#IDK HOW MANY MORE TIMES I XAN SAY IT

[mimikittysblog]

I promise you. you leave me alone with this man even for a single minute, i will fix korea’s population problem.

[aiam-maianaise]

Actually I’m gonna go more in depth here. Tags were before I wrote this part.

Even with a basic savings account, the 10million will quickly outsize what the 1k a day is capable of.

1k a day, may as many have said, reach 10million in 27 years.

But the 10million in those 27 years, even from just basic interest, could reach a lot more.

Like this:

I’ll put the interest rate at 3%. Modest conpared to some, but reasonable. It’ll partially account for how interest rates fluctuate form high at 5 to 6% to lows of 1%

Lets say you spend 1 million to get a house, pay off loans, decrease your weekly expenses.

9 million stowed away for interest.

After 1 year, 9 million becomes 9 270 000 (increased by 270 000)

The second year, that becomes 9 548 100 (278 100 increase)

Third year: 9 834 543 (286 443 increase)

Fourth Year: 10 129 579 (295 036.29 increase. Im lazy and ifnrinf the .29 tho)

At least point you have officially recouped the money you spent paying off loans/buying a house or using as simple spending money.

Fifth year: 10 433 466 (303 887 increase)

Sixth Year: 10 746 469 (313 003 increase)

Seventh Year: 11 068 863 (322 394 increase)

Eighth Year: 11 400 928 (332 065)

Ninth Year: 11 742 955 (342 027)

Tenth Year: 12 125 243 (352 288)

Eleventh Year: 12 489 000 (363 757)

And after 11 years the interest alone almost matches the amount you get each year from the 1k a day.

And with each year the bench mark to match the lump sum amount shifts ever farther.

(By 27 years, the lump sum person with a modest interest rate of 3% could potentially have gotten to 20 041 171$. Double the original sum, and double the ‘goal post’)

All this is with a more reserved interest rate. If you had a higher interest rate or were actively investing, this would be rather different. A 5% interest rate would’ve matched and surpassed the rate of 1k a day in the first year at 450 000 a year (not accountjng tax on the interest) even a 4% on 9 million puts you just under at 360 000 per year, meaning the bery next year youve surpassed it.

Additionally, if you are still working a job, you likely have saved additional money due to not having to pay off loans/pay rent or other stuff. Obviously i habe not accounted for that variable.

Any bad marhs is cause a) its 8 am and i havnet slept wheee (also probably did this a harder way than i needed to)

And also maube just me funbling them keys and numbers fjjfjf.

Explain your reasoning plzzz

[eybefioro]

hello eybe i have come to torment you 🌩️

bookshop, rain, record, nebula, polaroid, tartan socks :)

XAN!! 💛

bookshop - what's your happy/safe place? (physical or intangible)

Intangible? The good omens fandom. Physical? My hammock and my dad's home. I have to say most of the years I lived there were bad but he really tried to make there a little piece of paradise, and he succeeded in the end.

rain - have you ever been in love?

Yes. One time. (Maybe one and a half lol). She was everything to me. My best friend, the only one I could confide in for a long time, the first person I felt attracted to and that I loved in a romantic way. I never felt something so strong before. I wanted to melt into her and have every air she'd breathe out. Wanted my hands forever shaped around hers. I don't think she really loved me tho, I think I was a crutch somehow (she was in a really bad state at the time) considering it got toxic & she cheated on me with my brother, to then turn into a nun and saying I was going to hell/trying to convert me LMAO I think a tiny part of me still loves her... or at least a memory of when I still believed she loved me. I hate how I can still remember the smell of her neck or how it felt to have her weight in my arms when we slept. (Dang it sorry this got long)

The "half" is someone I dated online for a while. I really like her but she lives so far that it simply couldn't work. Maybe if we were more physically close I could've fallen completely in love again.

record - a song that's very significant to you? what does it mean to you?

I listen to so. Much. Music. All the time! it's hard to pick one... hmmrmnr okay. Here goes a sad one. So. One of the reasons I like music so much is my dad. And he used to play this song on guitar often. I almost never sang with him bc well I'm very bad at it and felt conscious about it. But on his wake it just... burst out of me. I don't even remember it properly but I sang it with all my lungs for him. Idk what possessed me. I wish he could've heard it. I think it was the first time that I sang something well and probably was the last time lol como nossos pais - by belchior (this performance by Elis Regina is incredible BTW and it haunts me. She's so amazing it destroys me

nebula - something you've done that you're really proud of?

Ngk. Well. That's a hard one. I have counterpoints and critiques to everything I ever did lol but maybe my final project at uni? That was a nice. Oh and also a Chapel I designed a while ago. Thinking that people will marry and make memories in a place I thought every centimeter of inflates my ego. Even if there's many things I'd change in it now.

tartan socks - hot or not?

HOT! almost all fanart of Aziraphale proves my point.

Gomens ask game

(Last question under the cut bc trigger warning i guess. Suicide mention)

polaroid - what's a bittersweet memory?

ISN'T ALL THIS ENOUGH. I'm kidding lol (I just feel like I'm showing you all my scars in this ask wtf) during the quarantine I got really close to some online friends. One day we found a site that let us draw together in one canvas. We had so much fun. I still have that drawing saved in my computer... it's a very sweet memory, the bitter part is that some months later one of them committed suicide, so my most tangible memory of her is that drawing we made together. I was never able to meet her. We all from the group still chat but without the quarantine we have less time to be online, and life obligations take too much time and energy so we aren't that close anymore. I still think the distance between us started growing tho when she left us.

[sovonight]

I'm about to start BG2, which of the 3 paths for the Xan mod do you think is most in character for him?

well it's the same author as his mod for bg1, so they should all be in character for him, right…? 😒

idk. with the way i prefer to read him, i would guess that the friendship path is the least infuriating, and then his bonded romance, and then his nonbonded romance. i haven't even played his friendship path in bg2, but his romance paths are just. urgh.

his bonded romance has too many opportunities for sex at the expense of actually being able to talk to him, and the times you do get to talk to him, more material than i'd like is recycled from the first game bc of charname's possible amnesia, which detracts from any sense of familiarity/intimacy that the few rare good interactions with him provide. i guess one could consider this path to be in character if you think he's allo and was just too depressed to be super horny in bg1, but bg1 easily let me read him as acespec (his colors are literally purple and gray and he'll only enter a full romance during the timeline of the game if you're able to bond with him in a way that transcends any physical intimacy?? it writes itself) and it's like he stopped being fully himself once bg2 rolled around. another thing i hate is he has moments where you can literally step all over his boundaries, and even if he does speak up against you, you can still demand that he do it, and he'll just do it against his will. sure "devotion" and whatever, but that's not his brand of devotion--it used to be that if you willfully crossed his boundaries, he'd just end the interaction

his nonbonded romance is... it's just kind of tough to get through. the premise is "there was a spark but it was never followed through on," but it kind of assumes that charname broke things off in bg1 (even though it could've just as easily been xan who broke it off, depending on how you played), so it's more like "xan still has feelings for you and flirts with you but he's also disgusted and horrified by you so he holds you at arm's length the whole game." also he never dies in this path, he only dies in the original bonded path, so they're basically saying he gets to live if you just reject him in the first game and change your mind in the second and let him treat you badly until he apologizes and then all is well forever. like??? there's a convo later down the line where you can comment on how absolutely difficult it was to get to this point where he actually openly loves you, and one of the options is "well the difficulty makes getting here worth it," and to that i say no, absolutely not. what makes this path even worse is that you also get more Xan Lore (tm) here than in the bonded path--there's a whole story he tells that you never get to hear otherwise, and his lengthy apology for treating you badly had more thought put into it than most of the conversations in the bonded path. not to be like "it's so unfair :'((" but to be a bg1 xan romancer and not get an equivalent amount of thought put into him in the bonded path?? am i being punished for loving him too early???

i get the feeling that the author was trying to replicate the drama of his romance path in bg1, to make him just as "difficult" to love, but i didn't find him difficult in bg1 at all--he's just traumatized and fearful of loss, and thinks himself that he's difficult to love. his appeal in bg1 was his compassion and understanding and sorrow for the unfair situation charname is in--and now you're telling me that he's become part of that unfairness? sure, he didn't know she was a bhaalspawn for most of bg1, but he saw how she suffered, and has traveled with her long enough to know and respect her as a person. after his first knee-jerk reaction of horror, wouldn't he change his mind rather quickly? having him be genuinely apprehensive abt charname being a bhaalspawn in his bg2 nonbonded romance path walks that backwards and actively undermines his bonded romance path. in the nonbonded path, he says outright that he would be ok with charname being a bhaalspawn if they were already bonded, which isn't a great look bc it comes off as either "i can only find it in my heart to be ok with you if i'm literally chained to you" or "maybe if you didn't end my romance early in bg1 i wouldn't be disgusted by you now". what exactly is good about hearing that???

like props to the author for finding a way to make him involved in the plot and accessible to new players, but 90% of my gripes come from the allowances made to make that possible. he doesn't need an arc, or a storyline, or to be involved in the plot, he should just be in the sequel to hang out

tl;dr, take the friendship path, or even better don't recruit him at all. yes, i personally can't bring myself to play anything but the bonded romance path in bg2 bc it makes me sad to not be special to him in-game, but you! you can be free! friendzone him and have a stronger will than i!

