#I’m still only halfway through

[pupillarysphincters]

Not me choking back tears on my run listening to the latest worlds beyond number 😭 Lou Wilson shaking is head because he’s played so many games with BLeeM for so damn long. “if he makes you do an arcana check on clouds, turn around. If he tells you how many people are on your ship, he is telling you what you have to lose” 😭😭😭

[kittychat-ladybug]

We got amazing animation but at what cost?

him

[windwenn]

I went batshit crazy the moment I saw denise bryson but one thing I really appreciate is that david duchovny kept the feminine mannerisms in the scene where she’s disguised as a man. Like that was a level of care and attention to detail I was NOT expecting for a trans character from the 90s and you do not want to know how much this character simply existing made me tear up

[mintmentos]

I’m so sorry what is going on in the bridgerton books. Like where are my lavish descriptions of the dresses. The ballrooms. You’re telling me they danced a waltz. A dance ladies had to have permission to dance. And you were focussed on the conversation and not the intimacy of being held and moving as one round a ballroom while staring into your partner’s eyes like they’re the only person who exists??

[spacespore]

HI TUMBLRR it’s me

[falmerbrook]

Damn, eso’s base games quests make you such a boot licker.

[vincentsleftear]

In the middle of watching ‘Milagro’ for the first time and Scully’s behavior is so off the walls that it’s got me pausing half way through to google if Padgett has her under mind control or something 😭

[presidentdisastraofgallifrey]

One day I’m going to rewatch seasons 17-18 and keep a list of all the physical scars Romana should have if tv wasn’t a coward

[knightsgaydiant]

Akane, my love, will you marry me?

[corpish]

this new season of Heartstopper 🥹😭

[ipborgdan]

average male character on yellowjackets hears about a woman committing murder and goes aw gee! oh shucks! anyways i love you

[soni-dragon]

Never ever EVER buy household appliances with ai in them. Most ridiculous things I’ve ever encountered

[bisexualalienss]

okay tolkien!!! you’re learning how to speed things up finally huh

[starbuck]

some thoughts:

LOVING how this book is just every single character having a mid-life crisis. They’re insane and I love them all dearly. Never been happier to be a person who loves hypocrites who ruin their own lives.

She 100% could have been having fourteen orgasms a night but, unfortunately, the world is cruel :((

[quodekash]

WAIT A SEC

HOLD TF UP

THIS IS AKK’S ENTIRE CHARACTER, EXPLAINED RIGHT THEN AND THERE, IN THE FIRST FREAKING EPISODE

he’s so certain that following the rules is equal to your worth, that only by doing everything as you are instructed can you be deemed a “good student”. and he wants to deserve to be in the school. he got a scholarship, he was chosen as a prefect, and its all because he follows the rules. so he’s sure that if he doesn’t follow those rules, then he doesn’t deserve any of the things he’s been given, and he doesn’t deserve to be in the school, he doesn’t deserve to be given opportunities. he probably doesn’t even think he’s worthy of love if he doesn’t follow the rules. (this isn’t true ofc, this is just what im pretty sure are akk’s thoughts)

and it’s kinda glossed over in parts (either that or I just wasn’t paying attention), but I think I’m akk’s mind, one of the rules of life is you either have to be straight or you have to not be in a relationship at all. he tells himself that he doesn’t want/need a relationship because he’s “at school to study”, he’s there to follow the rules and be a good kid and never do anything out of line. but he doesn’t think it’s out of line for other students to date. he just thinks it is for himself to date, probably because he hasn’t yet confronted with himself that he doesn’t want to be with a woman, but he can’t let himself be with a man, because that’s against some kind of subconscious rule that he has. “don’t be on your phones at school, don’t cause trouble, don’t hurt others, don’t use the teacher’s bathrooms, don’t be gay, always wear the uniform correctly and perfectly”

so he plays it off as “I just don’t want a relationship rn” but really it goes so much deeper than that, and I think he knows that but isn’t ready to confront it. his thoughts and feelings are so conflicted and complicated, and if he can’t figure it out, then he isn’t worthy of love, but if he ever does figure it out and end up with a man, he isn’t worthy of love because that’s against the rules (again, his thoughts not mine)

his thoughts that it’s imperative for him to follow the rules to be worthy or deserving of anything at all are the driving force for every single thing he does. “if you can’t follow the rules, you don’t deserve to be in this school” translates to “If you cant follow the rules, you don’t deserve a good education” to “you aren’t worthy” to “you are worthless” to “everything you do is wrong”.

and also I think him faking the curse was him trying to exercise some form of control? so that he could be in command of something in his life, and not in constant confusion and conflict and worry and uncertainty. if he truly believes that if you can’t follow the rules you don’t deserve to be in this school and therefore deserve to be punished, then he’ll see kids misbehaving, and he’ll want to be cause of that punishment, to reinforce and validate his belief that he HAS to follow the rules or he’ll be punished similarly, but also to feel like something is finally going how he wants it to

or maybe im reading too far into one line in the first episode where he’s just talking to a kid using his phone in school. idk.