#I'm not happy with the ID but I hope its better than nothing

[aro-absol]

[ID: 15 pictures making a 3 x 5 moodboard. Each row has pictures with the same dominant color so that the moodboard resembles the aromantic flag.

1. Row (dark green): Left: A car dashboard. Middle: A shadow of two people forming a heart with their hands. Right: A close-up of a computer screen with a heart symbol and a question mark typed into a text editor.

2. Row (light green): Left: A vinyl record of SZA's album "Ctrl". Middle: Lemon slices and small white blossoms swimming in clear liquid. Right: A succulent photographed from above.

3. Row (white): Left: A white cup with blossoms swimming on the liquid's surface. Middle: The aromantic flag. Right: An otherwise blank page in a book that reads, "you are your home".

4. Row (grey): Left: A small mirror whose reflection shows a hand holding a white rose. Middle: Two people dancing in the rain. Right: Someone showing their middle finger to a neon sign saying "feelings" in all capital letters.

5. Row (black): Left: A person wearing a black dress holding white flowers. Middle: A black road sign saying, "it's a lonely road". Right: A white anatomical heart on a black background. / End ID]

[bluegalaxygirl]

Am i Crazy? (Zosan X Reader) P8

Plot: Reader hasn't been sleeping or eating, they wont let anyone touch then and keeps having accidents. Everyone if worried or thinks they've gone crazy but the reality is so much worse.

Warning: Past Domestic abuse, Bad language, blood, mental damage, Making out, nudity and fluff

Zoro X Sanji X reader, Poly relationship, established relationship, Reader is GN.

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7

The sunny stayed docked at the island, Luffy wanted to explore the place and factory while Franky had to fix up the shark sub that your ex washed up into the tree's. Usopp and Luffy were fascinated by the robots but Chopper tried to stay away from them feeling sad about them being people. You managed to sleep for a whole day, It got Sanji a bit worried when you would only wake up for a few minutes to eat and then go right back to sleep but Chopper told him it was normal, your body needed rest and Zoro was more than happy to stay with you, sleeping at your side or cleaning his swords. When you did wake up you felt awful but managed to get a shower and have your bandages changed, you were also surprised that you haven't left the island yet but also a little happy since you really wanted to go out at some point and look for your mother. You just wanted to see if she was ok, On the third day you felt a lot better, rest and food did you well but you were getting sick of being in your room all the time, Sanji refused to let you join them for food and always brought it to you. You love and appreciate your cook but you were worried about him and his arm, he said it was fine and healing well and when Chopper said the same you felt a lot better.

Walking out of your room with fresh cloths and a smile you look down at Chopper and pat his head "Thanks again Chopper, i don't know what id do without you" The doctor smiles and wiggles a little at your words "It's no problem" He waves skipping off leaving you to look out at your old home. Chopper kept his promise like he always does, your wounds were healing nicely and the bruises on your body were almost gone, you could do normal stuff again but you had your mind on one thing. Heading down onto the grassy deck you spot Zoro asleep against wall, walking over you bend down and run your hand over his check, he cracks his eye open with a groan only to smile when he see's its you "So i'm guessing Chopper cleared you" His groggy voice is like music to your ears, you nod as he stretches and gets up off the floor, before you can say anything he pulls you into him and places his lips on yours, you lean in running your hands up his chest and to his shoulders. "I'm so proud of you" Zoro whispers against your lips making you smile wider "Thank you, for putting up with me" you laugh as he rolls his eye and pulls you in for another kiss. "There's nothing to put up with. Your perfect" Zoro pulls away running his hands up your sides.

Sanji walks out of the kitchen, bags in hand and a shopping list, he doesn't know if there's anything here he can buy but its worth a try. As he steps down the stairs the cook lights up a cigarette taking a puff as he looks up to see you and Zoro, a smile forms on the mans face as he walks over to the two of you "Your up" He calls out seeing you turn to face him. You nod and reach your hand out which he gladly takes before taking his cigarette out and kissing you lightly on the lips, you lean in squeezing his hand a little. "You heading out?" Zoro asks as you and Sanji pull away "Yea, you said there used to be a market here, i'm hoping it got moved or something" Sanji shrugs looking out into the town "I can show you around" you speak only for the two to look at you with wide eyes "Your not going back there" Zoro pulls you in closer only for you to sigh "I want to, i-i kinda wanna look for my mum too plus i'm not scared anymore." you smile lightly placing your forehead against Zoro's "I'll have you two with me, right?" you ask hoping he will come. The swordsman sighs and closes his eye before nodding letting you go, so he can take your hand.

You turn to Sanji who looks at you worried so you lean over and kiss his cheek "I'll be fine, trust me" he smiles a little at your words before starting to walk putting his cigarette back in his mouth "Ok fine, but if your feeling sore or tired or mentally not well you tell us" You laugh a little as he holds you hand walking off the ship "of course, my master chef" you squeeze his hand seeing a slight blush on his face. The streets where quiet, old rundown houses and shacks laid out as you walked down the dirt and cobbled floor, people still slept on the streets and hung their washing out to dry, most of them looked skinny and you felt really sad for them. "So where did you use to live?" Zoro asks looking at the houses mainly the ones that didn't have a door just a sheet covering the door way. "To the right and then keep going down until we hit a fork in the road then left" you say mainly to Sanji since Zoro is terrible with directions. You three make your way down the street, the houses looking the same but there were street sighs that were easy to follow.

The house you used to live in soon appeared, it looked just like the others although a window was broken, some of the porch steps were missing and there was a red sheet covering the door way. A clothing line hung outside on two sticks, as you got closer you could make out a woman putting cloths up, but she was young only a little older than you. Stopping just outside the broken gate your heart dropped at the sight of your old home, it looked much worse than when you lived there, the walls were cracked but never this bad, pieces were falling of and the roof was now made of straw. "Can i help you?" the lady asks looking away from her basket of wet clothes and wiping her hands on her skirt. "Sorry i'm looking for a miss L/N, she used to live here" you look over the young woman as she shakes her head "Sorry Hun, it was vacant for a while before i started renting it 2 years ago, The name does sound kind of familiar though... maybe try the factory, most people work there now" She gives you a sad smile which you return, Zoro wraps his arm around your waist as Sanji squeezes your hand "Thank you miss" Sanji smiles at the lady as you three walk away.

You walked in silence as you made your way to the factory, so much was going through your head but you managed to get your thoughts under control looking up at Zoro who pulls you a little closer. "You ok?" He asks placing a kiss on your temple. "Yea, i think its just the unknown that scares me" you sigh before looking over at Sanji who gives you a loving smile and finishing his cigarette throwing it away. The factory was big but there was no smoke coming out of it, people were walking around putting things in large crates and taking apart machines. A woman steps out of the factory carrying a basket full of metal parts, relief rushes through your body "Mom" you call out, the woman turning in shock at your voice and dropping her basket. You smile as she runs at you tears in her eyes and crashes into you with a hug, Sanji and Zoro manage to help you keep your balance while your mother cry's into your shoulder apologizing over and over again. "I'm so sorry my girl, i just wanted you to have a better life, i wasn't thinking right, i know you can never forgive me but i love you" You hold her in your arms, you used to hate her but you knew why she did it, still it didn't make up for everything that happened. A part of you wanted to forgive her but the other part reminded you of how she kept sending you back to him.

You sigh and stroke her hair "I just wanted to make sure your ok" you whisper pulling her away as she ties to dry her face "I'm f-fine" she sniffles before looking up at you again then to Zoro and Sanji, taking them in before looking back at you "So... He was right, you did find someone else" she smiles a little only for Zoro to glare at her and wrap his arm around your shoulder "You talked to him?" The swordsman growls a little making your mother back up a bit but you keep a hold of her arms. "Zoro" Sanji whispers placing a hand on Zoro's arm over your shoulder "Urm yea." you let go of her arms your heart dropping a little "You work for him too?" you ask the small smile gone from your face "Yes, almost everyone works for him here but it keeps us fed, he owns the island or did. He wanted me to help find you and- i know it's no excuse, but he was a very powerful man" Zoro holds you a little tighter getting angry at the woman as Sanji places a hand on your back "You don't think i know that?" Your eyes are on the floor unable to believe that your mother would help him. "You knew what he would do to me if he found me and yet you helped him?" Your eyes shift up to look at her anger boiling through your veins "I-i'm sorry, you know what he's like its just the kind of man he i-" you cut her off with an unexpected slap to the face.

