#I’ll get there hopefully 🤞🏾

[blackreaderfics]

Tell Me How You Really Feel | Dick Grayson x Fem!Reader

↳ Pairing : Dick Grayson x Fem!Reader

↳ Rating :  T

↳ Summary : You're a new Titan and the stern and serious team leader Dick Grayson treats you like you don’t exist. Convinced that he hates you, you confront him about what his issue with you truly is.

↳ W.C : ~2.1K

↳ Tags: fluff, misunderstandings, aggressively shy boy dick, mild language, this is Titans DC!verse y'all, dickkory hasn't happened yet, there’s some mild Jason Todd x Reader in here if you squint.

Titans Tower had never been more festive. Gold foil streamers hung along the rafters, Gar’s disco lights spun across the dimly lit common room, and Jason’s playlist boomed on their surround sound speakers. Everyone had now abandoned the living room and gathered in the kitchen, party hats and all, but you lingered behind scrolling through your phone.

As much as being a Titan was hard work, they always made sure to take time to celebrate holidays and birthdays. And after officially becoming a Titan, you were thankful to have friends who actually cared about you, a team who had your back. 

You smiled at the camera roll full of pictures you had snapped with the team: one with a big bear hug from Dawn, another of you happily sandwiched in between Conner and Gar, a selfie with Jason, and one of Rachel, Kory, and you making silly faces. When you flipped to a shot of you and the man of the hour, Dick Grayson, you paused with a frown. 

Hank had ushered you and Dick together for a picture, but you knew he was just trying to get you two to get along. It was no secret that everyone could notice the weird tension the team leader had with their new recruit, but Hank was probably the only one bold enough to voice it out loud.

“How about one with birthday boy, new kid?” Hank snatched your phone from your hands and dragged Dick over by the arm. He hadn’t so much as looked your direction the whole day; in fact, it was like you didn’t even exist to him. You got used to it over time, but it was even worse when others pointed it out. 

“Get closer together,” The brawny man insisted from behind the camera but neither of you moved. Hank lowered the phone and gave you a desperately pointed look. You took a small step closer to Dick and you could feel him tense up. 

“Dick who fucking peed in your cereal today? It’s your birthday act like it.” You glanced up at the man everyone referred to as leader next to you briefly. He looked like he would rather be anywhere but next to you. 

“Smile,” Hank said, which was rather ironic since it seemed he was the only one smiling.

You felt mortified seeing the picture now juxtaposed with the scene in the kitchen in front of you. In the picture, Dick looked uncomfortable—angry even—that he had to even stand next to you let alone take a picture with you. But in the kitchen, however, he stood in front of a birthday cake ready to blow out the candles, smiling at everybody but you. 

Jason, who had come to the living room to pause his playlist, raised an eyebrow at you. “You coming for the cake or you just gonna stare into space all day?” 

You nodded, breaking yourself out of your thoughts. He gave you a weird look, begging an answer but a short “Sorry,” was all you could give him before following the teen into the kitchen. 

Kory latched onto your arm, giving it a squeeze when you joined their circle around the table. “Dick was just singing our praises, you almost missed it.”

“Yea, he was getting all sappy on us,” Gar piped up to tease. “‘Gar, you’re like a brother to me,’” he quoted dramatically before pretending to gag. 

You cracked a smile at the green-haired boy. He always knew how to make everyone laugh. When your eyes flashed over to your team leader, you saw that he was smiling too. You envied that smile that he gave so easily to others. When your eyes met briefly, he looked away almost immediately and that smile turned into something like a grimace.

You frowned and looked away too. One look at you had stolen every bit of joy away from him in that split second. More than being sad, you were embarrassed. It was like he didn’t even think you deserved to be looked at, like you didn’t deserve your place as a Titan.

Jason looked from you to Dick and scratched his head in frustrated confusion. Rachel broke the silence by clearing her throat. “Anyway, how about some cake—”

“No wait, Rach I’m really curious.” Jason finally spoke up. “He still needs to tell us what he thinks about us. All of us.”

Jason stared at the elder Wayne brother with an intensity that rivaled their previous spats. If there was one thing Jason hated, it was authority and unfairness. And to Jason, Dick’s ignoring you was an extremely biased assertion of his role as leader.

“Here we go,” Rachel said rolling her eyes. “Can’t we ever have one birthday party without arguing?”

“No actually, the kid’s right!” Hank raised his voice, gesticulating towards you as if you weren’t even in the room. “Hey, what the hell’s your problem with her?”

Dawn put her head in her hands with a groan. “I can’t believe we’re doing this right now.”

Dick’s eyes were now boring into yours, jaw set with a clench. You stared back, eyes threatening to spill tears at all the unwanted attention now turning towards you in the room. He redirected his attention back to Jason.

“If you must know, Jason. I think you’re a huge pain in the ass.” Dick smirked, bringing back some levity into the room. You could feel the tension in the room relax and everyone seemed relieved for it.

“Ok, we knew that,” Jason continued exasperatedly, “And?” He motioned for the elder to continue, nodding his head toward you rather unsubtly.

“A-And—” He faltered in his speech, flickering his gaze at you. “She’s—” He blinked in surprise when your gazes met and quickly looked down, unwilling to continue.

