#I’m collecting meds like Pokémon

[a-concert-just-for-me]

I’ve been in such a good mood the last few days I feel like I’m legitimately in the twilight zone

[manic-raichu]

Mkay, I feel the need to rant about my two favorite games, Pokemon & Splatoon.

So Pokémon is number one, and Splatoon is in second. This is partly due to the fuel for these games being vastly different. By fuel I mean motivation. I’m pretty much in a different mood for each. Let’s go over Splatoon first.

When I want to play Splatoon, I want action, I want to elevate my heart rate slightly, I want a game that’s fast paced and high stakes. Splatoon with a definitive winning team and losing team, and gameplay that can change drastically over the course of 30 seconds, fits this outline precisely. The only problem becomes if I continuously lose. One or two losses in a row is okay. But if my loss rate is like 80% I just have to put the game down, I’d be furious. My anger is an issue, part of my new meds is to help that, but ���I still need to take action. Luckily, however, in the entirety of my Splatoon records, my win loss rate is about 50 50. So stepping back, choosing gear, these things help make the game fun.

Pokémon will always be my number one, and that’s because it’s nothing like Splatoon, or at least the reason I play it isn’t anything like the reason for it. I play Pokemon to collect, to hunt, to perfect, to excel. I collect all the Pokémon, a living dex, an over 50% complete living shiny dex. I hunt, cute charm glitched games, RNGd games, Spanish language games, early shiny frame games, these endeavors increase shiny rates without breaking rules. I perfect teams to my liking, my collection of battle ready Pokemon is ever expanding! All these factors make me a standout at Pokémon play meetings. Always having shinys to give out, having teams that stand out in not only winning battles, but doing it creativity, these things make me feel like I’m an expert. And to be far if you think I’m not, I’ve passed that Pokémon Professor Test and hosted a league before. (My certification has expired now but still) Those are the things that make me have fun in Pokémon. 

The reasons behind each game are different, but they are both very satisfying.

[liloelsagranger]

Night shift - finally a new Rocketshipping-fanfiction

My dear friends,

it’s been a while since I last posted an entry. Let me tell you why and what, besides Covid-19, made me pause from publishing fanfictions over the last couple of months. Of course, Switzerland was very affected by the pandemic and still is today. We had numerous lock-downs or as Swiss people call it “slow downs”. My mother got very sick last year, I almost lost her. The doctors said she would only live two or three more days, but my mom is a fighter. She had to stay at the hospital for months, she endured countless medical examinations, had to take meds and slowly learned to live again. I’m so proud of my mother that she was strong and determined to get better. When she turned back home, I started to take care of her and I hate to leave her on her own, even if we’re talking about half an hour or less. Right now, she’s doing quite good, actually, we’re on vacation and she makes a great effort to participate in life in Italy. She’s my role-model! She will never be the same as before, but she won’t give up, she wakes up every morning to make progress. I prayed for her and her well-being, I prayed every single night she might get another chance and now we’re here at the beach and dining in fancy restaurants. It’s been a horrible year for everyone, a year full of sorrow, tears and desperation, a year where I was constantly afraid, the hospital would call me with some bad news, but she did it! She survived and she fights for her life! So proud! Good news is: I passed my doctoral exams and I’m officially allowed to call myself Dr. phil. des. Melanie C. but that won’t ever stop me from loving Team Rocket so here it is - a brand new Rocketshipping-fanfiction for you guys. LOVE YOU! Night shift

Chapter 1:

It was past ten o’clock when that miserable looking guy entered the diner. He inconspicuously sat down in the farthest corner of the café and immediately hid his face behind the menu card. Nevertheless, Jessie the waitress could make out the pathetic expression on his face, how he was cowering like a whipped dog. She had seen quite a bit in this diner. Drunks, thugs, addicts and other needy people who asked for a sympathetic ear, compassion and understanding, but that guy was different. He suffered terribly, but did not dare to communicate, instead he hid from the world so as not to attract attention and quietly endure his fate. Jessie had to do something about it. Of course, she didn’t want to play the Good Samaritan. She knew the tricks of the men who entered this diner. Most of the time, they told the waitress tall tales, hoping to be comforted, whatever they meant by that. But this young man did not make a shady impressionHe was well dressed, looked well-groomed, and Jessie was especially struck by his bright emerald green eyes, the only thing in his face that had not yet been veiled by grief and sorrow. She decided to do something about his displeasure.

“Did you have a rough day?” she asked while disinfecting the table.

He looked briefly into her eyes and nodded. “That’s one way to put it,” he answered, the gaze immediately lowered again.

This would be a taciturn conversation, but Jessie didn’t give up easily, she was a natural at making even rocks talk.

“Listen! No matter what happened, I’ve seen or heard some things. If I can help you in any way, my name is Jessie and I’m in charge of this table today. Let me just get the gum out from under your seat and get you a cold drink. What would you like?” She pulled a spatula from her apron and rubbed away the remains of the spoiled brats that marred her diner.

‘Wow,’ the young man thought to himself. ‘A strong, self-confident woman who lends a hand herself and who’s not above cleaning up dirt.’ Their eyes met briefly, and he forced a wry smile.

“You know, kid. You can’t rely on anyone. If you want to get everything done, do it yourself and don’t trust anyone. This world doesn’t give you anything for granted!” She briefly wiped the back of his chair before disappearing behind the counter and pouring the young man an ice-cold Coke.

“I have rarely seen you so concerned about a customer. Normally you show yourself aloof and only take the order, so as not to get involved in embarrassing conversations. Must be a really great pike, this pathetic creature in the far corner. Could it be that you’ve got a tiny crush on this guy?” For Eddy, teasing his best friend was the greatest pleasure. He didn’t know her like that. Jessie usually resisted any kind of small talk. This was due to her dark past, when she had repeatedly fallen for advances from men who were never looking for a steady relationship, but for a quick fix. Eddy had witnessed this bad time of his friend, how her heart was broken, how she was badly played with, and how she was simply dropped like a hot potato. Jack was the worst example of them all. While Jessie was already hearing the wedding bells ringing, he was making love to the women of the Strip and deceiving Jessie night after night with other broads. Jessie was devastated when she found out Jack was cheating on her. She was furious, not even at her lying boyfriend, but at herself for having been so stupid as to trust a man.

