#I'm proud of 15yo me

[r473n]

Man, what an intense few weeks!

I've not been drawing much, nor writing, even tho I have a ton of half finished projects. I'm hoping I'll be able to post a few drawings soon once my brain stops screaming.

Looking through old drawings searching for inspiration I found "Disappointed-in-you demon". It didn't make me draw. But it's judgemental stare gave me the push to finally come out as trans nb to my partner and ask my GP to refer me to my local GIC. So that's something.

My partner is spiraling. The waiting list is about 5 years.

But, hey, the first episode of Bleach was dope af. And more Mayuri was promised in the OP.

It's the little things.

[feytouched]

ran into three old highschool classmates while grocery shopping. there it is again that funny feeling

[soracities]

15yo anon here, no longer fifteen no longer anonymous

I turn eighteen tomorrow. And I want to thank you again, because when I look back at my life I remember that being a dark period for which you made better.

i hope this isn't coming too late bc you have the same birthday as one of my dearest friends and truly from the bottom of my heart i'm so proud of you for pushing through so much and so deliriously happy that you are where you are now like i do not have words!!!!!! always warms my heart endless when you send me your updates and i'm wishing the most most most most beautiful and happiest birthday to you kiddo, now and forever!!! i hope so much that whatever this day held for you, it was warm and kind and full of promise just as you deserve and i hope the year ahead of you holds an infinite array of pockets to shelter in and grow through and discover so much more about yourself than you have already. already cannot wait for who you will be in a year 💗 who you are now is already (and always has been) a marvel and a treasure 💓💓💓💓💓

[bheska]

Last week there was a (dumb) discourse on xwitter about Percy's appearence on the tv show. And it makes me mad that there are people hating on the kids actors and being general assholes for all the obvious reasons, but also because it makes it impossible to criticize the show without someone either a) putting you on the same level as these losers or b) agreeing with you but in the wrong way (the forementioned assholes)

But then people defend the cast by making posts like "Walker makes so much sense as Percy, actually, because *checks notes* surfer stereotypes and ocean is blue, Percy should've been blond, blue-eyed boy all along uwu." Which is harmless, I guess, and no sane person should take this as bait to hate on a 15yo boy who's just doing his job, but really? I thought the point was that he embodies the character regardless of what he looks like and thats what matters.

And look, Rick is full of shit, but I believe that these actors were chosen because they really were the best of the bunch. And I can see that, okay? I do. I've watched interviews, how they talk about the books and their characters, I've seen videos and compilations and edits of how they interact. And until the season 1 aired, I believed we were getting a great adaptation. Made me more sad than angry that we got a boring one instead.

So when I say that show!Percy has his personality watered down to maybe 30%, I'm not criticizing Walker. When I say that show!Grover was reduced to a babysitter, that his guilt over Thalia, his goal of finding Pan, and his love for the nature did not translate well I'm not criticizing Aryan. And when I say show!Annabeth was greatly reduced from this lovely gremlin who is emotional, proud, kind, smart and fiercely loving to the Stoic Smart Girl™ and the only emotion she was allowed to show was annoyance and distress, I'm not criticizing Leah. I'm criticizing the writing. Because the show has problems beyond the characters, it has pacing issues, lighting issues, editing issues.

And there is still time to make it good. I have hope for season 2, maybe the writers will listen to criticism, maybe they found their footing, maybe the episodes will be a little longer and we'll have time for suspense and action and funny moments before uncerimoniously cutting to black. Just don't make me settle for a mediocre show when we all know they have all the tools to make it great

[jewishicequeen]

There's not enough animusicals content around

#animusicals

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I love seeing different languages on my dash! Reblog in your native language!

בוקר טוב!

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おはよう！

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доброе утро, мои подданные

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Good morning!

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G-d fucking damnit Adam, we're just trying to be nice?

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Oh my god you killed him

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What the fuck??? @soheresthedeal is this binary?

