#I'm going to walk into the ocean!!!

[distant-screaming]

the soft beginning of 'odysseus' ramping up with each line. like. odysseus who starts out soft and throughout the musical ramps up in intensity and rage and ruthlessness

[tevanbuckley]

no but buck having someone who cares about him enough after only a couple of dates to come running after spending an entire day not just at work but actively fighting a wild fire, because they had plans and he said he'd try his damndest to be there

[saltpepperbeard]

so are y’all like me and fixate on the fact that stede has two pillows/an open space available every time you see a shot of his bed or are you normal

[talistheintrovert]

there's something so inherently queer in the way The Eighth Sense is being acted and ESPECIALLY in the way it's being filmed, and the cinematography and editing choices that keep taking my goddamn breath away.

the almost pain in the longing of short, broken glances to avoid being caught staring, the eyes darting over his whole face instead of lingering too long on his eyes or lips, the tentative broaching of conversation and testing of boundaries that only happens with that level of anxiety in a queer relationship

the constant fear of "what if he's not?" "what if i'm mistaken?" "what if i step too far?" which straight people rarely have to worry about, because at worst if you ask another straight person out you'll get meanly turned down, but if you're queer and you ask a straight person out the reaction could be SO bad, so you're scared and you're withholding but you're just WANTING

there are whole scenes where their friendship is clearly blooming and they both forget their sexualities and they're just having fun like they do with other people

and then there's always a moment where it THUDS back home again. the wetsuits. the showers. outside the bar. on the beach. where they're both so clearly HYPERAWARE of themselves and each other and feeling so exposed and so so scared but still desperate to be near each other

jaewon and jihyun are in parallel states of just YEARNING so badly that it makes my heart ache and my breath catch every time one of those scenes appears

[langernameohnebedeutung]

I'm beginning to realise that a major reason why I woke up in the middle of August and was like "I REALLY DESPERATELY URGENTLY FINALLY NEED TO DRIVE AROUND ICELAND FOR TWO WEEKS ON MY OWN" (apart from, you know, seeing Iceland) is that this will be the first time since Ireland that I will completely on my own schedule and on my own and off to clock and not available and it's really interesting that the people in my life who are the most like 'why would you want to go to Iceland on your own, there's nothing there, that sounds boring, it's empty and cold' are the ones I most need a break from. It's you, the stressor is you.

[astrarche-x]

today's episode of being obsessed with The Radiant Emperor: this conversation (even before the ''you don't kneel" moment) is insane for the parallels it shares with Ouyang's internal struggles. Aside from the obvious ''Why can’t you make it easier for me to hate you?/Would that I could only hate, It would be easier", it makes me want to chew on glass that Ouyang seems to never have considered forgiving Esen for (essentially) being Chaghan's son and is so taken aback by the fact that Esen considers forgiving Baoxiang simply because he loves him. Ouyang could never conceive of such notion even if what he subconsiously wants the most is to live happily ever after with Esen!

Another thing is the parallel between Ouyang being like ''oh no, Esen, why can't you see reality for what it is" several times (even if he admires that) and Esen here going ''oh no, Ouyang, why can't you imagine a different reality"... For all the poetic Ouyang waxes about Esen's naivete he doesn't share I find it sooo interesting this instance of Esen dragging Ouyang for his lack of imagination because this is ultimately what doomed him...

[faaun]

we sang in the aeroplane over the sea tgth ☆

[snobgoblin]

does anyone know a show movie etc with literally zero conflict

[ceaselessims]

currently thinking about arthur lester and You Want it Darker by Leonard Cohen came on my Spotify shuffle 🥲

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Something I've seen a couple people saying is that they want to make sure that Laudna understands that she's not the only one who has been through trauma. But like. Laudna is not the only one who needs to learn that lesson. Actually, it's not even that Laudna needs to learn that she's not the only one that's been through trauma at all, because they're all very aware of what they've all been through. This became an inevitable confrontation when Laudna decided to let Delilah back in, though, and after rewatching the scene, I actually think the only people who managed this situation correctly were Imogen* and Ashton.

Orym and Laudna are both more focused on their own pasts with the sword and not thinking about each other. Orym should have talked to the group and come to a decision with them about using the sword and Laudna should have talked to him about it instead of trying to steal it.

*my feelings about this are still up in the air don't read into this too much

[heich0e]

i don't know how to explain it or why but the simple "suguru have you lost weight?" line viscerally rends me. makes me DOUBLE OVER in agony.

[whentherewerebicycles]

I am working from the airbnb today while my mom & sister take the baby out on various beach adventures + ice cream/cheese factory tours. i made them send me pictures and WAHHHH. i love that little baby and i love seeing my family love him. i feel like in the first month or so of his life i spent a lot of time feeling sad about the fact that i didn't have a partner who was equally invested in our baby and was there to witness and share all the little memories with me. i am really enjoying being a solo parent and have no regrets about my choice, but i worried it would feel lonely to love him on my own and not have someone to share that love with. but in the months since i have just been so struck by how much our family structure feels more open to the world instead of closed-off in a traditional nuclear family type of way. obviously both types of families have things to recommend them! like, there are lots of good things about a two-parent household and having a larger extended family where you have two sets of grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, etc. but having a one-parent, one-extended family household also has its own beautiful advantages. he gets to spend so much more time with my parents and my sister especially - both because i want it that way and because i have to rely more on my family for help since there's only one of me. i don't have a partner whose schedule or preferences need to be taken into account, so we can join my mom and sister on a spur-of-the-moment vacation. i also don't have a partner who can be responsible for the baby while i'm doing work on vacation, so my mom and sister got to take him out for a whole day of sightseeing and adventures with just them there. idk i'm not sure i'm articulating this well but i think there's a joyful flexibility and openness to this family structure that i wasn't anticipating and that i think/hope will really enrich his experience of the world. he gets to have all these alloparents who love him and know him well and have real responsibility for him. it's beautiful!

[blackfemmejeanvaljean]

saga of my phone this week

last tuesday I broke my phone won't turn on screen is completely black it is what is

waited until pay day and wanted to get the screen fixed at the place

it's literally the same price to get the screen fix as it was to just by a refurbished phone

I order another phone from amazon it doesn't arrive at the schedule date I spend all day trying to cancel the order and get my money back because no I cannot wait until thursday

get my money back get another phone it arrives overnight

phone is locked and only works with verizon

I log onto the verizon website and try to see if it's esim compatible it's not

I look up local verizon stores so I can get a simcard they're not open until 10am

turns out verizon had refurbished phones that I could have gotten days okay for free and been back in the world of phones

[astralprisms]

Adventures in the Underdark

[oca-rinn-a]

forgot to post about the time i accidentally held a guy:

Glaucus atlanticus. Do not pick these up actually!

[whatever-you-can-give-me]

ok was anyone going to tell me that vashwood start literally psychically communicating in vol10 after wolfwood breaks his vials or was i supposed to just find that out seeing a page out of context on twitter and realizing vash literally snaps his head towards him and then responds to what wolfwood asked him to do in what was definitely typographically just A Thought. by myself.