it was because out of spite, anger, or a combination of both. he'd get mad cause he expects verbal communication to be reciprocated (it's like expecting eren to join forces with him and bert back when he confessed that they were the armored and colossal 💀), forcing her to try and speak again but since it's only harming their relationship, he stopped and started to adapt to her new "habit" rather than try to change it. reiner started paying even more attention to very small details in her expressions and movements, now causing him to fall even deeper in love with her LMAO cause nothing can really make bro stop loving reader, we appreciate our delusional king here ‼️

since she's not talking, she thinks that he can't read her anymore but it's becomes the opposite effect. like the smallest twitch of her mouth downwards indicates that she obviously doesn't like something, the shifting glances towards a particular object constantly during shopping means that she likes it and wants to get it, closing her eyes with slight scowl means that she wants to be left alone (he gets that a lot haha), etc. even during sex, reiner's attentive towards what she likes and what'll get her off quicker, even if it's just from her sounds. you can blindfold bro and he'll still manage to make reader cum like crazy LMFAO

and then let's say she was born mute (like her vocal cords were never properly developed) or she's been mute since reiner met her (like they were damaged from something WAIT OMFG IMAGINE SHE SCREAMED SO MUCH AND SO LOUDLY WHEN HER FAMILY DIED THAT IT LITERALLY SHREDED HER VOCAL CORDS TO THE POINT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO BE FIXED/USED ANYMORE THE GUILT REINER WOULD HAVE OVER THAT BC IT WOULD ESSENTIALLY BE HIS FAULT), he adapts much faster than if she started to become mute during their married life. if the reader knows sign language, he'll learn it just for her and during this time (since they're still cadets), she appreciates his willingness to communicate with her like this and actually will start to have a genuine crush with him since he's the only one that's talking to her in the way she likes/knows best (canon cacoëthes reader did like reiner and thought he was attractive from time to time, but never had a long-lasting/actual crush on him). everyone else either just talks to her and lets her only listen, or she uses a notepad to respond, but with reiner, she doesn't have to do that. it's pretty cute since they're the only ones that know what they're saying to one another, and reiner sees this communication as something special between them, like he's the only one that listens to her yk. just like in the other paragraph, he learns what her expressions and movements mean as the days go on and when he kidnaps her, he could never forget that look of fear and hatred and betrayal sewn onto every detail on her face.

first few months, she'd close her eyes and put her hands over her ears to ignore him and he understands why, but gets so frustrated to the point where he rips her hands away from her ears and threatens her that if she keeps on doing this, he might as well take her hearing and sight away since she likes doing that so much. that's the only time he'd actually threaten to severely harm her to the point of disability (cause i'm gonna be so fr, i don't remember if i ever wrote reiner threatening reader like that in the entire three parts besides him telling her he would A. unalive her (he won't and ik i said that in the third part, but reader constantly assumes he's gonna moider her) B. impregnate her C. slap/hit/choke her D. shoot her and well, we can see which ones he chose without even saying it 💀💀) and safe to say, she immediately stopped and was forced to start communicating with him again.

sorry i made this hella long LMAO but i found this really fun to think about, thanks for your ask anon!!

[h5eavenly]

omg i literally sent you an ask like two hours ago thinking "well this can't get any worse now we're gonna be so up from here on" AND IT SOMEHOW GOT WORSE?????? AGAIN I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WOAH yeji having it out for y/n over something that happened years ago and that hyune obviously got over is just soooo.. like she has so many reasons to give y/n a piece of her mind for and she chooses /this/ hill to die on?? AND not addressing her directly???? babyyyy this ain't it!! i think this is also a way of evidencing how distanced yeji and hyune have grown more than the distaste that she has towards y/n, like she doesn't know about hyune and her's connection and where they stand as much as the others do bc yeosang drove her away from them all which is so sad :-( sometimes she frustrates me a bit but i have a lot of sympathy towards yeji especially in this situation bc i know how hurtful it is to feel ostracised from your close friendships due to a toxic relationship and trying to hold on to the things you knew about them while not realising that they've changed bc you haven't been there enough to witness those changes :-( idk if this was your intention when you wrote it but it's really accurate. i know there's a lot of bad blood between yeji and y/n, now more than ever with the yeosang situation 💀 but i really do wish they can have a heart to heart sometime bc both of them have been so wronged and hurt by evil men and idk if a friendship between them is possible tbh but i feel like they can find a support system in each other even if they aren't friends. i just want my girls to be happy and i know there's a long way to go but they both deserve healing smsm :-(

now WDYM MFS RAIDED HYUNE'S HOUSE OH MY GOD????? this is y/n's fuckass father FOR SURE his ass wants to play gangster so bad HE AIN'T SHIT!!!!!!! i'm so flabbergasted i swear i never saw this coming??? i never thought that bum would ever go to this length to try to impose control on his daughter like that man's crazyyyyy. at first i thought the raid was bc of yeosang but you know that man ain't got no friends and is a coward he could never pull up like this 😭 so that's why i think it's y/n's father who's behind this bc he wants to have his godfather moment for some reason 💀 yk how weird men go crazy once they realise they can't control the women they feel entitled to so i think y/n moving out made him feel some kind of way. i can't wait for that asshole's downfall i swear i'm praying on it im going to church over it im manifesting it 🙏🏻 unless hyune is onto something that we're not aware of??? which idk im not sure about that honestly but i didn't see like half the things that ended up happening coming either so you knowww im seated, hyune and hannie living with y/n will be so cute too!! we love to see domestic hyune+y/n content we used to pray for times like this 🥹 so we might be kinda up after all maybe

