#I've gotten so much better but it's been months since I've skated
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env0 · 7 months ago
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Only a year or so late. SKATE EDIT 2023
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cat-esper · 1 year ago
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15 Questions Tag Game
I was tagged by @maskedemerald and finally got around to filling it out. The rules are to answer these 15 questions as either your OC or yourself and tag up to 15 people.
Gently tagging @awleeofficial, @ahordeofwasps, @void-botanist, @chauceryfairytales, @fire-but-ashes-too, and open tag.
Since I'm planning to write book 3 for NaNoWriMo, I'll be answering these for Chelsea and Shay from Project Paladin.
Are you named after anyone? Chelsea: Sort of? My mom knew someone named Chelsea and just really liked the name. Shay: Nope.
When was the last time you cried? Chelsea: Uh...probably a few nights ago. I just had a bad day trying to practice magic with this stupid cast on and then Ferric texted me to say the lead he was following regarding my parents was a dead end. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing all of this for nothing and I'll never find them and I just...I really miss them. I'm gonna stop talking so I don't cry again. Shay: I don't...I don't know. I don't remember. Maybe a month ago? It's personal.
Do you have kids? Chelsea: No! I'm only sixteen! Shay: Nah. Never really had the opportunity. Being a Paladin keeps me busy so it just never really crossed my mind. Do you use sarcasm? Chelsea: Sometimes with friends. We goof around a lot and tease each other and that's when the sarcasm comes out. Shay: I'm never sarcastic. Chelsea: He actually is but his sarcastic voice is the same as his non-sarcastic voice so it's hard to tell if you don't know him. What's the first thing you notice about others? Chelsea: Ummm, probably what they're wearing. If they have a cool outfit or a backpack or, oh, if they have really cool hair. Shay: I focus on faces. I talk to a lot of people in this line of work. I help them out and they give me information in return. I study their expressions, try to tell if they're lying to me. I see a lot of grief too and it's better to look them in the eye so they know you care. I see a lot of gratitude too and it's...nice. Seeing that I made a difference. What's your eye color? Chelsea: Blue Shay: Brown Scary stories or happy endings? Chelsea: I'm a sap for happy endings. Like, give me all the drama and angst for sure, but in the end, I just want my faves to be happy. Shay: I used to think scary stories for sure. Anything that could actually creep me out, that was good stuff. But now...now I wouldn't mind a happy ending. Any special talents? Chelsea: I can play the trumpet but not, like, super good or anything. Um, I learned magic recently if that counts? Shay: Why the hell would that not count? Chelsea: I don't know! I'm not very good at that either! Shay: It counts. I also know magic and can play the guitar. Where were you born? Chelsea: Sable, Utah. I've lived there my whole life and hopefully I'll get to go back when all this Paladin stuff is over. Shay: Bray, Ireland. Haven't been back in a long time and I don't know if that's going to change. What are your hobbies? Chelsea: I love camping and hiking. Riding my bike. Roller skating. Hanging out with friends. Spending too much time on the internet. Shay: Being a Paladin doesn't give me much free time, but like I said earlier, I play the guitar. That's how I unwind whenever I can find the time. Do you have any pets? Chelsea: No, which is tragic. I got to babysit some baby dragons recently but sadly, we had to give them back :( Shay: No. I wouldn't have the time or energy to take care of one if I did. What sports do you play/have played? Chelsea: I play softball sometimes. We don't have an official team or anything, but a bunch of kids from my school like to play against kids from Kane Heritage. It's fun and we don't take it too seriously. Shay: I was more into video games than sports before I became a Paladin, so I haven't really gotten into any. Although my sister kept suggesting I join a track team since I'm a fast runner. Didn't help to tell her I was mostly running away from things. How tall are you? Chelsea: 5'3" Shay: 180 cm Chelsea: ...I don't know what that means Shay: *does not translate*
Favorite subject in school? Chelsea: Band class. Our teacher's pretty chill and we get to play fun music. Need I say more? Shay: History. Dream job? Chelsea: Oooooh, I don't know! Being a park ranger could be cool. Or maybe I could be a Foley artist; that's what my Aunt Linda does. Or I could set up a really niche little hobby shop and sell weird knickknacks to tourists. Or since I have magic now, I can be a magician! Or... Shay: The only thing I ever wanted to be growing up was a rockstar. Corny, I know, but I loved the idea of that life. Getting to go on tour and do concerts. I do a lot of traveling now, but it'd be nice if it was for something simple like concerts and not to solve some horribly convoluted mystery that would most likely end in disaster.
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onlyforalwayswith · 10 months ago
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15 people 15 questions
thank you @crosbyism for the tag <3 <3 <3
1. are you named after anyone?
A local meteorologist... my parents liked her name :D And my great grandmother for my middle name
2. when was the last time you cried?
I'm not gonna lie I am weak for sports videos and web weaves etc so hockey-related crying probably like two days ago having something to do with Sid; real life crying... Christmas! My sister got me a sentimental poster/map thing for my new house, it was very sweet
3. do you have kids?
No! I have two fantastic nieces and I'm about to move about six blocks away from them. I ADORE them and my relationship with them but being an auntie is the perfect amount of motherhood for me. I used to think... maybe... and then I got a puppy and that answered that!
4. what sports do you play/ have you played?
Field hockey was my jam (though I was NOT good at it), and I was on the swim team forever. I've skied since I was about five, but tore my ACL in college and now I only really do it because my family is OBSESSED. But I was also one of those kids who tried everything for like... three weeks. So tennis, ice skating, soccer, basketball, softball, etc, nothing really stuck. I am... NOT athletic
5. do you use sarcasm?
never
6. what’s the first thing you notice about people?
This is a little weird, but... how good people are at conversation. I tend to feel pressure to carry conversations so I kind of instinctively assess right away what a person's conversational style is.
7. what’s your eye colour?
Blue-green
8. scary movies or happy endings?
Happy endings <3 I can't watch horror movies, I literally hide my head under blankets. At my first sleep over I had to call my mom to come pick me up because they were watching Children of the Corn and my little self couldn't handle it. I haven't gotten much better since
9. any talents?
kind of a silly answer, but reading? I think I'm pretty good at it.
10. where were you born?
The keystone state :D
11. what are your hobbies?
I love hiking--I actually did a walk-about for about two years where I visited a lot of the national parks for a month or so each, and it was just the most magical experience of my life. Hiking pretty much became my part-time job and it was fantastic
12. do you have any pets?
I do! I have a dog who is a couple months shy of his second birthday, he's a (high energy, playful, adorable) wirehaired pointing griffon which is a very pretentious name for essentially a very cute trash muppet. His name is Jinx and he drives me crazy and is also my bestie and I am very much that 'i would kill everyone in this room' brooklyn 99 meme about him
13. how tall are you?
a very average 5'5
14. favourite subject in school?
Religion! I hate everything it's done to the world but I loveee studying organized religion, I almost minored in it, actually, but went with English instead. I kind of realize now that it's because I like socio-psychology so much... why people do the things they do is pretty much the thing I'm fascinated with the most. And the answer to that for a lot of history was religion.
15. dream job?