That was enough for you. You didn’t want to stick around anymore. Not when you could feel tears already escaping down your cheek. You tore away from the table, wiping the wetness from your face furiously. 

“Y/N!” Jason called after you only to be held back by Gar. 

You slammed the door and locked it behind you, throwing yourself on the bed. Now you knew what your team leader really thought of you, and it was absolutely nothing, nothing at all. You didn’t mean anything to him. You weren’t a friend and even much less a teammate. What was the point of being part of a team, if the team leader hated your existence? What was the point of all that training if he never even let you do anything? You were excluded from most missions and left to stay behind because it was “too dangerous”. At this point, you were about as important to him as a plastic bag.

A knock came at the door. You curled into your pillow even more. It was probably Dick being forced to apologize to you. 

He knocked again and you felt the anger in your chest rising. You suddenly had the urge to tell him off. Fuck the fact that he was technically your superior. You had so much patience due to your poor upbringing that you had let his mistreatment slide. You thought that was just how things were as part of a team and you just had to deal with it. But now that even the team was calling him out on it, you couldn’t ignore it any further. 

You opened the door to find Dick standing outside, arm still outstretched in mid-knock. He blinked back his surprise and settled back into the neutral “leader-like” expression you hated so much. 

“We need to talk. Can I come in?” He waited for you to respond. Upon seeing your angry glare, he took a short inhale. “Please Y/N.”

Your heart stuttered against your will. It had been the first time he’d addressed you by name and there was something else stirring in his eyes. His face wore a vulnerability you’d never seen on him before. You stepped aside warily, letting him in.

When the door closed behind you, you spun around wildly to face him. 

“What the fuck is your problem with me, Grayson? Why do you hate me so much? What did I ever do to you—” You hated the fact that you were tearing up again.

“I don’t hate you.” He cut in lamely. When your eyes met, he held your gaze briefly breaking to looking off to the side again. 

“See? What the fuck? You can barely even look at me. Hank had to force you to even stand next to me. How the hell am I supposed to be a part of this team if the leader can’t even pretend to like me? Just admit you can’t fucking stand me.” You continued airing your grievances out at him, growing more agitated at the man’s silence. “Fucking say something!”

“I don’t hate you,” He said again, jaw set sternly. He took a step forward, and you took a step back. “I don’t want to look at you.” Another step. Another step back.

“W-what?” Your back was at the door, and he was now standing—towering— over you.

“I don’t want to stand next to you.”

“I…don’t understand.” You furrowed your brow in confusion, searching his eyes for the meaning behind his words. His professional poise had disappeared and was replaced with something else—something darker. Nothing made sense anymore; He said he didn't want to stand next to you, but you were now practically breathing the same air. 

“And you’re right. I can’t fucking stand you.”

You flinched at his words. Admittedly, you had been cursing at him the whole time since he’d entered your room, but he rarely cursed, and hearing him repeat your words back at you gave you pause. 

You tried to move but he kept you caged in on either side of his arms. You had enough; you heard enough, and now you just wanted him gone. Once he was out of your room, you could resign yourself to ignoring each other for the rest of your time on the team. Fuck him.

“Thanks. I got it the first time so just let me go.” You were hurt, and whenever you tried to mask your feelings, sarcasm came out as a defense mechanism. When he didn’t budge to let you move, you pushed against his chest. “Let me go, Grayson,” you applied more pressure to his chest as a warning. You wouldn’t hesitate to use your powers to make him move.

Dick leaned back, allowing for more space between you. You caught your breath, relishing the newfound breathing space. Instead of letting you go fully, he circled your right wrist keeping it at his chest. You felt his heartbeat erratically pulsing under your palm. 

“I can’t be near you. I…I can’t even hear myself think.” He spoke a little quieter now,  splaying his fingers flat against your hand deepening the pressure on his chest. His heart was beating faster now. “That’s all I can fucking hear.” Seeing that you got the point he was referring to his heartbeat, he released your hand. You watched his throat bob as he swallowed thickly. His face looked flushed.  

 “I can barely look at you because then…you’d probably notice.” He mumbled the last part but you heard him quite clearly. He looked more boyish than ever as he stood before you.

“I’d probably notice…?” You trailed off, hoping he would continue. You were curious mostly not as to what he would say, but how he would say it.

“Don’t make me say it, Y/N” Dick grimaced again. You had come to know this look as disdain, but with the man’s revelation, you were beginning to see that expression in a new light. He looked more embarrassed than anything, and now the tips of his ears began to burn a bright red. Holy Shit. This is what Dick Grayson was like when he had a crush. 

“I can’t pretend to like you because…I already like you. Like a lot. I can’t stop thinking about you-mmph“

You pulled him down by the collar and into a kiss. His initial surprise from your sudden interruption melted into passion as he deepened it, hungrily grasping at your waist to pull you closer to him.

You stopped kissing him for a moment to stare seriously up at him. “What about for missions? You never let me come.” You were beginning to put 2 and 2 together for all the other stuff like the times he would make that weird face at you, or avoid you completely. But you still couldn’t see why, as an active member he wouldn’t let you participate in missions.

