#I'm not posting this everyday for my own sake

[stephanidftba]

Gaza still needs us.

Can you spare an hour's pay per day to send to Gaza? A half hour's pay? Even an hour's pay per week helps these families get to safety.

I'm committing to send an hour's pay every day to Gazans in need, and I'll be donating to fundraisers on the @gaza-evacuation-funds spreadsheet.

Can you join me?

(Please reblog, not like. Likes don't put posts on other peoples' dash.)

[aaaaamorphous-entity]

People need to re-learn how to Read The Assignment in fandom spaces. This can apply to a lot of things but I’m going off of a personal experience here as well as the reactions to a character re-imagining I saw earlier tonight, which sparked this post.

I posted in a character rant board a while ago about the parallels between two characters. To remove as many variables as I can for people to use to deviate from the point of this post, I’m not telling who :p Besides, that’s irrelevant. I posted about these characters’ parallels, citing the particular pieces of the decidedly sprawling franchise they’re a part of that I had seen for my observations and commentary.

Cue what I call the Patrick Star phase.

A couple people started with what-about-isms about depictions of the characters in other parts of the franchise which weren’t included in the list I had seen. Not with the purpose to add to my point, nor to correct factually incorrect claims of which I'd made none, only to argue I didn’t Know Enough to make a point at all, I guess? The point of the post was about the characters’ parallels.

A person started nitpicking my wording (which, mind, was not incoherent nor far off from the ‘perfect’ phrasing). Instead of engaging with the spirit of what I was saying and either giving their own perspective on the one nitpicked character’s mindset, or asking for elaboration on my end, they just cited why I was ackshually wrong. The point of the post was about the characters’ parallels.

Somebody DM’d me about how using they-them pronouns for a character was actually unfair to non-English speaking fans and I should be more considerate. Which isn’t the point of this post either but still irks me to this day. Especially as a resident they-them-haver myself.

Anyways. The point of the post was about the characters’ parallels. The Assignment™ was to discuss this subject. To share one’s thoughts about it, to perhaps, kindly, engage with that point and consider it, or share why one personally can’t see it, or whatever have you.

“But what if I didn’t want that assignment?” a theoretical naysayer might ask. Then: don’t comment on that post. It isn’t for you. Coming onto that post just to tell the OP why they’re wrong or What About This part of the media they haven’t seen, or the evolution of that: 'they can’t have a developed opinion of these characters if they haven’t seen XYZ'...is all unproductive, and Not Fun.

The point of fandom to me is to have fun. To engage with the media you all share a love for and build each other up. That grows creativity, and community, and furthers character analysis and media literacy and all that good stuff (ideally speaking, anyways).

If you come onto a post with an Assignment™, only to act like the Grinch and only contribute comments that spoil the fun, then why did you even comment at all? To be right? To feel superior? To just put someone in their place?

What does that accomplish besides killing someone’s desire to engage with others in this fandom, and possibly just entirely remove their creative voice from the space? I know I’ve certainly lost the desire to engage with many in my fandom save a few curated friends because so often, people Miss The Assignment.

This applies to a character re-imagining I saw tonight (not Hazbin Hotel, and not The Point Of This Post. Y’all could stand to hear this too tho), in which the comments were all negative or nitpicky. The character in question was more or less a parody, poorly written and largely disappointing for what he and many others of his group had been built up to be.

The OP had to take a lot of creative liberties to make him into an actual character, instead of a vindictive author’s joke. They still went to the effort of tying in themes and design choices that all complimented details unique to this character and the one other intrinsically tied to him, as well as incorporating a nod to an old fad in the fandom that apparently happened before I joined it. It was a pretty solid redesign IMO. Very different from the character as he was shown on-screen, but frankly, that’s like taking a burning pile of spinning gears and hammering them into a functional clock in this instance.

And all the comments had to say was ‘just make an OC at this point’, or nitpicking that this wasn’t REALLY a ‘rewrite’ because the OP hadn’t written a story or anything of substance with the character (??????????), and one person correcting OP about bipolarism, of which OP was already familiar with through a family member, though frankly I’m unqualified to comment on any of that myself (although I will note OP did not depart from the depictions of bipolarism within the original media they were working with).

All this to say: The Assignment™ of that post was to engage with the idea of redesigning that character. To add your thoughts about him, what could fit him, or possibly some alternatives if the reader felt something fit better. What did saying ‘just make an OC at this point’ add? What did nitpicking about the semantics of the word ‘rewrite’ do? It’s a nothingburger of commentary that, if I were the OP, would kill enthusiasm for the subject.

If you see a fandom post discussing characters, sharing ideas about them or the setting, talking about ships, or talking about parts of the media just clearly for the goddang fun of it, then you have two Decent options: Engage in good faith, or Just. Keep. Scrolling. Commenting just to drag down the OP does nothing but kill the mood and damage community and enthusiasm therein.

For the umpteenthousandth time: if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all

[tizeline]

More about that Seperation AU! (I'm just gonna tag it as Tiz Sep AU for now for the sake of organization)

Anyway, so if ya'll saw my last post, in this AU Donnie doesn't really have a battle shell, but he DOES wear prosthetics that gives him two extra fingers on each hand. Some people immedietly picked up on the implications of that (which makes me very happy) but I also wanna give a proper explanation, so here it is:

While we don't get a specific explanation in the show as to why Donnie built the battle shell, it's not unreasonable to assume that he would've compared his soft shell with his brothers' hard ones and might've felt a need to compensate. So if he grew up without his brothers, like he did in this AU, would he even feel that pressure to "improve" his shell? Sure, he'd know that most types of turtle species would have a tougher carapace than his own species, but he wouldn't be reminded of that in his everyday life. In fact, while compared to his brothers he's the most fragile one, compared to April and Splinter (who don't have shells at all) he'd be the sturdiest out the the bunch. So in this AU Donnie doesn't use any additional armour (he does still have a jetpack tho because fuck yeah)

So where does the additional fingers come in? While Donnie in this AU doesn't have any other turtles to constantly compare himself to, he WOULD inevitably compare himself to Splinter and April as well as humanity as a whole. All of which have five fingers on each hand as opposed to his three per hand. This isn't the only part of himself that he's insecure about, being seemingly the only turtle boy in a city of humans is bound to make him feel a bit isolated and lonely. He'd feel more pressure to be more human than turtle, and making himself extra fingers, in his mind, would be a way to accomplish that.

It's not JUST insecurity though, there's a practical aspect to having five fingers when you do a lot of handiwork, which is something Donnie does. In fact, I first got the idea when reading the IDW TMNT comics. I don't remember the details but there's a part when Donnie (or rather Metal-Don to be specific, I think?) comments on the fact that it'd be more beneficial to have five rather than three fingers. Ever since then, the concept of Donnie constructing extra fingers for himself to make his work easier is something I've kept in the back of my mind, and I figured this AU was the perfect oppurtunity to explore that.

[akanemnon]

Last question before I once again leave you to rest and recuperate for the rest of the hiatus.

Do you know color theory by any chance?

(And if so, can you teach me some techniques…? /nf)

Your most recently posted piece is so amazing that I can’t even put it into words. It’s cool how you can switch between styles like that. However, I hope you’re taking of yourself in the process!

If there’s anything to learn from the anon attacks, it’s that even though some people unfortunately don’t see it, being an online influencer of any sort is more of a sacrifice than it looks, and it can the tiring to the creator when others don’t understand. Im not half as popular as you are and I too am starting to feel the effects of posting almost everyday for the sake of the fans.

You’re probably the first online artist I’ve been a BIG FAN of. Not just because of your AU, but because now I’m know I’m not the only easily anxious artist out there. You’ve really inspired me, and lots of other people too, but to keep up the good work, you have to make sure you’re also okay.

Take care!

- The Kogetai Kiddo.

I know some color theory in terms of creating designs. For painting, not so much. It's a pretty complicated subject to explain, so that might take quite a bit to get into...

