#I’ve just been soooo swamped

[clarabowmp3]

The problem with some fans is that they think they are in charge of her life and relationships! She is already a grown woman and knows exactly what she is doing, no one needs to tell her to do what she doesn't want to do! Everyone has their own opinion! I found the way some people acted in relation to the relationship she had with Matty so ridiculous, just because of his actions. She clearly made it clear that she doesn't care who talks about them and she loved him and we all knew it! She made a song calling out to her own fans and many don't care about that! I don't like Travis and I'm not going to let her go because of him, especially because she herself will find out that he is not what she thinks he is! She is the kind of person who will only believe when she sees with her own eyes what her boyfriend is doing to her! Besides, she and no one else are perfect, everyone makes mistakes!

Okay I’m sorry but I rlly don’t understand takes like this one. The only people ‘telling her what to do’ (like for eg begging her to break up with matty Healy via social media etc) were the rlly diehard/parasocial swifties. Yes, Miss Americana touched on the pressures she was facing from her family, team, the general public etc but the whole point of the documentary was how she’s overcome them! Esp in today’s day and age, seeing all that she’s done and achieved since then shows just how much autonomy she has, as would be expected of someone in her position.

I don’t know your reasons for finding ppl having an issue with matty Healy ridiculous, because from my perspective it doesn’t seem ridiculous? At least in the case of matty Healy, ones actions/behaviours is a pretty good indicator of their beliefs and personality imo, so it feels justified to “judge” taylor/hold her accountable for choosing to associate with a person like him. To be clear, I am not blaming her for Matty’s faults, he is a despicable person in his own right, but she made the choice to voluntarily associate herself with him, even going so far as to double down in songs like but daddy I love him.

And you’re right that everyone makes mistakes - I’m all for people getting second chances and learning and growing, but even now it feels debatable whether or not taylor has rlly learnt from the mistake that was matty Healy. She didn’t rlly change her tune abt him until he broke her heart, and all her ‘revenge’ songs abt him are her being mad abt him ghosting rather than his many other worse qualities.

As for ‘not letting her go’ just cuz of Travis/matty, I think it all boils down to what would make you let her go, which is different for every fan. For me, it was a multitude of things compounding (the Matty Healy thing, her private jet emissions (even tho there is nuance to it), her excessive variant releases) because these things signalled to me that her personality had changed/I don’t agree with her current traits, values or priorities. It no longer feels the same because every day I find less and less things to admire abt her, if that makes sense.

[dexalyys]

have you seen the Hail True Body au because you should . i am spreading propaganda it is honestly so fucking,,,, incredible

YES I HAVE ACTUALLY LOL one of the main reasons i started using tumblr more is cause mark didn’t have twitter at the time 😭

[came-out-of-the-coffin-desisted]

made a gif for somebody on fr today and it took such a long time bc i’m a perfectionist (this always happens lol) but he gave me a tip that was 7x more than i asked for (so in total he paid me 8x what i asked for) and said it was really cute no notes so that’s what i call a great time had by all

[oneshotnewbie]

guess who’s baaaaack !! tis i ur fav anon /j

okay but on a semi-serious note,, i’m so sorry for not popping in i’ve been SWAMPED with BTEC performing arts work </3 i’ve also been starting to watch greys anatomy & private practice….. soooo hear me out :3

possessive/dark!amelia shepherd x fem!reader angst to toothrotting-fluff <33 write to your hearts content w/ my request <333

- ❤️‍🩹 anon <333

Authors note: Maybe it's not what you wanted, but I had some real problems with this request. Maybe it's not the possessiveness that you were hoping for, but I really didn't know what to write ♥

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The living room, lit by lightning in a twilight state from a distant world, was filled with a tense atmosphere as you and Amelia faced each other. Your eyes met in a storm of anger and frustration, and every flash that twitched through the window was like a strike from heaven, adding more tone to the tornado of emotions raging between the two of you.

You stood with your arms crossed, your lips pressed into a thin line while your expression was stone. A tremor ran through your body, every muscle fiber tense with disappointment. The neurosurgeon, on the other hand, appeared calm, but her eyes sparkled with repressed emotion, her posture stiff with clenched fists and white knuckles that showed unrelenting tension. Her forehead erupting with wrinkles.

The air was thick with unspoken words, hanging between you like a heavy curtain of conflict as the lightning burst through the window shutters with loud rattling noises every second. Only in this brief, ephemeral brightness did the contours and outlines of your faces emerge in the pale light.

"That's ridiculous!" you roared, voice shaking with suppression. The words came out like an eruption from a long-dammed volcano, its lashing magma pouring down on the world and burying everything beneath it. "You can't just keep going and expect everything to be okay!"

