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ones-delight · 4 years ago

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I unfortunately won’t have therapy until the end of this month (I should have scheduled one earlier this month ugh lmao I thought one later this month would be better) so I’m doing what my therapist suggested, write down all what’s going through my head even if it doesn’t make sense to help bring myself back to reality. lol. I’m very much lost in my own sauce of feelings and thoughts. it’s allllll about my ex again so ugh lmao. My main anxieties are just feelings about my ex and what’s coming up this semester.

I’m currently in my apartment in Iowa City since we’re about to start back up my usual routine. I’ve been here for almost two weeks now which is nice because I’ve been trying to take my time to relax and get myself mentally prepared for this upcoming semester. I’m also low key glad I’m having these overwhelming anxieties right now instead of later this week. I need to ask my therapist again what exactly I am feeling (if it’s like a panic attack because i truly dont know) because I’ve been feeling hella anxious the past few days (in general) and yesterday my anxiety was so intense that I barely ate and I felt sick to my stomach. idk if others have the same too but when I also get hella anxious, all I want to do is go to the bathroom so tmi lmao. I feel this way now and I just cannot stop crying so again, I’m just writing everything that’s going through my mind lmao.

#1) Related to my ex, heart break

Yeah.. I literally keep talking about this/him and I’m glad I have multiple outlets that I can say what’s going through my mind because if I keep these thoughts to myself, I keep spiraling. I’m also very thankful I have multiple strong support systems from people where it truly doesn’t get annoying to them when I keep talking about him/my overall heart break/healing journey. I know I don’t want to burden my friends with my own thoughts (it can be a lot) so overall very thankful for friends, family, and my therapist lmao.

I think the last time I talked about my heart break was the letter I wrote to him. I wrote it and sent it to him lmao. I also wrote his mom a letter in Spanish because I want to stay connected with her and very thankful she reciprocates the same energy, Apparently, he never received the letter even though I sent it over 3 weeks ago, but anyways yeah that’s a story I will tell later in this post. Anyways, it’s legit easier said than done to completely stop checking on his social media. I was doing great before winter break. Now that winter break has happened (still kind of is for a few more days), I have relapsed where I was checking very often. The break was great since I got to spend quality time with family, however, unfortunately being back in Wichita still floods a lot of my emotions where there are still a lot of memories of him and I that still makes me feel sad (luckily no longer sobbing about but I do still feel some type of way. It’s getting better thankfully). It also hurts that he’s making new memories with his new girlfriend Kylie so I was def feeling all sorts of things. Sorry, I’m trying to go onto chronologize order of events that have happened. I’m jumping back and forth lmao

First, did I mention his mom called me the day before Christmas? I was SHOOOOOK when I saw her name on my phone. I legit froze because I wasn’t sure if it was actually her so I accidently missed her call. I’m so glad she left a voicemail so I could listen first and immediately call her back LMAO. But basically, she wanted to check in to see how I was doing, wish me and my family a merry christmas/happy new year, and asked if I could come see her. We joked a bit back and forth like how she was learning English for me while I’m learning Spanish for her. lmao. so after this phone call, I wrote her a letter to update her on what I’ve been doing. I wrote it all in Spanish since that’s her primary language so thank god for google translate. overall, I told her about how I’m about to earn my masters degree in may, I’ve lost now 30 lbs of weight/having a better relationship with food, how I’m honestly still hurt about her son cheating on me (I was in my feels. You know if you ever get those feelings like you want your mom? She legit is like a mom to me since my mom isn’t an active part of my life so yeah I guess you can say I got mommy issues but anyways) I also told her that if she’d still like me to come over, I’d love to come over and see her.

Few days go by, I’ve been creeping onto his social media, it stings to see how he has flaunted his relationship with Kylie. It hurts because I keep playing this comparison game because he truly has NEVER allowed me to post about us and he would himself refuse to post about us on his social media. So, just to see how he’s been basically spending every single day with her and posting her throughout all of his social media, makes me feel an extreme type of way. during new years, she had a party at her house where it was him, her, his brother paco (which I was SHOOOK because she met paco and not everyone has ever met paco, who is his oldest brother), miguel and his girlfriend (both are super cute btw), Blake (surprisingly), and Erik. I felt some kind of way because obviously I know they would share a new years kiss even tho they’ve only been dating for literally a month. I dated him for 3 years and NEVER got a new years kiss (because he wanted to be with bros). Valentines day is coming up and it’d be their “two month” anniversary and I just KNOW he’d actually put EFFORT into spending that day with her. 3 years I dated this guy and he never ONCE did ANYTHING for me for valentines day. ok I’m getting more hurt thinking how he’s treating his other girls better than me so anyways BACK TO THE TOPIC

few days go by and I got another call from his mom. I actually picked up this time because I was really excited to hear her voice again. I legit would die for this woman legit #1 mom. She asked if she could see me and I happily said yes. It really means a lot that she still gives me the same energy that she gave me when I was still dating her son. One of the hardest parts of us breaking up was the potential of losing his family too because they are all truly good people and I am NOT the CEO of letting people go lmao. okay back to subject, I had TONS of anxiety driving over to her house because I had so many thoughts. I asked on the phone if 1.) is Lalo there. She said no. 2.) Is Paco there. No, he apparently flew back to California that morning. I was low key hoping paco would be there still because it would be cool to catch up with him but anyways my main concern was if eduardo was there so since he wasn’t, I was like “ok vroom vroom let’s go” lmao. WOWOWOWWO seeing her just made my heart so happy. She def has a lot more gray hairs since the last time I saw her lmao she’s the cutest anyways, I’m really shook that HIS DAD FREAKING HUGGED ME. THIS MAN NEVER USUALLY HUGS ANYONEEEEEEEEEEE. Typically how we greet each other, it’s like a wave from a distance and we obvi acknowledge each other. so WOOOOW I was very thankful and shook he hugged me. Anyways, his mom showed me around the house with the Christmas decorations, I noticed her birds were still doing well, she even showed me her new plants she got lmao. We sat at the dining room table and talked and ate mexican snacks. She has broken English and I have broken Spanish so literally thank god for dualingo because it has helped me. I love how when we are together, we talk really slow and try to annunciate for each other LMAOOO. Anyways, THIS WOMAN ALSO GOT ME A STOCKING filled with Mexican Candy. omg this woman i love her so much. Anyways, I showed my tattoos to her and she legit wanted to murder me lmao but she says she likes them but hates them at the same time. She also sat me down and we had a serious conversation in terms of how she sees me. She said that I am no longer known as lalo’s novia, what I am to her is a daughter. I am evelyn’s sister and yo boi that got me crying in the club because that’s what I would love to have, to maintain my relationship with them . Okay, to kind of speed things up, basically we kept talking about Evelyn’s quinceanera that’s happening this year AHHHHHH, dropped Evelyn off and her friend to a friend’s quince, and his mom took me to eat at paleterias tropicana where I tried elote for the first time and had a jugo verde WOOOOOW SOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOD. literally cannot stop thinking about it. Anyways, random note, I noticed my old K-State beanie in the car and his mom said it was Evelyn’s. It gave me a weird feeling because it was originally mine that he gifted me on our first Christmas together but obviously I knew he wouldn’t keep it so I’m not suprised he gave it to Evelyn. It made me wonder then what did he do to the other gifts that he originally gave me but I gave it back to him once we broke up.. okay that was a tangent, anyways, that was it with the night with his mom and ughhh it was a really fun night and I really am looking forward to seeing her again.

Now fast forward to now-ish, me not doing good of not checking his social media, I got triggered because they now made it “facebook officlal” that they are dating. it triggered me because again, he refused to publicize our relationship and it really threw me off that they’ve only been dating for a month (technically interested in each other since October, started dating November) and already publicizing they are together. they moving hella quick and basically, I got hella bitter. I felt reckless and I texted him. I KNOW I shouldn’t have texted him because I immediately felt a sense of regret after but also low key glad I did text him. ugh i hate me lmao. Anyways, i texted him and he asked if he could call me so I said yes. Luckily, the conversation was better than I expected because it was simply like two old friends catching up. It was a really good feeling even tho I’m honestly still hurt about the way that he treated me. It caught me by suprised when he said that he has talked about me with Kylie and he actually stated that he knows what he did and feels regretful for the choices he made. That was a huge shocker and I do still have trust issues because I try to take things that he says with a grain of salt. He may be saying things to me that I want to hear but it’s not the truth so anyways lmao. Our conversation was good and it really got me thinking what exactly am I doing/how am I really feeling.

I really am happy for him. Yes i’m still deeply hurt and feel a type of way about how he treated me, but I can’t do anything about the past and all I can do is just simply be happy for him. I will always love him without a doubt, but he isn’t my person. I hope this doesn’t come off as selfish but he will never find someone better than me, he is simply finding someone better suited for him. What helps me the most about this is thinking about ME because that’s the situation for him, however, I know I will find someone better than him because I deserve the best.

I felt bad for asking because I am just fucking nosy and I’m glad he was okay with me asking about what happened with his relationship with Lila (the girl he left me for) and how did he start dating Kylie. He shared with with me that even though it was all great in the beginning with Lila (and let me tell you dude, he totally was hella infatuated with her lmao), they started becoming two different people. She apparently wasn’t emotionally there for him when he needed her (IRONICCCCCCCCCCCCC BECAUSE THAT’S EXACTLY HOW HE WAS WITH ME THROUGHOUT OUR 3 YEARS TOGETHER) and she ended the relationship. It did make me sad to hear because everyone needs support and it is sad when you go to someone for support and they don’t give you it, ya know? anyways, he said with Kylie, they’ve been friends for two years (I knew who she was when we were together but they’ve always only been friends since they worked at the Sunflower together. This will sound extremely bad but I never thought about her being a girl to worry about because she did a lot of “white” things that we make fun of white people for and so it kind of shocked me that he is dating her now but anyways) apparently he said that “they were hanging out and next thing he knows is that he kissed her and that’s how they started dating.” dude didn’t want to go into detail which was fine but I’m also in my head like “ok lmao you literally just got broken up by your ex and then immediately start hanging out with another girl? ok” ANYWAYS, I really am happy for him and wish him the best.

It was cool to hear about what he’s hoping to do. He shared a lot more detail than usual which again caught me by surprise. Anyways, he shared that he is currently looking for a new place to live (a house to rent) somewhere in college hill (conveniently where Kylie also lives lmao) with Erik. He is also hoping to find another job soon because things at KWCH are no longer making him feel happier so he’s looking to see if he can work for a non-profit org which makes me happy for him because I’d also want to do the same. If I’m at a job where I’m not excited to be, I’d want to also try to make a switch. He also shared that junior (martin, his little brother) will be moving to Cali in May to move close to paco which wow made me really happy for them all. Anyways, he shared that he is hoping to stay in Wichita for about one more year and then possibly relocating to KC or somewhere in Oklahoma. i did encourage him KC because it seems that KC has much more opportunities than Wichita and Oklahoma. Only thing we both hate is driving in KC lmao

Okay, so overall, I’m still really hurt about how our relationship was and how it ended but I’m very grateful that I’m doing what is best for me to make progress because this is not an overall easy thing to do, move on. I do feel low key embarrassed that I still am not over our break up but I’m very glad that I know that He isn’t my person. we will and I cannot get back together with him even if he stated that he has “changed” Yes i invested so much in him to be my forever partner and it didn’t work out but that’s okay. I’m always willing to invest in people to be the best version of themselves and it really makes me happy to see people thrive. I truly cannot and will not take him back if there was ever a time where he wanted to give us a second try because I need to remember how he treated me. If he really was always thinking it was me, then he shouldn’t have cheated on me, treated me so poorly. I’m okay with us remaining friends, but as partners in life? that isn’t it. I deserve so much better and the man of my dreams will come. I’m 10000000% okay with being single because I know I need to work on myself so that I can be fully ready for my next. I really wish my next relationship is my one and only, but hey we’ll see.

so this is already extremely long but I’m very glad I got this all out of me. I know I have other anxieties such as starting school again, which will be my last semester before I earn my masters (FINALLY), RA training coming back up (so me working is coming back), JOB SEARCH. So much is coming up and AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I need to get my head into gear.

#personal

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clarapresents · 4 years ago

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So many problems in Supernatural’s ending

Why there are so many problems in Supernatural's ending ?

Hello guys I'm not talking to much on social medias but for this time, I need to talk about Supernatural's ending and explain all the problems in it.

1 . Dean's death

My biggest issue with this episode is the way Dean dies : empalled on a stick. Are you kidding me ? Dean survives the Devil, Michael, Leviathans, Angels and God himself and you're telling me it's the way he dies. Oh god I'm furious I understand the idea of Dean dying hunting, it was indeed his wish back in season 8 so we can say there is a sense ? But nope because his death was pretty bad, not an epic battle juste a meh one and maybe it was his wish at this time but don't you think than maybe he changes his mind ? And we have to remember that at that time Chuck was manipulating things so we can think it was the case. Also I want you to remember the importance for Dean to finally being free. Poor guy after winning he just dies a couple of days later. In fact, we don't know we have no clue they can have least put some words like 5 years later to tell us that Dean enjoys his freedom but based on what we see I assume it's not very later after episode 19.

I believe the writers didn't know how to make a life for Dean after all the big battles so they decide to kill him so Sam can have his « happy » life but we know that Dean's happy ending is with Cas but it can not be seen on big screen, right ? (irony) I felt stupid because I have some hope they manage an Destiel ending even if I didn't think they make it too obvious but enought to let us know.

2 . No reunions bertween Saileen and Destiel

I'm sorry but no Destiel and Saileen reunions don't make ANY SENSE.

They manage to develop the romance between Sam and Eileen just to completly forget about it in the finale. Even if we can presume than in the normal life the blur woman is Eileen, there sould have been a real reunion between this two.

And Destiel I don't need to explain Cas is a main character who is one of the big reasons that the show continues so many years so why the writers don't let us the chance to see him one last time ? We know he is alive now so come on ! I would also add that the relation between Dean and Cas is one of the main subjects of season 15 (and the serie) so having their reunion would have been the minimum. I'm so disgusted. And in regard of their relation, it makes no sense that Cas didn't welcome Dean in heaven : he is THE reason why he chooses humanity over angels, THIS human teachs him what it's like to love, having family, caring about people. We saw Cas changes a lot during this past seasons and it's because of Dean. And from Dean's point of view, the fact that he didn't search Cas, didn't talk about him (like for real) bother me a lot and it's out of character.

