#I'm sorry i dissapear for so long haha

[exotic-dinostuff]

Guys I think It was sarcasm

[senblades]

Hi :)

I love your art and your writing, and you have such a great grasp of these characters that I was wondering if you have any fic recs? Rating doesn't matter ;)

boy do I! (and ty for the compliment <3 <3 <3)

[cracks knuckles] alrighty:

The Dissapearence of Goro Akechi by Kupowonders - Probably my favourite fic ever, honestly- it's like. derailing the plot of persona 5 post-medjed thanks to the persona 4 accomplice ending years prior. (So, spoilers for p4 in that, too) it's. very good.

Marigolds by Colbub - Akechi gets ng+'ed to right when he started working for Shido, and has to take a good look at the future to come and be like "Aight how the fuck do I fix this". Fun times!

Daredevil, You've hit the wall by ez_cookie. Essentially, p5 Strikers but Sumire and Goro get to be in on the fun, too. And, there's a direct sequel currently being updated that's a similar premise for p5 Tactica. very very good stuff

A Tale of Two Tricksters by Zoe2k8 - Murder boyfriends! ...sort of? Angst! Angst and murder boyfriends! An oversimplification, obviously, but I'm not kidding when I say this fic is amazing and is also over a million words holy shit-

Throw away your mask by MollyPollyKinz - Another ng+ situation for Akechi, but this time the poor guy gets thrown all the way to 2009. You can imagine how well that goes (For the audience, less so for Akechi himself.)

The Crow Cries at Midnight by Dorked. hehe this one is very fun. Basically, a series of coincedencs causes Akechi to get thrown into the plot of persona 4. No time travel here! Just a grumpy 12/13 year-old Akechi trying to solve a murder mystery

The entire Tales of Chaos series by Eternalmomentss (The first one is called Like sand between your fingers) Very very good stuff! Something of a character study, I would say, of Ren and Goro. Plus, all the funky plot stuff that comes from trickster-typical bad luck and poor descision making. I really love this series hehe

uhh this post is getting very long I need to make this less wordy- lightning round?

Hunger for a life by Leonawriter - do you like vampires? I sure do! Mix that and the p5 plot and you get shenanigins. [evil laughter] a lot of shenanigins

Fishbowl by KivaEmber - Akechi has a terrible time in Maruki's reality. And I mean a terrible time

You have a beautiful smile underneath that mask by Saposaki - Akechi has a crush on Akira and Joker has a crush on Crow. No one is aware of the other's secret identity. Dramatic irony and hilarity ensues.

MASTERMiND by StumblingBlock - No Metaverse au where Akira really doesn't want to follow in the footsteps of his crime family, and fails miserably

Rose and Rot by SixteenJuniper - Read this!! I'm serious!! "A fun fantasy adventure" don't listen to Juniper. You'll be in tears by chapter two. (/pos, of course) (Seriously this fic is incredible)

Redressing the Balance by Convocated - ...almost a ng+? Ng+, in the sense that shuake are getting funky visions that are very quickly derailing the standard plot of p5r. This causes problems of the "Someone get the popcorn and maybe the tissues" variety

She's got a heartbeat full of lead (And she's aiming straight for the head) by Dots - This fic haunts me, often. In the best way possible, of course; but seriously, read it

Cracked into by SydneyHorses - Ren makes bad descisions and it becomes Akechi's problem. 2/2 timeloop, perhaps most notably featuring HaruGoro friendship! Love love love this fic

Okay that wasn't as "less wordy" as I intended but it'll do

Aaaand that's a wrap! Sorry for the long post.. and this is by no means all of the fics that I've ever loved (nor are the ones here in any particular order) but I swear we'll be here all week if I keep going HAHA

ty for the ask (and again for the kind words), anon! Hope this was helpful and to your tastes! (I... hope you like Shuake HAHA it's present in most of these- I assume you do, since you came to me (points at literally everything shuake I've made) of all people, but uh. Some of these fics are gen if it's not to your liking?)

[findafight]

Just wanted to let you know that I have not been able to stop thinking about your Steve/Barb au it's so good!! and so interesting to think about how that would change things!! Idk rare pairs are so fun to think about!

Forgive me if this is not where you were going with this but I'm thinking about Barb surviving the demogorgons attack because she's not in the pool with a cut hand. Barb doesn't know where she is or what happened to her, but she's scared and she knows that /something/ is hunting her. Everything smells like rot and decay and all she's focused on is survival. Her glasses are broken and gone, and she's sprained an ankle, but she's alive. Steve's sweatshirt is warm and still smells like him. It's a comfort, she thinks, as she runs and hides in the woods behind Steve's house.

Topside Steve is getting sucked into the Upside down stuff way earlier because his sort of (they haven't made it official yet) girlfriend is missing after leaving his house and she wouldn't just dissapear like that. And he's scared but he has to do /something/.

After some time in the Upside Down, God knows how long, Barb hears something. And it doesn't sound like the monster that's hunting her. So she stays silent, grabs hold of a stick or something to make herself feel safer, and peeks. And it's a boy. Alive. Human. Trapped just like her. And then for a while it's her and Will Byers, growing weaker and trying so hard to stay alive and let people know they're there.

Eventually, they get out. And she's sick and barely holding on and traumatized but she's alive and in the hospital recovering. As soon as Steve's allowed to see her he's there. He's bought flowers and a fluffy teddy bear. He calls her Barbie because he knows she'll roll her eyes fondly at him. He kisses her forehead and holds her hand.

Sorry this isn't more coherent I'm just !!!!!! Thoughts!!!!!

Are you in my brain?? Because exactly. (I have been holding on to "steve is the only one allowed to call her barbie" for way too long. not even romantically just in "barb lives au" they deserve to be annoying friends to each other haha) In the show Barb almost got away, and possibly would have it weren't for the fact she was in the pool, so I don't think it's too far of a stretch for us to say she survives in this au (there is a version where she dies and it's just. Angst. But that's not this one!)

I think the potential for Nancy to suspect Steve of doing something (even when it was Jonathan who is officially the last person to see her) would lead her to Jonathan. Similar to the show, she sort of just...brushes off the creepy pictures (it's both easier and hard for her here because it's not her in the pictures so who cares...but it's Barb [and Steve] so she cares very much, actually) and they go monster hunting without Steve and see the deer and Nancy gets pulled in through the tree etc.

Steve, who's definitely freaking out that is (basically) girlfriend is missing and her best friend is mad at him and won't talk to him, uses his ninja skills to check on her to see if she's okay, and sees her with Jonathan. Nancy isn't his girlfriend so the only thing he's mad about is her hanging out with the perv who took pictures of him and Barb and specifically a picture of her almost in her car which they know she never got into. So he knocks on the window and they jump but let him in. And that's how Steve gets into monster hunting. (idk if Tommy and Carol also join...maybe Steve waves them off through the window, maybe he gestures for them to come to...idk. much to think about. Maybe they don't join the upside down gang but they remain friends with Steve and know Something Happened, but he can't tell them what)

blah blah blah it all basically goes the same except because no cheating allegations there's no graffiti or fight, Steve 100% gives a backhanded apology for breaking Jon's camera "Hey, man. I shouldn't have broken your camera like that even if you deserved it..." or something. The trio fight the demogrogon, even if Steve is a bit, ah, weary of leaving a bunch of twelve-year-olds who have proven that they don't listen to grown ups when they say to leave well enough alone even for their own safety...but leave them he does. Fight an interdimensional monster with a nailbat he does. Dies, he doesn't.

Meanwhile, now that our girl Barb has survived he initial confrontation with the monster with no face, she's wandering, hiding, around the woods behind Steve's house except...it's not actually Steve's house. It's some twisted up version, and it's dark and creepy and oh so scary. Her glasses are cracked through one lens but it's better than not being able to see at all or not feel the comforting weight on her nose, and Steve's sweatshirt is big, comfy, and smells like him. She holds onto these tiny bits of home as she tries to figure out how to get out of...wherever she is.

At some point, she hears shuffling in the woods, but not from the monster. It's definitely smaller, and...there's a voice. Singing. She walks over quietly, and says "hi". the little boy jumps and stares, wide-eyed. They stick together, she holds him close.

When all is said and done, she and Will end up sharing a hospital room, due to Upside Down convenience. She;s older and wasn't in it for as long, but she's still weak. Her parents are besides themselves, having been told it was a gas leak that led her to be disoriented and lost in the woods, only by grace of god did she find and help Will.

Steve is behind them, with scratches on his face and a haunted look in his eye, but he smiles a little, and wiggles his fingers at her. She wiggles hers back. Her parents shuffle around, and leave the room to talk to the doctor. He sits beside her and reaches out to gently fiddle with her fingers.

"Hey," she says.

His voice is soft, when he responds, "hey," and doesn't take his eyes off her face.

She squeezes his fingers a bit. "heard you fought an interdimensional monster with, like, a lot of teeth for me."

He shrugs, squeezes back. "also to get Will Byers back."

"He's a good kid." she flicks her eyes to where little Will is being smothered by his gaggle of friends who nearly died trying to get him back.