I actually have my dream job! I'm a writer (novels) and I feel very privileged and lucky to have been able to make it work. There are times it very much feels like a job of course, but mostly I get to do what I love every day (very Sid coded) and I don't take that for granted.
I'm late to this, so I feel like everyone I know has been tagged lol! But if you see this and you haven't, consider yourself tagged! I love reading all the answers!!!
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dzpenumbra · 1 year ago
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6/30/23
Today was an odd day. Not bad at all, just quite skewed from the norm. And I think I really needed that.
I started with a new yoga video that was focused on the hips and heart. I really want to work on hip mobility and posture. I think they will both help me massively with skating. (Also, skating will probably help me with skating... XD) The routine was nice, though a bit foreign. I feel like I struggle a lot with just keeping a straight line between my hips, heart and head, and it frustrates me a bit. But I can tell I've gotten much better in the... almost 7 months since I started doing yoga every day.
Yep, I started doing yoga every day as a new years resolution, and I'm still going strong. I'm very proud of myself for that.
That's sorta... the theme of the day. Might as well skip to that since it came up naturally. The thing from tarot last night? And the night before too, I think... The thing about not celebrating my accomplishments? The... I think it was inverted Nine of Pentacles and it cape up before as Four of Wands, I think? Damn, I'm getting good at this. Yeah, Nine of Pentacles is like... a sense of satisfaction from your accomplishments. And the Four of Wands is like... celebrating a milestone. Either way. Same core concept manifesting in different ways. That came up naturally in therapy today. I shit you not, I did not lead the conversation there, in fact... I was a little blindsided by it.
It was an intense session, but it dove deep into... why I'm afraid of social interactions. And its this thing where I compulsively fawn. I give people infinite "second" chances. I sit there and let people do horrible things, thinking "I'm strong enough to endure this", in hopes they will see the error in their ways and course correct. I don't say "no" to people. I don't walk away. That kinda shit. And the weird way this manifests? I fear what others will do. Because I can't control them, nor would I if I could. I avoid social stuff because I'm scared of how others are going to act, and then... I'll just be trapped in it. Because I don't have my magic get-out-of-social-situations-without-being-awkward sticks anymore. (Cigarettes). That's just part of it, but it's a crucial component, and quitting smoking was exactly when all this shit hit the fan.
I used to be able to just leave a situation if it's uncomfortable. "I'm gonna go smoke a butt, I'll be back in a bit." That's it, no other explanation needed. Now? Now I don't have an excuse. Not a socially acceptable one. It's funny, my therapist dug into me on that one, saying smoking isn't even really socially acceptable anymore. I said I felt it was more socially acceptable than saying "I'm going to walk over there and stare at a tree for 10 minutes, I'll be back."
So... not having a built-in out is rough. And this all comes down to this whole like... people-pleasing thing. It's super reflexive and something I have been really proud of in a lot of ways. Trying to be a really nice guy, and tolerate a lot of shit, because I'm very understanding. Not only has this made me a doormat, it's enabled avoidable abuse. I don't mean that in a self-blame way, it's not my fault... but the fact that I still haven't developed that skill... the awareness of that makes me feel very vulnerable and unsafe. And... considering how all-encompassing these extremely unhealthy relationships were? My survival instincts have no idea where the next punch is going to come from, so they try to just avoid all fists. So... I'm scared of social encounters in general... in a very vague brain-stem kinda way... because I'm scared I won't be brave enough to walk away. And this is polar thinking.
I said, "In my head, it feels like a lightswitch between nice-guy and asshole... when really there's a whole gradient there." And for some reason... me walking away or hanging up when people are being pricks to me? When people are hurting me and embarrassing themselves? I see it as being an asshole. Or selfish. And I can't say this confidently enough, my assessment and learning of that is incorrect. Maybe its the whole phrase "be the better man" thing... because I don't want to be superior or narcissistic... But it's not a competition, it's... be a "self-respecting man".
Okay, lets use an example that just popped into my head, because I have no idea how to navigate this. So... say you're waiting at a bus stop and some homeless person comes up and starts yelling at you. It's just you and them there. What the fuck do you do? Do you pretend to not hear them? Do you respond? Do you walk away and risk missing your bus? Do you put headphones in and risk pissing them off? I mean, I have half a mind in that situation to just have a few pocket phrases in French and just pretend I don't speak English. But that takes preparation, and doesn't really work with existing friends.
Maybe not the best example, but yeah. Basically... dealing with confrontation and conflict by standing up for myself and being able to just walk away. Those are really important. And they require a lot of self-confidence, self-esteem, self-worth. And that's the connection to the tarot thing I was talking about like 4 paragraphs ago... celebrating accomplishments. My therapist made a really good point about this that resonated. Not celebrating my accomplishments isn't just... not getting a bonus or something, like depriving myself of dessert. It's fucking with the chemical reward system in my brain. I'm training myself to not feel anything when I accomplish shit. And as someone who struggles with depression, that's bad news.
So, it was advised that I spend some time really patting myself on the back for my accomplishments and treating myself. Not just because I deserve it - because I do - but because it's causing a lot of ripple effects. It damages my sense of forward momentum with my life, and it damages my self-worth. It makes me feel like a loser who sits around all day and does nothing, when really... I'm very creative, very driven and have accomplished a ton. That damage to my self-worth... then makes it incredibly hard to socialize. Not just because of insecurity and shame, but because rock-bottom self-worth means I will fawn and shit when people treat me like garbage. Because a big part of the whole sitting there and not leaving when someone is treating you like shit... is because at some level... you believe that you can't set a boundary there or something bad will happen. (I'm saying "you", I mean "me") I struggled to get that sentence out. The word "deserve" keeps floating around in my head and I keep playing ping-pong with it. "Don't deserve" to have boundaries. Or "haven't earned" setting boundaries. I don't know. Sometimes when I get this deep into shit like this, I can't tell if I'm discovering new thoughts or just reciting platitudes I've heard in passing. I guess maybe the lateness of the hour is catching up with me.
So... anyway... In an effort to celebrate my big accomplishment --- oh yeah, good lord, I went on that whole rant and didn't even say what my big accomplishment was! My big accomplishment was not getting a commission the other day. That was big, but this was bigger for me. When the dude came back to me presenting the tattooist's counteroffer? I would've had to drop my price from $300 to $100 in order to compete. I would've had to cut my price in 1/3. And every fucking cell in my body was saying... "fuck it, do it." Bro, I can't even get a week worth of groceries with that shit. And I'm well aware of that, but in the moment... in the moment I'm just like... "fuck it, do what you gotta do". But I didn't. I didn't bend. I didn't change the price. Even though I felt I might've overcharged? I still don't even know honestly, my therapist was saying the rate really didn't sound that bad. Even though I felt bad, and saw the commission vaporizing in front of my eyes... I did not waver. I wished the dude well and told him I'd be here if he wanted to find a way to make it work, and yeah, lots of good vibes and good wishes and shit. It was fine. So, my accomplishment there was not bending and caving and fawning. And still being chill about it. And zero conflict arising from it. That was a huge step forward for me.
