#I'm going to have to force myself to rest wont I

[dryemiddi]

Any of y'all remember back in January when I said that 2023 was going to be one of the most challenging years of my life?

About 90% of the things I mentioned having to get through in that post is happening right smack dab in the middle of June.

So in this one month I'll be graduating highschool (and all the ceremonies that come with it), getting through my last diploma exams, (hopefully) starting driving lessons, preparing to apply for university and landing my first job before I turn 18 this coming July. So that's fun (lying)

That isn't even mentioning that I'm not exactly running at peak performance. I'm currently at a moderate level of functioning (better than how I was in January but not great either) and with that I need to be very careful with where I choose to spend my limited energy. And such a monumental shift in my routine is going to be demanding.

So as much as the other part of myself will fight it, I'll be stepping off for most of June, maybe even a little bit into July if I need to (so happy pride month, I'll try to make something cool next year).

Which means, apart from the work I have almost finished or ready (all IVIS content), art will be pretty scarce-- if there's any at all. I haven't been really able to create much, anyway, so it seems my body is demanding a break from art regardless.

That's also to say that I have next to no social spoons apart from the bare minimum necessary interactions, so to all my friends who are reading this-- this is me saying that I won't really be present. I really want to be there for y'all, but it doesn't look like I can atm.

Hopefully this announcement will fend off some of my FOMO alongside my ADHD, so I can actually make myself properly rest instead of doing things that'll only deplete the little energy I have (which includes my online presence).

So uh.

See y'all on the flipside, yea?

[theambitiouswoman]

I wonder how you force yourself to block, mute and delete the person from everywhere. It's hard for me to do, do you have any advice?

I don't know that I will be saying anything you guys would want to hear when it comes to this because to me it has always been very easy. Maybe ill explain my own thought process as an example.

Even if I am crazy, madly, super, "i'm going to marry them and spend the rest of my life with them" in love- when it is over, or when they incredibly mess up- I nip it in the bud. I say "i'm done" I disconnect and I block them.

I don't go into back and fourth, not with arguing and not with going back. I do this because I know my own boundaries and standards. I have a very clear definition of love in my mind and I know when people do certain things, they do not love me. Its not a definition I made up for the word. I just appreciate the definition in a literal sense and hold myself to it. I do not gaslight myself into making excuses.

Why would I want to go back to someone who hurt me? Who, if I broke up with them... would mean I probably let it slide or forgave them once before (unless it was extreme).

Do not get me wrong I have had some hard heart breaks. My last heart break was really hard on me. But I blocked them and have not looked back since. Why would I? You can't find happiness where you lost it. What is meant for you won't cause you pain. I can come up with a million examples to hold on like, "wrong person wrong time" whatever. But I know that as it stands- it did not work.

If i'm still trying to hold on then that would just cause me more pain. Freeze me in time. What good would that do? Won't help me get them back. Wont help me move on. More often than none, those people who hurt us move on with their lives. I am my own person. With my own life. My own goals. My own dreams. My own everything. I can live without them. Me dating someone does not come from a place of lack or attachment. It comes from a place of CHOICE.

Relationships that do not work are lessons and experiences. They help us figure out not only what we want, but learn about who we are. So instead, I focus on working on myself and becoming the person I want to be. Becoming a better woman continuously attracts better in my life.

Anyway, hope this gave you some insight <3

[spearxwind]

not to sound weird but what was that work you put in to get where you are 🙏 i want to improve my life so bad but have no clue where to start. even a general gist of things

You dont sound weird! I think it's commendable to want to change your life for the better, and I want to help in any way I can :D

This is also my own perspective but I think a lot of it could be universally applied if you look at it through different lenses of ppls different situations. This also got rly long so I'm putting it under a readmore ^^;

So I had pretty much been isolating myself with increasing ferocity for years until recently. Even when trying to reach out to people I was extremely closed off, keeping my feelings behind many walls and chains always. A lot of my hard work has come from undoing all of that fuckup. I put all my eggs into my online friendships (and even then had a hard time with them).

My behavior was a cluster of personal garbage, learned mannerisms from keeping bad company, and hardwired reactions to specific behaviors. It's something pretty hurtful to realize when you do realize it, but that doesn't mean that you are a bad person or a failure or anything like that. It just means that you have certain bare minimum survival behaviors that worked before but now are only doing you damage, and you have to learn to undo them. (which is a great step!!)

Which brings me to what I have (painfully) learned over the past several years: the basis to any and every good relationship, romantic, platonic, family, or anything is crystal clear communication. Straight up for the love of god communication skills will save your life time and time and time again

And also like I said in earlier posts the solution to wanting to be more social is just BEING more social. This is arguably extremely hard, especially after years of "if they want me around they'll ask me" and always waiting to be invited but not wanting to bother anyone by asking if you can join NO!!!!!!!! GET THAT SHIT OUT OF YOUR BRAIN EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY!!!!! It really does NOT work that way at all. People will invite you to things if they see you express interest in them. The same way that in your head you think 'theyll invite me if they want me to go' if they dont see you express interest people will think you dont want to join. If you go someplace and just stay recluse because youre shy they likely will also think "theyre probably not comfortable or dont want to be here, so we wont force them". People are inherently kind and they are definitely NOT thinking about shunting you on purpose (and I am speaking this, genuinely, from personal experience)

While I was studying my major I got close to a group of people and thought of them as my friend group, but they always seemed cold to me, and I rarely got invited to hangouts because they seemed closer among themselves so I ended up always thinking that they didn't really want me around, and created all of these assumptions in my mind about them or what they thought of me.

Years later, recently, I found one of them again just... randomly while walking through the street and we started talking. And in my much better state of mind I asked about this whole thing because I wanted to know how the rest of the group was doing (I care very much for them still) and he revealed to me that THEY were the ones who thought I was shutting myself off of the group bc I didnt wanna be close to them. Which just blew my mind but it made a lot of sense and explained a lot. I was always on my phone too, talking with my internet friends (because it was my comfort zone), so what they'd assumed was that I already had a friend group that I was invested in and so I wasnt going to prioritize them. SO basically this whole thing ended up being resolved with clear communication and would have been solved much earlier if I had just spoken up about it and gotten braver (though my mental state did not let me at the time)

Anytime you are making up assumptions and ultimatums in your mind without communicating them to the other party you should stop and very much go and speak out loud to the other party (or parties) it will genuinely do you good cause huge as hell brain snowballs do nothing but drown you in your own mind.

