#I’m jus so mad. extremely mad lmao

[phalliwellz]

Society if Bonnie actually got the plot lines/arcs she deserved in tvd

[moon8th]

👼🏽random astro observations👼🏼

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👼🏿 some Leo Sun feminine ppl... have the most jealous moms.. idk wtf that’s about

👼🏽 @daszlight said prominent Aries in the chart makes someone look like a baby/young, I think prominent Gemini does too

👼🏻 myyy Pisces Stellium puppy is named Honey Cocaïne (after a rapper), LOL I just think it’s funny that she’s unintentionally named after a drug and a rapper (Pisces/Neptune energy rules over drugs/escapism/music,etc.)

she is also very caring, prissy/sassy(love), she eats attention up, stares into my eyes often, clingy or distant no in between lol, good at traveling, intuitive lil pisces bby

👼🏾I’ve noticed that a vast amount of Taurus placement ppl are QUITE androgynous! (I mf love it!!!!!)

👼🏼ex: Kehlani, Coi Leray, Rico Nasty, Busta Rhymes, Janet Jackson, Miley Cyrus(Taurus Asc), Prince😩(Taurus Venus), Grace Jones, etc.

👼🏿 now that I found all these pictures I’m noticing, they ¡caannn! be very comfortable with their body or showing their body (I think bc Taurus is a very primal sign, being an Earth sign, ruled by the 5 senses and an animal 🐂)

-also a lot of people get mad at Taurus for being so comfortable with their bodies (ex: Coi Leray gets slandered publicly for loving/expressing herself physically.. very lame and very weird)

👼🏽this^ doesn’t apply to all Taurus, some may wish to cover up more, whichever they may choose, they are always going to choose what makes them ~feel~ very comfortable (shying away from clothes/accessories that make them feel constricted/not comfy) (ex:Jhene Aiko (Taurus Venus)

👼🏻Taurus rules my whole 6th house so.... that energy obviously snatches me TF UP 🙂🥵😭

👼🏾Squares in synastry ¡can! actually be so beautiful bc it allows the 2 parties to see life from a completely different, yet similar pov! Instead of tension, there can be healthy acceptance, of course only if both parties are willing (ex: Virgo+Sag placements, Aqua+Scorpio placements)

👼🏼an opinion but.. Capricorn placement ppl.. it’s like speaking to a grounded Earth fairy/angel.. some are even known for being angel like lmao, some ppl think they’re ditsy, until they read you and have you sitting there VERY stunned, I love y’all so much.. (ex: Sade, Yebba, Aaliyah🙏🏽, Jhené Aiko(Cap Mars), Dolly Parton, Ellie Goulding, Mac Miller🙏🏽)

👼🏿also so many Capricorn placements have intoxicating voices, examples above^

👼🏽both my friend’s parents have their Pluto in her 10th house and they definitely want to control her career/where she’s headed in life

👼🏻Aquarius Virgo and Gemini placements have the the same type of eccentric, quirky, and weird(love lol) personalities/convos

👼🏾 Mercury in Aries/Aries degrees....... ¡can! be very over powering... they have an extreme need to be right, that pride is only going to hurt them in the end

👼🏼I reeaally enjoy looking at Quincunx in the birth chart/synastry and all types of charts, some people say they aren’t that powerful, which I believe, instead it can be a nice subtle energy happening (ex: a couple in my family is an Aquarius Stellium and a Cancer Stellium and they’ve been married for 30 years, there’s a soft passionate energy that they share, it’s very loving to see)

👼🏿 Venus quincunx Uranus natal may be confused about romantic relationships early in life bc they want love but commitment may scare them, may get into Uranus/“new age” relationships very randomly,, pls make sure to develop boundaries/communication well

👼🏽 ...theory but you 5th house can determine your major love language? (Virgo/Gemini 5th house words of affirmation, Pisces/Scorpio/Cancer 5th house physical touch?) I assume planets may change this, Idk jus a theory

👼🏻 this seems so obvious bc they’re a fire sign, but the specific way that Leo Sun/Placement ppl can be so kind and warm is honestly to mf refreshing each time 🤌🏽 be as kind to yourselves bbys

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these are only my observations, pls only take what resonates, lmk what you think <333

[allofthisnonsenseplease]

Ouran High School Host Club fusion, anyone? XD

another plotting session with firesonic152 <3

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 XDDDDDDDDDDD oh my god i typed in soldier 76 and gabriel reyes into like an "if you were an otome character" generator and

Soldier 76 is the protagonist. type: rival good end: run away to live together bad end:love interest commits suicide

Gabriel Reyes is the side character. type: rival good end: living together bad end: love interest is executed

A LITTLE TOO REAL

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 WHAT THE FUCK

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 RIGHT

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 awful bad endings aside whassit mean about their type being rival?

