#I’m really running away with these tags but they’re applicable lmao

[nelavili]

I'm still processing Season 6 and as an unpopular opinion I'm not too happy about it as a whole. I feel horrible for not enjoying it as much as the Cast/Crew would like me to, but I just can’t change this feeling I have.

Just to clear my head I'll write the things down that irked me. I don't want to start any discussion, they're only my thoughts on stuff ‘n thangs. Huge spoilers ahead, please don’t read if you haven’t watched.

Michael

I admit it, I have probably more sympathy for the bad twin than I should. And after the whole S5 I thought we get a bit more closure with him. I didn’t expect a redemption arc, after Michael killed Remiel, Dan and Chloe it would have felt wrong. But after the “Everyone deserves a second chance” the dude is down in hell, scrubbing the floor with a toothbrush. Really, Lucifer? That’s cruel after such a righteous line.

When Luci realized he could help everyone, even if he hated them, I hoped for a dive into the twins’ relationship but it was like Michael didn’t even existed anymore. And if someone needed therapy it would be the twin with the huge inferior complex. That could have been so interesting. (I had hoped that he'd sat on the couch at the end, but noooo we get the Frenchman.. such a disappointment.)

Maybe Tom Ellis didn’t want to play 2 roles again, or there was no time, but I feel that was a huge opportunity wasted.

What even was the plan of Michael? To get God to retire and wreck havoc on earth to get Dad back, so Mickey can take over as the new God? And then what? Wipe out humanity? I see no endgame here.

Ella

I liked Ella’s Story so far. But she stole the personal file of Carol and even broke into his house.. and everybody is cool with this? Carol might be crushing on Ella pretty hard but if somebody tells you they broke into your house, because they feared you were hiding something bad, You run for the hills. But the dude isn’t even phased.

I’m glad Carol is a good guy, though. Even if he’s kind of bland.

Ella finding out the truth on her own came out of nowhere. I would have found it better if they would have her act a little suspicious over the whole S5. But since they wrote S6 while S5 was shot, a little to late for this.

The scene at the wedding was amazing. I had so much fun with her outburst there.

Dan

Ghost!Dan was my favorite by far in this season. And I really liked how he wanted to help and tried to find out what he still felt guilty about.

I am so glad he got to spend his afterlife with Charlotte and I laughed so hard with the pudding. Didn’t expect that, in a positive matter. :D

The scene with Trixie killed me. Bawled so hard as soon as Kevin got teary eyes. That really gripped at my heartstrings.

But how could he go to heaven while in a body of a killer when his daughter stands right next to that killer?

Comedy-wise Dan is top notch

Trixie

I missed her so much.

It felt like she was an afterthought with everything. She recently lost her Dad and Chloe spends most of the time with Lucifer. I really missed the scenes with her and Luci, they always were so adorable.

They explain it later that she’s at a science camp, but I honestly thought Chloe chooses Lucifer (and later Rory too) over her.

She wasn’t at Chloe’s deathbed but here I’m not sure if the scene with Rory isn’t placed somewhere at the threshold to heaven where only celestials are able to enter. But if she wasn’t there because Chloe sidelined her in favor of Rory, then I can understand her absence.

Linda

I love Linda, she always gives good advice but nobody’s ever took it.

Her book probably would fly under the fantasy tag if she ever published it. Still, it felt cringey.

It was so sad that she thought she was a bad therapist.

Apparently she wants to keep helping celestials because it’s better than helping humans. In the end, celestials have the same problems as humans just on a bigger scale. But okay.

Amenadiel

Amenacop was good, and a nice nod to Dan who put in the application.

It made him realize that he only can change things when he has more power. I’m white and no american so I don’t know if the BLM theme there was well enough executed. Got me wondering.

The apocalypse just being Angels who are incompetent was a letdown. Like this whole season.

I really like him as god. And I am glad he took the position in the end. Even if he could have decided this a bit earlier.

Rory

I like her sarcasm and her character.

Didn’t like the whole time travel, time loop and daughter spiel. I’m not a big fan of time travels or couples getting a kid just for the sake of a happy end or to add extra drama. I could have lived without a Deckerstar baby. Instead they could have focused on Trixie for a change.

The time she spent with Lucifer on the 4th August was precious though.

How in hell did the Frenchman capture her? How did he even know how she looked? IIRC Dan hasn’t seen Rory while in that body. Dan just went over to Trixie that’s why I thought he’d capture her and not Rory.

Lucifer

He found his calling to help the souls in hell only because Rory traveled back in time? No man, he already took the step with Jimmy Barnes in preparation to take over as god. I don’t think it’s far fetched to believe that he would have the same epiphany without Rory there.

But without Rory, he wouldn’t have been helping Ghost!Dan to go to heaven. Though, before Rory traveled back in time, Lucifer was already trying to help Dan. They probably would have needed more time to figure out about what Dan felt guilty about, but figure it out anyways.

How did he even got Chloe pregnant? Was it his subconscious deciding he was ready to be a father? Amenadiel had to believe that he was human to get Linda pregnant. Or maybe it’s because they always thought they couldn’t impregnate a human and self-actualized it that way. Anyways, it’s a tiny hang-up I have with it.

Somebody else besides me thought that the scene in the panic room was awkwardly long? I know they thought Lucifer would vanish somehow, but it seemed too much to me.

His singsong while the magician talked about the trick. :D

I don’t want to even get into the whole time loop thing because I think it’s ridiculous(ly bad).

It took a lot of time for him to realize that he didn’t want to be god, after he put it on hold for a second time. Even Chloe could have asked him if that is really what he wanted. Could have spared us an episode or so. Why is the communication on this show so bad? Q.Q

I loved that he helped Maze with Eve to get the wedding back on after their fight.

He didn’t say goodbye to Trixie  - again. What a nice step-devil..

It’s been Chloe, Rory and his family since he found out she’s his daughter. Not even mentioning the one kid who probably loved him before even Chloe fell for him.

For someone who is all about free will and led a rebellion against God for it, he was quick to accept that he has a “fate”. I thought he’d find another way, or at least try to. Nope, he just did what his child wanted. And they disguised it at his “choice”. Doesn’t look like a choice to me if your daughter begs you for it and you have to promise it. Just getting along with what your child wants.

Why does everyone need to shoot him? Just cut him until he bleeds. The Americans and their fixation on guns. Nice parallel to Chloe though.

Lucifer trying to fix the relationship to Rory with gifts was so cringey. I don’t know why but I couldn’t watch him sing/dance in that scene.

