#I'm gonna fuckin SCREAM
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i feel like i'm losing my fuckin mind, man, I fucking hate unity so much
#why does this fucking vertex keep disappearing when i shape key animate the face#it's literally fuckign fine on blender#none of the faces or verticies are messed up there#backface culling is off#i've tried moving the damn thing so it for sure doesn't clip anywhere#and again#because it's fine on blender#i have no idea where to even fuckign start#to fix this#i've literally never had this issue w a dragon model#why the fuck is this happening now#I hate this sm#i'm gonna fuckin scream
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NOOOOOOO
#please tell me yall know what I’m talking about lmao#sero hanta#denki kaminari#the fuckin typo oooooh i'm gonna scream#mina ashido#kirishima eijirou#jirou kyouka#bakusquad#bnha#mha#incorrect bnha quotes#chat fic#incorrect my hero academia quotes#headcanon#twitter#social media#bnha incorrect quotes#incorrect quotes
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sketching some infamous faves
making the executive decision rn not to bother with cleaning it up too much. we r keeping the under sketch and just layering on top
#i sketched cory before i got turbo sick#84 years ago#and i looked at it today and kinda wished i did it differently#but also i didn't want to start over#so i just colored it and moved on#i want to fit another character in there#but i'm not sure how i'm gonna do it#it's a bit awkward positioning#and i want the 'page' to be filled#we'll see#also i *will* fuckin scream#if this thing shows up in the tag#because i used 'the word' in the post#but the finished piece won't
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wallah i'm genuinely so mad rn i hate being a journalist
#all i do is come on here and complain about the fuckin studio. sorry guys.#but I HATE BEING A JOURNALIST 😐🔫🔫🔫 IT'S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE#i fucking CLAIMED a story and this bitch ass group claimed it after and they got to fucking do it#fucking cunts. wallah i'm pissed#i dont want them to do it. it's either gonna be me or no one#im gonna . scream
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How dare he release a banger cover of one of my favorite songs ever at 4am where I cant yell, I hate him so much why
#im laughing so insanely rn i love this so much#i am actually losing my mind but like in the best way possible#also he's speaking/singing Japanese again & bros still p good it since haiku#don't have an official translation & im gettin it from discord but its a more worded version of “hurt people. hurt people” basically#i don't wanna fully state it cos i do not know the language & someone who's smarter than me can do that#but still cool to know#anyways I'm exploding now goodbye#hey hey did i ever mention i love saxophones#cos guess what i love saxophones#these songs are gonna have a LOTTA saxophone in it#also the screaming tho?????? fuckin losing my mind rn dude#my Spotify will never recover from this#chonny jash#moss post
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Fucking fuming at my brother who, when we came out as trans as a teenager, convinced my mother that T is gonna, idk, hurt us or something. Make us fuckin' radioactive. Make all our hair and teeth fall out and turn us into ''something unrecognizable''. And of course because my mother is the type to believe (verbatum quote coming up) ''microplastics are the reason why young people these days are autistic, depressed, and anxious'', she believed him, and thus went out of her way to impede our hormonal transition until we quite literally gave up. Guess who's been on T for just under a year? My brother. :) Found out by overhearing his new voice through a video call with our mother. Killing him with my fucking mind.
