#I’m in so much pain but it’s so worth it 💗

[pumakaji64]

No longer the big tiddy boyfriend, now I am an average sized tiddy boyfriend ^_^

[certifiedsexed]

Hey there, hi. I just wanted to ask a little thing, is it 100% true no bias no political correctness n’ feminism n’ inclusion n’ bullshit obstructing the way, that the first time is in fact NOT supposed fo hurt for the girl (I’m a cis female for the record)?? Because like, I’ve been seeing this guy I’m SO into for the past few months, and he’s such a gentleman and literally never dared so much as staring at my chest or making any sort of physical advances but I keep thinking about “that” because I’m so very attracted to him but I’m also a very paranoid person and with a low pain threshold and I am VERY afraid to be in pain and make him worry (he’s often worried of hurting me both physically and mentally because he’s such a sweetheart but also just as paranoid as me) and ruin everything for the both of us so yEAH I was just wondering if you could clear out these crippling doubts for me PLEASE?? 💀💗

Hi!

I'm not sure if you understand what political correctness, feminism or inclusion are, judging by your language.

But no, it's not supposed to hurt, period. If it hurts to have sex, and I'm assuming you're talking about penetrative sex, something is wrong.

It could just be that you're going too hard, or not using lube, or that you're nervous and going to fast/hard, but those shouldn't cause extreme pain and if it does, or even hurts in general, something's not right!

As long as you don't have a medical issue that causes painful penetration, and you're using lube, not being super rough and going at whatever pace feels comfortable to you, it is not supposed to hurt.

But you can also take your time if you're nervous, Anon. You don't have to start with penetrative sex and you can also try penetrative sex by yourself beforehand to see how it feels for you, how you like it and whether it causes any pain.

There's no need to jump into the deep end with no references if you're so anxious.

Also, if it does cause pain, that should not "ruin everything". If penetrative sex causing pain "ruins everything" with this guy, then he's an asshole.

There are so many ways to have sex besides that and your only worth to him should not be tied up in whether you have penetrative sex or not. That wouldn't be gentlemanly, at all.

Hope something here helps, Anon. Let me know if you have anymore questions. <3

[notsoattractivearenti]

Two and A Half Men (Christian Pulisic x Fem!Reader x Weston McKennie)

WC: 1.1K

Warnings: none

A/N: ok i'm not sure how to put it properly in the title without looking like a threesome group LMAO but in this fic Christian is reader's partner and Weston is both reader and Chris' best friend. and i'm aware Christian is holding a ball in the cover pic but imagine it’s a baby instead! this one is probably meh but i've been thinking about this idea all day and just had to write it down. hope you guys enjoy and i’d love to hear your thoughts thru ask/reply/reblog 💗 apologies for any errors! feedbacks are highly appreciated 🤍

—

“Knock knock… Can I come in?”

You see Weston’s head peeking through the slightly-opened door, respectfully waiting for you and Christian to let him in.

You wave your hand from the hospital bed to invite him to come inside. Wes carefully opens then closes the door, and quietly walks toward you. You see him bringing two bags of something in one of his hands but you can’t figure out whatever those may be.

“Hey, Y/N!” He gives you a big hug. “How are you feeling, my friend?”

“Hi Wes! Very exhausted, of course, but all good. Thanks for checking in.” You respond weakly.

“Oh I figured!” He laughs. “Christian told me you were in labor for almost 24 hours??? That’s wild! I don’t think I could be as strong as you were!”

You chuckle with a faint smile written on your face. You weren’t lying when you said you are very exhausted – it was a very long and painful process you had to go through to bring your child into the world. But no matter how insanely tiring the labor was, you loved every second of it and would do it all over again.

“Yeah… Wild indeed. Totally worth it, though.”

“By the way,” Weston hands you one of the bags he brought earlier, “I got you sushi. I know you love them and you couldn’t have even one during your pregnancy, so I believe you deserve some.”

“No way! Thank you Wes!” You excitedly unpack the bag and open one of the three boxes of sushi Weston gave you. You haven’t eaten one in nine months, and right now it’s like those delicious sushi are begging you to eat them right away – and obviously you can’t resist it.

“Ugh, sushi is overrated.” Christian scoffs.

—

Christian just came back from changing your baby’s diaper in the other room. He is holding your little bundle of joy in his arms – since he was just born, Christian has already become so protective of him he didn’t want the baby to ever leave his arms.

“Hush, C, no one needs to hear your trashy opinion.” You playfully clap back at his statement.

Your banter cracks Weston up. He cackles and you both do a high five.

“Ha-ha! Burn bro!”

Christian squints and shakes his head. He is more than happy to know that his best pal and his life partner are best friends, but sometimes when you two “gang up” on him – which happens really often, because you both love to make fun of Christian together – he would feel so outnumbered and get quite annoyed by it.

“Hmm, I’m not loving this dynamic, you know.” Christian says sarcastically.

“Oh boohoo, don’t be so bitter, white man.” Weston mocks him in response.

“Anyway, what’s up, new dad!?” Weston greets Christian then does the usual handshake with him – but since Christian is currently holding your baby, they do the one-hand version of the handshake.