Both him and Amenadiel didn’t want to become like their Dad because of the reasons stated in S5, yet Lucifer exactly did. Another letdown.

 

Chloe

As soon as she knew Rory was her and Lucifer’s daughter it was all only about Lucifer and Rory. No thought of Trixie? I understand she was worried about being a bad mother to Rory, but come on, you’re being a bad mother to your first child right now.

She was ready to go to heaven with Lucifer. And Trixie does what exactly without her parents? Living with her Grandma because one of her parent died and the other one is abandoning her? It’s like the writers forgot about Trixie while forcing Rory on us.

The addiction to the necklace got old pretty fast.

And that whole fight against Lucifer felt unnecessary just to add more drama.

She gets mad at Lucifer for not telling her everything while not telling him that she went back to the LAPD. It’s Lucifer, he always has things on his plate. Double moral, pretty much.

She looked so gorgeous at the wedding, oh my god.

Most of the Deckerstar scenes were good. I got tired of the obvious naked cuddle times, surprisingly. Somehow it felt not like the ones in S5 and it bothered me.

I thought Chloe would finally get to know about everything Lucifer did for her, but I didn’t expect her to read it in Linda’s book. And that she only took away that he left her every time they had an emotional breakthrough.

They spend Lucifer’s last day at the beach and once again, no thought of Trixie. I’m sorry I repeat myself here so often. But this whole season wronged Trixie so much.

They face the baddie without any backup.  At least get Amenadiel with you.

Other things

The use of music between scenes was too much for me. Got annoying at some point.

I appreciate that they wanted to show us snippets of past Deckerstar scenes but here too, I felt like it was too much.

Couldn’t really follow the timeline. Maybe it were the cuts.

What’s been the point of bringing Adam into the mix? Just to wrap up Maze and Eve’s story? For Linda having another celestial to therapy?

The animation in the Jimmy Barnes Hell loop was AMAZING. I laughed so hard.

I’m not saying that Deckerstar shouldn’t have sacrificed everything for the time loop to stay intact, I say that the whole daughter-time travel plot shouldn’t have had happened. They never even talked about having kids, and then ignore the whole existence of the one kid that’s already there.

I really need all the Michaella fanfics, please. My first ship that’s actually a raft, because they never officially have met. RIP lmao

The acting was great as usual, all my problems come from the writing and the plot.

In the end, I really feel frustrated, underwhelmed and disappointed by the whole season. I didn’t have high expectations other than the same writing quality like S5. My excitement for that Season died as soon as Rory told Lucifer that she’s his daughter, to be honest. I waited for a plot twist that never came. Then the whole time loop shit.  I’d rather have waited one more year for S6 if the plot would have made more sense, since this felt like a first draft of a whole other show. And now I wished that S5 would have been the last season. If I could travel back in time, I’d rather not watch S6.

I can honestly live with the fact that Luci and Chloe are in hell, trying to help souls to get to heaven. (But hello, not the murderers perhaps? Or I want Michael sitting on that couch right now.) But the fact that both “chose” to sacrifice their time together with their family and friends just because it’s fate now and parents have to make sacrifices for their children; and anyways there’s an afterlife because (human) life is just a blip in our existence… nah thank you. I do not want it.

I’m probably not gonna rewatch S6 anytime soon.

[televinita]

I posted 478 times in 2021

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#though i am pretty sure editing that header into place took all the time i saved by being able to simply screenshot 24 book covers at a time

[edit: top posts behind the cut! they're p. boring]

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

I HAZ A CAT

It’s been 84 years -- actually 8 since I’ve had a pet and 2/3rds of my life since I’ve had a cat -- but I am now in possession of one petite, green-eyed, rabbit-furred female tabby (the one I met last week), formally named Katerina but known as Squeaky because of her mews.

She is shy and easily spooked by movement and/or noises (ex. every time someone comes home and unlocks the front door she becomes an instant streak of lightning to her “den” under the bed), but she warms up pretty quickly again after getting scared. She does not currently jump onto beds, climb into laps, curl up next to you or seek to be picked up, but if you hold your hand down or sit on the floor, she will endlessly head-butt your palm and/or rub her chin against your knuckles, arch her back end to the sky as you run your hand down her body while she moves forward, and then turn around to repeat the process until she is satisfied and wanders away.

She may also flop down and roll from side to side, exposing her incredibly fluffy tummy fur, and purr luxuriously while you stroke said fluffy tummy. It’s not even a trap, she loves it. MY DREAM!!

(Also today she was hanging out in her cat tree next to me on the computer, and when I stood up to pet her there she went CRAZY with affection, purring and rolling and then putting her paws on my chest to stick her face in mine and rub her head and chin all over. She also has decided that sitting on top of my computer tower under the desk is a fabulous perch, whether it’s on or not and whether I’m there or not.)

So anyway, now if I’m not updating it’s probably because I’m very distracted by my Cat, whom I brought home 3 days ago and yet am just now getting around to telling you about.

(I don’t have pictures yet because I suck at taking them, but maybe someday! She has a really cute black smudge mark on the bridge of her nose and her most common pose so far is lying on the floor with one leg stretched out in front of her.)

6 notes • Posted 2021-06-02 03:57:19 GMT

#4

Should you change your name when you get married? NOT IF IT’S DURING A PANDEMIC.

As I am finding out, Social Security offices are closed, so you have to mail in your application to get a card with your new name. Which means mailing documents.

To prove your identity, you basically have to provide your passport or driver’s license (there are some other documents technically accepted, but I don’t have them or they don’t include the required info). And I don’t have a passport.

When I asked how long it would take to get my documents back, they said SIX TO EIGHT WEEKS.

Why would anyone think anyone is fine just...not having their driver’s license for TWO. MONTHS???

6 notes • Posted 2021-01-05 22:40:40 GMT

#3

QUESTION

Has it ever been a rich-person thing to like...build your own library? Not the standard library inside a house, but an actual freestanding building that’s just rows and rows of shelves expressly to hold books? I feel like if I had enough money and land, I would build an outbuilding or two just for this purpose.

I just find it hard to imagine a house, even one with a lot of rooms, ever having enough wall space to hold all the books a person might want to own, while a room filled with aisles of shelves inside a home feels...not aesthetically pleasing, even though it’s amazing in a space designed for that purpose.

6 notes • Posted 2021-09-02 15:20:50 GMT

#2

Despite being a totally indoor cat, our poor kitty has managed to get very sick -- sneezing 5-10 times in a row several times a day, eye discharge, seems to have a very stuffed up nose and a bit of trouble breathing through it. She didn’t greet me this morning, staying in her paper bag den for hours instead, and didn’t even react to catnip, which is unsettling (though she’s still eating okay, and happily accepted Treats).