So yeah, feeling a lot more comfortable in my skin after having that out in the open and discussing it. It was very validating. And the more I take care of myself, the more comfortable I'll be in my own skin no matter where I go. Whether it's a walk along the river, or getting takeout at a local restaurant, or going to the farmers' market, or meeting my brother and his family, or finally going to one of those mixers at the board game place up the road, or meeting new friends on Roll20 or a Space Engineers server. The more I see myself as capable of handling those things, the more I am capable of handling them. And then I get practice, and prove it. And a positive snowball starts.
My way of rewarding myself today was to get some games. Steam Summer Sale, you know how it is. I got FTL, Hades and some DLC for Space Engineers. I tried out FTL tonight, it's pretty fun. And Space Engineers is on my list as my multiplayer option.
On top of all of this, I streamed tonight. I decided to stream the process of making a music visualizer from scratch. It actually went really well and I ended up doing a 4+ hour stream. No one dropped by... but I enjoyed the process, and that's what matters to me. Getting the audio routing set up paid off... and now that it's set up... I might be able to make music streams work... I'm just imagining doing guitar practice streams, that could be really cool. I've always wanted to do that, that's actually where I started with streaming back in the early 2010's on justin.tv
Alright, tarot time real quick, it's obscenely late.
Past - Page of Cups, inverted (Pure emotion. Innocence, wearing one’s heart on their sleeve. Channeling one’s inner child.) Present - Five of Wands, inverted (Competition, disagreement, strife, and the accompanying need to step up to the challenge, prove yourself and see it through.) Future - King of Wands (Uses experience and reflection to master creativity, passion, inspiration and aspiration.  Raises the creative fire to its full potential with control, without letting it become destructive.  Charismatic, natural leader, funny, charming and radiating confidence.)
This starts with inverted Page of Cups. Page of Cups is kinda the embodiment of a childlike spirit. Confident, following one's heart.
This is connected to inverted Five of Wands. Five of Wands is the bravery to meet a challenge and face competition.
And this concludes with King of Wands, who I am unfamiliar with. I guess he's kinda the epitome of tamed creative fire. Blazing powerfully bright while still contained and within experienced control.
Alright, so... the beginning here is... the dark side of Page of Cups. Which I would see as kinda... childlike naiveté. Running headlong into dangerous situations with the best intentions. Maybe with the heart-on-the-sleeve emotional Cups connection... innocently trusting the wrong people... This led to conflict. But my reconnection with my inner child involved shedding the callous insensitivity I used to have, like a snake molting. Where I used to welcome the challenge of a conflict to test my wit, their perspective and feelings were not a priority as much as trying to "win" or "beat them"... I instead became like a child who had their milk money stolen by their best friend. And instead of rising to meet the conflict, I took a knee or walked. And oddly... these two are leading to... the embodiment of creative mastery. The... implication... I kinda get from this... My intuition is kinda leading me to think... if I learn these two lessons, I can accomplish great things... and be the creative being I'd love to be. I don't know, it's a hunch. It's an interesting thought.
The placeholder card was... Queen of Pentacles - the keeper of the symbol of a life well lived. The Spirit taming, guiding and coexisting with the elemental impulses, all working together harmoniously.
Maybe the lesson is how to weather when things go wrong with the Page of Cups and the Five of Wands. When people take advantage of my childlike wonder and trust, and still continue onward in life. When people compete and incite conflict and I don't rise up to the challenge... but I also don't give up. Maybe I can still make a good life without having to "fix" these, rather just... learning to live with them.
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diedraechin · 3 years ago
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Chapter 34 Preview
I've been holding back on posting this until I got through the handful of scenes I was struggling with in Chapter 35. I wanted to make sure that chapter was sound before moving forward... for reasons.
I'm so glad that everyone enjoyed the last couple of chapters. :D
This off-season is going to be a long one, I hope you're all ready for it!
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Yuuri skated around the edge of the rink. It was strange having this much ice to himself again, but he loved not having to constrain his work to a smaller patch or, if he was lucky, half a rink. Of course it cost more, but it was only for a month off and on while he was in Tokyo; not even really a month, since most of his ice time would be at practice rinks near the various ice shows. He wasn’t working on choreography for his season yet, so he just needed this ice time to maintain his conditioning.
He left Michigan the day after his Biology final, which he probably could have gotten away with not taking at all and just dropping the grade for, but he preferred to be able to have some wiggle room. Phichit hadn’t been too happy with him, since that meant he had to go through the whole last month of school with Celestino checking up on him all the time.
Yuuri said he had it worse, knowing full well he didn’t, but it felt worse; he had to leave Vicchan for a whole month while he worked in Japan. And on top of that, he didn’t even really have time to go to Hatsetsu to get his well-deserved katsudon for winning All Japan nationals. Not that he was feeling very deserving of katsudon after the season he’d had.
He sighed, refocused on what he was doing, and went into a layback spin before bringing his leg up behind him into a Bielmann.
The sound of loud clapping brought him out of his skating, and he stopped and looked over to the edge. Even squinting, he still had no idea who was over there. This was supposed to be a closed session, but it didn’t mean that no one knew where he was. The JSF knew, Alexei knew because he was coming into Tokyo the next day to do some jumping work with him, Shuji knew since Yuuri was staying with him, and his manager, Hirano-san, knew as well.
Well, and Celestino and Kai and Phichit, but they were all in Detroit.
He finally gave up trying to make out the blurry figure and skated over to where he left his glasses.
“Your skating is looking a lot better than it was in December, Yuuri.”
Yuuri hadn’t even managed to get his glasses on, but he already knew who was standing there. “Shouta! Are you training in Tokyo now?” Yuuri smiled as Shouta came into focus.
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jiminrings · 4 years ago
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hi hannah! i may have a request 🥺 i've been watching too much tiktok and this two made me want some jungkook skater au 😳 like the reader saw him and went like love at first sight so she purposely buys a skate and goes everyday to the skatepark and start learning just to impress that hot tattooed skater that kinda looks like a bad boy but he's actually a softie. ♡
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZSm5Huop/
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZSm55usm/
late skate
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pairing: jungkook x y/n
wordcount: 7k
glimpse: jungkook would rather wash down his grip tape than spend another hour seeing you land on yOUR ass, a smitten y/n and love at first sight, and tae almost losing his bearings (in all aspects) <3 // gif is from pinterest :D
note: thank you so much for the request babie!!! also i’m sorry since i’ve done this a month late hee-hee bUT but it’s here now!!! fun fact: i used to skate but one time i fell on my ass so hard doing an ollie that i quit ( ˙-˙ )
there is nothing
there is absolutely nothing you hate more than walking home alone and at-
wait u need to shudder
night
times like these make you both angry and scared because fIRST of all
you’re angry because if oNLY (you’re still hoping that u win the lottery soon) you were born to wealth and ease (if you see park jimin one more time in a billboard you’re about to lose it), you wouldn’t have to worry!! or even work for that matter!!!!
you could have a car by now!!!
but you don’t have a car and you’re still saving up for that because you have to keep up with your bills and this nice and decent apartment that you’re living in right now
well if you’re being honest, you are splitting it with yoongi and that cuts back your expenses significantly but that’s besides the point
which is why you’re being extra thrifty!! save up all the money that you could so you could by yourself a car amongst other financial decisions and nOT be scared shitless when walking home
you’re working at the animal shelter most of the time and it’s very fulfilling because of cOURSE!! your job is to care for animals and give them a better chance at everything :D
the pay is more than decent but it’s not the highest sO what you do on your spare time is pick up any job you could!!
and the income that you need is more and more than decent because taking care of chimmy is not an easy feat
chimmy, your alaskan malamute!!! he’s the first puppy you’ve properly taken care of in the shelter and you’ve fallen head over heels for him
he kept bumping into the wall when he scrambles after you call for him but eH you love the clumsy giant still!!
so much so that you file your adoption form for him and run over to mr. kim’s office hurriedly :D
your boss seokjin’s pretty sweet after all but at the same time he’s intimidating!! too sweet and intimidating at the same time that when he approves your form without much question, you almost kiss his cheek
...
