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sincerity--extreme · 1 year ago

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Question for those with traumas/PTSD, does that grief over wondering who you'd be if *that* hasn't happened ever gets easier?

#I'll most probably delete this later #this is just my brain at 1am #sometimes #literally at random moments #I get hit in the face with those thoughts and the memories #and I always wonder if it ever changes #I know it won't go away #this is just like the other type of grief #but I've lost people before #in 2020 more than 1 and it was in a short period of time #didn't even had time to process the first #but yeah I've understood how that one works #never goes away but as time passes out gets a little easier to deal with #but the grief over not knowing who I'd be without my trauma hasn't changed at all #so... yeah #there's also the fact I haven't properly processed it yet #it's been many years but I only started the process of processing it years later in therapy and #then I lost therapy and couldn't keep doing that #thinking about it by choice became unbearable #trauma #PTSD

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takeiteasyonmeimstilllearning · 5 months ago

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OMG

just discovered Feb 10 is Lupins Birthday

YOULL NEVER GUESS WHO HE SHARES A BIRTHDAY WITH AAAAAAHHHH

Not me

BUT MY BESTEST BUD FRIEND SON, LOVED ONE FURBABAY PEK!

(Lupin related stuff at the end of this post)

@purrlockholmesbookslock drew this by the way and they're a real amazing artist, you should check em out

but here's what my real third leg look like He's 5 today so I bought raspberries at the store and gave them to him as his present lol.

Sorry Lupin, I love you a lot more than i should, but not as much as Pek, sry.

And just so I don't spam the Lupin Fandom with pics of my pet who shares the same birthday here is my number one guy wearing Lupin gear

#lupin the third #lupin iii #lupin 3rd #lupin the 3rd #Happy birthday Lupin 🎂#But also more importantly my pet pek #I'll give Lupin raspberries and take him for a hike for his birthday too if he had corporeal form.#My most favortist guy shares a birthday with the guy I relate the most to!#Feb 10 #lupin zero #My baby boy is 5 yrs old already sniffle #He's a third of the way through his life sniffle #I'll probably delete this later #Very low effort “art” lmao #Sry Lupin but my goat is more important than you lol

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unusualmourning · 3 months ago

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Y'all ever just see someone make the dumbest headcanon about a character, and you have to force yourself to scroll because it's not worth the energy to even think about it?

#(I say this and then make a whole tumblr post about it...)#like I don't wanna judge hcs but holy moly there are some people who need to keep stuff to themselves #fuck it i'm tagging love and deepspace because this is the community that caused me to type all this shit out #most of y'all are fine and I love this community but some people are hella weird #i'll probably delete this later but idk #love and deepspace #lads

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obsob · 2 years ago

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mmgngm i was all excited tellin my mum abt me wanting to start bookbinding n she was just like well. what about your portfolio. are u sending it to people? youve been working on it for ages. yes i know!!!!!! im slow and disabled!!!! and want hobbies!!!!! bites you!!!!!!!!!!!

#barks #i will deleted this later my brain jus has bees in it #bites bites bites maims #n then shes like :( why do u feel pressure to work all the time n feel guilty when u dont :( HMMM #anyway. im gna start bookbinding fanfic KSJJEJEODJ #i have. most of the materials already which is nice i will need paper and a guillotine n card but i got everything else!#i'll probably do smth short first n then...progress #i might also buy a new printer bc good lird #our printer is maybe 7 years old n buying new ink on god is more expensive than buying a New printer. incredible stuff

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virtualbutch · 3 months ago

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oh boy reader beweader it's time for indy to vent in their tags!!!!!!!