[thespiritofeon]

Bkdk

Just gonna assume you want all the questions answered so you can show all your friends how wrong I am

also idk how to make a read more on mobile so bear with me

1. Who most initiates PDA?

deku

2. Any sleep habits either had to get used to?

deku is a huge cuddler, katsuki splays out and kicks blankets off in the middle of the night

3. Hot and Steamy or Soft and Tender?

both

4. How did they first meet?

when they were babies

5. What is their love language?

insults (words of affirmation) and fighting (time together/physical touch)

6. When did they realize they loved each other?

took other people telling them they were dating one too many times

7. Who is more sentimental?

katsuki

8. What’s one way their personalities compliment one another?

.... idk read the manga

9. How are their personalities different?

again.. read the manga

10. What are some non-sexual activities they do together? 

bicker. read manga. gush about heroes

11. Which member is more physically affectionate?

deku

12. Which member is more verbally affectionate?

deku

13. Which member steals borrows the other ones clothing?

deku

14. Are they an introverted couple or an extroverted one—AKA would they prefer to go out to a party or event together or would they rather stay in?

mix of both - katsuki is (mostly) introverted and deku is extroverted so they compromise

15. Who is more likely to make an impulsive decision and who is the voice of reason?

deku is impulsive

16. Who stays up way too late and who tries to drag them to bed?

deku stays up late

17. Who fell in love first?

deku has admired katsuki forever but realizing he has feelings for him hit him like a mack truck. katsuki fell over time and struggled with trying to figure out if his feelings were normal or Gay

18. What song fits them perfectly?

i will not say because xan disagrees

19. How do they deal with being away from each other for a long time?

theyre fine until they reunite and deku turns into a blubbering mess and katsuki is extra tactile

20. Who holds a grudge the longest?

katsuki

21. Which of the two is quick to speak and which one is quick to listen?

im not answering this

22. Who gets more easily embarrassed?

deku

23. Who overthinks the most?

deku

24. Which of the two is the most competitive?

equal

25. Who’s the most stubborn?

equal

26. How do they comfort each other?

depends on what needs comforting from, but 90% of the time deku needs some sort of physical comfort while katsuki doesnt want to be touched

27. What random everyday object/activity makes them think of each other?

everything

28. Do they get along with each other’s friends and family?

yes, for the most part

29. What is their sex life like?

they have 10 kids

30. What is their favorite place to kiss the other? (Cheek, hand, closed eyelid, neck, nose, etc.)

on dekus forehead, under his bangs

on katsukis arms

31. What’s the relationship like? Smooth? Rocky?

like all relationships

32. How do they resolve their arguments?

they do their best

33. Who has the most nightmares and how do they deal with them?

katsuki. at first he doesnt deal with them in a healthy way, but once he grows up he goes to therapy to work out his issues.

34. Do they give each other nicknames?

yes

35. What movies do they enjoy watching most?

deku loves super hero movies

katsuki loves horror

36. How’d they meet each other’s families?

in diapers

37. What do they like the least about each other?

deku likes to cook but hates to clean

katsuki goes to bed too early

38. What was their most memorable date?

the first one that wasnt interrupted by a villain attack or by their friends

39. What other couple would your otp get along with the best?

good question!

40. Who makes the other smile with almost no effort at all?

deku makes katsuki smile

[m0therflunker]

I had so many thoughts during s1 of my spn rewatch here yah go

damn I forgot how. different Sam and Dean used to be around each other. by s15 so much has been said and done they don't need to like, discuss things in depth - like a lot of stuff goes without saying ? I just finished ep3 so maybe by the end I'll be more articulate hahh I also forgot how good Dean is with kids, right from the get go. I love this bitch. ep 4 the irony of them being like 'no non human would live in this suburban house and be a dentist" and then s10-15 the whole Garth plot line lmao I always forget how bitchy Sam can be haaahh 'i dunno Sam, demonic possession is beyond a paygrade :/' MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD ep5 I forgot how how dark and grainy this used to be , bkess also like, how quickly Sam's visions started? I thought that was a S2 thing but nope, it's pre s1 I also forgot how gory this show can be lmao skin is a good reminder hook man is really just the 'hook man car door' bs isn't it lmao bugs it is lads!! 2 things to note: they rly did a 'previously on' ever EP like ,,, honey only one things happened so far things r gonna get so much worse 2 I forgot how awful it is 3 they rly. are so racist to native Americans. like I knew? but I couldn't quite recall how /bad/ it was hahhh AHDKSLAKDJA deans brainwashing ab his dad is so deep nooooo😭 I forgot just HOW much of a baby Sam was. also like. how he acc had personality . rip lol remember when Sam acc used to argue back w dean. and remember when Dean just blindly followed what John said to do. bad times also when Sam would make threats to leave and actually follow through hell yeah no but forreal Sam& deans daddy issues were such a big part of the show I forgot how integral it used to be YOOOOO ITS . is it meg?? or ruby? I can't remember who it is at first AHHH demon time LETS GO MEG SUPREMECY LETS GOOOO also the fun parallel of Dean and Sam both trying to call ahhh cannot believe I forgot deans first almost death happens in the first SEASon ARITITE SO REPEARS XAN GIVE AND TAKE LIFE! don't think they can do that in s15? also I missed the great music ooooh also u love that 'cant kill a human being Dean, then we'll be no better' Sam honey u r a serial killer plus 'we can't kill death!' s11 has a fun surprise RACIST MONSTER TRUCK FUCK YEAAAH racist monster truck walked so homophobic vase could run idk what it is I'm picking up on but like. I missed the feeling that Sam and Dean were actually friends. perhaps it's the pre-several-times-of-betrayal max!! the whole group of cursed psychic kids is starting!!! I have a faint memory of Dean saying smth like 'sam I'm acc super scared ur like a monster n if u were anyone else I'd hunt u ://' n Sam just has to be. arite. anyway. stop fucking lying to Sam yooo the cannibals! except they're not cannibals kinda funny how like, s&d eventually fight alphas n fuckin. leviathans but almost got bested by rednecks ITS RHE MEG EPISDOE FUUUCCKK YEAAAH I'm watching on 1.25 speed n it's not noticeable until the characters walk or run when it hilarious oh man the '05 FASHION every time they leave the car w the windows open or don't double check it's locked I internally scream YOOO JOHN THE BASTARD HIMSEEEELF sams so smart I love he. uWu misogyny?! in /my/ supernatural? hate to see it xx I know this show has some iconic, and ""iconic""" lines but 'ooo look it's the evil root cellar, where Satan cans his vegetables' rly fuckin got to me for some reason HOLY SHIT GHOSTFACERS?!?!? *inset Beyonce gif here* I thought they showed up in S3 lmao also, the PRANKS!! pre-hell s&d are so pure. featus sam's laugh - ARGH BABY DEAN AND SAAAAM I forgot how cute they r in flashbacks 🥺 deans so good w kids ARGH the whole art dealer EP is just. so boring? plus Sam!! stop being all 'woe is me!!!' like u only got one gf killed there's time for woe later it's the endgame folks and John Winchester is already being a bitch 🥰 I hate him 🥰🥰 I feel so bad for Dean idk :/ I hate confrontation how anyone can watch this show n think john wasn't an awful dad. idk. KDMSKRHDISJEJDJE OMFG THE POOR GIRLS JUST SAT

