#I'm already doing a Hannibal rewatch

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Currently seeking a new tv series to lose my mind over on a weekly basis. I've downloaded severance but the stars won't align for me to watch it and I can't tell anybody on the firefighter show apart (is there more than one? I'm very happy for you guys with whatever you're getting, go firetrucks or whatever. Going by the sheer number of fics and gifsets I'm seeing you're all having a lovely time and I wish you all the best with whoever and himever's epic gay longing)

But I desperately need something to geek out over to fill the Ted Lasso/Hannibal vibes of weekly hour of entertainment that rewrites my central nervous system (do you remember the Hannibal days tumblr? Do you remember the gifsets and the theories and the costume analysis and the shit posting? My god the Abigail's dad's posts used to fill my timeline for weeks). I need James Lance running down corridors while I personally give thanks to whoever created Rebecca's wardrobe

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so this has probably already been talked about in great detail since the end of the show (hannibal) but I just did a rewatch and I can't shut up about it. the incredible level of subtle details in this show is already insane but I noticed it much clearer in my rewatch during season 3 part two how quickly we see Will change.

during *The Great Red Dragon*, Will is back to mostly his pre-Hannibal self. We see him married with a family out in the country with his dogs and more specifically his clothes (I am going to be very specific about what he wears in this because it's these details that are so subtle but make his change so much more crispy). He's wearing very practical, warm weather clothes, looks like an outdoorsman.

like, reminder that this ↓

is how he shows up to meet Hannibal again for the first time in years. Glasses, coat, clearly clothes he would not think twice about wearing anywhere, kind of like how he dresses in season one. It's also in his expression and his stature (which bless Hugh Dancy for his portrayal of Will because I don't know who else could have done the subtle changes so eloquently)

now let me take you to the episode directly after (And the Woman Clothed with the Sun) he first sees Hannibal and has to come back to talk to him

i'm sorry??? Immediately with the crisp button down, tucked in, with the top buttons undone, hair slicked back, NO GLASSES and look. Look at how he stands and his expression and how comfortable he is, hands in pockets.

okay further evidence. And honestly arguably the scariest piece

it's the dead-eyed stare for me. We all know what happened to Chilton after this, and it's the fact that he knew what he was doing. God, Will was never more like Hannibal than he was at the end of season three. Clothes are not much different on purpose because he's playing the game now.

Sidebar that in almost all the scenes that he's bitchily talking to Bedelia, he's also very well dressed as if he's taking Hannibal's place in his manipulation of her.

By the time we see him in The Wrath of the Lamb, he has already decided that he wants Hannibal back. Vaguely suggesting to Jack to use Hannibal as bait for the Dragon, as if he didn't very well consider all the outcomes would likely lead to Hannibal escaping. The way they're looking conspiratorially at each other in the back of the van. How Will isn't even remotely surprised he walks out unscathed or how he doesn't question letting him drive them to wherever they're going to meet the dragon.

And once they get to the cliffside house, and they get settled and Will?

His shirt is tight, his expression is the SAME as the one Hannibal had in episode ONE season ONE, as he watches Hannibal BLEED OUT and wonders probably what they will do.

There are plenty of ways everyone that worked on this show displayed how Will was changing but I loved how they used his clothes to do it and how Hugh used his expressions to differentiate pre-Hannibal and post-Hannibal Will.

I could write a dissertation on this show it's insane and I will never shut up about my murderous gay husbands.

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(a long ramble on the mongoose line, don't mind me, i'm just thinking thoughts and going insane on a frenzy with little deep and based analysis. this is just the various thoughts in my mind)

sorry but the "you're the mongoose i want under the house when the snakes slither by" was insane. every implication it has.

you're the mongoose i want under the house when the snakes slither by

you're the mongoose i want under the house when the snakes slither by

you're the mongoose i want under the house when the snakes slither by

you're the mongoose i want under the house when the snakes slither by

he knows things can or will blow up at some point. he knows what Will is capable of, or at least he hopes Will is/will be capable of. there are so many other things to kill snakes. a mongoose seems like the last thing to prey on snakes, and under the house brings intimacy or closeness, why would you want him under the house? bringing Will close is in his line of intention, he wants Will around from the first moments.

but not only that; he wants Will to act on his behalf even if that's not what he thinks he's doing. a mongoose didn't chose you, didn't decide to protect the house; the mongoose is feeding. in the later seasons Will starts to protect Hannibal even if he knows that's not what it should happen, he changes Will so much so that this man wants to attack the snakes, to benefit on the death of the snakes, having Hannibal's life and safety as a seemingly casual outcome.

a mongoose also attacks the snakes if defending themselves, which would make sense for the phrase: he's already under the house for other reasons, and afterwards the snakes will appear. we saw it happening: Hannibal influences and manipulates patients and others, and by the time something comes for him, he can use these people to attack those threatening him, his safety. Will, being the mongoose, acts on instinct. his instinct can be defense, but he's under Hannibal's arm. he's defending himself and, as a consequence, protecting Hannibal

i know there are more details and intricacies to this, but i was rewatching the first episode and when this line came up i just froze and went "oh wait a minute you bastards!!!!!!!" because i can't belive this writing team uuugggghhh

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I'm not the best person to do analysis on Hannibal, mainly because it's complex and it has so many layers and fragments and I'm so afraid of looking like a dumbass.

