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candyheartedchy · 7 months

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So uh… I might end up with a live action f/o…

#okay so I was watching clips of this one show #mostly because I was curious #and then afterwards I went to listen to some music and caught myself daydreaming about the one character #and I panicked #I don’t know if this character will become a thing but uhhhhh… im having conflicted feelings #just… well… i being vague because it’s embarrassing #like pretty much all of my f/os are animated and I never had a live action f/o before #and the character is silly and over the top but……..#*groans*#and I don’t think it’s like a celebrity crush type of thing #like I usually separate a animated character from the VA but to see the actor is… hmmm #and I’m just sitting here kinda wanting to watch this show even though it’s very cheesy #just to learn more about this character #like I already made sketches of the character and I’m MAD #god I hope this makes sense because I’m struggling trying to explain this #💬 chy chatter 💬

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mtsodie · 2 years

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hrgh

#🎨#dhmis #special one #dont hug me im scared #i think she should heal <3 #i feel. very embarrassed posting this one. o well !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2129888 · 3 months

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i don't remember how i stumbled across this interview but i've never seen anyone mention it so i'm dropping it here <3 it's a little dated but still like super valuable and a decently in depth look at higuchi-sensei's previous works and how she works and thinks as a mangaka... personally i think it's the most i've ever learned from an interview of hers. super interesting stuff :0)

#oofuri #higuchi asa #yuku tokoro #yasashii watashi #kazoku no sorekara #tw: suicide mention #and maybe i did jump out of my chair at the yuku tokoro mention. but i'll never tell #i love how she says basically u can't truly know a character without getting to know their family as well. a story progresses best this way #that's why she draws everyone's parents and siblings so thoughtfully in her work #wow and also.#that line abt how - after yasashii watashi - she received a letter from a fan saying it'd helped dissuade them from taking their own life?#and i think she says: 'and I remember thinking that maybe I drew this work because I wanted this answer' (?????)#very much used a translation app but #i respect her so much #pls skim if you'd like #ok one more. the line at the very end ->#'when they [abe & mihashi] met they both had their complexes. but after spending 3yrs together theyll arrive at....?'#ok well. boyfriendhood. next question.#she's so embarrassed at how long oofuri is taking her wkjakdjkjsd queen lift ur head...#i think she says something like 'homosexuality alcoholism and physical disabilities are all subjects I wanted to depict but it might be -#misleading to say im attracted to them' abt yuku tokoro. which i think is epic bc i take it to mean like. she wants to #represent these themes w/o fetishizing them #but she drew yuku tokoro first AND THEN had to go looking 'around the world' for somewhere to publish it bc it wasn't 'commercial'#so she just wanted to write it...........her mind....................... ok my god i could talk abt this forever

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dorkicon · 1 year

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iron leaguer human au, or as i like to call it....regular sports anime...?

#look ik i said regular sports anime but in my head theyre using mechs and its cool. like if gundam was g #anyway #s/o to the pal who stood over my proverbial shoulder and told me to give ryu more hair. you know who you are soldier #oh i get so embarrassed posting human designs.#and yet i keep drawin em #iron leaguer #my art #magnum ace #ryuuken #gz #mach windy #magwin #ryuz #truth b told these have been in the drafts for a bit and i keep noticing anatomy weirdness and its like well. im sure gonna act like i dont #does anyone even read this far? hello!#and yeah i do have bull and tj and juu. i think they need redoing though. sigh

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skrunksthatwunk · 2 months

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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight

#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here #it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening #and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time #we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please #idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest #but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work #sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon #ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for #my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell #happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and #when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends #and i don't wannaaaaa #i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but #it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being #the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it #we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line #i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know #and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot #but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class #even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig #i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me #and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh #i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like #The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed #but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me #and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it #and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh

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deus-ex-mona · 3 months

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wakefulness comes with a ✨price✨