She’s been like this for a couple of days and Google tells me that indoor cats can in fact catch colds and that they might go away on their own after 4-5 days, but she seems SO miserable that I feel like I should make a vet appointment now. But also IDK. Any cat owners want to weigh in?

7 notes • Posted 2021-12-05 20:59:00 GMT

#1

“When you receive this, list five things that make you happy and tag the last ten people in your notifications” 

I have been tag-summoned by @empress-of-spooks

1. Petting cute, friendly (or even indifferent, as long as they hold still) animals

2. Books! Reading, writing about, shopping for, or organizing them

3. A long walk in a pretty place in nice weather

4. Historic mansions

5. Hot pizza + icy-cold vanilla Coke Zero

time to tag mostly strangers: @bannachocolatta; @samanrahimian; @beautyinsteadofashes; @dollsome-does-tumblr; @eevulpix-blog; @accidental-spice; @magicisabluewish; @kateschechterxthorwasmyfirstotp; @vampbellalune17-blog...and okay I'm tired of scrolling, so one short.

16 notes • Posted 2021-10-17 15:20:37 GMT

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[lizardkingeliot]

First Line Meme

Rules: List the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have less than 20, just list them all). See if there are any patterns. Choose your favorite opening line, then tag 10 of your favorite authors!

tagged by @phoenix-ascended thank you!!!! 💖

Okay SO. I’m gonna cheat a little bit here. The first nine I’m going to post are all going to be from the first nine chapters of time cast a spell on you (but you won’t forget me) but to be fair the chapters are so long they each might as well be a story all their own lmao. ANYWAY. Here we go. I’ll post the first paragraph from each I guess, in order of chapter number obvs:

1. Quentin shook out the tension in his hands. He didn’t understand why it wasn’t getting any easier. For days on end he’d been trying to perfect the illumination spell the rest of his fellow First Years had nailed in a matter of hours. But no matter how he tried, Quentin couldn’t seem to make anything more than a spark.

2. Quentin waited until Eliot was asleep to slip out of bed and hastily tug his clothes back on. The illuminated screen of his phone told him it was just past 12am. Clutching his shoes to his chest, he opened the door as quietly as he could manage and tip-toed out into the hall, all but running to his room and clicking the lock shut firmly behind him.

3. Dry-mouthed and groggy, Quentin woke in Eliot’s bed alone. He groaned, groping around for his phone to check the time for a long moment before remembering he’d left it in his room. Quentin rubbed at his eyes, rolling over and up to his feet, muscles he didn’t even know existed screaming as he went. He picked his bathrobe up from the floor and pulled it on, then tottered down the hall to empty his bladder and brush his teeth and gulp down frantic handfuls of water from the bathroom sink.

4. Tuesday morning was hell. Quentin woke just before eleven, empty as a husk. Filthy, all used up. His thighs sticking together where Eliot’s come had dried there in the night. Quickly realizing he’d already missed his first class of the day, Quentin pressed his face into his pillow, pulled the covers up over his head, and surrendered to the blank comfort of late morning sleep.

5. Quentin couldn’t feel his face, or much of his body for that matter. Which was… fine. It was great. It was fucking phenomenal. As long as it meant he also couldn’t feel the sinkhole that had formed in the center of his chest. The one that had been there for days, weeks, months, fucking years. He couldn’t feel anything at all.

6. Quentin felt a lever turn inside his chest, the source of his magic eking out a spark. Enough at least to send a message to Julia back at Brakebills. One of those little enchanted paper airplanes they’d learned his first week in Practical Applications that he never could get to fly quite right. He scrawled his SOS on a cocktail napkin and watched it flutter away like the world’s saddest butterfly. The universe took pity on him. Quentin figured he was probably due. 7. Christmas morning was a lackluster affair.

Exchanging gift cards over coffee and devouring great mounds of Ted Coldwater’s Famous Ham and Eggs while still in their pajamas. After, Julia and Quentin lay on the living room floor and Skyped with James, his grandparents waving hello from Pennsylvania in the background. They opened the stack of impersonal and overly-extravagant gifts from Julia’s mother that had been delivered to the house the night before. Quentin received a pair of cashmere socks and a leather belt with a shiny silver buckle.

8. Quentin stood at the bathroom sink, watching his face shift in the steamy mirror glass. Stark naked save for the towel looped around his hips. Hair dripping in cool, fat beads down onto the planks of his shoulders. So clean he swore he could feel himself sparkling from the inside out.

9. Quentin tossed his phone down onto the floor and leaned back into Eliot’s heat. “It’s almost like you want my dad to know I’m faking sick so I can stay in and let you fuck me until I pass out.”

Some patterns I guess: I love how chapters 2-4 all open with Quentin in bed after hooking up with eliot but all with very different vibes. In chapter 2, he’s just experienced subspace for the first time without having any idea that’s what actually happened to him and he is having A Time. In chapter 3, they had a very intense hook-up the night before and Quentin is sneaking out again, but this time he fully plans on returning right after. And in chapter 4, we see the joy of their beginnings at Columbia contrasted hard with the misery of where Quentin is at Brakebills.

ALSO 2/3 of the chapters begin with Quentin’s name which feels right considering just how deep into his headspace we are in this fic.

Okay. Anyway. Moving on:

10. Eliot loved watching Quentin lose himself in a moment.

It could be anything really: mastering a brand new spell; savoring something decadent and sweet; fussing with his hair when he thought no one was looking; focusing very hard on making himself a cocktail and getting the ratios just right; ranting about his Fillory books; reading his Fillory books, to himself but especially aloud; reading anything; riding dick...

That last one held a particularly special place in Eliot’s heart.

(from but i would die for you in secret aka the one where eliot is pretty sure quentin is only using him for his dick. spoiler alert: he’s not they’re just idiots)

11. Teddy was turning six years old. There was nothing in the world he loved more than stories.

His favorite was a version of Lord of the Rings Quentin had cobbled together from memory. He must have told it to their son a hundred times before it occurred to Eliot he could contribute more to story time than ogling Quentin’s hands while he spoke, or popping in to suggest when the Balrog should actually be making an appearance, Quentin.

(from in a land far away aka the mosaic fic where eliot makes margo hand puppets for teddy)

12. The words came out of Quentin’s mouth without a single coherent thought behind them.

“I’m just about to catch a movie with my boyfriend!”