You pant as your hand stings and shakes, Your mother holds her now red cheek with a shocked look. "Y/N" Sanji whispers taking the hand you used to slap your mother trying to calm you down but Zoro didn't step in, he knew you needed this. "How could you still defend him? After everything he's done, not just to me but everyone here" you yell at her, Zoro now putting his arms around your torso to stop you form lunging at your mother. "I'm sorry honey, he was going to hurt me" Your mother try's to defend herself but you've had enough "You? Look at you, not even a scratch, your not skinny like the rest of these people. Do you see what he's done, look at me" you yell your hand going to your bandaged neck. "You don't know what its like to have his hands around your throat or bash your head into the floor or pull your hair as he drags you through the house or even stab you in the back for accidentally turning a shirt pink. You don't know what its like to be isolated form everyone and everything, told when to eat, when to sleep or even if you can, told what to wear or what to say... you've never had to turn to the only person who supposed to love you more than anything only for them to tell you to put up with it" Your eyes are full of tears and your voice starts braking as you yell.

Sanji tried to tell you to stop but his words fell on deaf ears while Zoro keeps holding you back while you scream at your mother pushing against him. Your mother tried to talk only to be cut off by your yelling, the people around look between you and your mother some shocked and others angry understanding what you've been through. "I needed you but you never came so i did it... i made it out, i got away, i did it no thanks to you only for you my own mother to lead him back to me... do you have any idea what he did to me? What he was going to do to my friends, my family?" you asks as she steps back shaking her head trying not to look at you "Look at me" you yell out before Sanji steps in front of you and pulls you into him. You can only hear your heart pounding in your ears but you can feel his heart beat and vibration of him talking. You reach around his back and cling onto his jacket as you try and calm down. Zoro sighs as you stop fighting him loosening his grip on you and checking to see if he hurt you in any way, luckily you were fine, but he still kept hold of you.

Sanji strokes your hair lightly and watches as you start to calm down, your tears drying up and breath going back to normal "There we go" He whispers seeing you look up at him. "I-I" You mother tried to speak only for both boys to turn and give her a deadly glare. "Don't" they both growl as Sanji starts walking with you keeping your mother out of your sight while Zoro steps in front of your mother, he gives her a glare making her shake a little before walking off and puts an arm around your waist and walking you back to the ship "I'm sorry" you whisper not fully understanding what just happened, once you stared talking you couldn't stop. "It's ok love" Sanji smiles lightly at you still keeping you close to his chest. "You really told her off babe, nice job" Zoro rubs your head making you laugh a little. "We're proud of you" Sanji leans down and kisses the top of your head, you look up at him with a small smile before leaning up to kiss him while taking Zoro's hand.

As the Sunny left the island Luffy got brook to play some music as him, Usopp and Chopper danced. Franky joined in a little later and dragged Robin with him, dancing with her as the other three jumped around with drinks and food. Nami watched form her seat as she sat next to you laughing about how silly Usopp and Luffy looked, You couldn't help but laugh too with your head on the navigators shoulder. Zoro sat out-of-the-way drinking like normal as Sanji comes out of the kitchen with drinks, he makes his way round to you and Nami handing the orange haired girl her drink with a smile and then holding his free hand out to you "Come sit with us please" You nod and take his hand saying bye to Nami as you walk with Sanji over to Zoro. The swordsman looks up and pats the grass next to him before holding his free hand out to help you sit down before wrapping his arm around you. Sanji hand you your drink before sitting in the swordsman's lap putting his legs over yours which you gladly hold onto. The three of you enjoy each others company while watching your crew dance around as the sun sets and the moon rises.

Sanji lifts his head up off Zoro's shoulder to grab a cigarette only for the swordsman to put his drink down and grab the cooks hand "I have a better idea" Zoro gives the cook a smug smile before pulling him closer and crashing his lips onto Sanji's. You smile looking up at them seeing Sanji relax into the kiss and place his arms around Zoro's neck. Zoro squeezes the cook tighter and pushes his tongue into his mouth making Sanji moan and grip onto the back of his kimono, the swordsman groans back before pulling away "Better than a cigarette?" He asks earning a nod from the now breathless cook. You giggle at Sanji's flustered face only for the arm around your waist to pull you closer into Zoro's side "I don't know what your laughing at, your next baby" Zoro crashes his lips onto your but you gladly push back wrapping your arms around his neck moving them up to the back of his head to run your finger through his hair. You open you mouth before he can even shove his tongue in and groans into your mouth, liking that your taking the initiative. You moan a little as your tongue and mouth moves with his, sitting up a bit to push into him making him groan again almost melting at your touch.

When you pull away your both panting but smiling at the rough make out "Your so cute when you blush" You tease running a hand over his cheek, he glares at you and leans in "I'm not blushing, you are" he hovers over your lips only for you to bit gently on his bottom lip and pull a little making his cheeks go bright red, you let go letting his lip snap back into place "Really?" you ask as Zoro sits up and turns away to hid his blush. Sanji laughs patting Zoro's chest "They got you there, Ro" The cook smiles before leaning over to you as you place your hand on his cheek and slide it to the back of his head "You want some too?" you ask making the cook nod and place his lips on yours, you both place small kisses on each others lips before you make him stay against your lips licking his bottom lip. Sanji can't help but grab your hips pulling you up so your leaning over him, his head tiled back as he opens his mouth letting you take the lead, you place your hands on his checks then down to his neck while feeling his mouth with your tongue, he doesn't fight you and it feels great. You pull away for air only to go back for more making the cook moan as Zoro's hand runs up and down your back. Your so lucky to these two in your life and your crew are like family to you, how did you get so lucky?

[tricitymonsters]

HI HELLO IM NEW HERE LOVE THE GAME but im here to yell about HOW DARE U LEAVE THE MORI CHAPTER LIKE THAT!!! im writhing in emotional pain here. this chicken nugget kitten man has taken over my brain. imma give him a treat then pull his tail. im gonna chew my own fingers and feed em to him like a bird momma. im so feral about this man i hope it shows. id let him do things to me that have never been done to anyone before. he can put the faustian curse on me if he wants even

ok sorry i had to get that out and what better place to be feral about a character than its creator!!!! on a more serious note - i have nothing to ask you, im just here to tell you how fucking GOOD of a job you did on this game holy fucking HELL. i havent found a vn that reeled me in so hard and fast in a long time. i started drooling just from opening the game page. im just a lover of big beefy chunky men and if they turn into monsters too then im all in. youve managed to not only craft visually and plotwise gorgeous characters but ALSO craft an mc who is given actual choices to make which is a huge part of the immersion factor.

congratulations you have given me another pixel man who lives in my head rent free. again sorry for the yelling and being feral lmao mori gave me some of his energy i guess<3

THATS SERIOUSLY SO NICE OF YOU TO SAY WHAT omfg I'm so happy you found my project and your way to this dark and nasty corner of the internet where I talk about monster cocks orz. Mori is indeed my our little scrungle dumpster man and I'm so grateful he's pulled so many bad bitches like some kind of gross back alley siren.

ALSO BOY i got yelled at a lot for the ending off that last mori chapter teehee but you didn't think I'd let you ride off into the sunset that easily of course >:3 Good news is that Mori's next chapter will be updating this weekend so you'll be able to wrangle your catman to resolution (hopefully) in just a few more days.

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

Am I the only one who is a little sad that the moment Trixie was single she didn't take a second look at Katya and immediately went to the ex? She could've given her a chance. And I wonder how K really feels now that she wants kids. I know she doesn't want them herself, but I'm afraid this will change things between them and I really really hope they don't.

ugh okay first of all: im totally w u and i a 100% see ur point. these have crossed my mind too, and i can easily get to a place where these topics make me sad for a while. but genuinely i dont think we should worry too much abt any of it. at the end all i want is for them to be happy, no matter how that looks like🤝

on a further note, we cant be like *actually* sure abt any of what is going on? like yes it seems pretty clear, and it might as well be exactly as we think it is, its all spelled out, isnt it? its really just that we were the ones who spelled it out, and not T, or any other person who is practicipating in the situation. all im saying is that i wouldnt advise anyone to bet on whats going on w T rn (if for nothing else then just out of respect), and im sure eventually we will hear either a confirmation or a fully different story that will clear things up.