#that's my best guess but i don't speak computer

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AITA for wanting to lose?

My(m, 15yo) school's super compatitive and I don't like being in the spotlight. My friend(f, 15yo) and I decided to open a new club in a sport nobody would take seriously but we miscalculated and now we have to join the tournament. Non of us wanted the attention and we collectively decided to throw the matches delibarately but two of our members messed up and won and now it's my turn and they want me to win too?? This is not what we agreed on, and I told them that, but things got heated and I ended up hurting some of them. My match is like in ten minutes and IDK what to do. Should I try to win? My opponent's really good, I don't think I have a chance.

So, am I the asshole?

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Jun this was 4 years ago can you stop bringing this back?

😴brightboldandtakingthegold

never

#lol eiji you were so fucking stupid #google the sport before you open a club

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I'm late I'm late I'm late!!!

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No one's here??

#lecture started 5 minutes ago?? #it's only me and the professor

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I want what they have

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I can stab you...°☆°☆°

#otp #i've been watching you two flirt since highschool just kiss already

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We need to talk about the word demonization. It's frankly offensive. As a proud demon I refuse to use it. Find a substitution, humans.

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Oh my gods can you. Shut up. So tired of the demon humanisation efforts. You people are pathetic. Get some guts.

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???

Do you like being reduced to a role of violence and harm?? Humans don't believe we have feelings and demons like you are part of the problem.

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I know you have feeling, Esti!

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Lol you have minors following you? No point talking, you're literally just trying to assimilate. What a disgrace.

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Noooooo I accidentally hit scissors, why does this keep happening😭

#just like in high school #jankenpon

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So... you come here often?

[tharkflark1]

There's one thing about riku that still irks me despite my major love for him

The sheer amount of Insecurity he had and maleficent's manipulation back in kh1 made him hurt sora

Sora his best friend that has been with him for as long as he could remember, Sora the boy he knew like the back of his hand, sora the person he (most definitely) have the crown necklace to

I understand he was stressed and like going through it but like

14 year old Riku what was going on in your home life pre-destiny island falling into darkness that made you push away your best friend and leave him alone like

The boy who he has been best friends with since they were in diapers and is the walking incarnation of a puppy and you just leave him

I know riku has improved a lot since then and I'm really proud of how far he's come but like

This is something that I will never let go and may be one of the many factors to Sora's separation anxiety

In other words

Fuck Maleficent she sucks ass

I do absolutely think that this reasoning kh1 Riku had will be brought back up! Cuz ur right: it’s strange we never truly addressed Riku’s fear of abandonment when it came to Sora leaving him.

Jealousy is part of the issue but the core of it was Riku couldn’t understand why he wanted to be better than Sora. Yes jealousy played a part in it, but before Sora got the keyblade, Riku was better than Sora at a lot of things! and then when Sora was doing other stuff, Riku was angry that Sora was doing it without him!

I do think Tenelle’s video on Riku explains it MUCH better than I could here. And I do believe we will get to the crux of it eventually after all these years

Especially since Riku stated he stills feels the same way he did as a 15yo in kh3 while talking with Anti Aqua

[trickscourse]

I'm not answering this anon with the ask attached because it has sensitive information about the person in question, and I don't want to doxx anyone. I don't talk to anyone who's abused anyone else, I don't enable people stalking Miles and Ambrose and I've gone out of my way to block them when they've reached out, which has been at least a dozen people.

An important thing is that I DON'T want to be a creepy cyberstalker, which is why I'm rarely on here and spending my time at my job, with my kid or actively in physical + emotional therapy. I'm not going to mention the fact I moved three times, soon to be a fourth because I am sick of being harassed and don't feel safe. This also means switching multiple jobs and throwing escaping my abusive stalker to a screeching halt.

The little "gotcha" about parafiles was stupid;- I haven't stopped covering and reporting Ezra, I just don't post about it because both sides want me dead! But I agree Ambrose saying the pediverse team is "doing fine without me" is just him being petty. I don't want to be part of a club, I want Ezra behind bars or in the electric chair.