Also on the being social front, if you dont have the practice in then it will be hard but a lot of it is very much "fake it till you make it" and I genuinely cannot recommend that enough. Inject yourself into conversations and places and act like yourself unapologetically because the secret isnt to craft a persona that you think people will like, its just being yourself and finding people who will love you for who you are. And like I said I just got invested in other ppls plans and asked to be able to go to places, and oftentimes just by expressing interest i got invited "oh I love this show very much!!" "well we have a plan to watch it at my pals house do you wanna come?" "we were planning on going to X place this week" "omg that sounds so cool can I come with" "of course!" Generally people will respond with "the more the merrier" so please dont be afraid to ask. And even if you get a rejection or two it's fine, don't let it discourage you. Some plans are simply not meant to be, and that's totally fine too!

Something else I worked for was reestablishing contact with old highschool friends I'd lost and I missed terribly. I went out of my way to find them again (old phone numbers, old emails, old instagram accounts that hadnt posted since 2019), and I found them!

And most of them really missed me too and were absolutely thrilled I contacted them again, we picked up right where we left off eight years prior. With a lot to catch up to but its genuinely so nice to have them in my life rather than just melancholically thinking about them and wondering if they hated me or anything. Turns out that they had also thought to contact me as well or had tried and lost my phone, or some of them even thought that it was better to leave things as they were to not "stir up shit" so we were all stuck in the same loop of insane thinking without actually confirming it until one of us (me in this case) finally broke the ice (and it took a damn long time too)

The thing is, people are just like you. We all have our own mental nonsense to fight, and we all have our assumptions and propensity to think ourselves into the grave, that's why its so so so so important to communicate things as clearly and as often as possible. Bearing your suffering alone will only make you miserable in the end, and your circle is there to help you

As a last note, I do want to say I have been incredibly lucky, because the friend group I've been adopted into I have met through that one friend from uni that I just HAPPENED to find on the street. I could have not waved him over on the street and just kept walking with my music on and ignored him. I could have said 'no' to his offer to get dinner that day if I'd wanted to be home earlier. I could have never spoken up about liking eurovision and never gotten invited to the hangout where I met my bf. And none of this would have ever happened at all. But that just strengthens my advice of "just say yes and reach out of your comfort zone" because you never know where it's going to lead you!

All this to say:

Communicate clearly with your peers to reduce misunderstandings. More likely than not they'll be in the same boat as you are. (Also extra note. Communication works BOTH WAYS. It needs to come from both parties. It is also a skill you have to nurture and hone!!)

Be kind!! and be loving!! and be yourself unapologetically!!

reach out to people the same way that you'd want to be reached out to. It sucks that sometimes (even often) you have to be the one to do it, but you eventually reap what you sow and people will learn that they can reach out to YOU

People will respond in kind to you being nice to them and a positive energy in their life. Some people will take advantage of it yes, thats just how things are, and its something you have to learn to recognize but you should never let that steel your heart. It is so so so important to remain kind and loving the world needs it so much. We're all out here trying to make our own lives and our loved ones lives a little bit brighter <3

[too-much-sunshine]

Finished the most recent chapter, and as an aroacespec person myself, I was so comforted by the slow and natural progression you've given Scar and Grians relationship in this. I'm inclined to physical affection myself, and that's something frequently excluded in pairings that people write as aroace/qpr adjacent. A lot of times they're always considered strictly romantic, but the way you've written this feels so right in the sense of Queerplatonic, as you mentioned you intended originally in the notes. I just wanted to say thank you for that! Reading how they hold each other and comfort one another (wont go into detail, as to not spoil ch26 for anyone reading this) just clicks in a way that's Their Connection, and it doesn't feel like it's trying to or needs to be anything else. It's so content, and it makes me feel so warm to see that in a fic with two characters I resonate with a lot.

Not to mention the plot- omg, I've been fawning over it all week! My favorite moment I think is definitely the kitchen scene with Iskall and Scars little standoff- the visual was so sassy and queer from Scars end, it just made me cackle to no end I absolutely loved the attitude. But really, I try not to theorize too much when reading stories that way every turn feels like a huge shock, and this fic keeps my attention so well I didn't even have the chance to, I was far too busy enjoying every little flair of dialogue and fluid change of scenario. I literally gasped and yelled "OH /SHIT/" aloud multiple times, I'm not embarassed to say it. There are so many details you kept so quaint and innocent at the beginning, I never even questioned them until their importance later on!

This story has been absolutely, insanely, phenomenally fun to read, and I can't wait to see where you take things next. I've been planning my own fic for ages, and reading something like this has really inspired me to pick up my pages and keep going. I hope you have a wonderful day, and that you have a lot of fun working on the rest of the story! I know I'm dying to read the next chapter whenever you feel it's right to show, and others will be too :).

Much love!

- minecraft-cake

OH MY GODS IM GONNA CRYYYY (/pos) TOO LATE I AM CRYINGGGG TTTTTTT AAAaaaa this means so much to me TTTT ASDFGHJK

Ive said it before, and I'll say it again: I started writing WOftL because I wanted to read something like it, but it hadnt been written. Not only in the superhero space (even tho I am a bit a whore for superhero fics UuU) but also just aspec wise. Im arospec/ace, and I just felt it wasnt being represented in a way the resonated with me!! So I wrote it myself <3

Im so glad that it resonates with others as well! I really hope that deciding to change the relationship romantic doesnt takes away from that! I feel like, personally, it doesnt change their background and their connection for each other. I certainly dont plan to have them act much differently then they do now lmaooo

Ommffggg you are so nicceee TTTTTT If Im forced to say one thing I'm proud of for this fic, i'd say the foreshadowing turned out much better then I expected lmaooo This is my first looongg fic, so I really happy with that turned out!! I have so much I can say about specific scenes and how they came to be in my brain!!! But for specifically Iskall and Scar, I loved how their little plot came out! Those two have History UuU

Thank you so much for reading and the kind wordsss!! This seriously made my whole week and its only monday!! Im so happy to have inspired you, and if your willing to share I would love to read your fic when you write it! I hoep you have a phenonial day, week, month, year and life bestie <3<3<3<3

[justagalwhowrites]

Hey Kit,

I’m Demi from@/getitoutofmymindwrites!