There, outside the coffee shop on Eighth Avenue, Quentin’s maybe-friend from high school whose name he couldn’t even remember shot him a wide-mouthed grin. “Oh, that’s wonderful!” she said. “Which movie? My wife Danielle and I don’t have any plans for the afternoon and we’d love to tag along. Isn’t that right sweetie?”

(from your name like a song (i sing to myself) aka the one where quentin’s memory is shit and he and eliot pretend to be boyfriends in a post-monster world)

13. Eliot dropped the last box onto the floor. “Daddy’s wardrobe is safe at last,” he said, lowering himself down into the gold chair with a sigh. “Though I can’t seem to shake the terrible feeling that Todd raided my closet at the Cottage before I could get to it all.”

Quentin surveyed the damage from his spot on the sofa: there were at least seven large packing boxes bursting at their seams scattered around the penthouse. “I don’t know how you would even be able to tell. I’m pretty sure one of those boxes is just vests.”

Eliot quirked a brow in his direction. “Some of us are cultivating an aesthetic, Quentin,” he said. “And I didn’t see you complaining when I let you dress me for dinner last night.”

Quentin couldn’t help but smile. “I wouldn’t call picking between two pre-approved ties dressing you, El.”

“I’m also counting the fact that you said my ass looked great in my new pants.”

(from the parentheses (all clicking shut behind you) aka the suspender porn fic)

14. The night Quentin Coldwater died, a brand new star appeared in the sky over Brakebills. A little brighter than Venus, it stayed fixed in the same position for weeks on end. Eliot hardly would have noticed such a thing if it hadn’t been for the way that it hummed. Or at least, that’s how it felt. A humming in his bones. An old, familiar presence. Margo thought that he’d gone mad with grief. Alice was the only one who could understand.

(from a myth of devotion aka the one where eliot is sorta icarus and quentin is sorta the sun)

15. It didn’t happen the way Eliot expected it to. He dropped the letter into the mailbox, and pain blossomed in his abdomen so brightly it was like he’d gone supernova.

And everything went dark.

(from by night, beloved, tie your heart to mine aka the one where eliot sends the letter)

16. Eliot stretched out over the mosaic, his shirt riding up just a little as he clicked a yellow tile into place, and Quentin’s pulse leapt in his neck once, twice. Three times. His breath hitched. It was becoming nearly impossible to focus. In the heat of the sun, watching the sweat soak Eliot’s shirt clean-through.

(from i won’t deny (all the things i would do) aka the one where quentin and eliot start hooking up three months into their life at the mosaic)

17. After they decided kissing on the mouth was okay, Quentin and Eliot wanted to do it all the time. In every corner of the penthouse (“If you don’t stop sucking face while I’m trying to eat my sandwich,” Kady said one afternoon, “I’m literally going to feed you to the Baba Yaga.”), outside coffee shops, in between bites at the sushi place in Chelsea that Eliot loved. Once, they went to see a movie they couldn’t even remember the name of just to make out for two blissful, uninterrupted hours in the dark.

(from and a song of praise upon your lips aka part three of the box of chocolates series where quentin and eliot are definitely dating and finally talk about their feelings)

18. Eliot startled awake to something sharp and pointed slamming into his shin. He opened his eyes, and the toe of Margo’s shoe made contact one last time. Pain seared up the side of his leg, and he winced. Jesus, she really did not realize her own strength sometimes. Or the strength of her Jimmy Choo’s.

(from that you may know (the secrets of your heart) aka part two of box of chocolates aka the one where hand stuff is still banging)

19. Eliot Waugh was High King in his blood, and somehow that felt right. When they first arrived in Fillory, Quentin assumed he would be the one to wear the crown. He’d dreamed of it most of his life after all. On the throne in Whitespire, a fleet of talking animals at his disposal, a noble quest waiting around every corner to ferry him away to the next grand, heart-stopping adventure. But when the blade bit into his palm and drew no blood, and Eliot’s came up red, it felt like the final piece of some perfect puzzle clicking into place.

(from and this is the map of my heart aka the one where quentin wants to marry eliot and they have some incredibly filthy sex before everything falls apart)

20. Eliot walked into the penthouse to an eerie quiet. He found Quentin sitting in the kitchen under a dim illumination spell, drinking a beer and poking at the screen of his phone.

“Hey,” Eliot said, setting his shopping bag down on the counter. “Where is everyone?”

Quentin sighed, rubbing at his eyes. He looked like he hadn’t slept in days. “Out. I don’t know.”

Eliot squinted at him. “You didn’t want to go with them?”

Quentin lifted his eyes, shot Eliot a look. “No.”

(from for love (if it finds you worthy) aka part one of the box of chocolates series)

And I have now been here doing this for so long I no longer have time to try and find anymore patterns lmao BUT I will be tagging: @thelucindac @akisazame @fishfingersandscarves @nellie-elizabeth @freneticfloetry @rubickk7 and anyone else who wants to play!

[nuclearanomaly]

CHARACTER PROFILE – NINIRA NIRA – MUSIC EDITION  ♪

For many of us music is a source of inspiration for our characters, so I want to know what songs inspire and/or relate to your muse! Chose between 10-15 songs, compile them into an album and tag some friends to share the beat!

Peace & Quiet – White Lies I feel this great pressure / Coming down on me

Human – Daughter Despite everything / I’m still human

Creature – half·alive  Even the depths of the night cannot blind me / When you guide me

Pompeii – Bastille And if you close your eyes / Does it almost feel like / You’ve been here before

My Friends – Oh Wonder Oh my friends / I am heavy / Can I beat within your heart

King and Lionheart – Of Monsters and Men As the world comes to an end / I’ll be there to hold your hand

Heaven – PVRIS You took my heaven away

Shelter – Porter Robinson & Madeon I’ll give them shelter / Like you’ve done for me / And I know / I’m not alone / You’ll be watching over us / Until...