“Happier than ever bro! I’m living the dream!” Christian gushes. 

“Aww, congratulations my brother!” Weston excitedly pats Christian’s back.

Christian gently supports the baby's head and back with his hands then slightly lifts the baby closer to his face.

“Here, we want you to meet our son, Finley Mark Pulisic. You can call him Finn for short.” Christian officially introducing your little man to his best buddy.

Weston is immediately in awe of Finn. His eyes were instantly locked on the face of the cutest little human he has ever seen.

“Wow, dude, he is so precious…” Weston murmurs. “You’re so lucky. man”

“Yeah, I know.” Christian replies.

His eyes are also very much set on Finn, admiring how adorable his little one truly is. For him, “lucky” is an understatement. He feels like he has hit the jackpot with the family life he’s now living, and would not want to change even the littlest thing.

Weston feels the urge to caress Finn’s little chubby cheeks with his finger, but he doesn't want to cross any boundaries so he asks for Christian’s permission before doing anything.

“May I feel his cheeks?”

“Yeah, of course.” Christian allows him to do so.

Weston gently caresses Finn’s cheeks and his heart suddenly feels like it is exploding.

“Oh my God, why is he this soft!? These fluffy cheeks are to die for! He is so cute!” Weston just blurts his thoughts out.

You – who is currently busy eating sushi that Weston brought for you on the bed – laugh when you hear what Weston said. It is clear to you that he has become Finn’s number one fan.

“What can I say, I did make one hell of a cute baby.” You chime in.

“We. We made a cute baby.” Christian jokingly corrects you.

You roll your eyes, blow a raspberry at him, then continue eating.

“Yeah, no, Finn’s cuteness is definitely all Y/N. Like, one hundred percent Y/N.”

Of course Weston is taking your side, he just wants to get into Christian’s nerve.

“Yea, yea, yea, whatever.” Christian mutters.

—

Christian’s arms get tired from carrying the baby for quite some time, so he puts Finn down on his crib next to your bed. At the same time, Weston feels like he is forgetting something, so he looks around and realizes he brought another takeout food for Christian. He quickly grabs the bag to hand it to Christian.

“Oh, Chris, I brought you some burritos,” Weston hands the other bag to Christian, “they are not from Chipotle, but you gotta eat, bro.”

Christian chortles.

“You don’t need to do that, but thanks a lot bro.”

“Anything for my favorite new parents.” Weston winks and funnily does the finger guns at us.

“You know what Chris? I just thought about this: now that you have a son, we’re like two and a half men. Like, you and I are the two and Finn is the half. How awesome is that?” Weston randomly tells Christian about this thought that crosses his mind.

You were listening to Weston’s random thoughts and already feeling left out – obviously you are not being serious – you voice your protest to him.

“Hey! What about me? Where am I fitting in on this scenario?”

“You will be the one who gave birth to the half man!” Weston laughs.

You’re confused as you don’t find that funny, but you think you should just play along.

“Eh,” you shrug, “whatever.”

“You two can raise Finn together then.” You acted upset.

“Y/N, please, don’t be mad…” Weston pretends to beg for your mercy.

“You and I both know anyone is better at parenting than Christian, right?”

“Come on guys,” Christian groans, “stop bullying me!”

—

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[thevikingwoman]

WIP Wednesday

tagged by @lilas and @myreia thank you 💗

tagging forward to @galadrieljones @roguelioness @galadae @redwayfarers @ubejamjar

@greyyourwarden @superfluouskeys if you want

I do have something - i was sick this weekend so why not a sick fic trope?

“Not worth much to see me such, sick as a dog. Good to see you well, though – ” He coughs a little again, his voice strained, and falls silent. “Shhh - spare your voice.” He opens his mouth as to protest, but she continues, no wish to hear that rattling cough again. It sounds painful. “And no matter, it’s always worth to see you, Tansui.” She tucks a bit of his hair away from his forehead, and he smiles carefully as he looks up at her. He looks awful, really, his lips dry and eyes half closed. Meryta gets up and opens the window in the kitchen – fresh, cool air will be nice. There’s a pitcher of water, and she pours a glass for him. He drinks all of it carefully, and she gets another. “Are you hungry?” He shakes his head. “I’m not sure my healing can do much for a cold – but let me try.” Day or night, the stars and the gates of the heavens are always present and heed her call. Her aether swirls through her, out of her, and over and into Tansui. She tries to find if she can heal or bring relief anywhere, anyhow, but she’s not a chirurgeon. Her healing is meant to close wounds and provide succor in battle, not cure the sick. “Feels nice enough,” he says – but she’s not really doing anything. She shakes her head.