Steve blinks rapidly, and tucks his chin to his chest. "I was so worried, Barbie." the nickname usually annoys Barb, too baby-ish, too connected to the doll, too...a lot of things. But Steve says it like it's precious, like she's precious, and she thinks letting her boyfriend (because that's what he is, isn't he? What's a boy you kiss and who would fight monsters to find you?) can call her Barbie.

"I'm back. I'm okay now."

"Yeah. But. Christ, things could have gone so much worse." He pinches the bridge of his nose, squeezes his eyes shut.

"Hey." she rubs the back of his hand with her thumb. "Hey. It didn't though. The government goons will be on us, sure. But Will is safe. I'm safe. All those kids and Nancy and Jonathan are safe. You're safe. Okay? And, when I get out of here, you're taking me out for burgers and milkshakes."

He smiles, actually smiles all squinty-eyed and toothy, "Yeah. okay. It's a date."

"Yeah, it is. I've got high expectations, Harrington. Killing a monster for a girl really sets the bar high, you know."

He laughs, and presses a kiss to her cheek, smiling.

(later, he tells her everything that happened on the rightside up, and she tells Jonathan to burn the negatives and that her boyfriend has a nailbat he's pretty good with, so he better not try to trick her...)

and idk. i think they're cute. They bicker, and Steve chooses topics just to rile her up so she'll roll her eyes at him but then explain why exactly he's wrong in step-by-step detail, and he also scoops her up and twirls her around and kisses her in the halls. they're gross and in love. In s2, i think Nancy still wants to expose the lab (other people did die, those hunters? what happened to them?) and both steve and barb are like "they will kill us" (pragmatic duo) so that's why they both go to nancy's to try to talk to her about it, which is how dustin kidnaps them, etc.

s3 we get scoops troop except robin is just tallying how many times Steve sighs dreamily until his gf comes by and he turns into a golden retriever and robin is like. ew. straight people (they are not, actually. I have a coming out scene between starb (seriously i need to figure out a ship name for them haha) that involves barb telling steve she once had a crush on nancy and steve's like yes obviously everybody has crushes on their best friend of the same gender you just don't do anything about it...like buddy...do i have news for you...bi4bi starbara) anyways the five of them get stuck in the elevator, stobin still hold the door, get tortured, etc, but this time dustin and erica have Angry Protective GF on their side. They get out, steve and robin have bathroom confessionals, which involves robin asking if steve's ever been in love and then immediately realizing he's going to wax poetic about Barb and steve also being like "i wanna be your best friend sooo bad barb said i maybe have a crush on you but i don't i wanna be like, the best man at your wedding, y'know? you're so fun and make me laugh and I want you and Barb to get along because I love Barbie and omg you could be my kids' auntieeee..." and robin tells him that he doesn't know her, and if he did he wouldn't want her around any of his hypothetical future children, tells him about tammy, and they sing total eclipse of the heart when dustin erica and barb bust in, and steve is like "barbie, honey pie, robin is gonna be our kids' godmother." as though that makes any sense. everyone else is like ????

idk i just like monster fighting power couple barb/steve a lot i think theyre neat.

[dojae-huh]

hi:)! i’m a new nctzen,i found out about nct maybe 3 months ago? so i don’t really know much about anything haha. Anyways,since i found this blog,i have to say my perspective of jaedo has changed; mostly bc i used to be a dotae/taedo enthusiast,but some of the things i saw recently have made me question that. So i wanted to ask if there’s any timeline that you might’ve done in the past that could make me see things a little better,or,if you don’t mind,could you tell me more about the confession period? I’m really intrigued by that. Also if it’s not too much,I wanted to ask about the johndo fall out,do we know when it happened? From the recent content it seems as if they’re closer than ever,and I also think part of that is bc when Ty inevitably goes to military service it’s going to be quite hard on dy🥺,so he’s going to be relying on jn A LOT I feel like. Anyways sorry for the super long ask,have a great day!

Hi, welcome to the fandom.

I suggest you form your own opinion about the boys by watching official content (YT shows on NCT channels and appearences on programmes like Weekly Idol) rather then listening to the fans on twitter. I've noticed that even me, who is a very stubborn person, get my perception of idols changed due to influence of others (the annoyance from the stans is transferred by association on their bias). I have to do "reality check" and correct my view of an idol from time to time, get rid of the accumulated slime of prejudice.

I do have a post with a timeline of sorts, however, I won't be able to find it now. I'm certain JaeDo got together in Spring of 2018, probably in May. I strongly suspect Jaehyun confessed during the last days of 2016 and was initially rejected. I think it because Doyoung was in denial about his orientation and was spooked. He took half a year or so to think about the ordeal, then another half a year to weight in all the options, and a few months to become certain about his final decision and find the right moment for his own confession.

Jaehyun once said he is the type to tell his feelings straight out, to confess. He probably chose the end of 2016 because: a) Doyoung became a fixed part of 127, the future together in one unit was guaranteed, b) Jaehyun turned 20 (Korean age), he became an adult, so could demand to be treated as a grown up, seriously, and not as a child (you will see fans talking about Jae being the original nest baby, the first maknae, he was Do's cute dongsaeng), c) some Doyoung's actions/words could have made Jae be positive Do is also into boys.

The confession period has its own tag. The list of tags is in the header.

I don't follow any Johnny or JohnDo accs, so I don't notice the changes as quickly as with JaeDo. It is mostly other fans who alert me about changes with other neos and I start paying close attention to see for myself if their suspicions are true. Doyoung had a fall out with both Ten and Johnny around NCT2020. We don't know the reason. I can't tell if it was a one big fight or things worsened over time. Johnny and Doyoung promoted in different teams, so didn't interact much. The tension became apparent during 2021 and 2022 lives and programmes. The way they interacted and reacted to each other changed, the comfortable easiness to their rapport dissapeared. Johnny succeded in making Doyoung forgive him by the end of 2022. Currently they are back to how they were in the past, they even do lives together.

Most neos fought at one point or another. Even TaeDo. Doyoung even consulted a manager what he should do about him not getting along with Tae, and got a reply "deal with it, you will work together anyway".

I don't think JohnDo has anything to do with Tae. Doyoung doesn't rely on Johnny emotionally the way you suggest. He is "the oldest brother" in the unit. JohnTaeDo never formed a close-knit trio of their own. It was always JohnTae/TaeDo/JohnDo. If anyone, I expect Do to rely on Haechan as support more in the upcoming years when he will be the leader of the unit.

[starchymcgee]

ok so, Yenndo can make corpses "dissapear" (calvins family) and also regenrate things (charlies eye). What if i cut off my limb/pull my tooth/ etc somewhere thats outside of Yenndos influence and THEN spend enough time in their presence to regenrate it, would i technically have an endless supply of limbs/teeth/etc ?

I'm sorry I find this ask so fascinating. Yes, that's how it works. Freddy's has a healing area of effect that works as long as you're in range. But like, the thought of someone just repeatedly damaging themselves because they want spare limbs and teeth is so funny to me. Surely someone would never do that haha. Oh yeah and of course complicated and bigger things take longer to heal.

[azz4me]

yesterday I hadn't offered you goo thoughts

Today? Who knows

Oh no no queen, I'm not scared of hate and shit. Im scared of being lame. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-

Ty for the compliments the toast smiles òuó

I'm mostly in the gungoo for the GOO and the fact their dynamic reminds me of that I have with my own friend who's like my gun haha

Omg the gun slander uhm don't tell anyone but tho I don't HATE gun, man whenever I'm searching my husband up and HE appears instead of him I just want to like *CENSORED DUE TO GRAPHIC VIOLENT* LIKE BITCHASS GUN GET OUT I'M TRYING TO HAVE MY HUBBY

Look I can totally understand the gun appeal,but you know what he's not? He's not semi underrated! My mind automatically not enjoy

Giving up? Oh yeah I gotcha-

When the consequences of your actions are easier to deal with than the action itself

pfft- oh yeah and about this talking habits of mine,, Yknow one time someone told me that I talk like a furry

You know what my reaction was?

"Pfft-"

I like including them in my text, makes my text unique from others >u> (this too. I love it cause it looks like I'm looking sideways and stuff pssht)

speaking of fury which I'm not OH YEAH I HADN'T TOLD YOU MY KITSUNE GOO RAMBLES

But if I begin about it it'll be,,damn long-

And also yipee I love your arts<3<3 I get that, when you don't feel like your drawing good and you try again but the art just not arting--

Ah well I wanna see your artworks too tho >:]!

hail the queen imma spam my rambles

~🍞

Hello Toast!! uhh sorry for not replying to you for 4 days :P I was kinDA buys. I mean I still am but i don't give a shit rn.

ohhhHHHHH Goo ramble. I want goo ramble. I need a power point slide just on Goo. He is so fucking delicious to talk about, I wish the homework was based on Goo instead of fking cartilage, those are only good for crunch.

Lame? Who the fuck thinks you are lame? Clearly they got a brain problem if they do so :]

Gungoo was an immediate ship for me. Their dynamic is so fuking gooddddddd. Husbands fr.

I have mixed feeling with gun. I get that he is hot and what not but whenever I am praying for goo to pop up on lookism, I see those white orbs staring at the depths of my soul and I lose my shit.

