#I’m genuinely kinda sad for people who thought it would be nominated

[funhouse-mirror-barbie]

(Do NOT harass the op of tweet)

[sweetmusingss]

Oscar blushed when you said that he was funny, no one ever telling him that before. He realized that the two of you had very similar senses of humor though so while other people found him weird, you actually laughed at his jokes. It was a really nice feeling, actually. He looked back at you as he heard what you said. “So, you definitely were one of the popular kids who would have bullied me if we went to school together.. Were you Prom Queen too?,” he asked you curiously, taking a sip of his wine. “My first time was just as atrocious honestly. It was at my first girlfriend’s house while her parents were away on a trip. It was just awkward and not that great of an experience. And she broke up with me not long after which was kinda devastating,” he said honestly to you even though he said it in his monotone voice. “Why did you break up?,” he asked you before he could stop himself, genuinely curious and wanting to get to know you better.

“There is no way you were bullied... you were prepping to become an F1 driver. You barely even went to high school!” I giggle, having missed all my friends once we hit that age since they all went off to become F1 drivers and had their own form of schooling and I had to go to boring high school all by myself. “I was not prom queen. But I was homecoming queen. Which to me is cooler. Prom queen is so basic and boring. I’m totally not bitter all these years later.” I look up at him and scrunch my nose at him cutely. I frown when he says that his first girlfriend broke up with him shortly after they had sex, finding that to be quite sad and I didn’t even know how I’d handle that. “I’m sorry, want me to find her and kill her? I’ll lure her onto this yacht and then just toss her overboard, no poison needed.” I look at him with a straight face before breaking into a grin. I shrug when he asks why we broke up, not sure if he’d like the answer but wanting to be honest. “I went to University over here in London to be closer to my family since I stayed back and finished high school in America because I didn’t want to move just yet when my dad initially got the job at McLaren... We were gonna do the whole long distance thing, and it worked out for the first year. He came here for the summer after my freshman year to stay at my dad’s house and I had some friends over for a bbq... Charles was one of them, naturally. We fought the entire summer over Charles, and I promised him there was nothing going on... but he didn’t trust me to be over here all the time with someone who looked like that who flirted with me, and I wasn’t going to stop being friends with someone who I’ve known for a long time just because he was insecure and thought I’d be swayed by a pretty face... so we broke up. Over FaceTime. A few days before Christmas.” 

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“I know we are in different fields but I can relate to the pressure, baby. And as much as I have friends who I know care about me, no one understands me or can relate to me quite like you can. With us having similar upbringings and all.. No one gets how it really messes with your head for the rest of your life when the people who brought you into this world and were supposed to love you made you feel like you were worthless. And I understand the pressure of feeling like you have to prove yourself and always be the best. I know you are going to win again and I can’t wait for that day. I just want you to know that it doesn’t define you. I am sure you watched my Netflix documentary since you are now my biggest fan and all..,” I tease you gently, wanting to make you smile. “But it really messed with me when an album I put my heart and soul into wasn’t nominated for any Grammys and it made me work that much harder and feel like I had to prove myself. Our jobs are very different but I promise you that I have that same fire in me and I understand why you feel the way you do, my love,” I say, continuing to hold you close.

Max had never felt so supported in his life. Even when he became World Champion 3 times in a row, he always felt the love and support he got from everyone around him was temporary, and not unconditional. He didn’t get the same support when he came in P2 as he did when he came in P1. He saw other teams, like Ferrari and McLaren, celebrate P2 and P3 positions, seeing their team principals smile and hug their drivers even though they weren’t P1. If he got P2, he was basically ignored in the paddock. “I can relate to the whole Grammy thing... I could drive my best race, hit every turn perfectly, get fastest lap and driver of the day and everything... but I end up getting P2 and everyone acts as if I don’t even exist, that I could’ve done more when I was doing everything I had in me. It’s such a gut wrenching feeling, but it does just make me want to prove myself more the next time.” Max pulls back from you and rests against the pillows, smiling at you again. “Thanks for taking care of me today. I just can’t wait to go on vacation... I’m almost glad I lost today, it gives me more time to be with you. If I had won, I’d be expected to do the whole partying thing and I wouldn’t of had those delicious cookies.”

[seriestrash]

You Me Her

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Chapter Seventeen: The Third Side

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Riley walks calmly down the hall until she’s out of sight. Once she knew Lucas couldn’t see her anymore she hurries out of the building, wiping her damp cheeks with each quick stride. 

Out in the fresh air Riley takes a deep breath. It’s was her quick exit through the doors that startled Ms. Mitchell, the drama teacher and one of the evenings chaperones. The quirky older woman drops a lit cigarette in her hand and tramples it with her boot. 

“Just a little stress reliever.” Ms. Mitchell nervously swats away the lingering smoke. 

Riley just nods lightly in attempt to conceal the fact that she was crying. Before the brunette could make up an excuse to leave Ms. Mitchell ropes her into a very one sided conversation. 

