#ILL JUST GO WITH “SUGGESTED” IF I CANT FINE THE WORD
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tw33k-tucker · 6 months ago
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PLS WHAT IS THE WORD THATS LIKE "SUGGESTED" BUT ALSO "INFLUENCED" BUT LIKE ALSO "INJESTED"???? IDFK BUT THE WORD WHERE LIKE IT MEANS ITS "INFLUENCED" THAT SOMETHING IS CANON BUT NOT ACTUALLY FLAT OUT SAID THAT IT IS CANON????? PLS IM FUCKING BEGGING YOU, WHAT IS THE WORD
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pbnbucks · 5 months ago
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paige x nika x reader
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word count : 638
warnings : a bit suggestive, sexual intentions.
summary : “ you met ur wbb player gf and to help motivate her, before a game you would give her a sexy polaroid pic of you and you bet your ass she plays better bc of it, considers it her lucky charm at this point” “they would trade cards or would challenge each other during training for their top picks of the sexy polaroids. treating them like the best playing cards ever. if you all live together, the polaroids are considered barter to get out of chores 😝🤭”
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“okay but if i beat you in rock paper scissors i got both of theese and all your polaroids” paige hesitated but of course she was cocky and wouldnt let nika think she won so she agreed. “okay but if i win i get all your polaroids and the ones for the rest of your month” nika of course agrees and grabs the ball. theese werenf normal polaroids they where arguing over, they where polaroids of you naked all fucked out on your guys shared bed. your most intimate moments together captured for them. they worshipped those pictures it was a ritual. before each game they would grab their collection and mesmerize them.
Nika goes up to paige and gives her a quick kiss “sorry babe but id like my polaroids now” Paiges face is all red and shes pissed. she had just lost her 1v1 against nika over things she valued most “thats not even fair im not giving you them” and of course nika dosent listen and snatches paiges collection from her. you unlock the door to your guys shared apartment and you find paige on top of nika with nika in a headlock by the blonde and they still havent noticed you with them being caught in the moment of their bickering. “what the fuck are yall doing” their heads snap to look at you in shock. paige was the first to speak “she stole my polaroids” nika scoffs at the stupid blonde “dont lie to her” instead you loose your patience and put an end to their stupid fued “y’all better sit y’all’s lil asses on the couch right now” they quickly find the butts to a seat as you dramatically put your purse and water bottle on the counter and take your shoes off making your way to the living room and sitting down on the recliner across from them. “now somebody explain whats going on and why yall are acting like barbarians” paige sits their like a baby pouting as nika speaks up “basically…”
time skip
the innocent blonde knocks on the bathroom door and you tell her to come in, she goes up behind you and kisses your neck as she wines “she took all the polaroids baby tell her to give them back” your over all of their bickering that went on from the time you got home that you had to witness “awww is mommy’s princess sad now?” you say to her in a baby voice that pisses her off. she immediately turns around trying to walk out before you stop her “okay okay im sorry but what do you want me to do about it, you lost them yourself baby” she goes to sit on the counter as she makes her demands “i want you to get my polaroids back from nika because you love me and if you don’t ill never get out of bed again.” you make sure to noticeably glare hard at her “im not doing that” she crosses her arms and looks the other way “then you don’t love me” she sighs and waits for me to give in “why cant i just take new ones princess and you get to choose what you want, how does that sound princess?” she thinks about it for a good minute “okay fine i guess but nika isn’t sleeping with us tonight” you stop dead in your tracks grabbing her arm “don’t push it paige” she pouts but apologizes “go to our room ill go get the camera sexy” you throw you shoe at her for the annoying nickname she gave you when nika calls you it but she was unfazed by it so you open the door to your room and strip your day clothes off and lay on the bed waiting for your sweet girl.
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skilledmeowjesty · 4 months ago
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Pairing: Rafayel x afab MC
Genre: smut
Rating: 18+
Word count: 2.6k
Tags: Dom!MC, Sub!Raf, Bottom!Raf, fingering, teasing, PEGGING
Content: Rafayel asks the MC to peg him with a strap he already owns
A/N: Shameless content of one of my biggest Kinks (pegging) featuring the Sub!iest man from L&DS (Rafayel) 🥰
I will be writing more pegging/sub content of these bachelors in the future (this is a threat)
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‘come over when youre off work, i got something i wanna talk to you about’
‘its been over 10 min since your shift ended and youre not here yet 😒’
‘20 min now traffic cant be that baddd’
‘25 min and still no reply 🥺’
‘you cant even answer?? 💔’
‘are you ignoring me??? 😢’
‘Fine, ig ill just drown myself since you hate me sm 😭’
Rolling your eyes, you read over the text messages Rafayel had been spamming you with for the past half hour, unable to unlock your phone to reply to any during your meeting at work, leaving it to buzz every few seconds during the important debriefing at the Hunter's Association and earning a raised brown from your captain as you gave her an apologetic smile in response
‘I just got out of a meeting, I'll be there in 10’ you text back, knowing how dramatic Rafayel could get whenever he doesn't receive your constant attention
“Who you textinggggg?” Tara asks playfully as she peeks over your shoulder to see your screen, catching a quick look at the dozens of messages and emojis before you lock your phone and shove it back in your pocket, “is it your boyfriend?”
“I.. yeah” you answer with a slight blush, still getting used to the title, even though it has been well over a month since you and the Lemurian became official, “he wants me to swing by his place now that I'm off work”
“Is he the one that was blowing up your phone during the meeting? I thought Captain Jenna was gonna blow a gasket” Tara giggled
“He can get pretty impatient” you say in reply, swinging your leg over your motorcycle and readying to drive to Rafayel's loft to see what he wants, “so I better head out”
“Okay, have fun!” She waves with a suggestive wink, and with that, you drive off
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When you finally arrive to Rafayel's place, he doesn't greet you at the gate, so, you invite yourself in, having gotten his security code back when he first decided you were going to be his new bodyguard
Knowing the layout like the back of your hand, you easily find him in his bedroom, where the artist sits on his massive bed with his back turned to you, his arms crossed, and though you can't see his face, you just know his signature pout is on his lips
“So, you finally decide to show” he grumbles, and you can't help but roll your eyes again
“I told you, I was in a meeting” you sigh, stepping fully into the room, careful as you avoid stepping on any of the many loose half finished sketches scattered across the floor, pencils and other art supplies discarded this way and that, making moving as difficult as walking through a minefield
“You still should've at least replied”
“What did you want to talk about?” You ask, an attempt to change the subject before the artist spirals into more sulking
It seems to work, and he finally turns to face you, the colors in his surreal eyes swirling with emotions you find you can't exactly place
Excitement? Definitely, but, something more, vulnerability? Almost uncertainty, and you find yourself tilting your head as you wait for him to speak
“So,” he starts, before pausing, gnawing at his lower lip between his teeth, as if he's trying to find the words
“So..?” You reply, hoping to encourage him to continue, seeing how it seemed incredibly important with the amount of messages he has been spamming you with
“Well, you already know I'm Lemurian” he says, and you just nod with a quirked brow, not understanding where he was going with it
Another pause, a breath, “and since we're not human, we have a different…form.. in a few things..” he trails off again
“I know…?” again, you look at him with a baffled expression, still not following his train of thought
Rafayel stops again, and you fight the urge to grab him by the shoulders and shake the words out of him, growing as impatient as he was with you when he was spamming your inbox, not used to the man so hesitate in speaking whatever thing came to mind the second he thought of it
Rather than continue speaking, he reaches into his nightstand’s drawer, rumbling through it, a soft blush touching his face
“Raf, whatever you want to say, can you please just get on with-” your words cut off when he pulls out a rather LARGE and inhuman shaped silicone phallic toy, a harness quickly followed
You blink, staring for a few seconds at it while his eyes stay glued to your face, to your reaction
“What is that?” you finally ask
“A strap” he starts, the blush on his cheeks flushing more, overtaking his face, his ears turning a deep red, “it's modeled after Lemurians”
You stare at him in shock for a few seconds, before turning your attention back to the toy, the length, the size, the way it was shaped, curved up, a knot like bulge near the base, the head wide and vaguely resembling the end of a squid head, the edges riddled with groves like a tentacle, the massive toy looking otherworldly and definitely not what you'd have expected
“This.. is how Lemurians’,” you gesture down to his crotch, “look in merform?” You finish in disbelief, finally stepping towards him
He holds the toy out for you, though his eyes suddenly dart off to the side, refusing to meet your gaze as you take it to study
The size was much larger than anything you expected, the girth making it impossible to wrap your fingers around, taking two hands to fully hold it steady, turning it to and from, you look at it from all angles, still unable to fully grasp what Rafayel had said, that this was what his own length looked like in his Lemurian form, not seeing how it was POSSIBLE for something so large of that shape to enter ANYONE, Lemurian or otherwise
He hasn't said a thing, quiet as you inspect the dildo, but his blush has now traveled down his neck, the exposed parts of his chest visible from his unbuttoned shirt turning the same deep crimson his cheeks and ears held, as he once again shifted his eyes to stare at you, gauging your reaction
“You.. want me to use this on you?” You ask when the implications of what a ‘strap’ were came to mind, looking over at the simple black harness he had set next to him on the bed
Rafayel eagerly nods, staring at you like a puppy begging for a treat, his brows furrowing as he waits for your reply
“Would this even fi-”
“It will” he cuts you off mid word, his tone completely sure, as if he has no doubt, as realization dawns on you exactly why he must be so confident
The corner of your lip quirks into a half smirk, mischievous as you set the toy down next to him, your hand instead reaching to grab his chin, tilting his head up as you lean down from your place standing over his sitting form, bringing your lips closer to his own, breathing your next words out, “well, since you asked”
You waste no time kissing him then, half registering the shocked delight in his gaze as your arms move to snake around his shoulders and lean down, toppling you both over onto his expensive sheets
His hands immediately grip your hips as you straddle him, your fingers moving to quickly unbutton his shirt, undoing each one in a heist before yanking his top open and off
Your lips leave his to kiss up and down his neck, peppering the skin with soft pecks and light bites alike, and he moans, arching his back to into your hands when your fingers run over his chest, gently pinching at his hardening nipples before adding a bit more force
He's already panting under you after such a short amount of time; his hips lifting off the bed in a desperate attempt to grind into you, seeking friction, but lets out a whine when you put a stop to his rutting with a solid hand to hold him in place
“Hold still” you warn him, your hands shifting from how you held him to unbutton his pants, before yanking both them and his underwear down in one smooth motion, freeing his length that sprung out, the head smacking against his stomach and staining his skin with the precum already leaking out
You gather up a generous amount on the pads of your fingers, avoiding any real touch as you teasingly ignore his length to instead move past it, down, touching your slick digits against his entrance
He lets out a deep groan, and you feel it rumble from deep within his chest, his pale skin burning bright red, his hardened arousal twitching when you circle around, not putting any real pressure just yet
“Where's the lube?” you ask, purposefully pitching your voice into an innocent, if not slightly teasing tone, smirk on your lips as you look at him
He has thrown his head back, exposing his flushed neck, his Adam's apple bobbing as he swallows hard, his answer coming out in a choked whimper
“N-Nightstand drawer” he stutters, and you feel yourself clenching subconsciously at how utterly wrecked he looks, even though you have barely started
You reach your free hand out, blinding searching the open drawer before your fingers find the shape of the bottle
You pull it out, shifting where you straddled him to instead once again stand over him in between his legs
You push both his legs up against his chest which he shifts to hold up from the back of his knees, exposing his already fluttering hole, the smirk growing at the sight of him putting himself on full display for your eager gaze to sweep over
He still stubbornly refuses to look your way, but, you don't mind, enjoying the way his entire body was flushed deep red from his blush, the slight tremble in his limbs as you popped the cap of the lube bottle open, coating the fingers of your dominant hand
“Tell me if it hurts” you say, before gently press your index finger against him, easily pushing in, feeling very little resistance, immediately able to add your middle finger
He moans as you cant your fingers, brushing them over what you could immediately tell was his prostate, before pulling back, not wanting to overwhelm him as you scissor your fingers slightly to help stretch and loosen him, knowing it was important considering the size of the strap he wanted to use. Soon, you find yourself able to add a third, your ring finger, introducing it with another slight brush over his sweet spot to distract any discomfort he may feel as you stretch him more and more
His moans grow louder when you quicken the pace of your hand, fingers moving in and out of his waiting heat, canting, prodding, every once in a while brushing over where you knew he wants you to before once again ignoring it, half to avoid overstimulation, half teasing, feeling your own arousal damping your underwear, the sight of him completely falling apart under you turning you on more than you thought possible
“You seem pretty experienced in this” you tease, your pinkie joining in on the assault, causing his already arched back to arch more, taunt like a bow and you see his hands holding his legs up for you turning almost white with how hard he held his own limbs
“D-Don’t say it like that” he huffs, but the sound dissolves into a groan when your fingers once again prode against his prostate, cutting off any more words from him intentionally
Once you feel the muscles of his entrance completely loosen under your attentive movements, you move your hand back, and he lets out a whiny protest
You step back, grabbing the harness to easily put it on, deciding not to undress at all, excitement flooding through your veins at the power dynamic of it all, him, flushed and begging and nude on his back with his knees pressed to his chest on full display, and you, standing over him, still completely clothed as you attach the monstrous dick to the harness
As you coat the toy with a generous amount of lube, you see Rafayel releases his hold on one of his legs, hand moving to grasp his neglected length, but you quickly smack his hand away before he makes contact as you step closer once more
“No” you tell him, a mischievous glint in your eyes as, FINALLY, he looks back at you, the surreal color of his eyes overtaken by his blown out pupils, his lips parted as he pants, his chest heaving with each breath, and you can see the desperation in his gaze as he whines, yet again
“Whyyyyy” he pouts, furrowing his brows, but you ignored him in favor of lining the slick strap up to his waiting heat
“I control your pleasure” you breathe, and you see his eyes widen for a split second before you move, with solid hands on his hips, you pull him down onto the toy, pushing in in one smooth motion
He lets out a loud moan, louder than any you have ever heard from him before, which you immediately silence by crashing your mouth to his, swallowing the sound as you start to thrust
His legs wrap around your waist, his hands grasping desperately at the bedsheets, fingernails clawing into the fabric, his back arching further as pressing his chest against your own and you can feel his heart hammering away so quickly, so strongly
You angle each thrust, hitting where you KNOW his prostate is, overwhelming him into a desperate mess under you as he pulls his face away from your lips, turning his head to the side, his cries echoing off the walls, his legs trembling around your waist; you see tears start gathering in the corners of his eyes
He screams your name, over and over, louder and louder to the point you wonder vaguely if anyone else can hear him, even in his home so isolated from everyone else, he was being so loud
One of your hands leaves his hip to cover his mouth, cupping over his lips in an attempt to silence him
“Quiet, my lil conch shell” you breathe teasingly, and his eyes snap open, wide, the nickname proving to be his undoing
Reaching his limit, you feel his hot release spill out in between you two, his cum coating over your shirt and burning into the fabric, soaking it
You give a few extra thrusts, working him through his orgasm until his moans turn into pained groans from the overstimulation on his poor prostate
You finally pull back and out of him, leaving him a panting mess on the bed, his chest still heaving, his hips and legs trembling, his eyes completely glazed over, and you find yourself smirking at how completely fucked out he looks, just because of you
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It wasn't until later, when you're having some drinks with Tara, that you realize something
As she jokingly shows you a site she found while browsing the Internet for some new adult toys to spice up her bedroom, you see the very strap Rafayel said was modeled after Lemurians listed under “Monster Dragon”
You can't help but smirk when you ask Tara to send you a screencap to forward to your Lemurian lover
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quodekash · 7 months ago
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I didnt get enough sleep last night but its not my fault qtoey fuckin kissed
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hes literally the most babygirl in this entire show
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HIM FRANTICALLY CLEANING UP I LOVE HIM SM
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I love this more than I can ever possibly describe
it's so silly
so goofy
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HES SO GOOFY
they should kiss again I think
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babes your voice just got three octaves higher, do better at lying next time
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who the FUCK is this guy and why is he being introduced in episode 7 of 16 (apparently 16??? it's wild that this show is supposed to be 16 episodes long (according to mdl?) cos we're not even halfway through the show and 2 out of 4 of the main couples have officially kissed, and 1 is officially together. which is insane when you think about how msp is 12 episodes long and tinngun didnt properly kiss til thE END OF THE LAST FUCKING EPISODE)
(no im never getting over this, they COULD have counted 67 FUCKING TIMES throughout the show and they fucking DIDNT)
anyway this guy is probably gonna be a main part of the drama that's gonna go down in order to keep this show long enough 😭
why cant we just keep the light and fluffy show as it is and keep spreading joy and dopamine straight to my bones
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two adorable little munchkins standing next to each other
theyre my sons
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THAT LITTLE GIGGLE I CANT
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whAT rEAlLY???
he asked if he could hit on you, then asked if he could KISS you, AND THEN YALL FUCKIN MADE OUT IN A HAUNTED HOUSE
AND THEN WHEN YOU SAW HIM TODAY, HE MADE SILLY KISSY LIPS AT YOU
so I suggest you all give up on this "plan", and change to this real plan: march up to him, ask him out, plant a kiss on his cheek, take your fuckin artist easels and canvases to a fuckin beach at sunset, paint and make out
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oml pun's an astrology girlie
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HOLY FUCK ITS HAPPENING
what the fuck no why does it look like its gonna get angsty, I cant do this :(
dont make me watch toey sob, I dont want that, I want them to make out again :((
im so confused dude why is he so angry
I genuinely dont get it
I mean im watching at 2x speed so I can get through this quickly so I might've missed some dialogue somewhere or smth, but still
why's he angry
idk why he's angry but I do know one thing: satang is too fucking good at portraying anguish
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im too tired to process words so im not entirely sure what he means but I think it sounds poetic so we're gonna go with that
(ahem) THATS SO BEAUTIFUL WTF
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WHAT THE FUCK
brb just gonna rip my fucking SOUL out
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"its like im sitting in a vast grassy field with a gentle breeze under a bright sky" OKAY WTF ARE THE GMM WRITERS READING MY TUMBLR POSTS OR SMTH
THATS LITERALLY HOW I DESCRIBED THE WAY WIN PROBABLY FEELS ABOUT SOUND
its why his heart doesnt beat fast for sound, he just doesnt have that kind of crush, its more of a relaxing crush, like a gentle breeze
ill fucking find the post if I can
I literally wrote an extended metaphor poem combined with a fic about it
what the fuck dude
if they're watching my posts then why havent they given us my satang and perth siblings agenda yet
and where is the markford series
gmm I know you're looking at this, answer my fucking questions guys
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I LOVE THEIR FRIEND GROUP SO FUCKING MUCH DUDE
they all just make me so happy 😭😭😭
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okay but he didnt know you were milk frappe boy when hE FUCKING MADE OUT WITH YOU IN A HAUNTED HOUSE
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theyre holdin hansssss
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is what I think and want to happen about to happen
that wasnt grammar but its fine
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THEYF CYKING END IT THERE??