[yoko-omo]

hi i need to rant but i’m completely alone and don’t wanna rant on my main socials bc irl people can see so i’m coming here :( i don’t know how to start this i’m just so completely alone and paranoid and confused and i’m being abandoned so my heart is like!!!!! my best friend is abandoning me i know she is i accepted it but why??? should i cling to this friendship or let it fade away idk??? they say you have 2 attachment styles and i am definitely NOT the kind to cling to ppl when i suspect abandnment i withdraw sooooo fucking hard i will leave you first so easily. but i can’t do that w her yet bc idk the reason WHY she’s abandoning me she says she’s just been too xaned out and that’s why she’s distant and in that case you’re leaving me the same way my mother did just with drugs indtead of alcohol and that shit hurts i’ve told you about my childhood you know how much that hurts and i know it’s not all about me i’m trying to help and be there for her but she isn’t letting me and this is my post so i’m allowed to make it about my feeling rn bc i never make it about me in real life!!! but i suspect she mostly just doesn’t wanna be friends w me anymore rather than xans bc she talks to everyone else you’re not distant w everyone else!!!! if i did something wrong please just tell me i’m trying my best i’ve tried so hard. last summer we spent like every other week together and i never felt closer but now this year you made all new friends and i’ve hung out with you maybe 3 days. the beginning of every month. like clockwork. i asked if you wanted to hang out so many times just for you to leave me on read and then i see on instagram you hanging out w your new friends. every day. then one day you randomly replied to my message that was a month old and i was like oh cool a pleasant surprise!!! only to find out your new friends stopped talking to you. you only came back to me when your new friends went away. and now you’re friends w them again and you don’t talk to me anymore. one of the 3 days we hung out this summer i was desperate and thought i could buy your love and i brought 20 dollars for us to share and told you you can use the money for weed if i can use 10 of it to get acid bc i kno you know the plugs better than i do but instead you used all but 2 dollars to buy a xan for yourself and a xan for your new friend. thanks. now today’s your birthday and i wrote a sappy happy birthday message for you and you seen it but never replied. but the last time we hung out, same day as the 20 dollar fiasco,  your iphone died and you didn’t have a charger so i let you log into instagram on my android phone and you’re still logged in so i get your notifs and accidentally click on them at least once a day and it’s fucking annoying and i want to ask you how to turn them off or get your page off my instagram but i know you wouldn’t reply so i’ve been waiting to see you in person again to ask whenever that may be, but today was one of the days i accidentally clicked on your notifs and saw that you repled to every other birthday message but mine. everybody else got a “thank yoouu” or “thank you ily” or “thank you <3″ but me. why? 3 days before your birthday i asked if i could take you golfing for it and you saw the message but didn’t reply. just like the times i asked if i could maybe hang out with you AND your friends bc maybe i’m not good enough to hang with alone but i thought maybe i could at least hang with you and your new friends but nope. it feels like you hate me but the rare 3 times we did hang out you don’t hold any hostility towards me and seem completely normal so i just don’t know!!! is it bc your new friends do more drugs than me??? i just want my best friend back you were all i had i don’t have a mom and a dad you were the only person i was close to and i didn’t care bc you were enough but now you’re abandoming me just like my parents and it hurts even worse bc i never would have expected it from you!!!! i thought you would be in my life forver w my dad he abandoned me when i was like 5 and he was always at work so i never saw him anyways and so i got over it and w my mom i expected it i saw it coming bc she abused me and told me how much she hated me and wanted me to die becfore she abandoned me but you were always there for me we’ve been best friends since we were 8 or 9 and i fully expected never had a doubt that you would be in my life forever and now the rug was completely pulled out from under neath me i never expected this i just want someone to care about me and love me and i want to roll up into a ball while i’m hugged i want to be cared about i feel like a little kid i want you

[petitetiddiez]

Favourite of your own characters.

Oh that’s really hard! It changes a lot, but as of right now I think it’s this:

1. Preeti - She’s honestly like the world’s hottest lesbian to me??? This gorgeous, outdoorsy musician who’s just a little big egotistical, but has a soft side. Kind of stereotypical, but I just love it. I’m a sucker for that kind of oc. Plus, she’s really cute with her girlfriend (who was almost on the list but JUST BARELY missed it)

2. Helen (who is now latina/indian like she DESERVES) - A huge brat that I’ve owned for many many years and who has been through MANY different fandoms (including some original work set in medieval times). She’s my baby--she’s complicated and deep and has one of the most in-depth backstories of any oc. She’s fun to ship and I can always think of good interactions for her. I just. Would die for her.

3. Tiffany - She’s new, but she’s another stereotype I really like: bimbos who are smart, but just unconventionally so. She’s obviously based really heavily on Elle Woods from Legally Blonde but also has developed her own kind of thing. She’s girly, but knows how to speak her mind; she’s privileged, but tries to be aware of it and put other people in the spotlight; she’s gay, but wants what most girly teeny-boppers want out of a relationship. She’s just fun to write, and I really love ocs that are just NICE FUCKING PEOPLE. Plus, her hair is super fun to draw!

4. Phaerie - I love old school Punk and other counter-culture movements, so that is what Phaerie encompasses. I also used to have a HUGE fixation on Drow (dark elves, a race in Forgotten Realms and other fantasy settings) and that’s originally what Phae was. She’s wild and fun and impulsive, she’s hilarious, she’s EVERYTHING I WANT in an oc! She’s so fun to rp as well. She has her soft side, her talents, her flaws, but they all feel like the most sensible ones? Like her actions are wild, but her motivations and development is simple and relatable. She struggled and felt like she had to force her way into the world, so she forces her way into EVERYTHING and fuck anybody who doesn’t like that. Plus, it’s fun to draw super punky or glam rock outfits for her to wear AND she’s based on Pizzazz from Jem and the Holograms so where can you go wrong??

5. Xander - So he’s uh... Also based on some existing characters. But, he’s become enough of his own oc to where I feel comfortable sharing.

My favorite game EVER is Baldur’s Gate, and there’s a certain mod that makes you able to romance the character Xan... Who I totally love and always end up romancing even though I’m a lesbian. This is Xan

MY Xan has developed into a super depressed bartender. He’s Jewish and anxious and has an insanely huge family that constantly picks on him because he’s anxious and easy to pick on. He grew up into a mess of an adult, especially since his only real skill is cheap magic tricks. He can’t keep a relationship because he’s so cynical and self-sabotaging, but he REALLY wants one and is a freak for romantic comedies. Whenever he manages to date a girl for long enough (and he usually picks girls who treat him badly because he doesn’t think he deserves better), he tries to make some big romantic gesture and fucks it up. He’s a mess and a slob. I adore him.

6. Xanthe - Yet another anxious wreck of a person, but this time the MOST anxious wreck there is. She’s agoraphobic, overly-critical, and her entire life is online. She’s a lesbian, but hasn’t figured that out yet and instead thinks she’s aro/ace. She’s very good with details and complex problems, which manifests in her being a talented programmer. SHe’s also a hacker by trade, paid to hack into company servers and point out their flaws so the company can patch those up. She also likes models and dolls--anything with lots of tiny parts and details that she can obsess over to pass the time.

7. Jules - First of all: he’s Helen’s half-brother and I love him. Jules was a really dramatic character back in the day, but after meeting his future wife he’s developed into more of a comedic character. He’s a loser musician--not UNTALENTED but also lacking any of the motivation to do what he needs to do to make a living with music. He’s... basically a slutty bisexual bard who has settled down and chilled out. Idk, he’s just funny. I love him. He also has the MOST detailed backstory of all my ocs--it’s about 20 pages long if written out. It’s. Whew. A lot.

8. Manda - Based on one of my best friends, she’s another extremely detailed oc (probably #2 behind Jules). She would’ve been my favorite, but since I’ve kind of ‘finished’ her story I find myself not using her much. She’s the spoiled child of a shady ass celebrity lawyer and doesn’t care about much of anything EXCEPT her skill as an actress. She struggled in relationships, thinking she was bi pretty much until she met her wife and NEVER UNDERSTANDING WHY she got so attached to the women she dated. She met her wife on a reality show, they dated long distance, and then Manda flew her to California to be together forever. Her story is crazy (she was married to her weed dealer for a while??) and I think her becoming the head of a production company after a successful film career is the perfect ending for her.

