#I’m just a mess idk
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Your highness… I don’t feel so good
#I was literally getting the same feeling I got watching Jimmy’s empires 2 when I was watching scars stream from 2 days ago…#and then doc said THAT. full body chills. thanks#hermitcraft#hermitcraft s10#docm77#docm77 skyblock#hermitcraft skyblock#idk how to tag that man#art escapades#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#empires smp#empires s2#sheriff jimmy#tumble town#uhhhh idk what else to tag hopefully that covers it#idk… something about scar and Cleo and Joe all teasing him relentless despite the fact that he was obviously Actually upset#(‘I’m sure it’s actually fine but just. the vibes of someone who’s sick of getting messed with getting relentlessly messed with. yknow)#it makes me feel vaguely sick#again I’m sure they’re fine but idk man he sounded so mad#so naturally. whatever this is happened in my brain#I’m normal I just needed to get this out of my system <3#there’s some really interesting parallels happening here that I can’t quite put into worse#words*#so I put it into images instead… hopefully you’re getting my brain waves
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1st image is stolen from Twitter, 2nd and 3rd are stolen from my instagram. As someone that was excited for Ibuki, I was disappointed (but as a HiiroP and just Amagi bro fan, unsurprised) and it was egregious enough to need to demand change. As a RyuseitaiP, this hurts me so deeply. These are the characters I can see myself most in, the unit based on holding onto what you love and never letting go of it, and protecting it. Shinobu would not wave it off, his unit wouldn’t wave it off. Not only does it mischaracterize Shinobu, but it a way that mischaracterizes the rest of the unit.
Give the superhero unit their autism back, let him love his interest deeply and cry when it’s hurt or taken away. Let us love enstars deeply and cry when you hurt it, Happy Elements.
#ensemble stars#enstars#shinobu sengoku#I should make a bluesjy account just to be verbally pissed#bc no way am I ever talking on twitter again I’m good with just quietly liking things#but I know the Enstars community here is pretty small (or I’m just that out of the loop)#I hate how the past few weeks have been a company gutting characters we love#tbh even after the boycott (if it ends) idk if go back to playing#Shinobu isn’t even my top 5 but I’m tearing up#I think I might break forever if they mess with Hokuto Kanata Hiiro Arashi or Kohaku#I should preface Hiiro and Arashi with being fucked with more#idk I’m sad and I’m angry
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Mike Wheeler is a Gay mess
MY THOUGHTS ON REPRESENTATION/SYMBOLISM ABOUT THAT AWKWARD KISS SCENE AT THE END OF SEASON 3
As we all know Mike Wheeler did not kiss El back, he stood there with his eyes open, arms at his side and then is left there looking more confused then ever.
Want I want to look at in the scene is the Closet and Bear
Let’s talk about the Closet first:
El and Mike are standing infront of the closet, which I find really interesting for them to be placed there.
First we have El, not being able to use her powers to reach the teddy bear so Mike steps and grabs it for her.
Right, he’s the one to reach into the closet. Which now could be the beginning of something, that something of him taking a step into the closet. If you understand what I’m saying here.
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Then after the awkward kiss, El walks away, leaving Mike near the closest, making no steps to move at all.
He realized he didn’t like that kiss, now questioning something about himself.
So since he didn’t move my point is that he’s now in the closet— and backing that up is what I said before of him reaching into the closet, grabbing what was in the closet.
For that - he doesn’t love El romantically and is starting to realize he has feelings for someone else…
Now to add to all that - The representation of the Teddy bear:
I think the bear could represent Mike’s love and for who he thinks he loves (cough cough El)
As we know El couldn’t reach the bear in the first place bc she wasn’t tall enough, so tries with her powers— this represents and foreshadowing season 4 of her trying to reach (in this case) for Mike’s love for her.
Since she couldn’t reach it, Mike does. Mike hands her his love or this case his actually love of Will, since this bear came from the closet. He is able to reach into the closet bc that is where his Love lies, not El, bc he doesn’t love her like that and El can’t make Mike love her, she can’t force him like she tried to force the bear down—
—like in season 4, questioning Mike if he still loves her.
“But you don’t love me anymore?”
To put it as simply as I can:
The bear represents Mike’s love but a love he put into the wrong hands bc actually he (for the time being) should have left it where it was. His love for Will is in the closet, his feelings for Will are hidden away… for now. He doesn’t quite understand what to do with this thing called Love so he gives it to El while he shouldn’t be.
