#I'm not going to move past this

[respectthepetty]

Affair features a LASERDISC of City of Angels!

I still own a LD player and have several laserdiscs, but are laserdiscs still being made? Are they becoming popular again? I thought originally she was holding a vinyl record, but a LASERDISC?! I have so many questions!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Soup solves everything.

[silverwhittlingknife]

poem: "accident report in the tall, tall weeds" by ada limón

[gracebriarwoodwrites]

I write fragile on a dozen boxes salvaged from recycling I forgot to take out before I knew I was moving and my hand shakes even more each time. The lines bleed off the box corners and into me. I'm fragile, you see.

[starcurtain]

So with Phaidei being basically married what are your overall thoughts on them?

Give me a little bit; I'M COOKING.

[every-sanji]

[benevolenterrancy]

"But in the end, I... still think... it's so unfair," Yin Yu sobbed. "If I wasn't destined to be perfect, I at least wanted to be perfectly kind. But... I couldn't even manage that. It's really... so unfair. And to tell you the truth, I can't get over it, even now. I can't swallow the fact that I'm dying for this little bonehead, Yizhen. I can't even let go and die without resentment or regrets. What the heck..." "Better than most people huh?" Yin Yu gave a small, arduous chuckle. Then he sighed, and the sound of his last regret passed along with his soul as he mumbled, "But I wanted to be a god..."

[bird-butch]

it kind of destroys me that kim is the one who's more outwardly affected by chuck's death than jimmy. and it's not because she cared about him more than his own brother did, chuck was never much more to her than her boss (and her partner's brother who was pretty rude to both of them). i'm sure she is sad that he's dead, but she's not really grieving that as much as she's grieving the way jimmy is so clearly in pain but won't allow himself to express it or even admit to it. not even to himself. when she breaks down crying as jimmy reads chuck's letter, it's not about the letter itself. it's the absolute lack of emotion jimmy displays as he reads it. the total disregard for his brother's last words to him. she's breaking down because she's realizing how broken he is in a way that can't be fixed. because he won't even try. won't even admit there's something wrong. and it's not like she's ever viewed him as something to be fixed, like so many others have, she just desperately wants to help him be okay. because she loves him. but she can't.

and then at his reinstatement hearing, she cries again, but this time because he does sound sincere, and genuine. she thinks, here he is. he's finally letting himself grieve. he's finally letting himself move on, by acknowledging the past and the hurt instead of ignoring it. here he is. he's himself again. but then he reveals it was all a performance. he has never been less himself. he's changing his name even. running again, from his past, from himself, from chuck. and he reveals that he thinks of her as a sucker for falling for any of it.

[elzorton]

Richard II

[naamahdarling]

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[ruvviks]

PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC OR PAIRING.

Nathan and Ruben share a bond more powerful than most; mutual understanding through past experiences no one should ever have to go through, and through past actions so horrible they cannot be spoken of. Their grief and the blood on their hands binds them to the STEM technology they created, which has alienated them from the rest of the world— but they give each other the comfort they have both longed for so desperately for years, and that is all they need. They are each other's counterpart; you cannot imagine one without the other, like two sides of the same coin. Through their pain, their grief, their desire, and their regret, they have become one.

anna akhmatova, the guest // bones; equinox // 'i won't become' by kim jakobsson // agustín gómez-arcos, the carnivorous lamb // by oxy // achilles come down; gang of youths // czeslaw milosz, from 'new and collected poems: 1931-2001' // 'extended ambience portrait from a resonant biostructure' and 'migraine tenfold times ten' by daniel vega // a little death; the neighbourhood // marina tsvetaeva, from 'poem of the end' // by drummnist // katie maria, winter // 'nocturne in black and gold the falling rocket' by james abbott mcneill whistler // micah nemerever, these violent delights // body language; we are fury // 'the penitent' by emil melmoth // chelsea dingman, from 'of those who can't afford to be gentle'

taglist (opt in/out)

@shellibisshe, @florbelles, @ncytiri, @hibernationsuit, @stars-of-the-heart;

@lestatlioncunt, @katsigian, @radioactiveshitstorm, @estevnys, @adelaidedrubman;

@celticwoman, @rindemption, @carlosoliveiraa, @noirapocalypto, @dickytwister;

@killerspinal, @euryalex, @ri-a-rose, @velocitic, @thedeadthree

[roomba-mangga]

thoughts on thistle and yaad's dynamic that i vomited in the tags of another post but will now try to articulate here: they're not actually family, or at least they shouldn't be. not in a conventional sense anyway. framing them as uncle and nephew (even in a non-literal, silly fantasy world way) rides more on technicality than anything concrete.

what i mean by this is yaad calls thistle by name and says he and delgal were raised "like" brothers. he talks about thistle like he's an outsider imposing himself into the melinis' space, and it's clear that thistle was never legitimized as a member of the family. for thistle's part, though we don't know how he would treat yaad pre-demon brainrot, it's safe to assume based on the way he punishes him—turning him into a doll—and how little is shown in the way of any sort of relationship between them that thistle only cares* about yaad as an extension of delgal (otherwise i'd expect something like kabru and milsiril, because it's not like another complicated interspecies family dynamic would be out of place, yet there's next to nothing on them even in bonus content, just their scant interactions in the main story).

in essence, they're strangers to one another. thistle's desperation to preserve the illusion of a family, a model where he doesn't even fit, was the snare they were caught in for the past thousand years of stasis. yaad-as-nephew is a prop to uphold that illusion, and thistle is playing a role he's unfit to play. in the context of post-canon interactions, attempting to reconstruct that facade would only be a reenactment of trauma for them both (in a deeply compelling way i'd love to watch unfold, tbh), as that "uncle and nephew" framing places thistle in an implicit position of power over someone he's already traumatized through misuse of authority in the past, a role which also perpetuates his adultification and yaad's infantilization in turn. it'd mostly be an obstacle to any real connection.

best to burn the melini family bridge, i think, and if there's still anything salvageable left in the rubble, let something different supplant it.

[stjernec]

This Sebagni fanfiction in my brain is going so crazy. If only you guys could read my thoughts and I didn't have to put it down on paper.

[screwpinecaprice]

I have no idea where they are tbh.

Anyways, taking a few days hiatus from drawing anything digitally to rest my eyes longer. So the requests queue are on hold until the end of the weekend.

[juergenklopp]

The true purpose of gifmaking is actually to just post single-digit notes gifsets because you want your little guy on your blog. Yes I will make you all look at this literal some guy (or not, filter the tags out, that’s fine too). They live forever on this website now.

[thelaurenshippen]

the way that silver said "I will stand here with you an hour, a day, a year" to flint and "I will wait a day, a month, a year, forever" to madi....I'm sick to my stomach. who is doing unhinged devotion like this man