Jessie gave Eddy a light pat on the head. “Don’t be silly! That time is over. I can take care of myself, I don’t need male support for that. I’m a big girl, I make my own dough, and I keep my head above water pretty well. No, not a chance, I’ve sworn off flirting.” Nevertheless, she caught herself as her gaze wandered to the young man in the corner. “Oh yes, this time is definitely over,” Eddy smirked.

“Jessie, could you bring us a side of fries, please?” Misty’s order echoed throughout the hall. The twenty-year old waved her hands. She was used to speaking loudly, almost shouting, to attract guests to her daily water Pokémon show. Sometimes she walked up and down the streets of the Strip all day in the blazing hot sun, trying to win people for her underwater attraction. As an excellent student, she could have taught at any college, but she had decided early on to get into show business and make her living doing what she really loved, joined by Dewgong and Starmie. Her parents had not agreed with this decision at all, it was wasted talent, they had claimed, and had summarily turned Misty out the door. Since then, she had been struggling through life on her own, but could always count on Jess, the diner and her two best friends, Ash and Brock, young people who were also not favoured by fate.

“Temper your voice, twerp!” Jessie couldn’t help but grin. She spread the ketchup bottles around the table, hoping Ash wouldn’t spill on himself and the diner again. His constant companion Pikachu immediately hopped on his shoulder, grabbed a fry and popped it in his mouth. Ash and his Pokémon were carnies. He had trained his friend well and attracted many spectators with his performance. Most of them felt sorry for the guy and tipped generously. That’s why Ash was able to invite his friends to the diner every night, a place that gave them hope where they could experience security. They were convinced that nothing would ever disturb this idyll and that fate, for better or worse, had taken its course.

“Who’s that guy over there?” Brock wanted to know. He had barely sold chocolate and roses tonight. The others held back, but they were certain that their friend was just too pushy with women and that’s why he only collected rejections instead of green bills.

“I’ve never seen him here before. Must be from another area. I can’t tell you for the life of me why he’s wearing a suit at theses temperatures, he looks pretty pathetic to me anyways,” Jessie replied.

“Maybe his car has stalled,” Ash suggested, ��and now he was forced to wander through the desert until the tasty aromas from your diner brought him back from his delirium.”

“Or,” Brock interfered, “he had to flee his own wedding because his wife is a real pain in the ass, unlike our sweet Misty,” Brock oohed at his friend. “Forget it, Brock! You and me, this will never happen!” She gave him a gentle poke.

“Enough now with your naïve speculations! Just let him enjoy his drink. We’re closing soon, so get going,” Jessie dismissed their absurd ideas with a wave of her hand, but at this point no one knew how right Brock was.

Dark thoughts hunted the young man. He knew what he would face at home if he was late. Beatings, torture, rebuke, harassment, were just a few words to describe his failed relationship. Unconsciously, he stroked his scarred arms.

“Can I get you something to eat?” Jessie pulled him out of the maelstrom of bad thoughts, of course she had noticed the wounds, but maybe he had gotten those injuries at work. The young man rummaged some coins out of his pants and let them jingle on the table. “Is that enough for a cheese sandwich?” Jessie hated small change, but she would make an exception for him. A friendly smile, a quick nod, and she passed on the order.

“Something’s wrong with this guy,” she whispered to Eddy. “He’s scarred, bruised and pays with penny coins. Possibly a vagrant.” Eddy couldn’t help but grin. “That guy’s been keeping you busy all night, Jess. What’s the matter with you? Are you getting weak?”

The young man could not overhear the conversation between the waiters, but he was sure they were talking about him. He sure made a rather frightening impression, but that was a private matter and not something you shared with a waitress in a diner.

His gaze drifted to the daily paper, which had two faces emblazoned on it: Butch and Cassidy. He had never heard of this odd couple, but according to the news, theses two were causing quite a stir and were terrifying the Strip.

“Oh, so you’ve already spotted them, those two knuckleheads! They keep the Strip in suspense, and heads roll when the taxes don’t add up,” Jessie served him the cheese sandwich and gave him a slight smile.

“Can I get you anything else?” He thanked her and took a hearty bite of his dinner.

The last half hour flew by and the remaining guests left the diner to spend the night on the Strip, as very few had a roof over their heads. Jessie set about cleaning up and Eddy checked the register.

The young man stood up and made his way towards the door. But before he left the diner, he glanced back at Jessie for a moment. A sigh escaped him. What if…?

Jessie returned his gaze and watched him go until the young man disappeared. She walked right up to his table and found a little note on the receipt.

“Thanks for treating me like a human being, James.” 

[runby2]

HLVRAI kin guide, by Juice

If you’re kin with Dr. Coomer: You were the class clown. You have ADHD and have learned exactly what to say to make people laugh so that they don’t leave you. You eventually learned not to care and adapted to referring to yourself as having “no brain cells.” You’re impulsive and you love to slap things like a wrapped turkey in the cold foods freezer section at Walmart. During winter you wear shorts because change is stressful. You’d eat pizza every night if you could, and when you eat an apple you feel like you’re connected to nature. One time you punched yourself to see if you could take it. You could.

If you’re Kin with Dr. Bubby: You never think before you speak ever. You’re the crazy uncle friend who people come to in hopes for advice but receive a meme and a “left on read.” Your friends forgive you though because they know you’re going through a lot. You love the Pokémon franchise, and collect shiny rocks. People beg you to stop talking sometimes and you just keep talking and make things worse. You’re cursed but people can still party with you. When you were a kid you grew the little figures that get puffy in water, and left one in the cup for too long just to see what would happen.

If you’re kin with Tommy: You’re soft, and because of that you’re not taken seriously. You’re sick of it, but keep kinning soft characters because you project that aspect of yourself onto them. Just because you’re mentally ill doesn’t mean you’re a baby, and people don’t get that. Then when your friends say that character is cute you silently think to yourself ‘yeah I’m cute but’ and then your thoughts stop there. You love dog memes, and own many stuffed animals that you refuse to part with from your childhood. You can’t look at a golden retriever catching a frisbee without crying. You stim a lot, and considered purchasing slime but you never knew if it would be worth it because it would probably just sit on a shelf. You get stressed easily, but know that one day you’ll be a fashion king so it’s all going to be okay.

If you’re kin with Gordon: you’re the dad friend. You have anxiety and depression but you’re still trying your best to hold a steady job. You keep your friend group as tame as possible, and try to lead them when you play online games. You’re easily frustrated but your patience is strong enough to tolerate a lot. You’ve been through a lot, and you know how to deal with pretty much anything at this point. In Minecraft you like to go exploring the best, and end up bringing home so many resources that your friends can’t make enough furnaces to burn your stupid large amount of iron. In the shower you wash your hair and think every time about if you should be applying the shampoo first or if it’s supposed to be the conditioner first. You overthink at all times.