Trade Mistakes – Panic at the Disco So let me save you / Hold this rope / I am an anchor / Sinking her

Under the Tide – CHVRCHES No fear / I’ll be your eyes / I’ll be a lifeline

Run – Daughter And if I try to get close / He is already gone / I don’t know where he’s going / I don’t know where he’s been / But he is restless at night / Cause he has horrible dreams

Little Dark Age – MGMT Burn the page / My little dark age

Destruction – Joywave I've been sent to torch the palace down in broad daylight / I wanna know who you told 'til they're all laying on the floor / Frozen to the core

Key – Virtual Self ♪

Goodbye to a World – Porter Robinson And if it’s true / I will surround you / And give life to a world / That’s our own

Welcome Home – Radical Face Peel the scars from off my back / I don’t need them anymore 

Tagged by: @to-the-voiceless​ & @lunarosewood23​ Thank you both 

Tagging: @ahlis-xiv, @aethernoise, @holyja, @stars-bleed-hearts-shine, @kukurubean, @marjiandco​, @voidwife​ and anyone else that wants to do it

Further rambles about the specifics of the songs etc under the cut for any interested

Peace & Quiet, Human, Creature, Pompeii & My Friends are all big WoL vibe songs. I mean I’ve already made gifsets inspired by Peace & Quiet and Human. Human also walks the line of a ship song, but more due to the parallels of experiences and the application of the lyrics in that regard (see the gifset for further understanding of my logic). Creature, easily relatable as we’re Crystal Mom’s lil minion off to save the world by her guidance. Overly religious songs are so easy to apply to a character like the WoL lmao. I once scribbled thumbnails for a picture idea for Pompeii which I think ultimately lead me to making this gifset (I forget which came first). The constant endless fights all blurring together regardless of how climatic they may seem. In my sketch I also included a final panel that was the Calamity for the “you’ve been here before”...  My Friends I think speaks for it’s self, it’s also another song that resulted in my planning out some overly ambitious art ideas around the time of 4.5 when our friends were dropping like flies. I still like the concept, maybe some day.

King and Lionheart, Heaven & Shelter are my little tributes to Haurchefaunt ;___; King and Lionheart speaks for its self really. I started making a gifset for it ageess ago I think I was having trouble with sizing it all within the gif limit so I gave up lol. Heaven, is one I interpret as like a power ballad for stomping Thordan. Thordan & his Knights took her best friend away. Was it doomed to always be that way? Shelter is for processing grief for and for applying all Haurchefuant taught / believed in to the people she cares about in her life.

Trade Mistakes, Under the Tide & Run. [Rips off Shirt] EstiNi!!! Slaps the top of these three songs, these babies can hold so much angst. Angst with underlying tones of not angst? Anyway I’m sure their common theme can all be boiled down to Estinien keeps leaving and it’s breaking my heart. Please, let yourself be loved. Under the Tide makes me go feral, you can pry anything that lets me indulge in “Estinien’s been shadowing the WoL” from my cold dead hands.

Little Dark Age just gives me BLM vibes. But also if you want to dig deeper the lyrics breath of exhaustion which Nini ultimately is.

Destruction is fighting music. I listened to this song a lot around 4.4-4.5. I was so ready for things to just go so so wrong and for Nini to just lose her mind. Give me strong people that just go ballistic when given reason and destroy everything before coming out of it and realizing what they’ve done :)c

Key is just a good vibe song, gives me imagery of flight which Nini finds exhilarating. I always like to picture her just flying around on one of her mounts when I listen to it. The way the beat slows into a heart beat too, like this thing makes her feel alive and happy ;u;

Goodbye to a World is a Bad End song. Self sacrifice for the preservation of everything for those she loves? Don’t think she won’t do it -jazz hands-

Welcome Home is in contrast a Good End song. Let her have a home. Let her rest. Let her retire from being the hero and just relax in the world she saved surrounded by those she loves. 

[floralseokjin]

crystallised feedback 🥺

marinanoona replied to your post “” crystallised 04 (m)”

I just read it again. I just love it, it’s amazing. The way you write really touches my heart, I feel all the emotions. I’m so happy, thank you so much for writing, you are so talented. We are all so thankful for your work ������

thank you so much!! from the bottom of my heart! glad you enjoyed this chapter and i’m glad the wait was worth it 🤧

ashugamon replied to your post “” crystallised 04 (m)”

Finally!!! They're realized how they feel! I'm so happy for them, please don't break them apart for the next chapter hehe.. Also you are amazing as always Jordan ��

heheh you know me.... no but really i can confirm the next chapter will be very cute and wholesome!! thank you so much for reading/the support! 💖

releasingthesoul replied to your post “” crystallised 04 (m)”

I love them so much!!! This chapter was so smooth and serene and beautiful!!! I loved how their relationship as friends to friends with feelings for each other developed in a very natural way �� it was so soft, I’m always blown away by your writing and I’m never disappointed!! ����

thank you, that really means a lot! i tried my hardest to make the chapter run as smoothly and natural as possible! glad i managed to pul it off phew 😅

@kpopfanfictrash reblogged your post “” crystallised 04 (m)”

Jordan, how DARE YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?! I’M SO HURT RIGHT NOW, EVERYTHING HURTS AND IN THE BEST WAY! I am too excited to give a proper review but maybe that’s the most applicable kind for this series. I love Seokjin so, so much and have ever since the MOAM drabbles. ANYWAYS. THIS WHOLE THING READ LIKE A DREAM. @floralseokjin = truly the queen of relationships and tugging at heartstrings. All the little details in here just… TVD! ILY 3000! The gym part! I am so excited for more and this part was honestly just…. UGH. 

SHANNA I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU READ MY 24K MONSTER CHAPTER AND DRAGON DICK SEOKJIN ALL IN ONE NIGHT! u are crazy and i love you for it 💗💗thank you so so much for being an avid moam jin lover, it means the world and i’m really happy you enjoyed this chapter!!! mwah !!!!!! 

@underthejoon reblogged your post “” crystallised 04 (m)”

i am screaming. screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaming !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i just. this was so. wonderful. magnificent, i am  all caps yelling at you, jordan cause this was the best. my heart feels like it’s gonna explode. the tension was so asdhfbsdfjh. i really was like damn this could go either way idk what to do with myself, somethings gonna happen. and then something did happen and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! im trying to not spoil a bunch but as you already know, i am moam seokjin’s #1 fan. i love this. i love you. this was a+++++++

p.s. i love the co–star app and that part was so k;gjse;tkghjst;kh.

FAL ily 😘😘i’m glad you felt the tension because i sure did whilst writing lmao! especially the last scene! you are indeed moam seokjin’s biggest fan and he loves you greatly for the support and belief in him!!! thank you 🥺🥺

p.s. the co–star is literally the best thing (albeit evil) but writing that scene where jin got all offended was my FAVOURITE ahhhhhhhh and then well he had to amp his game up in the end 😬bless that adorable idiot!!

Also thank you for all the love with replies and reblogs and tags for this chapter! i would reply to everyone but there’s a fear i would get boring and repetitive :( just know i’ve read them all and i’m so so grateful and happy that you guys enjoyed 🤧love you, you’re all the best and i hope i can get chapter 5 out a lot faster this time around (let’s cross our fingers!!!) 

[danklloydwright]

15 Questions, 15 Mutuals

I was tagged by the wonderful @benmeddowstaylor ! Thanks, love!