specualtion is free tho, and also pretty interesting, so as long as we keep it kinda hush-hush i think its okay that we entertain ourselves w these anecdotes. like im totally in, and i do think *the* ex is now truly an ex, like that much id even dare to place a bet on. the rest is just questionmarks😭😭😭 like i could see this new guy being actually something, or just a rebound-fling, or just a friend(?). and its also possible that he is the old ex, and then i do have even more questions, but the bar is under a frog's ass after the last guy, so im appriciative towards anyone who is slightly better than him, and it would appear to be a true challenge to be worse than him💀 sooo idk i do believe yall that that guy on the pics is really old KY guy, im just not sure if they r friends or fwb or dating or a secret fourth option? doesnt matter as long as T is okay and having fun. (also, i do think she could have spent some time being single IF she is in a relationship again, but hey, anything is better than how we were around a year ago, no? and as long as a guy doesnt treat her like shit im happy for her!!!) ((and yes. i am really sad miss K got looked over again if thats the case. even if i dont think we will ever get to live in a world they r actually legit dating. in another universe for sure. but in this one? too many hangups. these creatures cant even fucking talk abt the fact that they'd like to hang out more tgthr. like..... be fr😭 they r stooooopid, and thats okay. its sad, its tragic, but its okay, and they have a really special relationship regardless of whether they ever go that far or dont. there is always hope, and even if they fall out now, maybe they need it to break and actually confront the fact that they want to hang out? like there r so many ways for things to go. soooo many. i could sit here and spin this wheel on for hours with no end, i promise. i do think it could have happened in like 2020-2023? maybe even beginning of 24. but as things stand now... eeeh i think it wouldnt be such a clean cut, but they do tend to do things the more complicated way, at least thats how it seems to me. the thing is that they r such complex ppl and they have so many motives that i could make literal lists about what their excuses might be (such as work, but now that T says it doesnt matter that much maybe it changes, or such as age, or what-ifs, or fear of ruining what they have, or thinking that maybe they have missed their chance, new/old confidence issues, mental health states? ...these two...). on the other hand, do we really think K got looked over? Ts literal god? im not so sure, but only time will be able to tell wtf has been going on.))

i see ur concern, and yeah change is fucking scary, especially if such comforting things change. but u see, this could be exactly one of their hangups too. things keep changing no matter what, all we can do is hope they both r okay and happy and nice parts of each other's lives.

i understand that T keeps speaking abt wantimg kids, and sure, pop off! but like, i reaaaally doubt she would be actually having kids this year? like i feel like its maybe a new thing for her to think of having kids as an actual possibility she considers for her future, thus she speaks abt it openly since its one of the things she is interested in now! but like, having a kid is not this quick of a process, even a pregnancy takes 9 months😭😭 and also im pretty sure that her life isnt at a place where she could pick up a kid tomorrow and just go on and be her best self as a parent and i feel like she must be aware of that? T and K would both be at least okay parents, thats for sure!! but like, considering Ts past year... yeah i dont think it will be such a quick happening. once, in a few years, sure! even in 2, why not! but not tomorrow. she'd do fine as a single parent, she'd do fine w a partner, it will be fine, just really not as soon as some ppl r concerned it might be😭 let her just get that birdie first, i think that could be a logical and nice next step!

finally, i really dont think K would have such a problem w children? (even if she did, dont u think shed make an exception for T? im pretty sure she'd do almost anything for/with T.) like she absolutely adores her nephew as far as i know, so im certain she wouldnt delete T's contact info if/when she had a kid. im pretty sure T wouldnt block Ks number either just bc she became a parent, she also seems to know how nice K is to kids despite not necessarily getting them (see: her gifting a lot of money to her nephew's, like, 4th bday? but i could argue that thats a great gift, just more long term great😭). and what if T gets that kid and eventually calls K for help (more likely for herself and not the kid, but this is besides the point), and then K does help, and then they spend even more time together with this newfound excuse, and they realise how well they function as a family, and then they can finally move in together and be lesbians and be disgustingly in love and live happily ever after??? what then???? anyways, my point is that even if they r in a tiny bit of a divitation i highly doubt it would be due to T wanting a kid. i think its more that they both were afraid during T's break that if they reached out more they would annoy the other one, bc "omg what if she needed a break from me too???" (like. T needed a break from her god. and K needed a break from the person who tethers her to this earth. sure jan. emotionally they do have some challenges, thats certain!). and maybe they need to drift a bit apart to then get back together and be even closer (if that is scientifically even possible). things arent as linear and easy as we would like them to be, and since our perspective is and outside one, im pretty sure that from their pov it seems or at least feels sooooo much more complicated. while i just sit on the floor and go "just date ffs its not that hard!!4!4 look back footage of ur faces while u look at eachother!!! thats all u need!!44!", and we r both right! it is very complicated but it could also be manageable. (what i think might be more painful here is if T has the kid w a partner, bc that seems pretty, uh, *certain*, or unchangable, final? obvi its not ***that*** drastic, but it is a bigger deal. so yeah, but i stand by my op that none of this will happen in the blink of an eye, we'll see as it unfolds ig and hope for smth real nice)

[violottie]

How do I come out as bi again to people after IDing as a lesbian for 2 years? I’m not sure if this is the right blog to ask but I’ve been following u from your other (terminated) acc for that long and I’m not sure who to seek advice from

hi anon 👋☺️,

firstly, congratulations on discovering this new aspect of yourself 🥳🥳🥳 bisexuality is a beautiful, vibrant, diverse and powerful sexuality to embody, and bisexuals are a group who embody nothing if not resilience and strength and beauty and pride. I'm truly happy that you have reached this new level of personal understanding!!!

secondly, no matter what anyone says about your sexuality or who you are, you owe them nothing. not even me.

discovering your sexuality is different to what you previously thought it to be is not a failing in any sense of the word. unfortunately, people inside and outside the community attach moral value to whatever your sexuality is.

bigots exist inside and outside the lgbt community, who may say your discovery makes you worse or better than before but none of that is true and none of that matters. there is no morality attached to your sexuality. it just is. its a part of you. it is morally neutral, which means, while it does matter to who you are, it doesnt matter and shouldnt to anyone but you.

if that makes sense.

i say all this to say that, your bisexuality is yours and yours alone. you do not have to prove anything to any one, being bisexual doesnt make you better or worse of a person. it makes you you, and you should always be proud of who you are.

thirdly, regarding letting people know that assuming you have a blog where youve been posting about lesbianism, ofc it will be important to let your followers know what you've discovered your sexuality to be.

dont be afraid to do this, anon. yes its daunting but you must always be true to yourself. block and ignore the people who get (unwarrantedly and biphobically) 'upset' at you, including mutuals. anyone who cannot and refuses to respect who you are wholly, not only when you fit their idea of who you "should be", was never worth your time or energy or friendship.

you will make new and better and worthy friends who respect your whole being and that is who you deserve to be in community with.

im honored that you felt my blog was a safe place to turn to for this dilemma, because gods know ive been through the same.

you will always have a place here on my blog. youre still in the sapphic community and broadly, we are still in this together because of that.

i wish you nothing but the very best and all the happiness and hope, anon. feel free to send another ask if you ever need to talk ☺️🫂 🩷💜🩵

[keysmashhhhhhhh]

15 Q 15 FRIENDS

OMG I've missed tag games!! thank you so much @fernandoalonzoo for that tag!!! :))))

Are you named after anyone? my first name no but my middle name is the name of my my mum's sister who died before i was born :)

When was the last you cried? today, yikes its been...a day for sure, from my boss being a dick, to my work friend accidently spoiling the race results for me and another friend calling me up only to talk about herself, yeah its been a time but im feeling better now i'm on tumblr :)

Do you have kids? omg no, i barely take care of myself however i did buy a colindar and a cheese grater for uni yesterday and that felt very adult and responsible.

