#I’m so very tired

[third-half]

Slayers Artober Day 10: Soap Opera

“Father Rezo! We thought you were dead!” ”I was!”

[mushroominaforest]

Hello hi hi how are you hi

……eeeuuuggghhhhh

Could be better lmao

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

sigh

I got hit with a terrible depression episode earlier this month and it feels like it just

Completely destroyed my ability to be creative

I still have the ideas of what to draw, but trying to draw either leaves the canvas blank or takes way longer than I know it should. Every time I try to think creatively I have nothing. It’s like…idk like tv static or dark. It’s becoming

So incredibly frustrating

The downstairs tenants still aren’t fully out I guess. I know they had 18+ years of things to move but we were being pressured to pack and be ready for when they are. So now I’m just in that part of moving where my space no longer feels like my space because almost everything’s packed away and it’s left me stressed.

I haven’t been sleeping well at all. All of the stress has made my insomnia almost a constant issues, but i can’t take sleep aids without it triggering RLS

I want things to stop being this please

[ryderdire]

I mean,

being learning disabled/ neurodivergent isn’t under my control.

I can’t just get rid of my disability by trying harder then everyone else.

My adhd isn’t going to go away if I put things into a chart And like a lot of the self reglulation tools and accommodations I need is infantlized or demonized .Hell telling people I’m neurodivergent more often then not leads to me being demonized dismissed or infantlized.

So I find it frustrating when people try and tell me that the symptoms of my disabilities are things I can control and not things I can work around and work with.

It’s really frustrating to be told essentially “oh just turn off your disability for a bit” like girl. No.

Just because I don’t let you see me being disabled all the time doesn’t mean I’m not disabled. Just because I’m masking doesn’t mean I’m not still neurodivergent just because you aren’t in my brain experiencing my struggles doesn’t mean it’s not real.

[cranberrytea451]

Do you guys think sans would replace marinara sauce on pizza with ketchup?

[nowshesdoingitallthetime]

Working a 5 1/2 hour shift when you’ve barely slept two hours is in fact not a good vibe

[frogayyyy]

i’m mister lover ham

and i ate my lover’s ham

[burdenedrose]

do you every just want to hop out of your body like a pair of jeans and just go wandering unnoticed, unbothered, within complete silence somewhere past the atmosphere without a single thing to even stress about for a good 3-5 business days or is this what’s called an original thought

[wewindondowntheroad]

The misery is a lot tonight

[rooksunday]

okay but there is something disquieting about this urge to cast fan writers as altruists. they give us all this for free!! well, no.

they’re sharing

it’s a key difference in perception. fic isn’t given. it’s shared. it’s part of a fandom community— in which readers are also an integral part.

it’s probably inevitable mission creep from the increasingly transactional nature of the internet and fandom-as-consumerism, which was always gonna happen after corps worked out how much bank there is to make from those weirdo fan people

but like. fandom is sharing. i think we’ve lost that somewhere.

[rev-pride]

It’s really incredible to be writing a fic in my head with the doc in front of me but not putting those words in that doc.

[asteeter]

I’m loosing it

[human-rocket]

I’m aware I’m probably the only one that finds this shit funny but have yall seen that face puzzle filter on Tiktok?? 😭 It sends me every timeee

my art | ko-fi

[tom-whore-dleston]

Thank you my love 🥰🥰 it’s as if you read my mind hehe

[selfconsciousfangirl]

I’m so tired :/

[bltchkawa]

Long hair pirate maji might be my woman