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 like. they start out as your rival or apparently each other's rival lmao then they get together XD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 OH OKAY I GOTCHA WELL HELL XD

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 IT'S A LITTLE TOO ON POINT????

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 YEAH. YEAH I DID NOTICE THAT.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 lmao overwatch au where everything is the same except it's done in the style of a dating sim

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 i don't know whether to be intrigued or horrified tbh, all i can really think is OHSHC AU XD

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 AKJFNADKJFN PLEASE would that make gabe tamaki and jack haruhi or would it be the other way around gabe is the overdramatic one lmao and i can totally see jack being like "fuckdknakdsfjnadkfjn rich people >||(((((("

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Gabe would ABSOLUTELY be Tamaki. Jack as Kyouya. For Haruhi...Maybe Jesse getting dragged in, and put Hanzo and Genji as the twins.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 LOL

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Jack as the cold shadow leader. XD

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 XDDDDDD except in this version,,,,,,, tamaki ends up w kyouya

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Rein as Mori. D.Va as Hunny.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 (lmao @ autocorrect valiantly trying to change tamaki into tamale bless u) A VERY LOUD MORI A VERY LOUD AND BOISTEROUS MORI

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Well, it's not an exact match. XD

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 XDDDDDDD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 But Gabe in Tamaki's role ABSOLUTELY makes me think he'd be like in the rolls over and steals Jack's mic comic. XD Ana as their crazy advisor girl? Who the fuck would be Nekozawa? Junkrat? shit now i wanna rewatch it XD

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 XDDDDDDDD lmao but can u imagine,,,,, they start this club before they're together and they get so unreasonably jealous,,,,,,,,,

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 like jack wants to straight up Murder everyone fawning over gabe

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 HAD NOT CONSIDERED BUT LOVE IT

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 and whenever someone requests jack they get very carefully Glared at by gabe

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Jack gets more and more withdrawn into the actual work of running the club bc he doesn't wanna watch Gabe being so flirty with other ppl!!

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 adjfnakdjfn

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 but he can't help watching anyhow

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 wishing it was him gabe was seducing qoq gabe is happy to let jack withdraw like that bc YAY it means not as many people can request him >:3

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 oh noes gabe it's a sign of problems ;; pls notice

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 yeah QoQ

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Unexpectedly, Jack actually gets MORE popular since it's rarer to be able to talk with him, and it's charming the way he lights up when he's hosting as opposed to being so serious when he's working. So, does Gabe get Tamaki's flair for the dramatic, as well, so that he can do some acrobatic fucking pirouettes when he needs to insert himself into a situation involving Jack? XD

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 AHAHAHA YES kjfkakdjfadkfnadf gabe gets so frustrated at the fact that jack can put on such a convincingly charming act for the customers when he's totally sour with gabe (in reality this is just the fact that a) jack is frustrated at the fact that he's in love w gabe lmao but more importantly b) he is comfortable enough w gabe to not bother with an act)

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 He notices one day though that Jack's off his game. It's little tiny clues--a slight crease between his eyebrows, a brittleness in his smile, an air of distraction. He steps in and makes up some bullshit about needing Jack for something and drags him off somplace for a private word. Turns out Jack's sick--really bad migraine or something--so Gabe hustles him off to the infirmary and makes him lie down, then heads back to the club. And Jack is sick and tired and cold and just generally miserable because he thinks Gabe was so quick to pull him because the customers might notice and be unhappy, when actually Gabe was the ONLY one who had noticed and he was concerned.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 QOQ jack protests it a lot out of spite and they argue qoq

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 Every other member of the club drops by to check on Jack, but Gabe doesn't come back. He's actually handling Jack's customers as well as his own, plus trying to do Jack's work with the club books or whatever because he thinks that's honestly important to Jack and doesn't realize it's little more than an excuse. All Jack knows is that the damn club they started is apparently more important to Gabe than he is.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 SOBS jack decides maybe this isn't worth it. maybe he should just quit. try to forget about gabe.

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 :rose:Farewell to Jack! Is this the end of the Host Club?:rose:

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 HAHAHA the episode ends with jack in the infirmary bed pondering his feelings and whether or not he really wants to quit. cut to jack entering the host club, gabe looking up to greet him with a smile that quickly fades when he sees jack's serious expression. "gabe... there's something i need to tell you." CUT TO BLACK

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 NO THAT'S THE WORST XD FUCKING CLIFFHANGERS

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 XDDDDD genji then excitedly talks about the preview with hanzo occasionally inputting his own opinion

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 The next episode opens with Jack's expression suddenly going all wobbly as he sags and presses a hand over his mouth. 'shouldn't have moved,' he manages. 'think i'm gonna puke'

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 AHAHA gabe is like DDDD: and swoops in to get jack to the bathroom before he can throw up on the floor

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 once Jack's steady again, Gabe asks what he was going to say, and Jack just snaps back at him 'Do you really think this is the time?' The whole episode puts off what Jack had decided to say.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 HA

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 His migraine is worse than ever, Gabe has to take him home and put him to bed. He stays and cooks something for Jack, the others show up and fuck around in Jack's house.

