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tobysbadhorns · 2 years ago

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Unfair because it's been 4 years

#finn mertens #adveture time #redraw #my art #Artecornuda #I'll admit I wanted to colour it but truthfully colouring gives me so much stress and takes so much time #And since I don't do it as often anyways it kind of works I care more about my linework anyway even if it's messy #I've been feeling so depressed lately #I used to really care about wich teeth finn was missing their placements and I knew that by heart by the time he lost his arm for #The second time I wasn't so into adventure time and to draw him I needed to look him up each time #Just for the placement #Finn was really my favourite character in anything mostly because I grew up beside him when adventure time ended I was like 15 and #Finn was 17 he was like a brother to me hahah #I used to draw adventure time so much #It runned in my country for so long in English and I at 8 years old couldn't understand anything but I already loved it dearly #Oh well

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sunlit-mess · 7 months ago

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sick(?)

#messyr #doodle #vent art #?? well not really! just skl #coping through drawing bc its what keeps me from rotting in bed #my body cant keep up fjdshzhl and i just feel worse every time i try to 'function' even as basic tasks it makes me want to throw up AAAAH #this artist does not KNOW how to take care of themselves help help help help fsdjxhf #how am i supposed to fkin tell my dad nor my relatives im just so- PHYSICALLY- and MENTALLY TIRED without it perceived as lazy or an excuse #same goes to my professors bc ive been missing out ALOT in school lately and my classmates are also probably wondering where the hell I am #( group activities etc etc i want to km s - I've failed TWO MAJOR SUBJECTS BC OF HOW IVE BEEN DOING-AAAAAAAAAH)#if not physically then its my noisy ass brain that spirals me into depressive episodes where I literally cant do jackshit about

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amogus-real-not-clickbait · 1 month ago

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here's some benreys for y'all!!! it's meal time little ones!!!! nobody starves today. i provide

also random gordo he's here too i guess-

#hlvrai #benrey #gordon feetman #i really wanna just. spit out hlvrai content everywhere all the time #STUFF. i hate the word content. 's just stuff #i just wanna give back to the fandom yk?#i've been reading so much wonderful fanfiction lately and i love everyone's creativity so muchhh #and i Wanna Create!!!!!!#i wanna give back!!!!!#i wanna inspire!!!!!#screw depression i wanna write and draw and Scream #i've never written anything before #okay that was a lie but. like #i haven;t written stories in a While #like 4 years maybe #and Definitely haven't written anything in english #and i kinda sorta have ideas but not really #and i feel like im really bad at understanding characters and keeping them in my brain #and im so desperate for ideas but there isn't a Spark that would grab my attention and make me go brrrrrrrr #what do people do in situations like thisssss #is there like a weird silly way to write fanfic that makes things less scary..#weird upsidedown stupid little fanfic game thing #okay my brain blinked i think im done #i'll keep y'all updated maybe probably?#k thanks for coming to my ted talk byeeeee!!!#art tag or whatever

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scaradeus · 6 months ago

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gene and john once again.

#I've been feeling very depressed lately and artblock is hitting me very bad! These two keep me going.#tbh this artblock got so bad i havbe to learn again how to draw hancock #oc x canon #john hancock #fallout 4 #hyperocs #fallout oc #cherrybourbon #fallout #sole survivor oc #ted art

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gamebunny-advance · 7 months ago

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Oh.

If you ever wanted to know what Yonny looks like when he's falling asleep/sleeping, the comic's got you covered.

(Source)

#pikmin #yonny #yonny pikmin #pikmin comic #no sir. i don't like that.#personal updates: i've been severely depressed (again). it started about 3 days ago #i dunno where it came from. (well it's because it's June but i didn't think it was gonna be THIS bad)#i was feeling pretty good when i was making the character refs #then BANG. Max depression. It's made me play ACNH like mad again to lose myself in it.#but even then i feel anxiety while i play it. i haven't even really checked tumblr in days #i'm trying to pull myself back together #but i still feel pretty terrible #and i don't know when or if it's gonna get better #anyway. since i've been playing so much on my switch lately #i've noticed that almost all my switch friends are playing the TTYD remake #how are y'all liking it?

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that-was-anticlimactic · 7 months ago

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something's in the air, i feel the heat

“Do you trust me?”

And how could Cole say no to that? Did he trust Kai? He trusted Kai more than he trusted himself. He trusted Kai with his life. If he fell, he knew Kai would be there to catch him.

So, Cole took his shirt off, tossing it on the ground beside him, then moved so his back was to Kai. “Always.”

Nothing happened for a minute. Cole stood there, neck and shoulders aching and twitching. He wondered, briefly, if Kai was just trying to get him shirtless (it wouldn’t be the first time), and really, he was not in the mood for that. Not when his body wanted to hurt him.

