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justsomefluff · 5 years ago

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Good Morning with Ateez

Summary: the title pretty much explains it all lmao

A/N: Sorry that I haven’t been writing! School has been crazy with everything going on, and I have to work as well. Hopefully, I will be able to write more in the coming weeks.

*Members after Joong are below the cut*

Hongjoong:

ok, waking up in the morning with joongie is wild

If he wakes up first, he’s all giggly

bugging you

kissy kissy all over your face

he’s practically on top of you

it’s not that he wants to get up or anything, he just prefers when you are awake at the same time

“Let me sleep, Joongie”

“but iM LONELY”

If you’re really tired though he’s gonna be cute with you and let you sleep all you want

he will just lay with you and stroke your hair and kiss your hands and ugh im soft

BUT

if you wake up first

he expects the same

so, if you wake him up with anything other than smooches he’s gonna whine and complain so much

“GIMME KISS”

“no, you have morning breath”

“so what you're saying is you hate me”

SO dramatic

if you manage to slip out of bed before he can trap you

he will jump out of bed and latch onto you

LEECH

tries to steal your energy through his hugs

but overall a cute bb who likes a calm, sweet wakeup with his love

Seonghwa:

(THIS GIF I CANT BREATHE)

So, our precious baby Seonghwa

ALWAYS awake before you

like how does he do it???

why does he do it???

whenever he wakes up, he’ll kinda check on you a little bit

make sure you’re in a comfortable position, give you a kiss and all that

but then he’ll slip out before you wake up??

rude.

And then you wake up and you're kinda grumpy bc why would he leave you cold and alone when you could be cuddling rn

when you find him, he’s halfway through making you breakfast

and that makes up for it

he always tries to do things for you to make your mornings easier

It’s his way of making up for all the things he can’t do for you while he’s working

When he notices that you're awake omigod the biggest smile

Will deadass abandon his cooking to come give you a squeeze

your eyebrows are all furrowed and you’re pouting and you're hair is just the worst but he’s so in love with you, you big dork

Gives you a kiss and then makes you sit down

serves you breakfast, all proud

if it’s something he doesn't normally make, he will watch you take the first bite and cross his fingers that you like it

which you always do

Mornings with him will pretty much always be domestic and sweet

Yunho:

McSquishy

When he wakes up, his cheeks go poof

anyway you usually wake up before him on your days off

but he will wake up soon after you

it’s like he senses that you're awake and wants to join in on the party

so when he wakes up, he feels you stretching and wiggling around

Will make fun of you if you make any of those awkward stretching noises

“UGHHHHH AHHH”

like hush leave me alone

isn’t hard to wake up but he will 100% drag you out of bed as soon as he can

mostly because he wants food

if you don’t get up right away he’ll just make you

like the recent video where he just picks up San and moves him? Yeah exactly

will also do that weird shimmy dance he did in that video too just to show you how excited he is

like a golden retriever no lie

so excited to be with you all the time

“Baby, let’s go” “baby, let’s eat” *smoochies*

and you just kinda let him drag you all over the place because he’s cute

isn’t one for morning cuddles in bed, but will still make you sit on his lap during breakfast and stuff just to have you close

cute squish who just wants to be loved aw

Yeosang:

clingy baby right here

Will probably wake up before you

but he’s not totally there yet, you know?

like his eyes are open but he’s dead

kinda flounders for a second trying to find you in the bed

when he does, he’s sticking to you and not letting go

probably falls asleep again because he’s so comfy and warm

so, it’s up to you to wake up before both of you sleep through the day

he’s usually pretty happy when he wakes up

lots of sleepy smiles

nuzzling into you like crazy

even though he’s groggier than you, he will be the first to get up

probably to pee or something idk he just needs to move

eager to start the day

If you’re still in bed 5 minutes after he gets up he’s gonna judge you

“How dare you let me start our day together by MYSELF”

when you do get up, all is forgiven

the kind of person who likes to go out for breakfast rather than cook it at home

it’s not that he can’t, he just doesn’t want to lmao

always excited to dress up a little bit with you for breakfast dates

the perfect beginning to your day together imo

San:

SO WHINY

obviously you’re gonna have to be the one to wake him up

waking up is San’s least favorite part of the day

will trap you in bed for the entire day if you let him

“San, I know you’re tired but we slept ‘til noon”

“Let’s make it 2:00″

literally goes through the 7 stages of grief when he wakes up

Denial: “not morning yet, bye”

Guilt: “I’m so lazy”

Bargaining: “BABY, two more hours, it’ll be great”

Depression: “they started the day without me and I’m lonely”

Upward Turn: “maybe I feel a little more awake now”

Working Through: “ok I can do this, just one more stretch”

Acceptance: “Im up”

Like finally

definitely likes morning cuddles though so if you didn't give him at least that, then he’s gonna hate you for the day

loves starting his day with you and if you don't help him wake up the way he wants

Grumpy baby all day

just snuggle him dammit

Mingi:

ok so he’s not waking up I don't care

when Mingi sleeps, he’s comatose okay

until he has a genuine reason to get up, he is parked

likes to cuddle, but not gonna sacrifice sleep for it

so, if you get up and start your day, whatever he’ll stay

like he’ll ask you to stay and cuddle but he isn’t gonna have enough energy to argue with you over it lmao

you deadass need jumper cables to get him started

if he has to get up to pee or something minor, he will try to do it without you noticing so he can go back to sleep

“SONG MINGI, I SEE YOU”

“NO” and then he sprints back to bed

cue wrestling in bed because once he is fully awake he can’t sit still

like you’re trying to get him up and, while he’s awake now, he just wants to make your life a little harder

pulling you under the covers and everything while you're begging him to come eat with you

he will eventually give in because food

but with him, you kind of just have to let him wake up on his own

if you want to get him started that’s fine, but it prolly won’t help lmao

let him sleep, he’ll figure it out

Wooyoung:

Wooyoungie babyyyyy

When I wake up in the morning...it’s not as sexy as you think

contrary to popular belief, Woo does not wake up sexily

he wakes up friggin adorable

when you wake up first, he just makes you cuddle him until he’w ready to get up, no arguments

but if he wakes up first, he’s wiggling all over the place

another one who just cant sit still

will stretch and bounce and just be a nuisance until you get up too

he will definitely smack you in the face when he’s stretching and then just laugh when you glare at him

when really he should fear for his life like you did not just wake me up by SMACKING ME

but will definitely be kissing you everywhere because he always says he wants to start his day by seeing you smile

cheeseball fr

also he’s loud

in case you didn't know

“JAGIYA WAKE UPPPPPP”

“SHHHHHHHHHH WOOYOUNGAH”

but his volume is contagious and then you're both yelling and its insane

but then you're both giggling and kissing and hugging and its a good morning because

no time spent with Wooyoung is wasted

Jongho:

(How could I not use this gif I mean really)

Jongho is so hard to wake up

like at least Mingi will wake up to shoo you away

but Jongho physically cannot

You could squeeze an air horn by his face and he wouldn't even flinch

basically he’s a heavy sleeper

But as you have more sleepovers, you’ll figure out a way to wake him up more effectively

whatever your method may be, he will be smiling as soon as he opens his eyes

always excited to see you

bc he’s a sweet baby

will make you hug him for a little bit and he’ll kiss your head

after a little bit he’ll sigh and be like “okay”

that’s when you know you can both get up

will follow you around and do pieces of his routine as you do yours

you're almost totally in sync its kinda creepy

but then he will offer to help you make breakfast and always lets you pick what you want to make

just soft for you in general and he’d give you the world

hell, he’s definitely strong enough

#ateez #ateez fanfic #ateez fluff #ateez hongjoong #ateez seonghwa #ateez yunho #ateez yeosang #ateez san #ateez mingi #ateez wooyoung #ateez jongho #fanfiction #ateez imagines #ateez reactions #ateez scenarios

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dr-gloom · 5 years ago

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A Post About Top Surgery From Someone Who’s Currently Recovering

Yo! I’m gonna make a Trans Survival Guide sometime soon but until then I’ve had some stuff on my mind I wanted to get out here for anyone thinking about/waiting for top surgery. I’ll try to keep it reader-friendly cause i totally understand how hard it can be to read large blocks of text

So, here we go.

Pre-Op

You’ll be asked to not drink or smoke for anywhere from a month to 2 weeks prior to surgery, depending on your surgeon’s preference.

They ask that you only use Tylenol if you need to take pain meds as ibuprofen is a blood thinner and can lead to surgical complications.

If you take vitamins or supplements of any kind, get it cleared with your surgeon or stop taking them as well.

You are absolutely allowed to ask a surgeon how many surgeries they’ve done, their success-to-revision rate, their style if they haven’t already told you, and anything else.