If you’re kin with Benrey: you’re traumatized and LGBT+. You’re on meds but you forget to take them sometimes. In your friend group you get talked over a lot, but occasionally you’ll say something funny and everyone will laugh. That makes everything worth it. You’re a bastard, and love to cheat any game you can. Your Shiny Pokémon collection is made entirely out of Wonder Trade luck. You’re pissed off that when caterpillars hatch into butterflies you’re never there to see it. Milk is a drink you appreciate but hate drinking. Cool colors remind you of ice, and then ice makes you want to eat something. No one would trust you with a weapon, but you know deep down your whole comedic goof identity is an act and you would never actually hurt anyone because what if they leave?

If you’re kin with Darnold: you’re really sensitive to loud noises, but enjoy exploring whenever you go out to places. You’re an introvert, but that’s okay. Most of your friends are online. You have a lot of games you’d love to play but you don’t want to spend money on them so you just watch YouTube playthroughs. You’ve considered being a YouTuber because you’re confident in your people skills despite being antisocial. If you could wear a flower crown every day, you would. Pasta is your favorite, and at restuaunts it’s your go to if you don’t know what to order.

If you’re kin with G Man : You’re very gentle with everything. You have big plans for your future and yourself. You’ve considered getting a tattoo but what if you regret it? You have identity issues, so choosing a tattoo that would fit your identity would be super hard. You love to take warm baths, but when you shower you’re more proud of yourself. You’ve had nightmares that have left you in deja vu more than once in real life. If you could, you’d take all your friends to Disney land.

If you’re kin with Forzen: You have no sense of self. Religion doesn’t matter. No one can contain you. Nothing you do has any sort of meaning because you just do it because you think you have to. Your body runs on auto pilot. You wanted to work as a barista at one point but it would be too hard to get up in the morning. If it’s foggy out, you wave your hand up and down through it. You pick up any frogs you happen to see without thinking about the consequences first. When you get down on all fours you’re reminded of the days you did gymnastics as a child. Then you consider showing off for your friends. Then you wonder if you even remember how to do that weird tumble that you did when you were 6.

[mortalkombat4]

Thanks for the answering the mental illness thing I was just curious bc every other post you’d mention a new one and I was just like ?? Is she collecting them like Pokémon?? Does she think mental illnesses are just adjectives?? What??

Anyways, I’m glad you got out of that whole mess and you’re not having much trouble now. I was genuinely concerned with how you’re managing an entire encyclopedia of illnesses without meds or something lol

thats kinda rude lol

[ask-the-guiding-light-cast]

Guiding Light turns two years old today!

It’s crazy to think this all began only a couple of years back... and also hilarious it falls on the same day as “International Mystery Dungeon Day” over on Twitter. More after the cut. This is gonna be a long one, so I appreciate anyone willing to read this. ^^

For a long time, I had been a casual consumer of fan fics. It started in the late 2000s when I was in a Spyro craze thanks to the more story-driven Legend of Spyro trilogy. I had an itch that I needed scratched and FFN fulfilled that to some extent. I also looked at some Mario fics, including Paper Mario: The Temple of the Sun, which I greatly enjoyed and thought did a good job adapting the formula that made Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door so beloved and putting a unique spin on things.

But it was until the early 2010s that I actually started getting back into Pokémon games with Gen V. After Emerald, I fell out of touch with Pokémon for a time. When Gen VI came around, I dipped my toe into the fandom through Twitch livestreams, but also through reading a few anime-based fics that are very long and still going, even now. 

At the same time, I ended up buying PMD: Explorers of Sky... and damaged my cartridge before I could properly finish the game with my Vulpix/Riolu team. So, I watched cutscenes for what I missed on YouTube, then got Gates to Infinity and, later, Super Mystery Dungeon and had fun with both of them... though more for the stories and characters than the actual gameplay. Truth be told, I don’t care much for roguelikes at all.

It was during the gap in time between Super’s release and the first official footage of Sun & Moon in mid-2016 that I found myself hit with a recurring thought: “What if someone made a PMD story where the hero and the partner are forced to fight one another with the fate of the world at stake?” I wound up (loosely) brainstorming an idea for a PMD story revolving around an antagonistic Hoopa character who would use its ring portals to collect entire communities, including the Pokémon living in them... all so that he would never be bored. This would lead him to “collect” the partner to add to his “toys,” so when the hero shows up, he’d sic the partner on them.

But that was as far as I got with the idea. I ended up graduating college and took a job with late evening hours. It left me pretty tired and exhausted and unmotivated to do much of anything. I withdrew from the parts of the Pokémon community I was involved in.

Then the Generation VII games came out and, while divisive in the fandom, I found myself really liking some of the concepts. There were so many times when I thought, “Gee, I wonder what this would be like if it were in a PMD game?” For example, one of the ideas I had was a sort of edgy rival rescue team akin to Gladion, which would have a Midnight Lycanroc, a Zoroark, and a Type: Null character in it.

So, toward the end of 2016 and early 2017, I started creating an idea for a Choose Your Own Adventure story with the intent of putting it on this really small forum I was a part of. It would be a Gen VII-themed PMD story, but because I didn’t think that sounded interesting enough, I decided that, not only would the human keep their memories, but they would be from the real world and be a major Pokémon nerd. The idea was that the choices the readers made would affect the relationship between the human and partner. I even came up with a point system. The more points the readers earned for their choices, the “closer” the relationship the hero and partner would have and the happier an ending the story would get. If the hero and partner couldn’t stand each other, one of them would likely end up working with the bad guy and winning. If they became steadfast friends, they’d work together to save the world.

Unfortunately, the forum shut down before I got too far into planning it, so I shelved the idea and continued focusing on my job. And things stayed that way for several months, until I ended up getting into med school and scrambling to move.

During the downtime I had when I wasn’t doing moving related stuff, I decided to look at FFN again and found Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Defenders of Warmth. I wound up reading through the entirety of the story quite quickly. I guess you could say it sparked something in my head. The fic itself focuses on what, at the time, was the newest Gen (Gen V). It also has multiple humans and is set on a continent separate from the canon locations (which were just the Air and Grass Continents, since Gates and Super didn’t exist when the fic was written). In short, it renewed my desire to pursue my idea of a Gen VII-flavored PMD story.