BUT HES ALL PUCKERED UP
HES READY
ALSO THEYRE IN A SCHOOL HALLWAY AND IT WOULD BE REALLY FUNNY
WTF
I HAVE TO WAIT A FUCKING WEEK TO FEEL JOY????
COME ON MAN
oh fuck yes next week theyre goi g to a volunteer camp
volunteer camp episodes are always comfort episodes so thjis is gonna be GOOD
PUN DID IT BC HE WANTS QTOEY TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER??? BRO HE'STHE WINGMAN OF ALL TIME
well anyway I just wanna see qtoey kiss again :(
ill rewatch that one scene in the meantime
buhbye for now my friends, see yous next week
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mischiefmaker615 · 6 months ago
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Ghost (Loki Love Story) Ch.4
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‘’stay away from me-‘’ you warn as you chuck a second pillow at his head, in which he dodged easily as his eyes gave a brief glance down to eye the table that stayed between you both.
‘’Y/N, really, you’re being ridiculous. I would never force myself upon-‘’
‘’that’s seriously the best result you got? You with your all-powerful magic, spells, knowledge and thinking capacity and all you could present is having sex to try to fix this issue??’’ you snap as you walked around the table slowly as he did the same, keeping it between you to as he tried hiding his annoyment.
‘’did you not even hear the first part of my idea?’’
‘’I’m not going to fall in love with you Loki. You cant force anyone either-‘’
‘’but darling, you already-‘’
‘’no!’’ you shout and push the table forward, it coming in contact with his crotch as he grunted and leaned forward, hands flat on the table as your own gripped the edges to keep It there. ‘’not another word about it either. We’ll just have to do some more thinking-‘’
The table was suddenly pushed forward into you, having you back up until your ass felt the back of the couch behind you and the table kept you pinned. an invisible force was holding it there and to your surprise, you looked up at Loki who was on the other side of the room, walking slowly forward. A point still went to you as he didn’t rise to his full height yet from his recent injury.
‘’woman, if we are to be stuck in these living arrangements until we figure this situation out, you are going to have to start listening better and stop trying to physically assault me unless you wish for me to treat you with the same kindness’’ he hisses, leaning forward against the table to look down at you as you slowly stop trying to push it off.
‘’..fine.’’ you said quietly and through your teeth.
After a second, Loki stepped back, gripping the table edge in one hand and pulled it forward so you weren’t sandwiched between it and the couch anymore. Slowly standing properly, you both stared at each other in silence before Loki noticing your muscles tightening.
‘’..don’t-‘’
You bolted to the other room, Loki hot on your tail as you ran to your bedroom, eyes searching everywhere and found none of your weapons you had spread out through your room as usual. Hearing him close, you jumped onto the mattress out of his arm’s reach and whipped around to raise your next pillow over your head. ‘’where the hell did you put all my weapons??’’
‘’why on earth would be needing them?’’ he asked with a narrow of his eyes and pull the blanket off the mattress, having it pulled from under you so you landed on your back, quickly propping yourself up on your elbows with a glare.
‘’so you do have your magic!’’ you snap.
‘’I never mentioned that I had lost it darling.. I have just a little bit of it for minor things. Perhaps ill regain all of it back once we’re intimate, look! We’re half way there’’ he mocked with a smirk and the pillow came in contact with his face before you brushed past him in a hurry as he chuckled behind you.
Now wasn't that something? 'Til now he'd been flippantly playing around when teasing you, but perhaps he'd grown a bit more... serious than he'd thought. He didn't let the suave smirk fall from his lips. If he really was starting to become serious about this intriguing woman who’s blush seemed to warm his heart every time he saw it, he should try to woo you a little more seriously... and with just a bit more of his natural mischief of course.
He didn’t chase, he merely stayed put until you got far enough away for you to snap back to your original position on the bed, making you bounce on the mattress. With a stubborn look, you sit up and look away from him as he crosses his arms and leans on your dresser.
‘’well, what ideas do you have if it isn’t my.. suggestion?’’ he asked, wording differently as to not to upset you. if he was going to try to get close to you, to help get you comfortable with at least the suggestion, the gentle approach would have to do, easing up on the sarcasm.
You sat there in silence a moment, your eyes avoiding him and your mind going wild. You both were stuck like this, forever bound until you figured out something. Blood on his attire, then he reincarnates... if that’s the proper term for all this. He was different- still as ass hole, but his powers were lessened. Was there a villain who was powerful enough and after you to strap you to this hell? No.. why would they bring back Loki..
‘’is it something in your blood?’’
‘’what?’’ your eyes move to him as you both stared at each other with curiosity for once.
‘’your not Asgardian,’’ he starts, nodding his head to motion to your wings. ‘’what of your people’s heritage? Blood?’’’
You shook your head with a small sigh. ‘’my people were known for their weapons, the love for war and our.. unique appendages’’ you start and your eyes raise up to his again. ‘’there’s nothing on record special about our blood.. or properties’’
Loki gave a small sigh, giving up on that theory and hesitantly came over to slowly sit on the bed, almost silently asking if it was alright but your eyes avoided him, not indicating anything of discomfort.
Your mind was spinning, trying to wonder about if there was any other possibility. There was nothing in your life you needed completion on.. but if you were being honest, you were lonely. A partner was in your wants at the time, and eventually you gave up on the chance from.. lack of interest and your busy Avenger life made it hard to maintain a relationship anyway. So maybe, but- why Loki?? Both your upbringings in Asgard were very brief around each other, though it was a bit difficult to remember everything from such a long-ago time. there was also no way in Helheim you were going to verbally consider his proposal.. but perhaps a friendship would fulfill the loneliness instead of it necessarily being love?
Your eyes slowly moved to his, almost startled to see how they were already staring at you intriguingly and you straightened, trying to gather your regular, independent self and got off the bed. ‘’…we’ll do some more thinking for awhile, and adjust to.. new life until then.’’
Loki gave a calm shrug, as if in no hurry to even fix this issue as he rests back on his elbows and gives a glance around the bedroom. ‘’well it is unclear until things are figured out, lets get back to thinking shall we?’’
Gods this is going to be awhile..
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"Speaking of familiarizing, tell me a bit about yourself, darling. We're to live in close quarters with each other for the foreseeable future and I'd prefer us not to be strangers. Strangers are dull and distant and I don't tend to play well with them. Would it not be better if we were on... friendly terms?"
‘’is there anything else that leaves your mouth besides run on sentences and narcissistic examples?’’ you say just as casually as he watches you work here and there by putting pillows back.
‘’better explanations than unspoken assumptions of my character darling, I wouldn’t wish for you to assume that I am merely just a-‘’
‘’asshole?’’ you interrupt as you smooth out the last pillow onto the couch. Why you had so many? Who knows, but you supposed it was better than throwing knives all the time at people.
‘’pampered. Royal.’’ He finished dryly, straightening from where he leaned on the wall to plop down onto the couch you literally just neatly set up, quite close to you in fact as you stood there looking offended.
As he even man spread, his leg was practically touching yours as you moved yourself away to the chair across from him. if you squint, he was rather attractive but his personality killed it real quick as you crossed your arms.
‘’you don’t particularly like me, do you?’’
‘’we’ve been through this-‘’
‘’I mean,’’ he interrupted, his eyes a bit gentle as he sighed ‘’before my suggestion. You hated me as soon as you woke up, I’m curious to know if it was even back on Asgard..’’
You hesitated, a bit taken back at his honesty as you looked at him, arms uncrossing to rest on the arms of the chair. Why did it feel like suddenly you were the bad guy? ‘’..I don’t hate you Loki.. and if I’m being honest, I admired you on Asgard.’’
A brow raised from him in surprised, staying completely silent as he stared at you. were you both actually having a civil conversation right now?
‘’you took your duties seriously on Asgard, from your studies to your training. You looked forward to being king to better lives and the realms, Thor thought fighting was always the answer rather than civil negotiation.’’ You explained, the more you spoke the more your eyes wandered elsewhere as the memories of Asgard came back to you.
True you wouldn’t consider yourself of any importance rather than being in charge of weaponry and helping to train soldiers, but being around the palace gave you plenty of opportunity to watch the royals. Truth be told, it was obvious who you preferred as king, and Loki seemed to look at you as if you were a ghost.
As displeased as he was with hearing about Thor, for one to take his side for once rather than his brother was truly.. uncommon. Who was this woman?
‘’so.. what changed?’’ he asked quietly and your eye contact almost startled him as you looked at him with almost sadness.
‘’you did. Asgard heard about your little visit on Midgard and the New York incident. You chose violence, war, instead of meeting with any leaders to negotiate or join, you used force and manipulation.. dare I say, you used fighting as an answer just like Thor..’’
His eyes seemed to sharpen, being compared to his blond brother but he didn’t say anything and you knew you had to word things carefully now as your voice lowered.
‘’what was I suppose to think? Were you going to use the same tactics on Asgard? Fight us if we didn’t comply after Midgard? The other realms next? ..I never saw you after that but I did hear about how you were remaining in the dungeons..’’
‘’didn’t care to visit?’’ he almost joked, his eye contact elsewhere now.
‘’we never spoke.. ever except for your grace, highness, excuse me… I had no purpose there and the guards would have turned me down anyway without one.. but then I heard about how you helped fight with the dark elves’’
His eyes looked over again as if some hope of redemption from that, but by the look of your face and how it didn’t seemed pleased, he faltered.
‘’you posed as Odin after, and still didn’t withhold to your responsibilities as you would have a long time ago as king.. the realms were faltering.. Thor came, and once war settled with Hela, you both joined together and helped us.. something I thought id never see’’ you almost joked, seeing a soft smile on his lips as he began to remember the memories.
‘’and then you died.’’
The sudden sentence made him look over at you as if this was news to him yet confusion still remained in his eyes as his lips parted to speak but words took a moment as his hands mindlessly ran against the fabric of the couch. ‘’..and you hate me?..’’
‘’I don’t hate you Loki’’ you say, hesitating as well as you look up for better words. ‘’I’m just.. cautious.. maybe a little too much, but if the god I knew before is still in there, we will be fine. But on and off throughout your life, you’ve betrayed and taken turns for the worse after seeming to be on the right path. How can I trust and be okay being around someone like that? Despite your heroic last actions.. is it in your blood to be.. bipolar?’’ for lack of a better term.
Loki was silent for a moment, staring at you with such an unreadable expression that after awhile it was starting to make you nervous. Noticing how you began to squirm, he took a breath and laced his fingers together in front of him as he leaned forward on the couch. ‘’..how can I prove myself?’’
‘’..w-what?’’
‘’I wish not to be seen as an.. asshole, I don’t want you to walk on eggshells around me or fear at any given time. and I hope the pillow throwing or anything else for that matter can stop being hurled at my head. How can I show you, you are safe around me? That you won’t be betrayed, backstabbed or anything negative you think my actions will cause?’’
Now, you could be happy and impressed how he seemed to wish to prove himself and change, but how could you believe that that itself wasn’t a lie? His honesty though, assuming it wasn’t a mask, seemed genuine enough where you almost began to feel bad at how he stared at you. as if a puppy in the rain waiting to be let into the house.. but he was the very god of lies and couldn’t be taken lightly, so you gave him the same body language by lacing your fingers together and leaning forward.
‘’we’ll take things a day at a time. only time will tell.. lots of time.’’
Loki gave a gentle smile with a nod, leaning back on the couch as if he could relax again before he gave you a sheepish grin. ‘’well my dear, if we are to be roommates for a while, could I trouble you for a bath?’’
You blinked at him with the out-of-pocket request and gave a small nod as you awkwardly got up from your chair. ‘’sure a.. right this way..’’
Oh gods.. what will it be like to have the god of mischief as a roommate?
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kisara-kaiba · 7 months ago
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OKAY THE KINKY BLUES HAS ME INTRIGUED PLEAAASE HEAR ME OUT ON SUGGESTIONS/BRAINSTORMING/HOPES/DREAMS. alright so it cant be in Temptation, the kink requires its own pocket dimension, first of all. as the biggest fanboygirl of their cycle of dominance and submission im gonna start off with that. a really fun and naturally flowing dom-sub dynamic for them is born in ancient egypt. if set put her aside as his property and tried to experiment with her ka with slowly increasing pressure whilr kisara was like "this kind man who saved me twice feeds me and shelters me who cares if hes tying me down and writing spells on my skin lol" it goes apeshit from there. TWO-this can be from many modern aus with little work, basically an in love blueship that seemlessly slipped into a dom-sub dynamic consciously switching it up a lil. whether that has seto giving orders while tied up on his knees or kisara begging to tie him up would be..that would go BRRRR. THREE. biting kink. straight up. no notes. id be fine with a 400 word introspective of either of one of them watching the bite marks they left on the other and their feelings about it. id settle. itd be enough.
how we feeling. any of thesr sound desirable. wanna brainstorm more. ill come knocking at your door like an unhinged mormon. anyway wanna tell you regardless, absolutely no pressure what you may or may not end up writing i just wanted to yell at someone about kinky blues, have a great day
S C R E E C H I NG this is why ily blueshipping king you just get my vision <333 that ancient Egypt idea has got me going f e r a l just thinking about it and i’ve thought for so long that i should write some mizushipping at some point anyway so yesssss. also biting is uh. yes please.
anyway okay now you got me started so strap in because this is gonna be a long ramble. so i feel like there’s several points about how i imagine their dynamic that i have to unpack here (putting it under a cut bc length or if ppl are uncomfy with this stuff)
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i am unfortunately boring in the way that i’ll ultimately always wanna write Seto as the dominant one just bc of my own personal preferences. BUT that obv doesn’t mean Kisa wouldn’t have a fair amount of control over the situation, both bc a healthy dom/sub dynamic requires it in terms of consent and boundaries ofc, but also bc a) Seto is so extreme in his need for Kisara’s explicit permission to do basically anything to her (even the vanilla stuff) because he’s so painfully precious about her well-being and also constantly plagued by not feeling worthy of her and b) while i think Kisa wants to be dominated i think she also realllly enjoys the control of knowing she’s got Seto wrapped around her little finger and could make him do any depraved thing she wants to her just by looking at him in the right way. so yeah i think they both know who’s really in control behind the scenes lol
i’m also DYING to get into Seto’s inevitable mental struggle to reconcile his thoughts and feelings of “she is a perfect goddess and i’m a mere mortal unworthy of even looking at her let alone touch her” and “i’d die to protect her and if anyone hurts her i’ll fucking kill them” vs his desire to be the one who gets to take this perfect goddess and make her submit to him, kneel before him, own and control and ruin her perfectly (because if there’s one thing we all know about Seto Kaiba is that he’ll make sure the divine yields to him, and not the other way around). I guess the key things there is that he alone is allowed to hurt her and no one else.
