#I’m losing brain cells over the parasocialness of it all

[cc-tinslebee]

gotta speak my truth on the whole real people shipping with the new Descendants movie rn

it’s so funny that people are speculating about Joshua Colley and Ruby Rose Turner when?? they’re literally doing the same things Dove Cameron and Cameron Boyce did during the original trilogy??

like

they’re the same picture

they hate to see two best friends of opposite sexes being physically affectionate with each other smh

it’s a canon event for these casts to be super physically affectionate with each other 😭

say it with me folks! you are not entitled to actors’ personal lives! 👏

[exposingtoxicbillstans]

freebill / skrsgardspam

first blog of discussion is… give it up for freebill / skrsgardspam! 

@freebill​ doesn’t want it to be public knowledge that @skrsgardspam​ is her blog, mostly because she must know that her behavior is representative of someone who is mentally unwell! but if she’s so confident in her beliefs, why don’t we all come together to shed some light on them?

scrolling through her blogs were a lot of fun. lets dive into the skrsgardspam side of her persona first! 

looking through her blog guidelines, i thought it was funny that she refuses to write rpf (real person fiction). there are many writers who refuse to partake in rpf, so this isn’t strange. but why is rpf so heavily disliked by certain tumblr writers?

for starters, rpf is written about real people, except it treats them like they are not. it treats them like fake characters and objects. it allows obsessive fans to maintain a strange form of ownership over the celebrity and their identity. this can create a myriad of problems for the celebrity involved. for this reason, it’s fairly controversial. 

we can assume freebill / skrsgardspam had similar reasons when deciding not to engage in rpf... which brings us to hyprocrisy #1! 

freebill / skrsgardspam actually has no problem engaging in harmful speculations on real people, as long as they’re done by her alter ego! just one scroll through her blog shows evidence of not only misogyny, the negative impacts of a parasocial relationship, deep and violent obsessions, but also, many of her posts (which are written about real people) are so far fetched that they can be seen as their own forms of real person fiction! lets dive further. 

here freebill / skrsgardspam writes a short story about the power of heart eye emojis, and what they could possibly mean. now, as a sane person, you may assume theres nothing really to analyze here.. i mean, its just three heart eye emojis! but freebill / skrsgardspam, the talented novelist that she is, takes us on a ride with endless twists and turns. because the world revolves around freebill / skrsgardspam, shes unfortunately convinced that bill, apparently backed with a powerful army of PR agents, has commented three heart eye emojis as an act of manipulation! bill can’t sleep at night unless freebill / skrsgardspam believes in the authenticity of his personal relationship. but wait.. what if it’s not bill at all???? what if.. WHAT IF SOMEONE ELSE HAS ACCESS TO HIS ACCOUNT AND HAS USED IT TO... *sweats* C-COMMENT THREE HEART EYE EMOJIS.... THE HORROR!!!!

(if you’re interested in other fictionalized tales, freebill has a ton of them on her blog!)

now another funny thing i’ve noted is how freebill / skrsgardspam’s opinions seemingly change with the wind! here we have her saying that OBVIOUSLY bill and alida aren’t together in cape town because apparently a source from BKW has said otherwise: 

but wait! here she says that leaked news from the BKW set would be unlikely because of NDAs! 

okay, she made a mistake. but lets talk about children now. you would assume that freebill / skrsgardspam cares at least about the safety of children, right? right? ..... right???

unfortunately, no. freebill / skrsgard spam bravely fights for her right to openly discuss minors on her gossip blog, and don’t you even try to tell her otherwise! 

but freebill / skrsgardspam is a reasonable person, right? she MUST have a valid excuse for this thats not a strawman argument... right?? unfortunately, again, no! i’m starting to lose faith in you, freebill / skrsgardspam :(

(hey freebill / skrsgardspam, is your brain cell count so low that you’re not sure what that means? here you go, i’ve got just the quote for you! so what does it mean when you’ve made a strawman argument? “You misrepresented someone's argument to make it easier to attack. By exaggerating, misrepresenting, or just completely fabricating someone's argument, it's much easier to present your own position as being reasonable, but this kind of dishonesty serves to undermine honest rational debate.”)

okay, now that we’ve got that out of the way. hey, can we at least assume that freebill / skrsgardspam has a basic level of understanding regarding sexual education? yeah, we ca-

oh, fuck. 

when asked about her “alida as a baby trapper” stance, freebill / skrsgardspam had a lot of interesting things to say. to further prove her deranged points, she reblogged this following post: 

hey... haha... freebill / skrsgardspam, you do know how birth control works, right? you know that a woman who gets pregnant while taking hormonal birth control has not necessarily lied about being on birth control, right? you know that even the really good hormonal options have a failure rate, right? you know that contraceptive measures, regardless of the method, are a joint effort, right? you know that accusing someone of “baby trapping”, which is borderline sexual assault, is an extreme accusation to make without evidence... right? but freebill / skrsgardspam would rather you believe that any man who has a baby with a partner that freebill / skrsgardspam doesnt like, clearly baby trapped him into that situation! 