9. Nia - Not a lot to say about Nia, but more I love her design and I’m excited to develop her more? Mom friend lesbian ballerina twin. Love it. Really outspoken and direct. 

10. Rae - I have a huge soft spot for Rae because I think she’s the most similar to me?? Creative young girl from a small town who desperately wants to go somewhere more accepting. Spent most of her time online, and when she finally goes to college she goes ALL OUT trying to join every club, befriend all kinds of people, follow all the trends, and be the ‘It Girl’. It’s exhausting and she ends up crashing a lot of the time, but her optimistic/bubbly personality keeps her going. I said before that I love perky nice characters and that’s Rae to a T. Also she’s poly/bi so that makes her fun to work with when it comes to shipping

[blushingbabypink]

What’s up yitches

I slept through my sociology final, but whatever 🤪 I wasn’t gonna get an A anyway, I have a high B so missing a final won’t really change anything

I’m wearing a cinch “belt” thing, like those shirts with the criss-cross lace up...yeah that, but like a belt...?? A teacher at school basically said that it was inappropriate and i got the sense that she wanted to say it was slutty but she didn’t say that. The gag is that I went to my grandma’s house after school cause we got out early, and she said she loved my outfit. She thought it was cute, so as long as I can wear my outfits around my grandma, I think I’m fiiine.

I figured out what kind of car I want. I want a Tesla, but it’s so expensive. I also want and all black Challenger with baby pink rims :) I think it’d be funny. Me, a small girl driving and all black car like that with pink rims, I also want a hello kitty or pink license plate frame. That’d be silly but I want it, it matches my personality.

Also I’ve been to Victoria’s secret twice this week and have waaay too many panties. I’m planning on getting rid of all my bras/panties that aren’t black and replacing them with ones that are black.

I talked to my mom’s financial planner and !!! I can start a Roth IRA woohooo woop woop Im so excited. Oh my fucking god am I literally fucking 40 years old?? Why am I getting excited over a retirement savings plan I hate myself.

aaalso

Are ALL boys like..gross?? Like what the heck

I. Have. Questions.

A boy told me the first time he watched porn, he threw up haha.

- Why doesn’t every guy wear cologne it smells sooo good 😩🙌🏽👅

- What the heck is a “pump and dump” is that a thing?? Some coworker said it idk i have an idea but like gross

- Why are boys sweaters softer than girl sweaters

- Why don’t more guys (or everyone) wear more all-black outfits fuuuck it’s so hot wow

- Do guys shave their legs or like trim them or something how

- Is it scary shaving your face

I am kind of ashamed to say that I like to listen to a lot of soundcloud rappers and that type of music. But wow there’s two guys that are so beautiful I love their hair. Yung pinch’s hair is gooorgeous. It’s so nice and like grunge-y looking(??). Also Paris (prodbyparis) is amazingly beautiful and I wanna stare at him all day long. His hair and his eyebrows and his eyes and his style is nice. He seems chill. Also Landon Cube. Long hair on boys is 👌🏽👌🏽I like a lot of soundcloud rapper music but I’d never be able to go to one of their shows/concerts cause I’d DIE. I’d get trampled.

okay byye no one even cares about this

I want money money money and absinthe and all da boys to wear cologne

Some music I like (ashamed-ly)

- When I Was Yung - Yung Pinch

- Po’ed Up - Paris

- Word - Eliozie

- Russian Cream - Roy Woods

- Creeping - Lil Skies ft. Rich the Kid

- I Know You - Lil Skies ft. Yung Pinch

- Esskeetit - Lil Pump

- Middle of the Mall - Pouya

- Far - Lil Xan

Judge me hoe I don’t give a shit

[julictsrose]

juliet celia jacobs’ questionnaire answers below the cut

Describe your character in a few words.

motherly. sensitive. anxious. caring. smart. serious.

What do you know about your character that they don’t know yet?

well her whole biological family for starters. juliet’s got no idea that her and xander are actually twins and gemini’s her little sister. because that’s some soap opera shit and she is not here for it. also the fact that her and addison are so similar and are gonna be rlly good friends. she doesnt know that. 

What are your character’s major flaws?

she doesn’t take care of herself at all. that’s the big one. she cares so much about other people but she won’t do anything for herself. also the fact that she so hopelessly believes in reason behind everything. like in general i don’t think optimism is bad but she’s optimistic to a fault. she puts all her eggs in one basket and has no idea what to do when things don’t work out. 

What would your character give their life for?

her family.

What is your character’s greatest asset?

she would do anything for the people she loves. or even total strangers tbh. she just wants to help people and make the world better. 

What would completely break your character?

what WOULDN’T. no, uh, for real, i’m not answering this cause some shits gonna happen u guys. you’ll see juliet break. 

How does the image your character tries to project differ from the image they actually project?

i’d say juliet projects her image of perfection very well. i don’t think anyone really sees through the image she puts up besides reece. maybe that’s why she loves him sooooo much.

What is your character afraid of?

losing. in just about any capacity. she’s afraid of failing at things she wants to win or accomplish. she’s afraid of losing her loved ones. that’s where her anxiety really stems from and her fear of letting people really see her. gal’s got abandonment issues fr.

Where would your character fall on a politeness/rudeness scale?

so polite. would cut off own hand for you.

If your character could choose a different identity, who would they pick?

is it weird to say she’d be ophelia if she could? 

In what or whom is your character’s greatest faith in?

right now? honestly probably reece. that’s so unhealthy but its honest. she just pours herself into her romantic relationships and wants them to be everything that matters. when she doesn’t have a boyfriend, it would be will and xander though. 

What was the best thing in your character’s life?

her family

What was the worst thing in your character’s life?

her break up back in college maybe

What is your character’s biggest nightmare?

being abandoned and/or people seeing past the perfect girl disguise she’s built for herself

What is your character’s secret wish?

that reece would just fuckin marry her honestly

What is your character’s greatest achievement?

finishing med school. also that national title for the women’s swim team at columbia. maybe being her high school’s valedictorian. she’s got a lot of achievements bruh. 

What is your character’s deepest regret?

probably letting her ex influence so much of her life and the decisions she made both when they were together and after they broke up. as if she’s not doing the same with reece rn smh 

What is your character reluctant to tell people?

anything abt the storm inside her head

What is your character hiding from themselves?

her fucking eating disorder. bitch knows she has that shit. but she’s out here like nO IM FINE

What makes this character angry? What calms them?

juliet doesn’t really get angry very much?? i guess when she feels like someone is intentionally trying to ruin things for her. and as for calming man i wish i knew but i don’t think she’s ever been calm before in her LIFE

List situations in which your character would not have control over themselves.

all of them. 

How strong is your character’s emotions? Controllable? Uncontrollable?

juliet has literally 0 control over her emotions but she likes to pretend like she has all the control. her emotions control her always. she has this tendency to lash out or panic mid conversation and she has no idea what to do about it. 

Describe your character’s family.

juliet’s adoptive family is wonderful and she adores all of them sm. her parents are kinda hippie-ish (though not as hippie ish as her bio parents lol) and they’re very liberal. her dad is an english professor at stanford and he’s obsessed with shakespeare (obviously) and her mom is a lawyer (but also obsessed with shakespeare). she has a younger sister ophelia who is her polar opposite but basically her best friend. and also a younger brother named lysander who is a little angel baby but now he’s like FOURTEEN YOU GUYS WHAT. juliet absolutely adores her family. i’m serious. they’re all her faves. 

Name your character’s favourite person and why?

 xander branstad though she’d never admit it to anyone other than him cause she knows everyone wants to be her fave tbh. xander is just her person okay!! they’re bffs since always and he gets her in a way no one else does and there’s just no one she’d rather go to when she’s sad and needs a hug or just a movie night and to hang out. he’s just her favorite person to be around. 