On this note i do however think Seto would be so conflicted about physically hurting Kisa, even if she very clearly and explicitly wants him to, because he just struggles with being so overprotective of her and not wanting to see her injured or in pain. but this would also be delicious to write him being all conflicted due to the guilt of causing her pain vs the fact that doing so is super fucking hot and he can’t resist doing it, esp not when she’s literally begging him to. Taking all of his frustrations after a long day out on her more than willing body would be so cathartic and tempting but also associated with so much guilt and worry about getting too into it and going too far.
I also definitely see Kisa as being the more extreme of them, to the point where i can actually see her be just a little bit unhealthily masochistic because she doesn’t really value herself due to past trauma, giving her a self-destructive streak and kinda fucked-up notions along the lines of ultimately being deserving of pain and suffering, that someone hurting her equals caring about her and wanting her, and that the ultimate thing she can do to show someone that she really loves and trusts them is to just offer herself up completely to use and do whatever they want to, which Seto would have to try to handle and mitigate because he’s ultimately not gonna let her use him to actually really hurt herself (and you know it would also break his heart a thousand times over to realise just how little she values and cares about herself due to her fucked up past). But I could also write it kinda funny in that whole “sub suggesting increasingly violent/fucked up things while the dom goes ‘idk that’s scary’” lmao. I think Kisa is a bit annoyed that people (especially Seto) tend to see her as this fragile, porcelain flower and wants to prove that she is perfectly capable of taking a (consensual) beating.
Outside of strictly sexual stuff i can also see Kisa as very much an ‘everyday/domestic acts of service’ kinda sub who just wants to bring Seto his coffee when he’s working and a drink when he comes home from work and make sure to always wash and iron his clothes and put them out before he leaves in the morning, tying his tie before he leaves and untying it when he gets home and cooking and serving his meals for him (which tbh wouldn’t just be about her being submissive but also bc she just wants to make sure he actually takes care of himself with like, eating and taking coffee breaks bc you know that man doesn’t take care of himself if left unchecked). And I think this also ties in with her sense of self-worth being tied to being useful and helping others because she doesn’t really see herself as valuable unto herself, but also maybe acts of service is just kinda her “love language” too. i feel like this is the sort of thing i could maybe include in Temptation bc she’s already pretty much like this there, with to me pretty obvious undertones that her working as Seto’s assistant is definitely triggering a submissive side in her.
Temptation also has the whole thing with Seto secretly enjoying Kisa wearing her KaibaCorp pin while working because it marks her as his for the world to see, and I definitely feel like that’d be a thing for him too. Branding her, either by things like visible bite marks/hickeys that she’s not allowed to cover up or something like a discreet necklace that is actually a collar (although tbf, with the fashion we see in the Yugioh universe, would anyone even blink at a BDSM-style collar? Like Yugi’s already wearing fetish gear as his everyday clothes lmao). I mean, Seto’s already pretty big on putting his branding on literally everything, so Kisa would be no exception (also imagine the ridiculous extravagance and amount of money and care Seto would put into a collar for Kisa).
While I’m not really into the idea of Seto being submissive per se, I do think both he and Kisa could easily have praise kinks because they both crave validation in their own ways and for someone to telling them that they’re doing/being good (Seto wouldn’t admit that though, but if I allow for some submissiveness on his part I think being called a good boy could fix him). But with him as the dom it also totally tracks for him to make Kisa worship him and stroke his ego in that way. On that theme, however, I could also imagine him making her allow him to worship her as a kind of ‘punishment’ bc he knows she has a hard time accepting that but that it’s also something that’s good for her to hear.
Also I can totally see Kisa being a little bratty as a sub sometimes because she likes to talk back to Seto and be deliberately cheeky, disrespectful and provocative (both because she enjoys the control of getting him riled up and because she knows that the more she gets him worked up the more forceful and intense he’ll be about putting her back into place afterwards).
Okay so this turned into a fic-chapter length essay about this topic instead of actually writing the fic (bc *ofc* i’d do that) but please lmk what you think!!! (and hopefully i'll use your ideas + my rambling and turn in into fic eventually)
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mirkwoodmunson · 2 years ago
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mid-west monster #1
werewolf!eddie munson x reader
you’ve been with eddie munson for a few months now, and while you knew the boy harbored some secrets — you weren’t aware just how hairy things were about to get
tw: cursing, body horror(? i think?)
a/n: for writeober i’ll be attempting to do (hopefully) daily drabbles, each one a progression of this fic and based around a generated prompt! feel free to send any in as well if you’d like to inspire future installments! happy halloween! LMAO anyway.... i abandoned this wip in early oct. when i realized i should maybe focus on my big move instead of writing, kept getting sad looking at it sitting in my drafts so i decided to slap on a quick sort-of-ending and just post it cause... i love werewolf!eddie so fucking much y'all ;; he'd be the scruffiest stankiest doggo bf and i'm HERE FOR IT. not sure if this'll be continued as past me suggested but if it gets some traction i'd look into progressing the story! hope you enjoy!
Your knuckles are a ghostly white, latched to the steering wheel where your thumb rubs hard into the frayed edge of the wheel cover, anxious and tense. Eddie had been radio silent for the third day now, Hellfire had gathered in the hopes that maybe he’d make some dramatic entrance after working on the materials for this session — but no Dungeon Master had shown his mischievous grin. You’d called and called, stopped by but Wayne had solemnly sent you off each time, assuring you his boy was fine — just going through a rough illness. Maybe it was selfish to think but it made you angry, if he was sick he could still pick up a phone, right? It was the honeymoon stage yet, you’d only started dating a few months back and you could admit you had a tendency to cling to him, but to be fair he seemed to be clinging to you, too. Till now, at least. Had something changed so suddenly?
You let out a heavy breath you just now realize you’d been holding and scold yourself. ‘Your thoughts aren’t always true. Wayne said he was sick so he’s sick. I can at least bring him a treat.’ Looking over at the tote bag of tupperware’d food you encourage yourself to smile and hold it as you pull into the Munson’s drive.
Wayne wasn’t home, but Eddie’s van was here, and so you collect your things and exit your car, hopping up the steps and rapping the door.
No answer.
“Eddie?”
A neighbor’s dog starts barking a few doors down. You could swear you hear something from inside, rustling and a door slamming shut.
“Eds? You in there? It’s me! I brought you some stuff.”
Nothing.
“W-Wayne said you were super sick, so…” you trail off softly, lowering your arms and heaving a sigh.
“Eddie? I know you’re home I— … I’m worried about you, I just—“ you groan softly and just set everything down on the steps, worried the more you call to him the more annoyed he’s getting.
“I’ll just… I’m setting your stuff down out here for you, okay? Don’t forget about it.” A few more moments leaned against the door, waiting for anything, but nothing comes and you can’t help a slight pang, heading back down the steps.
“…Feel better, Eds.” Glancing back you cant even look inside, the curtains all shut tight. ‘He must really be sick.’
You head home but for the rest of the night your thoughts and worries start to take over a little, unable to sit still as you pace your room and question every last interaction you’d had with him, wonder about every possible illness you knew the name of. If he’d just call, pick up when you rang, just say one word to let you know you didn’t need to worry so much.
As you’re in the middle of that thought the phone does indeed ring, and you nearly trip over yourself to get to it, ripping the receiver from the cradle and holding it tight against your ear.
“Hello??”
“…”
“… Hello? Someone there?”
“Y/N?” His voice is low, weak, obscured slightly but it’s Eddie. Oh, your heart nearly beats from your chest.
“Eddie?? Babe what the f— I’ve been so worried! Are you okay?”
“… … I- … I’m- I’m fine, promise. I’m fine.” He sounds strained.
“Are you sure? Do you need anything? I-I left you some stuff—“
“Sweetheart I— I can’t… Can’t really talk much, now… Just… Wanted to tell you, I’m okay…” There’s some rustling as though he’s covering the receiver on his end; you swear you hear him whimper.
“Eds?? Eddie please I-“ *click*
You hang onto the phone long enough for the signal to start bleeping at you as if in irritation that you’re still on the line, reminding you to set it back down in its cradle.
The clock tells you it’s close to midnight. Your brain tells you something’s very wrong.
Fifteen minutes later you’re rocking to a sudden halt in your car, once again sat in Eddie’s driveway. Same as before, Wayne isn’t home yet, and Eddie’s van is parked just beside you. The tote bag you’d left still sat on the steps.
You step out, striding up to his door with purpose and this time just trying the knob — locked. Glancing down the length of the trailer, the curtains still seemed to be drawn and there’s no discernible light peeking through, save for Eddie’s bedroom, a soft orange glow from a covered lamp indicating some presence.
Hoping to high heaven that neither Munson would hold trespassing against you, you bend down and lift the mat as you’d seen Eddie do a few times — the hidden spare key glinting at you in the moonlight. Using it on the lock, you turn the knob again and suck in a deep breath as you push the door open into an eerily silent, pitch-black living room.
“…Eddie?” Your voice is soft and hitched, trembling a little, too quiet to get anyone’s attention. Why were you kind of freaking out right now? There’s a rustle down the hall, a gruff, muffled noise and you gasp, jumping in your step. Looking down the hallway, it’s that same lightless black, until your eyes reach Eddie’s bedroom door — that orange light bleeding through the space between the door and the floor.
“E-Eddie?” You find yourself taking slow steps towards his room, eyes locked onto that strip of light. When a shadow runs across it you feel a cold sweat break over you. “Eds, seriously, seriously I’m kind of freaked out right n—“
There’s no time to react as the door slams open and crashes into the wall, a large, shivering figure in the doorway wearing Eddie’s Hellfire t-shirt, but it’s ripped and stained. You can’t make it out exactly, but the light from behind it illuminates its shape — and it’s much bigger than Eddie. Rugged; shoulders heaving. But its breathing is… unnatural. Almost like there’s a growl laced in it. You stumble backwards and to the floor from the initial shock of the door flying open, hastily lifting yourself onto your elbows, and when you behold this figure you gasp a sharp, shuddering breath, trying to croak out a scream but it catches and you find you can only stutter and whimper, struggling to scurry backwards but your movements are shaky and your limbs feel frozen.
It heaves a growl, snarls but it’s eerily soft, and takes a heavy step forward, vibrating through you. Your mind screams at you to move but you’re still just scrambling, arms heavy, trying to inch yourself away as you emit low whimpers, eyes wide and unable to leave the beast before you. Its eyes glow an unnatural yellow and it’s how you know it’s staring right back into yours. You can make it out a little better now, but your mind struggles to comprehend exactly what you’re looking at.
The creature is at least seven feet tall, almost entirely covered in dark, wavy fur. Its limbs don’t fit, however, they’re too human as its fingers reach up to pull at a mane of wild, shaggy hair, and that’s when you really notice the ears. They’re tall, pointed, set back like a dog ready to lunge. Its muzzle just the same, canine and lined with sharp teeth as it snarls. Eddie’s Hellfire tee… why was it wearing that??
“E-E— Ed—die…“ The tears fall freely and you cry. ‘So this is how I’m gonna die,’ you think. ‘This monster must have eaten Eddie and now it’s gonna eat me too.’
At the sound of your voice, however, something changes quickly. The beast spasms as if struck, crouching and curling into itself as it whines. As you watch in horror, you witness the final stage of this creature's transformation. The same dark fur breaks out over rippling arm and leg muscles, as the creature whines again and groans; you gasp, watching fingers lengthen and sharpen into claws. Arms and legs swell with muscle beneath the sheath of fur, and a howl of pain twins with a sob that wracks you. Terror and fear and also... sympathy. How do you know this creature?? Why are you suddenly so sad that it's hurting.
The beast's head snaps up, yellow eyes aglow, and it... calms. It sighs, almost, relieved the worst of it is over and now its attention is locked onto you. But the menace is gone -- if anything, this creature seems worried. Upset. Sad that it's frightened you.
You're still trembling, however, still weeping silently on the floor as you just lock eyes with this hulking being in front of you. The Hellfire tee... You keep scanning, gaze wandering over the wavy fur, and something dangling from this beast's neck makes your heart drop. The shirt should have given it away, but how could you think straight when a literal werewolf was snarling and staring you down. But now, Eddie's pick hanging from it's thick, furry neck...
You take in a shuddering breath, shaking your head in disbelief. The wolf begins to whine, lowering its head, ears lowered and pulled back again but now like a dog ashamed of what it's done. You cant help a bark of a laugh, the tears continuing to spill.
"EDDIE??! WHAT THE HELL!!"
Your werewolf boyfriend barks. You swear you see his tail wag.
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up-in-space-reading · 4 months ago
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Average Weekly Screentime - Chap 10: So Who Won?
pairing: Jake Peralta x Amy Santiago
word count: 3141
warnings/tags: college au, texting, drunk texting, text fic (mostly, there's prose a few chaps in), bets, bisexual!jake peralta, jake peralta has adhd, parties, drinking and alcohol, sexual references, implied sexual content (nothing explicit, just suggested its going to happen/has happened), friends to lovers, swearing, mentions of cannibalism, lighthearted threats of violence (typical rosa stuff yk), fluff
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Story Summary: texting fic college AU with the squad! It's the beginning of the school year and while everyone else thinks it'll be the same as the previous year, Gina has a feeling things are going to be different and wagers a bet with Rosa and Charles. Told through all the various group chats everyone is in.
Chap 1 | Chap 2 | Chap 3 | Chap 4 | Chap 5 | Chap 6 | Chap 7 | Chap 8 | Chap 9 | Chap 10
authors note: The last chapter to this monster of a fic! Hope you enjoy <3
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Jimmy Jabbers
[09:24am, Friday]
Four Eyes: Jake has once again fallen asleep in class Four Eyes: Bets anyone?
RoRo: he’s gonna wake up in 12 minutes
Mr Grapes: 10 minutes
Queen G: 20 minutes
Four Eyes: Will keep you updated
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[09:36am, Friday]
Four Eyes: Rosa I don’t know how you do it
RoRo: idk RoRo: you guys just gotta get good i guess
Queen G: this sucks
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Dance Squad
[11:36am, Friday]
G-Hive: rosa ur bet date was two days ago G-Hive: i just remembered
Scary: gina you just might win this
G-Hive: omg omg this is so exciting
Charlese: Remember when you tried to get them together on new years?
G-Hive: i had a momentary lapse of judgement G-Hive: BUT now im back in betting mode G-Hive: need to keep them apart for another few weeks
Scary: that’s meddling once again
Charlese: Technically Rosa has some buffer time before her bet is completely void
Scary: neck and neck gina Scary: watch your back
G-Hive: anyone else getting super scary vibes rn???
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[10:05am, Saturday]
Ferris: good morning beautiful
Cameron: Good morning!
Ferris: whats the plan for today??
Cameron: I actually have to do some work, you’ve been distracting me the last few days
Ferris: sorry i cant help that i wanna spend time with my giirllfrieennddd
Cameron: I wasn’t complaining at all Cameron: I’m just warning that if you come over I will be doing work
Ferris: im literally on my way
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Unnamed Chat
[10:45am, Saturday]
Jake: hey ter!
Terry: Hey Jake, how’s it going?
Jake: absolutely wonderful amazing excellent
Terry: Haha let me guess – things went well with Amy
Jake: ur the first person im telling bc u helped me so much omg im so excited
Terry: Well congrats to both of you Terry: I hear Taylor has a lot of love songs
Jake: im never living it down Jake: and IM TOO HAPPY TO CARE
Terry: Hahaha
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Jimmy Jabbers
[02:04pm, Saturday]
Four Eyes: do u think that guys named cal their name is short for calendar
Pineapples: yes ames i think thats true
Queen G: how do i tell amy u have her phone
Pineapples: she is aware Pineapples: but i dont think she realised what i was gonna do with it mwahaha
RoRo: you should probably give it back
Four Eyes: He has returned it now Four Eyes: He’s cowering in the corner because he knows I’m going to take his
Pineapples: someone help me
Mr Grapes: Just go fetal position Jake, that’s what I do
Pineapples: Too late
Queen G: RIP soldier
RoRo: i think it’ll be funny if amy killed him
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Dance Squad
[02:10pm, Saturday]
G-Hive: so that was weird right??
Scary: super weird
Charlese: Definitely weird
G-Hive: okay cool
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Jimmy Jabbers
[04:28pm, Saturday]
Mr Grapes: Anyone wanna do dinner tonight?
RoRo: can’t, busy
Mr Grapes: What are you up to?
