#I'm obsessed with Emet

[tsunael]

(Count)down to Dawntrail. 6/24

In the midst of a requiem for heroes, a voice rings out across time and space… In fields of tranquil light, sow you seeds of darkness. Though blazing skies give way to gentle night, What hand can end the war of Dark and Light?

[twinkle-art]

truth coming out of her well to shame mankind

[azems-familiar]

he's tired.

[direstraitscomic]

Wanders in and vomits this on your lap

So update! Life's been doing what life does to everyone! Curb stomp them in the middle of a glass covered alleyway!

Despite this I'm still chugging along. I'm currently building a surplus of pages I can use to queue up so I can ATTEMPT to do a set schedule instead of like having it be uhhh one page PER DECADE. Because I uhhh wasn't doing that earlier because I was a dumbass

The biggest issue has been breaking the model, updating the model because of the breaking, adding new models that will be used in one page for a gag then never again, fixing the models that will never be used again, and getting sucked up into Final Fantasy XIV There's a certain yellow-eyed, sassy, smug, bitch of a villain from that game that's been living rent fucking free in my head for the past couple months and he's pissing me off but I can't bring myself to kick him out even tho he hurts my feelings.

He is being beaten with a fly swatter as we speak

I've barely started Endwalker months ago and haven't touched it

Ignoring games that are weirdly far removed from the one this blog is centered around... I'm not dead! I hope you aren't either!

I have a lot of stuff lined up and ready. When my depressed lazy ass gets around and finishes more pages I'll start posting asap!

Also Elly's new model and design is finished and I hope you like how she looks! Because I got carpel tunnel from the redesign!

[akirakirxaa]

FFXIVWrite Prompt 13: Check

Rating: M

Word Count: 1169

Warnings: Mild descriptions of blood

Summary: Persephone's made her decision, and now she has to go through with it. [Vampire AU, Hythazemet, Continuation of Prompt 12.]

Master Post

Persephone fidgeted nervously, rubbing her arms to try to chase the chill of the house away. Her warm and cozy robe they'd given her was set off to the side, so it wouldn't get dirty, Hythlodaeus had said. A little part of her brain still thought she was crazy, completely mad, but not only did she just desire to keep living, but her lavender haired host was kind and friendly, someone she could see wanting to get to know better and have in her life. Someone she wouldn't be afraid to ask questions of when…

No, not ready to think about that, it seems.

But his…friend? Roommate? Lover? She still wasn't completely sure what their dynamic was, but it was clear Hades was more cold, calculating, and withdrawn. A real hermit of a vampire compared to Hythlodaeus. She wasn't too sure what to make of him yet, but if he was willing to help save her life, then he couldn't be all bad, right?

Earlier that evening, after she blurted out her decision, he'd appeared in the library. Hythlodaeus had jumped up excitedly to tell him the news while she shrank a little into her robe, aware that the chair she sat in was Hades'. 

"Did you hear? She decided she wants to stay!" her new friend smiled, but Hades just scowled an exasperated frown.

"Wonderful. I suppose we're going to need to invest in extra furniture then," he commented dryly. He and Hythlodaeus then discussed how and where best to perform this ritual, and now here they were, in the smaller guest room. Hythlodaeus had mentioned it because he remembered having strong chills during his "infection" and figured a smaller room would be easier to heat without making the rest of the house unbearable. She winced as she reached up and started peeling the bandage from around her neck, dried blood pulling at her skin as she did. 

"That brute really did a number on you," Hades commented from just by her shoulder, causing her to jump. He took her chin and moved her head back and to the side to check the marks there. "You can rest assured I'll not be so careless."

"Uh, thanks?" She swallowed awkwardly as he released her, and he fell silent again, moving to sit at the edge of the bed.

"Go on," Hythlodaeus gave her a little nudge between her shoulders. "I'll be right here." And somehow that did make her feel better about it, even though she'd known both of them for roughly the same amount of time. And that amount of time being hardly any at all.

"How do I know this isn't all just some setup to get me to trust you, hmm?" She meant it jokingly, but when her feet refused to move she wondered how much of a joke it really was. 

"You're welcome to wait out the bite you have and see what happens," Hades droned. She bit her lip. It's true, if she really thought they were lying, she could just say no and leave. And if she was wrong she'd turn into a mindless monster and do this to more people…

"No, no, I'll do it," she said more firmly. She walked over but then stopped awkwardly. "Um, what am I supposed to do?" Hades rolled his eyes.