What sports do you play/have you played? i used to do swimming, netball and cricket as a kid but nothing serious

Do you use sarcasm? its in my dna

What is the first thing you notice about people? HAIR OMG ALWAYS HAIR i dont know how to explain it i can just read people by their hair

What is your eye color? blueeeeee

Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings always :)

Any talents? speedy reading and writing skills, also just an uncanny knack for hunting things down (sort of rainbolt style if anyone gets that reference) like give me an obscure piece of information or a blurry photo and i see it as a challenge to find it. comes in very handy during research projects

Where were you born? nearly on tower bridge (see photo) in london

basically, my mum went into labour and the hospital was on the other side of the bridge to where we lived and then whilst in labour the bridge went up and my mum was stuck waiting for the boat to pass so she could drive but yeah she did make it to the hospital on time yay - i was born in the same room as Paul McCartney's daughter and also Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin from Coldplay, their kid was also born in the same place. its like less than a minute away from Abby Road - so all in all a cool place to be born :)

What are your hobbies? reading books, watching tv, going on lots of long walks, plotting routes across the world that ill never travel - f1 of course and generally tumblring it up with my mutuals :)

Do you have any pets? no :( my dad is allergic to just about everything

How tall are you? i actually dont know haha, kind of medium height i guess

Favorite subject at school? history for sure best subject

Dream job? something where i get to talk about things im passionate about, journalist perhaps??? im not sure

this was so much fun!! sorry for recounting such a long explanation of where i was born its just such a fun story :)

tagging: @fandomchaosposts @love4lando @formulapisces @sof1shticated @multiseb21 @481boxboxbaby

i have many more people id love to tag but i've got to run for a train so thats it but if you see this consider yourself tagged!! also if you're tagged but have already been tagged/dont feel up to it, dont worry!!!!! anyways hope everyone is having a lovely day :)))

[todayisafridaynight]

So the other day I sprained my knee 💀💀 not really in my Top Ten Coincidences but it is a little funny... At Any Rate I'm glad your wrist support glove is helping and I hope the rest of your recovery is smooth :) Would be very excited to see the sick fic you had in mind! (And Also Sorry For Contributing Nothing To AraSawa)

BTW I wanted to introduce you to my new silly little guy Yuhei Kirihara (they told him he sucked at drawing </3)

I'm clipping things as I go to show you later because this is the most insane line delivery I've ever heard from Tsutsumi But Also he's definitely cute tier list material so far

WDYM YOU SPRAINED YOUR KNEE (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) some news is better than no news tho: im relieved you didnt succumb to the flu you caught last week, im happy to hear from you (❁´◡`❁) knee bit sucks tho im SO so sorry howdoesthatevenhappen--

AH BUT THE FIC i was thinking on whose pov to write it from all last night but now that I Think i know which one to go with im excited to start writin it soon (๑•̀ㅂ•́)✧ AND NO SUCH THING AS 'NOT CONTRIBUTIN' ARE YOU KIDDIN your enthusiasm alone's made me waaaaay more confident about sharin art and the sor, not to mention chattin with me and Undoubtedly giving me an idea. or fifty-- sure id been A Lil Silly bout em beforehand, but havin someone as energetic bout em as me def gives me a lot of motivation to share more, so ty for all you do as always ♪(´▽｀) i consider that contribution anyhow.. its very important to me in my opinion...

OH BUT HE SEEMS CUTE tbf i can be won over on a ttm chara so long as i see him smilin... my bias my weakness.. MOST interested to see more bout this one youre watchin when you got the time 👁️👁️ espwheniverunoutofnakaimediatowatch--

[yugotrash]

but really tho idk if it's a terminally online disorder but this weird position of reading and agreeing with so much of radfem theory but being a guy so thats not my community but also not belonging to even that tiny group known as "tehms" for a variety of reasons really alienates me lol.

No, it's not a terminally online disorder. Most humans need a sense of belonging to a group or community. This is straight up monkey brain feeling and it's completely understandable. I'm a het woman who wants a partner so i have no cards in radical feminism myself at least not entirely but I'm also not performing enough feminist acts to consider myself even just a feminist. Agreeing with the ideas and ideals of a group you can truly belong to does such and alienates.

i can predict the answer is "just dont seek community based on your politics/homosexuality" and id like that but that assumes that those things wont be an issue for any random group of people. and being a homosexual and agreeing with radfem ideas does shape the way i think the opinions i express a lot its not like i can hide either of those without a good measure of discomfort for very long. i have radfem friends of course but the sex distinction is understandably something that will permanently divide us and the gays tend to be retarded cumbrained or womanhating or all three so thats not gonna be "my people" either.

Yeah, sometimes it is impossibly to find a whole, ready-made group, but, and i know I'm the last one to preach as i don't practice it, you can try and start such a group, irl or online. It's gonna be difficult but I'm sure there are some other men here, maybe not necessarily homosexual, who might share the radical feminist views you have. It's not perfect, but at least they're not cumbrained, which is a low bar but it's more than nothing. And it doesn't require you to hide your homosexuality or how it affects you as homosexual because these guys are also empathetic towards lesbians. Again, not perfect, but a step in the right direction.

I know for a fact there are some "tehms" on this site who do not abide by the chronic brainrot others demonstrate. They're focused more on women's rights and while yeah, they will sometimes talk about how some guy is hot, or how trans-identified women and girls are awfully rape-y, they still put the risks to women higher up on the list, or, more precisely, women's rights before their own comfort, which i find to be charming and considerate.

maybe one or two guys out there but who knows where and who. and its not so easy to complete forswear the idea of finding friends or even god forbid a partner to relate to,,

Yes, there won't be many of them, and it will not ever form a large community (mostly became most men do not find anything worthwhile in feminist critique, and many men, gay or straight or bi, are just constantly thinking with their dicks, but, and i can't believe I'm gonna say these words, Not All Men. You're special, but you're not THAT special that there is only one edition of a person with such views and circumstances as yours. And that's perfectly okay, you are special in other ways. But the thing is, there surely are like-minded people, either online or offline, and I'm sure you can either find them or even reform some existing ones, to agree with you more, and maybe even find love.

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Sorry for the long ask, i hope your birthday went well and that you had fun. Happy belated birthday and may you manage to find a sense of community and shared sentiments both irl and online as soon as possible 🩵

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I'd reach out to you non anonymously but granted i do want to keep my main blog a secret and do not want to be seen as a pick-me or something.

thank you so very much for such a thoughtful message, i do feel much better about the whole thing now. it's good to be reminded that one is not really that special <3

[littlegayduck]

this is too long an answer to be number 1 man 😔 idk anyone in good omens, ofmd, pjo, marauders and co, the oc, greys anatomy, dps, etc

matches, lighters scare me

no im on the ground floor facing the street id be brutally murdered

someone kind (nature mostly)

blue with a hazel centre (I have central heterochromia)

idk man you tell me. I'm a mystery to all including myself

hair ties (we call them bobbins)

just the 1 i threw some out (I was yelled at to do it but NOT THE POINT I STILL DID IT I WIN)

hot

without hesitation (unless she was ruby cruz... ily ruby give me 1 chance)

baking or reading

crisp autumn day, sun is shining and the leaves looking like their glowing w the reflection of the sun

...next question

I adore it

yes I have many teddies (stuffed animals) and also my human child (my friend toby)

no 😔💔 planning on learning this year or next though AHH

neither but im pretty sure my right eye is near sighted... idk it's too much effort to tell anyone it doesn't bother me that much

not much, sometimes some argon oil, and I got a gisou hair perfume from my aunt bc she was giving it away so I use that when I'm feeling fun

if you wanted to, ofc (i would not file them though the sound makes me want to commit a homocide)

neither (fizzy drinks) but I'd find it less weird if someone around me called it soda than pop

my teddies, my birthday cards. my yearning for something; I don't know what

kind - I try really hard to be kind

i adore it

looking at the sky; stargazing, watching the sunrise or sunset, admiring the birds

perfume (vanilla) unless I'm feeling fancy then both

what could have been (about literally everything)

generally about 7?

(assuming this is like the covid masks) mot really unless I'm visiting an area likely to get people sick (my elderly neighbours houses, doctors or hospitals, nursing homes) or if someone asked me to pur one on - I still have some unworn ones hanging around in different bags etc

lava

i was hoping you wouldnt ask this one and that id be safe after the bottle question.... (4 glasses, 2 bowls, 3 teaspoons and a plate)

any, but hozier generally does the trick if nothing is working

YES ITS GREEN AND LOVELY

I went to a kind of babysitting interview last week? that was scary so I called it an adventure to make it less scary. i need to start going on more fun adventures in nature again

too many to count

idk ireland (Eastern according to Ziggy)

never

laura (she just started college brb gonna go sob), isla (she lives 3 hours away 😔ĺ and aisling (rarely see her)

I don't really like the texture of soap bars (i wish I did they're better for the environment)

constantly

not yet (but theres a granola bar calling my name...)

not very often, but hot and mocha-ish and cinnamony (it's barely coffee but it makes my heart happy)

P I N T E R E S T

i like spicy food but a lot of the time I don't like the actual flavour (too tomato-y etc)

probably trump (since nobody else can apparently)

snippets

SANTA PAWS RAHHHH

"bee theres strange men standign in my driveway and im home alone brb gonna get murdered" sent 11 mins ago (15:50)

idk but young (only a sip, didnt like it)

no 😔

please do

here’s weirder asks

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

lighter or matches?

do you leave the window open at night?

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

what color are your eyes?

why did you do that?

hair-ties or scrunchies?