His little quip about wanting me to end up like the lolcows he obsesses over and not doing it when "they're better than that", they're not, is disgusting. I'm not talking about my obsessive stalker because we agreed to mutually shut up until one of its victims mediates a conversation, but I can say parafiles will do anything to someone they don't like or see as a predator, the truth existing or not.

I haven't spoken to Ambrose directly in a few months, and I'm willing to talk again if I can get my meds and hope to god that Mage doesn't front and escalate things and make them a lot worse like she did before. The situation was bad, we were both hot headed and Mage was having a power trip, including laughing at his distress about the situation. That was fucked beyond belief.

This shouldn't have to be said, and I feel bad posting about him to begin with, and I've seen his weird essay that's most likely one of his ~tantrums~ but it wasn't okay for him to lie about my dog, mock my CSA trauma and issues that stemmed from it and generally do his weird Ambrose thing where he is insistent on hoping people get worse when months ago he said he could see us getting better.

Times have changed, definitely, but it sucks seeing him get REALLY excited at the idea that I'm in a few abusive relationships and that's apparently "all I deserve" and being /really/ classist about my and Arty's living situations.

Anon referenced the stalking, yeah, it's creepy as hell knowing that they spend their time in the water shoveling group chat, named after the time I got stuck with a natural disaster at my old job and was surrounded in live electric water and couldnt move and needed to move it away from shit that could make mustard gas, and getting off to me being a cringy high schooler.

My Youtube is basically a space where I dump most of the videos on my phone and fuck off for the day. I think if someone wants to hold a video of me crawling up my basement stairs at 18, or making pizza rolls at 11, they should straighten their priorities.

I'm aware most of his little crew wants me to kill myself, and I'm sure more people do based on seeing tags of the callout and getting screenshots from different people.

I'm annoyed that he wants my abuse to continue and is tossing the racism card in the ring when I don't hate mixed people and don't know where he got that from outside of commenting on a post where someone stepped over the line and made some comment about his dad I wasn't okay with and the fact he holds my CSA and grooming shit against my head and is WAY too proud of it.

Like most abuse victims, I don't like talking about how I was groomed, who did it, and exactly what happened, but the vomit thing isn't something I liked or enjoyed as a 15yo and it's a forced pavlov response at best. I don't owe anyone an explanation, but I will say the woman who groomed me into it loved that and DDLG.

Ambrose and his friends don't care about boundaries unless it's theirs, ranging from me begging them to stop contacting my previous and current employers (which at least one of them has) and saying things along the lines of "Did you know your employees has a callout post on tumblr? They're a pedophile. Fire them." and my bosses either don't care or are too old to understand what those words mean, and I shouldn't have to say that's creepy, but it is. (((:

[aihoshiino]

If you don't mind sharing, where do you write Ai? 👀 Would love to read your works for her considering how well you understand her character! 💜 Will also admit that the X-over ship has me curious LOL /pos

anon, if you're still out there. i'm so sorry this one took me like two months to answer LKFJSJDSJSKSSKS

ANYWAY!!! Because I got this ask and your ask back to back, I have a big ramble up there about my crosscanon Ai ships…! As for my Ai writing specifically tho, I don't currently have any fanfics or anything up but I do have a couple projects I'm pecking at and I'm determined to finish and post at least one of them!!! As for RP, I don't mind sharing some of the stuff I've written for that in theory, but a lot of it obviously relies on bouncing back and forth with another person and I don't know how how much sense it would make without it but I would also feel weird sharing other people's writing without their permission…

So I dug around a bit and found some stuff I think works fine on its own! This is stuff where the context is easy enough to figure out on its own or I can easily explain it.

^ These ones are from 14~15yo Ai in the immediate aftermath of getting rejected by her birth family....... baby girl.......