[skyfallscotland]

so i’m back to send you good vibes and flare-free days from one chronically ill badass to another—

don’t ever feel guilty for taking the time you need. if being happy and healthy (or as much as you can be) means we aren’t sobbing on ao3 for a little while, we don’t have to sob on ao3🤷‍♀️ (we’ll survive i promise😉)

anywhooooo sending all the peace, love, and pain-free good vibes to all the chronically ill bad bitches out there 💙

happy olympics!

thank you so much 🥹 it’s hard because writing is such a compulsion for me, i genuinely need to get the story out of my head, but my body just doesn’t cooperate a lot of the time

and i definitely feel better if a fic is mostly finished before i publish and with BRV, i haven’t done that and it does stress me out a little because i have an idea of where it’s going but i’m not positive about everything, you know? and there’s other stories i want to write in this universe too, so i want to be connecting all the dots where they need to be 🥹

for now, i’m just plodding along and i’m grateful you’re all sticking with me, i promise the wait will be worth it 💗

wishing you all the non-flares days in the world!

[erinsreadings]

Sending my ask again :)

May I get love letter from my fs [lover's serande]🎼

Initial: g🎼

Things I love about your blog: instantly fell in love with the pink aesthetics of your blog and your recent reading resonated with me so much!

What I want from love for myself: to be more acceptable of my goods and bads, to have clear boundaries with people, to build and have healthy relationships with my family

I hope I followed all the rules

Thank you so much. Wishing you good luck<33

hi there lovely

🎼 Thank you for participating in my game, your feedback is greatly appreciated. Sending much love on your journey and take care. Remember, this is just the present energy, and energy is always changing. You are the master of your fate. 💗

dear love,

there’s so much i want to tell you, but it’s hard to know where to start. the truth is, before i found you, my life felt like a series of false starts and missed chances. i was stuck, running so fast toward something that always seemed just out of reach. i made mistakes, took on more than i could handle, and carried a lot of pain because of it. there were moments when i didn’t think i’d ever find peace—moments when the weight of it all felt unbearable.

and then there was you.

you’ve been this light in my life, even before we met, though i didn’t understand it at the time. you’ve shown me that love doesn’t have to feel like a battlefield or a race to prove something. with you, there’s a softness i never thought i’d be worthy of, a kind of care and understanding i didn’t know could exist. you’ve taught me to slow down, to breathe, and to see myself through your eyes.

i want to be honest: there are still nights when my thoughts weigh heavy on me, when i wonder if i’ll ever truly deserve you. i’ve been through my share of endings, moments that felt like rock bottom, and i’m still learning how to rise from them. but being with you reminds me that life is about growth, not perfection. even when the world feels uncertain, i know that with you, i’ll always have a reason to keep moving forward.

sometimes, i look at you and wonder how i got so lucky. you’re everything i’ve ever dreamed of, but more than that, you’re everything i didn’t know i needed. you see past the walls i’ve built, past my mistakes and insecurities, and you still choose to love me. that’s something i’ll never take for granted. every day, i wake up grateful for the chance to be by your side.

i know i’ve made promises to myself before, promises to be better or to change, and i didn’t always follow through. but with you, it’s different. you inspire me to keep going, even when it’s hard. you make me believe that love doesn’t have to be perfect to be real. it’s not about never falling—it’s about always getting back up, together.

you’ve brought so much beauty into my life, even in the moments when i couldn’t see it. your kindness, your strength, your ability to find light in the darkest places—it all leaves me in awe. i promise to always be your partner, to show up for you the way you show up for me, and to love you with everything i have.

thank you for believing in me when i couldn’t believe in myself. thank you for showing me that love is worth the risk, the pain, and the effort. no matter what life throws at us, i know we’ll face it together, hand in hand. you’re my home, my anchor, my forever.

yours always,

Channeled Song: “Fix You” by Coldplay

[tarotofzhivasmoon]

🌈💗Who is your soulmate?💗🌈

#Aquarius #Capricorn #Scorpio #Virgo #Sagittarius #Aries

Your soulmate is someone who definitely has been struggling with finding their inner balance, especially because they don’t really have a good sense of self worth and they might be really insecure, they might’ve not had a whole lot of experience with relationships or all of their experiences might’ve been negative and that didn’t really make them feel safe and empowering in order for them to remain who they’ve been. Those experiences or lack there of might’ve affected them tremendously because they used to be a person who’s so open to giving, to showing love and affection, to being supportive and considerate and now some of you might experience a really extreme version of them, that’s either still supportive and showing love and affection but without any boundaries and to a point in which it’s to their own detriment or they could literally make you feel like this is one sided and they’re not really putting in as much effort as you are. Regardless, they’re operating on extremes and I know that some of you might say that how can someone who treats me like this be my soulmate, but there are so many things to consider that don’t really stop at who this person currently is. In the past they’ve been loving, something hurt them once, twice, 10 times and they started to adapt and make use of coping mechanisms that would protect them from that hurt so that they could survive once they hit the capacity of how much emotional pain they could take in that state; they went into emotional survival and they did what they had to do to continue on living and dealing with their own pain and whenever you’re meeting them they could either still be this cold, detached version of themselves and you’re the one who’s going to bring the change for them or you’re going to meet them later on when they will have changed from being cold back to being loving due to having multiple loving experiences that warmed their hearts. This doesn’t mean that they will stay the same way spirit is describing them, you’ve changed a lot too and sometimes maybe you turned into someone you didn’t like only because you went into emotional survival mode, but that doesn’t make you any less worthy of love and the same applies to them, because this person still has that warm, compassionate, loving side to them, they just don’t show it that easily because they don’t trust easily either due to what they’ve experienced. Within them there’s this fountain of treasure, they’re resilient, they will make you feel supported, loved, and they are working towards having a healthy self esteem, they are —

