#I've never disliked doctor who so much in my life before.

[fvckw4d]

It's amazing how much your interest in a TV show can be completely killed by your stoner roommate blasting it at max volume and commenting on it really loudly all hours of the day.

[cryslut]

~ Yandere Dottore x Reader - No Escape

Content warnings - Yandere themes, kidnapping, laced beverage

i don't show off my fanfics a lot but i do hope u enjoy this one. i don't condone this type of behavior at all. n stay safe ♥︎

requests for fanfics are open so send them in if u would like

He was someone who messed with things a lot. He studied and studied hard throughout high school up until college. He wanted to be a doctor.

He felt as if his emotion wasn't really there. The only thing he cared about was himself, he was downright selfish and everyone knew it. He only cared about his dream job.

He didn't want to become a doctor because it was to help others. No, he wanted to become one because he knew he was going to see blood, part of him wanted to make sure any procedures and surgeries went completely wrong.

Because part of him didn't care. He wanted to see others suffer. The thrill of hurting and murdering others is the only thing he felt any pride or happiness for.

Other than that, he was completely numb. Until one day, a girl finally decided to join the college that he went to. She had her own interests and things she liked. Once he laid his eyes on her, he felt something completely different.

Something he never felt before, butterflies in his stomach, his heart felt like it flew right out of his chest, he finally felt.. emotion for someone. He didn't know if it was love, or a miracle.

All he knew was that if this was how he felt for her. He would hold onto her for dear life and make her his. She belonged to him, and she didn't have a choice.

He stalked her as much as he could. Finding out her secrets, her likes and dislikes, her name, her birthday, every little detail possible, he learned it.

He was apart of a chemistry class, he learned about chemicals left and right, combinations and what they could do. He conjured up a liquid that he could put into a drink of hers to make her very sleepy.

He was in a few classes with her. It was the last period and everyone was preparing to leave to go do their own things. The girl he loved and adored was only preparing to go back to her dorm alone while her roommate was out doing their own thing.

While she and the other students were nice and distracted and most of them were gone along with the instructor, he opens the vile and spills a little into her bottle, the liquid going down the straw into the drink.

He pretended like he was doing something. She was still putting her belongings away while writing further notes down. He admired her for her hard work and determination in the class.

She finally put the stuff away into her bag and took a drink out of her bottle quenching her thirst. She put her hand on her head feeling a little drowsy. And then as soon as she falls.

He grabs her, "I got you, don't worry, darling," He says softly with an evil grin plastered on his face.

~

⋄⊱ Your POV ⊰⋄

My eyes slowly flutter open. Feeling something tight around my wrists, I struggle. I look around seeing i'm in a bedroom, Im laying on a soft bed but my ankles and wrists are tied to the ends of each side.

I struggle more until someone opens the door, "Oh, you're awake, I've been waiting for you to wake up," He says smiling.

I recognized him, he's my classmate, Dottore. But why? Why does he have me like this?

I try to speak but realize my mouth is duct taped shut, "Oh, you wanna speak, dear, well if I remove the tape, you have to promise you won't scream," He says softly.

I nod my head in agreement. He then grabs the tape and rips it off slowly, making it barely hurting that much.

"There, what did you want to say?" His eyes looked like they were filled with lust, I speak out softly and quietly, "Why am I here?"

"Because your mine, all mine.. mine, mine mine mine mine," He starts to laugh, "Now that I have you here with me, I just want to say, I love you so much."

"I-I-I'm yours..?" I question. His eyes filled with something no one has ever seen as much on his face. He looked upset, "Yes, you're mine, and if you have a problem with that then-"

I cut him off, "I don't, I love you too, Dottore," I say to him. His eyes brightened and a smile grew on his face.

"Hearing that fills my heart with joy, I'm so glad, I've been waiting for this moment for so long, ever since I saw you," He smiles.

I struggle in the rope trying to signal it's uncomfortable, "Want me to untie this for you?" He asks softly. Getting close to my face, his lips almost touching mine.

His hand starts roaming from beside my hand and touching my skin going down to my chest, "Y-Yes," I say softly, "Please," He smiles at me untying the ropes from my wrists then to my ankles.

I sit up on the bed, watching his every move. Afraid of what he might do, I need to get out of here. I need to go get help.

He paced back and forth and then he sits down, "Where are we at, Dottore?" I ask.

"A house that I was able to buy, it's in the middle of nowhere practically. It's quite big, it's a nice house though," He says sighing and then grinning at me.

"I suppose you didn't bring any clothes of mine with you?" I ask him.

"No, I didn't think about it, but you can use a shirt of mine, it'll look like a dress on you," I nod my head in agreement to the idea.

Anything to bide me time. I just need to figure out a way to get out of here.

"Is it okay if I go shower? I just feel gross after school you know?" I ask politely. He nods his head, "Of course, I'll get one of my shirts for you to wear when you get out.

"Okay, thank you," I smile softly at him.

He gets up and walks over to a closet in the room, he slides a door open and grabs out a white collared shirt. It looked like something professional. It looked like it would cover a lot. He hands it to me and I grab it from him.

"I shouldn't be too long," I say to him, "Oh dear Y/N, the bathroom is down the hall to your left," I nod my head at him and then exit going in the direction he told me. I looked around slightly and found the stairs.

The front door is right down the steps. I can see it but would he hear me? I put the shirt on the counter and then exit the bathroom silently, closing the bathroom door to make it seem like I'm in there. I then tip toe down the stairs silently and softly.

I walk towards the door and grab a hold of the handle opening it up, "Where do you think your going?" I hear a stern voice behind me and then I get grabbed. Arms wrapped around me and a hand over my mouth. I struggle to get out of his embrace.

"Thought I warned you, didn't I," He says, his voice completely cold and void of any emotion. I then bite his hand and he lets go of me. I made a run for it.

Going through a corridor, and turning lefts and rights randomly. I can hear him behind me. I start to lose focus and trip over something.

I try to get up but get kicked to the ground, I wince in pain, "You were suppose to be a good girl and listen to me, but you didn't, now you're gonna have to pay the consequences," He says.

"O-Ow, pl-please, don't," I say trying to crawl away but I feel a shoe press down on my back.

He then grabs me by the arms picking me up and swinging me over his back. I fight and struggle back but he has no reaction and doesn't seem to care. He makes his way around the house going downstairs.

I hear hard metal clinking together. Then he takes my wrist wrapping something cold around it, I look over to see a chain and then struggle more.

He takes my other wrist wrapped the chain around it too. I struggle more and more but to no avail it doesn't work.

"I'll keep you here until you can learn to behave properly," His voice cold and stern echoes slightly through the basement.

I don't know how long I'll be stuck here for but I need to escape eventually. I need to build my trust up with him again. I don't know how easy that'll be. 

All I know for certain is, I'll be down here for a while.

[hermitknut]

20 Questions for Fic Writers Tag Game

@birdylion tagged me :D

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

56.

2. what’s your total AO3 word count?

440,219

3. what fandoms do you write for?

There've been quite a few over the years. Currently Goblin Emperor (slightly on the back burner while I unkink my writer's block) and Hands of the Emperor (just started dabbling, nothing posted yet). Before that Merlin, Green Rider, Realm of the Elderlings, Doctor Who, and Harry Potter predominantly, with little dips into Discworld, Sherlock, Sweep, Supernatural, Percy Jackson, Lady Trent, Life on Mars, Old Kingdom, Life on Mars, and MASH. I have some Narnia stuff kicking about in my drafts somewhere, and while I've never posted it I've been writing Animorphs fanfic for years.

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The Stairs Beneath the Heart: Goblin Emperor, a series of vignettes that runs parallel to the canon that I posted through the start of the pandemic and really enjoyed. It was the first time in ages I'd had a regular posting schedule, and the first time ever I'd had that much fandom attention on something I was writing - everyone was so lovely <3.

Take These Tower Stones: Goblin Emperor, the sequel to the above, a much more coherent and consistent story which everyone was again really supportive of <3

What Friends Are For: Discworld; Angua gives Vetinari the shovel talk. There's a big disparity in the stats between the previous two fics and the rest, so these last three were a surprise to me! I'm glad people liked them though :)

Fire in the Night: Merlin, somewhat angsty nightmare/comfort oneshot. Again, surprised to see this one so near the top, but pleasantly so.