Since you're doing it, too,

Can I ask for 4. and 24.???

Hi Demi!!

You're so kind to reach out and ask!!

4. A story idea you haven't written yet - OK this is one that's been giving me some brain rot but I haven't shared too widely yet I don't think? I'm thinking it'll be a mini-series of sorts, maybe like 5-10 chapters? I have to fully map it BUT it's... an Agent Whiskey fic! He's sent on a mission to acquire something of great spy importance (details are still fuzzy) but he's beaten to it by a beautiful, mysterious woman. That's when he discovers the existence of another private intelligence agency: Noman, a group of women who specialize in going to "no man's land" and getting the job done (get it? Kingsman, Statesman, Noman? I feel so clever for this, please let me continue to lol.) The rest of the fic would be some flirtatious super spy stuff before the stakes get higher and they have to work together to save the world. Of course, fucking ensues. I want to write this on the side of my regular fics hopefully soon? And share it once it's all written so I'm not accidentally leaving people hanging for a million years like I've been wont to do lately.

24. How do you recharge when you're not feeling creative? - I'll be honest, I'm so bad at forcing it? I do listen to music a lot to help get the juices flowing when I'm looking for a groove but my bigger problem tends to be "brain won't shut the fuck up, must write stuff to make brain shut the fuck up." I have gotten better at trying to force myself to rest (something I'm not great at) and step away before stuff swallows me up too much. I've been reading more books lately which has been great! But yeah, on the rare occasion I'm not feeling it, I usually just don't write that day. Those days are kind of few and far between for me, though. I have a very serious case of cannot shut the fuck up itis and it's incurable.

Thank you so much for asking!!! Love you!!!

[the-s1lly-corner]

Hey man, its me again~

(If i may overwhelm you or anything just say so, i sometimes dont understand the limits of being too annoying)

So. Hehm. I got covid. And. I was sick for a few weeks but then yesterday it became very, very bad(i presume because of stress and overexaustion, as well as due to not taking care of myself properly..) to the point of not being able to hold a bottle. I felt kinda horrible, but until night that was only the start. I could only lay in bed, overheated, and ended up falling asleep midday and having hallucinations/nightmares at night. I woke up in tears after a supposedly silly goofy dream(caine×kinger (i just knew they were a couple) arguing, well, more like kinger being very, very mad for some reason and caine looking at him with his pathetic sad eyes while trying to argue back/explain himself. Also there was zooble looking all smug at The Camera like in Office in a way only an asshole weedsmoker would do, all relaxed. Oh also it was a Zombie Apocalypse au and kinger just had a big booty for no reason) and hyperventilating, it was horrifying for some reason(maybe because i love the guys... royalteeth<3). I was Very Delirious.(i am a bit better after finally being taken seriously and given medication after

Anyway i said all this only for you to know about the dream, i liked it very much in the end, yummy angst.

So i was wondering, maaay i please req a worried itward trying to force sick!reader to go to bed but they bluntly refuse because "I have WORK to do and people to TAKE CARE of! I don't care, am just.. a little under the weather, yes, but its nothing a warm tea later wont fix. So i need to- no, i am perfecty capeable-" <- said before falling over a coffe table half dressed, almost landing on Mr. Midnights fluffy butt. When they finally give in they're kinda clingy and a bit whiny("..do you still love me?"; *stumbles out of the room to get to itward who decided to get them some tea, scaring him shitless in the process* "can we hold hands? Please")

(The dream and other info has nothing to really do with the request and has no purpose but to tell you abt the silly scenario, you can just disregard it. Anyway i'm going to sleep good noight!!♡♡♡)

Itward x sick!stubborn!Reader!

IM SO SORRY IT TOOK SO LOKG TO GET TO THIS SOBS

That said I hope youre feeling better man :( sickness sucks!! I hate sickness!! Beats up the sickness!!!

Also I know I already said this when you checked your request status, but you're not overwhelming me or annoying me!! Get down with the silliness!!

Also look at this goofball, how he almost falls

Loser

(Gently holds)

I think that he would treat most sicknesses on the same level of seriousness; like sure he wouldn't panic if you had a simple fever or cold.. but he's going to be firm on you not overworking yourself

In fact its likely that he will bar you from chores and work for at least an entire day after all your symptoms die down

Very quickly notices that something is wrong with you. I mean itward looks over a bunch of kids and kids get sick all the time, so I think he can see the signs even before you're fully ill

Asks you if anything is wrong and offers to do some of your chores around the ship (and that's assuming he even assigned you any) as well as offer to run the errands you needed to do that day

Gentle but firm when talking to you and trying to keep you in bed

Like gently pushing you back into bed and covering you up in a blanket or two

"Yes yes, I know dear that you've got work to do... but please, I need you to rest... can you do that for me?" And other similar pleas

Hes making you soup when you wobble in and ask if hes mad at you; because his tone sounded a little stressed when he last talked to you

He cant even answer before you face plant onto the floor of the ship...

Immediately rushes to your side; which likely only takes about two steps for him thanks to his long legs.. scoops you up and just

In this gentle quiet voice reassures you that hes not angry. A little stressed out for you, but not angry

Key words, "for you", not "by you"

I would say for comic value he would tie you to bed, but I feel even itward wouldnt go down to those extremes (and this man can get a little silly. I mean he literally locked Fran in a room so he could make her a surprise birthday party. Itward can get a little intense, I think)

No instead I think he would just stick by your side to ensure you're actually resting

One of admin favorite tropes; character b is sick/very tired and in bed, character a who just put them to bed goes to leave only for b to grab their sleeve/hand/arm/whatever to stop them and just. "Plesse stay"

That happens with you two, I think

And most likely, if itward doesn't have anything super time sensitive or important to do, he will stay with you

Besides, hes a skeleton from another reality. What are the chances that a human sickness can spread to him?

