#I'll behave.

[bitebitbonebare]

God fucking dammit I'm genuinely losing my fucking shit.

I wonder if he'd put up a fight. I wonder if I would have to hold him down myself, knee against his neck, to tie his hands behind his back. I wonder what curses I'd wring from him through this, if he'd gnash his teeth and threaten me with his face pressed into the concrete floor. Would I need to get his feet too? Kicking and swinging, trying to get away-- oh and what if he screams? Yelling for help, would I need to silence him? Keep him from biting? Do you muzzle someone like this? Do you keep them from saying anything-- what happens when I kick the breath out of him?

I's stand above him, my boot pressed against his cheek-- I hated the concrete floors until now and I think I how they shine with his spit as he bared his teeth.

How careful would I need to be to make sure he was the only one to know he was bested? How badly does he want to feel this days from this moment-- how badly do I want him to feel it? Better yet, I know that he would rather there not be a later to feel, I think he's imagined death like this in great detail when he found himself at my mercy.

What tools would I have at my disposal? I wonder how much a tazer costs. I wonder if I could figure out a way to hit him in such a way he briefly loses consciousness. I wonder if I could choke him until he sees those black stars.

Could I press my knee into his throat while I tried something new-- could I put out a little match on his ribs? He complained of the pain on of a rib tattoo but what if I could methodically burn a scar on the other side, or as a lovely accent? He wanted to be an unflinching and incredibly willing victim to someone's cigarette shoved into him. This should be nothing then, right? Right?

What could I use to leave creative bruises on him-- I often weild a cane, don't I? What would shards of a broken mirror look like dug into his legs? I wonder how carefully I could etch something into his skin. He's let me tattoo him before anyway, what's different about a knife then?

I wouldnt want to keep him on the floor I don't think. Would I be able to hurt him while his sits on his knees-- his bones digging into concrete, he's so proud of how small he is, nearly just bones anyway, sharp and sharp feeling in his own skin.

Oh! What if, in kicking him, it's hard enough to make him vomit? Do you think he'd do that just for me? Well I think he'd do it for anyone who hit him in that specific way, but in that moment I think I'd revel in knowing that I was the cause.

Do you think he'd need to be told that maybe it's a little pathetic to want to be hurt this way? Granted, I think it was a bit absurd for me to tell him that I wanted to beat him this way, but for him to respond in this way? I think I might have known the answer when he resisted the urge to flee. I'd have plenty of words for him if he would like them.

Oh! He also proudly announced how fast he was! Oh I'm quite happy for him. So proud. Makes me wish I could set him loose in a forest with traps-- oh a daydream for another post, maybe not for him.

He is acutely aware of how inpatient I can be. I wonder if he'd taunt me to give up how much I'd want to relish this. That I want this just as much as he does, but I want it to last. I want to take my time, I want to commit every moment to memory, I want to write something about this that he might stumble upon-- or I offer up enthusiastically and just for "critique" not as if I wanted him to remember the ache of it all, this would live on in his mind too, after all.

Oh, hah. Even better. If I'm careful, I could keep him exactly where I want him and get a recording of the entire thing. I don't care to know what he would do with footage like that.

I'm tempted by the idea to bite. I think biting would be my preferred means to draw blood. I could consider something else though. Either way I think I'd like to stain something or his as a souvenir. Wouldn't that be just so thoughtful of me?

Good fucking god the whole idea makes me dizzy. Does he know how excited I am? How caring I would be about it all-- not too caring that I'd be scared to hurt him, no-- but caring in the way that I want nothing more than to make him feel it, just how he wants. It's not just for him.

It's not just for him.

[slay-ers]

please eat a whole cake and please let me watch

[namtanlovesfilm]

"I don't hug anyone I don't have feelings for."

[mischievous-thunder]

Logan: I've just realised that I made a high risk commitment this afternoon.

Althea: What's your high risk commitment?

Logan: Letting Wade buy an off-white blanket and promising that there won't be any blood stains.

Laura: That's the highest risk commitment!

[samuelroukin]

BARRY SLOANE as Joe 'Bear' Graves in SIX (2017—2018) Episode 2.08 Scorpions in a Bottle

[jojo-schmo]

I'm updating my personal ref sheets and it's really hitting me just how SMOL Kirby, Bandee, and Elfilis really are compared to the rest of the cast.