"And what exactly do you expect from me?" Amelia shouted back exploding, breathing quick and shallow. Each word was like a punch in the air, the room literally shaking with the tension of each syllable while the coldness of her voice made the room icy and more frightening.

Your body language spoke louder than any words as you took a few steps forward, your jaw clenched tightly while your eyebrows were drawn deep into your forehead. Every muscle was tense, as if anger was manifesting itself in every part of your body and coursing through every vein. But the woman on the other side did not back away, stood with her head held high, her chest rising and falling quickly, her gaze challenging and yet full of pain.

Tears welled up in your eyes, the emotions boiling inside you like a raging storm. "I tried to explain to you how important this is to me, but you never listen to me when it comes to my needs!" you sobbed, your voice broken by the weight of the conflict. "This is so important to me and you act like you don't care!"

“Y/n, you’re completely exaggerating!” Amelia replied with firmness that hardly seemed to shake, but the undertone betrayed a hint of pain. Biting her lip hard, she looked away for a moment before looking steadily into your glassy eyes.

There was an unbearable silence in the room that separated the two of you further and was heavier than the words you had exchanged. The tension was like an invisible barrier between the two of you, yet it was palpable like an impenetrable fog. It stopped the two of you from approaching each other.

You burst into more tears, your body shaking with emotional exhaustion. "I can't accept that you see it that way. I can't go on like this anymore, it just hurts too much," you whispered, your trembling voice barely audible, your words cutting through the air like an icy wind. You swallowed hard, tears shining on your cheeks.

Amelia's shoulders suddenly dropped, her stomach sinking at the realization of what was coming. The expression on her face went from unfathomable anger to despair and disbelief as she lowered her gaze to the ground, a hint of regret growing in her eyes. "Y/n, please. Don't do this,"

“Maybe we should take a break,” you finally murmured, your voice thick with tears and filled with a painful thought about the rift that had hung over the two of you for months. "To give us clarity as to whether it all still makes sense."

Your words hung in the air as you both remained in a moment of paralysis, hearts heavy with the weight of the argument and the uncertainty about the future of your relationship. As it did, each flash cast an eerie glow across the walls and the shadows danced in wild patterns as if trying to mimic the relentless rhythm of your hearts. The natural spectacle seemed to plunge it into deepest darkness that triggered something in Amelia that she couldn't describe.

She walked towards you with slow steps before standing so close to you that a piece of paper barely fit between you. Her hand placed delicately and carefully on your wet cheeks, her fingers gently stroking your chin. "Am," you stated, knowing that settling an argument like that made things much worse and in no way solved the main issue. "We should really-"

"I hope you know that I'm only yours, right? Only yours," her dark and rough voice was deep with restraint as she whispered gently in your ear, her warm breath speeding up your heartbeat. Amelia already had you trapped and pressed between the wall and her own body, while her hand wandered dangerously close to your neck, ghosting over your delicate skin in slow motion. "Just because I work with a woman who flirts more than she works doesn't mean I reciprocate. I only belong to you.“

Her gaze flicked to your lips and she smiled dangerously at you. With the pad of one of her thumbs, she stroked your curved, provocatively attractive lips. Your breath hitched as the small touch sent a flutter of nerves to your stomach, goosebumps forming all over your body. Still, the anger, pain, and frustration of seeing Amelia and Eliza like that still lingered deep in your heart, an image you couldn't get out of your head. „Mhm,“

"Come on, y/n. Don't be naive. She just wants to get laid," you swallowed hard, blood rushing through your cheeks as she uttered the last sentence and your jealousy continued to skyrocket. „But the only one who will is you.“ she added to the previous sentence in a single shallow breath and a husky voice that made your knees tremble. 

Amelia´s hand shifted under your jaw before leaving trails of tingles, making you look directly in the warmth of her dark chocolate eyes. She laughed humorously as she ran her long fingers through your hair. „Y/n,“ she breathed, tightening her grip at the back of your head and you gulped, needing relief from the tension holding your body.

The world dropped away. Everything around you was a single blur, the only thing you could clearly focus on was her eyes locked on your own and the drumming of your pulse in your ears. You lifted a shaky hand to her chest, hearing her heart pounding rapidly against your palm. Her tongue darted across her lip, catching your gaze before our lips connected.

The kiss was slow, as though you both were content with savouring the waves of pleasure that washed over you. Amelia´s fingers on your hips shifted to trace your spine softly, the silent act of comfort warmed your hears as you tried to relax before she pulled away from you. "I'm sorry, my love. I don't want to lose you,"

[jokertrap-ran]

BAD MEDICINE ~Infectious teachers~ [PC GAME] Kashu Remu (Chemistry) Route Translations (Part 15)

MC’s name is retained as the original MC name Kawana Hina.