“You,” He said simply. He was looking at you fondly now, eyelids languid and lazy as his thumbs rubbed circles into your waist. 

“What about me?” 

“You’re distracting.” His gaze flitted to your lips, “To me specifically.” He added, looking at you with such an innocent honesty that you could only partly contain your laugh.

“You’re such a fucking idiot,” You groaned feigning annoyance. “You’re lucky you’re cute.” 

“Tell me how you really feel.” He grinned dumbly into your lips as you pulled him down into another kiss. 

©️ blackreaderfics // credit to cafekitsune for the dividers

[themoonunderstoodmydadjokes]

Have the next four days off, getting a tattoo tomorrow, celebrating my friends birthday this weekend, and hopefully might be filming some content for the other page 🫣🫣🤗🤗

[mybiasisexo]

I’m posting chapter 8 of Entangled by the end of the week. Feel free to hold me accountable 😌

[therovingstar]

Mildly chafing at the bit as I get Dragoon from 80 to 90 cuz I’ve really started liking the way it plays and find the spectacle of the attacks (especially the non-jumpy ones, oddly enough) extremely appealing. A small part of me wants to add it to Odzaya’s repertoire, if only because a lot of those abilities mirror how she fights with her staves as a White Mage (she’s very physically aggressive, when she’s not keeping everyone tiptop or flinging spells, she wields her cane like a pole-arm). At the same time, while I enjoyed the DRG quests well enough, they didn’t feel connected to Zaya much, so I left them pretty much out of her story (they are experienced by Ardbert, though, since he’s resurrected in her canon; he more or less goes through the job quests she doesn’t).

Eh, I think ultimately I’m still just crossing my fingers for that job that’ll just hit all the marks and feel 100% her. I’m specifically looking at Rune Fencer/Spellblade/Mystic Knight/whatever they could call it as it’s presented in pretty much every FF entry and spin-off (barring XI, don’t want that version), ie. a speedy sword-wielder who imbues their blade with their magic; ideally it’d have some party support abilities, maybe even have access to some light healing. Red Mage comes close but doesn’t quite hit, much as I enjoy it, and the way I imagine the job, it’d probably feel too similar to RDM to be added, but I guess we’ll see.

[dc418writes]

🚨ANNOUNCEMENT🚨

Hey guys🌸! Hope you’re having a great weekend☺️✨!

So I was thinking of this new thing where I keep you updated on my upcoming works not only for those who might be interested but also to help me with finishing what I start. For those who’ve been with me for a while probably have noticed I’m a bit inconsistent with posting and tend to hop around from idea to idea (I’m trying to be better🫣 lol).

So with this new idea (which I was inspired to do by someone whom I can’t remember their username), I’ll include a few stories (not everything I’m potentially working on because that’ll take forever) and their status will either be: Idea, In Development, or In Progress

*Idea: idea is set, however storyline has not completely been established

*In Development: Storyline is established, however no/little words on paper

*In Progress: words on paper, piece not completed

✏️Current Priority Works:

Oil & Vinegar 2: Armando Armasxblack!reader (Bad Boys fandom)

Status: In Development

Two Wrongs & a Fight: trucker!Ari Levinsonxblack!reader

Status: In Progress

Armando Armasxassassin!black!reader (Bad Boys Fandom) - request submission

Status: In Development

Bode Leonexblack!reader (Fire Country fandom)

Status: In Development

Armando Armasxblack!reader (Bad Boys Fandom) - request submission

Status: In Development

Again, these are only a few of the things in my drafts and hopefully it helps me get more focused on one piece at a time🤞🏾

[ronwestbreeze]

Hello just wanted to say I love your gonna go far

I’m excited to see what’s next considering we are getting closer to chapter 12 with seeing that little bit of art with reeds and baby kiri

Also wanted to see how you were doing

I’m doing fine and I’m also excited to write up 12 too! Just been super busy with school and work. The quarter is about to end soon though so hopefully I’ll have a little more time to get some writing done 🤞🏾

[twistedcharismaaa]

i have a request! can you make a story about masego? the basis being.. a young woman who plays the piano realizes that she’s in love with her best friend from college after her happens to move away abroad to teach young kids to play musical instruments.

@pinkthongs

Hey!!! 🥰

You wanna know something funny? I thought about doing a story adjacent to this but of course I chickened out. I would loveeeee to write a friends to lovers type of vibe. It’s actually one of my favorite tropes b/w that and enemies to lovers 💀.

I even have a very rough, rough draft of this already. Hopefully I’ll get the confidence to drop it!!! This could be a sign to continue it 🤔🤞🏾.

I appreciate you for reading and reaching outttt!!! 💙

Here’s a snip below. I don’t even know how old this is. But like I said, a rough rough draft. 😬

…She missed her best friend and she hoped that he missed her too.

Micah plopped on the bed beside Charisma and sighed loudly. “I wish I had the right words to fully describe what I’m feeling,” he said.

Charisma tilted her head as she admired the elation on his face while she still listened closely.

“I’ve seen so much of the world and there’s still so much to see.” He added.

“What was your favorite part? Favorite place?” She quizzed.

“Favorite place would most definitely be South Africa.” He paused. ….”Favorite part?” he repeated thinking intently.