RoRo: wouldn’t you like to know, soup boy
Queen G: fine ill do dinner
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[04:53pm, Saturday]
Mr Grapes: @Four Eyes @Pineapples are either of you interested in getting dinner? Mr Grapes: Haven’t heard from you yet
Pineapples: sorry charles, im busy
Four Eyes: I’ve already got plans, sorry
Mr Grapes: That’s alright!
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Dance Squad
[04:57pm, Saturday]
Charlese: That’s weird right?
G-Hive: definitely
Scary: you two have fun
G-Hive: @Charlese ill meet u at sals in 30?
Charlese: Yep!
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“We have got to find a new dinner spot” Amy whispers to Jake across the table who’s giggling.
“Aw but I like Sal’s” He whispers back, their chins nearly touching the table as they duck from view.
“Probably on us that we assumed Gina and Charles wouldn’t come here” Jake continued with a shrug of his shoulders.
“Yeah, that’s definitely on us. What do we do?” Amy asked anxiously.
“What do you mean?”
“They’re here, we’re here, they don’t know about us. What do we do?”
“Sneak out the side door and pretend we were never here?” Jake suggested with a mischievous twinkle in his eye.
“Sure, let’s do it” Amy agreed, a small smile returning to her face.
The two of them got up quickly, Jake grabbing Amy’s hand and dragging her out of the diner quickly behind him. She had her bag slung over her shoulder and was carrying her scarf, not having had a moment to put it on yet.
Once they were out the door and walking down the street the two of them laughed as Amy finally wrapped her scarf around her neck. Jake took Amy’s arm and linked it with his, holding her close as they walked down the snow lined streets.
“We’ve gotta find somewhere else to get dinner now” Jake brought up after they’d been walking for a few minutes with no real destination in mind.
“How would you feel about pizza?” Amy asked with a smile, knowing exactly how Jake would feel about pizza.
“Dumb question Ames, I know just the place”
He redirected them, crossing the street and turning a corner while Amy simply followed his lead. Once there they ordered and got their pizza, they laughed about their escape from Sal’s again and Jake filled Amy in on the ongoing Sasha drama after she overheard Gina mention it.
They finished their pizza and hung around in the shop for a little while longer, ignoring their phones and everything outside the door. As far as Jake was concerned, right now the world existed in the pizza shop, sitting across the table from him.
It was only when the owner of the shop politely told them he was going to be closing soon did they leave – leaving behind a nice tip for having stayed so long – walking arm in arm slowly back towards campus under the light of the street lamps. Amy could tell Jake was trying to delay saying goodbye to her, and if Amy was honest with herself she didn’t want to say goodbye either.
They stopped at the usual split in their path, this section of the sidewalk held so many memories and emotions that Amy couldn’t believe it had all happened in less than a year. The two of them hugged for probably too long, they were clingy for a few day-old relationship but Amy never wanted it to stop.
“Come back to my dorm with me?” Jake asked her quietly, breath brushing against Amy’s ear in a way that made her skin tingle, “If you want” he added, giving her an out.
“I want to”
It was an easy decision, and one she didn’t regret at all.
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DDC
[10:28am, Sunday]
G: messaging to check on u bc i havent heard from u in nearly 24 hours
Jacob: im fine g
G: alright G: how r u feeling?
Jacob: great!
G: cool
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Dance Squad
[10:32am, Sunday]
G-Hive: something happened
Scary: context?
G-Hive: somethings happened with jake
Charlese: Proof?
G-Hive: 1 image attachment G-Hive: says hes great before noon on a sunday G-Hive: i think tf not
Scary: weak
Charlese: Yeah it’s not a super strong argument
G-Hive: ugh honestly you two
Charlese: I’m starting to give up on them honestly Charlese: If it hasn’t happened by now it won’t ever happen
G-Hive: r u serious charles!!! G-Hive: ur not serious
Charlese: Okay I’m not 100% giving up
Scary: i have
Charlese: What??
Scary: my betting day has passed and i either get it exact or i lose Scary: i’m not winning on a technicality
G-Hive: what about the prize money???
Scary: we just don’t pay out?
Charlese: Damn, this is a sad way to end it
G-Hive: HEY! my bet is still ongoing
Scary: you’re seriously gonna hold out hope??
G-Hive: unlike SOME people i dont back down from a bet
Scary: ugh fine i’m still in
G-Hive: YES
Charlese: Okay I’m still in!! you just caught me in a moment of weakness
G-Hive: lovely lovely G-Hive: time to go get proof
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DDC
[10:51am, Sunday]
G: where r u???
Jacob: my dorm why???
G: i feel like ur lying
Jacob: im not lying gina Jacob: why would i lie about that
G: idk but ill find out
Jacob: u do that
G: ill ask amy where u r
Jacob: amy will just tell u to ask me
G: we will see
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Girls Girls Girls
[10:55am, Sunday]
Gina: @Amy do u know where jake is??
Amy: I don’t know, probably in his dorm? Amy: He’s probably still sleeping
Gina: hmm okay
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DDC
[10:57am, Sunday]
G: i still dont believe you
Jacob: 1 image attachment Jacob: what about now??
G: u couldve taken that pic anytime
Jacob: i just took it now
G: ugh fine
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Girls Girls Girls
[11:03am, Sunday]
Gina: @Amy can u send me a pic of the cover of that book u recommended the other day
Amy: You have never asked for a book recommendation and I don’t believe you that you’re starting now
Gina: u and jake talking about me???
Amy: WHY would Jake and I be talking about you??
Gina: u tell me????
Amy: You are in a mood this morning
Rosa: tell me about it
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Jimmy Jabbers
[11:07am, Sunday]
Queen G: i have had ENOUGH Queen G: @Four Eyes @Pineapples explain urselves
Four Eyes: What do I have to explain???
Pineapples: i am also confused as to what i need to explain
Queen G: one or both of u are lying to me Queen G: dodging questions and such
Four Eyes: Good god you need to go outside or something
Queen G: i will NOT be made out to be crazy
Pineapples: then stop acting like it girl
Queen G: where r u both right NOW???
Pineapples: in my dorm Pineapples: in bed if u want specifics
Four Eyes: I’m in my dorm, at my desk to be specific
Queen G: take a pic of ur desk rn
Four Eyes: I’m not entertaining this
Queen G: AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH Queen G: im gonna figure it out
RoRo: maybe let it go gina
Mr Grapes: Gotta agree with Rosa
Queen G: ugh fine
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Dance Squad
[02:35pm, Monday]
G-Hive: im following jake and amy this afternoon G-Hive: who wants to join
Charlese: I’ve got nothing better to do
Scary: this is the last time i’ll entertain you
G-Hive: it wont even be long G-Hive: ill be able to tell if theyre together or not immediately G-Hive: meet me in the courtyard
Charlese: On my way!
Scary: coming
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[02:48pm, Monday]
Ferris: heads up rosa gina and charles are following me to the library Ferris: theyre doing a bad job
Cameron: Hahaha okay
Ferris: should we have some fun with them?
Cameron: We absolutely should
-
Jake made his way to the library happily, lighter than air and excited to see Amy again. When he walked into the library she hadn’t noticed him yet but as soon as Jake saw her he couldn’t stop the smile spreading from ear to ear.
Amy finally noticed him as he approached the table, a matching smile gracing her face, and it took everything in Jake to hold back kissing her as soon as he was sat down next to her. They kept their conversation casual and work focused, it felt like before they were together when the two of them were dancing around whatever was happening between them.
After some subtle searching of the library by taking looks around at random intervals he was able to spot Gina, Rosa, and Charles at a table nearby. They were pretending to be engrossed in one book between the three of them and doing a bad job, Rosa was clearly uninterested but there anyway.
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[03:21pm, Monday]
Ferris: three musketeers sitting at a table near the computers Ferris: doing a terrible job at hiding
Cameron: I’m not even surprised Cameron: What did Gina expect to discover?
Ferris: probs us together
Cameron: Nosiest friends ever
Ferris: haha tell me about it
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“This is boring, they’re clearly not together” Rosa was annoyed.
“But what if they are and they’re just playing it down?” Gina argued back.
“If they were together we’d know by now” Charles now joined in.
“God this is ridiculous” Gina threw her arms up in frustration, “I just need them to kiss or something”
“Go ask them” Rosa suggested slightly sarcastically.
Gina fixed Rosa with a look that made Charles want to shrink in on himself, feeling grateful he hadn’t crossed either of them.
“We could just wait for them to tell us?” He suggested in hopes of stopping Gina and Rosa’s staring match.
“Fine” Gina agreed begrudgingly.
Gina was the one to get up first, followed by Rosa and then once they started walking away Charles quickly followed, not wanting to be left behind.
-
Jake saw movement out of the corner of his eye, catching his attention he looked up to see Rosa, Gina and Charles all making a hasty exit from the library and he smiled knowing he and Amy had been able to bore them into leaving.
Once their friends had left the library he leaned over and gave Amy a quick peck on the cheek, startling her out of her concentration where she looked at Jake with surprised.
“What abo-“ She began before Jake cut her off.
“They just left”
Amy let out a laugh before placing a hand on the side of Jake’s face, he leaned into it with a content sigh. Jake then reached up to lightly grab Amy’s wrist, keeping her hand in place as he twisted his head to plant another kiss on her palm.
“You can’t distract me like that” Amy said quietly, trying to be teasing but sounding more breathless.
“Sorry” Jake had apologized but didn’t sound one bit sorry, returning to his work with a satisfied smirk.
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Jimmy Jabbers
[06:25pm, Wednesday]
Queen G: sasha is having a party on sat so im absolutely going Queen G: anyone else in??
Mr Grapes: Oh definitely! Mr Grapes: Do you know if she invited Sam or Matt?
Queen G: she invited both of them and its most of the reason i wanna go
Mr Grapes: It’s self sabotage at this point
RoRo: ill go if it means watching sashas life implode lol
Pineapples: ill be there
Four Eyes: Yeah I’ll go too
Queen G: im so proud of all of u Queen G: so like are you guys team sam, team matt, or team sasha
Charles: I’m team Anne! She’s been messed around
Queen G: so true charles
-
It was the first time they’d hung out as a whole group since Jake and Amy had gotten together and hiding their relationship was more difficult than Jake had anticipated. He wanted to hold her hand in the back of the uber and put his arm around her shoulders as they walked into the party but couldn’t do any of it.
That was until they split up after playing some small drinking games together, Jake immediately asked Amy if she wanted to dance and she couldn’t have said yes quick enough. He assumed his friends were off finding the drama, Gina and Rosa probably on the hunt for people to flirt with while Charles waited for Genevieve to arrive soon.
Once he and Amy had reached the dance floor her pulled her close, bodies pressed up against one another – he wasn’t wasting a single moment keeping her at a distance. They danced together in the way Jake wished they could’ve on New Years, and it was the most fun he’d had at a party in a while.
So much fun that he leaned down to kiss Amy hard, brain slightly foggy after the alcohol they’d had so far, but pleased when Amy leaned into it. The kiss became intense as they abandoned any illusion that they were dancing.
Finally Jake pulled away with heavy breaths, leaning down to whisper into Amy’s ear.
“Bathroom”
She nodded furiously and followed closely behind when Jake grabbed her hand and dragged her away from the dance floor.
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Queen Gina Linetti @g-hive01
i love being right #calledit #sashasparty
[11:08pm, Saturday]
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Jimmy Jabbers
[10:47am, Sunday]
Queen G: i think its time we talk about the elephant in the room
Pineapples: what?
Queen G: this has gone on long enough
RoRo: gina what are you doing
Mr Grapes: Don’t do something you’ll regret
Queen G: i have no regrets in life Queen G: including this Queen G: @Four Eyes @Pineapples you two like each other and you need to work it out before I start prematurely aging
RoRo: gina!!
Mr Grapes: We agreed we weren’t gonna meddle and this is beyond that!
Queen G: deafening silence from the culprits themselves
Pineapples: way to make things awkward g…
Four Eyes: Wait, you guys ‘agreed to not meddle’? What does that mean?
Queen G: dw about that Queen G: do u have anything to say for urselves??
Pineapples: gina what did u see???
Queen G: u know exactly what i saw at exactly 11 last night
Four Eyes: Shit
Pineapples: my b ames
Four Eyes: Takes two
Pineapples: if its any comfort gina that bathroom wasnt as romantic as u would imagine
Queen G: i didnt think it would be
Four Eyes: Aw don’t say that babe, I thought it was perfectly respectable
Pineapples: dont lie to me
Four Eyes: Sorry haha
Mr Grapes: Wait wait wait wait Mr Grapes: You just called him babe
Four Eyes: Oops
Pineapples: gina caught us so theres no point keeping secret
Four Eyes: Yes Jake and I are together
Mr Grapes: Greatest day of my life not joking
RoRo: good for u
Queen G: u guys will NEVER make me seem crazy ever again so help me god Queen G: i was fucking RIGHT
RoRo: for reasons you don’t need to know RoRo: when did this start?
Pineapples: last wednesday Pineapples: why?
RoRo: i’m $100 richer
Mr Grapes: Damn
Queen G: ah shit…
Four Eyes: Can’t believe you guys bet on us!
Pineapples: i can
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Skipping School Is(n’t) Cool
[11:40am, Sunday]
Ferris changed Cameron’s nickname to Ames Ferris changed their name to Dread Pirate Jake Dread Pirate Jake changed the group chat name to As You Wish
Ames: Aw I’ll miss the Ferris Bueller theme
Dread Pirate Jake: that was for when we were friends Dread Pirate Jake: needed to change now that youre my giirrllfriend
Ames: Haha fair enough Ames: Meet outside to go get lunch together?
Dread Pirate Jake: as u wish my lady <3
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Dance Squad
[11:40am, Sunday]
Scary: I’ll take my $100 in cash
Charlese: I don’t even care about losing money I’m so happy for them
G-Hive: you will never make a fool out of me again
Scary: sure sure Scary: now pay up
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authors note: Oh my god, I can't believe its all done and over.
This is the longest piece of writing I've done so far, what started out as a silly little text fic idea that I wanted to do just to 'not waste a concept' turned into something that I've loved writing and am beyond proud of. I'm sorry there was a bit of a wait between chapters in the middle there but I hope the speedy release of the ending made up for it! Thank you so so much to everyone who commented and left kudos, you guys kept me motivated and excited to write this fic. Shout out to my friends both irl and online (none of whom will see this lol), you guys consistently provide me wonderful content to use in my writing lol (for this chapter it was: "wouldn't you like to know, soup boy")
Thanks again for reading my lil fanfic, I hope you enjoyed it <3
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causmonaut · 1 year ago
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aaaand we’re back…
with another long ass post !!
documenting my stupidity immaturity:::::
she tweets: i love my bf!
he tweets: i love my gf!
she tweets: i miss my hubby i cant eat or sleep i cant breath i cant live like this
and hoooowwww do i see it? by logging into the acc i follow her on (to softblock everyone and keep the account as an archive since i had been using it for years)…
i !!! was confused? at first. then icked out… then hurt.
how do you shit on me for not even directly questioning your sexuality once because you loved to talk about dating men and dated and LOVED a man for 3 years, and say you’re a pure lesbian and i’m projecting by suggesting that you might have curiosity or the capacity to be attracted to men .. and then go date a man?
that part got me for a bit but her sexuality is really none of my business nor do i really care about it past the fact that she got super aggressive with me when i would question her comments. if she’s figuring out her sexuality then, good on her. i don’t believe in holding anyone to labels they’ve given themselves, it takes a long while before someone might settle (or decide not to settle) on whatever label(s) they feel comfortable with.
but it confirms that she’s with someone, it confirms that she likely lined him up soon after or before she dumped me which also stings because i think she’s shown me my worth to her so many times and it’s really not much. i think i was worth more than a few weeks of recovery? but it’s fine. i think she’s emotionally constipated and avoidant as fuck so i lowkey hope it all builds up and blows up in her face eventually (this is hateful, i’m rarely ever hateful…)
i decided to reach out before yesterday ended because it gave me an excuse to go and a: make it known that i know she’s a “lesbian” with a boyfriend and b: make it clear that i think it’s best i don’t have her on any of my social media accounts.. so i removed her on my defunct instagram… removed her from the server we used to share stuff and vc during games… took her out of groupchats with my friends.
her responses vv
“my tweets? do we still follow eo anywhere? but yeah, sure. please delete my personal info on there.”