#still can’t believe my bro actually rented a car just to drag me out of bed… granted it was on my dime but. smh #he’s a decent driver though. napping in the backseat was quite comfortable #still can’t believe my family tbh lmao. i told them many times that all i wanted to do today was to sleep #b u t they had somehow latched on to a passing remark i made like over a month or so ago about wanting to eat burgers from a certain place…#‘it only comes once a year; you can sleep after you leave your job on friday—’ they said… so welp.#man. at least i got good food and a few new plushies out of it. so it wasn’t all that bad… i think #either way i’m truly grateful to my mother and bro for everything. don’t tell them though; it’s embarrassing #u m. anyway. i guess i’ll finally have time to resume idol sengen after i’ve caught up on sleep?#i’m gonna try to zoom through the next 2 vols before mona’s album comes out s o. well. um. i’ll do my very best!!!!!#remind me to make the masterpost thing free for rbing once im done with it bc. y e a h.#anyways!! gn!! i gotta go fill up some forms or something before i forget lol. have a great week ahead!!!#l o r d i just realised i forgot to off rbs again aaaaaaa my memory is getting worse with age frrrrrr

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kimmkitsuragi · 4 months

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it's still sooo funny to me how the party is fighting for their lives in the astral prism and shadowheart is just having her magical girl transformation somewhere out there. lynn jaheira wyll and gale having a few breakdowns while shadowheart is dying her hair for emo reasons. astarion probably helping her

#playing bg3 #lynn is half illithid now guys yeahhh 👍#i wanted to try this path but my tool bar is literally dead. so many actions and spells and stuff #and illithid powers etc #but it will be fun. lynn is literally doing Such a bad job at trying to be a hero my poor babygirl...#so many things wrong with them... yet they keep trying to be good #this is why the wyllmance works #although the 'well met' greeting is absolutely killing me. can you guys hurry up w the patch for this particular reason pls #also due to meta reasons i gave up on the necromancer multiclass yesterday. it became unmanageable for my ass #my tool bar is already dead pleaseeee #i will always have the thay book that's what matters... im sorry wwx #also really not at all struggling w tactician lately so. not going crazy w the multiclassing for now #didnt even do the gloom stalker rogue thing this time (although it's been some time i have him in my party 😔😔😔)#(which is absolutely unbelievable but ive playing so scarcely and slowly lmfao #i had a moment in mind where i would switch my party but i still couldnt make it to that point ;;;;;#bc im progressing saurrrrr slowly :< i miss him dearly i watch his videos every day #which is embarrassing but it's the truth. can't live w/o that bitch at this point in my life)#also realizing if i wanna squeeze 1 more playthrough this summer i gotta hurry the fuck up #and stop playing this scarcely/slowly lol #but also realizing it's so Hard for me to play fast like i physically have to loot everything and read everything and do everything. ugh #anyway. we will see

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rox-of-iu · 1 year

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got ghosted by sticker printing company 😔😔😔very sad

#o(-(#s s tick i es (tearful)#just to clarify its not like they took my money and dipped nah i havent made the order yet #i just sent them a question if theyd be able to print it and they said ye just to make the cut lines in vector #so i replied with my attempt asking if they can use it like this or if it needs to be diff (i just transformed the lines from raster)#so prolly not usable so i said if they cant use it that id pay the fee for them to do it #and then i havent heard from them back jhsdkfsd #and like its been more than a week and the first reply from them was sent the day after so..#so idk if they just missed my mail or if they just said fuck you in particular actually we dont want to deal with you hahhajh #like the wait would make sense if they were making the cut lines....but they wouldnt just jump into it without informing me first right #that makes no sense #oh well #ue ue ue #and no im already too embarrassed i cant send them another mail asking whats up #and i cant also act like nothing happened and fix the lines from scratch and just order it from their site without asking more info #cuz.... i still dont know how they want the files to look ITS NOT EXPLAINED ANYWHERE #like do u want svg file with layers or do u want two separate pdfs I DON KNOOooooo #sigh #i could call them and pretend to be rando just interested in possible future order asking how its done hahaa nothing to do with me #head in hands 😔🤡 this is so embarrassing #and any other local stickie printing places dont spark joy this one was perfect in placement and everything #usually i wouldnt have the courage to pursue this any longer but i REALLY want those stickers hashadk #on one hand...anxiety.. on the other stickies 💞💓😊#we'll see which one will win xD #cheerio now #i just reread this and i would like to reiterate i am a wholeass adult ok im just disaster ok i swear im not a child please hajahj #my social anxiety is just unparalleled ✨#ok bye now lol