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[bradshawsbaby]

Hi sweetheart💖, I read your post about your love life, i know this is not a soft thought but I want to tell you that I understand you very well. Personally, I haven't been very lucky when it comes to my love life. I had planned (as much as these things can be planned😂) when I was younger to get married around 23 and start having children around 24/25 since I would like to have a large family. And instead, at the age of 26, I find myself single again, with great uncertainty regarding my ability to have children. Needless to say how much I suffered from this and how many days I really feel as if I were destined to remain alone. I often felt like I was a failure, like I hadn't succeeded in my goals or worse I felt like I was behind others. But I understood that everyone has their own path and times. I understood that I don't have to compare myself to anyone because everyone has had and had their own experiences and their own life path which is unique for everyone. There is no right or wrong age to find your person. There are some who find it in high school, others find it at 30 and still others later. My mom always told me that the right person is out there that he's just waiting for the right time to meet us and that when we meet him we'll know right away if he's the one for us (my mom is a super romantic, but honestly if I think about how she met my dad and their story I believe her even more). As an incurable romantic as I am, I don't lose hope that things can change for the better from one day to the next and I rely on the saying that just when you least expect it, you find love! So I think we have to make ourselves strong, that it's okay to feel a little down and a little more lonely some days but remember that there are people who love us and that we must never forget our value or lower our standards for anyone! Always remember how much you are worth, to love yourself and not to be too hard on yourself but rather to live every day to the fullest and seek happiness in the little things. Also because, as they say, a positive mind attracts energy and positive things! I don't know if I managed to cheer you up a little or if I did worse😂 but as you already know if you feel like it you can always contact me so we can console and support each other! And remember to never lose hope, we too will one day find our Bradley Bradshaw (or our Bob, or Jake, whoever we dream of)💗✨

Oh, Fab, you’re so sweet! 🥹🫶🏻

I know we all go through these periods of ups and downs. Like you, I always envisioned an age when I would get married and an age when I would start having children. And it can be really sad and painful when you reach those ages and feel like you don’t have anything to show for it, or that you’re not where you wanted to be at that point in your life.

I’m trying really hard to stay positive and to trust that the guy for me is out there. I just honestly hope he’s not on these dating apps 😅 We just have to keep hoping! Our dream men are somewhere, and hopefully they’re searching for us, too!

[lenteur]

random thoughts about castaway diva, episode seven(ette)

(read more because i always get carried away lol and this post might contain spoilers)

We’re starting this episode with how the mom and dad met and it’s the most wholesome thing in the world

« He was the first person who tried to walk at my pace » i let out the biggest awww 🥺 lee uk is the definition of a good man.

I just want to emphasize on how extraordinary of a man lee uk is. He saw a woman who needed help, talked with her about it and was willing to throw his existence away and start anew for that woman. If that doesn’t show how much of a loving and strong man he is, i don’t know what will.

Bo geol being one of the few who isn’t afraid and doesn’t care about lee seo jun’s power is chef’s kiss.

I like that ran joo and mok ha’s « friendship » isn’t linear and has lots of complexities. Yoon ran joo was okay with mok ha singing for her, until the truth was out. She’s become wary of mok ha and sees her as a threat, comparing her to mo rae and thinking mok ha will take this opportunity away from her. Ran joo is letting her emotions get the best of her. She wants to come back and prove her worth so bad that now that there’s an obstacle in front of her, she’s panicking. I do feel for her because she was at a very low point in her life until she met mok ha. Things started to get better but now, she’s facing reality. She’s proving she’s a diva in the sense that she doesn’t want any competition. She fears going back to the dark place she just escaped from. But then, you have mok ha who has never shown any sign of wanting to take the spotlight away from ran joo. She’s a real fan and has proved time and time again how far she’s willing to go to help her idol. Sure, she wants to become a singer, but that doesn’t mean she wants to eradicate the whole competition. She just wants to live her dream. That’s it.

The heartbroken look on mok ha’s face 💔 you can see how much she has endured. She thought being on a deserted island was hard, well she might have involved herself in a situation that’s harder than that. It pains me to see her like that because she’s still a little bit naive. She has proved enough times already how good of a person she is. She even postponed her debut to become ran joo’s manager and help the singer reach the 20 million album sales goal. She already « wasted » 15 years of her life trying to escape from her father, and yet she still chose ran joo before herself and i think you can’t question her loyalty.

I know I make basically next to zero sense but i understand both women.

The dirty look mok ha gave that guy when he called her ugly lmao. How dare you say that to her?

Mo rae’s manager is a scumbag and I’m glad mok ha put him in his place. I’m just mad that everyone wants mok ha to feel guilty for going up on stage and singing. Life was already hard for her, you don’t need to another layer on top of everything she’s been through. Also, you can try to unsettle her but mok ha is stronger than that. I’M ROOTING FOR HER TO WIN THE SHOW!!!