Well that's assuming it's a sickness from the third reality and/or one that cant jump species

But shhh

Itward pretty much becomes a mother hen and tries to prevent you from doing anything that may make your symptoms worse.. as well as caring for you via making you food, keeping you hydrated, and even carryout you around if your legs are too weak to support you

[raamitsu-personal]

Hello bestie, its me ayşegül, i wanted to say whatever is that you are going to through , it wont last forever and after it ends you will find yourself become more stronger , cus the pain that doesnt kills us makes stronger, remmber that theres people who cares for you <3 give yourself a time to relax and if you are feeling sad and angry, you can write your thoughts on a journel, and it will take time to things get better and with paitince and help things will get evauntly get better in time so in the mean time, take care of yourself ❤

THANK YOU BESTIE FOR YOUR ENCOURAGING WORDS 🙏

For the past few days, I have been feeling extremely burned out and exhausted mentally. It is easier to mask the problem when you're constantly going through it. Whenever I do my stuffs, I try to listen less to music cuz it will effect my system knowing I am not quite alright. While I want to keep up my interests, I have to force myself to confront my life as an adult and it sucks, ya know? And the whole expectation from me? Girl I'm dying inside. This whole thing messes me up. I want to be here every day and forget about it but eventually I'll be back to square one. Sometimes I tried to sit down and asked myself, "girl, what is it that you want and why is it so difficult for you to achieve it?" - and I was left with no answer, still.

you know... I tend to come into conclusion that I may be destined to become like this: keeping people happy but I am not, trying to be respectful to the people who gives zero fxcks but I am not built as such, maintaining my sanity but my insanity craves visibility, and other things that I wished I could tell you but I'd rather keep them for myself. I'm sorry for not being mentally available for you when you want to share your story. I may looked hyper outside but God knows the rest within me.

I'm so glad to be able to post and keep up with my fav manga leaks yesterday. Those are what kept me busy for awhile. Just a head's up: you don't need to reply anything to me if you don't know what to tell me. Reading my words is enough. I am alright and I'll be fine :D

[kollector-of-stims]

Here we go...Squirkies Rating!

I now have 9 different pets and shall rate them based on my personal opinion of them. Though its opinionated, I still hope my ratings will help anyone that wants any! Unfortunately I will NOT be rating Pop Bop Butterfly, Toggle Turtle, and Spin-Fin Axolotl since I don't have those.

All ratings and reviewing under the cut!

First off, the collection guide says as a warning, and I quote: "Caution: squirkies are collectable novelty toys and are not intended to be used as soothing aids. Continuous repetitive use will degrade performance." I guess this applies to many stim toys though? I don't know but I'm including this still just in case. Also it wont stop me anyway.

So, the ratings begin!

• Twirly Whirly Hedgehog

A slightly weighted hedgehog. Comes in blue and pink.

1: The spikes up top spin. 2: The texture is rubbery and honestly pretty nice. 3: the weight is on the bottom and this allows it to wobble on a hard flat surface. Also good for just holding depending.

Overall, this one appeals to me myself a lot when it comes to fidget options. The spinning and texture are quiet and good for using secretly in a jacket pocket in public with one hand. So what if hedgehogs aren't an animal I'm crazy for? This one is fantastic.

My rating: 9/10

• Switchy Scorpion

A scorpion with a clicky tail and buttons on it's back. Comes in light blue and orange. NOTE: I replaced the ORIGINAL tail with my OWN wacky tracks because the original tail was shorter AND squeaky. Took some force with scizzors down in there to pry the original tail off. Be careful if you try this.

1: Buttons on it's back have a tiny bit of resistance and a decent click. 2: Its claws can be clicked once inward and outward with a click, moving each eye. 3: Its legs are made of a slightly softer material than the body and can be moved a little. 4: The tail when you first get it is squeaky and a little awkward to mess with. Thus why I replaced it.

Other than me modifying it, the rest of the toy is pretty alright. The claws are fun and the buttons are fun to press over and over with two fingers. The "being able to modify it in the first place" was cool imo.

My rating: 6/10

• Squish 'n' Fish

A rubbery fish with a squishy interior where a bubble is. Comes in blue and yellow.

1: Its tail stretches decently. 2: when squeezed, a bubble comes out of its mouth, and there's a small squiggly worm inside that I have trouble getting out in every squeeze. 3: The top fin can count as a fidget as well.

Completely rubbery and bouncy, it had a texture I myself despise when I first opened it. It took washing multiple times before I was comfortable touching it, and it still slightly repels me due to that faint powdery texture that some people dislike with stretchy stim toys. Could be my imagination but. With the bubble squish, it takes force from me personally, so I'm honestly not too crazy about this one other than its design.

My rating: 3/10

• Jiggles Jellyfish

A rubbery jellyfish with a noticable hard interior frame. Comes in blue and pink.

1: The buttons on the back have resistance and good clicks and honestly feel nice to me. 2: The tentacles can be stretched enough to where you can see where they are connected to the toy. 3: The sides of the body can be pressed inward with two fingers, making the hard inner frame more noticable. 4: The fringe on the head works as a small fidget.

Again with the same texture issue as the fish. Took multiple washings and if I can get rid of the feeling completely, I'd personally feel more inclined to use this one. If I wasn't paranoid about that feeling, I'd be using it more. Also, it's fun to place it on a flat surface with tentacles out in all directions before softly tapping it and watching it wobble.

My rating: 5/10

• Squiggly Snake

Hard bendable snakes that work similarly to tangles but with more resistance and sharp angles. Come in yellow/teal, pinkish purple/teal, and glow-in-the-dark (green and teal) in the 5 pack.

1: Similarly to a sharp-angled tangle, the body can be twisted around in different shapes with no noise. 2: The tongue can be pulled out a little but I would advise not pulling too terribly hard. 3: The head can be spun around with a nice clicking sound. 4: The eyes can be spun around with a softer clicking sound.

Another one I personally like. Not only do I enjoy snakes, but also, the clicking and various movements you can do with this one are nice to me. Though it's not as easy to move the body around as it is a tangle, it still does a good job at being satisfying. The clicking also sounds so good.

My rating: 8/10

• Clickety Cat

A conveniently fidget-cube-shaped cat. Comes in orange, purple, metallic (light blue), and glow-in-the-dark (blue).

1: The tail can be spun with little resistance and a satisfying clicky sound. 2: The mouth can be pushed inward and come out extended. It can then be made small again with another push. 3: The feet can be spun with your finger in a proper place while pushing. 4: The ears can be moved back and forth, moving the eyes as well.