I know the production has problems with COVID restrictions but I don't forgive because they choose to bring some random female vampire of season 1 more than Cas and Eileen, really ? And we have Jim Beaver (and I'm happy about it) so why not Misha Collins it was possible you can't tell me otherwise.

3 . Family don't end with blood seems to be a lie

Yep one of the biggest messages in Supernatural is « Family don't end with blood » because during their journey they meet so many great people : Cas, Charlie, Garth, Crowley and so many others that make them a family. But in the end everybody is gone, dead or we don't what happens to them. Sam and Dean are the only survivors so I guess family did end with blood. Nobody in the production seems to care about this. Fortunately we have Bobby in heaven, the only represantative person of “Family don't end with blood” but it's not enought and despite the COVID restrictions they could have done better. Back in episode 19 we have Lucifer, Adam, Chuck, some random reaper and Jack so don't tell me they couldn't get more people.

Some good points ?

There are despite all this negative points somme good ones. So here we go !

I like Jack's ending (episode 19 I know but I am desperate to find good points), him becoming God makes sense because he has light and darkness in him so it's the right balance. Furthermore, all his philosophy about being in each of us without interfering seems great to me and also I like the fact that he rebuilts heaven with CAS. I was happy that Cas doesn't finish in Empty I would have been even more upset (if this is possible). At least we know he is alive fixing heaven. And I love the fact that heaven is no more a place where you live your past memories but a place where you live freely surounded by all your friends and family. So for us Destiel shippers, we can imagine that Cas and Dean are reunited in heaven and live happily but I would like to actually see it and not just imagine it.

And also the Sam's ending isn't too bad. Not everything is perfect indeed but I like that he had the opportuny to living a normal life with wife and a kid named Dean (so sweet) and in parallel having his hunter life. I know it's not really shown but the fact that he goes on a hunt after Dean dies and Donna's calls (by the way it's nice to know she is alive) and also his son has THE tatoo that make us believe that he continues the family business. That's why I am thinking that. But of course I am mad about the make up of Sam's old version and that wig was awful but hilarious at the same time. Sam has his « happy » life but he seems pretty sad because Dean wasn't there and that broke my heart.

And one last point, I like the reunion between Sam and Dean in heaven, them dressed like 1x01, their talk, their smile and their face so peaceful but so many great characters are missing and I'm not ok with that. In general the scenes between Sam and Dean were emotional and strong.

Conclusion

In conclusion, I think this episode should be start to zero because there are so many problems and also the rythm of the episode is soooooooo slow that it became annoying. I know it is does on purpose but it was frustating and I couldn't help myselft thinking « cut more the scenes and bring us the other great characters ». I know that the origin of the story is about Sam and Dean, two brothers on the road fighting monsters but the story evolves a lot they create a bigger family. And this end feels like the writers have completely forgotten about the past seasons and are just thinking with the seasons 1, 2 and 3 and it's a lack of respect for all this great characters especially Castiel. Maybe I would be more satisfied if they posted bonus scenes with Saileen reunion and Destiel reunion that could calm me a little but I don't think they will do that.

Furthermore, I don't know how the story could continue now I know people talked maybe about a movie or a mini serie but now how ? With everything that happens it seems complicated but « No one stays dead » in Supernatural everything is possible because we need a correction of this ending it's an emergency for the fans.

Thank you for reading me if you stay until the end I know it was long but I feel so upset that I need to talk about it. Tell me what you think about this and let's pray for better days for Supernatural.

PS : I am a french girl I tried my best to write in english I hope it’s not too bad :P

#supernatural #supernatural ending #destiel #saileen #dean winchester #Sam Winchester #castiel #bobby #cas #supernatural season 15 #season 15 #15x20 carry on

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justimagineitblog · 5 years ago

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REQUEST: William Miller x Reader - “Slow Dance”

Hi loves!

This was a request for @espacioytiempo !!

Thank you so much for requestingggg, keep them coming!

I’d love to do more for William or Benny Miller since we’re on the topic!

- this features a soft! Will Miller with hella fluff

soooooooo strap in and get your tissues xxx

They announce the next song and open up the floor to the rest of the Wedding Guests. I bite my lip in anticipation as I turn to Will as the music grows louder and louder through the speakers.

We make eye contact, and I already know what the answer is before I’ve even asked.

Still, I raise my brows in a hopeful bid that he might actually want to dance just this once.

“No” he shakes his head at me “You know I don’t dance”

“Will just one-“ I begin to plead with him but he shakes his head again, firmly. The look in his eye tells me it’s best I quit while I’m ahead.

I sigh. He’s always had trouble throwing caution to the wind. Even for a simple dance. If he doesn’t know how to do something (and do it well) there is no way in hell you’ll get William Miller to do it. That applies to anything. Add the fact that he has to get up in front of people to do this, and you’ve got the perfect recipe for Will’s anxiety to sky rocket.

I never push. I know he likes things a certain way and only likes what’s in his control. And anything outside of that is a no go zone. If he can’t figure it out with maths or statistics or logic, then he simply doesn’t do it at all. That leaves no room for any fun most of the time.

This is the polar opposite of his brother, Benny, who has been spinning around a girl he dragged onto the dance floor the second the music started. I look over at Will as he watches his brother having fun, his booming laugh filling the room. Almost like its taunting Will. He know’s he wants to. But he just can’t.

I’ve always known not to take it personally. Will would take a bullet for me. He would fight until his last breath to keep me safe. And he does. There’s not a day that I don’t feel loved by that man. So if that mean’s I have to miss out on a few dances, then so be it.

Sat beside us is Pope, who is rolling his eyes at Will for being such a ‘sour puss’, as he normally calls him. Pope is like an older brother to us all. He adores Will. But I know he can’t stand when he just can’t let loose for once.

“Alright” he says, getting up from his chair in annoyance “Sorry man, not tryna step on your toes, but I’ve gotta take this lady for a dance”

With a giant grin on his face he takes my hand and pulls me up from our table before Will can even protest, leading me to the dance floor.

“I had to!” He calls out over the music as we begin to move to the beat.

We dance for the rest of the song, making one another laugh under neath the flashing lights. Pope takes my hand, spinning me around in a twirl just as the song ends, before pulling me into a big warm hug.

“Thank you” I beam at him, as everyone on the dance floor slows into a sway as the song changes into a slow dance.

“Care to sway with me, my lady?” He tips his head playfully.

I’m about to take his hands when he looks behind me with a smirk on his face.

“It appears I have some competition” he nods over my shoulder, and I turn to see Will standing there shaking his head at Pope’s smart ass comment.

“Have fun kids” Pope teases before heading back to the table, leaving Will and I standing together.

Suddenly Will reaches out for my hands, pulling me over to him. One hand grips mine, while the other arm snakes tightly around my waist, bringing me even closer to his body. And slowly, just like that, he begins to sway. I smile up at him in awe, completely stunned at what he’s doing.

He’s slow dancing with me right now.

“Oh come on I’m not that bad am I?” he chuckles softly at how surprised I look.

I shake my head at him, speechless. He has no idea what this means to me. For him to push himself out of him comfort zone like this… for me.

He bows his head, pressing his lips against my ear.

“I’m sorry” he whispers, apologising for all the times he knows I’ve had to dance alone, or not at all.

“Don’t be” I coo, pulling back to look him in the eyes “Just dance with me”

“Yes ma’am” he smiles down at me, before pressing his lips against mine sweetly.

The hum of the song plays in the background while we sway in each others arms.

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nellaesarts · 4 years ago

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Fairy Tail & The Paragande Kingdom - Chapter 1

NEXT CHAPTER

X795 - Not far from Magnolia, Kingdom of Fiore

“Pog… Slow down, Pog, I can’t follow your rythm anymore…”

Pog turned and looked at the woman who called out to him. The creature took a few steps back to join her with a worried look. She was looking definitely out of any energy. She was leaning against a tree near by, out of view thanks to the bushes around.

“*Alex… Don’t give up, please… There are only a few kilometers left before we reach a town… I can feel it from here*.” He said with a concerned voice.

The called Alex layed here eyes on her Chosen. A smooth smile appeared on her lips.

“I’m sorry… I can’t make it, my dear. But you… Fly, my friend. You still have enough energy to run away. So, fly. They will be satisfied with me.”

The magic being launched a desperate look to his Linked One, who quickly sank into unconsciousness. The panic started to reach Pog’s mind. And now ? What should he do ? They were still far from the following town and their pursuers were maybe just a few miles away at most. The little creature curled up against her friend while he started to shake. He might be endowed with some powers, they were particularly useless in this kind of situation… He was unable to give her energy and could do nothing to substitute to a good sleep… So, he could only wait, and hope that Alexandria recharge her batteries before they arrived. He squeezed himself tighter against the girl, enlarging his senses, hoping for being able to feel anyone arriving near them before they could see her. He could maybe protect her at this moment. Eh, if he wasn’t so small. If he wasn’t so weak. But so far away from their original land, in this absolutely unknown country, the future seemed suddenly so dark… The creature ended by letting himself go, simply enlarging his hearing and his perception as far as he can to pick up any presence. He found himself thinking that maybe the future presence could be a helping one, who knows ?

*****

“Lucyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ! I’m hungryyyyyyyyyyyy why didn’t you want to stop to catch some of these shiny fishes ? They looked soooooooo tastyyyyyyyyy !”

Lucy immediately made a sound between a sigh and a rale at the plaintive voice of the blue Exceed. She turned herself to the flying cat with a slightly bored look.

“I told you we miss time, Happy, she says with an impatient tone. We have to be back at the Guild tonight.

– But Lucy, I’m hungry too… We really can’t stop ? Insisted Natsu, like he was at the death’s door, launching a begging look to his friend.

The Celestial mage rolled her eyes and accelerate her walk with a sulky appearance, liking better to ignore her mates. Erza, who was walking lightly behind the trio with Carla and Wendy, called out to the salamander and his friend with her usual strict way.

– Shut up, you two ! Lucy already told you that we don’t have the time to stop. We have to come back the faster we can.

– Aye Erzaaaaaaaaaa” answering both Natsu and Happy in the same voice, resigned.

Wendy and Clara maded some amused smiles. These two definitely couldn’t opposing themselves to the Knight Mage, whatever she said.

The team came back from a mission in Bosco’s Country which was a real success. The town where the mission happened was not destroyed this time and they get all the reward back. In fact, that was not new nor an exception, but since some months, the small team really needed this kind of little victories to keep their chin up. Because the absence of one of them was a bit too heavy for them, from now on. By the way, the happiness of the group quickly faded away after the little argument and everyone seemed to sink into their own thoughts.

They continued their walk in silence during some long minutes on this forest road, until Happy’s little voice’s broke this heavy calm :

“Hey… Do you think Gray will be going on a new mission with us soon ?”

The company immediately stopped and all looked at each other with serious eyes. What could they answer to such a question ? Finally, Erza was the one who chose to respond to the Exceed.

“We can’t know when he’ll come back, Happy. The mourning is different for each of us and Juvia’s lost affected him more than anyone else, you know. He could come back tomorrow as in a few months or in some years. Who knows when he’ll feel better about that ?

– Yah I know, but still, that happened many months ago already…

– STOP !

Natsu’s loud voice suddenly freezes all the group, who turned to him instantly.

– What’s happening, Natsu ? asked Lucy with a troubled voice. Are you smelling something ?

– Yeah, and I don’t know what it is. That seems like magic, but… That’s a smelI I never smelt before. And that seems to head right to us ! Be careful !”

At his words, the entire group put themselves in fight mode ; Erza’s swords appears in her sides, Lucy brandish Taurus’ key, ready to open his door if needed, Wendy and Natsu raised their fists and the Exceeds chose to go up to check if they could see where the danger could come from. All were ready to fight. During some long seconds, there was absolutely nothing. Nothing at all. Until some little sounds came from the bushes. The group’s members turned themselves to the sounds, and the time seems to go like an eternity. They were all under pressure, waiting to know what was going to happened...What was behind these bushes ?

The answer had… An unexpected form. Under their astonished eyes, a tiny creature had got out of the bushes. That was a mix between a red panda and a fox, ornamented by some magical symbols on its fur. A strange aura was emanating from it. All the team had put down their weapons at this view, because this creature definitively doesn’t look aggressive at all.

“Huh… What kind of creature is it ? asked Wendy while she was approaching him. It looks like a magical… Fox ?

– I dunno, but he’s cute as hell ! said Lucy with a bright look. Hello, cutie ! Where do you come from like that ? she continues, while squatting to approach the creature too.

– Be careful, Lucy, Erza interverned. We don’t know what it is.

– *I am a Chosen. Are you mages ?*

The group froze. Where does that voice was coming from ? That was like it had resonated directly inside their minds… The first person who asked the question that all have in their minds was Carla.

– What. Was. That ?

– I don’t know, answered Wendy, that was so strange !

– It looked like it was one of my own thought, but with another voice than mine… added Natsu.

– *Even if the fact that you can hear me is answering my question, I will repeat it anyway, as you seem slow on the uptake : Are you Fiore’s mages ?* pick the voice up again, more insistently.

Lucy, who seemed to have a moment of clarity, looked at the magical creature, who was looking at the group with an air of defiance. She slowly smiled at him.

– That’s you who talk to us, isn’t it little buddy ? Telepathically ?

The little creature nodded his head to approve.

– *That’s it. So ?*

– WAAAAAAAAAH A SPEAKING FOX ! shouted Natsu who looks totally panicked.

– … Come ooooon, Natsu, reacted Lucy looking at him. We’ve already seen a thousand of unusual or strange things in our life, that’s not a fox who speak to us telepathically which will trouble us, anyway ! That said, she turned herself back to the little ginger and black being. To answer your question, yes, we are mages from this country. We are members of the Fairy Tail Guild and my name’s Lucy.

– *Once again, I’m not a fox, but a Chosen. That’s absolutely not the same type of creatures, but I have not the time to explain the difference right now. I am happy to have found people who know magic. I’ll not beat around the bush : Mages of Fairy Tail, I need your help as quickly as possible.*

To this worlds, the Chosen leaned over in front of the group. At this moment, they all notice how exhausted he seems. He was shivering and breathless.