Kang bo geol’s outfit is super cute in this episode and seeing him jealous? MY HEART IS FULL 💗💗💗

I mean how could anyone ever doubt bo geol is ki ho? It’s clear as day! Ever since episode one, they dropped little hints about who’s ki ho. It’s the little details. He cares and it shows.

It was heartwarming to see mok ha sing without hiding and thriving on stage :D Put a big smile on my face.

It's interesting now that woo hak knows the truth the roles are reversed between the two brothers. Woo hak wants to hide everything and Bo geol is tired of hiding and wants to live his life freely. Woo hak trying to make his brother choose the wise decision when bo geol has been suffering for 15 years is insensitive. Now that his memory is back, woo hak is trying to make the entire family follow his plans, just like he's been doing before. It's frustrating to see woo hak being the one making decisions when clearly, the one who suffered the most is bo geol. He's been through so much. It was bound to happen. He finally exploded and he's taking the control back.

NO MOK HA NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Don't go meet mr jung. It's dangerous.

I'll give credit where credit is due, mr jung is veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy clever. That's for sure!

I'm sorry to my girl mok ha but meeting with mr jung was a dumb idea. I've said it time and time again but she is very naive and still has a hard time adapting to the world around her. She shouldn't have talked to him when she has a hard time hiding her emotions. Just like he said, mr jung was a police officer and can see right through her. Now the ki ho hunt can officially start. By the way, he could literally follow her right to her house and find the entire family just like that.

It's bittersweet to see mok ha give up her dream after meeting up with mr jung. On one hand, I understand why she made that decision. It is to protect the whole family after making such a big mistake. On the other hand, seeing her smile when she was on that heyday again stage was such a beautiful sight. She worked so hard to reach that dream and now reality caught up with her and she has basically no other option. I hope she can find a solution and live her dream.

I feel for mok ha because after all her efforts, one mistake made her give up her dream. She's already suffered enough. She feels bad for abandoning her friend (ran joo) and putting the family in danger. Poor girl :( when will this nightmare end?

Bo geol finally revealing his identity!!! YAY I CHEERED :D

It's good to see him finally getting rid of the weight he carried on his shoulders for so long. He's choosing to live his life as ki ho because he doesn't want to be scared any longer. He's Jung Ki Ho and I'm glad to see him embrace his real identity in front of mok ha.

I'm grateful to see bo geol finally show his emotions and be vulnerable. It was hard on him. I just want him (and the whole family) to be happy and live without having to worry about mr jung.

The way he cradles mok ha's head with such delicacy, afraid she'd break if he did it with more force. I. CAN. NOT!

THE HUG 💓💓💓 It's like a wave of relief washed over them. They finally reunited. The way bo geol is hugging her tenderly to show her he's there for her. And the way she's gripping her hands around his vest (idk how it's called) hard, afraid he'll slip away if she didn't. I offically can not handle all of that. (but yes i can, please add more tender moments between the two)

They're in their own little bubble.

What's with woo hak looking at bo geol and mok ha like that? Don't you dare, I'm talking to you woo hak, put yourself between them!!! I forbid you. You'll meet my two tiny fists in your face if you ever do that, understand?

The preview for next episode seems promising. Hopefully issues will be resolved.

I'm giving this episode a 8.75/10

[b0lt420]

first i want to say a massive THANK YOU to ANYONE who has supported me and my shop in any way these past few months. it’s so appreciated right now…

here’s an update to my situation; although thankfully the car crash stuff seems to be behind us and is slowly getting resolved and my pain is now minimal, i now have a new issue; i no longer feel comfortable in my current place of residence and wish to get out as soon as possible for the betterment of my mental health, social circle, and even physical health.

my mate and i currently live with my parents, and things r starting to get to a point where we can no longer stand to live here.

i revealed i found out a family secret, and that i no longer want it to be secret, and it’s just been going downhill since that point. the lack of support is taking a massive toll on my work ethic and overall ability to function and feel like i am even worth something. i need a better immediate social circle and environment.

an opportunity has come and i do not want to pass it up; my mate and i’s girlfriend was given 2 months to move out of her current place of residence, and we would like to try to peruse a place together.

i have 2 to 3 months to gather up as much money as i can…

All my commissions r open, all u have to do is DM me and tell me about the details or go to my ko-fi and order something thru there. i will be going into overdrive again to make a bunch of stuff to post in my stores, i already have a few new things posted on etsy!

might be editing my site sometime soon to be better and more of what i want, so don’t be concerned if u see it go down for a few days or the link doesn’t work; i’m just working on it!

thank u all so much for ur support and love rn 💗🐾

[demigodofhoolemere]

Just had a very anti-lds post come across my dash and I just need to ask, how do you deal with things like this? I have mutuals who will occasionally post and reblog things about how awful the church is. It hurts that friends I've made feel this way about something that's so integral to me.

Again, how do you reconcile with this?