Are you named after anyone?

I joke that I’ve been double-Grandma’d...my full first name is after my German grandmother and my middle name is for my French-Canadian grandma! 

I’m not gonna post my full name on the internet, but (@ my mutuals) if you’re interested, send me a message! 

When was the last time you cried?

Literally about two hours ago...I only have two weeks left here in Vienna and I do not want to leave. I tried talking to my parents about it but they just started to berate me about finding a summer job if my internship applications don’t work out so.....first I was sad-crying, then I was overwhelmed-crying...it’s been a day.

Do you have kids?

Nope, I’m baby.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

I was really snarky in high school...but I think now I’m more deadpan than sarcastic if I’m trying to deliver a burn or something lmao! 

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Hair, I think.

What’s your eye color?

Blue!

Scary movie or happy ending?

Happy endings! Scary movies make me wanna shit myself! Hate them! 

Any special talents?

I mean...I speak German? I sing? If we’re talking weird niche ones, I used to hold the record at my summer camp for most balloons popped with my ass in one minute. 

Where were you born?

New York.

What are your hobbies?

Singing, dancing, teaching myself bass, cooking, and writing.

Do you have any pets?

I have one cat, Mystic! My dog, Tally-Ho, passed away two weeks ago. I miss her a lot. 

What sports do you play/have you played?

I played soccer as a really little kid, basketball in my freshman/sophomore year in high school, and threw shotput and discus on the track team junior/senior year of high school. I also went to volleyball camp one summer, and my knees never forgave me for taking those digs. I’m not on any teams or anything currently! 

How tall are you?

5′10″, 6″ in a good pair of shoes ;)

Favorite subject in school?

I’m an Art History/German Studies major in college (so I love history and languages), but if I wasn’t that, I think I would be a Religion or Philosophy major. 

Dream job?

I’d love to lead an education department at a museum! I love to talk to others about art and help them to come to their own conclusions about what they’re seeing, and I would love to help spark a love for art in as many people as I can! 

If we’re getting really fantasy-like, I would love to be an actress, preferably in the theater. I loved acting as a kid/teen, but my self-loathing in high school was so bad that I convinced myself that I could never succeed because of how I look (which is literally bullshit @ my own damn brain!!!), so I’ve let it slip away from me, and I think it’s sort of too late to start again...

Also, I would totally marry the baker who flirted with me in Hallstatt and run away to live in the mountains with him and make beautiful pastries all day. 

Thanks again for tagging me, @benmeddowstaylor! The mutuals I’m inviting to do this (if they want!) are:

@deuxfolie @lakestreetdrive @honkycats @cactustattoo @britishsixtiesbeat @maggiemcgonagall @oleskellybones @mistamie @euphoricdonut @kapreysun @yikesofficial @fatale-femme @valsedelesruines @sillywillykinz and @hijabbitch

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 003: Superhero Academy Entrance Exam

Chapter 3 of my not-actually-live liveblog of Boku no Hero Academia! And I have to say, this one is my favorite chapter so far. We’ve got new characters, we’ve got weird video game point challenges, and we’ve got a new crowning moment of awesome for our protagonist! All this, and a guy with the power of jeans. What more could I ask for in life.

Notes: As of posting this I’ve read up through chapter 6 of the manga and watched episodes 1-5 of the anime. My comments (aside from ETAs), however, are from my initial readthrough of the chapter and are unedited. And despite residing here on tumblr where BnHA is a trending tag like every week, I somehow continue to remain almost totally unspoiled (boy that feels like I’m jinxing it).

hey it’s some random speech bubbles just spitting out facts about U.A.! how convenient and helpful

damn, they only accept 1 in 300 people... that’s a 0.33% acceptance rate. I’m pretty sure even Harvard accepts like 5 or 6% of its applicants, so this is... yikes

All Might magnanimously declined the People’ Choice Award lmao

“Best Jeanist.” oh my god. for years I’ve thought Eiichiro Oda was hands-down the best mangaka when it came to creating off-the-wall new characters. but this character’s name is Best Jeanist and he’s wearing a turtleneck denim jacket and has onion hair and I just. I don’t know anymore. my world is shook

what makes it better is the implication that there are other jeanists out there. but he is the best

so much the best that he’s won the best jeanist award eight years running

what is his power?? jeans??

shout out to this other guy Endeavor who I’m completely ignoring because he had the misfortune to be standing next to my homeboy Best Fucking Jeanist

Deku actually went home and took a shower and packed and then got on the subway for a forty-minute ride. holy shit this kid is cool under pressure. probably took a fucking nap on the train too

DID HE EAT THE HAIR??? I ASSUME YES? GODDAMMIT THIS IS BULLSHIT TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED RIGHT NOW

is this the school? I like the trees just chilling out in the entrance lobby there

“there was no time to test out the power All Might had given to me” -- fjkalsjdfj ARE YOU SERIOUS

THEN WHY DIDN’T YOU IDIOTS DO THIS LAST WEEK

YOU COULD HAVE PACKED THE NIGHT BEFORE

THE SHOWER IS FINE, SHOWERS ARE IMPORTANT, BUT YOU COULD HAVE DONE IT FASTER

HE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW IF THE HAIR ACTUALLY DID ANYTHING?? YOU SPENT THE PAST 10 MONTHS BUILDING UP TO THIS? YOU WERE CARRYING THAT BALL FOR TEN FUCKING MONTHS ONLY TO DROP IT THREE FUCKING HOURS BEFORE THE EXAM SFKSHLHK I’M FUCKING LOSING IT

I DON’T CARE IF HE’LL OBVIOUSLY BE FINE, I NEED SOMEONE TO GO AND SMACK HIM PLEASE

-- OH LOOK IT’S MY PROBLEMATIC FAVE

HOLY SAVAGE FUCK THAT “IGNORE + WALK PAST” WAS OFF THE FUCKING CHARTS

“ever since that day, Kaachan never tormented me again”

the answer is yes, right? no? are you sure?? damn

wow they still remember the sludge monster and call it the “sludge incident”

here I was thinking this kind of shit happened on the daily in this crazy superheroes&supervillains society, but I guess some incidents are more memorable than others

also it’s nice that he stopped harassing Green Tsuna, but when my previous (I shouldn’t say “previous”, actually... more like “still current”) favorite Gokudera “GOAT” Hayato had his life saved by his protagonist, he not only stopped tormenting him, but he immediately swore his eternal fealty and dedicated his life to serving him, so that’s a pretty high bar. I will give Baku the benefit of the doubt, though