So, I set about creating my story outline. It is so... so much different from the actual story, though I’ve gone into that in previous posts (search for #amby answers). Originally, I used Mario & Luigi: Partners in Time as the framework for the fic: an alien invasion in a colorful, comedic world. I took more specific cues, too. Zero was meant to be a (mostly) silent antagonist a la Princess Shroob, for example.

The problem was, I really didn’t have much confidence in myself or my abilities. I’d like to say I was writing for myself, but I really did want validation, too. I think any author is lying to themselves if they say they don’t feel this way at some point. Because of this, I figured if I put the fic on FFN, it would get ignored. The site’s huge! There were, at the time, around 85k fics in the Pokémon section alone. (That number’s since gone up to over 90k!)

Given I had experience with forums, I decided to post it to Serebii, because the fic community seemed much smaller and more open to giving feedback to one another. In an effort to try and, y’know, establish some connections, I actually read other pieces and reviewed them before posting any stories. This also helped me build up a backlog of chapters and prove to myself I enjoyed writing this enough to keep going.

When I finally did post the fic, it was a bumpy start, for sure. I do think I made a lot of mistakes out of the gate, including uploading chapters way too quickly for readers on Serebii to (reasonably) try to keep pace. That probably cost me a few potential readers... or made them silent readers who I never ended up hearing from. Which is why I’m especially thankful to @girl-like-substance (who I can seem to tag, drat) for all of the well-thought-out feedback given throughout the fic’s run. I don’t think I would’ve made such significant strides in my writing otherwise... and there are plenty of long-running fics where the quality tends to stagnate.

In any case... it was thanks to a request from @deliriousabsol to put the fic somewhere more mobile-friendly that I chose to mirror Guiding Light on FFN starting in October 2017. I would’ve kept going on Serebii had she not asked so nicely, so she’s the one you can thank for it showing up there! (She’s a fellow author who does cyberpunk-themed fics and art and her characters have cameoed in the fic.)

And, honestly, I’m just... beyond shocked at what wound up happening to the fic once it hit FFN. Well, actually, for the first several months I was lucky if I even got a comment when I put up a chapter. I’m not sure any of the people who first commented on FFN still follow the fic anymore. I haven’t seen/heard from them at all, so I assumed they moved on with their lives.

In any case, around March of 2018, the word count on FFN passed 300k and... somehow, the fic starting getting more attention. Like, a lot more attention. This was... not really something I was even remotely prepared for.

(Yes, this means there’s gonna be a giveaway. More on that later.) I never would’ve thought I’d reach a number like this. I never imagined I’d meet another PMD author who’d be willing to do a fun collab (thanks @virgil134, Spiteful Murkrow, and Namohysip). I really did not imagine that I’d ever get fanart of characters that I wrote (huge thanks @thebreak-ofdawn, @ask-nicky-and-others, and @cresselia92). I mean, above everything, I not expect the fic or characters to resonate with anybody the way it wound up.

A part of me feels like I don’t really deserve it. I’ve made a lot of serious gaffes with writing this. When initial Serebii feedback had people intrigued by Shane’s jerkass attitude (when I didn’t actually intend for him to come off as a jerk), I dialed things up in the hopes I’d keep their attention. It probably cost me readers. Then there’s the slow pacing of the early episodes and the mistake of making Special Episode 3 as long as it was... which my speaks to my (bad) tendency to give into some of my strongest impulses even though I had an outline I was trying to stick to.

And, I mean, there’s also some of the “shamlessly shameful” stuff I’ve done with the fic. I’m not fooling myself. Guiding Light has grown progressively more furry and, uh, probably fanservicey, too. All the big furbait (and some scalebait) ‘mons are accounted for. There’s a lot more sexual humor when I initially promised myself I would stay away from romance and keep everything platonic. I practically turned Xerneas into waifu bait, if some of these asks are anything to go by. This blog certainly didn’t help in that regard. Maybe I’m just being my usual nervous self? 

I am worried that this fic’s performance has, somehow, affected my thoughts and behavior. There are very popular fic authors who let their popularity get to their head... or chose to open up Patreons (something that makes me uncomfortable) or start doing things like taking commissions for written pieces, which is understandable... though I think it’s an easy way to lose your passion for writing. I guess some of that worry stems from a debacle I learned about on a Discord server I’m in, but that’s not something I’m comfortable discussing publicly. 

And I haven’t even talked much about the blog itself. Like, it somehow passed 100 followers? Where? When? How? I don’t actually draw stuff like many other Pokéasks. And, like, for a lot of folks, I have no idea if they’ve actually read the fic or just check in on the blog. It’s the same with the fic, I suppose. If you’re a silent reader/follower, I would really love to hear from you! I promise... I don’t bite or anything. I’d love to know what (if anything) you’re thinking. And if you’re a blog that’s following this one and we haven’t interacted, please feel free to reach out! It’s honestly hard to tell if people like what I’m doing, so any feedback is always appreciated.

In any case, if I haven’t lost you by now, I guess all I can say is... thank you. Thank you all so much for all of the support... whether it’s on the fic, the blog, or both of them. I really do hope this final episode can meet your expectations. I’ll try my very best to make this an ending to remember. Nothing would make me happier than to hear you guys enjoy it and feel it does justice to the PMD series.

Sorry for all the rambling. The inbox is open again if you’d like to send any messages for the ficaversary. Again, thank you all so much! You’re the best!

[uwugenides]