YES. WE NEED A WHOLE DIFF FANDOM JUST FOR GOO. WE NEED A GOO EMPIRE. MINIONS FOR GOO!!!!!!!

...

I did give up buttttTTT somethig else happened. We, the whole class, came up with a plan to just not do it. These notes were for practical marks in the final examination. So we thought if the whole doesn't do it then the teacher won't be able to fail all of us. We tHOUGHT we could beat the system🤡. Turns out there was a rat hiding in the class and submitted the work before anyone knew, so the teacher threatened us that he will be calling our parents if we don't complete it under time and that is till tmr. 🤡.

If the consequences was being sent to the principal's office, i would not have give a shit but calling my parents is a bIG NO NO.

That person must have to be furry to know how a furry talks. But honestly I haven't seen a furry talk like that tho

'>u>' this one kinda cute ngl. Pointy eyes.

ohhh kitsune Goo. I am not saying but I would die to just get a brush of his tail. I would. I wish I could touch it.

Oh thank you<3333. I love your little art of Goo's as well 💝💝💝💝💘. I am just severly lacking in motivations rn so I have been experimenting on a bunch of ocs here and there to get out of artblock, which are not really worth posting so imma just tuck them in one corner of my mind.

YOU CAN TALK ABT GOO AS MUCHAS YU LIKE. I ENCOURAGE THIS. TALK MOREEE. SPEAKKK!!!! Althoug I might just dissapear on some bad days but doen't mean I am dead, I will even arise from dead if it means for goo. So please don't ever stop talking abt him.

[fruit-salad-ship]

So sorry, you’re gonna pull through. Maybe a cute fluff idea in the vampire au? Thinking Peach and Plum got in a fight, Plum said something that hurt Peach and Peach runs off to be alone, Plum thinking Peach is just angry but she’s really hurt.

Grey can tell the difference but doesn’t say anything, he just goes to find Peach, who he finds in a mostly unused room curled up in a corner, wings raised in a kind of bubble around her. He goes and sits close to her, tells her he knows she wants space and he won’t push but will just hang out to let her know he understands and wants to help. She eventually pulls back a wing slightly and lets him in to hold her.

Maybe Plum starts to feel guilty later and goes looking for her, sees them cuddled in the corner. Peach doesn’t notice but Grey makes eye contact and nods her in. Plum nervously makes her apology, tells Peach she can have her space but Plum is ready to hear her whenever she’s ready.

She turns to leave but Peach reaches out to stop her and pulls her into the cuddle pile, and they all just sit and breathe for a while.

(Oh dang it now I’m crying too I’m so sorry)

Why is it alwasy the vampire prompts that get me haha

Thank you for concerns, I will be ok, alwasy am.

That night, as the moon sat in a waned position, hardly any light from its thin slice, Peach couldn't help but recall a handful of very distant memories. She could not remember her family, or her friends, nor the name of her home town. The streets she played in as a kid didn't exist anymore, and the apple trees she use to climb, toppled and rotted many centuries prior to this night. And yet, no matter what she did, she could not get the smell of damp and mould from her nose, nor the irritation that bubbled up recalling the endless dripping, echoing around the cold stone room she once fondly referred to as her 'tomb', a dark and isolated place, the den of the vampire who ended her life.

These memories were some of the first set in her mind once she'd been turned. They did not fade, though she truly wished after all this time, that they would.

In the dark of the night, she hunkered down in the comfort of her own wings as they wrapped around her, creating the only saftey she recalled being able to turn to, a covered nook to sink into and try to dissapear. The room she was in was dusty, dry, unused mostly, a space littered with items gathered from the years she'd spent wandering, none meaning very much of anything to her anymore.

It must have been a while that she was sat in silence, recalling the row from earlier that day, fateful words slipping from Plum's mouth that just seemed to sting a little more coming from her. Before long, the room was flooded with a path of light, door opening out into the hall, footsteps entering before the door shut again.

Grey, his heavy footfall was unmistakable, she didnt need to look to see who it was, she heard him come up the stairs and linger by the door for a minute prior to this.

"Go away." About all she could say, tucking up tighter in her wings, but he still continued to settle on the floor next to her, crossing his legs, sighing.

"She didnt mean it." He shifted to get comfortable, leant against a box.

"She did, and she was right to say it. I'm not mad at her, i'm mad at me. Just go do whatever it is you humans do these days, leave me alone." She shifted to face further away from the large man, hoping he'd get the hint.

"She's not right, you're not-" "A monster?" Peach finished his scentence, shooting him a cold leer over one shoulder, before tucking the wing on that side up more, hiding further. "I am, she's right. I just didnt like to hear it from her." an honest moment, feeling a single weird thud in her chest that didnt happen much anymore, the heartbeat long dead, giving her a kick, a brief moment of feeling something akin to guilt, maybe grief, or sorrow? She couldn't recall.

"I don't really remember what it's like to be human anymore, can't imagine you can look at me and see anything other than a beast from a story book. Something to be feared." Her gaze lingered on the distant stars, the moon the same as the night everything changed, that much she could not forget.

"When I was one of you, I carried a sword, and marched with my troop, we fought together, laughed together, did everything as a team, a family." Peach's memories only recalled their faces as she last saw them, turning her stomach a little. "We went to investigate witchcraft claims, and got ambushed by something we did not understand, now of course, I know it was a Vampire, but back then we assumed it a devil, a demon. Guess it kind of was..." Her wings relaxed a little, face peaking out, staring off out the window, the sting of tears unusual for her, perfectly able to push them back, forget that feeling and focus on feeling nothing at all. "It killed every one of my group, the captain pushed me out the way of claws and I watched him get torn to shreds, every time I turned, another of my family fell in battle. Through nothing but dumb luck, I was the last one standing. For surviving the longest, and taking fearful swings at the vampire who attacked us despite impending death, I was 'gifted' this." She glanced down to her hands, their clawed forms so similar to that of the woman who'd turned her, this elegant creature you'd look at and assume was a lady of a rich and noble house.

So clearly that night would repeatedly play in her head, every other memory foggy and faded, but those moments never went away. A futile swing to keep the Vampire back, watching it catch the sword in its delicate hands, snap the blade as if it we're a twig, before throwing it across the battlefield like nothing. Disarmed and alone, Peach thought for sure she would die there, dropping to her knees in defeat, sweat and blood mixed with the dirt and light rain. The faces of her comrades were all drained of life, each member of her family tossed to the ground like ragdolls around her, gone. Rage like nothing she'd ever felt before swept her back up on her feet, a dagger drawn, rushing the elegant form of her attacker that glided closer by the second. She did not see the vampire move, did not see the talons come into range, not until the sting of pain came, and a resistance held her in place, face to face with this creature as it grinned, its features long and hauntingly beautiful, splattered with blood, not a hair out of place.

Looking down now, there was no sign of the damage as she hunkered under her wings, no remainder of the mark left from that attack, in a flash it felt like she was sitting on that floor again that night, glancing at the claws dug striaght into her chest, punctured right through the gear she donned, shards of metal stabbing inward, if it wasnt for her pounding heart she’d have been more aware of the crack of bones in her chest. She took a rattled breath and felt a lung start to fill with liquid, the shock of the pain setting in. The dagger was dropped as her entire body got thrown back with what seemed like no effort at all, despite the sheer difference in size between her, and this thin long woman.

Her last memory from being human was her face, the vampire who changed everything. Peach was willing to die there, accepted it, looked up at the clouds, felt the rain on her skin, and let the raspy breaths draw shorter, a moment of peace as the clouds gave way to the moon, same thin crescent she was looking at now, sitting near this human who refused to leave. She'd been quietly contemplating her past for a while, looking over to Grey who was also staring up at the sky with her, no words. He reminded her of one of them, one of those fine soldies she use to trave with, something so familiar. Perhaps that's why she was drawn to him in the first place.

Her hand, despite its dangerous apperance, gently touched his, one wing creeping back to fold neatly behind her, the other starting to recede too. She put her head on his shoulder, stayed there for a moment. He was warm, a nice change from her ice cold body.

"When I think of a monster, I think of the woman who turned me. I spent a long time trapped in her den, this damp stone room with no light, no windows, no way to tell how much time was passing, she kept me under lock and key until I did what she asked, for god knows how long. She took everything, and left me a shadow of her own image. What scares me, is that you two look at me, and think i'm capabale of the same thing."

"We don't, you're not like that. We've seen you with the police scanner up at night, listening in for domestic violence calls, preying on those who are actually in the wrong. You even learnt to use the internet just to trawl around looking for local hate groups, so you don't hurt anyone who's actually a decent human. A monster woudln't care enough to do that." His big arm snuck around her shoulder, pulling her in tight for a hug. It was a moment that warmed her, literally and metaphorially, not a thing she felt often, revelling in it briefly.

The door behind them creaked open a little Peach didn't turn to look, instinctivly pulling away from Grey, putting her wings up again to hide from sight.

This time, light footsteps entered, a familiar scent of perfume following soon after. The form crouched down close to the wall of wing that hid their undead housemate away. Plum had heard the conversation from out in the hallway, the guilt of her hot headed comment from earlier setting in like lead, and now, with Grey giving her a 'go on' look, she took a breath.