– But… We are in a hurry and… started Carla.

– *PLEASE ! I beg you, it’s a matter of life and death !* he insisted, leaned over lower.

Erza came closer to the Chosen too.

– Asked like that, that’s OK, little buddy. We will help you.

Her decision was irrevocable. Lucy launched to Erza a blazing smile, obviously reassured.

– What can we do for you, lil’ buddy ? If that’s about fighting, I’m all fired up ! said Natsu with an enthusiastic voice.

– *Well, to start by the beginning, my name’s Pog, and that’s not about fighting, but about helping someone. I’ll lead you to her and we must hurry. We are chased and our pursuers must not be very far.*

– ARE YOU SOME KIND OF CRIMINALS ? shouted Erza who immediately pointed a sword to Pog. He stepped back for a few steps, his ears back.

– *HELL NO !* he shouted too. *We are fugitives. We fled our country because our king hunt the mages there to take off their magic until they died. The person I asked you to go to help is a powerful mage of our country and I suppose you understand now why we ran away from our land. We came in Fiore to find refuge. Anyway, I have not the time to say more about it now. Alex is in high danger, unconscious and vulnerable. If you don’t believe me and if you don’t want to help me, whatever, I’ll do it on my own, even if that’d be a failure !*”

Pog ended his sentence and was beginning to run away from the group. This scarlet-haired mage had scared him and no, he definitely had no time to lose. Alex’s life was depending on it. He was a little bit disappointed after all. But he knew that revealing where they came from and who they were could cause this kind of reaction.

“POG, WAIT !”

He was already around tens meters away from the mages when the voice made him stop and turn back to it. He recognized the blond girl who had talked gently to him, Lucy. She catch up to him a few seconds later.

“Whatever Erza think about it., I believe you. I will help you, if you agree.

– *Lucy… Thank you so much. With your help, Alex may have a chance to get by.* say the Chosen with a lot of gratitude in his look.

– And where Lucy goes, I go too ! exclaimed Natsu who appeared on the young woman’s side, closely followed by Happy who agreed with a head nod.

Some moments later, they were joined by the last three members of the team. Erza knelt down to be closer to Pog.

– I apologize to have react like that, Pog. I feel your distress and I believe you too. So, where’s your friend ? Hurry, lead us to her, I thought that was an emergency, isn’t it ?”

The magical creature made a relieved smile and nodded his head. He signals to the team to follow him and set off in Alex’s direction. His instinct wasn’t wrong, after all, his magic leaded him to some amazing mages, obviously.

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WELL WELL WELL.

I have finally made the decision to publish my fiction here too !

Well, I hope you’ll enjoy it, and please excuse my english, as this is not my native language, I have certainly do a lot of errors in the text. I just hope that will not ruin the reading !

See you soon for the next chapter ! :D

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lights will guide you home (Tokoyami Fumikage X Reader) PART 2

PART 2 to: https://ice-cream-kitsunegirl.tumblr.com/post/189811426209/lights-will-guide-you-home-tokoyami-fumikage-x

WHOO! Another part done in a day! I was going to put this in the first part but... ultimately decided to just cut it in two since it wasn’t quite done yet... and the first half felt more complete enough to be a chapter...

And yes... I alluded to a moment in American Horror Story because I’m soooooooo original lol JK JK but I couldn’t resist XD

Taglist: @shimy-deko, @teerama

Summary: Your classmates haven’t found you yet, and Tokoyami fears that the worst has happened.

The damage is done The police are coming too slow now I would have died I would have loved you all my life...

You're losing your memory now You're losing your memory now You're losing your memory now You're losing your memory, now…

‘Losing Your Memory’ Ryan Star

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFpFZxvi3Qs

“Flesh, flesh, sweet soft flesh!!”

“(L/N)!!”

“I’ll… KILL YOU…!!”

“STAY AWAY… FROM ME… YOU’LL DIE!!”

“(L/N)!! Look out!!”

“(L/N)!!!”

So many voices were echoing in your aching head that you couldn’t even recognize as minutes felt like hours for you.

Who were those people? What were those voices? You thought as you slowly blinked your eyes open as the high-pitched ringing in your ears drowned out the voices you previously heard. It was exhausting just opening your eyes as you inhaled quietly and exhaled, but then you began to wonder.

‘Where… Where am I…?’

You thought as you suddenly grunted and groaned in pain when a sudden wave of agony hit you and made you cringe when you even attempted to try and get up. There was something warm seeping down your back and down your belly and yet you didn’t even realize it, all you knew is that you were in so much pain...

But where the hell were you? It was dark, so dark as you blinked and saw nothing but dimness in this… forest? What the fuck were you doing in a forest? It was all so overwhelming that you started to tremble and hyperventilate as your first instinct was to get up so you could get out of here.

‘I gotta… no… no what this is place…? This… no… I… I gotta get out of here…’

Stumbling, you shakily got back up on your feet but nearly fell back to your knees as a haze clouded your brain and made it hard for you to comprehend anything that might have been going on as you didn’t smell the burning smoke or even hear the distant shouting.

Your classmates, Izuku, Shouji and Bakugou, you forgot they existed. They were nothing but shadowy figures in your brain as you could only try to stay standing and see if you could get out of here.

You forgot that Tokoyami existed and that it was Dark Shadow responsible for the deep slashes across your back and your stomach as you winced with every step you took. Warm fluid flowing in scarlet rivulets down your torso, staining your shirt that you couldn’t care to acknowledge.

What happened? Why was this happening? How did you get here? No, you weren’t supposed to be in this place, you needed to go home…

Was all you could think as you slowly and clumsily walked away from this place, wherever it was in a confused daze as you looked around frantically for anyone that might be able to help you find your way out.

“HEY! Stop right there young hero! Keep going! You’re almost there!”

A voice made you gasp in shock as you saw a man, dressed like Deadpool? Was he a cosplayer or something? You had no idea but you somewhat desperately walked over to him, “E-Excuse me… b-but w-where am I? I-I think I’m… lost… d-do you um… k-know where I can get out of here…?” You asked him politely, shakily as you couldn’t stop your body from trembling and involuntarily brought a hand up to clutch at your bleeding stomach when the pain started to slowly become more apparent.

“Ooh! That looks ugly! Ah you can barely see it!” He exclaimed in regards to your wound, “And I came from that way! You’ll find a street that takes you to the next town! It’s the wrong way!” His words were confusing you even more but he wasn’t hurting you and didn’t seem to consider the fact that he was SUPPOSED to capture you as you nodded slowly.

“T-Thank you sir…” You shyly stammered as you quickly tried to get away as fast as you could to leave this place, “No problem! Shouldn’t you come with me?!”

He was strange but you had to go, you needed to get out of here that’s all you knew, and you didn’t even know that the man actually had enough sympathy to let you go because he was starting to think that maybe you were just someone who got lost and hurt instead of one of the young heroes…

You had no idea that you were standing in the face of a villain, or the fact that the villain let you go under the belief that you weren’t a student.

Oh my God you were going to be late for dinner tonight at home, you almost wondered if your mom was going to be upset. Or worried, probably worried.

This was so weird, you had no idea where you were at you needed to go home fast, you kept telling yourself that.

Meanwhile…

The pro-heroes arrived too late. The police arrived too late.

The villains were successful in kidnapping Bakugou. Had it not been for Aoyama they would have ended up taking Tokoyami too.

Yet all he, Izuku and Shouji could think about aside from losing their classmate was the fact that another classmate was gone and they couldn’t find you. Although Dark Shadow did manage to defeat and maim the villain ‘Moonfish’ as he was named, there was no sign of you and you didn’t reappear after getting attacked.

Todoroki and Bakugou got Dark Shadow to calm down and put an end to his rage, but you were gone and none of the boys could find you. Shouji couldn’t hear you nor could he detect any noises in the distance because there were too many villains and scattered classmates about for him to tell which one could have been you.

The boys, but especially Tokoyami, were extremely reluctant to tell Aizawa that while one their classmates and his students got kidnapped, that one of them was missing, and it wasn’t even the villains fault. Shouji and Izuku didn’t pin any blame at all on Tokoyami, but Tokoyami himself did.

“It was… it was my fault… I lost control and she…” His voice was cracking but didn’t dare show his tears to his teacher when he took all the responsibility for your disappearance. However, the man couldn’t really let him do that to himself when this wasn’t anyone’s fault.

“Your quirk still needs control. But this was a situation beyond anyone’s control.” Aizawa didn’t disagree that Tokoyami lost control, but he was still only a boy who didn’t have complete control over such a powerful quirk, and this was a situation that neither of them was prepared for so he didn’t blame him.

“B-But I-.”

“No buts. There’s going to be a search party for (L/N) and Bakugou. None of the pro-heroes will leave any stone unturned, not until we find them both. In the meantime, we’re all taking you back home.” His teacher shut down anymore attempts he could make to blame himself as he made the raven go back to his classmates and inspect them for any injuries. Of course, several of them had gotten hurt, and Jirou and Hagakure had to be hospitalized due to the poisonous gas from one of the younger villains.

Everyone had to be sent home except for Jirou, Hagakure, Yaoyorozu and Midoriya, whose injuries needed to be tended to in a hospital. But everyone else was allowed to return home to their families due to their Summer Training Trip being cut short.

Tokoyami could barely sleep that night, in fact, he didn’t sleep at all as he retreated to his room after his parents asked him if he was okay. He wasn’t a liar, but tonight he had to because he couldn’t bear telling his parents that he killed his own classmate because he lost control of his horrible quirk.

He couldn’t tell them that it was all his fault that one classmate was missing and probably dead. He could barely even breathe knowing that fact as he sunk to the floor of his room and grit his teeth when a wave of shame crashed over him and brought him down to his knees.

Shallow breaths hitching as he choked on the sob that had been caught in his throat the second he told Aizawa what happened and he’d been holding it all back until now. His tears dripped from his shut eyes and hit the soft ground of his room as he quietly cried.

He had no idea where you were, no idea if you were still out in the forest, no idea if you were even still alive and it terrified him.

You were gone and it was all his fault…

The last thing he would ever see from you was the look of horror and betrayal in your eyes before Dark Shadow attacked you and threw you deep into that forest. The last thing you would ever see from him was the monster that was his quirk, killing you…

He killed you…

“Fumikage… Mr. Aizawa said that they were going to look for her…” Dark Shadow telepathically and softly spoke to his distraught master, but Tokoyami wasn’t having it. He wasn’t going to listen to him anymore after what he’s done. The shadow’s done some bad things but after all of those things he’s done, he finally crossed the line.

“Fumikage…?”

“Fumikage… come on, I’m… I’m sorry that I-“

“I don’t care if you’re sorry!” After ignoring his shadow ever since Todoroki and Bakugou made him stop, he finally answered to him but he wished that he didn’t.

“B-But I…” Dark Shadow was clearly guilty as he had tears in his now yellow eyes, but Tokoyami didn’t feel sorry for him. “I really am… s-sorry…” He couldn’t believe what he did, he didn��t want to hurt you but he was so angry, so fueled by all the fury and everything else that his host felt in the moment that he just lashed out and tore through everything in his path.

But Todoroki and Bakugou flashed their light on him, only then did he realize what he had done.

He hurt you…

He saw you flying and he knocked you out of the wind…

“If you were sorry you wouldn’t have done what you did…” Tokoyami spoke to him coldly, it wasn’t the first time he’s been pissed off at his shadow before, but this time he was just disappointed with him. He hated him.

“I-I know but…” His shadow sadly whimpered and tried to tell him how sorry he was but Tokoyami shook his head, “I don’t want to hear it anymore! And I don’t want to hear you anymore!” The raven didn’t even think, he just shouted at his quirk when he couldn’t take his apologies anymore. Sorry wasn’t going to bring you back after all.

“B-But Fumi…”

“No more! Just be quiet! Be quiet and don’t speak to me!” He shouted at him one last time as he got up on his knees and turned all the lights on in his room to make his shadow go away, and he held his tongue so he would keep to his word and no longer to speak to his shadow. After what they did to you, this was a deserved punishment.

Dark Shadow gave a low sniffle and quickly retreated when the sudden brightness of the light stung. Tokoyami was really mad at him now, and at the moment he felt like he deserved it now that you were gone because he couldn’t control himself.

“Okay then…” Was the last thing Dark Shadow mumbled as he stood within his host and remained dormant inside.

As he could no longer hear his shadow, Tokoyami already felt the twinge of guilt as he shakily sighed. It’s not like it was completely Dark Shadow’s fault that was simply in his nature, but still, Tokoyami couldn’t help but blame him.

However, he also blamed mostly himself. If anyone was the real villain tonight, it was him.

He hurt someone good, someone beautiful, someone who had never done anything to anybody. A hero in training with a good quirk that did nothing but bring light and good to this already bleak world. You were gone, and it was all his fault. He killed you. He killed someone he grew to love…

It was all too much for Tokoyami to bear as he stumbled and fell to his bed, eyes shut as he did his best to hold his tears back, even though he could still hear Dark Shadow weeping inside him. His quirk was crying…

And it was because of him, and because he felt terrible for hurting someone he grew to really love too. He wanted to be mad at Dark Shadow, he really did, and he was, so he couldn’t just comfort him. Not when he was just upset, but he couldn’t bear to listen to him cry when he was on the verge of a breakdown himself.

The raven clenched his fists as the crying grew louder, hands flying to his ears in a vain attempt to block it out. It wasn’t working…

So he lied down on his, head on his pillow as he quickly grabbed his headphones to place over his ears, Dark Shadow’s cries already somewhat muffled and yet Tokoyami could still hear him. As fast as he could he hooked it to his phone to listen to his music on full blast to drown out his shadow.

Three Days Grace.

He put the volume up high so all he could hear was Adam Gontier screaming ‘PAIN!’ in his ears loud enough for him to finally no longer hear Dark Shadow’s crying. As Tokoyami listened to the music on full-blast he didn’t hear anything anymore, not even his own sobs as he quietly broke down on his bed. Unable to stop the warm tears streaming down his feather cheeks and unable to hear himself and Dark Shadow cry.