FACT FOR EACH STAR GO GO GO !!!!!!!!!! :D

⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️When I was little I dropped a can in the garbage on accident and my brother made me crawl in the trash can to get it back out and put it in the right thing.⭐️I have right duane's syndrome. It's a birth defect that makes it so I can't turn my right eye outwards, it stops in the middle and I see double when I try to do it.⭐️I once fell through bleachers from the very top, falling straight down, twenty(20) ft, and I hit five cross bars on my way to the ground. My life did flash before my eyes.⭐️Growing up I wanted to be the first female president. Now I'm a trans man and I hate the government.⭐️I always wanted a husky (I was a wolf and tiger kid) and I got one two years ago and I love her. Her name is Ember.⭐️uhhhhh,,,,,,,, I'm autistic, well specifically I have aspergers⭐️I think you gave me too many stars ⭐️I love space but if I think about the laws of time and space I get too existential and dissociate for hours⭐️I'm having trouble thinking up new facts. F u my friend⭐️I've never been in a play or musical where I didn't have a speaking part⭐️In theatre I played this kid who is two feet taller than me and has non-stop freckled' older brother, so that was fun⭐️How am I supposed to do this without feeling self-centered??? Is that a fact?⭐️I always start writing stories and never finish them.⭐️I have some fucked yo dreams that I will never tell to a single person⭐️Moana is my favorite animated movie, only second to Road to El Dorado⭐️I type like this n lke this n vvvv much like this,,,⭐️I'm watching America's Got Talent right now and it always manages to restore my faith in humanity⭐️also the dancing pumpkin man from that old meme is on America's Got Talent and I love him⭐️I feel so small and then I feel so big and it is weird⭐️I love anyone who messages me, any message or ask. Even hate stuff, like thamknyoi, you took the time to think about me, even if its death wishes, you thought about me⭐️I love doing scary makeup⭐️fucked up shit and horror is my thing, but I can't watch horror movies alone⭐️I used to be really into werewolves and stuff when I first got on the internet and I guess you couldve considered me a furry⭐️I'm in love with my boyfriend⭐️did I mention I love my boyfriend⭐️that doctor who band that was called like Chameleon something??? Idk but they made really good songs. Check them out you guys⭐️COMEDY IS GREAT, FUNNY PEOPLE CAN FUCK ME UP⭐️I'm into dark comedy, but not insensitive comedy. Your racist jokes aren't funny, Barbara.⭐️I love tamale pie. If you haven't had tamale pie you need to have it.⭐️tamale pie and cornbread are the best⭐️sushi is really good⭐️my old choir teacher sang opera and was professionally trained in it.⭐️we had a karaoke day once and he sang karaoke opera for everyone. I'm p sure it was Italian too⭐️we had three foreign exchange students last year at my old school, one from South Korea, one from Finland, and one from Switzerland.⭐️a kid from my school spent part of her year as a foreign exchange student in Spain and when she came back she brought three girls from Spain with her and they cursed a lot⭐️I feel guilty about practically everything I've ever done in my life⭐️SO MANY STARS⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️the Ghostbusters reboot is a very good movie⭐️I want to go to COS (college of the siskiyous) and then transfer to SOU (Southern Oregon University) so hey, hit me up⭐️one is the loneliest number that you ever did see⭐️I'm sad 24/7 but sometimes that sadness comes across as comedy and that the only reason people like me⭐️I'm a minor⭐️I'm hot as fuck, get on my level twunk⭐️I hate terfs⭐️I want to be so rich that if I wanted to I could pay for everyone in the entire North America and South America to have enough food for three square meals a day⭐️i own a hat that says "black lives matter" and I've gotten ripped off my head more than once while riding my bus home⭐️I have a slight hitchhikers thumb⭐️I was born with brown hair but by the time I was two months old my hair was white⭐️I have owned four(4) rats, two(2) rabbits, seven(7) cats, two(2) guinea pigs, five(5) dogs, and one(1) hamster named Eddie.⭐️I am a self-taught horse-rider⭐️I have been to two(2) rodeos.⭐️I have asthma⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️so I love my boyfriend⭐️I chew on ice⭐️I order snow cones without any flavoring⭐️snow cones without any flavoring are cheaper⭐️SO MANY STARS⭐️I could've gotten more asks by now and I wouldn't know because I'm answering your stars⭐️I cry too easily⭐️I pass surprisingly well for being a trans guy who has not started T⭐️my family once sat at the dinner table on thanksgiving talking about how my mom had the right to hit me and I would not be allowed to defend myself⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I didn't know my dad was alive for the first twelve years of my life aside from the fact that we got the occasional eleven(11) dollar child support⭐️I love dogs⭐️I love cats ⭐️I love birds⭐️I love lizards⭐️I love snakes⭐️I love rats⭐️I love mice⭐️I love fish⭐️that guy on YouTube, Coyote Peterson is my goals as a person. If I could just live as a guy who goes around and finds wildlife I would never ask for another thing in my life⭐️I've recently started playing Pokémon Go again. It's fun⭐️my first Pokémon was a pikachu⭐️I've already traded my first Pokémon for more candies because I'm vain and want to be the very best⭐️I used to be a compulsive liars and would spend hours at night crying because I thought I was a horrible person for it. I was seven(7) at the time.⭐️I'm a trans⭐️koala bears are actively not helping themselves stay alive, not a fact about me, just a fact I like.⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I just got a new kitten named Periwinkle Blue⭐️if I die before I travel to at least one(1) foreign country I will have died a sad man⭐️my great grandpa was Jewish and I carry a lot of that culture and its traditions down with me, despite not actually considering myself part of the religion.⭐️I'm a descendant of the Karuk tribe which is located in Northern California. I speak very little Karuk but it's a very pretty language!⭐️I'm also Irish, German, and as mentioned above (or alluded to at least) Hebrew.⭐️I'm white passing as far as my Native American roots go, and trust me, it is awkward being the whitest person at the tribal meetings.⭐️my birthname was the same name my great grandmother had, but is spelt in the newer form, not the Hebrew translated English form.⭐️I live in a very country oriented town. Everyone owns a cow. Or a pig. I almost owned a pig once.⭐️a lot of people say I'm not actually a trans guy because I was too much of an outstanding girl⭐️my insurance won't cover my top surgery⭐️I work as a dishwasher and it sucks ass⭐️I want to quit my job⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I went vegetarian for two weeks and then caved for a bag of salami someone left on the counter⭐️I drink at least one(1) Pepsi zero a day⭐️the first website I ever roleplayed on was QuoteV.com⭐️my mom just brought me a Fitbit that she got for me. What does this mean?⭐️I'm technically overweight yet look like the average "healthy" body.⭐️I have Mono⭐️I had lice in second(2) grade and lost many of my beloved stuffed animals because of that⭐️because of trauma I regress on occasion and my YouTube watch history is always interesting when that happens.⭐️I have extremely bad anxiety and don't even realize it half the time⭐️Jimmy Fallon is better than Jimmy Kimmel⭐️I once played a union soldier in a civil war reenactment held by a traveling group of reenactors and trust me, they do not mess around. If you've ever been in something like that you know that they are practically in character 24/7⭐️I love little kids but feel like I'm horrible with babies⭐️I fear I'll be a horrible parent and make my child feel the way my mom makes me feel⭐️I tried to get myself emancipated once and sadly failed as I'd gone through with a Or of the process before someone told me I wasn't old enough yet.⭐️stars are dying balls of gas⭐️I love my boyfriend ⭐️ SO MANY FUCKING STARS JESUS HAROLD CHRIST⭐️The H in Jesus H Christ stands for Harold, I looked it up once.⭐️I don't kinkshame but people should be a bit more conscious of what they do in general public access places.⭐️I've been in two(2) abusive relationships⭐️I take a lot of meds⭐️I might start T this year or next year⭐️I want top surgery before I graduate high school or the summer before I go to college⭐️I relate to Tony Stark as a person way to much⭐️I hate when the Hulk is only Hulk and never Bruce Banner⭐️I'm pretty self-confident most the time⭐️I've brought a blanket with me to school on more than one(1) occasion.⭐️I'm naturally a night owl and sleep better when sleeping during the day⭐️I take commissions for my art and you should commission me.⭐️currently I own three(3) dogs and two(2) cats. Mattie, the German shorthair mix, Ember the Alaskan/Siberian husky mix, and Memphis the purebred Doberman pinscher. One(1) adult cat named Freckles and one(1) kitten named Periwinkle Blue.⭐️I love video games.⭐️I love theories. Let's talk theories all day. Any theory, let's talk.⭐️I love talking about sociology and social expectations that aren't realized.⭐️I love collecting odd knick-knacks. I have many weird artifacts around my room, gathered by me or my yard-sale enthusiast grandpa.⭐️I hate Donald Drumpf.⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I hope my boyfriend loves me⭐️the best animated characters to ever exist are Jesse, James, and Meowth from Pokemon.⭐️I'm taking PE independently at my new school⭐️I love singing and acting but I worry that I'm the person that is really bad at it and no one will tell me⭐️I also love doing special effects makeup⭐️sculpting is great fun⭐️I'll be going to the San Francisco comic con this September so if you're there come see me⭐️I'm going to be Dipper for comic con and my boyfriend is going to be Bill Cipher⭐️Arya from Game of Thrones is the best young actress I've ever seen⭐️then again she's not actually that young⭐️I once got stung by a scorpion while being inside my own home on my own bed⭐️till I was like seven(7) I had to share a room with my mom because we didn't have a house big enough for me to sleep anywhere else⭐️my dog Mattie's fullname is Calamity Anastasia Strelow⭐️at the school I used to attend a kid dressed up as a "tr*nny" for Halloween and wasn't told to take off his costume till someone who wasn't trans and out at the school complained and that took me begging my friend.⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I'm Bigfoot and my boyfriend is Mothman⭐️Atomic Blond looks like a really good movie⭐️my first(1) two(2) rats were named Loulou and Pepper⭐️my rabbits were Midnight and Petals.⭐️my hamster was a Russian dwarf hamster and he ended up being eaten by my cat Bobby Joe who was eaten by a mountain lion from the local area⭐️a bear has been seen on my old elementary school's campus five(5) times in my lifetime⭐️wolves were once seen by the only starbucks in my town which was only opened up last year⭐️I live in a major gold mining area and I5 runs right through the town next to mine which is practically where I live⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I've had a full body massage once(1) in my life and let me tell you, you haven't lived till you've had your butt massaged⭐️I've taken like three(3) different classes for martial arts and never really followed through with any of them⭐️I've only been bitten by one dog in my entire life and it was completely my fault⭐️this post is too long Jesus fuck⭐️why⭐️the emoji movie doesn't actually look that bad in my opinion⭐️Despicable Me3(three) was actually a really good movie.⭐️I hate bad acting but I respect the effort⭐️every sibling I have is a half-sibling⭐️I'm a horrible person⭐️but I'm also the only good person alive aside from my friends and boyfriend so I'm conflicted ⭐️The Gay and Wondrous Life of Caleb Gallo is a must see by anyone who considers them self part of the LGBTQ+ community⭐️I don't consider queer a slur personally but I understand the history of it and I never have and never will use it to describe someone or a group of people without their explicit permission⭐️before I came out as a trans guy I thought I was gebderfluid⭐️Chase Ross is an awesome guy⭐️I feel like I look like Ronan from The Raven Cycle with my new haircut, but I always pictured him with a darker complexion so idk⭐️I hate Caitlin Jenner as a person, but not for her gender identity in and of itself.⭐️my phone is getting very warm⭐️these stars are horribly shaded⭐️I love being trans and don't regret it at all⭐️my husky is probably my favorite dog so far⭐️TOO MANY STARS⭐️I don't know anythinh⭐️I'm actually a robot and this is all a lie⭐️I want to be a popular blogger or like a YouTube or something but hhhhnnnnnggg⭐️I'm really into literature and English and history and everything about all of that⭐️I made my signature while scribbling and realized a particular scribble looked like my initials⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I watch too many shows ⭐️I want to be a teacher kind of⭐️I want a better job⭐️I want to be who I see in the mirror when I've got all thecright clothes on and I'm feeling confident ⭐️I want to be a better person⭐️I want to be amazing⭐️I want to be a good human being⭐️I want to be special⭐️I want to be good enough⭐️I want to be happy⭐️I want to be healthy⭐️I want to be happy with who I am⭐️I want to be me⭐️I want to be cool⭐️I want to realize that I can be all this things if I just let myself⭐️I want to kiss John Boyega⭐️I want to hug Chris Pratt⭐️I want to smile the way I smile when I see my boyfriend⭐️I love my boyfriend⭐️I want more scars⭐️I want to be more adventurous⭐️I want to be a great person⭐️I want to live a good life⭐️I want Drumpf to resign⭐️I want to be famous⭐️I want to be immortal for all the good and bad it brings⭐️I want to be good⭐️I want to be happy⭐️I want this to end⭐️I love my boyfriend