freebill / skrsgardspam is a misogynist who regularly spews out misogynistic rhetoric that women are goldiggers and baby trappers. (and no, as someone who critically thinks, i don’t believe that your stance as a woman is a shield for valid critique. however, i still believe that freebill regularly spews misogyny on her blog.) her posts are full of pure vitriol and insanity, and on some level, she knows this! why? because she has taken active measures to conceal the fact that freebill and skrsgardspam are the same person. 

innocent bill fans, don’t be fooled into reading fanfics and other content written by a person who is clearly on a downward spiral. don’t be fooled into thinking you’re engaging with an innocent fan when really, freebill / skrsgardspam is a misogynist, a teller of tall tales, and more than anything, not a real fan of bill. (because what real fans do you know who happily engage with a community that spreads rumors of their favorite celebrity regularly engaging in incest (yes), of him being a bad/absent father, etc.)

the internet is full of crazies, but together, we can shove them back down to the dark caves they crawled out of!

overall, i’d give the blogs of freebill / skrsgardspam a rating of.... F-? 

[novelelitist]

Update

The news about banning the “girls” tag on Tumblr made its rounds on Twitter so I thought I’d pop by real quick.

I often wonder what happens/happened to creators I like, and given my history, it occurred to me that some people might actually think I’m dead. Which is not an invalid concern, and I appreciate your long-distant parasocial concern. Thanks for not wanting me RIP in peace’d. Those who DMed me since I’ve been gone and as I continue to be gone, you’re acknowledged and I appreciate you, too. This one’s for you, chickadees.

TLDR: you can bother me on Twitter or ask for my Discord handle if we’re moots. I’m still awkward at conversation though so go easy on me.

Personal(?) Update

Life changes, legally changing my first name, legally changing my gender marker to M (because my state doesn’t offer X but I’m going to badger them about it so I can hopefully get X instead). Situation still suboptimal and sucky. Who woulda thunk? I should be able to start HRT once I move out, though, and that’s something to look forward to.

Video Essay Coming SoonTM

I’m working on a massive Omegaverse video essay project through the lens of cultural imports/exports through the medium of comics. (Manga, manhwa, and manhua specifically.) It’s absolute hell. You should watch it when it’s done. The script is over 16,000 words. The essay is informative, funny, and extremely thorough literary criticism discussing Omegaverse and the subjects within it that interest me. 

I’ll share the video here when I’m done, too, and I’ll be formatting the script in a way that others can understand so I can share it in a readable format as well. I seriously doubt auto-captions will do it justice.

Why Omegaverse? Because I am completely fascinated by it even though I don’t like it and nobody’s presented it in a video format the way I want to yet. Ez.

It’ll be on the same YouTube channel as my Barbie video essay once it’s done. Should be done by the end of January. Here it is in all its incomplete glory. 

Game Updates & Fandom

Immediate access to me is best found via Twitter. I only got into using it recently for fandom-related things. It’s a small personal/otaku-adjacent twt but I’m trying to use it to associate with people more since I know people have worried about me and I’ve worried about them. (Moots, give me your twt so I can follow you there.) If you ever thought about commissioning me for FGO stuff, message me over there. I’m probably down, since I’m all in on FGO and GBF brainrot lately.

I’m still writing, though I’ve used most of my brain cells lately for the Omegaverse video essay. I have a conspiracy theory about Koyanskaya pinned to my twt right now that I’ll be putting on my AO3, too, probably, once it’s in coherent, complete sentences. 

I’ll also try to make myself share my other FGO writing I’ve been doing on AO3. It’s been rough since the whole “losing main friend group” thing. I still miss them and that environment a lot and it’s sore. My enthusiasm about my own work in all forms took a huge hit, as did my “ability to interact with others regarding things I enjoy.” (I made myself write today, here have my extremely thorough Koyanskaya theory.)

I’ve been totally stuck on this dumb Hello Kitty mobile game, too, Hello Sweet Days. My friend code there is djg2db. I’m not a whale, I just look like one, I swear. Sanrio is Japanese WDC and is therefore evil. Fuck Disney, btw.

Idk why Hello Sweet Days looks so weird when screenshots are saved to my comp when they were fine everywhere else but okay. Hello Sweet Days is a Sanrio-property qt outfit collector/community game someone else got me hooked on. Code is djg2db. 

And Granblue Fantasy is Granblue Fantasy. Which I still suck at. Use my support summons or do miserable 6D raids with me while I attempt to uncap Siete again. ID is 30825282.

Obligatory FGO Update

I have couple spaces on NA. If you want me to change supports for events etc, I have an extremely thorough Chaldea. Bug me via DMs here or on Twitter when you add me:

I have more spaces on JP because my account is still a sad sack. Again, bug me via DMs here or on Twitter when you add me:

Thorough update on all my Grailed servants because I have nobody to show off to:

Okay but will you ever exist again, 2D?

On here? Not sure. But I’m definitely not gone everywhere just yet. Come find me. :)