"I'm sorry, what I said earlier, it was unfair, I got so mad about the broken teapot I just lost my cool. It was too far..." Peach did not exit her hidden position, didnt even move, nor utter a single word. After a few moments, Plum got back to her feet, a heavy pang of sorrow seeping in as she turned to leave, but a hand grabbed hers. It was ice cold, and soft. She tracked it back to the wings, having snuck out from under one, feeling the air aroud the room move, ruffling her hair a little as that same big sail slowly retracted back and folded up, followed by the other. Peach, hesitant at first, gave a little tug on her hand, glancing from the corner of her eye at the human, who gave a weak smile in return.

Plum returned to the floor, crawled into her lap, much to Peach's surprise, and wrapped her arms around the woman's neck tightly. Shortly after, Grey scooped them both up, getting use to sneaking an arm under the wings to drag the woman back easier.

The dark dusty room laiden with items from the past, now contained the future, and there was a distinct few seconds where Peach silently begged to retain these memories, prayed they'd stay long enough to recall fondly one day.

[weirdlyfitting]

Yooo

So I went back to see my rotbtd edits and found the halloween one. I realized that whenever I post a long story I'll put some illustrations because yeah reading can be exausting and it's a bit hard for me to imagine too many stuff lol, also I think it's just BETTER (this is one of my big reason to love Cytus 2's story lol)

Anyway this one's longer and I got this idea because I was thinking about their similiarities. It's pretty cool that while both Merida & Hiccup's story had a theme of "change" , both Jack & Punz's story had a theme of "identity". Since this one's abt Jack & Rapunzel so mayyybe I'll make Hiccup & Merida too?

And ahhh I forgot my watermark but whateves I'm tired lmao :(

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Anyway here ya go :D

As her feet touch the grass she felt as if freedom has greeted her. This is the first time in 17 years that Rapunzel ever touch it. She has wished, prayed, and hoped to see the "floating lights" by herself and right at this moment she knew that she can do it.

Rapunzel : I can't believe I did this....

I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID THIS!

Rapunzel ran as fast as she can to the secret cave that mother used to use as an exit whenever she bought her a present from the outside world.

Her heart beating fast as she's getting closer to the entrance. But suddenly, she slowed her run and stopped right at the entrance. She look back at the tower

Rapunzel : Mother, it'll be okay. I will be okay..

After I see the floating lights everything will be just like what it used to be, Mother..

Her figure slowly dissapear as she walks into the dark entrance

Rapunzel : You can do this, Rapunzel. Come on...*gasp

Light!

As she mumbled she found a light source and made her steps faster towards it

Rapunzel : Wait, who-

She stopped with caution, she saw a shadow outside the entrance, could it be the person who'd use her hair?!

It goes left and right and so on

Rapunzel : Oh no...

???? : How many times has it been? and still no answer...

She decided to sneak in near the leaves to hear what it says

???? : Just- just why no one-

It's a boy. He's holding his tears as he gets more frustrated.

???? : Why can't anyone just talk to me?! Why can't they see me?! I had tons of questions yet NO ONE EVER ANSWER IT!

He raised his voice as anger controlled him. Rapunzel tried to stay back quitely while Pascal made a gesture that shouted "what should we do?!"

Rapunzel : Stay caution, Pascal. I think that's the guy that mother talked about"

The boy sit in the stone near where Rapunzel are. He let a big sigh.

???? : *sniffs *sobs

He let out a cry. As soon as Rapunzel hears it she decided to go closer.

Rapunzel : Is he...crying?

???? : Please..." *sobs

Rapunzel went closer towards him. Her hand wanted to reach him but too scared. Pascal tried to warn Rapunzel to not go after the boy with his hands.

???? : *sniff Ugh, it's pointless anyway...

Suddenly Rapunzel felt a breeze of wind coming through. As if the wind is alive and move on it's own. The leaves are dancing and the wind...so calming.

Rapunzel : *whisper Woah

???? : Haha, oh wind. At last I had you beside me

The boy sniffs for the last time as he get up and proceed to take his leave.

???? : Ah I wanna see the lanterns tonight. They're really pretty don't you think? At first I have no idea why only once a year it happened but the first time I saw that...

He smiled, all those anger and burden have gone as he remembers the "lanterns".

???? : They're just really beautiful. But then I heard that it's for the missing princess and.. (continue speaking)

Whatever that is, deep down Rapunzel knew that what the boy meant are the floating lights. She saw the boy walked out from where he stood. Should she ask him for a help? or should she continue finding it by herself?Pascal shrugged his head as he disagree.

Rapunzel : Well what choice do I have?

Pascal tried to confront Rapunzel and still insist.

Rapunzel : Don't worry he can be our guide, ok? If he tried to do any harm to me or my hair..he will regret it

She take the frying pan that she brought from the tower and making a serious look. Pascal finally agrees. Rapunzel pull the leaves as she go out from the entrance.

Rapunzel : H-Hey!

The boy stopped right away as he heard someone called. He's looking at the source and it's a girl. He's so sure she called someone else so he continued his walk. But strange, he thought. What kind of a girl who'd play in the deep forest like this?

Rapunzel : W-wait, Please! I want to see the floating lights!

The boy quickly turn to her, she's just called him, she talked to him, she saw him?!

???? : Y-you can- YOU CAN SEE ME?!

Rapunzel : Look, I only had 3 days to go see it or I'll never had the chance anymore!

???? : But h-

Rapunzel : You will be my guide to go see it! Those "lanterns" you're talking about.

???? : Woah, woah, woah! You've been inside it from the whole time?!

Rapunzel : Uhh- it doesn't matter I don't have much time, okay! Let's just-

Rapunzel tried to think a way to convince him. While the boy is still in shock because Rapunzel is able see him.

???? : Oh my moon you're even talk to me- wait is that your hair?!

The boy looked so surprised to she Rapunzel's super long hair still goes along through the entrance cave. Suddenly, a frying pan almost landed on the boy's face.

Rapunzel : Move one step closer, and this will be the last time you see me. Ever..

The boy got terrified on the sudden change of Rapunzel.

???? : Yikes, sorry I asked. Looks like it's really precious huh?

Rapunzel : Don't play dumb to me, I knew it. You wanted to cut my hair and sell it, right?!

???? : W-wha- Why would I do that? Look, you're clearly heard my cry behind the leaves right? Do I heard like want to kidnap you and cut your hair?! No one can't even see me so WHY WOULD I??

Rapunzel take back her frying pan and had a deep thought.

Rapunzel : Let's make a deal.

???? : What?

Rapunzel : A deal. I'll tell you my reasons on why I can see you and for you, just like what I said before, take me to see the floating lights! You will be my guide

???? : Okay...deal

Rapunzel : Well then it's settled. Now show me the way mister..

???? : Jack. It's Jack Frost. And don't call me mister I'm basically around your age too..

Rapunzel : O-oh, okay...Jack

Jack : There you go. This way, blondie..

Finally, they both goes through the forest. Searching for the floating lights

THE END

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[musubiki]

I wonder about one thing,, (tbh a few)

If witches love is that strong, and they can't fall out of it, NEVER, then why Mochi's aunt, Amantha Verna, tries to hunt Mochi and her mum?? I can't believe Amantha n Ellena(?)(Mochi's mom) never loved each other like sisters,, or cousin (i dun rlly know which one is it)

Or it is the reason why auntie sent Taffy on a 'killer rampage :3'~??

Another topic i want to talk about: what if magical creature fell for someone, but then got amnesia? (like-- amnesia amnesia, no memories, no feelings, etc.) Will they be able to fall for someone other than their 1st crush, or still be in love w/ them? (I know it also depends on how the 1st crush will act,[ like- stay away or b close] but lets forgot that for now..)

I wonder what would happen if magical creature will fall in love with someone, but hate their alter ego, not knowing who they are? Will hate just dissapear if they knew, or there will love n hate at the same time?? Or it depends on the person?