^ These two are from the P5 AU... getting to amp up the skeeziness of the stuff Ai deals with as an idol to slot better in with P5 tone wise was interesting.

These ones below come with some CWs for blood and death as is canon typical..... for Ai......

Those last three are from an RP setting where characters basically get isekaied to have their wishes granted and I took Ai from the moment of her death because I am a demon <3

I'm still especially proud of that last one because I wrote it like a solid 2 to 3 months before 137 dropped and was like 'prey animal ai is canon btw'. i truly do not miss.

I think that's everything I can find off the top of my head you don't need a whole primer of context for... I hope to get an actual fic up for people to read soon, tho!

[missingn000]

i love this story so much! not only the characters and their dynamics but also the plot itself. truthfully i find it more entertaining than what’s going on the in the manga right now! my favorite difference is what you did to kenjaku. him possessing rikos body is an insane plot point especially cause she’s connected to so many characters.

so i have four questions:

1.) yuuta hasn’t met gojo yet and he’s only met toji once in a hostile environment. from the story he knows his sisters hate toji and he thinks getou hates him. and he heard getou say satoru’s father is a monster. is there gonna be beef between yuuta and toji?

if so, it’ll be really cool to see toji beefjng with someone who not only matches his power but isn’t really an evil person.

2.) toji doesn’t know what he did in the past but he lectures getou on being a murderer and judges sukuna for being one too. will there be some type of connection between these three and their shared sins?

3.) gojo sees toji as his father and after all he’s been through he deserves one. but i was wondering if it’ll put a strain on his relationship with megumi and even tsumiki once the truth comes out? even if he’s getting the love he deserves he’s technically hiding megumi’s dad from him. especially after the conversation where he said he loved his dad when he knew him in chapter 42.

4.) a lot less in depth then the last few questions, what does sukuna look like in yuujis head? does he look like kid yuuji with the sukuna markings or does he look older?

if these questions contain too much spoilers it’s okay not to answer. i love this story so much that i just had to let me curiosity out!😭

hi, and sorry for my super late reply to this message!! it makes me so happy to know you're enjoying the story <33 i'm honestly really proud of tpg kenjaku's motivations and plans, and it's so validating to hear you like the changes i made too. happy to answer these questions!

1 -- i won't get too into yuuta meeting gojo since that's about to happen in 44, so stay tuned :) as for toji, yuuta has met toji a few times, but doesn't know much -- though he may not be overtly hostile atm, once he finds out the full extent of what toji did to getou and everything that happened.....there may be......beef.

you put it well: "it’ll be really cool to see toji beefjng with someone who not only matches his power but isn’t really an evil person." haha yeah that would be an insane fight huh (<-nervous sweating)

2 -- there will indeed be connections between toji, getou, and sukuna once toji recalls his past! you know how much i love connections lol. ohhh those scenes make me insane

3 -- this one i can't get into much, since toji-megumi reveal is something i'm really tight-lipped about, but it's safe to assume the realization and its effects will cause strong emotions from most of the characters in the story

4 -- i sometimes imagine tpg sukuna to look like anime sukuna in yuuji's head (15yo yuuji) but in actuality, he is indeed 10yo kid yuuji with sukuna markings xD i just have a hard time picturing it

thank you so much for the message!!! <333

[picnokinesis]

WIP ask game: 5, 9 & 10 for the ziptie or anterograde aus?

Also, I binged your zombie au a few days, and much like w/ the campervan au I was so impressed about how you incorporated the show’s dialogue, especially in regards to the climactic meeting between Theo and Koschei. Also also, I was so excited when Jericho showed up - what a tenseful way to introduce him to the reader, too. If you’re comfortable w/ answering: 1 and 2 for this au?