“You’re leaving a little early aren't you?” Ms. Mitchell questions. 

“Ah yes, I’m not feeling very well.” Riley lies. 

“Well this might help perk you up.” Ms. Mitchell bounces excitedly. “I shouldn’t be telling you this but what the heck?” 

Riley narrows her brows in confusion. 

“Congratulations Riley, you’re the class valedictorian!” Ms. Mitchell says proudly. “The official announcement is on Monday but I wanted to tell you first, since I accidentally told you about your nomination before that was announced I thought it would be fitting if I jumped the gun here too.” The drama teacher produces an excited squeal. 

Riley lets out a small laugh of disbelief and chokes a little on the lump in her throat. Before she can say anything Kai finally catches up to her. 

“Oh Kai, hello.” Ms. Mitchell greets him politely. 

Kai gives her an awkward wave but is more focused on Riley. Ms. Mitchell could sense the awkwardness so she excuses herself to go back inside. 

Riley tries to walk away from Kai without a word but he stops her. “Riley wait.” He grips her wrist firmly and spins her back around. 

“Did you come out here to tell me ‘I told you so’?” Riley shrugs weakly, tears quickly building in her eyes again. 

“The exact opposite actually.” Kai frowns. “I wanted to see if you were okay.” 

“Of course I’m not okay.” Riley blinks out the tears. “I was stupid enough to let myself believe for a moment that it could be different for me and Lucas.” 

“Maybe it can be.” Kai says. 

“You’re the one who has been advocating against him this whole time.” Riley states. “Suddenly you’re on his side?”

“I’m on your side, always.” Kai knew she was just upset but the insinuation still hurt. “I know I have been anti-Lucas but I can see that he cares about you.” Kai says truthfully. 

“It honestly doesn’t matter.” Riley shakes her head. “He’s Maya’s ex-boyfriend. Part of him will always be linked to her.” 

“Ri, everyone has history.” Kai says. 

“Yeah I know. He’s my history, they’re both my history and I don’t want to relive it all.” Riley cries. “I was heartbroken when Lucas didn’t choose me, tonight has just reminded me that I’m not enough.” 

“Shut your perfect mouth.” Kai says feeling super emotional himself at the sight of Riley so upset.

“They’re King and Queen. How can I compete with that?” Riley sniffles. 

“You’re Riley.” Kai stresses the only title she should care about and in his eyes the best title. 

“I’m tired.” Riley says in the same stressed manner Kai had but more deflated. 

“I know.” Kai nods gently. “But Lucas wants to be with you, Riley and if you want to be with him you should. You don’t owe anyone anything so if he’s what you want then forget about anyone else and go for it.” 

"I owe it to myself to want better than this.” Riley sucks back the tears and tries to compose herself. 

“But this wasn’t Lucas’ fault.” Again Kai is uncharacteristically defensive on Lucas’ behalf. 

“That may be so but tonight has shown me that I can’t do this anymore.” Riley shrugs a shoulder. “I can’t open myself up to be hurt-” 

“But, Ri, you can’t be closed off...” Kai cuts in. 

“I’m not, but I am closing the door on Lucas.” Riley nods. “I’ve had my heartbroken too many times when it comes to him, whether it was his fault or not, okay?” 

“Okay.” Kai nods feeling the desperation in Riley’s voice. “I just want to know that you’re not doing this because you think you're betraying Maya or you’re not as good as her-” 

“I’m doing this for me.” Riley states firmly. 

“Okay.” Kai nods again. 

“I want to go home.” Riley says defeated. 

“I’ll take you-” 

“No.” Riley shakes her head. “I really want to be alone right now.” 

“No, you don’t have to be.” Kai holds her hand. “We can get ice cream on the way and watch movies or-” 

“Kai, please,” Riley breaks their connected hands. “I really want to be alone right now. Go back inside, enjoy the rest of prom with Noah-” 

Although Kai further expresses how he can’t enjoy himself knowing that Riley’s upset, he does respect her wishes to be left alone for the time being. 

Riley arrives back at her apartment and beelines past her mother whom had been given the heads up from Cory who was still at the prom. Riley insists she wants to be alone and locks herself in her bedroom to cry further. She’d allow herself one night to be sad and she’d wake up tomorrow and forget about Lucas once and for all. 

After twenty minutes of feeling very sorry for herself, rustling on the fire escape catches Riley’s attention, she lets out a groan into her pillow. Then there’s a knock on the glass window. Riley lifts her head with a sulky sigh, “I told you I wanted to be alone, Kai-” Riley stops abruptly when she finds the person on the other side of the glass wasn’t her best friend, at least not her current best friend. 

Riley sits up on her bed but doesn’t stand right away, it’s like she was seeing if her eyes were playing a trick on her. 

“Can I come in?” Maya’s voice is muffled behind the glass. 

Riley snaps out of her trance like state and moves towards the bay window. She opens the window and Maya climbs through awkwardly holding her heels.

“They kept getting stuck in the metal holes.” Maya waves the shoes and answers Riley’s silent confusion as to why she was holding them. Riley just nods, her mood is too off to do anything else. 