* Words within ‘   ‘ are spoken in English – *Spoiler free : Translations under cut! *T/N: Ah, yes. Hi guys, I'm still alive! Just a little swamped with work and uh, I got back into... minecrafting

Prologue / Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 / Part 8 / Part 9 / Part 10 / Part 11 / Part 12 / Part 13 / Part 14 / Part 15

⊳Choice: Go see Kashu-sensei

Hina: (I’ve never seen Kashu-sensei that grumpy and irritated…)

Hina: (And here I am… at the Chemistry lab.)

Hina: (He’s probably inside, isn’t he? I’ll just sneak it quietly…)

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Kashu: …

Hina: (Yeah, he’s definitely behaving strangely. I don’t believe he’s ever been this quiet while experimenting. But then again, what do I know?)

Kashu: Oh… Did it fail?

Kashu: Looks like a failure alright. Ahh, damn~ Pity~

Kashu: Should I try again~? Guess I’ll do just that…

Kashu: …Actually, never mind. I’ll just drink it~

Hina: (HUH!?)

Hina: You’re actually drinking a failed medicine!? What are you thinki-

Kashu: Eh…?

Kashu: …

Kashu: This has nothing to do with you. Not even the itty-bittiest bit. Bleh.

Hina: (He immediately turned his back on me. His cheeks are all puffed out, though. Is he sulking? But, why…?)

Kashu: …

Kashu: …H-Huh? Eh? Hmm???

Kashu: Nooo, why? I don’t wanna talk right now!

Hina: Um, Sensei…?

Kashu: Ahhh, but still~!

Kashu: Ugh, fine, fine. I get it! You’re the only one here anyway. So be it!

Kashu: Geez! Now’s your turn to take responsibility for your actions!

Hina: Eek!? Ermm, Sensei…? What in the world are you…

Kashu: What, you ask? The medicine failed! And not just that, it also has side effects that I don’t understand in the slightest!

Kashu: It’s no harmful medicine. And it’s not like it’s a truth serum or anything.

Kashu: I was just trying to create a remedy that would make you feel better and less mad. It failed though…

Hina: I-I see. That’s a relief to hear… but why are you holding onto my arm?

Kashu: I just told you to take responsibility for your actions, didn’t I?

Hina: Ehh…?

Kashu: You can’t just come barging in here at a time like this, you know.

Kashu: I don’t understand where this originated from, but this is a side-effect.

Hina: A side-effect? You grabbing and holding onto my arm is a side-effect???

Kashu: I'm overwhelmed by the feeling of not wanting to be alone, and it looks like I can’t shut up about it either. I really don’t understand this!

Kashu: I really, really, don’t want to be alone, so I have to be in constant contact with someone to feel at ease!

Kashu: So I don’t have any other choice but to do this! This isn’t my fault! It’s all because the medicine failed!

Kashu: And it only failed because I couldn’t concentrate on making it at all!

Kashu: You’re the reason why I was distracted, so take responsibility and stick with me till the side effects wear off!

Kashu: B-But it's not like we have anything we can talk about while we’re stuck here together either!

Hina: *Sighs* Looks like we’ll just have to wait out the side effects.

Kashu: Yeah!

Hina: I’ll remain here till the medicine wears off, so feel free to grasp onto me. And I’ll also hear you out, whatever you have to say.

Kashu: Like I said, there’s absolutely nothing to talk about!

Hina: (Oh. So I’m the reason why he’s been acting all strange.)

Hina: (He wasn’t willing to share the real reason behind the sudden change in his attitude before, and he’s not likely to do it now either. )

Kashu: Ugh, I can’t believe this. I don’t wanna talk but it’s sheer torture to remain here in silence…

Kashu: It would’ve been great if Kakeru-kun was here instead~ This is soooo awkward.

Hina: Um, Sensei?

Kashu: …What?

Kashu: Leave me alone~ It’s not like I’m doing this because I want to…

Hina: Even if you say that…

Hina: It would be odd for me not to be concerned since you’re holding onto my arm, and you’re clearly acting strange.

Kashu: Boo… Fine, I get it already.

Kashu: Geez~ Can this side effect disappear already? It didn’t have the effect I’d intended for it to have at all! This is a huuuge failure.

Hina: Um… Why did you want to make a medicine to ease anger anyway?

Kashu: …Isn’t it tiring to be mad?

Kashu: And it's so troublesome since I can't focus on my experiments! That's all!

Kashu: …Ah. 

Hina: Hm?

Kashu: Yes! The side effects have finally worn off! See you!