And so after he stands there confused, he realizes ‘I gave my love to the wrong person’ leaving him standing next to the closet after that realization. He’s almost, confused, sad, in the dark now about his feelings since there is no more light coming from the closet.
I don’t think this is truly what the show wants you to get at here, I just love reaching, and over analyzing things bc it’s fun.
#byler#mike wheeler is gay#byler is everywhere#byler canon#byler analysis#byler theory#byler thoughts#byler season 3#byler proof#idk I’m reaching again lol#stranger things#mike wheeler#will byers#byler endgame#miwi#will x mike#anti milkvan#mike x will#byler s5#just trust me bro#I’m right#ik I am#I’m insane help#this is totally what it means yeahhhh#mhm#Mike wheeler is in the closet#Mike wheeler is a gay mess#mike wheeler is a boykisser
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It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.
Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3
This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!
Read from left to right
#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Chilchuck tims#marcille donato#spoilers#dunmeshi au#Maid cafe au#Marchil#Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao#i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more#The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more#You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence#Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw#they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4–#i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years…#Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing#I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be#idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au#romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you#once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair#the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me#shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken#oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front#Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty#Understaffed struggles are so real#People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything#There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk#The pay IS good at least#Modern au
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There is a nebulous jordie lives au which lives entirely in my head in which jordie recovers from the plague while Kaz is still sick. He gets up to find them food and water only to return and discover Kaz is nowhere to be found. Still recovering from the fever, he searches the barrel for days before he finally sees Kaz wandering down the staves in a sort of fugue state, soaked to the bone with a haunted look in his eyes.
Kaz won’t tell him what happened, but jordie knows it’s bad because his baby brother flinches every time he touches him, and soon enough he’s started wearing gloves, even in the height of summer.
Soon, they discover kazs gift for cards, and it keeps them fed and clothed, if not much else. Kaz is angry at jordie for losing the money, refuses to let him make any decisions. Jordie is beholden to his angry traumatized little brother because he can’t deny that he failed them the first time around.
Kaz is offered a place in his pick of the gangs, but the only one willing to take both him and his tag along older brother is the dregs. Jordie dies a little bit inside when they join up, when they take the tattoo side by side, but he’s not sure they’ll survive another winter on the streets.
And the plot of SoC generally goes on from there. Jordie tags along on the ice court, he and Jesper test kazs patience at every turn, he’s constantly offering unsolicited annoying older brother advice about Inej.
This lends itself to a really interesting exploration of Kaz and jordies relationship, what holds brothers together in the face of incredible trauma, the skewed power dynamic of Kaz becoming the breadwinner for them both at the age of nine, etc etc. But mostly, this au is a vessel for the sailing of the ultimate crack ship, which is of course, jordie/alys Van Eck.
#grishaverse#six of crows#jordie rietveld#kaz brekker#sorry. but I must speak my truth.#idk I’m hugely compelled by the idea of barrel boy jordie and sheltered housewife alys falling madly in love.#Kaz is trying to scheme them out of this whole mess and jordies like hey. do you think it would be okay to kidnap her again. like morally.#it’s just that I’ve thought of some really good jokes that I think she’d like. and Kaz (who has had negative sleep) just glares at him#also Kaz becoming uncle Kaz to Van Ecks new heir? truly the comeuppance Van Eck deserves#also yeah obviously the kaz jordie angst of this au compels me but make no mistake. it’s about jordie/alys#again. sorry.