How many friends does your character have?

lol a good amount now i guess. but generally not many. its usually just xan and will and then maybe a few other friends who are probably more like acquaintances tbh. also i think she has more friends than she thinks she does. cause she charms just abt everyone she meets but she doesnt think theyre friends yet cause she doesnt really believe people wanna be her friend

How many friends does your character want?

all the friends. she wants to have so many friends but she doesn’t know how to make the friends

How would a friend or close relative describe your character?

the kindest person you’ll ever meet. perfect probably. 

Who depends on your character? Why?

ophelia depends HEAVILY on juliet bc what r sisters for. also xander probably for the same reason and then idk abt in this verse exactly but usually will too

Who does your character most want to please? Why?

EVERYONE. she equally wants the approval of every single person she ever meets. there’s to rhyme or reason to the order of importance and i’m sure it varies constantly based on who seems to approve the most. i.e. she most wants the approval of the person the least pleased with her at any given moment. 

How does your character feel about sex?

good?? lol it’s kind of a non-issue for her i guess which seems funny since she seems so prim and proper and like some 50′s housewife like 89% of the time but idk probably bc her parents are so chill she doesn’t see it as a huge deal?? if she wants to do it she will??? she’s never slept with someone she wasn’t dating though but that’s just a health issue more than anything. that being said she’s also slept with every person she’s dated so i mean. it is what it is. 

How does your character feel about romantic relationships?

real anxious but real excited. she just wants to be loved!! she wants love!! she wants to get married and be someones wife and live happily ever after already okay!!

How does your character feel about work?

so juliet’s never had what the kids call a “”real job”” she’s just done a lot of internships and like volunteer stuff like gal’s never had to work a day in her life to make money cause her parents are Rich AF but she really loves working if that makes sense?? like all of the internships and volunteer stuff she THRIVES on that shit she loves to be doing things and organizing and making stuff happen!! and all this medical internships stuff? incredible. love of her life actually.

Write one additional thing about your character.

makes pinterest recipes better than the original.

[deeton]

vent

i swear i never do this. like not just on tumblr like in real life also literally last week i gently touched on the subject of my personal life matters to my proffesor and starting crying. i NEVER cry. why am i like this. anyways im gonna add one of these boys in cuz ig this is gonna be a long mf  post 

anyways i have no long term goals and i just dont,, fucking care,,, about school. but i love school so much. besides the schoolwork, obviously. but i love it here. i go to school in miami and im from michigan so like it’s actually fucking great. im finishing my sophmore year and writing this post instead of my essay that was due at 11:59 as it’s almost 5:30 am (oops forgot to hit send!) and i have another essay due i got an extention on thats in spanish and then i have my final spanish essay due tomorrow at 9 pm so im just not gonna sleep ig. i voluntarily do the wrong thing. like why . what the fuck. am i in control of my own control? im just so out of balance. and i just donntttt give a shit about anythingggg that i actually need to give a shit about. i wasnt always like this. i mean i use short term goals to get me by. make it to the next festival. make it to the next flight home to be w my parents whom i love dearly. but i dont feel a purpose for anything. i feel like i just want to make people happy and thats it. i just wanna make eveeryone happy. and theyre not. like my brother caused all this drama w my lesbian friends cuz theyre a couple and he deadass asked one of them to fuck behind the others back so now the other girl is salty and wont sell him wax and hes alwaaaaaaaaaays using wax all day every day and he doesnt get out much and his friends are shitty and hes so lonely and it’s so sad cuz hes actually really enjoyable to be around and idk whats goin on in his head. he doesnt believe in 12 steps. he may or may not have taken xans recently after all that work fighting a nasty battle with h for like a year at least. he told me he was thinkin of selling bars i said no dude. like you can just sell wax and not fuck up ppls lives and ik hell take it if he has it cuz thats what i would do. i just want him to have friends

anyways this is the end of my sophmore year of undergrad and it’s the first year where i actually made real live actual friends in mia who actually wanna hang out w me. im michigan i always had friends but each and every one of them is their special kind of wack and makes me sad sometimes but thats life ig???? or could it be better........................... oh except my family friends we’re all on some ride or die shit i love them. but i have friends kinda and it’s awesome but when im alone left w my own thought actively not writing essays i feel like such a piece of shit and im so full of hate. i constantly make hypothetical arguments with people im beefin with and i just make things seem os much worse in my head. i think i hold so much hate for so many people because im supplying it. i hate myself, and im spreading it onto actual stupid ppl who are stupid (thats not hate thats just fax) i dont wanna be gay. i hate myself for being gay. fuck counseling btw im not about that shit thats why im here lol. IDK my parents and family and friends love me for me but i just feel so guilty about it. i feel bad like all the time maybe thats why i look for an escape so much and look forward so heavily to music festivals. im literally awesome tho like im naturally the shit and am really cool and want to make ppl happy but i think i turn a blind eye to this negative side of myself. to be so full of hate it must be out in the open for people to see. i dont know what to do with it, where to put it, or how to destroy it. i just want to destroy myself instead, so instead of turning to drugs and alc, i turn to social media and not giving a shit about my future so that i can destroy my future self since i cant destroy the me who i am rn, otherwise id end up sent to rehab and super addicted to something. i wonder why i have 0 love life and i say im looking 4 love but where it @ tho. ppl just try and use me. and some people who are close to me turn out being weirdly jealous and start being mean and it fucking sucks. i need to meditate on it lol. this sucks, i cant wait to go home but i have to do the work first and i just dont. fucking. want to. 0 motivation. i can barely get out of bed in the morning and when i do thats just where i end up. i just keep telling myself nothing is real but it all is. i use to firmly be a solipsist and say nothing is real but human beings proved me wrong in good and bad ways. i could eat more than  i do i just havent been this last couple weeks bc deadlines mostly. fuck school but i love my school. it took me soooooo fucking long to find my people tho like wasted a year of my life so fuck that.

[blancapadlla]

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY @jimiin​ !! 💓💞💝

MY SWEET SWEET DAUGHTER WHOM I LOVE AND CHERISH WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING! 

my daughter, my beethoven, a vroomy with her own urban dictionary definition, my last years valentine, night goblin’s slaughtermelon, and my sweetpea buttercream ranch dressing. i love you more than you know and i appreciate you in every single way from your humor to your personality to the way you care about people to your writing and to the muses that you bring to life whether you came up with them yourself or a skeleton from some rp. i hope you have the best day on your 21st and i’d fly to florida right now if i could!! i’d probs try to swim there but i cant swim without drowning and ya i could die and hang out with you as a ghost for your birthday but i dont think youd be able to see me in the pictures if we took any and honestly if we can’t post at least one on instagram or snapchat, then whats the point? ive known you for 4 years going on 5 years (i think? 3? 4? idk im dumb) and i can’t imagine how life would be without you as cheesy as it sounds! i know we’re not the closest, but i love you so much and the way we click with how insync we are with each other sometimes and how you make me laugh so hard without even trying most of the time and i love it. i havent sent you an i love you text in a while, but its coming soon! thank you for sending them back to me, im always so happy when i see them because theyre the best surprises like my heart gets soft and i melt a little even tho im in class and can’t cry over it in public right then and there u kno?? i love u so much and im so excited for you that ur legal because youre a plug for diana and u now you can be your own plug and honestly i hope u go on your 21 run because i heard those are hella fun!! and i hope u puke really bad the next morning after ur 21 run because i feel like thats just a good combo bc it makes u remember ur 21 run more bc ur like wow! i threw up! must’ve been a good time! i love u so much and i feel like im just repeating myself by saying that but i do love u so so much and im always happy seeing u happy and making jokes and ur sense of humor is literally legendary like in the group chat somestimes we’re all making jokes n yours always make me laugh the most like i read it n im like wow thats MY daughter yall! she said THAT! anyways, i hope u have the best day and i love u so much and im so grateful for everything you do and im so glad we’re going 4 years strong or however many years strong and ugh i just love u so much and hope u have the best day ever and if u wanna have a call tomorrow then bitch ! im free and everyone else is free and if anyone has plans ill dead ass make them cancel bc tomorrow is xan day and if anyone tries to make it anything else but xan day then ill fight like ya its blackpink day too but mostly xan day u kno?? i was about to post but i just realized i never said this in here but HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY XAN I LOVE U SO MUCH UR A LEGEND UR AN ICON I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BITCH!!!!!!! I LOVE U BITCH I AINT NEVER GONNA STOP LOVIN U BITCH!!!!!!!!

