#I'm a angsty teen Thad bite me!/ref

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sometimes it feels like the widow's curse is still in effect just in a different way. I was close to my brother but then something happened I'm exactly sure what but now we barely hang out and when we do he's kinda mean. I was friends with his cat but then she had to be put down. I managed to befriend someone on here but then their mom found her blog so she had to deactivate it

(I hope their doing well now...)

Now I have a few more friends here but I know deep down it won't last forever. I am doomed to be alone.

I have my cat but he'll probably die before me. (Probably because who knows if something will happen to me)

I'll cherish this moments I have, with those who care because one day it will just be me again.

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It's all I'm good at... VENT

Cw: glitching

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You look so tired, unhappy. TOH vent fic.

tw: Suicidal idealization, death mention, shouting, victim blaming (? Technically it's Collector blaming himself) and mentioned manipulation

Title from No surprises by Radiohead.

It probably isn't wrote the best but oh well ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

Collector was here visiting again, it had been a while since King had seen his friend, but they'd been acting... weird. Not like, well, The Collector.

They both had went to bed but King woke up in the middle of the night. He looked over to where Collie had been and didn't see them.

He looked around before seeing Francois sitting on a open windowsill. King looked out the window and saw Collector laying on the roof.

King walked over to him, being careful not to fall. "What are you doing?" He whispered.

Collector looked up at him and sat up "...just looking at the stars and thinking." They replied.

"What are you thinking about?"

Collie sighed, hugging his legs to their chest "Well it's uh- hard to explain."

"You don't have to tell me if don't want to." King said.

"It's just that, ugh, things would've been better if I never existed in the first place." They said.

King blinked a few times "That's not true-"

"IT IS! If I hadn't existed Luz would've have died, heck Ph- er Belos wouldn't have even known the draining spell!" They whispered-shouted, not wanting to be loud.

King looked at them trying to think of what to say. "That wasn't your fault, Collie."

He scoffed "Oh really?! How was it not my fault!?"

"He tricked you. It wasn't your fault for being manipulated."

Collie buried his head into their legs. "I'm just so tired. Of everything." They whispered in a broken voice.

He wasn't sure what to do or say to them so he did the only thing he thought of "Do you want a hug?"

Collector nodded quietly. King pulled him into hug and they sat like that for bit. "...Collie I'm glad you exist." He said.

They quietly cried and hugged King tighter.

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fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK! Guess who's dad just got laid off and no longer has a job? Me. And my mom said to pray but honestly I no longer believe in that stuff. In my head I jokingly thought "I'll just pray to The Watchers." and then I realized "oh wait a minute, if I am C!Grian, that makes me a Watcher! I'll fix it with me power- but I quit being a Watcher, I left, I no longer have power!" And after that brief panic, I thought "well... I'll just join them again..." And boom full on fear and panic about the thought of joining them again. What The Fuck is wrong with me?

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this song literally describes me and why I have this secret vent account because in the end I don't want my friends on here to know how much I'm hurting because they're in pain so I need to help them, not let them know how I feel.

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I feel like shit but I have a kitten on lap soooo

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wrist itch must tear must shred until itch no more

nothing to use, use teeth? No bad idea maybe nails no doesn't work maybe just wait it out maybe stop by self?

I hope so

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I WANT TO SCREAM

AND

SHOUT

AND LET IT ALL

OUT

AND SCREAM

AND SHOUT

AND LET IT ALL

OUT

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Listening to "God must hate me" while reading Christian books.

I'm a fucking rebel.

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"You treat me just like an insect crawling on your lace." "I wish I had something to live for tomorrow." Names: Grian, Collector. Nicknames: G, Collie. Pronouns: She/They Age: [Error code 616: file not found] Likes: Food, Life Series,Cats. DNI: Homophobic, Queerphobes, radqueers, terfs, anti-alterhuman etc. Fictionkins: C!Grian (LS), The Collector (TOH) Theriothorpe: Cat. This blog is?: an vent account, hidden from moots. Tags: #I'm an angsty teen Thad bite me!/ref = vents. #time to yeet my feels on a fic character = fan fics #Waffles and mustaches = Grumbo stuff #Desert time = Scarian stuff