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

would you slaughter the rich?

favorite extracurricular activity?

what kind of day is it?

when was the last time you ate?

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

can you drive?

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

what hair products do you use?

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

do you say soda or pop?

something you’ve kept since childhood?

what type of person are you?

how do you feel about chilly weather?

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

perfume/body spray or lotion?

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

do you wear a mask?

how do you like your shower water?

is there dishes in your room?

what type of music keeps you grounded?

do you have a favorite towel?

the last adventure you’ve been on?

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

what’s your timezone?

how many times have you changed your url?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

a soap bar that smells good?

do you use lip balm?

did you have any snacks today?

how do you take your coffee?

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

what’s your take on spicy foods?

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

can you remember what happened yesterday?

favorite holiday film?

what was the last message you sent?

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

can you skip rocks?

can i tag you in random stuff?

[meditating-dog-lover]

Skin and supplements

I wrote a very long post earlier this morning discussing this.

Thankfully my skin is a lot better after using the steroids. Like I said I don't like using them and only use them when I have an emergency. I am hopeful they will remain this way for a while, now that it's warmer and less dry outside as well. I'm more hopeful now after seeing my skin heal. And even if my skin isn't perfect now, I'm still going to do microbial testing (both skin and gut) to find some solutions. I know this will be treated with gut supplements and a topical antibiotic if needed (I'll ask my dermatologist of an anti-inflammatory/anti-bacterial hand cream she can recommend because I'm sure she would know).

I also had pizza yesterday (with tomato sauce) and my hands did no flare up, yay! I did NOT take any anti-histamines and did not apply steroid creams until 12 hours later, and I would have had a flareup before 12 hours if I ate tomatoes. Tomatoes are NOT the problem, I've eaten tomatoes my whole life (with eczema) and never flared up after eating them. They're not the culprit. Though the fact that I'm reacting to a food in this manner means that I have a deeper root cause which is likely gut inflammation due to dysfunction and/or dysbiosis. Tomatoes are high in salicylates which are inflammatory and also high in histamine. I do have food allergies and mild eosinophilia, and I'm sure my eczema is linked to that.

I'm already taking a gut health supplement which is much better than taking nothing, though I still want to find a supplement more targeted to my personal gut issues (whether it be low HCl levels, not enough digestive enzyme, if I need l-glutamine for intestinal permeability, and which bacteria and yeast strains I can personally benefit from. But I have no ides what my issues are and I've never been officially tested. And I know the GI MAP test can help with identifying microbes and intestinal permeability, but I'm not sure how stomach acid and digestive enzyme levels can be identified. I'm sure enzymes can be measured on a pancreatic lab panel, and there is an online at home test where you can test your stomach acid levels by drinking 8 oz of water with 1 teaspoon of baking soda and waiting how long it takes until you burp. It sounds suspicious and maybe unsafe and I doubt it's that accurate. I can probably get similar results from drinking soda. I don't want to take risks, but I know HCl supplementation can be helpful because stomach acids can kill pathogens you swallow that can potentially infect your GI tract and cause inflammation if not killed. I'll speak to my functional medicine doctor about this.

And regarding my skin microbiome, in hopes I don't test positive for staph, I want to do a skin culture test at my dermatologist's office. I'm worried that my request may be denied, but I'll insist regardless. Everyone has microbes on their skin, but people with eczema have staph. aureus which can cause inflammation and disruption of the filaggrin protein which functions to promote skin barrier integrity.

I'm also happy I discovered Jennifer Fugo because I learned so much about the root causes of eczema, but in a scientific way that avoids all the pseudoscientific and wacky unsubstantiated stuff you see on the internet. She says detoxing isn't needed because your body already detoxes itself, which is true. I learned that I don't need to do a liver detox and the way I can protect my liver is to avoid consuming a lot of alcohol and fatty/sugary foods and be eating and supplementing with key nutrients, minerals and amino acids like magnesium, molybdenum, sulfur, vitamin B6, glycine, glutamine, and bioflavinoids which support its intrinsic detoxification biochemical pathways. I feel like regularly taking a multivitamin and magnesium glycinate as well as eating healthy foods rich in bioflavinoids can help here and I can avoid all the ciilantro, chlorella, milk thistle, and dandelion supplements because that can cause a headache and even some side effects I don't want to deal with (I got sick and nauseous last weekend and I believe it's from the liver supplement).

I also learned of the importance of healthy gut function and a microbiome balance. I know gut health is overhyped on the internet and gut issues are not the root cause of every condition out there. However there is definitely a heavy link between gut health and skin health. Skin health relies heavily on detoxification functions of your internal detoxing organs like the liver and gut and gut aspect of this process relies on proper gut function and microbiome balance.

So I'll speak to my functional medicine doctor about gut function and microbiome balance, and my dermatologist about a skin culture test.

The testing and healing process may take a while, but that's okay if I can manage my skin inflammation with topicals temporarily. So I'll definitely ask my dermatologist for some tacrolimus and any anti-inflammatory and anti-bacterial hand creams because I don't really know of any. But I should have both. After talking with my doctors and doing the testing, I will look for a hand cream (hopefully I don't test positive for staph) and a gut health supplement that will support my gut function and microbiome depending on where I have issues and that it can be targeted to my own gut issues. I'm taking one right now and I don't know if it's most compatible for me, but again it's better than nothing.

I will heal, I will become a healthier person and will prove people wrong. Just like how I proved my dentists wrong last year, I will prove dermatologists wrong this year. Eczema is not a skin disease, it has internal root causes.

[insidetjsmind]

may 12th, 2023 3:25am

its been over a year since my last post and I think I needed to vent.

the crush I had on that guy is gone. its been gone for months now. its because I got involved with this guy. we go out on dates at least once a week. he's nice for the most part, but being with him takes me on emotional rides that I really don't understand. I can never really tell if he genuinely likes me and wants to spend time with me or if he's just using me. we go out and im never forced to do anything with him, but for some reason I can't help but feel so insignificant to him. like if I just left one day, he wouldn't care and just move on to the next girl. its not like im in love with him, but if he left, I think he'd rip a permanent hole in my heart. I feel like he wouldn't know id feel that way either. right now we are teetering on making things official and calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend but we never get there. I know it's him that's holding back. I'm not as straightforward as his past girlfriends. I don't want to come off as pushy or desperate. I wish I could do what they did but I really don't have the strength to act that way. every time I get scared he might be pulling away, he calls, he texts, and when I see him, my worries subside and im okay again. I feel like im forcing myself to feel that way. it's so hard to find guys in my city that would really like someone like me without using me. maybe my friend was right, maybe im not ready for a relationship yet. from how I've been feeling these past couple days, its clear im not mature enough for a casual relationship. maybe im stupid thinking that this guy would eventually call me his girlfriend or hoping someday that he'd introduce me to his friends. I don't even want to meet his friends, but I want to feel important to him. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I don't want him to have this effect over me. sometimes I hate him for it. I want a day to come where I can try to act standoffish to see if he'd notice. but it's hard because every time I see him, im happy. ill admit, he does make me extremely happy. there's really nothing he does that I'd really call a red flag, I just feel like I like him more than he likes me. I know he's busy. between working a full time job and developing an app, we are at two separate stages in life. im trying to understand him, but i wish he'd reassure me. I wish I was one of his top priorities even though I know it's selfish and unrealistic. I just want to feel important, is that too much to ask?

I guess on a good note, I made straight a's both semesters this year, got a new scholarship, and got into an internship. Every aspect of my life except my love life, is straight sailing and im very grateful for everything. I guess im just asking the universe for this last thing to finally mellow out. I really like him and I know deep in my heart we could work. But I'm not going to beg for him, I refuse. I don't even want to cry in front of him, spilling out all my heart's content.

I really needed this. I'm going to staring posting more again. I forgot how therapeutic this was, I'm already feeling better. I'm seeing him tomorrow. He's surprising with some secretive date, so I guess I'll see where this takes me.

tj

[philosophicalpug]

(Tumblr wont let me put the whole thing so its going to be divided) Souls and Sorrow. Part 1 Jaune: Besides... i don't think either of us were ready. Weiss: how so? Jaune: neither of us were ourselves, too worried on who we were supposed to be to know, be. Weiss: ...i see what you mean Weiss: Heiress, huntsman, too busy trying to be those people than trying to be ourselves. Weiss: ... Do you think it could have worked out? That we could have been happy with each other? Jaune: Always. Weiss: Weiss: (Choking back tears): I'm sorry for what i did. Jaune: What- Weiss, you didn't do anything- Weiss: Yes! Exactly. exactly that! i waited i waited because I'm a stupid girl that doesn't know what love is-! Jaune: Hey. None of that now. Weiss, ill always love you. We'll always love you. Weiss: There was a time jaune, where you held me in your arms, where you held my hand. In that moment i thought i understood it, i understood how you saw the world, what you saw in everyone else but yourself. I cant stand it, its tearing me apart.