And no worries, I am taking care of myself and take plenty of breaks in between when I'm getting too frustrated. As for the style thing; I like to try different things once in a while to prevent stagnation. I can switch between styles thanks to practice, but changing mediums does take some getting used to. Digital painting is not exactly something I'm that good at because I don't do it that often. It takes a lot of time and energy. But it's a good challenge.

Honestly, I don't want to be titled as an "influencer" or "content creator". I'm just some person who likes sharing their work and comics that people seem to like them a lot. I'm no authority figure and I don't like seeing myself as something greater than others just because of some numbers. Numbers don't mean anything. It's the person that matters. I just wanna make art, and if it happens to make people happy, I'm happy too. Still anxiety and internal pressure can make things hard. There IS that underlying feeling of having to perform and do well. Because those are your own standards. In the end, you are your own worst critic. Anxiety is the worst, and it's an endless struggle against it. But it's possible to live with it. At some point, taking a step back and realizing you need a break is the right call.

Hoping the best for you and all the other anxious artists out there!

And with that'll be off on my last few days of break. Asks are closed now. See you back on Sunday!

(Little teaser from the next page for good measure)

[elitadream]

Hi guys~! ⛅👋

Long time no see! Much longer than I ever intended, in fact. Truth be told, I wanted to make a public post sooner, but I've had a lot to catch up on in terms of notifications and messages since logging back in a few days ago. I've also made some changes that I will address shortly, but first of all I wanted to thank those of you who have reached out with so much care and understanding during my absence. Adjusting has been a slow and fragile process for me -still is-, and I sadly haven't responded directly to everyone yet because of it, but I wanted to say how much I appreciate your patience and support nonetheless. 🥹 🙏

Long story short, I was gone for five months due to a huge burnout, then progressively found my spark again somewhere along the way and have since mostly recovered. It was my wonderful friend @drones-of-innocence who reached out to me outside of Tumblr, and her sense of initiative is largely the reason why I managed to make this post in a somewhat reasonable delay. 😅💖 With that said however, I must also mention that I've deleted a lot of stuff from my page and have removed most of my work from the public eye as well. This may seem quite drastic and frankly a little unsettling, but I assure you that it was a thoroughly considered and reasoned decision! The thing is that I was still getting lots of notes on these drawings everyday and… To put it simply, I didn't want that anymore. 🙇‍♀️ Experiencing popularity was very detrimental to me in the long run and I needed to put an end to it for the sake of my own wellbeing; at least for now.

Which brings me to my next point.

After mulling it over for a while, I've decided that I would not be returning as an active creator in the Mario community this time around. 👐 Making fanart for this franchise (with such a high and continuously maintained degree of involvement) had a lot to do with my health's decline and I've come to realize that I wanted to direct my focus elsewhere going forward. For that reason, there are things which I know will never be repeated again in the future, both in regards to my art and online presence in general, but that's alright. Things change, as they do and should. I'm looking forward to reuniting with folks and would be very happy to stay in touch with those of you who wish to message me privately. Like my lovely pal @istadris said, what matters most about any fandom are the friends you make in it. ☺️

And speaking of which-

@ody-and-fanatu That's so sweet of you, thank you! 💗 I'm glad you've enjoyed my contribution to the fandom. It was fun while it lasted! 💫 My visual ideas may be gone from my page, but most of my written posts and replies are still there for anyone who wants to revisit those at least, so there's that! And I'd also like to answer some of the asks I still have in my inbox at some point. Knowing that you hold my art in such high regard makes really happy! 🥰 Unfortunately, the other account that I have is reserved for my professional work and I prefer to keep them separate from one other, but the good thing is that I intend to go back to this blog occasionally. Hoping to see you around! Cheers! 🥂

@heiressofdoodles Thanks, I appreciate that! ✨ I'm honestly doing much better than I was earlier this Spring. Back then, I was running on empty and on the verge of crashing without even knowing it. Being in constant physical pain was one thing, but feeling mentally and emotionally drained on a daily basis was another entirely, and something had to be done. It took me a moment to really figure out what was wrong, but thankfully I realized very quickly what was causing it and applied the breaks with all my might. One of my main priorities now is to be more alert and respect my own boundaries to make sure that this never happens again. 🥲

@keakruiser Thank you. 🙏💐 I'm just glad to have found my footing again. Feels good to be able to create freely.^^ Hope you're doing well too!

Special thanks also to @pianokantzart, @jelly-fish-wishes, @katlyntheartist, @triniji and @wahooitsamee for their kind words. 🫂 Your graciousness and consideration means a lot to me. 💝

As for all the nice people who sent me anon comments and well wishes, I tried to summarize my thoughts as best I could in this update, but if there's anything else you'd like to say or know, don't hesitate to ask me anytime! Now that I feel like myself again, I think I'm gonna hang out on Tumblr for a little bit. I'll be excited to see what you guys have been up to in the meantime! 🤗 Wishing you all a very good day and pleasant Fall. 🍂

-elita 🌸

[risingode]

better than revenge

summary: you don't hate jungkook's best friend. no, you just really, really dislike her and her very apparent crush on your boyfriend

pairing: jungkook x y/n

genre: fluff, angst

wc: 2.6k

warnings: jungkook is so clueless, y/n talks about hitting people a lot, light making out, arin is very annoying

note: please comment or send me an ask to let me know what you think! this is my first post on here, i'm very nervous lol. i really hope you enjoy it !!

(loosely based on better than revenge by taylor swift, enjoy </3)

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You and Jungkook had been looking forward to this trip to Hawaii for months. The two of you were excited to spend some time away from the stresses of everyday life and just enjoy each other's company. You had invited your friends, fellow couples Taehyung and Jennie, and Jimin and Jiyeon. Jungkook proposed, much to your dismay, that you could also ask Arin to tag along. Arin was his childhood friend, and as much as you tried to like her for your boyfriend's sake, it was so glaringly obvious how not so friendly her attraction was for him. You had brought this up to Jungkook when you first began dating, but he brushed it off, saying they both saw each other as brother and sister and that she was nothing to worry about.

You still had your reservations regarding her, but you didn't put up more of a fight, deciding instead to trust your boyfriend and his loyalty and love for you. The eight of you had just arrived at your hotel and were settling in your rooms. You and Jungkook shared a room, while Taehyung and Jennie, Jimin and Jiyeon, and Arin each had their own rooms. 

"Baby?" Jungkook asks. You turn your head in question. "Do you wanna go surfing real quick? We have nothing to do today besides the dinner reservation later tonight." 

You smile. The pair of you loved surfing, you began doing it together shortly after you started dating, and it became a sacred tradition you guys had. Every weekend, you would drive to the nearby beach by your shared apartment, surfboard in tow, and surf for hours.

"Of course, my love, let me unpack our clothes first and change into my bathing suit." He nods, squeezing your waist lightly. As you were unpacking, Arin came into your room to chat with Jungkook. Awkwardly, you shuffle into the bathroom to avoid unneeded interaction with her.

"So, have you decided what you want to do first?" Arin asks, trying to make conversation.

"I think we're going to hit the beach and maybe do some surfing," Jungkook replies. Your eye twitches, and you have to restrain every bone in your body from reaching over and slapping him over the head.

"That sounds like so much fun!" Arin exclaims. "Can I come with you guys?"

"Uh, sure," You say, trying to hide your annoyance. Of course. You feel your neck tighten in what you presumed to be pent-up frustration, yet, you know this was only the beginning. 'Whatever,' you thought. You were aware Arin couldn't surf, so you didn't feel bothered. You knew you could leave her behind to swim alone while the pair of you caught some waves. 

You should've known that Arin wouldn't keep her mouth quiet, though, because soon enough, the whole group was clambering into your small room, all rambling about how excited they were to surf. You didn't want to sound rude, but you and Jungkook hadn't spent much alone time together recently, and the thought of spending at least a few hours by yourselves sounded so good. You plaster a fake smile, and Jungkook sends you an apologetic one.

The group of you headed down to the beach, and like you predicted, Arin kept trying to join in, but she wasn't very good and kept falling off her board. Your satisfied smile turns sour, though, once Jungkook moves to grab her by the waist and set her back on her own two feet. You wish you could dunk his head underwater and hold him there. 