thank you sm for the update so soon!! you're working overtime for this and it's sooo appreciated you deserve the world fr 🫂🩷🩷

genuinely curious what made you think "its only up from here" cus... 🫡efuhhfihw fyi anon i take my angst tag VERY seriously 🧐 some may say i'm not trust worthy but i just like being unpredictable

about the whole yeji situation it is intentional yes! im so glad you noticed its kinda hard to write such subtle things in smau without it being in your face because it's one of those things that i want ppl to notice but sometimes im like ahh idk if anyone would notice, i think for her she obviously views y/n as a rival but because she's left out (hence jinnie growing more distance ever since yeo came into her life) she tries to attack y/n with the only available card she has which is "you did smth bad to my friend" bc she doesn't know anything else and she wasn't even there when it all happened she only got snippets from the story and from jinnie's side when he was still feeling resentful towards y/n and you see the difference in this specific subject between her and lix (bc lix was there) he gets their bond sm more and it's so much easier for him to not hold it against y/n

listen y/n's dad might be a little worse than her mom idk they're competing for that title rn, ty for being so kind baby as alwayys i enjoyed reading and im sorry for talking sm i just get excited about my characters🥰🥰💞💞

[dromaeo-sauridae]

hey roach, i've been fiddling w/ one of my specbio species and, if its cool w/ you, i need your opinion on smth

for one of my species, the one thats similar to a gorgonopsid, i'm debating on whether or not to keep the enlarged canines OR potentially go with split jaws/mandibles as lower jaw instead (maybe adjusting the tongue in turn but idk-)

(closest animal that has the 'jaw style' i might be thinking of is goblin shark, but i dont think thats quite it disofsdf)

OOOOO fuck yes, with something like this id consider what the animal would be using this hardware for. with long saber teeth the animal would be using those to quickly stab and kill prey, going for the throat and punturing vital organs. this is something you see in cats, who have long and thin fangs (i believe either the clouded leopard or the snow leopard has the longest fangs relative to its size). whereas something like a split jaw, which you dont really see in mammals but you do see in things like snakes, would be used to grab onto very large areas but might not be able to hold on as tightly. (also, the goblin shark type slingshot jaws are seen VERY often in fish, as well as doing things like sucking up prey, cuz fish can only really use their mouths to grab onto things and having jaws you can shoot out of your face and snatch prey out of the air is VERY beneficial in something as thick as water. also dragonfly nymphs have FUCKING CRAZY JAWS. GO LOOK THEM UP)

SO kind of a word vomit, but studying what type of animals have that kind of jaw and what they use it for is the most helpful thing you can do. and also, saber teeth are fairly easy to evolve. its not something crazy and highly specific like making wings out of hands. and a split jaw would probably be something inherited from a distant ancestor, which begs the question of why did the ancestor have a split jaw?

i like both options and i think if you got weird enough with it, you could even manage to mash em together and have some crazy ass fold out fang tri jaw nonsense that has no business even existing. but its your playground, go crazy, go stupid aaaaa. im actually also in the process of making the mouths of some of my animals weird and fucked up funny enough (not the hexapods, but marine animals :)). for weird unique jaw structures id highly recommend researching arthropods, especially for mouths with multiple different parts.

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Concept tropes

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385 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#4

Idk why but I just feel like Eddie 100% would eat pussy for his own pleasure, like he’d spend hours eating you out because he absolutely loves eating pussy and he’s definitely not stopping until you cum at least four times

I about just (s)creamed in a house full of sleeping people… 😢😢😢

NO I COULD GO ON ABOUT THIS FOR HOURS AND I JUST MIGHT

He would sit with her legs either squeezing his head or her legs flung open, his hands squeezing the outside of her thighs

And he’s looks up at her through his lashes with his pretty innocent eyes with his mouth working wonders over her clit while his nose is pressed on her mound and he’s practically suffocating

But it’s something about the way she feels on his tongue and the way she taste that he can’t get enough of

And I feel like the first time he ever ate y/n out he could cum in his boxers (it’s giving kat from euphoria) and he would be so embarrassed like “oh, Um, I really don’t know what happened it just…. Happened… 😯”

And her talking to her friends like “No, believe me. His mouth doesn’t just know how to scream in the cafeteria!” STOP IM PLAYING HEJD no but I feel like they are def gossipers to their close couple of friends when it comes to their relationship

She’s like “No, you’ve got to trust me. I know he seems all nerdy and he never shuts up but his mouth definitely gets put to good use.”

And idk it was the 80s so his friends were probably like “you’ve got to be crazy to eat pussy” and he’s taken aback (bc honestly I feel like y/n might be the first girls he’s ever eaten out. Like he wasn’t a virgin but girls only really wanted to fw him on the low since he is nerdy and stuff and they just wanted a quick fuck) and he’s like “um no, you’ve got to be crazy to not eat pussy??? Are you serious???”

And he would be so into it 😢

Leaving full bruises onto her thighs from his hands and rings

She’s cum over and over again and each time he acts like it hasn’t happens and just continues to lick around where ever he pleases

And the first time he gets her to sit on his face

Pure heaven for him… 😢

He gets to be suffocated with her thighs and it’s a guarantee that she’s going to be directly on his mouth for as long as he wants

And his tongue would be so sore

And his jaw would ache so bad

Getting a full migraine

But he wouldn’t stop

It would only egg him on

He would only stop until she absolutely had to or he absolutely had to because his tongue just simply gave out no matter how much he wanted a taste.