But every time I rewatch the first season (I'm sorry it's my favorite season, I feel like a failure), I really thought that there was a hanging theme of self-preservation among all the other symbols and themes (again, not a big "aha!" moment just verbal vomit). Abigail capture bonding with Hannibal, as well as tucking her cards near her because she is in a complicated situation. She wants to live, she really does. Her father's shadow is behind her, a bigger monster is lurking, and the seven girls yell in her dreams. She just wants to be fucking free, live a fucking life. Bloodshed, gutting, deers or whatever.

Alana doesn't want to get close to Will. Her relationship with him has to remain distant and warm enough to be somewhat solid, but careful to not let it go astray. She wants to be his pillar, and remain focused.

Hannibal is fucking thrilled. He has met the perfect being in potential, the shaking of diving into violence, the lie of self-righteousness, the thrill of blood and the mind that connects, more than other minds can. The vision that can not only observe, but know. The only person that can dig his fingers into Hannibal's skin, and appreciate what it keeps underneath. Yet, it's not that he's afraid, but un-peeling himself requires time, and he can't wait, he's on his toes and he wants to reach but things are moving fast and leading him astray, waves pulling him under and up and left and right. He is deciphering and whispering and moving strings while being beckoned. He keeps himself well hidden, but Will can't stop moving in mysterious ways.

Will is pulled and pushed and pushing and pulling back, he holds both ends of the rope, fighting with himself and the unknown in his mind. Hiding from his nightmares, people and his own eyes, using the glasses to reflect back what could be seen by him back to the exterior. He doesn't want to see, he does and he doesn't, and the cycle is burning his head. Tiptoeing at the edge of a cliff, he's starting to play with the swan dive he could take. He's been whispered too, but he was already burning before. Maybe he was born like that, and little crooked, with a spider-ish heart that pumps darkness from his core. Not like a disease, but like the soon-to-be-shed body.

They are all showing their sharp edges, just trying to lightly warn the other to not get too close, or they will be cut. Just a tiny, itchy burn of the small path of blood. But in their distance and their toying and testing and stepping and pushing away, they leave parts uncovered, slipping. They allow a little of softening, a little moment of closeness between the lone moments when they are surrounded by themselves. And in those seconds of quiet and fleeting warmth, they are already retracting their claws.

So they break. Chipping away their fragments, they are conjoined by blood and the search of something to grab on when you're drowning. Turning and twisting and hovering. They reach others, or submerge themselves in the bitter ends of having let others have a little piece of their mind.

They come undone, in ribbons of sanity. But that shall be later. For now it's just the beginning. The peek to the abyss. It's the match to the grass. Not yet a forest fire. But we all know what shall happen. It's not the knowledge of what will happen. Is the how. How will they break? How will they loose their ends? Like raggedy clothes. They stand before is, complete and made.

But at the end, unrecognizable and yet distinct. Because you are what you are, even if you shed yourself. There are things we cling to, even when we are eating ourselves away.

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hannibal rewatching s1e9 trou normand THOUGHTS

Will going to Hannibal while he's losing time sort of means everything to me. Like Hannibal has officially successful made Will feel like Hannibal is his only support, his "paddle", so much so that even while out of it and losing time he winds up at Hannibal's office. And the ease with which he visits Hannibal in this episode, as if going to him after kissing Alana and having his feelings validated, his fears assuage has proven Hannibal reliable in Wills mind. Just delicious!! And I love that during that scene, Hannibal reaffirms he's there for Will "I'm your friend Will, I don't care about the lives you save I care about your life", and then not only undermining Wills analysis of his illness (since Will again brings up physical symptoms and the idea of a physical illness) but plants the seed in Wills mind that the more unstable he becomes the more violent he might become. Just like beautifully crafted manipulation.

And then immediately afterwards we have Will trying to apologize to Jack. the lack of general concern on Jack's behalf, saying losing himself is just what Will does without seriously considering the toll that might take. His tone is so paternally condescending, like Will is a surely teenager purposefully being obtuse. But the best part of the scene is Will lying to Jack. Hannibal has Will so convinced he has no one else, and he knows Jack will pull him from field work if he starts to slip, that realizing Jack didn't notice makes him lie that he's fine. I'm not sure Jack believes him but it gives him plausible deniablity and beyond that he can't demand Will get help if Will won't be honest about the ways he's struggling. Will lying to Jack, blatantly, in this small way is absolutely the red flag of "and he will lie to Jack again to suit his needs".

the moment between Alana and Will always leaves me conflicted. On the one hand, almost no one in Wills life is both honest with him and doesn't treat him like a child, and that's what Alana is trying to do here. She's upfront both about her feelings and why she can't act on them, treating Will like an equal for the maybe the first time ever in their relationship, even while telling him he's unstable. but I do think in a way it's cruel to say this to him. be upfront about his instability meaning you can't have a relationship? good. but the banter and the flirting, leading with her having feelings for him and not the rejection. She's trying to do the right thing, she's not being malicious, but Will is so desperately alone right now and it seems cruel to reject him after giving him hope again. Ultimately she's doing the right thing, and there's not really a good way to say what she did, but it makes me ache for Will.