After a while, you all returned to the hotel to prepare for dinner. As you were getting dressed, Arin once again made herself at home in your room, chatting with Jungkook about how he needed to teach her how to surf. Your annoyance was bubbling over at this point because as soon as you walked out of the bathroom, you realized Arin was wearing a dress similar to the one you were in.

 This, of course, wouldn't have been a problem; coincidences happen! Yet, you knew you weren't being dramatic in your anger because this was the very same dress you had bought in the resort's small boutique that afternoon when you guys first arrived. The same boutique that all eight of you entered at the same time and where you spent an hour deciding which of the dresses you and the other girls should get and wear for dinner that night. You had all, Arin included, picked out four very different dresses. Your dress was decided by both yourself and Jungkook as he gloated about how beautiful you looked in it. Did she … Did she really go back and buy your same dress?

"Hey, Arin, that's the same dress I was going to wear tonight," You say, slightly annoyed.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I realized later that the one I had initially picked out wasn't flattering on me," Arin replies, not sounding very apologetic.

You quirk an eyebrow, "Hmm, that's so weird because you kept saying how it made you look so good back at the store!" A fake smile on display, you brush past her and make your way toward your boyfriend, struggling to button up his shirt.

"Be nice," He whispers. You finish buttoning up his shirt and reach up to smack him on the forehead. He could be really stupid.

You tried to brush it off, for Jungkook's sake, and you all headed out to dinner. During the meal, Arin kept trying to talk to Jungkook, ignoring you completely. Gritting your teeth at another one of her aggravating laughs, you settle a hand on Jungkook's shoulder, excusing yourself to the bathroom.

Resting your hands on the sink, you try to catch your breath. One, two, three. Breathe in, breathe out. One, two, three. Feeling a lot better now and not like you were going to throw a plate at the annoying girl, you splash some water on your face. You hear the creak of the bathroom door opening, and you tense up, fearing it is the one person you don't want to see.

"Oh my god, y/n, you need to come back right now. I can't stand being near that wench for another second." Jennie whines, reaching to wrap her arms around your waist. With a sigh of relief, you turn around to crush her into a hug. 

"Girl, I might throw myself out of the balcony any second. She's being so weird with Jungkook!"  You whine back, causing the girls to nod. 

"I noticed. If she did that with Jimin, trust me she would be lost at sea." Jiyeon giggles, brushing my hair out of my face. You smile weakly at her, and the three of you link arms and return to the table. 

"There's our girls!" Taehyung announces, getting the table's attention. Jungkook immediately looking over, reaching an arm out toward you and pouting his lips. You grab his arm and lean down to give him a light kiss, and he smiles into it.

"You okay, baby?" He asks. You reply with a curt nod. He frowns, noticing your obvious mood shift, yet before he can ask you what's up, his attention is again on Arin as she continues talking about whatever the hell she is talking about. 

As the night went on, you started to feel increasingly uncomfortable. You noticed that Arin honestly did not care. She looked so pathetic, reaching over to slap a hand on his thigh as she laughed. Yet, you knew you looked even more pathetic just watching your boyfriend letting it happen. After dinner, you all headed back to the hotel. You and Jungkook return to your room, and you sigh in relief once your back hits the bed. Jungkook follows suit, the two of you lying silently and staring at the ceiling.  

"Hey," He says, effectively getting your attention.

"Hm?" You ask, looking over at him. He sighs, reaching his arm up to cup your cheek. 

"I'm sorry we haven't been able to spend time alone today." He whispers. Your heart melts at his large, apologetic eyes. You hum, turning your body to face him better.

"It's okay, baby. I can't say I'm not sad. It's been so long since we've been alone together." You pout, his thumb reaching down to tuck it back into place.

"We're alone now," He smiles, and you nod. He leans in, drapes a leg over your body to tug you closer, and kisses you. You two get lost in each other's touch, but a knock comes from the door before it can get any further. 

You pull apart, chests heaving, and Jungkook pats your thigh as he gets up to answer it. You don't even act surprised at who stands on the other side.

"Hey, Jungkook, can I talk to you for a second?" Arin asks.

"Uh, sure," Jungkook says, looking confused. He looks back at you, smiling apologetically, before following after her.

You wait a few minutes, but when they don't return, you can't ignore your racing heartbeat and decide to see what is happening. As you turn the corner, you face one of the worst sights you've ever seen. Arin kissing Jungkook. You wouldn't be surprised if a heart-shaped hole manifested under you because you were sure it fell out and sank to the first floor.

"Jungkook?" You whisper. The pair break apart, Arin gazing up at you with wide eyes, yet not as wide as your startled boyfriend's.

"No, Y/N, it's not what it looks like," Jungkook tries to explain. You hold a hand up to silence him. You didn't notice you were crying until tears started falling onto your cheeks. 

"I can't believe you would do this to me," You whimper out, shaking your head and turning around, running back to the room. You barricade yourself inside, holding your head as you sob your heart out.

You packed your bags that night and left the trip early, ignoring everyone's phone calls.

Back home, you were heartbroken. You try to wrap your head around why? He told you, no, he promised you he would never cheat on you. That was the last thing on his mind, or so you thought. You beat yourself up, how could you be so stupid? He was practically cheating on you that whole trip. That kiss was just the nail in the coffin. 

Unbeknownst to you, your girlfriends had let Arin have it. They called her all the names in the book, cementing whose side they were on. Jungkook wasn't free from their criticism either. They had read him to filth, which resulted in their boyfriends having to drag them away before they legitimately beheaded him. They decided to end their trip short, too. 

A day after you left, the group decided to all come to your apartment at once. They could see some unresolved explanations to be said, and if Jungkook's incessant crying was any indicator, maybe you had gotten it all wrong. One part of it was to have everyone explain their side uninterrupted. The other part was that if there wasn't some sort of mediator, they were sure you would throw your microwave at Jungkook and Arin's heads. 

It leads you all here. Silent, sitting in your living room. You stare at the wall, trying to avoid Jungkook's piercing gaze. You know he's fighting every bone in his body not to jump over the coffee table and hug you. He always hated when you cried. You almost feel bad, his red-rimmed eyes and distraught demeanor tugging at your heartstrings. You remind yourself that he cheated on you and doesn't deserve your pity. 

After a while, Arin clears her throat, getting everyone's attention. You set your pointed gaze on her, waiting to hear the stupidity about to come out of her mouth.

"I'm so sorry, Y/N. I never meant to hurt you. I just couldn't help my feelings for Jungkook," Arin says, tears in her eyes. Oh? You were confused. Is she admitting that Jungkook didn't cheat on you? You look over at him, and he nods.

"She's right, Y/N. I would never cheat on you. Arin kissed me, and I would've pushed her away! I swear! But you walked in as soon as she kissed me. I didn't even have time to process what had just happened." He's pleading, inching closer to the edge of his seat, almost as if he would pounce on you at any second.

You sigh, sitting up. You look at Arin first. "Arin," you begin. "I've put up with your antics for as long as I can remember. I always knew you liked Jungkook, but I set my feelings aside because I know how important you two are to each other. But this? This was too far. You kissed my boyfriend, Arin. MY boyfriend. You had no right to do that."

She bows her head, muttering another small apology. You turn to Jungkook. "Jungkook. I communicated with you about my feelings regarding your friendship with her. You told me she wasn't a problem, that she wouldn't try anything. Look where that ended us up." He bites his lip, nodding his head in agreement.

You sigh again. "Arin, I forgive you. I know you and Jungkook have been friends for such a long time, and that maybe that manifested into love or whatever, but I need to make one thing clear. If I want my relationship to work out with Jungkook, I need you to stay away from us for the time being. Not for forever, but for a while." She hesitates before nodding, looking toward Jungkook, yet he doesn't even spare her a glance.

"I forgive you too," You say, looking at Jungkook. "But you need to agree with my proposition to make this work. If you can't do that, I really don't want to even bother giving you a second chance."

"Of course." He says almost instantly. You nod. 

The rest of your friends pipe up, apologizing for any part they may have played in the situation and promising to support you all in any way they could.