.... hehe
jin beat you to it and instead he gave you a side-hug with a very strict warning to take care of chimmy and provide everything that he needs
he eats 𝓅𝓇𝑒𝓂𝒾𝓊𝓂 dog food and you could only assume the amount that he needs because of how he towers
the treats?? one time yoongi got overly-excited to take a picture of him and accidentally left the bag on the ground, and when he came back?? chimmy’s managed to inhale all of them
thankfully he’s only loyal to one (1) toy and it’s to this brown angry... entity..? with one tooth that yoongi’s made by himself
but he constantly has to replace the stuffing because chimmy nOTICES when it’s flat and unstuffed from his own doings
hehehe the grooming.....
you thank your lucky stars that jin gives you a discount to have chimmy groomed!! 
one time you were about to have a breakdown because a $100 grooming session simply didn’t click well with your ongoing budget and you decided to do it yourself :D
spoiler alert: chimmy kept barking at you when you held up the mirror to his face because wOOF did you just... d-did you give him bangs.... how was that possible....
and then sECOND of all is that well.,.,.,
you’re scared and that’s it
there is every possible reason for you to be scared :D
you get off from work at 5!! but now it’s quarter to 8 and you totally should’ve booked an uber but it completely slipped your mind
normally, you wouldn’t walk home alone though because chimmy comes with you to the shelter, and then he serves as a therapy dog of sorts to help ease and calm down the new rescues!!
he even has his own little ID oh my god :’)
but he doesn’t come in everyday and well you remember,.,.
no actually, yoongi REMINDS you that today is his day-off at work and explictly implied that he’d very much love to cuddle with a giant alaskan malamute as he gets his well-deserved rest
and yoongs has been the reason to why you don’t unravel every single day and you owe him for your life so yea okay you can have chimmy whenever you need this giant pillow of support <3
but no
no 
you don’t have chimmy with you and you don’t have anyone to bark and be willing to growl n intimidate any creepy dudes you could possibly encounter on this twenty-minute walk home
the extra coffee you’ve drank at 6 in lieu of dinner does not help at ALL
what if you just... run
that way you get home faster and you won’t have to be that antsy!!!
ok maybe just a light jog would do
you wanna go home so badly and take a shower and be sandwiched between your warm sheets and sleep all the way
you miss chimmy and yoongi and you just hOPE that he’d already cooked dinner and you won’t have processed food again for the third time in a week
and after dinner maybE you could treat yourself to online shopping because yoongs has also been pestering you to let yourself indulge once in a while
your thoughts are jumbled once panicked and it reminds you that yes you should definitely get a car and you know what??? you probably should-
wait fUCK
...
....
oh
wait
hold on a second
did you just manage to narrowly dodge what seems to be a skateboard in mid-air??????
“taehyung, you dumbass!!”
said taehyung is jumping down and crouching to pick up the deck at your feet and squeaks an “oop sorry ‘bout that!!” before going back and
well...
mr. “taehyung, you dumbass!!” is who you presume to be the speaker,, because well no one eLSE is in this skatepark at 9 in the evening,,,, is standing RIGHT underneath the light and is right at your line of sight
it’s as if the clouds are opening up and chimmy’s barking could be heard and everything you deem perfect is ringing right in your ears because god.... holy shit.....
he looks and probably feels like a warm-sized bed that smells of baby powder and fresh linen
he has a hoodie on with the sleeves scrunched up and you tHANK yourself that you’ve saved up enough to get lasik eye surgery because those tattoos...,.,. you r positive that they would be your demise
mr. TYD has a loose bucket hat on yet you could still see his features clearly and you aren’t lying when you say he is perhaps the most breathtaking thing you’d ever seen
even more breathtaking than seeing chimmy in the laundry room and having fished for your one good perfect bra in his mouth
oh
huh
you’re pretty sure this is what love at first sight must feel like
suddenly, you aren’t anxious at all and you’re instantly gravitating towards the ramp without much complaint
there’s a bench conveniently placed in which you could see him but he won’t see you
you find yourself sticking around and smiling when you see him goofing around in all good fun
hopefully you don’t look like a cREEP because you swear you aren’t!!!! and hopefully they don’t notice you either and find out then and there that you’re here in a skatepark withOut a skateboard,,, just sitting,,, to see him
this may not be your best idea yet lmao yes you’re gonna admit that
but it’s probably the first and last time that you’re ever gonna see him so might as well watch him for awhile!! that’s all!!!!
ok wait
this is definitely a bad idea because yoongi calls you and you forgOt to put it on silent and it’s his voice that greets you very rudely as soon as you pick up
“y/n where the FUCK are you???”
oh lmao it’s quarter to 10 already
“jeez, i’m coming home!! calm down!!”
“yeah tell that to chimmy who’s been worried sick with me and won’t stop hOWLING!!!”
you’re scrambling to gather your duffel and sneak oNE last look at him and ur practically pouting as you say goodbye to him under your breath 
:((
“... aw, you worry about me?”
you resume back to jogging on your way home and this time for rEAL
you’re gonna miss him
he’s like one of the random dudes you see in the mall that are sO breathtaking and you know you’re never gonna see them again
you didn’t even manage to catch his name :((
but whoever he is, he feels a little more different than a dude in a mall because this time, you feel like you’re gonna cRY at the thought of it
little did you know that jungkook could see you all this time and he’s sad to see you go 
:D
chimmy is the first to leap at you as soon as you come through the door
and if you didn’t anticipate the giant, then you’d probably be toppled over by now
yoongi finds it weird that there’s this lingering gentle smile on your face
well he shouldn’t be so shOcked because he sees you talking to yourself when you’re watching documentaries and cooking
(( he always checks if there’s a camera hidden somewhere in the kitchen and you were vlogging or something but nO!!! ))
it’s like you’re a third-grader again that goes fERAL at just the thought of their crush
you hope mr. tyd has already eaten breakfast and hasn’t had any injuries with his skateboarding
you’re trying to rationalize with yourself that it’s just a stOOpid and pathetic crush to harbor in less than a day and stop thinking about him
the universe must seem to hate aND love you at the same time because well would you look at tHAT
it’s 5 in the afternoon and you have chimmy beside you and you’re walking home
and that’s practically your routine ever since you’ve gotten this job
it would only differ if a situation like last night happens or when you’re too tired to walk home oR when it’s raining
but right now it’s your normal workday, and you’re walking home, and it’s sunny, aND THIS IS THE SECOND TIME YOU’VE SEEN HIM
this is also the first time that you’ve seen him in such a situation that you didn’t expect :O
the fact that you’ve mayhaps watched kimi no nawa last night with yoongi and perhaps 98 times before that, does not help at all
“you uh, y-you wanna go for a run on the grass, chim??”