Ahh hello! :D Thanks for the ask - and ahhh I'm so glad that you enjoyed zombie au!! It's one that I'm actually pretty proud of, I have a massive soft spot for it. One of my favourite things to do with aus is take lines/ideas from the original content and weave them into the new story - I mean, you've seen that in campervan au, but for me one of the most interesting things about writing zombie au was taking lines that I'd also used in campervan and putting them in a new context and shedding a different light on them, but also taking lines and ideas that I haven't even touched in campervan and exploring them here instead! And augh, man, I'm still SO proud of that part where Theo finds Koschei in the corridor during the attack - everything just came together, and I could just see it in my brain but I feel like I actually managed to get what I could see onto the paper in a way that really captured it. I'm so happy that you enjoyed it!!

But hmmmmm let me see...I'm gonna put this under the cut because it's long, but:

5 - What has been your biggest struggle with your wip?

Oooh this is kind of tricky. I think one of the biggest problems with both of anterograde and ziptie is that they're so interlinked with the main au - I can't really write them or post them until I've finished the entirety of campervan. Anterograde is also quite large and nebulous - it spans over several years after the initial train crash, and so I'd really have to figure out how to structure it if I wanted to do it properly. It's much more 'slice of life' than the other ones, which are much more plot driven. The other problem with both of them is just sitting down and writing them, yknow? They're both BIG stories! Ziptie in particular also has a lot of logistics going on that I'd need to actual sit down and figure out if I wanted to write it properly, but at the moment the main draw is thoschei being feral

9 - What aspects (tropes, maybe?) of your wip do you think will draw people in?

With anterograde au - I feel like it's the slower, domestic version of the main au, but with bucketloads of angst to make up for the general softness. I think it's also just the premise of it too? Like memory and identity are SUCH interesting themes to me (see: I write about them all the time), but I think holding up campervan and anterograde next to each other is what makes them both so fascinating because in one you've got the Doctor with retrograde amnesia, cut off from her past but still ending up defined by it; with anterograde, the ONLY THING SHE HAS is her past, and everything else is thrown into confusion and uncertainty. And then, you've got Koschei, who is suddenly having to deal with a very different situation to the one he was originally envisioning for himself (and for the Doctor) and it's just......really cool to see how the same characters, with the same backstory, end up in completely different places (emotionally and literally) because of the Doctor's brain injury being different depending on the verse. Also just the inherent....trust that comes with them living together and Koschei fundamentally ending up as the Doctor's carer. And not just the trust between the pair of them, but also with other people too (like Graham and Grace, Jack, etc.). I think anterograde reaaaally makes it clear that Koschei is, at heart, still the terrified 15yo that he was in 1999, and that he's never had anyone to actually help him. Anterograde kind of gives Kosch this chance to actually have a support network and help himself, which does allow him to heal (to some degree) from a lot of his stuff. The inherent tragedy here is that the Doctor, on the other hand, has suddenly lost her sense of time and so can't tangibly heal in the same way, because she can't remember it. However, there is a lot of healing going on under the surface - which is takes a while for both of them to notice and understand, but it is definitely there.

With ziptie - I think the premise of 'spydoc ziptied together' is the main draw HAHAHAHA but serious answer, ziptie spydoc are just...so painfully co-dependent in the worst way ever. And they hate it! Because they get thrown into this working AGAINST each other, and then are suddenly in a truly awful situation for weeks where they're suddenly the only person that the other can trust. And then by the time they get out of that, everything is worse and they're also messing with each other's heads in a very literal way (because in ziptie, they both have the kasaavin on their necks and can't get them off) and it causes a lot of interesting issues.

10 - What are your hopes for your wip?

This is interesting, because I have thought a lot about this - because, truth be told, I'm almost certain that anterograde and ziptie and the other aus will never be written in full. However, when (and it IS a when, I am determined) campervan is finished and fully posted, there's a reasonable chance that I'll post some excerpts from the other aus, if people are interested! It might also be fun to like, write an explanation or summary of the au? Or maybe make a video or something explaining everything? That would probably take ages to make but I feel like that would be the best format. I would definitely like to share them somehow, someday, because they offer such an interesting insight into each other.