Cats are a favorite animal of mine, and that, plus the tail and feet specifically, make this one of my top 5 favorites of my 9 squirkies. Though the feet aren't as easy to spin as the classic spinning part of a fidget cube, I still enjoy it. And the tail also is pleasurable, if you don't mind the noise.

My rating: 8/10

• Pop Tube Pup

A dog with two plastic ends and a pop tube making up its body. Comes in brown, white, metallic (orange), and glow-in-the-dark (light blue).

1: The pop tube body extends a small amount. 2: the ears can be moved up and down with a barely audible click. 3: the tongue can be clicked into place either up or down, moving the eyes.

The colors and tube are nice, though in my opinion that's all this dog really has. The ears are entertaining but not as much as parts of the other animals. I personally am also worried about the tube body breaking, mainly because I have bad luck with pop tubes breaking in half.

My rating: 4/10

• Cheeky Pop Monkey

A small square monkey with a backside like a pop-it. Comes in purple/pink, brown/yellow, metallic (blue/pink), glow-in-the-dark (pink/orange), and golden metallic (1/3 chance in mystery pack)

1: Both cheeks can be popped inwards with soft pop sounds. 2: The ears can be moved towards the back, popping the poppers back outwards. 3: The tail can be rotated similarly to the cat but with more resistance and a louder sound, moving the eyes.

Actually very satisfying to me. The being able to pop and un-pop the backside so easily is very handy, and the tail is good as an occasional fidget requiring a little force. The popping part of course really sells this one and is the main focus, but despite there only being 2 main stimming methods, what it has is nice in my opinion.

My rating: 7/10

• Curly Chameleon

A compact chameleon with a silicone-like tail. Comes in green/blue, pink/green, and glow-in-the-dark (light green/pink).

1: Pressing on the back ridges, which are plastic, makes the tongue stick out. 2: The tail can be uncurled before quickly retracting back into shape. 3: The eyes can be spun with a soft clicky sound.

This ones surprisingly high on my personal list just for the tail alone. Quiet and fun, and the tail part can be used in bed with less threat of waking up a nearby sleeping partner. Cute and appealing to me, I love the tail texture.

My rating: 8/10

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BONUS: How the glow-in-the-dark squirkies look in the dark:

Uh edit: I couldn't add another image to this but left this title in here, so if anyone wants glow in the dark info, I could add it to a reblog.

OVERALL RESULTS:

Fun and neat little toys, I love the hedgehog, snake, cat, monkey, and chameleon the best. When it comes to fidget options with shopping trips and such, the hedgehog would be the one I'm most likely to take in public. The fish is my personal least favorite, but is still cute and it enjoy it more if the bubble came out easier and the texture wasn't at all powdery feeling.

This was fun to do, and I hope that whoever reads this review was at least entertained. And if it helps someone pick their favorite, I'm happy to help!

Also feel free to let me know if you want me to make reviews like this for any other fidget/stim toys I show that I have!

[glitterymiracleeagle]

Period Pain

Contains: emeto, dizziness, fainting, little bit sneeze

Caracters : Ot7 (BTS)

You are a famous dancer and singer and a huge fan of bts you know each other about 5 6 yrars and you are like brither and sisters and you will take part in a show with bts

We were practicing and I was in a pain. I always had bad cramps and pain in my stomache when I got my period and with that unfortunately I have a spring allergy. So my allergies are also acting up and with period it was getting worse. We were dancing but I wasnt really focused and I looked so pale . İn the morning, jimin noticed and asked me about it I said I'm okay. Suddenly, I was about to sneeze but we were in the middle of the practice.When we turn around I stifled three sneeze :Hnnngh , hatcchi, hnngh.

That was the 13 th today.I sneezed while showering 10 times. I hate spring. Then jungkook noticed me : "Hey, you okay blees you " I said : " Yeah just allergies" . Thankfully, we got break I lay down the floor and I was crumbling with pain.I also got very dizzy all of a sudden. I was layimg edilen holding my stomach. Jimin , came next to me and said:" Are you okay ?" I said yeah but my face says opposite Jimin : Sit right there I'll get you water . I said :I'm okay dont worry we have so many work to do Jimin : Dont lie to me again just rest there you wont practice today and I got mad and : No I need to be here to practice then jimin : I 'm worried about you you're being selfish " and I get angry and stand up but I get dizzy and my eyes get blurry then a strong arm catched me and lifted me to bench. I heard alk the members comw towards me then I wake up in jurse room. I saw taehyung and jimin .They saw me wake up and : " Oh thank god are you okay ? I said yeah then Namjoon came and pick me up "Let 's go to car " I said : You din't need to carry me I can walk . He said : " No you 're sick " I thanked him. While, we were in the car I fall asleep in jungkook 's arm .He carried me to my room and I slept. After 3 hours , I was members getting ready in the sallon I wasn't feeling well but they were going to practice so I need to come with them . I walked in with a full energy and I said :" Guys I 'm okay I can come with you " they said : No , you need to rest " I said : I'm okay I took medicine please and I insisted to go with them they finnaly agreed but they tell me to not forced myself . We arrived at the agency , while dancing I felt like throwing up but I didn't tell but it get very bad and I ran to the bathroom.

[ajjconcertat2am]

this shit shoulda gone to the notes app but whatever idgaf

Sometimes i get really numb to the idea of a romantic or sexual relationship.... its hard to muster up a fictional ideal, a detailed dream or fantasy. The repetitive times of forced desires upon me during what i can only describe as the peak of my youth and malleability had created this instilled feeling that my time has past. I have to be deserving and disciplined and needed before i can even begin to think about what i want. Its not only that there cannot be pleasure without pain, but the idea they need to be happening concurrently.

When i say these things i know in my mind i am being melodramatic and impatient, my brain wont let me rest in pity. I understand my insecurities and i cannot cave to same fate, the same mistakes. However, understanding my mental state and causes and correlations, how to break it down, how to channel it into a better outlet, theres days where i am numb beyond a point of ration. i cannot force myself to feel positive of my desires and i experience a sort of un controllable response to what i thought was my own bodily functions. What was pleasure in an instance become a flash of fear in a self curated environment, where i am alone in the bed. I cannot bring myself to imagine what loving me would look like, and despite that pain my brain still betrays me and makes me afraid of my own satisfaction. It makes me feel as if i was a cube jammed into the wrong circular shaped hole again, again, and again. Surley there was the right shape for me but now im so bent none of the shapes look recognizable to me, and myself is so abstract and foreign at times it seems unlikely theres a solution.