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need someone to inspect me. need someone to pull down my little white panties and laugh at how soaked they are after a night of sleep. “oh baby! i didn’t even touch you. what on earth were you dreaming about?” need someone to grope me and tell me they’re “just checking to make sure everything is still working” and when i whine and squirm against their hands they shush me and say “that’s good, that’s good little one. that means it’s working. now stay quiet for me.” i want my folds to be pulled apart and rubbed and licked. i want my clit to be clinically examined, pinched and prodded until i’m begging for a break. need someone to rub around the outside of both of my holes and make notes to themself about how tense i am, how much im clenching, etc. i desperately need someone to stick a finger in me and gasp at how tight i am “darling, it’s like i never broke you in at all! you’re gonna need to relax for me if you want to pass this exam.” they fuck me with a finger till i’m absolutely drooling. “we’ve got a ways to go, but you’re doing so well for me sweet thing. doing so well for daddy. now i’m going to restrain you now—no, no darling, none of that. i don’t want to hear any complaints. this is good for you. it’s good to be tied up for me. you can’t be able to move for this next part.” need somebody to slowly work a huge dildo into my cunt, the biggest i’ve ever taken, it’s heavy and thick and i can see it in my stomach. i’m whimpering but they just keep whispering “i knew you could do it, look how good my little wet hole is doing. absolutely made for this, i told you. so proud of my little plaything.” oh god it aches so much, im throbbing and moaning, but i wanna be good for them and i wanna do well on my inspection… i deserve to be inspected every day
#god i’m pathetic#i’m such a mess#idk if this even makes sense#i just neeeed someone to inspect me#mine#nsft concept#inspection#inspect k!nk#inspection k!nk#praise#praise k!nk#bd/sm kink#bd/sm blog#bd/sm punishment#denial k!nk#edging k!nk
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Christmas in the Undercroft
Trying something a bit different! And thought I’d get festive with it since it’s December 🎄
#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy art#sebastian sallow#hogwarts legacy mc#ominis gaunt#had a crisis and decided I didn’t know if I liked my style#I mean idk what my style really is#tried to do something more cartoony??#but looking now it just looks really similar to what I normally do lmaoooo#But oh well the intent was there#and I think I still like it anyway 😂#I’m so bad at fussing over small insignificant details too#so I’m just gonna post this before I spend several more hours messing about with it#and also so I can go to bed and sleep#so if I’ve missed something then lol oh well#okay I think I’m done rambling now#its nearly Christmas woop woop
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Small town William Wisp who knows the entire town and the entire town knows him, so when the little boy who used to run around the small park and through the fields with his friends changes overnight they notice. They notice his skin turn pale, not a typical winter pale that comes from lack of sunlight and being indoors all the time, but the pale that leaves barely a flush to the skin as if his heart isn’t beating like it once was. They notice his lack of energy, how little he goes outside now, they notice his heavy black hoodie even in the southern heat.
At first, they assume he is sick, after all the Wisp parents look stressed and concerned more often than not. It doesn’t help when the school year rolls around and people find out he isn’t going to the school in the town and is instead going to the city
They see absolutely nothing of William after that, but the Wisp parents look beyond stressed constantly watching the news the moment a mention of an attack on Rockfell is made. They understand it must be stressful to know your kid could be out on the street when the attack occurred. Must be scary to think they’re out with friends when some villain and superhero come tumbling through the coffee shop wall. they don’t know the real reason, don’t know they’re watching their youngest son almost die again fighting the villain of the week.
One day after a trip to the city to see their sons the Wisps come back visibly shaken, as though something is wrong, Mrs.Wisp will not stop crying and her husband stands next to her side attempting to help but clearly on the verge of tears as well.
Throughout these two years, strange things had been happening around town, kids reporting they saw strange creatures walking around town, people claiming they saw some sort of glowing blue wisp floating around, and sights of horrific monsters just standing at the edge of the forest surrounding the town.
Then a while after the Wisps leave again and this time they do not come back before their town is ordered to evacuate. People pack up as quickly as possible, as if in a trance.
When they return it’s hard to miss the damage in the area. Despite the work done by the heroes to restore the town blood stains a clearing close by, the sign is scorched, and the body bags, so many line the streets as they work to identify and return the bodies to their families. William looks different, way different to the boy who left. His dark hair is streaked with white, his once brown eyes a shocking blue, a slightly jagged scar runs down the middle of his face and neck, more dot his arms and legs, he seems to float when he moves, and occasionally a small blue wisp will dart around him.
So the town notices and knows that the little boy they knew is changed forever, they also know that he saved the world with the other teens who stand beside him, just as scarred, and they know for certain they hate the so-called heroes who did this to these kids, to the boy who played tag with their kids, to the boy who made sure to say hello to everyone at the church cookout, to his friends that he cares about so deeply.
This small town knew an energetic kid and awkward teenager, now they know a still awkward but more confident almost adult, they knew a 15-year-old who disappeared for two years, now they know a 17-year-old who came back different, they knew William Wisp, now they know The Whisperer.