there’s this mini field besides the skatepark and chimmy happily jUMPS at the mention of grass :D
aha oh well :D would you look at that :D your dog wants to go run on the grass that’s a couple feet away from the skatepark :D who are you to stop him anyways?? :D
chimmy’s more than happy to comply with your wish and vice versa because he’s having the time of his life clearly
he’s your pawman and the perfect variable so you wouldn’t seem like a third-grader with a helpless crush on anOther third-grader
it seems that hE’S more excited than you though because chimmy runs to the ramp instead of the grass!!!
and in the process he goes UP to greet a guy like he does with you whenever you come home!!! it’s harmless pouncing per se
but it’s not entirely harmless because it feels like chimmy knows EXACTLY what’s in your mind and what he’s doing
“chimmy!!!”
.....
...... of course
chimmy has to of cOurse pounce on him
jungkook wasn’t surely expecting a giant and overly-friendly alaskan malamute to pounce on him right when he was about to drop-in
it’s a pleasant surprise either because it’s-
wait
oh my god
is this yOU?????
listen.,.
jungkook was in the skatepark last night with taehyung and they took advantage of it because they were the only ones there!!
tae surely wasn’t kidding when he said that he was a novice because holy sHIT how was it possible that he sent a skateboard flying mid-air after a failed trick??
kook flinches when he follows it in his line of sight and notices that there’s someone down there who might be literally dECKED out of tae’s stupidity
he’s about to yell for this passer-by to dodge and-
time seems to move quicker because you’re already stopping yourself and flinching in place and then looking up
you’re rIGHT underneath this street lamp and jungkook sighs a breath of relief when he realized that you weren’t hit
but at the same time he’s gasping again because wow
t-that’s uhm-
okay
wHEW he has never felt this pressure in his chest ever since he joined a quizbee in 8th grade
would it be-
ok nevermind
WOULD IT BE TOO FORWARD FOR HIM TO SAY THAT HE HAS A CRUSH ON YOU ALREADY
you’re really beautiful??? and frankly he has to look away for a second because you’re tOO beautiful that he doesn’t know what to do with himself
that’s it u are under arrest for being too pretty >:(
jungkook’s flustered because there’s just these types of people that put a knot on his chest unknowingly and he doesn’t know how to act normally
you are the equivalent of him not being able to look at the screen because the kdrama was that good and he feels unworthy to even watch it
it’s goosebumps all over his skin and he’d be lying when he says his cheeks are not heating up at aLL
“taehyung, you dumbass!!”
his first instinct is to scold taehyung because what iF he ended up hurting you with his skateboard, hmm?? and tHEN what
he expected you to leave after that close-call and if everyone must know, jungkook has an incredible talent at being able to scope out things in his peripheral vision
he could look straight ahead and be able to see what you were also doing at the side
he doesn’t know if that’s a talent or uH everyone has it but whatever he can do that!!!
and you were clearly still there and in fact, even sIT down on the bench
he could see you smiling and giggling and a ginormous part of him assumes that it’s because of him
he prays to god that it’s NOT the guy who almost decked you with a skateboard ://
jungkook was acting weird and he kept smiling and laughing mORE than necessary and taehyung can see right through him
“bro all i did was walk towards you wtf are you laughing,,.,”
“AHAHAHAHAHAHHA tae you’re so silly XD”
alrighty then,, maybe jungkook just binge-ate his vitamin gummies which is why he keeps beaming for an unknown reason
koo was so grumpy literally just before he had his skateboard flying and now he’s ???? weird
jungkook was ultimately sad to see you get up and he knows he’s probably never gonna see you again ok alright time to mope
but this
this
he’s beyond surprised to see that said owner of giant dog happens to be yOU!! of all the people!!!!
it’s you!
“i’m so so sorry about him!! he’s just excited to make friends with everyone and i don’t have the sLIGHTEST clue why he came to you!!”
you pointedly look at chimmy and he has the audacity to howl before looking away
it hasn’t dawned on you that you’re talking and apologizing to him but it certainly did on jungkook which is why he’s charmingly laughing already
“no, no. it’s okay, i don’t mind!! his name’s chimmy, then?”
you’re blinking profusely because yes.. right.. HE is talking to you
“yeah, uh, correct!! his name’s chimmy :)”
“that’s cute. anyways, i’m jungkook :)”
aha :D
koo would like to think that he is smooth
and yes you agree
you immediately shake his hand tOO eagerly with a smile on your face as you’re trying to take this all in
“i’m y/n :)”
jungkook’s hand is bigger than yours and your hand fits sNUGLY right into his hold
he has some tattoos on his hands and there’s some peaking from underneath his hoodie
but even with ur lasik vision you cAN’T focus because omg are you seriously holding jungkook’s hand.,.,
jungkook as in THEE jungkook that you’ve immediately clocked and crushed on last night in an instant
your lil moment of just holding each other’s hands is interrupted when taehyung pops out of nOwhere
(( actually he’s been there for the past two minutes and he kept switching between cooing and laughing ))
“yO i’m taehyung!!! you must be y/n, i didn’t nick you last night, did i?”
he takes it upon himself to hug you right then and there
well he’s warm and he passes the internal vibe check yoongi’s hotwired into your brain so you reciprocate!! you like hugs anyway and taehyung’s just like chimmy but in human form
jungkook practically squawks and stammers in his place because w-why.. w-what...... no
chimmy bARKS at taehyung and koo is tempted to do the same too because no man you simply do nOt hug my crush that you know absolutely nothing about
“he’s asking for you.”
kook points to chimmy who’s obviously pouncing on you to come run with him
you excuse yourself so you could go satisfy the giant and jungkook felt like his heart was gonna fall out of his aSS
tae wiggles his eyebrows and has his lips pursed and it’s the shit-eating grin that he immediately flips off as soon as he sees it
“what was that all about?”
you are convinced
you are 100% convinced
your head is fully-set into the game and in no way are you gonna back out
“min yoongi!!”
ah there it is
yoongi’s having the time of his life playing fetch with chimmy! what could possibly be any more important in this world than that
“what did i do now?”
you only call out his full name when a) you’re agitated and when b) he’s ignoring you and you’ve had enough of it
he really doesn’t recall giving you the cold shoulder recently
and he certainly didn’t agitated you when all he’s done is play with chimmy and sleep!!!