Oh god…

He would love to make out after eating y/n out…

Like making her cum, licking her up, and as soon as he’s done just rising up and then yanking her the rest of the way so he can give her a wet, sloppy kiss, spit and wetness already dripping down his chin

And he would be pulling out his cock, and softly jerk himself off while he kissed her with the leftover taste on his tongue

Oh my god

Or rubbing himself over his jeans while eating her out

I feel like he’s slow and taken his time

But he’s also so sloppy with it

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503 notes - Posted July 19, 2022

#3

Role play and expensive dates

summary: pornstar!Harry meets the new (and young) porn star

warnings: smut, oral sex, unprotected sex, language, not exactly proof read

Word count: 2,859

 “Hi! I’m Y/n! I’m new so, you have probably never heard of me.” Y/n smiles up at the taller man while she is wrapped up in a silk white robe, preparing to shoot a dirty film with him- this was her biggest video yet, she’s only done small ones here and there so she was hoping this would be a big break. Harry smiles big, this girl was so pretty, he could wait to get inside of her and feel how wet he could get her- she also seemed very innocent, he liked that. “I’m Harry, just so we get it out of the way I’m a bit older than you. I think you’re twenty one? I’m twenty nine so I hope you aren’t bothered by that!” She shakes her head and gives him a shy smile. “It’s not a problem for me unless it’s a problem for you.” 

“Not a problem!” She smiles big, the people surrounding her touch up her hair. “Oh good! I’m so happy I get to shoot with you! Your team has been telling me that you’re really talented so I feel so honored to work with you!” Harrys face falls. “M’so sorry about them. Their heads are too big for their own good. I’m so happy I get to work with you. I look forward to seeing your future work.” 

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“Script?” Jeff, Harry's manager, asks him before he pulls off his robe. “I don’t need one. I know what we’re doing- hard working ceo and little housewife.” Harry pulls off his robe, smiling while he sees Y/n pull off her own, listening to the directions and getting into the bed. 

“Action!” Harry walks into the dimly lit set that is supposed to look like a wealthy CEOs bedroom. “Wake up, baby.” Harry murmurs, pushing the sheets down Y/n’s arm and kissing over the soft skin. She stirs, looking up. “Why are you waking me honey?” She asks, turning around to show off her perky tits. They zoom into Harry’s cock, standing tall and proud. Harry gestures down to his cock. She shakes her head, sitting up. “I’m so tired, honey.” 

Harry grabs her arm before she can turn into the bed, “please sweetheart? The kids are down and I’ve had such a hard day at the office.” He frowns, moving his hand to grope at his “wife’s” tit. She looks down at his hand, laughing before sitting up. “Do you want me to suck your dick?” Harry laughs, shaking his head and starting to peel the sheets from her. “I was thinking, maybe I could eat your pussy? Then I could finally fuck you? God, how long has it been-“ 

“But you know I’m so tired, sweeth-“ 

“And I try to m-“ she cuts him off with a laugh, pulling his head in and kissing him. “Fine. But if I fall asleep…” 

“Promise you won’t.” He pulls the sheet down smiling when she opens her legs. “I worked so hard today, I think I deserve my wife’s pussy every now and then.” Y/n laughs at his words, laying back while her pretend husband shuffles between her legs. “Your kids tucker me out.” Harry smiles, pulling her thighs closer and licking into her. They even told her to grow her pubic hair out just a bit to fit the style of a busy housewife, and Harry thought that was a pretty smart choice.

“Oh, baby.” She murmurs, trying to remember the lines. Harry smirks, looking up at her through his eyelashes and giving her pussy kitten licks. He likes the way she tasted and he wanted to savor that taste in his mouth for as long as he possibly could. “We’re the kids good today?” He hooks his arms around her thighs, tounging at her clit, his nose pressing onto her mound. “They always are.” 

Harry chuckles, “they are angels.” Before diving back in and licking a stripe up and down her clit. She seemed to forget a couple lines so Harry kept licking her, flicking his tongue on her clit and pushing it deep into her until he felt her silk skin. “Cut!” Harry ignores it, continuing to lick into her, his head moving up and down while he breathes heavily. She whimpers, a hand moving to his hair, she was ignoring them too. “Cut!” They yell again, and they both tune out the director. 

He sucks her clit, starting to get sloppy and make out with her pussy, dipping his tongue in her hole and moving it in and out of ehr. “Fuck, baby, that feels so good.” She closes her eyes, her mouth slightly popped open while she pushes his floppy hair out of his eyes. “Cut!” 

“Cum for me, sweetheart. I want you to cum on my tongue, baby, do you think you can cum all over my face?” She whimpers, her chest moving up and down while she moves her leg, her hips starting to gently buck up. “Fuck,” she whimpers, her foot resting on his back, he liked the feeling of her tiny warm feet on him, he thought every part of her was adorable. “Come on, baby.” Her back arches and she gets pouty lips, letting out a breathy moan before she cums of his tongue, he smiles, licking her up. “So good baby, you taste so good.” 

“Cut!” The director screams, catching the attention of both of the stars. “What?!” 

“We said cut ten minutes ago?! We might not have got all that!” Harry grumbles, “then look back at the fucking tape, idiot.” Harry smiles down at Y/n. “You okay?“ she nods with a soft smile, “I’m okay.” 

“We got it. Now, keep going to keep the script in mind.” Harry nods, snapping back into action. He kisses ehr on the mouth, humming before breaking apart. “I’ll fuck you then you can go to sleep, okay?” She nods with a little smile, letting her fake husband inch up. “Protection, or do you want me to knock you up again?” She laughs, shaking her head and rolling her eyes. “I don’t think we need a fourth baby.” Harry sulks, “that’s too bad.” 

