#I’m almost 25 bruh 😭😭😭

[evansbby]

YESSS!! the whole immaturity thing is so trueee. i dated this 38 year old when i was like 18/19, and in every argument he had to bring up the fact that i’m younger than him. i remember once this woman was flirting with him and i got angry and he said that she was an old friend and that ‘I don’t understand because i’m too young’ like what??😭 then why are you with me if i’m too young wtf. and there r so many instances where i just didn’t know if it his behaviour was normal but then he’d say that i’m inexperienced and should just trust him and what not. (he wanted me to move in with him 5 months into dating so he’d have “easier access” to me😭😭). PLUS HE HAD 3 KIDS LIKE WTH AM I GONNA DO TAKE CARE OF THEM??? he definitely clung onto the fact i have daddy issues bc he would use that against me so many times 💀💀

i met him when i worked as a barista, i was freshly 18 as well. like seriously there were so many red flags i ignored, idk why😭 he was love bombing the fuck out of me, and then when we’d have a argument he’d use that against me and say “i did all of this for you and this how you repay me, thank you so much” THIS MANIPULATION AT ITS FINESTTT. and i would feel so bad as well 💀

so…dilfs are better left as a fantasy 👎🏼👎🏼

😭😭😭😭

I feel lowkey bad for all the teenage girls out there who went through the canon event of dating a 40 year old manchild. Like that man should’ve known better bc why is he dating someone THAT much younger than him? Other than to manipulate her bc she is more naive than the women his age who know better.

And I agree with you, the dilf fantasy is just a fantasy. Most of the time. Bc look, I grew up reading dilf fanfics from like the age of 12/13. I was reading huge age gap fics and I was like “omg yes, I need an older man! They are more mature and better etc” then I grew up and realised there’s a reason I was/am so attracted to dilfs from the fanfics — bc they were WRITTEN BY WOMEN. They are a woman’s fantasy that oftentimes is NOT a reality. In reality, the dilfs I met were always lowkey creepy bc like… why are you interested in a teenager bro!!!??? I could be your daughter!

I realised that just bc they’re older, doesn’t mean they aren’t immature. This isn’t always the case but most of the time it is. Now despite all this, if I met a dilf who acted exactly like he was written by a woman writing a fanfic, someone like SUGAR DADDY ARI LEVINSON, then yes I would marry him in a heartbeat idec he could be 50 lol.

[polyrelatables]

Journal #3

You ever just feel lost and stuck ? Like everyone from high school is already getting married and having kids and you just envy them for it ? Like I’m 24 bouta be 25 and I remember when I was 18 telling my friends that I wanted to be married by 23 and have a 2 kids by this time.. like partying and going out at a young age made me tired of going out by the time I was the legal age to do so.. I mean I still went out at that time but now or like the past year all I ever wanted was to get married and have kids. I’ve tried.. me and my first love tried we lost one when I was 19 but about 6-7 months ago we started trying again and it’s been very emotional because how could I get pregnant without even trying at 19 but now that my main focus is starting my own family it doesn’t happen? And then I go on social media and I see that people are pregnant or I see gender reveals and baby showers and I’m just like bruh why ? Make that make sense. For someone who doesn’t like sex it gets very hard when trying to have a baby because your constantly fighting your traumatic mindset and doing it but you don’t get any results and the trauma js laughs in your face like why tf this gotta happen to me, yk? I’ve always loved kids from a young age I knew I wanted a big family and I’m 24 almost 25 and I haven’t even started and it’s just been very emotional and it doesn’t help that me and the one that I want the family with aren’t even together. Life js sucks atm. Lmao anywayyysss that’s all . Goodnight 🤣😭❤️‍🩹

[taegularities]

Reading through your answered asks made me realise that I’ve been living in France for almost 6-7years but I’m still not so fluent nor confident in French yet😞 bruh I feel demotivated—

omg no listen !! first of all, i studied french for 4 years and speak it like an elementary school kid ok this language is FREAKING HARD, who can really blame u? 😭 and secondly, don't feel demotivated 🥺 i'm just fluent in german bcos i grew up here. i'm 25 and have been living here for 22 years, so seriously !!! don't be discouraged, it'll all come to u <333