Hina: Huh? Wait a minu-

Hina: He's already gone�� His having failed the experiment is one thing, but to abandon his experiment just like that? That's odd even for him…

Hina: (He said this was all my family earlier, so it must be something I did, right…?)

Hina: But wasn't I just absent from school due to a bad cold?

What should I do?  ⊳Choice: Go see Kashu-sensei ⊳Choice: Go participate in Club Activities

[mjso-soupp]

Hc’s for M brothers + Reji and Kanato with a S/O who collects animal skulls, bones n stuff like that? :)

Bone Collector S/O

This is SOOOO late. i’ve been swamped with school so writing has been pushed to the back burner and art is occasional now 😭😭, trying to get back into the flow as of late.

Ruki

•He’s really into science and such so he would find this interesting if you collected for science purposes.

•He would study the bones and determine which animal they were from etc

•But if you collected them for more aesthetic purposes he would find it a bit strange, more in a “how is this aesthetic” way.

•From a cultural standpoint, he would do research on the significance of collecting bones and maybe even help grow your collection.

Kou

•Creeped out.

•He doesn’t really understand the significance behind bones and stuff because they’re not something casual lol

•“throw those out”

•Also his relationship with Subaru is so funny to me because subaru is like edgy, gorey and like skulls the dynamic is crazy

•“as long as you don’t carry those around with you”

Yuma

•I can imagine he’s found his fair share of animal bones when gardening

•yuma does give me southern/rural background, so collecting bones and stuff isn’t foreign to him as in his old home he probably had a deer head mounted

•would probably not care unless the collection would get out of hand

•“Sow.. you have five other rat skulls you don’t need a sixth.”

•If he found a skull in the garden he would give it to you.

Azusa

•As a collector himself, he would find it cool his S/O collects like him, kinda connecting

•Asks questions about why you collect, when you found this or that and how

•was hesitant to show you his knife collection until he saw your bone collection so he geeked and showed you his knife’s

•if you scavenge for bones he would like to follow behind you and pick at the thorns lol

Reiji

•Would definitely snag a bone or two when he needs one for his potion

•Doesn’t think it’s the most appealing collection for an S/O

•“Why do you feel the need to collect bones, there are many other collectables in this world and you chose… Bones.”

•If it’s of cultural significance he would understand a bit more and would ask about it.

•“Just.. keep it away from my plates, those are bound to be filthy.”

Kanato

•Would think it’s kinda gross? or not the most appealing

•“Please keep those away from me and teddy.”

•But like he also might find it a kinda creepy aesthetic? like Melanie Martinez disturbing?

•Has had to deal with his fair share of bones especially with making those dolls

•With kanato it’s very unpredictable, so I think this could go two ways.

•Would find it either.. Annoying or Beautiful?

[gohandinhand]

hi goey (autocorrect changed it to honey but i thought it was too forward): 1) how have you been? i’ve been following you for a while and would just like to catch up; 2- what fandoms are you currently in, if any; (3)- name 3 of your favorite drinks please and thank you!!! have a nice day off!!!

hi friend(?)! well as you know it's december so life is inexpressibly beautiful and i'm surrounded by love and also i'm wading through a current of grief that swirls around my ankles and sometimes seizes the advantage to rise and tug at my knees. but baby (is this too forward), it's not swamping me up to my chest anymore so forward we march!

it's getting mighty empty but i'm still digging in the warrior nun sandbox (have even been thinking about doing some writing lately!) i'll have to be dragged out kicking and screaming. i'm also admiring the bishova sandcastles my friends are building but i'll have to be dragged further in to marvel kicking and screaming. and right now right now i'm really into this docuseries about small scale family farmers in scotland. (if any of my followers are ((non-american)) queer farmers who want to wife me... let me know xoxo)

and lastly i have enjoyed a few seasonal drinks lately 1) water 2) dark chocolate cocoa w/marshmallows 3) green tea w/honey 4) (i'm experimenting with breaking rules) chai tea latte 5) (i'm soooo bad) ginger ale for when i have the tum rums

[spacetravels]

i am so unwell about dragon age and knowing u from the choices fandom i got so excited ur playing soooo what did u think of dao? da2? who did you romance and what was ur character like? how are u liking dai? got pics of ur inky? 🥺 (only if u want!! no pressure to share ofc 💖) i myself am an alistair anders solas girlie 😔