[maglors-grief]

me when I see the hundredth post or comment from team green stans about how much of an evil bitch Rhaenyra is in the show 🥱

[tai-lung]

Tai Lung | Shen | Kai

[sunflowerdigs]

I want Buck to be his most unhinged self and reject every house Eddie considers for the most deranged reasons possible...until Eddie sees a house and gets that warm, happy look on his face imagining him and Chris living there and Buck just...can't say anything negative about it (even as he feels Eddie slipping through his fingers more than ever).

[justaz]

sometimes i'm like,,,, i should rewatch merlin because i've forgotten most of the plot but also. i've been surviving off vibes and fanfictions for this long. and if i don't rewatch it, it can't hurt me. so like. meh. y'know?

[mangosaurus]

THIS IS HOW BENRIUS CAN STILL W— [GUNSHOT]

[twig-tea]

Trauma Patterns in LFTCOT ep3&4

Still thinking about Let Free the Curse of Taekwondo episodes 3 and 4, and how abuse and trauma results in behaviour that goes counter to our own desires and best interests.

Dohoe is so afraid of the potential for violence in himself that he refuses to allow himself to ever be violent, and so instead he cuts contact whenever there is any risk that he will want to be. He cuts contact with Hyeonho (and tries to avoid his bullies as much as possible), he cuts contact with his father, and he cuts contact with Juyeong. He understands Juyeong because it's when others are threatened that he is driven to fight back too.

It was only when Dohoe's father announced his intention to go beat Dohoe that Juyeong fought back. He knew Dohoe would hate him using violence to protect him from his father, and after explaining that he'd first been expelled for hitting a teacher while protecting someone else he promised not to do it again, but he did it anyway, because he was triggered in that moment (we saw the flashback to him in high school reacting the same way).

Juyeong's been taking care of Dohoe's father (and with the hope of seeing Dohoe again) for years, and has been teaching Taekwondo with a gentler and patient approach (and teaching the other instructors to do the same) in some kind of penance. Meanwhile Dohoe is the one who thinks he needs to stay away (but he can't so he buys the building a block over).

I'm also thinking about Dohoe's father and whether his decision to drink and call to wake his son the night before his university-qualifying exams to buy cigarettes and beat him for being ungrateful and disrespectful was conscious or subconscious. It doesn't really matter--we know from his friends that Dohoe being stuck at home is what allows his father to live as he has been, and Dohoe has made no effort to hide that it's his goal to get the hell out. I'm sure he'd never call it this but Dohoe's father clearly lashes out from his own trauma. I wonder how much he hates the fact that Dohoe's life will be better once he leaves, like Dohoe's mother's apparently was. I wonder how much his own fear at his wife leaving and subsequent lashing out is what drove her away in the first place. Sabotage of his son's future is such an ugly thing and is similarly counter to his own interests long-term, even if he thinks Dohoe leaving will make his life harder in the short term (which of course he does anyway).

The thing about trauma-triggered behaviour is that it is not a conscious decision, and not something the person can stop doing at will. That is not an excuse and does not mean they're not still responsible for their actions; But they need to have worked through whatever was underlying the trigger and unlearn the behaviour in order to be able to act differently in the same circumstance.

[toxicroyjamie]

If Phoebe's making Potions™️ in Roy's backyard you know Jamie's 100% joining in like "you added leaves yet?"

"No I still have to forage for them."

"Mint, I'm on it"

And jamie collects leaves in one of his little cross-body bags. Then they collect the potion in a jar and try to get roy to drink it

YES OMG Phoebe is such a little weirdo I just know she loves playing potions haha

Jamie babysitting Phoebe is such a great concept because they really would just be hanging out like this. Best friends <3

[galadriel-blue]

I want to talk about Celadriel compared to Haladriel/Saurondriel and the reasons why I want Celeborn to appear in the show, but I am terrified of the hate I might receive-

[glamfellens]

dont mind me im just feeling cross that larian is bending over backwards to pander to the I Want Romance In My Arr Pee Gees crowd instead of focusing on core rpg elements of their fucking rpg game such as making sure the companion characters are all (equally) fleshed out and present in the game and story. sorry but arent you guys tired of seeing yet another patch headlined with Look What We Added for Astarion! like? oh my god. oh my god. meanwhile Wyll gets his main quest demoted to a subquest and there is no new content for him that the other characters are also not getting when he was already far, far behind them in terms of hours of content. Exhausting. fuck off.

[hakusins]

hakudean mini event! as requested by the devil of JDOLH herself, @shylittlemoosen! thank you for the beautiful request miss devil~! enjoy these two love birds walking around and talking about the word of god 🙏.