#lalala please don't read if you don't want to! nothing down here is majorly triggering it's just kind of Dumb and Sad #I'm having some sort of episode!!!! and this is probably going to be deleted later!!!!#Vents 🏹#I am 😁 not a good person 😁#I am! kind of just a bad person! and I kind of just have to deal with that forever 😁 fun so fun #like. the most I'll ever be able to be is sort of maybe okay. and I just gotta. accept that #most of all I think I'm just really really stupid. intelligence has no moral value but I don't feel that it's helping my case #it's just one of those days where I just. I feel like everyone should give up on me now #do it while you're still ahead. everyone in my life is being set up for failure.#I'm sorry guys I know you came here to see me post silly drawings but. fucking whatever.#I'm never going to amount to anything. I just wish everyone would stop trying. save themselves the heartbreak yknow?#idk it just kind of makes me sad. I have to live 24/7 with someone who I know for a fact is a sniveling sack of horseshit #I'll never be able to do anything worthwhile. I wish everybody would just give up on me already. I already have

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midmorninggrey · 9 months ago

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Interrupting this delightful booping for some mild angst (sorry)

If I see one more fic where a love interest traces top surgery scars, I'm gonna spit

Please

Think of another way to show affection and acceptance for trans men

#most of it comes from a good place #but #it happens in art too!#i challenge people to have a trans male character who never has a shirtless scene #its ok they will still be trans with a shirt on #grey yells at cloud #I'll probably delete this later

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starflungwaddledee · 1 year ago

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been working on answering a prompt i received in an ask the other day, and so i'm back thinking about... the Thing... 💖🎀 and thought maybe prompt doodles might help me work through this a little?

so uhhh.... if by any wild chance anyone has any ship suggestions for starstruck...??? feel free to send them through!

#this is *only* for starstruck and is not general requests! i'm just trying to figure out how i feel about this 😳#obviously no guarantees that i will be confident enough to draw any of these or that i'll enjoy them all but i just... am considering it?#idk idk idk is this stupid....#hope i won't regret this or won't get genuinely weirdass things.#just to be transparent this is sfw exclusively tho implied flirting is a-okay. please don't be weird....? i'm trusting folks to be nice!!#i would also happily take little prompts if you have thoughts about how it would work or whichever! like if you're a character Understander #if you have an idea how it would Work or what it might Be Like that would also help me to get a concept on how i feel about it!!#also i would.. consider ocs (only from their creator) if you... wanna??? character+artist *must* be an adult. starstruck is in her early 30 #also with ocs preferably from folks who i've at least interacted with before and like.. not just bc u want art ;;;#like... do u geniunely think they could have a cute dynamic? i'm just wondering if she could be Cute w someone. AUUghhGHHHH #again no promises and also for now i need this all done on the assumption it's just for fun!! just funsies. i'm just... thinking i guess!#want to try and figure out what it might be like if she WAS involved in a little ship/romo space...? as a treat? auughghhggghGHGLLG #also fair warning i may just get super embarrassed/nervous about this all and delete!! but i'm.. yknow. trying!#also i figure you can kind of tell my faves and who i hardly know much about. might not have lots of feelings about most side chars!#delete later #probably #wheeeeeEEEEeeahahahah okay;;; just post it. just post it starflung. just do it. hit the button hit the button hit the b

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blueesnow · 7 months ago

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only ranmaru's left... i can't believe i finish st and hv first when they're 7 members each before my hako oshi who only have 4 members... the world is cruel i only have 1 sr of him

#ill probably try to finish the private story translations later now that i got most of them #though yeah let me focus on doing nacchan's event story first www #i think i'll try to post his event story once im done with all chapters #also🥦pls unlock the 親愛度 cap #delete later

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larsbarsmarscars · 28 days ago

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I was supposed to go to sleep but saw Wilbur Soot had apparently uploaded

That was not on my 2025 bingo card

Im heading to sleep

#I'm neither a hater nor supporter of this man but either way that was a whiplash #I've not watched the entire thing and probably never will but just #Christ all mighty #basing off of comments plus his description which plugs lovejoy stuff and a new video that dropped at the same time as his update #stars in the sky‚ I don't think thats appropriate for this topic.#nor is it the time for it #fucks sake man get your shit together #i just ‚ I don't know i still feel the disappointment i do‚ learning what someone who inspired me to make music has done #and to see that feels like just. i don't know how to explain it #uncaringness?#I don't know #he's just some content creator to me at the end of the day but still its quite saddening.#i don't think I'll ever support him again #most likely wont #but part of me still wishes him well #because he frankly looks like shit #i don't know how else to put that #that and i just. wish he bfcomes better.#Everyone involved has every right not to forgive. but genuinely just. get better.#be better.#its the best he can do for everyone #screaming bars #sorry for the vent down here #if someone is reading this #i just had to get this out #i may delete this later #sorry for the incoherence #words are hard + im tired #good night peoples and sheeples

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knightofgoetia · 4 months ago

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you guys realize that things (the DMC Netflix anime) don't necessarily need to be either (1) the equivalent to the Holy Grail or (2) like it killed your grandma. you guys realize 'mediocre' and 'generic' exist. right.