He grabs the condom out of the bedside table, pushing it onto himself. “Hold onto me, darling.” She wraps her arms around him, her legs wrapping around his hips before he pushes in. He kisses her, trying to set the romantic and familiar tone that the  film is supposed to have, it was a husband and wife for crying out loud. “Feels so good, baby, so good.” He kisses her tongue first, his hands moving and rubbing up and down the backs of her thighs once he’s got her in a sort of sitting position, both of them finding a rhythm and grinding on each other. “Right there, Honey. Right there.” Her arm hooks under his and grabs onto his shoulder, he nods, pulling his mouth away from hers for a second to glance down and then kiss her again. He found the perfect spot. 

“Oh- baby.” She whisper-moans, a hand moving to the back of his head while her hips start to buck again. “That’s it, sweetheart, cum all over your husband.” It takes her one more thrust before she’s cumming on his cock and soaking his thighs. He follows soon after her, kissing her and pulling off the condom before laying back with a smile. “Cut! Good job!” Neither of them get up when they are supposed to- usually “cut!” Is the queue for them to get out of bed and run off to their dressing room but this time is different, a lot different… 

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“I’m not working with anyone else, okay? I’m only shooting with her from now on. And- and don’t start with all that ‘this is going to ruin your career! You’re making an awful decision!’ Because if you cared about y’best client at all then you would shut y’damn mouth, be happy that I found some one im comfortable shooting with, and then go talk to her people so we can get this sorted out with.” Jeff’s lips pin in a straight line and he walks out of the door to go talk to her manager. 

“Oh, he said he only wants to work with me?” Y/n smiles while overhearing the conversations between the two, budding in the conversation while she is wrapped up in a towel from her previous shower. Jeff looks down at the girl, “well- yeah, he told me to talk to your people and he told me to give you his number so you could stay in contact and talk about upcoming shoots.” Y/n nods with a smile, taking the tiny sticky note Jeff held out to her. “Perfect! Thank you so much.” 

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Our video is number one on porn hub 

Oh and it’s Harry btw 

Omg!! Number one?! That’s crazy! 

I’m so happy for you! 

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#2

A Cowboy Love Story

Summary: the long awaited back story to cowborry and y/n’s love <3

warnings: drinking, smut, curing, unprotected sex. 

wordcount: 10.2k 

“Hi daddy” Y/n smiles, walking into the dimly lit  barn in her pretty sundress and her cowboy boots she always wears around the farm. She holds a tray of two empty glasses, a large pitcher of homemade lemonade, and fresh baked cookies. “Hi sweetheart.” Her father says, giving her a small hug. “Is that homemade lemonade?” 

“It sure is!” She confirms with a grin on her face, sitting the tray down on a bail of hay. She pours a glass, handing it off to her father. “Freshly squeezed.” She mumbles and starts pouring another glass for the younger friend of her fathers, she hands him the glass with a polite smile. She always thought he was cute, he was a little older than her but only by about three years. He started working for her father a couple years ago when he took over the farm next to their property after the old man moved out.

 “Thank you.” He murmurs with a low tone, taking a sip of the yellow lemonade with a small smile while he watches the girls every move. 

“How is jelly bean?” Y/n asks, walking over to her horse's stall and petting his long nose. She got her horse, Jelly bean, for her sixth birthday when her daddy thought she was finally old enough to learn how to ride a horse. “He’s good. Harry just changed his horse shoes,” Y/n smiles, “They look good. I’ve been meaning to do that for a while now but haven’t been able to. Thank you.” Harry nods, giving her a small smile. Harry was a little shy and hard to crack open. He's been living across from them for a couple years now and often stays for dinner since it's just him in his big farm house, but Y/n has never been able to have longer than a five sentence conversation with him. 

“Thanks again, Harry. Once you boys are hungry enough me and mama will have lunch ready back at the house!” 

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“He’s literally so hot.” Y/n murmurs, watching her fathers friend work. She tried to hide her little crush on Harry when she was around him or her family, she couldn't handle the teasing from her daddy or the embarrassment of Harry not returning the feeling she has toward him. But Y/n's best friend, Jasmine, called her out the second Y/n told her about the new, young, farmer working for her daddy. Jasmine noticed the way Y/n's smile got wide, her hands started to fidget, and she refused to make eye contact when she mentioned the boy. “You should go talk to him.” Y/n’s whips her head toward the girl with her eyes bugging out. “Are you goin’ crazy, Jaz? I can’t talk to him! He's kind of made it obvious he's not interested in making conversation with me!” 

Jasmine shakes her head at her best friend's dramatics, leaning back on her hands to keep her upper body propped up on the picnic blanket they were sitting on in the green grass. “Y/n, stop being silly. He's just being shy, but He's definitely looking at you.” 

“Yeah, you've gone crazy. That boy is not lookin’ at me!” 

The curly haired girl blows an exhausted sigh toward the tendrils resting on her forehead, making them rise before settling just above her eyebrows again. “If you don’t go talk to that boy then I will. I've about had it with both of you! Just kiss him already.” Y/n knows that if she doesn't go talk to him Jasmine will. That's something that pulled Y/n toward Jaz when they first met, she was always so fearless and pushed Y/n to do anything she dreamt of. 

