#I'VE GOTTEN MORE OBVIOUS. I'M GIVING HINTS BUT IDFK

[thr4shit]

Funny to think how a rather "interesting" / big aspect of my brain is just sitting here hidden from y'all but I want to talk and be normal about it so bad but also crippling fear because I've literally lost entire friend groups over it because of masking too aggressively and when honest pissing people off for some fucking reason.

Like. UGH.

BRAIN. UGH WHY.

Like. Yeah. Y'all are just fuckin strangers on the internet but some of Y'all are genuinely better than the friends I've had in my lifespan :/

(Unfortunately a lot of people I befriended in the past suck and I hate them. And they're part of why I'm this way and blah blah blah and whatever. :/ ugh. why can't people be fuckin nornal about masking out of fear of being called crazy or a faker despite VERY MUCH FUCKIN NOT. HELL. If I WAS I'd have a MUCH BETTER FUCKING LIFE THAN WHAT I GOT. HARD TO MAKE THAT SHIT UP WHEN IT ACTUALLY FUCKING HAPPENED. THANKS SOOOO MUCH TOXIC EX FRIENDS FOR MAKING ME MINIMIZE MY OWN LIFE BECAUSE YOU "HAD IT WORSE" YEAH. MAYBE YOU FUCKING DID BUT YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE AN ASS FOR EXISTING. YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE AN ASS FOR COPING. GO FUCK YOURSELVES. YOU USED MY EMPATHY TO GET WHAT YOU WANTED. YOU DRAINED ME DRY THEN DROPPED ME WHEN I WAS AT MY LOWEST.)