#is this anything#idk#i live in a village so i kinda wanted to write about small town william#like everyone knows everyone type of town#i just feel like deadwood noticed something happened to him#jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi pd#prime defenders#jrwi pd spoilers#sorta??#william wisp#jrwi william#i love playing into the died and came back wrong trope#i mean i know coming back as a ghost is wrong#but i think it was more noticeable#like something was clearly off#i haven’t talked about jrwi in a hot minute#the hiatus is messing with me#and i’m crazy busy with work#but i’ve had william wisp on the brain for a bit so now you get this
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I had a vision
#doodles#sams au#sams bloodmoon#tsams bloodmoon#sams ruin#tsams ruin#Quiet Throes in Pooling Oil#uh#au of an au#???#alternate timeline of an au#yeah… yeah that fits this better#shitpost#I guess?#idk#I just got a vision of a thing and I drew it#and now I’m sharing it with y’all#The Bastard dies Part 6(?)#there was two with Ather twice with that escalation contest then Toga messed with his ashen remains…#but then there was Nexus and Bloodless Passion!Ruin#part 7 it is then#the Bastard dies Part 7#get him Harvest!
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i was drawing trick or treat asks and i got so zoned out i accidentally drew a whole phoenix. thanks @okartichoke ur au lets me draw the ace attorney guys and practice wings at the same time…. its wild im a big fan
#ace attorney#phoenix wright#phoenix wright ace attorney#i think he’s like dual destines era here maybe#my art#do yall like the crunchy rendering i’m messing around#idk i just wanted to see him cozy
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Cmds.Protect
Priority(10)
…executing
#idk what I’m doing#just messing around#with a protective eclipse#but with 6 arms because#more to hold you with#fnaf#eclipse fnaf#daycare attendant#security breach#bean art
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…kind of sick over all the parallels in jjk. They’re a special brand of angst hell.
And, look, I don’t think I’ll ever shut up about Yuji’s execution order. And how I think Gojo might be sick to his stomach and see some of Geto in him.
#yes I know the more popular opinion is that Megumi-Geto and and Gojo-Yuji#but i think that’s only personality wise#idk they give me opposite vibes#Megumi might not be as cheerful as Gojo but he’s got a similar ‘u crying?’ kind of vibe#meanwhile Yuji would be the one to burn down a village for those trapped little children#or maybe I’m just a little delulu#because there are still many differences between them but yeah#so Gojo sees some mix of Riko and Geto in Yuji maybe#and it messes with him so much#he killed Geto and now he’ll have to kill Yuji#yes I know it won’t happen in canon but pls let me dream up some drama#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#ghost talks#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#ItaFushi#satosugu#gojo satoru
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Normally Sanji is the most put together person between him and Luffy. He’s probably the most put together person on the entire crew besides Robin. Meanwhile Luffy is a walking disaster, chaos is naturally drawn to him and he’s ALWAYS getting into trouble. When it comes to their actual romantic relationship tho. It’s COMPLETELY flipped lmao
Luffy will walk out on deck with his hair slightly tousled and his vest a bit askew but that’s normal for him. He looks smug as hell but that’s also normal for him. Nobody bats an eye. Then Sanji comes tumbling out of the galley. Shirt untucked and buttoned up the wrong way, hair thoroughly ruffled, clothes rumpled, looking utterly fucking disheveled. His nose is bleeding, he’s stumbling like he’s drunk and his neck is covered in hickies. Everyone on deck proceeds to lose their goddamn MINDS
#Sanji tries to tell them he was ‘attacked’ but then Luffy goes ‘Yeah by me ;))))’ and Sanji promptly gives up#Usopp: Dude you’re a mess. I’ve never seen you this unkempt before#Sanji: I. Listen.#Luffy: 😋#Sanji: DON’T LOOK SO PROUD OF YOURSELF THIS IS YOUR FAULT#Luffy: I take full responsibility and I WILL be doing it again!!!!#Sanji: NFJSNFNSNCNSNCNSN#Lusan#Sanlu#One Piece#Sanji#Luffy#Shima speaks#Just reminding you all where my heart lies. In case you didn’t know already tee hee <3#I love the contrast between how they are normally and how they are when they’re intimate#AKA Sanji’s a fucking mess after Luffy gives him any kind of affection and Luffy is fully unbothered#Sanji getting overwhelmed at any physical affection makes me ill actually.#Luffy knows that he’s doing smth right when Sanji’s nose starts bleeding LMAO#Luffy: Cool!! I’m glad Sanji’s enjoying it :D#Meanwhile Sanji’s brain is fried. He can’t even articulate. LMAO#Idk what it is about them!! They’ve changed me!! They awakened something in me………jfjdnnd