the scene of Will confronting Hannibal about Abigail is like permanently imprinted on my brain. his anger, and its half at abigail having committed a crime and half that Hannibal helped cover it up and didn't tell Will. he's so betrayed by it all, and imo that's what he's really struggling with. He accepts both Abigail having murdered someone and Hannibal covering up so quickly, but the hurt remains. and then Hannibal lays it on sooooo thick "we're her fathers now". the logical part of me knows he playing to Wills paternal instincts towards Abigail to insure Will doesn't tell Jack and implicate him in a crime, but it's so heavy handed its like girl just get down on one knee already my god. and the reassuring touch after Will agrees to cover it up when Hannibal KNOWS Will is craving connection more than anything right now... it could actually drive me insane!!!!!

everything abigail is crazy making. the parental lecturing tone Will and Hannibal take with her, Will reaching out again trying to have someone in his life and having abigail reject that almost instantly where she doesn't shrug of Hannibal. her exposing nick Boyle and the conversations with Hannibal about it. even the way he hugs her after she admits to being the lure!!! it's such a strong moment for her, this true vulnerability she only shows around Hannibal. there's this small moment when she eats the meat for the first time, the look on Abigails face... I know that's also the moment she realizes that Will knows but the way it's shot makes it seem like she knows she's eating people. always the lingering shot on the food and her face after she takes a bite, and the way she fully pauses after the first bite. so good

I imagine as I get closer and closer to The Reveal, I'll have more and more to say, but these posts are truly getting absurdly long

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The character of Alana Bloom: a not that coheorant ramble :3

I’ve always had a soft spot for Alana since my first watch for Hannibal. I think when I first watched I didn’t really think about her character but now after a view rewatches I’m entirely hooked by her character. Especially on the different ways you can view her when she’s “helping” people.

On the one hand all she wanted to do was help and she tried so hard to do so-- while rewatching season 1/2 u can see just how much she cares, especially as opposed to season 3 where u can see how getting caught up with these ppl and in hannibals life toughened her, turning her into the more ruthless and cold character we end the show with. And it's so tragic. It's SO tragic. This girl wanted to HELP PEOPLE but by the end she's so completely changed, so much that we see her actively seeking out to hurt and or kill different people more than once (to her credit those ppl were also murders but my point stands) .

BUT ON THE OTHER HANDDD

…..... Back in season 1, did she want to help those ppl for them or for herself?

Ive started to look back and view Alana's season 1 actions, specifically towards Will, with distain because It has always read weird to me. And I'm starting to think it's because even from the beginning she's been a very selfish person- I think she did care for Will but I think it can be read as more out of a selfish desire to help/fix/mother someone in a sense

Like that is a grown ass man babe……… idk especially considering the closeness or lack there of between will and Alana I think you can totally read Alana’s actions towards him stemming from a selfish desire to “fix”. (not saying being selfish is bad, sometimes that’s just how it be…(honestly I can make a whole another rant on the selfishness of Alana))

I don’t know if this is a hot take or not but, I feel like the two “sides” I’ve touched upon with her character are what her character gets boiled down to and I’m here to say…. Let’s not????

I understand not liking her for xyz reasons (which is so valid and me too) but I truly believe she’s so complex from a character standpoint and i think we should acknowledge this more as a fandom as opposed to boiling her down to one or two defining moments (this is especially important bc the few women of Hannibal are already given the short end of the stick and not explored upon enough as is…..but that is an entirely different rant)

While rambling about this I'm at the conclusion that maybe Alana Bloom is just a flawed character; she could’ve really wanted to help Will and Jack and with that came along the feelings of fixing/saving. And through this you can see that “fixing/helping" makes her personally feel good and that probably contributes to why she does what she does as well. Even if she doesn’t do it great either-- she definitely showed her subconscious biases and maybe ended up hurting more than helping along the way in her desire to fix/help...but that doesn't mean she never actually cared...i think u can see that she did because why else would she be constantly trying to do good ??? (At least season 1/2)

I mean it's rlly up to personal interpretation- there's a billion ways to read media, but as I was ranting to my friends about some of my gripes with her actions, I realized as I was talking, I was saying too little. I felt like I was misrepresenting. Hence my rambles

UGHHH she can just be read as SUCH a complex character and I really do think it’s an injustice to boil her down to one or two defining characteristics and the way she helps ppl is sosososo interesting to ME!

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Currently watching: At this present moment in time, I am watching: Hannibal the series, Doctor Who (hundredth rewatch), Pose, and American Horror Story

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It was quite difficult choosing what to eat for lunch: I was more craving a tom yum but it's in my routine to usually have the kakugiri, so I was conflicted..... Hell, we'll probably get the tom yum next time, all things considered

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There's a lot of talk about will and Hannibal's relationship and what if it'd look like if we ever get season 4

And while I enjoy the fics and the psychosexual tension between them is insane I agree with some of the opinions shared by Fuller/Cast and some of the interpretations I made watching and rewatching the show are very different.