“Okay. fine. Only ‘cause you'll humiliate me if you go up there.” standing up, Y/n makes sure her white dress is clean before she stands up, grabbing a chilled water that was unopened before walking over barefoot, ignoring her cowboy boots she had kicked off. “Need a water?” She asks, handing the sweaty man a cold water bottle. Harry glances up, sitting the axe down after chopping the last block of wood. “Sure” he thanks whe and takes the water. She cannot believe she was being so pathetic, she finds Jasmine's voice creeping back into her head. Just kiss him already!

“Thanks for taking such good care of Jelly bean. He’s been my horse since I was little but now that I’m older I don’t have much time t’take care of him.” Harry nods, like he always does, grabbing his shirt that was on the ground and wiping his sweat that was threatening to drip from his hairline. . “S’no problem. I’ve got a horse just like him.” 

“Really?” She asks, knowing Jelly bean was kind of a rare breed. “Yeah, she’s smaller than him, though. I just got her last week, she’s a newborn.” Y/n is shocked by Harry actually talking to her.

“Oh my god, really? That’s so cute!” Harry nods, “She’s really sweet. Do you want to come over and see her?” She picks a few cherries off of the tree next to her, trying to control herself from screaming out an agreement to coming over. “That sounds fun. Just let me know when?” 

“Friday at eight? I’ll be done with the farm for the day.” Y/n nods, handing him a cherry and popping one in her mouth. “Sounds like a plan.” 

Y/n gives him a warm smile before walking back to Jasmine, flopping on the floral sheet layed out for them. “What did he say, girlfriend! You can't just leave me hangin’ after I almost kicked your ass just to speak to that boy!” Y/n glances down at her friend, “Friday night at eight” 

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Y/n watches Harry as she  rides up to his farm on her horse, smiling at him before hopping down. Today she was dressed in a big oversized flannel, only one button together with a white tank top under with tiny jean shorts that weren’t buttons and instead flipped down like she would with one size of her overalls in true farm girl fashion. “Hi, Harry.” She flashes her teeth in an excited smile, petting Jelly bean and tying him up to the fence then walking over to where Harry was. She had to admit that she's been thinking about coming over ever since he incited her. Would he be different when they were alone? What if he was just being nice and didn't really want to see her? What did his house look like? Would he invite her in? 

 “Hi.” He returns her smile and puts his hammer down to finish building the wooden swing for two he would eventually anchor to a tree limb strong enough so he could set out and enjoy his morning coffee to the sight of the sun rising. 

“I wanna see the baby horse.” Y/n giggles and reminds him of the reason he made these plans while rubbing her hands together excitedly. 

“She’s in the barn, let’s walk back.” 

They walk to his big barn in comfortable silence and during the walk up Y/n takes this time to study his land. He seemed to keep things tidy, the animals she could make out from where she was seemed to be well kept with the lawn perfectly trimmed and beautifully green. Harry pushes the big barn door open and welcomes her in. “Your barn is so cute.” She peers in, anxiously playing with her hair that was kept from her face with a crochet head scarf. “Thanks.” Y/n peeks over the stall Harry pointed to, smiling when she sees the horse. 

“Hi” she softly sings, smiling at the tiny horse who curiously looks back at her, wondering who the new visitor is. “She’s so cute, what’s her name?” 

“Stella.” Harry mumbles, which he seemed to do a lot, and opens the stall. “She’s so cute, oh my goodness.” The horse trots over to Y/n, allowing the new human to pet over her stinky mane. “You’ve got such a pretty farm. She’s a gorgeous horse.” 

“Thank you.” 

The horse nuzzles into Y/n’s hand, closing her eyes. “You’re tired, aren’t you? Let’s get you back in your stall, sweet thing.” Y/n turns to Harry after she leads the tiny horse back into her stall, “I’ve only ever heard about your farm so I want the grand tour.” Harry gives a petite nod before walking out of the barn and pointing to some things. “My ducks, those are my cows, sheep, goats, come over here and I’ll show you the bunnies.” 

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My #1 post of 2022

Mouthfulloftoothpasterrys Eddie Munson masterlist!

@mouthfullofmunson is my Eddie blog! You can now send concepts there :)

Bold= smut italic’s= fluff/ angst

Back story/ developing plot

Piss kink

More piss kink (my personal favorite)

Edging Eddie, him pissing inside of you

Pissing while Eddie is inside of you

More^

More piss kink!

Pissing while 69ing

Golden shower

Wetting the bed

As sick as it can get <3 (more piss)

Drinking piss

Sloppy bj and drinking piss

Cock warming/ pissing/ eating her out

Who will pee first?

“You want me to pee on you?!”

“Who’s cleaning this?”

First piss play

Eddie pissing y/n

Blood/knife kink

Period sex

Branding kink

Cut too deep

Dustin seeing y/n covered in blood

Morning fluff

Bunch of fluff

Grump

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[i-am-literally-deranged]

idk i can totally see how for some people it's easy to cross the line but like. personally i feel as though if it's at least somewhat based in canon it's fair game. like there's a huge difference between "character x has a childhood history of parentification and i have a history with childhood neglect so i want to reflect that onto character x and examine how already written character traits in them could be seen as symptoms of this specific type of trauma," and "character z has a good relationship with their parents which is portrayed in canon multiple times and i have a history with childhood neglect so i want to write about how character z ACTUALLY was abused this whole time because i want representation for my specific type of trauma." but im certain there are much more grey cases than that which would be more tough to decide if you're being crazy there or if it's Real

but simultaneously im very much the type of guy to stick to the "if your headcanon doesn't make sense for this character Find a New Character that it makes sense for there are SO many fucking characters in the world" mindset. probably why AUs are always so hit or miss for me

You make an excellent point. However, it's also so incredibly easy to forget where exactly the thing you're saying came from. At least to me it's a slippery slope thing where I will start with "Yeah this makes so much sense for this guy. Here's something he does that goes hand in hand with this other thing, and Here's something he said once that could be read as him implying this." And accept this thing that's very plausible (but still only my personal Interpretation of the work) as basically canon. And then considerably later I return to the topic, and I remember the thing, but I don't remember where this idea came from in the first place. Is it canon? Is it fanon? Is it something I personally came up with? I don't remember.