“Can we sit down?” Maya shyly points a thumb towards the bay window seat. Another nod from Riley and they both sit in the window. 

An awkward silence passes. Maya hadn’t been in the window since she told Riley about Adam’s cheating scandal and before that it was Thanksgiving of sophomore year. 

“Where’s your crown?” Riley finally speaks up. She doesn’t mean to sound bitter she was just genuinely curious. 

“I gave it to Sarah, she was the one who really wanted it.” Maya says. 

Riley nods again. She herself had voted for Sarah to win. 

“Look I had no idea that people were going to vote for us- or even why they’d vote for us in the first place-” 

“Maya, please.” Riley cuts in. “I don’t want to talk about it. It has nothing to do with me.” 

“It has everything to do with you, Riley.” Maya says passionately. 

“Why are you here, Maya?” Riley asks. “Did Lucas send you?” 

“No.” Maya answers honestly. “He actually specifically asked me not to come.” 

“Then why are you here?” Riley presses. 

“Because this isn’t Lucas’ fault. You need to know that.” Maya huffs. “Huckleberry has spent months begging me to tell you my side of the story and tonight, after the crowning I told him I’d fix it and he asked me not to. It was his dumb sad face that made me realise how selfish I’ve been with refusing to explain things to you.” 

“Because you’re still in love with him.” Riley says weakly. 

“No!” Maya scoffs. “Not at all.” 

“I don’t believe you.” Riley steadies her voice. 

Maya holds Riley’s gaze even though the brunette is sheepish under her stare. “I have never been in love with Ranger Rick.” 

Riley bravely tries to stare back at the blonde girl as she repeats, “I don’t believe you.” 

“And I don’t believe that you weren't mad at me for dating him in the first place.” Maya gets defensive. “I was so upset when you told me that you didn’t want to be friends anymore I bought your lame excuse about finding new interest. But really it was because of Lucas. It’s always been about Lucas!” 

Riley closes her eyes for a moment and takes a deep breath. After slowly opening her eyes Riley calmly says, “Maya, get out.” 

A little taken back by Riley’s demand, Maya narrows her brows. “Riley-” 

“No.” Riley holds a hand out to stop her. “I told you I didn’t want to talk about it, so I’m not going to.”  

“No.” Maya says equally as firm. “I owe it to Lucas to tell you my side of the story and I think I deserve to hear you tell me the real reason by you dumped me as a best friend.” 

Riley’s mouth hangs agape at Maya’s snap remark. “You deserve it do you?” 

“I didn’t mean it like that.” Maya softens. “I just mean, I knew you were angry at me back then and you continued to claim you weren't but you were. I deserve for you to be angry with me.” 

“It hurt when Lucas didn’t choose me. It hurt to see you two together.” Riley tries to calm herself down. “But I was never angry at either of you for being together. I was angry at myself for lying to both of you about my feelings. I felt like a terrible friend for still liking Lucas even though he was dating you.” 

Maya believed Riley about not being angry. It was the blondes own guilt she had about the situation that wanted Riley to be upset with her, like the punishment she felt she deserved. “Well you should be angry at me.” 

“Why?” Riley lets out a defeated breath. 

“Because I dated Lucas even though I knew you liked him.” Maya states.

“That was kinda the whole idea behind the triangle.” Riley shrugs. 

Maya feels like everything that’s going to come out of her mouth next will seal the fate of their already dead friendship once and for all. “I dated Lucas when I knew you liked him and I didn’t.” 

“What?” Riley is a bit quieter with her confusion. 

“You’re right. I love Lucas.” Maya says simply. “There I said it, I love that stupid cowboy. I love him because he reminds me of you in so many ways. I love him because he’d never hurt me or anyone he cares about on purpose. I love that he lets me make fun of him even when I take it too far. I love that he’s considerate and protective. I love Lucas, he’s the closest thing to a best friend that I have.” 

Riley shrinks in place. The declaration didn’t exactly feel great to hear. 

Maya continues. “The first time I told Lucas I loved him was the day after our one year anniversary. You know why?” Maya asks with a slightly menacing smile but she doesn’t allow time for Riley to answer. “Because we both forgot it and the only reason I said it was because Zay pointed out how weird it was that we hadn't said it and that we forgot a major anniversary.” 

“Everyone develops relationships at their own pace.” Riley shrugs a shoulder. 

Maya shakes her head slightly. “Lucas walked me home from our group movie date that night and I told him I loved him because Zay made me feel weird about it.” Maya crinkles her nose. “When I said it, I’m sure that’s how Satan feels when he touches a bible.” Riley doesn’t laugh at Maya’s joke, not that the blonde had expected her to anyway. “Lucas looked at me completely panicked and he said it back in exactly like I had, like he didn’t mean it. It wasn’t until we broke up that I actually meant it when I told him I loved him.” Maya says. “I love him like a brother, that’s how I felt about him, not you.” 