Tokoyami didn’t even read the time on his phone, and didn’t even care that the lights were still on. He kept them on, he wasn’t going to give his shadow anything after what he’s done, and he wasn’t going to let himself have anything else after everything he had done too.

Not after what he did to you. Yet still your vision, your smile, your laughter haunted him in his dreams as he quietly cried himself to a fitful sleep.

The room might have been bright, but his heart had no light in it right now.

8 HOURS LATER…

You had no idea how long it had been since you asked for directions from that strange man a while back. All you knew is that you needed so badly to get out of here as you kept going, even though everywhere you went there was just trees…

Trees that looked… so familiar, and yet so eerie as you walked with your arms around yourself as your blood started to dry but some was still dripping down your skin.

“I gotta go home…”

A man with blades for teeth dressed in black had cackled…

“I gotta go home…”

A six-armed figure swooped in to catch you when you saw yourself fall…

“I gotta go home…”

A boy trapped in this storm of darkness cried out as he tried so hard to escape from it…

“I gotta go home now…”

The memories were so distant that they weren’t coming to you, you just repeated the mantra over and over again because it was all that made sense to you as you lost your sense of time and didn’t even notice that dawn had arrived and the fact that you were still the sea of forests and not out of the woods yet.

Your feet, your legs, your back, your stomach, your shoulder. How they ached with every step you took, and your stomach, was it still bleeding? It didn’t feel right, no it didn’t feel right at all as you gasped when you started to finally notice…

When did you get stabbed? When did those wounds appear? Where did you get them?

“No, no, no…”

You didn’t want to acknowledge how much pain you were in; you didn’t want to think about it and you didn’t want to see anything that was creeping into your mind as you brought your hands to your head and shook it.

And you gasped when you finally saw what looked like the end of this sea-like forest and quickly sped up with a desperate whine. As you looked at the trees and the arriving dawn lighting up the darkness, an image flashed into your brain, a memory of you flying in the air and you saw sharp blades piercing through the wind and a pair of big, bright, furious red eyes glaring right at you and roaring at you.

It was a monster…

Terrified, you tried desperately to fly away, but the dark, shadowy claw slashed at your back and clawed at your stomach as you let out a scream…

It hurt so much you could see the blood droplets flying into the air as your scarred back hit the back of a tree trunk as your body plummeted to the earthy ground.

Eyes widening in slight horror when such a horrific vision flashed before your eyes that you couldn’t even believe it. What was that monster? The trees, it was still in here wasn’t it? Oh my God it was a monster, it was a monster and this feeling of dread overwhelmed you so much that you couldn’t even think.

You were bleeding, the monster got you… it was in the shadows. The shadows were full of monsters and they were coming to get you, you knew it…

“AHHHHHHHH!!”

You let out a shriek as the shadows in the forest became too much for you to bear and you just ran despite your body and stinging wounds aching in protests. Adrenaline enabled you to ignore it all as you kept running, and your reddened (E/C) eyes widened when you saw more daylight leading you out of this hell. A loud gasp left you as you let out a deep exhale when you were finally out of the trees and could see a road…

There it was, the road! You nearly cried in between your screams as you ran up the steep hill and nearly tripped on your tired feet as soon as you felt the concrete. Eyes wide and looking around frantically for any place that would take you back home. This road would take you home… it had to.

So you kept walking, praying for anything, a car, someone, a hero to see you and just take you home.

Your prayers were answered when you saw a car and you didn’t hesitate to wave your hands around and screamed, “HELP ME! PLEASE!! PLEASE HELP ME!!”

The car was still driving until you moved a little closer and it forced the driver to stop as you hurriedly ran over to the side of it, “Let me in! Please! Please let me in I’m begging you!!” You cried and pleaded with the person to open their car to you and to your relief they opened the door as you quickly sat in the passenger’s seat.

“G-Go please… p-please drive away, please take me away from here…” You shakily said now that you were in a vehicle with a man who looked to be a young adult, 20 years old at best. And he was looking at you like you were crazy as he took off driving nonetheless.

Finally… finally you were going to escape from this nightmare and go back home… the monster couldn’t get you.

“T-Thank you�� you saved my life…” You meekly muttered to the driver, who barely even looked at you. “Well you didn’t really give me a choice, you just jumped out and got in the car.” He replied in a somewhat expressionless tone that didn’t imply any sort of kindness.

“I-I’m so sorry… I-I just… h-had to get away… I had to get away… H-He was… he was going to… H-He did…” The monster was male, you remembered that much. A man, there was a man with blades for teeth and the shadowy monster… he was a male too you swore he was.

“Oh yeah? Let me guess, it was your boyfriend? What did you do to him?”

Was this person serious? Why was he asking you this when you were the one bleeding and in pain here?

“I-I didn’t do anything…! H-He did this to me…! And this person was NOT my boyfriend…” You didn’t have a boyfriend, and whoever or whatever it was that did this to you was definitely NOT your boyfriend.

Still the man smirked and laughed at you, “That’s what they always say… I bet he treated you real nice and then you overreacted over something small, and made yourself the victim. Just cuz you’re all bloody don’t mean you’re the victim here. For all I know you hurt him just as badly, if not worse...”

You looked at him with an appalled look as your body continued to tremble from the immense discomfort that this man was putting you through, why was he blaming you? How was this your fault?

“I-I don’t… I-I did not… I-I’m not… c-can… can you p-please just… t-take me to the nearest town s-so I can-“

“Ha! Now you’re telling me what to do? I play the fucking hero for you and you’re trying to tell me what to do? God… Typical women… well not this time sweetheart, I’m not listening to a little bitch like you.” He said snidely with a weak smirk. Whoever this was, he had a serious hang-up on women and now he was taking whatever issues he had out on you.

You weren’t going to put up with this, “Please… s-stop the car… I-I can get out and you won’t have to-”

“Of course… all you women are such fucking cowardly bitches, weak and emotional... all of you just decide to run away when things get ‘uncomfortable’ and blame the men for that even though it’s your own fault. You wanted to try and do something and yet no, it’s not your fault, it’s the guy’s.” He still blamed you, he still felt like whatever happened to you was your fault and not the person who did this to you. It was so uncomfortable that you could feel the tears coming to your eyes, you didn’t want to be here… you’d rather be back on the road…

“Gonna cry now hon? Wow… you bitches really are all the same… you think crying is going to make me feel sorry for you?! I’m not falling for it! Go on! You can cry all you want and even jump out of my car if you want! Leave me like all my other girlfriends did!”

Was that it…? Oh my God… he was one of those guys… it was coming back to you slowly, this guy, he was one of those guys you had heard about on the internet…

“W-Why are you telling me all of this…? I-I didn’t do anything to you…”

“Yeah no that’s what you think. That’s what all you bitches do, I was nice to you. I did something nice for you, I did something nice for her, and now suddenly I’m the bad guy because I made you ‘uncomfortable’ and now she’s gone and now I’M the one getting arrested for ‘sexual harassment’. HA! Classic chick move… I deserve a little bit of that don’t I?! I was nice! I was chivalrous! I opened the door for you! And you go and treat me like this?! You think it’s okay to be nice to another guy and go out with him instead?!”

His screaming tirade terrified you and all you wanted to do was get out, until he grabbed your wrist, “Oh no no darling… I’m getting what I deserve, I was nice to you, so that means YOU do this for me!” He shouted as he let you go and then brought out a gun…

He had a gun…

“I’ll take you to the next town all right, so I can get what I deserve!” His glower turned into a dark, lustful smirk as you gasped in horror and you reached out to open the door. You would risk a serious injury just to get away from this vile man, you had to…

“You’re not leaving me too!” But he grabbed your wrist yet again, still holding the gun as his car began to swerve. “NO!!” You screamed when the car was now out of control, and when you saw him wave the gun right at you.

“I’m taking you with me…”

“NO!!” You didn’t even think, you threw your hand out to make him stop, and sent an involuntary beam of light right in his face as he screamed when the overwhelming brightness stung his eyes and he squeezed his eyes shut.

“AH!! ARRRGH!! You fucking bitch I’m gonna fucking kill you!!” The man shouted hatefully as he tried to grab the wheel to stop it, but didn’t drop the gun as he tried to shoot you but only succeeded in shooting at the glass.

“AHHHHHHHHH!!” Making you scream out loud in horror when the bullet nearly hit you, and the man’s eyes were still closed due to your blinding light.

How did you do that…?

You thought in horror as your eyes went wide when you recognized this power, your power…

In a split second everything suddenly flashed through your eyes. The man with the blades for teeth, Shouji, Tokoyami�� Dark Shadow…

You were flying away from him, you were trying to save Tokoyami, but Dark Shadow attacked you… and you fell… you fell down and hit a tree and woke up to forget everything that happened in that moment…

“Tokoyami…”

You found yourself saying his name which just pissed off the man when he cracked open an eye, “Already thinking about your boyfriend that you left?! OH NO GIRLY! I’ll kill you!! I’ll kill your stupid boyfriend if you can’t fucking choose! It’s either him… or me!” He screamed as you finally had enough sense to realize how unstable this person was.

“No!” You shouted and used your light against him to blind him once more and you swiped the gun out of his hands as he lost control of the wheel and you couldn’t stop yourself from screaming when you heard the car screeching and swerving into another row of trees…

CRASH!!

TO BE CONTINUED...

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althealuisa · 5 years ago

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Trust

BASED ON Doubt by @jinmukangwrites (this is the URL bc I don’t trust Tumblr yet) , one of my favourite authors that brightens my day, every day <3

Go read that first, it’s basically like part one. Please leave a kind comment <3 <3

Just as a disclaimer, I’m not native and I didn’t even check for typos more than once soooooooo... Expect to find a few here and there

I’m tired now and need to go to bed. i wrote this in class the last two days bc I was bored and actually came up with this Idea while not being able to sleep after reading Doubt. Oh well.

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Twilight stood and stretched his hand out to Wild. “Let’s go back. The others are worried.” For a second, Wilds panicked mind told him to run. He didn’t want to go back to the others. He didn’t want to talk to them. He wasn’t ready to tell them yet. He never was ready to begin with.

They wouldn’t want to know anyway.

He grabbed Twis Hand and stood up. “You know that we need to tell them, right?” Twilights voice was wary, as if he was afraid to break something. Wild nodded. Twilight frowned. “I mean now. Like, I mean right now. They will want to know. And, I’m sorry, but they deserve to know” Wild stared at the ground, rolling the words around in his head. “Okay” He hated how sore and tired his voice was.

Twilight turned around and started slowly walking back towards camp, not noticing how Wilds back straightened, how his breathing evened into an forcefully slow and pressed rhythm, how the torment on his face faded into an emotionless mask. This wasn’t the first time he did this, and he guessed it wouldn’t be the last. He followed his predecessor, his steps too stiff and even, his movements too controlled.

Look at you. Do you think they won’t see right through you? This is ridiculous.

They won’t. He caught up to Twilight, walking just a few steps behind him. They moved in silence, the conversation they were to have looming over them. They could hear the others arguing from far away. “I just want to search for them, come on!”, “You can’t just waltz of on your own. Twilight can handle this.” Obviously, Twilight had been right. Wind didn’t seem too happy with just waiting for their return. Although Time seemed more than calm, Wild could hear the slight worry in his voice.

Twilight stepped into the small clearing and all the Links fell silent. “Did you find him?” Time asked concerned. Twilight nodded and continued to walk forwards without a word. His expression had changed into an almost angry stare. He sat down at the fire place and said nothing as Wild stepped out of the woods. “Wild! Are you alright?” Wind shouted, bolting forwards and throwing his arms around Wilds waist, breaking the upright posture he had remained in. Wild froze in place, not moving at all.

Wind let go of him after a few seconds and studied his face worriedly. “Come”, he said, dragging him towards the fire. He obeyed and sat down next to Twilight. The others followed them. The short, uncomfortable silence that fell was broken by Time. “What is going on Wild, what happened?” His voice was sturdy and calm, his features relaxed. Wild didn’t dare to answer. He knew his voice would fail him and he certainly didn’t want to break into tears in front of the others again. None of them noticed how he straightened his back again and raised his chin, but they all recognised how he lifted his hands.

It’s about the TriForce. He signed. Only Time spoke sign apart from him, so he sighed silently and began translating for him. “It is about the TriForce… He doesn’t have it”. He frowned at the last word as Wild lowered his Hands. A silence fell over the group. Wind shifted uncomfortably. “So?” asked Twilight. “What does it matter?”

“Well, it’s a sign Twilight. We all have the TriForce, we know that we are the Hero of our times because the gods gave it to us. How would we…” Warriors stopped himself seeing the look on Wilds Face. The Facade he had kept up had broken quickly. His features were twisted in pain and his eyes now stood out to them as red and puffy. He lifted his hands again.

“That’s not true” Time answered angrily to Wilds movements, but Wild shook his head and continued. “Time what is he saying?” Asked Hyrule worriedly. Time took a deep breath and began to translate Wilds signs. “He is right. It’s not only the TriForce, there is much more like that. I don’t belong with you, which is not true.” anger was shining in Times eyes as he said the last words. Warriors paled. “Wild, no. That’s not what I meant. You are as much of a hero as everyone of us.” Most of the others either nodded or hummed in agreement. Wild shook his head again. Tears were leaking out from his eyes as he signed. You don’t understand.

Look at you. They are lying to you again, trying to get your hopes up. They always have to care for you.

Time repeated him again and Twilight suddenly stood up, his face twisted in anger and sadness.

All because of you.

“How could you even believe for one second that you are not like us?”

Because you aren’t. You failed. So many dead people.

He spoke, his voice crumbling as he formed the words: “Because I am nothing like you.”

You are a failure.

“Why would you think that?” Hyrule asked, his voice soft and understanding. Suddenly Wild just wanted to get away. Panic flooded every inch in his body, his Head screaming at him to run away, to leave the others and to stop bothering them, to leave them behind for their own good and go back to doing what he did before he was a burden to everyone around him.

So, you want to be dead? Because every second of you being alive was a burden to someone, a problem in their way. How old where you when you pulled the sword? When your mother was killed because of you?

The image suddenly flashed through his mind, and before he knew it, he was sucked into the memory.

The World was different. Brighter. So colourful. Every little creature strolling by or floating through the air brought joy to his little heart. His father was walking in front of him, a bright smile adorning his features, surrounded by a few more men, all clad in armour bearing the royal crest like him. “Come on my boy! It’s not much further!”