“please click this for me pls. click. please. pls click.”
aH yoongi should’ve brought his glasses instead of leaving them on the couch
you’re holding out your laptop to him with your arms outstretched and he has to come really close to decipher and-
... huh
“a skateboard?”
pardon him but he’s really lost on this one ok
he is as lost as he was when walmart decided to completely rearrange the whole store
“... and what do you need a skateboard for? y/n when i said that you should get yourself a four-wheeler, i didn’t mean a skateboard-”
in what part does a skateboard look like an SUV
whY are you like this
“it’s for uh... it’s for fun purposes!!”
you’re trying not to raise any more questions in yoongi’s mind but his head is miles miles away now lol
???? you hate trying new things though ???
one time you traded in your beef ramen for pork ramen because the first one was out of stock and throughout the whole meal you kept thinking how much you regretted it
and besides, skateboarding would be the last thing you’d get into!!!
yoongi distinctly remembers that you’d rather choke on chewing gum rather than get your knees scraped
why was that?? because when your knees get scraped, walking and doing everything else?? impossible 
nice try sherlock but the moment you do so much as to not stand up straight?? sIT down?? yeah your knees would give out 
what has got to be something so special that you’d wanna get into skateboarding and risk yourself into getting your knees scraped??
....
....
omg is that what he thinks it is
“... it’s a crush, isn’t it?”
the way you instantly shut him down and practically have to beg him just to press the check out button.,..
aha 
yeah yoongi’s gotten his answer alright :D
whatever this is
or whatever that’s going on
you’re sure that you’ve never felt this content for a long time
you now bring a change of clothes so you wouldn’t go skating in your uniform because that just honestly sucks
you may be too tired to walk to the skatepark which is why sometimes you’d book a ride, but no you’re never tOO tired to skate and see jungkook :D
it’s frustrating enough as it is
yoongi used to skate and that’s the reason why you’ve found this shortcut in the first place because this was where the park was!! you’d always think at the back of your head on wHY was yoongi struggling!!!
smh that’s so easy yoongs </3
joke’s on you now though because trying to balance on the board in the first place scared you shitless because hOW were you supposed to do this??
you can ride a bike and that has tWO wheels and this has fOUR bearings!!! how come you can’t balance yourself??
even managing to stand up on the board without panicking for more than ten seconds AND managing to shift from left to right even if it’s albeit shaky at first, took you a wHOLE evening
but you’re so proud of yourself and so is jungkook :D
jungkook finds it the highlight of his night when you’d hold onto him
yes he knOws you have it under control now and you barely hold onto him for support
“just so you won’t fall, that’s all.”
he always evades your eyes when you go look up at him dreamily like that because how could he not???
you’ve covered the basics of pushing yourself then simultaneously riding the skateboard!!
you do that for one WHOLE week and both jungkook and tae (and yoongi) think it’s time that you do something else besides skate in one straight line and occasionally to a left and a right
ok you’re kind of scared shitless because you already fell a couple of times but y’know what?? it’s time!!
society has progressed past the need of you skating in a straight path
the society NEEDS you to do tricks now
.....
........
confession time:
dear diary the kickflip is simply not kicking the board in an attempt to flip it by itself. it is not. it is not as easy as it sounds. it is the bane of my existence
it’s evident that you’re stalling out of your way with this one but you just need oNE success and that’s it!!! one win to woo jungkook from his feet and then you’d stop
tae has already shut you up too because you keep talking about how your day went when you already is set four times before that
and it must’ve been a lucky first time because you absolutely nAIL it on the first try!!!
you honestly thought you’d land square on your ass and see bruises on it later in the shower but N-O!! you’ve done it perfectly and-
jungkook’s not looking
he didn’t see your feat!!
or maybe he didn’t see it because he chosE not to!!!
OR
maybe doing a kickflip is nothing impressive and it’s obvious that he’s a pro at this compared to you who’s even more of a novice that makes taehyung look like a god
you can’t have that :((
ok ok hOW can you impress jungkook
there must be something you could do to impress him!!
omg
that’s it
this is practically perfect!!
you’re gonna do your first drop-in at a pipe that is nowhere gOOD for a beginner like you :D
one, two, th-
“easy, doll.”
jungkook materializes out of nowhere and you expected him to be skating at the far end!! not mere inches away from your face holding your hANDS
this is the first time you’ve seen jungkook actually this close and you just have this urge to kiss his cheek
he has you whipped for him and he hasn’t even done anything to you!!!
“not the best idea to go down an eight-foot tall half-pipe for your first time, hm?”
he scrunches his nose at your absurd thoughts because absolutely wHY would you do that??
how could you fall in love with him even mORE
“do the two-feet tall one first. go have taehyung teach you.”
the grin in your face goes as fast as it came
no offense to taehyung but he’s not the one your head-over-heels for :((
practically everyone knows about your crush on jungkook BESIDES jungkook himself
you’re tapping tae on the shoulder to come and teach you while you just watch kook shred it at the other side of the park by himself
it’s okay!! progress is progress and you’re gonna get far with jungkook!!
going to the skatepark right after work is now your new routine
sometimes you even come with yoongi when he’s free and he takes all his time to gloat on how you used to make fun of him when he was skating avidly back then
that gives you a grand total of three (3) people teaching you how to skate and giving you pointers
jungkook also now holds conversation from time to time :D
he’d ask you how your day went and you’d have to pretend that you didn’t wait for him to ask so you’re not spilling detail after detail
he now does this thing of pinching your cHEEK when you get something right 
your heart after doing an ollie goes bEEP when he pinches your cheek and tells you eagerly that you did such a good job
yoongi’s laid off his teasing for you and jungkook but god he can’t deny that he gets these weird vibes from him
eh it’s probably nothing
today you’re especially excited because it was an outfit that you just bought and you feel gREAT in it!!!
tbh your day was the absolute worst but jungkook is always a great pick-me-up to whatever day you could have :)
a tennis skirt with shorts already built underneath is the greatest save of ur life
it’s a little on the more expensive side because it IS a name-brand and those don’t come cheap but it’s ok :D it’s gonna be worth it :D it better be :D
oh uhm
jungkook seems different today.... ?
you were used to him looking intimidating and mad even if he wasn’t, but this time it just felt emphasized even more
taehyung’s here but he’s not the only one!!! there’s two guys with jungkook on the other side of the ramp
“those are his friends, i guess?? i don’t know, he hasn’t introduced them to me.”
so you’re nOT the only one who’s lost
jungkook will probably come around later and you could all hang out again :))
chimmy happily chuffs at your side and that just gives taehyung the most wonderful idea he’s ever had this day
“hEY which one of us do you think could out-skate chimmy???”
jungkook is utterly and without a doubt stressed 
he knew that hoseok and namjoon would come over, but he didn’t expect that they’d visit him while he was in the park!!!!
and he already knows what they’re here for and that just makes him grimace :((
“why don’t you want to go pro?”
koo’s ears feel like bleeding when hobi asks him that for the nth time
god it’s always just the sAME question!! he could practically sniff the air on what they’re gonna say next
“jungkook, i think we all know that you’re more than qualified to be a pro!! look at you!!”
it’s the same conversation over and over again
the next things they’d say are that he’s a natural and he’s wasting all his talent doing this thing cASUALLY
he’s not the next tony hawk or anything like that!!! he’s not gonna book a sponsorship and a collaboration with vans!!! but hobi and joon kEEP insisting that he’s that good
“hyung, i think we’ve already talked about this-...”