“You don’t just date your brother for nearly three years.” Riley says a little more bitterly than she meant it.

“Do you really want to know what our relationship was like?” Maya asks. 

“You’re the one who came here to tell me your story.” Riley folds her arms. Riley refrained from using the word ‘force’ in her sentence.  

“Fair point.” Maya shifts in place unsure if Riley actually wanted to hear it or not she continues anyway, “Dating Lucas was like going through a checklist. Step one; hold hands, step two; kiss, step three-” 

“Okay I don’t want to know.” Riley cuts in with a scrunched up face.

“Riley, we never...You know...” Maya doesn’t say it. 

“I don’t want to know.” Riley covers her ears in a panic. 

Maya pulls Riley’s hands away from her head. “Lucas and I held hands because that’s what couples do. Lucas would walk me home from study sessions because that’s what couples do. After winter break freshman year we were pressured into kissing for the first time. My first kiss came out of peer pressure because we’d been dating for a few months and normal couples would have kissed by then.” 

“First relationships can be awkward.” Riley says. 

Maya lets out a groan. “Yes they can be and they can also be a complete waste of time!” Maya exhales loudly. “Lucas and I never talked to each other and when we did it was about you. Literally all we had in common was you and then when we acknowledged that talking about you was weird too we’d go back to talking about nothing.” Maya takes a breath as she tries to string together the jumbled thoughts as they rush around her head. “Then there’s Zay- I spent more time with him in my first month dating Lucas than I had in the whole two years we’d known him. Zay became a crutch for me and Lucas. We’d get him to tag along on our movies dates just so it wouldn’t be so awkward that we couldn’t speak to each other- Dating Lucas was like hanging out with a friend you don't have much in common with, a friend that you feel obligated to kiss and hold hands with occasionally if other people are looking...”

“How romantic.” Riley says sarcastically.  

“But that’s exactly the point, Riley.” Maya shuffles an inch closer to her former best friend. “I love Lucas and he loves me but we have never been in love with each other.”

"Why would you date Lucas for two and a half years if it was as bad as you claim?” Riley questions still trying to make sense of this odd explanation. 

“Our entire relationship was waiting for the other one to end it.” Maya lowers her gaze to her lap. “Neither of us could do it because ending it meant that we both lost you for nothing.” 

It’s quiet for a moment and then the strangest sound fills the room; Riley’s laughter. 

“Why are you laughing?” Maya is confused. 

“Because you and Lucas both seem to think that telling me you were unhappy will magically make things better for me.” Riley tapers off her laughing but she’s still smiling manically. “You two dated each other... For me?” More laughter from Riley. 

“I know it sounds ridiculous and granted we didn’t handle things well but it’s the truth.” Maya says. “Once we finally admitted that we didn’t have serious feelings for each other it was like our true friendship finally began.” 

“I still don’t believe you.” Riley says after her laughter tapers off. 

“Why not?” Maya asks. 

“Because after Lucas defended me to Adam you were clearly upset with me. You were jealous.” Riley says as a matter of fact. 

“I wasn’t jealous, I was scared.” Maya frowns. “After I spoke to you the day before, for the first time in a long time I had hope that maybe we could be friends again. Seeing Lucas risk everything he’s work so hard to leave behind for you made me realise that he still loved you and if I lost him to you that means I would have no one.” Maya chews on her bottom lip. “So for whatever dumb reason I spent a month trying to be some crazy in love girlfriend because I knew I had more of a chance keeping Lucas than I did getting you back. Then finally Lucas did what we both had been struggling to do; he ended the relationship and for the first time ever we had an honest conversation about everything. We both spoke about how we felt and why we didn’t work and things were better than they had ever been with us.”

“Did you ever like him?” Riley asks softly, still unsure if she believes Maya’s words to be true. 

“I thought I did.” Maya is honest. “I thought I wanted what you had with him.” 

“When did you realise that you didn’t like him?” Riley questions. “Because if you knew before ski lodge you could have just said it.” 

“I didn’t know then, after I changed back to the old Maya or the new Maya I didn’t know how I felt about anything.” Maya explains. “I was just waiting for someone to tell me how I felt so I could try and understand.” 

“But when did you know you didn’t like him?” Riley presses again. 

“I think part of me always knew. I mean there was no denying that we were completely off as a couple but I think I really knew during A Midsummer Nights Dream.” Maya says. “I saw you with Lucas and how stressed you were about kissing him and I realised I didn’t care if you did. I thought about breaking up with him then. I actually came to talk to you about it but the window was locked, I think that’s when I realised that you still liked him and you didn’t want to kiss him because of me but because of your own feelings.” 

“You got all that from a locked window?” Riley jokes but it falls short. 

“You never locked your window.” Maya says with a sad smile. “It kinda felt like you were shutting me out. I already knew we were drifting but I felt it most when I couldn’t climb through the bay window.” 

“I didn’t mean for it to feel like that.” Riley frowns. “I just was trying to work through it, so we could still be friends.” 