#i am unfortunately from the negative side of this all #i'm salty. i've written a lot of criticism. and i despise the attitude of the showrunner with my whole being #but also. i have a life. so i simply shared those thoughts with. like. two close people #and i have everything muted because: i'm tired boss #look. yes. some people have done ridiculous criticism. that's true #but most of the times... it bas been justified. i am sorry. but it has #we're back with the 'wacky woohoo pizza man' bullshit again. and with Vergil only being the damn storm that is apro #you get it.#i would prefer for this to be the absolute worst as some people claim it to be so i didn't get it to jumpscare me more #but unfortunately it's not. it's just mediocre #another generic action anime for me #and i don't even watch much stuff in general. i either read or play stuff #but i can't just sit and watch. so like. i just want april to pass. i'm tired bosssssss #probably because due to me not being the most-mentally-stable-person-out-there #— i cannot enjoy a ✨piece of media✨ like any normal human being would #it has to both (1) save my life and (2) ruin my life. no in between #hyperfixations. yeah. but this time for real #The Odyssey (yes the damn poem) has been stucked with me since i was 10 years old #that's a whole decade of something affecting my life and the way i am #and now. last year Devil May Cry was added as the second one #i always avoided the saga like the plague. the memes. the view of the series the fandom gave me... it just wasn't it #and perhaps it's thanks that a mutual convinced me to start with 1 and not with 5 that my mind had changed so quickly #so seeing a story and characters that have affected me in both the good and the bad at such a deep level #— getting changed almost completely for the sake of a bottleg universe #eh. i'll pass #then again. it's just not for me #i guess. not like i'll go tell my therapist about it #because it's not good. it's not bad. it's mediocre #and something generic at least will pass by. i hope #deleting later

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longagoitwastuesday · 11 months ago

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I'm three interactions away from spreading my Ijichi/Gojo agenda

#The most trusted person of the strongest sorcerer in hundreds of years is the man who drives him places #because he's so weak when it comes to powers that even a first year kid considers irrelevant in a fight #With the implications that has in this world #Wish we had breakfasts in this manga #(scene of Shoko‚ Megumi‚ Yuta‚ Ijichi and perhaps Utahime and Yuji reacting to Gojo's death as his death and not just in a Sukuna context)#But in five chapters I doubt we'll get even the main arcs sufficiently closed #so I don't dare hope for the impact of the loses in a 'normal' sense #But I would give an arm for some breakfast interactions so to speak #The second ending plays with that idea a bit. A pity I don't consider endings and openings canon #So I don't count them. As much as I would like to think somewhere in the time line they painted Megumi's sleeping face jigglypufflike #and went to give a walk by the beach while Yuuji wistfully looked at them #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #With so many tags I forgot what this post was about xD #This is half a joke. Conceptually they're not bad but I'm also not invested at all in anything in a shippy way #I just pointed the Ijichi/Gojo thing out a bit in the context of how I have never seen something with them #while I see a lot of the ships with the other characters #Also not that it's bad the lack of a shippy air. And probably it's for the best considering the lack of breakfast scenes so to speak #I'm loving the potential of the platonic dynamics and it's already messing me up that there's no real depth to them #Megumi and Gojo could have been everything to me. Everything. I can't say it enough haha #Edit: Actively looking for this now and I can't find Ijichi x Gojo stuff here on tumblr. I'll try twitter and ao3 later or something maybe

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aromanticasterisms · 8 months ago

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greek themed elysian realm star rail arc i am awake and LISTENING