After everyone had left, you and Jungkookwere finally alone. The two of you sit down on the couch, and you let out a tense breath.

"I'm sorry," Jungkook says, taking your hand. "I never wanted to hurt you."

"I know," you reply, tears still in your eyes. "I just...I can't believe that happened."

"I promise you, Y/N, I love you and only you," Jungkook says, looking into your eyes. "Arin's feelings for me don't change that."

You took a deep breath and leaned into him. You knew he was right. Your love for each other was strong enough to overcome any obstacle, even something as painful as this.

"I love you too, Jungkook," you assured, feeling a weight lift off your chest.

You sat there for a while, just holding each other and talking about what had happened. The two of you agreed that you needed to be more mindful of boundaries in your friendships and that you would work together to make sure nothing like this ever happened again.

As the night wore on, you decided to order food and spend the rest of the evening together. You knew it wouldn't be easy, but you were both determined to move past this and come out stronger on the other side.

Arin did eventually come back into your life many, many months later. Thankfully, you all had another conversation in which you reaffirmed your boundaries, and she graciously agreed to them. In the end, your love for each other only grew. You had weathered a brutal storm but came out on the other side more committed to each other than ever before.

[sadgirlglimmeringdarling]

Olivia has lupus. How could she? 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

In my opinion, I don't really believe Olivia has Lupus. I'm just going by all the pics and vids she's posted of herself on IG over the years. She's put that out there for public consumption. With that being said, I don't know how anyone with Lupus can survive this long as a smoker.

You just don't go on for years and years smoking, eating junk food on the road and swallowing energy drinks like it's water when you have Lupus. It's not possible for the body to survive for years with all those toxins going inside your body. No one with Lupus can survive that for that long.

That's why I always questioned if Olivia has Lupus.

Lupus is a disease that destroys your organs. Imagine being a smoker with all that happening in your body. Jesus Christ.

Lets look at Selena Gomez.

She went years smoking, partying and allegedly doing drugs. She had no idea she had Lupus. When she found out she had Lupus, she needed a kidney transplant. The Lupus destroyed her kidney and her lifestyle made it worst. Not her fault really. She had no idea she had Lupus. Once she did, she changed her lifestyle.

Halsey is another one. She glorified smoking from 2011 - 2020.

Halsey - smoked for years, partied hard and also allegedly did drugs. She got pregnant, got herself clean for her baby and as soon as she had her son, she got gravely sick. She learned she had Lupus after giving birth. She probably was another one walking around without any idea of having Lupus.

Both Selena and Halsey did interviews over the years describing fatigue and "I feel like there's something wrong with me but I don't know what it is" - not knowing what was wrong with them was that they had Lupus. They knew something was wrong but they didn’t know what the hell it was.

At least when they both found out they had Lupus, they changed their lifestyles completely, living clean healthy lives.

But Olivia? According to what she posts on her IG - she hasn't changed anything despite "having Lupus". What do her doctors say? What does Jack say? People die from Lupus everyday. Posting #Lupuswarrior on IG one time for getting a Covid vaccine ain't doing shit for her.

I actually took a look at her IG just now. She hasn't posted anything with smoking, energy drinks or junk food it seems for a while. Then again, I don't watch her IG religiously, so maybe she deleted something. Maybe she finally quit smoking or perhaps she doesn't post it on social media anymore. She use to get a lot of criticism back in the day for posting smoking pics. She would snap at people in the comments who asked her why she was smoking when she had Lupus. Typical Olivia behavior.

For her health's sake, I hope Olivia finally quite smoking. No one in this day and age should be smoking. It causes cancer. Period.

As someone who has friends and family members with Lupus, I see the pain and struggle with having Lupus. People are placed in disability for Lupus for a good reason.

Here's a documentary on Lupus for those interested.

[forestfrolickingfairy787]

Wild x Reader part 2

WOAH, I'm so surprised how much engagement my posts are getting just a couple of hours after posting! Thanks so much for the love, it makes me feel so warm inside. This is a continuation of the prev story!

More Twilight time here yayyy. It's a bit short but I'll upload more tomorrow.

“So, are you doing a little better today?” Wild asked, once again preparing today’s breakfast.

I slowly nodded, trying to wipe the sleep out of my eyes, feeling my vision blur. I’d only just woken up.

“Sort of,” I yawn, stretching my arms above my head. I’d felt a little bit better, after just taking time to think. I suppose things had finally settled, and I could feel my head clear, finally. He stirred in a bunch of berries, and milk, letting the sweet aroma fill the air. I couldn’t wait, and finally got up, leaning over as he cooked.

“Do you think you’d ever open your own restaurant? I’d totally come by everyday.” I say, whiffing the air. Wild laughs, hands on his hips.

“Maybe, who knows? Would much prefer that then to have to be the hero.” I roll my eyes.

“Ahh yes…the burden of being a hero.” He raises a brow, but I laugh.

“I’m joking, I know it’s tough.”

“Yea! I don’t think you’d like to be pounded again by that giant lizalfos.” Just the image made me shudder again, thinking back how close it had been to snapping my arm. And then Time yelling at me for nearly ten minutes. I did not ever want to witness that again. After zoning out Wild clicks his finger, waving his hand in front of me.

“Sorry didn’t mean to traumatise you…Is Time still mad at you?” he said in a low voice, quickly glancing around. Everyone else is mostly asleep- save for Warriors who is always one of the first to awaken. He’s always quiet in the morning, mostly acknowledging us with a small wave that we return. I didn’t want to quite see Time yet- we still weren’t exactly on talking terms yet. Unless we really needed too. “I’ll take that as a yes.” Wild says, going back to staring at the pot.

“I’ve never been so terrified of him before, like I know he can get mad but boy I wouldn’t want to get hurt just for the sake of avoiding his-“ As I keep talking Wild doesn’t react, instead of widening his eyes. I immediately bite down my lip, looking over my shoulder, and see Time stand behind us, his arms crossed against his chest, clearly unamused. Had I been that loud?

“Aha Morning old man! Just in time for breakfast!” Wild says, and I quickly side step, the internal panic once again setting in. I decide to step away from the camp, looking out towards the forest path and slip away. I still can’t face him…mostly because I was way too embarrassed.

 Once I’m well away enough towards the lake, I slip down a tree trunk, staring at the clear blue waters. It’s always calming here, and place my head against my knees. How on earth was I meant to continue this up while he was still mad? I could barely talk anymore. For the past few weeks I’d been caught up in this spiral of anxiety, nearly impossible to get out of. I didn’t even know how to explain to anyone here- well mostly because it was a me, and back home problem…

Tired, I let out a deep sigh, hitting the back of my head against the bark, not realising that it actually hurt.

“Ouch!” I hold my head, shaking it in dismay. “What on earth am I doing? I have no idea what I’m doing anymore.” I mumble to myself. A branch snaps, and I pause, glancing around, seeing Twilight near towards me, a sheepish smile growing. He rubs the back of his head, apologising. But my heart almost skips a beat. Nope nope nope. Why was he here?

“Sorry- I didn’t mean to interrupt. I was just taking a walk. Everything okay?”

ugh, I hate how polite he is.

Like no sir, you don’t understand how much I love seeing you that I can’t even FACE you. Once again I internally panic, rendering me speechless.

“y/n”

“Sorry! I’m okay!” I mix up my words, unsure how to conversate anymore. He steps closer, but I don’t look. Keeping my attention on the lake. Water. Blues. Many blues, but he walks in front of me, now his eyes hold my gaze. So very blue.

Twilight laughs, and I hate it because he’s so damn charming and near perfect, but I refuse to meet his gaze. Why should I when I know there isn’t the slightest chance of anything happening between us? He’s a hero. He’s amazing.

Me? I’m a panicked human that somehow ended up here.

“I- not too pry but I saw you’ve been a bit quiet lately. The old man is like that with everyone, I mean I’ve lost count how many times he’s lost it with me.” He says, again with that damn near charming smile.

I only nod, trying to talk.

“Is it okay if I sit with you?”

“Nobody is stopping you.” I laugh, then feel an ugly colour redden my face. What was that?