#our t#Sadly brother dearest moved out years ago and is in a different city otherwise I would absolutely be jacking his supply#Little asshole got that shit in the same month he requested it. Idk how he did that in that same city#Moral of the story: you don't have to be happy for every trans person's transition if they're this type of asshole.#Next time I see him I'm gonna shave his fuckin' head in his sleep and run to my mother screaming 'LOOK!! LOOK IT HAPPENED!!'#I'm not actually going to do that but. It's a nice fantasy#Now that we're permanently system aware idk how we feel about it. *I* want to be on T. Kinda really desperately#But others just aren't feeling it. We have so much time to decide and we can stop whenever even if we do but. Idk its complicated
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you never have the whole fuckin story. you just see something you don't like or don't understand and send an anon without thinking about what damage it might do. there are real people behind these screens, fuckhead. and the traumatized human brain doesn't see the difference between a written message on a screen and a person screaming directly in their face. if I'm making you feel bad, good. you should feel bad about yourself if you're the kinda person to spread hate and pain and ask questions later
#🪖.ben#and so many times we've gotten a follow up#“oh i didn't realize. I'm so sorry. i shouldn't have sent that. I didn't know” all that bullshit#feel guilty about it#you did something objectively fucked up and weird and you should have to live with that#I'm not gonna sit here and coddle you because you “didn't know better”#even fuckin toddlers know better than to scream in people's faces
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the struggle of wanting to pick up a game you've been meaning to replay for a hot minute-- yet also not quite wanting to do that, because you just know it's gonna suck up all your focus for at least the rest of the day-- (if not the coming week or so, depending on how much i wanna play lmao)
#{|ooc post|}#was goofing around with my vita before coming home-- and that *really* tempted me to pick up Collar x Malice again-- but...#i know even with a guide to follow all the endings over-- a full replay is still gonna take me fuckin ages lol#so i'm debating on if i wanna start that now-- or try and focus on writing-- then save gaming for when i'm back with friends again lol#(especially considering that sometime this week i also wanna binge the rest of HB-- which is probably gonna kill me too lmao)#(but like-- writing brain is struggling to brain rn-- so i'm just kinda here screaming inside about wtf i wanna do X'D)
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Please ignore this it's almost 1am and I can't sleep and am full of vinegar ...laying in bed stuck with my thoughts and man do they suck, for months all I've been doing it feeling guilty and horrible about myself and hoping to talk to people in hopes of apologizing and making burned ends less burnt.. I'm coming to the realization that it's never going to happen and need to just give up, I wont be getting my chance to speak.. I want to be forgiven, but at the same time, thinking about the pass two years and how angry I actually am about how things were stated and also parts left out, the forgiveness I deeply want really means nothing to me. if anything it's acted as a fuckin poison to my brain to constantly hope and think about it on a daily bases. Stuck thinking about how everyone hates me and not having a way out like a mouse stuck in a burning cage.
I miss drawing the things I liked, all my Fav OC's I now kinda hate due to having to throw them in the corner, forcing myself to redo them all when in the end not really having a good purpose to do so.
I don't know how to bounce back anymore but I have no choice but to try and walk away anyways. I'll find something that will click again and meet new people.
#Drama and mental illness really doesn't doesn't feel good man#The pills help abit but I still over think and have to deal with the constant anxiety#I know I keep talking about it but That's all that's flood my brain#Music doesn't even drown it out this just feels like public school all over again#Part of me wants to curl up and cry and the other wants me to just wants to scream in anger#I need a long ass vacation from myself#I am doing my best to watch my mouth and don't say stupid shit that's gonna get me in trouble#For most people isn't fuckin easy but for me IT AIN'T#Yes I've said alot of things that are hurtful and from the bottom of my heart I AM SORRY#I hate me to trust me I'm an open fish tank filter without the filter and have to do my hardest to keep that damn tank clean#It sounds so much like an excuse when I'm just stating a reason#I need to sleep man
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this tiny mortified storyboard solas is my favorite one i've ever drawn
#how the FUCK am i going to translate this to my regular style#i don't know what this even looks like on a real face#Fucking Mortified#personal log#this comic is gonna suck because i literally cannot write solas but its funny and i need to see him embarrass himself so bad#“ohhh yeah i am so fucking efficient i am going to impress lavellan so hard rn this guy is going to be all better in 0.5 seconds im so sexy#*heals like marcille dunmeshi in front of healer lavellan*#*man experiences the worst pain in his entire life* *sound of wet bones popping* *guttural primal screaming*#“hm. i think i should go now.”#and he only ever healed unconscious people again lmao#he leaves big ole fuckin scars too. he's shit at healing#actually i take it back it's 'oh. no. he asked me to help. this is literally a no win situation for me'#instead of 'hehe im so sexy'#because he knows that the guy he's trying to impress is mr. 'huh. that kinda tingles.' specialized healer#who has only ever seen solas heal unconscious people before#SEE I CAN'T WRITE HIM FOR SHIT#no. no i was right. he's both. version 1 is revved up youngblood solas#then he fucked around and found out that people generally don't like severe pain sounds#dammit i'm an artist not a writer jim#ranting to myself in my own tags. if you're reading this: hi! it feels good to be known
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HAIKYUU MOVIE WAS SO GOOD AND EVERYTHING I WANTED
#personal#BABY KUROO WAS SO CUTE AND ENDEARING#I FORGET HOW MUCH I LOVE ANIMATED HINATA HE'S MY BOUNCY BOY MADE OF SPRINGS#HINATA I LOVE YOU SM...#the pacing was very brisk and kept you hyped but i loved that they interspersed it with their memories#SEEING HINATA AND KENMA'S FIRST MEETING AGAIN... AHHHH...#HINATA'S SCREAM OF JOY WHEN KENMA SAID HE ENJOYED VOLLEYBAL AAAAAAAAAAAUGH#also they had pov shots esp in the end that were SO COOL#the ending is just as jarring as it was when reading. well it felt shorter bc 1.5hrs and i was reading as it came out but like.#the game just Ends. i'd like to think it's intentional bc hinata is like okay next serve... wait#also ALSO i normally don't stay after credits but bc everyone else stayed my group did too and AFTER CREDITS SCENE???#DECLARATION OF WAR AGAINST HOSHIUMI???#I'M SO READY!!!!!!#how are they gonna animate the rest of hq in one movie though. i have no fuckin idea#that game is so fuckin long. you're gonna need to feel exhausted karasuno is fucking wiped#oh well however it's done i can always go back to the manga#haikyuu my fucking beloved i love you so much.