I’m still obviously on board this ship, as evidenced by the fact that Deku thought “I gotta stop flinching instinctively��� and I was like “aww they’ll be lovers any day now”

I don’t understand it either

hey hello I’m cracking up in real life here

wow I thought he was gonna fall and that was hilarious, but instead he’s somehow just... floating there? which is somehow even MORE hilarious

HEY A NEW CHARACTER. [takes notes]

WHY ARE YOU SORRY FOR STOPPING HIM IT WAS A NICE THING TO DO

“[SMILES BROADLY] THIS SURE IS NERVE-WRACKING!” HEY I’M SORRY, BEST JEANIST, BUT YOU CAN FUCK RIGHT OFF, THIS IS MY NEW NEW FAVE

HIGH FIVE, GREEN TSUNA. YOU’RE DOING GREAT

“Everybody say hey” this motherfucker better be saying this in fucking English goddamit. (ETA: he is!! yessssssssss)

nobody said hey

“well that’s cool.” nice recovery! gamfuckingbatte you funky boombox man

YEEEEEEAH

nobody said yeah

my god this is a tough crowd. the practical test could just be warming these stone-cold motherfuckers up and it would 100% explain the abysmally low acceptance rate

I love how Deku talks to himself all the fucking time. I want to watch movies with him. we’ll both talk quietly while trying not to annoy people and probably not succeeding.

they’re sitting next to each other oh my god they were roomaaaaates

no but it’s seriously so cute??

there are probably thousands of people there, they didn’t HAVE to sit with each other. (unless seating arrangements are determined by school)

ETA: which they probably are come to think of it. hahaha)

they can’t take the test together though, aw

look at these fucking Mario silhouettes. did Nintendo sign off on these?

is it allowed because they’re blacked out? how fucking sneaky

(ETA: actually in the anime they didn’t make any Mario references at all, which makes me think there actually was a copyright issue)

these rules seem simple enough. actually seems almost too simple. the amount of different quirks they’re dealing with and the lack of guidelines on how not to use them seems to be asking for trouble. but I guess they probably know what they’re doing by now

I thought this was a high school, why is this 40-year-old man here asking questions about the exam

OH SHIT DEKU HE’S CALLING YOU OUT FROM TWENTY FEET AWAY

we would so get kicked out of movies together

now they’re literally referencing Super Mario Bros by name huh

and calling it an “old retro game”... sob

I actually love the pop culture reference so much and hope that more of these follow. this is how people talk in real life. none of that coming across a zombie and not actually calling them “zombies” because that concept somehow doesn’t exist or any of that bullshit. no sir. “you guys know thwomps from Mario? this thing is like a thwomp from Mario”

here we go. this set-up reminds me of Choice from KHR. please dear god don’t actually be like Choice from KHR

yeah, come to think... how big is this school

there’s a guy whose arm bone is sticking waaaaaay out of his elbow and it’s making me so fucking uncomfortable

please go away

THE GIRL IS HERE

AND THE FORTY-YEAR-OLD MAN IS HERE TOO DAMMIT

all these people who don’t even fucking know Deku are still picking on him for some reason. ugh. just more people to show up, Izu. you got this dude

I’m getting strong Hunger Game vibes here

oh damn they sure did run

thd thd thd thd

relax, Deku, I’m sure there are plenty of monsters to go around. plus most of those guys appear to be morons and I’m sure the smiley girl and the forty-year-old man are the only ones in the group who’ll actually pass somehow

oh fucking FINALLY a flashback to him eating the hair!!

he’ll START to feel SOMETHING in A FEW HOURS?!!!

and there he is running off to take a shower as previously established

I am glad he is confirmed as having good personal hygiene, though

“prepare for some real kickback” noooo I’m getting nervous

when you use One for All, clench up your butt

ssshhf this giant fucking robot literally interrupted his flashback right before we got to the good part??

DEKU. CLENCH YOUR BUTTTT

“why can’t I move?” MAYBE YOU CLENCHED TOO TIGHT. SHIT

some bishounen with a crotch laser just appeared out of nowhere and blasted it!

whew

“merci!” you’re welcome, Tuxedo Mask

wow he’s been standing around for four minutes already?? I take back what I said before, Deku. fucking run

everyone else has killed basically all the enemies. fuck why do I feel like he’s about to face a fucking thwomp. how many points were those again

...lmao zero. well shit

these Ender’s Game test-makers have deemed Yuri on Ice over here a “decision maker”

who am I to argue

BAKUGOUUU

YESSS MY ANGRY SON WHOM I’VE ADOPTED FOR REASONS THAT STILL CONFUSE ME HAS GOT THAT .3% ACCEPTANCE RATE LOCKED UP

OH NO IT’S THE YARUKI SWITCH

WHAT’S A YARUKI SWITCH

ah

now feels like a good time to speculate on just how fucking expensive this fucking test is with the giant robots and the entire fucking city built for the sole purpose of being leveled in ten fucking minutes all for the sake of a test which only 1 out of every 300 people will even fucking pass

somewhere out there I hope there are people whose quirks are just “building lots of things really cheaply and effectively”, otherwise this feels like such a waste

haha now everyone is running again but in the opposite direction this time

and so is Deku. NOW he can move, huh

aaaaaand he’s crying again

something better happen or else he’s screwed

oh fuck me, the girl fell, of COURSE it had to be the girl

(ETA: actually upon reflection I think they redeemed this due to two things: (1) tying it back to her not letting him trip and fall earlier, and (2) the fact that she’s not the first person that Deku has had to heroically rescue, and the person who WAS first was not only a guy, but the angry explosive prodigy character. so I’ll give them a pass here)

(ETA 2: after watching it in the anime, a bunch of debris fucking fell on her, so I take back all of my complaining. good show)

AHHHHH HE’S RUNNING BACK TOWARD THE GIANT MONSTER DOING THE HEROIC “I JUST ACTED WITHOUT THINKING” THING AGAIN AHHH

AHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THIS IS THE COOLEST THING I’VE EVER SEEN

HOLY SHIT WAY TO BRING ME BACK DOWN

-- AH?! NOOO WHY IS IT OVER

I’M GONNA GO READ THE NEXT ONE RIGHT NOW

(ETA: and you better believe I did)

BUT FIRST

BONUS:

”I’m glad he came out so unlikable.” HAHA JOKE’S ON YOU

”his face just screams ‘I’m a rotten thief’” LMAO SOB WHY IS HE MY FAVORITE

GOOD CALL CHANGING HIS PERSONALITY THOUGH BECAUSE THIS VERSION NEEDS TO BE PUNCHED IN THE FUCKING FACE:

I HATE HIM

AND THAT’S IT THAT’S THE CHAPTER????

holy fucking shit.