First of all I want to say how sorry I am that you’ve had to deal with this. I know exactly what you mean; it’s sadly not that uncommon that I see friends reblog negative things about the church, and it hurts when that’s your whole world that they’re talking about. I don’t hold it against them, I can’t expect them to believe what I believe and I’m sure it would be easy to be disparaging when you think that the lies and half-truths are accurate, because boy can those do a good job of making things look bad and making people not feel the need to investigate any further, but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt pretty badly every time I see someone I care about share something that insists we’re a cult or makes fun of Joseph or some aspect of my core beliefs. It’s painful thinking that that’s what they think of me.

My first piece of advice — do you have tags blocked? Granted, not everybody actually tags their stuff, but if they do then this can be a lifesaver. Sadly I’ve had to block pretty much every possible church tag and only click to reveal what it is if I see that it’s coming from someone I know wouldn’t be posting anything negative.

My main recommendation is that any time you see this stuff, do something to help you mentally counteract the negative emotion. I usually reblog some scriptures or pictures of Christ or something, just to put out some positives instead. Reading scriptures, praying, watching some kind of video like a conference talk, or reading inspirational stories can be very helpful in turning your emotions around and getting the peace you need.

It can be very difficult to grapple with when people you care about seem to think that the things you hold sacred are terrible or laughable in some way or another. I wish I had more to offer you, but it can be a very tricky situation and needs to be handled carefully. My suggestions are more focused on how you can change things for yourself, because most of the time there’s just no changing what others are going to choose to believe. At the end of the day, in my experience, it comes down to just being patient with these friends while you set your focus on the things that make you feel the Spirit. That’s not always a satisfying answer, but it’s the best one I have.

For whatever it’s worth, you’re welcome to come to me in private messages if you need to talk to someone next time this happens, and I’ve got a pretty long #religion tag at this point, so you can spend as long as you need in there if you find it helps to look at those things.

I’ll say a prayer for you. God bless 💗

[saerins]

my head has hundreds of brainrots for multi aus…might drop some if you are interested or anyone because sharing Sae is caring baes😋😍💗💖

anyways imma drop another ( royal au where Sae is a prince and Yn is a princess hehe )

they are walking around the garden at night when the moon is glistening its light down upon them. Yn’s feet ache from wearing the heels for too long, having to bear the pain of attending the ball in the most outstanding way to please all of the aristocrats’ criteria for a noble princess. Sae noticed the way Yn walked unstable, his hands started to hold Yn gently.

“are your feet hurt, Yn?” Sae asked, wanting to say more but decided not to for now, hiding his worries for her.

Yn look at Sae with a surprise reaction before smiling.

“it kind of aches to be honest…but you don’t have to worry about it, Sae. it was worth it to have a really luxurious yet fun ball after all”. Yn chuckles, noting Sae’s worry face for her. it’s definitely cute if observed carefully and it was a rare opportunity to see Sae’s soft side too.( i want to hold Sae’s face at this scene so much😭 )

hearing this, Sae leads Yn to a nearby bench, letting her sit ( in confusion ) before kneeling down with one leg, his hand taking off the heels and rubbing the aching spot.( he definitely tsk-ed when he sees how red it was hear me out pls he’s so in love with Yn )

"you don't have to do that, Sae..." Yn said, her heart beating faster than the previous moment. Yn knew that so many thoughts must be racing through her mind, and yet she couldn't pinpoint any one of them.

“i want to,” he turned around, facing his back towards Yn with his hands ready.

“you want me to hop on your back?” Yn questioned, noting Sae’s small blush when he nodded, her stomach fuzzy.

“listen to me and don't reject my request…please” he muttered the last word, however, it was still heard by Yn. cute, she thought. Yn happily obliged as Sae piggybacks her while holding her heels.

the rest of the road trip, Yn teased Sae about what a gentleman he was and how nice their shared dance was. Sae did miss her present after he was done escorting Yn back to her room, his mind replaying how breathtaking Yn was at the party. He sighed, quickly going back to his room with a small smile. he guessed he had to deal with the craving for her by tomorrow as soon as possible, like a craving for ethereal dreams.

p/s: i’m bad at writing, that’s it lol. here’s your daily virtual hug Aeri 🫂, hope you have a great day and maybe a better workplace environment. remember to sleep as well, get energized >:O.

this isn’t bad at all wdym !! if anything it’s giving me a royal au brainrot 😭 it’s got me imagining a stone cold royal sae being harsh towards yn as one of his prospective brides because that’s just the reality they live in, only for him to soften up after he gets to know her sobs :( thanks for this i reread this multiple times now because it’s so cute :(((

[januaryembrs]

Hello hun, hope you’re well ,

So listen, I am the anon that had posted before about how your writing is something else. I haven’t been here in a while but among other things, you kinda resurrected my Reblog and Fic phase lol. I have so many things to say and it felt dishonest to do so anonymously. You have a knack man. You write like you were born with a pen in between your fingers.

You know, Jane Austen had a knack for romance. She wrote it like no one else ever has. She wrote with words that would suck you in and brand your heart with a hot iron. Made sure no one who read any of her books would ever forget her. Shirley Jackson was almost unparalleled when writing mystery and horror. So many of her stories, no matter how many times I’ve read them or reread them, still get my skin to crawl and the hairs at the back of my neck to rise. And I could go on and on about so many other authors but I really just want to talk about you.

