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sunlit-mess · 9 months ago

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sick(?)

#messyr #doodle #vent art #?? well not really! just skl #coping through drawing bc its what keeps me from rotting in bed #my body cant keep up fjdshzhl and i just feel worse every time i try to 'function' even as basic tasks it makes me want to throw up AAAAH #this artist does not KNOW how to take care of themselves help help help help fsdjxhf #how am i supposed to fkin tell my dad nor my relatives im just so- PHYSICALLY- and MENTALLY TIRED without it perceived as lazy or an excuse #same goes to my professors bc ive been missing out ALOT in school lately and my classmates are also probably wondering where the hell I am #( group activities etc etc i want to km s - I've failed TWO MAJOR SUBJECTS BC OF HOW IVE BEEN DOING-AAAAAAAAAH)#if not physically then its my noisy ass brain that spirals me into depressive episodes where I literally cant do jackshit about

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amogus-real-not-clickbait · 3 months ago

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here's some benreys for y'all!!! it's meal time little ones!!!! nobody starves today. i provide

also random gordo he's here too i guess-

#hlvrai #benrey #gordon feetman #i really wanna just. spit out hlvrai content everywhere all the time #STUFF. i hate the word content. 's just stuff #i just wanna give back to the fandom yk?#i've been reading so much wonderful fanfiction lately and i love everyone's creativity so muchhh #and i Wanna Create!!!!!!#i wanna give back!!!!!#i wanna inspire!!!!!#screw depression i wanna write and draw and Scream #i've never written anything before #okay that was a lie but. like #i haven;t written stories in a While #like 4 years maybe #and Definitely haven't written anything in english #and i kinda sorta have ideas but not really #and i feel like im really bad at understanding characters and keeping them in my brain #and im so desperate for ideas but there isn't a Spark that would grab my attention and make me go brrrrrrrr #what do people do in situations like thisssss #is there like a weird silly way to write fanfic that makes things less scary..#weird upsidedown stupid little fanfic game thing #okay my brain blinked i think im done #i'll keep y'all updated maybe probably?#k thanks for coming to my ted talk byeeeee!!!#art tag or whatever

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scaradeus · 8 months ago

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gene and john once again.

#I've been feeling very depressed lately and artblock is hitting me very bad! These two keep me going.#tbh this artblock got so bad i havbe to learn again how to draw hancock #oc x canon #john hancock #fallout 4 #hyperocs #fallout oc #cherrybourbon #fallout #sole survivor oc #ted art

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rupeenotruby · 11 days ago

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#also by the by I don't know if this is winter talking or something I actually feel but whatever anyways #I don't think I'll be properly returning to this account anytime soon.#I don't like social media and lately I haven't been enjoying my time on here at all.#As in just thinking about it makes me upset for some reason. The only reason I've been sticking around is because #I felt bad for wanting to leave which is weird and I don't know anymore. Maybe it is winter talking and you'll see me pop back up again in #may or june sometime but for now don't expect anything. Sorry this is kind of depressing but I'm fine irl lol.#I have pretty dramatic mood swings so I don't even know if I'll feel like this tomorrow #I've just been feeling like this for the last month or so so who knows.#sorry I'm being dramatic your all great. and great and awesome. and I don't want to freak you out or anything nothing happened except that #started thinking about things in my life and what makes me happy and that never goes well #and again I don't want any of you freaking out or anything I just need to say this so I can properly leave. I'll probably regret this #tomorrow lol so its all chill and fine and I'll probably be back in june so theres no reason to get upset on my behalf #tumblr just messes with me in a way no other website does and I don't like that

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gamebunny-advance · 8 months ago

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Oh.

If you ever wanted to know what Yonny looks like when he's falling asleep/sleeping, the comic's got you covered.

(Source)

#pikmin #yonny #yonny pikmin #pikmin comic #no sir. i don't like that.#personal updates: i've been severely depressed (again). it started about 3 days ago #i dunno where it came from. (well it's because it's June but i didn't think it was gonna be THIS bad)#i was feeling pretty good when i was making the character refs #then BANG. Max depression. It's made me play ACNH like mad again to lose myself in it.#but even then i feel anxiety while i play it. i haven't even really checked tumblr in days #i'm trying to pull myself back together #but i still feel pretty terrible #and i don't know when or if it's gonna get better #anyway. since i've been playing so much on my switch lately #i've noticed that almost all my switch friends are playing the TTYD remake #how are y'all liking it?

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mercymaker · 28 days ago

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as if struggling to crawl out of the mental illness pit™ and accidentally causing a chronic pain flare up wasn't enough the deer god said 'sickness be upon ye' and gave me full body shivers and a cough

#life #and i also feel like pms is ready to pounce on me any second now #and then last week during therapy i was going over how i've been feeling lately #and all that jazz #and my therapist was like 'yeah that seems perfectly normal. depression explains all of this' and i was a bit like ?????#and she was like 'wait. didn't we do a depression thing? WAIT didn't we diagnose depression with the psychiatrist?'#and i just sat there like 'uhhhhh no?' dgfdgfdg #so we did a lil test on depression and i kept complaining how a lot of the scores take a massive leap between 1 and 2 #where 1 seemed too mild and 2 seemed a bit too extreme?#so i'd just pick 1 and then i said 'i need to put 1.5 in so many of these' and then she jokingly allowed me to do it on one of the question #final score put me 0.5 away from clinical depression #so... we've got that going on for me

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that-was-anticlimactic · 8 months ago

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something's in the air, i feel the heat

“Do you trust me?”