[mildlincrs]

hello everyone! it’s been a while since i released any new content, so i wanted to start off with this post directed towards people who are starting high school. i’m currently a rising sophomore and i wanted to both share my experience with freshmen year and offer some advice:’) 

also, some great posts/videos that i’ve seen for incoming freshmen:

advice for high school freshmen - @studyign on youtube

advice for incoming freshmen - @tbhstudying on tumblr

feel free to ask any questions if there’s a certain topic relating to this that you want answered, or if you want to know anything else about my first year of high school! i’d be glad to answer :’) hope this all helps!

my freshman experience

i currently attend a stem magnet school - it’s supposed to be a very rigorous school, so i had to apply in 8th grade to attend. my courses were intense but not extremely hard - which i expected, and so there was a lot for me to keep up with. i struggled a little bit at the beginning with management of work & extracurricular activities, but marching band really helped me focus. since i had so many rehearsals and competitions, i was forced to make time to study and do my work. my grades held up - i won’t talk about them in specific because at one point in the year i just stopped caring about grades. 

i’ve always experienced high stress and anxiety levels. i wouldn’t say that high school caused them to skyrocket even more, but i found myself dealing with that a lot. i would be out of it often during school, and it kind of showed in my work - i had this one bad week that i remember where i botched an exam that would have been really easy because of stress and i just. had a lot of rough days in general.

extracurricular activities, however, made the entire year worth it. during the summer before school began, i participated in marching band, and i met some of my closest friends there. we’re still super tight and are now really excited for another season:”) as time-consuming and physically demanding as it was, marching band was a lot of fun for me and it (along with DCI shows) became one of my new passions. i also joined my school’s urban/hip-hop dance club! i had danced for 12 years (formal training in ballet) before high school but had to drop during the fall for marching band, so that club helped me keep doing what i loved - and to be very honest i started to love hip hop and urban (and contemporary and modern) more than i did ballet lmao

overall i’d say i had a good year. there were certainly ups and downs, but what was most important for me was bouncing back, which i was able to do pretty well! right now i’m preparing for sophomore year and balancing a lot of other shit but. i personally think everything should be okay in the end.

advice

1. take advantage of extra time

my homework load this year wasn’t too bad. the thing was that when i did have homework, the assignments were often lengthy and to be completed in a short period of time. using lunch breaks, study halls, and even bus rides to get a head start on assignments will honestly save you so much trouble. ignore people who call you out for it; you’ll be better off than them at 10pm at night.

2. be prepared

get ahead on school work when you have the chance. get started on your summer assignments now so that you can actually enjoy your summer. take advantage of free-time and start studying for anything coming up. you will thank yourself later when you have significantly less to do the night before a project is due or the night before your final.

3. bring a water bottle and chapstick/vaseline with you 

hydration is so important. it’s literally a need for survival and while i’m not saying you should bring a gallon’s worth of water to school everyday, bring water to keep yourself replenished. i found that drinking cold water in the morning helped me feel a little more refreshed and alert :”) and chapstick! it’s always good to keep your lips moisturized, so it’s never bad to be prepared.

4. get sleep

for the love of god. if you don’t get sleep before school, you’re wrong. it’s so important to maintain a sleep schedule for yourself, or you’ll be groggy during the day and you also won’t pick up on things during classes. running on caffeine alone won’t cut it. if you know you’re going to have a long night, try doing as much as you can and then cutting yourself off at a certain time. this way you’re guaranteed to get some sleep, and then you can wake up early in the morning to finish working. this definitely won’t work for everyone!!! it helped me with marching band time though:”) there are certain applications/websites that can help track your sleep and other things like that which may be of use to you too, so take advantage of those.

5. don’t bring too many supplies to school

it’s unrealistic to bring an entire pen collection with you in a large case to school everyday. yes, that’s a bit of an exaggeration, but my point is that you only bring what you need. bring what you know you’re going to use - the bare minimum. it’s not worth it to get stressed over a lost pen case and lost materials in said pen case. this happened to me - i lost my pencil case and ended up losing some of supplies that i had used for a long time and i was very bitter for the rest of the week because i couldn’t find it;;

6. get involved outside of school

find things that interest you! whether you join a club or organization or sport, it’s always a good thing to find something that you’ll want to do and enjoy. you’ll often be able to relieve a lot of stress from school that way as well. volunteering is also a great thing to do! use freshman year to look for opportunities that interest you, and that way you can try it out and see if you want to do it in the future. honestly just go for it. if you’ve never done cross country before? go for it. it’s never too late to do something new.

7. set aside time for yourself

self care is important!!!!!!! making sure that you are healthy is your main priority. if you’re not feeling well, don’t take that test. you will regret it and it’s better to give yourself time to recover. additionally, if you’re feeling overwhelmed or stressed or just. aren’t feeling that great, give yourself a break. stepping away from schoolwork and relaxing will help you feel better, i promise. i have a self care tag that probably has a ton of suggestions for things to do if you’re feeling stressed or down. that said, take advantage of advice you see on tumblr. try things out and see what helps you wind down and feel better.

8. don’t worry about the psat

just don’t. honestly it’s not a huge deal, and coming from someone with anxiety, it’s not something that’s worth stressing over. prepare for it if you want, but you’d be better off preparing for tests in classes that you actually take versus a standardized practice exam that won’t even be sent to colleges. this doesn’t mean that you should blow it all off when you take it though - take it seriously, and then enjoy the memes that follow.

9. don’t get worked up over your grades

freshman year is meant to be a year where you transition from middle school to high school. you’re meant to make mistakes. it’s okay if you make mistakes. you will make mistakes. use freshman year to figure out what habits and routines work for you. figure out a planning system. figure out a studying schedule. figure out what you’re going to do outside of school and think about how you’ll balance it with everything else. if you end with a few bad/sub-par grades at the end of a quarter/semester, that’s fine. no one will care, and you still have time to bring it up. and even if you end with mediocre grades, you have 3 more years to show improvement. you have time. also!!!!!! please please please don’t let bad scores affect your self  esteem. numbers on a screen or paper do not define your intelligence. you’ve probably seen that statement before, and that’s because it’s true. your grades do not define your self worth, and if anyone tells you the opposite, they’re wrong. you are amazing; never forget that.

there’s not much that i can add that i’ve not yet seen floating around on tumblr, so i’ll end it here! again, feel free to shoot me an ask if you have any questions :)