Maya nods. “Thanksgiving happened before I ended things and well, we ended up here.” 

“Maya,” Riley sighs. Maya says she came for Lucas but a stronger part of her was hurting more about her own broken relationship with Riley. Riley senses that and tries to lightly mend what she could. “You dating Lucas didn’t make me leave our friends. I left because I couldn’t be around him and you because I felt guilty about my feelings.” 

“And now that you know I didn’t love him, does that change anything?” Maya questions. “Do you hate me?” 

“I hate that friendships were lost and time was wasted because we were all too scared to say how we really felt.” Riley answers truthfully. 

“But it doesn’t have to be like that now.” Maya insists desperately. “You don’t have to take me back as a friend but I need for you to give Lucas a chance.” 

Riley wears a small and sad smile. “Maya, I couldn’t choose between you and Lucas back during thanksgiving, that’s why I told you I didn’t want to be friends anymore. I couldn’t choose so I chose myself. I’m doing that again can you please just.. get that?”

Maya nods. 

“Hey Maya?” Riley softens her voice. 

“Yeah?” 

“I’m sorry.” Riley says. 

“What for?” Maya knits her brows. 

“For letting a boy ruin our friendship.” 

“He wasn’t a boy, he was Lucas.” Maya half smiles. 

“Can you tell him I’m sorry?” Riley asks. 

“Whatever you want.” Maya says with such pain in her eyes that it hurts Riley deeply. Maya stands and turns towards the open window. 

Before the blonde can climb out Riley jumps to her feet, “Maya?” 

“Yeah?” She turns around. 

“I’m sorry for letting anything ruin our friendship.” Riley corrects herself. 

“Me too.” Maya nods sadly.

“I’ll see you around, Peaches.” Riley wears half a smile. 

The use of Maya’s old endearing nickname was too much for the blonde and it triggered the tears as she climbed out the window. 

End Notes: Okay this chapter is a legit mess I am so sorry. You can pretty much disregard everything you read and just take this lousy summary as it’s what I intended to convey: Lucas respected Riley’s wishes to stop the chasing but Maya saw in that moment how much he really needed for her to explain things. (In Lucas’ mind Maya and his mutual agreement that they never loved each other should make it easier for Riley to open up to him) So Maya goes over there in a desperate attempt to fix things for Lucas (and Riley) as she feels solely responsible for messing things up in the first place but as she pleads Lucas’ case by telling her side of the story, her own hurt feelings about her friendship with Riley ending keeps breaking through in the conversation. So the back and forth is supposed to be messy. Like Maya wants to hash out the events of their friendship ending up also is trying to make a mends between Riley and Lucas bc she thinks they deserve to be happy together like how it should have been to begin with and blah like I said MESSY!

Next Chapter: THE LAST CHAPTER. (I’m still deciding if there’s a need for an epilogue...) Graduation. What’s happened in the month since prom? What happens next? Will Riley graduate with any regrets?

also if anyone is concerned about Riley being forced to listen to explanations pls dw. This has been intentional and will be touched on next chapter!

[ihosgermany]

Rites of Passage

Hello everyone and welcome to Day 48, over this time 13 housemates have departed, and the remaining housemates decided to pay tribute to them, listen to this song to get in the mood and lets see what they said.

Ricky

Billy- I wish you had stayed. I was ready to play this season alongside you.

Colin - Ugh my dad, I was SO EXCITED to play this game with you. Then we got separated bc of the twist and you got first boot. I really really hope we get to play something together again soon!!

Dom - Ricky ahhh i remember throwing away my game in France to save you. Noah fence but thank god you weren't here when I got in the house. I love you but I would never throw away my game again. I was surprised to see you in this cast tho just bc I thought it was second chances but ily nonetheless.

Lauren - thank you for all the great advice!! even though you didn't do to well, your advice helped me!!

Timmy - You weren’t in this game long but you’ll probably be back for Norway.

Eric

Billy - we didn't talk, I'm sorry about that :/

Colin - Rip, you were so outgoing and active in the game and unfortunately I think that kinda made you a target. I think you’re still great tho!!

Dom - We haven't spoken much but you just voted me out of the Circle! How dare you! jk but anyways We haven't talked much but when we talked about BBCan, you were super sweet and fun to talk to! King of 3%!!!

Lauren - super funny and nice! unfortunately we just didn't click to well

Timmy - We never really talked, I hope all is good.

Jevvon

Billy - We didn't talk either, and I'd say you didn't try but I didn't do many challenges either. So I have no room to talk. Haha

Colin - We didn’t talk much and you didn’t really seem super invested in this game but from what little conversation we had I thought you were great!

Dom - UK King. Bummer that we didn't get to play together because we didn't get a shot to in Mean Girls. You're super sweet and thanks for playing Festive 2! aka the game that will never fucking end. <3

Lauren - a flop

Timmy - 

Austin

Billy - I think we were just separated until you got eliminated, wish we had gotten to talk more.