And how could Cole say no to that? Did he trust Kai? He trusted Kai more than he trusted himself. He trusted Kai with his life. If he fell, he knew Kai would be there to catch him.

So, Cole took his shirt off, tossing it on the ground beside him, then moved so his back was to Kai. “Always.”

Nothing happened for a minute. Cole stood there, neck and shoulders aching and twitching. He wondered, briefly, if Kai was just trying to get him shirtless (it wouldn’t be the first time), and really, he was not in the mood for that. Not when his body wanted to hurt him.

But then a pair of warm hands—Kai’s hands, he would recognize those oddly soft callused and scarred palms anywhere—landed on his back.

[or, cole's experiencing a lot of pain thanks tp tourette's and kai gives him a heated massage]

🔥2,295 words | cole-centric, lavashipping🔥

happy tourette's awareness month!!!

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pleasantmsp · 1 year ago

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I love Beauyasha so much. I miss them so much.

The reunion gave me so much joy and now I'm in this weird happy but melancholy state. I love the Nein so much and I want more of them. And I especially want more of Beau and Yasha. If we get a Fjorester wedding one shot, I will be stoked. But then also give me the Beauyasha wedding too!

I'm really just hoping they keep doing these little reunions cause I love the Mighty Nein so much and seeing them makes me so happy.

#critical role #cr spoilers #beauyasha #the mighty nein #echoes of the solstice #and the rest of the tags are a rant #got a bit carried away lol #my depression has been real bad for the past like 9 months and i dont have the money or resources to go to therapy #so i am in a real interesting head space lately #this one shot gave me so much joy #i haven't felt that engaged and excited and happy in a long time #but now that its over that feeling is being joined by (like i said) this weird melancholy that i've never felt in this way before #tm9 mean so much to me #beauyasha means so much to me #especially in these times with the strikes and all the cancelations of wlw inclusive media #i've been trying to get back into c3 but getting through those first arcs is proving difficult #bh just doesn't feel the same as the m9 to me which is fine but sad in a way #cause I feel like there's still so much the nein could do and participate in #i definitely understood what ashley meant when she said she didn't feel like she was done with yasha #i feel the same #so i hope they keep doing these one shots and i hope they release some news on the animated show soon #and here's hoping that as I catch up on bh i can come to love them even half as much as tm9 #cause that'd be enough to keep me coming back and then some

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disposal-blueeee · 2 years ago

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doodlesssss

scriabin belongs to zarla-s

edgar belongs to jhonen vasquez

#sunny's art #vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #scriabin vargas #scriabin #i wanted to draw scri with short hair because i love this hair lenght on him #he looks so gooddddd #oh man i'd give ANYTHING to look like this guy #we kinda have the same haircut C:#i used some pinterest bases to see if i could draw anything that i liked #i'm still blocked #like i still have a bunch of ideas but half of them are videos/tiktoks and the rest are way too hard #so i've been drawing a bunch of shitpost lately because it's fun #and easy #maybe when i have enough of them i'll post them here #speaking of tiktok #i have an account to post vargas stuff now. you should definetly check it out #just search @.igtky and it should appear :)#god these guys are so gay #i did these a while ago but #i kinda forgot that i made this account on the first place to actually feel comfortable posting stuff #unlike. twitter #i wanted this account to feel like a safe space (it's not working)#imma vent a bit so if you don't want to read these it's fine #for some reason posting on twitter makes me feel extremely anxious #that's why i post 90% of my stuff on my circle #i'm going back to school like in 10 days :C #it's been two months already and i haven't done ANYTHING #i wasn't expecting to be this depressed i can't believe this

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tearlessrain · 10 months ago

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seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason??#I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

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seraphim-soulmate · 5 months ago

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when my roommates put things back in the kitchen incorrectly it makes me frustrated and angry. apparently, did you know, this is not a thing all or most humans experience ? some people don't have an intense emotional reaction to things not being stacked in the optimal way, or pans not being put back in their "usual" spot. did you know this. did you.