“Listening to the voicemail you left me was my favorite part.”

[skarsgardsnark]

I’ll try not to gush over Bill too much, but I loved his look at the Swedish premier, and his cute little shrug at the end of that Vogue Scandinavia interview. This has been such a fun relaxed promo tour so far. It was nice to get a little glimpse of Bill’s family and friends enjoying the premiere. Lol I just have no complaints, I just love that the year of Bill is ending on a high note🤞🏾

Yes to everything in this ask! Hopefully next year is just as good for him. ❤️

[madzenhaisof]

HELLO! apparently the last time I posted was last year that’s crazy haha. Nah not really I usually take a pretty long break off here it’s just better to get the emotions out that way. Any ways can you believe that as long as I’ve had this and have been talking about women on here I haven’t even sniffed having a girl friend haven’t even sniffed it bruh. I did get my first French kiss last year tho so that was nice I guess. I’m still the scared little shit I’ve always been. But also I feel like the opportunity’s have been low. Been trying to talk to this one girl but so far all I do is blow up her DMs and at some point it’s just me annoying the shit out of her like I can’t respond to every thing she posts kn her damn story like I need to give her a break. But I don’t know if that’s just my anxiety talking and making me not be affair if that’s actually something I should be doing like ughhh. She’s also 21 I’m 27 I guess it’s not that big of a deal tho but idk. I hate this shit wish I finally wasn’t an over thinker or I could find the answers to this like I do everything else that doesn’t have to do with women. Okay let’s talk about some other shit. I got addicted to going out lol after not doing anything during undergrad now I’m addicted. Trying to get over it, think I’m more addicted to adrenaline I feel when a girl grinds on me. Also starting this year off stressed as hell cause I’m trying to go to grad school but I got about 2 weeks still classes start and IM NOT SIGNED UP FOR ANY CLASSES! Because they have not given me and email a portal anything! Why is VUU so shit bro come on! Almost thought I was over exaggerating how bad of a school it is. But it’s the only one I got into so I gotta do what I gotta do. But I’m abt to be paying out of pocket because this fucking financial aid site aint fucking working like what the actual fuck some of us need this shit I’m so pissed bro and stressed how is this year starting off like this. This supposed to be my year man come on! If I can just get this together everything will fall into place. At least my lifts are doing good finally got past a 2-3 year injury and can get back to my bullshit. Also off topic but need to spend less money lol got a lot of shit going on and need to spend less. Just talking abt money right now just gave me an idea to try and find scholarships since financial aid being a crack baby. Okay I wish one day I get on here spitting abt positive shit, but I guess once that happens I’ll finally delete this. Okay see y’all in 6 months to a year lmao hopefully my life is together by then 🤞🏾

[suga-kookiemonster]

hi Ashley! I’m looking forward to the fics in the upcoming Christmas collab. I loved This Christmas. I finally got the chance to read it this past summer. It was a huge misunderstanding that left both parties incredibly hurt. It’s interesting how people can remember the same event differently. (spoiler:) I realized early on that reader was in fact the one who left first despite what she felt, so i thought that was interesting. Something I really appreciated was how it ended. They didn’t immediately get back together or anything, they still have lots to talk about and work through. So I appreciated that realistic part of it.

I’m looking forward to all is bright, I hope the writing process goes well!! However long it takes I’ll be patiently waiting ☺️

hey, babe! i'm so glad you loved this christmas. that one definitely took me a lot of effort to complete, so it's always great to hear my efforts weren't in vain 🥰 one thing i really wanted to convey was that there was no "bad guy" in that situation--they both just got too caught up in their own heads and didn't communicate, resulting in everyone getting hurt. thank you for taking the time to read it, even if it was in the summer 🤣 and thank you for looking forward to my next christmas fic as well! i'm excited, so hopefully it won't take me as long as last time to get out🤞🏾 hope you're having a good day! 💜

[stargirlfics]

Hey. Newbie here. Ive noticed some of your works include non consent or dubious consent as well as some “consensual” physical assault or contact (shoving,smacking,slapping). This is a very personal question so if it hits too close to home for you I understand you wanting not expose that. Do you and your fiancé participate in those acts? I found you from a sweet Henry blurb and started following but when I saw some of the dark things I got concerned. It’s my first time being introduced to that type of writing so I originally thought you may have been writing about your life through the lens of a character. Some ppl do this as a cry for help. It seems as though this is a common form of writing on tumblr though. I guess im trying to make sense of it. I’ve always associated those things with abuse or sexual assault so to see it written differently I guess it’s one of those things where my brain isn’t allowing me to adopt a new understanding of it. Is that scary for you? To be under someone’s complete control? Has the physical part ever gone too far? How to you even present that to your partner? I would think asking someone to be physical with you may trigger some concerns but I’m sure he is very compassionate and protective of you. Was participating in non consensual or dub consensual something you had to open up to or did you always have a fetishized for it? I know im asking a lot but im going to be a psychologist and therapist one day (fingers crossed😊🤞🏾) and I feel like I may encounter these kinds of clients for psych therapy so I’d like to gain inside perspective on what it’s like for them. I don’t want to be biased because of how I was raised. There is always more to learn. Again i hope I didn’t offend or overwhelm. This is the first time I’ve seen this realm of sexual fantasy and kink. I’m not really a fanfic reader but I started to get into it bc I like reading and wanted to try something new. I also follow a Henry page after crushing on him watching Witcher. Your page is introducing me to new lifestyles. I’m genuinely curious as again historically we’ve been trained to view it one way. Thanks for listening to my incessant ramble. Hope all is well!👍🏾

Hi! So to start off I’m gonna link a post I made with some good resources and links that really go into depth with the why and how of dark content and fantasies, I think you’ll find that really helpful or at least I hope so that can explain more throughly than I can! I appreciate you just wanting to learn more!