"Told her everything, did you?" He quipped at Hythlodaeus, then addressed her. "Sit here, facing away." He patted his legs.

"I feel like I'm a kid going to see a mall Santa," she muttered, following instructions. "Now what?"

"Hold your arms out in front of you, wrists up. They don't have to be straight in front, you can rest them on your lap," he continued, and she obeyed, resting her arms with her wrists up on her knees.

"Why does it matter where my arms are?"

"Because there are magic symbols he needs to draw there," Hythlodaeus chimed in helpfully. It didn't ease her anxiety. 

"Magic symbols, right," she muttered, then felt breath at her neck. "Wait, wait, I'm not-!" Hythlodaeus knelt before her, resting his hands in hers and not breaking eye contact.

"It's okay, it won't be like before, okay?" He ran his thumbs over her fingers, trying to soothe. "It'll be done before you know it." She took a few steadying breaths before nodding. A comfy, well lit room, she wasn’t alone, wasn’t being chased… Yes, this was nothing like before. She could do this. Before she had the chance to say anything else, Hades sank his teeth into her neck.

Persephone couldn’t help but yelp and try to pull away, but an arm around her shoulders kept her still, and Hythlodaeus continued holding her hands; a moment later she would feel bad for squeezing so tightly, but he didn’t seem to mind. The initial sharp, stabbing pain faded, and she took a deep breath. It didn’t hurt as sharply now, only a dull ache. She felt fingers, Hades’ she realized, prod at her neck, then move to her wrists. Trying not not move her neck too much less the wounds pull, she glanced down to see him drawing an ornate sigil on one wrist with what she realized was her own blood. She watched him finish the one, then draw its mirror on the other. Persephone felt the pressure increase on her neck; she tried to stay stoic, but a small whimper escaped, anyway.

Then he released her, and it was like he’d done nothing at all, her neck feeling just the same as before. Perhaps even better than when she’d woken. Hythlodaeus helped her up, quickly cleaning her neck but leaving the sigils on her wrists where they were.

“How long do these have to stay?” she asked, peering at one as he led her to the small chair at the desk. A small mirror hung on the wall where Persephone could see that her neck had healed over, even where she’d just been bitten, leaving only some deep, dark bruises.

“Until the change is complete,” Hades answered as he stood, straightening his clothes where they’d wrinkled. She blinked at him.

“You don’t think it’ll, I don’t know, smudge?” Persephone asked, and Hythlodaeus chuckled.

“Try wiping it off,” he invited, and though she worried about messing up the process, she felt confident he wouldn’t set her up like that. Persephone scrubbed at her wrist with her thumb.

The sigil didn’t move, even a little bit.

“Magic,” Hythlodaeus said with a smirk. “It’s good for some things.”

“Why didn’t you use it to fix my neck in the first place?” she asked, with just a slight pout.

“It’s part of the ritual. The sigils fixed your wounds. The bruising will fade too before the process is done,” Hades explained. She gave a little acknowledging nod.

“So…how long until I start feeling like I’d really like some Nyquil?” Persephone tried to joke about it, but the worry was still there. Hythlodaeus’ face softened into an understanding smile.

“We shall see.”

[writing-zelda-brainrots]

Have some more apothecary![Name] because I have Apothecary Diaries brainrot. Season 2 hype! I swear to fucking god, at some point I'm going to turn this into an actual fic. Please, someone shoot me, I just don't know how to stop.

I imagine that similar to in the Apothecary Diaries, [Name] has lived in the red light district their whole life and was working as an apothecary there. Until they got kidnapped and sold off to the rear palace as a simple servant. They were planning on just working there until their contract expired, but then the universe decided that they haven't suffered enough. Through some shenanigans, they end up being promoted from glorified laundry maid to the lady in waiting for one of the Emperor's concubines.

And that's when the Chain fell into their life. Literally.

During a trip home on one of your rare days off, a girl from one of the pleasure district's brothels comes running to you in a panic, saying something about a group of strange men that need medical attention.

And things kinda spiral from then. You cure one of them from poison (you think his name was Wars? Strange name, really. But, still, none of your business), hand them some medicine and are about to head out until you get roped into solving the 'mystery' behind this little incident. The universe just loves telling you to play detective.

And when you led them out of town and see them off, you somehow end up getting pulled into one of these 'portals' that they kept talking about when they thought you couldn't hear.

