#I'm suing for emotional damage

[girlunionize]

wHY is lance in the fucking dnpg thumbnail?????!!!

[thyandrawrites]

link click s2 finale spoilers under the cut:

what wrecks me upon rewatching the scene of cheng xiaoshi taking a bullet for qiao ling is that the camera focuses on lu guang's expression as the gun is raised in cheng xiaoshi's direction, and you see the whole scene unfold with lu guang as the focus. His eyes widening, his rage, cheng xiaoshi falling with a bullet hole in his side.

And at the first watch you're like, yes, they're focusing on lu guang's reaction because CXS is his most important person. Qiao ling isn't the type to recklessly charge in with the punchies so it makes sense LG's pain is taking over even if QL was the original target of that bullet, and it would make sense for her to feel equally terrible at CXS's injury.

but on the second rewatch, you know LG already saw CXS die and time traveled to prevent it. And in his memories CXS dies with his s1 outfit on, so the circumstances were different than the present ones. CXS's original death must've happened some time before the events of the subway, which is likely an alternate timeline created by LG's meddling with the past. But CXS was alive in the subway timeline, and Lu guang instended to leave it that way.

but chen bin dying because he was pushed introduces the idea that even if meddling with a timeline can temporarily change fixed events, like someone's death, other factors (=the henchman coming back to push CB) might change as well and still converge in the same end result (=CB's death).

So the idea is that lu guang's time traveling changed the fixed event of cheng xiaoshi's original death, created this alternate timeline with the kidnapping where he's still alive, but none of that means he's really safe. CXS might still die by other factors, because his death is a fixed point. In this specific case, cheng xiaoshi himself was the other factor. Lu guang did everything he could to keep him safe, but CXS still jumped in front of a bullet, because time still seeks those fixed points and CXS's death is one of them.

So. how many times do we think lu guang saw him die again and again, powerless to change it for good?

because I think that's why he acts off at the welcome home party after CXS is discharged from the hospital. Yes, his best friend made it. He survived the gunshot, and is back home. But there is a timeline where he did not. And there's no telling how long this one will last—how much time LG has borrowed for him until it runs out again.

So what point is there in celebrating CXS's survival if lu guang can't make it a fixed point, too?

[killerandhealerqueen]

I have a hard question to ask you. You've told about your top 5 fave moments, scenes, etc, about Killer and Healer, right? Right. So now I'm gonna ask, what are your top 5 least favorite parts of Killer and Healer??

JIEJIE! JIE. JIE. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU ASK ME!!!!!!! WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO SUFFER!!!!

Anyways, fuck it, we ball. Top 5 least favorite moments, counting down from 5

5. Keying's death

Yeah...I'm not okay

4. Zining's death

I am once again, not okay

3. Sun Yongren's death

2. Yu Tangchun's death

It hurts. Oh it hurts

We all know. We all know. Jiejie, why do you do this to me, huh

I watched the forbidden episode for these screenshots...Jiejie, I'm suing you for emotional damage. Fuck, now I need to go lie down from how much I tried not to hyperventilate while watching this

[pepi-nillo]

i just finished watching christmas carol and i've been crying for the past 15 minutes goddammit

[coughdropenjoyer]

The "letter unopened by Lucy Westenra" was a gut punch yesterday, but today's was even worse. The sorrow in Mina's voice was a hit right to my little heart, it was worse than getting caught by surprise. So tremendous voice acting, but y'all are killing me

[ficmeouttahere]

I bet on losing dogs

I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place

By the ring

Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down

I'll be there on their side

I'm losing by their side

I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski

aaron hotchner + quotes 1/??

[smokestarrules]

just realized that when they all square up to fight the Jabberwalker they subconsciously leave a space where Ruby’s supposed to go......

[annemarieyeretzian]

fresh cut grass’ stress being so high, the fuel pumping through his core having reached a level it’s never reached before, and it is so intense that for the first time, fresh cut grass realizes that they are alive,,, not alive because he was woken up by devexian or made my dancer or given purpose by the changebringer,,, but because his friends made him alive, because he made connections with ashton, and imogen, and laudna, and orym, and fearne, and dorian, and chetney, and F.R.I.D.A,,, thinking I’m happy to do this, I’m happy to do this, because they saved my life, and I’ll save theirs as he embraces his own explosion

[theoryandahalf]

God I forgot I was listening to LoreFi instead of my usual lofi for work, and the random morse code in one of the songs just scared the shit out of me.

[summonernoctis]

"i'm gonna rewatch the first two carols! since i've already seen them once, i probably won't cry again so i'll be able to see them better this time"

me, once again unable to watch through my tears:

[theyellowonethatfeelsblue]

NOW I REALISED A PARALLEL THAT IS A GREAT SPOILER SO DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T FINISHED THE THIRD BOOK

But... you know how Adri is the one that finds their dad in the forest? The one that caries him home? She is the one carrying Benji too. And the forest and the hockey ring are pretty much the same thing. Cruel and lovely and cold and home. Until they turn dangerous.

The big sister being a rock for so long and ending up with her biggest nightmate coming true.

[the-rogue-mockingjay]

No spoilers but I literally have not been able to stop crying since I set foot in the final Dawntrail zone. This zone, this section of msq was custom designed to just shoot me right in the heart, right at my desk :(

[mxmoth]

The fact that my getting ADHD meds coincided perfectly with the start of a wrestling ARG that's heavily influenced by philosophy and religion and clearly being run by someone obsessed with House of Leaves is not lost on me... but it does feel like the Almighty is laughing directly in my face.

[a-pirate]

[umbraxey]

Worlds beyond number is going to kill me, actually

[jtownraindancer]

"I didn't do it!"

-But the Gallows await.