Like I do think that Hannibal is sexually attracted to Will. I think we can see the lust from him far before S3 and I could confidently say that he'd pursue a sexual relationship with Will if he was interested, but I can see Hannibal somewhere on the spectrum of demi-sexual. I have an impression that he's fascinated by the erotic (the intersection of death and sex is such a important theme after all), but he's not necessarily a sexual person.

We can see Hannibal use his sexuality to gain something (manipulate Alana), but not at any other point in the show, never for fun, for stimulation, never to satisfy his own needs.

Instead, he really seems to revel in sensuality - food, after all is a sensual experience. Eating another person can be seen as a metaphorically (or non-metaphorically) sexual act, and the way it's shown in the show is VERY sensual.

I've heard Fuller and Mads refer to him as pansexual and while that term is controversial lately, it coincides with my understanding of pansexuality: not necessarily attraction to a different gender but ambivalence towards gender, maybe even towards sex in general. I always felt like to me, pansexuality is closer to asexuality (the way I identified with it) or at least I chose to interpret it this way in the context of Hannibal.

I still find that Will is such a revolutionary presence in Hannibal's life that he might flip what Hannibal knew himself both in romantic and sexual terms completely upside down. I can still absolutely imagine him being perfectly satisfied with a romantic and non-sexual, but a very sensual relationship with Will. I don't like the term 'platonic' in the context of their relationship because I think their relationship is simply not platonic on either side.

And here comes Will's side of things. I'm going to agree with what Fuller said about Will being heterosexual but with some fluidity in his sexuality, and I think the intellectual and romantic attraction he feels for Hannibal could transcend that. But I can also imagine their relationship with no sex at all, just with this sort of... Deeply running sensuality that they already have going on, with an acknowledgement of a romantic reciprocity. We know that Will wants to be wholly and entirely possessed by Hannibal, and they don't need sex to have that. I'm still griping with whether it would be in character for Will to have this sort of relationship with Hannibal, and I also think one-sided sexual attraction in Hannibal's side would be so interesting.

People in fandoms like to have sex as the final confirmation of the validity of a relationship, as a confirmation of representation and I get it - because queer sex is important and beautiful. But I just want to step back and investigate this notion and maybe bring forward the idea that queer relationships can also be romantic, but not sexual. Or they can be sexual in unconventional ways.

If you have different interpretations of that relationship, that's okay - please don't think I'm treating my own impressions as gospel but I thought maybe someone else would find my thoughts about it interesting, cause it's been eating at me (ha).

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oh I am interested to ask if you had any spoilers when reading/watching mdzs the first time? especially did you already know _the thing_ with nie huaisang like you did with junwu or not?

also as I already said I really love your art your style is absolutely perfect >>>>>

Okay second query first THANK YOUUUUU I am so . Ahwhwhdhegegeg ;w; tht my Images are well received in the world

And first query second: I didn't! I went into CQL pretty much entirely blind –and really bc I knew it was in Mandarin and my friends were doing a watch party so I was like Oh I'll hang out and get some listening practice in! – and I had some REALLY good experiences for it. I did not even suspect the Thing with NHS and the friends I was watch partying with had a BLAST about this it was so funny reading the thread rewatchers were talking in after we finished the series bc I immediately LIKED NHS and I was going Omg yay NHS my perfect meetup boy right up until the Reveal during which I was like OH MY GOD???? MY PERFECT MEETUP BOY!!!!!!! and by god I've been Xiyao posting too much I need to NHS post again I love that guy so MUCH he's a solid favorite character contender and the first I recognized

The only thing I was ~spoiled on was Meng Yao getting a new name bc one of my friends slipped up and called him JGY once and I saw it before they edited the message, and that's only a spoiler in CQL (though tbh I prefer the pacing of how CQL introduces you to JGY, hot take; it's probably in solid part because I was show-first and am just biased toward the thing I knew first, but also the thing is . It was SO fun to meet and get attached to Meng Yao and then see him do more and more fucked up things and go UM . WHAT THE FUCK. literally Lan Xichen simulator)

More fun things from watching CQL blind

I fully bought the core misdirection, in part because I was kind of confused as to what was going on the whole time

When we started I was like "this is fun and charming! I like these characters and such I'm interested in seeing where this goes, though this isn't Seizing me like a new Thing or like Hannibal did it's not lifechanging" And then we got to Lotus Pier arc, and for like three days of episodes in a row (we would watch 2 eps a day) I cried every single time,and then I was like HEY GUYS... I THINK THIS IS LIFE CHANGING NOW

When we finally got out of the time skip I did some speculation as to who died and in fact called that it was Nie Mingjue because in terms of status quo changes "NHS is sect leader now" would function and give NHS something to do that he didn't have otherwise and NMJ was the most narratively killable

After WWX got stabbed at Carp Tower I was genuinely very afraid for a second that she was going to actually die for real, and my friends were like THIS IS A ROMANCE THEY HAVEN'T EVEN CONFESSED?? and I was like YEAH BUT WHAT IF THEY FINALLY CONFESS AND SHE SUCCUMBS TO HER INJURIES IN LWJ'S ARMS OR SOMETHING!!! IT'S SAD AND I'M SCARED??? and had to be assured that it's in fact not the kind of romance where Anyone Can Die™ and happy ending for the main couple is genre guaranteed. But there's a canon divergence idea for you

Before we watched the finale I speculated FURIOUSLY as to who was going to die. Hang on lemme get screenshots

I also remember saying something along the lines of specifically "I'm scared that Jin Guangyao is going to merc Lan Xichen and NO ONE is going to be happy about that, least of all Jin Guangyao" but I can't find it. Kind of yuri of absence about the actual Xiyao ending. Sorry I'm frenzying I just checked the clock and I have an hour to eat breakfast before we watch the finale

Bonus:

[part-time-zombie]

Rewatched Fromage recently and I noticed how hannibal killed Tobias. He used a blunt object and then knocked over a table so it looked like an accident, but what really got me was what object he used. He killed Tobias with a black stag statue, the same one will was examining when hannibal smelled him.