You won’t offend them, and even if you do, making sure you’re going with the surgery you want is waaaay more important. Put your health and your chest above their feelings.

You’re also allowed to meet up with other surgeons to make sure you’re making the best choice. Consider this “shopping”. Just because you met a surgeon, doesn’t mean you have to go with them.

The Surgery

The specific details may vary, but from my own experience, this is how it goes.

You’re given a time to check in, then you’re called in from the waiting room to go into Pre-Op.

For me, this meant chillin for a couple hours under a heated blanket, IV in my arm and heart monitor on my finger.

Until you’re taken into surgery, a lot of nothing happens, and the everything happens. You meet your surgeon so he can draw on you. You meet the anesthesiology team and presiding nurses etc.

You can absolutely ask them any question you have, express any anxiety, no judgement. The more vocal you are, the more they can help you and by extension themselves.

I told the anesthesiologist I’d never had surgery before so I was stressed about going under, and they put something in my IV to help me relax before I was wheeled into the OR. Then they put the mask thing over my mouth and I was out.

You’ll be chillin naked under a hospital gown for a while lol. After you wake up, if it’s an outpatient procedure, they’ll keep you until they’re sure you’re stable - oriented, no vomiting, etc - before wheeling you out to go home.

You’ll feel kind of slow, very tired, maybe loopy, and of course whatever you tend to feel from anesthesia. For anyone who’s never had surgery, affects range from nausea to coldness to sleepiness to Total Crap.

Incisions and Types of Surgery

There are of course the two main distinctions most people know: key-hole and double incision. What many don’t know is there are vast differences in surgeons’ styles when it comes to these. I’ve seen double incisions shaped like

smiles

a straight line across the chest

two straight lines

two slightly curved lines

incisions that meet in the middle (as mine did, but only to avoid “dog ears”)

incisions that follow the pectoral muscle

This doesn’t even include botched stitching

If you can, ask to see pictures. They may or may not be allowed to show you; if they have a prior patient’s permission, they can.

Just to cover my bases: key-hole is a small incision made near the nipple which can only really be done for those with small breasts (A cups or smaller ((apparently there are smaller ones???))).

I still recommend double incision, because you have better results and are less likely to have excess skin. The only drawback is the scarring but I believe it’s worth it.

Pain and Pain Management

Typically, from my understanding, top surgeries are outpatient surgeries if you have to travel to get to your surgeon.

This is cause they want you numb while you’re travelling back home.

Of course, I’m speaking as someone from Sacramento who had to travel to San Francisco to see a top surgeon so of course you should check with your surgeon about these specifics.

You’ll get prescription meds. If you stay within the guidelines set for you on the dosage label, you won’t get addicted, so don’t put yourself through pain just cause you’re scared of addiction, trust me.

It is completely possible and probable for you to swell if you don’t have drains.

Your chest will feel swollen, maybe spongey ((BUT STOP TOUCHING IT)) and that’s normal.

If the skin feels heated, you get a fever, you have a hard time breathing, it’s tender to the touch (more than it should be), or makes liquid sounds, CALL YOUR SURGEON/RN.

For me, it was like this:

The first day wasn’t too bad, neither was the second day. The third and fourth hurt the worst, but the pain you feel after the first check-up is different and worse.

You get the gauze taken off your nipples, whatever compression device they have you use is taken off for the first time and you’re moving skin for the first time in at least a week. It hurts.

It goes from “bad bruise” pain to “oh shit my chest was cut” pain. If you’ve got a little meat on your bones and your skin tends to fold a little, that can cause irritation too. It sucks.

After about Week 2, you can switch from prescription meds to Tylenol, but not Ibuprofen just to be safe.

Surgery Aftercare

Range of Motion:

They’ll tell you not to raise your hands above your head.

They’ll say no heavy lifting or working out.

You absolutely cannot use your arms to sit up.

You should not go your full reach without doctor approval.

Try to avoid reaching out to the side or behind you.

Bending over is also something you wanna avoid cause as your midsection bunches up it can rub/crease your incisions and that hurts.

Ideal Outfit/Clothes:

Honestly if you can avoid wearing anything but underwear and the compression garment, go for it.

If you can’t, button-ups or tank tops with big arm holes are your best friend.

For the first few days at least have someone else help you dress.

I’d suggest loose, non-button/zipper pants such as sweats or gym shorts.

No shoes with laces/velcro since you can’t bend over - sandals/flipflops are best.

Medications:

As mentioned earlier, you’ll be given prescription pain meds. Take them as prescribed and you’ll be fine.

If you feel any of the negative side effects like hives or fever or nausea, absolutely stop taking them and contact your doctor.

You’ll also likely be given antibiotics to prevent infection. Take ALL OF THEM, as prescribed.

Depending on how you react to anesthesia and who your surgeon is, you may also be given stool softener.

Bottom line: take ALL of your meds AS DIRECTED. These people know what they’re doing.

If you’re doing everything safe and nothing has set you back, typically you’re good to drive around 3 weeks after, workout lightly about 4 or 5 weeks after, and everything else about 6-8 weeks after.

*****This post was made from things I have learned and my own current experience. If I haven’t mentioned something it’s because I don’t know about it and I’d prefer you have to find information elsewhere than risk spreading false information******

#top surgery #trans #lgbt #medical #surgery #recovery #prep #management #PSA

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devil-changmin · 4 years ago

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I am going to be sleep deprived till october 7th, and I see that u are an expert on that so give us some tips

Wkshwhsksush well okay there is a science to this lol

-if you are a deep sleeper like me, there will be a certain number of hours of sleep you need to get in order to actually wake up lol. Mine is about 4. If I get maybe 3 or less hours of sleep I often will sleep through my alarm so I just stay up all night if it gets to that point

-if you feel good, don’t drink caffeine. Wait until you start feeling tired to get caffeine but don’t wait too long cuz if ur tired drinking coffee will make u feel like WOW not good (ur locked in a permanent state of tired but like u can’t go to sleep) so you really gotta find the sweet spot...I don’t know how to describe what that feels like but when you are always sleep deprived you become very aware of it lol. It kinda feels like when you’ve just woken up and you’re still sleepy but not really?

-be aware of what times you can sleep. I would usually have a grasp on like the next 3 days of work (not great cuz I am a procrastinator) but like a vague idea of how much work I would have and stuff.

-if you hit the BIG TIRED where u become a sleep gremlin who can think of nothing but bed, sleep. You can sleep like not in ur bed (I would sleep sitting on my couch) to try and make it easier for you to get up. I have a graph of like the best amounts of nap time for productivity in my drafts which I will post for u :) I would often just rest / sleep a bit for 30 mins or so and I would feel much better for a while.

-if you can plan out your work in detail, it is best if you can try to do the majority of your work and then have some time after you have gotten sleep to look over the work you’ve done (cuz your brain simply isn’t fully there when you’re really really tired. I was always in a kind of mindset of like ‘I don’t care as long as I turn this in’ but like I could have turned in much better work if I did this lol)

This is specifically for if you have to stay up all night:

-you will probably have 2 waves of tiredness throughout the night. I would say it’s like medium tiredness? You wanna sleep but you’re not like dying you know. If you just ignore these and get through them, you’ll have another burst of energy (it probably depends on ur sleep schedule but my first wave of tiredness comes at like 5-7 pm which i don’t even count cuz it’s like normal. The second one usually comes around 5-8 am which is when I’m going to sleep rn lol)

-you will feel amazing for a while like in the early morning. You’re gonna be like ‘wow wtf staying up all night is easy??? I can do so much! Why did no one tell me there was free time I could use?!?’ This is like your last burst of energy lol. DO NOT drink caffeine during this time. Wait until you start feeling a bit more normal/feel the tiredness come back. You will have a huge crash after this and you’ll feel like you wanna die. You can make it not as bad if you drink coffee in the slope down to the bad crash lol. I’ve had coffee at like the perfect time before and I was able to comfortably stay up until like 10 pm without much problem.

-I recommend not to drink any kind of tea or anything. I don’t know how caffeine affects you but when I’ve not slept and I drink tea I just...bed time. Instant bed time

-if you can, drink coffee without a lot of sugar. The sugar makes you crash harder and it’s not good.

-have some coffee on hand for the overnight period where you can’t go out to get anything lol. I usually go to Starbucks as soon as they open when I’m staying up all night but there is a dark period where my night starbucks is done and I don’t have my morning starbucks...If u make coffee at home you should be fine (but I think espresso works better to keep u up I don’t know)

-make sure to eat! My eating routine is almost as bad as my sleeping schedule but food gives you energy and you want any kind of energy you can get. So make sure to eat meals that have protein and stuff and won’t make you tired after

-honestly basic self care rly comes in handy here. Drink water. Take breaks from work. If you’re taking a break try watching something funny or entertaining to give you energy. Take a shower in the morning when you’re feeling tired to wake you up a bit.