love u SO much, ellie 💘

ps. under the cut if some porn for u enjoy aha dont get too wild xx 

[rhapsodicsilver]

Fuck me up

Fuck if I know what the fuck I've been feeling lately, it's a big mess here in my brain recently and the amount of times I've vented what I'm actually thinking is so low over the past couple of weeks, probably bc I'm developing this weird ability to like stutter and become a complete fucking loser, my social game is so not strong, I run out of energy super quick, that is if I fucking have energy to begin with, idk what the fuck I've been feeling. It sucks even more that I can't express myself with fucking words right now, it's truly pathetic how many steps backwords it feels like I've taken, I thought I was doing fine, and I still am, but fuck myself up its so Fucking dumb how awkward I've become, it makes me feel trapped in a body that hates itself and is too fucking sad to do anything about it, obviously that's my fault, everything is my fault so it's perfect. Then I have a gorgeous nice caring and just like bro of a girlfriend who does not deserve me as a boyfriend, I'm always surprised when we talk and she says she likes me like bro I suck, I mean and of course I don't suck all the way of all the time but over the past couple of weeks idk I've been feeling out of it, just foggy, like I'm always waking up. I guess on that note, Alex(or Xan idk) sry I've been such a fuck lately, I haven't been ready to idk be there for someone bc I haven't even been there for myself, I'm a huge work in progress and idk I feel like that's easy to tell, especially bc idk.. you know me, you get that? Yeah I haven't been taking care of myself, I've been lazy and fucking stupid, that's gonna change, idk how it into what, but yeah. I feel the worst that you're like very here and ready and idk I feel slow out of the gate, I just straight up don't feel like myself, I haven't in a minute, Idek what the fuck that entirely looks like bc I haven't been super comfortable in a while except if I'm on like drugs or drunk, which is kinda fucked, nonetheless I'm here, alive, I have to be here, is it fucked up that I've just like pondered killing myself, it's Lowkey sad so I don't like bring it up in real life, it's all such a drag right now, and by that I mean I feel like I'm dragging everything back, and idk why it feels like there's no where to go, I guess I'm just also hella anxious but never actually admit that to people, so they just think I'm fucking weird and overtly quiet and awkward when I do say things, I wish all communicating went on on tumblr. Well this has been my super negative self centered post about how my life is going, hope all of my two or three followers love it

[ranger-jedi-knight]

A New Hero Ch 21

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/20887313/chapters/63774805 Taglist: @bluesimani (OPEN)

Ok so here’s the next chap!! Date night for Daminette and...i still dont got a ship name for em...Dick/Alya/Xavier. Please help my sad ass out n suggest some possible ship names for em. Could be their names mashed together like daminette or even somethin bout personality or jobs. Idk, just somethin that fits em n doesn’t sound weird. Thank you very much. Anyways, it’s the date chap!! Next chap, idk maybe it’ll be xanila(Xan/Lila does that sound fine or ew?), or it could be a battle....ehehe or somethin else~. Ok, enjoy!

Alya giggled as she took the offered rose from Dick. “How long have you had this?” she asked with a tilt of her head as the officers around them cooed.

“I ordered it at lunch and had Sarah pick it up for me on her way back from her break an hour ago,” Dick replied with a soft smile as he took Alya’s other hand as she returned the smile.

“Why not wait to get it for when you pick me up after I get changed? While sweet, I’d rather not go out all grimy from a day of hard work,” she said and Dick gave a small shrug as he gave her hand a squeeze.

“Maybe I wanted to give it to you before we part?” he asked with his signature charming smile on his lips as he watched a faint blush decorate her cheeks.

“Oh! God, I forgot how cheesy you could be,” she said as Dick moved his other hand to push a strand of her hair behind her ear.

“Only for you and Xavier,” he whispered with a smile as she turned her face away from Dick because she knew she’d be blushing harder if she was looking at him.

“We should get going,” she mumbled and he nodded agreement.

“Yes, lets,” he agreed, leading her out of the precinct, waving to their coworker friends.

“Go get it, Alya!” one shouted causing Alya to laugh while her blush deepened knowing exactly what they meant.

“Maybe after the next date!” she shouted back before the doors closed behind them. Dick chuckled softly next to her as they reached her car.

“See you in an hour,” Dick whispered raising her hand to his lips to place a kiss onto her fingers.

“An hour,” she agreed, squeezing his hand before letting go and slipping into her car as he then held the door open. She smiled softly at him as he closed the door for her. Giving one last wave she left the precinct and he went to his own car to head home to get ready for his date. Once he was home, he ran past his brothers to clean up and put on a blue button-up and black pants. As he walked down the stairs he rolled the sleeves up to his elbows.

“Lookin spiffy Dickie boy. Got a hot date?” Jason asked with a smirk and Dick rolled his eyes.

“Yes, I do. Two hot dates even,” he said with a smirk, and that had Jason pausing.

“Damn, you actually asked them out. I’d have thought it’d take longer,” Jason said, causing Dick to once more roll his eyes.

“Har har har. I’m off now, hopefully, I’ll be able to beat rush hour. Go tease Damian for me,” Dick said grabbing his keys and Jason smirked as he started turning around.

“Not on your life, Todd!” Damian yelled out as his voice echoed thru the manor before it disappeared.

“Damian is leaving as well, Master Jason,” Alfred said and Jason turned to find Dick already out of the manor as well and frowned. “Please fetch Master Tim from work if he’s not back by 7,” Alfred said and Jason nodded. Getting the nod, Alfred turned around to continue what he was doing. The drive to Xavier’s home was quick. Xavier waved as he made his way to the car and slipped into the passenger seat, giving Dick a sweet smile. Dick returned the sweet smile as he looked over Xavier who seemed to be in his usual attire of a button-up shirt(a deep ocean blue instead of the white he wore at work), black pants, and his usual bowtie in a deep green that went well with the blue shirt.

“Hey. You look amazing, Dick,” Xavier whispered, taking Dick’s hand into his to give it a squeeze before they pulled away from the apartment complex.

“Hey, you look great yourself, Xavier. How’s your family?” Dick asked as they started toward Alya’s apartment.

“Melody is done with everyone at the hotel and the dance company is not appreciating her busy schedule. However, for mum, everything is fairly smooth sailing at the boutique. How are your brothers?” Xavier asked looking over at Dick, watching as the flickering on street lamps light up his face.

“Lovable pain in the asses. Jason gets a kick when he has to pull someone from their work, Tim gets distracted by his work so he’s the recipient of that. Damian is actually going out on a date with the girl he’s been crushing on for a while now. Duke is finally getting back tomorrow at some point, it really depends on how many stops the buses make. Steph and Cass. We have no idea when they’ll get back but they said things are going well over there so here’s to hoping,” Dick explained with a chuckle that Xavier shared.

“Tim is co-CEO of WE right?”

“Yes, why?” Dick tilted his head curiously at the question while Xavier chuckled.

“Melody said she had to go talk to CEO Tim about some things the board order her hotel have done since her GM is hiding from doing it even thou she’s not the most qualified too,” Xavier explained and Dick nodded at that.

“Ah, lazy people. But knowing Tim, hearing what’s wrong he’ll try fixing those mistakes,” Dick replied and Xavier nodded agreement from what he'd seen of Tim. They soon reached Alya’s apartment complex and watched with smiles as Alya seemed to be telling Xan something before hugging him and heading out. “Wow,” was all that left the two as they took in Alya wearing a fit and flare deep purple dress. A slim black belt around her waist covering the seam at the waist. She kept on her studs from work and had a black string necklace tied in a bow around her neck. She kept her makeup much the same with only eyeliner and pink lipstick. Her hair was braided and tied with a black ribbon and on her feet were small black, kitten wedges.

“Hi,” she whispered shyly when Xavier slipped from the car and held the door open for her so she could take the passenger seat. “You look great. You kept on your bow tie,” she said moving to straighten the bow tie since it moved since he left his apartment.

“Obviously, they’re part of the package. And may I say, you look lovely,” Xavier said, causing a faint blush to dust her cheeks when she smiled at him and squeezed his hand before he closed the door.