Sorry for so many long questions. Also sorry if i mistaken smth or misinterpreted, or wrote some things wrong english isn't my first language ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ(• ▽ •;) and haha, i'm proffesional (ships n OTP's) cospiracy theoritist, i got x2, maybe x3 more questions and theories, but i didn't wrote them cause they are already overthrown :')

Also,, me and my younger sister rlly love your style n drawings♡♡, how you color things, characters fasion,, and especially we are in love with how u draw heads profile💓ヾ(˙❥˙)ﾉ we were seriously squeaking seeing Lime or/and Mochi's ♡♡♡ xD

aaaa yes yes all good questions!!!

so first on the topic of mochis aunt: a little backstory first!! amanita (mochis aunt) and tiramisu (mochis mama) are not blood sisters!! tiramisu was adopted by grandma mocha (mochis grandma) at a young age, and was raised as her daughter!!! so while grandma mocha and tiramisu loved each other and loved amanita, amanita never loved her adopted sister (and as a result never loved or knew mochi), so thats why she has no problem killing them!! amanita is the older of the two, so as the oldest daughter, shes supposed to inherit the cat witchs power, but since shes been evil since she was a kid (or had evil tendencies), grandma mocha passed her power onto tiramisu instead. and ofc amanita was enraged and left her family and has spent the rest of her life growing stronger in other magic so she can take back the power that was rightfully hers!!

so tiramisu loves amanita (still) as a sister, but amanita HATES tiramisu, which is a good example of what kind of issues arise, because now tiramisu has a very hard time harming or killing her sister, but amanita has no issues sending her straight to the grave!! the plot with taffy began because amanita KNOWS that the cat witchs weakness is water, so who better to pit against her than the only child of the sea? ;3c

second, on the question of amnesia, the love doesnt go away!!! the mind forgets but the heart remembers, is how the witchs put it!! you have no idea who this person is or what they mean to you, but your heart races and your face flushes and for some reason you just trust them entirely, and you can FEEL that you love them despite not knowing a damn thing about them!! one of the laws of magic is that emotion cant be changed, by magic or otherwise. its one of the few things that are left untouched by the influence of magic!! they wont fall in (romantic) love with anyone else because their feelings are still geared toward whoever they loved before they lost their memories!!

last on that topic of alter egos: its like the situation with mochi and cat-ears!! another case of the mind saying one thing and the heart saying another - the witch KNOWS they love someone else, but cant help be drawn to this other person (said loved ones alter ego). its a lil funky how it works but they cant help it, somehow the heart just knows even though the mind doesnt. which is why mochi is capable of getting flustered around cat-ears because. its lime. she doesnt KNOW its lime, but i guess the love in her heart does?? for some reason none of the witches spellbooks point this out as a clue that the person behind the mask is someone you know (we leave it out for convince and plots sake - i cant imagine it happens very often enough to write about it in a spellbook. how many times is you significant other going to make an alter ego without you knowing and try to lie to you about it??)

ANYWAY THANKS FOR ASKING I HOPE THAT CLARIFIES A BIT!!!!!! IM GLAD YOU LIKE MY OCS AND FEEL FREE TO ASK ANY MORE QUESTIONS ABOUT THEM!!!!! 💕😭

[filypadreams]

Fleeting Touches

( Asmodeus x GN!MC)

Synopsis: Do you know what fleeting means? It means you should apreciate every moment while you can. Even if you get lost in illusions for it.

TW: Slight angst

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The streets were full this time of the year, even with the cold weather. It was a race for most humans to get that last minute gift for that special someone.

Their children, parents, grandparents or significant others. For some reason it's tradition to get that one person a last minute present.

And that's always a disaster...

" Calvin Klein One... with bergamot, cardamom, pineapple and jasmin. Tropical? Or maybe Dolce & Gabanna Velvet Exotic Leather. Traditional and italian... also at good prices, I need to ask if they are antiallergenic! "

I spend 15 minutes on the line but get both perfumes and walk outside onto the sunny street. It's not as busy as the mall and I really should get home before it gets to close to one pm.

Today, faces are a blur to me.

" Thanks for the tip Asmo, I was sick of the strong scents of women perfumes and the always down to earth male ones~"

I cheerfully speak to myself while touching the 'tattoo' above my left breast.

It's a one-way communication system. I'm not even sure Asmodeus hears what I tell him but I sure do hear his thoughts.

" Ohhh, bootie alert at 12! No, wait! Delicious curves at 4- oohh...that's a mix at 9 o'clock~!"

I see a man, woman, I think the last one is in mid transitioning but I'm not sure.

" He'll be a beautiful man, I'm 95% sure!"

" Maybe it's a 'they'... not that you can hear me."

Though I agree, they look...handsome. With a nice physique, curly shoulder lenght hair, smooth skin as if rivalling Asmos' ... and who can resist a dark biker leather jacket?!

No, stop. Don't let the mark influence you from your mission MC!

Setting the christmas gifts.

I start running in the direction of the bus station when I collide with a tall lady, her black shades falling to the ground from her beautiful light pink sweater.

My head hurts. It felt like hitting a brick wall...or Beel.

Are my only thoughts as I scramble to pick her glasses and my shopping bag. Good thing it was well packed.

"Oh my~ I'm so sorry, I didn't notice such a beautiful face in this crowd. I was retoutching my eyeliner, huhu! Let me help~"

The lady crouches down next to me. I notice from the corner of my eyes that she is also wearing a black turtle neck... and has peach coloured hair...

" Asmo?!"

Darkness. A cold hand covers my eyes while the other takes the shades from mine and exchanges them with my bags...it seems. He whispers is my ear.

" Now, now. Don't ruin the surprise! I'm just a beautiful 'lady'. Hahaha."

And with that he dissapears. Everything seems to dissapear, as soon it gets dark and I'm sitted in my couch, replaying today's event.

It felt so real... I called him a lady.

Well... I don't think Asmodeus minds.

I walk around the tree, putting down colorfully wrapped gifts. That I went purposely to markets and malls to have wrapped!

Diavolo better play Santa and give me some grimm if I ever get an invite to Devildom, I blew most of my allowances with these!

On the blue corner I have vynil disks and office supplies. Getting stuff for Lucifer is hard.

The yellow corner... is a mess of acessories like shades and wristwatches and some jackets. Mammon needs a new one.

The orange corner was the cheapest but most difficult to prepare. I wrapped most of my otaku related rarities, in Devildom at least, and put them in a pile. Levi better apreciate my figurines!

The green pile was also simple. It's actually small with my old literature books. All from great authors and all trying to escape religious judgement so Satan might find that amusing.

I don't have a red corner, just baked goods on the table and two glasses of milk in case Santa visits.

I put purple pillows, warm robes, matresses and scarves around the tree. Belphie won't lose comfort soon.

And now finishing the pink corner.

There's the perfumes, some cosmetics I really don't get but my 'chest instinct' said to go ahead and...

" I hope he likes this fluffy bunny backpack!"

I kinda wanted the bunny for myself... but I can't.

The day went on so fast... why am I even doing this? Might as well call Solomon and offer him these so he can perform his rituals. I'll just wake up tomorrow to a full room of wasted money and a mountain of calories. An empty heart.

I caress the bunny when i hear rustling on my door. Something is playing with my wreath? I pick a knife from the dinning table.

" W-who's there?! Show yourself fiend!"

" Aww, that hurts to hear MC-chan..."

From the darkness into the light walks the same person I crashed into this morning.

" You better drop that knife before someone gets hurt..."

" How...Asmo, how are you here?! Why?!!"

Tears come to my eyes. It's been a while. A long while since I've seen any of them. Since I've had slumber parties with Asmodeus, self care sessions...

He shakes his head cleaning the few teardrops away with the back of his index finger and walks to the tree, messing with the gifts.

" Tears don't suit you well. Oh, you even got something for Barbatos... I'm slightly jealous, I thought you only thought about me~"

He starts opening his gifts.

" Wait! It's not even Christmas Eve. We need to wait until midnight at least..."

As I try to explain, his taller stature hovers over me, playing with my hair and putting a mistletoe, secure in it's knots. Wait... how is he so tall? The height difference is too abnormal.

" I'm afraid the concept of time doesn't apply in dreams, MC."

" H-huh?! Wha... the day... went on really fast. So you..."

I look down slightly dissapointed. The floor starts cracking and falling. Darkness and constelations starting to form under my feet.

" Afraid not. Christmas is not really part of our traditions, haha. Even if we had a great celebration that one time Diavolo proposed we did it with the exchange students.

I like the angel."

He points to the tree top.

" Oh, that... I was thinking of Beel and Belphie when I made the decision. It's my oldest decoration. I was thinking on putting a star this year but... I got a literal gut feeling to keep the angel."

I smirk at Asmodeus as he puts an arm around my shoulders, leaning me a little closer to him. We both apreciate the flashing lights from the tree. Even if it was fake. The rest of the room crumbles away and Asmo let's go of me to pick his gifts and stuffing them inside his new backpack.

" I know he was thinking of the only person that shines as bright as us two together.

Hmm, but you haven't been taking good care of yourself, MC-chan! Remember to follow the morning routine I gave you so your skin is almost as perfect as mine!"

" I haven't been feeling like...doing much I guess. I had a lot of work this year."

" Humans are always full of work. I mean me too.

Since RAD is closed for the 'holidays', we are back to our other jobs. Things get dirty real fast, so many pests! Maybe we can actually come visit during New Year's."

After apreciating the representation if Lilith, he turns to berate me, before picking a bottle of perfurm and examining it, followed by spraying some on while making a spin as he explains his bodyguard/demon threat exterminator job.

He must have loved it because he transforms, with a smile on his face and his horns move like pincers.

" I always found your demon form the funniest."

" ...Dear, I'm fabulous."

" Hahahahaha! Ok, but if this isn't a Diavolo, Barbatos or Lucifer' scheme... is it Belphegor's? You mentioned dreams, and it explains the constelations."

I look around, darkness being drilled by the light of many tiny stars.

" I think I see taurus... and of course he had ro include pisces. Mammon is supposed to be the greedy one, this is OUR moment!"

He huffes and crosses his arms. I chuckle and pat his back.

" So, I'm asleep at the same time as Belphie."

" It's night time in both worlds. You could say I'm an intruder. I was taking my immersive nightly bath as I prepared to get into your dreams~ I hope I didn't actually fall asleep, my poor skin!"