He was right. Only a few minutes later they stood in front of a dense forest. Although he was little, he noticed the uneasiness with which the guards were looking at the fog wavering through the trees.

“The princess and the king are going to be here soon. So, do as I taught you son!” He smiled at him proudly as Link stiffened his back and brought his feet parallel together. They stood to the side as Princess Zelda, barely 6 years old, arrived. Her face seemed too serious, her eyes just too old for her age as though she had seen more than even she herself could comprehend.

Her father walked right behind her, his face more relaxed and happier than you would expect him to be. “Let us begin. As I promised, your Son is allowed to come with us Soren.” The King said and nodded to Links father. The knight nodded and stepped into the fog, tightly holding his sons Hand. “Stay close to me Link.” He drew his sword and walked onwards in a seemingly illogical pattern. The Princess, the King and the knights followed them close behind.

When slowly there appeared, what seemed to be an entrance into a brighter part of the forest, Link had the strange sensation, that it could have been a mistake to follow his father to this place. They stepped through a huge hollow tree trunk and suddenly stood in a brightly lit area. “We have arrived, Sir” Links father said and stood to the side. The Royals walked past them and took the lead further into the forest.

Zelda stopped in front of a big stone pedestal. She looked up at a massive tree right in front of her. “Great Deku tree. Hear our prayers.” Even her voice sounded mature for her age. “We have heard of a prophecy that has told of the return of the great evil, Ganon himself. We seek your advice in this time of need as the gods have proven themselves deaf to our pleas.” She fell silent. A dark chuckle filled the air. “Princess, you have come here without knowing that you have searched in vain.” The Kings shoulders dropped.

“Because what you need has been with you the whole time. As the ancient legend tells, a legendary hero, wielding the sword of evils bane that I have been guarding over the past millenium , and a sacred princess, with the blood of the goddesses have sealed the evil away in the past. You, my dear bear the blood of the goddesses. And the legendary hero is right here with us.” The trees voice sounded almost sad, like he didn’t like what was going on. Links father suddenly paled. He grabbed Links shoulder so strongly, that his knuckles turned white.

“What do you mean?” The king demanded, his voice echoing though the empty forest. “The young boy behind you, he has been chosen by the goddesses. As you know, only the chosen hero himself could pull the sword from its pedestal. Let him try it.” Shocked silence had fallen over the group. The King and his daughter spun around and stared at Link. He was hiding behind his father, panic in his eyes. He didn’t understand all of it, but enough to know that whatever was happening wasn’t good.

“Link.” The King said, his voice sounding almost sorry. “Do as the tree said.” Link didn’t move. “Soren, step away. I am sorry, but if the tree is right…” His father swallowed and stepped aside. Link stared at him, his eyes big and scared. “Do as the king said Link. Like I taught you. Be a good boy…” Soren didn’t look at him as he said those words. Link turned and walked past the King and the princess. Panic was brooding in his stomach.

He could see the sword, its blade buried in the ancient stone. “Pull at it, boy. And don’t let go, whatever happens.” The tree boomed. Link grabbed the hilt, his teeth clenched. He pulled at the handle and suddenly pain fired through his body. He screamed, but he kept pulling, thinking that he might die if he wouldn’t.

He pulled and shouted and screamed, his father screaming something behind him. But Link knew that the tree had been right. Light was erupting from the pedestal and the blade was coming lose. Suddenly, with a loud sound it slipped out of the pedestal. The light died down and the princess shouted something seemingly surprised.

Link sank to his knees, his body shaking and his hands firmly grabbing the hilt of the sword in his hands. He heard faint steps behind him. “Link?” His father asked scared. “He is the chosen hero, Hylian.” The tree said thoughtfully. “I reckon that you will take such actions as to prepare the boy for what is to come. You have loads to do” He continued, directing his words at the King.

Suddenly the scenery changed. Link stood in front of a big door, listening to the argument going on behind it. “He is only five sir! You can not ask something like this of a boy this young! He can barely lift the sword by himself, how is he to already train with it?” He heard his father shout, his voice exhausted but determined. “Soren, this is nothing we can debate about. I can not change his destiny as the gods have chosen him. He will begin his training soon. Travel home and let him say goodbye. He will not return for long. That is an order.”

The scene changed again and Link and his father were approaching the door of their home. His father stopped and looked at his son for a second. “Whatever your sister and Mum say, It doesn’t matter.” He kneeled down. “It is not your fault my son. I know you think that I am sad because of you, but I couldn’t be. I love you boy.” He hugged Link for a second, then stood up. Without another word, he knocked at the door. Nothing was to be heard from inside the house. His father opened the door and stopped the second he entered.

He sank to his knees right behind the doorframe. “What’s going on Father?” Link asked worriedly. As he received no answer, he squeezed himself through the gap between his father and the door frame and then turned. He froze in place. His mothers corpse lay on the floor, a big bloody wound in her chest. His father suddenly jumped to his feet. “Stay back Link.” He snarled without looking at him.

He pulled his sword and walked further into the house. Suddenly, a loud cry sounded and the clanging of metal. Another cry followed and another, suddenly 4 people appearing seemingly out of nowhere. One of them was fighting his father, while the others approached him. They were laughing with glee and raising their strangely curved swords, ready to strike him down. He backed away, his way to the door cut off.

But he didn’t need to worry.

Before they could even touch him, they were dead, his father standing above them panting. “Yiga…” he whispered, his voice hoarse. “How could we forget…” suddenly a small cry was to be heard. His father rushed forward and opened the closet. A brown shadow jumped out and threw its small arms around Link’s father. “Daddy!” the little girl cried, tears streaming down her face. The man kneeled down, hugging her close and trying to comfort her. Link watched from afar, the pained expression on his fathers and sisters faces seemed to clench his heart together.

“I think he’s waking up guys! Wild!” someone shouted as Wild snapped out of his memory. His muscles collapsed beneath him and he tumbled to the ground. Shouting surrounded him that blurred into a confusing mess as he turned to his side and threw up into the grass. His body was trembling, his vision obscured by his tears, his throat seemed to be on fire. He choked as his body was held by two hands, helping him to stay more or less upright. The images of his newly acquired memory were flashing through his mind, confusing him and making his head feel like it exploded. He felt sick, seeing the images of the corpses, but most dominantly guilt seemed to have stuffed his throat.

“Wild calm down!” Twilight shouted, bringing him suddenly back to reality. They helped him sit back up against a tree and tried to hand him a bottle of water. He waved them away as his stuttering breathing started to calm. But the shivering that was rocking his body back and forth only continued on stronger. Time and Twilight had each grabbed one of his shoulders and were holding him tightly. But their firm grip only reminded him of his fathers hand, digging into his back. He choked again, coughing on and on while tears ran down his face. After a few minutes he calmed, his breathing levelling out at least a little bit. “Wild, are you alright?” Time asked seriously. “Yes” Wild choked, His voice hoarse and weak. “You saw one of your memories, didn’t you?” Time asked cautiously, loosening his grip a bit. Wild just nodded in response. “One you knew? Or a new one?“, „A new one”, he answered quietly, his voice barely above a whisper. He could see that the others knew that it couldn’t have been a very pleasant memory. They all looked like they pitied him.

There you go. You finally did it. You managed that they care about you enough to feel sorry for you. And what good did it do?

He lifted his hands and clutched them at his head. The dizziness was confusing him and clouding his mind. “That’s not true”, he whispered quietly. “What do you mean?” asked Hyrule confused. Wild froze. A shadow seemed to go over Times Face. “Wild who were you talking to?” His voice was more than concerned, but he also sounded somehow angry.

“Nobody”, Wild answered carefully, almost scared. Time crouched down, so that he looked into Wilds Face, just a few inches away. “Listen, Wild. You need to let it go. It doesn’t matter how true it sounds, It’s not. Forget it and tell us. Talk to us. We miss you, the way you were before you thought all that nonsense. You are not a burden, you are our friend.” The others looked at Time surprised, but Wild took his hands away from his face and stared at Time, his eyes widened in shock.

“How do you know?” He asked quietly, tears still running down his face. “I knew someone” Time said, looking at him with sadness written all over his features. Wild bit his lip, staring at the ground.

You aren’t strong enough to do this. You are more than just weak. Just give up and let them go.

No, he thought, suddenly determined. They believe in me. I don’t need to protect them. Sometimes… it’s okay to need someone.

“I’m not like you because I failed. I let everyone down. So many people died because of me” he said silently, trying his hardest to keep his voice steady.

What do you expect them to do? To tell you that no one died?

“You didn’t let them down Wild”, Legend said carefully. “You gave your life for them. You did all you could and more. How could anyone tell you that you failed?”

Lies. All lies.

“Sometimes all you have isn’t enough Legend”, he whispered sadly. “So what?” asked Twilight irritated. “After all your torment, after you gave your life, after you saved the kingdom all on your own, without any help, how would anyone still even dare to question what you did? I mean, it was practically the embodiment of heroism if you ask me” Twilight huffed annoyed.

Don’t believe their lies, they are trying to blind you.

“There are so many differences between all of you and me. Different people and villages, even languages in my time. Heck, even the monsters are different!” Wild shouted frustrated throwing his arms around in the air. “We are all different, that’s just the way it is”, said Time slowly.

Distractions. Empty promises. Empty words. Don’t listen to them.

“I think”, Sky started nervously, “That we all feel guilty at some point or another. That we could have stopped the evil earlier. Saved more lives. But the truth is, we couldn’t have. All of us did our best. And although we just don’t seem to understand that, it’s the truth”, he smiled.

NONSENSE!

“I… I think you are right”, Wild slowly nodded. “I’m sorry guys. For all the drama.” He looked down.

THIS WON’T FIX IT!

“Don’t be. We all need that kind of episode sometimes”, Four shrugged. He smiled. “Must be a part of the spirit of courage. You will be very brave but also immensely dramatic when you feel bad. Too bad for you.” The heroes laughed and even Wild managed a smile, a real, genuine smile.

THEY ARE right. I should trust them more.

He felt like a big stone had suddenly been removed from his head. He breathed in slowly.

“I just don’t want to annoy you”, Wild said carefully, but still happily. Time put a hand on his shoulder.

“You couldn’t. We are family, Wild.”

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glitterdreamsz · 6 years ago

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Scandalous (part 5)

Roger Taylor x reader

Summary: Reader is an emerging actress who met Roger at one of his concerts. They immediately clicked and now they have been in a relationship for almost a year. There’s only one big problem: the reader isn’t the only woman in Roger’s life. In fact, he is married and has a child. That makes them keep their relationship a secret to the world. In the series I imagined Roger to be 32 years old while the reader would be 27.

A/N: FINALLY I WAS ABLE TO POST IT! I am really sorry for making you wait soooooooo long but my shitty life got in the way. I hope you enjoy this chapter and don’t be afraid to let me know what you think about it.

English isn’t my first language so I’m sorry for any mistake.

Have a nice day xx

Warnings: grammar errors, ANGST

Words: 2,8k+

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Hey, you there Can we take it to the next level, baby, do you dare? Don't be scared 'Cause if you can say the words, I don't know why I should care

'Cause here I am, I'm givin' all I can But all you ever do is mess it up Yeah, I'm right here, I'm tryin' to make it clear That getting half of you just ain't enough

I'm not going to wait until you're done Pretending you don't need anyone I'm standing here naked

Hey, get out I've got nothin' left to give for you give me nothin' now Read my mouth If you ever want me back, then your walls need breakin' down (x)

“Hi Dominique” You held your breath as you heard those words leaving Roger’s mouth. “Yeah, I saw the article.” He kept talking running his hand through his hair. “Dominique, it...it doesn’t” he sighed as he stopped talking “I… I don’t want to have this conversation through the phone.” Roger bit his bottom lip and listened to what his wife had to say. “Yes, I’ll be at the hotel the whole day, I’ll buy you the first flight so you can come here… no, she’s not here.” At that moment you had to hold your tears, with all those evidence he still was able to lie. When he put the phone down you could swear he broke it “Things shouldn’t have turned out this fucking way.”

“Rog.” You sighed as you sat up covering your naked body with the bed sheet. “What did you expected that would have happened after yesterday? You could have imagined that there would have been someone seeing us outside. We… we knew that sooner or later something like that would have happened.” “Oh, don’t start giving me a moral” he said pissed as he got up from the bed and collected his clothes from the floor. “Rog.” You almost whispered, still covering your body you moved on the bed to get closer to him and got on your knees. “Stop it, you just can’t understand how it feels. Okay?” He turned around looking at you. “I don’t know how it feels?” Your voice suddenly raised up, in a matter of seconds your body was full of anger. Was he really playing the victim in all that? Did he really say that you couldn’t understand his situation when all those time you stood with him and reassured him whenever he had a fight with his wife? “You don’t understand.” You almost screamed pointing at him. “You don’t fucking understand what it means to be the other woman. You don’t fucking understand what it means to be at home alone and wait for you to show up and being able to have you just for a few hours, you don’t know what it means to feel empty any time you leave my apartment to go to your family. You don’t know how it feels to be the woman you’re cheating your wife on, you don’t know what it means to watch you with your child and feel your heart break because you know you are a home wrecker.” You could feel tears filling your eyes and you had to bite your lower lip because you didn’t want to show him how vulnerable that whole situation made you. “And you know what’s that one thing that you really don’t understand?” bitterness filled your voice as your gaze didn’t move away from his figures that was now speechless because of your words. “You don’t understand what it means to be in love with a man that is not your and maybe never will because he is always too afraid to make a decision.” “I just don’t want to hurt the people I love the most!” this time also his voice raised, he looked at you as he couldn’t get why you couldn’t understand his behaviour and his decisions. “Don’t you get it Roger?” you sighed “You are already hurting everyone, you’re hurting your wife by lying to her, you’re hurting me by letting me down and you are hurting yourself. It’s inevitable that once you will make a decision someone will suffer but with time it will get better. If you instead keep all this going on with time everything will only get worse.” “You are not in my position (Y/N)” You sniggered as you got up from the bed “Which position?” You asked picking up your underwear as you began to get dressed “The one where you have two women for yourself and you keep going back and forth from one to the other depending on your mood?” “Why all of a sudden did you become such a bitch?” “Because I can’t take it anymore Roger” you said in exasperation “This whole situation, what happened yesterday, the article, everything is becoming too much” “(Y/N)” Roger’s tone became softer as his hands gripped gently around your wrist, before he could say anything you anticipated him “I just need to stay alone now.” You said looking at him “I’ll be in Freddie’s room, call me when you’ve made up your mind.” And with that you left his room.