Maybe I'm too focused on what the perfect fit wants me to be shaped like, what it likes about me, what IT wants. I need to be careful of being molded if i so desperately want it. But maybe I'm too focused on what i want. If i'm desperate to fit, i will jam myself in a desperate attempt to make it work. What seems impossible, if reflected on, becomes a self fulfilling prophecy, a nightmare waiting to happen again.

Posting this seems like the wrong choice and im tempted to write something stupid like anyways i need back shots 💖 to lighten the mood at the end, however with writing out something so sincerely im not going to lie at the end. I must say i desire the ability to desire again. I desire the ability to desire without the concurrent destruction of myself. And truely i do not despise the pain, I want the perspiration, the nausea, to be sick, to make a mess, the odor, the spectacle, i want it again, but this time, mutually.

[just-bullshit]

Unexpected vent incoming ig?

Sometimes I'm just really exhausted by the state of the world

Like.. look at everything that's happening in America alone

Still dealing with school shootings, women's rights and trans rights are being disputed like we're not people, STILL dealing with corrupt police forces, the blending between church and state + ballooned military spending that led to the fall of Rome is going to lead to the fall of America too, economic disparities between the wealthy and the poor are WORSE than they were in the French Revolution, I have to get a job ASAP because in a couple years our mom wont get the money to keep us both alive (we live off disability payments and child welfare from the gov), homelessness is being battled with outright hostility even though its CHEAPER to just give them homes and rehab, everything about our healthcare system, EVERYTHING about our education system, its all just fucked

And that's not even counting what's happening in other places! All I really know about is the Palestine/Israel and Russia/Ukraine wars because I'm American and our government does not tell us anything that isnt 1. Directly related to us or 2. Something the entire rest of the world also knows

I'm chronically exhausted and running off adderall and energy drinks, struggling to take care of myself, and depression apathy has been kicking my ass. I can barely even cry about these things anymore, they've become so normalized. I want to scream. I want to cry. I'm so upset. I'm so numb. I'm trying so hard and I feel so lazy. I want to snap my fingers and fix everything. I want the apocalypse to come so that we can rebuild a society based on kindness and community and love.

At the risk of my mental health, I'd like to be informed about all the things happening in other countries. Please reblog with anything I didnt mention.

[radiovisual]

are you going to come back?

((I keep telling myself im going to, but im not sure. Im especially unhappy with how this blog was written and how it looks at the moment, bc theres a lot of things id Want to change before getting back into rp here, but I have no energy or motivation to do so 😔 my art block from last year is Still ongoing, im still deeply fixated on other fandoms, and VERY recently I had an epiphany of some kind and haven't been able to stop paying attention to the news, bc anxieties about what's happening in Gaza/the West Bank, Sudan, and Chile, and not to mention this next American presidential election, have me reassessing my priorities in life, ykwim?))

((Im still around technically, i wont be deleting this blog or anything, im just in kind of a tough spot, mentally+emotionally+physically, and that makes it hard to get reinvested in something like this.))

((There's also the factor of... feeling rather restricted in this community. It's not any particular person or group of ppls fault, people are entitled to feel however they want around fictional subjects and themes, but i know that the types of things that i like to write and rp are dark and mature, and this fandom [despite the Nature of the show itself and the topics it covers] tends to attract a lot of very aggressive, very judgemental people -- as im sure youre all aware 😂 i found some friends here, but even still, a lot of the time i know i Can't get into the kind of stuff i ACTUALLY want to write, because most of the ppl in this community would [at least, way back when,] assume that That kind of writing means I'm a bad, dangerous person who wants to engage with those themes in real life 🙃. Which isn't to say anyone is Wrong for avoiding me if darker themes trigger them, by all means PLEASE block me for your sanity if thats what you have to do!! but when most all of those Exact Themes are LITERALLY, graphically present in the show, now, it's like. Idk man whats going on! Why are you here! if sexually abusive relationships bother these fans so much, then Why are they in THIS fandom of all places instead of somewhere tangibly Safer for their sanity, yk???))

(( i don't know. Maybe im just a brat, but ive always felt a little put out by the Hazbin community online. Its extremely self policing and isolating trying to find people i can feel comfortable talk to about my ideas, so ive kind of... given up and moved on, found a nice group of Freaks to be perverted about the Avatar sequel instead lmao))

((So... idk. I guess we'll see. But im very sorry it may have been wishful thinking when i said id come back. I really, truly meant it at the time -- things just changed 💔, both in me And in the community. And maybe theyll change again, idk!but i Do know there's people in this overarching Hazbin Tumblr RP community who don't like me very much (which is Okay), and I don't want to force myself to walk on eggshells anymore -- so I'm won't💪😎))

((I adored my time here while i was active, whuch it why i wont delete it -- i go back to re read threads all the time! -- but unless there's a group of sexual weirdos developing that i could fall in with AND I can find a way to balance this with the rest of my life, im still gonna be on this indefinite hiatus 💀👍 sorry))

((Btw -- Palestinians are in desperate need of e-SIMs to keep in touch with their loved ones and to organize humanitarian aid within the Gaza strip itself -- if any of you have a few spare dollars, please consider getting involved. I know the news is very quiet rn, especially if you're in America like me, but let me make this very clear; We are. kind of sort of Already IN World War Three. Russia and China and the global south are finally starting to hold the west accountable and the west is failing a shitting its pants about it Spectacularly. The world order is literally shifting. There's not one, but SEVERAL major international conflicts brewing right now, as America is sliding into fascism at break neck speed bc Genocide Joe is finally realizing he's probably not going to get re-elected [on account of all the genocide] on TOP of finally seeing the tangible effects of climate change. South America and Australia are on FIRE. Like NEVER before.))

((Never Again is Now. We could be going over the temperature "tipping point" of the planet BY 2030. now is NOT the time to be wallowing in escapism, no matter how much we desperately need/want it. If there is EVER a time to get involved with the real world and to take a step back from the internet and high stress fandom bullshit, it is NOW. No matter what Side of these issues you stand on, EVERYONE needs to be voting, everyone needs to be paying attention.))