-no two days are the same and for whatever reason, there are times when you just might not be able to do this. If you’re really struggling, just sleep as much as you can. These tips only help you, they aren’t a certain way to stay up. I’ve had to give up many times and just sleep.

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soysaucevictim · 6 years ago

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Poofed again.

Mar 2:

I’ve been up since about 7:11 AM.

I’ve mostly spent my day watching/listening to YouTube vids and gaming. :P

So I got my exercise in a bit later than ideal, but I got it done.

First, yesterday’s DD. 2′ butt kicks with EC. Rain-checked on this because my energy levels was really only up for my main workout's cardio. Was contemplating on breaking this up, even now, but glad I pressed on. Counted 249 reps, but heels stopped making consistent contact in the last ~20-50 reps. Oof. :U

Second, today’s DD. 60 scissors with EC. Got a smidge distracted today, but at least it's done on the due date. Pffft! Anyways, I like "crunch" variations where I can keep my head on the floor. :,D

Third, Day 18 of the FCP. Strength training. This was just manageable, relatively anaerobic so I didn’t feel quite as harried as yesterday. Tried to be more mindful about my squatting form - since I’ve noticed a few instances of knee complaints the last few times of ‘em. I think my knees were happier with me. Punches were fun as always~

Last, Day 18 of the TYTC. Simple and fun. Did get a bit of a head rush on the way up from the toe touch - probably a bit dehydrated or something (I did probably have too much sugar and salt for the day).

Mar 3:

Woke up ~11AM. And I spent most of the day watching YouTube and playing some games. Did also play some cards with family and made dinner.

Only exercise I managed to get done was the DD. 60 bicep extensions with EC. This was a fun way to wake up today! Nice to have a breezier DD at times. :D

Did attempt Day 19 of the FCP... I’ll just copy the tweets I made about it:

HHHHh- I hate holding elbow planks for longer than like a minute. Was only able to will myself through one set of this before going "Fuck it. I'm doing this one tomorrow. I just don't have the energy rn."

Midway into Set 2 I dropped my knees a few times but just kinda stopped at that point. My head just wasn't in the game. (While I'm glad this was going to be only 3 sets - I just yeah. Gdi, man. But I'm not abt to give up on this program, so help me.) :/

Part of why I feel not so great abt this kinda exercise was that time I tried to do the 5' [elbow] Plank Challenge. A bit >2' IS my failure point / PB. Where I can just feel myself pushing way too damn hard. So doing 3 sets of that with little rest is toeing the line of NOEP.

The whole ETD thing ALSO doesn't help me feel too comfortable with the idea of forcing me past that wall, too. I just need to remind myself - counting this day, there's only 2 more plank days in the program. If I can get through them - I'll be ok.

Mar 4:

Was up proper at around 10AM (got up a bit earlier but was too tired/sleepy to stay up). Almost same story as the day prior. Gaming, YouTube, showered, and did some laundry. So I was a little more productive.

Like yesterday, all I could make myself do was the DD again. 2′ side splits with EC. This was a fun one! Legs did start trembling near the end, but doing a few half jacks as warmup was very helpful and enjoyable too!

Ran into the same wall with FCP, today. I expanded on my thoughts/feelings about it on Twitter again.

Tried yesterday's workout again. STILL hit the same wall. I just. I'm legitimately upset. I'm tempted to table this program entirely. I just. Can't make myself do this. Maybe in the future? But not rn. Almost a third of the way left and it hurts emotionally.

Especially given how very MANAGEABLE the rest of this damn program is and has been. I wish I could find SOME way to frame this elbow plank shit in a way that helps sustainably. I'm angry, mostly at myself, I really don't want to give up again.

I'm trying to tell myself, failure is a learning opportunity and not the end of the world (which is actually too hyperbolic a sentiment in this case). But shit like me somehow scraping through the first plank day makes me go "how the fuck did I do that." soysaucevictim.tumblr.com/post/182889402… Reading that makes me wonder if I should just modify this day's workout in some way. Just to get through the damn thing with some credit. I know DAREBEE is all about accessibility and they don't hold it against you if you do need to modify. I've done it before.

Question remains, how would I go about it. Do I... - Allow knees to drop occasionally - Make some of the planks full planks (arms straight) - Or extend the rest periods out (tho FC's structure is about active rest - not sure how sustainable even slow jacks are gonna be)

Wound up spending time after those tweets just putting away laundry and getting notes together for my appointment tomorrow.

Mar 5:

Been up since almost 8AM. Was busy today... and super exhausted after everything.

Was picked up to get to my doctor appointment this morning. Voiced various concerns. Got a prescription [or really a recommendation, since it was OTC] for some earwax clearing solution, since it turns out there was some notable buildup and it probably contributed to ETD and tinnitus symptoms. (Amongst a few other things, but this helped to give me some clarity.)

Got to the facility... and experienced a panic episode over almost losing my Miniday Log to Excel crashing and unsuccessfully recovering it on it’s own. Couldn’t find it in the directory and noticed a few TMP files (with random strings of letters and numbers as filenames) in it’s place (date modified clued me into what I was actually looking at). Telling Excel to Open & Repair managed to be the fix. I was so relieved to’ve figured it out.

Doing the DD afterwards did help to calm my nerves a good deal (as well as Jewel Quest & socializing). 2′ leg extensions with EC (”donkey kicks”). Doing this DD also helped me feel a bit less restless afterwards. I counted exactly 100 reps, this time. A few false starts because I needed to cushion my knees, one being bruised from previous injuries. But yeah, I did enjoy doing this one.

Next, went to my psychiatrist appointment. Which went well enough, especially after some clarity from previous doctor’s appointment. As a few of my concerns for both overlapped a bit. We decided to stay the course.

Got home a bit late, got hella distracted by the usual, and determined that I was too damn exhausted to workout. (Used the ear drops a couple times, spaced out. That was fucking weird in the sensory department - but I felt it helpful!)

Mar 6:

Been up since about 2PM (did get up some hours earlier, but decided I was too tired to stay up, esp after meds and breakfast.)

I spent almost my entire day playing games and watching YouTube. But I was goaded into playing some cards and I did get in my exercise for the day.

First, today’s DD. 20 supermen with EC. Rather late. I just wound up getting distracted by games... but got this one done without any issue.

Second, Day 19 of the FCP. The dreaded plank work. I decided I would allow myself to be okay with dropping my knees if I felt I had to. Did better than the past few attempts, got about halfway into the last set before I had to do that. I think too, that the ear drops helped. Acceptable performance. :P

Third, Day 20 of the FCP. Tendon strength work. Honestly the only tough part was the frontal holds, as opposed to the lateral ones. But as usual, I greatly enjoy this type of workout! :D

Last, Days 19+20 of the TYTC. Breezy fun, as usual. I like doing this challenge a bunch! =w=

I don’t feel like wrestling with my phone (yesterday it shut down constantly) to meditate tonight. Will be winding down soon.

#adventures with fitness

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royalblurryfacedbastard · 6 years ago

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Today was sorta decent.

I got to school two hours earlier cuz I woke up at 2 am and couldn’t fall back asleep so I just stayed and up and went to school early.

Once there I hung out w AN a bit and I watched the movie I watched this morning on the projector in our classroom so AN watched it a bit w me. Our mentor came by and watched a bit too.

During ensemble I worked on the brockhampton song and also a bit on starboy. It went alright.

I didn’t have much for lunch but I talked to some people during it and then during media production we... didn’t get a lot done honestly. We’re supposed to work on a larger group project but no one’s really paying attention to it. Whatever.

After half an hour in class I had a talk w our mentor cuz we have evaluation talks towards the end of the semester and we talked abt my mental health and school and stuff. She seemed to understand that rn, like with the way my situation is I will probably stay home some days but I’m aware of the things I need to do and work with so it’s not a big problem or anything. After that talk I sorta decided I’m probably staying home tomorrow but we’ll see.

I got home at like 5:30 as usual but this time my dad picked me up from the bus stop cuz ya boi hasn’t slept well and walking home is even more tiring. I got lots of ideas for fanfics I wanna write about characters from 80’s movies or characters I’ve slowly started making based off actors I like (Andrew McCarthy and etc) and if I do stay home tomorrow I’m definitely gonna write stuff.

For now I’ll just rest though and have dinner and then it’s sleepy time 4 me.