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 it is a lighthearted episode that casually develops jesse and hanzo's romance on the side...... save for gabe's low-key moping also jesse and hanzo's obvious flirtation serves as a reminder to gabe that he hasn't been honest about his feelings At All

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 The ep ends with Jack waking up and Gabe's there, dozing next to the bed. When Gabe hears him stirring, he wakes up and asks if Jack is okay. Jack says he's feeling better, and Gabe is like 'Good. There's something I need to tell you, too.'

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 KDNFAJKSFD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 and then the episode ends and the next one starts with some sort of emergency, junkrat setting the school on fire, probably

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 OH MY GOD i'M DYING HERE IS IT ONE OF THOSE FILLER EPISODES WHERE THEY DO A RECAP OF EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED IN THE SHOW SO FAR BC SKIP ofc jack ends up saying his piece about wanting to quit first and gabe gets the wrong idea and decides to swallow his feelings jack is like "so what were you gonna tell me" and gabe is like "UHH,,,, I JUS,,,T,,,,,,,,,, MM,,,,,, WANTED YOUR OPINION ON,,,,,, THE NEW,,,, ART?? WE SHOULD PUT UP IN THE CLUB ROOM,,,,,,,,"

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/24/2017 OH NOOOOOO ; ; Jack actually quits, and over the next week, it seems like he's less grumpy in the time they have to spend together, but he also seems distant, somehow. They both mope around. ; ;

firesonic152 - 04/24/2017 QoQ gabe is very rapidly losing his composure THEN REIN GIVES HIM A LECTURE :DDD a VERY LOUD LECTURE about NOT BEING A COWARD and GETTING THOSE FEELINGS OUT ALREADY

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 X'D OH! OHOHOH!! WHAT IF JACK ACTUALLY GETS THE BALLS TO SHOW UP TO THE CLUB AND REQUEST GABE LIKE

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 KJDFNAKFDJADNF

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 RIGHT AFTER REINS LECTURE AND GABE IS JUST WAT THIS IS...GOOD

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 AHHHHHHHH

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 BUT SUDDEN WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I SAY???? ANd Jack is fucking RED AS A STRAWBERRY

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 KJDNSFAKFN

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 and SO MAD that he ACTUALLY DID THIS because GOD DAMMIT THIS IS EMBARRASSING He's got his HEART on his fucking SLEEVE and Gabe is just SITTING THERE SO the nerves get to jack, and he's like 'fuck it, i know a rejection when i see one' and he books it outta there

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 KJNDKJNFD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 into that fuck off rose garden with the gazebos yes goddamn rich people and their fucking beautiful settings for dramatic confessions

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 XDDDDDD gabe is stunned for a sec but then rein is like GO AFTER HIM OMFG so he DOES BUT JACK IS SO FAST ,,,,, AND WHAT IF,,,, earlier jack overheard rein's lecture (bc it was extremely loud) and he had thought he might have had a chance,,,,,, but when he booked it out of there he ran too fast and gabe lost him in the maze,,, gabe is actually standing right across from jack, but there is a hedge between them so he can't see,,,,,,, and then bc this is a shoujo and ridiculous shit has to happen someone else finds gabe there and like confesses to him, right where jack can hear it (and ofc gabe doesn't know he's right there),,,,,,,,,,,, and jack assumes that gabe's alleged feelings are for that other person,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 OH NO WHY

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 and jack leaves before he hears gabe reject the other person bc he has feelings for "someone else"

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 orz

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 >:3c

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 YOU WERE TYPING FOR SO LONG AND I WAS ALL SET FOR A FREAK THUNDERSTORM TRAPPING THEM IN A GAZEBO TOGETHER FOR DRAMATIC CONFESSIONS AND HOT MAKEOUTS BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 I'M SORRY I HAD TO BREAK IT AGAIN IT'S A SHOUJO U HAVE TO DRAG THIS SHIT OUT FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 FUCK THAT NOISE MY FAVE SHOUJO MANGA ENDED IN SEVEN SHORT VOLUMES

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 XDDDDDDD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 if you're gonna set up a misunderstanding like that, then Jack's gotta labor under it for at least a full episode, right?