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“Come on, spit it out” Freddie said as you sat on his bed, he joined you making your legs touch for how close he was. He always stated that talking about your problems with Roger would have helped you but you had a completely different opinion. “There’s not too much to say” “There are photos of you two all over each other in all the first pages of tabloids, how can you think that there is not too much to say?” “Freddie, it’s always the same situation, only that this time everyone fucking knows about it.” Bitterness came back to your body but you didn’t mean to be so bitter to Freddie, after all, he was only trying to be your friend and help you. “Sorry, I didn’t want to sound so bitchy.” You mumbled. “As if you’ve never been, you always are butchy” he joked chuckling “You know what you need now?” He got up from the bed quickly while clapping his hands “Drinks!” “How come that whenever I’m with you alcohol is always the answer to any of my problems?” “Because darling, alcohol can be more helpful that you can even imagine” he replied as if that was the most obvious thing. “I don’t want to be social Freddie” you groaned laying your back on the bed. “Come on, do be such a bore! Get your ass up and let’s go downstairs” he grabbed both of your hands and pulled you up from the bed earning an annoying sound from you. “And moreover, who ever talked about being social? It will just be you, me and a lot of wine bottles.” As you got downstairs to the hotel bar you were surprised to find out that no one was there, it was empty, just you and Freddie. Well, most probably it was because it still was morning and who is so weird to get cocktail at that time? But as hours started to pass and Freddie kept talking about his next ideas for the band new music and videos, more people started to walk inside the bar. You could feel their eyes on you, you could hear them chatting, and you knew they were talking about you and you knew it wasn’t anything good. You were the bad girl, you were the one who goes around stealing other women’s husbands. “Freddie, I think I’ll go back to the room” you said getting up from the stool. “What, already?” he frowned and you nodded “I don’t feel comfortable here.” And this time he didn’t insist, he knew what it felt to be the centre of the attention and having people talking and gossiping about you. “Bri and Deaky are outside by the pool, I think I will join them.” You nodded and after thanking him for spending his time with you, you directed yourself to the elevators. You pressed the button and tapped your foot on the ground, it was so slow. As you were waiting you could feel the presence of someone standing next to you, you looked with the corner of your eye and suddenly your heart stopped and you forgot how to breathe, Dominique was right there. You didn’t dare to turn and look at her and as the elevator doors opened, you quickly stepped inside and stood on the corner of the elevator. She didn’t look at you either and once she got in she turned around, her back facing you and she didn’t talk until the lift doors closed. “Do you think I didn’t know it?” she asked still not looking at you. Your mouth was dry and no words went out of your mouths, it was like you forgot how to speak. “I knew it since the beginning. At first, I thought it was some kind of one-night stand affair, that he would have seen you at most three times and then left you just like all the other groupies. But then his shirt always had the same perfume, he said that he had to stay at the studio till late at night. It wasn’t something after a concert. Then he started to come back late in the mornings, he never used to. You’re the only one of his lovers who were able to attract him in this way.” Dominique sighed as a sad half-smile formed on her lips. “What did he promised you? That soon it will only be the two of you?” This time she turned around to face you but your eyes were stuck on the moquette, she didn’t need an answer, she already knew. “Though, there’s one thing that he does with any of his mistresses. He always comes back to his family, at the end of the day he will always walk through our house door and stay with me and his son. That will never change.” The ding of the elevator interrupted her and as the doors opened you could see her walk towards the door of Roger’s room.

*** You laid in the bed, wondering what they were saying. You knew the topic of course but were they screaming? Was he apologising? Was he breaking up with her? Or was he about to break up with you? The room was filled with awful silence which only drove you mad. Now it was late night and Freddie didn’t come back you knew he rented another room for himself because he knew you needed to be left alone. That’s when the phone rang but you didn’t bother to answer, it was meant to be for Freddie and you didn’t want to talk with anyone. After minutes that it kept ringing, you picked it up as the ring was annoying you too much. “Freddie isn’t here at the moment” you were about to hang up when the voice through the receiver stopped you. “(Y/N), it’s me, Roger… she’s gone back home. Please come back to our room.” “How come she’s already gone?” you asked, was it because he broke up with her? “She had to go back to our son.” “Okay” You almost whispered, that wasn’t the reply part of you was hoping for. Other hours passed before you got up from Freddie’s bed and walked to Roger’s door. You didn’t expect him to be still awake but as soon as you knocked he opened the door. “Thank God, you know what you have been putting me through?” he said relieved to see you. He hugged you, holding you close to his body as he hid his face on the crook of your neck and you couldn’t hold your fingers which ran through his hair. “I’m sorry, I… I didn’t-” “Before you say anything I want to apologize” he broke your hug to look at you in the eyes. “I was an asshole this morning and I didn’t mean those things.” You could read in his eyes that he was saying the truth. “Listen, I talked with Dominique, it’s all fine… nothing will change between us, between me and you.” “Rog” you had to fight with all your strengths to hold the tears in your eyes. “I can’t go back to how things were.” “What do you mean?” Roger frowned looking at you. “I can’t do this anymore. I’m tired Roger, I’m tired of hiding, I’m tired of pretending, I’m tired of hoping that one day I will be yours.” “You can’t leave me” His blue eyes now were starting to get filled with tears and you had to bit your lip. “Rog. It’s not fair to me nor to your wife. I can’t wait my entire life for you to take a decision so I made it for you. You need to stay with your family.” And as you said that tears started to fall down your cheeks. It hurt like hell saying those words, you could feel your heart breaking, but you knew it was the right thing to do for both of you. “I can give you all those things, I can give you a family, I can be only yours.” He said through all the tears “No, you can’t, not until you make up your mind.” “You promised me, you promised me you would always be mine.” “And I will. I will always be yours, my heart will always be yours” “Then don’t leave me” he sobbed, you never saw him that vulnerable as he held your hands tight to his ones. “Please don’t go away from me.” “I can’t stay” “Please” He looked at you, his eyes were red from all the crying. “Time wasn’t kind with us.” You said as you wiped away the tears from his cheek. “Maybe in another life, you will be only mine.” “But I need you in this life.” He looked like a child, melting in your touch as he couldn’t stop crying and finding the strength to walk out from his door was the hardest thing to do, but you had to. “I love you Rog, and I promise I always will.” You kissed him, with all the love you had for him and you could feel the same love in return, he was kissing you with the same passion, he was kissing you like you were the person he loved most, and right there, before he could hold you close, you found the strength you were looking for and walked out of his door, out of his life.

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moonchild93liner · 6 years ago

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Kiss and Make Up (Hoshi - smut)

Soooooooo hey, long time no see, I’ve been with this in my head for the past days and there’s a second chapter so wait for it... It’s pretty late for me and I will fix this put on the masterlist etc later ok, ok.

You’re basically friends that once in a while end up kissing each other at parties but don’t exactly stay together after that.

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He was a friend of a friend and we'd only see each other at parties from our common friends, we hooked up at the clubs and after that we'd always fight because of something, it was like our personality didn't match outside parties but he knew the effect he had on other people, damn even boys would check him up from time to time, he was a real tease and DAMN he got some dance moves. I've never really seen him with other girls or guys before, my friends also would never talk about him being with someone else to be honest and at the parties he would only stay close to his friends too busy enjoyng the music.

The last two parties I stayed home, I was so sick of this stupid game, I mean, if we are meant to be we ARE meant to be, it's not a little fight that would tear us apart, after every fight he would come saying sorry because he felt really bad and wanted to be friends again, fuck.

- Y/N, c'mon, it will be nice, I promise you, no boys, just us. - My friend was sitting on my couch begging me to go to another party with her because she really wanted to go out and had nobody to go with her.

- I know Soonyoung will be there, no way. - Yep, it was another friend in common and he's so predictable.

- No, I mean, yes he will be there but c'moooonnnnnn, we'll stay together until the end, pretty pretty please? - She was one of the best friends I had and she knew I would do almost everything for her.

- (...) K. - And I rolled my eyes.

- YES! You won't regret it!- She hugged me tight.

- Now go, we only got a couple of hours to get ready, I need to shave my legs.

She left my house and oh well, I started to get ready to this oh so awesome party that I was surely not looking forward to it and I will not but I'm sure I will regret it, the things we do for friends.

I took a shower, picked some nice and tight jeans so that I wouldn't have to shave (first world problems) since I wasn't planning on leaving the party accompanied and a loose tshirt, some snickers and that's it. Put my makeup and waited for my friend to get ready. While waiting as I was checking my instagram I saw Soonyoung's stories, he was indeed going to the same party and hell he looked good, he had this squishy cheeks with the most adorable smile but also the most piercing eyes and when he decided to do some makeup it would get 10 times worse, it was almost irresistible.

My friend called me and after hanging up I took a deep breath and stood up to get going. She was all way more dressed up as me, we stopped by the convenience store to get some drinks and after we were a little more loose we headed to the dance club. It was pretty late so he was already there for sure, it was just a matter of time before we bumped into each other.

- Let's grab our free drink and find a nice spot. - I anticipated and pulled her with me.

After two more drinks, as my friend couldn't take hers we were ready to party. I myself am strong when it comes to drinking, I couldn't say the same about my friend but since I wasn't planning to leave with anyone I would might as well take care of her tonight.

We started to dance and from the other side of the room I thought I saw a pair of familiar eyes but it could be just my imagination, as the drink reached my head I started to dance and my mind went off, I didn't care about my surroundings, my friend was long gone wasted dancing with her own thoughts but every once in a while I would check up on her.

All I Wanna Do by Jay Park started to play and that was my jam, I rocked my whole body to the beat with closed eyes, I know my moves are not the best but fuck it, I just wanted to enjoy myself. By the chorus I felt a body approaching me from behind and rocking with me I knew well whom those curves were from but kept my eyes closed because that wasn't important at the moment.

His torso found my back and after some moments his hand found my waist, I was so lost in the song I didn't notice that unconsciously I moved a step back and now our bodies were almost glued together.

- Nice moves... - He whispered in my ear but I pretended not to listen, the trance I was in slowly fading and my surroundings starting to come to life again.

- I've missed you... - He tried again and this time I turned to face him, his hair was still dry, sign that he didn't dance this much since he arrived. I kept staring at him waiting for what he got to say.

- Where were you? - He (dared to) ask.

- Doing my stuff, you know, working, studying, trying not be fooled again. - I put some intonation on the last workds and he seemed to get the point.

He fit his head in the crook of my neck and kept it there as the song went on.

- You know I would never do that to you... - He started to slowly push me to the closest wall and proceeded to pin me against it, I just stared at him.

- C'mon, you are never like this, why give me such a hard time today? - He licked his lips and looked at mine.

- Buy me a drink and I will think about it - I lifted one of my eyebrows and looked at him from top to bottom.

He took my hand and guided me to the bar, ordered our drinks and took a sit on the only chair available but after realizing it he was about to get up and give his seat to me but I stopped him putting my hand on his shoulder, he looked at me questioning it and I sit on his lap, he tilted his head so confused, it was cute, I smiled passing my fingers through his hair, it was starting to get wet.

- You look cute. - I simply stated, he was wearing almost the same clothes, just different color of tshirt.

- Don't even need to say the same to you. - He answered embracing my waist with his arm, drawing circles with his thumb on top of my shirt, I started to drink in silence waiting for him to give me a good reason to spend the night with him.

- Baby, listen, I know I say this a lot but I truly am sorry, you see, I didn't even drink today, I just came because my friend really asked me to, if it was for me I would've stayed home now I'm happy that I came because I got the chance to talk to you, you don't answer my texts anymore, you have all the reasons to be mad but let's just enjoy the night, I know how tired you are of all of this, believe me, so am I, what do you say? I won't hurt you tonight, huh? - He told looking at me as I tried to focus on not looking back because I know that would be my weak point but when he asked he pulled my chin whith his fingers so I could finally look back.

- If only that would be true... - I finished my drink, got up, grabbed his hand and pulled him back to the dance floor, what I didn't see was him giving his drink back to the bartender and following me with the dumbest smile.

Another song was playing, when we found the spot we were previously my friend looked at me questioning what she was seeing and I just bounced my shoulders unamused.

He stood behind me again, again with a hand on my waist, he had this habit when we were together, he would always find a way to be touching me, we were daincing and as the hours passed by the songs grew heavier, he was now with his hand on my tigh, something he never did before.

- Very tipsy for someone who didn't want to come. - I said low enough just for him to listen.

- You didn't see but I gave my drink back just like I got it. I'm not even close to drunk. - And for some reason that gave me chills, we were always a little tipsy when we hooked up so our actions, the ones we remember and were not a blur, were always justified by the alcohol but seeing him like this demonstrating a certain desire sober was something definetly new. If I was sober I wouldn't come close to him in first place because sober he is way out of my league, I'm not that bad but also I'm not the most pretty girl in the club and that's exactly he could get with his looks, sober or not.

He squeezed me tigh and I turned to face him, both his hands on my waist now, a clear blush on top of my cheeks and he smiled, that damn smile.

- What about you? Some extra make up or just blushed because of me? - He put my hair behind my ear and I looked down, stupid Kwonie.

- Ah, look at you, the most cute girl in the club. - He pulled my chin again.

- You know I'm not, and you know how I feel about that... - He knew about my insecurities because one night I got so drunk he ended up comforting me on the curb while I had a mental breakdown because another girl WAY PRETTIER than me tried to hit on him.

- Yes, I'm pretty aware of that but let me show you how do I feel about that. - He turned me again so he was facing my back again and hugged me by the waist with both arms tugging me even closer, he rested his face on my neck and peppered slow kisses, his lips were warm. My hands found their way to hold his and as the next song came on he kept the same position, sniffing behind my ear because he knew that was one of the places I used to put my perfume.

- Still using the same perfume that drives me crazy - I could hear the smirk on his mouth, right after that I couldn't stop the same one on my face as well.