#personalstuff

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woojinieemoved · 7 years ago

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crushin’ on you ― pt. 1

member: park woojin || wanna one

genre: fluff fluff fluff

writing type: paragraph

word count: 4.4k

summary: woojin has been crushing on you since forever but you’re super oblivious || highschool!au, older brother!kang daniel

a/n: another reupload lol;;;

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“Y/N!!! HURRY UP OR WE’LL MISS THE BUS!” your brother’s voice yells from downstairs. You stood up late finishing up homework that was due today since you procrastinated watching variety shows for the past couple days and you were attempting to not look bad in a short amount of time.

“I KNOW I KNOW I’M COMING!” You yell back at him, slamming your door shut behind you with your bag in your hand, running quickly down the stairs, almost slipping on the last step.

“Can you be any slower?” your brother teased, giving you a mocking smile.

“Shut up Daniel. I just woke up late.” you say, smacking his arm as you walk past him to get your shoes.

“I saved you a banana since you spent all your time doing your makeup.” he said and placed the curve of the banana on your shoulder where it would lay like a weird shoulder guard. You were too busy trying to put your ridiculously hard to slip on shoes and grunted as thanks.

“Wow I don’t even get a proper thank you. Rude.” he said and opened the door and walked a couple steps forward, turning back around to look at you still putting on your other shoe.

You hear another voice near the gates of your house and you look up while trying to shove your foot into your shoe. “Did you wake up late again?” The all so familiar red-haired boy that lived nearby, Park Woojin, was waiting in front of the gate and greeted Daniel with a low high-five, followed with a fist bump. You rolled your eyes at his comment and the weird greeting that he had with your brother.

You finally got your foot into your dumb shoe and you hopped up, dusting off your uniform and walked outside, shutting and locking the door behind you. You grabbed the banana that was resting on your shoulder and began eating it with a dead look on your face as you walked towards the two boys.

“You look like a gorilla.” Daniel snorted with a huge grin on his face and you hit him immediately, giving him a death glare, continuing to eat your banana.

Woojin stepped back to let the two of you walk out from behind the gates so that you all could start walking to the bus station. “What was the reason for waking up late? Too many variety shows again?” Woojin said and laughed a little, looking down at you to see you glaring at him, a cheek that was a little chubbier because you were chewing the banana.

He laughed even more at how you looked like and you smacked him lightly. You sighed and threw the banana peel in a nearby trashcan. “No it was the negative effects of watching too many variety shows. I didn’t do any of my homework until last night.” You say and stretch your arms up, letting out a long exhale.

“How do you even watch variety shows for 5 days straight?” Daniel said and looked at you with a weirdly judgmental face. “Yah, I don’t judge you for watching a kids show don’t judge me for watching variety shows.” You retorted, glancing at Woojin who was laughing at the sibling bickering.

“It’s not a kids show! You know damn well that everyone loves Power Rangers.” He huffed and nudged you to the side a little too hard (poor baby forgets his own strength sometimes), causing you to lose balance.

At first you thought, “Oh shit please don’t let me fall on my face,” but you were saved by your childhood friend next to you who caught you from your waist. You looked up at him and quickly got back up on your feet a little flustered.

“Thanks Woojin. You saved me from my brother’s monstrous shove.” You say, making a joke so that you didn’t look embarrassed. He coughs a little and forces a small laugh, feeling a little embarrassed that he grabbed you by your waist, his face a little red. Daniel gives a wink at Woojin when you were looking away and quickly turns to you saying, “Yah, clumsy girl,” pretending as if neither of you were flustered.

The wink that Daniel gave just made Woojin more embarrassed and he turned his head, lifting his arm and scratching the back of his head to cover his red face. Lucky for Woojin, Daniel’s remark at you made you turn away from Woojin since you had to give your dumb brother another glare again. He was having fun teasing both his little sister and friend (obv), but he decided to cool it down with it since it was only the morning.

The three of you arrive in the nick of time at the bus station, lightly jogging to get to the door and climbing on, finding some empty seats not too far from the door of the bus. You and Woojin sat down while Daniel stood next to you guys, holding onto the railing connected to the top of the bus. You were still tired from staying up, only getting about 4 hours of sleep. It took at least 15 minutes for the bus to get to your school depending on how the traffic is.

Since you sat next to the window, you found yourself staring blankly out of it, watching everything pass by slowly and then quickly and sometimes stopping. You were already leaning back against your chair and your eyes felt heavy, your blinking becoming more often until your eyes were completely shut.

Woojin and Daniel were having a conversation about b-boying that were weren’t that interested in, so that just made you more sleepy. Daniel saw you falling asleep since he was basically hovering over you and Woojin being the tall boy he is. He signaled Woojin to look to his right with his head and eyes with a huge grin on his face. If it weren’t obvious enough, Daniel was basically you and Woojin’s biggest shipper ever since Woojin told him that he liked you. Woojin was a little confused why he was signaling to look next to him, but when he felt something warm hit against his arm before he could even turn his head, his eyes went completely wide, glancing down to see you leaning on him.

He flipped his head back and forth at you and Daniel clearly panicking, Daniel trying to not laugh his ass off with airy laughs and with his usual grandpa-like smile. Woojin’s face quickly turned red as he was able to smell your perfume a lot more and seeing your sleeping face, your hair slowly falling down, covering little parts of your face.

He mouthed, “What do I do???” at Daniel who seemed to gain great pleasure at seeing him panic just because you fell asleep on him. “Just stay like that until we get to school.” Daniel whispered and laughed immediately seeing a distraught look on Woojin’s face. He eventually calmed down (but not really lol) and tried his best to stay still so that you could sleep comfortably.

He would often look down to look at your face, appreciating your beauty and thinking about how cute your sleeping face looked and the small breaths that you took while you slept. Daniel was just on his phone since he knew Woojin would be too busy looking at you when an idea popped up in his mind. He hid his mischievous smile behind his phone screen and pulled up his camera app, snapping pictures of what was happening at the moment.

Since Woojin was too distracted by you, he didn’t notice that Daniel was taking pictures until he sent it to him. He felt buzzing in his pocket and he carefully pulled it out of his pocket with his free arm and checking the message from “Daniel-Hyung.” His mouth dropped as soon as he saw the pictures and he glared at Daniel. Daniel pretended that he wasn’t paying attention, focusing it all on his phone.

Woojin’s Phone

New Text Message From: Daniel-Hyung

D: you’re welcome ;)

W: I actually hate you so much rn

D: you should be thanking me right now

D: you 2 look cute like this <3<3<3

W: ST O P

D: c’mon i have some great photography skills

D: i know you’re gonna save the pic later stop trying to act like you arent

W: shut up

In reality, Woojin was obviously super thankful for the picture and what Daniel said was right; he was going to save it later and cherish forever. The bus ride went on for about 8 more minutes until it finally arrived near the school. Woojin looked over to see you still sleeping and he didn’t want to wake you up. He sighed a little and shook his shoulder a little.

“Y/n wake up. We’re here already.” he said near your ear softly, causing you to groan a little because you didn’t want to get up.

“Hurry up and wake up sleepy head.” Daniel said, flicking your forehead softly. You slowly sat up straight and let out a big yawn, your eyes opening, squinting at the sudden ray of sunlight in your eyes as you sat up. You were too drowsy to comprehend anything besides getting off the bus and you looked at Woojin who was still really red. You widened your eyes to try to wake up but ended up squinting at Woojin who was getting up from his seat and grabbing his bag that was on the ground in between his feet.

“Woojin why do you look like a chili pepper.” you said drowsily and giggling right after. Daniel snorted and grabbed your bag for you, pinching your nose a little. “You’re still asleep loser.” You made a biting motion near his hand so that he would pull his hand away from your nose and frowned at him.

The three of you got off the bus along with other students that rode the same bus, Daniel plopping your bag on your head, not letting go until you grabbed it yourself. Finally getting into the school building, Daniel went a separate way since he was a couple years older and had a different class. You and Woojin on the other hand were the same age so you had class together. You let out another yawn as you two walked to your class.

“Geez, how much sleep did you actually get last night?” he asked with a smirk on face, enjoying the face you made as you yawned. “I dunno like… 4 hours?” you said trying to remember what time you fell asleep. You instead remember falling asleep on the bus and you look up at Woojin walking beside you.

“Did I fall asleep on you in the bus?” you ask staring straight at him, waiting for an answer. He flinched a little and avoided any eye contact with you so that he didn’t get any redder than he already was. “Y-Yeah. It’s alright though. I wasn’t bothered.” he said with a shy smile, his snaggletooth showing a little bit. You smiled when he said he didn’t mind. In all honesty, you felt really comfortable leaning against him that it kept you asleep for the rest of the bus ride and clarifying that you did in fact fall asleep on him made you blush.

