#IC. Kamui

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He couldn't get over the thought that Keerhei probably could have been better for Kouleia. He knew her better after all, having had a history together. Kamui didn't really know anything. He didn't exactly have the best communication skills with her while they were dating. He was regretting not talking to her more, not getting to know her more. He didn't even know what faes were, up until he discovered Kouleia and Keerhei were one. A despairing sigh escapes him.

Running away is something he's done a lot. Not wanting to face mistakes. His past proved that much, he didn't want to repeat that. Leaving behind someone that meant so much to him, just because he was scared. Kouleia made him really happy, if Keerhei was right, then maybe he should push to try helping her himself.

Would she even still want to be around him after it's all over? He didn't know, but maybe he should face his actions. Even if she hates him, at least she'll be okay. That's what mattered. Her well being. Kamui didn't know if this was love or not, he wished he did. He never felt the way he felt with her, around anyone else. So maybe it was love, but he was so confused, and didn't fully understand these emotions still. This bastard didn't want to tell him anything either.

''......I understand.'' Kamui would look at him, weariness within his hues of blue from the tears he had shed. Pain filled his chest, so much beyond belief. He still didn't like this guy, but he really wanted to help Kouleia.

''Please help me save her. Please......'' Pride didn't matter in this case, he had to put that aside for Kouleia's sake. it didn't matter. Nothing else mattered. He just wanted to see her the way she used to be.

This guy's emotional cluelessness was almost comical. Of course he was in love with her, but Keerhei wasn't about to spell it out for him. Kamui needed to figure that out on his own, or this whole thing was doomed from the start.

A chuckle escaped Keerhei's lips, but not for the reason Kamui might think. "I'm no expert on love," he admitted, his golden eyes softening. "Didn't even think I was capable of it until I met her."

He turned back to Kamui, his tone hardening. "I'm not sure she will get better. This has never happened before. It's incredibly rare for someone to break a bond like the one she accidentally placed on you. We're in uncharted territory here."

"Kouleia didn't want me, Kamui. You need to get that through your thick skull. Despite my feelings for her, she chose you. And just because you decided to break her doesn't mean she'll suddenly want me. She could have had me for years. I've been there since she was 22, and she never chose me." The words came out harsher than intended, but Keerhei quickly masked his vulnerability.

"Running away because you messed up isn't an option. If you want her, you have to fight. And believe me, it's going to be hell. It'll probably take a long time, and it'll be painful. But before I offer to help, I need to know that you truly want this. That you want her, and that you're willing to sacrifice everything to get her back. Do you understand?"

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@lachrymosestorm asked: Licks his cheek and chooses not to say anything about it

''.........''

Licks her hand in response without saying anything.

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The first thing he notices about this person is that they look weak. They also look fragile. So small, and young looking. A rather delicate appearance that looks like it could break easily. A flaw of his is how easily he judges based off first glance if someone is weak or not. This was NOT someone he sees himself actually fighting, nor will it likely ever interest him enough to do so.

''Ah, you're quite a beauty. However you look like someone who could easily be snapped in half too which is quite humorous to me.'' Kamui says with amusement behind every word.

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There was the internal conflict of believing dying in battle was the best way for a Yato's life to end given their love for battle, along with the self loathing he already had, then the thoughts of how his death would hurt someone extremely important to him too. As the blood would continue to fall from his wounds, so many things swarmed through his mind.

Of all people to find him though, it had to be her. That annoying samurai. He'd threaten her, but it was empty words since he was pretty sure a punch from him in this state would give the same amount of damage as a toddler. He'll bluff and play it off though. Kamui despised weakness, he hated the memories of being that weak child unable to do anything, the one who failed to kill his father when he needed to the most. Being vulnerable in front of someone he fights with is out the question.

He couldn't. He just couldn't.

What if she'll look down on him? It'll make him want to kill her even more.

He'd grit his teeth, still feeling the pain throughout his body. Hell, he was in so much pain he couldn't think straight. ''I'd rather bleed out than accept help from you get away from me. Worthless human.'' Words were hissed out, despite his current state.

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Getting affection from her always really put him in a good mood. It was so odd how she made him feel this way, Kamui didn't really understand it. All he knew though is that he liked putting a smile on her face.

Happy he may be about her agreeing to eat the food he cooked, Kamui saw that saddened smile Lilith would wear. He wasn't sure why she had that expression on her face. He starting thinking he could've been at fault. Maybe she had something else she'd rather be doing....?

Although, she would've said so. Wouldn't she? Honesty was a big factor in their relationship. Lilith usually mentioned whenever she was busy.

''I thought maybe you'd like something....french? So I learned some stuff I could make from that place.'' He'd pull her by the hand before they'd be in front of the table full of meals he put work into making himself.

Croque monsieur, Salmon en papillote, and Bouillabaisse, then Paris-brest as a dessert all waited on the table. Kamui clearly put a lot of effort into this.

''Going to be honest,'' He'd just rub the back of his head with a laugh,

''I don't know how to pronounce the names of any of this stuff. French is.... a really hard language. For me anyway. I hope you like the meals though. If there's anything you don't like let me know, so I can keep it in mind for next time.''

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''Hey, so... do women not like having their chest complimented? It shouldn't be a problem as long as you're nice, right?''