The Michen Emperor: Goblin Emperor again, currently the bane of my existence because I can't seem to finish it (I will eventually, just need to unstick my brain). Really appreciate all the love people have shown it. Basically, what if canon but with smol!Maia.

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably either Take These Towers Stones, or Red Sky (which is a tiny little snippet of fluff).

8. do you get hate on fics?

I've had a few shitty comments, and mostly I've just deleted them. I've never had any extended hate campaigns or anything, just people who mistakenly thought their dislike was worth expressing.

9. do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Occasionally; usually though not always queer, normally pretty tame. I read smut usually without worrying about the warnings, but I'm a bit too shy to comment on it, and I think that extends to my writing, haha. Maybe I'll get the hang of it some day :)

10. do you write crossovers?

Nah, for some reason they don't work for me at all - almost a squick, I don't read them either. The closest I got was considering a fic where the characters from Green Rider had diplomatic contact with the characters from the Chronicles of Ixia series, but I never ended up getting there.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don't think so - I should probably put in my Ao3 that people are welcome to if they like, I keep forgetting. I'd be honoured if anyone wanted to.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope; I'm very picky and not good at compromise, though it's something I'd like to work on one day. It'd have to be very low stakes and with someone very patient!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

Lines of Silver and Gold (Realm of the Elderlings) is probably my oldest fic that is both posted and unfinished, and I have no current plans to work on it. I'm hoping that one day I'll be able to come back to it, but that book series was my thesis topic and unfortunately I rather burnt myself out on it, so it might be a long while.

The Queen Rider series was originally going to have two more fics, but those have been scrapped; fortunately it resolves quite nicely as is. Maybe I will put up a little misc fic with what I do have of the rest some day.

And on a more positive note, my Animorphs fic - it was originaly going to be a full written-through story spanning a considerable post-canon period, but unfortunately I lost the original in a harddrive failure and while I rewrote some of it I rather lost my enthusiasm for it. However, I have been reconsidering lately and might post what exists as a series of loosely connected vignettes; we'll see.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue is what I find easy and what I've received the most compliments on; I think this is because a lot of my fic is drafted "out loud" before I get anywhere near setting it to page, so the first iteration is often predominantly speech. I'm also often told I'm good at mimicking the tone of the canon, if I'm writing for a book fandom.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Research (I'll do it if it's something that will otherwise potentially hurt people, but other than that I have neither the effort nor the inclination), and making things messy - that is, I tend to tidy things up a lot and I'm not good at letting my characters get things wrong/communicate badly/etc. Good for fix-its, less good for creating challenges in the story.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I am depressingly monolingual so I don't do it in my fics; as to what everyone else does I think they should have fun and do whatever they like, I suppose. Not enough knowledge to have more of an opinion than that.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter was my gateway fandom.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Ohhhh tough one. I'm immensely proud of the Keystone series (The Stairs Beneath the Heart and Take These Tower Stones), so they're solid candidates, but I also really like The Shadow of the Mountains (Lady Trent) and Miracles (Realm of the Elderlings), the latter of which contains possibly my favourite line of prose I've written.

I'm tagging @the-tao-of-fandom, @pipuhattar, @alittlefellowinawideworld, @nonasuch, and anyone else who'd like to answer!

[fizzigigsimmer]

Bake Off: A Harringrove Sim Story

Chapter 4

Copperdale studios, early morning.

The commercial break ends and we're back with Nancy and her guest's Steve & Billy on the couch of her morning show.

Nancy: Welcome back! I'm Nancy Wheeler and this is 'Good Morning With Nancy'. Before the break my guests, the owners of Harringrove Cafe, revealed the first two teams in Copperdale's very first amateur baking competition. But there's one more team left to introduce. Steve, Billy, everyone is wondering who made the final cut!

For the first time Billy looks almost more excited than Steve.

Billy: Team 3 is the best team in my opinion. There's Robin Buckley, of Dirty Paws training center; who is a bit of a spazz yeah, but is actually pretty good in the kitchen. Although I still say it's weird she cooks in the same kitchen where she makes dog treats.

Steve: Hey! It's not like she doesn't wash everything in between.

Billy: Whatever you say. I don't know if I trust it. But I'd trust her partner Chrissy Cunningham with anything. She's like, my favorite person.

Steve pouts. He seems a tad jealous.

Steve: You can't have favorites Billy!

Billy: Oh please. Everyone knows Chrissy is my best friend. Best friend. Favorite. What's the difference?

Steve: Yeah but, people will think their team has an unfair advantage if you go around telling everyone that!

Nancy: Hmmm... but isn't Robin your best friend, Steve?

Steve: For the duration of the competition I have decided that I have no friends. I'm 100% impartial.

Billy rolls his eyes as Nancy laughs.

Nancy: Aren't you two banned from the Karaoke machine for life because you tried to sing that Toy Story song in Russian and wouldn't let anyone else have a turn?

Billy starts to giggle at the memory and Steve blushes.

Steve: Okay. Maybe it's a good thing the final vote is up to the public.

Nancy: Yes, I think so. But the question on my mind is how did you convince her to get involved with a very public show like this? Robin is known to be very camera shy.

Billy: Yeah, I've been wondering that too.

Steve: Well...

A few weeks earlier....

Steve walks through the park on a cloudy afternoon with his best friend Robin. With them 'Captain Roger' an excitable boxer breed that Robin is pet sitting for a client. Steve has been trying to convince Robin to participate in the Bake Off but Robin is reluctant. The idea of being on TV makes her too nervous.

Roger gets a scent in his nose and starts to run ahead. Steve notices a sign in the park reminding people to leash their pets.

Steve: Hey, is he okay off leash?

Robin: Of course. It's part of the training. I like this park because it's usually empty this time of day and we can work on heel and return commands without being disturbed too much.

Steve was never allowed to have pets growing up and is always very fascinated by Robin's work with animals. If only Billy weren't allergic.

Steve: He really comes back on command? That's so cool. What a good boi! You're a good boi aren't you Roger.

... In the studio

Billy: *sighs* You tried to pet it didn't you?

Steve: What! Why would you think that?

... back in the park

Steve goes to pet Roger, forgetting what Robin told him about Roger disliking people reaching for him suddenly. Robin cries for him to wait but it's too late. The fearful dog goes on the attack and Robin gets bit separating them.

Steve: Robin! You're bleeding.

Worse! Roger has run off. Along with Robin's paycheck and possibly the reputation of her business!!!

Steve: Lets get you to the doctor. Thank god the clinic is close.

Robin: Forget about me! Get the dog!! Roger! Roger here boy!

Steve: Stop, before you hurt yourself. I'll get him and meet you at the clinic.

Robin: Are you sure? What if he tries to bite you again.

Steve: That was my fault before. I won't forget to go slow this time. Just trust me, alright?

Robin: I trust you. You better find him Dingus!

Later at Copperdale Health Clinic ...

Robin sits on an exam bed while nurse Chrissy cleans her wounds and wraps them to keep them from getting infected.

Chrissy: There. You're all done, Robin.

Robin: That wasn't so bad.

Chrissy: It's a good thing you didn't need any stitches. But what's wrong, Robin? You look upset.

Worried, Robin gets up and begins to pace.

Robin: I'm worried about Steve. I mean he's a complete dingus for forgetting Roger is people shy, but I still don't want him to become a chew toy. He's probably puppy chow by now.

Chrissy: I'm sure he's fine Robin. Steve's always come through for you before hasn't he?

Robin: *sigh* That's true I guess.

DING. Over the sounds of the busy clinic an elevator arrives down the hall.

Chrissy: Robin look!

It's Steve, and trotting happily at his side is Roger. Robin isn't going to have to explain things to his owners after all.

Steve: You owe me big Robin.

Robin: Oh as if! This was all your fault to begin with. If anything I owe Chrissy. She's the one who patched me up and kept me from worrying about your stupid ass.

Steve and Chrissy share a look and Chrissy's smile turns just a little bit evil.

Chrissy: True. And I know exactly how you can repay me.

... Back in the studio

Billy: If I didn't know better I'd accuse you of blackmail. Did you two plan that whole thing?

Steve: Slander. I would never put someone in harms way just to achieve my goals Billy.

Billy: Yeah you would. Does Christmas of 86 ring a bell?

Steve: That was an accident! How was I supposed to know a moose was that dangerous?!