“ooh i see”
“alright alright, thanks”
^^ putting these here.. for a few reasons
i think it’s important for me to reflect on how little energy she was giving me despite my long-winded over-explanations for my actions.. i wanted to make it clear i wasn’t removing her out of malice and stuff.. but really i don’t think i owed her the clarification.
i don’t think she thinks that deeply about things, and probably didn’t care much since they’re logical steps.
i wish i could’ve been more reserved during a lot of our conversations together but my overthinking makes it so hard not to assume she’d need the same reassurance as i might need in that situation.
i think for the first time she’s actually given me pretty mature responses. curt, dry, detached. probably in part because i’ve been pathetic as fuck in a lot of my messages to her, i’m sure she’s tired (i know she’s tired).
i would like to adopt her way of being firm in her decisions and knowing when to step away.
i could’ve honestly just quietly removed her from things, didn’t need to open up that can of worms or do that to myself or her.
i’ve now been dealing with the consequences of feeling a little hurt by her short responses, by removing her from things i wasn’t ready to remove her from.. by her moving on so quickly. her using the L word .. didn’t necessarily want her to while she was with me but she couldn’t say it even after a year, but with anyone else she’s said it within months? my self worth has taken a major hit. i think it’s half her and half me. two mentally ill people cannot function together for sure.
on the topic of mental illness, she subtweeted .. with “mental illness” .. friend saw and sent over a screenshot
yes, i’m mentally ill. i deal with chronic depression, anxiety disorder, a whole separate cocktail of other stuff, and ADHD… not to mention addiction (sober, btw).. and if we are being honest i am probably bordering on a personality disorder and all of that in combination with my anxious attachment style turn me into a monster when i’m with someone who can’t meet my needs or be consistent.
i recognize that and my needs, and what i need to work on.. i’ve known for a very long time but i still end up being attracted to manic types who are wishy washy and leave me questioning their intentions 24/7… this last girl was also a love bomber so that was not fun.
not excluding my own mistakes and toxic tendencies btw. i could lean into manipulative territory when i was upset, probably overloaded her with information in attempt to be transparent and it likely came off as being over critical and uncaring, because she could be petty i also allowed myself to be petty, too. we would get snappy at each other, she’d fuck up and i’d hold it against her for a while because she’d never genuinely apologize.. i’d fuck up and she’d never let it go, never communicate, only bring it up when it was too late for me to make up for it. it just wasn’t a good match.
but at the end of the day, once again, i can blame others as much as i want for things. i can hate her, i can ruminate on how little i must’ve meant to her in comparison to how much she meant and still means to me, i can torture myself with old screenshots or what ifs and would’ve should’ve could’ves but it doesn’t serve me.
^ easy to recognize that it doesn’t serve me but hard to not think or do these things anyway. i’m not good at combatting negative thoughts. i either don’t have them or they dominate all other thoughts. no in-between.
i think my anxiety and tendency to overthink are the biggest roadblocks i face.
kind of feeling like i am damaged goods. kind of feeling like i’d rather not date again so i don’t turn into an insecurity monster over someone that ain’t shit for the hundredth time.
life is tough as is. i have a lot on my plate, and sometimes i fear i’ll never feel peace. i don’t need a relationship to come and muddy everything up on top of all of the shit i go through on a regular basis.
buut as much as i don’t need it, that fear of loneliness sure does know how to creep in at just the right moments.
i’m talking about general loneliness. dying alone.. being distant from family… but also romantic loneliness, yea. everyone grows and branches out, my friends will find people they’ll go live in their own little bubble with, my cousins will do the same.. my parents are split and it wont be long before they both find people, too.. and here i am, their adult daughter who Should be more independent but i have honestly been so stunted by the amount of trauma we’ve all been through and it’s hard to feel my age, hard to cope with the fact that my life is my own. i don’t have the support structure of someone with parents that love them unconditionally or healthily.. it’s hard to grow when i spend so much time in their shadow trying to patch things up with them and help out without ever being nurtured in return.
in a lot of my relationships, i’m the one who lifts and supports others while i’m expected to get through things on my own. i fear it won’t ever change.
this all sounds very woe is me but i think i deserve to sit in that energy for a bit.
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anakinskywalkerog · 1 year ago
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omg oli hiii! no worries at all hehe, i was sorta worried because of the oli drought lol
actually me and eli broke up like last week lmao. my friend was the one who suggested it - he was like, "dude. you dont seem interested in your relationship at all anymore. hes dating you thinking you still like him, which is unfair. i genuinely think you like han more than eli at this point; if what you said about getting the feeling of him not really keeping to himself is true, then break up, for both of your sakes."
so i did 🤷‍♀️
but yes i love 'I Can See You', all of the vault tracks are so good! foolish one was written for me lolol. and timeless is so perfect. "in the 1500s in a foreign land"??? ma'am, queen taylor has slayed again. or should i say, queen slaylor?
lmao i agree with the seasoning part. existence is too boring indeed. although i disagree with using the crush thingy. i don't REALLY like him, sort of just an attraction. in fact its over too lol. he texted me and we talked for a little bit and everything has gone back to how it was before anything turned up 💀 i get the ick quite easily
oh no! im sorry! im sure it will, but in the meantine, if you ever need, i'm always here :)
he did lmao! it took a lot of begging, and a lot of flat out refusal ("i cant write that! thats objectification! "consensual objectification!" "... no way i can do that. id be scarred." "its fine just do just do it pleaaaaase!" "lmao i cannot write smut about you both, thats too far, even for me, canberry." "...what about all of the smut you read then-") (not sure what gave him that impression but i am a college student, what am i, mary jane? i could, but i wont 🤭) cranberry asked after i wrote a sort of drabble for his friend (who also asked, but he gives highkey gay vibes lol. he and his gym bro and both crazy) back in january, but i flat out refused. and then something my friend posted on her story after one of our finals made me go "... no way, but i actually have a great idea"
ergo it happened!
but its definitely platonic lolol im sort of their only friend with such *amazing* writing skills ;) their exact words were "but youre the only person we know who writes fanfiction, please please please"
lmao i have no clue, just being crazy with their boys i guess lol.
hopefully! definitely did not seem that way from his messages, but maybe im wrong. ill give it a couple of months? plus, i have not been blocked, or removed from his stories, and he did enjoy reading it (bros was laughing so hard he couldnt even read)
lmaooo me too! we would be so iconic. feel free to drama dump anytime lmaoo. i am officially a *tumblr user who gets asks* (proud smiling) hehe 😈
i also cooked my own curry for the first time today hehe that was interesting
lmao i will try, thank you for the tip <3
love, sythe <3
sorry it took me so long to reply, sythe!!
1) don’t be worried about oli droughts, I just get busy but everything is fine!
2) sorry to hear about eli 😭 damn. but also rip and thank u next, you know what I’m sayin
3) foolish one was written for all us tumblr girlies!! lololol. but also, you don’t have to have a CRUSH just to have a lil crush. like, just a lil makin eyes on occasion makes life less boring hehe
4) truly CANNOT imagine anyone in my real life asking me to write them fanfic let alone a BOY let alone SMUT that is a crazy story
🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 (ps have you watched Ahsoka yet)
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yahoodarling · 2 years ago
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I'm a bit shy to ask this... I love your work! It's always so interesting to read. Could you do something Dottore x Pantalone? Or maybe Dottore x reader x Pantalone? I think writing the harbingers leans into dark content more naturally :3
It's okay, getting requests or comments on my work is always welcome from my dear darlings. This didn't have as much dark content as my other stuff but I do enjoy the dynamic in this one.
Pantalone X GNReader X Dottore
Warnings: Suggestive, crude language, experimentation and dark content(just to cover my bases for this haha)
Reader is submissive/not in control, referred to as 'pet/dog' at times.
"Could you get me some tea?" Pantalone asked, eyes focused on receipts and records, shuffling papers with his black gloved hands. 
You nodded to your boss and went on to make him a brew of tea you decided would best please him. His main office had the small tea station and soon you mixed a fragrant blend and allowed its aroma to wharf in the air.
In a few minutes you returned and placed the small cup to the side of his desk on a small platter, standing back to the side and awaited his reaction.
He shifted his focus to the cup and lifted it to his lips, eyes closed and took in the golden liquid. Almost instantly you saw his shoulder relax, his lips fall into a fond smile. "Once again you read my needs so well. This is a fine brew, thank you." He nodded to you, his glasses chains dangled along with his head nod in satisfaction. 
Of course pride welled in your chest, you were glad to know you could be of service to him and to receive praise from such a high ranking person was a blessing.
"Of course my lord" you bowed and stood back at your station just behind him, a word away from fulfilling whatever request your boss required at any time. 
You made these boring times so pleasant for Pantalone. He chuckled and sipped on his tea, now in a good mood as he worked through the papers. Such a good mood sadly came to a halt as he read through a letter from his colleague, he knotted his eyebrows in frustration and had to physically rub away the headache the words caused. He couldn't enjoy one afternoon without interruption now could he?
"(Name), I will be going out later today to visit with Ill Dottore. This man just cant be satiated now can he?"
"Another request for funds?"
"Of course it is. He burns through mora faster than any one else. File the open papers and organize the ones I have yet to read through into personal and business. I'm going out for a walk."
The large doors opened and Pantalone walked back into his office, taking off his coat and handing it to you that awaited nearby almost immediately.
You nodded and stepped away to allow him past and got on to sorting out the papers and clutter on his desk. You reached out for the empty tea cup, just a few golden drops remained. You smiled like an idiot. You knew you were just his assistant but knowing he enjoyed your tea and appreciated your work left a light feeling in your chest.
"Today is pleasant. The scenery was most enjoyable in the indoor garden, i'm glad i took that walk." He reached his now organized desk and opened up a drawer to obtain his glasses case and wiped off the condensation. 
"Well then." He said, putting them back on. "Let's go meet the good doctor and see what he is whining about now."
"Shall I join you?"
"Of course. I need some support from the absolute nightmare that is to come from this."
Usually Pantalone wasn't as frustrated with Dottore as he came across as now, he usually treated him with respect or enjoyed complex conversations with him but you also knew he got irritated easily when disturbed, much like Dottores request had disturbed Pantalones wuiet afternoon.
"Let's get this done. Be sure to bring my personal finance book"
You had it already in hand and opened the door for him.
Pantelone chuckled and gave a quick head pat to your head as he walked past. 
You never usually joined in Pantalone and Dottores conversations, you would stand outside by the door and wait but this time Pantalone welcomed you in as well. Dottore was an interesting character, all your colleagues spoke hesitantly about him and every fatui assigned to him would send their will and farewells to their family as he tended to have assistants disappear a lot, you were lucky to work under Pantalone that treated you well . 
His office was unsettling, it linked to his personal lab and storage room to the side that you have never seen anyone enter or leave from. Your one wish in life would be to never have to go in there.
"Hello dears' ' he smiled at you and Pantalone, sharp teeth bear which  seemed more unsettling since you couldn't see his face behind his mask. 
"Greetings Doctor" Pantalone replied and sat on the chair adjacent to Dottores desk, clasped his fingers together and gave a greeting smile. You took your stand behind where he sat and waited to let the men talk.
"Brought your lap dog this time?" Dottore chimed and angled his face to you, you wouldn't respond unless told to by your boss. "It makes sense you have them as your little pet. That attractive face would be wasted on the battlefield, rather keep them safe and close by your side so you can enjoy it even more."
Pantalone wasn't having it and shut the conversation down. "I hear you want to extend your funds."
"That? Yes, I'm dealing with materials that are rather expensive. I'm sure if I beg enough you will help me."
"Im waiting"
"Alright... 'Oh rich man! Give me your money.' Done? Is that good enough?" Dottore swooned with clear sarcasm
Pantalone sighed and looked at you with an unimpressed look
"(Name), we won't be needing to file any extra records for Dottore. It was a waste coming here. I refuse your request, i will be leaving now."
And he stood up and turned his back on the doctor. Said doctor leaped out his seat, trying to keep the conversation going.
"Wait wait. Was I not convincing?"
Pantalone refused to even turn around to look at Dottore while he spoke.
"Your excuses have gotten repetitive and unoriginal, it's not worth my time. I only came here in person as it's the respectful thing to do but you make it very hard to want to come back."
Pantelone kept walking and waved his hand at you to follow to which you did.
‘So heavy’ you think holding multiple files and taking them to their respective posts. Working for a high ranking fatui member had its perks but also had its disadvantages, one of which being the large workload to fulfill and your work load required you to deliver all Pantelones files, messages and receipts to their proper place within the headquarters, it's not like he could do something like that after all, he's too important.
"Tsk, that was uneventful. Stupid banker and his stupid mutt" Dottore fumed silently and sulked at his desk as you two left.
“Little dog.” Came that gruff voice behind you shocking you out of your thought process making you nearly drop all the files. You turn around to see who was calling you such things. It was Doctor Dottore.
“So you respond to that?” he teased with a smile.
“Not necessarily sir, it's just the loud call caught my attention.”
“Hmmm” he grunted and walked closer to you confidently
“Mind helping me with a little something in my lab? I promise itll be eventful, something more entertaining than lugging around papers.”
“I apologize my lord, I must get back to work.” you turn to leave, being in any contact with Dottore alone is dangerous. You turn to leave but he instantly grasps your wrist in rebuttal.
“Now now, don't go running away. I don't think you have the right to refuse anyway. Just come.”
And he started to drag you off, firm grasp on you, the amount of strength he had on you was in such contrast to his leaner build.
“Sir- i really can't…” you harsh tugs made you drop all the files, that didn't stop him as you continued down the hallway under his lead.
This room smelled sickly, the room attached to his office somehow both clean and dirty at the same time, equipment and books shuffled all around and the disturbingly clear table with leather straps to it. Oh shit shit shit.
“Sir this is-! I'm not a part of this! Surely you have others!” you pleaded and tugged back with all your might as he continued to push you closer to the table.
“Oh hush, this isnt gonna hurt and it'll be quick.”
You were left dumbstruck as he easily lifted you up and ungracefully lobbed you onto its surface and quickly grasping your hands in the harnesses like it was a skilled practice of his. He left your legs and torso unbounded but that didn't calm your nerves as you fought against the leather straps.
“Haaaah. Haha, I do say I'm quite lucky today. Checking all my boxes with very little effort.” he chuckled as he walked away to get something.
“What? Wait, please, Pantalone wont allow for this!”
“Oh I know darling~” He turned and looked at you with a sickly pleased smile. “That's half of the point.”
He was doing this to get back at Pantelone for refusing his extension? He was gonna use you as a guinea pig to spite him just because he didn't get what he wanted?
He held your chin and shifted it side to side, inspecting your features. "Such a pretty face. I could think of no other reason to keep you but to stand and look pretty like a decoration, much like you do anyway."
He leaned back away from you and became serious in the face. “Have you heard of the current disease plaguing Sumeru? A terrible terrible thing called Eleazar. I've researched its symptoms and causes before long in the past but recently found some… forbidden knowledge as you may call it that may help narrow down its cause.” This conversation left you shellshocked, in no way looking forward to where he was going with this.
“I found a little thing that, if it is a catalyst for Eleazar perhaps it could link to a cure. You'd be doing myself and many others a favor if you'd comply.”
He was wanting to give you a disease?! One that has no cure, one that must be severe if it's needing such deep research into it. If you weren't pulling against the straps of the table you were now, bargaining with the doctor out the window as your brain focused on trying to get out.
“Oh come on.” he sighed dramatically while holding a needle with a black liquid in its cylinder. “Surely you can trust me here. It's not like i haven't dealt with Eleazar, you will probably be fine anyway.” He leaned over and shifted your wrist to have a clear view, your struggles not deterring him. “Ah, such clear, wide veins. You are making my job so much easier without even realizing it.” and with that he neared the metal needle into your skin, the slight sting it would have caused was ignored by the absolute panic you felt.
“DOTTORE YOU SHIT!” Your saving grace opened the door harshly, more angered than you had ever seen him before. His glasses were off and his coat slung lopsided before he threw it across the room and at Dottore. It was a thick coat, getting hit by it would be an impact and it was, Dottore was thrown off you.
“I swear, you can't just accept it when people refuse you. You are like a child.” pantelone huffs, pacing towards you and helping you out the straps.
"I know you are an attention whore for me but messing with my property is not the type of attention you'd want. You aren't doing all of this just because you are having a temper tantrum I didn't extend your funds now are you?"
"I wouldn't word it like that but in a sense, yes. I do enjoy getting to play with you." Dottores' silky voice echoed, he seemed delighted at the reaction he was getting. 
Pantelone left your side and got closer to Dottore, bending down and grasping his collar, yanking it up harshly. “Games are for play time, not business time” he mused, face inches away from the doctor's mask.
You sat on the table watching, fear nearly completely gone as a single thought consumed your mind, ‘What the fuck is up with this tension?’
Pantelone dropped Dottore suddenly, leaving him on the floor as he walked back to you, however, he spoke back directed at Dottore and not to you. “You claim my assistant is a dog yet i find you have a better resemblance to one. A filthy mutt pissing itself for attention from its master. Maybe if you would behave id give you want youd want.”