(( if you can't afford esims [no shame, i often can't either, money is tight everywhere], then at the very least get This website open in your tabs. It generates revenue with free Daily clicks, the proceeds of which are all sent to UN organizations -- particularly UNRWA, which is VITAL to maintain not only getting aid INTO Gaza, but also retaining Palestinians legal right to return to their land -- without UNRWA, Isreal can begin to LEGALLY, haphazardly "deport" Palestinians, which would take YEARS to reverse through future court proceedings. Do your part, it only takes a few seconds a day 💪🌱))

((Alright, thats all! Sorry if you wanted a short sweet answer, but ive actually been ruminating on all of this, so thank you for this ask, for giving me a chance to talk about it all. Im happy to see this community thriving in the wake of Season 1, even if im not joining in myself -- you all keep up the great work, and keep having fun with it ❤ let it empower you to explore the value of Charlie's message and think of ways to impliment it in your daily life And on the world at large‼))

[caseythebunnyboy]

Howdy! As always I am incredibly pleased to hear from you again. It is the highlight of my morning. I imagine this is what it was like not too long ago. anxiously awaiting a letter from your loved one.

Your description of yourself (and the couple photos you've posted of yourself) I must say is incredibly helpful to aid in my impure thoughts. I've only been attracted to maybe 3 men in my life but I truly believe you are at the top of that list. I have a type of course and you just fit right in it.

I loved hearing about how soft your skin is and how frail you are. Gets me quite aroused. You can ask me anything by the way. Don't worry about if it'll make me uncomfortable or upset. everything about me is an open book! The answer to your question by the way is

Yes ❤️ I've came to the thought of you several times. I mostly jerk off when I'm in the shower (it has the most privacy as I grunt and moan quite loud) Sometimes It's fantasies of you. Other times I look at the photos you've posted. It really gets me worked up. I've probably never ravaged my sex-toy more than when I'm thinking of you. Sometimes I think about just kissing you. All over. Kissing your soft lips. Working my way down your chest to those wonderful thighs. Then of course I can't be stopped from eating out and enjoying that wonderful bunny cunt that lays in front of me. I too imagine the contrast of your soft skin and my rough hands. Maybe you'd like it if I stood behind you, towering over you. My chest firmly pressed into your back as I run my hands up and down your soft skin. I'll leave this here but as always I am anxious to hear from you again. Fare thee as well as I fare, 

your zealous admirer - 🚂 (I'm a big train guy I am nerdy about trains they're cool as hell) (PS. The puss in boots wolf is hot. I'm a top and I totally get wanting to get just ruined by him)

hello again, dear cowboy anon! 💜💜 im very glad i can make you so happy hehe, i kind of wish you would just dm me so we can consistently talk and get to know each other without you having to wait for a response everyday, but i understand anonimity is a very big thing people treasure so i wont force you to! though, if youd ever want to dm me, all im saying is that id welcome you with open legs arms 💜

(rest of my response under the cut so i dont clog peoples dashboards!)

very happy that my information is helpful to your fantasies! id love to hear more of them you know? how youd ruin me, how you would react if i ever bought a cute bunny outfit for you, what youd do if you ever caught me touching myself to you... hehe, so many things id love to know about you 😊

also!! im relieved you indirectly clarified youve been attracted to other men, even though its not that many! i needed that reassurance because ive had uh... not the best experiences with another man from the south, and ever since then ive been scared of straight men being attracted to me that actually saw me as a girl, but would just lie about being queer to my face just so i wont block them 😓 im glad youre not one of them! my underlying fear has been solved and i can now fully flirt with you without being paranoid 💜

the fact that i fit your type is a very big compliment, and just so you know, youre my type too hehe 😊 big strong man with an accent thats kinky but really sweet? hehehehe... if i ever meet you we'd both be going until we were exhausted 💜 and youve cum to me more than once? that actually makes me really needy knowing you like me and my body so much that youve fantasized about me multiple times 😵‍💫

hmph i wish i was in that shower with you, listening to your groans and moans 🥺 maybe im also a little jealous of that sex toy, im the one youre supposed to ravage, not that!!! my holes are all open and available for you to use to your hearts content but since im not near your home you have to resort to using a toy instead of me, so unfair 🥺🥺 by the way if you ever mention eating my boy cunt out again ill cum right on the spot- and last minute note, i would love if you towered over me, groping and grabbing my soft bunny parts while whispering all the dirty things youd to do me in my ear hehe 💜

noted, my dear cowboy anon is a train enthusiast! thank you for that little bit of information, and i very much hope to hearing from you again! youre so nice and interesting, anon 😊 im very excited for us to talk again 💜💜

(p.s thank you for understanding my monsterfucker tendencies, the death wolf is making me severely horny and its very easy to see why once you watch the movie!)

[slashingdisneypasta]

For the ask game- 💔💘🏠🎤⚔️? Hope its not too much?? 🦊

Ahhh, thank you!! That's not too much at all ^^

💔 The slasher you’d LEAST like to meet IRL.

Remake!Freddy Krueger without a bloody doubt. Absolutely no thank you. Though I certainly wouldn't wanna meet OG Freddy, either. I've talked about this before- this is just not the Slasher for me 😅 I'm better suited to surviving, like... Childs Play. I'm very neurotic and very thorough XD

💘 The slasher you’d MOST like to meet IRL.

Oooh, probably Jennifer! (At least today- I definitely fluctuate! Haha) If I can befriend her I WILL XD I can put up with a lotta shit, so as long as she doesn't tryta kill me, which I suppose she wouldn't considering I'm not a boy, we can work this out XD 😅 I wanna have sleepovers and watch true crime with her!!

🏠 If you could live with only one slasher who would it be? How’s the experience?

LIVE? So you're promising that they wont kill me?? 😅😅😅 Hmm... I'm thinkin Foxy Coltrane XD Not Otis, Not Baby, none of the rest of the family (Though Rufus and Tiny do seem to be little more chill 😅 XD )- Just Foxy. I like him ^^ He's kinda chill but also kinda wild??

The experience! Well... he makes me watch his black and white movies, which is stressful because he's so passionate about them, but then he lets me force bad Slasher movies upon him- so, there's give and take XD You'd end up being the only two people who fully get each and every one of eachothers movie references! Which i think is a very underrated form of affection.