This stag looks alot like the ravenstag will sees in his mind as well, and part of this may have come from seeing the statue at around the same time and tying this beast to hannibal in some subconscious connection.

So why did he kill with the stag? You'd think he wanted it to be left untarnished by others blood, that he would value a reminder of will too much to soil it with violence, but if you remember the scene before the fight, it makes sense.

"I just killed two officers, they came to ask about the murder". That was what Tobias said. Hannibal told will about Tobias the night before, and now believes Tobias may have killed him. Hannibal fears he may have accidentally sent will to his death.

So he kills Tobias with the stag. Tobias, who was so like Hannibal that it felt like a reflection, who could have been a fitting friend had things gone differently, was not worthy of living. Hannibal already had himself, and didn't need a duplicate. He needed will, and now Tobias has taken will from him.

The stag is his way of saying "he is what I want, who I choose. You have no place in my life, and for the crime of attacking him you do not deserve to live."

(Idk if I'm making sense here, lmk what you think)

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S3E1 nbc hannibal livetweet from 2015

gonna watch hannibal hell yeah hell fucking yeah

8:49 PM · Jun 9, 2015

why is this music so intense already they're only scenery shots holy shit

8:55 PM · Jun 9, 2015

who allowed biker!Hannibal I will sue

8:56 PM · Jun 9, 2015

not being able to watch in hd is awful

8:57 PM · Jun 9, 2015

man... the style of everything has been so weird????

8:59 PM · Jun 9, 2015

aaaand this guy is so fucked lmao

9:05 PM · Jun 9, 2015

"I've killed hardly anyone during our residence." THERE HE IS

9:08 PM · Jun 9, 2015

I though Hannibal couldn't get any more pretentious yet here we are

9:11 PM · Jun 9, 2015

I'm .. so confused.....

9:12 PM · Jun 9, 2015

I should've rewatched the last season to remember things more clearly gdi

9:12 PM · Jun 9, 2015

thanks @ the Hannibal staff for never letting us down with the fanservice

9:15 PM · Jun 9, 2015

at least my years of Italian are coming in handy lel

9:18 PM · Jun 9, 2015

Hannibal is finally surrounded by his people. rich assholes with terrible suits.

9:24 PM · Jun 9, 2015

poor hd snails :((

9:24 PM · Jun 9, 2015

why do I think this scarf guy is so hot

9:26 PM · Jun 9, 2015

he sort of reminds me a bit of one of my ocs

9:28 PM · Jun 9, 2015

[no idea which oc i meant]

OH MY GOOOD THIS DINNER IS WORSE THAN THE OBE WIH HANNIBALY WILL AND ALANA

9:29 PM · Jun 9, 2015

holy fuck so that's what happened to her

9:35 PM · Jun 9, 2015

oh maaaaaaaannnnnnn oh man oh man this explains

9:36 PM · Jun 9, 2015

nooooo don't kill the cute flirty guy :((

9:47 PM · Jun 9, 2015

"If only that company was Will Graham." OHHHH OH OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

9:53 PM · Jun 9, 2015

I'm definitely gonna watch this again when I've downloaded it in hd and with subs

9:53 PM · Jun 9, 2015

guess who's back

back again

Hanni's back

eat your friends

10:02 PM · Jun 9, 2015

?????? WAIT WHEN

10:04 PM · Jun 9, 2015

there's NO WAY I missed him

10:04 PM · Jun 9, 2015

[here i had an exchange with a friend who pointed out it was Bedelia's patient]

*turns on main computer literally just to download he Hannibal ep in HD*

10:11 PM · Jun 9, 2015

IM GONNA REWATCH IT NOW

12:07 AM · Jun 10, 2015

Dimmond became my fav character in the like, 10 minutes of screen time he got. and then was killed :(

12:45 AM · Jun 10, 2015

*reads him as hella queer cause I fucking can*

12:45 AM · Jun 10, 2015

he was drinking from two glasses of champagne I'm laughing so hard

12:48 AM · Jun 10, 2015

he seems super pretentious yes but who DOESN'T in this episode

12:51 AM · Jun 10, 2015

biker!Hannibal is still too much for me and should be considered illegal

12:54 AM · Jun 10, 2015

Hannibal is not nearly dry enough in this after-shower scene to be getting dressed

1:21 AM · Jun 10, 2015

or do people really do that? cause I make sure to get perfectly dry before putting on clothes..

