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beep-beep-imma-sheep · 5 months ago

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As I've been hiperfixating on 🍎📻, I've come across fun ideas that would be fun to just explore in a fic. I asked permission and I got it.

The problem? My brain constantly has a bunch of ideas and fuses them together without my permission. It just goes

"ooh, shiny- *smashes it into some clay with other "shiny" ideas*"

Now.

What was supposed to be a few little fun One Shots, became me making a whole godforsaken timeline at ungodly hours of the night.

I have the overall vibe.

There's a lot of fluff and a lot of angst.

Scenes in my head.

And then bits that I'm not sure how I'm even gonna handle and-

This.

This got out of control.

The worst part?

I'M ONLY USED TO WRITING 10 CHAPTER STORIES AND OS IN MY NATIVE LANGUAGE.

I do have drafts of larger stories (in my native language) but those are not finished.

I'm doing it scared because omg how am I supposed to even write this.

In English, nonetheless.

Not my native language.

English.

what have I done?

#I'm either gonna end up not finishing this or lose my mind over this #no in-between #I'll die either way #long post #radioapple #appleradio #fic writing #fic wip #also I should probably put this in the blog I made for my art stuff but idk #let's leave it here for now

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adhdo5 · 1 month ago

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Lan Xichen is bisexual but he doesn't know it because he's never been within 30 feet of a woman who wasn't his mom. Send post

#By the time he had an opportunity to be he was too preoccupied with pining after and/or fucking JGY #Either way idt this is something I'll die on the hill of or anything but I do want us all to consider this read.#And it is important to my LXC/JYL agenda #I don't even know if he's attracted to women in that fashion in LXC/JYL agenda either. But it is something that #we need to keep in mind.

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norstrum-art · 1 year ago

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[Image description from alt: A drawing template titled: "Favorite characters in each unit of Project Sekai: Colorful Stage!" Below are six boxes, each one listed with a unit with digitally drawn half body, flat color characters inside. Most are in their original unit outfits. The unit Virtual Singer has Rin grinning and winking, holding a peace sign to her head. The unit Leo/Need has Honami smiling nervously, tilting her head to the side. The unit More More Jump has Shizuku in her "Draw Your Bow in this White World" event outfit, smiling and holding a hand to her chin. The unit Vivid Bad Squad had Toya in his 2023 birthday outfit happily. The unit Wonderlands x Showtime has Emu cheerfully waving her hand in the air out of the box. The unit Nightcord at 25:00 has Mizuki and Mafuyu; Mizuki is smiling with a cat mouth (:3) while making a heart sign with both hands, and Mafuyu looks at them neutrally from behind. End image description.]

*throws this out of my WIP folder* and STAY out!!!! No but seriously this was actually really fun figuring out how to draw everyone!!!

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mx-anthony-janthony-crowley · 1 year ago

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so what do we think the joint aziraphale/crowley playlist is gonna spell

#good omens #i'm assuming there is one. i'll die either way #consider: nightingale #alternatively: iforgiveyou (i'll cry)#aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #air conditioning #<- im gonna start using that more often it's adorable

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say-hi-intrepid-heroes · 9 days ago

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#so i think this is the first time within memory that i've had both a depressive episode and an extended anxiety attack happen simultaneous #like i've had them happen individually but i fear they are combining in bad ways #i've had some shit from four ish years get triggered recently and it's good cause i need to work through that #but that started a depressive episode that may have started a couple months ago and has slowly been culminating to the past week #and then some shit is happening with a person i care about so that's started an anxiety thing #which is terrible cause usually i just dissociate if there's anxiety or activate the adhd hyperactivity if there's depression #but now i can't do either so im stuck #and also i'm very burnt out rn #so i've literally just been in my bed except for things i Have to do Or I'll Die Or Get Kicked Out Of School #like i think i would not get up if the fire alarm went off rn genuinely #anyway yeah if you see me online more that's why #i'm sure i'll be fine i'm just figuring out what's going on #personal

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laugtherhyena · 28 days ago

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Oh right uhh, Kokoro lives in -2+2 (And Emma, and also Hibiki)