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hermanunworthy · 1 year

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there are multiple artists in the dndads fandom that im inspired by and it makes me wonder if ive had any influence on other artists designs/art styles. itd be cool to have that kinda impact on the fandom :]

#little shoutout in the tags w/o tagging bc thats embarrassing:#nesperus is my FAVE artist in the fandom. i am amazed every day by how much beautiful art he creates like each day is like a new surprise #gorgeous gorgeous art style #and koszmarnybudyn is my FAVE hermie artist like i think they capture his energy perfectly #whenever i see their hermie art im like giggling and jumping for joy #and most of my designs were originally inspired by unluckyprime! his art was part of my first introduction to dndads #i saw his art and immediately accepted that that was exactly what the characters look like. his hermie is so canon to me #there are so many others that i could list but i wanted to highlight those three #i just love dndads and art sm and i hope to become a well known dndads artist too :3 #dndads #siren says

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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years

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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

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freebooter4ever · 1 year

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The tech guys are hanging out in my office again and chatting about $10,000 week long vacations like this is normal.

#Journal shit #Ah yes the life i gave up to be a grunt 3D generalist working on the lowest of the low entertainment \o/#A lot of my friends here get mad at my dad for not being supportive #And i myself get frustrated at him for being insulting about my general life failure #But like....he has a point #I dont think he needed to treat me like yesterdays trash over it but #He was right i probably should have taken a programming job #But poor dad he got saddled with a child who is stubborn and tragically not financially motivated like at all #I mean he is the exact same damn way i feel like my dad forgets that it was just me and him for four years there #I saw how he lived without certain influences and he did not give a crap about status or money or fancy things #It wasnt until the rich bitch came along and started making him like...update his furniture every few years because *style*#and making him buy new designer coats every year so he doesn't embarrass himself in front of the other volleyball parents #Im just saying prior to the introduction of Steves Wife to our family these things just didnt exist to us #It does greatly entertain me that Steves Wife is not allowed to come to the ohio farm because everybody agreed that she just...#Could Not Handle The Poor #Anyway thats my dads idea of a vacation going to visit grandma on the farm this summer #And two guesses he and grandma will just sit around reading and doing puzzles and watching tennis #Pretty much exactly what i did when i went on vacation to visit her #I want to ask my dad if you think i am a failure what do you think of yourself i am exactly fucking like you for better or worse #Well i mean except i also did a lot of drawing of hockey players and grandma would lean over my shoulder #Saying things like *he looks like a nice young man*#yes grandma and he also racks up the penalty minutes like you wouldnt believe

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vitiateoriginator · 9 months

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One of these days I'm gonna be brave and draw all my blorbos. Maybe even on the same page

#I have not drawn most of my blorbos before #partly because most of them are humans and I suck at drawing humans. so Im scared of messing them up #its also partly because I'm too flustered to draw them. a couple of them are my f/o's #and it just feels...weird to draw them yknow? it makes me feel so blushy and embarrassed #but I will try someday #there's other blorbos that I've been wanting to draw but haven't out of laziness (ex: spongebob)#so I might as well try and fo them all together #sam's rants about life

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mieczyhale · 1 year

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becoming a fan of something or someone means getting weird secondhand embarrassment that didn't occur before. and anxiety! !SO MUCH!! both SO EASILY. just because i... now care about the thing or the people involved?? really??

because i really love a thing i can't freely enjoy it without some weird vague negativity related to some unknown vague people?? sure. okay. checks out.