And as for your questions, me and my bf don’t participate in cnc or dubcon within our relationship so I can’t speak for how that is but I’ll try and answer the rest of your questions in a way that will hopefully make sense. So we have a dom/sub aspect to our relationship where he is more dominant and I do like something called impact play and am quite submissive and masochistic in a sexual sense so there is rough sex involved in my relationship at times and there is bondage and choking and slapping and spanking and more bdsm centered kinks but in my writing I do explore fantasies of a darker tone and just writing in general that’s like a thriller story but the dark or twisted/violent things I may write in those stories aren’t my own experiences or a cry for help I promise!

I’m not sure how familiar you are with bdsm but it is best practice to have an open conversation with your partner about your kinks and limits, soft and hard limits, boundaries, safe words, aftercare, etc before engaging in anything and the same applies for cnc or dubcon or other darker/taboo kinks so that it can be done as safely as possible and within everyone’s limits who are involved

In terms of the physical slapping or spanking, choking, just being handled roughly personally it can be scary but in a way that excites me because I know I’m safe and it’s with someone I trust that knows my limits and boundaries and won’t cross them and if it ever does become too much or goes too far I know and trust that I can always say my safe word or ask for things to be dialed back and things will stop and I can check in with my partner and stop completely or continue

My partner does have the control when he is being dominant either sexually or in general in our realtionship but again that’s within specific perimeters that we discussed and agreed upon beforehand so it isn’t scary to give him and allow him to have control over me or things that I am comfortable with him having control over, it actually feels safe and allows me to feel taken care of and relaxed and held in his hands essentially. I enjoy being submissive (again within my limits and this will vary from person to person which is why discussion of this and communication is key especially with darker kinks) and the physical aspect of it is still done with absolute care and safety in mind!

Your question about presenting darker kinks to a partner simply starts with being able to maturely and responsible discuss sex and what that would look like in the relationship, all about good listening and communication and respect and trust. Things like dubcon or cnc fantasies or fantasies of kidnapping roleplays, knife play, etc can’t be initiated right away, trust needs to be gained and earned first ideally and I think for most people it is that way, they develop a relationship with someone, a sexual relationship is established and from there things are added or explored and those darker things hopefully are brought in with care and an easing into it especially if one or all people involved aren’t experienced in all of that

Asking my partner to be a little more physical with me or to handle me roughly/how they wanted did bring up concerns which led to discussions and a slow easing into those things I was asking for and things he also wanted to try out. He is very protective and caring for me which is why I feel so safe engaging in some of these things and he of course has his limits as well with what he’s comfortable doing to me and not. There hasn’t been a time things have gone too far but that’s because we have a system in place where I give him a sign when I need things to be taken down a notch or to slow down so it doesn’t even have to get to a point of too far if that makes sense! Whether you participate in them irl or just like to read or write dark scenarios and dark themes I think most of us try and do proper research and give it the respect it needs to be done safely!

For your other question, noncon and dubcon, etc actually wasn’t something I understood at first or really thought was for me. I think I read a story or a fanfic with noncon themes and it was hard for me to read, I was a little confused but also felt enthralled with the storyline and the suspense and dread and lack of control there was, so I explored it a bit more and it took me some time to get used to it and understand it and eventually I decided I did enjoy those things, some of which I felt comfortable introducing to my actual life and some not

I hope this helps you understand it a little better and again I appreciate you having an open mind and wanting to learn more! 🖤 Hope those links prove even more helpful too!

[londonrih]

I’d compare S4 Chenford to Jisbon. Seems like they’re going the same route to me. I could be very wrong though lol. Lisbon hid behind her boyfriend, much like Tim is doing with Ashley. Jane figured out that he had feelings for Lisbon and told her right before she was gonna leave with her boyfriend.

I’m thinking, Tim dates Ashley for a bit, fine. They’re done somewhere in the range of 4x13-4x16 since 4x12 doesn’t wrap Ashley’s SL. Lucy gets a LI (Kanoa’s character I hope 🤞🏻 🤞🏻). Maybe she meets him on a UC op (would explain a possible Chenford partner split). Tim breaks up with Ashley after figuring it out that she isn’t Lucy. Meanwhile, Lucy is happy with her new guy without Tim. Tim starts to realize what life looks like without Lucy around. And something happens in finale. That’d fit with Jon’s emoji equation too. Both thinking about it, one happy in love (Lucy since the first one is always Lucy) without Tim. Tim keeping quiet until he’s ready to say something since he doesn’t want to wreck Lucy’s possible new relationship. We will see!!