Also with fanon and headcanoning, there's this tendency for it to build up on itself. And fanon can kinda cannibalize itself this way. It starts with one really plausible theory that's very closely connected to canon and backed by real evidence. And then if you assume that to be canon, then it suddenly makes this other related thing look really plausible too. And it builds on itself like thay. Until you reach like, fifth degree fanon, where all of the supporting evidence that made you come up with this idea in the first place is fanon based on fanon and whether it remained actually plausible and grounded in canon or not, either way there's this level of abstraction here. And this isn't a bad thing. I actually really appreciate the almost folkloric way that fanon grows and builds on itself. It's something I enjoy a lot about participating in fandom. I like tracing the genealogy of common fanon through specific posts and fanworks that made some interpretations of the characters start to eclipse canon.

But enjoying watching this process personally or not, either way I am scared of letting myself forget where different ideas about certain characters come from, and winding up making a post that is perfectly reasonable to my own little insulated community, but someone who comes straight to my blog after only ever consuming the source material sees what I said goes "What the FUCK is this guy on about???" And I'm also scared of allowing my interpretations of certain characters be clouded by consuming too much fan Interpretation of them and allowing that version of them to eclipse the verison of them rooted 100% in canon within my mind, and accidentslly misinforming someone about something because I'm talking about fanon with a degree of confidence and familiarity without specifying that it is in favt fanon that someone might mistake what I'm saying as a piece of canon that they just missed somehow. And I'm also also scared of being wrong on the internet (Death Penalty

Anyway, in short I'm constantly at war with myself about the need to dilligently cite my claims because I'm torn betwen fandom as a curative experience and fandom as a creative experience. There are two wolves inside of me.

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im feeling FERAL tonight and i feel the need to elabourate. well denethor lives au navigating aragorn's return to minas tirith specifically regarding the. situationship. i wrote a post about this literally a month and a half ago and let it disappear into my drafts because i wasnt brave enough to post it for real but ive grown and changed. or something. maybe for the worse LOL anyway the thesis statement is truly. aragorn: well i don't think more gay sex can fix him now but i might as well give it ANOTHER good college try. denethor: well he IS still hot and i AM mad about it i GUESS we have to make out about it. well the real thesis statement is that well what happens when you see your ex-situationship after FORTY YEARS and A WAR have passed and he’s waltzing back into your life to claim the throne you denied him when you were thirty and he’s not even going to be good at the job. so you can have it, and the consequences too. condolences, congratulations. your majesty. i just they are so different and there is so much spite and resentment and political strife that separates them and there is no reason to make it any more complicated AND YET. they see each other and too much is still the same. and what if they both made the bad decision<333

more chatter under the cut bc u know i love to talk

- idk if i can put it in the au because i have a complex about it. like the au is my big serious project and if everyone isn't in character along the lines of my Main Interpretation of them ive fucked it up. but i also love myself. so in THIS particular timeline denethor rides either onto the pelennor to meet aragorn with the armies of the dead, or to the black gate with the army of gondor. or both if im really feeling spicy. i just the idea of the first time aragorn sees him in forty years being as The Steward Arrayed For War...........delicious.

- and that being immediately followed by aragorn walking into the throne room for the first time and seeing denethor out of All Of That for the second first time and realizing abruptly the toll that all these years have taken. the toll that they haven't, not really, taken on aragorn himself. i want it to trigger a guilt complex SO BAD. like. i had the choice to leave and he didn’t and i knew he wouldn’t have come if id asked (and he asked me to stay (he didn’t but he did) and i didn’t). i want him to pity him and denethor to know it and want to fucking kill him about it. you RAN and left me ALONE to fight this unwinnable fight and now you think you’re at a ground high enough to pity me from? just because you’re waltzing back in here with your legendary sword? go fuck yourself because im certainly not doing it (lying).

- and don’t even get me STARTED on the psychic aspect of it. denethor has always been powerful and known it and wielded it. but when aragorn touches his mind - by instinct, maybe, because that was what they always did, that was always their secret dimension of their relationship and he doesn’t even pause to think - oh, the shock and the horror. oh its so bad. for him. to expect a soft place to land (probably never that soft at all. but there was a certain level of familiarity) and encounter a blade…and for his first thought to be “what have you done to yourself”…..girl its crazy. and the natural response. “what was needed. unlike you.” prime time for a “you’ve aged, lord steward”/“you left, your majesty” moment if im being so honest. which is really just a disguise for “what happened to you”/“you happened, and you left, and i’ve beEN PICKING UP THE PIECES OF THE MESS YOU MAAADE”

- denethor knowing that he is much better suited for the lordship of gondor than aragorn is but! this is the will of the people in the wake of the war! and that is one thing he Will acquiesce to! he’s got the legal right to deny him but the consequences of that might be ruinous. so he looks at aragorn and goes, this is what you wanted the whole time wasn’t it? the throne. even forty years ago you had it in your mind while you played my loyal second for my father’s favour. then here. you can have it, and the consequences too. condolences, congratulations. your majesty. yeah i said this already but it was THEE image that captured my mind when you mentioned that lyric.