#personal stuff #delete later #FINALLY something i'm excited for. get me the hell out of penacony i've been here for a million years #ough. can't wait to come back to this trailer after the story and listen to all these themes and recognize the motifs #''the flame chase''. literal kevin copy. catgirl pardofelis standin. LITERAL ELYSIA COPY.............#most of the others bear Some resemblance to the flamechasers but seem to have their own designs #like the ''su''? i think that's who eyepatch guy is? he looks pretty cool. and the kids look cute. the griseo standin also looks neat #don't get me started on the kalpas standin. he's fine. has none of the appeal my guy kalpas had but whatever #there's no obvious standins for most of the Women though. maybe that's just cause they're not color-coded the same way #maybe once the story starts i'll have a clearer idea of who's supposed to be who #or you know they've probably combined multiple characters' traits into different characters #the way they have in the past w genshin and star rail #also just auuuuuuuuuugh. the way this is the saga of HEROES and the flame chasers' dedication to becoming heroes........help #what was it they said about references to the rest of the honkaiverse being just little things for old players.....#like i DO hope their stories are their own and we get to see something new with them fr. but it is funny to me that this keeps happening

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blood-orange-juice · 1 year ago

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The weirdest thing about dating girls was that it suddenly became all right for me to be feminine.

Silly, emotional, a bit too focused on relationships. Someone who wants romance. Someone quiet and not always standing up for herself. All those things that are, you know, seen as lesser. Something to be therapied away.

I think about it a lot. I never see it discussed anywhere so I guess it's something very specific to me, my upbringing and my social circle. Or maybe it's a thing everyone is so used to that they don't question it.

#I'll probably delete this later #but meh #gender is weird #I don't think I've ever had any problems with me being nb #only exceptionally stupid people say something bad about that #my girly part seems to be something most people have a problem with though #it doesn't fit anywhere #and it's so weird #a world complaining 'where did all the feminine women go' that leaves no place for anyone to be feminine

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morrigan-sims · 9 months ago

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I can't fucking wait to share these renders of Carrion. I've only started on one of them but augh I'm so excited. They're going to turn out SO GOOD, I think!!

#thank you to izzy for saving my ass with lighting tips!!!#morrigan.txt #delete later #okay it's almost 1am and I've gotten less than 5 hours of sleep every night for the past 4+ days so I'm going to bed.#my goal the next two days is to make a bunch of progress on the Carrion renders and also hopefully get my bonus simblreen treat ready #so I can share it sometime this week. It's the most spooky/traditional Halloween of all of them so I'd love to share it soon #so people can use it while it's still spooky season.#I'll give you a hint: it's something I made for one of the sim I've posted recently. ;)#I've got a fun preview/teaser I should probably post tomorrow.#two of them actually.#anyways. goodnight! <3

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musical-chick-13 · 2 years ago

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One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."

#like. okay. for example. 2019 me: 'better do cleaning compulsions because oh no what if I get the Plague™'#fast forward a year to covid and that was genuinely a very real possibility. I could LITERALLY catch the plague #or on a smaller more personal scale: 'no one is going to screenshot a Bad Line™ of your fic and publicly make fun of it online-people #don't do that it'd be so extra why tf would you be afraid of that happening' except I JUST saw someone literally do that. so we engage in #Avoidance Compulsions™ as a protective mechanism because the only way to avoid a feared outcome is to never do anything! 🙃🙃#and okay yeah these things are not created equal and one of them probably doesn't actually matter the point I'm trying to make is that #this shit affects my life on EVERY level and I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE FOR IT NOT TO DO THAT #I AM TIRED OF THE BRAIN DISEASE BEING HERE I WOULD LIKE TO BE A MENTALLY HEALTHY PERSON PLEASE #*sigh* yeah yeah the answer is erp the answer is always erp that doesn't mean it's fun #mc13 and her ocd #I'll probably delete this later because it most likely makes me look completely and utterly absurd if not straight-up stupid #(no one ELSE with this disease or fears is absurd or stupid btw. just me. it's only me who is A Problem™)#(yes I know how that sounds. I know okay.)

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violinist-rachel · 2 years ago

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What's up girlies!!

Guess who's back! (for a limited time only!!)

#dyntalks #delete later #eyyyy!!#I've missed this blog!#so I can't stay long #in fact I'll probably drop off again when it gets close to thanksgiving #bc the end of the year's the busiest time for both my work life and personal life #but boy do I have an early xmas present for you all :]#so strap in and enjoy the ride!#also! I'll be answering most of the questions I've got so far #but it might be a bit of a wait before I get to them so please be patient :']#all #blog #asks

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