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 we can still have the freak thunderstorm lmao XDDDD yep

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 so give him the start of the next day, waking up just rekt from having been unable to sleep the night before (and prolly crying into his pillow 'cause really) and he's dead on his feet and has circles like twin halves of a black hole under his eyes, but he drags his sorry carcas out of bed, gets dressed and ready, and of course because the fucker can't just go ahead without him ONE TIME, meets Gabe to walk to school. And Gabe immediately asks what happened, but Jack doesn't want to talk about it. So Gabe starts to say 'about yesterday--' but Jack Doesn't Want To Talk About It. So Jack's the picture of misery all day, and Gabe is shooting him worried glances through their classes, but by the end of hte school day, Jack has decided that he's got to man up and be Gabe's friend and support him. SO instead of waiting till after the club to walk home with Gabe, he just leaves so that Gabe can walk his crush home instead.

And of course, Gabe goes looking for Jack when he's not waiting, and has to hear from a classmate that Jack left already.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 CLUTCHES CHEST

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 And Gabe is just like 'fuck this. i'm gonna find out What The Hell is up with him.' So he legs it to Jack's house and bangs on the door till he gets a response, and Jack still looks like death warmed over, and he just kinda glares tiredly at Gabe and asks why he's there.

Gabe is in no mood to deal with this shit--the dirty looks and Jack's tone and the way he's not even inviting him inside, so Gabe is just 'So are we suddenly not friends anymore, 'cause I didn't get the memo about that.' and Jack is taken aback, because of course they're friends, he needs that much at least if he can't have everything. He gets mad pretty quick, though, 'cause he's trying his best, dammit, he's barely had a full day to come to terms with the fact that he has a fucking broken heart of all things.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 jsakfnaksjfnaskjfsjnfaf

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 So Jack just says 'I was staying out of your way, idiot. Don't you have someplace more important to be?'

'The hell I do! Not when you're acting like this! Not when you suddenly won't give me the time of day. I have something important to say to you, Jack, and you can slam the door in m face afterward if you want, but I'm damn well going to say it this time!'

And then the entire rest of the club shows up to check on Jack because he looked like he was Going To Die.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 The joke's worn thin at this point, so Gabe chases them all off, while Jack stands by, looking ill and considering closing the door and hiding. But Gabe pushes past him and shuts the rest of the world out, cornering Jack in the process. They're standing so close together that Jack can't tell if the heat on his face is from Gabe or because he's blushing or because he's about to have to fend off tears again. Gabe takes a deep breath, and just that is enough for his chest to brush against Jack's, and he lays it out. 'I like you, Jack. That's...that's what I wanted to say.'

They stand there in silence for a moment. Jack is gaping at him, not sure he heard right, almost sure he must be misunderstanding somehow. The silence gets to Gabe, and he fidgets nervously.

'I can leave, if you want. I just--Jesus, Jack, are you crying?'

'Huh?' Jack touches his face and, sure enough, he's started crying again. He rubs angrily at the tears and shoves past Gabriel into the house, muttering about how he's too fucking tired for this. Gabe follows him, concerned, feeling like that's a clear enough rejection, but wondering why Jack would reject him after requesting him in the club.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 JACK'S CRYING AND I'M CRYING

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 'Am I who you were talking to Rein about?' Jack demands. Gabe goes red. 'You weren't supposed to hear that,' he mumbles. 'Am I or not??' '...yeah. Liked you for a while now, Jackie. Didn't have the balls to say anything.' Jack just stares at him for a moment, heaves a sigh, and drops down onto the couch, head in his hands. 'I'm an idiot,' he grumbles.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 AHHHHHH

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 'Well, sure, Jackie, but it's a simple question. You want me to go, or...?' Jack looks up at him, glaring with red-rimmed eyes. 'Dont' you fucking dare leave.' And Gabe's heart does a little flutter in his chest, because he's pretty sure he knows now how Jack feels, intense glare notwithstanding.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 kajnKJNkjnskjfnsakKJSDFNAKSDJNFKASJDNFASDF I'M DYING

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 HOLY JEEZUS IT IS WAY LATER THAN I REALIZED XD

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 WAIT LET THEM SMOOCH FIRST

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 I gotta turn in aaaaaaaaaaaah smooches

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 gabe is all flustered and has no idea what to do next until jack hisses at him to get his ass over to the couch and they make out the end]

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 lol

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 :heart:

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 what about Gabe goes over to where Jack is sitting, and kneels down in front of him on the floor, looking up into his exhausted, angry, tear-streaked face.

'What are you grinning for?' Jack grouches.

'You like me, don't you?'

'Give the man a prize.'

Gabe laughs and leans in a bit closer, eyes bright and eager. He's itching to wipe away the last of Jack's tears, but he's pretty sure calling attention to them will get him punched. Instead, he asks: 'All right if I kiss you?'

Jack eyes him for a moment, then slides right off the couch into Gabe's arms, straddling Gabe's thighs as he wraps his arms around him for a kiss.