“Well thanks for lending me your shoulder heh.” you said in a playful and pushed his arm softly, looking up at him with a childish smile to try to break the awkward silence. Usually Woojin was quiet, but not THIS quiet, especially around you. You and Daniel had known Woojin since elementary because he moved in a couple houses away from you, so the three of you basically went everywhere together. Woojin was obviously shy when you guys first met, but he started to grow up and be apart of your life everyday which also caused your families to get closer to each other. Sometimes Woojin would come over to sleep over and sometimes you and Daniel (or just Daniel) would go over to his house to sleep over. You essentially became each other’s second homes and people would find it strange if the three of you weren’t always together.

You two arrive at your classroom and separate to go to your own group of friends. You get a huge hug from one of your friends and start having conversations about how you needed to stay up to finish assignments and any recent news that you both would be interested in. Woojin had his own little group in the class, but since he was always around you, he also befriended some of your friends.

Even in his little group, he was his usual quiet self, occasionally laughing at whatever his friends were talking about or adding on a little bit to it with small comments, but he would always find time to glance up at you, keeping images of you laughing and just being yourself, adding onto new behaviors that he hasn’t seen before. He started taking little notes about you in his mind around middle school when he was starting to see you as more as a close neighborhood friend, thanking whenever you would be in the same class throughout the years.

It wasn’t too long ago when he talked with Daniel about his growing crush on you, Daniel not being to surprised. He remembered what Daniel’s first words to him after he confessed his feelings were just, “You just noticed that now? It’s about time.” He laughed to himself about it, his friends teasing him and asking what he was laughing about.

The time of socializing comes to an end when the bell rings and everyone goes back to their assigned seats as the teacher comes inside with a folder in their hand to take role. You often dozed off during the teacher’s lesson causing you to get yelled at when the teacher noticed you weren’t paying attention, making you embarrassed as some of your classmates look at you and laugh a little.

You go throughout the day drowsily, the bell finally ringing for the school day to be over. Sighing in relief and stretching your arms and legs in your seat, slouching to put your head back, closing your eyes. You felt a soft flick on your forehead, opening your eyes in irritation to see who did that. Woojin was standing over you, looking at you with his puppy eyes.

“We gotta meetup with Daniel so we don’t miss the bus.” You sighed and quickly got up from your chair, collecting your things and putting them in your bag. Woojin stood by and watched you fumble, holding back small laughs whenever you would drop something constantly and get irritated whenever it would slip out of your hand.

Finally getting your belongings together, you and Woojin head towards the door to leave the classroom and walked down the hallway to meetup with Daniel near the exit of the school. You let out a loud exhale causing Woojin to look at you.

“I can’t wait to get home. I want to take a nap.” Woojin laughed a little, agreeing with you. “Yeah you definitely need that nap. I was afraid you were going to slam your head on your desk during class today.” You were a little surprised that he even noticed you doing that and you raised your eyebrow a little.

“Why weren’t you paying attention and looking at me? I need you to pay attention so that you can teach me the lesson later.” You tease, smirking a little. In Woojin’s mind, he panicked when he realized what he said, but was relieved you were being your usual self and making a joke out of it.

“Yeah yeah whatever.” You see Daniel leaning against the wall looking at his phone waiting for the two of you and you walk up to him, hitting the phone softly to scare him which resulted in you being hit on top of the head.

The three of you leave the school building and start heading to the bus stop. “Oh yeah Woojin.” He quickly turned his head after you call him. “I actually do need you to teach me today’s lesson. My notebook is basically empty.” You laugh feeling a little embarrassed. Both him and Daniel sigh in disapproval, shaking their heads, Woojin laughing a little in the end.

“Alright. I’ll go to your guy’s house then.” You jump a little and gave him a quick hug. “Thank youuu!” Daniel looked at Woojin to see if he had any reaction to your hug, giving him a teasing smile. Woojin’s face turned a little red and when Daniel smiled at him like that, he glared at him.

You finally get home, immediately plopping onto the couch, groaning into the pillow your face landed on. Daniel walked over to one of the house cats, Rooney, and picked her up and plopped onto the other couch that was in the living room. Your mom greeted the three of you as you walked inside, going over to give Woojin a hug and asking him how he was.

“Mom, Woojin needs to help me with classwork.” You muffled and turned your head to look at them. She stopped the small talk with him and pat his shoulder, her eyes saying, “Good luck” in a worrying way. He shyly laughed at your mom’s jab at you and walked towards you where you were still lying dead on the couch.

“Are you gonna fall asleep again or are you gonna learn so you don’t fail the class?” He teased, causing you to roll off the couch slowly and reach your arms up for him to help you up, Woojin already used to pulling you up like this.

“Alright let’s go to my room then.” You said and started walking in small steps, basically dragging your feet across the floor, letting your socks slide you forward a little on the wooden flooring in your home.

“Yah, you forgot your bag.” Woojin said and pointed at your bag that was plopped near the shoe rack by the door. You already walked so far and you felt really lazy since you were still tired. You looked over your shoulder, giving Woojin a displeased look since you didn’t want to walk all the way back. He gave you a blank stare for a couple of seconds, grabbed the bag, and walked towards you. You gave him a big smile as a thank you and he hid his blushing face by shoving your bag in front of you.

Studying with Woojin was a blessing. After knowing you for so long, he knew how he would have to break down a certain lesson or problem that you needed to learn or were having problems with. Daniel came in with snacks that your mom made for you guys as you studied and he just laid on your bed, watching dance videos on his phone and petting Rooney simultaneously. You guys studied for a couple of hours, having a break since your mom finished making dinner, going back to study for a while longer until you felt like you had a grip on what the lesson was about. It was now around 8 P.M. and you flopped onto the table that the two of you were using, letting out a long sigh of relief.

“God, we studied for so long.” You whined and bent your arm up to move your wrist around, it being sore from writing so much. Woojin leaned back onto the side of your bed and stretched his arms up. “You’re really lucky that you have me to teach you.” he said looking down at you. You turned your head towards him, your face still against the table.

“I really am lucky. I honestly think I would’ve failed a couple of my classes if it weren’t for you,” you laugh and smile a little looking up at him. “Thank you Woojin.” The sincere “thank you” he suddenly received made him shy, a wide smile smeared across his face and his hand ruffling his hair a little.

“Cute,” you thought as you saw Woojin get nervous and you quickly look at something else, realizing what you thought. “Did I just think Woojin was cute in a non-brotherly way.” You sat up quickly and slapped around your surroundings in attempt to find your phone, finally grabbing it where it was hiding under your thigh and turned the screen on to check the time.

“A-Ah, you should probably head home. It’s pretty late.” You stutter and started to clean up the cluster of papers, books, and sticky notes that was on the table. Woojin grabbed his phone to check the time as well and nodded in agreement. Your hands would occasionally brush past each other, making the both of you blush slightly and more nervous.

You waited next to Woojin as he slipped his shoes on, reaching out to open the front door until your mother called his name, walking towards him. She was holding a bag and handed it to him.

“Here. Have these as thanks for teaching y/n constantly. I don’t know what I would do without you helping her.” You glared at your mother when she made that remark and glanced over to see what she gave Woojin. He opened the bag and saw fruits ( imagine whatever fruit ), making you whistle in approval. Woojin thanked her and waved goodbye when she walked back to the living room.

You slipped on some shoes and followed Woojin outside to keep him a little more company before he walked home, stopping in front of the gate of your house. “I hope you know I’m really grateful that you always help me out.” You say to him, your arms behind your back and hands fiddling with each other. He smiles and looks down a little feeling a little flustered. Honestly, whenever you complimented Woojin, he would always feel flustered and his face would turn the slightest shade of red. You smirk a little seeing his reaction and poke his chest.

“C’mon. Hurry and start walking home.” You look up and stare at him, studying his facial features. You always liked seeing the little mole that he had on the side of his head and you loved the shape of his eyes. They always look pure in a way and his personality lives up to it.

“Okay. I’ll get going now. Tell your mom thanks for the fruits again.” He said waving goodbye before turning around to head off towards his house which wasn’t too far from yours. You waved back and watched him get farther away.

“Get home safe!” You yell loud enough for him to hear so that you didn’t disturb the neighborhood. He turned and waved again with a smile while walking forward, almost walking into a trash can when he turned back around. You snorted and watched him walk away for another couple seconds before going back inside the house. You go into your room flopping your body onto your bed and grabbed the plushie next to you to hug, reaching over to get your phone and unplugging it from your charger.

To: Wooooooojin

You: are you home yet???

WJ: yeah just got into my room lol

You: ok good. Don’t want you dying or getting abducted or I’ll fail my classes

WJ: wow that’s what you worry about? Rude

You: of course ;)

WJ: You should sleep soon too. Make up for the sleep you barely got

You: okay mom whatever you say

WJ: don’t call me mom thats gross

You: hehehe okay. Do you want me to call you mother instead

WJ: just s t o p

You: lmao fine. I’ll go to sleep super early then like you said

WJ: alright. Goodnight y/n.

