#I'm doing my part! o7

[unchained-hound]

I think we should be as deranged here as we are in Helluvatwt, btw.

Boy who stinks good.

[angstandhappiness]

INTERESTING IDEA TO CONSIDER

“Mei! You have to stop. I know you’re upset, and that’s okay! I know what it’s like to have a power you don’t know how to control—

—to feel like the fate of the world is in your hands

and you have no idea what to do!

((How do you still not see that he has no idea what he's doing? How about this for a plan: stay down MK, or I will put you down.))

But you always have my back, and help me through it. We, will figure this out!

Together!”

[lightnersdream]

i've been thinking about exactly why people portraying one of the other crew members successfully killing Jimmy as a "for what you did to Anya" kind of thing rubs me the wrong way a bit and it's because like..... this is just another form of taking agency away from Anya, in a way. it's kind of framing her as some meek, shivery woman-thing who's entirely at the mercy of the men around her, either to hurt her or save her.

(i understand these are mostly for wish fulfillment on the audience's behalf because everyone would like to see Jimmy pay for his crimes. whether or not this is the intention of the person writing it isn't really relevant, characterization happens with or without intent. i feel like it misses the point by portraying it as an 'ideal ending'.)

because... Anya is a capable person. she takes things into her own hands when she can. it was partially(?) her idea to get into the cargo,

(before he interrupts her.. remember when she interrupted Curly in the dead pixel segment?)

it was her idea to get the code scanner from the cockpit,

it was her idea to get the medication from behind the foam.

(the chance to do these things herself is not given to her.)

she'd been keeping Curly alive for months in a critical state somehow, her psych evaluations at the start are only so useless because Jimmy refuses to take it/her seriously and Curly is obviously biased when he puts it into his own hands. he's known him a long time, like he said. "I'll just put good for that one."

there's not a lot of material to work with because of how the game is framed, but it's there. we are working with two very biased perspectives and neither one lends Anya what she deserves

there's significant changes in how she speaks post- and pre- crash, and depending on who she happens to be talking to. i recommend re-reading her dialogue, because the difference is drastic

she acts the way she does around Jimmy because he has tangibly done horrible things to her, is actively hostile, and physically could not escape him by any means. she can't take away Curly's agency herself, in my eyes. you have to remember that Especially in the post-crash segments of the game, it's entirely from Jimmy's POV, and he obviously does not (and has never) thought very highly of her or treated her with a shred of respect

i've seen a general idea that she can't bear to hurt other people for any reason, but that doesn't really track to me. this is the real point of the post by the way

it seems based on the parts where she says she struggles to give Curly medication. "It just hurts him so much, I can't stand the noise." "It makes me nauseous."

it's not really the same thing as, say, hurting someone in self defense

this sounds like she did want the gun itself. this never felt worded like someone who would refuse to, at very least, threaten Jimmy with a gun, with violence. if she had been given the agency to make that decision on her own. she wasn't though

she still tries to reclaim some of it even as she's denied it

by the end she's still trying to keep that gun out of his hands

i think some people overly soften her, for similar reasons the game itself is trying to comment on. she's not a tender victim who couldn't cause pain to another out of the softness of her soul, she's a person who's had every last bit of agency ripped from her repeatedly until she couldn't take it anymore. that's the point. that's why framing her that way, "needing" someone to save her, is odd to me

she didn't need Curly to save her, she needed him to take responsibility

she didn't want to escalate things, but she's not an idiot. self defense was absolutely on her mind

but who knows im just saying shit *smiles serenely*

[oceansquill]

Okay, someone uploaded the ~10 minute dream portion of the podcast - I'll link it in the comments. Here's a summary

the main story:

Starts with Phil saying that when the "their nda's are done they can talk shit now" jokes were going on, he said that when he retired he'd give context to the "imagine taking credit..." tweet

Tommy says he'd "never been in an argument with anyone before" so he was really stressed at the time

at the time tommy was in a call with eryn, jack, tubbo, and freddie and they were egging him on

from tommy's pov, dream got really personal so tommy wasn't sure if he was serious or not

Tommy contacted phil for help, phil decided to find out

other stuff:

tommy joked about there being red flags, jack and phil agreed - jack claimed he had a bad feeling from the start

the infamous part of it was "I vowed never to be horrible to dream again" "it's not worth it, it makes me too sad"

apparently jack was aggravated by dream one week into the smp and figured he was a bad person from then on (also said dream doesn't like him and was clear about that - corroborated by tommy)

jack gives dream credit for giving him the dsmp opportunity and "individual acts of kindness" but thinks that he takes ownership of other peoples' works because he helped (and doesn't like him because of that)

at the end jack said the words came out harsher than intended, he just really does not like dream

jack said if there were dream fans in the patreons he thinks they're "fighters" and says hats off to them

tommy says he done with all the behind the scenes drama so he only works with like 4 people now

phil says he has no animosity towards dream, just disdain for a lot of things he's done behind the scenes

jack says he'd be civil to dream if he saw him

says he feels bad airing "all that out online"

[stick-by-me]

Riddle me this...

New follower sticker for: @arabriddler!

[xiii-e]

//ooc posting: I NEED to find more fun/silly things to do with my two they are Not meant to be all agony all the time I swear- I just have a penchant for the dramatic and they're a little in the torment nexus o(-< but on god they will Have Fun too

[emi-writings]

MCYT Yuri Week Valentines Day One

So, I recently noticed that the DSMP Ao3 tag has less F/F content now than it did late last year! And so, I may have gone a little overboard for @mcyt-yuri-week to make up for it.

[torchickentacos]

[lemonlurkrr]

i feel like a rabid animal i need to draw more speedo kaz

[scionshtola]

i consider corishtola to be a sapphic ship even tho cori is not a woman but i cant bring myself to tag fic on ao3 as f/f...i'm sorry to the xiv f/f fans for not putting up the numbers 😔

[dangoulains-devotion]

yuffie has many interesting elements to her but people refuse to move past "i find energetic kids annoying" and it makes me sad

[cacw]

Sorry really obsessed with the warriors rarepairs you’re pushing rn, how could you do this to me I’ve literally never stopped thinking of the overt like fascist apologia in A Shadow in RiverClan and I feel like you’re really hitting on what I saw there AGHGHGGH good work keep it up 👍🏼 🙂

I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE ENJOYING THEM! the hostile post-tigerclan era of riverclan is my absolute favorite to think about and i will never forget or forgive how shitty it was handled in asir. there were so many interesting ways to explore characters that hadn't been given much attention before but they went with the weakest and flattest route possible... it's really disappointing to me and i love to explore my favorite halfriverclanners and the way everything affected them and their relationships with others

[bluebutlikenotalways]

[hongjoongpresent]

You are single-handedly dragging me back into the mechanisms brainrot

you are welcome

[ivorypiano]

having 25 sideblogs is fun until you have to block 6 pornbots in a row

[supercantaloupe]

every avant garde/niche/experimental/weird/whatever piece of art in the world deserves to have like one weirdo on the internet be really really annoying about it. it's healthy for the creative ecosystem