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 AKJDFNASKDFJN I'M GONE

SuspiciousPopsicle - 04/25/2017 XD all right, cool. we got closure i'mma get some sleep. Have a good rest of your evening. ^^ ((the kiss is interrupted by flashes from the windows as the club members, who had all stayed to watch, take photos)) Night night. <3

firesonic152 - 04/25/2017 <333333333 good night <333333

[moonfacecrybaby-blog]

Self reminder (jus feel like ranting)

To never EVER go on vacation with someone who has little Earth in their chart. 😭I have never been so baffled at the lack of planning and inability to make a decision based on common sense, holy fuck. All of my female Scorpio friends are boy crazy as fuck and are willing to ditch their friends at the first sign of possibly hanging out with a guy but my Scorpio friends both have earth moons so they still get all of their ducks in a row before making a move but this bitch (who I met through my Taurus best friend who went too) is a Libra rising and Aquarius moon... let me tell you why that's the most annoying shit tho. The Libra rising makes her beautiful and charming and good at being fake as hell which is the PERFECT mask for a demon Scorpio lmao. She swore up and down during the planning of the trip that she's been wanting to hang out with us forever and misses us and couldn't wait to have a girls day- even going as far as to rent a car! What a friend right? Wrong the fucking Scorpio had been planning this all along because she has some Taurus boy toy down in that direction and she just didn't want to go alone. And then here's the kicker.. she took the car and left me, my 9 month old daughter, and the other female stranded at the beach for hours while she was like a 30 minute drive away at the guy's house, and didn't give one fuck because she's an Aquarius moon with her own agenda. 😒Then we finally met the loser and he looks EXACTLY like the husband of hers that she's currently divorcing... moral of the story is, sun and moon in the 8th people need to start listening to themselves because WE KNOW WHAT THE HELL WE FEEL WHEN WE MEET PEOPLE! I'm just also a Pisces moon so I try to blind myself so I won't see the bad in people. The first time we hung out I was scared as hell but didn't know why and then ever since that day she's brought so much drama to my life without so much as a twitch of sympathy for anyone smhhh. I find it so interesting though also because the Taurus female that went with us is also an Libra rising, Aquarius moon. Sun sign astrology is real bro because they have the same emotional responses internally and greet the world in the same way but they're differences in sun sign flavors it. The Taurus girl uses her Libra rising to nurture everybody honestly, it makes her less reserved as a Taurus and I guess the double Venus makes her hella selfless but almost everything she does is done for the good of the whole group. She pays attention to the needs of everybody around her and she always uses her Aquarius moon to come up with great ideas that benefit everyone, yeah her sun is in the 8th house so she lives on the edge so people judge her but I like that she still cares about the safety of others before her desires. The Scorpio on the other hand 😒😒😒 (lmao I know I sound like I'm hating on Scorpios but it's actually one of my favorite signs ����) she uses her Libra rising to make people think she's nice and then acts like such trash secretly. Everybody has a fake side but hers is malicious and selfish and that's shit I just can't deal with. I wonder what house her sun is in? Whatever, it just kinda makes me mad because the Taurus girl gets judged for her openness with her fast life and sexuality but is an AMAZING person to friends and strangers but the Scorpio dresses modest, wears glasses, and has adorable little curls so nobody realizes that she's been orchestrating their Dmn demise the entire time! The same kinda thing literally happened last month when we went to hang out with some guy friends and ended up waiting in the car forever so she could fuck one of the guys, which would have been no big deal if we had planned this and it wasn't almost 4 in the morning. I guess I just hate when people have no problem inconveniencing others for their own desires. Also, another thing my female Scorpio friends have in common is that they have ZERO respect for Gemini males lmao (funny because my baby's father is a Gemini and he got his heart broken by a Scorpio earlier this year lmao). They literally hate them yet a lot of Gemini guys have big dicks (in our experience 😂) so they literally just use them for sex and talk behind their backs smh so it's even more annoying that the guy she left us in the car to fuck was a Gemini and she started talking shit as soon as she came back. 🙄😒saying how she'll never take a Gemini seriously and shit.. then why you was so hype about spending time with him??? Bruhhhhh see this rant about to be even longer cause I just have too many thoughts on this now. 😭😂 like also, back to the boy craziness! This bitch acts like she's sooo mature and above everybody but you should see her dumb ass when she's about to see a boy. 🙄🙄🙄 she literally starts vibrating and gets giddy as hell and starts talking soooo fucking much which is the worst icing on the cake to me. Don't keep rubbing your bullshit in my face after pissing me off. Ironically, she was talking about Taureans yesterday because her sister is one and was like "I don't get why you guys never say how you're feeling! Like I can't read your mind so why y'all never express when y'all mad?" And then her behavior yesterday literally answered her question. Taureans like fun but we don't like fucking drama but it seems like Scorpios BREATH drama so while we're trying to keep the trip stable, this bitch is flying around life not making and iota of sense! And what do taureans do when shit stops making sense? We sit our asses back, shut our mouths, and endure until the ground is stable again. That's why when she got back we were quiet the rest of the trip because like.. anymore surprises? We HATE surprises. I guess that's why Taureans get quiet during emotional upheavals? Me and the other Taurus were BOILING but we shut our fucking mouths when she came back around because opening our mouths to talk while in extreme emotion makes oUR VOICES COME OUT UNINTENTIONALLY LOUD AND FULL OF HATE BECAUSE YOU KEEP THROWING SHIT OUR WAY AND WE CAN NO LONGER BREATH THE EXTREME NEGATIVITY THROUGH OUR NOSES! WE DONT TALK WHEN YOU'RE UPSETTING US BECAUSE WE DONT WANNA BELIEVE THAT YOU'RE REALLY THIS TRASH SO WE SHUT UP AND GIVE YOU CHANCE AFTER CHANGE TO CORRECT YOURSELF THEN BLOW THE HELL UP WHEN YOU KEEP RUBBING IT IN! I know it sounds childish to not say what you're feeling but we just expect everyone to have common sense and KNOW as a fucking adult what's rude/stupid/nonsensical, so we sit our asses back and reevaluate our relationship with you. It's something air dominants don't really understand though because my sister is a Gemini sun, Aquarius moon (ugh I'm surrounded by Aquarius moons 🙄) and she didn't believe that I was actually having contractions and took forever to take me to the hospital when I had my daughter because I wasn't showing any emotion when I'd tell her I was in pain and wasn't saying much. My baby's father is a Gemini sun and Mercury and he literally rambled through our daughter's birth and has to talk while she's getting shots because he gets through high levels of any feeling through distracting his mind with random words. Ugh I actually love it because you know when you've made him nervous when his rambling Gemini twin starts coming out even though he's a Scorpio rising who likes to portray himself as all dark and mysterious 😂. Anyways! Taureans just prefer to lay low and endure.. until it gets real, then the rest of your chart comes out. Like when I was having contractions, I quietly endured them the whole time like a Taurus... until it was time for her to come and they got worse so the Pisces moon came out! I like the description of the moon sign being who you are when you need your mother." I literally started reaching for my mom, everyone else in the room faded away, and I kept whining to her and asking "is there any drug that can knock me out so I won't have to live through this pain?? I don't want to live though this. I don't want to experience this." While shaking my head, attempting to wake up from that nightmare 😂 I'm literally an escapist in the highest form! I find it interesting that my moon house also played a big part because I remember during the contractions that I was being a Pisces moon and trying to imagine myself in the place I'd rather be and I closed my eyes and imagine myself in a casket, and then I felt like that wasn't enough and I imagined myself burning I hell and was slightly satisfied lmao the 8th house moon is such a trip. *Sigggh* but leave it to an Aries MC person to be this annoying and off subject during a rant but whatever, I've accepted that I'm nothing but a Taurus sun version of Kanye West. 😂 But I only have "fun" friends I don't have "emotional outlet" friends so I have nobody to talk about my suppressed rage to. 🙃