WEHHH thank you… veilguard looks so good i have to speedrun dai but man all of you who’ve been waiting since like 2014 are my heroes cuz i’m just gonna trot in like lalala… (has been here like three months)

dao is my favorite by far i think… i’m easy to please LOL it has my favorite story and i love the cast so much ;_;/ i played warrior lady cousland so i did marry alistair HUHU he’s my favorite romance across all the games but i wanna replay so bad to romance morrigan and have a diff silly little world state (trying not to think about doing this until after dav LOL) but god . HoF is just so so funny and i had so much fun…

da2!! i played blue warrior hawke <3 i liked running around kirkwall LMAO i think it was really fun to just contain the story around this one city and just hang out with my best friends 🥹 but goddamn. no one warned me about everything hawke goes thru LIKE 😭 HAVE A VACATION!!! i didn’t romance anyone though in my first playthru HAHA i kind of regret it though cuz by the end i wanted to romance isabela but i also think for my hawke i was happy to not have had a romance cuz it makes sense for my thoughts about her … like she’s just happy to still be alive and wants to do right by everyone who’s ever believed in her so she never thought about it but maybe after all gets said and done she’d seek out izzy… one of those real Slow burns in my brain heehee.. (pro mage .. btw)

AS FOR DAI !!! i’m terrible with open world games. NFKSJFKSKFKL but i sincerely am enjoying it cuz i’m following a quest guide so i don’t lose my marbles… it’s funny cuz i like. technically knew the most abt dai before playing through the games cuz [gestures at solas] but that’s alright cuz most of it has actually been a treat and a surprise :-) just not. the ending

my inky’s name is deirdre & she’s a human rogue 🙂‍↕️ i don’t have pics rn i’m at work JFKSLDK but ! kind of a little shit. it’s nice that everyone humors her stupid ass. as for romance…. blackwall…. he compels me… something is wrong with him and i like it <3

i’m close to starting wicked eyes & wicked hearts but i’ve been taking the time to explore places and do side quests stuff cuz i wanna be overleveled LOL and i need to switch up my groups more. except for varric. that’s my emotional support companion

BUT WWWWW i wanna draw my inky more & more da fanart when i’m not swamped with other projects and/or playing dragon age & fields of mistria bahahah.. i’ll remember to share more thoughts as i play 🥹🫰

[flowerslut]

😂☀️🏅

What’s the funniest comment someone has left on a fic of yours?

this is such a tough one, but half of @volturialice’s comments on call of the night made me laugh so hard that I befriended and then hung out with her. and fast forward five years she has clowned her way into my heart ~irrevocably~ 🥰❤️

honorable mentions go to these specific ones (top one belongs to my wife ofc)

and I wish I could find the tumblr ask that says “thanks for the stories my therapist will know your name” because that one takes the cake.

Has anyone ever left you a comment that made your day? What did it say?

ALL THE TIME ARE YOU JOKING??? most recently I’ve been getting a lot of comments from people telling me about how my version of maria in roots is turning them into maria stans, and every time that happens I twirl my hair and kick my feet like a lovesick idiot 🤩

also a lot of people have left comments on call of the night (and walk in the dark) to tell me about how they binge-read it over a day or two and those are always my favorite because it means I derailed someone’s sleep schedule for at least one night and that delights me every time. but here’s a pair of comments I think of regularly:

because it 1000% summed up the way I wanted everyone to feel during the climax of cotn’ and to see that I stuck the landing? sublime. nothing will ever feel as good as seeing these as the first two comments after I posted that chapter 🥰

What is the fic you’re most proud of?

this is suchhhhhh a hard one so I’m gonna be a cheating little cheat and answer it in three parts. because my personal favorite fic of mine (not the best, per se, but my number 1) is north star. tbh, that fic should have been much trickier to write (empath alice and psychic jasper? how do you even attempt to successfully jam that into canon!verse?) so i’m very proud of myself for cranking it out over the time span that I did. that was the first fic I ever gave to my wife to look-over and make lil edits to, which is something that I had never once done before with any of my writing EVER.

then or course you’ve got call of the night, and just about everyone has heard the story about that fic, but I really am soooo proud of myself for finishing it! 16/17 year old baby shan would have been sooooo happy to know that it was lovingly completed (technically speaking) in my 20s!

but I think I have to nominate roots for ‘fic i’m most proud of’ just due to the sheer size of this project. and maybe it’s that Current Fic Bias talking (since it’s the only fic of mine being updated/worked on rn) but I really did daydream, outline, and draft an entire 200k word fic with multiple alternating povs and so many moving parts that my even readers are making timelines to make sure they don’t miss anything. that’s so cool for me! that’s so fun! roots has swamped my brain for a year and a half, I’ve put my whole pussy into it, and not to sound like a broken record but shoutout to my wife @volturialice for basically being my editor. the fact that she hasn’t killed me for not knowing the difference between “its” and “it’s” or divorced me for my fixation on unnecessary scene blocking isssss miraculous 🥴

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[moonjxsung]

starrrrr how are you!?

it’s funny as soon as you stopped being active i stopped being active, ig it’s just a good time for a break lol!?

i saw on twitter that you got tickets to see skz, that’s so exciting!!I’m going see them for the first time and i’m soooo excited!!!