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me: the clans wouldn't know what pokemon ingo is, so they'd have to decide on a name or title to call him by. i know, i can use the Japanese name for the species to keep it in theme, it's simple but efficient and effective, awesome!
bulbapedia: Absol, known as Absol in Japan-
#*muffled screaming*#it's not just Japan every single country besides Korea uses absol. and theirs is essentially just a letter difference#and the words combined to make it in Japanese is just 'disaster-disaster'. we'll fuckin moon-moon this man i guess#I'm probably gonna go with some translation of guardian or protector#would like to use like. 'protector spirit' but I want to keep it to one word (with or without suffix) and don't trust random translators#for more than direct translation of single words on their own. I'm not risking a horseplay/ponyplay situation here thank you#and im hesitant to use the actual name of a kami without knowing more than just whatever is on the wikipedia page of the few I pulled up
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People who call the Jedi "therapists" drive me insane because it makes me positive they have no concept of what a therapist is or does. Or what therapy is or does! Like babes having conversations! With random people in your life! Is not fucking therapy!
#*mike's mic voice* screaming and crying. lying on the floor CONVULSING with rage.#fandom slapfight#asdfghjkl my brain makes the same noise a garbage disposal with a fork stuck in it makes me when i see those dumb fuckin posts#tell me you don't understand what therapy even MEANS by telling me you think yoda is a fucking therapist i'm—#absolutely losing it some peoples' brain cell is loooooonelyyyyyy#by apples#anyway why do people with these shit fuckin posts all up on their dashes keep following me#babes. we are COMPLETELY different genres of people lmao. and i can ALWAYS tell i'm GONNA find some dumbfuck take even before i do lol
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am i losing it or are they singing about ukrainian tractors
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using my new gifmaking powers exclusively for evil, selfish purposes (immortalizing kebin sexey momence)
#shut up kell#there are so many tho .... makes it harder#but the promo he cut @ raw is xxx after stunning mikey..... guys i need to be candid.#i was fuckin up a box of mikeandikes while watching. i went to whisper-scream after he did smth hot?#drooled. literally fucking drooled. on the bed drooled. fucking heinous. literally pathetic. i need to be taken out back.#and see that's embarrassing but i value transparency here on ybcpatrick dot tumblr dot com. in case you ever thought i was cool: stop.#drooled over a man. for real drooled. it was gross and it happened and it's probably not gonna be the last time either#i'm gonna stfu now and make my gifs
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can we hear more about in dreams, hopes to die... 👉👈 those lines are so tasty..
CHOMPING AT THE BIT, AYE AYE CAPTAIN!!!!
Would you believe me if I reveal that this snippet is from the same piece? It's obviously an overall not very good time kind of piece, so I felt a tiny bit bad about it for once and decided to throw Tyr a bone. Valkorian and Tyr's own conga line of bad times couldn't be the only thing in five years worth of dreams, I figured, lol.
Also, that very scene is where the banger In the dark, it’s easier to hide and easier to tell the truth came from, lol.
Don't get too excited though because that's... very short. And also it's mentally set to Eyelids by PVRIS, so uh. It still punches me in the face.