Nancy has heard this story so many times. Desperate to save her show before it can devolve into another retelling she jumps in.

Nancy: Let's meet the teams, why don't we?! Joining us on the stage this morning is team #1 Max Mayfield and El Hopper! Give it up for team one.

The audience cheers as Max & El walk out from backstage.

El: Thank you for having us!

Max: Yes. And that moose thing was half your fault Billy. I told you not to feed it peanut butter!

Billy: It was a baby Max! Was I supposed to let it starve?

Nancy: *raising her voice* Argyle Beachem and Eddie Munson of 2nd Grove, everybody. Come on out Team Two!

The crowd roars as Eddie and Argyle appear, waving to the crowd and posing for the flashing of lights as Eddie's fans start to rapidly take pictures. Laughing Argyle poses beside him and encourages them to get his good side.

Nancy: *smiling* And last but never least, give it up for Chrissy Cunningham and Robin Buckley. Our Team Three!

Nancy: That's all the time we have today folks. Tune in next week as we kick off The Harringrove Cafe: Amateur Bake Off, and watch these six talented competitors compete for the crown of Copperdale's most talented amateur baking duo! I'm Nancy Wheeler and this has been, Good Morning With Nancy!

The end...

This marks the end of the completed chapters. I will share some stills from the baking competition because they're super cute, but sadly I don't have time to finish the story. Thanks for joining me on the ride and I hope y'all had a good time!

[dropintomanga]

My Mother Saved Me

I got to spend some time with my mother yesterday for an early Mother's Day celebration in New York City. Before then, I was in deep thought about something that happened to me about 23 years ago. It's something I haven't really talked about and it involved my mom to a huge degree.

I was once hospitalized because of my mental health issues and if it weren't for my mom, I think my life would not be where it is right now for the better.

When I first got my diagnosis of clinical depression at the age of 17-18, I leaned into a bit too hard. Or more like I wanted to not do anything at all. One time at the first university I went to, I talked to a counselor and told them I heard voices. I mention this right now because now that I think about it, I don't think I was really hearing them. I think it was just thoughts instead of voices.

But I leaned into the "hearing voices" motif a bit too hard. In 2001, a year after my diagnosis, I tried switching colleges and still felt out of it. I felt so depressed that I decided to get voluntarily hospitalized. I don't know why I did it, but I was so worried I would kill myself. So off I went into a hospital. There I was surrounded by people much worse than me mentally. It also led to a pseudo-revelation - I don't think I really had it that bad because I was actually optimistic during my time. I eventually was discharged after about a week as my mom fought to get me out with determination.

I thanked my mom yesterday for what she did in 2001. But the story didn't end there. I found out that my mom fought hard because she personally saw what the hospital unit I was staying with was like. She saw the number of people with SMI (serious mental illness) and felt that I really shouldn't be there. My mom told me she was horrified. She even told me that the doctors above were saying I was writing stuff that I wanted to kill/hurt others when that wasn't true. My mom never believed what they said. She was worried that doctors would drug me and force me into bad treatment solutions. She said she signed a release form saying she would take full responsibility for me if things went south (spoiler alert: they didn't, even though I did have a close call).

As some of you who follow this blog know, I've been more critical about what constitutes as mental health care. I've been listening to perspectives from people with mental health conditions who get hospitalized and end up worse after. People who are supposed to help didn't/couldn't do their jobs. We got a hotline number, great. But a lot of people don't know the full truth about how broken the mental health system really is behind closed doors.

And I think about the statement "It's okay to not be okay." I dislike that statement because if that were the case, then we wouldn't be throwing a lot of the mentally ill into jails, prisons, and/or the streets. Certain mental issues (bipolar disorder/schizophrenia/psychosis/etc.) sadly are ignored.

I could have been one of those people if it weren't for my mom. I know I stressed her a lot and feel like I haven't done enough. But she has seen how much I've grown mentally over the last few years. I strongly have been questioning my own response to my circumstances decades ago as a mental illness. I don't want to pretend that ignoring trauma/vulnerability/dependency is going to make me stronger. My mom has noticed this.

I have a lot of empathy and good amount of compassion from my experiences, but I believe some of it came from my mother. I noticed how many friends she has and how she's helped various people over the years.

I know some of you have all kinds of thoughts about Mother's Day, but for me, I'm lucky to have the mother that I have. Someone who allowed me to be myself, stuck with me through my bullshit, and saved a naive version of me who didn't know that they needed to be saved.

I hope you all have someone like that in your life because even as we get older and wiser (I'll use recent events of My Hero Academia as an example), we're still all children deep inside who need maternal love of some kind to truly make us flourish. Mothers are the real heroes we truly need.

[batz-surveys]

12.

When was the last time you saw the person you like? This afternoon, before he left for work.

What are you listening to? The a/c and my dog licking her pillow.

Would you take back your last boyfriend/girlfriend? No times infinity!

Did you babysit for money when you were in middle school? I babysat, but I sure as hell didn't get paid. I was forced to look after my niece and nephew from the time I was thirteen, until I could get a real job at seventeen or eighteen.

Who is your favorite band? How long have they been? The Used. I've loved them from the first time I listened to their first album, which was a burned CD. That was when I was a freshman in high school, so either 2003 or 2004.

What do the last two texts you received from different people say? Hubs: "Damn, baby I'm sorry. I'll clean the tub tomorrow after I take you to work." I hurt my back last week, and couldn't clean it to take an epsom salt bath today. Mother In Law: "[heart emoji]"

Are you good at wrapping presents? I’m great at wrapping presents, but I prefer to put gifts in bags so that people can reuse them.

Who are you more like? Your mom or your dad? I would say I'm a pretty good mix of both, both personality wise and physical traits.

How do you respond to being nervous? Oh, not well at all.

Who were the last two boys to text you? You mean men. And it was my husband and my dad.

If you could have one thing right this second, what would it be? A winning lottery ticket so that I don't have to work tomorrow, and I can go see a doctor without fear of spending over $200 just for them to tell me I pulled a muscle.

How did you get your last bruise? Either a kid hitting me or me knocking into something.

Name something you disliked about today? My back hurt so bad when I woke up this morning, that I could barely get out of bed on my own.

Who is your favorite author? It's a toss-up between Clive Barker and Stephen King. Stephen King writes more, but Clive Barker's way with words and description is just wonderful. And then there's Edgar Allan Poe...fuck, I can't pick!

Do you like to have long hair or short hair? I like the way long hair looks on me, because my face is chubby, but I love that short hair is so much easier to manage.

Do you think doing drugs is cool? Haha, no? I think it's just something for people to do. That's like asking if I think doing the dishes is cool. It's not awesome, but people do it.

If you could go to Africa, would you? If I had time to research all the areas I would be going to, yes. And I'd have to take my dad. It's his dream to go to Africa.

What were you doing at 9:00 a.m. this morning? I was lying in bed watching Tik Toks.

How often do you see your most recent ex? Never, thank goodness.

Have you ever driven without a license? Haha, yes. But I don't drive. It was just some practice at our old storage unit place, and then I had a panic attack so...

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone’s life? I know I have. That sounds cocky, but it's true because people have literally told me.

Who were you last in a car with? A Lyft driver on Friday. Haha, it just set in that I haven't left my apartment other than to walk my dog since Friday.

What is bothering you right now? The weekend is over, my back still hurts, and I don't want to work because of it.

What are you planning to do on your 19th birthday? Ha! My 19th birthday was forever ago. I can't even remember what I did for it.

Do you like cheesecake? I have to be in the mood for it, but sure.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? My husband.

Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon? Yes, I want to see Joker: Folie à Deux so bad! I'm not sure when I'll get a chance to. I'll probably have to play hooky on one of my husband's days off.

How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? Thirty-six.

How did you meet the last person you kissed? Through Facebook. We had mutual friends, we talked for a couple weeks before meeting in person, he invited me to a band practice, and the rest, as they say, is history.

What does your hair look like? It’s in eight braids.

Do you like your hair? I like when it cooperates with me, sure.

Do you wake up cranky? Most days, yes.

Are there certain things that can’t be joked about with you? Sure, and they're obvious things that nobody should joke about in the first place.

Do you care who wins the Super Bowl? Not really.

Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? I got it for Xmas a couple years ago. But more than likely, The Used's online shop.

Have you ever met your favorite band // singer? I have. Not the original line-up, but still.