“I mean of course you can, sorry. I’m just a bit…anxious lately.” I say, growing tired of myself.

“Do you want to talk about it?” I pause, not wanting to dump all my problems on someone else. I’ve done this too many times, ruminating on the past, and myself until it stifles me. So I shake my head.

“Maybe something else? I just need to take my mind off of my…mind?” Twilight laughs, sitting down.

“I get that…how about castle town? You’ve never been right?” I’d only heard stories from them- I mean it was the same place in each of their worlds, yet they all had their own differences. Still, I was looking forward to it.

“Nope! What’s your favourite part? I’d love to hear about it.” Twilight takes a moment, placing a hand against his cheek, contemplating. The light reflecting on his face is just so perfect.

“Hmm, well there always used to be lots of animals where I was…I mean like cats and dogs. They’d always end up following me everywhere. I sort of miss that.” I don’t know why it even surprises me that the animals are drawn to him. Yes, because he’s a wolf but also just that magnetic.

“That’s sweet, I don’t think animals are really uhh…big fans of me. Cats tend to run away even though I love them.” Link laughs.

“I’m sure you just need to find the right one. Anyway, there’s also tons of cool shops. You know places to get new gear or meet cool people. I still remember there was a girl that used to sell bugs.” I blink a few times.

“What? Sell bugs?”

“Yep, I made some good money!”

“well, that’s resourceful…”

“I know, it sounds weird, but everyone was charming in their own way. I guess we all have our differences in our world. No idea what the old man’s place is like. But he’s been quietly giddy about seeing Malon, so I don’t think you need to worry too long about his mood.” I can’t lie, but it sounds adorable that he’s got someone waiting for him back home, that he’s happy about it. Also, I hope he won’t stay mad at me for too long. I pick on a blade of grass, feeling a cool spring breeze. I don’t want these moments to go, but that uncertainty keeps growing.

“I’m looking forward to meeting her…and also time not being so annoyed at me again.” I say. Finally he gets up turning towards me.

“Let’s head back? I’m sure their waiting for us.” I already feel the dread, hitting my head back again for the second time. I really do never learn.

“Yikes! Are you okay?” he tries not too laugh, but I sigh, shuffling to get off the floor until he reaches his hand down. I hesitantly take it, and we turn back, continuing to walk until Wild steps in.

“So this is where you two have been? We’re waiting for you guys.” He says pointedly, but I already see the slight smile in his expression, looking at me but quickly shrug it off.

“Alright sorry. We’re coming okay?”

[skunkox]

Let's Talk About Turning

Let's go in order of Listeners. If any of the recounted information is incorrect, please let me know.

Bright Eyes:

From retelling from old fans, Bright had literally no say (possibly idea of) the turning till after it was at least in progress.

Lovely:

They were in a life or death situation. They chose to continue living at the cost of losing the power they worked so hard to learn, along with the normalcy of everyday life.

They seem to be taking everything in stride, but I'm worried for them. They seems to be an optimist except for when it comes to their image to others. (That's a post for another day)

Darlin':

Has been given the option to be turned. They still have the option to. But there's 3 things pointing in the no direction. In chatacter wise at least.

Sam still intends to stay with them regardless of how they age. They finally feel their place in the pack. Why lose the original link that made them a part of that family? Last and finally, Sam won't be living an eternal life, regardless if Darlin' wanted to or not with him.

I'm personally a believer that Darlin' wants to keep a mortal life for Sam's sake. Giving him a natural life time line. I hate to think about it, but I think we all see how that's all ending. At least we know that if that's the route Erik has chosen, when shit really his the fan with the meridian, these two are safe. Right? Right.

Treasure:

Let me start off by saying we don't know much about them because their story is quite literally two videos deep so far. What we've seen so far is that Treasure appears to have a dependency or rather a need to do for others. Regardless if they might feel uncomfortable or just not enjoy the sway of their company. Old company we should say.

I think we've mostly come to the agreement that if Treasure hadn't wanted to go off with Porter, they wouldn't have. They were there for their at the time, friends. The night at the club very well could have been the last straw.

All this to say I believe Treasure will be getting turned. Treasure is at the beginning of a break out from their own shell and making choices that benefits themself. There is some level of care and joy between Porter and Treasure. If that grows, wouldn't they want to stay together? If the first person to truly make Treasure happy is gonna live forever, wouldn't they want to too?

There are other ideas of Treasure being a Stealth cause the bitch didn't seem to freak out over Porter being s blood sucking play boy. Erik seems to be leaving empowered reveals of his characters to listener characters to the listeners, for the most part.

There's also the chance Erik could kill off Porter's character. There's a rule of 3 for character stories, it seems. We lost Fred from a listener standpoint and gained Porter. We have 3 wolves. 3 vampires, and 3 d(a)emons that have consistant romantic undertones at the very least. Vega is dead, but he can be brought back. I don't think he's killing Porter off but it's not impossible?

We're at the calm before the storm boys. I swear in the next 4 months, shits gonna get real and all he'll will break loose. Or Aria? Through the meridian. I'm rambling.

But yeah. Totally think that Treasure will get that choice and will be turned.

Again, if my information is wrong, let a bitch know. We gonna suffer through this together.

[fruitsoxs]

I just had a cute idea that I'd like you to write some headcanons for (if you want to of course). For context, I'm pretty sure newspapers have these little sections where people can write messages or post ad-like requests for themselves. I cant remember what its called though.

Pre-canon, Vash and his crush have to separate for a while, but they end up surprising him by sending him little messages through the paper under a pseudonym. And for the sake of convenience let's assume the whole planet has the same news providers lol. Hope I explained this well!

i found out they're called classifieds !

pairings; vash x (GN) reader warnings; none! just fluff notes; ajsk as h this request has been at the back of my mind since i got it. its very cute. it was really hard coming up with a coded message though?? so i only did one. it's also heavily 98 Vash coded

Life on the run with Vash isn’t always fun, and sometimes you can get pretty hurt out there

You happen to get a little injury on your leg, meaning you have to stay still for a while

The problem? Vash has to keep moving. He promises he’ll come back and grab you in a month when you’re supposed to be fully healed

You’re lucky the town doctor owes you two a favor, and the kind old man offers to let you stay with him while Vash is gone

Sadly, this means you have to separated from Vash which …sucks

Over the past little bit the two of you have gotten pretty close, and the idea of being separated really bums you both out. It’s hard for you to get Vash to even leave. He gives you these sad puppy-dog eyes and asks over and over again if you’ll be okay

The doctor ends up kicking him out so he can “get some work done.”

The first day is the hardest day you’ve had in years. You’re down and depressed, won’t eat all of your food.

The doctor, trying to help cheer you up, gives you this idea. He tells you about a section in the newspaper where you can write little requests/ads. Since the newspaper spreads across the entire planet,  it could definitely reach him. 

You know Vash reads the paper, usually with breakfast. It’s a perfect plan

You write out the coded message; “Searching for the elusive mayfly known as love. Been missing my mayfly for about two days now. I hope I can see them again soon. They are the brightest part of my day ” You sign it off with the nickname that Vash calls you

When Vash sees the ad he about passes out.

He’s been miserable ever since he had to leave you. He’s insecure about letting you get hurt , depressed because he’s traveling alone again, and he misses your touch so much. It’s during this little space that he starts realizing how much you really mean to him. 

So he’s all mope as he grabs the morning paper, not expecting to see his own little mantra on the pages. 

He knows it's you immediately. 

He almost cries a bit as the sweet message, his heart beating fast as he thinks about the cute little smile you always wear. You’re the brightest part of his day too. 

He buys the paper everyday that month, looking for any new messages that may appear. 

You send him as many as you can afford, the doctor helping you pay for them. 

Vash cuts out every ad he sees, piling them up and putting them in his pocket where they’re safe. He likes to take them out and read them when he starts missing you

Finally the month starts to come to an end, and you’re able to walk around again

You have so much energy you don’t know what to do with yourself. The doctor starts making you do little chores around his house so you don’t explode. 