“yes and you refusE to listen!! why can’t you just accept the fact that you have a much better future in this??”
jungkook’s currently a freelance graphic designer which means he works from home and he’s in charge of his oWN schedule
but it doesn’t necessarily mean that every single day he gets a new commission or anything grand like that
he’s gonna be honest and say that yES he has thought of being a pro skater!! but he’s trying to be as rational as possible about it
because not every competition would be a win and not competitions don’t happen as frequent as a typical job is!!
and what iF jungkook gets injured?? something of an injury that would lay him off from skating 
and being unable to skate??? = he basically gets nOTHING
he feels pressures because hobi and joon are pro skaters already!! and that gives them all the more reason to make jungkook into one
not to flex but uh they’re both quite already kNOWN
and jungkook hasn’t even started his pro career but he’s already known!!! both by his skills and the fact that he’s friends with these two champions
“i literally do not care if you beat me!! just come take the leap and be a pRO already, jungkook!!! it’s a loss as it is that you still consider yourself an amateur.”
their words, not his 
ok uhm what if
what if jungkook opens a skate clinic?? he can do what he loves and in the same time, earn money!!
... yeah
okay! 
that could work!! and if he feels extra prepared, then yeah maybe he’d be a pro
or would a skate clinic be useless if he isn’t a pro by then???
oh my god
jungkook’s so frustrated with all this sudden bombarding and it makes him want to tug at his hair
as much as he loves his hyungs, sometimes they just can’t seem to know when to back oFF and realize that their nudging is more like shoving
“do something productive and worth your time, jungkook. stop babysitting.”
namjoon says with an edge and that tames jungkook
what makes it worse was what they were implying in the first place
hoseok doesn’t make it discreet to look at taehyung and you
“tae, tae, look!! i’m doing it, i’m doing it!!”
you’re saying over your shoulder because omg you’re getting the lead and chimmy’s slowed down for some reason
well actually taehyung’s took it upon himself to stop behind you
“guys?”
you get an immediate answer when you feel someone effectively hALT you still and you almost fall on your ass just by the sheer strength of someone holding you up
jungkook’s holding you down and his hands are quite heAVy on your arms
there’s this unexplainable look on his face but you’re positive that it’s not one of happiness
“you should probably stop doing whatever it is that you’re doing.”
oh
to be honest you’re unsure of how to react
but the way that jungkook looks like he’s mad at you and retreats back to those two guys with a scoff in his step -- 
it’s enough
it’s truly enough for you to reevaluate every decision you’ve ever made
maybe it’s simply not just a bad day for you and a case of overthinking thigs,, and it’s perhaps the fact that he want you to stop
stop whatever that is happening
you probably must be frozen in place because chimmy bounds and pounces at you
you probably must’ve looked like an utter fool,, skating in a tennis skirt and trying to outrace a damn dog in a fucking skatepark,, right in front of jungkook and his friends
“y/n, you uh, y’okay?”
tae’s worried because there’s an instant shift to your mood and he could only assume what you were feeling
tears prick at the back of your eyes and that’s the signal for you to gather your things in a flash because the last thing you’d want is to cRY in front of him
“y-yeah! i’m gonna go home, tae. chimmy’s looking for yoongi.”
the dog in question tilts his head because w hat now,,,.,., wha t,.,. he is???
you learned that dogs could smell emotions and that makes you even sadder
chimmy was behaved the whole time; didn’t even try straying you around when he keeps seeing umbrellas on the street even if he loves them
you’re okay
:)
you should be okay
....
there’s something definitely off
yoongi’s cleaned everything and did his share of chores
the tv is still mounted and the microwave’s clean!!
chimmy didn’t have a toilet accident because if he did, he would’ve already picked it up
there’s definitely something off with yOU
because first of all, why are you here???
“not coming to the park?”
if he can recall correctly, no matter how knackered you were after work, you’d still go to the skatepark!!
... not unless you were injured??
nah because if you were injured then you’d be whining to him now
“nope :)”
you’re lying on the couch where he usually lies nowadays because you weren’t around!!
and you’re drinking from your mug that he’s claimed as his mug
and chimmy’s squished in between the tiny gap of you and the far edge of the couch
“and why?”
he’s always had answers for everything but his mind’s bLANK for this
“wanna spend time with you guys :)”
oh
okay
that’s gotta be the answer, right???
this is definitely weird
for starters, it’s already 11 PM and jungkook’s still in the skatepark and he’s not even skating anymore
he’s just waiting
weird... you aren’t here.......
aH it’s nothing :D you’re probably just tired and didn’t want to go skate
oh and.. you’re not here the next day
or the next
or the nEXT
jungkook spends almost the entirety of his time in the park
he goes there at 3 in the afternoon and comes home at 11 in the evening
no big deal
half of the time is just spent him actually skating and the other is figuring out wHERE you are
uh maybe you’ve started to take ubers now every time you come home??
you’re not walking home anymore and the car would pass by the skatepark and jungkook wouldn’t have a single clue where you are
it’s also this time that it dawns on him that he has no means whatsoever to contact you
he didn’t ask for your number and didn’t exchange socials so he could only gUESS
he can’t come over to your apartment either because he hasn’t walked you home and therefore he wouldn’t know your address
holy shit he’s so dumb and jungkook misses you a lot
like a whole whole lot
he misses you holding onto his shoulders for support and misses your excited grin whenever you nail a trick and had a perfect run
there’s nothing that jungkook could dO besides wait
and miss you so much
and mope
kook doesn’t want to give up and miss a day because what iF you pass by when he’s not there???
he can’t have that and he wON’t have that
he’s just so antsy and he hasn’t had his fix of chimmy bounding towards him and the malamute intentionally pouncing on him whenever he’d drop-in so he could lose his balance
he just needs to see you and your duffel bag and the precious yet beat-up wristwatch you have and-
WAIT
THAT’S YOU!!!
jungkook’s brought his perfume the past few days because he wouldn’t want to be aND smell sweaty when he sees you again
he’s wearing a shirt this time and nOT a hoodie and it’s actually a nice shirt!! the pale orange makes his tattoos pop
he’s also wearing a watch so he could look business-ish and composed and he kinda hATES watches because uhhhh you ever heard of a phone, buddy??
you’re walking striaght and paying no mind at all and to your surrounding and-
there’s suddenly this cRASH in front of you and it makes you recall in response because that came out of nowhere
... and this feels oddly familiar
only this time though, it’s intentional and it’s jungkook who literally tHREW his skateboard down on the spot in front of you
“y/n? wow, what a coincidence!”
you didn’t expect to see jungkook as soOn as you anticipated that he wouldn’t be here
he laughs nervously and he tries not to overanalyze the fact that your face is blank
:|
“yup. totally.”
you’re avoiding his gaze and meanwhile he’s searching desperately for yours 
what is he feeling and why is it hurt and longing at the same time
“can i walk you home?”
the words tumble out of his mouth before he could even ponder over them longer
“i uh, i rEALLY can’t believe i never asked to walk you home!! or even ask for your number!!! but uHhhh it’s late at night and to be honest i don’t have your number and i just need to know that you’re safe and-”
he stops his rambling right there because he realizes that he’s a stuttering nervous mess
you’re a bit speechless because normally you’re the chatty one but this one.,.,,. this one’s a pleasant surprise
“yeah, yeah. okay :)”
he can’t believe either that you agreed to it but he’s immediately gathering himself and swoops your duffel for him to hold
he’s not gonna entertain a single complaint <3
it’s not exactly the most tensioned silence ever but it’s definitely nOT comfortable
“why didn’t you come to the park?”