Any way just wanted to reach out and see what’s up! I’ve only been back online for a little bit but it’s definitely different in the community without you😌

we will be waiting for when you return, and if you don’t feel like coming back just know there are a bunch of us that will follow wherever you plan on going!

lots of love always 🪷

Hiiiiii my love!! I’m okay 🥹 I DID get tickets and I’m so relieved the whole ticketing process is finally over! Im so excited you got tickets too!!!!!!!! This tour has been so much fun, I can’t wait to finally see all the solo stages 😭🫶 I was so insanely stressed before ticketing I literally cried to my sister about it when they announced it and I swear I got NO sleep the night before. LA was definitely stressful for the first night, but the other 2 shows were honestly a breeze and I’m glad I got all the seats I was trying for. Super grateful I get to see them again 🥹🫶

I’m doing okay, lots of crazy messages on here the past few days (I’m assuming my kinktober series made its way to the wrong crowd?? I’m honestly not so sure lmao) but I’m so swamped in work so I’m just like…… okay?? And then I don’t use my phone for days at a time. so it doesn’t get to me as much as people think it does 😭 lmao

In other news, my cat randomly got super sick this week and we’re unsure what’s going on because she’s only 3 and she’s always been super healthy. We rushed her to the vet and she’s on a bunch of different medications, but I’m so worried about her :( I just want her to get better quickly she’s literally my best friend in the whole world

Anyways! I’m still navigating where I’m thinking of moving my blog if I decide to move, and if not then hopefully I’ll be back with something when Momo is better again ☹️ I love you so so much and I’m so beyond happy you got tickets though!!! We finally have stuff to look forward to in 2025 👼🫶🩷🩷🩷 ily bby sending you all the happiness in the world

[emocheol]

HII STAR how’ve you been :>

i just had sushi and udon oh my god i’m so full right now…i actually learnt how to use chopsticks !! (funnily enough, it was when lalali was playing)

lots of love 🫶🫶

MOON MY LOVEEEE

i just stuffed my face with chinese food and i’m in a food coma on my couch rn

okay learning how to use chopsticks! i’ve been using chopsticks since i was a kid and now i need to buy a new set for my new apartment T-T

i’m doing well! i’ve been swamped at work BUT i saw your idea for that joshua fic and let me say… i am inspired (i am literally going to start writing it tonight :P) your brain is BIG

soooo much love to you

[brokenmusicboxwolfe]

Oven repair still isn’t going well. I just can’t seem to get those two damn screws out. Excuse me I ramble/vent/moan/bore about things. (I am waiting a few minutes for some WD-40 to soak into rust, and the farmer sprayed the fields, AGAIN, an hour ago so I can’t go outside. I could do something useful, even with these grungy hands , or I could….)

I’ve had to stop working on the computer and the rest the tech issues. Which had already stopped my working in plumbing. Which had stoped me working on the roof. Which had stopped me working on the kitchen floor and wall at Mom’s house. Which had stopped me from working on the floors at my house. Which had stopped me working on….

Yeah.

So why the stove gets top priority?

Because, damn it, I like to have bread! I have toast every morning. Toast with cheese and fruit. That’s almost every breakfast. I count on having bread! **

And there is the mac and cheese I was going to fix to eat on for a week. And that sweet potato I was going to use last night. And the crust for the grape juice pie I was going to make in a couple weeks to use up juice (cluttering up the fridge) that I made from those fox grapes. And the bagels I’ve been craving**** I was going to make once I used up the bread. And roasting some of the peanuts from the field when they get harvested. And pumpkins and their seeds at Halloween. And turkey at the holidays. And cookies! And…

Okay, I also just like baking. I’m good at baking. Baking is so easy. And yummy.

I dunno. I can survive without an oven and a stove with a burner that goes full volcanic on low, but do I want to?

I have had my life’s pleasures whittled away from me. Like, at first it was just no trips or going out to eat. Fine. But then it was no going to the movies. No going to bookstores. Dropping all my comics and magazines. No buying books, or DVDs, or even little treats. No buying shrimp when the ground chicken is cheaper. No new clothes when I still have my parents’. No getting an internet provider good enough to watch videos all the time. No new sculpey or paints!!!

No family goes without saying.

And it isn’t just normal decay, with poverty (and the neglect that can lead to) speeding things up. Worse, thieves and vandals have repeatedly shown up lately to wreck my, already held together with duct tape, world.