Other then that he disappears for weeks on end, which gives me a lotta blessed alone time to myself (Perfect). And he brings back weird shit to show off.

🎤 Which slasher has the nicest voice?

Uh

*shifty eyes towards This post I just reblogged.

XD Nah, really though I have a real soft spot for Chucky's voice. He can do no wrong, not with a voice like that!! Everything he says is just perfect. Iconic. And Brad Dourif's execution of each line is just- ahhh! I'm obsessed. I would watch Antique Road Show, I swear, if only Brad Dourif narrated it XD

"Its not an addiction, it is a choice. And it is NOT SOMETHING- THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE TO HIDE- IN THE CLOSET!" (That is one of my favourites XD )

⚔️ What slasher do you think you could beat in a fight?

Oh... boy... Well, I'll try and fight almost everyone as long as its not Baby Firefly honestly (That scene in 3 From Hell when the horrible guard leaves her alone, in cuffs, in a room with two mean lookin uncuffed prisoners to try and get her killed or hurt and Baby somehow fucking RIPS THEIR INNARDS OUT?? haunts me).

But um, I guess I'll go with Billy Loomis?... I will kick him so hard in a certain place that he will not be able to speak for several days. Honour code? Not me thanks, if someone's coming at me I will go for the balls, the face, the throat, the nipples, the hair- whatever I can get at.

I was gonna pick Drayton but I just dont want to... I love him!!...

Please 🦊! - if you want to- tell me your answers to these questions!! ^^

[rfaromance]

i am constantly thinking about saeyoung's third bad story end where he's held captive by saeran at mint eye bc like, the angst imagining him trapped there waiting to die, accepting that he's hit the end of the line and failed everyone along the way... saeran hates him, MC probably hates him for getting her dragged into all this...

then a few days later MC is busting down the door of wherever he's being kept bc like HELL was she going to just LEAVE HIM THERE. hell no the first thing she did after getting away was tell the rest of the RFA and be like "if yall dont help I'll just go by myself" but ofc they're going to help bc THEY'RE not gonna leave him there either (and they scoop up saeran too bc saeyoung still wont leave without him hes still gotta save his baby bro)

i just love the thought of saeyoung being sad and roughed up and MC bursting in like "I AM GOING TO CARE ABOUT YOU! ON PURPOSE!! AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME AND NEITHER CAN SOME DUMB CULT!!!!!!!!" and him having to accept that he is, in fact, loved and cared for and that there are people who will Protect Him

I'm kicking my legs like an excited, stimmy schoolgirl.

That BE is one that I think about often. Unknown intends to lock Saeyoung away and do whatever it takes to "become him", to take his place seamlessly and dismantle the RFA. He wants to destroy Saeyoung's most precious people and force Saeyoung to know of it all, but be powerless to stop it.

I think about this BE a lot because I always wonder, "Will his MC be able to realize that Unknown is a fake?"

I like to believe in things like true love and soulmates. I like to imagine a BE that gets saved because MC goes, "You're doing a fine job, but I know you're not my Seven." A minor error that shows how much MC cares and pays attention. Maybe the way "Seven" washes his hands, or puts on his shoes, or his gait.

But now I'm also obsessed with the idea of an MC who goes, "NOW HOLD ON A MINUTE!" They won't let Saeyoung sacrifice himself so easily! They're not going to let him disappear like that! That's an MC with guts. I don't have that courage. I also don't have the RFA behind me, but that's besides the point.

Saeyoung is loved and he is going to know it! He is going to hear it and see it and feel it so there's no doubt in his mind! He is worth fighting for, and he deserves to live happily and to value himself for once!!!

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[iantcjcnes]

it’s the twenty sixth of february, 1;48 pm, and i am going to be twenty six in two days. and my depression has reached such a level today that it is telling me to kill myself.  

and i don’t know what to do. (apart from not killing myself, obviously.)

at the moment i hate myself. well, i hate myself more than usual, which is a lot. i hate my depression i hate that i hate myself. i hate the way that no matter how hard i try i can never be normal. i hate the fact that 

i just. i want to do something with my life. and i know that i'm not gonna. i hate that i am a discount version of holly, unable to do anything without having someone to hold my hand. i hate that i cant make or answer phonecalls without fucking moral support.

i fucking hate how like holly i'm always going to be stuck mentally at the age of what-ever-the-fuck-teen, being unable to be a functioning member of society. 

i wish that depression and anxiety didn’t fucking haunt every decision that i make. i wish I didn’t have to win a battle with myself every time i even thought about leaving the house. i wish that i didn’t feel so guilty every time i looked at the dog because i suck so much, that i can’t even take him for a walk. 

i hate the fact that i almost wish that i had killed myself when i was a teenager to stop the adult me, current me from feeling this way.

i wish I could fucking clean by myself, without forcing my mum or holly to hurt themselves to get me off my backside. i wish i could force myself to do the dishes, or fucking force myself to remember two buttons on the washing machine. but i can’t, and mum with her shitty legs has to do it for me. 

i see mum struggling to pay for things this month, and i know i should be helping. i know i could be helping, but i just cant. i cant articulate why but living here, rent free makes me feel so selfish and so shitty

i want to be an adult, with a job that i can do that i don’t hate, that pays the bills and lets me live comfortably. i want to be able to be spontaneous and do random things. i'm thinking about joining the army (which i wont because i suck so much that no matter what i do i know that i'll never be fit/thin enough.)

i want to be a streamer (but i wont because i suck, my voice sucks, my teeth suck, and i can’t get a fucking microphone to work.)

i want to act (but I cant for all the reasons i just mentioned. i want to get a history degree and do something with it. (but i cant because i don’t know how. i don’t know how to start where to start when to start, and i refuse to burden my mum further.)

i know tomorrow will be another day. i probably won’t feel this way for a week, a month, a year. but i know that i will. like a bad stomach after an awful curry, this feeling will again overwhelm me. i want to stop feeling this way i just want my brain my body myself to metamorph into a functioning human being. i want my brain to stop. 

i want i want i want i want

my mental health is like an unexploded bombshell, and the rest of me is the unwilling city waiting for it to go off.

… i actually sobbed while writing this. fuck