First off, let me say I’m sorry for not seeing this sooner!!

Secondly, YES, YES and lastly, YES!!!!!!

I could definitely see this happening. I’ll say by 4x13, Tim will break up with Ashley, around that time.

Lucy meeting Kanoa’s character undercover, I could see that. Plus I need to see Lucy undercover so hopefully!!

Most definitely Jon was referring to this with the math equation, that gives me a migraine (😭).

Tim sees how happy Lucy is in her relationship, and so he keeps his feelings a secret because he doesn’t want to ruin that for Lucy.

🤞🏾we’ll see what happens!🤞🏾

[celestialarcade]

reviewing this list now that it’s january 1st 2021 !

under a readmore bc its long and no one rly cares lmao

in order:

-LMAO nope shoutout to coronavirus for cancelling all my 2020 travel plans (like i’m obviously very thankful no one i’m close to has gotten coronavirus though and i’d much rather spend a year or two not travelling than someone get the virus)

-ahh kinda? my summer co-op wasn’t that great, my fall co-op was good ! both of them were at a company within driving distance of my mom’s house so i was living at home for. 8.5 months 🙃 which has made me slightly crazy lmao but i saved sm money not having to pay rent somewhere so it was worth it i think

-uhh well i only really had 2 months of in person class in 2020 between coronavirus and my co-ops so idk i didn’t really make friends in terms of classes but i’ve been actively trying to meet people online and i’ve joined discord servers and stuff and also finally worked up the courage to start using dating apps lmao so i’ve met some people through there and also i met eva through tumblr ! which is a bit wild bc i think we started talking like a week before the pandemic really kinda exploded in march but i’m so happy she and i are friends now !! like she’s definitely the closest friend i made in 2020

-no he didn’t get into his dream school but he did get into a bunch of good schools and i think he really likes where he’s going to college now and him and i talk about sustainable engineering a lot since thats what both of us want to do our master’s degrees in so i’m happy for him 😊

-yes and no? she had hip replacement surgery and it was really successful so she’s able to get around mostly without a walker now but i think mentally she still feels like she can’t do a lot which like makes her sad but all the family zoom meetings we’ve had this year have cheered her up a lot also she’s 82 and like idk is so fucking strong

-yes !! i was kinda late on this one lmao but i’ve been journaling consistently since early november !!

- yes ! i’ve been kind of on and off with working out this whole year but my mom getting a treadmill at the beginning of december like for whatever reason made it so much easier for me to consistently work out so now i run 2 miles on it 5-6 times a week

- yeah ! i started seeing a new therapist in june and i really like her, i’ve been up and down with therapy since like 2018 but hopefully this will be good

- nah, i was on a few different medications at the beginning of the year but none of them really worked out for me but i’m still hopeful i’ll find something that works!

- no but only because i misunderstood when i’m supposed to apply for it lmao, turns out i’m only allowed to apply for it this spring semester which i will definitely be doing and i rly hope i get in 🤞🏾

- yes and no? again it’s been on and off throughout the year but i think overall i played a lot more in 2020 than in 2019

- i’m working on it ! turns out i had a lot more makeup than i thought and also especially with staying at home sm this year because of covid i also wore a lot less makeup than i normally do, but everything i’ve haad to replace i’m obviously replacing with vegan and cruelty free products of which i have a lot more in my collection now!

- YES !!! i got my driver’s license on valentine’s day lmao i was so excited and like i’m not the best driver ever but i’m okay to drive on local roads for the most part (learning to drive on the highway is the next goal lmao)

- yeah lmao i think i got over this one very quickly once i turned 20 although lowkey highkey i’m still afraid of the passage of time 😬

- idk really what i meant by this but i think overall i had a relatively good year considering the circumstances and i’m hopeful for what 2021 brings ! 🥰

okey doke so i skipped doing this for 2019 but i wanna keep it going for 2020 so

2020 goals/hopes (i'm just gonna combine both into one list this year):

-going to croatia and/or india

-getting a good co-op that i like

-actively trying to make friends in my classes/at college in general

-my younger cousin getting to go to his dream school

-my grandma continuing to improve and be happy

-trying to journal more (lol this has been my goal for like 10 years but)

-trying to work out at least semi regularly like 2x a week-ish

-finding a therapist that works for me and getting back into therapy

-maybe finally getting things under control medication wise??

-applying for (and hopefully getting into!!) the dual degree program

-picking up guitar again

-getting rid of all the last few bits of nonvegan makeup/skincare/etc. that i have

-finally getting my fucking drivers license

-accepting the fact that i will no longer be a teenager anymore

-idk just like. generally being better and doing better than i did this year

shit idk a whole new decade man. i hope its good

[surrik-i]

Bro he’s so hot 😭😭😭😭

Tell Me How You Really Feel | Dick Grayson x Fem!Reader

↳ Pairing : Dick Grayson x Fem!Reader

↳ Rating :  T

↳ Summary : You're a new Titan and the stern and serious team leader Dick Grayson treats you like you don’t exist. Convinced that he hates you, you confront him about what his issue with you truly is.