You’re actually out in town picking up something for the doctor when you spot that familiar red jacket

You rush towards the man and jump into his arms 

He hugs you back and presses his face into your hair with a grin

The two of you hug for a moment before he takes your hands and thanks you for all the messages you sent

There is no confession, but the relationship has changed. You know this because he holds your hand as you walk back to the doctors place

and in the future if the two of you are ever separated again, you know how to talk to him.

[catras-breakup-song]

Haters these days are so funny like imagine their thought process it's

"grrr i hate this ship so much that i will interact with it's fandom everyday, watch edits and analize the psycology behind them and the person who made it,search for fanarts and read fanfics of it to fill me up with more rage to post about it on Tumbrl dot com🤬"

Like damn ok 😭

well, everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but to be fair i'm not sure they get into analysis/meta, edits/AMVs, or fanart/fanfics and really enjoy the fun aspect of fandom...?* that being said, i've never understood why people create designated gimmick blogs just to hate & trash on something. there's a distinction between that and constructive criticism (which they tend to label themselves as), the latter of which i just prefer to avoid if i don't like seeing it (but acknowledge that it's often necessary regardless), and often i fear it's just putting a piece of media down simply for the sake of making people feel bad for liking it, or at least it comes across to me that way. 🤷

*i don't doubt too heavily some of them do with SPOP for other characters & ships than catradora considering that's the one most of them find problematic, but from my point of view that's kinda difficult to get around when their relationship is the soul of the story.

[crispyanonartnsfw]

The list of art wips and drafts is infinite but time and energy are so little - I wanna rip the time space continuum with my own hands and crawl out of it

You know that feeling when you're sad because you can't possibly read all books or understand all languages in a single lifetime? Ok that's dramatic, but still. When I was a small kid I used to draw all day everyday, occasionally went back to it but otherwise stopped for so many years, and truly picked it up again only as an adult - as a little treat for my mental health. It worked wonders! It quickly became my main private hobby, if I have a few minutes by myself I'll 100% be drawing (+ it prevents me from doom scrolling and giving myself anxiety attacks just because I'm silly like that)

All this to say I'm really scared of art becoming a source of frustration for me. My whole premise before starting to post here on tumblr was: no goals, no achieving high quality, no stress, just freely creating for the sake of creating - like a kid does. I want to keep art-making separate from my job (which is already art-adjacent btw so that's a perilous line to walk) for this exact reason...but do I? It's what I love to do, but I don't want to corrupt it and lose all the joy. I used to be a very high-achieving person in my career, and that led me to severe burnout, so I'm not doing that again (which sadly doesn't mean that part of me is gone, it's very much alive and vocal in my brain)

Idk if other creators - and I feel uncomfortable calling myself a creator but you get what I'm saying - all have these thoughts or if it's just stupid. Anyway being an adult sometimes sucks asses, like, in general, and these are indeed privileged issues.

Sorry there is no ulterior point to this hormonal medication driven yap session which was initially sparked by the fact that I want to draw Falin and Marcille kissing but I have too many things lined up 🤡

TLDR:

straight from my screenshots

[fogwitchoftheevermore]

I want to see your team ups pls

HELL YEAH. welcome to the space zone.

explanations for the teams will be below the cut for the sake of your dash. because i have a lot to say about some of these.

TEAM "SCOTT'S WORST NIGHTMARE" (BIGB, JOEL, GEM)

i've talked about this team before, but this is the one i most strongly want to see soon. partially because i think the dynamic between the three of them would be awesome, partially because i think they'd be the rest of the server (but especially scott's) worst fucking nightmare, and partially because i think one of them would absolutely win. quickly going to break down why they'd all be scott's worst nightmare and then i'll get into their dynamics with each other.

gem-bree made this point better than i ever could so go read this post, thanks. gem can scare scott in a way no one else really can, and she knows how scary she is to him and just about everyone else. and it's awesome.

joel-literally self explanatory. you know what violence joel feels in his heart for scott. scott isn't actually particularly afraid of joel but joel with a team of people who he can convince to go after scott with him who he's actually afraid of would actually get his attention.

bigb-probably the most charismatic man on the server other than scott. can talk his way out of most situations, including talking scott out of stuff, which as we learned from sl!scott, freaks him out a bit! i think about "it's a lot easier to kill him when he's muted" literally everyday, i think it sums up scott's deal w/ bigb pretty much perfectly.

NOW with each other i also think this would be an awesome team. first of all, i think they'd have a really interesting dynamic. we've seen a fair bit of gem and joel on hermitcraft that makes me think they'd be a whole lot of fun together here, and i don't know exactly how bigb would contribute to the dynamic (because he's barely spoken to either of them in the grand scheme of the series), just their vibes as people make me think it'd be fun.

but also they're all very interesting people when it comes to their past teamups. bigb has wanted to be in on a close knit alliance for a really long time, but it so frequently falls apart for him, either because of his own trust issues or his bad reputation (or both). the notable outlier here is nosey neighbors, and generally i think bigb functions best in these smaller alliances with people who a: don't subscribe to/care about the baggage he comes with (the way cleo talks about him) and b: who can view him equally to the other alliance members. gem has no real preconceived notions about bigb, and joel is well aware of the last life and double life stuff, i'm sure, but i don't think he'd really... give a shit? so i think this would be a group that would welcome bigb in and maybe (in gem's case specifically) convince him that they trust him all the way through, or at least that they trust him as much as they trust the other guy in the alliance, because gem and joel have a relationship in hermitcraft, but not really in the context of the life series. because of their respective alliances last season, they were on opposite sides most of the time! none of these people have ever allied together before, and i think that fresh blood would be huge for all three of them.

joel also has a weird track record with alliances, having been a lone wolf until he was forced not to be in double life, at which point he realized having friends was awesome actually and has been desperate for it. i think joel and bigb are both desperate for friendship in a similar way but both want to be Cool about it, joel because he desperately needs to be cool all the time and bigb because all the times he's tried to actually hold onto people it's not worked out. so putting the two of them on the same alliance would, in my head, not necessarily force them both to confront their problems but would get them somebody who matches their freak. joel and gem also have a similar level of bloodthirst, joel has his violent grudges and gem doesn't necessarily get those grudges but she just genuinely has fun when she gets in fights. put them together and i think they would destroy.

gem's track record with alliances is hard to judge because uh. she's only had the one (i'm not taking real life into consideration for any of this because i 1. still haven't watched it and 2. don't see it as wildly indicative of how anyone would act in the actual series because no one was taking it or themselves seriously). but gem and the scotts were being held together with "glitter glue and a dream", as my buddy mcybree said that one time, so i think gem teaming up with two people who are uh. weird. about alliances wouldn't really throw her. bigb spending a ton of time on his own wouldn't stand to make her distrustful of him, though i think she would try to convince him to actually base with them (unlike the heart foundation). and then with joel who would like a friend please, she'd absolutely be down to hang out with him because they play off each other stupidly well. and she knows they do, so she's gonna make it work!

i don't know if any of that was comprehensible i will be honest. but just trust me THEY WOULD WORK AND IT WOULD BE AWESOME. and i think they'd be a really well balanced team, as well, hence me saying that i think one of them could win with this team. they'd be willing to put the work in to make sure one of them wins, and they have the skills to back it up (bigb with his silver tongue, gem with her pvp ability and weaponized reputation, and joel with his willingness to throw himself headfirst into whatever it is he wants). do you see the vision.