You: goodnight!!

You place your phone on your chest and looked up at the ceiling, bringing your phone back up to your face to text your friend.

To F/N (Friend’s Name//Feel free to use whoever you want to use as your friend! ^^)

You: F/N!!!!!! Emergency!!!!!!

F: what hwaht waht ????

You: so uh i just thought that woojin was cute today while he was helping me with homework. Like romantically??

F: dont you usually think that when youre dating someone

You: what

You: what are you talking about

F: wait you and woojin aren’t dating??

You: no????

F: oh my god i thought you two were a couple this whole time

You: whAT MADE YOU THINK THAT

F: you two are constantly around each other and woojin is always looking at you during class

You: we’re childhood friends so we’re super close and what really

F: yeah???? How do you not notice that especially when you see him everyday. He gets shy around you whenever you talk to him too

You: idk i dont pay that much attention leave me alone. And ofc hes a shy person

F: i dont mean like that. Like that shy feeling whenever youre around your crush.

You: ok yeAH BUT IM STILL REALLY CONFUSED BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE WAS CUTE AND I USUALLY DONT THINK LIKE THAT

F: what do you mean

You: i mean… we’ve known each other since kindergarten. It was always me, him, and daniel together constantly so i basically thought of him as another brother

F: yikes dont say that to him

You: i never really considered about liking him??

F; well you should start considering right now. Its pretty obvious that he likes you yaknow

You: alright alright… i’ll think about it more.

You: i’m going to sleep now. Studying for hours on 4 hours of sleep isnt really doing me well rn

F: okay. Goodnight y/n !

You: goodnightt f/n i’ll see you tomorrow

You exit out of your texting app and stared at your wallpaper which was a picture of you, Daniel, and Woojin together at an amusement park. You find yourself staring at the section where Woojin was and you lock the screen of the phone. Your arms spread out, letting out a big sigh.

“Do I like Woojin? He likes me... ? I didn’t even notice.” You thought, grabbing another doll that was sitting on your bed, squishing it. You eventually fall asleep, the last bits of your energy being used on thinking about what your friend said and trying to remember whenever Woojin got embarrassed just because of your very presence.

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chenlays · 7 years ago

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I request a scenario where you, sam/foot/weeb, get to marry the love of ur life chenle

thank u for discussing this w me I’m gonna cry r u ready for this NOBODY ASKED BUT IM GIVING

• y'all know I love my bby chenle right ?? • ok so I’m on my phone doing this I’m h u Rt• but aNYWAYS • I would marry him like 59 times and ?? I’d still be happy that’s good• ok so just he’s rly cute and I’d buy lots of cats and just bury him in kitties and I would cry actual tears of joy that’s a pile of amazing• and ?? Like y Es I would totally be up 4 going out to get sweets at like 2am and just sitting out at night and eating them and talking about life• also oHMY g o d I love breakfast u know just pls I’ll make u breakfast every morning with ur fav even if I have to wake up at 4am or travel 5 miles by walking BYE • I’m probs the most annoying person ever and I’ll just literally shower him in love and just literally every 5 minutes ask him if he’s ok• also I am rly affectionate just l o v e me and keep me warm pls I’m cold all the time• I’m also that cliche bich that takes sweaters and hides them in a secret closet (´ｰ｀)• this is fun• look chenle bby pls if ur ever sad I will cry too and just h u g the pain away and love u okay• also protec u with my life• I’ll buy cute lil cat pajamas for u bby I love u• I’m actually sobbing why did u sarcastically ask this radish• my dream is to actually live in Iceland but I will sacrifice for him• like sure we can live in china if u want idc• also I just wanna b a veterinarian • u know how many cute lil animals I’d have omGG• just havin like 28 parakeets and they’re all just o u t and he’s runnin n screaming everywhere SO CU TE• also stress• but I mean I love him with all my heart like,,,yes release the keets if it makes u happy• ice cream like once a week tho pls• I want that to be my religion• J U ST eatin ice cream n walkin around to look at stuff and just BUying everything • also pls,,,gimme ur nose it’s rly cute bby• u guys I’m tearing up the more I think about him the more love I feel• he just too cute• id probs pay him for a bunch of solos （╹◡╹）♡• wakin up to hear him screeching chewing gum I AM A L I VE• als o just constantly me having to stay away once a week to silently sob• y'all He is p e r fect • “uhm why do u have 600 pictures of an Asian guy with u all the time”• “yeah sorry gtg something came up”• OMG • I literally am so fascinated with spiders• and he’s scared of them aw babs that’s cute• if u see a tiny jumping spider to a huge as fuk tarantula gET ME!!!• the cutest thing ever would just be him SCREECHING because I’m holding a tiny lil spider in my hand just crawling everywhere • can I mention cats again• I am a strong believer in cats soothing your heart and protecting you from heart problems• literally I will spend 10mil to make a cat a service cat for him 🙃• like,,,,if ur scared here’s a cute kitty to purr n make u smile• also endless supply of love from me I’m full of it• I never stop feeling love this is a fact• I am also a good listener and 99.9% reliable with secrets• u ate marks fav cookie??? Don’t worry hun I’ll never tell• also I will literally b rich if I’m a veterinarian so I’m going to a new country every other month• forcibly pushin out that home• pls,,,come to Russia with me I can speak Russian bb • honestly when I’m 25 what can’t I do• I WANT GIANT PUPPERS OMG THEYRE LIKE THE SIZE OF ME NOW• c. Henle riding on a giant Caucasian ovcharka just scremaign and being happy that’s so fukin cu t e• literally take my s o u l I love u• this is re a l LY long I’ll edit it tomorrow I G• but also just I wanna pinch his cheeks and sMOOSH them together and make him happy that’s so wonderful • lele with smooshed cheeks ::))• also like 4993020 lil cheek smooches FUC• I shed a tear I would be so s h y tbh I don’t act like it• I’d probs be that person who has to ask for a hug• I see so many people talking about backhugs for chenle and I would love lt that’s so adorable• also I wanna be bigger than him • like taller ig ??• I like to be big spoon !! Fun fact • I like to snuggle up to ppl rather than snuggle into them• kitty cuddles aw• pls I like to play with hair and snuggle and just squeeze occasionally it’s so sweet• also literally a separate drawer for cat socks • probably just buying like 500 presents for Christmas just for him u know• also that birthday• pls lemme just drag u around lil cute shops and buy u literally anything u want• just luv me and hug me n hold my hand I will be 1056% content• oh I’m crying??? Didn’t notice I was too busy lookin at u smile• ommmmmm I would definitely go to roller coasters with him just for that cute squeal• not if he’s scared• I’ll protect u bby ily• I’ll protect from everything • I can’t fight tho I’ll learn for u• I actually have 37 wallets with just pics I show to people • I don’t like a lot of pda just hold m Y hand thx ❤️• literally I hope I have like 50 succulents just at my job • omg what if he sent cute lil notes in my pocket or food just to say “I hope ur day is amazing!! ily!!”• if that happened • “hey there did u know I am in love wit h zhong chenle”• radish I’ll b at ur house w hyuck a lot just to talk abt happiness• BOY DO I HAVE SOME SOFT STUFF FOR U• frick omg cuteness!!! sittin outside in the middle of fall with kitty print scarves and cute gloves and fluffy sweaters and just sitting in the dark and cuddling to stay warm • just out to look at the stars• silence is so beautiful and that silence is amazing • or “cloud” gazing• his imagination would be so adorable• comin home to literally 60 pillows in every room• “uh bb what’s this??”• “pls shush n stop being mEAN I didn’t know what to DO”• omgmgm im so sappy I’d send cute short letters to him all the time • if I got them back I’d s c r e a m• eating a samich or smth and reading it and just almost suffocating • also I’m sleepy af rn and it reminds me• I love laying on laps or having ppl laying on my lap so I can play with hair• pls let me nap on ur lap and just literally encase myself in my big af pink rainbow sweater • it covers everything but my legs• I would be so warm w him I’m sobbing• huggin me while I’m nap on the lap• I am so soft for this• sending selcas every few hours just because• literally no I won’t send my ugly• but sweetie pls send all of urs I will s OB and frame literally all of them• more lap naps• just gimme hugs and lemme smooch ur nose and cry myself into a nap on ur lap • I’m really tired • I can’t think anymore and I’m so soft right now• so here’s the hcs about the marriage id want with the bby I can’t have that nobody asked for•my e yes•ok sorry ily• i also love u radish sm❤️• n chenle babs, bby, sweetie, hun,,,I’m literally cryin for u 💚

#ok so I'm crying #this was too precious to write #I want this in my life #a lot tbh #chenle is the only o n e I'll take :)))#nct is too good to be true #tagging this so everyone sees how much I love him #nct dream #me #ugly #jenzo #fuk I'm so #tired #thank u autocorrect #sorry radish #ask #pcypaige #chenle #ocean

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tinykawaiisatan · 7 years ago

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85 Statements Tag!