- Really? - It was just a confirmation because to be honest I didn't know what to do and my body was a whole mess.

- Do you even ask? Feel for yourself... - He then pulled me a little tighter and my eyes popped when I felt an extra excitement coming from behind me between his legs.

- ... You underestimate yourself, everytime we're together this happens but I've never been this close to show you. - He whispered right into my year being very careful to not let anyone else hear.

I cursed under my breath and he chuckled darkly.

- Y/N CLAIRE JUST CALLED ME, NICK IS IN TROUBLE AGAIN, LET'S GO! - DAMN, my friend wildly appeared looking totally sober grabbing my hand and darting away, I was so caught by surprised that I just had time to look at Soonyoung and mumble sorry but it was time enough to see him rolling his eyes and say before he turned around and disappeared.

- Fuck this shit, I'm outta here. - That son of a bitch, so it's just a matter of getting laid?

The gif is not mine, it also don’t exactly match the story, it was just because I had to find some Soonyoung with a badass face and some makeup on.

#hoshi smut #hoshi angst #seventeen smut #hoshi au #seventeen au #seventeen angst #hoshi fanfic #seventeen fanfic #kwon soonyoung au #kwon soonyoung smut #kwon soonyoung angst #soonyoung angs #soonyoung smut #kwon soonyoung fanfic #soonyoung au #soonyoung fanfic

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simplerthingslikewatchinglt · 5 years ago

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Chapter twelve

Laurent's P.O.V

I invited her back to my hotel to converse. My broth'a (brother) and I don't have many NY friends and I think Kiera would be perfect female companion to just chill around. Even though our name is starting to blow Kiki doesn't treat me like a "fan to a star" would. She's ..... gloomy, depressed and has a back story to her . Maybe I'm noisy or perhaps curious of her, I don't know but to me she came out of no where . Literally falling into our lives, literally. She is different and that was revealed by Larry when he looked in her phone checking out her pictures. And all she had was pictures of paintings, landscapes of buildings, no selfies. A lot of pictures of the weather too, like snow fall or rain.

Larry doesn't seem to care for her as much, he already moved on with his life seeing Kiki as now a memory. Which makes sense to see that way, but not to me , I saved her. Lil bro was her "knight in shinning armor" but I was her savior, the true hero. Saving her from that dude not to mention I bought her everything she picked up in Victoria's Secret . From perfume to panties what ever she picked up I threw in the shopping bag , which reminds me -

"Kiki..." leaving my own thoughts to direct my voice to Kiera who's face was so focused on the game in front of her , i called out to her once more.

"Kiki...." and this time her face risen which this time read " gloom" and I immediately wondered why.

"What's wrong ?" I questioned her .

"I'm ... winning" she responded and with her answer my eyes left from looking at her face to looking at the game, at first I wondered how she was winning. I wanted to win and her to lose so I can tease her to see where she would kiss me , maybe somewhere innocent like the cheek or forehead? Or maybe she is really that bold and go for the lips. I decided to tease her. " Awee ... are you scared of a kiss ?" In response she flew her head back in a sulking manner like a child would, revealing her bare neck. This is the most dramatic I seen her since meeting her and surely would like to see her more dramatic. Quickly my eyes scanned over her neck to her collar bone stopping at the top of her torso which her cleavage were somewhat shown to me . 'I know where to kiss her'

My thoughts raced, not pervesley but I was now in a rush to end the game .

" ugh" the word blurting from her mouth, understanding she was frustrated a bit because she probably wanted to win.

"Okai you won Kiki, no need to worry . I can kiss you now ...." with my answer and her facial expression she came off as unsure , so I spoke again, " not on lips or whatever.." rolling my eyes I noticed she loosened her facial expression. 'So guarded' she's so guarded, again I was curious but this time I was curious on how she would react to where I would kiss her since she didn't want it on the lips.... or "whatever".

I pushed aside the cards to the other side of the bed even removing the cards that were still in Kiera's hand adding it to the pile . I edged closer to Kiera, In honest truth I didn't care if she was nervous or not because I wanted to get a reaction out of her either way. To tease her some more.

"You ready ?" I met eyes with her, they were telling me she was . There was a small gap in between us now , I reached out to her,placing my right hand gently on the left side of her cheek. I could smell how she really smelled from this distance, it would be described as cheap perfume and cigarettes but I continued with my mission.

" levez la tête" ( lift your head) I demanded from her.

"What did you say ?... I don't understand French"

"I know" I chuckled some , her face still read confusion .

" No .. what did you just say ?"

"To lift - " I paused my sentence long enough to motion her head upwards with my hands which there I continued " you head" . I wanted a good reaction from her with every move I made but she kept her head lifted . 'So obedient' I was smirking when I leaned forward towards her , glancing at her face one last time before I planted my "kiss" on the space between her neck and shoulder, just above her collarbone . I kissed her there, it was more like a suckle, I kissed her ,that was true . We agreed on a kiss not a peck, but her body begged for the type of kiss that crashed on a persons mouth and both of them "suck" and separate their selves from one another letting out a kiss sound. Sure enough that's what I did. And as predicted , her body responded , my ears could hear her let out a faint gasp. I made sure to kiss her in that area just slow enough for her to respond, I glanced up at her face one more time, her eyes were shut closed and mouth slightly open. 'Her spot' This was nothing sexual.... just a tease. I wanted to tease her. I was already her boyfriend why not play along as my girlfriend. I chuckled, I backed my head away from her as slowly as I could . When I seen her eyes were still shut maybe out of shock or lust I decided to go in for another kill. I kissed her again, this time on the opposite side and she responded. Her body stiffened infront of me, she was frozen... the way I liked it . I kissed some more this time sucking at her skin like I did the first kiss and each time she gasped slightly . The teasing was becoming risky, maybe I should stop here ? When I finally slowled down after multiple kisses and sucking on her skin there was only one hickey left behind . She was so stuck in that position I had to snap my fingers to get her out there trance .

Her eyes shot open "you said one kiss.." she didn't seem irritated and that "edgyness" she had to her seemed to have gone away although not fully . She might have needed that , to be kissed upon. To feel.. . Wanted. She did come off as lonely . I decided to ignore her for some reason I couldn't explain, letting my legs guide me off of the bed and walking towards the night table where my phone charged I picked it up . "I guess... that's what you wanted from me ?" My back faced her when she spoke, I turned my head to her, her image burning into my memory. She looked disheveled in a way even though no clothes were pulled and hair was untouched she just came off as that . Maybe she was feeling disheveled and it rubbed off onto her physical appearance ? Any second longer of not responding would've probably made her feel used, or like Adelia. " A reaction? Yes, ofcourse" I smiled at her continuing " that's what boyfriends do Kiki" .

Authors notes

Okay so I'm guessing everyone's wondering why Laurent's English thoughts are so proper ? Because to him he's speaking in French so it's more proper way , but whenever he speaks it's still somewhat broken English ... just like how t was when he was still in his early 20's . His English was good but still a lil broken . Now their English is bomb as hell lol . But yeah imma end it here just to see what you guys think of this chapter sorry for it being soooooooo short . It's currently 2 am and I got work . Sorry again!

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hideyoshineki · 6 years ago

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Writers Reflections: Tag Meme

I was tagged by @oathkeeperoxas my ultimate writing senpai uwu ❤💛❤

Rules: answer the following questions about your own writing, whether fanfic or original. If you can't/don't want to answer a question, just put N/A. If you don't have that many posted works, tell us about your WIPs or individual chapters/drabbles or even your ideas! Then tag as many writers as you like :)

AO3 name and link, if applicable: angeltrumpets

What's your most popular fic, by whatever metric is most relevant to you (hits, kudos, comments, reblogs, some other trait)?:

By Any Other Name is the most popular on AO3, but it's the only fic of mine that isn't a oneshot and it's also a soulmate AU (Hdkn from TG) so that just kinda automatically makes it more popular than my other fics.

On tumblr tho, my most popular fic has easily been A Source of Warmth, which as of now has 87 notes. It's a Hdkn TG oneshot I posted when the fandom was at its peak in 2015, however about a year ago it got a bunch more notes like a sudden attention and idk why but it was unexpected that's for sure.

What's your favourite fic that you've written?

Hmmmmmm Dancing Fireflies is my favourite in terms of the context behind it and how much damn fun it was to write, because it's a crack fic, but treated seriously, which made it more fun to write, and I also like going back and reading it again. It's also the fic with the most entertaining comments.

What's your best fic, and is it different from your favourite fic?

Recurring Illusions. It's the most recent thing I've written. (Hdkn oneshot, angst, an excuse for me to never stop being owned by Chapter 136). It really does FEEL like my best fic, as in I had a really good feeling as I was writing it! I was doing a lot that I hadn't written before, and I worked really hard on it! It came out really good!

Unfortunately because the fic is tagged with Graphic Violence and Implied Character Death, not many people are clicking to read it, but I expected that. The Graphic Violence was actually one of the things that was new to me, because most of my writing is very.... hmm uneventful? Like nothing big happens in most of my oneshots. Whereas here it was like Im writing a scene where he's killing people or eating people here how does that get written. Especilly the eating. I am very proud of the eating part of the oneshot especially because I pushed myself to go further with it and not shy away from details. I also am proud of the choices I made when writing it to display what state of mind Kaneki was in at certain parts.

Do you have a fic whose popularity surprised you?

OMG YES!!??!! Coffee And Thieves!! It's my second most viewed and kudosed fic on AO3 and I'm ????? like I'm still lost!!!!! It was a secret santa fic I wrote of the Amon/Hide/Kaneki poly ship and its popularity confuses me for two reasons: 1) I had no idea this many people would be clicking on it and reading it because honestly it's a super rare ship especially being a poly ship and I wouldn't have even known of its existence if it weren't for who I was gifting the fic to! But apparently more people are looking to read the ship than I thought! And 2) quality of writing wise it's more simplistic than some of my other fics. Like it's just fluff and I know people like reading that but it also means there's less room to like... show-off writing capabilities, you feel? Altho again, it's not like people are looking for that when it comes to fluff.

Do you have a fic you wish more people would read?

THE WITCH'S SERVANT! It's easily the oneshot I spent the most time on like I posted it months after starting it because I spent so long getting it right and soooooooo many hours working it out. But yeah it got comparatively much less attention than my other Hdkn fics. But I am still proud of it because I worked really hard on it and I got to write up what I wanted, which was the play that Hide and Kaneki brought up in the series. I wanted to look more into that and write about it, because I had seen meta and theory writers talk about Hide and Kaneki's roles in that play in relation to their roles in the overall story of TG, so I tried to integrate a little of that meta into the fic. I also included dialogue from the unused draft from the last ep from Root A in the fic. So there was a lot I was putting in, and yeah while it's a shame it didn't get more attention, I'm still happy with it and proud of it.

Is there a ship or fandom you haven't written, but really want to?

I have been wanting to write Reigisa from Free since fckn 2014. Every year I have been like "This is the year I contribute to Reigisa Week" and then I don't. And since Ive been with the ship for a long time and seen a lot of it, I feel like I know the characters and ship dynamic well enough to be comfortable writing it. But yeah Ive never gotten around to completely writing anything. Ive started a few, but they had always ended up abandoned.

Tell us a random fact about your writing process:

Ok so Im slow as shit right, like my multichapter fic from earlier has 2 chapters written and I started the fic in March this year so lol i know slowness and going ages without writing is common with a lot of writers tho

Usually what gets me going is a song putting me in a mood. Often the song won't match the mood of the fic I'm writing, as it'll almost always be a more angsty emotional song that gets me motivated, even if what I'm writing is not emotional at all. It just makes me feel like I can get things out more easily and write more interestingly.

I also save my writing docs in dropbox so I can always add to it either on my laptop or phone whenever I feel like it and it's synced up, but it never really ends up that way because nothing happens when I try to write on my phone I'm rarely able to write without the laptop setup.

Tagging @akaaka04 because Red ur the only mutual who first came to mind when I was thinking of mutuals rn who write, anyone else I can think of I'm either not mutuals with or I don't know for sure if they write or not. Sorry if I'm forgetting someone

#tagged #long post

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attina-the-responsible · 7 years ago

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A Run-in, in Six Variations ~*~ [The Mersisters]

Write a one-shot for someone else’s characters -- BDRPwrimo #12

@andrina-the-amazingsupergenius, @adella-the-romantic, @arista-the-musical, @aquata-the-bold, @alana-the-badbitch, @ariel-the-rebellious

Andrina was late.

Well, she wasn’t actually sure if she was late, but Andrina was late to most things, so she had just gotten into the habit of assuming that this was the case. It did not hurry her steps -- you must remember that this was her constant state of being--being late, that is--and she had simply accepted this fact about herself because it left less room for disappointment in the long run.

That was Andrina! Always the disappointment. Haha!

She was walking at this I’m-going-to-be-late leisurely pace with a muffin in one hand and a frappuccino in the other when she ran smack into someone else.

That was Andrina! Never paying attention. Haha!

Her drink jumped out of her hand at once, smashing onto the pavement, all over hers and the other person’s shoes.

“Wow! Those shoes are great!” Andrina said with a bright smile, that stayed on even as she noticed the look on the other person’s face. “I meannnnn--ohmygosh, I am sooooo sorry.”

The sky was grey, which suited Adella just fine. If the sky was yellow as butterscotch or blue as irises then she probably wouldn’t have left the house, but grey she could do. As it was, Arista had guilted her into this. It was just a quick coffee run, then she would pop into the arcade to hand the drinks off to her twin and her twin’s girlfriend. Simple. Easy.

So, why did it feel so hard?

As Adella walked down the street, her body felt heavy, like she was swimming through sand. Her headphones were in, Regina Spektor crooning about statues and mountaintops. The air tickled at her hair, which lay thick and flat against her head--she hated the way it looked, but she hadn’t had the energy to do anything about it. It’s not like anyone was looking at her anyway. Who ever looked at the plain, nondescript Triton? There were so many others to choose from, all bright and bubbly and--better.

She smacked shoulders with someone, hard.

Her headphones were ripped out and fell to the pavement, where the person she had ran into had stepped on them. They ripped out of her phone and she heard a heart-wrenching crunch. Her eyes filled with tears, but she couldn’t cry because that was stupid, Adella. People don’t cry over headphones.