The Chain is kind of more trusting of you in the beginning, you did save Wars from almost dying after all, but your stand-offish personality and obsession with drugs is a little worrying. Still, you do your work, don't complain, don't cause fights and lend a hand when needed. And your medicines do wonders when potions run out and Hyrule's low on magic. You're passive in a way.

"I'm a simple servant, lowly of birth." You say when questioned. "I know where I stand."

Bruh you're going to give them trauma flashbacks every time you put something in your mouth. Especially if you're the only human and they have no idea what things are poisonous to you vs them. They always have some emetic agent on them in case you decide to indulge in your 'hobby.'

I could really twist the knife with how the romance would go in this. The Chain knows that you're not the most extroverted person, but they wish that you didn't scoot away from them when they want to get closer to you. Maybe it's because you've grown up in an environment where the lines between 'love' and 'lust' are more than a little blurred - both celebrated and made irrelevant, both idolised and abused at the same time - where the lives of lower class people are tossed aside without a thought, the way your family life hasn't exactly been the most 'normal'... Maybe that's why you're so adverse to romance, why you insist that 'love' is an emotion that you are incapable of feeling.

In a way, they want to save you. Not from Ganon or monsters with sharp teeth (though they will save you from those, too, of course), but from this shadow looming over you.

[makersruin]

speaking of crazy woman, what do you think of athena?

athena is the exact type of morally repugnant evil scientist trope that i have been obsessed with since elementary school so you can imagine the equal parts delight and horror i felt when i first experienced the Full Athena. i caught up when we only had the second tier of pandaemonium so when we got the third tier i was so excited.

i really enjoyed mulling over the question of whether she was always this evil or if the heart of sabik corrupted what was originally good intentions. lahabrea lands on the former if i'm remembering correctly and though he probably decides this because he's very pragmatic and realizes that a dead man's sentiments towards his dead wife is unhelpful, i'm inclined to agree with him for thematic reasons. having noble dreams being corrupted by a cosmic power is something hermes/fandaniel is already doing (albeit slightly differently) and her true nature being an evil maternal figure works well against venat's maternal goodness. to me, she represents the absolute worst of the ancients, not just because she's an evil scientist who does evil experiments, but because she's the worst iteration of the ancients' obsession with control. in a world where people are blessed with the power of creation, they made rigid rules and standards to ensure peace, but it comes at the cost of individuality and moral principles, and she's the extreme end of it -- manipulating lahabrea, abusing erichthonios, brain-washing her underlings to ensure their undying loyalty. so i'm really glad we got to have her, not only for her part in being a fantastic foil to venat and hermes, but because her existence is irrefutable proof that the ancient world was not as wonderful as emet-selch's rose-colored recollections described and validates hermes's despair.

[blucifer08]

Been obsessed with this song lately so made a little edit about emet-selch and naru :)

(i'm thinking about using the latter more recognizable half of the song for something else later but needed this out of my system LOL)

[beeboips]

Not me realizing that I'm obsessed with Emet Selch because I fell in love with Solas first.

(Spoilers for FFXIV and DA:I ahead so pls don't read if you plan on playing)

Solas's goal is to tear down the fade, to undo what he did and free his people and old gods.

Emet's goal is to undo what Hydaelyn had done, to rejoin the 13 mirrors to the source and revive his people.

Solas mentions that you're real and it changes everything, but it can't.

Emet slips up, talks about how you wouldn't remember Amaurot, then tells you later that you're just a fragment of his lover friend.

We offer to help both men by finding a different way forward.

Also just remembered that the face Emet wears in Shadowbringers is of one SOLUS YAE GALVUS.

New headcanon. Dragon Age Inquisition is one of the 13 mirrors.

I think, just maybe, I have a type.

[fbfh]

Writing quick drabbles about the obscure blorbos I kept forgetting to write about 1/4

Tw for mild yandere/stalker behavior but its joe so what do you expect. Also I'm still in season 2 so no spoilers.