Usually, I come to fanfiction for sweet romance. Unattainable love to satiate a yearning. Blah blah I love love lol. But I found you. Gosh, Em. (I’m assuming I can call you that, it’s the only name I saw, Sorry) Angst is such a hard thing to write. And a lot of people disagree because everyone has felt pain so everyone can describe it. But you don’t just write angst, no. You rip my heart out from my chest and make me watch as you fiddle with each of my nerves. You don’t just write angst, you feel it with words. You somehow are able to hook with each sentence and make me feel your words. It’s almost like a sirens song. You lure me in with promise of a story and leave me bruised and battered. But content.

I really wish my words convey what I’m trying to say. Honey, people fuck up angst so easily. Sometimes they make it too rushed or too harsh, too unbelievable or too exaggerated. But you? You write it like the heavens themselves created suffering after your work. And some people might think that it’s just another fanfic, but gods no. This is something else entirely. I hope you take this as the birth of your own genre, because you’re unique. Millions of books by millions of authors that will write sweet suffering yet none of them reach the soles of the ginormous boots you have on.

And don’t get me started on your imagery. On your descriptors. On your tone, your pace, your everything. I could talk about you and your work, (and already have) for literal days. You are something else hun.

Now, confidently with my name attached lol, I do want to know whenever you post your book. Whether a short story or a multi book that rivals game of thrones lol. I will pay an unimaginable amount of money for that. That being said, I’m exited for the next chapter to drop later today!!!! I’m preparing by shamelessly re-reading the story yet again. Also I apologize for the long note, I could not stop my ramble.

Hun please take care of yourself, much love!!

Hey pookie!! First of all this read like POETRY I hope you take interest in writing yourself because you write so beautifully in my inbox and make my face blush every damn time. Thankyou so much for your constant love and support, you make me feel like I really have a shot in the dark when it comes to publishing a book of my own (and yes it’s going to be a dark fantasy trilogy!) which is something I have genuinely always thought was far too big a reach for a dumb little english girl like me. You are far too sweet than I deserve in my opinion however it is so nice to log on and see these messages because it makes all the hours worth it 💗💗💗 thankyou so so so much for being so kind you don’t know how much it means considering they’re just words on a screen, I CHERISH every one of them 💗💗

(Also yes!! You can call me Em or Pookie or literally whatever you like 💗)

[yakultii]

insomnia is something i used to struggle with a lot, especially in my later teens, when i had very poor mental health.

here are some things i've learned/tried:

using melatonin in the short term: a natural human hormone which can be taken as a supplement, often to alleviate jet lag. i prefer 300 mcg doses, since i will be drowsy for hours after waking up with the ones that are ~17+ larger; should only be taken to correct circadian rhythm, not as a sleeping pill

cold exposure: according to anecdotal research, the ideal ambient air temperature for sleep is ~18.33 C (65 F); however, a lot of factors can influence your core temperature, namely use of sheets/blankets, and thickness of clothing. if possible, adjust the air temperature and minimize use of covers.

physical activity: sleep is fundamental for recovery, yet if there is a lack of accumulated fatigue, it can almost feel like you're just decaying away in your sleep. there are numerous benefits to exercise, and many forms of it, as well. i would recommend nature walks, personally, in addition to climbing and swimming.

isolating factors to recreate a cave: i learned this from a book; in the strategies they mention to 'energize,' gradually reducing the amount of light in the room, wearing earplugs for sound isolation, and making a resolution to avoid electronic devices late at night are all things you can work towards.

mouth tape: nasal breathing is one of the most vital parts of healthy human function i've found in the past year. pranayama (yogic breathing) has a lengthy existence, and is definitely worth looking into. however, when you sleep, the autonomic nervous system takes over; i've experimented with a lot of different things, but i've found micropore surgical tape is cheap and effective for mouth taping (along with nose strips you can purchase from amazon, or perhaps your local pharmacy).

habits/routines: one of my favorite books is Atomic Habits by James Clear, which has become very popular since my first read. it mentions the key to creating a positive identity is repeating all the actions you do intentionally, which lead into the ones you eventually perform subconsciously. sometimes, we get caught in a spiral of all the things we have to do that we don't make time for our health. even just one good thing compounded every day for a year will dramatically improve your quality of life.

naps: best performed within a midday timeframe - i've loved long naps in the past, but i have also been stuck staring at my ceiling for hours because i couldn't sleep from very long naps earlier in the day. despite that, there's a lot of napping schedules which are worth a try, like 'everyman' and 'siesta.'

there's likely a lot of things i missed, which i will omit because it would take me a ridiculous amount of time to remember; we need sleep, but interestingly, most people don't desire it - one of the feelings i would love to share with everyone is the bliss of waking up from an uninterrupted night of sleep.

tl;dr: many small healthy habits will build up to improve your sleep quality. environmental design is paramount, as you need an environment conducive to sleep. sleep is predicated on the need to recover from fatigue, so exercise is almost a necessity for quality rest. try sleep aids like earplugs, blindfolds, and nose strips if you can't isolate every environmental factor!