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:( I hope you're okay. do you wanna talk about it? I'll send an ask off of anon if you want

;; ill just put the cliffnotes under the cut lmaoedit: i said cliffnotes and i ended up writing the entire story lol sorry ( i added screenshots if u wanna look.

lol sorry its so long. i just couldnt explain myself w/o screenshots so thats why it ended up being so long :AJKKGHSjldk)

we’ll call my lover, s/o,the person intended to be confronted, fuckwad,and the other one, shoe bc thats the only way i can say her name 

basically this fuckwad, was getting into shit w/ someone who’s 14. (who sexualises minors, yes i know shes a minor, but she also claims she’s fucked idols and shes just. oi boy) and i, being the snake i am, i wanted to just fuck with her and see what would happen. 

so its been like, a week or 2, and she has confessed to me. like 3 times, she is aware that im currently seeing someone. and that someone is her best friend, yes well, i dont feel the same way, i told my s/o that i was gonna try and see if she’d do this so i can call her out.

ok so we got that out the way. 

there was another one who called out that person, and i wanted to get her side and i wanted to thank her for keeping my s/o safe because s/o would refuse to let me get involved (i only got them to let me do it by promising to show screenshots, ik now all of this is fucked up lmao im sO SORRY), anyways so, within the first day of meeting shoe, she fucked with one of my triggers, (which sorry trigger warning here, i basically look at things to give me inspiration to self harm when im extremely upset and blaming myself for smth like now) WELl THIS bitch- (ive blocked out names & the picture for privacy sake)

so, as u can see i was jus having fun but THEN

look at me just like “no” lol if only u knew what was gonna happen past kookie

* side note, i got really fucking distressed after she left and came back randomly so towards the end youll see why i added this, but also realise i was being a dick because of that*

ok so, as u see, s/o was spamming the picture away & i was getting upset. because i was triggered. (another thing to note: this person(shoe) said they have mental illnesses and i’m not denying that, i don’t know them enough to know if they do or don’t. but i bring this up because, regardless if you find cuts & gore fascinating, you’d know not to bring that up to others. because you don’t want to be a trigger, but maybe thats just me, i cant really explain myself im sorry.) 

