#I'd Lie posts

[lucithornz]

Well I'd Lie reached 1000 kudos. It's just a silly number. I didn't think I'd get emotional looking at it. It's crazy to me that anyone is reading and loving the story that much. When I started writing in this fandom I didn't think my writing would get any notice. I just like having fun. But over the last year I've met so many great people through my writing. Way more people than I ever thought possible wanted to read a story I wanted to tell myself. It's crazy to think about.

In the end it's just a number. But the people I met along the way are very real and so much more important.

From the very bottom of my heart thank you for all of the love and support for the fic. It really means more than you'll ever know.

(This is probably so excessively sappy for this little thing, but I am in a mood okay :')

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.

[clownowo]

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bonus:

[peanutbutterandbananasandwichs]

Sam and Dean are always withholding information from and lying to each other, constantly. That’s literally the plot of the show every season.

There are important differences between the types of "lying and withholding information" (I'm going to use the word lying primarily here going forward for simplicity but it is referring to several different types of behaviours and is not being used intrinsically as a value judgement) Dean vs Sam does, and these are fundamentally tied to their positions within their abuse dynamic (and more broadly within their roles within the larger Winchester family abuse dynamic).

Lies abusers tell, and their motivations for doing so are distinct from the types of lies told by abuse victims in an effort to manage their situation and avoid conflict (within the abuse dynamic this isn't to say that abuse victims cannot lie more generally).

Dean does sometimes tell some of the same types of defensive "lies" as abuse victims, and this shouldn't be surprising as Dean is a victim of childhood abuse. ("I'm fine" for instance, something they both frequently say when they clearly are not, and something that whilst not exactly healthy for themselves is a defence mechanism and not - generally speaking - fundamentally a harmful action to the other).

The clearest distinction between Dean's abusive lying and Sam's defensive lying: Dean lies and withholds information about Sam from Sam. Sam withholds information primarily about himself from Dean.

Dean lying to Sam about Sam or things that have happened to him, or things that Dean has done to him is a frequent and repeated pattern. Instances include, but are not limited to: lying about Sam's resurrection in "All Hell Breaks Loose", not telling Sam when he finds out about Azazel feeding Sam the demon blood as a child ("Metamorphosis"), lying about Sam having been soulless and of course the big one, lying for months on end about the Gadreel possession, both in order to obtain the 'yes' needed for possession in the first place and then in for the subsequent time during which Sam was unknowingly possessed. Dean's lies allow him to maintain a position of power and control over Sam and Sam's body.

By contrast when Sam withholds information about himself he's usually seeking to maintain control over his own self, his body, his personhood, and his agency. And to avoid negative reactions from Dean that often lead to him being hit, shouted at, or otherwise punished.

The most stark example of this contrast for me is the situation regarding the demon blood administered by Azazel.

Sam finds out about this in "All Hell Breaks Loose", he chooses not to tell Dean, this is well within Sam's rights, this is an issue that affects Sam and Sam's body and nobody else, he is under absolutely no obligation to tell Dean and he has every reason to believe, given Dean's reaction to previous examples of Sam's "otherness" that telling Dean would not have elicited a positive or supportive response.

Dean finds out about the demon blood in "In the Beginning", he proceeds to keep this from Sam and it is only brought up because Sam accidentally reveals that he already knew, its pretty clear that Dean had no immediate intention of telling Sam himself. This was not Dean's right, he has no right whatsoever to withhold information about Sam and Sam's body from him.

[stewy]

[mummifiedgoose]

There's this line in Love Lies Bleeding where she says "I'm nothing like you" and her father says "wouldn't that be nice?" And honestly it'd be less painful to just kill me

[jontaro-kun]

God I love women I wish they were real

[oceans-beloved]

Meme dump yayyy🥳✨️

(off to make more now muhahaha >:3)

[happygirl2oo2]

Elementary as textposts part 15/?

[haruminyuu]

Twitter ver

[lucithornz]

I'd Lie and Taylor Swift

So you might be wondering why I'd Lie was tagged as "Taylor Swift-freeform". Well that's because I referenced 156 TS songs in IL.

I always think of scenarios and new ways to interpret Taylor's songs and I wanted a big project to be able to write just shitton of scenes inspired by her music. Some references are entire chapters that serve as songfics, some are just little easter eggs, others are somewhere in between(just one scene or line etc)

Then of course we have the titular song I'd Lie, which is an unreleased TS song from the debut era(well she released it on MySpace lol). It's fantastic give it a listen. But I was listening to it one day and was like “holy shit this fits DNF so well.” It's a pining song, and really fits the friends to lovers vibe. However I wanted the song to be from both perspectives, it applies to both Dream and George the way they see each other etc. The line “If you asked me if I love him I'd lie” is really just like everything to this fic.

It's funny I assumed everyone would know what the title meant, but it occurs to me that not everyone is aware of TS obscure tracks XD I wrote this whole fic like only obsessive Swifties were going to be reading picking up on every single little detail that I dropped(when that's obviously not that case lol). I just live in my own little world with her music. That's one of the things that made this project consistently so much fun.

I won't go over every song reference, those are easter eggs for you to discover(also there's well over 100, and this post would be 10k words) So I will share the most influential song from each album/era on this fic. Assume I'm talking about Taylor's version where applicable.

Debut – I'd Lie

Fearless – You Belong With Me

Speak Now – Electric Touch(from the vault)/Enchanted(It was Enchanted but then ET came out and changed everything)

Red – State of Grace

1989 – Out of the Woods

Reputation – Dancing with Our Hands Tied

Lover – Cruel Summer

Folklore – August

Evermore – Right Where You Left Me

Midnights – Hits Different

[kukurubean]

nexus

[unetonriehuja]

I was confused about this for the longest time. Jan says that he got his piercing as a gift for his 18th birthday when actually he got the piercing in 2018 when he had turned 19. (video source)

I was reminded of this by @lovvecherrymotion who posted this photo which is from early 2018 in which you can see Jan has the stud he was initially pierced with. He started wearing the black hoop a little later in 2018.

[lucithornz]

Soooo the beta reading is going well XD

All I did was tweak the format just a lil bit to make it more emotional.

Oh my god. Yeah, Luci has done the most evil thing in chapter 24. I am trying to beta and I am sobbing. I'll try to get back to it in the morning. But how dare she end the fic this way. What gave her the right?

[buglaur]

meet phil quigley

[natdafat]

I could fix her I recon