" How did you convince him?"

I wonder as he touches his arm and the parts of revealed skin as if to feel if something was wrong with his real body.

" Oh, well...he actually wanted to see you to! I also promised to take more cute pictures of Lucifer for him. But I don't think he admires his beauty the same way I do-"

The world trembles. Belphie must be waking up. And angry...

" Oh, dear! I must have upset him. This illusion will end soon and you'll wake up in your bed as if nothing happened. I hope you don't forget me."

Asmo walks closer and caresses my face. Kissing my forehead.

It's warm. Fleeting but I can feel his gestures. Even in a dream.

I slap his hand when I feel it sliding down my back a little too far.

" Ouch! My nail...ok, ok. I'm sorry! Won't happen again~"

He apologises when making contact with my burning stare and proceeds to act innocently after.

" It better not. I... think it will be difficult to forget you. Specially now. Make sure the others know-! Ahh!!!"

Another quake and I "conveniently" fall in his arms. I'm able to see his pixie sized wings batting in excitement.

" This is a cliché."

I mumble as Asmo wraps his arms around me.

" I need to go. I'm sure we'll see each other soon. You know I'll always be here. Literally. And I do hear you, you know?"

He pokes his mark, above my heart and pouts.

" ...I know... see you soon Asmo."

I pick his hand and kiss it.

Then I wake up. It's still the middle of the night. My room is cold.

There on my window sill are two roses. One peach and one dark pink.

The End

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Special dedicatory to: @shortnessangel

and @asmoluvsyou .

Bunny Backpack comes from: https://kawaiibabe.com/products/creepy-bun-backpack

(Curiosities: The perfumes are gender neutral, I can still link you the page where I found them.

The colour of the roses have a specific meaning. I can post the pic I got it from if you want.)

[reefartandwriting]

Running out of Time pt 2

The young witch uncovered her face, and hugged the one knee she still had. "I know. But it's not just- I've needed to tell you something for a while. And I've put it off because I've been so scared. But I guess… you're leaving. I can't leave it unsaid." She shifted to facing Luz, putting her hands on the humans shoulders and looking into her eyes. "I… I have… a uh…" she growled at herself in annoyance. "I really… uhm…"

"Amity…" Luz said, kind of interrupting, but shaking the girl from her flustered state. "...I know fears are so hard. But you should know that whatever it is, I'm never gonna not be your friend. I love willow and Gus, but me and you have a sort of special bond, I think." She smiled, moving her hands up and on top of the green haired girls. "At first, I just… I saw good in you. You needed help to bring it out. You're so good, Amity. You're nice, and brave, and strong, and you've been under pressure for so long I'm amazed how you haven't crumbled." Amity felt Luz's thumbs run over the backs of her hands, and she tensed, her breath leaving her.

"But that's what's so cool. Even under pressure… you can find a diamond. And I'm so glad I could help you be that." She shifted to face Amity completely, moving her hands downwards so they were holding each other, sitting in between them. "Take your time, okay? Breathe for me. You still have to let yourself not be perfect. It's okay to stutter. You can do it." 

Her heart almost beat out of her chest, but she felt comforted. Luz really cared so much. Amity's emotions got the best of her, and she started chuckling, tears welling up while she looked down. "Luz-"

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to make you cry! I just-" she said it quickly, but quiet enough to be mildly comforting. But Amity interrupted by moving her hands to her face, sitting up to be just a bit taller than Luz, looking down with a smile and tears dotting her eyes.

"Luz, you are so unbelievably stupid." But the tone was so loving, Luz couldn't help but open her mouth to ask what she meant, but Amity moved in quickly to kiss her, and all thoughts disappeared. 

Luz's eyes closed on instinct, but her body stayed frozen, the action so unexpected. Both her and Amity could feel the others heartbeat, the intensity could kill. But their lips barely met, it was so soft…

Amity's warm, nervous hands stayed planted on Luz's cheeks, some of her fingertips curling to convey a secret message of "Please, Stay." Luz felt it, and everything clicked. All the nervous laughter, blushing, the states. The waving in the middle of class. Grom, Grudgby, the little moments of protective action she hadn't thought much about before.

But it faded away and she just smiled, pressing forward just enough, Amity pulling back right after to meet her eyes, face flushed and tears still present.

"Wow…" the human muttered, not able to quite process much other than that. Amity blushed harder, sitting back on her legs and moving her hands to rest on Luz's shoulders while a small silence grew between them.

"You… uhm… okay?" Amity managed, bubbles of regret floating up into her mind.

Luz opened and closed her mouth a few times, her face changing emotions at a strange place that Amity didn't know how to process. Eventually Luz breathed out, almost a Huff of laughter, and managed to mutter "d-define okay?"

Amity felt awful. "I'm so sorry Luz I just- Everything's been building up inside me for so long and it was just a split second instinct descision I shouldn't have done it without asking I'm so so sorry I'm so stupid-" she was gripping the girls shoulders tighter as she rambled. "-Im so bad with words I even brought a paper Incase I couldn't say it… I've liked you since… oh gosh so long- You're the one I wanted to ask to Grom, and I've been such a mess around you ever since because I've never had someone care about me like you do you're just so sweet and stupid and funny and caring and I think I fell really really hard but this was too far I'm sor-"

"Woah woah woah slow down, Amity you're gonna pass out from lack of oxygen!" Luz huffed with a smile, moving her hands onto the witch's shoulders, mirroring her grip on hers. "Amity, it's okay, breathe for me, it's okay!"

Amity wanted to dissapear, she dropped her gaze and closed her eyes, but let herself breathe, while Luz continued.

"I… I like you too. Alot. I uh… I just never imagined you'd… I mean…" Luz shrunk a bit, while amity looked up again. "I mean you're… you're Amity blight! You're amazing! You're smart, and strong, and pretty, and you're a good person… I kinda just… tried not to think about it. Cause I'm… a human? And an idiot, not technically a witch, a girl, so much below your league, y'know? I didn't want to keep dreaming and hoping." Luz gave a small smile. "I don't really… I don't know how to feel right now? My stomach is squirming. Like at Grom. But also… different?" Her face was flushing a redder tint, and small nervous chuckles escaped her mouth. "I probably sound weird."

The green haired witch smiled fondly. "I like you because you're weird. And I understand that feeling. I… I just… well now I feel so stupid." She laughed genuinely for the first time she got there. "I mean, I thought you just wouldn't like me? You're an amazing person. I've made so many mistakes? I know you've forgiven me I just- I don't know."

"We were both kinda clueless then, huh?" The human chuckled. "Wow. Just. Wow."

"Wow what?" Amity murmured, releasing one of Luz's shoulders but not willing to not be touching her somehow. "Again, I get that kiss was kinda sudden and maybe too much-"

Luz moved a hand to rub her neck. "Yeah yeah yeah that, that's exactly… uh- haha… wasn't thinking about doing it again…" the last part was so quiet Amity barely heard the first word.

"What?" She asked, confused.

She shrunk back a bit, laughing nervously. "N-nothing no just uh- uhm…" she sat up a bit again, meeting Amity's eyes and thinking about how pretty and golden they were. "I meant… I liked it… and I uh… wouldn't mind, y'know… doing it again…"

Amity blushed completely, her mind escaping her as her mouth fell open. "i-i- uh- uhm…" she eventually just squeaked and plopped her forehead onto Luz's left shoulder, trying to hide herself. "Luz-"

"Sorry…" she whispered, but smiled and wrapped her arms around Amity's shoulders to keep her close. "I just wanted to be honest."

"You're always so honest. It's the worst." But she chuckled, so Luz knew she meant it in a joking and loving way.

"Well, I don't like lying. Besides, If it gets you flustered and cute I will never stop." She laughed, rubbing the witch's back. "Take a minute, if you need. We are okay. Just breathe."

Amity was so grateful to hear that. It made her heart beat slow down and her face fade back into its normal pale color. "Thanks." She pulled back, and looked off to the side before meeting Luz's eyes again. "So… are we… uh… girlfriend's?"

"I hope so…" the human whispered, taking one of Amity's hands. "...I want to, if that's what you meant."

Amity nodded, smiling again. But it faded, as she remembered how Luz still had to go in three- well, two days now. She looked down with a sad expression. "I won't get to see you…"

"That's not entirely true!" Luz said. "I have to go home, but Eda is giving me the key so I can come back whenever. I plan on telling my mom, but I want to get settled again, y'know? I'm not leaving forever. Maybe my mom will even let me keep going to school here if I convince her! And even if not…" she cupped her new girlfriend's face to lift it up with a reassuring smile. "...Amity, I will visit. I'll come back. I promise. Infact- I would do the uh… what was it? The witches oath? I forget…" 

Amity laughed, putting a hand on top of Luz's. "I won't make you. I trust you." She smiled again. "But I wanna make the most of the next two days."

"Oh of course! We could have a book club meeting! And hangout, wherever you want. Just let me know, yeah?" Luz started to stand, helping Amity up. "Want me to walk you home? I don't mind…"

"It's late, and you'd have to walk home alone. I can get home by myself. But, thanks, Luz." She pulled her in for a hug, breathing out. All her stress and worrys were gone, for the most part anyway. She was still sad she wouldn't see the girls stupid grin everyday, but knowing Luz liked her back… knowing she'd come back, made her feel so much better. 