Colin - Yikesss we left on rocky terms. Honestly at first you were super easy to talk to, but you were a victim of circumstance in my first bigger move of the game. Then you started calling me out and trying to fight me so honestly I wasn’t that upset to see you go. I hope there’s no hard personal feelings tho!

Dom -  I have no idea who you are but you seemed interesting. I heard that double was messy. Rip.

Lauren - super sweet!!! you were one of my favorite people in this game! hit me up for a game of survivor!

Timmy - You were always really nice, I hope everything is going well with your family.

Madison

Billy - UGH WE WERE REUNITED BUT SEPARATED SO QUICKLY :(

Colin - Omg noooo ilysm. I haven’t known you super long and I’m not even that close with you but you are one of my favorite people in this entire community. I was so so sad when you were nominated and I tried so hard to flip the nominations the other way. I’m so sorry and ily.

Dom - MADISON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. When I got told that I was being an intruder for the season, I was kinda bummed out because I wanted to play the entire game with you. The week I came in I was so excited because you were still there and then Ashley and I were there with you. Then you got fucked over in an ugly ass eviction that I still don't wanna talk about. You are such a queen and I'm so honored to be able to be considered your friend. Nothing but love for you <3 Now, to get personal, Somehow you manage to make me laugh every day. Somehow you make me want to actually stay in this community. Somehow you brighten my day every day so thank you for that. I love you so much and i just thought you should know that. No matter what people say, you're a beautiful soul and never change yourself. To quote a very, very, VERY, wise woman, "My big ass fucking chubby fingers."

Lauren - you never talked to me so i don't know what to say...

Timmy - We actually never talked, but I wish you well.

Lexi

Billy - you were going to win hands down. US week was the best time to take you out, and I'm sorry. Even though all I did was vote.

Colin - We literally never talked and you were a huge threat in this game since you were so popular, so you def had to go when we had the chance. I’m really sorry you had to be taken out that way bc it never feels good, but I hope we can play again and actually talk to each other sometime!

Dom - Lexi girl you were too big of a threat to keep around. You were set to win this game because of the support you had in the VL. When Christine won HOH and you weren't selected for POV, you kinda gave up, which is understandable just because I know how bad it sucks. Had you campaigned when you got nominated, you may have gotten more votes to stay and you honestly might have stayed. You're a queen tho!

Lauren - you were such a big voting threat during your time in the game. i hope you understand that it was nothing personal when we got you out. you would have won this game if it wasn't for bbus week

Timmy - You were scary in this game, if you didn’t get voted out in US/CAN week you might still be here.

Ashley

Billy - your short time in the house was enjoyable. I'm glad I met you because you're cool :)

Colin - You are the most iconic person ever. You are so funny and you were robbed. I hope we get to play again sometime!!

Lauren - super sweet!! i wish i had gotten to know you better!

Timmy - 

Actual footage of you during this game

Nehemiah

Billy - we didn't talk much either, but our few conversations were pleasant. :)

Colin - Honestly??? I loved the frenemies type dynamic we had. Like we were aligned at the start of the game then at week 4 we both got kinda messy and that’s when the infamous fight of the game happened. Kinda from then on I wanted to keep that whole rivalry going, but I started being even more of a mess and trying to work with you while also backstabbing you at every given opportunity. I feel like I took like a decade off of your life with my gameplay and I am so sorry sdkgjsgjsg. I hope there’s no hard feelings between us on a personal level!!

Dom - Nehe!! I'm so sorry that you got evicted! You fell victim to my plan that kept me safe in the double and I'm super sorry about that. It was super fun to play and talk with you tho!

Lauren - it is very unfortunate what happened to us during the game. i miss you a lot and i hope we get to play another game together!! i hope you're proud that i made it here!

Timmy - For the short time when we were in the same house I knew when you told me information that you were not lying to me. You were always nice to me but game wise you carried a lot of drama with you so I was happy to be in a different house.

Jordan

Billy - we tried working together until we both got nominated. I wish we had both stayed but I'm glad I'm still in the game.

Colin - I think you were the person in this game I was most excited to play with. I’ve heard so much about you and we talked a little bit on the house calls and I thought you were really interesting. Then right after the merge I heard you were throwing my name around and obviously I wasn’t gonna let that happen. So, I had to take you out while I had the opportunity. I hope circumstances are different if we ever play a game together again because I really like you as a person!!

Dom - Whew Jordan I'm sorry that you got evicted! I do feel more than responsible for that eviction just because I led the charge to get you nominated. You're super iconic though and I have nothing but respect for you. Sorry again whew. I'm super happy that you beat your france placement tho bc that was... a season.

Lauren - you are so hilarious!!! i hope we can be friends outside of this game because you give me so many laughs!

Timmy - It was always great to talk to you, you are one of the people who I trusted most in this game.

Jay

Billy - robbed honestly. I wish we had played more closely.

Colin - You are such a sweet genuine person, we only talked like once or twice throughout the game but I loved how honest and straight forward you were. You were only seen as a threat due to you being a challenge threat. I honestly truly love you as a person tho and I hope we can speak again or play again soon.