[lostinthe-forest]

Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and then tag ten blogs you would like to get to know better. Or don’t. It’s up to you.
I was tagged by @agent-jersey Nickname: Sean
Sign: Aquarius
Favorite Music Artist: I'm torn between Skillet and In This Moment
Last TV Show You Watched: i watched Chicago Med last night which was pretty sweet
Last Movie You Saw in the Movie Theater: I def saw Rogue One pretty recently
What Are You Wearing Right Now: Cubs championship hoodie and jeans
What Do You Post: some rooster teeth, some dank memes, some funny things, basically things that catch my eye
Do You Have Any Other Blogs: nah
Why Did You Choose Your URL: listen I just fucken love forests
Do You Get Asks Regularly: regularly never. As in I get consistently 0 messgses
Hogwarts House: probably ravenclaw or hufflepuff
Patronus: I have no idea sadly Pokémon Team: team mystic, aka the one true team
Favorite Color: blue or real
Favorite Characters: Serana from Skyrim, dr. Choi from Chicago Med, and probably a ton of others I'm missing
Hobbies/crafts? writing, video games, watching hockey, watching baseball, 
Collect anything? Shot glasses
Current challenges you face? My job, and succeeding in a different industry than I expected
Things you’re looking forward to? Baseball season
 10 people: @mchmrnr @achievementt-teeth @liveandneverdie @dude-haus @hawkeytime @hoist-your-colors @jerkwillems @keltbh @effsocietys @karliahthebrave

[scientia-rex]

Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and then tag ten blogs you would like to get to know better. Or don’t. It’s up to you.