Have you ever been in a life threatening situation? Yes.

Have you ever read the Hunger Games series? No.

Do you watch a lot of movies? A lot of horror movies, yes.

Have you ever had highlights in your hair? Well, I had streaks at one point. But they were teal.

Do you like to keep a routine? Not only do I like to, but I have to.

Who knows your biggest secrets? My journals.

Do you have any hickeys on you? No.

Have you ever made out with someone you weren’t dating? Yes.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone? Now. I love my husband.

Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings? I wouldn't call my tattoos interesting, really. But I have had some wild piercings back in the day, haha. I've been pierced over like, twenty times.

Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)? I do now, yes. Distance from my mom healed my relationship with her. And my dad getting sober healed my dad's relationships with all of us.

How many siblings do you have? I have two brothers, although I don't talk to one of them, and a sister.

What do you hear right now? The restaurant down the fucking street. Same three fucking beats, in rotation, almost every night.

What friend haven’t you seen in a while that you’d like to see? Oh man, I don't even want to pull at this string. Next!

Are your lips soft? Right now, not really actually. I just pressed my lips together and they feel a little chapped.

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? Honestly, probably a parent of a kid at work.

Last time you were sick? I had a little sinus issue last week. I think it was from cleaning the bathroom without proper ventilation, though, and not actually catching it from somewhere.

Who came over last? My husband's friend. He had just got out of the hospital, and he didn't want to be alone, so he came over Friday night to chill.

Where is your next date? God, I hope it's soon. I'm dying for romance. We've just not had the time.

Whose car were you in last, besides your own? I don't have a car. It's always my husband's car. But I guess other than his, then it was my Lyft driver on Friday.

What letter does your boyfriend/girlfriend’s last name start with? L.

Has the last person you kissed ever been to your house? Yes, he lives here.

What would you do if Jesse McCartney rang you up and asked you on a date?  I forgot about this guy - I'm pretty sure I thought him and Aaron Carter (RIP) was the same person.

Would you ever date someone who was absolutely gorgeous but thought they were better than everyone else? I'm married. But for the question's sake, probably not. I've done that before in the past and honestly, he wasn't even that cute and his attitude made him very unattractive.

Do you dislike anyone? No.

Why? I let go of the reasons I dislike a person when I let that person go. Like, the former question made me think of my brother that I don't talk to. I don't hate him, really. I just got fed up with all the things he's done to my family, and cut him loose. I want nothing but the best for him, and his family, because their my family, too. But, I also want nothing to do with that side of my family. I've had enough. It's not a grudge, like my mom likes to say, it's just the end of our relationship. Just because the same blood runs through our veins, doesn't mean we have to be family.

How would you feel if you got the person you liked? I got him.

Do you remember who you liked on New Year’s? My husband, haha.

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? Sure. It's something I'm working on to this day.

Do you understand football? Kind of. Not where I could explain it, but I can watch and follow along.

Explain your relationship status: Married to my best friend in the whole world.

Ever been called a jerk/bitch? Yes, both jokingly and seriously.

What do you think your mom does when she goes out? She's either running errands for my grandma or Ms. Betty, or shopping.

Do chickens have feelings? I think so. It's why I don't eat them. Tomorrow's seven years as a vegetarian for me!

Where is your sister right now? Probably at home.

What kind of phone do you have? Samsung Galaxy S8. Shut up, it still works fine.

What do you smell like? My leave-in conditioner, so kind of coconutty.

Are you allergic to anything? Yes, several things.

Have you ever been to a spa? No.

Do you miss someone? I do miss my husband. I'm still not used to his long, late hours yet.

Do you think they miss you too? I'm sure he would rather be here with me, yes.

Do you know how to do a cart-wheel? I've never done a cartwheel before in my life. I've always been afraid of breaking my neck, haha. Which is stupid, because I skateboarded in high school with no regard for breaks and bruises because I never wore pads or a helmet.

In one word, how would you define yourself? Tired.

How did you feel when you woke up? Tired and achy.

When was the last time you saw your father? Wednesday evening.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? Ugh, yes, thanks for reminding me of that fucked up time in my life where I was either always high or drunk to numb the pain of my life outside of the drugs and alcohol.

Do you like surprises? I like to say I like "item surprises." Like, gifts and things like that. But don't surprise me with a party, or a trip, or anything like that. I need two to five business days to plan and prep mentally.

Who was the last person you held hands with? My husband.

When was the last time you laughed really hard? It was either yesterday morning or this morning, I can't remember. My husband said some funny shit, as usual, and had me cackling before coffee even.

Is it hard leaving people behind? Certain people. But mostly, no.

[tigger8900]

New Who Rewatch: S1E1 - Rose

So, I originally intended to do this back before the 13th Doctor, but I couldn't get my shit together. Such is life. Then I thought I'd do it before the 60th Anniversary Specials, but again, did not have my shit together. But then I thought, it's never going to happen if I don't just do it, regardless of where my shit is or what it's doing. So this is happening.

I'm gonna be starting from 2005, y'all. Some of these episodes I've seen several times. Some I've only seen a couple times. And a few(more in later seasons) I've only seen once before. It'll be interesting to revisit those in particular, thinking about why I avoided them when picking out episodes to watch. I'll be ranking things as I go. Who knows, life might even allow me to get all the way through to the present! Assume that there are unmarked spoilers through the episode being discussed.

S1E1: Rose

Overall Ranking: 1/1

Series 1 Ranking: 1/1

I've never been mad at Rose. Is it my favorite? No. Do I dislike it? Again no, not even when thinking about the CGI effects. I think it's a great premiere for the reboot, but taking the episode on its own merits it's pretty solidly middle of the pack for me. I expect it to shake out somewhere in the upper middle of the rankings. Though the Ninth Doctor is incredible, Rose is not my favorite companion, so that probably factors into it as well.

Thoughts on the episode:

I really like the framing of the Doctor as being someone dangerous. I'd forgotten about that. He comes in when a big disaster happens, and we know that usually he stops it from being even worse, but from the human perspective he's the harbinger!

The Mickey vs bin CGI is not good. Oi.

Christopher Eccleston is so good in this role. As much as I tend to like the episode content that Russell T. Davies puts out, the fact that Eccleston has spoken out about his negative experiences working with RTD(among others) gives me complicated feelings about RTD being back as a showrunner.

Jackie Tyler is so unlikable at the start, even viewed through the context of her being a single mom doing her best. What she has going for her is the fact that she loves Rose very much and wants what's best for her daughter. What she has going against her is pretty much everything else. She's a great character, especially later in her arc, but I'd hate to have to be around her as she appears in this episode.

RIP Clive.

I love that, after literally five minutes of living plastic-induced mayhem, the street is full of fire. It's so ridiculous and over the top.

The chain swing is a really good character moment for Rose. She might not be set up for success by the metrics society typically uses(no A-levels, no job), but she's brave and capable. That's the part of her character that I like.

...but she treats Mickey like shit! He's not a bad boyfriend, from what we see. They're being sweet together and having fun in the opening, and he shows up to help her out repeatedly. He's also right about a lot of things, including the fact that it's kinda sus to go meet some internet stranger at his house. But she's so inattentive that she doesn't even notice when he's been replaced by an Auton. Admittedly she also doesn't notice the Doctor trying to get her attention in the same scene, so this is more of a Rose issue than a Rose & Mickey issue, but that's messed up. And then at the end, when he's having a perfectly normal reaction to what he's just gone through, she just up and lol bye!~ Mickey deserved better.

[vanikolya]

cw: mentions of death, spoilers for volume 9 of vnc

reader info: meant to be f!reader but i'm also kind of bad at writing for specific genders it never really comes up that much

notes: @rin-idk i posted this early and i had to delete it im so sorry sjdjdjf, i'm basing this off this theory! (spoilers for volume 9). this is also a continuation of my past louis x reader headcanons, the reader will be the same and have that history with louis!