Dom - You're one of the sweetest people ever! I didn't really know you when I came into this game but I'm glad I do now! I only saw you in HOS15 which you got Madison out in but that's okay. You're so kind and super easy to talk to. It was fun to play with you and thanks for a fun time :)

Lauren - who?

Timmy - We never talked, I hope all is good

Benjamin

Billy - we didn't talk about the game at all, and I wasn't going to try in the challenge until I was told you flopped. Sorry :(

Colin - We weren’t, like, SUPER close in the game mainly due to being on opposite sides the entire game, but you are such a fun, nice person. I remember how much fun it was talking to you on house calls or in pms, because you’re the most interesting person ever. Unfortunately I heard you were also kinda going after me and my allies, and you were also perceived as a popular person in the community, but I’m still really sorry to see you go in such a devastating way.

Dom - You're literally such an icon. From your lipsyncs to Clash of the Titties, everything is so iconic. You literally would've won this game if you didn't have a typo in the endurance competition. (That sucks so bad I feel so bad that the typo happened) Keep your head up because you literally are such a king and I'm super proud of you!

Lauren - super hilarious! i hope we play another org together!!

Timmy - Your intro video and lip sync were hilarious.

Nicole

Billy - it was sad to see you go, because it was so close to the end.

Colin - OMG ILYSM. I feel so bad about you leaving. I wanted to go to the end with you so badly, from day 1 I was so excited to work with and play with you. You are such a queen and I am gonna miss your drag race rambles.

Dom - QUEEN! I LOVE YOU! You were so amazing to work with and unfortunately, that last double eviction came and bit you in the ass. I have nothing but respect and love for you. I was so ready to go to the finale with you, Christine and Colin but I guess we got half way there. Mean Girls? Never happened. Ilysm <3

Lauren - 

Timmy - Your RuPaul impressions are only second to Trixie Mattel. Although we never actually talked one on one you were one of my favorite people in this game.

Christine

Billy - Id give up my spot for you. You deserved to be in this finale. Hands down.

Colin - Okay, what the heck happened girl. I was so convinced you were gonna win this game and honestly?? I was here for it. I was so ready for you to slay and win this entire game. Like you deserve it, girl. You are such a sweetheart and I was so so excited when I saw I got to play with you, and even more excited when we aligned early on. It was so fun working with you, I think you are so great.

Dom - Oh Christine. My ride or die. Everything about you is 100% genuine and real. You're nothing but a sweetheart and one of my best friends. I remember messaging you saying that we HAD to apply to this season so we could finally play another game together.  So, we did and we got here. When I found out I was an intruder instead of the original cast, I was low key disappointed because I wanted to play the whole way with you and Madison. When I finally got into the game we joined forces immediately and the duo came to life. Whenever I heard your name, I told you and we saved you. When you heard my name, you told me and we flipped the vote. We were untouchable this entire season. When the final double came around I thought we had it. We were so close. You may not be sitting in the finale together, but damn you won this season in my heart. We nominated... TOGETHER. We didn't get a single nomination point... TOGETHER. We made it to the final 6... TOGETHER. We fucking killed this game and you deserve to be here over me. I love you so much. You should especially keep your head up high because you played a phenomenal game and I couldn't have made it here without you.

Lauren - amazing friend and person! i'm going to miss you so much!! i know we drifted towards the end of the game but i hope we continue to be friends!!

Timmy -  QUEEN! ICON! You are so incredibly nice and I was shook when you were evicted.

And with that our tribute has ended, the poll to win will be posted shortly so everyone get ready.

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Episode 1- Big Brother Week

Title: I’m probably gonna shit myself so that’s how day 1 is going

Max

Day 1: everyone is saying hi and I have a big ass paper to right that I haven't started that's due tomorrow and I drank a lot of coffee and I don't drink coffee so I'm probably gonna shit myself so that's how day 1 is going

Julia

Should’ve hexed Tim he a cancer . Cancers are tricksters

Vi

I think I understand the challenge now that I was removed. Thanks Tim. ALL MY IOS PEEPS ARE GREAT. Cept I'm pretty sure they're gonna stab me early bc they dislike me :^). That's okay bc I'm only here for the hosts <3 jkjk. I love them. The tribe is fantastic even tho I have no idea who most of these people are. I hope some of the challenge will be familiar or else rip me.

Tim

The cast seems so great and iconic. I really like Sammy and Jacob but I'm sure everyone else already does.

Jacob

first of all i want to die. also sammy won hoh nice idk him all that well so im a little bit nervous. i dont really know whats gonna happen but its whatever wigg!! my strategy is to have an emotional breakdown about my day in public chat so everyone feels bad for me and keeps me safe this round :~)

Tim

Sammy won and woo! I knew he was gonna win but lets see who he snakes with his nominations.