Ok, yes, I have a few things left I get to enjoy. I’ve still got the pool (I almost refilled it after repairing the storm damage, but damn it’s cold) and the woods (when I get time, and the swamp is going dry again…gotta write about that sometime). And there are the animals, of course (but caring for them is soooo expensive). I appreciate my luck to have any of that.

But it all feel so precarious.

Any of them can be taken from me so fast. One tree can take out the pool, and sooner or later one will. Or maybe I will get so I physically can’t clean it any more first. The person that owns a quarter share of the farm and woods can still cause me to lose my woods. As it is, the people that own the next property seem to have it in for the swamp. The pets will all die eventually (old age I hope!) , and I should want no more strays show up. I’ve reached the “Oh no!!! Not another one!” stage every time a new one shows up.

As it is, I never go anywhere. I never do anything fun. I can’t buy things. I have no social life or any way to get one. Everything is broken or breaking around me.

My cooking may not be fancy, and I’m not a fan of the actual process of cooking, but having something yummy to look forward to eating at the end of the day has been something I counted on. During a day working on repairing, cleaning, or cutting brush, knowing I have leftover pizza in the fridge or that I can always make myself oven fries as a treat or that I’ll have brownies for dessert makes it easier to keep shoving through pain.

Ah well, it’s out of my hands. The problem will either be something I can afford to fix or it won’t. I’ll just have to adapt if it turns out to be “won’t”.

But first I have to get those damn screws out!

(Wanders off to go get a hack saw, chisel, hammer, drill, crowbar, and dynamite….’cause those suckers are coming out!!)

** I have no taste for store bought anymore. Mom went from occasionally making bread to making all our bread (when Pop developed stomach issues) thirty years ago. Then when Mom injured her arm*** in the shop, maybe fifteen years ago, I took over. After all those years of home made, when I’ve had folks give me store bought I realized I kinda hate it. So it isn’t just the cost of buying bread from a store (when every penny counts) but I don’t actually like it.

***Long story. Dislocated shoulder. Screw up by hospital folks. Mom with a completely paralyzed arm for six full months. Docs could do nothing but wait and see if it came back, and luckily it did.

**** If you think I hate store bought bread, the bagels are worse. I never liked bagels until I tasted properly made ones at a shop near my brother’s. It was a revelation. Too bad the shop is over 100miles away! There are NO bagels but grocery store plastic bag ones in my damn county. So it’s homemade or nothin’.

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THINGS THAT I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT MY FELLOW WRITERS & PEOPLE I’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER

thank you @atrueneutral and @wretcheddthing for the tags!! under the cut because i can’t stop yapping to save my life :) edit: OOPS forgot to say i tag anyone who wants to do it!!

Last book I read: if we mean book-book, Culture and Resistance: Conversations with Edward W. Said, but if we’re accepting comics, Hellblazer: The Devil You Know!!

Greatest literary inspiration: hmmmm. shirley jackson, suzanne collins, and silvia moreno-garcia!!

Things in my current fandom I want to read but I don't want to write: i do feel like there’s something so compelling about raphael/another fiend’s warlock but unfortunately. i have no ideas or inspiration for it. it would be very cool though!!

Things in my current fandoms I want to write but I think nobody would be interested in them but me: this dragon age au wyll fic is for a target audience of me myself and i. blood mage wyll and elf in the qunari lae’zel and tal-vashoth karlach and Totally Normal Not At All Culty priestess of andraste shadowheart…idc if no one would read it i’m writing it for ME. it may be shadowyll and karzel but i don’t Know. it’s these 4 in some capacity

You can recognize my writing by: so many parentheticals, and also so much introspection

My most controversial take (current fandom): i think even if you give raphael the crown he is not taking the hells. he is MAYBE taking avernus at best. the controversial part is that i love this about him and it’s SOOOO fun to me

Top three favourite tropes: fakeout makeout (it’s hard to make work but when it does ohhhh my god love it. i have a raphtav fic with this in the works actually ft them wanting each other so bad it makes them stupid), enemies to lovers, and identity porn my beloveds

What’s your current writing mood (10 – super motivated and churning out words like crazy, 0 – in a complete rut): 7.5 but like…in the way where i’ve been writing a Lot but across so many wips that nothing is getting done. i’ve written almost 30k this month but have i posted almost anything?? no

Share a random frustration: the last bit of this knife’s edge chapter has been fighting me for like. two months. i may just rewrite the entire chapter aughhh

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Last Song I Listened to: industry baby by lil nas x!

Currently Watching: fantasy high junior year. they just entered the vulture dimension ???

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy?: sweet!!