okay I fully admit that this is incrediby self indulgent but Joe Goldberg obsessing over writer!reader hits so so different. You came into Mooney's looking for a first edition of some obscure book, and the second Joe saw you it was game over. The light in your eyes, the way they sparkle as you scan the shelves and look at the titles has him hooked, but when you ask him if they still have any copies of what you're looking for, you have him hook line and sinker. He never thought he would emet someone as perfect as you, much less someone with such good taste and interest in literature. Then he finds out you write too??? he thinks there needs to be a word stronger than perfect. once he learns more and more about you wthout your knowledge, he doesn't find a single red flag. He worms his way into your life, and before you know it, you're living together and he's the perfect dream boyfriend. He protects your time to write like a dragon protects its hoard. He knows what kind of distractions to eliminate, when to sit with you in silence and when to leave you alone, when to bring you more coffee or tea and encourage you to keep going and when to tear you away from your laptop, insisting you give yourself a break. He'll never pressure you to share anything before you're ready (even though he has access to your google docs or scrivner in the cloud, but don't worry, he's really good at acting like this is the first time he's reading your work when you do show him. He's had plenty of time to hone his reactions and perfectly articulate all the praise he's going to give you.) when you do share your work with him, it makes him feel closer to you than ever. He's notjust getting to see inside the deepest most intimate parts of your mind, but you're letting him. you want him to. you want him, just like he wants you.

[bronzecauldron]

I'm all wrapped up with Shadowbringers now and although I personally think the quality of Stormblood's MSQ consistently enjoyable, the emotional highs of ShB's narrative were much more memorable, and the moments leading up to the fight against Vauthry through the 5.3 questline was the most gratifying time in FFXIV for me. Shadowbringers becomes so much better in its latter half I can see now why it is most beloved among fans.

Exploring the landscape of the First as well as speaking with NPCs around the cities felt rather dull to me compared to Stormblood, and there were times I fatigued just going from one place to another. On a positive note, I'm pretty satisfied with the character development among the main cast and several of the supporting characters. A high point were the dungeon designs I really really really love running dungeons in FFXIV if I'm not doing anything else I'm in a dungeon. The architecture for the major cities were lovely to gaze at too, in particular the Crystarium and Amaurot stood out the most to me.

Amaurot overall was a highlight especially I love being a little guy I love their whale song speech I love their robes I'm so so sad about the Ancients and my grandpa Emet-Selch I'm obsessed that he built this shit below the sea he gets me so barmy every time Emet-Selch™ is on screen I start hootin' like I'm Avengers: Endgame Audience Reaction I miss him soooo much oh my gooood he was so old and so sad and he was a #gemini. end post

[picaroroboto]

I talk about Amaurot a disproportionate amount for being someone who's not so obsessed with Ancient lore, but I think I'm justified in never shutting up about it because I never stop thinking about it.

The drama, tension, and mystery of the descent into the Tempest during the climax of ShB - knowing you're on the verge of Light transformation, knowing you need to confront Emet-Selch and rescue the Exarch, but not knowing what exactly you'll find at his headquarters. And then the strangeness and wonder of seeing freaking 1920s art deco NYC emerge out of the depths of the ocean, it's hard not to gasp out loud. Even being spoilered slightly didn't mitigate that for me. Honestly one of my favorite memories of the whole game.

[origamihoshi]

people i want to get to know better!

I got tagged by @emets-selch so yeah okay why not I haven't done one of these things in years

last song: Devil 'fore the Fall by Lydia the Bard

favorite color: green, I need more green in my wardrobe I hardly have anything in green and that makes me sad

currently watching: I don't have any show I'm watching right now um... idk. does youtube videos count? if so I'm gonna say ProZD Plays Games becasue I watch that channel everyday

last movie: I've also haven't been keeping up with movies lately god I need to fix this uh, I can't think of any movie this year I have watched so... I should watch some tv and movies

sweet/spicy/savory: I love all three for different reasons, like probably sweet but I can't have too much sweet or it upsets my body

relationship status: been with my beloved partner for a few years now, love you Carla! <3 <3 <3

obsessions: FFXIV is probably my biggest one, my icon both on tumblr and discord is FFXIV related, and Azem related too now that I think of it. I do also want to throw in here interactive fiction games, that's what my blog mostly is lately right now I feel like. but I'll go back to FFXIV once there's new stuff to play. I do need to get more playtime when I have the money to finally get my padjal alt to the end of DT but that will have to wait for now.

last thing i googled: "fallout 4 fourville walkthrough" I've been playing fallout 4 quest mods lately and trying to figure shit out in a mod becasue I'm easily lost

um I don't know, I don't normally tag people in these but uh here... @monochrome-night, @elegantunknownphantom, @princesspeachsuperstar

[sebille]

— people i want to get to know better

tagged by @nidstiniens

tagging @galpalaven , @kibellah , @saanphoenix , @ishgard , @ktiseos , @sunnythanalan @zeledonia & ANYONE who'd want to do this - please don't feel like you're left out if I did not tag you. If you want to do this consider yourself tagged by me. <3

last song: "The light that would fade" by Doom:VS (It's on the Zenos playlist i'm making, for anyone who's curious about how that's going. )

favorite color: Black & purple.