Alright so i was tagged by several people a couple days ago, but i was too lazy to complete this at the time. bUT IM NOT NOW SO HERE WE GOOOO

The Last :

1.) drink: Dr Pepper 2.) phone call: A Discord call with a friend while we watched Noragami Aragato together 3.) text message: @batmans-sister 4.) song you listened to: Diamond Sky - Elliot Berger

5.) time you cried: It was recent but idr why I cried???

6.)dated someone twice: Never .w. If we broke up there was a reason. 7.) kissed someone and regretted it: Uhhhh back in middle school I think? Dude was a prick. 8.) been cheated on: :> Yupp. 9.) lost someone special: Yes. 10.) been depressed: Middle School and High School was rough. 11.) gotten drunk and thrown up: Not of age, and I don’t plan on drinking, so..

3 favorite colors:

12.) Emerald Green 13.) Black 14.) Light Blue

In the Last year have you:

15. made new friends: Yea .w. 16. fallen out of love: Nah. Haven’t bothered with dating since Junior year. 17. laughed until you cried: Yes quite often haha 18. found out someone was talking about you: This morning actually :> 19. met someone who changed you: .... e.e Not really. 20. found out who your friends are: I’ve known. 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: I’m sure.

General

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t have Facebook friends that I don’t know irl 23. do you have any pets: My cat and my parents’ dog. I used to have a dog and another cat, plus two leopard geckos, and 3 bettas. But they all passed away before we moved ... 24. do you want to change your name: Never~ 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I slept. It was just a normal day tbh. 26. what time did you wake up: About 11 AM I think. 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Drawing I think. 28. name something you can’t wait for the announcement for: New season of Servamp. that’ll be a while tho. 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 9pm. So like 5 hours ago. 31. what are you listening to right now: Yellow - Coldplay 32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: People on Overwatch and other games. but eh. It happens. 34. most visited website: Tumblr, Discord, and Youtube. 35. hair color: Purple and black. (Black roots, purple ends) 36. long or short hair: Short 37. do you have a crush on someone: Nope~ Well sorta but not in the traditional way I suppose. 38. what do you like about yourself: I try my best to be a good firend. 39. piercings: None. Can’t be bothered to mess with them tbh. 40. blood type: No clue :3 41. nickname: the list could go on forever. (Stan, Satan, Tiny, Kawaii, Karma, Sleepy, Dying... depends on the site I’m on.) 42. relationship status: Single and ready to stay that way. 43. zodiac: Cancer 44. pronouns: She/Her .w. 45. favourite tv show: I don’t watch T.V. But I watch an ass ton of anime so... I can’t pick one tbh. 46. tattoos: None 47. right or left handed: Right handed. 48. surgery: Tonsils :P 50. sport: I was in dance, then soccer, then swimming, then realized I hated sports. 51. vacation: What about it? 52. pair of trainers: I wear boots.

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: ...String cheese... 54. drinking: water 55. about to: upload my new icon 56. waiting for: my ass to get tired enough to sleep 57. want: More Kuro and other SERVAMP merch. (And the new Mercy and Sombra Skins >A<) 58. get married: Idk maybe. 59. career: I want to design videogame characters :3

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: Hugs. I’m not a kissy person. 61. lips or eyes: Eyes. I love eyes. Theres so many variations and theyre all so cool. Have you heard of heterochromia? It’s a rare genetic--- 62. shorter or taller: Short. I’m fun to hug. 63. older or younger: I prefer being older despite the responsibilities 64. nice arms or nice stomach: ... On myself or other people??? 65. hook up or relationship: ..... Neither? Not rn at least... I’m too busy. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: Ehe... Depends on where I’m at. Discord I’m a trouble maker....

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: Fuck no 68. drank hard liquor: Not 21 yet 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: Nope. One of the few things I’ve never misplaced. 70. turned someone down: Yeh. A good few times. 71. sex on the first date: You’re gonna have to kill me first. I’m not a very sexual person in relationships. 72. broken someone’s heart: Unfortunately. 73. had your heart broken: Hm... yeah once.

74. been arrested: I’m an angel, how dare you accuse me of something like misconduct. 75. cried when someone died: I cry over every fuckin thing, are you kidding me 76. fallen for a friend: e.e ..... Once? I think? No. Nvm he didn’t know I existed xD

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: On good days 78. miracles: Definitely 79. love at first sight: Nah. 80. santa clause: At one point yea 81. kiss on the first date: Maybe? You’d gotta prove yo’self worthy bb. 82. angels: Yes

OTHER:

84. eye color: Green with slight gold centers. 85. favorite movies: Everything Marvel, and Harry Potter was good.

Done~ I’m just gonna say... I tag you if you wanna do it. :>

#about me

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samraclaus · 7 years ago

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Do em all boredom sucks

Thank u lets get personal: send me a number  1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? - Bloom by the paper kites, somebody else by the 1975, beautiful sea from sing street, amnesia by 5sos, tarot by alt-j, and coming up roses from begin again  2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? - either lily Collins, calum hood or Ezra Miller 3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. - “…men have integrated feminist values into their lives, whether or not they use the label, and this is also an important barometer of the impact of feminism." 4: What do you think about most? - certain people in my life or sometimes death tbh  5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?- "me too omg” from Nichole  6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on? - with  7: What’s your strangest talent? - I can imitate people and characters really well but they’re always weird voices  8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence) - girls are beautiful. Boys are confusing but also beautiful.  9: Ever had a poem or song written about you? - no :/ 10: When is the last time you played the air guitar? - literally like an hour ago I do it so often lmao  11: Do you have any strange phobias? - uhhhh I’m afraid of everything  12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? - the only thing that’s been in my nose is a really long qtip at the doctor and never again no thanks that’s scary  13: What’s your religion? - Islam (not religious tho) 14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? - probably taking a walk or going to the park  15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - behind but good candids are the best  16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? - either sir sly  17: What was the last lie you told? - that I was okay and not to worry lmao  18: Do you believe in karma? - kinda yeah  19: What does your URL mean? - my name is samra but it gets autocorrected to Santa so it became a meme in my friend group  20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? - weakness: I guess my anxiety. Strength: staying positive outwardly  21: Who is your celebrity crush? - Ezra Miller and calum hood 💕😭 22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping? - no 23: How do you vent your anger? - I either punch things or just yell at everyone  24: Do you have a collection of anything? - a small collection of mugs! 25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? - hmm both are kinda stressful but I’d probably like video chatting more  26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become? - not at all  27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? - I hate the sound of people chewing. I love the sound of hairdryers and vacuums. They make me sleepy  28: What’s your biggest “what if”? - what if I died? Or. What if I actually told people how I feel? 29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? - yes to both!!! -  30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. - right arm: basket. Left: pillow 31: Smell the air. What do you smell? - nothing really tbh  32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to? - louder than life  33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast? - east! 34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? - Calum lmao  35: To you, what is the meaning of life? - making the most of the time you have even if you mess up along the way. But for a depressing version: you live and then you die. That’s it 36: Define Art. - anything that you make that represents something and you think is beautiful  37: Do you believe in luck? - kinda 38: What’s the weather like right now? - warm  39: What time is it? - 11:39 pm 40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? - not yet  41: What was the last book you read? - cellist of Sarajevo  42: Do you like the smell of gasoline? - love it 43: Do you have any nicknames? - my dad calls me samronis and some people call me sam  44: What was the last film you saw? - uhhhh I think holes (what a night lmao)  45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? - I broke my arm on my scooter  46: Have you ever caught a butterfly? - no, I used to think they were kinda scary. I don’t now but still no  47: Do you have any obsessions right now? - flowers probably  48: What’s your sexual orientation? - bisexual  49: Ever had a rumour spread about you? - I think once in middle school, it was really dumb, someone just said that I said something mean about my friend  50: Do you believe in magic? - not really  51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? - sometimes, but I usually just let it go cause I feel bad lol  52: What is your astrological sign? - taurus  53: Do you save money or spend it? - usually spend :/  54: What’s the last thing you purchased?- sour patch kids  55: Love or lust? - either but love is better  56: In a relationship? - not right now  57: How many relationships have you had? - only a couple  58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue? - no :/ 59: Where were you yesterday? - moving back and forth from my old house to my new house 60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? - literally my entire room lmao  61: Are you wearing socks right now? - always  62: What’s your favourite animal? - guineas 🐹 63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? - I actually don’t have one, I just live my life  64: Where is your best friend? - I have no idea tbh but probably at home  65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. - imsograntired (my sister), blushedaesthetic (erin), granterin (other erin), and basically all of my friends tbh  66: What is your heritage? - Turkish?? 67: What were you doing last night at 12AM? - taking a shower and texting sam  68: What do you think is Satan’s last name? - trump  69: Biggest turn ons? - personality: humor, sarcasm, if you're a good person, cocky but not too much ya know. Physically: tall, nice hands(hands are so important wow 👀) 70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? - eh I guess, I try my best to be a good friend  71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? - SAVE THE DOG WTF ILL LIVE ON THE STREETS WITH HIM  72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? - id probably tell people but make sure they don’t freak out too much and have them so funny things with me b) What do you do with your remaining days? Id do things with my family and friends all day every day and travel a bit if I can. Id tell people what I’ve always wanted to tell them without being scared. c) Would you be afraid? - I’m afraid of what happens after death, if it’s simply nothing, that’s what scares me. It’s impossible for someone to think of what it’s like to be absolutely nothing. I won’t even know I’m nothing because I’ll just be gone. But a big fear is how upset my family would be. I would hate to hurt them like that  73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love. - love  74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? - a beautiful sea from sing street  75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? - 9203 76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? - trust, compatibility, not taking everything seriously  77: How can I win your heart? - be there for me, give me space if I ask for it, talk to me all the time tbh and watch movies with me  78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?- probably  79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? - i haven’t made many good ones so I honestly can’t think of any rn  80: What size shoes do you wear? - 8-9 81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone? - “life is hard when you’re an idiot" 82: What is your favourite word? - UGH I LITERALLY TOLD SULTANA MY FAVORITE WORD YESTERDAY AND I CANT REMEMBER NOW 83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. - love  84: What is a saying you say a lot? - what do I even say ever these are so hard  85: What’s the last song you listened to? - a.m. By 1D  86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours? - dark green and pastel pink 87: What is your current desktop picture? - a picture of me and my friends  88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? - Donald trump  89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? - "do you like ___” I’m weird with this question because even when I do like someone a lot, I just get really scared and end up lying and I hate that about myself. I need to be pushed  90: Turn offs? - not caring about my problems, ignoring me 91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? - reading minds or flying  92: where are your parents from? - Bosnia!  93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? - while my aunt was in the hospital  94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? - definitely calum  95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? - Italy!! 96: Do you have any relatives in jail? - not that I know of  97: Have you ever thrown up in the car? - yes, and right on my sister too. I had too much mayonnaise :/ 98: Ever been on a plane? - yes ugh I hate planes  99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say - i would be too stressed to talk to the whole world so I have no idea