LOUIS DE SADE X READER HCS (AU WHERE HE LIVES)

being domi and noe's friend, it's likely to say you would later go on to meet vanitas just as they did, so you'd reasonably have an idea about the comings and goings of the main plot

although even after meeting a vampire doctor who held the book of vanitas and used it for good... louis "coming back to life" was the last thing you'd ever expect to come out of this

at first it felt a little strange because it had been so long, you'd thought he was dead for all those years, it was hard to just pick up where you left off even with your friendship let alone with any romantic feelings

but alas with time louis being around again slowly felt more natural

he doesn't talk to you very much about things that happened in moreau's lab, it's mostly just kept a secret between him and vanitas as they were both there, you, noe and domi are kind of just only filled in on the basics of "after my head was cut off i was taken to this lab to be saved and i stayed there"

although he does have occasional nightmares that he goes to you about for comfort, though much context of what happened isn't given

not that he doesn't trust you, he doesn't want to upset you, so aside from that he refuses to mention it and if asked will just brush it off and make some joke

of course there's also the obvious thing of him. not being able to speak now. on the offchance he was taught any kind of sign language by moreau and the teacher, he teaches you as well so you can understand him, but otherwise pen and paper works just fine

i feel like i need to add my big headcanon that he kinda just doesn't like vanitas 💀 "(name) why has your taste in friends gone down since i've been away, after seeing you with vanitas it was a miracle to find out you're still friends with domi and noe"

although i guess it's more like frenemies there's no like extremely malicious stuff it's just like "ew it's you" whenever they see each other

sorry this is turning into more "louis being around in the current plot" headcanons

he's very grateful for you being there and staying patient with him whilst he adjusts to Existing Normally(tm) before anything changes in your relationship

whilst he never spoke of his feelings for you when you were both younger, it's quite obvious that he missed you just as much as he did noe and domi

there's no exact spoken moment of "we should be together now", it just happens with a gradual increase of you both being more affectionate, louis being more accepting of your affection towards him, etc

he likes hugs❗️❗️give him lots of hugs. there's something extremely grounding about them and he feels safe in your arms

he'd probably get upset about something and after being comforted and calming down he'd smile and make some joke about how you're the lady, traditionally he should be protecting and comforting you, not the other way around

despite his joking he is still actually quite protective over you, especially considering you both being in a friend group that rather commonly gets involved with cursebearers and other dangerous situations

i've mentioned louis' frenemy type dislike for vanitas but at the end of the day he's very calmed by the fact that if you were to become a cursebearer, being friends with vanitas would give you an immediate cure, rather than you having to go through anything near the likes of what louis did

i also think that louis would have to keep his being alive a secret, domi is the only member of his family to know he's still alive

so being in a relationship with him feels a little easier, he's just louis, not "louis the discarded twin of dominique de sade who the majority of his family dislikes" because you don't have to deal with the opinions of people like veronica and antoine because- louis was executed as far as they're concerned

though the trade off here is that louis has to be more secretive in general, perhaps using different names or not being able to go to altus with you if invited

with you being domi's friend, it would probably also be that he'd have to be kept secret from your family too, not just his own, with class divides and the de sade's being a higher class family, it's pretty much given that to have been such good friends with domi as a child, your family would have to have already known the de sade's and be close with them

it's still a common theme with him that he prefers quieter time with you than a larger gathering with more people around, reminiscent of him preferring to sit and read with you rather than play alongside domi and noe

overall i think he'd be pretty gentle with you and as a partner despite his more sarcastic and, what i'd affectionately call "bastard" personality

[bronzeagepizzeria]

20 questions for fic writers

Lol I did this a while ago but why not!! Thanks for the tag @mulderscully <3

How many works do you have on ao3?

28. I had more but sometimes when I dislike a work enough I simply delete it

What's your total ao3 word count? 132,139

What fandoms do you write for?

doctor who mostly, although i dabble in harry potter and xmen

Top five fics by kudos:

Of Thorns and Roses (ten/rose; historical au)

A Hundred Visions and Revisions (tentoorose; 60th rewrite)

The Surrender (ten/rose; shag or die)

One Day Closer To Death (ten&rose; post JE reunion)

Dimorphous Expressions of Positive Emotion (tentoorose; babyfic)

Do you respond to comments?

i do, yes

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

i want to write so much more angst but i think One Day Closer To Death has around 30+ people telling me they cried so that makes me very, very happy :) Window of Hope (HP) was pretty sad, too, imo

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

ahh. everything i write with tentoorose is usually happy. the sappiest ending is probably (Accidentally) Welcome To The Rest Of Your Lives which features the birth of Mia <33

Do you get hate on fics?

no but i have gotten some weird comments

Do you write smut?

a little bit. wouldn't say it was my forte though

Craziest crossover:

haven't written one yet but i keep thinking of an cherik/tenrose beach overlap, lmao. no idea who would even read that

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don't think so!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nothing that i've posted, but i love the idea of doing it. takes so much off the pressure off imo

All time favorite ship?

tentoorose bby!!

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

promising myself i'm not starting any more longfics until i finish Quid Pro Quo (ten/rose; fake dating)

What are your writing strengths?

i think i understand characters pretty well. i think my dialogue is pretty believable too

What are your writing weaknesses?

i'm a very slow writer and i struggle to fill in the space between dialogues

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

i'd never do it, i don't think

First fandom you wrote in?

posted? doctor who. just wrote for myself? rpf lmao

Favorite fic you've written?

oof. i think A Life Out Of Balance is off to a pretty good start at the moment. I just gotta update soon!

tagging: anyone who wants to!!

[respectfulkitfistosimp]

The Abode

A Kayn lol x reader fanfic part 4 master list

You disliked the pop artists that your coworkers would listen to while you worked but now you found yourself humming the lyrics and beats of their songs, you would give everything in your power to listen to them again but you wouldn't work 48 hours straight ever again. You had started to regret your desicions to come here, all of the benefits that were promised and delivered to you suddenly lost their meaning as you started to get homesick, you missed your parents, your friends and even the walk to university or the hospital, you also missed only knowing Kayn as a character in a game that the guy you hated the most in your world played with rather that an actual person who for some reason loved to interact with you, you had no idea why you found him so annoying, the poor acolyte hadn't done anything, maybe it was the fact that the guy you hated used to play him in the game? Yeah, maybe that was it, or maybe you just simply didn't click together, that was also possible. It was almost as if your complains summoned him as he just walked into the infirmary without even knocking, you scolded him each time he did that citing possible cases as to why he should knock, "what if I'm changing?" Or "what if I'm treating a patient and they need privacy?" Were things that you would say, he shrugged with a smug look on his face each time and that only annoyed you more.

—I got hurt again, doc—he said, he had started taking a liking to calling you "doc", saying that doctor is too strict.

—Let me take a look—you replied and thought "what a surprise", putting a lot of effort in not rolling your eyes as you inspected the wound that was finally something worth treating—are you normally this careless?—you asked him as you started to treat the injury.

He shrugged with a smug look yet again before replying—only since you started working here.

You had no idea what he meant by that, was he flirting with your or did something happen to his head? It was most likely his head, it would explain all of his weird behavior but unfortunately for him you never expected to specialize on neurology, but you could do the next best thing and look for any signs of a possible concussion and somehow you found nothing.

—I didn't hit my head if that's what you were wondering—he said, finding the situation funny.

—That you remember—you said, feeling as if you've had this conversation before

He said something after but you didn't answer him though, honestly you didn't even hear what he said as you examined the horrible state his hair and scalp was in, it was a crime to have such beautiful and long hair and not take care of it, so for first and last time in your life you were going to go the extra mile for him.

—Let me make you some rosemary oil for your hair and some nettle oil too—you said, finally separating your hands from his head—do you mind getting some rosemary and nettle for me? I've got no clue where I can find them.

Kayn looked at you full of confusion for a couple of seconds before his entire face started to glow from.... happiness? excitement? It seemed like those were the emotions he was experiencing but you had no idea why, how come he was so happy to do such a simple task for you? Maybe he was actually happy that his hair would get better? Yes, that was why, you would react the same way if you were in his shoes. Just to make sure he wouldn't forget what you needed you wrote it down on a piece of paper, along with a note for him to give to Zed in case he asked Kayn why he wasn't training.

—Thanks, I appreciate that—you handed him both pieces of paper, he folded them and placed them in his pocket after reading each one—take a break today just in case, come to me if the wound gets worse, alright?—he nodded alond with a "yes, doc", at least he knew how to listen.

He didn't leave though, for some reason he just stared at you like he was reading you, trying to take a peek into your very soul and so much staring started to make you nervous, you mouth went dry and you started to fidget with the edges of your coat, tilting your head in confusion.