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sun hasn’t even risen yet and I’m feeling so emotional about how Dan is living proof that growth takes time but is so worth it and sometimes you don’t work through the hard stuff until you’re well into adulthood bc just getting by took enough energy and you simply didnt have the tools yet and we now know that things got so dark for him and im sure the darkness will come again bc that’s how these things go but now he’s smiling with his crows feet and laugh lines and silly clothes bc now he can love his body enough to put it in silly outfits before going out into the world and he’s goofy and playful and in love and idk guys life can be so defeating and it sure was for him at times but here he is this gleaming imperfect beautiful example of work and growth and acceptance and self love
#love you Dan I’m sorry that I’m such a sap about Dan#but idk man it’s 15 yrs and he was just a boy and then he was just a scared mess#trying to keep everything under control#and now he doesn’t have to bc he’s safe in himself#and Liam’s dead and maybe that tangentially has something to do with how I’m feeling#bc man I’ve lost so many people to mental illness#and I know it’s so complicated and to use that broad stroke categorization to describe something so personal is simply wrong#but it’s also not all that complicated we just need to feel safe and worthy and loved and need to have enough space in our psyche for hope#enough space to imagine a tomorrow. and when you don’t have that it’s so hard to just keep on trudging through the mess. but it is worth it#and the fog clears#dan and phil#dan howell#me yapping
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for my girlies who wear wigs, what’s the most ur willing to pay for an install and unit?
#cherry chats 🍒#I was in the store and my hair was looking a mess bc I hadn’t ordered my new unit yet#and all these girls had their hair done and were looking at me crazy skskks but I just redid my hair#and even though I had the extra coin to spend#I couldn’t being myself to spend $150 - 200 on a wig#😭😭#like I could not#and idk it just feels like such a waste to me#I can use that on groceries or a bill#idk maybe I’m just cheap so I’m not a good judge#like $500 sitting on my fucking head when I need food or my lights on us crazy work#I’m talking strictly for the regular working class girls#not these influencer bitches who can afford it lmaoo
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Yknow what, I might as well see what happens
Gonna do the notes game, just gonna see what happens I dunno (I have a lot of stuff I need to do and no motivation so I’ll use the internet to force me to)
25 notes - I’ll finish reading Good Omens
50 notes - I’ll finish pulp musicals (I started it and got distracted, came back an hour later so damn confused I HAD MY EARBUDS IN AND EVERYTHING)
100 notes - I’ll draw more (both traditionally and digitally, I want to improve)
150 notes - I’ll continue writing a coffee shop au I started last October and never finished (it was like 75 pages and I just stopped :()
200 notes - I’ll listen to Starry
250 notes - I’ll try to get at least a 70% in Spanish this quarter
300 notes - I’ll clean my room
350 notes - I’ll work on eating healthier
500 notes - I’ll spend more time with my friends outside of school
750 notes - I’ll finish listening to all the musicals on my musical watch list (there are so many of them…)
1000 notes - I’ll get back to doing taekwondo
1500 notes - I’ll take a walk every day
2000 notes - I’ll spend more time with my family
2500 notes - I’ll rewrite my really bad Xehaqus fic from 2 years ago and try my hardest not to just delete all of it (I’d be rewriting 183 pages, I dunno I wanna see how I’d write it now without changing the entire plot)
3000 notes - I’ll actually start to study for school and not just wing it
4000 notes - I’ll stop being such an asshole to my parents Jesus Christ how do they deal with me
5000 notes - I’ll come out to my mom as trans
Try and reach the goal before uhhhhh I dunno April 16th
I may add more later, depends on how fast yall go through the goals, I have a lot of things I need to do (mainly because I need to start caring about my health and how I treat other people). I dunno, let’s see how this goes
Edit kinda did the “come out to my mom” thing soooooo idk I’ll figure something out for 5000 (maybe)
#note game#Yall im so bored#And I need motivation#And also I need to start being like… a decent person#Idk man#I probably shouldn’t be needed to do some of these things but also peer pressure is a wonderful thing#And I’m just kinda a mess rn#Hopefully 4th quarter for school goes well#Fingers crossed?
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