But then a pair of warm hands—Kai’s hands, he would recognize those oddly soft callused and scarred palms anywhere—landed on his back.

[or, cole's experiencing a lot of pain thanks tp tourette's and kai gives him a heated massage]

🔥2,295 words | cole-centric, lavashipping🔥

happy tourette's awareness month!!!

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pleasantmsp · 1 year ago

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I love Beauyasha so much. I miss them so much.

The reunion gave me so much joy and now I'm in this weird happy but melancholy state. I love the Nein so much and I want more of them. And I especially want more of Beau and Yasha. If we get a Fjorester wedding one shot, I will be stoked. But then also give me the Beauyasha wedding too!

I'm really just hoping they keep doing these little reunions cause I love the Mighty Nein so much and seeing them makes me so happy.

#critical role #cr spoilers #beauyasha #the mighty nein #echoes of the solstice #and the rest of the tags are a rant #got a bit carried away lol #my depression has been real bad for the past like 9 months and i dont have the money or resources to go to therapy #so i am in a real interesting head space lately #this one shot gave me so much joy #i haven't felt that engaged and excited and happy in a long time #but now that its over that feeling is being joined by (like i said) this weird melancholy that i've never felt in this way before #tm9 mean so much to me #beauyasha means so much to me #especially in these times with the strikes and all the cancelations of wlw inclusive media #i've been trying to get back into c3 but getting through those first arcs is proving difficult #bh just doesn't feel the same as the m9 to me which is fine but sad in a way #cause I feel like there's still so much the nein could do and participate in #i definitely understood what ashley meant when she said she didn't feel like she was done with yasha #i feel the same #so i hope they keep doing these one shots and i hope they release some news on the animated show soon #and here's hoping that as I catch up on bh i can come to love them even half as much as tm9 #cause that'd be enough to keep me coming back and then some

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disposal-blueeee · 1 year ago

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doodlesssss

scriabin belongs to zarla-s

edgar belongs to jhonen vasquez

#sunny's art #vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #scriabin vargas #scriabin #i wanted to draw scri with short hair because i love this hair lenght on him #he looks so gooddddd #oh man i'd give ANYTHING to look like this guy #we kinda have the same haircut C:#i used some pinterest bases to see if i could draw anything that i liked #i'm still blocked #like i still have a bunch of ideas but half of them are videos/tiktoks and the rest are way too hard #so i've been drawing a bunch of shitpost lately because it's fun #and easy #maybe when i have enough of them i'll post them here #speaking of tiktok #i have an account to post vargas stuff now. you should definetly check it out #just search @.igtky and it should appear :)#god these guys are so gay #i did these a while ago but #i kinda forgot that i made this account on the first place to actually feel comfortable posting stuff #unlike. twitter #i wanted this account to feel like a safe space (it's not working)#imma vent a bit so if you don't want to read these it's fine #for some reason posting on twitter makes me feel extremely anxious #that's why i post 90% of my stuff on my circle #i'm going back to school like in 10 days :C #it's been two months already and i haven't done ANYTHING #i wasn't expecting to be this depressed i can't believe this

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tearlessrain · 9 months ago

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seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason??#I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

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lunarharp · 2 years ago

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lil extras for the free day

#witch hat tag #orufrey #orufreyweek2023 #gotta put these silly things here now 🤦‍♂️ cause the remaining prompt to catch up is not a happy one so it should go somewhere else..#didnt end up doing anything that pushed my limits after all..but that's ok. since i've felt pretty depressed lately this week was my treat #i def feel like i get less likes & RTs overall on twt recently even tho my followers increase. are ppl sick of my stuff ?? :')#but i myself feel pretty ok about my art atm...so i guess it's fine. my fics have never gotten the hits/kudos i've ever hoped for #so i've accepted that this is how it is for me. i see LOTS of ppl stress about that kinda stuff and i don't wanna be like that..#i'll just keep on keeping on. creating has been pretty satisfying lately when im NOT depressed abt other stuff #and i do get fulfilling comments <3

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caramellles · 5 months ago

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a little makeover of my beloved family

#i opened sims for the first time in two weeks...#i've been feeling depressed lately #that's why i opened save file with my lovely family #and i've finally chosen an heir! yaay #the sims 4 #ts4 simblr #west4 #extra #nevea west #zane averis #yves liam west #phoebe west #kyan west #they're all so cute!!

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seraphim-soulmate · 3 months ago

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when my roommates put things back in the kitchen incorrectly it makes me frustrated and angry. apparently, did you know, this is not a thing all or most humans experience ? some people don't have an intense emotional reaction to things not being stacked in the optimal way, or pans not being put back in their "usual" spot. did you know this. did you.