Tagged by @saathi1013​

Nickname: I don’t have one. Use my full name or nothing in real life. Online, Rex or scientia are both fine. kristophine is my fanfic writing name. MK York is my pen name for gay romance novels.

Sign: Libra sun, Scorpio rising, Sagittarius moon

Favorite Music Artist: Matthew Good.

Last TV Show You Watched: ...I watch a lot of true crime.

Last Movie You Saw in the Theater: I don’t actually know. I don’t get out much these days.

What Are You Wearing Right Now: Penguin pajama pants and a t-shirt with an upside crown that says “NOW PANIC AND FREAK OUT” and a huge gray cardigan

What Do You Post: The inside of my brain is like a popcorn popper. Sometimes it’s Whatever Thing I’m Obsessed With, sometimes it’s cats. Who knows.

Do You Have Any Other Blogs: Just one at a time.

Why Did You Choose Your URL: Stained glass windows in the Parliament building in Victoria.

Do You Get Asks Regularly: No. Do not want.

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw, probably.

Patronus: Cougar.

Pokémon Team: don’t judge me but I don’t know.

Favorite Color: aqua!!!!!!!

Favorite Characters: Spock. Wednesday Addams. Steve Rogers. Sergeant Mahoney.

Hobbies/crafts? I used to have hobbies before med school. Mostly they revolved around a hot glue gun. Or cake. I make fucking awesome big-ass cakes.

Collect anything? Sue Wong dresses. Oh God I have probably a grand worth of them in my closet. None LATELY I swear.

Current challenges you face? med school, depression. this literal actual apocalypse we’re living through.

Things you’re looking forward to?  I’m in med school the only thing we look forward to is the brief respite from pain between rotations. two days!!!!!! of anxiety about my next rotation!!!!!

Anything you want to promote?  VACCINATE YOUR FUCKING KIDS!

Anything else you’d like to share? The purest, sweetest joy I know is smooching the top of my dog’s head many times in a row while he squirms and tries to get away from me like awwwww moooooom not in front of the guys

Tagging: sorry, too tired to figure out who would be good social choices for this and made happy without being made to feel intruded on or pity

[tokyotheglaive]

tagged by @latessitrice, the absolute darling

Rules: Tag nine users you want to get to know better.

How old are you?: 22

Current job/ Dream job?: :( currently; dream job is an editor

What are you talented at?: Thinking about writing, telling myself stories to ignore very real problems, driving the getaway car, remembering the most random of details

What is a big goal you are working towards (or have already achieved)?: My last big goal was to graduate; next one is going to be to get up the courage to apply to grad school

What is your aesthetic?: I dress like a coffee shop hipster, I decorate like I’m colorblind, and I appreciate any and all things with fruit and flowers. I don’t know what that adds up to except maybe a bad knockoff of the Anthropologie catalogue

Do you collect anything?: Mmm, to be honest I tend not to collect real-world things? Like, get me a video game and I need it to be 100% completed, i.e. I need to have at least one of each pokémon, but in reality I’m not a big fan of having a lot of anything. I guess you could say I collect teapots?

What is a topic you are always up to talk about?: I tried valiantly to come up with an answer for this but I just can’t. There are too many times when I can’t talk about anything for me to even pretend there’s something I’m always game to discuss.

What’s a pet peeve of yours?: The sound of other people chewing.

Good advice to give?: Be civil, if not kind, whenever you can be. Don’t apologize for your feelings, good or bad. Hug something (your mom, your pet, a stuffed animal, yourself). Taking a shower usually helps. You can dress up with nowhere to go. You don’t owe any emotional labor to anyone, but never forget that no one owes it to you, either. Getting out of bed is an accomplishment, just like brushing your teeth, washing your face, and taking your meds. Eating is not a crime; you don’t need to punish yourself for it.

Recommend three songs?: For the sads: Finale by Para One; for the days when you’re a badass and you know it: Brothers in Arms by Junkie XL; for the days when life is a dream and everything’s slightly surreal and you’re maybe dissociating: Easter Parade by The Real Tuesday Weld

tagging @amidtheflowers, @q-is-a-letter, @arthoure, @julystorms, @wars-with-stars, @theweddingofthefoxes, @cosleia, @beginte

[worldofsurvivortibet-blog]

RITES OF PASSAGE

The Rites of Passage is a time for eliminated people to reflect on the game, and the Final 4 to say final words to the eliminated contestants.

Ally

Chrissa - I like her I don't think we were on a tribe but she is an icon 

Kendall - Who and or what are you?

Nicholas - first boot QUEEN I MISS YOU 

Amanda

Chrissa - voted out never got a chance to work with her but I like her.

Kendall - You were a rough vote, I really didn't want to through you under the bus. And though it's unlikely we will ever speak again, I did like you. You were the light our the reality show fan trash tribe.

Nicholas - goddess, queen, legend! it was so great to get to know you and i wish that we could have gotten to play the game together more

Darian

Carson - I cant remember what i ate for dinner last night, much less this vote, which happened 84 years ago. Sorry I had to turn on you so early, but there were just people I trusted more at the time who were telling me you weren’t on my side : ((( 

Chrissa - i originally didn't vote him out but voting him out really helped my game I feel i was in the majority that vote 

Kendall - We never talked but I sort of reveled in your demise. Nothing personal, I was really happy when we won immunity for once. 

Nicholas - DARIAN GOGGIN I WISH U WOULD HAVE MADE MERGE U FREAK <3

Julia

quack

Chrissa - never got to work with her but she is cool 

Kendall - Okay we did talk and from our time on the summit you seemed really awesome and a fun conversationalist. Sadly you were voted out before we could wreck any havoc together, so alas I can only dream of what could have been.