WORLD'S WORST POLYCULE (SKIZZ, TANGO, REN, MARTYN)

this would be, to me, a somehow even worse version of team BEST. because it's once again shoving two pairs of insanely close people into a group and hoping it works, but this time it's got the further layer of martyn's weird dynamics with skizz and tango (and skizz's dynamic with ren). literally the only people who have not, at some point, had a weird gay thing (or a weird anything) going on in this group are ren and tango, this is gonna be a nightmare.

so obviously we were all there for treebark, that's self explanatory. also if we're imagining this as next season, aka ren's triumphant return to the series proper, that would make this whole thing infinitely worse in ways i can't begin to comprehend. we were also all there for tango and skizz's three seasons in a row of teaming up and literal years of friendship and gay shit. also self explanatory.

but then there's more. so first of all, we have skizz and ren. skizz and ren also had some weird gay shit going on in third life, it's just usually overshadowed by the gay shit ren had going on with martyn (partially because him and martyn never got over it and partially because martyn lived with him and as such, got to be gay with him more frequently. and also the beheading.) but skizz loves to be a "loyal sword" (his own words), and he hasn't really gotten to do that since third life, despite his best efforts. because skizz wants to be a loyal sword to someone who acts like ren did, and no one else really wants to be a leader in that way, so skizz has to do it instead. skizz said this on the imp and skizz podcast- he has modeled every alliance he's ever had on the red army. that's that loyalty that never fucking goes away. skizz being in an alliance with ren again would be able to slot right back into the loyal soldier role he's so desperate to play with knowledge that it'll work, that he can trust the guy in charge to lead. and all of that is already insanely layered, but when we consider that, oh yeah, martyn's here, i don't think martyn would be too happy about this! it was fine in the red army because he was closer to ren than skizz, he was the right hand while skizz was the sword. he was an extension of ren in a way skizz wasn't. but here, we're starting over again, we're starting over after seasons and years of these guys not playing together or being in the same alliance, and martyn has gotten so much worse. he's going to have his jealousy on full display and it would be ugly.

and the "martyn's gotten worse" thing leads nicely into my next point, martyn and tango. to put it simply, tango hates martyn so much. so fucking much. he has held a violent grudge against him since about halfway through limited life that he's never been able to adequately get revenge for, because he just kept failing. and martyn also doesn't get it. just doesn't really get why tango's so mad about those two kills, which makes it worse for tango, i think. and so putting the two of them on the same team would put tensions at a high at all times between the two of them, but it would also make martyn and skizz's dynamic even weirder, because skizz doesn't really have anything against martyn, not in the grand scheme of things, but when tango's mad at somebody, skizz goes along with it. for example, in secret life when they're trying to recruit... i think it's bdubs, i can't actually remember, martyn gets whoever it is distracted so they don't talk to them, and tango instantly starts talking about how it's typical martyn behavior and skizz, despite not really having this hatred for martyn that tango does, skizz immediately agrees, saying "yeah, martyn ruins everything". so if the vibe on the team is going to be "tango at martyn's throat all the time while martyn is insanely weird towards skizz in regards to his relationship with ren", skizz is going to return that weirdness! and it would be funny. and also insane. unfortunately tango's violent hatred for martyn is the reason i think this team isn't happening. at least not until tango gets over it, but that would also make the team up less interesting to me. or less interesting to the public at large, i would still be so interested to see how skizz's loyalty would get split between ren and tango, but i don't think most other people would care.

SOUP GROUP REDUX (PEARL, IMPULSE, GRIAN)

look i want to see a soup group team as much as the next guy but i think this teamup would also be awesome. perhaps even better. we wouldn't be getting whatever insane yuri we got out of pearl and gem in secret life, yes, but we'd have whatever the hell these three would have going on. this is the team i could see happening the most, out of all the ones on the list. we technically got this team already at the end of limited life, but etho being there as well made the vibe different than what i think the three of them on their own would have, especially since pearl and etho weren't on good terms.

but we've seen grian with them in pairs before (impulse and grian in last life and grian and pearl at the end of limited life), and while we haven't seen pearl and impulse together in the life series before, it's soup group, we know they work well together. the teamups within the team that we have seen before have also been ones i've wanted to see more of. i loved the way impulse and grian played off each other with the wither in last life, and i've wanted to see a world where they teamup again to do that level of crazy but like, functional this time for ages. and i love pearl and grian all the time forever, but they were a ton of fun in limited life, i'd love to see them do it again and for longer this time.

i just don't really have the words to describe it but like! they have a really good and solid dynamic with each other! you've watched them, you know what i mean! this would also be a season i could see impulse winning, which is part of my reasoning for wanting to see this team so bad. pearl doesn't want to win again, and grian acts like he does and i don't think he doesn't want to win again, but i don't think it's gonna happen. but impulse would have a team of people who are just as good if not better than him at the game to back him up, who'd be willing to help him along to a win, and i could see it finally working out for him. as long as they don't get on team scott repellent's bad side. since that's the other team i could see with a chance to win, and being on the bad side of the actual winner and winner's allies (bdubs and desert duo in the third life, pearl and divorce quartet in double life, mean gills in limited life) has always been his downfall when he gets close.

OH JESUS CHRIST (BDUBS, CLEO, LIZZIE, SCOTT)

this would be. insane. you know it would be. this is another one that i can't see happening because i unfortunately can't see lizzie and cleo teaming up for a full season again. maybe near the end of the series when they were getting desperate, but i'm making up day one allies here, and that is not happening with this group. but we can imagine it together anyways.

ultimately, all the craziness here revolves around cleo and her insane relationships with everyone else in this group. bdubs loves to have undying and terrible loyalty towards cleo. shadowrot. scott and cleo are qpps that make each other so much worse. all of them have such unique relationships with cleo and i cannot even begin to imagine how it would mingle together but i know it would be wild.

there's also everyone else's dynamics, of course. i think bdubs and lizzie would just be really fun, vibes wise. i think they'd mingle together well and i don't really have any evidence here, i just know it in my heart to be true. lizzie and scott would also be a really interesting team to me, since they've got their x life and empires history but otherwise haven't interacted a ton in the life series. part of that is because lizzie hasn't been in the series much, but i want to see them interact more. i enjoy their dynamic outside of the life series a lot, and i'd love to see how that transfers here, especially since scott's main association with lizzie is everything he heard about the fairy fort from cleo after she defected, so uh... it's not a great image, i'll say. and also that time she tried to kill him and failed really badly in secret life. that doesn't help.

bdubs and scott have a fun dynamic outside of cleo, but because cleo is here i have to touch on widow's alliance. widow's alliance was made out of scott and cleo's total surety in how third life would work out, and scott was right, and he felt no real remorse about having bet on two people's deaths to be right about that. and i don't think cleo would've felt remorse so much as she would've mourned, had they been right, but they weren't. cleo went first. and scott, instead of. uh. having tact and being normal when he talks to bdubs afterwards. just tells him straight up "this wasn't supposed to happen. you're supposed to be dead, and this should be me and cleo." and that's already kinda deranged of him, but my favorite thing in bdubs response to that is that like... he doesn't really refute it. he just goes "yeah, that tracks, i thought she'd outlive me too" and they move on. and i would love to see what would result in these two being in close proximity to each other AND cleo from day one. lizzie would only make this worse and it would be great.

also i think this team would successfully get scott to care about them in a way that blindsides him ala jimmy (expecting their deaths and thinking he's prepared for it, only to realize how wrong he was) and as such make him perform worse. this is how we avoid another scott smajor top 5 performance.

SECRET LIFE AU (SCAR AND JIMMY)

secret life was great for scar AND jimmy in different ways and i recognize that scar definitely wouldn't have won if he and jimmy had been allies. but have you considered that i would kill for this. they were so fun during the empires/hermitcraft crossover. they play off each other in such good ways, since they're both guys who are frequently the butt of the joke and know how to play the butt of the joke, but they also both know how to be bitches. and they should be bitches more often, i love when both of them get snippy, because they're funny. scar is more comfortable getting snippy rather than letting himself be the joke than jimmy, and i think if we put them together jimmy would definitely be the target of scar's jokes a lot of the time, but i think it would also encourage jimmy to be more of an ass to everyone else. and i support jimmy solidarity's wrongs. i have no idea how these two would work out strategically. probably badly. but that's not important to me, what's important is the energy.

MUMBO'S BIG DAY (ETHO AND MUMBO)

do we all remember the best friend task. because i do. and i think a season that's literally just that for the entire time would be insanely funny. i also think mumbo would manage to be first out of the series in this hypothetical team, but he's a sacrifice i'm willing to make for the humor. i also think after mumbo died etho would just quietly add himself onto the bdubs/cleo/lizzie/scott team and make the dynamic infinitely worse, but that's not the point of this. the point of this is that this would be probably the most entertaining time i would ever have with a mumbo season, which is saying something.