currently watching: If the emperor had a text to spech device

last movie: I...am not sure? I rarely watch movies? I am embarrassed to admit that it MAY have been "Team America: world police" lmao. I'm sorry, everyone. I wish I could say that it's some deep, pretentious art film but... yeah.

sweet/spicy/savory: savory. I'm the whitest white person with french/swedish blood ever. My dream dinner is like...cheese, dried meats, olives and jams. I do enjoy spicy foods though, but my body hates it.

relationship status: I have a partner. We've been together for 7 years and we've been living together for just as long. We're equally stupid.

current obsessions: ZENOS, FFXIV, Warhammer 40k.

last thing i googled: "Sad Emet selch" LMAO

[unchangingeverchanging]

Welcome~💜 This is a "better" pinned post

Hello hello everyone (≧∇≦)ﾉ! This might be an attempt or fully commit to it as a better and updated pinned post, i will try and go through the character, AUs, and most prominent things about them! But first, a brief introduction about me!

Raghi is the name (or at least the online nickname), but you can call me whichever you like even if it was adressing me by my Wol! I casually play and obsess about games (the normal amount), mediocre Gposer but i try my best, pretty introverted and fairly shy around people so please don't take any offense if i'm barely answering/showing the same enthusiasm you show me 🙏🏻! I'm slowly trying to break out of my shell, and be assured i appreciate you all! also english isn't my first language, therefore, turn a blind eye to any typos i make :'3c.

with that being said lets start with the main thing!

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Once a loyal paladin, now a brutal reaper. A Sharlayan born aristocrat, orphaned at the age of 12 after a garlean ambush as her and her parents were traveling the Black Shroud for business purposes, during the attack, along with the loss of her parents she sadly lost her left eye while attempting to flee which led her to wear an eyepatch for years, later on her husband gifted her a prosthetic eye to help and lift up her self esteem, she was also gifted a different colored eye by a dear friend of hers. She now lives happily with her small family back in Sharlayan. She has natural white hair with purple highlights, post 6.5 her hair was changed to black due to an incident and now in 7.0 it is half and half.

Age: mid-to-late 20s.

Relationship status: Married

No. of kids: 1 (for now)

Likes: Cats, sweets, coffee and teas, long hours of sleep and quiet.

Dislikes: Anyone getting in her way, the sea, loud and crowded places.

Hobbies: she likes to knit when she's bored.

Mini fact: She has Heterochromia and a cute heart mark on her cheek, these features are from her dad whom she resembles the most.

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Euphrosyne (ancient)

(Funny enough i named her that waaaay before the raid came out XD) Euphrosyne, or as she likes to be called Rafa, is Emet-Selch's little sister. She took upon the seat of Halmarut after she was choosen for it thanks to her affinity and talents in botony and mycology. She spent most of her time teaching in Akadaemia before the final days.

Age: Unknown.

Relationship status: Married, in a poly relationship.

No. of kids: 2

Likes: Books, plants obviously, creating new species, filling out paperworks.

Dislikes: Lahabrea (sorry laha lovers)

Mini fact: She is a Red and White mage. Her mask is the shape of a butterfly.

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Scion Auregie (AU):

Where she has not been blessed by the Echo, she leads an entirely different life. As a close friend to the Leveilleur family, she was taught by none other than master Louisoix before she finished her studies in the Studium. Auregie was encouraged by Moenbryda to acquire her Archon mark as she thought she fully deserved it. as how Yda and Moenbryda were close, so was Auregie with her that she developed a crush on her. Suffice to say she grieved for quiet some time, which made her miss out on the very fun banquet, but had to dust herself off and aid Alphinaud and Wol to find the missing scions. During her time in Ishgard, she worked closely with lord Aymeric and Lucia, by the end of the Dragonsong war, Auregie and Lucia became a couple. She's an all-rounder but mains as a Black mage, her studies heavily involved voidsents (she took part in the Void Ark storyline). She has a few differencies than canon Auregie but the rest should be the same.

Relationship status: Engaged (to be married post EW)

Hobbies: Playing the violin, spending money anywhere she can, mixing new tea blends.

Mini fact: She lives in Ishgard as of late, but visits her family whenever she can.

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Laetitia wir Galvus (Ascien Au):

TBA~ 🤫 (i worked on her lore for a few years now but she shall be known in due time)

Age: N/A.