Nicholas - idk u

Julia Rae

Carson - Queen of quitting games!

Chrissa - I love Julia Rae icon just Christ walked but I love her 

Kendall - Yeah I can only think of you as the lesser Julia of the season. Carson said you were psychic though and that’s pretty bitching.

Nicholas - thx for walking and making me have to actually talk to people ://

Dani

Carson - I’m so glad we worked together on Kailash, and it sucks you got #swapfucked. Wish you could have stayed longer so we could regroup at the merge!

Chrissa - we aligned when Darian went and I love her 

Kendall - Like other Julia and Darian, I have never communicated with you. But Carson and Trysten adored you, whenever they spoke of you it was highly and makes me wish I had the opportunity to meet you. 

Nicholas - idk u

Ting Ting

Carson - You're such an icon in this community, and it broke my heart that I had to vote you out <3

Chrissa - I got her out to build trust with Kendall and it worked I like ting ting but she had to go 

Kendall - Sorry about gas lighting you and all that jazz, I mean not entirely because I think it saved me but yeah still sorry for any emotional damage I may have caused.

Nicholas - idk u

Eddie

Chrissa - never worked with him but he seems pretty cool surprised I made it further than him 

Nicholas - idk u

Ace

Carson - I just wanted to take this time to tell you that I’m disgusted that you put that shit on the wiki. That was incredibly rude, offensive, and uncalled for, so bye!

Chrissa - I love ace personally but never worked with him I heard he said some inappropriate words though

Kendall - Look, what you did to Jaiden was insanely fucked up but you were a good player and a good friend. And I hope you grow as a person from this.

Nicholas - LEGEND! WHAT THE HECK I WISH WE COULD HAVE SLAYED THIS GAME TOGETHER BUT YOU WERE A HUGE THREAT TO ME! either way it was fun to get to work together!!

Matt

*flips Seamus off* *waves goodbye to everyone else* :3

Carson - My bad for not getting to know you better in the small amount of time we played together! 

Chrissa - he went for me with Johnny lol luckily voting him out really did save me if I vote trysten that week I would have been screwed 

Kendall - You probably hate me right now and I get that. But the reason you were voted out wasn’t because you were an easy vote. It was because you were a threat. Also ONE DAY I’LL CATCH YOU AND ADD YOU TO MY POKÉMON COLLECTION. *pathetically pelts you with pokéballs*

Nicholas - i didn’t talk to u but I’m sure u are a nice individual

Elena

Carson - You were fun to talk to when you were actually here!

Chrissa - inactive I loved her she was so nice 

Kendall - You were the first to go in the mass medi vac and it’s a shame you did but overall not very surprising. No offense. 

Nicholas - QUEEN! I am so sad you got med evaced you were so sweet to talk to and you were highkey robbed!

Jaiden

Carson - I love the unpredictability you bring to games. I was looking forward to working with you so bad bc it was the first time we've played together in a year, but I completely respect you for quitting after that. Best of luck in India!

Chrissa - he was nice to me he walked he was extra so extra he was the most tame though in this cast 

Kendall - NGL from what I had heard from Amanda and a bunch of other people, you sounded like the spawn of satan. But low and behold, you subverted my expectations by being a decent conversationalist and a fascinating individual.

Nicholas -

Johnny

Carson - You had me SHOOK when you went from “carry me on your back” to “never mind im going to run this game”. Honestly, you were such a contender to win once you started to pull voting blocs together, and thats why I became weary of letting you get any farther. Still, I’m glad you made the game so interesting!

Chrissa - he lied to me told me he had no one then told me he voted for me cause he had Matt like what's the truth getting him out was the smartest move I decided to make

Kendall - You were the closest thing I had (aside from Jared) as an archenemy. You were cunning and manipulative and absolutely fascinating. Had I not played my idol, you would have gotten Chrissa out. I admire your skill greatly.

Nicholas -

 ok what a king of the minority! i loved our crackedt ass plans to try to flip votes and i am really glad that that we got to strategize together!

Keyonjay

I'm sorry I went out the way I did, but I love you all and I'm proud of you guys!

Carson - You had such a great social game, and I’m pretty sure the only way you were leaving the game was being medevaced. 

Chrissa - my ally so sad he was too inactive but I love him 

Kendall - GOD DAMNIT KEYONJAY! YOU HAD ONE JOB! NOT TO GET BRUTALLY VOTED OUT! YOU JUST HAD TO GO UP AND GET YOURSELF MEDI VACED! YOU BITCH! But seriously, I adore you and miss our conversations about existentialism and arson.  

Nicholas - KING! LEGEND! ICON! I AM SO SAD YOU ARE GONE! YOU ARE A LEGEND AND IT WAS SO FUN PLAYING THIS GAME WITH YOU FROM START TO FINISH!!! <3

Trysten

Carson - I’m still kicking myself for not being closer to you. I really missed a chance to work with you because looking back at it, you were so open to it even after I threw a vote at you during pre-merge. Anyways enough rambling, you definitely had a great under the radar game, and congrats on making it as far as you did!

Chrissa - his vote out was sad but voting him out also helped 

Kendall - You went through a lot of shit this season. Like I’m pretty sure you were in the minority for every vote that you have been apart of. Which is a shame because I did like talking to you about dangan ronpa and other things. 

Nicholas - you were really sweet to talk to when we did talk and i hope everything is well with you!

Seb

Carson - King of calling people out! I’m so glad we were allies since Day 1. You were someone I knew I could rely on, even when we didn’t vote together :~) 

Chrissa - very polarizing but a good player but he called me a flop cause I voted out his friend. 

Kendall - What’s a nice way of saying I hope you get ass cancer?

Nicholas - next!

Jared

Carson - You're a legend, but also a rat for giving me my first vote! You had a lot of bad cards dealt to you and you persevered through so much, so congrats for that!

Chrissa - I had mixed feelings sometimes they were a lot but that's why I voted them out they were threatening they didn't think so but they really were plus we never pmed I feel the people I agreed to vote out have helped me get this far.

Kendall - Ah my white whale. We said a lot of terrible things to each other and we probably went a tad too far in our rivalry. But overall, you really aren’t all that bad of a guy. I hope you don’t take a few of my confessionals too seriously, they were rather harsh.

Nicholas - the baddest bitch in this game!!! you were robbed :/

The Immunity will be posted soon!