okay well sHIT you didn’t expect him to be this straightforward
wait no 
you shouldn’t be surprised!! after all, he probably did mean what he said the last time you’ve seen him
what are u gonna say now
well you coulD say that you’re busy and he’d probably fall for it!!
or reiterate the truth that he’s implied and say it with a straight face
“oh. i started intentionally falling on my ass because i missed you,” jungkook spills out of nowhere while waiting for your answer and he now realizes that might’ve been a little awkward
after all he dID admit that he missed you
ahem
“did i uhm... did i say something?”
he rephrases his question and he knows that this was the more appropriate one
your coping mechanism is to kick on the ground as if there were leaves and there are absolutely nO leaves <3
“jungkook, you told me to stop.”
he blinks rapidly at that as he tries to digest your words
he’s trying to backtrack as much as possible and it wasn’t that!!
he simply doesn’t wanna see you hurt
“i can’t explain it but holy shiT i can’t see you hurt!! a-and i know that being hurt in skating is normal but for sOME reason i can’t stand it when i see you in pain o-or-...”
jungkook just can’t explaiN what he feels
“i just -- i just don’t gEt why you’d want to be hurt?? whY are you doing this to yourself??”
you find him ridiculous and this whole situation is just rIDICULOUS
“jesus christ jungkook i did it to try and impress a guy!!”
that earns you a snort and you immediately go defensive
he seems irked and his eyes are just beGGING to be rolled
“who?? taehyung?? the guy who would’ve wiped you out if he did end up hitting you on the head with the deck just a little harder??”
“what? taehyung???” you’re so confused and jungkook hates it even more, “yeah, taehyung!!”
“i like you, jungkook!”
o-oh
uhm
a.....ha
“me?”
he points to himself to which you eagerly nod your head to
“can you excuse me for one second?”
he barely gives you the time to respond because he’s already walking away and biting his arm
he’s actually sCREAMING
you throw your head back because omg did the two of you just basically admit that you liked each other
jungkook jogs back to where you stand a presses a hefty kISS right on your cheek
he’s on too much of a high that he holds your hand and practically drags you along with him because he’s almost skIPPING from how happy he is
“okay. good. nice. very good!!!” he could now sigh in relief because whEW that robbed him off his breath
“because i fell for you when i first saw you.”
jungkook basically has nO filter now and it’s adorable because god he’s just so soft and you now know what’s going and this wouldn’t be just whatever
“huh. imagine if yOU fell for me too at the same time,,,, that would make me piss my pants.”
he cackles because wow he dO be funny :D
he’s turning to look at you to gauge at your reaction and the waY that you’re holding your eye contact with him is all-telling for your answer
oh my god
jungkook is wrapped around your pinky :’)
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feral-strays · 5 years ago
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Joint update/rant
I've been posting about my joint problems almost since I started this blog, and not so surprisingly it has gotten worse; It used to be annoying aches in my knees, then it spread to my hip and now it's all major and minor joints such a fingers and ankles. My left ankle has gotten worse after skating (I'll skate until I land my ass in a wheelchair) and my hips have started aching as if it was a toothache. My doc referred me to the same place as last time to check out what's up with my joints, and hopefully they'll figure something out rather than to just do small tests to make a workout plan (which did not work and made my joint pain worse lmfaooo). I took an x-ray couple of years back, like three or four years, and the results said I had something on my knees and hip, and that I had micro movements in the collarbone (whatever that is). But I got that info from the rheumatologist rather than the hospital itself, so I can't find it in my journals which sucks big time.
Anyways back on track; My hips have been popping and grating for a while now, and as mentioned it has gotten worse and happens more frequently than it used to, which quite frankly scares me and stresses me the fuck out. I have no way of easily acquiring a wheelchair or any walking aids for that matter, given I am a fairly active persons and can keep up with a lot of the pain, and docs won't take me seriously because of that. Because I have good days, and bad days, someday both days in one. And it sucksssss. I've already been diagnosed with hypermobility, which on its own shouldn't cause pain or be a problem, but it does, and it's a huge toll. I'm turning 21 in a month and have just started figuring my shit out, and honestly, it feels as if I'm being robbed of my young adult years. I've already spent so much of my time and energy on appointments with hospitals, doctors and whatever the fuck not. Yeah I should be grateful I live in Norway, free health care and all that, but the doctors sucks so badly. They feel so careless and I feel as if I'm talking to a wall half of the time.
Right now its 4:55 AM and I can feel the pain from my hips ride throughout my legs, making them numb and sore, I'm so tired of constantly having to battle with my body. Even though I am in a much better place in life than just half a year ago, things are hard as fuck and I don't see any end of the tunnel.
Edit; My shoulders have been acting up too, subluxing and hanging loose, making squeaky sounds if I move in certain ways. My elbows are the only joint in my body that aren't affected as much as the rest, though I do have to pop them into place several times a day only with minor pains at some times.
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justemmlemm · 6 years ago
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Since i haven't done this yet, but don't want to break the tradition, so imma do both!
Five things i like about myself:
✨I like my confidence, if I feel like dancing, I'm going to dance, no matter who's watching. I've gotten into a lot of weird situations because I do things without caring who sees/hears.
✨I like my eyebrows!
✨Oh and I love my hair, i look way better since I've gotten that unruly bob.
✨I like how I'll try to support my friends, I've basically become the mom of everyone I know.
✨I like my ability to keep most plants alive.
Five things that give me hope about life:
✨The starkid fandom, I've never been welcomed like this and the fandom is so nice! I've met so many awesome, kind, creative, funny people in the last couple of days and I love them all SO MUCH. 💜
✨My siters new kitten, she's so stupid and I LOVE her
✨Bright blooming flowers! I can't help but smile when I see them
✨I'm going ice skating with a friend soon! And then the next day to an amusement park with someone else! And my sister is home for an entire month! I love ny friends!!!
✨Music? It's so good! And honestly music can calm down/make me happy really fast and there's not a moment that goes by without me having a song stuck in my head.
Okay, this is probably too long by now but idc. Now I'll tag these amazing people to do the same: @whatmorecan-i-say @rosedapple @ragingkam @gregstevestumarkleightonchadand @you-stupid-fucking-storm @differentalienhumanoidzipper @road-ahead-may-twist @mc-dankenstein
Since you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, then, you have to send this to ten of your favorite blogs (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) :)
i’ ve answered this before so imma put a lil ✨twist✨ to it
i’ll say five things that give keep me hopeful about life
(been feeling a bit lost and uncertain lately. nothing too bad, though!)
literally starkid & everyone i’ve met because of them
the idea of being gifted flowers for my birthday
singing in the shower
using ecosia to tackle my climate anxiety
dogs. all dogs. every. single. dog.
i tag @annawilson1606 @robmanion @kill-the-reviews (happy bday gem!) @avasuet @gone-to-oregone and anyone who wants to do this! everyone!
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