#personal #I'm having an online interview on autism tomorrow and so I'm researching and reflecting more #not like this is ground breaking or anything but just. it's interesting to me that this typically doesn't elicit an emotion for people.#I've been crying a lot over autism videos #I haven't had a chance to process my diagnosis yet really and there's still so much for me to learn and accept about autism #like feeling shame and guilt bcs of disability has been a huge problem for me lately. not being able to accomplish what I want to.#and seeing videos of other autistic ppl who were really attached to the idea of who they would become when they got older #or identified a lot with who they were while masking #and now have to let go of those things. and figure out who they actually are and are capable of doing without burnout.#whoof man. its a lot. i still haven't let go of who i thought id be when i grew up. to the extent that said struggle is part of my identity.#it's just. I am autistic. several medical professionals familiar with autism saw me and went 'yeah you are autistic'.#I spent so long learning how to better cope with my depression.#and it turns out some of that advice is opposite to what you need if its autistic burnout instead #which im gonna assume i just kinda had both going on at various times #i just. im not sure what to do with my life.#but i guess first i have to make my life more baseline liveable and enjoyable before i start pondering that #change is hard. basically. thats what this was about.

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lunarharp · 2 years ago

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lil extras for the free day

#witch hat tag #orufrey #orufreyweek2023 #gotta put these silly things here now 🤦‍♂️ cause the remaining prompt to catch up is not a happy one so it should go somewhere else..#didnt end up doing anything that pushed my limits after all..but that's ok. since i've felt pretty depressed lately this week was my treat #i def feel like i get less likes & RTs overall on twt recently even tho my followers increase. are ppl sick of my stuff ?? :')#but i myself feel pretty ok about my art atm...so i guess it's fine. my fics have never gotten the hits/kudos i've ever hoped for #so i've accepted that this is how it is for me. i see LOTS of ppl stress about that kinda stuff and i don't wanna be like that..#i'll just keep on keeping on. creating has been pretty satisfying lately when im NOT depressed abt other stuff #and i do get fulfilling comments <3

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the-haunted-office · 15 days ago

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To help my brain with its refusal to write lately, I've been writing replies based on which muse is assigned to which day of the week. I actually have this chart on my pinned post, and I use it sometimes for answering asks that are sent in that aren't directed at a specific muse. Figured it might help me with writing too when I feel in a slump.

Sunday - 🔆 Cyrus Monday - 🌙 Doomsday Tuesday - 💻 Oleander/432 Wednesday -🧸 September/432 Thursday - ⭐ Thursday / 👤 Shadow Stanley Friday - 🏢 Dorian / 🏃‍♂️ James Wolfe Saturday - 🧍‍♂️ Stanley Johnson

It actually has been helping me already so far. I also am replying to threads with other muses on other days, so I'm not sticking strictly to this chart, it's for if I'm in a bad writing slump but I'm still wanting to get replies out.

#📝 The Author #out of office #without dumping on everybody on the dash i've been struggling with depression a lot lately #it's just not letting up so breaking things down into more manageable pieces like this is helping me a lot #rp is something that i love doing but it's also something that has been like a double edged sword #it's hard to explain and it's not something i can explain without worrying about how it comes across to others - i'm sorry #but suffice to say i'm trying to manage my feelings on my own and find ways of making things work

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caramellles · 7 months ago

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a little makeover of my beloved family

#i opened sims for the first time in two weeks...#i've been feeling depressed lately #that's why i opened save file with my lovely family #and i've finally chosen an heir! yaay #the sims 4 #ts4 simblr #west4 #extra #nevea west #zane averis #yves liam west #phoebe west #kyan west #they're all so cute!!

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boy-above · 11 months ago

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since i'm still working on the images for my commission post, i wanted to drop the text version here in the meantime.

-> check out marshal's sicknasty commissions<-

i've repriced everything!! ive been offering prices that are just too low, because i knew i wouldn't be making any money if my prices were too high. but now since i can't do business with my only regular customer anymore,i figure i'll hardly ever be getting commissions anyway, so i might as well get a little more money out of it during the like. idk. one time a year i actually do get commissioned.

#feel free to reblog this if you'd like!#i'm still working on the image version bc i wanted to replace the full body venti on it #bc i didnt rly like how his face looked anymore #and i needed to change the icons cause theyre for the aforementioned previous customer that i dont wanna be associated with anymore #so uhhh hopefully i get that done soonish. i've been pretty slow because im super depressed lately rip

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mychemikuromance · 4 days ago

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#j talks #can't figure out if i'm just tired or depressed or both LOL #ugfhhhfhfhdhdh #i've been trying so hard to feel better but i ***** ***** ***#i can't hate myself into being better but I always forget how to love myself because. who the fuck would love me !#<- i know i have people who love me. i'm sorry i'm like this !#anyways i've been reading so many jayvik fics lately and earlier in the day i realized wow wait maybe.#i relate a lot to the way people characterize viktor bc they make him struggle with feeling worthy of love and i'm like #FUCK NOT THIS AGAIN UGH I THOUGHT I FIXED THIS #i'm the same person forever but I am trying so hard to change and yet i fall into the same mindset over and over ugh the oroboros #the cycle must be broken over and over and over again habit and life and changing until you realize you have actually changed #i need to shower and sleep lol goodbyeeeeee #EDIT POST SHOWER: after thinking i realized. i've just been very isolated lately. bc i was sick and stuff #and also i was depressed before so then i also got sick and everything was a lot i'm kinda going through it tbh #still thinking about the viktor thing though it's gonna haunt me for a bit

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