#I'm tired so apologies if this isnt articulated

[brw]

Goodbye Krakoa. Stay dead bitch. No more mutant islands.

Can we stop making ethnostates now like can we stop doing that in comics. Can we not keep saying "minorities are safe nowhere but in their own country that doesn't let certain people and also they might not even be safe because Evil People might get jealous and kill them". Ultimately this era has done nothing to explore why ethnostates are bad in any real way. It has done nothing to actually explore how being complicit in the creation of an ethnostate is a Bad Thing. We had some events but we didn't explore anything because we were too scared of making some of our faves look bad. I just actually hate the statements this era has ended up saying and I hate the fact that heroic characters are mourning over the loss of an ethnostate founded by eugenicists. These politics are ugly. And worse yet I see people mourning the loss of the fictional ethnostate like have we all lost our minds.

[lostandfoundvocaltrax2005]

December 6th. Evening, at the time of writing this.

i've been thinking a lot lately about… well, no. no, i haven't. it always sits in the back of my mind, it sits and it waits and it waits and it waits and it rots. i've gotten lucky once or twice, getting to talk about the ingrid shit, but its beginning to feel like everything in my head is beginning to rot it from the inside out.

from what i've seen online it seems like ruvies beginning to regret having done the shit he has. and it makes me so fucking mad. i don't think i can fully articulate it. i guess its good he's feeling remorse for what he's done? its like what Velocity said: did it take dying, getting kidnapped and dying again to make him grow a conscience? whatever. fuck him.

i guess i've had too much free time lately, so its making me get in my own head too much because i keep thinking about my old cases. one of my theories is that i'm out of the "honeymoon" phase of all of this, so things have slowed down enough for me to dwell on them.

god enough dancing around it im feeling guilty!!! i feel bad for using people the way i did for my advantage!!! i feel bad for the fact i couldnt do shit!!! people still died and got hurt and i couldnt prevent it! im upset it happened in the first place!!! fuck those suston freaks fuck ingrid fuck afton fuck wammy fuck ayano fuck light fuck eden fuck EVERYONE in chastville i hope they all BURN AND DIE.

except for lilah. i wish i could go back and say im sorry to her. sorry for using her to get into the church and that i didnt really love her. dib too. i wanna tell him im sorry for using him as a diversion so often and that he had to even learn about what was happening, let alone get involved. i wish i could apologize to Kara and those takami host club nutcases.

i dont know how i feel about Corette, honestly. i dont think she deserved to be tormented the way she was but i think saying she didnt deserve some kinda punishment isnt right either considering she effectively lobotomized some other student.

hm. fuck wammy for making the place, fuck the staff for letting this kind of atmosphere breed and grow like mold, and fuck everyone who could've prevented the whole mess. yeah. i guess thats what i wanted to say. but it feels redundant? nothing can be done now that its all said and done. i just hope that Harkness guy doesn't make shit worse.. does he even know about tartarun?? i hope so. from what ive heard so far from that blog wammys running the new residents seem pretty happy with how shits going. god i envy them.

i still wish i understood everyones motives a little better. god i fucking miss Kuroko. the ONE TIME i get a competent handler and i loose her right after because shes a convicted murderer!!!! although, then again, it was because ruvie had died… so.. but why they made me stay with everett and his bitch wife linda after it was all said and done ill never really get.

he's been calling me. he's been sending me letters. he says he misses me and wishes i would call. hes not my dad. hes never been my dad. i dont know why hes doing it. its just like with mills and calling me sofia. he told me he divorced linda and keeps going on about how horrible his exes have been. he said Jasmine was the only good one and how im the only good thing that came from that situation. if you loved her so much why did you kill her.

im so fucking tired. i just want to go to sleep and be over with everything.

[cherrysnax]

I can't articulate cause I'm terrible w words but like I hate it so much when thin ppl take post clearly addressing fatphobia and make it about themselves. Like, the lack of reading comprehension and empathy it's ridiculous! And I understand that they too suffer and that self image is difficult to everyone on a capitalist society that's always setting impossible beauty standards but jesus fuck fat people allowed to get tired of the way ppl treat us without having to apologise to thin people

bro isnt our entire lives apologizing to thin people haha? but i feel you my dude, people dont want to empathize with us because they hate us its really that simple.