After a moment they seperated, and after a quick glance, Amity kissed Luz quickly, surprising her, and pulling away to walk away, glancing back with a smile and a light blush.

Luz smiled goofily and watched her go, disappear around the corner, and after a few minutes she snapped out of it and walked back to the owl house, smiling and so happy to finally have her feelings out. 

She would make sure Amity had a great time the next two days.

[ultrahamilham]

I feel so scared to message you after dissapearing for so long and I've been internally debating whether or not to message you again for days. I feel so bad for what I did- It's one of the reasons I always am so so so so hesitant to make friends. Especially with people i admire so much like you. I knew this might happen and- I feel so guilty. I've been gone for a while so I want to get a few things out of the way-

1. Merry Christmas! Even if it's belated, I was secretly watching you on here and I really really really hope you had fun.

2. When I heard you and Henni got married on her blog, I almost cried. I'm so so so happy for the both of you. Honestly, it's the sweetest thing ever, I'm so happy for the both of you.

3. Hsciygia Happy new years! It's still only a week into January, so ??? I hope you'll accept it. You have my warmest wishes. If anyone deserves a good year, it's you.

Now, for my reasons for dissapearing- it's... hard to explain. I shut down when I get overwhelmed and I don't want to overshare but a lot happened. I got covid, for starters ssfykyajfa. But no worries, I'm basically recovered at this point. I've got exams on top of that (I just gave one today) - which is... ehehehhe.

I want you to know I'm not making excuses. It's inexcusable to not talk to a friend for so long and expect them to still like you and that's... valid. I won't try to convince you otherwise. I'm just glad I talked to you at all! I mean, I'm very shy (as you can see from my name, 'shy anon' haha) and knowing that i might have made you even a little happy at some point is sooo incredible. I usually never reach out at all to people I admire. I just hope i never made you sad. And if I did, again I'm really sorry.

I love you! I love your writing! You're really really cool. I'm really hoping life is going alright for you.

-Shy anon, apologetically and with love

(There'll only be a goodbye when you want there to be! And if this is it, I will respect that. )

Oh my gosh, you have no idea how excited I was to get this! Also I cannot stress this enough, but you don’t have to feel bad! You could disappear for an entire year and I would still love you just as much as I did if you spoke to me every day. I’m an absent friend and tend to disappear if people don’t message me, so you going away for a bit isn’t actually a bother to me! I just wait for your next message and get back into it when I talk to you! I have friends I haven’t spoken to in 3 years and I will message them randomly and we reconnect so easily, so please don’t feel bad! Merry Christmas, as belated as it is! It was an okay day, a little hard since my Mom passed just 2 days before then from cancer, but that’s a story for another day. I’m getting through it with my family, and Henni has been a good supporter for me! I’m even about to get back into writing! Today is the 2 week anniversary, but I’m doing good!

I’m so happy you saw that we got married! I was so excited to talk to you about it! It still feels weird that we’re married, but it feels real now, unlike before lol

Happy new years! This year better be better than last year! I actually just got into the final stages of a job interview for a really amazing job, and that interview is tomorrow so this year is already looking up!

Oh gosh, I’m sorry you had COVID! It’s no fun at all, I can tell you that much. I’m just really glad you’re okay!

I will say this again. I would love to keep you as a friend and talk to you, even if it’s on another platform, or the way we are doing so right now. You can wait for 2 years to message me and I would be just fine with that. Again, I’m also an absent friend so it wouldn’t just be you not messaging me, it would be me not messaging you, then realizing it, feeling bad, then messaging you, then forgetting again. I’m notorious for that, and so are 99.5% of my friends, so you wouldn’t be any different! Believe me, it’s not a big deal!

I love you my dear <3 I hope you did well on your exam!!!!

[marxsthings]

Holy shit this has been awhile since I've post hahahaha, so basically I've been on hiatus like for a long time, I didn't want to write here and in Wattpad (sorry Res for that Collab book) too I did not want to write at all, its like writers block but it's never ending and I also just continued with my life. Im not really active that much too, I have like 3 drafts over when I still wrote on February or march I don't remember 😔😔 I'm so sorry <\33 I'll maybe try to write again maybe in teh future who knows sorry for disappearing for over like uh few months I'll try to come back soon, but I'm ending a new grade also a lot of tests next week so maybe in my school break. I'll see you all soon maybe unless i pull another dissapearence haha <333 (might remake my theme when I have the time) Have a good day/night mwah mwah

[dojae-huh]

Since we are going to talk abt jaehyun, I’m honestly amazed how he still has the heart eyes for Doyoung after all these years.

The 2020 ban made me realize just how “aware” and “in-tune” Jaehyun is to Doyoung even more now.

Since most of it is not edited out and he can stare (a lil bit) in peace now.

I tried to watch all members reaction to Doyoung during the last vlive one by one, and none of them (even ty) shows such fond and longing stares as Jae’s.

Doyoung also does the same, but since Doyoung is extra attentive and handsy to all members basically, it’s not as noticeable as Jaehyun’s.

You have mentioned from time and time again that Doyoung is someone that makes Jaehyun curious and excited. But I didn’t expect him to be this loyal 😂 I’m sorry Jaehyun.

You have all our blessing to take a good care of the Well Driven Bunny!

Jaehyun is that gay that makes straight guys question their sexuality. Literally. Haha.

Speaking of Taeyong. I'm glad you pointed it out. Tae is a good comparison here. As the jealous and attention seeking friend he should be the one to look at Doyoung the most (and sometimes he does), but it's "just a donsaeng" Jaehyun, who is the one who can't tear off his eyes from Bunny. Here is your difference between romantic and platonic love. Friends don't need to catch every look and every word of another, they are content with the company.

I can't say I fully understand how Jaehyun can be this in love. He doesn't look like a person for whom being in love is the meaning of life. Although I do think the state of being in love, the experience is important to him and is one of the reasons he is so whipped. He kind of dives into feelings (the way he laughs loudly, the way he is easily jealous, his ability to give it all to a new hobby/activity, his love for sports (bodily experience)). As for "after all these years". It hasn't been that long yet. Look at any happily married couple, even an elderly one, the heart eyes don't dissapear.

Ya'll understimate how hard it is for Jaehyun to really connect with someone. Fondness, appreciation and gratitude in friendship is one thing (Yuta, WinWin, Ten, Hyuk) trusting someone to the extent of being fully open and vulnerable is another. Even Doyoung, who is pretty good with socialisation, is very selective, closed off, and has hard time coming with his problem even to his bff or his brother.

And it's not me trying to hype the ship, it's the fact that Jaehyun never let go and is ready to go though a lot of troubles and hiding measures. It would be much easier to have a lover not from SM, let alone 127.

[zykjhrzqkn1h4m3xyine]

28/01/2019

I realised why I am like this, and I feel like I'm left out a lot. It's because I want be special. Like that's why it bothers me when people say that I am just a normal person and react like how anyone would react. It tells me that I'm just a sheep in the herd. I don't have anything special about me. I'm just normal. That's why I feel jealous a lot, it's like I'm not special to them. I just wish I was though. I wish I was different and special. But that's impossible. Because I will never be special. It's impossible for me to be. People like Ameera and Gabby, they don't have to try and everyone treats them so special. I wish I had that, I'm more of a wallflower though I guess. I guess I should own that huh? :/ I know what clique I am in a highschool movie now haha. I'm just a wallflower.

I found a PDF of perks of being a wallflower and I am reading it right now. I hope it's one of those books that gets me right in the feels and I can proudly say that this helped me overcome my need of being special.

I realised it's maybe it's not "being special" it's my need to be better than others. I remember the first moment of this I felt as a kid. I met someone who was younger than me when I was around five and in my head I said "How dare you be younger than me." And I know that's totally irrational, I'm just relaying what I remember.

I also don't like it when I'm telling people about my problems and they are like "me too"

Aw man now I'm crying at 2 in the morning. Thinking about my dad on the way back home and how sad he said that he only had one friend in school. He also apologised a lot when I told him that the reason I would only talk to the therapist about my issues with GAE, was because when I talked about it to him, he said that it's just normal. My family has gone through a lot of emotional trauma. I just wish they were happy.

I would be so happy if I invited someone to the movies and then everytime we go to the movies I always pay but one day they pull me aside and say "I know that your family doesn't have a lot of money, so you don't have to pay for my ticket this time." Because whenever I was desperate for Gabby and I to go hang out, she always told me to pay. But this is just my weird fantasy sorry.

I want to stop being so god damn sensitive. I don't have an excuse to be so sensitive, it's not like I have depression or anything, so why am I like this?! I'm so useless and pathetic, Ema said so herself ( the pathetic part, not the useless part) she also said that I'm really judgemental which is true. I don't know why I'm upset by that, because she's just telling me the truth, I should just accept it.

Another memory that makes me pissed of at Ema is that I sent a picture on words to use in a essay instead of because and happy, like simple words Y'know? And she said that these were pretentious and made fun of them. It's not like she was attacking me, it's just that I thought it would be helpful and she reacted really negatively. I wonder if she had a bad day on that day.