Pantalone sighed, out of exhaustion or simply at the situation, when he recovered we went back to looking at you, a more mellow look in his eyes.
“It seems you have been involved in work outside your contract, I must remunerate you for your inconveniences.” he got close, slightly leaned over, held your face closer to his, the familiar smell of your tea brews lingered on him. “I do hope this will be enough.” He closed what space was left and kissed you, softly but it had a firm hold to it. It was warm, comforting and left you feeling content so you reciprocated kissing back into him. After what felt like a few minutes you opened your eyes, not to find his on you but looking to the side where the doctor stood up from the floor and swept off dust from his attire.
“Please, keep trying to make me jealous.” he said, lifting himself to sit on the counter nearby and grins "i don't mind watching. That is my thing after all"
Pantalone just grunted and got back to working on you, giving you his attention, giving you his love.
 "I wasn't able to put the full dose in, I wonder if such a small amount will cause Eleazar to occur." Dottore suddenly piped in, shifting around what remained in the half empty needle.
 "What the fuck are you talking about?" Pantelone grunted, finally letting go of you.
"Haha, your little assistant  will probably be needing to spend some more time with me in the future. My little mistake, it was just a bit of fun after all."
The look of death fell on Pantelones face once again "i remind you not to mess with my stuff"
“Well it's rather simple then. Give me what i want, whether it be your attention or mora, and i'll make sure they live. We can make it into a deal. You can own them and I can too, you can look after them and I will as well.”
Dottore shifted from the counter to the table and pulled you into him, biting your shoulder harshly with razor-like teeth. "I guess they are mine now as well, equal property"
Suddenly the room started to get tight, black clouding your vision as a surge of pain well up in you. It became hard to stay conscious and your hearing became dull.
“Seems i will need to attend to them now. Can't have you dying on me and your seductive boss now.”
I like to add reasons to things. The reason Pantalone knew you were missing was he got suspicious you wernt back and sae the mess of papers. He just needed to ask a few bystanders to find out where you had gone
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choclateteez · 2 years ago
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🥊💥4*town During Conflicts/fights with others and each other💥🥊
Part 1 (except I actually continue this time- T and Z's parts are about half way done🤭)
Robaire
With others
Robaire is slow to anger- being a leader comes with having to work on his patience skills
If you've made him actually lose it, he has tried to make you understand in the nicest ways possible. You've crossed the line
This man is SCARY when angry
He's never afraid of confrontation, try him. Try. him.
Don't try him, actually
He won't care if you're taller, more muscular, more athletic than him, he won't back down. He isn't scared, he really isn't.
The other members kinda get worried about him getting himself into dangerous situations because he has absolutely no fear response in these situations
He doesn't like to resort to yelling, he makes his point across just fine with well chosen words
*trash argument* “oh really??” NONOnoono, dont fucking interrupt me, okay?!”
If things do get physical, he can hold himself well in a fight; he can take a punch or two and throw a lot more
With 4*town
Canonically, he and Aaron Z have a friendly rivalry
However, sometimes it can go a bit too far. Especially when Z has an attitude towards Robaire's orders, or when Robaire doesn't agree with Z’s suggestions or ideas
They'd never physically fight each other, but the tension can get intense
Especially if it's before a big concert
“If the others can do the move, how come you can't? I'm not gonna change the whole choreo because you don't have what it takes.” “I don’t have what it takes? I don't have what it takes???” “I said what I said, Robaire.” “Where did all this come from?” “We are mere days away from performance, and you STILL haven't got the move down" "And whos job was it to teach me?" "Oh??" Z shoots up, stalking closer to Robaire, towering over him. "You telling me I cant do my job?" Robaire isn't intimidated. He doesnt move back, but instead moves closer, chests close. "You just told me I couldnt do mine- i'm telling you cant eat what you dish out" The words fly out of his mouth before he realizes. He sees the moment Z's eyes dilate out of anger and realizes hes pushed it too far. He sighs and backs down, running his hands down his face. "Shit…sorry..listen- we perform soon, we're all stressed and i… shouldnt have done that. '' Z studies him, still trying to calm himself down. "Just…just teach me the move and ill do my best alright?" "...fine…im sorry too or whatever.."
He doesn't conflict with the other members often, only sometimes with Jesse because of the age difference
Robaire and Jesse have an interesting dynamic
As the leader, Robaire often calls the shots, but he knows he doesn't have to enforce it on Jesse too harshly- he wants to respect him
At first, he thought of Jesse giving suggestions as Jesse questioning his authority
It got them off to a rough start, as Robaire would kindly, but bluntly shut him down
Soon though, Robaire had FINALLY started to accept the fact that Jesse knew more than him in some instances
Jesse wasn't trying to belittle him, he was just offering some help through experience that Robaire wasn't ready to admit he didn't have. 
Jesse
With others
Some people tend to think that Jesse has a shorter temper compared to the other members, but he doesnt usually respond in a large scale
But when he does, it’s not as intense as some people may think
ESPECIALLY when it comes to haters
Being the oldest also comes with experience and wisdom, some of that wisdom being that haters are only jealous
At the end of the day, Jesse knows that HE’S the one who is in a world famous boy band, not some heckler who wants their 15 seconds of fame
Jesse has had ample time to work on his confidence skills (telling your uptight parents you want to major in art takes balls of iron), and in situations like these, they really come in handy
Arguing with him is pointless. He knows his worth, and words from some hateful nobody will never get a reaction out of him, much to the haters disdain
HOWEVER…
Say some shit about his fellow members, his fans, OR his family??
Consider yourself dead
“Say it to my face, say it to my fucking face”
Jesse is INCREDIBLY defensive and protective of those close to him, so if you know what's good for you, shut your mouth
He's never afraid to call anyone out, so be prepared to have your face and name all over the news if youve really fucked up
One thing everyone loves about him is that he doesn't get down and dirty- he lets everyone else do the fighting FOR him. 
*someone saying something downright horrendous* “security, his head please.” All he has to do is say the word
Oops! Your credit card info was leaked by 4townie twitter? Oh noooo!! 
With 4*town
The only time he argues with 4*town is when they overstep his boundaries a little
Being the eldest, he'd still prefer a little respect
The old jokes don't really bother him (in fact, he finds them quite endearing). 
What does, is when they're either talking down on him, or when they're not taking his advice seriously
4*town doesn't realize they're doing it sometimes, but it still irks him. 
When he does give advice, it's often well thought through, and he means it earnestly, and with the best intentions. To get them brushed off as “oldest one just wants to control us”, drives him mad, and rightfully so
And when he has to switch to brutal honesty, it makes it worse, and they start to argue with him, gang up against him, even question his intelligence, and it starts a burning feeling in his chest that Jesse has to stop before it gets out of hand
He rarely raises his voice, but when he does, the gang knows they've pushed him over the edge
“Guys, im being serious-” “When are you not?” “Yeah, T’s right you're kind of being-” “You're interrupting me-” “Jesse, cmon-” If y'all would just LIST-” “i dont-” “jesus christ, SHUT UP!! All of you!” Jesse’s breathing heavy, face flushed. Tae Young and T flinch, and Jesse notices, urging himself to reign it in. “Just let. me. talk.”
The room is soundless. Even Robaire becomes subdued and holds his tongue
When 4*town is being scolded by Jesse, they know they probably deserved it this time, and will take his words to heart
Tae Young
With others
This man has a MOUTH
You wanna say something to him, best believe hed say something right back
He has little to no patience with people who try him
It's hard to have beef with Tae Young- He’s sweet, and he tries his best to be helpful, and there for anyone that needs him
So to be mad at him for small/insignificant things is not the move
From sarcasm, public humiliation, cameras, anything, Tae Young will use his environment as his weapon
He also LOOVESS to tease people who tick him off, or get mad at him for dumb reasons
“Why do you wear so much makeup? You're so feminine, are you even a man?” “Awweee, big stwong man is scared of a little powder? You poor thing! If you're ugly, just say that!”
He is also emotionally intelligent
He knows that he might be sensitive to some of the things people say to him, and in those situations, he urges himself to just walk away
It doesn't matter who calls him a coward, if he needs to walk away from the scene, he will
If you wanna fight him, you gotta catch him first. Good luck even touching a hair on his skin, bro is FAST
his emotions come in strongly
But when they've said something that REALLY riled him up, he'd walk away angry beyond words. He’ll vent when he needs to (it's healthy to, and he knows he'll feel better afterwards), and maybe he'll cry. But he's not crying because he's sad, or because his feelings are hurt- it's because you made him so mad that his body got overwhelmed. Good fucking job
With 4*town
His biggest issue is him being babied
Don't get him wrong, he loves the special attention and affection from his bandmates
But there are times where he'd wish that they'd stop acting as if he were 5
He could be off on his own, getting a drink maybe, and they'd freak out like he had gotten kidnapped
Yes, he could get himself in some concerning situations, and yes, he can act out on a whim, but he’s an adult for goodness sake, he could take care of himself
That, and sometimes, the others won't take him seriously when he's mad
And sometimes they wont take his advice because something in them thinks young = stupid
He wants to be taken seriously just as much as the rest of them, and surprisingly, this was the biggest issue with T
When they had first started working together and he was making suggestions, t was very indifferent about his input
It was a long road before 4*town actually understood this because every time Tae Young tried to tell them, they'd brush it off to him being a juvenile rebellious teen, or him being cute when he's mad
So what if his stupid cheeks puffed up or if his stupid expression was cute when he was mad?! His feelings were still valid weren't they?
Their first time doing choreo together was…disastrous
“T, can you please go slower on the flip? I asked like 3 times now” “Well, what's gotten into you today? Calm the hormones down, haha!” “...dude, now is really not the time” "I'm not even doing anything??" "Aaron.." "what, you expect me to slow down in midair?" "T, you KNOW thats not what I meant." "Gosh, youre adorable- your face is doin the thing- anyways, listen, Z's being stingy on the timing here, soo either you keep up, or you do the original choreo with everyone else, kid🤷🏽‍♂️" "imsorry, kid? 😃 I-no, im fucking done" Tae Young storms out the studio, door slamming. The other members look on in shock. T is kind of surprised he reacted that way- he didnt mean to be condescending, but it didnt change the fact that he was.  "Tch. Nice going, T" Z says with dripping sarcasm, going after Tae Young to make sure he was okay.
The group is much more careful about this now
He was smart to go to Jesse to help with this. His old man wisdom came in handy! He taught Tae Young a lot about not letting people walk on him, and helped with his confidence a ton
They never meant to invalidate Tae Young's feelings and they avoid doing this as muuchhh as possible now
Tae Young is not afraid to confront them if it happens again
Okay, i just wanna say thank you guys SO much for all the love youve been giving me im so overwhelmed😭💖 
Your comments and hearts really motivated me! 
I just wanted to do my part in keeping the 4*town fandom thriving, so im so glad yall actually enjoyed it<3
Thinking of making a masterlist and taking requests soon!👀
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firstkokon0is · 4 years ago
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tokrev characters when you did the “i told you to look good today” prank to them
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lol this trend is quite old but its been on my mind lately but yall can request sum goods to me😁👍
tw: heavy swear words and grammar errors
characters: draken, mikey, mitsuya, baji, chifuyu, hakkai, takemichi.
gn reader
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DRAKEN
the moment those words came out of your mouth he just stared at you
while you’re smiling idiot
he will literally just stare at you
“yea same to you” showing a annoying smile
he get the situation, HE KNOWS HE LOOK GOOD SO THIS AINT GNNA WORK
you guys just laugh it off, you didn’t even told him that it was just a prank because he already knew it but will still ask you in the middle of your date
“hey is my style in clothes really aint that good? were you serious? i mean its not that bad…..” he said while looking himself up through his phone camera
“nope, i thought you get the joke but oh well……ken, you look so good everytime yk even if u wear nothing u still can pull it off” you told him and smack his bald head playfully
“yea yeaa i would’ve gone feral if u went and bash my hair instead of my clothes so thats a relief” he respond with a smile
“ken why this hair-”
“aight im leaving”
“no hakahajwlwbsha”
took the joke very well
MIKEY
he spent hours looking for good clothes for this date, there’s clothes everywhere in his room and still “damn…..there’s nothing to wear”
AND WHEN U TOLD HIM THOSE WORDS???
he just pout, told you that he’s sorry, and he spent hours looking for something to wear to match your style and many more reasons
pls apologize to him
but when you told him that its a prank he just pout and said “not a good joke y/n i know you were lying because i really look good, i knew its was a prank”
just agree with him lol
will think of pranks that he could do to you for revenge, literally stressing about it while on the date with you
he wants to say the same thing to you but he can’t because you look beautiful today, just for him, and will smile just looking at you
while walking to the park he will even ask himself “does my style really match them?” “should i be the one to adjust and put my taste on clothes higher?” “i should ask mitsuya about fashion things” his mind is just filled with questions
“mikeyyyyyyy, you look good today i was just doing a silly prank im sorry if that made you feel bad, not gonna lie you’re drippy as fuck”
“i know i know im gonna prank you next time real hard” he said “if i catch you we’re gnna switch wardrobes” he said as he started to chase you around the park
in the end he came over to your place and explore your wardrobe and tried your clothes, he even stole some of your hoodies and shirts.
MITSUYA
overthinks
this mf thinks he looks good no matter what
duh he’s a designer
“well y/n i think you’re right, and i should style you sometimes dont you think?”
your hand went to your mouth so fast
he laughed at your reaction and hug you
“just kidding you look good, we look good i know that trend damn thats old” he said
you smack him playfully for that, his reaction is normal but because of that he wants to be more stylish
he can take a joke yk
after a lot of overthinking he suggests to shopping with you
even though he have some knowledge about designing and how to look good he thinks your taste in clothes is so good
will think that he’s right for you and you’re right for him
he’s your 4lyferss😩
BAJI
he will give you that “excuse me” face with a hand oh his chest because he’s offended as fuck.
“babe stop fooling people, and yourself we both know i look good”
“you dare to bash my drip hell no baby”
will brag his clothes for like 15 minutes just to prove what you’re saying is wrong
“this shirt i brought this online with a nice fabric its not cheap mf”
“my pants, you see this huh? see those sutffs on tiktoks where they style their own pants i did this shit its so cool”
“now now, baby see this shoes? oh dont even get me started but hey you look nice today hehe can i take you on our date now?”
he went from being defensive and screaming proving his shit right to his signature smile
by just that he already made your day, you really cant out keisuke baji
because he is baji, he will look good for you, and you look good for him, he will joke you around, tease you a lot, you will also do the same to him.
100% can take a fucking joke. and it will be like a competition to him.
CHIFUYU
confused baby
im sure you feel a lot of guilt rn
because baby panicked
will suggest to go back to his house and change his clothes if you want
pls apologize 😭
almost cried because he thinks he’s a bad boyfriend again lol
will spat a lot if reason like, he’s in hurry, he’s been overthinking this date since last night.
but boy he look good actually he has drip
“nononono baby, you look good i just saw the thing on tiktok so i thought it will be funny but damn im sorry i-” you didn’t even finish when he laughed
“ohhhhhh yeaaaa that trend fuck, how could i forget, nice one you got me there god dammit ill take revenge sometimes” he said laughing slightly
well he’s always on tiktok, have some few vid too, actually some went viral bc of takemichi being dumb
just like mitsuya too, will suggest to just go shopping with him and tell him what kind of clothes that you’re interested in
would love to buy your clothes for you but he’s just a broke middle schooler but he promised you that both of you will shopping someday
he took that prank seriously but when he knew that it was a joke its fine
life goes on for him
HAKKAI
oh my god please y/n why
you always complement his style because its true he has some style
after you told him that he will just scratch the back of his neck and said
“my other clothes are still wet haha…..i mean i dont look bad i mean……”
apologize, drop on your knees and do it.
nah jk
u gave in a small laugh and said sorry to him
he know about this trend actually but he never actually expect you to have the guts to do that to him
he knew about his shy personality and he knew that you know about this
he’s not offended just taken by surprise that you actually did that to him
“well anyways i dont care about me you look good today y/n”
you immediately regret saying those stuffs to him bc he’s sweet hot and respectful
but its a joke anyways he enjoyed the silly joke
he knew he look good lmao
yuzuha will be hearing this
she will prolly scold you for doing that
are you gnna repeat the silly prank again?
TAKEMICHI
💀💀💀💀💀
he will run
run back to his home attack his wardrobe and find a good clothes
ofc you feel bad so you followed him
you saw him looking for a new clothes to wear
you told him its a prank but he still didn’t want to go out looking like that
so you just decided to style him yourself
he thinks you’re right
he looks bad, his style is not it
but overall happy for pranking him and making him realize that he need to be as your same style
“takemichi, look i dont care…..whoever told you that you look bad i will kick their face, to me what ever you wear your fun personality and the reason that i fell inlove with you wont disappear” you put a hand on the top of his head and he just
cried.