—You're different today—he said, tilting his head too but not trying to annoy you.

You tried to come up with an excuse but no thought crossed your mind, it was weird how he could just render you speechless when you would normally be able to bullshit your way out of any situation. You took a deep breath to calm yourself, it did barely nothing but at least you stopped fidgeting.

—Tell me your story—he asked, kindness filling his voice.

Luckily you were prepared for that question, otherwise you wouldn't even know what to say as you obviously couldn't simply say that you came from another universe, in fact you didn't even know why you were here now.

—I used to live in what's now Noxian territory—you started, sitting on your desk—I had a clinic there where I treated people—you kept your story short and simple, that way it'll be easier to remember in case you had to lie again.

—What about your family?—he rested his back on the chair, genuinely interested.

—My parents were good, hardworking people, I was their only child so they wanted what was best for me—you faked a homesick look—I wanted to be a doctor since I was a kid and they busted their asses working for me to achieve that—you chuckled, that part was true—then came the noxians and, well, you can guess what happened next.

Kayn stared at you, understanding filling his eyes as you kept a soft but sad smile, even if the reason behind such a smile was different it didn't matter, whether it was from homesickness because everyone you knew was dead or in another universe it was still a sad, cold feeling. He looked down at his hands, thinking of what to say to comfort you but ultimately coming up with nothing, he had never been good at this kind of stuff.

—It's alright though, I've had a long time to digest it—you reassured him, that allowing him to lift his head to look at you.

—I'm sorry—was all he could say, you started to feel a little guilty for lying to him.

You sighed before opening a jar, taking out a piece of candy from it and offering it to him.

—Don't be, it wasn't your fault.

Kayn took the candy from your hand, inspecting it for a second before unwrapping it and propping it into his mouth, the sweetness from it making him smile, you thought he looked better that way. All of the actual homesickness you were feeling that day, all of the regret and bitterness getting blown away just because of that simple smile, you gritted your teeth knowing what that meant and being afraid of it, it was easy for you to fall for a person who showed the slightest bit of interest in you and that made you scared, you didn't want to get your hopes up only to be let down like before, much less for someone who you were in charged of keeping healthy and was fighting in a literal war, not knowing whether he'll make it back alive.

—Go to your room and get some rest—you told him, trying to make it sound like you were caring for him when in reality you were just caring for yourself.

He nodded with a smile, ignorant of the turmoil it caused on you and left after thanking you. This time you didn't wait to let go of a shaky breath, your hand flying to your mouth as you tried to calm yourself down, thinking that you were being extremely dramatic you moved to the open window and the smell of incoming rain calming down your nerves and numbing the turmoil in your head as you consciously focused on it, then you found a resolution to your problem, you would burry your feelings deep inside your heart and just become so insufferable that he wouldn't even want to live in the same place as you, but since he's been in the order for much longer than you Zed would fire you and you would explore the world or something, your plan was so good that you were ready to start it that very night.

Once darkness fell and a storm started you stood at the top of the stairs, your hair a mess as it covered your face, the hollering winds and the rain adding to the atmosphere, this right here was more than just a plan, this was retribution, this was vengeance. Kayn called your name and for a split second you heard him stutter, you had a very interesting although mostly useless ability to make a clicking noice with your throat and as you dragged your feet to the stairs while doing that noise you stared at him thru the hair covering your face, once it was time to actually go down the stairs you took inspiration from a very well known movie and turned and twisted your body in a way that you were going down the stairs in all fours with your back arched, the first couple of steps you went down carefully, not wanting to break your neck and become an actual ghost. By the time you reached about half way down the stairs you just suddenly picked up your speed and finally you heard him scream like he was getting his guts pulled out and dart away from you so fast that after a blink you couldn't see him anymore, when you actually reached the end of the stairs you stood up as upright as possible, feeling so many muscles in your back ache after the stunt you pulled but the sheer joy that it brought you made you forget about the pain. At first you tried your hardest not to laugh, even going as far as to cover your mouth with your hand, but you just couldn't keep it in and finally you laughed your ass off so hard your knees went weak, making you fall to the ground.

[metacrisisdoctor]

Hello! I love reading your posts, it makes me so happy to see that there are people that still love these two❤️ I appreciate all that you have done to keep the fandom alive!

That being said, because I wasn't involved with the fandom when I first watched the show, about 13 lol, I am pretty out of depth with how popular certain aspects of the show are to the general audience of Doctor Who.

Me being in my little bubble, I always assumed that all the RTD companions were really beloved, especially Rose Tyler. However after going out of my way to now seek out fan content, as an adult, it seems that there's way more dislike for her than I thought. Is she genuinely well liked amongst the majority? I thought that most fans really connected with the tragic love plotline they had?

The reason I ask is because I am fairly certain (a crack theory I've been making up in head) that more than ever there's a chance that we'll get some insight on how Tentoo and Rose are doing in the alt world but I'm afraid I might be getting my hopes up for nothing if they're not as popular as I thought they were. Thank you and I would love to hear if you have any insight!❤️❤️

hi! aw thank 🙈💗 honestly i just made this sideblog to ramble so i wouldn't annoy my followers on main (even though i was originally a dw blog there) and had been out of the fandom for about seven years before october; so i'm rediscovering it too!

i have noticed a lot of differences in the fandom from when i originally watched dw when i was in high school to now. when i watched it was 2012, so ten's era was still really recent and tumblr was much more active, especially in terms of doctor who.

back then, tenrose was everywhere because that part of the fandom was still the majority, but there was a lot of tension because of the direc moffat was taking the show. i remember there was sooo much excitement about even the possibility of david and billie being in the 50th, then it was announced and we all thought we would see tentoorose or at least s2 tenrose; then it ended up not being that at all. this resulted in the fandom feeling disappointed and used for views on top of the fact that a lot of people did not like moffat's characterization of ten and his decision to bring gallifrey back. it was a lot of things, but i think the 50th really created a split in the fandom that we have never fully recovered from. from then on, a lot of rtd era people de-activated tumblr and moved on to other things, including me for a while, because the fandom was so so so tense on both sides.

tenrose is absolutely still a very popular ship, rose is still a beloved companion by many, but it's not 2012 anymore. there are people who ship the doctor and river, the doctor and clara, the doctor and yaz, etc. so there is less unification i guess? and sometimes this leads to people hating on rose because some think they can elevate their ship by minimizing what rose meant to the doctor, which is bs because the doctor is allowed to love multiple people over the course of their insanely long life!

it's not that people don't like tenrose, it's just that there are people who prefer other eras and relationships now and the people who love tenrose aren't active much. but man, the SECOND thirteen regenerated into david ALLLL the tenrose girlies came out lol and i fully expect that to happen again in november. i mean, a lot of people hate ten as well, but that's because he is so popular and i think that applies to rose too. it's a sort of resentment sometimes imo. not always, but a lot of the time. dw is just a massive fandom and with things this long running there is never gonna be one specific consensus to cater to, and rtd always firsty caters to the story.

that all said, rtd is absolutely gonna bring them back even if it's not in the 60th. he always planned to, and planned to make the tardis coral scene canon somehow, so when i saw he was showrunner i was like "it's time!" lol and he has liked a TON of instagram comments about them and rose and bringing them back, including mine 😇🥰

[lasenbyphoenix]

Shipper tag game

Tagged by @sunriseverse thank you!💜

What ship were you completely obsessed with when you were a teenager, but now you don’t care about anymore?

I didn't know the concept of shipping was a thing until I was 29 and stumbled onto fandom on tumblr, (didn't know about fandom either until then), so I'm trying to think of any couples I would have considered cute in anything I watched/read growing up... and I really dont know?? Joshua Jackson was a fave actor from back then and I can't even remember if I had an opinion on the Dawson/Joey vs Pacey/Joey debate on Dawson's Creek. I was always more interested in the story than the ships! (Can you tell I'm on the aroace side of life? Lol)

Which ship would you consider your first one?

Captain America is what lead me to finding fandom in the first place so Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes is the first that comes to mind. But before that I was very into Dr Who, so I'd probably consider The Doctor/Rose Tyler the first fictional couple I had any emotional investment in.

Your first fanfic was about which couple?

My first shippy fanfic (written before I knew what "fanfic" was) was James Bond/William Brandt Skyfall/Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol crossover.