fuCKING HEHEHEHE. WHAT THE FUCK. THATS NOT OKAY. IF YOU SEE SOMEONE WHOS DISTRESSED YOU DONT SAY HEHEHE. What the FUCK. im fucking AJHGEIUOiJBNRwkhgiojs I HATE THIS PERSON WITH A BURNING PASSION. AND ALL I HEARD FROM MY S/O WAS THEY WERE A Gr8 PERSON AND I CALELD THEM OUT ON THAT SHIT AND THEN THEY LET THEM GO SO I GUESS I FUCKING WON THEREBUT IM ANGRY ANYWAY. AND YOU KNOW WHAT I SHOULDNT BE DOING THIS BUT FUCK IT IM So MAD NOW AKJGHSJIodfIGhrusj

anyways bless my s/o for coming to my rescue. like fuck idk what i’d do w/o them in that situation. (let me also add : i have bpd and when things like this go down i tend to split (switch personalities) so after this i became rlly fucking aggressive ahahehaehah save me) 

Bossy sissy (god i cringed) - s/o made a list of rules for the chatroom to prevent things like this from happening again & they weren’t that bad they just gave the general, no gore, this is suppose to be positive. u know? ok 

It’s not bossy how abt… - i was splitting at this point, and i was trying to get my point across that it was fucking wrong. & yes im aware i did an awful job at that. 

…i have… - she was saying she has self harmed & she was sorry. and u know what? yea i realise i was too aggressive and im crying over it all over again AHAHhAAHAH 

i….. does this rlly need an explanation? like… icant really tell whos in the wrong here. her or me. but im still gonna blame myself. 

and the moment that im really crying over:::::::

now listen. im probably overreacting and you know what. youre right i am. AHAHHA

but this really fucking got to me. i dont know why but it really got my anxiety and my disorders were all over the place. 

more abt shoe that i just thought about: she’s really fucking twisted? and ungrateful? her mother is getting her help for all the shit she’s done, and she’s just like “ugh” like. no bitch, if my mom was still alive i’d ask her to find me help.

s/o has a daughter named luna, and she openly talks about her, and after hearing about luna, shoe started acting like a toddler, like she was regressed & she apparently has a thing called little syndrome which i have no idea what it is, but this really fucking angered me because i regress due to being s*xually assualted at a young age (like 10-16). so i regress to take back my childhood. i dont do it to mock other people who regress for the same reason unLIKE SOMEONE COUGHS FUCKING shOE COUGhs. 

anyways i hate shoe. 

lol 

sorry this is so long.

im gonna probably add to this as i go but u know 

[tthevoidinmysoul]

thoughts on 2015 - 31/12/2015

hey there. This is going to be a summary of 2015 or smth. Here it goes.

First of all, i’m crying lol. Last year I did something similar to this and I just read it and wow. Idr what stuff you had to put up 2014-deku but yo, it got slightly better.

This year I started studying Animation. I changed from Graphic Design because I realized it wasn’t what I wanted to do. It was p intense because it was a new start. Again. Luckily my first semester went smoothly. I learnt lots of stuff and got to do so many new things that have changed my goals in a v nice way. The first semester I also got a uh recognition ??? a like a diploma thing congratulating me for my grades from the previous semester and i was like woaah!! :O. In the ceremony I was recognized as Animation, not Graphic Design, even tho it had been bc of GD lol. There I met (more like jus briefly saw) a guy who also had gotten the diploma for animation, and we jus shared greetings and that was it.

That semester was okay. HA IT WASNT I JUS REMEMBERED. I got into trouble with some of my classmates. It’s a very small generation, like 24 people, and I was the new one, so ofc I’d get paired into teams with the people that nobody wanted to work with. I was so mad because of the mediocrity of the students, and i’m talking about 20-yo, full fledged adults, who couldn’t even do the simplest of things. So I got fed up and I remember I talked rly roughly at this guy in a class bc gdi he was awful. Luckily the rest of the class (who was present) supported me, telling me that the things I told him were things that they’ve meant to tell him and never had, so it was okay. Unfortunately it happened again and that time it wasnt as pretty as the last. I got paired w this girl who always cried when I talked to her (she always made herself a victim of her life and weird, negative stuff), and dear lorde pleas save me. When I finally went and talked to her bc she was doing literally NOTHING, the girl had the nerve to yell at me, in the middle of the classroom (which was fulled with my classmates and students from other generations), and leave. I was so confused and sad and mad at myself because I had done it again, fuck things up with teamwork. Long short story we’re okay now but I’m never doing something with her ever again in my life. My grades went down a lil but it wasnt that much, so I expected to be recognized again next semester.

oh boy.