On page 14, it says that two characters, Sam and Patrick, they were really nice to Michael and didn't throw in any inside jokes, so he could actually keep up. How nice that would be, like you would actually feel included in the conversation wouldn't you lol. I wish GAE did that.

I don't really feel comfortable with the idea of my parents hugging me. My dad hugged me today, but it just was like eh. Even thought that was the first hug I've gotten in a month. The last one before that was Gabby on the last day of school.

There's a very famous quote from the perks of being a wallflower, it's "we accept the love we think we deserve." So how much love do I think I deserve unconsciously. Well I accept the love from my dad, so I guess I think I deserved to be loved by my dad. I haven't been given love by anyone else recently. I'm thinking back to when I told both Gabby and Ameera the same thing about how I felt just to compare their separate reactions. I told them that what they said really helped me a lot, but that was really just a lie. Oh something that Gabby did differently to Ameera was, Ameera said that I should just tell them whenever I didn't feel included. I told that I would do that to Gabby and she said "You shouldn't need to not feel included." And that really moved me. I was actually happy to go to school that day. And since I spoke to them both, I could tell that they both put in extra effort to include me. That hour that it lasted felt nice.

I'm going to try and sleep again. I'm up to page 18. It's a sweet story but not very relatable.

Oh another thing the therapist said that bothers me now, she said that GAE's actions were quite bitchy, but I don't think that's correct. They're broken people, and saying that their actions were bitchy sounds like they're doing it for no reason. In the moment it was quite agreeable, because I was mad at them, but they have it worse than me.

I woke up at 11 today. That's really bad. I start school in like two days

What the hell, this morning I woke up and my double eyelid dissapeared. What, at least now my eyes are even, but they both look smaller.

My mom is so mean, she said my nose looks like a pigs nose. I guess she's right though.

I watched Leon: the protector. And I just felt so bad for Leon in the end. He was so close to reaching the end. He was so close to living a life him and his friend, Mathilda. That was a good movie, the cinematography was amazing, it really knew how to do symbolism, like the end of the hallway was really bright. That was a good movie. Mathilda's fashion was really good, I might need to take some notes from her.

I can make the last one.

I was just thinking about me and Mac in a romantic sense. Honestly I have really mixed feelings about it, on one side, it's like "I wouldn't mind." He's a nice and smart guy, we have a lot in common, he has good taste in music and anime. He's heading to a good place in life. But on the second hand, I'm really against it, he's too far away, and high school relationships don't last, less so a long distance one. I think the "I wouldn't mind side." Is my heart and the "No way." Side is my head because I catch myself thinking about "I wouldn't mind." And think that I shouldn't think like that. He might leave discord too.

I want to be a pretty so my partner's friends will be impressed that they landed someone that's really attractive, I just want them to be proud of me.

Sometimes I wish that like deep down, I didn't tell my therapist enough about everything and only focused on GAE and that's why she says I'm not depressed. But that's probably not how it is.

It's much harder to tell the truth on here, knowing that my therapist will probably read this.

[mistressemmedi]

May, what products are you currently using for facial care? I'm really looking to expand my arsenal of skincare products! Right now, I'm using an activated charcoal mask, an alcohol-free toner, and a clarisonic face cleansing device.

Waddup sunshine, I’ll put this under the cut because the list is loooooong

(Disclaimer, what works for me may not necessarily work for you)

Alright, I’ve got an AM/PM care. Usually in the morning my routine is a lot quicker since I tend to always run late everywhere.

I’ll make a list of all the products that I use interchangeably and I’ll write a lil bit about them, hopefully this helps

Cleansers

I go for cleansers that are slightly acidic and thus are similar to the natural’s skin’s PH which is around 5-5.5 or so. By doing so, I don’t “strip” the skin of it’s natural skin barrier.

KOSE Softy Mo Facial Cleansing Oil Speedy(x) - I use this in the evening. It’s an oil that I slap on my face and let it sit, before I massage it in and wash away. It leaves my skin really soft, doesn’t tug and takes away the most stubborn waterproof mascara. A little goes a long way. (PM)

Tea Tree Skin Clearing Facial Wash by the Body Shop(x) - This I use when I have breakouts on my skin (which lately has decreased dramatically, so I don’t use it often). I will work some between my hands and make it into a foam, which I’ll gently glide over my skin (NO RUBBING OR TUGGING!) (AM/PM)

Micellar Cleansing Waterby SkinLab (x) - I use this in the morning, right when I wake up. Dab some on a cotton pad, pass it on the face to take away any sweat, grime or residue from the night before (AM)

Actives

Some of the most common actives are chemical exfoliants such as BHA (Beta Hydroxy Acid) and AHA (Alpha Hydroxy Acid) which help remove dead skin to stimulate skin renewal. Common AHAs include glycolic acid, lactic acid and mandelic acid. BHAs, on the other hand, are anti-inflammatory and used in the prevention and treatment of acne, and thus can sometimes cause dryness and irritation for those with sensitive or dehydrated skin.

It may sound scary, but most “chemical exoliants” are found in things such as yogurt (lactic acid). But because they exfoliate the skin, they will make it more sensitive to sun. SO USE A DAMN SUNSCREEN OR I’LL BEAT YOUR ASS.

Anyways here’s the ones I use

Vitamic C serum - you can find these practically anywhere. Helps with scarring, esp with acne scars. I use a couple drops every evening (PM)

Cosrx Bha Blackhead Power Liquid (x) - I have pores the size of Russia. This has been helping them from making them massive tiny black dots. I use this only twice a week, otherwise my skin will dry out like cray cray (PM)

Cosrx AHA 7 Whitehead Power Liquid (x) - FAM, YOU USE THIS ON A WITEHEAD, AND IT FLATTENS OVERNIGHT I KID YOU NOT. I use this as a spot treatment anytime I need help with bringing down an inflamed pimple (those angry, red, nasty ones) and twice a week on my whole face to keep everything under control (PM)

Toners

CLINIQUE Clarifying Lotion 1(x) - It helps with the appearance of pores. It also has witch hazel with helps whenever you have a dry irritated face. (AM/PM)

Cosrx Aha/bha Clarifying Treatment Toner(x) - I use this before I slap on any BHA/AHA active. (PM)

Moisturize

Mizon Snail Recovery Gel Cream (x) - I love love LOVE this. A little goes a long way to moisturize your skin. It’s jelly like, but it literally glides on your skin, so I use a penny sized amount for the whole face. (AM/PM)

Rosehip oil - can find this at any drug store. Make sure that it is organic and cold pressed. I pat that in on my eyelids and around the eyes as well (does wonders for your eyelashes!) (AM/PM)

Overnight cream

Cosrx Ultimate Moisturizing Honey Overnight Mask(x) - I’ve been using this for the past few days AND IT’S AWESOME. It’s literally all honey and smells delicious. It leaves your skin so soft, it’s crazy. I just wipe any residue left with micellar water in the morning. I love it. And you need so little of it! (PM)

Goat’s Milk Night Cream - Face Cream(x) - I got this for like 4 dollars at some shady polish shop and OH MY GOD, IT HAS SAVED MY POOR SKIN. I NO LONGER HAVE FLAKES BECAUSE OF IT. I am literally going to buy 5 more if I ever go back to that store, I love it THAT much. My skin is severely dehydrated, and this has been a godsend. (AM/PM/In between/With breakfast/Honestly all the time)

Mix and match

For my eyes, I have the same Mizon Snail product in a thicker cream. It helps immensely, especially since I work in a really dehydrated environment and I rub at my eyes due to wearing glasses.

Pimples - wanna make a massive pimple dissapear overnight? Or at least flatten it so you can use concealer? Hydro-colloid patches aka blister bandaids. They are usually medicated with antibiotics that will help with not making them infected. Slap one on (I cut them to fit) on the pimple, remove in the morning. You’ll see the white shit attached to it. It’s disgusting (yet oddly satisfying?)

Sheet masks - all of them haha!

Sunscreen

Avene High Protection Mineral Cream SPF50+- It’s odd, I’m allergic to mineral oils but this and the Speedy cleanser do not seem to affect me. Phenomenal sunscreen, I use it as a primer. The only downside is that it leaves a white cast (which is fine for me because I am pale as fuck but some people may find that not so pleasant)

So these are the products that I use. My skin is dehydrated/combo. You can’t expect one item to address just one issue, that’s why I have so many. My main concern was dehydration of the skin, so a lot of moisturizing products. Once I fixed that, the inflammation of my skin started to subside. I still had pimples and acne issues, particularly cystic acne, so I used products to address that and has been helping immensely.

My suggestion to you? Research, research, research. Find products that may help you and your concerns. In the past three months, my skin has improved to the point that I am confident enough to go out without make up on some days.

I’m still looking for a lotion with a good amount of hyaluronic acid. I’m seeing a lot of hype over Hada Labo, so that may be my next purchase.

Also I need to find something for my cracked, bleeding lips. No success so far.

Anyways, sorry for the long post! I hope this helps :) I linked places where you can buy them or at least read more about the product mentioned.

Any questions? Just ask.