And then - for zombie au!!

1 - What was the first part of your wip that you created?

I'm genuinely not sure with this one!! I'm pretty sure I just opened a document and started writing haha! I feel like that's right - the opening of zombie is very much just me going 'uhhhhhhHHHH LET'S JUST START IN A RANDOM PLACE' ahahaha, you can kind of tell that I just threw Theo into the set and told her to improvise. Which, to be clear, is something I do WAY too much. Even when I plan fics, I have no idea what's going on, so I have a tendency to just coast on vibes and see what happens as the story unfolds. Especially when I'm starting a story. Usually by a few chapters in, I've started to get a sense of things.

2 - If your story was a TV show, what would the theme song/intro be?

Hahah well the fic title is take from a song off the album Future Dust by The Amazons, so no one is surprised that I would probably pick a song by that band. Either In My Mind or Mother. As a fun sidenote though, the theme song for Theo and Koschei before Gallex gets released is Junk Food Forever.

THANKS FOR THE ASK!! <3

[spacebuck]

11 and 19 ❤️

11. Do you believe in the old advice to “kill your darlings?” Are you a ruthless darling assassin? What happens to the darlings you murder? Do you have a darling graveyard? Do you grieve?

I do not, i simply refuse. all of my darling are safe and well and my works were 3x longer than they needed to be but i never care. of the gods wanted me to be brief they wouldn't have given me this brain dfghjk

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

ohhhhhh good god. i think i wrote my first ever fiction thing for a creative writing homework in either my first or second year of high school. it could probably be classified as fanfiction. It was from the eyes of one of the assassins creed characters. a couple of years later i was wrist deep in tumblr fandoms and writing crossover fanfic for marvel and supernatural which, frankly, wasn't very good but no one expects genius work from a 15yo. I got really into ask-box fic drabbles while i was in university, usually stevebucky, and wrote the first few fics that i can look back and not cringe about around that time, as i'd honed my ability a bit more and it wasn't just raw words.

the biggest bump was probably the time that me and my work were targeted by a/ntis, where i was tailed across blogs and was genuinely afraid to publish or even write anything because they were always there, even months after it first happened. I definitely hung up my writing gloves for a bit there, focused on my spiralling mental health (it's not fixed even now but i could probably qualify it as 'stable yet bad'), then came back with a vengeance. my writing really matured over that time and i don't know if it was the trauma of that event, because it frankly was traumatic, or if i'd just grown up a bit, but the tone of my writing developed a lot, and i really fell into the writing that i'm really proud of. things like howitzer came out of that, bad moon rising, some of my really ambitious worldbuilding.

my writing fanfic has definitely waned with my growing frustration with m/arvel, and after endgame happened i gave up on anything the mouse had touched. i do have a couple of things i've been working on that i need to finish and post, but i've also been working on an original novel that's sitting around 80-90k right now, probably half-finished? i don't know if it's any good, but i'm having fun with it and that's what matters the most i think.

as i've dabbled in new fandoms to fill the void of my m/arvel hyperfixation i'll probably return to fanfic for those, as i've managed to become a fan of some of the uhhhh smaller ships of those ips, but i'd like to think that that and finishing/publishing my own novel are in the somewhat near future for me.

[luminary-sunflower]

No I'm genuinely very proud of my 15yo self and I'm living in a way my 30yo self would be proud of me also I believe. There's no room for shaming my inner child that is also still me.

[crowleys-hips]

22, 24, 27

(i swear i wasn't ignoring these i've just been busy on a trip)

22. say 3 things about someone you love

she looked like a bloated tomato when she was born

she is far stronger than i'll ever be. i don't mean that she's buffer than me tho lmao she wishes

i hope she grows up happy and never has to go through any horrible pain

(i don't have kids and never will lmao i'm talking about my 15yo niece)

24. what's one thing you're proud of yourself for?

i can do these weird things with my tongue

27. any nicknames?

nope. used to be ghost but i got sick of it

ask game

[nityarawal]

Sent To Space X Sisters, Investigators & Bffs/Legal x Elon Rewind AI Team Globally:

#wife jaima Tumblr posts - Tumbig.com

https://www.tumbig.com/tag/wife%20jaima

Jma "tumbler wife" is Trolling me for a wife above. 