“Xavier’s correct, you look beautiful,” Dick said causing her blush to deepen. She was used to the precinct being silly what with complimenting everyone, especially her after she dressed like a Greek Goddess for Dick’s Halloween party for their coworkers(she couldn’t even remember who she dressed as, Dick remembers tho). She would have thought that conversation would have stopped since it’s been at least a couple of years. But alas. But hearing her dates say it, that was different than a friend.

“You two look quite handsome yourself,” Alya replied, happy to see faint blushes on their faces as well.

“I have a feeling, this will go well,” Dick said as they started toward the restaurant Dick got reservations for.

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Damian had a small smile on  his lips as he waited for Mari to come down. He glanced at his watch, pleased to see they had some time still before it was time for their reservation.

Lila smiled at Mari as the girl twitched beside her in the elevator. “Everything will be fine, Mari. You look amazing! That dress you made is amazing, it will knock his socks off. He clearly really likes you, I doubt you could do anything to make him change his mind, ok?” Lila asked and Mari nodded. She rubbed her hands down the red spaghetti-strapped dress, along the hemline were hidden ladybugs. Around her waist was a corset-like lace up belt that clipped together in the back, around the ribbon lace-up was black floral lace with hidden ladybugs. She left her purse in the room but Tikki and Kalki(along with Kalki’s glasses) were in her dress’s hidden pockets. She had a cropped black jacket over the dress with the lining inside red. She had on simple blac, kitten heels.

Mari gave her friend a small smile. ”Thanks, Lila. And tomorrow, I’ll help you prepare for your date with Xan on Saturday,” Mari said and Lila nodded agreement as they reached the lobby.

“Ok, see you later. Don’t stay out too late. Have fun,” Lila said, pulling the girl into a hug. Mari returned the hug before pulling away and leaving the elevator. With one last wave, Mari went throu the swinging door and left the hotel with a smile.

“Hi, Dami,” Mari greeted shyly as she reached Damian’s car. Damian was leaning against the car and smiled at Mari.

“Hello, Angel. May I say you look gorgeous,” he said, taking one of her hands into his and raising it to his lips to press a kiss to her hand. Mari smiled softly at that as she blushed.

“As long as I can return the sentiment. You look quite dashing,” she said and Damian smiled as he opened the door for her. When she was in and settled, he closed the door and made his way to the driver's seat. “Be prepared for in case our date gets interrupted, Dami,” she warned and he nodded with a smirk.

“Of course. Should you need help, I came prepared as well,” he replied, jerking his head to the backseat were a duffle bag sat inconspicuously. She smiled thankfully at that and took one of his hands into her and gave it a squeeze.

“Thank you,” she whispered, holding his hand between hers as he started driving.

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Tim sighed as he scribbled some stuff down into his notes. He glanced up at his laptop to continue skimming over the report. His comm buzzed and he stopped writing to press a button to talk to his secretary. “Yes, Carrie?” he asked, tilting his head a bit.

“A, Miss Reeves, is here to speak to you. She works at the Crown Coast Hotel as an OM. Her hotel is housing the internship class,” Carrie said and Tim hummed in thought as to what the OM would need.

“Send her in,” Tim sighed out, he was so close to escaping the company. The door to his office swung open slowly to reveal a woman who looked similar to Dick’s date Xavier, her skin a couple shades lighter, which means this must be his sister Melody. She was wearing her Hotel’s uniform which was a white button down shirt with the sleeves rolled up, the logo right where a name tag would go. Her shirt was tucked into a black pencil skirt, and she had on black ballet flats. She somehow got her wavy-tight curls under control to be in a ponytail held by a red ribbon, no doubt there was a hair tie under it. “Hello, you must be Melody Reeves,” he greeted her and she gave him a smile as she went to shake his hand after moving a file to her other hand.

“Good evening, Mr. Drake-Wayne. I’m sorry to come on such short notice but your board that oversees all the hotels WE owns have made a mistake for my hotel,” she started and Tim nodded as he sat down behind his desk and pushed his notebook away to focus on the woman in front of him as she sat down across from him and leaned forward a bit to place the file onto his desk.

“Really? If that’s the case how come you came down and not the GM?” he asked curious since this seems to be something above her position's duties. A scowl painted her lips as she shook her head, her hair flying behind her.

“It’s because my GM doesn’t like to do the duties assigned to him. I brought it up to him when I realized but he didn’t want to come here and disturb you sir. But this cannot wait,” she explained and he nodded as he opened the file. While nothing stood out, he knew that Melody would know more since she was working at the hotel.

“What seems to be the problem then? I’m not well versed on the ins and outs of running or working in a hotel,” he said and she nodded and pointed to the first thing listed that the board agreed on.

“Starting here, the board ordered us to supply our sister hotel with spare microwaves and such appliances. Normally this wouldn’t be an issue, but as it is, most of our supply is in use. The few remaining we have we can’t give out since most of our’s are on their last legs. As it is, we are keeping a couple rooms unoccupied to strip them of anything we can to give to other rooms. And we’ve asked the board for help but they are leaving us to use the money we make to place the items but we don’t have enough money. Any money left is being squirreled away to either pay our employees or the repair men we call in when something major breaks,” she started pointing to different things under the first point so that he could understand better. As she explained he nodded along and started writing in the margins of the file.

This is how the next hour is spent for Tim, listening to everything the board decided for the next few months will go for a hotel is bad. They were just finishing up when Jason knocked as he pushed open the door. “Ready to go, Timmy-boi?” he asked with a sideways grin. Tim shook his head, glancing between Melody and Jason.

“Not yet, Jason. Give me a few more moments while I finish up this meeting with Ms. Reeves,” he said and Jason nodded and went to sit on one of the couches in Tim’s office. He glanced out and watched as two shadows, a girl and boy he could make out, jump across roofs. His eyes widened and he glanced back to Tim who was shaking the woman's hand.

“Thank you for bringing this to my attention. I’ll speak to the board about this in the morning and make the appropriate changes,” he said and the woman had a grateful smile, seemingly brightening up the room in Tim’s opinion.

“No, thank you, Tim. Have a good night,” she said standing up and walking from the room and closing the door behind her.

“Tim, tell me you have binoculars in your office,” he said and Tim nodded wondering what Jason saw as he snatched the binoculars out of Tim’s hands. As he zoomed in on the two, he could tell the girl was in her early 20s and the boy late teens. They had stuff covering their faces, probably a precaution to protect themselves.

“What is it?” Tim asked, looking over Jason’s shoulders and making out the two shadowy figures.

“It seems there’s two people training. For what, I don’t know,” Jason said as he gave Tim the binoculars. Tim looked at the two and nodded agreement. They knew each other definitely and the moves they did weren’t filled with any intention besides practicing. As he lowered them, the two took off and Tim hummed. “What do you say?”

“I say those moves look familiar no?” Tim asked and Jason slowly nodded agreement. “There’s only a few people who know how to fight like that and most are busy. So that means that that is Xan. Which most likely means Lana’s with him. He’s probably training with her to prevent what happened to him happening to anyone else in the family,” Tim said and Jason slowly nodded.

“That would make sense, but Joker was the only one crazy enough to work with the League. And he’s out of the picture. Thank fucking god tho,” Jason muttered the last part under his breath. Tim couldn’t help overhearing tho and he couldn’t agree more with him. “But I guess, you can never be too prepared,” he continued and Tim nodded.

“Let’s not tell Bruce. We can’t stop people from preparing themselves to defend their home or family when they get caught up in a Rouge attack,” Tim said and Jason nodded agreement.

“Now, we need to get home. I don’t want to have Alfred giving me his disappointed look,” Jason said and Tim nodded, picking up his stuff and following him out. As he left his office he smiled at Carrie.

“Goodnight, Carrie. Don’t stay too late,” he called and Carrie nodded, pushing back some hair that had left her perfectly styled bun. He’d have told her to relax but knew she didn’t need to. The one time he brought her soup when she had laryngitis showed him that when she was at home she was relaxed. He could respect that she liked having everything look perfect when at work.

“Will do, sir. Goodnight,” she called back as she sent emails to assistants to make a meeting of the board for tomorrow morning.

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“Come on, Alya should be getting back soon. I want to know everything,” Lana said smiling over at Xan who nodded.

“Alright. We can continue tomorrow. Would you be ok with Damian and Mari coming along to help? They know more than me,” Xan replied and Lana nodded.