wow I appreciate this so much but unfortunately my insomnia is chronic since birth and anything u can think of has been attempted hahahaa melatonin has no affect on me - I have prescribed literal sedatives instead which would knock most ppl the fk out but only sometimes help for me if I time everything perfectly 😂😂😭 last night I was able to sleep though I just was in a lot of physical pain making it a lot harder but I got to sleep eventually thank god! I WISH I had the ability to take naps dude!!! but sadly I very rarely can 😫 I appreciate this message regardless I’m sure it will be helpful to someone!!!!💗

[subskz]

crying again LMFAOOOOO actually crying even harder than bb4 the second y/n said “yr so good chan” i fucking lost it nah they are literally my babies. the way her thumb was hurting bcuz of chan’s cut,,, be so fucking serious rn i can’t do this

btw realizing tht when y/n tells chan “i don’t love you for what you can do for me” that’s prob the first time he heard her say she loves him bcuz he was about to pass tf out from sleep the first time,,, kmsing actually

i legit got no words for how beautiful that entire fucking scene was like i felt it healing me from the inside out idc how corny i sound rn everyone look away while i be vulnerable wit missus rin 🥹 everything they said 2 each other nd the way y/n FINALLY matched chan by opening up and that’s what made the breakthrough. nah i’m inconsolable this series is fucking everything to me

the smut. dawg. you alr know you got me chewing the iron bars in my enclosure every time but this was literally…. a bitch thought she’d get a break from crying during this scene but NAH IT MADE ME CRY TOO 🤣🙏🏽 the part that rlly got 2 me was the sentence about chan’s strength being used to protect others and never to harm,,, the most chanathan thing ever what if this was my last straw. and channie hidin his face, the fucken i love you’s over and over again ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE?!?!? QUICKLY

i can’t believe it’s over like i got no choice but 2 reread bb every day for the rest of my life actually i want to live inside this series. but i love you saur moch girlie queen thank you for writing this fr it changed the trajectory of my life forever nd i can’t wait to see what you do next 🫶🏽

NOOOO 😞 i owe you so many apologies haha i’m very sorry for the emotional turmoil this past week…i hope it was more of a happy cry this time at least! and yes i couldn’t resist such a golden opportunity for the reader to feel channie’s pain…they are connected in ways they don’t even know of!

THERE U GO AGAIN BEING OBSERVANT AS EVER ㅠㅠ you got it!! a very critical moment for channie to hear those words for (what he thinks to be) the first time! i’m thrilled u made that realization but that’s just our genius grindset isn’t it <3 thank you so much my dear you have no idea how much that means to me!! it was a bit of a challenging scene to write but knowing it could have that effect on you makes it all more than worth it, i’m really happy it touched ur heart! 💗💗💗 and that’s exactly it, the reader had to subject herself to the mortifying ordeal of being known just as channie did hehehe

the smut made u cry too 😭 i know it was incredibly sappy n soft i just couldn’t help myself w it being makeup sex n all…esp when the central idea was praising channie n making him feel loved HAHA i blacked out and suddenly 7k words of adoring chan were on my screen </3 i’m so glad u liked that line!! it’s what i love so dearly abt chan (and binnie!) that they’ve got such broad shoulders n muscular arms but such gentle kind souls yknow…their strength is for hugging and helping others and being steady enough to lean on 🥰

i kinda cant believe it’s over either it feels bittersweet…but i just feel so fulfilled overall to have finished this series and to have shared it w you! you uplifted me so much from day one and i’m so grateful to you! your feedback has made me giggle and smile every step of the way, so thank you so much for everything. i love you right back ♡

[pawjamas]

the biggest middle finger, FUCK YOU, etc to the people who hurt me, who lied and manipulated and disrespected me, took advantage of my kindness - and didn’t show me genuine love and care?

its taking in all the love i have now!

the people who DO genuinely have my best interest in mind, who hold my hand or hold me entirely in their arms - who tell me it really will be okay, that they will make sure i have as best a life possible filled with love and stay by my side through every single moment. it’s not just my wife who does this either, my roommate is being an angel to me today checking in every so often because today is the anniversary of a trauma of mine, ever since he got up this morning until now he’s been right by my side reminding me how loved i am.

my friends online too, always sending such kind messages through my dm’s out of nowhere, telling me how much of a positive influence i am in their lives, how much i inspire them, and even how they can relate to what i deal with and make them feel less alone.

i am surrounded by love and yet the people who have hurt me are sitting in their own isolated misery with very little people left in their life - because these people realize they don’t deserve the sort of treatment they’ve recieved from them, and i pray these people that have also been harmed find a beautiful life too.

i’ve found mine, it’s not perfect of course, there’s a lot of pain i still go through from the trauma i’ve endured, but you know what? i know i’ll get through it, both because of all this support And because of how much i’m starting to value myself too. i’m worth so much more than how i was treated, and i’ll be damn sure i continue to receive the love i deserve, both from within myself and from everyone in my life 💗💗💗