You know the scene in Skyfall when Silva has Bond tied to a chair and starts toying with his chest and teases him about this not being in his training and Bond replies "What makes you think this is my first time?"? And then in Ghost Protocol when Jeremy Renner's character pulls himself out of the vent at the last second and gripes "Next time I get to seduce the rich guy."? I joked to my best friend that "Now we know what James Bond's first time was." And that's how that idea was born.

I started writing it as a joke for my friend but never finished it, and if I find the notebook it was written into I might just revisit it because I still quite like the idea!

Do you remember the first couple you saw fanart of?

Not for certain, but possibly either Dean/Cas or Rose/Ten.

Have you ever gotten into ship discourse?

Like ship wars or 'problematic' kind of discourse? If I did it would have been in my Captain America days (Stucky vs Stony and Peggy vs Sharon being heated topics of memory), and even then I don't remember specific incidents - as a newbie to fandom I tended to lurk and watch instead of engaging. Now I'm very much Ship And Let Ship (and only bitch in private to your mates, not in public!)

Did you use to have any NOTP or have one currently?

There have been plenty of ships I've come across that weren't my thing, Stony for example, but I'm not going to invest enough energy into recalling any others. I'm not here to spread hate on something other people like.

Who were the couple in the last fanfic you read?

On tumblr? Li Lianhua/Di Feisheng (Mysterious Lotus Casebook)

On Ao3? Ming Lou/Ming Cheng (The Disguiser)

Currently, do you have any OTPs?

So many. Zhang Rishan/Ba Ye, Hei Xiazi/Xiao Hua, Steve/Bucky, Steve/Peggy, Data/Geordi, Stiles/Derek, Jiang Cheng/Nie Huaisang, Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan, and likely more that havent come to mind yet

Is there any couple that, to this day, you are extremely mad about not getting together?

Haha no. I think I've always just accepted canon couples as "the thing that happened in the story", and now when I have my own ship preferences, then I accept that it's *my* headcanon and not necessarily anyone else's (especially not the writer's headcanon).

When Captain America Civil War came out I realised I'd gotten WAY over invested in what was or wasn't included in the movie (although I knew realistically they weren't going to make Stucky canon ) that I took a big step back afterwards and very much made a mental separation between "this is the story those writers want to tell" and "this is the story I like to imagine".

Is there any ship you used to dislike but now you think they are kind of interesting?

Dean/Cas maybe? It wasn't so much that I disliked them but that I didn't read them as a romantic relationship for most of the time I've known the ship existed (I'd always read Cas as ace). It's only been since the show ended that I think my idea of what makes a ship had widened to more than just "stereotypically romantic" which recalibrated how I saw them.

Do you have any ship that, in the past, would’ve been considered normal but now you would be cancelled over?

Incestuous (Thor/Loki, et al,)? Teacher/Student(I blame ABBA)? Torturer/Torture subject (Hydra Trash Party)?

What is your favorite crack ship?

I will certainly have come across crack ships that appealed to me, but honestly if the writer/artist sells it well enough then I stop thinking of them as crack ships and instead think of them as rare pairs.

What is the couple you read the most fanfics about?

Currently? HeiHua. Overall? Stucky.

What do most of your ships usually have in common?

Someone to be vulnerable around, someone who understands you better than anyone else, "you're not alone anymore"

What do you absolutely hate in a ship?

If I don't like a ship it's probably more to do with a singular character I don't like than the couple itself.

Tagging @gaiahenshin @fangdoubing @epicwalrus @tazzy-ace and anyone else who wants to!

[revolutionsoftheheart]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you for tagging me @majolination! 💜

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

166,478

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently: Star Trek, Ted Lasso, Doctor Who, although I'm mainly posting Ted Lasso at the moment (and my Doctor Who fic has never seen the light of day!). I find it hard to go back and forth between different fandoms.

Over the course of my fandom life: Stargate SG1 and Sanctuary (which are still only on FFN at the moment), Once Upon a Time, Madam Secretary (only Tumblr ficlets).

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

five (Star Trek: The Next Generation, Star Trek: Picard)

plausible deniability (Once Upon a Time)

in the silence (Ted Lasso)

somewhere along the way, i should forget (Once Upon a Time) 

Hide (Once Upon a Time) 

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do! I've gone back and forth on it during my fandom life because a few years ago, I read some post that was like 'you shouldn't reply to comments because you're just inflating the numbers' and that turned me off for a while, but I like answering comments. I like talking to people and discussing fic! So I do respond. As much as I can anyway. Sometimes, life gets busy.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Surrender (Once Upon a Time), although it's really just tragic. Calling it angst almost seems to soft.

Maybe five (Star Trek: The Next Generation, Star Trek: Picard)? It's a fic about a couple breaking up over and over again.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably Ethereal (Once Upon a Time). It's one of two Christmas fics I wrote in that fandom, and I think this one is the most magical and very cute at the end.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No, I luckily never have!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Sometimes, when the story requires it. I've never written smut for the sake of smut. I need emotions or something to go with it. I also dislike writing it, haha.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I have not written crossovers.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No! But I did write a fic in French once.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes, but it was never completed and I forget where it lives. It was a group project by a few authors, to write a season together.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

I'm going to answer this as the ship for which I've read fic the longest and that would be either Janeway/Chakotay (Star Trek VOY) or Picard/Crusher (Star Trek TNG), but this is a very hard questions to answer. The ship I've written the most for is Regina/Robin (Once Upon a Time). I love River Song/The Doctor (Doctor Who) with every single cell of my body, but I've never written anything for them. And of course, Ted/Rebecca (Ted Lasso) own my heart at the moment. So, my favourite ship? Yes.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Oof. Probably White Lies (Once Upon a Time). There's a chapter of it on AO3, but I won't bother linking because it's only one chapter, and although there's a full folder on my computer with scenes and I know the entire plot in my head, I don't think I'll ever have the motivation to write it.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I do angst pretty well, or like just emotional thoughts/scenes. Exploring characters and their motivation (vs plot, which I don't do as well, or much).

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

The English language? Lol. Okay, not entirely true, but my self-confidence in the fact that my English is good enough be a writer. Let's put it that way. I find that my vocabulary is never big or strong enough.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

If the fic calls for it sure! But it needs to be done well.

I've never written a dialogue in another language in an English fic, but as a reader and as someone who speaks French, nothing turns me off a fic faster than bad French. So if I were to write dialogue in another language, I'd want to make sure it was 100% correct.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

A little unknown local show on message boards 15+ years ago. It's been lost to the ether of the internet.

First fandom of my English fandom era: Sanctuary.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

I'm cheating and saying three because I can.

Favourite fic of all time and completed? Probably Greatest Hits (Once Upon a Time). I'm super proud of that one and all the multiple AUs I created for it and the way they are weaved together.

From this past year and completed? five (Star Trek: The Next Generation, Star Trek: Picard), hands down. I am so very proud of this fic. It's the first fic I managed to complete in 5 years. I feel like chapter 1 is a little rough, but by chapter 4, I impressed myself and it was a very nice feeling.

Incomplete? I've never had as much fun writing and planning something as I've had working on celestial games (Ted Lasso). I hit a bit of a wall because life got intense and then I lost my momentum, but I cannot wait to get back to it! I smile just thinking about it.

tagging in a no-pressure way (and sorry for any double tags): @broadwayfreak5357 @fandomfrolics @somewhereapart @ninzied @the-alpha-incipiens @writtenndust @quillerqueen and anyone else who wants to do it! (I did my best trying to spread this to various fandoms haha)

[besidesitstoowarm]

"Love and Monsters" thoughts

unironically one of my faves of the season so far. sorry

i like that davies went sillymode and tried a brand new framing device of having the episode be about someone other than the doctor/companion/companion's relatives at home/etc. i like the pre-2010 vlog quality. i like how the absorbaloff is out here looking like the white jontron. i like elton mr blue sky

i honestly don't know what to say about this episode. i can see why it would be a disappointment after "the satan pit" or even just being a fan of doctor who as-is but i'm watching these episodes with a fairly moderate gap between them and so my brain gets to reset and i can enjoy the episodes, especially experimental ones like this, relatively in isolation. i like the scooby doo opening. i like the reference to "enemy of the world" with ursula going to beat the shit out of kennedy the way victoria almost elbow-dropped salamander (there's no way in hell this was an intentional reference but my brain is broken and i like to see it)

as much as it annoyed me, even rose's "you upset my mum, no one upsets my mum" worked for me this time around. there's a kind of arrogance to rose and the doctor together and apart (but especially together) where nothing they do has any consequence unless they feel like it, their intentions are the only ones that count so they can do whatever they want. and rose did calm down after a sec and comfort elton about losing ursula. i liked elton's interactions with jackie too. milf manor over here

i even like the ending. yes it's stupid, yes they make a dumb blowjob joke. i love elton's last line, i think even people who hate this story acknowledge that's a good line (about how "when you're a kid, you think it's all...). a line i've never noticed before tho is right before that one, when he compares the doctor to the absorbaloff, how even just one touch, one momentary interaction with him is enough to derail your entire life. it's very solemn and entirely correct, the doctor's very presence has collateral damage. it's a huge theme in the davies era and i think when you push past all the silly shit in this ep, it's a very poignant undercurrent

so yeah, it's goofy and i get why people would dislike it but i think if you unwrinkle your brain and absorb the episode (just like in the show guys do you get it) you will understand

[abbysimsfun]

Sims In Bloom: Generation 2 Pt. 27 (An Ally Against the Landgraabs?)