↳ W.C : ~2.1K

↳ Tags: fluff, misunderstandings, aggressively shy boy dick, mild language, this is Titans DC!verse y'all, dickkory hasn't happened yet, there’s some mild Jason Todd x Reader in here if you squint.

Titans Tower had never been more festive. Gold foil streamers hung along the rafters, Gar’s disco lights spun across the dimly lit common room, and Jason’s playlist boomed on their surround sound speakers. Everyone had now abandoned the living room and gathered in the kitchen, party hats and all, but you lingered behind scrolling through your phone.

As much as being a Titan was hard work, they always made sure to take time to celebrate holidays and birthdays. And after officially becoming a Titan, you were thankful to have friends who actually cared about you, a team who had your back. 

You smiled at the camera roll full of pictures you had snapped with the team: one with a big bear hug from Dawn, another of you happily sandwiched in between Conner and Gar, a selfie with Jason, and one of Rachel, Kory, and you making silly faces. When you flipped to a shot of you and the man of the hour, Dick Grayson, you paused with a frown. 

Hank had ushered you and Dick together for a picture, but you knew he was just trying to get you two to get along. It was no secret that everyone could notice the weird tension the team leader had with their new recruit, but Hank was probably the only one bold enough to voice it out loud.

“How about one with birthday boy, new kid?” Hank snatched your phone from your hands and dragged Dick over by the arm. He hadn’t so much as looked your direction the whole day; in fact, it was like you didn’t even exist to him. You got used to it over time, but it was even worse when others pointed it out. 

“Get closer together,” The brawny man insisted from behind the camera but neither of you moved. Hank lowered the phone and gave you a desperately pointed look. You took a small step closer to Dick and you could feel him tense up. 

“Dick who fucking peed in your cereal today? It’s your birthday act like it.” You glanced up at the man everyone referred to as leader next to you briefly. He looked like he would rather be anywhere but next to you. 

“Smile,” Hank said, which was rather ironic since it seemed he was the only one smiling.

You felt mortified seeing the picture now juxtaposed with the scene in the kitchen in front of you. In the picture, Dick looked uncomfortable—angry even—that he had to even stand next to you let alone take a picture with you. But in the kitchen, however, he stood in front of a birthday cake ready to blow out the candles, smiling at everybody but you. 

Jason, who had come to the living room to pause his playlist, raised an eyebrow at you. “You coming for the cake or you just gonna stare into space all day?” 

You nodded, breaking yourself out of your thoughts. He gave you a weird look, begging an answer but a short “Sorry,” was all you could give him before following the teen into the kitchen. 

Kory latched onto your arm, giving it a squeeze when you joined their circle around the table. “Dick was just singing our praises, you almost missed it.”

“Yea, he was getting all sappy on us,” Gar piped up to tease. “‘Gar, you’re like a brother to me,’” he quoted dramatically before pretending to gag. 

You cracked a smile at the green-haired boy. He always knew how to make everyone laugh. When your eyes flashed over to your team leader, you saw that he was smiling too. You envied that smile that he gave so easily to others. When your eyes met briefly, he looked away almost immediately and that smile turned into something like a grimace.

You frowned and looked away too. One look at you had stolen every bit of joy away from him in that split second. More than being sad, you were embarrassed. It was like he didn’t even think you deserved to be looked at, like you didn’t deserve your place as a Titan.

Jason looked from you to Dick and scratched his head in frustrated confusion. Rachel broke the silence by clearing her throat. “Anyway, how about some cake—”

“No wait, Rach I’m really curious.” Jason finally spoke up. “He still needs to tell us what he thinks about us. All of us.”

Jason stared at the elder Wayne brother with an intensity that rivaled their previous spats. If there was one thing Jason hated, it was authority and unfairness. And to Jason, Dick’s ignoring you was an extremely biased assertion of his role as leader.

“Here we go,” Rachel said rolling her eyes. “Can’t we ever have one birthday party without arguing?”

“No actually, the kid’s right!” Hank raised his voice, gesticulating towards you as if you weren’t even in the room. “Hey, what the hell’s your problem with her?”

Dawn put her head in her hands with a groan. “I can’t believe we’re doing this right now.”

Dick’s eyes were now boring into yours, jaw set with a clench. You stared back, eyes threatening to spill tears at all the unwanted attention now turning towards you in the room. He redirected his attention back to Jason.

“If you must know, Jason. I think you’re a huge pain in the ass.” Dick smirked, bringing back some levity into the room. You could feel the tension in the room relax and everyone seemed relieved for it.

“Ok, we knew that,” Jason continued exasperatedly, “And?” He motioned for the elder to continue, nodding his head toward you rather unsubtly.

“A-And—” He faltered in his speech, flickering his gaze at you. “She’s—” He blinked in surprise when your gazes met and quickly looked down, unwilling to continue.

That was enough for you. You didn’t want to stick around anymore. Not when you could feel tears already escaping down your cheek. You tore away from the table, wiping the wetness from your face furiously. 

“Y/N!” Jason called after you only to be held back by Gar. 