“Alright. If your sure they can help,” Lana agreed and Xan smiled with a nod.

If only you knew. Of course, they may tell you when they hear what your doing....we should also tell Als, Xan thought to himself as they ran across the rooftops to reach Alya’s place.

Alster @Bi_Arrow Had the best time with these two. Can't wait to go out with them again #datenight #wentwell #hadagreattime #poly *Alya smiling happily at the camera as her arms are wrapped around Dick and Xavier’s arms. The two are smiling softly as they lean in close to her*

Mari-aculous @MDC_Designs Can’t believe we waited so long to do this. But it was worth the wait #untilnexttime #cantwait #date

   Damian @BloodBorne    I’m glad you had a good time as well. Sleep well.

Ok, so here’s the next chap!! This was fast(relatively since it was delayed by my want to update a different fic but I got this out in like three days about). I hope you guys enjoyed this new chap!! I had fun writing this chap and we saw some things happening~~!! Maybe you can guess! Anyways, until next chap! -Love Willa<3<3<3

[bulimistxfreak]

super personal vent

ignore if you want

im so sad, i have no one to talk to so ima just vent here and pretend at least 1 person cares, but recently my parents started to make plans for their retirement and that they’re waiting for me and my sister to finish our education but i don’t even know when that will happen bc I’ve given up on that, and my parents being super strict about school don’t even care about me going to a 4yr anymore, like they literally think I’m a failure like I just know it. they tell me how I’m 19 and I’m a woman now and i need to be independent and grow up and do things on my own but it’s so fucking hard to do any of that when I’ve spent a greater part of my life with mental illness that I don’t know how to do anything for myself, idk how to adult and grow up idk what to do with myself like I’ve never prepared for this bc my whole life I thought I’ll die before I was even 18. I didn’t even see life past the day I was living, so a future was not something I ever thought about. my family doesn’t understand this, even if I were to explain everything but to them I’m just a joke. this is just a “phase” I’m just being over dramatic, and it’s so exhausting because I’m not lazy, I’m not mean, I’m not a homebody, I’m not any of that! I’m depressed as fuck, always suicidal, have super bad anxiety (social+generalized)[i hate that they don’t understand the severity of it too] my ocd is getting worse, I’m fucking traumatized by people touching me yes that means my family and they just think I’m being cold or mean by not wanting to hug them when I’m just not comfortable with anyone touching me. I have this eating disorder that’s tearing me apart, no I can’t sleep at night because of my phone it’s called insomnia!!!! i stay up all night and think about how fuckinf great it would be to kill myself and how I will do it!!!! some nights I can’t even think of sleep bc my anxiety is so bad!!!!! I cry every night!!!!!!and hey I can’t blame u for not noticing bc I do fake everything and again I don’t expect them to read my mind, in a way this is also my fault... but I’m like this bc I’m so closed off now. when my parents first found out about my depression/self harm/problems I was 16, I had alcohol poisoning and needed to get sent to the hospital from school. after this both my parents tried to change their habits of treating me bad, and trying to be there for me and at certain points I was comfortable enough to share my feelings with my mom especially when me and ex had broken up, but after I moved away to college I just felt like I needed to just shut up about everything bc of these expectations they have about me, they both thought that I was happy and that I was doing okay and I didn’t want to disappoint them anymore. so from that point on I just began to fake everything. I would always tell myself I do drugs for fun, and at times I do(like mdma) but I recently reazlied that I just use bc I’m sad. I used to be addicted to xans when I was 14-16 and I relied on them heavily bc it took away time from my day of being sad and feeling feelings. I’ve been feeling so dissociated by everyone and everything around me, I don’t think of anything. I think I use drugs so I can just get out of the mindset of my own... if that makes sense? like u know how ur not urself when ur on something, that’s what I like about drugs... is that I get away from my lifeless body and my mind and although I feel dissociated with myself already, it’s like idk i can’t really explain it. but life is just so draining, like I said I spent most of my life with mental illness and trying to function as an adult in the real world is already hard but how am I supposed to function when I couldn’t even as a child? or a teenager? how do u even do that? when I still have so much more problems (even way more) than I did before? I don’t even want to go back to therapy bc even though I want someone to deeply care about me and be so concerned, I don’t want to get okay. I don’t even think I ever will be okay, like I don’t want to stay alive and I don’t want to jeopardize not dying before the age I intend to

by getting help from people who can interfere. i hold comfort with me only knowing what’s wrong and no one knowing, because I know if I do tell someone everything that’s wrong and ya maybe they’ll give advice and say I should get help but they have their own lives and there’s only so much they can do and say before they forget about me wanting to off myself. I hold so many secrets in me. even when I would tell my best friend everything, I hardly say anything anymore... im just so tired of this life... I don’t want to continue feeling like this. I’ve completely given up on my life. I’m so worthless it’s pathetic, I used to belive that everyone has a purpose in life wether that be small or big but I just know that I have absolutely no purpose, no meaning to live, not important to anyone, my life is not worth anything. and I finally accepted this.

[unwrathful]

Tagged by @onceabluemoonwrites​ 

the last

drink: milk

phone call: like my dad or my mum

text message: the driving school

song you listened to: ...Despactio(?)

time you cried: bout a week ago

dated someone twice: Nope

kissed someone and regretted it: Nah

been cheated on: nope

lost someone special: ...no one’s died on me but definitely lost contact with some ppl

been depressed: yeah all the time (p sure I’ve been depressed for longer than I realise)

gotten drunk and thrown up: nah bc fuck alcohol

three favourite colours

Purple

Black

Red

in the last year have you

made new friends: ye

fallen out of love: nah

laughed until you cried: ....no?

found out someone was talking about you: ...yeah...p sure anyways

met someone who changed you: yeah

found out who your friends are: my friends are all good ppl (mostly) how dare you

kissed someone on your facebook list: no bc they’re either internet or girls. sorry my het arse don’t swing that way

general

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? most of them

do you have any pets? no

do you want to change your name? no

what did you do for your last birthday? stayed at home and read.ate some food too

what time did you wake up? 8:40am

what were you doing at midnight last night? writing angst

name something you can’t wait for: death...also to find my motivation in life

when was the last time you saw your mum: this afternoon

what are you listening to right now? background music of this game

have you ever talked to a person named tom? yeah and they’re p funny

something that is getting on your nerves: human contact (like, ppl touching me and I’M GROSSING MYSELF OUT )

most visited website: ...tumblr, AO3, fb, discord, slack...also some uni stuff

hair colour: brown

long or short hair: I say short but some ppl call it long

do you have a crush on someone? do fictional charas count

what do you like about yourself? ....well now you got me in a good mood so. my writing I guess

piercings: god no I couldn’t handle it

blood type: idk

nickname: :/ none really except like Xan, etc, bc of my usernames and shit

relationship status: happily single

zodiac: aquarius

pronouns: she

favourite tv show(s): khr, blacklist, uhhh flithy rich, etc

tattoos: nah couldn’t handle it

right or left handed: left

surgery: no

sport: squash

vacation: wanna go Japan and Europe

pair of trainers: I have one

more general

eating: nothing rn

drinking: nah

i’m about to: procrastinate (maybe write...)

waiting for: idk

want: :/ idk

get married: yeah to some guy who can deal with me + I can put up w/ his shit

career: idk. psychologist? smth like that

which is better?

hugs or kisses: neither

lips or eyes: ...eyes

shorter or taller: taller

older or younger: older

nice arms or nice stomach: can I say both? but idk

hookup or relationship: relationship...I guess

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant bc I’m a bundle of nerves but can be trouble when I wanna be

have you ever

kissed a stranger: nah

drank hard liquor: ...don’t think so

lose glasses/contact lenses: no

turned someone down: ...no?

sex on the first date: nah

had your heart broken: nope

been arrested: no

cried when someone died: yeah

fallen for a friend: no (female friends + my het arse)

do you believe in

yourself: absolutely not

miracles: sort of

love at first sight: no

santa claus: god I did and I wish I could go back to that innocent belief

kiss on the first date: yeah (so long as both are okay with it ofc)

angels: like, the biblical kind? maybe...saint-like ppl? they’re v rare

other

eye colour: brown

favourite movie: ...:/ idk tbh

I can’t be bothered tagging so do it if you wanna