Heather raised her infant son, finding as much time as she could to work on her new app, PetConnect. But since they'd stolen her code the last time around and she still wasn't over it, she was desperate for intel on the Landgraabs and Landgraab Corp.

Nancy's black sheep brother, Johnny Zest, was in town for a comedy gig. She decided to try to talk to the one person who might know the most and disliked the family business as much as she did.

She walked up to him after the show. "Mr. Zest? I'm not sure if you remember me."

Johnny grinned. "Heather Nesbitt! How could I forget the woman who finally made my sister curse out her precious son?"

She raised an eyebrow. "Sounds like me. I saw on Social Bunny you and Eva are expecting. Congratulations." She made polite conversation to keep her intentions from seeming too obvious.

"Yeah, twin girls! I thought I might pass out when the doctor said it."

"I can't imagine what life will be like with twins, but if you ever need advice on newborns I'd be happy to share what I've learned since Ash was born!"

They were surprised when Cass approached with Bernadette, greeting her sister-in-law with a hug. "You're a long way from Cobblebottom Street," Heather observed.

"My hours at the art studio are pretty flexible, and River's busy on building sites all day. Bernadette loves chasing birds down at the cove, and I wanted to visit my mother and get to know her new boyfriend. Since I moved to Henford he's moved in at the mansion, and I had to see for myself how happy he makes her!"

"She brought Spatula in for a check-up last week and hummed love songs the whole appointment!" Heather mused, turning to the blond-haired comedian. "This is Johnny Zest."

Cassandra greeted him excitedly. "My husband and I saw you on Late Night last week," she said. "We laughed so hard my sides hurt!"

Johnny beamed with pride and Heather silently thanked Cass for feeding his ego. The higher he was on himself, the more she hoped he'd reveal about his family's dirty business. "He's also Ash's great-uncle," said Heather, and Cassandra carefully guarded her expression as the Landgraabs came up.

"You should have seen the way my sister laid into him for keeping his distance since he became a father. He's such a nervy little twerp. I never liked that kid and thought Nancy spoiled him way too much. She'd never let anyone say a bad word about Malcolm until she watched him take no responsibility for her grandson."

This was gossip Heather had needed to hear. Cassandra, on the other hand, began to feel a bit like a interloper and excused herself. "I think that's my cue to get in one last run with Bernadette before we head back to Henford."

Bringing up the Landgraabs had unlocked Johnny's wrath, and he barely noticed Cassandra leave as he launched into a rant against his spiteful sister. "Nancy talks a big game about the importance of family, but she stole the company from our father," Johnny sniffed. "She convinced the Board he was past his prime and they voted him out while he was vacationing in Tartosa." Heather could relate to his distaste when he spoke of Nancy. "She's the reason I won't have anything to do with the family business."

"Why not?"

"Landgraab Corp. is hardly a company anymore, thanks to her. It's basically a shell running whatever business they can get their hands on. They don't care about quality, just protecting the investors who keep buying in to her plan to buy up every business in Simlandia. She's not even that savvy, and actually fired an IT guy for suggesting KingMalcolmTheGr8 wasn't a strong enough password if she used it for everything."

Heather groaned at the woman who might've been her mother-in-law. "Do you think she'll succeed?"

Johnny offered a pitiful laugh. "The place I played tonight had napkins, glasses, booze, even toilet paper that makes Landgraab Corp. richer. At this rate, it's probably just a matter of time."

Heather was more determined than ever to free her clinic, but she still didn't know how she'd ever compete with the conglomerate. ->

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NOTE: I've officially ascended to the level of simblr where I'm restaging scenes in a second game file to get better screenshots (I hope this isn't a plane of existence I've invented to feel better about doing this). I've also gone ahead and tested fate by turning off laptop mode for the graphics quality and just...there's no hiding from my over-the-top quest for better screenies with this post. The difference is STRIKING but I'm satisfied with ultra mode on my laptop so far!

[minerscanarybyvanessacarlton]

I was cleaning up and I realized that this isn't a breakdown. I'm gonna make this post unrebloggable right after I post this. And I'm sorry for the wall of text nobody has to read this I'm more or less using Tumblr as a diary.

In January of 2024, 8 months ago I was still fresh out of my first of what would be 3 hospital stays within this year. I was living on crackers and water because the antibiotics I was taking for the persistent infection I had were beating the shit out of my stomach. I had zero energy to do anything but go to work come home and not leave my room until it was time to go to work again. It took 3 weeks to write off the year and make my goal "survive hopefully still with a job and a roof over my head"

And what had me so weirdly emotional after the two doctor visits was that since March of last year I've lost 125 lbs, most of it in those 8 months, I haven't been in a hospital except to just take tests since May. The pressure sores that were causing the infection are not fully healed but almost there. My a1c was normal, and my doctor took me off of the metformin yesterday. Where I'd have a doctor's appointment which was never bad, my doctor is incredibly kind but I'd still want to come home and rot, I want to since I took the day off work anyway go and walk around goodwill and 5 below and that I've been so excited about it getting cool in a couple days because I can have a better time going for walks and genuinely exploring the town I live in and the general area which I love and always have, I never mentioned that my mom grew up in Vernon Hills like she lived there before it was Vernon Hills it was just part of Mundelein, but her sisters and brother stayed in the area until a few years ago so we spent a lot of time here, and I dreamed about living in this area my whole life and also I just realized that this area grew up with me which I'm also weirdly sentimental about. I realized how far I've come in the last 8 months let alone in the year and a half since I was first diagnosed with diabetes after a hospital stay for an infection that I'm not exaggerating nearly nearly killed me. Oh btw my boss emailed me on either Monday or Tuesday to let me know I'd been given a raise and to keep up the good work. And I'm actually genuinely for the first time realizing how much I'm making actual serious progress and this is what being actually proud of myself feels like. And I have a ways to go but I can do it.

And then I thought about how kind so many people have been including everyone involved in my medical care who at least to me never made it known if they disliked me or were judging me but also but maybe they weren't judging me at all, and I thought about one of the times I went to the hospital was after I fell at work and everyone there tried to help me and despite how humiliating I found it were genuinely kind and also had the kindness to not bring it up and were similarly kind when I fell again the day I came back (which in retrospect is hilarious to me I was fine I managed to get back up I tripped and I threw out the shoes I was wearing when I got home that's what it was) and have also been incredibly kind and that my family despite everything has been behind me 100% and that I have people who have shown that they care about me time and again and that the part of me that thinks everyone actually hates me and finds me annoying (negative version) is dead fucking wrong. And that I'm gonna be okay. Not in the way I say to keep myself going but because it's actually true.

Oh and one more realization, I think I might actually be not fully there but close to actually forgiving myself for the last call it 15 years and how badly I let my depression take over and that's because I realized I'm capable of and in the process of coming back from it like I joked once about how I narrowly avoided the point of no return and instead of "haha I suck look how bad it got" I'm actually so incredibly lucky to have gotten the chance to get better. Like I never want to be where I was just a few months ago again but in a good way not in a scared way.

So, y'know, going great but unironically.

Today at my job where I'm usually at my most normal I continued having the most incomprehensible mental breakdown of my life. Which says a lot. So. Y'know. Going great over here.