1:22 AM · Jun 10, 2015

stares at the void when Hannibal didn't want to answer what Will was to him

1:23 AM · Jun 10, 2015

this must be the 5th time I've watched the dinner scene and i STILL CRY

1:33 AM · Jun 10, 2015

ANTHONY'S FACE IMF CLKING

1:33 AM · Jun 10, 2015

you can see and hear Hannibal laughing internally at it, he makes a double take, it's just aMAZING

1:41 AM · Jun 10, 2015

he was a short but sweet blessing. look at his face thinking he just got invited to a threesome.

1:46 AM · Jun 10, 2015

did Bedelia even pay for the shit she bought??

1:55 AM · Jun 10, 2015

also what was up with this random hot policeman

1:58 AM · Jun 10, 2015

oh and those security cameras???

2:01 AM · Jun 10, 2015

ohhh mvm i just read some meta on it. v nice.

4:23 AM · Jun 10, 2015

now that I'm seeing it again... how did her arm go so far into his throat... what was he even planing...

2:02 AM · Jun 10, 2015

man this was so cool

2:08 AM · Jun 10, 2015

my only complaint with Anthony is that he says "la polizia" wrong

2:20 AM · Jun 10, 2015

Abel push Hannibal buttons cause the know he has nothing to lose is so great I love it

2:29 AM · Jun 10, 2015

things I care about from Hannibal: Anthony, Will bring safe, Anthony, Price and Zeller, Anthony, Frederick!!!, Anthony sHUT UP HE ISN'T DEAD

3:59 AM · Jun 10, 2015

characters i refuse to believe are dead despite having seen their butchered corpses: Beverly Katz, Anthony Dimmond.

4:19 AM · Jun 10, 2015

if I was planing on sleeping tonight I'd wish to dream of my sweet thirsty scarf child. alas, I must stay awake and paint.

4:20 AM · Jun 10, 2015

[the timestamp really makes this]

I WASN'T EXPECTING MY OBSESSION FOR HANNIBAL TO COME BACK FULL BLOWN LIKE THIS BUT???? NOICE.

4:39 AM · Jun 10, 2015

[we-keep-odd-hours]

tagged back by @hex6rcist! Thank you!

under a cut since I also rambled.

1. How are you!? I hope your day is going well.

ehhhh. I'm working not a great job, but its from home and if everyone is going to be insufferable, every single second i get of downtime I'm going to be on tumblr to stay sane.

2. What are you currently working on? Any little projects of any kind you’re excited to share?

I have an original novel in the works, I'm in the brutal final stages of tying off the loose ends of the rough draft (while this advice is some that I struggle to accept, to all writers I'd like to share this: the only thing that a first draft has to be is done.), I have two on-going fics (an Aliens one that's posted anonymously but tbh you could probably find it easily) and one of Diamondback's origin story.

Her origin story is more or less done (posting new chapters as I edit) except for a few plot points I'll make my decision on as I get to them in editing. There's details from my next project, a full follow up to the movie, that I kind of want to include in an epilogue to her story, since they're scenes/plot threads tied on her character arc.

3. What have you been watching lately? I just finished Righteous Gemstones and I need a new show lol.

I'm halfway through my rewatch of Hannibal right now, and I SHOULD rewatch West World next so I can finally watch the last season, but I've been itching to rewatch X-Files for a year now....the only problem being that X-Files is nine seasons, a mini series, two seasons of Millennium (IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND), and one season of Lone Gunmen (ALSO IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND). I never technically finished Millennium either, because they [spoiler] and it made me so angry at Chris Carter that I rage quit.

4. (A Near Dark one because how can I not) what’s your favorite small detail in the movie that other people might overlook?

When they first walk into the bar, Jesse kind of surveys the layout, but Diamondback immediately looks over to her right--at the bartender and the waitress, she then smiles, holds onto Jesse's arm and sets her head on his shoulder--and looks over the waitress again. Between that and her grin when the woman walked over, that whole weird thing seemed like some continuation of whatever game they were playing when she kissed the hitchhiker, which....guys, get a room. Homer and Mae are right there.

There are others, but this is the first one that came to mind.

5. What blog should I follow right now?

I'm bad at this; most people I've followed on here for literal years, or else picked up along the way when we had the same media obsession of the day.

6. Best piece of advice you’ve ever received?

I said it above already, but THE FIRST DRAFT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE GOOD, IT JUST HAS TO BE DONE.

7. If you could add one fantastical element to the real world and have it be a commonly accepted and known about thing what would it be? (Ie make Santa real)

This is asking for trouble: I believed in fairies at an age that was much, much too old to do so. I think it would be fun, or at least interesting if the fair folk were commonly known to exist. Dangerous, unwise, but fun.

8. What’s the last book you didn’t just read, you DEVOURED?

In the Valley of Sun by Andy Davidson. It was nasty, infuriating, full of characters I didn't like for but occasionally felt bad for, and it's about a wandering killer turned vampire living in an old RV just outside of Waco, TX in the 1980s. Yeah, that's what I thought too.

It was a break-neck paced mystery, not exactly of ''who'' did it, but of what happened, how did they do it, and are they going to get caught?

9. What are you most passionate about?

Art, literature, zoology. The order of those items changes frequently.