Jaima Stephenson's email & phone number - Facilities Manager at SpaceX | SignalHire

https://www.signalhire.com/profiles/jaima-stephenson%27s-email/118927601

I'm seeing Jaima's alias is Tracy Thomas when I google her. I wonder if she's still there?

Alive? 

The top picture is Jma (Born in '73) but the one under her is her baby sister Shawna Stephenson listed as Jaima as well at Linked In. (Born 1975.)

It appears there is a mash up of identity at Space x of sisters like for disposable PDs?

Rock stars uses in Army/militia/court bribes too.

Secret service.

Jai Ma Bond went so Bad!):

They're scared they'll go to jail with him now.

Including my 'ol dad & bro/Sunil/cousins etc.

Is your bro involved via Dojo creeps & daytraders on Doje con?

Many of these men are run like cyborgs by their creepy atty wives!

Movement men married celebrity hungry washed out Eastern Euro mainstream peeps.

This is issue.

They Troll and offer nothing back creatively.

Helene told me she met Tony Nader's shot-gun wife from a cruise at hair salon.

She said the woman grilled her about Hollywood connections from when she was a caterer for 3 hours!

Both Stephenson Gals were headhunted to broad.com and Jma became a #Trump fanatic in 2016 too.

She recruited us to Space X! F.

Her brother Clinton bought our house & is a famous day trader too.

They're all worked to death- like Musk family- from children.

Jma had to grow up at 12 and be a dog trainer.

She was a hairdresser on side.

She's Jack of all trades workaholic- Intel likely?

Sad my own friends fucked over my family.

I called Becky Stewart Of Leucadia Acupuncture- who went with me on spacex tour yesterday.

Left message at Leucadia acupuncture- her business.

Fingers crossed! 

I wonder if Shawna stole Jaima's identity? Jma said she was dying basically- and moving to Shawna's in AZ in 2020- then ghosted me. Haydn said I could only talk to her & Wally in cage. He was mad friends' found me. It was an Airforce project what they did to use my data. Creepy as fuck. I'm not a cyborg nor do I want to be one. Gross. 

Clinton is famous for "Tennis Guru" book too. He bought our Fairfield, Iowa 203 West Stone St house with a NY actress Sandra. Then broke up so she kept it a few years. "Kelsey" built big Broadway style center there she used. 

Dr. Jma appears to be the gender specialist - spin Dr.- that fucked up our country and pimped my brother's & tech colleagues on match.com scam with bro Adam steck & goddaughter Ayni Raimondi.

Our friends appear to be in conservatorships because none of them are this creepy.

I can guaranty that.

Adam & Mona Steck haven't called back. Do you want to try him?

I'm worried about him.

It's our friends' kids that are running con- like juvenile Dojo Bernards.

Phil Town's daughter Daniel went into Intel spy stuff too.

Martinez Gals were pimped out by gay step-dad Judge and atty at 15yo! 

Alex's sister Daniel- my twin- seduced Oleg after me! 

Could you send me the Alex diaries back? It's in your email! 

We need to warn our sons' of this nanny scam on leaders.

I was proud of Josh Podoll for standing up to her when she let her skirt rise and tried to seduce him.

Chad Emerson said it was hard when he was dating me & she unbuttoned her blouse too low.

It's disrespectful.

I think he went into Intel too.

All these childhood trolls found me on FB when they were contracted as political hookers for Trump.

My x was swayed too by capiralistic Rewind/Lakshmi gay contracts & became Trump meme cheerleader.