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''I've noticed that women on earth seem to lose all signs of intelligence the minute they see any guy who's even 'remotely' attractive. Kind of sad really.''

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@whimsiicalmuses asked: “Too bad you have lost all rights to the boobs,” Kouleia smirks, and gives him a sly wink.

(On mobile so could trim but wanted to send something in anyway as I hate her lol)

Oh, her saying that really annoyed him. Given his fake smile, with the irritation radiating off of him, it was obvious. ''I could care less.'' He was lying.

''I could probably find someone with better lips, and bigger tits anyway.'' He likely won't actually look though.

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''Heyyy, I'm SUPER bored. Who's going to entertain me?''

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''.........''

''Well yeah you do but that's not-'' SIGHS. ''You're kind of making me want to annoy you more now for ignoring what I'm saying.''

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When she came up to him and grasped his shirt, Kamui immediately froze. Eyes widen when looking at her. It was definitely the first time in a while he was genuinely uncomfortable. Kamui hadn't realized it had been obvious he was injured, he didn't seem to grasp that.

He was quick to grab her by the wrist and yank it away from his torso defensively.

''I'm fine.'' His words were a little firmer than the usual gentle, carefree tone he used. As a warning more than anything. He was really stubborn when it came to allowing others to help him, seeing it as them looking down on him more than anything.

''You didn't answer my question.'' His smile was really forced when looking back at her,

''So, what are you cooking?''

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''Does anyone else just get the sudden urge to punch a hole straight through someone's body? No? Just me? Okay.''

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It seemed like he only got more pissed off which each passing moment. Suddenly wondering if putting faith in a woman that used to sleep around was stupid of him.

He thought she wouldn't betray him, given everything that's happened between them.

Was that stupid of him? Was he really that much of a fool? He didn't even realize how hard he had been gripping the basket and it had completely fell apart due to his strength before she had the opportunity to reach for it.

When he looked over at her though, she looked really panicked. Which surprised him for one, and it didn't seem like the type of panic when one was caught in the act. His smile had faded by then.

''You're.... hiding something from me is what I'm guessing.'' He'd decide to finally say,

''See now, I don't really know much about dating since you're the only person I've done it with but... I think being honest would be something important?'' He brushes off the stuff that fell on him as a result of breaking apart the basket with his hand before looking back at her.

''I did think you were cheating for a second, but that went down the drain the minute I saw your face so either you tell me what's going on or I'm going to get more mad than I already am right now.''

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Dez was honestly the type of person who made him antsy, more so since that night he basically revealed all of himself to her. Also learning more about her too in the process. Took him forever to be able to actually be around her again since that happened.

So, he had been waiting for a bit for Dez to get ready. Kamui wasn't exactly the patient type, so after a certain amount of time he did decide to check up on her. MAYBE she had been one of those kinds of women who took forever with their hair, or makeup.

Kamui wanted to see if that was the case, having opened up the door to her bedroom without really thinking.

He hadn't expected to find her in a state of undress, and his gaze caught side of the state of her figure too. Kamui really wasn't sure how to react here, he just kind of quietly blinks.

He ends up completely ignoring what she told him to do, given his own curiosity. ''Hey, why is your body all scarred up like that?''

Kamui had been pretty used to seeing scars in general given how often he got into fights. Although, he didn't scar himself given the healing capabilities a Yato has.

''....Did you get into a really bad fight with someone?''

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@lachrymosestorm asked: Why was Kamui over? Who knows! But she had various snacks and she was pouring him some wine. "So, I say we sit and relax and get to know each other a little bit. It seems our fates are destined to keep crossing so let's get to know each other. I do have some hard liquor too." They were mostly for mixing cocktails but whatever he wanted.

It wasn't like he had anything better to do. So he did decide to take her up on the invitation to come over. Only reason he decided to do that was because snacks were involved, otherwise he probably would have just went to bother his sister or something along those lines.

Kamui did watch as she poured the wine though. He hasn't exactly drank alcohol before, only seen the men who he commanded occasionally drink. They had often offered them but he was never interested at the time.

Guess now was a good time to try some?

''....What's the difference between wine and hard liquor...???'' He curiously questions, though decided to take the cup of wine that was given to him. He stares at the red liquid, before soon bringing the cup to his lips and sipping a bit of it.

Woah. That was kind of tasty, bit of an icky after taste though.

He went ahead and began eating the snacks she brought out, along with using the wine to down it as well. The taste of the wine wasn't terrible, although he probably won't drink it after today given that it definitely wasn't something he heavily liked.

Eventually his face does get a little flushed, fingers threading through his bangs as he clutches his head. ''Need to... rest my head for a minute.''

It felt weird, was spinning a lot too.

''Actually- would you mind.... getting closer to me...? Just next to me. If you want....'' He was really craving closeness right now, something he deprived himself of a lot.

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The fact that she turned Kamui down kind of pissed him off. Kamui wasn't someone who actively went out of his way for someone. Never. Yet, one of the rare times he did, she declined.

''It's REALLY rude to turn down someone offering to buy you food, you know. Like I said, I made you spend a lot of money. So I really insist.''

The temptation to rip the sketchbook from her hands and tear it apart was extremely high, he wasn't exactly someone who had much self restraint to begin with either. He did notice a tinge of anxiety within her words too, which he couldn't really understand.

''Accept my offer, or else.''