10. What do you think is your best quality?

oh I hate this question. Passion, I guess? It's not easy to get interested in something, but when I am, I can learn fast, pick up on details, and make weird connections. I'm literal minded and frequently get over-detailed on things, but I can think on multiple tracks at once and have caught things that even our Risk department at work didn't notice because they disrupted something.

[stupidjewishwhiteboy]

So I was gonna wait until the video would be released on Youtube, but I think it might be a Nebula exclusive, so y'all will just have to trust me.

There's this Youtuber/Nebula guy named RealLifeLore who does geopolitical analysis stuff. I had already stopped watching a lot of his stuff purely for the petty reason that he often puts emphasis on words and phrases in a weird way, but I had noticed he had done some videos analyzing and summarizing what's been going on in Israel/Gaza/Lebanon/etc. so I started rewatching. And his analysis is actually relatively fair, often stating the claims of both sides and then whether or not those claims hold up. Sometimes this means he'll bring up crank ideas that I feel are implausible from what I know (there's a bit in the video I'm about to talk about where he talks about the Hannibal Directive aka whether or not the IDF intentionally tried to kill hostages being kidnapped so they couldn't be taken hostage, which from what I've heard isn't actually supported by anything but seems to be believed by a lot of people who think Israelis are ontologically evil).

Anyways, he did a video entitled "The October 7th Attacks" which is a comprehensive analysis of, well, the October 7th attacks, which I thought was pretty good (aside from giving the Hannibal Directive credibility). However, it brought to a head an issue that's been boiling up for a while for me, that being that RealLifeLore's pronunciation of Hebrew words is so bad it is legitimately offensive.

"Simchat Torah" as "Sim CHAT Torah" (this one is actually inexcusable, if you've done so much research you should know how Hebrew speakers pronounced a "ch" RealLifeLore)

"Sukkot" as "Su-cot" (ok that one isn't that bad)

"Yom Kippur" as "Yom Ki-purr" (that one also isn't terrible)

"Zikim" as "Zik'em" (oddly enough, I think he pronounced it correctly the first and third times and only did it weird on his second mention)

"Yiftach" as "Yif-tatch"

"Re'im" as "Ray-im"

"Odaya" as "Odie-a"

"Kibbutzim and Moshavim" as "Kibbutzem and Moshavem" (OK I might be overly pedantic here)

"Be'eri" as "Be'rry" (this was a problem of cadence not pronunciation per se)

Anyways, that's from the first 16 minutes, I may do more later

[snake-snack-stede]

Tagged by @carmillas-girlfriend thank you!! 😊💗

Last song: I Don't Feel Like Dancin' by Scissor Sisters

Favourite colour: purple!

Currently watching: I'm doing a rewatch of the tv show From right now. Definitely recommend it if you like horror/mystery :D (Huge content warnings though)

Sweet/spicy/savoury: sweet!! especially if it's sweet and salty!!

Relations status: single

Current obsessions: OFMD, Hannibal, and From

Last thing I googled: the transcript for an episode of From sjshjghds I swear I have other interests

💗 No pressure and sorry if anyone's done this already!

@xoxoemynn @soupbtch @blakbonnet @sherlockig @eddiepeaches @tulipseason @harrylovesspaezle @edsbacktattoo @stedesearring @stedebonnets @forpiratereasons @sleepystede @bizarrelittlemew @adickaboutspoons

As well as anyone else who wants to do this! 😊

[nerdynikki94]

BITTERSWEET RANT ABOUT QUEER (MLM) CHARACTERS IN CURRENT MEDIA

I used to think it was impossible for me to hyperfixate on a show/ship without reading and writing nonstop fanfic about it. But then, a year and a half ago, I watched OFMD and I staunchly refused to read or write any fanfic, because I needed to wait it out and see how the amazing writers planned the story to continue. (I'm ecstatic for October 5th.)

I still considered myself to continue obsessing over my queer ships, especially when I watched Galavant and fell into a bit of a Richard/Gareth hole (but there are very few fics, I planned to write one but kept going back to my Macden fics).

Then, I watched Hannibal, and I tried to read fics, planned one too, but I just couldn't get into it, and preferred obsessively rewatching the show instead.

Now I'm literally refreshing fanvids of our Ineffable Husbands from Good Omens on YT daily, but completely unable to even glance at fics.

It's funny to think how far we are coming with queer characters in media, and I'm just so excited to see shows that refuse to queerbait. They aren't using a viewership by playing with never-ending hints and nods but zero follow through. They are acknowledging that acts of abandonment or betrayal have consequences, regardless of the initial intentions. They refuse to do that kind of disservice to the respective narrative journeys of these characters.

Yes, they may be angsty and a bit sad right now, but Goddammit, we are finally getting sincere, star-crossed gay love stories. Tragic, but not in your typical heartbreaking Brokeback Mountain -esque media from the past (no hate, love the movie, thought the short story was okay).

These queer love stories are giving the same kind of painful passion as some of the best dramatic romances around (one of my fave genres). What a time to be alive! Because it's not an unhappy ending until it ends. The best love stories have to have nearly impossible obstacles. That is how the relationships are tested.