It appears they stole Elon Musk identity with "Wild Elon," Grimes, God scam now. God help us. Xo

AI? Jma wasn't like this.

It's hard to know. No one is whom they seem. Even my husband, bro & dad from Army chains-  but Isha should have choice.

I wonder how many bfs your mom has had trying to survive?

Bro just pimps her from man to man? Capitalistic sex slavery. ):

I think my best vibe is what she once had.

Try to bring that back.

Energise mom.

No mom should be sacrificed like this. She's Grammy. Xo

This is touchy w/ Jma & Ayni. I'm worried about all my friends. They weren't bad people. I feel they were forced into these capitalistic Jihad crimes.

Haydn doesn't complain about servicing transvestites at astronomy department or their disease and the sexual advances from Israelis & tech ballerinas.

He's very generous about the Apple rapes of his time & data that must've started at 13yo.

Did bro's friends ever flush a Geeks head down the Toilette?

We suspected Haydn had that treatment at North Tahoe high.

Kids are intuitive & mean to spies. ):

Elon was also beat & raped in his higher education.

Not for my son. 

Merci.

Peace.

Baraye.

Jai Guru Dev &

Jai Ma,

All Love,

Nitya xo

[fckleitner]

reblog and tag what your past self that just started watching supernatural would think of you today

[soracities]

i think i have adhd. i've told my parents but i haven't gotten a diagnosis yet. i doubt i will.

there's this teacher i really trust, but i still don't know whether i can tell her or not.

- 15yo anon

(thank you for the kind words. i really do my like my tutor because he helped me get better marks and is proud of me, but ths might be the first time a student of his failed, that's why i'm.... scared)

(cont’d /2 also i live in asia so i'm unsure whether my teacher will believe me or not, or whether she'll call my parents. she is the best teacher i've ever met and i try very hard in her subject, i'm glad she's my class-teacher (homeroom teacher in usa, i think), but i'm still a bit anxious. it's just how things work here.

/3 i once again apologise for the many asks i sent. that being said, my tutor was really angry at me yesterday but today he pulled me aside, asked me the topics i struggled with and then told me that i was a good kid and it would be a shame if i didn't get good marks. that i needed to work a bit harder and that he'll help me with it, and i shouldn't be afraid of asking doubts. i am so encouraged by this that in half an hour, i plan to do math, chemistry and a language i lost most my marks in. there is probably another exam session in two weeks, maximum three. thank you for the support and tolerating all my asks, and hopefully if i send you another ask, it will be three weeks later where i tell you i passed my math exam with good marks!

- fifteen year old anon)

i'm sorry for the delay in getting back to you, but please don't apologise -- i'm so, so, so glad that you came out of that class with a sense of encouragement and that your teacher pulled you aside in the way that he did and offered you support, i really, truly am.

i really don't know what the best way forward for you would be regarding your concerns about having adhd, and i really wish i could offer you more in this: i don't want to overstep the mark, or give advice based on assumptions about the process and how to go about talking about it or reaching out for help because i'm not in any way familiar with what would be best for you where you are: the best i can do is ask that if anyone has ever had any similar concerns or experiences, especially with growing up or living in asia then please do share them if you can (i'm aware "asia" is very vague here; i don't know exactly what part you are from, anon, but it's not something you need to share publicly for your own sake).

i'm really very sorry for all the added stress you went through, especially with your last ask when you fell ill -- given everything you have gone through in such a short amount of time it's not surprising and i'm sorry you had to deal with what you described on top of everything else. i genuinely hope that you are feeling somewhat better now, or if not, then that you are able to recover as soon as possible and that the past few days have been even just slightly kinder to you. you have had so much to deal with, but for what it's worth i'm so proud of you for trying your best through it all even when you are not getting the support you should be. it matters and it counts that you’re trying. i really, really hope you know that.

edit: as i said a few days ago, i will post the messages i got in response to you. hopefully they will mean something for you, even if a few days / a week have passed since you first wrote to me ♡