Jaune: Weiss what are you saying-? Weiss: that i dont ever want to see you! that i dont ever want to see Ruby again! that i dont ever want to look at you two and see the future i will never have!

Weiss: Jaune, when i was dying, I saw everything in your soul- No. Your soul was everything. Weiss: Don't you get it Jaune? you were everything to me then, there was nothing but dregs of aura in me, not enough to protect me and certainly not enough to save me and soon, those dregs would be a distant memory. Then you came Jaune, and you were everything. Weiss: i cant speak for you jaune, but for me? i was nothing, i was already dead. Do you know what it feels like, to be within deaths grasp, and to be given life? You didn't just give me life, jaune, you gave me strength, you gave me hope. unlike ANYTHING I've ever felt before. You didn't stop death for me, you gave me the strength to come back. Weiss: You didn't know you could save me, Jaune. Deep down you didn't think you could, i felt it, i felt it all. I felt your rage flicker, i felt your sorrow drowning, i felt your fear as you failed. Jaune: ... Weiss: And yet behind all that, there was hope, hope that someone could save me, that i could save myself. You believed with your whole heart that i could do such a thing even when everything said it wouldn't happen. Weiss: Don't you get it jaune?! all my life has been ruled by other people- how to eat sleep, where id go who i spoke whom id marry and whom id give children too- never my love- only their children, heirs to yet another loveless family. Just when i thought i was finding freedom i was taken back to that-that fucking shithole of a life. And when i found you all, when we were together again, beaten and bruised, but together, just when things were getting better- i was dying. Weiss: its maddening Jaune, to feel so close to freedom, to everything you want and to have be taken away from you. time. and time. again. I still feel it, the javelin. it was hot and at the same moment was so cold. it ripped through me- breaking through my bones , right through my guts. I- (Sharp inhale) Weiss: When you reached out to me Jaune, you didn't raise me, you gave me the strength to stand for myself. You cant possibly know know what that means to me.

Weiss: I don’t get it. What does Ruby have that I don’t?

Jaune: You merely broke my heart. Ruby breaks my life.

[bellaswansong]

new gender inspired by "dysphix" from @neopronouns

benedysphix - from Latin bene- meaning ‘good’ + the term linked above -your gender is the dysphoria you experience, and you gain affirmation or empowerment (or any other benefit) from defining it this way even if there are pronouns or gender terms that dont make you dysphoric

explanation of how this term works for me under the cut!! plus some screenshots with alt text from various points in my gender journey

(unrelated but here is a term for when your gender relates to being used. also my boundaries for reposting n whatnot are there cus i dont have energy to copy them into this post lol)

hi i am a member of a system and my name is molly. i use no pronouns. i am neither feminine nor a woman or girl of any sort. my name makes me mildly but bearably dysphoric in a way that affirms my own gender experience. i embraced dysphoria as my gender at least a year ago but didn't have a term for it

this was me in a conversation with the original requester of dysphix. (the image description omits irrelevant special characters & my icon and includes something cut off in my discord username, i hope that's alright)

[image id: a screenshot of discord messages from april eleventh 2021 at 21:52 posted by a pluralkit user named Miss Molly (no pronouns). the text of the message reads "oh thats kinda me but for me the gender is more like i have to seek dysphoria out and i find the discomfort affirming in itself. i have pronouns that make me feel comfortable and thats why i dont use them" end image id]

in the previous instance i described my experience with dysphoria as affirming. i have since realised that this is because i don't experience gender euphoria.

i do not consider this seeking out of dysphoric experiences to be self harm, in moderation! scratching an itch on your body involves an identical physical sensation to pain but is experienced as relief, and that's how my name works for me! scratching until you bleed is bad, but scratching an itch to make it stop bothering you can help you function a lot better. the effect of the sensation is what determines its nature as harmful or helpful.

hearing the pronouns that match my technically masculine gender results in an utter lack of gender euphoria, and euphoria is something that i feel like im supposed to feel. when i say "comfortable" in these messages, i'm referring to a lack of dysphoria; a neutral experience rather than a tangibly positive one.

so when i hear pronouns used on me that match my gender, i feel nothing, and this makes me doubt myself. furthermore, labelling my gender as what it actually is gives me no satisfaction or affirmation, and i only defined my gender in this post to make it clearer for folks who cant read my mind. calling myself a boy or a man feels utterly neutral and triggers self-doubt because i dont feel the happiness that im "supposed" to.

following is another screenshot where i explain how this approach to my gender helps me cope in other ways as well. the same thing about omitting special characters and including cut-off bits applies here as well. the word "it" refers to my approach to my gender.

[image id: a screenshot of discord messages from april eleventh 2021 at 21:28 posted by a pluralkit user named Miss Molly (no pronouns). the text of the message reads "it was the best way i could find to cope. to me it feels better to confront dysphoria under controlled circumstances with people i trust than to be comfortable around them and be fully taken aback when others use the wrong pronouns." end image id]

again, when i said "comfortable" i meant "neutral." this reason for my gender has to do with reclaiming power over my emotions and dysphoric feelings. she/her pronouns make me unbearably dysphoric; like when your skin is itchy and you go to scratch it, and then end up pressing down on a terribly painful bruise at the same location. having folks say my name "molly" in place of any pronoun has allowed me to avoid self-doubt and gender panic in spaces where i am safe, and it also allows me to anticipate fem terms being used in the pronoun slots when people talk about me, which has gradually allowed me to experience the intense dysphoria of she/her pronouns as slightly more affirming than before.

this term can therefore serve as a relief both for transgender folks who dont experience gender euphoria and for transgender folks who cannot leave the closet or who experience frequent misgendering.

this is not the only way to be benedysphix! i wanted to explain my experience and journey, but i also feel that there are many, many other ways to derive affirmation (or another benefit) from defining one's gender in relation to dysphoria. id really like to hear from others who feel this term fits them!!

[bryan360]

Here’s my note before I’ll get started….l

(DON’T YOU EVER COPY FROM MINE OR MY FRIEND’S WORK, CHARACTERS, AND STUFF IF ONE OF YOU ARE IMPOSTERS WHO HAD HABITS OF PLAGIARISM! I WILL BLOCK YOU FROM MY BLOG IF I SEE YOUR POST WITH MINE OR MY FRIEND’S ORIGINAL WORK BEING EDITED ALL OVER! I’LL EVEN SHARE IT ONTO MY BLOG SO IF EVERYONE WILL SEE THAT YOU TRYING TO COPY MINE OR MY FRIEND’S THINGS FOR NO GOOD REASON WHATSOEVER! That will be all….I mean it.)

My Owned iPad (5th Generation) Device

🇵🇷Me: Hi there to everyone and to my closest friends! I got a surprise share for all of you as I'm going through this month; especially if I'll be coming back to my digital style drawings. However due from my iPad Mini's storage running out that I've mentioned from last month's post. ⬇️

Link Here

🇵🇷Me: Although I understand while making some options, my P-Pal told me to get a new flash drive so hoping it'll make more storage for my iPad device to expand. So there's that, but as I'm making this post, I do have some surprises that my mom give me while eventually wait to get a flash drive soon. It'll take awhile to explain through this, but hear me out that I got myself another iPad Device!

My Story Explain:

Back in April. 23rd, 2022; while I was continue my secret art trade drawing in progress with my iPad, but struggle so many times as long the storage data was full. It's disappointed if I'm unable to do my upcoming digital artworks unless I would to upgrade my iCloud storage space or getting a new iPad for Christmas this year or another year before that. That being said, I got myself an unexpected surprise from my mom give me. I believe it happens during the afternoon while I was working, my mom called to me and give me this tablet that she originally was hers years ago. Although times change when moving into her newer tablet as of today, but for me it was something I was hoping to have as well. I've been having my original iPad Mini device since I got from 🎄🎅Christmas of 2015. ⬇️

Link Here #2

While It had been aged that I would make some comparisons through details soon, but still at least running well without any technical problems to power up my iPad Mini tablet. For now though, it still had storage data full that I would leave it until I can get a flash drive to expand soon. However with my mom's used tablet device that I'll be happy to take care of; especially if means to get back my digital artwork plans going forward. Looking at it though, I went searching online to found out that's the 5th Generation iPad; originally been released back in March. 24th, 2017 (before discontinued through March. 27th, 2018) to receive positive reviews. Although you already know before while I showing this by surprise, but it was interesting nonetheless. Still I would love to have my own newer versions. Anyways, it designed like from any iPad devices. Unlike with my iPad Mini though, this iPad had 9.7 inches display with Touch ID and Multi-touch screen option than what my iPad Mini can do. Hoping if I'm right that I would to use it on both YouTube and PicsArt at the same time during my work progress. It'll be like with my Samsung Tab E that it works on multi-tasking as well, but differently.