- an addendum to the previous point: the way that they argue has NOT changed even though they haven’t seen each other for forty years it is still as singleminded and vitriolic and homoerotic as it ever was and not a single other person in the room exists when they really get into it. denethor ONLY calls aragorn your majesty in an unapologetically spiteful and also horny way. he DOES think it’s hot and DOES hate himself a bit for thinking it.

- except he also thinks about their incredibly high-functioning military and political partnership and how no one else in all of gondor has ever been able to match that for him and thinks that perhaps…this steward-king relationship might not all be lost. perhaps, as he had thought all those years ago, aragorn could be a powerful weapon in his hand, if only he could put him there. (and maybe he looks at him and in a secret part of himself thinks, well, i missed you.)

anna you mentioned condolences congratulations the mountain goats the other day and i just want you to know it awakened the world's craziest idea inside of me and i MIGHT be stealing it (give or take 12 business months. well the novel. that the au is)

the way I Would Love To See This....... abby i am sending u my strongest energies

[sscoutregimentss]

i know we as a collective society believe in gamer! eren supremacy. and yes, this is a good take. however, may i introduce to you: normie/fuckboy/jock eren with gamer/nerd gf. thoughts under the cut (safe for work, pg-13, also slight snk spoilers for season 3 and up!)

see, eren isnt necessarily a fuckboy. in fact, hes very loyal! he doesnt really think that way about any girls or guys except you. but hes popular romantically and had a reputation for sleeping around before he met you (not that theres anything wrong with that but ya know word travels fast across campus). plus, cmon the dude is in a frat, super hot and has a tongue piercing. he cant blame anyone for thinking he is a fuckboy bc he exudes the energy.

you are kind of the complete opposite. you dont really enjoy parties and you keep to yourself. you're a total wreck when it comes to flirting and your kinda oblivious to whenever people like you. you dont have many friends and are a bigger fan of 2d people than 3d.

either way eren finds you so so so cute. he first approached you at one of his frat parties. your roommates convinced you to come after she said that someone (read: connie) had a dance dance revolution mat, but you kinda just stuck around in a corner staring at your cup once you lost them. he looks you up and down-- your outfit was pretty cute, a short plaid orange pleated skirt, dress shirt, orange cardigan and black beret laying neatly upon your head. and your face... he couldn't help himself but try to talk to you. you were really anxious because wahhh scary sports guy you dont know but he was kinda instantly comforting? in a way? and he was freaking pretty. he looked like a final fantasy character--long haired characters were your type. the rest was kind of history.

a lot of people are shocked when they find out your dating bc you two are so different (some people are surprise eren “dates” at all) but no one dares question your relationship when they see how much eren dotes on you. he has so many polaroids of you in his wallet-- from the many arcade dates you bring him on where you decimate him at almost every game, you awkwardly posing in the hentai section of bookstores, or just candids of you being intensely focused on a puzzle in a game. whenever you guys go out to eat and somethings wrong with your meal, he'll send it back (in a polite way, of course, but hes still assertive.) or if you buy like a figurine and its misisng something hes marching up to the cashier stand for you. he always has an arm around your waist or is holding is hand in yours. sometimes you just cling onto his arm and rest your head on it (hes comfy!!!!! and you are always tired) your both pretty clingy, but you get kinda awkward when you two are around people you know so he just kinda subtly holds you as to not make a scene. its nice. hes comfy.

youve got dual monitors, a pc you made yourself, rgb keyboard, the whole nine yards. all your consoles are up to date and you keep a handheld system on you at all times. you spend most your weekends watching anime and movies and tv shows and your shelves are piled high with books and comic books. eren literally does not understand any of it. when you told him you built your pc he goes "you made all those microchippy things? youre soooo smart babe". when you talk about some of your weirder or more complicated animes he nods along but honestly he gets so lost ("so like, lemme get this straight, the kids dad's wife ate his mom?" "yeah but like she was turned into a titan so she didn't realllllly know it was the dads wife, but like she literally walks past this titan shifter so i think she knew." "thats crazy.") and he will never understand the point of otome games when hes literally right there. he actually has a really bad habit of getting jealous of characters you have a crush on but you just find it funny. sometimes he gets an ego boost when they look like him because even if they look like him he is actually real so they can suck it.

hes rlly supportive tho. erens a rlly passionate person and he loves you a lot so he pours a lot of passion into what you do. if you are into esports/fps games hes cheers you on all the time and does all the raging for you ("BABE THAT GUY IS STREAM SNIPING! HES STREAM SNIPING YOU HEY ASSHOLE STOP CHEATING OFF MY GIRLFRIEND" "eren he cant stream snipe me because i dont stream" "oh i thought that just meant cheating"/"WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL HER?" "eren its okay i can just report him" "NO NO LET ME AT HIM IF HE WANTS TO CALL YOU A BITCH I CAN CALL HIM MUCH WORSE" "um guys im gonna mute my mic for a second if you need me text chat") if youre into cozy games he likes to watch you play and gives you ideas on where to put things. like in minecraft he makes you put a second bed for him even though he doesnt play and he helps you name all your pets. you get a little less intense with cozy games so you sit on his lap and he lets his hair down puts his head on your shoulder and points at where you should place stuff. he still rages though? this is eren jaeger we are talking about. ("aw, she wont move to my island." "WHAT? who does that little ugly squirrel think she is? you think youre too good for MY y/n's island? i'll shave your unibrow off. then we'll see what island will want you" "leave hazel alone! shes cute!"/"dude that hamster guy with the glasses looks like armin" "graham? what? armin doesnt even wear glasses" "no no look at it more" "oh shit youre right") rpgs/otome games are kinda a wild card with how he acts. if its an otome game and the character looks like him he is more into helping you out because it reaffirms to him that you find him good looking but otherwise he is just sulking and calling them annoying ("princess y/n... i know im just a servant, but i want to be with you forever!" "pft. get a load of this guy. clingy much?" "its romantic! youre jealous.")