“im sowwyyy- i- i cant look good- fuck ughhghuh- please dont leave me i-” he’s crying mess on your chest
“STOP CRYING DAMMIT YOU ALWAYS LOOK GOOD,”
you will never prank him again
no pls dont do it again
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ficrecsbybu · 3 years ago
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WinterIron fic rec 2021: Part I
Note: this fic rec consists only of Bucky Barnes/Tony Stark fics. the only Stucky & Stony you might see is as past relationships but that’s it. it’s also complete works ONLY. also - no underage stuff 🔪.  if you have any requests for Winteriron fic recs (for e.g non-superpower au, only one shots, series, hardcore smut, post-tws, college au, not team cap friendly fics, bodyguard au etc.) you can send me requests ^^. anyway... enjoy 😉 
✨ The Guiding of Death by RayShippouUchiha
“That whole Merchant of Death thing,” someone off to the side faux whispers, “makes a lot more sense now.”
It echoes across the bridge like a gunshot. 
Rated M, Hades & Persephone AU, Canon Divergence, always female Tony Stark, not Team Cap friendly. word count: 41391
(note: listen... I know het pairings and/or gender bend is not popular and I never really read those in general BUT this is straight up one of the best fics I have ever read so I NEEDED to share this with y’all...✌️)
✨ Forms of Love by bear_bell
Tony's the bad guy, after all. He's used to it. He's fine with it. He's good at it.
Only now, there's something far worse loitering around the tower - The Winter Soldier. No one notices the guy at first, but when they do, Tony figures that he should have the soldier's back.
Birds of a feather should flock together, and the bad guys should start a book club.
Rated E, Post-CW, Bucky Barnes & Winter Soldier are Different Personalities, Team Iron Man. word count: 33591
✨ Looking at You by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Bucky looks for so long that now all he wants to do is touch and hold and fix everything. But Tony can barely be in the same room as Bucky, cant even look him in the eye. So Bucky doesn't know what to do about Tony, but he is determined to do something. Because all he wants is to look at Tony, and see Tony looking back with a smile.
Rated E, Post-CW, PTSD, team heals, mental healing, forgiveness, angst with a happy ending. word count: 28,168
✨ I'll Be Your Bodyguard (If You'll Be My Security Blanket) by NarutoRox
When one of Loki's pranks gone wrong leaves the team with a young Winter Soldier in their care, they know they're going to have their hands full. Especially since this newer, tinier version of Bucky seems to have a bodyguard complex - and a particular attachment to Tony.
Rated T, kid fic, age regression/de-aging, de-aged Bucky, tiny bodyguard Bucky. word count: 4,993. 
(note: finally something CUTE. Im so sorry for being such a slut for angst and heavy stuff 😅)
✨ Fate Strings Not Required by Akira_of_the_Twilight
Tony took the hint.
Tony wrapped his hand around the new guy’s elbow. He kept his touch light and breakable in case he’d misread the cue.
“Just some guy claiming to be my soul mate, babe.”
The new guy’s eyebrows rose to his hairline in surprise. He chuckled and gave the first guy a smirk. “Strange. Last time I checked we were soul mates.”
Rated T, AU - no superpowers, AU - soulmates, Bodyguard Bucky Barnes, age difference. word count: 7,032.
✨ Shameless  by Finely Honed (jaqen_hgar)
Tony isn’t actually sure which of them starts it—he’d like to take credit, but if he’s learned anything it’s that Barnes is by no means a wilting flower. Besides, the start doesn’t matter as much as figuring out who’s going to actually finish it.
rated M, flirting, dirty talk, sexual tension. word count: 2,560
✨ Winter Wooer by salytierra
Winter may not be the most pleasant guy to live or share your body with, but he isn't nearly as destructive as everybody expected him to be either. He likes to brood in the corners, watch British TV, and freak people out. And Tony. He really, really likes Tony Stark. There's just one problem – Bucky's pretty sure he doesn't feel the same way about the guy.
Rated M, Bucky Barnes & Winter Soldier are Different Personalities, team as family. word count: 8,726
✨ Even Darkness Must Pass by Finely Honed (jaqen_hgar)
“Fake it till you make it,” Bucky whispered to himself, swallowing around his panic. Sam had drilled the idea into him, and it had become a mantra of sorts, something to hold onto when all he wanted to do was blend into the shadows and disappear.
“You’ll be fine.”
Steve placed a warm, strong hand on Bucky’s shoulder and squeezed, his super soldier ears having picked up Bucky uttering the now familiar saying.
Bucky nodded, tried to believe his own words, and followed Steve onto the common floor, a wall of sound hitting them as they entered.
rated M (but mild sexual content), parent Tony Stark, Bucky Barnes recovering, team as family, of love and hobbits 🧝🏻‍♂️. word count: 15,289
✨ Paths Are Made by Walking by Potrix 
The road to recovery is long, winding and a different one for every person walking it. Bucky chooses to help himself the only way he knows how; by doing what he does best.
Or, alternatively; the one in which Tony is a mess and accidentally kick-starts Bucky’s protective mother hen instincts.
rated T, post-TWS, fluff, humour, getting together, idiots in love. word count: 4,744.
✨ Rise In Perfect Light (Be Not Fearful Of The Night) by RayShippouUchiha
At first, the new element singing in his chest, Tony doesn’t understand what he’s done.
Doesn’t understand the full consequences of his actions.
But, to be fair, there’s no way he really could have.
Not even a futurist like him could have ever seen this coming.
rated G, post-CW, past Stony, angst with a happy ending. word count: 3,589.
(note: this fic is SO BEAUTIFUL. lemme just asjkdjnsjkdm)
✨ and amidst the ruins, there was you by TheKitteh
With everything resolved - post the Berlin conflict, Siberia and the rogue Avengers' return - Tony relishes in the clarity of what the team is now. He can finally see the well-defined lines, he can rely on solid rules and the chain of command. He's settled into his life like never before.
That is, until one day, an unhinged sorcerer with no grasp on his magic shatters that new-found balance.
As a result, half of Tony's soul is now gone, but he's willing to do anything to get it back.
rated T, post-CW, canon divergence, au - Dystopia, Dimension Travel, magical accidents, slow burn, getting together. word count: 36,976
✨ and so we unfold by TheKitteh
Senbazuru. Thousand Cranes.
An ancient Japanese legend that promises anyone who folds a thousand origami cranes will be granted a wish by the gods. Some stories believe you are granted happiness and eternal good luck, instead of just one wish, such as long life or recovery from illness or injury.
Bucky’s not big on believing in any legends, not after all that has happened. He just wants to create something for a change, not destroy.
He needs to prove himself that he can be trusted to handle something delicate. He doesn’t need a promise of a wish come true. He just,- needs to do this for himself.
He doesn’t need noticing how sad, tired Stark looks. Doesn’t need to want to do something for the man, when he can barely do anything for himself.
rated T, CACW canon divergence, getting together, reconciliation, POV alternating, Bucky Barnes recovering. word count: 14,449
✨ Spilt on the Ground like Water by tisfan
Tony has been black-bagged and illegally held at the Raft. Steve has no intentions of going to rescue him.
But the Winter Soldier isn't going to leave him behind.
rated E, Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes, implied/referenced torture, frottage, dub-con, mention of part non-con (HYDRA trash party), not Steve friendly, suicidal thoughts, touch-starved. word count: 10,853
✨ Norns, Save Us (From Ourselves) by phlintandsteel
It’s been ten years since half the universe was dusted.
rated E, post-IW au, A/B/O verse, Omega Tony, Alpha Bucky, Soulmates, Peter & Harley playing matchmaker, still recovering Bucky Barnes, not Steve Rogers Friendly, angst with a happy ending. word count: 37,324.
✨ Change You Like A Remix by ficlicious 
No one ever said Avenging would be easy, but Bucky could have really used a memo about the weeks where the hits just didn’t stop coming. He’d probably still have signed his soul away to the gods of spandex and paperwork, but a heads up woulda been nice before he nodded and smiled and took up residence in the house sanity fled when the Avengers moved in.
---- Soulmates, misunderstandings, snark, genderswap and sleep-deprived Avengers abound. Tony's a woman. Must be Friday.
rated E, AU - soulmates, established relationship, temporary gender swap, jealous Bucky Barnes, misunderstanding, miscommunication. word count: 10,494.
✨ Getting to Know You by orbingarrow
It had been an adventure, navigating the sweetly apologetic Bucky Barnes, who haunted the tower most days, and the the Winter Soldier, who occasionally inhabited Barnes’s body. The Winter Soldier was not apologetic; he was scary. And he was currently chilling out, uninvited, in Tony's lab.
“Leave,” Tony said, because Tony was either a dead man or not, and there wasn’t much he could do about it before coffee.
“Or you could give me permission to be here,” the Winter Soldier suggested.
“I don’t let strangers poke around my stuff,” Tony grumbled, as he walked past the Soldier to take a seat at his workbench.
“Easily solved,” the Soldier deflected. “Get to know me.”
-This is what happens when Tony does.
rated G, Bucky Barnes & Winter Soldier are different personalities, fluff, Clint Barton is a good bro. word count: 9,470
✨ Safe House by ali_aliska
For years, Tony had successfully kept his secret. Neither the world nor his team knew he was Iron Man and as far as he was concerned, everyone was better off that way. On his best days, Tony Stark was not someone people liked and trusted, so the last thing Tony wanted was to tarnish Iron Man’s good reputation by revealing the truth.
But then SHIELD falls, the Avengers face disarray, and a stray Hydra assassin forces Tony to go into hiding—and where better than the safe house he had just crafted for the Avengers and their own ex-assassin ready to come in from the cold?
Tony plans to hide away from everyone in his makeshift workshop until the coast is clear and he’s safe to go home. No one would care to spend any time with the reclusive, arrogant billionaire anyways, right? Iron Man is the one everyone wants around.
Bucky Barnes, on his own journey to reclaim his life and identity, seems to disagree with that sentiment.
rated T, post TWS, canon divergence, au - Secret Identity, mutual pining, team as family, slow burn, misunderstandings. word count: 89,533
✨ Versace on the floor by withered
The modern man’s armor is his clothing, and Bucky wants Tony out of his.
rated T,  post CW, Bucky Barnes & Winter Soldier are Separate Personalities, Barnes & Soldier & their hard-on for Tony, not team cap friendly. word count: 2,127 
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sup-hoes-its-me · 4 years ago
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Adore You (Yamato x Reader)
A/N: hi guys. Yamato is your secret admirer and you are desperate to find out who's been leaving all these gifts at your doorstep. Civilian reader. Will be two parts, and since i just found out i have the coronavirus and cant leave the house, i’ll be putting out the second part very soon.
Ps i headcanon that yamato would be very shy and awkward with his crush. i also think that when he is nervous he definitely has really sweaty hands. idk thats just the vibe i get from him lol. please enjoy.
Word count: 4500
Y/N walked down the street after a long day of working in the bakery, kneading dough and icing cakes and sweets. It was a great job, and she really enjoyed the company of the two elderly owners. In her arms was another small picnic basket filled with sourdoughs and garlic loaves and cinnamon raisin buns. Those leftovers served as her breakfast, lunch, and dinner most days and it saved a lot of money on groceries.
Sometimes, she gifted the bread to friends and family though, like tonight.
As she walked the bustling streets, people walking home from work for the night, she noticed a couple of familiar faces sitting in the windows of a nearby restaurant. Feeling a little social, she walked into the restaurant and turned the corner, walking through the tables and past other booths full of people talking and drinking. It was busy tonight in Konoha, everyone getting ready for the weekend.
She came to a stop beside their table, and shifted so her basket rested in the slight curve of her hip. With her free hand she waved to the men, a small smile gracing her lips.
“Kakashi, Yamato,” she chirped, “I saw you guys in the window on my way home from work and thought I’d stop in to say hello.”
“Y/N. What a pleasant surprise.” Kakashi hummed, peering over his glass of golden liquid at his friend, who he could tell was struggling to figure out what to say or do. Yamato wasn’t normally nervous; he was very cool headed. How else would he become such an important Anbu member? But around Y/N, this woman with flour dusted in her hair and the smell of cinnamon and chocolate on her clothes, he crumbled. Just that smell alone could make Yamato lose his composure. And Kakashi knew that very well. “As a matter of fact, we were just talking about you.”
Yamato coughed on his drink, covering his mouth with his arm to keep from spitting up on the table. Even if they were just talking about her, it was completely uncalled for for Kakashi to stab him in the back like that. He turned to face the young woman who looked down at him with curiosity in her eyes.
“Really? What about?” she questioned, raising a brow.
He averted his eyes to the table again where his hand rested clutching at the glass. “We were just discussing the bakery,” he explained sheepishly, a hand going to rub the back of his neck. He felt the stress coming on, and sweat was beginning to gather on his palms. He felt ill, and more importantly, upset with the friend sitting directly across from him, smirking under that damn mask.
What an evil bastard.
“Mind if I join you guys? I could definitely use a drink.” She motioned to the seat next to Yamato, and he scooted closer to the wall to make room for her. She made sure her basket was sealed and secure before reaching over the table to Kakashi. “Can you sit this next to you? I don’t wanna take up the whole table.”
“No problem.”
She slid into the seat beside Yamato, and he realized just how small their table really was. The chair was clearly made for one person, or maybe two small people. They were just inches away. He could literally feel the heat of her thigh beside his. He was losing his mind, he was sure of it. There was absolutely no reason to act or think this way just because of a woman, a little baker from the village. No reason. It was inappropriate.
He took a deep breath and sipped on his drink. Everything was cool. Y/N L/N was cool.
“What kind of goods are you bringing home tonight?” Yamato asked calmly.
“Uh, lets see. A sourdough loaf and a garlic rosemary loaf. Also, I have about eight cinnamon buns in there,” she listed off the top of her head, “Why? You wanna take some home with you, because that’s fine. I’m not gonna eat all of it.”
“No, not this time.”
“You, Kakashi?”
“Yeah, I’ll take whatever.” It was a free meal for the next day? How could he say no to that?
The waitress came around, and Y/N ordered a tall glass of some sweet drink, something she knew wouldn’t taste like shit but would get her all warm and cozy quick, fruit juice covering up the taste of poison. “So, what were you guys talking about before I came around? I didn’t mean to interrupt you.”
“It’s good you came around, actually. We could use a woman’s opinion here.” Yamato glared at Kakashi, pleading with everything he had for the copy nin to just leave it alone. Kakashi was set in his goals though, and pushed forward with what he was saying. “It’s about Tenzo.”
An even brighter smile grew on her lips, one full of mischief and curiosity. “Oohoho? I see. What’s got you men stuck?” She loved to gossip, it was just something so interesting in her mundane life. Surely, it wasn’t as interesting to shinobi who almost die all the time and always have something to do, but for a village girl who goes home every night to read and eat bread, and then go to work where she just makes and sells said bread, a bit of juicy personal information really intrigued her.
“It’s honestly not a big deal-”
“Our boy here, he’s got a crush.”
Her eyes widened and suddenly, she felt the urge to down even more of her drink. He was interested in someone? She never expected that. He was always so quiet and calm, and kept to himself. He didn’t seem like the type to ever care about someone in that way. She sighed, taking a long sip on her drink, which tasted like peaches and oranges. At least it was sweet enough to help her curb the impending sadness.
Maybe she was stupid for it, but she cared for Yamato. He was such a sweet and kind man, so earnest and gentle. He was everything good about her mornings, when he would walk in and ask for the same hot cross bun to start his day. He would smile and compliment the cake decorating she was working on, and tell her about his missions and what he had to do for the day.
Perhaps Y/N had the tiniest of crushes on Yamato. It was something she would never reveal to anyone else, but it was true. She couldn’t deny herself that fact.
Kakashi stared at the woman, gauging her reaction to the statement. From the way she immediately went to sip away half of the drink in her glass, and the way her shoulders curled in on themselves, he could guess how she was feeling. He wasn’t usually a fan of meddling in other people’s business, but he was beginning to feel tired of Yamato complaining day in and day out about how he could never get the girl or express his feelings. He was afraid of rejection, as sad as that might be.
He was just there to give them a push in the right direction.
“I see.”
“What do you think he should do? What do the civilian girls like?”
This crush was just another civilian. It would be one thing if he fell in love with a kunoichi, someone she would never be able to compete with, but the thought of him choosing another normal woman over her, the envy practically oozed from her pores. What did this other girl have that Y/N didn’t?
Y/N ordered another drink when the waitress walked by. And then another after she drank the second one. Might as well get more down and drown out these jealous thoughts.