Relationship status: N/A.

No. of kids: N/A.

Likes: N/A.

Dislikes: N/A.

Hobbies: N/A.

Mini fact: N/A.

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And that is all for now! sorry for the lengthy post! My Asks are open for any further questions, and if you want to find me anywhere else you can reach out on the links below O(∩_∩)O: ♥ Twitter (not much to see there other than reposting art) ♥ Bluesky (fairly new) ♥ You can chat with me on Discord (DM for the handle)

[mor-and-more]

Idk I feel too anxious to Yell At Friends About Creature Lore anymore so Fucket We Ball

Today's creature issssss... Well, me

Or more precisely, my recreation as a cat

Because I got to the Endwalker of Endwalker fame (...yes the namesake quest of the expac hahah) for the 5th time yesterday, and. I Had Thoughts

To begin with, I'm a very unreactive fucker when I'm focused on a goal. So most of my reaction to the Scions sacrificing themselves one by one would be "comfort The Child (Alisaie), carry on". Because that was exactly what I were missing. A chance to just give her a little half-hug and remind that they are by our side

And when it came the twins' turn to do the Heroic Sacrifice(tm) I know that my reaction would be "understood", but. I'd be genuinely surprised and anxious to hear they'd wish for me to find happiness at journey's end. Because even on this side of the screen I immediately started panicked thinking on the topic of "do I even know what is happiness??? Do I Even Know How It Feels???"

Also fifth time I did it, and I still don't recognise most of the Voices From Past. Only if I remember the phrase itself (like Merlwyb's) or with some I kinda guessed, but. Yeah I suck at voice recognition (play clips of Emet-Selch and Zenos talking about something side by side, and I wouldn't be able to tell who is who unless one goes into "this was our beautiful world" and the other into "my friend, my enemy" rants) and don't really remember the phrases themselves

...also I know I would again promise to Emet-Selch to remember them as he'd be disappearing, hahah. Because this is what I told him into the screen, so yeah I'd absolutely say it in person, too

Also. I would totally at least try giving headpats to the Meteion at the Necropolis. Because that poor baby bird couldn't have been well finding the place like this... Aaaand then Alphy repeats what I were thinking then in their talk with her before dissipating, haha

Yes it's not "my" baby bird, but she's still a very scared confused baby bird who found herself terrifyingly lonely in an eerie place devoid of all life, that looked like fucken. Life After People documentaries, except not even animals survived. Yes I am THAT close to "accidentally dissolves itself because of love and concern for the poor baby bird", I know. I can only imagine how confused Meteion would be, haha. "I brought you here to feel despair, what is THAT?????? I'm failing so bad at my job?????" XD

...yes I also would absolutely grab "my" Meteion as a companion after all is said and done and take her on a journey to explore the beautiful Etheirys, as beautiful as ever. Thus, in a way, fulfilling Hermes's wish for her - to learn to walk, to run, to travel and meet many people, albeit not in the outer worlds, but right here. I'm just feeling so normal about the baby bird. I NEED to hug and protect

Also lmfao. In a way, I kinda. Went "you call me a sword in the darkness, and I've ever tried to live up to that. But in truth, I'm but a healer, so. Thancred, please take the van this time, I know you've been rearing to. EVERYONE'S going home today" before The Dead Ends

...and after the Endsinger trial, I keep chuckling to myself that a teleport half a second away from activation would drop on my head from sheer desire to Get Away From THAT GUY (Zenos). Or I'd be so fucken furious about "don't you FUCKING dare say I'm just like you, you stalker creep with unhealthy obsessions" and yeet a spell, a Carbuncle and maybe even myself into him, all at once. Depending on how angry I'd get, hahah. I'm. Not at that point yet, but if I kept going yesterday, I'd have been furious

Zenos makes me annoyed in the "this fucking guy AGAIN, just leave me alone, go die in a ditch without my involvement" way. Which places him way under the arcanists' Actual Guildmaster whom I'd turn into meat paste with my own bare hands, and even under the list of Most Puntable Lalas. I just want a restraining order and some way it'd actually restrain Zenos from showing up. I'm just TIRED and want to be left alone. If Y'shtola called him my number one fan as a joke, I'd probably cry in defeat.

Idk I'm just feeling very powerless because I can't avoid that damn instance just because it features the guy of Please Just Leave Me Alone. I deserve a cat cuddle pile back on the ship as we are travelling back home, not. This

...can you tell that I'm barely awake and extra groggy??