Just thinking about how I've always hyperfixated in the past vs. how I do now. I realized it's because I finally have hope. I can't consume fics because I trust the creators and writers of canon so explicitly that I know they will continue showing how they respect the viewers while also acknowledging the significance, the absolute necessity of delving into the arcs and development the characters need to find within themselves.

I believe David Jenkins and Neil Gaiman are determined to do right (as Bryan Fuller would be, if ever given the chance to continue), not by all the vastly different opinions of the countless countering fans, but by the way they have shown genuine acknowledgement to the romance and enough respect for the love interests to make them face challenges that help them grow. Queer characters are the leads' now, and they are fully-formed yet ever-changing, unique representations, flirting with fun stereotypes, without reducing them to the worst and most inaccurate social stigmas.

So, I'm ever-resolute to hold out for canon, because I don't want to get my head so full of incredible fanfic that I have my opinion change from constantly switching perspectives.

These writers are changing the game so much that I can't help but trust that - even beyond just the romantic aspect - they actually care about the development of the characters, they aren't defined by just being gay, they are complex.

In other words, I'm in a perpetual state of refreshing Macden fic updates every time I want to read something, and trying to conjure the desire to write again, so I can get back this other Macden fic, after having spent the past two years straight writing the most fics I have for any ship in my entire life.

But, yeah, it's totally crazy to realize that the reason I can not read any of the amazing fics out there for Our Flag Means Death, Hannibal & Good Omens is because these shows are already so enthusiastic and welcoming of their queer characters.

[cringekind]

hannibal s1e5 "coquilles" rewatch thoughts!!!!! liveblogging style!!!! again!!!!!!

the episode opened and my sibling immediately went "that fuck ass bird deer my god" lmaooooooo

hes so chilly and miserable in his slutty little boxers😭😭😭

going to Hannibal for comfort immediately!!!!!! already Will trusts him so much it's crazyyy

hannibal savoring his fancy coffee versus will taking huge gulps

hannibal is doing jack so dirty and the Worst part is he's a little right!! it is hurting Will to work for Jack, but Jack isn't some villian pushing Will, will doesn't know how to stop!! and mind you this entire time hannibal is purposefully making will worse, don't piss me off girl

'soup isn't good for the soul' who talks like this girl !!! you and hannibal both love to have a bit of whimsy in ur speech huh

"not nervous, righteous" yes will graham tell me more about that

"no unnecessary suffering" well Hannibal you consider quite a lot of suffering necessary when you decide they're worth eating so I'm not sure how much that's worth to someone not eating your food for moral/ethical reasons

Bella deserved to slap Hannibal, and I know she does eventually but she should do it now

"unorthodox but not unheard of" nah girl it IS unethical but I know you love that shit

will laughing at Hannibal yes girl yes do it more often, and calling him out for trying to alienate him from Jack like yes yes yes don't let that man rest for even a moment!!!!!!

jack trying sooooooooo hard my man loves his wife so bad I could cry

Will calls out Hannibal for trying to isolate him from Jack but then believes him and starts to take his anger out on jack! ik ik it's all about hannibals manipulations but Will puts up such a facade like he's barely humoring Hannibal but he clearly takes what he has to say to heart

Beverly my baby she's literally such a good friend, trying her best with the bits of Will he allows her to see!!!!!!!!!!!

I love love love how often the killers have something in common with Will. I know that's the point, but it's always so good!! the way Will is also sick, hallucinating, sweating etc like the angel maker is delicious

will saying "my brain is playing tricks on me?" while looking at the stag statue yeah uhuh exactly that's Art

hannibal being SO unsublte when he smells will makes me giggle so hard, he knows how to be subtle and chose not to

jack realizing and like immediately disassociating (and leaving will to be in charge in a way he never normally would) is so devastating. that poor man fuck dude

Will trying to do the right thing and pull away because he's ill but Jack just can't. his sense of justice is too strong he can't relate to ever putting your health before duty, even in the face of knowing his wife is now dying!!!! and him guilting Will about going back to teaching, not because he's evil but because he would feel the guilt!!! but the way he tells Will to quit is still wrong, still unhealthy and unhelpful for Will ugh its so !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will alreading thinking about Becoming in his hallucinations yeah uhuh exactly

Jack and Bella make me cry so much my GOD. they love each other so much and hurt each other so much but in the way normal regular people love and hurt each other. I'm literally about to tear up watching them talk

"it's your fight baby but I'm in your corner" KILL ME THATS SO !!!!! about her death like ik she says it isn't comforting but it did make me feel things

love this underappreciated moment of Will comforting Jack in the way he can, saying the same words Jack has said to him at crime scenes.......... they are friends they are it's just duty that gets in the way most of the time my GOD

AND AND will trying to be a better friend in general after Beverly like corners him about not doing well and reminds him that people care 😭😭😭 guys I'm dying I love them so much

I'm barely coherent but love this episode, love how much of it is about jack and Bella, love that Will sees himself so much in the killer and that's what prompts his doubt even though he's been struggling before this, love the way Hannibal is tightening his grip on Will and Will let's him because he genuinely trusts him still, love the moments of Will almost noticing and looking away, love it. I doubt I would've called this episode my favorite before the rewatch but it has so much good stuff in it. I'm so used to loving Hannibal that sometimes I forget how genuinely good it is, just extremely well made