#see. i don't plan on ever writing the Sdra2 portion of -2+2 in full fic format since I don't like Sdra2 nearly as much as Dra #so i really don't mind spoiling/rambling about what happens in that portion of the Au. it's all kinda barebones so far anyway #yall know I've never been the best at keeping spoilers from my own stuff lmao #but don't worry! i will keep the things that will be revealed in-story under wraps :) I'll only mention things that are #disconnected from the Dra part of the au or happen way later #like the Sdra2 stuff + Akira and Beni #since -2+2 it's obviously the Au they're from #so if i was trying to keep spoilers hidden away in the disney vault of my mind i would never have been posting about these two at all #and tbh is you have a sharper mind than me you could probably guess Kokoro and Emma would survive in this #since Sdra2 is a reenactment of Dra. so if Kizuna and Ayame don't die by that logic those two shouldn't either #and Hibiki is spared from execution because Mikado got pissed at Kanade messing up his reenactment with her goofy ass murder case #and insane serial killer thing so he sends her to die so she can despair! kinda like how he just goes fuck you Nikei and executes him in Ch4 #so. Sdra2 surviours; Yuki. Yoruko. Syobai. Kokoro. Emma and Hibiki #i can and totally will elaborate on this (or ramble about other stuff regarding the Sdra2 portion of -2+2) if asked 👍#hyena ramblings #dra #danganronpa another #Sdra2 #Dra -2+2 #Kokoro Mitsume #Emma Magorobi #Hibiki Otonokoji

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formulaborb · 28 days ago

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#borb talks #The way I'll be following supposed 4463 accts on twt only to have to unfollow #Bc the second they have even the slightest tension said blogs will either start attacking Lewis or George #Like nope I need ride or die 4463s idc

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 5 months ago

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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything #i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by #while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi #i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real #problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about #and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real #or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason #i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place #because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk #negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual #i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed #a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO #i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait #and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life #like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it #just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy #i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy #and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation #because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life #anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is #to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck

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seventh-district · 2 months ago

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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.

#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it #asmr #audio roleplay #rp audio stuff #redacted audio #anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud #and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators #but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it #which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium #like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform #and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication #and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements #like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh #tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that #and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno #i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it #bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it #this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable #but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself #feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything #who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl #anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now #actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon #u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.

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discoknack · 5 months ago

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Kaiju-Lantern Catastrophe

Uhhh

#wip I'll never finish #i regret everything #skyscraper softie au #heheheheh... he looks like the ender dragon oops #i feel like this needs a trigger tag.#pregnancy #mpreg #???????????????????????#not literally but symbolically. i guess. it's just his core in there but like. if you know you know.#body horror #that might be it yeah.#ultimately I don't think the worst would come to pass because he'd be let out or he'd twist the lid from the inside.#but in the meantime it's like oh shit. either I'm gonna die or we're gonna need more numbers. or both.#kaiju-squito season inbound #who would win #unfathomable numbers of eldritch nightmares #or one pickle-holdy boi #According to all known laws of aviation #there is no way that a bee should be able to fly. Its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground.

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michelle-jacksons-art-blog · 2 years ago

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Hi hello have this somewhat old Jonmartin kids concept ideas while I try not to die

#I have I'm Gonna Fucking Die Disease #symptoms are I've coughed way too much for like almost a week now #my bad #so anyway the drawing #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #tma #tma podcast #the magnus archives #how does one tag these things #so uh I think I made Lyra the older one #one of these names I got straight out of a fanfic but I can't remember each one so when I feel mentally capable I'll look for it #or if you happen to remember a fic that had them have a daughter with either of those names feel free to mention it #anyways they're a happy family #a bit weird bc let's be honest Jon and Martin are really weird #like as normal people go they can be freaks sometimes #but that's fine otherwise they wouldn't be popular on tumblr dot com #two funky colored eyes for the price of one head I'd call that a great deal #I just think it would be interesting to know what happens when two avatars of different fears have baby like do you know how many fears Jon #involves on his own like that's all 14 dude what happens there #he's like aang in the sense that he's thee avatar and also can never recover from this experience #would the kids even be connected to the fears in whatever universe their dads ended up in we just don't know #anyway this is all actually for a story idea I've had since forever but you're not ready for that yet #peace everyone I'll bring trying to sleep

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cyanide-latte · 9 months ago

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fffffffsssssss every day I forget about one particular TWST OC I have until @simons-twsted-children @inmateofthemind or @ramshacklerumble remind me he exists.