Eventually I'll hopefully throw him another bone and give him and Theron's time on Rishi or Yavin IV a little pass because I'd like to think Theron's at least a little right and something came up. And stars know Tyr needs a fuckin' break, good gods almighty anlkfdnafldsf. Says she who continues to put that man in Situation after Situation after Situa-
And it was very hard to stop at just the first line for that initial post because the three lines that follow it are the meat and potatoes of what is currently the opening sequence of what I hope will eventually be a coherent fic. Or at least kinda coherent. It's still a very nebulous piece and I kinda like that, so I might not really do much more setup because it seems fitting that there wouldn't be a lot of setup and transition in something like the carbonite dreams era.
And, perhaps unsurprisingly given the nature of the setup of that chapter, but a lot of these scenes flirt with the concept of death. Tyr's dangerous dedication to "finishing the job" isn't anything new to those of us who have been here a while, lol, but this is a good character study piece if you're newer to my favorite blorbo, though it's an undeniably heavy one and obviously a bit fucky and nebulous by nature.
Also, fair warning, yes I'm giving you lines, but also I am going to give you a ramble and a half about Tyr lore because this is the piece I'm stuffing some juicy tick-tock workings into because I realized it was good for that and I love my boy so much, he's so fucked up. I love him though.
Anyway, I teased, so the next three lines of that scene, as foretold beneath the cut:
At first, it’s a firing squad. Mud cakes their boots and the rain pelts heavy on worn, drawn faces.
Tyr pushes to his feet unsteadily. A flash of lighting breaks overhead, glancing off of leveled blasters and hollowed eyes.
It will end as it should: without a soul remembering his name. He’d prefer it that way.
Okay, so... this is also not necessarily a piece I intended to write, but I realized there is... almost no better place to do a deep dive into some of the things that tick inside of Tyr that maybe aren't best portrayed in dialogue alone. This also wasn't meant to be in present tense, but it didn't feel right in past, so I ended up caving and that's... been a theme of the week, I guess, lol.
This is also like. I always chuckle a bit in that scene from Visions in the Dark later where Valkorian threatens you to meet his challenge and grow stronger or die alone and unremembered because wouldn't that just be ideal for a former Cipher. Wasn't that how the story was supposed to end? He didn't ask for your bullshit, grandpa.
There's currently two other scenes I have - they're all relatively short as I try to keep with that sort of drifting feeling. But the other one that might [Large Eyes Emoji] be of... relevant interest...
What’s been done has already been done. It doesn’t matter what it was. Maybe it won’t matter to anyone else.
Because it’s going to end here and now. Such were the decrees of the Sith - of the Empire.
Absolutes.
It matters to him that he tried. This is one of the kinder ways this could go - quietly, without the fanfare of blood on his teeth and a fire in his eyes.
“For what it’s worth, sir?” Nine exhales long and slow as he closes his eyes. “I’ve always admired you… You did your best.”
Finally.
No.
More.
Running.
“But I’m not going back.” The old man’s one of the few he could ever hope to ask this final favor. “Finish this - what we started.”
The Minister of Intelligence pulls the trigger.
It’s over before Tyr feels the ground beneath him.
Also topical given the "are others concerned about their sleep schedule" tag post reblogged earlier today, lol, and the idea of chronic nightmares. That Tyr and I haven't talked about. To each other. Or the world. Possibly not with the people he cares about, either. I'm sure Theron knows nebulously that he can have some troubled sleep - you don't share a bed with someone and not notice how consistently they have trouble falling or staying asleep.
But I think the fuckiest part of the whole Castellan Restraints period for Tyr is how he doesn't want to let the old man down. The Minister is more a father figure in Tyr's eyes than his own father, quite honestly [Tyr has a... kind of non-existant relationship with his entire family, unfortunately - and it's not because he went into Intelligence], and there's absolutely a part of that dynamic that is mentor and protégé.
And it's important to me that he sees this scenario with the Minister and not Shara - at least in Chapter Two, where it first haunts his nightmares with some consistency. Because I made a conscious choice in Shara knowing as Keeper about his Restraints - not because that ever comes up in-game, but because it adds something very crunchy to their already doomed narrative. And the background to that decision is that I decided it's... the kind of silent acknowledgement that the Minister can afford to give of their more intimate relationship. It's damage control, mitigation. With a heavy heart I imagine he tells her this in private, off the record, because Nine was her Cipher. And both of them still hold him in high regard.