Also came with it was this old cover case that I'll be keeping until I can get a newer one due to having scratches. Looks like its been really long that I would considered, but at least nothing lot to handle. I would to figure what brand for this cover case made from though.

🇵🇷Me: Well, this is how far I can remember after my mom give me her used iPad device to own. For that, it was a miracle thinking I could imagine. Me having the 5th Generation iPad for the first time like ever. Though it was something if I would to upgrade or move to another tablet with better performance and running longer battery run. However, I'm still keeping my iPad Mini device with me as long it was still works well. Time will tell if I do move forward with a much better iPad device in the near future, but for now there's nothing to rush on. What that being said, I'm gladly to take care with my own 5th Generation iPad after my mom give me. Here's hoping my digital artwork plans to continue as well. In fact, I wanted to get into my birthday art gift before Friday 6th for my P-Pal turning 29th this year. Anyways, I'm letting you guys to react after revealing my surprise post I gotten. How about my mains though?

🐰🖌Maxwell: That's really a surprise after your mom give this tablet for you who's originally was hers. Though while it wasn't a newer version we're looking for, but at least came close to be his first 5th Generation iPad to own.

🐰👊💥May: Yeah, something like that. It was nice of you having your mom give you this iPad as a gift of sorts.

🦊⚽️Sam: Indeed. Sometimes its better than to wait of getting a newer iPad device for Christmas, but just saying.

🇵🇷Me: Thanks for giving your thoughts, you guys. There's more things I can cover with this iPad soon. Until then, see ya guys guys for my latest art post share to go through. 👍🏼

Tagged: @murumokirby360 @carmenramcat @alexander1301

[dei2dei]

MOOD, OP.

I've bitched about a lot of this too. I got upset and wrote a (still unsent) letter to NRS. I'm upset, I'm frustrated, I'm writing fanfic to cope because that's how I rollllll and CageBlade week is going to have two little fix-its and I know @cosmictapestries and I both are brainstorming bigger things.

We can both be excited that old faces get to come back, and sad and disappointed that our favorite isn't in. We can be happy for other people and sad for ourselves without hating on other fans (which makes me upset when I see it - as if you have to slam and insult one character to prove how much you like another). Canon and NRS fucked us over. So it's on us to fix this in whatever way we want. Jax introduces Sonya to Kenshi, who introduces her to Johnny? Messy, delicious threesomes or qprs or platonic friends or true love? Sonya undercover with the Black Dragon and Kenshi meets her that way? Sonya rocks up with government ID to one of Johnny's movie shoots, flashes a badge, and takes him aside? SO MANY OPTIONS. Here's a small chunk of my NRS letter because I am grumpy and also proud of it:

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As a fan right now, I feel hurt and more than a little betrayed that at the thirtieth anniversary, the literal first woman of the franchise is nowhere to be seen. The kameo is hardly palliative, and I don’t feel it should be “better than nothing”, “at least she’s in it somehow”, “you should be grateful, who the fuck wants a boring-ass soldier anyway?” as the internet so readily declares. “She can sit out a few games,” they say; if someone dared to suggest Liu Kang or Scorpion or Sub-Zero could do the same, you’d be able to fuel entire countries on the power of the internet rage that would follow.

Her absence is painfully conspicuous—Jax gets name-dropped in dialogues and plays a major role in Kenshi’s ending. Li Mei has the “protector” archetype and the terrible work-life balance Sonya endured; Johnny gets her “Kombat time!” line from Defenders. Harumi appears multiple times, between arcade endings and Invasions and name-drops. Suchin gets name-dropped. The Black Dragon play a role in multiple conversations…

And Sonya is nowhere to be found. Liu Kang and Geras are secretive figures, much like you’ve chosen to be about her role. Like Johnny, we’re left trying to eke out the thinnest thread of a hint about who she is and what she’s up to, because surely Liu Kang wouldn’t have simply… not let her exist?

Yet that is at this moment exactly what it feels like has happened. Sonya is gone, as if Liu Kang wiped her away along with all of Kronika’s machinations. As though she were a flaw in the plan, never intended. That our love for the character has been misplaced, and this is all a big “haha, fooled you!” prank. It feels like we’ve been strung along and are now being laughed at for holding out hope based on pre-release commentary and implications.

Okay the game's been out for a few days now, but spoilers!

While it has significant good points, am I allowed to say now how angry and disappointed I am by how Liu aka the devs treated our queen?

I'm glad to see old faces return, I'm so happy for fans who missed their faves for years and yes not every kharacter has to be on every roster...

But FFS, this is a reboot of MK1! The original game Sonya was the first female kharacter for. I love Kitana, love Sindel, really happy to see Mileena finally getting her due, but we wouldn't have any of them if Sonya hadn't done so well for the OG game, if Ed and John hadn't realised they needed a badass lady amongst all those men.

Plus the way NRS handled this whole thing - both the marketing and the storymode - was a mess. Frankly they led Sonya fans on despite knowing how upset fans can get after what happened with Mileena in MK11. I know because I was roped in since May on Twitter. I wish they'd have managed expectations early on, esp in a game we'd expect her to be in. A few kind words at cons, even just a few references in Storymode to explain her absence, it would have been really sad, but not the almost contemptuous erasure we got here.

Worse, it makes the pious, compassionate Liu Kang look awful for just ignoring or erasing one of his best friends and most loyal allies. Earthrealm starts out with no female champion and an overload of guys. And it seems to support all those awful takes that 'Sonya's boring', 'she's just a gun lady' or (and I don't know where they get this one?) 'she's a Tr*mp supporter!' 'She & SF can sit this one out'.

Finally, some of Sonya's lines, moves and roles have been taken and not just in this game. It's heartbreaking to see certain rude fans troll Sonya fans with how 'awful', 'boring' and 'militant' she is, but see people praise/enjoy other kharacters for what Sonya does. You can see from her Kameo how magical, athletic and vivacious Sonya used to be, she wasn't always a hardened military vet played by a fighter who sadly couldn't voice-act. Even then, I still love her as a general, she's always fought for Earthrealm and been loyal to Raiden and Liu, even if the majority seem to forget that.

I'm just fuming that all we get of her is 1 intro hint, an unlockable Johnny's announcer voice talking about her and the awful evil version with Kano's eye at the end for 2 mins. While Johnny has an ex wife and flirts with every woman he comes across, Kenshi partners with Jax, Johnny uses a drone, Kitana has a virtually identical fatality, Li Mei has some of her moves. Now I hear (spoiler) that Cassie - her daughter might be in KP2 without her.

Rant over, I just hope Mortal Kombat 2 (the movie) does her justice and shows NRS and some of the fans what they are missing.

[cherry-gemz]

Summary: This is a continuation of the movie Before We Go and my interpretation and imagination of an A/U. Brooke is you (Y/N) and Nick is still Nick :)

Prompt: "Just admit that I'm right." for @the-ce-horniest-book-club Drunk Drabbles for Nick Vaughan.

Pairings: Nick Vaughan x Y/N

Rating: PG-13

Word Count: <2k...is this a drabble still? Oopsies XD

A/N: I watched this movie for the first time just last week. It's now one of my top 3 Cevans movies! While I'm all for a romantic, serendipitous, spontaneous trope...much like Before Sunrise *no spoilers*, the ending was great, but I wanted a different spin. No pressure...yah, right! Either way, hope you enjoy xx.

Tags: @thesecretlifeofdaydreamss @tonystankschild @a-little-counter-esperanto

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You sniff and rub the end of your coat sleeve with your nose. Had to be the chill in the air, you thought. Not the fact that you just spent the most amazing and life changing night with a man you just met hours before and it was ending.