[skinnypaleangryperson]

All I wanted in life was to be a mother, a loving wife, to raise a beautiful family because that is what feels like the most profound spiritual human gift of God to me, so much to the point that I can't even stand it even just with a stimulation of consuming or thinking about it for a few moments. I wanted to live in the city for a little bit of day-to-day diversity and to have a feeling creative career or at the very least have some sort of modest side product of a career, I wouldn't have been to picky in that aspect.

I reached my conclusion years ago and of the gradual devastation of realizing that none of those things would ever be even remotely possible to me or for me, and on top of that, did not even have a support group for profound grief, or even just general community and general for anything other than soulless people on apps all day that argue about things that don't matter and have no compassion for those that are spiritual and had actual human goals and dreams and to live meaningful lives outside of being a slave, aimless hobbies or temporary passions, and arguing about things like selfish appearance, or political opinions or things that true late, down to the absolute core nub if you're anybody who thinks or has any soul or self-awareness at all, does not matter. On the contrary, The people who stand for all these things is all that I have, who don't care about anyone or even themselves, much less incredibly spiritual gifted people like me who just wanted to live a human fulfilling dignified regular life with spiritual and creativity fulfillment.

These past couple of days, months, have been even enough because of the very two people of my parents who I am forced to stay alive for after they saved me for my suicide attempt from these very conclusions a couple of years ago, and living with them and living for them is just fulfilling enough that even though it does not save me from the profound mental and spiritual suffering I am enduring every minute of every day with very little relief, it is just enough to put me into this strange stagnance despite the suffering, like sitting in the middle of a fire, while waiting for the two people that occasionally pour a tranquil of water on me to keep it just enough so that I sometimes forget I'm sitting in the fire, which I've become numb to as much as anybody can become numb to that kind of pain and is forced to live with it for the sake of the two people pouring on the trinkle of water now and then.

There is never been any such thing as friendship for me, there will never be a community again, the few people that I even just saw casually around me in college I will never even have again even just remind me that I'm not the only person existing on this earth. There is no happy ending, there is not even anything that resembles anything even remotely tolerable, there was only a slow decline of death, watching my parents die and then immediately ending my own life as soon as I can, but having to deal with the profound physical and emotional suffering that comes with having to end my own life and having to wait for so long and day-to-day existence and of being crushed everyday with seeing the superficiality and the literal subhumanity around me that is my generation no matter where you look, that is turn the profound grief that I have of a lifelong suffering of never having a family and of having nothing that I can do about it into nothing but soulless malicious gas lighting, of telling me that I can do something about my problems, to not feel sorry for something that is of a prone suffering I can't even around I had around that I cannot fix, of telling me that I need to get over it, as if I could ever get over something, and all the while not even having the luxury of being able to end my own life that is told time and time again that does not matter and isn't even allowed to grieve, or be seen, or to even discuss things say for posting over towards places where I essentially am just talking to myself on a digital screen instead of to the literal void in reality where I can no longer perceive or understand reality or that I exist, where dysfunctionality and suffering increases daily.

The suffering can be beautiful sometimes, but only in the sense that it reminds me that at the very least I will die for a genuine true human reason unlike the majority of people that I am forced to see everyday just to fight off psychosis and to give me stimulation of human interaction even though no one is really human anymore or even understands what that means, and you can see it in the posting that is on every app everywhere daily, how a soulless, rude, loud and how aimless people are. It's reached incomprehensible points where there's not much point in even trying to keep up with that at this point.

I just want to go, I just want to not stuff for anymore. I've had everything taken away from me, even the ability of being able to talk with people who respect my profound grief and my perspective and as to the conclusions that I've reached, and I have nothing but full grown man and woman children that have reduced it to a joke of telling me "just to get a plant". I am one of the only few human beings left on this earth, and as a result I have been left alone with my grief, and as if the loss that I've experienced wasn't enough of the dignified life that I wanted to live, I don't even have a community or people who are at the very least offer the baseline sense of decency or sympathy, or even humanity, towards that grief, and it is suffocating inside my head like a wretching grief only getting more confusing as I get older.

Please, fate, let me go. Everyday I will my body to give out.

[alchemicaladarna]

Hey QSMPblr! So, with the arrival of the new member, 악어 and his community, I would just like to take this time and remind y'all to REBLOG STUFF YOU LIKE FOR GOD'S SAKE!!

I know a lot of the community has been very good at reblogging things, BUT SOME OF YOU SHOULD TRY HARDER, OK? It's really discouraging to come across art or a piece of writing and see that it gained so little attention because only a few people saw it. Some of you might not know/are still getting used to tumblr because you're twitter refugees, but ❤️ something means jackshit. It's cool, but if you don't reblog, then the amount of people who saw that particular post would be reduced.

Maybe you want to have an organized blog- that's fine, you can still reblog everything, just put specific tags on the post so you or your mutuals can search for it later. Or make a separate account for other stuff. I personally have a very messy blog because I have no life and I'm on tumblr everyday, but that's ok because I come across so much wonderful art, analyses, theories, and stories!! Plus, this blog is QSMP only. I have one blog that's for everything Non-QSMP related, and an art account that's just for my art. And it works for me. It might not work for everyone, but you can find your own system that works for you!

The point is, REBLOG SHIT YOU LIKE OK?? Do your part to help the wonderful and lovely artists and writers in this community!!!

REBLOG > NOTES

Thank you and enjoy the event!!

[kafus]

my friend who passed away was the friend who got me that event pichu exclusive to IRL movie theaters in south korea that i mentioned a while back. his name was Riku

he passed away in the early morning of the 22nd (21st in my timezone). he was in his early 20s and had just moved out on his own and it was way too soon for him to go. just a week or two ago i was watching the kaika and vwp gensho concerts with him at 4 in the morning. he was around literally everyday - me and my friends found out about his death so soon because we were concerned that he was gone for just one day, and on the second day we reached out to one of his IRL friends to find out where he was. he was often in the hospital so i was hoping he was just afk for a particularly long time in the hospital and he would send a picture of his iv drip and the ceiling like he always did. i could not have imagined this would be the time he didn't make it. it is going to be weird not hearing from him literally everyday like i have been for the past 2-3 years. i am really struggling with this, i have had friends pass away but never any this close to me. i'm trying to keep myself together for his sake

leave it to me to process strong emotions through pokemon i guess but i loaded up SV to give the pichu the best friends ribbon so it says "the Great Friend" when sent out. i can't nickname it due to the fateful encounter flag but i've given him the name Anemo in my mind at least since our main shared interest that we met over was Kamitsubaki, and his favorite singer was Isekaijoucho, and the flower things in her hair are called Anemos (short for Anemones) and i thought naming him in a small way after something he loved and an interest we shared would benice

i also did a nuzlocke a while back where i had some special rulings to do with naming all my encounters after my friends from the friend group me and riku were in - the pokemon everyone got assigned were random and decided by spinning a wheel, and riku ended up being my flygon that came to the E4 and everything

i wasn't planning on ribbon mastering any pokemon from that playthrough, but now i really want to RM this flygon specifically. transfer him up and take him with me yknow

riku was not a pokemon fan in particular, but it was something we shared/bonded over - he used to ping me whenever he saw art of any kamitsubaki character with pokemon, and he went out of his way to celebrate that interest with me, even thru our language barrier

his favorite musician of all time was Kanzaki Iori, and some months ago he put out a call for fans to send him pictures he could use in the youtube videos for some cover songs he was doing. riku submitted photos, and on two occasions his photos were actually included - we didn't share pictures of ourselves or our real life often, so these were some of his rare photos of his real life presence

i can't stop listening to these. i cannot imagine how many times he listened to them himself. he was so happy about his photos being in these videos

i'll make a more proper memorial post at a later time (i want to draw something dedicated to him) but i just sort of wanted to ramble about this to get some thoughts out of my head in a public space. riku didn't have a ton of people in his IRL life and we were just friends over the internet but i want him to be remembered and i want my feelings today to be saved somewhere. eventually it'll get easier but for now it's still really raw