SUMMER!!!!!111111 Woah. waaaaaaaah WHAT A SUMMER I HAD! This was SO FUN OH wait b4 summer I went into surgery again lmao. BUT I RECOVERED JUS FINE and im good yo. My bro went to Seattle to work with Microsoft bc he’s baddass and awesome and I was (and am) v happy for him but it also got me thinking a lot of things like what the fuck am I doing with my life. And here comes the reason I was cryin when I first started writing this. This summer I met wonderful, wonderful people. I made friends. FRIENDS. Friends that i hadn’t made in more than a year. It makes me fuzzy to think that I have such wonderful people by my side that i can laugh with, cry with, share things with, be deep with and be stupid with. I’m so happy I met you guys, I’ve grown so so so much since I’ve known you and as I told you yesterday, meeting you definitely has been one of the best things that have happened in my life.

I remember last year I cut my hair, really short. And I thought “if I turn out to be a lesbian, i’m blaming it on the haircut”. And guess what lmao. OKay maybe i’m not a lesbian but im deffo not straight either. I guess I knew I liked girls since highschool but didn’t bother to come up with a label untill now. I’m still finding out things about me and I have someone who keeps me company when I need em. WINKS ON U THANK FRIEND FOR LETTING ME RANT ABT MY THOUGHTS LMAO.

Then the second semester happened. I wasnt recognized as a top student this time. I was confused like lol, i’m gr9 wat hap. Turns out only the 1% of the student body of each degree gets the thing and oh surprise there are only 110 ppl in Animation. So boohoo the other mysterious boy got the diploma. And man was it a big blow. I was angry, angry as I could get. Obv not at the guy, at me. Because I had failed to myself, to my parents. Angry because I felt like an idiot, I couldn’t keep doing the thing that I excelled, being good at school. And I felt so angry because I was that. I was a top student, that was my main strength, and it was taken from me in a second.

One day my animation teacher separated me from the class and told me that I was the best animator from my generation. I am shit at animating, I know that. He knows that, and yet I am the best. That made me feel extremely uncomfortable, because that meant that I was the best, of the worst. It made me feel anxious, because that meant he had high expectations of me, being the best. Anxious because the best animator in the career was this guy who was recognized both last and this semester, and booooy. BOoooooooooooooy he’s a prodigy. A PRODIGY. He’s excellent and I am pure shit. From that day everything went downhill. BUT BEFORE THAT

Something good happened. I also made friends with prodigy boy. My first irl friend in more than 2 years. He turns out to be awesome and cool and so damn sincere and humble I can’t with his existence. We started talking thanks to a song, Somewhere beyond the sea. God bless that song, thanks to it I have now met an awesome human being yay. Turns out prodigy boy and I are very similar in many things, being angry at today’s society being the main one lmao. I have never met someone like him ever in my life. I respect him a lot and I want to remain as his friend for as long as I can. Sadly i’m very nervous around him because I’m very shy, I hope I dont mess this up like I did 4 years ago cries.

Back to shit. I was okay the first 2 terms but I just went pure shit on finals. For our animation course we had to enter a competition and I was very confident on my entry. Prodigy boy had landed in place #101, being the highest ever for an Animation student of my uni. I had high expectations of myself and everything was going to be alright, until it wasn’t. We presented our work a week before the deadline to our class, and I had a panic attack. I made a mess of myself and embarrassed me in front of everybody, I felt terrible and I cried a lot (thankfully in the bathroom). My entry was shit and I knew it and the teacher knew it and everybody did and the prodigy boy was there and he saw it and I’ve never been more embarrassed in my life I swear. It’s one of the worst experiences I’ve ever had. After that even tho I tried correcting my entry it was still shit and I crashed in place #142, being 5th of my class. And I was angry. So angry because I had failed. To myself, to the teacher, to the prodigy boy. To myself. I cried so much, like I had never before. My overall grades went down, again not so much but still. Turns out prodigy boy has a younger brother who’s as good as he is and it’s making me anxious. But whatever.

SO YEAH 2015 GOOD JOB. This year was bittersweet as fuck. I have learned so much, lost so much, gained so much, cried so much, laughed so much, EVERYTHING SO MUCH!?!?!. I’m just wah overwhelmed with everything that happened.

2016 DEKU: QUESTION TIME

How much did you fuck up? lmao

how did the short films went?

are you still friends with prodigy boy? 

have you found yourself bc I failed miserably lmao

so yea das it tbh 2016 WATCH OUT OMG THE ZELDA GAME IS COMINGRIGHT U BETTTER HAVE BOUGHT IT ALREADY OR IMA PUNCH U HARD

- A