Meanwhile, she listed off things that random women normally like when men do for them, things she didn't really care about like chocolates and asking them out to dinner and giving them stuffed animals. Boring things. Things they all already knew. Kakashi agreed that the advice was kinda bland, and he could have come up with that easily.
Yamato eyed her down nervously as she practically chugged the rest of her drink. The woman wasn’t a big drinker, just a couple innocent cocktails here or there, never with the intention of getting drunk.
“You okay, Y/N?”
“Yes, I’m perfectly fine,” she told him smoothly. “Anyway, I’m not done telling you all about us village girls.”
The third drink came by and she sighed, taking another long sip. At least it tasted good, that made it easy to drink and drink and drink.
“Maybe you should slow down.”
“Maybe you should worry about yourself. I’m grown. I can handle myself, Yamato.” He felt a pang in his chest at her sharp words, ones that he’d never really heard directed toward him. She scolded Kakashi on the daily for being a pervert, but only kind words met Yamato’s ears previously. “Anyway, about this girl. Have you tried getting her anything as a gift? The things I listed before? Love notes? That sorta thing?”
He shook his head. “Well, no. I haven’t tried anything yet.”
“That’s the thing about you, Tenzo. You’re so modest. If you want the girl, you need to go in and get her. You need to show her what she means to you, since you can’t bring yourself to just outright tell her.”
“The whole bold displays of affection aren’t my thing.”
She hummed, her head lolling from side to side as she twirled the straw of her drink in between her fingers. “Maybe you should try some roundabout approach since you’re so scared of rejection. Send her anonymous letters and gifts, give her little clues that it’s you and see how she reacts.”
“Like a secret admirer?"
“Exactly! That’s sooo romantic. I wish some guy would do that shit for me.”
Kakashi raised a brow. “Oh, really?”
“Of course. I’m almost 27 and I’ve never had a long lasting relationship. I just want some guy to really, I don’t know, just love me. Love who I am, not hook up with me for my body or-or only pretend to like me for coupons on bread,” she complained, quite loudly as well. “Fuck those guys and their bread discounts...”
“Y/N-”
“I’d suggest you do something like that for your crush. Make her feel like you really care about her mind and soul.” Y/N clutched her hand over her heart and squeezed the front of her dress. “So many men nowadays act like horny teenagers, and us ladies are sick of it.”
She really did not need to go into such detail, and Yamato could tell she was drinking too much. Y/N would never say these things aloud if she were completely in her right mind. He felt rude just sitting there letting her rant on and on, exposing her own feelings to the table. But at the same time, he was grateful to know what she wanted in a lover. She never really let on what her romantic life was like, other than single for the most part.
That is what he and Kakashi were discussing before she came around. He was desperate to sweep her off her feet and woo her, to make revealing his feelings easier. Kakashi told him to just go to the bakery and tell her right then and there, but that was just too bold. He wasn’t going to go in without a plan, it was irrational.
“Yamato, I’m telling you, if this woman rejects you, she’s fucking stupid. You’re a catch. You and Kashi over there, both of you could get any woman you want, and that’s a fact.” the woman waved her hand to emphasize her point, only to knock the rest of her fourth drink over into her lap, sticky syrup soaking into her apron and through to her skirt. “Oh man.”
“I think it’s time for you to head home, little miss Y/N,” Kakashi chimed in, “This is exactly why we don’t bring you to bars, you know.”
“Shush. I am fine.”
Yamato sighed, motioning with his hands for her to move to the edge of the seat. He rolled his eyes at her words, knowing she was talking out the ass. “Yeah, yeah. Just get up, Y/N. I’m taking you home.”
Both men were surprised when she lifted her hand and pushed him away from her. Her glare was intense, anger behind those eyes. “No! Not you. I want Kakashi to walk me home.” The man was taken aback by the harshness in her tone. She was normally calm tempered, but her head was spinning and she was obviously growing moody.
“That’s fine by me. Yamato, you’ll pick up the bill for us and uh, clean this mess, right?” Kakashi smirked as he slid out from the booth and picked up her bag of baked goods. She followed suit, climbing out of her seat and grabbing onto the shinobi’s arm tightly. He really couldn’t care any less about her nonsense. It had been so long since they became friends, he’d seen her in every mood imaginable, and much drunker than this. He’s walked her home more than a few times in their past years.
“Curse you, cheap-ass.”
“Gotta go.”
With that, the white haired man walked out the restaurant with a woman in tow. They lived in the same direction, so he started down the street as she stumbled after him, tripping occasionally on pebbles. He felt bad for his friend, really. But the answer was clear as day now. Y/N cared for Yamato a lot more than she let on. It was just up to one of them to make a move. He couldn't do everything for them.
She tripped along beside him, letting her head fall against his shoulder a few times. Her eyes slid up to the man’s masked face, and he felt her hands begin to quiver a bit around his arm, just a tiny bit, but it was still there. Those little, very-telling, tremors.
“What’s wrong, Y/N?” he asked gently, knowing she would immediately spill whatever was stuck on her mind.
“Kashi, why does Tenzo want some other village girl?” she questioned, her cheeks puffing out and her eyes getting watery with tears. “Why doesn’t he want me? I want him so badly, it hurts right here.” she placed her free hand over her stomach and gagged. “I might throw up, it hurts so much.”
“Trust me, it’s gonna be okay,” he hushed, a tiny smile on his lips. He didn’t want to reveal too much to her, but it was just so amusing pulling the strings like this. Two of his friends, one a subordinate and the other a sneaky baker, falling for each other right in front of him. With all the work piling up, this was definitely a refreshing take.
“Also, you shouldn't throw up. It'll burn your throat, you know.”
She nodded, and just clutched onto her stomach as they made their way down the narrow alleyways toward her small apartment. He unlocked the door for her when she struggled to fit the key into the tiny hole that blurred together with everything else. He was a good friend, she thought, and made a mental note to thank him next time she saw him. Well, she tried to make a mental note, but when her body hit the mattress in the corner of her small studio, she found herself drifting away.
__________
God, her head hurt so badly she thought her skull was cracking open right then and there, as she lifted her head from her pillow. Light shined in through the window only to make things worse than before. She looked around the room and noticed that her coat was hung up properly on the hook and her shoes were sitting by the door. Her basket rested atop her counter.
Most importantly, on her nightstand sat a glass of water and a couple pills, ready for her to take the moment she woke up. Kakashi or Yamato must have walked her home and put her to bed. They were very nice men, she enjoyed having them as friends, she just worried she had made a drunken fool of herself last night in front of them. She rarely drank heavily, for that reason. She couldn’t even remember what happened, just that she met them at the restaurant and then the rest fell empty in her mind, little images blending together until she couldn’t decipher a thing that happened. She was more than ashamed.
How could she lose control of herself so casually, she wondered. She never even wanted to drink, much less enough to give her this searing headache. Something must have happened last night that influenced her decisions. Maybe she had a drinking contest with Kakashi like that one time before. If so, that was completely uncalled for on the man’s part. He knew her tolerance.
Nevertheless, she needed to get ready for work. A hangover wasn’t enough to heed the workings of the bakery.
She took the pills, and threw off her covers, walking over to her counter to take out one of the cinnamon rolls, taking a big bite to curb her hunger pains. After taking a moment to compose herself, she got ready for work. If she was late, she knew the owners would be forgiving, but she still felt bad regardless. She was going to walk in looking like a complete disaster.
As she headed out her door that morning, she stumbled on something sitting right at the foot of her doorstep on the welcome mat. Resting there, in a tiny little ceramic pot, stood a bonsai tree, trimmed and cared for perfectly. Her eyes scanned the area for who could have set it there, but met only empty space.
Hesitantly, she picked it up and brought it into her home. There was no note attached, nothing to signal who’d given it to her. Just a little tree that she would put on her window sill. It was strange, she had to admit that, to receive an anonymous gift at such an hour. She’d have to ask her friends about it later on to see if one of them had given it to her, for reasons she didn’t know.
But as the days went by, and those days turned into weeks, she continued to receive gifts every few days. More tiny trees in pots, sometimes flowers in little glass vases. None of them at first had anything attached until the most recent piece which when she picked it up to take into her home, a folded piece of paper sat beneath the vase. She made sure to pick it and put it in her apron to read on her break when she went to work. She didn’t have the time when she woke up only about 20 minutes before she was due at her job.
She was more than grateful for the little garden she was accumulating on her window sill, the beautiful flowers and trees somehow surviving despite her little knowledge of taking care of them. She stopped by a flower store in town to get some fertilizer just to keep them alive. It would be a shame if they died since someone was being so kind as to give them to her.
With her boring life, the flowers brought a smile to her face and a warmth in her heart that she hadn’t felt before. Regardless of who was leaving the items there, she felt like she was important to someone. Some person was taking time out of their day to show they cared about her.
Truthfully, she’d be lying if she said she hadn’t wished it was Yamato leaving her gifts. She’d been attracted to the man for quite some time, ever since they met really. He was just so strong and brave, and awkward in a cute kind of way. He was truly the only man of her affections, and she could only dream she was the object of his as well.
It was more than unlikely though. He was a strong ninja of the leaf. The chances of someone that amazing wanting to be with someone as simple as the town baker were lower than she wanted to admit. He most likely had his eyes set on some gorgeous kunoichi like Shizune or Kurenai. Someone he could relate to, really.
It was embarrassing to even admit she had a crush on him. It made her feel so tiny and weak, knowing that she wasn’t his ideal.
So she pushed that thought from her mind. Yamato would never be interested in her, and he most certainly not the one leaving her little notes and plants.
What she did know was that this person was a shinobi. Maybe not Yamato, but they were definitely a shinobi. She set up a trap, at least one she thought a normal person would fall for. Right before her door, she set up a tiny trip wire made of floss at the perfect level for someone to pull loose when they walked up to leave a gift on her welcome mat. Her room was at the very end of the hallway, so there was no way anyone else except her secret admirer was the one to set off the trap. Any normal person without the high perception of a shinobi would set off the trap and she would be able to narrow down the results to a civilian.
Only, the morning after she set up the trip wire, when she opened her door, there sat another bouquet of flowers, as well as an untripped strip of floss.
This person had to be a shinobi. She concluded. It was the only explanation in her mind, desperate to find out who the mystery person was all this time.
As she walked the streets that afternoon after the store had closed, her eyes honed in on Yamato, who stood next to a vegetable stand picking up some groceries. Immediately, she turned on her heel and cornered him between the squash and the sweet potatoes.
“Yamato, I need to talk to you. It’s urgent. Do you mind?” she practically demanded, and his eyes widened. He did not expect such an abrupt conversation between them. He shifted awkwardly to rest his grocery bag in the crook of his elbow and lean on his left side, arms crossed over his chest.
He knew what she wanted to talk about. It was about those gifts that he had been giving her. It was just a matter of whether she had figured out it was him or not, that was the question. He was kinda hoping she didn’t know yet. He was not ready to face what came after the reveal, rejection or otherwise. He really hadn’t thought it that far out yet. How could he. Just thinking up love notes and what plants to give her next was more than enough to worry about.
But damn, when he looked down at her, hair dusted with flour from a days work, a smudge of cake batter still on her forearm, apron a complete mess, he wanted to cave and tell her everything. She was just so beautiful, so clumsily perfect he couldn’t help but lose his train of thought. He swore he’d never seen a woman more perfect than her, not even Naruto’s sexy jutsu could come close to this girl.
He found his ears heating up and no doubt turning red at the thoughts running through his mind, and he was quick to smother them down. He was not irrationally emotional. Hell, he was ANBU, he should be able to control his emotions down to a tee.
“Yes, Y/N?”
“I have a secret admirer, and I know they are a shinobi.”
He felt himself growing nervous. How had she deduced that? “Ah, that’s definitely exciting for you. How do you know it’s a shinobi?”
“I know because I set up a tripwire last night and the person didn’t set it off, so I know they are coordinated enough to avoid it. This isn’t just some random village boy. This is someone skilled.”
“Y/N, he could have very well just avoided the trap with his natural gait, don’t you think?” he tried to reason with her, try to get her off his trail. Admittedly, he thought she was quite clever for setting up the trap. When he walked over it the night before, he swore it was just a spider web. He didn’t even consider the possibility of a trap in his way.
If only he could throw her off his scent. He needed more time. He couldn’t confess to her now. It was too abrupt, too sudden. He would probably die.
“No, I’m convinced it’s a shinobi.”
Shit. “Well, what are you going to do now?”
She thought for a short moment on what she was going to say, tapping her foot on the ground beside her. Her eyes widened and she smiled at the thought that ran through her mind. Of course, it was so obvious. “The gifts come sporadically, so I know that the shinobi can’t leave gifts when they are on missions. Next time there is a long break in gifts, I will just ask around to figure out who has been on a mission for a while. Bam, I’ve got my answer. It’s foolproof.”
She really had thought this through more than him. She was too good, and he felt himself panicking. He had a weeklong mission in 3 days, and if she asked anyone, they would tell her it was him. He felt moisture gather up at his brow, and he internally cursed his situation. He had to find some way out of this mess without her figuring out it was him.
“Yeah, that could definitely work. I hope it all works out for you, Y/N,” he lied through his teeth.
“I know. I’m just smart like that, aren’t I?”
“You sure are,” he muttered, but honestly, he just wanted to go off and find Kakashi. He needed to talk to him. His eyes slid away from Y/N and he sighed. “I’ve got to go, but I’ll see you around, yeah?”
“Yeah, of course. Don’t forget to stop by before your next mission to get some of our special food pills, okay? I just made a new batch and you can try them free of charge. Anything for a fella as handsome as yourself.” She laughed, shifting her weight to press a hand to her hip.
Jeez. There was no good reason for her looking so adorable. Calling him handsome as well? It was all too much for his heart to handle. Needless to say, he felt like he was going to explode if he didn’t walk away right then. With that, he simply nodded before patting her shoulder. “Like I said, gotta go.”
“Oh, okay. See you around.”
“See you.”
He walked away quickly, heading in the direction of Kakashi’s apartment, knowing he just had to do something about the mess he was currently in, and ways to avoid the inevitable. His heart was racing so fast he thought he might be having a heart attack. How could he be swayed so easily by a pretty face. He had no idea, but he really wanted it to stop. For the sake of his sanity, he needed to learn to be calm around her.
He would tell her soon, get all this off his chest and share his true feelings. He just needed a bit more time.
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dpdraesthetic · 2 years ago
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how do you go about actually getting professional diagnoses for these sorts of things? ive had a professional tell me im dissociating (experiencing dp and dr) but im not actually diagnosed, idk if it would help but i know somethings off and i now know what it is and yet that same professional didnt actually diagnose me just talked to me abt it, which is fine, just... yeah
hey, i have no idea when this was sent, it could have been a week ago or it could have been years, tumblr doesnt timestamp asks on mobile, but im slowly reviving this blog as it meant a lot to me during my original diagnosis with dpdr, and now realizing im going through another spiral i think its time for me to bring it back
so! as for your ask
im in the states, in the pacific northwest, so im just speaking from my experience here with my diagnosis process, mental health is taken Way more seriously than say like the midwest or the south, and i cannot even begin to speak on how other countries handle the diagnosis process, so again, just speaking from what i know
ive personally been suffering from symptoms of dpdr since as early as six years old, i had a bit of an unconventional childhood which made these symptoms present at a very early age, and these symptoms went untreated until i was 14
a friend of mine went to a lgbt+ youth meetup space, invited me, it was hosted by the local mental health organization, the two ladies who hosted it were therapists there, and after going a few times they suggested i go in to see a mental health counselor within their org because they could tell Something was up with me (lmfao)
that was the only reason i happened to get in to see therapists and psychologists at my age
since then ive seen countless therapists, psychologists, addiction counselors, medication management providers, trauma specialists, the full works
something ive learned is to be insistent, dpdr is something a lot of people dont understand even in mental health circles, osdd in general is sooo understudied and not understood, it took years of my psychologists bouncing from diagnosis to diagnosis
oh this week i have DID, this week im experiencing psychosis symptoms, no actually it may be dpdr, no no its definitely dissociative amnesia, maybe im bipolar- its kinda an endless loop
generally now when i go into see new psychologists i just go "i have dpdr," or "its been suggested i have dpdr by [insert professional ive spoke with before here]"
let them know others have seen it, that its a documented problem, call nurse hotlines, make a fuss, make sure every psychologist you see is made aware of what youre experiencing, document your experiences with dates in a journal and email them copies, give them proof they cant refute
because a lot of time its very much a case of "well this person LOOKS normal" which makes psychologists overlook this kind of mental illness
but also remember that having an official diagnosis isnt the end all be all yknow? you know what youre experiencing, and having it on a chart isnt gonna change it
idk im starting to kinda go in and out of reality so these words are starting to look less and less real but i hope this makes sense!
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