Nine's given a possibly unusually loose leash to pursue the SIS investigation because of the Minister and Keeper's word; Watcher Three mentions this in broad strokes when he questions you about the blackout in records.
Anyway, the point to me mentioning this is actually that Tyr makes a very conscious effort to not think about this in the midst of the Restraints causing problems. He's reluctant enough to cede that he should hold the Minister responsible for this gross violation of his privacy and trust, but he's even more reluctant to give that the woman he loves has any knowledge or hand in the process - unwittingly or, especially, wittingly. Ultimately, he stubbornly doesn't hold them responsible. It hurts less to place the blame elsewhere. And he never loses the inescapable nostalgic kick to go home in the sense of the old paradigm - him and Keeper and the Minister.
He gave them everything.
And there's something in here about his regret at not being able to say all of this respect in better words or more directly. There's that acknowledgement that there's one person he trusts to understand why this was his breaking point. And, ultimately, there's the acceptance of the likelihood that none of this is going to end well, that he's living on borrowed time stolen from fate or destiny, or hell, maybe the Force. Tyr doesn't give a whole lot to whatever higher powers might be out there - relying on them hasn't ever saved him and he doesn't expect it to.
It makes it very interesting to watch him knowingly and willingly lie about the Black Codex after he lets Ardun walk with it and promises to double for the SIS. In a way, he's committing the greatest failure and throwing away everything the Minister has fought so hard with him to maintain and keep, especially when both of them have spoken of ideals instead of goals, etc. But it's necessary. It's what's best for Tyr, mentally, at that point. And even one of the figures he loves and respects the most can't override that desperate intrinsic need to fight for himself. The old man is, after all, one of the largest advocates of it throughout his career as Nine.
And, I suppose speaking of the nostalgia for Intelligence, my favorite set of lines from the final scene so far:
She’s sobbing against his shoulder. Dust and blood stain an almost unfamiliar uniform - he hasn’t worn uniform on Dromund Kaas in months, maybe years…
Everything’s been such a blur since Intelligence was disbanded…
so YEAH. I uh. I have a lot of feelings and this is where I'm sniffling and sobbing and word vomiting them into one doc but in story format, I suppose, lol.
Also completely unrelated to this particular fic but I am. Still thinking so intently about Eight x Tyr thoughts. They're now living rent free in my head and all of this.... absolute devotion stuff... hrhrhghghghghghghghrhhg. Brain vibrates because this is obviously all related to it because of the few people who could ever possibly understand any part of this series of events and feelings, it'd be another Cipher.
Tyr really does mourn Intelligence like... ghhghg. I'm unwell about it. He gave everything to it and its success. He doesn't regret it. The SIS investigation and the following fall of Imperial Intelligence were some of the worst fucking years of his life and it's destroyed him, really. He's living in and with the ruins like a bombed out city. It destroyed his everything and he'd almost gladly let it finish the job and destroy him to finally get his retribution. And he'd just as gladly let love destroy it all and rebuild it from the rubble when he has the right person beside him. Something something doesn't realize that he doesn't want or need to continue that destruction, he just needs fucking... idk validation or something. Acceptance. Acknowledgement. And then they can work on what "okay" looks like in the aftermath. He needs to be just as responsible for someone else's "okay" to even begin figuring out what the hell it looks like for him. hOUgh anyway.
I'm fucking normal about Cipher Nine, obviously. Thanks for comin' to my TED Talk.
#answered#ch: tyr#wip ask meme#in a way lel#my poor fucking BELOVED glowstick man...#also: just. when he HAS the right people with him how fucking. like yea yea devotion that corrupts#he'd still go to the ends of the fuckin GALAXY bro but also#it's so much easier to realize. oh. maybe we'd like to live. maybe we'd like to do that together. what's that look like#happy half a month early fool's i'm never normal about tyr#crunchy cat scream react jpeg y'know#tyr needs to be told to stop. to gently but forcibly be stopped. then he might be okay.#it might start there#i'm gonna fuckin write about that too just you wait until i have free time and a solid concept that consumes my entire soul again#gripping the edge of the sink#agent on agent romance call that a healing cycle#i'm.. s- no no i was gonna say i'm sorry i'm like this but no#i love him so much ur honor this is the love ur blorbo website#oh and obligatory bitching about ask editor style yada yada stop throwing the indent weird how do i style fic readibly in ask replies hghgh
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