Vi

Sammy who? I didnt realize who was in the tribe. Jkjk. I could carefully less. It’s been a day and so I haven’t gotten close to many people. Hopefully when I finish my irl stuff I can finally focus but if I get voted out (which I hope not) that’ll be fine too. Can’t wait to see how tribal or whatever that is about to happen turns out like

JG

Ugghhh so close to winning HoH oh well, I gave it to Sammy cause we talked alot and it would feel wrong to not give it to him plus I wanted to secure my spot this week and he guaranteed I would not go up, let's hope. Not many other people have talked to me which, is a little unsettling but maybe I am too paranoid.

Chrissa

I am glad sammy won as he promised me safety. not much else has happened but I will update when there is.

Christian

Okay first DR of the season. Nicole's a bitch. I don't think we will ever get along, and neither of us has made the effort to add each other on Skype. Now that we got that out of the way, let's move to things that are actually relevant. I love all the new faces in this cast. I've never seen any of these people before, except Regan and Max. I think I hosted Louise in BB Unititled? Unless there's another Louise in the community, that I don't know of. I've been talking to people one on one, and most of those conversations have been genuine. Yesterday evening I found out Jacob is from WV and we live like 30 minutes away from each other. So that was an instant connection, and we ended up forming an alliance called "West Virginia Legends". Let's hope that actually lasts. I have some faith that it will. When the house call happened I was like "yes let me get on that call". 1. I had the thought of Sammy and his nominations 2. I knew if I got on the call it would give me a chance to talk to people and try to form a bond 3. If I would have won HOH this week I wouldn't have needed to get on lol. Hopefully Sammy keeps his word and doesn't nominate anyone that was on call. When Sammy asked who we wanted nominated I said "well Nicole" but I didn't push for her to be on the block, because that's dumb and from my past experiences in games you never know when someone could already be working together early or late in the game. I just said "do whatever you feel comfortable with".

Arika

dang toot I was nominated

Louise

!!! im not nominated!!! we r living hunny!!! sammy treated ur girl good but aj is nommed fuck!!!!! i love him more than i love my own self he is my dad/son and such a precious human being!!! so im glad i don't have stress for myself but now i have stress for aj everythign is a mess! i hate regan she a ho and everyone else i like me and tim agree that the texture of bread is NASTY so we stan!

Tim

I haven't been nommed thats great! I get to sit back until a possible renom and hope im not renommed.

Tim

If I get renommed I will CRY

Tim

Woo im not nommed so im gonna vote for Louise tbh maybe. Or AJ let me check lol.

Sammy

Hey so this is my first confessional....I’ve been slacking! However I want to make good confessionals for this season so that when I look back at them I can be like “what was I doing”. Anyway, let’s start from the beginning! Okay so when I got casted I noticed a few familiar faces that i was so excited to play with. 1.) AUTUMN!! she is one of my favorite people in this community and I’ve played with her before, I don’t think I could betray her in this game so if at all possible i want to work with her. Then I see Jacob, Dom, and Regan! I’ve been wanting to play a game with these people so I’m glad it finally happened, they are super nice and just have fun personalities. I also saw Tim and Chrissa who I have played games with before, and Tim is so nice but Idk if he’s gonna leak any info of mine or not bc in Lago he leaked my alliance...RIP...but I think he’s a great person so🤷🏻‍♂️ And yeah love Chrissa!! I’m really liking JG so far and I want to work with him so woo.

Sammy

okay also, we had the hex HOH competition which is basically just luck. I was in class for the majority of it and when I got out of class I saw that there were like 6 people left and I was one of them. Then I started talking to people saying, “hey if you don’t hex me I won’t nom you:)” just so I could win the first HOH comp. I did this because I want to build up a good resume early on and i know this wouldn’t make me look like a threat bc it was a luck comp😅. So I won HOH, and decided to nominate two people who I got to know the least(also i told like so many others that i wouldn’t put them up so rip). I put up Arika and Aj and I really like them both it’s just they were the least active. Then we had POV and i fell asleep bc I’m a FLOP and i got a strike for not submitting. Arika pulled herself off(which I’m okay with bc she wasn’t really my target). Aj didn’t even submit which was sad bc their game was on the line:/ i had to renom and i chose Louise bc i have spoke only a few words with her and SHE IS SO NICE! However she was one of the few people who i didn’t promise safety. Again, she isn’t really my target. I was trying to cause the least amount of drama as possible and I think people are content with my choices. Oh and we had a “tribe/house” call but it kinda was a mess. I think everyone was slightly irritated that Regan wouldn’t let anyone else talk (no shade bc Regan is awesome) but yeah we got to know a lot about Regan and her bad driving skills...REGAN DONT RUN ME OVER IN THIS GAME. Anyways start your engines, it’s gonna be a wild ride!

Vi

So I picked uh... wait I forgot... Louise? I only picked him/her Bc it was the only name I could remember out of the two noms. Oops. Sorry. I mean it really doesn’t matter considering neither of the noms really talked. *sigh We shall see tho

Chrissa

I am so glad sammy is hoh especially with the veto i was made to play, idk who is gong but he said vote AJ and AJ hasn't attempted to talk to me so okay!