#personal #I'm having an online interview on autism tomorrow and so I'm researching and reflecting more #not like this is ground breaking or anything but just. it's interesting to me that this typically doesn't elicit an emotion for people.#I've been crying a lot over autism videos #I haven't had a chance to process my diagnosis yet really and there's still so much for me to learn and accept about autism #like feeling shame and guilt bcs of disability has been a huge problem for me lately. not being able to accomplish what I want to.#and seeing videos of other autistic ppl who were really attached to the idea of who they would become when they got older #or identified a lot with who they were while masking #and now have to let go of those things. and figure out who they actually are and are capable of doing without burnout.#whoof man. its a lot. i still haven't let go of who i thought id be when i grew up. to the extent that said struggle is part of my identity.#it's just. I am autistic. several medical professionals familiar with autism saw me and went 'yeah you are autistic'.#I spent so long learning how to better cope with my depression.#and it turns out some of that advice is opposite to what you need if its autistic burnout instead #which im gonna assume i just kinda had both going on at various times #i just. im not sure what to do with my life.#but i guess first i have to make my life more baseline liveable and enjoyable before i start pondering that #change is hard. basically. thats what this was about.

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boy-above · 9 months ago

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since i'm still working on the images for my commission post, i wanted to drop the text version here in the meantime.

-> check out marshal's sicknasty commissions<-

i've repriced everything!! ive been offering prices that are just too low, because i knew i wouldn't be making any money if my prices were too high. but now since i can't do business with my only regular customer anymore,i figure i'll hardly ever be getting commissions anyway, so i might as well get a little more money out of it during the like. idk. one time a year i actually do get commissioned.

#feel free to reblog this if you'd like!#i'm still working on the image version bc i wanted to replace the full body venti on it #bc i didnt rly like how his face looked anymore #and i needed to change the icons cause theyre for the aforementioned previous customer that i dont wanna be associated with anymore #so uhhh hopefully i get that done soonish. i've been pretty slow because im super depressed lately rip

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spaceratprodigy · 7 months ago

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sorry for how slow and sparse I've been getting around to everyone. I'm doing my best but genuinely rn I desperately need to take care of myself instead of always putting others first.

#I've been. not okay mentally or emotionally for a few weeks now.#and I'm eternally grateful for the. like. 2 people that know that and have been so kind and patient with me.#and I feel bad for not giving as much as I want to be to /everyone/ right now and how much I feel like I'm falling behind.#but I don't have the energy or the will rn and I need to be shaken and forced to rest.#I'm so depressed and stressed out and anxious over every little thing rn.#my sense of self-worth is fucking shot and I'm trying so hard to be brave and remind myself people really do care about me.#that I'm not nuisance that I'm not causing problems and ruining everything that it's not better for everyone if I just wasn't in the picture #idk this isn't like. I want to be swarmed with reassurances right now.#it's more of just. I'm sorry. I know my mood is fluctuating and I'm very slow lately.#I promise I'm not ignoring anyone.#I'm just in a not great spot and it's taking a bad toll on me especially when I know how I am trying to appease others.#while giving up my own well-being giving up my own heart.#I just need to rest and take it easy for a bit. I promise everything is fine.#rambling #maybe delete later

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bandzboy · 8 months ago

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i am just truly in my idgaf era i don't even care if those flop i'm just here to post things for comfort atp it is what it is 😭

#i did notice that i've been very depressed lately with everything going on #and then having to come online and having to deal with people being stupid #and feeling like you are talking to a wall is the worst feeling ever #so i'm just trying to hang on to art and music and graphic design as much as i can #because i notice that i put those things to the side #bc in a way i could not enjoy much lately? so i just did it #but i am gonna try to semi come back and do graphics on the side #i don't wanna be like this anymore and i know it's bc there's passion and joy missing #but let's find that again 🫡#and also be serious at the same time #tris.txt

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c0ntaminxted · 4 days ago

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slowly realising that my little brother will never have to be hurt by our mother the way I was hurt and being happy for him, but feeling worse about seeing my mother treat him better than she ever treated me

I love my brothers but sometimes I really wish I was an only child. maybe I would've been treated better. or maybe she shits on me so much because I'm a "girl"

#also: thank you One Mutual for dming me to check on me. that actually made me cry a little bit #on that note: sorry for being really depressed lately guys. I may be at the lowest point I've been in mentally in a couple of years #and I have a crippling loneliness feeling pretty often #and even if I do talk to some of my friends about it #it still feels like I'm alone in this hole I'm in #and I have nobody to help me out of it #might also be because I don't 100% trust my friends to acknowledge me after we graduate.#I mean my college friends immediately stopped talking to me after the dual enrollment semester ended so I have like no hope #anyway #physically I'm safe so don't worry about that guys pls pls pls I'm ok #-jael

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