The other person was apologizing but all she could do was stare. Anything else felt too hard.

Arista hated being sad. So, she had decided she wasn’t going to be! It was really a lot easier than people thought. It just involved all of her favorite things--some music, her girlfriend, and some retail therapy! She had flounced to the Next Town Over, which was the only place around here to get any good shoes. With Daddy’s permission she had bought these amazing Gucci boots.

After saying goodbye to Van (just for a minute, mind you), Ris had gone down the street to get them goodies from Hatters. She was bringing her new boots with her (mostly because she forgot she was holding the bag still, whoops!) As she rounded the corner her shoulders drooped a bit and she felt tired. Gosh, being happy could really be exhausting.

Just as she thought that--someone knocked right into her. In her surprise, she dropped her bag. The lid of the shoe box fell off and the boots rolled right into the street! Where they lay in a giant, muddy puddle!

“My shoes!” Arista cried at once, gathering them up in her arms, even though they were covered in mud now. “You’re gonna be okay, you’re gonna be just fine,” she whispered to them.

Aquata was in a hurry. Aquata was always in a hurry. If she wasn’t at practice, she was at school, and if she wasn’t at school she was doing homework. She didn’t have time for basic bitches walking too slow on the street. Thank god it wasn’t tourist season and she wouldn’t have to deal with those assholes. God, she hated tourists, they always walked so slow and stopped to take pictures of the most ridiculous bullshit.

She was power walking down the sidewalk when she rapidly gained on someone.

“Um, MOVE,” she called before she got right on their heel.

The asshole didn’t get out of the way.

“Hello!! Hurry UP!” she snapped.

This dick did. not. move.

Huffing, Aquata sped up, knocking right into them, attempting to push her way past. Could she just have stepped into the grass? Probably. But where was the satisfaction in that?

Alana had been studying in the library. It was finals, after all, and Alana might be many things: a party girl, a queen bee, a rebel without a cause--but she was not a bad student.

So, she sat diligently beneath a window--all the study rooms were taken; they were gross and stuffy anyway. The little bit of light was nice anyway, it bounced of her pretty pale skin and she knew if she tilted her head just so, her jawline would look amazing. As she read a passage, she twirled a piece of hair around her finger, tapping her foot to the beat of her music.

Eventually, she noticed a boy staring at her. Well, it was time for a study break anyway, wasn’t it?

Pushing up from her seat, she gave him a smile--the perfect kind of practiced smile that told him that he was being read loud and clear. She swayed her hips a little as she walked ahead of him, glancing back periodically to tease him with a flutter of her eyelashes--like reeling in a fish.

On one of these glances, she ran right into someone else.

The boy saw this and scrammed as soon as it happened. Which pissed Alana off. “Hey!” she snapped at the person she’d run into. “Watch where you’re going!” She didn’t care if this was a library. “You just--” she didn’t finish her sentence, instead, she huffed and crossed her arms.

Ariel was in soooooooo much trouble.

She’d been in the lake again, searching for treasures. She’d found a nice little grotto that was so cool. It had so many different things inside of it! She had even found an old chipped tea cup that looked super old, not that she really knew better or anything, but it looked super old, and it was so pretty! It had little blue flowers on it.

The exploring had gone on way too long, though. It always did. They needed to invent a clock for underwater--like a cellphone that could go underwater! That’d be awesome. Oh wait, they definitely had waterproof watches. That was totally a thing. Man, she needed one of those. Maybe she could ask for one for Christmas. Yes, that was a good idea.

There was no time to put her things in her hiding spot, so she threw them in her bag and then started running home, because dinner was going to be soon and she needed to sneak in the house first and dry her hair--or jump in the pool and then say she’d been down there for a swim or something like that!

In her hurry, she ran smack into someone as she was barreling out of the woods! She bumped into someone and went sprawling backwards, her bag falling open, the tea cup, as well as a few other items, obviously coated with lake grossness--spilled out of her bag.

“Oh! Uh! Hi! I can--I can explain that!”

#bdrpwrimomk #mersisters stuff #i was originally like #let's do one sentence marisa #and then andy's was really long #and i was like #wel #everyone's has to be the sAME #and here we are #this was fun #i tried ot kinda #mimic ppl's writing styles lol #and make all the endings differenttt #it was fun!

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the-suriel-deserved-better · 7 years ago

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Thoughts while reading Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Lani Taylor

-ooohhhh Prague - Dare I believe it, a YA novel where the female protagonist isn't a virgin.... I'm sold. - Also Kaz? Nah the only Kaz I know should be over with Inej. - Kaz cheated on my smol, peacock blue hair coloured, Karou. - "No tiny violent one," reminds me of tiny ancient one and there Zuzana is Amren or fight me. - Karou has tattoos. Oh dear lord I'm in love. - Dear Karou, marry me. - Too early to tell Kaz to Fuck off? - "... was a new tattoo. It was an elaborate., cursive K." Yeah, it's not too early to tell Kaz to Fuck off. - Karou I beg you to stay this savage. - You know, it's refreshing to read someone who has this whole secret life thing, and doesn't speak about it in riddles to the reader. Like Karou could be like my family is full of snakes and I'm their slave but instead she's just like, yo, whatup this is me ma, sorta, she's got a snake kink. -Please make him scratch his ass. - "no inessential penises," well now I know the answer to any question asked in sex ed. - Bitch I want full knowledge of any language. How much easier French and Irish could be. - The thing is, "nice fiddling handsome man," would probably get you a date in Ireland, so Zuzana, you know where to visit. - KAROU WAS THE ONE WHO BROUGHT UP WINGSPAN, NOT ME. However would remove feet be bigger than Rhys'? -Zuzana babe can I have some struddle. - Oh, Elsewhere, with a capitol E. Fancy. - "you scribbled out the best part" "Trust me it's not that great" *pew* *pew* shots fired. -Okay Brimstone literally everyone would wish to turn off their lights without leaving the bed. - A lot of euros? Excuse me, I need that. - "musicians who asked questions." Okay, there has to be a little bit of Irish in Karou. -hand prints!? Dun dun dunnnnnn. - Soooooooo, can I like Akiva? -I kinda wanna like him -Hey, Akiva, wanna hug to help you smile. - So Akiva, you and Karou relate with the whole, feeling something missing thing. - I'M SORRY UNCAGE THOSE KITTENS OR GOD HELP ME I WILL SLAP YOU. WITH THIS BOOK. REPEATEDLY. - Wiktor in a feather boa is not a thought I needed but one that will never leave. - Zuzana don't get mad, then Karou will be sad, and if my ships to sail, sad ain't gonna work when she meets Akiva. She needs sarcasm for him. -"I swear I hate more people everyday," yeah, Zuzana, trying being five foot ten and behind slow walkers. -"she craved a presence beside her," I was gonna say something but what Karou is feeling is hitting too close to home and I need to go and think back to that offer to see a therapist. -What is up with butterflies? -Akiva, I wanna like you. -Ugh I'll google it it's safe to like you. - Googled you Akiva and the wiki says some very good stuff. - I read too much on the wiki and now nothing makes sense. - Akiva is staring after Karou, lord help me IT'S SAILING. -"and she was staring back," AGH IT'S HAPPENING. -So, Karou, would you say Akiva has an impressive wingspan? -"she was not, in fact, human," well yeah, figured that out myself Akiva. -So Brimstone got angry. - NO, KISHMISH. -Well Fuck. -Well Fuck again but with wings. - Razgut can Fuck off. - Karou and Zuzana's friendship tho. -"Waking as she drew him against her, and then, silkily into her," I do love my smut references. - Aww, Akiva, my little angsty child. - Mik is too precious. -"Is it weird that I'm turned on by a marionette," Mik is hereby known as guy with puppet kink. - Karou don't hit your future husband. - Of course he's not okay Karou. -You need to stop bringing up wingspan because this is no longer an everyday word for me. - C'mon Akiva, just a little smile. -Well Karou may not have laughed at his humour but I did. -I live Zuzana. -okay I'm glad you're going with Akiva but please bring Zuzana, I'll miss her. - Now the wiki makes sense. - I don't even know what to write. -Akiva is about to give us a lil story. -Bitch if you drop that wishbone I will disown you as ever having been one of my smol. -"we're going to break the wishbones," a stunning new novel by Lani Taylor. - So did they kiss. - Nvm now they're kissing, the world is at peace. - Oh, so we're back to wishbone breaking. - Wait they actually broke it. -So no more kissing? Can't she just wish away the tattoos? - Why in God's fucking name are people always so afraid of love simply because they don't understand it. -So these Chimaera can be reborn? Greeeeeeaaaattttttt. -Well the whole sugar thing is interesting. -It's a pitty this cuteness won't last. - So Chiro = bad - Well dick again. - NO WE CANNOT BE AT THE EPILOGUE ALREADY. -That ending.... why am I broke I need the next book now.

#lani taylor #daughter of smoke and bone #damn

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shadowsong26fic · 7 years ago

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Soooooooo

I was going to post the next Precipice chapter tonight (and I know I skipped last week, sorry...) And there’s a chance I will? But it’ll more likely be tomorrow.

(Writing a four-year-old who is being raised by Palpatine, even when it’s Luke’s POV and not hers, has been...slow...)

(Also, today I went to REN FAIRE which is one of my favorite things in the world. I am enamored of the lady who played Queen Katherine. But, uh, as a result, I’m wiped/brain is kind of fried, so chances are I won’t finish ‘til tomorrow)

I promise, though, it’ll be up tomorrow at the latest.

For tonight, though, open question night again! What’s on your mind?

#shadowsong26fic #shadowsong writes star wars #open question night #miscellania

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helloanime247-blog · 7 years ago

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YES.....I was telling the truth when I said I wasn’t finished with these tags!

1. What anime character is most similar to you in terms of personality?

Hmmmmmm.....so in my last tag I said that I was like Katsuki Yuuri (Yuri on Ice) and Tadokoro Megumi (Shokugeki no Souma)!

I'm also sort of like Shouyou Hinata from Haikyuu!! because he's always quite optimistic and he is really stubborn! I mean despite his small stature, he is determined to become an amazing volleyball player! I'm also really stubborn......!! One of my relatives used to always say to my Mum....'She's a very stubborn child'!! That's definitely true! Somebody actually said to me today.....'I don't think I could EVER make you angry!! He obviously doesn't know me very well, as I can get pretty mad sometimes...lol! :P

I also identify with Ryou Sakurai (Kuroko no Basket).....aka the Apologetic Mushroom!! That seems like a strange choice......but like him I also have a terrible habit of saying 'sorry'...lol! Only yesterday....somebody told me to 'stop saying sorry'......so how did I reply to his statement.....by saying 'sorry'....of course...hahaha!! XD :P

2. Are you open about watching anime with people you know?

Absolutely! :D Most people know that I love anime, as I'm definitely not a closet fan! However, when I was younger, I used to hide the fact that I liked Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh and Cardcaptors from everybody in school! I was so scared that people in my class would find out, as nobody that I knew was into those anime series! I had a Pokemon t-shirt and I never wore it when I went out with my friends because I was terrified they would find out that I liked Pokemon!! I remember telling my geography teacher that I would record a tv programme about rocks for my class to watch! When I brought the DVD into school, my teacher started it from the beginning.....and much to my horror.....there was an episode of Pokemon on it, which everybody....of course ended up seeing! I was soooooooo embarrassed and I could feel my cheeks getting really hot...and they probably turned a vibrant shade of red!! XD Now.....I don't care what people think...and I'll happily tell the world that I'm a Pokemon fan! <3

3. Have you ever been to Japan?

Unfortunately, I have never been to Japan! I hope to go next year with my parents! My Dad keeps saying to me....'We have to go to Japan next year'! I can't wait to be let loose on the streets of Akihabara! :P Plus, I think I'm going to die if I go into shops such as AmiAmi and Mandarake because I'm going to be surrounded by so many anime figures, I'll quite literally be in heaven...lol! <3

4. What anime was the biggest let down for you?

Hmmmmmmm...it was probably 'Sakamoto Desu Ga?'! I expected it to be really funny....and it just wasn't! I actually found it to be a little boring.....eeeeekkkkkk! That's just my own personal opinion....by the way!

5. What anime was better then expected?

It was probably ACCA! I just didn't expect to really like it....mainly because initially I didn't like the animation style, but it totally won me over! Now I can definitely say that Madhouse chose the correct animation style....because it really does suit this series!

6. What was your favourite video game as a child?

I was completely in love with all of the Pokemon games for the Nintendo Game Boy! I remember staying up until 2 or 3 in the morning playing those games, my Mum would have killed me if she had of found out!! I used to play them in the dark underneath my blankets.....! Hence, the reason why I’m probably short-sighted. Meanwhile, my sister has 20/20 vision.....I'm not jealous at all by this!! :P ;)

7. Are you a picky eater?

When I was younger, I used to be a terribly picky eater!! However, now I will eat most things! I am a pescatarian, so once it's not meat......I'm okay with nearly everything! Just don't put ketchup or mayo on my plate.....please!!! :P

8. If you could have any superpower, what would it be?

I would love to control time.....this would enable me to slow down time! Therefore, I could watch 10 episodes of an anime in say 30 mins! :P I would also have time to do all of the stuff that I keep meaning to do...!! Sometimes I can be a real procrastinator!

9. Do you believe in the supernatural?

Hmmmmmmm....this may sound really weird.....but I sort of do believe in the supernatural...lol! Like I think that ghosts may exist......don't judge me! :P XD

Therefore, I try to avoid watching horror movies at all cost! I remember my friend forced me to watch a horror movie with her...and I literally squeezed her hand throughout the entire movie!! XD

10. Does someone have a crush on you?

Hahahaha.......NO WAY!! XD Oh.....I'm sorry......I completely forgot.......I heard through the grapevine that Okita Sougo from Gintama has a crush on me!! Jeez....I’ve got to stop being so weird!! :P

I’m not going to officially tag anyone because I don’t want to force y’all to answer even more questions! However, @akatsuki3519 and @yuratchkaplisetskys....if you’re up for the challenge then please go ahead and do them......! <3

Also, if anybody else wants to do them......then please go ahead and answer them too! :D ;)

#tag #I was bored so I decided to answer these questions...hahahaha!!

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