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not-kayleigh · 5 years ago

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for that anon that said to answer all of the ask meme questions

this is for you ~ took a while bc iI had to go back and forth between my laptop and phone (thanks tumblr)

cherry - what is your sexuality?

• answered already (pansexual)

lollipop - favorite makeup products?

• I dont wear makeup very much but I have a Star Wars lipstick from When force awakens came out and it’s really pretty. Also I love messing around with eyeshadow even tho I’m not great at it

daydreams - if you could be anything or anyone, who would you be?

• I think I’d like to be a happier, financially stable, and less existential version of myself

october - what month were you born in?

• August! My 20th birthday is coming up!

caress - do you like to snuggle?

• yes, that’s what the stuffed animals are for

ivory - describe your pajamas?

• hnnng I waver between wearing pajamas and just not wearing them. Rn it’s a pink tank top with hearts all over it and some plaid shorts

golden - favorite stationary product?

• ngl I thought this said sanitary product at first. My favorite stationary product has to be these markers I have. Idk what kind they are but I think they might be bic? They’re pretty basic but I love them

freckles - most-worn article of clothing?

• currently? Probably one of my many pairs of black leggings. Behind that is my denim jacket and my pink denim jacket.

twilight - best friend?

• I have a very good group of best friends ♥️ I think I might be the last one active on tumblr but there’s Jackie, Shiwen, Kasey, Sandi, and Emilee. Love them to bits ♥️♥️

silk - do you like k-pop?

• not really but I haven’t really listened to any k-pop except what my friend (Emilee from the last question) has played. The k-pop fandom intimidates me a bit ngl

poppy - favorite pastel color?

• easy, pastel pink. It’s the same color as my pink denim jacket 💕

dimples - most attractive features of a person’s face?

• I think it differentiates between every persons face but I love a good smile 😊

sunkissed - autumn or spring?

• F A L L 🍂🍁

buttery - favorite snack?

• changes all the time ngl. Rn it’s probably sour cream and cheddar ruffles. Haven’t had them in a while but they’re so good

whisper - how much sleep do you get?

• either too much or not enough. Usually not enough. 4/5 hours a night on average but I can easily stay in bed for 10 hours

pencil - do you own a journal?

• I did as a kid but I mostly doodled in it. I find writing without answering a question to be very difficult. I do try to dream journal on my phone when I have dreams though. I have two on my current phone and two on my old phone. One of them was the “falling in love” dream and the other was like a whole movie. The recent ones on my current phone are a nightmare that started pretty well and ended with me having a panic attack and the other was a very lovely dream where Dan from the Game Grumps and I became friends after trying to find buried treasure. It was a cool dream 😎

cupcake - are you a good cook?

• I think I have the potential to be a good cook. I don’t really like cooking with meat bc I feel like I’m gonna mess something up. I love baking though!!

honey - favorite term of endearment?

• honey 🍯 🐝

clouds - describe one of your favorite dreams?

• done already (one where I fell in love)

velvet - who was your first crush?

• oh gosh, if we’re going really far back to my first it’d have to be my first (and only) “””boyfriend””” when I was 4 years old. His name was Tommy

paper - favorite children’s book?

• that’s really difficult for me bc I work at a library and find really good children’s books all the time. But from my childhood I have fond memories of Goodnight Moon

Peaches - do you have a skincare routine?

• skin care? Never heard of her. (I wear chapstick sometimes, does that count?)

mochi - favorite studio ghibli film?

• answered already (not sure where to start tbh)

backyard - did you ever have an imaginary friend?

• yes! I think her name was Michelle (my moms name bc I’m very original) and she had a pet bulldog.

strawberry - favorite fruit?

• I love apples so much hnnng can’t wait til fall and I can go apple picking again

kiss - have you ever kissed a friend?,

• yes I’ve kissed at least two of my friends. One was the “let’s get the whole first kiss out of the way right now” kind of kiss and the others were platonic kisses with my oldest friend of about 15 years.

nightlight - do you read before bed?

• I used to! Reading helps make me tired and used to help me go right to sleep. Now I work in a library and when I work a double shift I get really sleepy. Also sometimes I read fanfics before bed

shampoo - favorite scent?

• I have so many it’s insane. There’s two scents that are very nostalgic to me and idk what I’d call them necessarily. One is the smell of the cabin I used to stay in at Lake George that had a very particular smell that I could never place. The other is the smell of when you’re approaching the beach and can smell the sand and ocean in the air.

skin - what distant relative are you closest to?

• I don’t really have any “distant” relatives that I’m close to but I’m really close to my cousin Becky. We’re basically sisters that see eachother when one of us visits the others state.

aphrodite - favorite actress/actor?

• I have a lot and it changes a lot. Right now… I really love Anne Hathaway and Keanu Reeves.

cuddles - do you have any pets?

• I used to have a cat named Bailey but he passed away a few months ago. He was a precious baby. It still hurts to think about him not being here but I’m slowly getting better.

lace - if you own any dresses, which is your favorite?

• I wish I owned more dresses I felt comfortable wearing. My favorite dress is my first prom dress that was black and faded into a colorful ombré. It’s such a beautiful dress. My favorite dress that I wear as much as I can is this black velvety one that has skulls in the details

sheets - sanrio or san-x characters?

• answered already (Gudetama 🥚)

cream - frozen yogurt flavor?

• answered already (chocolate or phish food)

watermelon - do films ever make you cry?

• yes! I get attached to characters pretty easily so when there’s emotional stuff happening I might cry!!

sapphos - favorite poet?

• not sure if I have one at the moment but I used to have an E. E. Cummings poetry book that I liked

plush - how many stuffed animals do you still own?

• answered already (too many)

roses - what flower do you find most beautiful?

• oh gosh I really love flowers. I really have a soft spot for hydrangeas

sweetheart - favorite mug/cup?

• hnnngggg I have a lot of mugs… I have to think for a second… ok so I collect mugs so I’m not gonna pick a mug but a goblet I own. I had a goblet that has unicorns on the sides. Also has a metal inside so I can put hot beverages in it?

sunset - what are your pronouns?

• she/her but I’m also okay with they/them

#long post #about me #about-me #ask meme

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