You slammed the door and locked it behind you, throwing yourself on the bed. Now you knew what your team leader really thought of you, and it was absolutely nothing, nothing at all. You didn’t mean anything to him. You weren’t a friend and even much less a teammate. What was the point of being part of a team, if the team leader hated your existence? What was the point of all that training if he never even let you do anything? You were excluded from most missions and left to stay behind because it was “too dangerous”. At this point, you were about as important to him as a plastic bag.

A knock came at the door. You curled into your pillow even more. It was probably Dick being forced to apologize to you. 

He knocked again and you felt the anger in your chest rising. You suddenly had the urge to tell him off. Fuck the fact that he was technically your superior. You had so much patience due to your poor upbringing that you had let his mistreatment slide. You thought that was just how things were as part of a team and you just had to deal with it. But now that even the team was calling him out on it, you couldn’t ignore it any further. 

You opened the door to find Dick standing outside, arm still outstretched in mid-knock. He blinked back his surprise and settled back into the neutral “leader-like” expression you hated so much. 

“We need to talk. Can I come in?” He waited for you to respond. Upon seeing your angry glare, he took a short inhale. “Please Y/N.”

Your heart stuttered against your will. It had been the first time he’d addressed you by name and there was something else stirring in his eyes. His face wore a vulnerability you’d never seen on him before. You stepped aside warily, letting him in.

When the door closed behind you, you spun around wildly to face him. 

“What the fuck is your problem with me, Grayson? Why do you hate me so much? What did I ever do to you—” You hated the fact that you were tearing up again.

“I don’t hate you.” He cut in lamely. When your eyes met, he held your gaze briefly breaking to looking off to the side again. 

“See? What the fuck? You can barely even look at me. Hank had to force you to even stand next to me. How the hell am I supposed to be a part of this team if the leader can’t even pretend to like me? Just admit you can’t fucking stand me.” You continued airing your grievances out at him, growing more agitated at the man’s silence. “Fucking say something!”

“I don’t hate you,” He said again, jaw set sternly. He took a step forward, and you took a step back. “I don’t want to look at you.” Another step. Another step back.

“W-what?” Your back was at the door, and he was now standing—towering— over you.

“I don’t want to stand next to you.”

“I…don’t understand.” You furrowed your brow in confusion, searching his eyes for the meaning behind his words. His professional poise had disappeared and was replaced with something else—something darker. Nothing made sense anymore; He said he didn't want to stand next to you, but you were now practically breathing the same air. 

“And you’re right. I can’t fucking stand you.”

You flinched at his words. Admittedly, you had been cursing at him the whole time since he’d entered your room, but he rarely cursed, and hearing him repeat your words back at you gave you pause. 

You tried to move but he kept you caged in on either side of his arms. You had enough; you heard enough, and now you just wanted him gone. Once he was out of your room, you could resign yourself to ignoring each other for the rest of your time on the team. Fuck him.

“Thanks. I got it the first time so just let me go.” You were hurt, and whenever you tried to mask your feelings, sarcasm came out as a defense mechanism. When he didn’t budge to let you move, you pushed against his chest. “Let me go, Grayson,” you applied more pressure to his chest as a warning. You wouldn’t hesitate to use your powers to make him move.

Dick leaned back, allowing for more space between you. You caught your breath, relishing the newfound breathing space. Instead of letting you go fully, he circled your right wrist keeping it at his chest. You felt his heartbeat erratically pulsing under your palm. 

“I can’t be near you. I…I can’t even hear myself think.” He spoke a little quieter now,  splaying his fingers flat against your hand deepening the pressure on his chest. His heart was beating faster now. “That’s all I can fucking hear.” Seeing that you got the point he was referring to his heartbeat, he released your hand. You watched his throat bob as he swallowed thickly. His face looked flushed.  

 “I can barely look at you because then…you’d probably notice.” He mumbled the last part but you heard him quite clearly. He looked more boyish than ever as he stood before you.

“I’d probably notice…?” You trailed off, hoping he would continue. You were curious mostly not as to what he would say, but how he would say it.

“Don’t make me say it, Y/N” Dick grimaced again. You had come to know this look as disdain, but with the man’s revelation, you were beginning to see that expression in a new light. He looked more embarrassed than anything, and now the tips of his ears began to burn a bright red. Holy Shit. This is what Dick Grayson was like when he had a crush. 

“I can’t pretend to like you because…I already like you. Like a lot. I can’t stop thinking about you-mmph“

You pulled him down by the collar and into a kiss. His initial surprise from your sudden interruption melted into passion as he deepened it, hungrily grasping at your waist to pull you closer to him.

You stopped kissing him for a moment to stare seriously up at him. “What about for missions? You never let me come.” You were beginning to put 2 and 2 together for all the other stuff like the times he would make that weird face at you, or avoid you completely. But you still couldn’t see why, as an active member he wouldn’t let you participate in missions.

“You,” He said simply. He was looking at you fondly now, eyelids languid and lazy as his thumbs rubbed circles into your waist. 

“What about me?” 

“You’re distracting.” His gaze flitted to your lips, “To me specifically.” He added, looking at you with such an innocent honesty that you could only partly contain your laugh.

“You’re such a fucking idiot,” You groaned feigning annoyance. “You’re lucky you’re cute.” 

“Tell me how you really feel.” He grinned dumbly into your lips as you pulled him down into another kiss. 

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