Relationship Status: single. who want me

Current Obsession: baldur’s gate 3 has been going strong for half a year with no signs of stopping, especially tav khoury and raphtav! i’ve also been really into hellblazer and i read like 80 issues of an old swamp thing run this week :)

[deansgapjacket]

I love your version of John’s journal and was wondering how you make/where you get the business/ID cards and other things that are in the pockets at the front of the journal. Do you just find images on the internet and print them out on regular paper or is there a specific shop you use? Thanks!

Hi! Thank you so much :) first off I’m sorry I’m literally a month late to this ask, I’ve been swamped with finals but thank you for your interest in my journal! So the stuff in the journal pretty much can be separated into 3 sections of: made it, bought it, or got it in a supernatural book

So for the “made it”, here’s some example of photos and stuff I’ve made!

I shoot a lot of film so whenever I get those developed they come with basically a receipt thing on photo paper and I’ve always kept them in hopes of doing something creative with them and when I started making this journal I really wanted to include photos that you see in the show but I’m way too cheap & lazy to actually go get them printed soooo I use my normal printer, print the photo on just normal paper then glue it on to one of these and then cut it to size then boom I have what feels like a normal photo!

For that extra old photo feel for the John pic I used an ink pad and just lightly tapped it one on the photo and it added that black dust stuff that you ↓ see on older photos!

Then for “bought it” section this pertains to the FBI ID cards, which I just got on a little shop on Amazon called “signs 4 fun” but there’s a bunch of Etsy shops and such and sell packs of their ID’s but I think I’m going to make some of my own soon cause I have a friend who has a laminator!

Last part of the “bought it” section would be the antique photos & post cards. Antique stores and the best they sell stuff like this for like $2

And lastly there’s a lot of stuff that comes in supernatural books like this map came with the supernatural on the road with Sam and Dean Winchester book!

Thank you for your question :)

[dearweirdme]

Hey,

Just wanted to know if you are gonna discuss about my ask on how Taekookers are valid in their justification to feel upset about not getting official content. No pressure, though, only sent this to check if I should wait. Unfortunately, a few of my asks has been ignored. I am sure it's not on your part because I understand the overwhelming amount of asks you get and limited time you can spare. Thought to have a discussion on my ask topic, that's all.

Hope you have a good day !

See ya 👋

Hi anon!

At the moment, I have 237 unanswered asks in my inbox 🙈. I have kinda given up on keeping it empty, because it’s basically undoable at this point. I would empty out my inbox the one day, only for it to be swamped again the next. During eventful days, I just get too many asks to keep up with, and to avoid feeling pressured (because I do understand how it can feel to not have your ask answered) I just allow myself to live by the moment. There’s still times I try and sift through everything and when I will answer some older asks.. but man.. I’ve just been soooo busy lately.

Your ask is one of many that went unanswered, I am sorry (and if I find time tomorrow I’ll try to look for it) but there’s really not much I can do to prevent these things from happening. Don’t think of it as me ignoring you, just think of it as me being busy and just not having enough time to keep up.

[chai-hat-tea]

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Hellooo!! It's me again. You are really so sweet for being so considerate. Bless you.

And unfortunately no job for me. Because how can my father live peacefully without interfering in every aspect of my life. Sigh. Long story short m not allowed to do private job. Because how can I be allowed to have freedom. Blehh. So an order was issued last year that that either I have to crack a gov. exam or I can sit at home. NO PRIVATE JOB. I kind of made my piece with it after having a huge argument about it. But I feel lucky that at least I have a chance to get a job. My sister was married off when she was still pursuing her graduation. But they found a "sarkari naukri wala ladka" it was a "golden opportunity".. lol. I started preparation of gov. exams two months ago but right now I really just want to focus on my final exams and getting good marks in it. So let's see where this will lead me. I just hope I can secure a gov job before the bomb of marriage is dropped.

I hope I will message you one day saying that I cracked a government exam. M trying my best.

Again thank you soooo much for being so sweet.

Halloooo Anom Nom!! I’m so sorry I recently started working and I’ve been so swamped with that and writing and basketball and basketball annual day at the place I play that I completely forgot I had to respond to you.

Ugh I’m sorry that there’s no corporate for you. But if it helps you feel better, it just pays well but is absolutely shit when it comes to having a life. So I think you might be better off pursuing civil services, even though they’re not that easy.

But also, if there are chances, you should start saving up. Leave at the first opportunity and start elsewhere. Especially if government job doesn’t work for you. Don’t get married because your dad wants you to. Move out before he can control you any further. I know it’s easier said than done, but have faith. It’ll work out. Somehow. I know it.

I’m going to pray for you that you ace your undergrad college exams and then clear the government exams too!!!! I’m rooting for you, remember that ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Come talk to me whenever you feel like, okay? Whether on or off anon, up to you! ❤️