You stare out the train’s window; the gentle hum of the cart gliding across the steel tracks echoed in your thoughts. You shook your head in thinking that you made a mistake. I should have stayed...I should have told him how I felt…

“Nick. It's you again. Listen. I want to give you one more piece of advice. You're gonna be playing one night... Grand Central... thinking of every reason in the world to not go see the girl that broke your heart. Then, you're gonna meet somebody. And now, at first, she's gonna seem… icy. You're gonna know right away she's trouble. She's gonna take all your money. You're probably gonna get punched in the face. But stay with her; you're gonna need her a lot more than she needs you. And at the end of the night, you're gonna want to say some things, but don't. Don't ruin it. It's nothing she doesn't already know. Just give her a kiss. Wish her good luck. And thank her. Thank her for showing you that you can love more than one person in this life.”

He was unbelievably charming. You said so yourself. His raw talent with the trumpet was beautiful and different from what you were used to. The suburbia of the Boston bubble was what you were forced to live in now. You were from London, you were cultured and refined. Sure things with Michael were exciting at first, but the ho hum of the daily diatribe of routine became loathsome. Dépaysement. But you still never wavered in your marriage. Unlike Michael who had crossed that sacred line and lost your trust. It wasn't even fully the physical aspect that he went to another woman. It was the intimacy of telling her his deepest desires and then some that hurt the most. That he would want to share that with anyone else but you. But tonight. Tonight was what made you see clearly.

"It's possible, isn't it? It's possible that you could meet somebody who's perfect for you even though you're committed to somebody else," you asked as you bit your lip.

"No, no, see, I think if you're committed to somebody, you don't allow yourself to find perfection in someone else."

You found yourself blushing and cupping your cheek in thoughts of Nick. He was right. The whole night was a cluster mess of you trying to get home before Michael so you'd be able to throw away that wretched note. That he'd come to his senses and forget Linny. That he'd realized he was a fool and you'd start over. Just like old times.

However, slowly that feeling of reconciliation faded away little by little as each hour in the city passed. You couldn't pinpoint it exactly, but somehow the scrappy trumpet player Nick Vaughan etched his way into your icy heart and left an impression and stayed.

His fluffy, dark hair - so soft and inviting for you to rake your fingers through it was enough to drive you mad. His scruffy beard, which tickled when you kissed. You already loved ghosting your palms over it softly and imagined being able to do it whenever you wished. He said earlier into the night you weren't his type; you scoffed, but we're annoyed that it bothered you. You were a classic model of what guys were into, looks wise. Sure, your attitude was what rubbed some people the wrong way, but Americans really were too sensitive.

He however...he was the full package. Every toothy grin, wink, and full hearty laugh. He was addicting. He was a dead ringer for a heartthrob, but you also couldn't hate the guy for it. He was the friend you'd call to bail you out of jail at 4am and the boyfriend that you could see settling down with. It was nauseating really.

And then his lips. His soft lips...you can’t believe you kissed him in the hotel room. And then again at the train station. But you would have kicked yourself for not doing so in the first place. The way your fingers interlaced themselves on his terry cloth robe, how desperately you wanted to press your body against his. All you wanted was for him to feel that burning need within the apex between your thighs and extinguish it all night. But it was more than that, he was what you were missing. But you were kidding yourself. You weren’t running to Michael, you were running away from Nick.

But why? Because of the unknown? Because he actually knew who you were deep down inside? How could a man you barely knew, change you? Change what you thought was true, what you thought was love?

You dove your hand into your wool jacket’s pockets to push any thoughts of self-doubt, when you realize there was a piece of cardstock. You were puzzled to find it and immediately smiled in recognizing the hotel survey card. You bit your lip as you read down the survey questions one by one and notice Nick’s handwriting at the bottom, ‘turn over’ with an arrow.

Curious you turn over the hotel card and he’s written the word ‘yes’. Yes? You furrow your brow and contemplate further what he would be saying yes to. You think about the night - the time at the bar, helping him with Hannah, when you went to the psychic reading. Yes? What in the world - and then you turn the card back over and realize that on the second to last question it asked “Will you be likely to return?”

None of the boxes are checked, but he’d written ‘yes’ on the back. Yes. Yes he’ll return? Where? To the hotel? But when? You look up and rush to think about stopping the train dead in its tracks to return back to Grand Station. You breathe out heavily and come to terms that this isn’t a movie. He’s not chasing you down the tracks, jumping on the train to find you. Or is he? You wouldn’t put it past him. The whole night was filled with serendipitous concourses, this would be icing on the cake. You dart your head around to see if he’s in the cable car. It’s like in every rom com movie ending, the man of your dreams will be right there. He’s somehow charmed his way into boarding the train and found you waiting like a princess in her high tower. The train car is dark and bleak, only a few passengers are riding it as it’s the first route to Boston on a Sunday. You peer over to see if he’s in the next cart, but alas he is not. You slump in your seat and rub your thumb methodically over his words.

"Have you ever had a feeling that somebody was going to play a major part in your life?” you ask.

“Yeah."

“Do you know the most interesting thing about hotel art? It's what's on the back.”

It’s then you realize you have to return to New York. This story wasn’t about you and Michael anymore. No, it was about the man who selflessly helped you while you were in need, not only at your dire hour, but metaphorically as well. This was meant to be. You were meant to miss your train, break your phone, and meet the handsome man named Nick Vaughn. You knew he’d still be in the city because of his audition for the day with Duke at least, if you could just get to him somehow...

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Your knees bounced as you sat on a cushioned chair in the hotel lobby. You had planned to wait there all day, but then realized the $13 train ticket was your only way of providing you security back home. So you went home. Confronted Michael. Cursed, cried, and then relief rushed over you as he had read your letter and how you knew about the affair. How you wanted to throw fists on his chest and tell him how much you hated him. But once you saw him, you found it didn't matter to you anymore. Someone else was worth fighting for. Your marriage was over. The hatred and spite you once had for your husband had dissipated. Your world didn't end like you thought it would. This wasn't your only chance at love. You were choosing to be happy, whether it was with Nick or not. This was the first time you were going to jump without having a net.

And Nick was wrong. Michael didn't want to work things out, he was coming to tell you that he loved you, but that and he'd be returning to Atlanta for good. The house, car, everything was yours: Nick said so himself, you gotta be okay with not being okay. So you walked away. You made the choice just like the psychic said and took it in stride, you faced the music.

However now you found yourself back in New York. Not the once stranded woman at a crossroads less than 24 hours before, but the woman that made a choice. You were worried that Nick would see it as you running away again. Running away because Michael didn't choose you. But in reality you didn't choose each other.

Still without an ID, you took your car and better against the four hour drive to the city and hoped a cop wouldn't pull you over. You thought of the night in the hotel. The laughs, the closeness you two encountered. The playful and cheeky way he could make you feel seen. You were starting to get nervous, what if he doesn't show up? What if I missed my chance?

"I'm an idiot," you murmur to yourself. "I can't believe I'm here."

You stand up and realize there Nick was there in your path. He looked a little worn, obviously from staying up all night. But he had changed and showered from the looks of it, and his signature trumpet case held in his hand.

"Well look who it is. The biggest loser in New York."

You laughed and blushed at the sight of him. He slung his trumpet case over his broad shoulder and walked over to close the gap.

“Just admit that I’m right.”

"Admit what?" You ask as you find yourself touching his jacket sleeve.

"Admit that you couldn't get enough of me." You hitched a breath from his words.

"You can say that."

"I can't believe you came back," he responded. His blue eyes gazed into yours as he brushed away a tendril of hair from your face.

"I read your answer to the survey...on the back."

"The stay did exceed my expectations and I did say I would return," he smiles.

"And here you are."

"Here I am…" he pulls away slightly as he's reminded that you're married.

"I jumped," you replied.

He's taken back by your statement and furrows his brow.

"What? With what?"

"I told Michael it was over."

"Wow. I'm so...sorry, Y/N."

"Don't be. You said so yourself, at some point it was time to face the music."

He nodded, absorbing the information.

"Say what's in your head."

He shook his head and grinned,"I'm just glad you came back is all."

"Yeah? How'd you know?"

"I didn't. Just sure as hell hoped you would."

He intertwines your fingers with his and holds tight. Like a missing puzzle piece found, your hand fits perfectly with his.

"Whaddya say we get out of here?"

"What do you have in mind?"

"I may know a place," he smiles devilishly and gives your knuckles a kiss.

You grab his dress shirt collar and turn him towards you. He runs his hands through your hair and places his lips upon yours, kissing you deeply. It's a kiss so passionate, so perfect - that after you part, neither open your eyes for a few moments afterwards and he embraces you tightly.

"Good, because I'm not going anywhere."