one of his favorite things to do with you is cuddle and watch anime. usually he lies his face on your thighs or chest while watching and you play with his hair or he holds you in his chest and you play with one of his hands while the other goes behind his head. he grew up on some of the classics like naruto sailor moon one piece pokemon and dbz but he never got super into it until he started dating you. you put him on to soooo many good shows (cartoons, anime, and live action) hes both a crier and he is a get-angrier(?). he gets mad on characters behalfs and you have to pause the show so he can rant about how annoying someone is or he feels so bad for someone so he has to take a minute because hes tearing up. he likes slice of life anime because the friendships <3 theyre so wholesome and they remind him of him armin and mikasa but he also likes shounen because it is entertaining to watch fights. he gets really into them actually. he also has this really bad habit of whenever there is a character with no parents or a dead mom he goes "oh same" or "welcome to the club buddy" under his breath. when theres a cute couple in an anime you both like guys get matching keychains of them unless one of them dies because he thinks its bad luck. his favorite animes are haikyuu, your lie in april and code geass.

you are equally supportive of erens volleyball career. you know all the rules because sports anime and you actually find yourself really liking it in 3d as well (it is lacking in bromance and screaming but you let it slide). you go to all his games and he always texts you before his practices. has a habit of kissing you before games and one day after he kisses you go "gg ez win" as a JOKE but then they like decimate their long time rival marley university and get into nationals (is that a thing for volleyball idk sports) so hes convinced its because you did your "gamer magic". now every time after getting his good luck kiss he interlocks your pinkies and you go "gg ez win" and he goes “yes.” because to this day he doesnt know what it means (he thinks googling it is like breaking the magic)

okay im gonna stop while im ahead BECAUSE I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS ALL DAY I MIGHT JUST GO AHEAD AND WRITE SOME ONESHOTS....

[cosmicallyavg]

OKAY OKAY some thoughts about ncuti gatwa's casting as the fourteenth doctor:

first of all... im super sad to see thirteen go 😭

but overall im hyped for the new era!!!!

however (NOT NEGATIVITY TOWARDS NCUTI JUST MY OWN ISSUES OKAY BEAR WITH ME IT GETS HAPPIER IN A SEC) im not going to lie there is a little teeny tiny piece of me that is sad/disappointed/etc about ncuti being cast as fourteen? because as an afab person it was really nice to see myself as the doctor, and would have loved to continue that trend ? plus with the way thirteen is written, i can really see myself in her and project a lot of stuff onto her about my own gender and stuff that i maybe wouldn't with other doctors??

and i have said many times that i didnt want another man so soon because the nmd crowd would feel like their opinions were actually heard and taken into account with the casting

(plus i just Love women and Not men and have a big crush on jodie whittaker so i would have loved to have a crush on the next doctor as well... like having a female doctor has honestly been a wild ride for the wlw fans. which tbh maybe this will awaken something in me and i Will develop some sort of crush but who knows)

BUT

i fully understand that everyone deserves to feel represented, meaning it isn't always going to be my turn, and that there are still so many opportunities for representation outside of the main character. and heck, maybe i will see a piece of myself in this new doctor, who knows!!! the writers always do such a good job making everyone feel seen even in the smallest side characters so im looking forward to seeing what this new era has in store

PLUS!!!!!!!!!!! having a person of color play the role is super monumental!! i did make a post a while back about how i think the next doctor should be a black woman - after so many influential black women have been in this era, and past ones (grace, rosa parks, ruth, mary seacole, martha, the original timeless child was a black girl, etc) that it would be a cool little callback to all of them if the next doctor was a black woman, since allegedly time lords can influence what they look lile when they regenerate. so i honestly think casting a black person makes sense if you wanted an in-universe reason for it, even if it isn't a woman. maybe we could still have a ruth reference the first time fourteen sees himself or something kinda like in deep breath when twelve saw caecilius in the mirror, or in once, upon time when thirteen looked at her reflection and saw ruth.. idk i think it would be cool

im rambling BUT

im still very excited to see what ncuti has to bring to the show!!! i keep seeing videos of his acting in sex education and i really think his doctor has the potential to be the fun doctor that thirteen strived to be (but failed. rip) so i hope they give him a cool outfit that's really colorful and give him some fun companions to make all of that work out

i also have heard some speculation/theories that they might do something Gender with him... which would be super cool too!!! if fourteen presents masculine but chooses to identify as something else?? maybe dress a lot more androgynous or maybe even choose to dress more feminine?? again, who knows!!! im officially rooting for a canoncially they/them doctor tbh. or if this doctor chooses to continue using she/her wouldn't that just be so gender of them

regardless of pronouns tho im excited either way AAAAAAAAAAAA it's always so fun when they announce a new doctor or anything big like this because the fandom just goes crazy

im so happy to be a part of this community and to share these experiences with all of you wonderful people

and a big huge welcome to ncuti into our community as well 💙💙