#he's a Clayton expy i made purely so all other OCs have a shared minor antagonist that everyone can hate #but nobody and i mean nobody hates Liam Aarden as much as yours truly hates Liam Aarden #brat gets hoisted by his own petard regularly. eventually I'll kill him off #either as a result of him threatening Copper's loved ones and finally pushing Copper over the line to kill in order to protect #(which would be some hefty turmoil and character development for my baby boy esp since he swore not to kill)#or as a result of Liam being utterly stupid and causing Wei Renqiao to Overblot and ultimately paying the price for THAT stupidity #either way he's going to die one day and until then he's going to continue being a hateful little tosswad #anyway ignore my rambling #Cyanide speaks

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patchwork-crow-writes · 7 months ago

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67 - Patience

Thank you for taking your time with me. Thank you for staying. It... means more to me than you can ever know.

W-would you be patient with me a moment longer...? Just while I get my words... my f-feelings in order...? I've been waiting... waiting oh-so-long to tell you... to tell you that I, um...

...a-and you don't need to answer right away! I-in fact, I don't think I'd really mind if you, umm... didn't give one. Just now, I mean. B-but soon, okay? I... don't mind waiting a little longer, haha.

But anyway! I just, umm... I really... l-like you, a lot. N-not in a creepy way or anything! Just, um. A normal way. I... like you, and I like spending time with you, and I would like to spend more time with you. That's... I just wanted you to know. If that's, um, okay.

...it feels pretty good to have finally said it out loud, actually. Even if you're not exactly... well, here. B-but it's okay! Because I can be pretty patient too... and just knowing you'll be back soon is enough for me right now.

...though perhaps it wouldn't be so bad... if I didn't tell you anyway.

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#writing #fiction #fanfiction #drabble #Deltarune #Ralsei #Kris Dreemurr #Kralsei #Krisei #confession #rehearsal #I'm going to bite my own hand off if and when this happens in canon #All the ways this could play out... good and bad #I'll die on the spot either way. Just straight up raptured #C'mon Toby Fox hurry up and ruin me emotionally you COWARD #...ahem #As you can see I'm very Normal about this #The Dark Menagerie

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verdiesque · 5 months ago

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my future is so bleak lol

#if i stay here i'll rot in this swamp #if i decide to move for good i'll be cut off from all my friends and die of loneliness #no guarantee that i'll find a job either way #lol and lmao.

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orcelito · 7 months ago

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My nails r getting kind of long. Almost to claw mode. I kinda don't wanna cut them tho bc I kinda wanna paint them for my birthday weekend

Nonzero chance of seeing my mom on mother's day. By my own choice, I guess. And I'm still not sure how I'm feeling about that. But ykno what, it'll be my birthday weekend, and I'm going to make sure to live it to the fullest..!!!

#speculation nation #my thoughts about her are all jumbled up after losing my dad & then her hospital visit a few weeks back.#and i bought her a thing of earrings from the farmer's market. i havent bought her a present in Years.#idk if it's just compulsory reaction to How Things Are rn. but. idk.#it never has been simple i suppose.#god i really do hate that my birthday is always near mother's day..!!!!! my forever curse!!!!!#at least leap year made me dodge a day-of event this year. the last one was when i turned 21 #but bc of leap year my bday went from saturday to monday. missing mother's day by a day ❤️#makes me wonder what sort of life i'll be living 6 years from now. when i think the next mother's day event will be.#will i still have a mother then? i have no fuckin clue #my heart tells me no. but i also have 'everyone in my life is going to die soon' paranoia now so thats probably biased.#Oh Well. either she dies or she doesnt! i'll deal with it either way.#in any case. birthday! nail painting!!! i think i want to do color changing nails #my favorite blue/green polish that ends up being teal on the in between. love that shit so much

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theflyingfeeling · 3 months ago

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why is packing clothes for a summer weekend in Finland such a fucking struggle 😭

#can i just. take all my clothes and decide what i'm gonna wear once i'm there #i don't want to be cold but what if it's really warm and sunny all of a sudden #in any case way i'll die (either of hypothermia or a heatstroke)

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