#I’d make it like 200 dollars or probably more

[crystallizedday]

If ink is the dad of the litter then… who is the mom/his mate?

me /j /srs

fr though i never thought about it. maybe he produced asexually? like using the ink from his body to create them for example

my bf says he sheds. like he sheds ink and occasionally it just turns into a bendy kitten 😭

either way the ink demon is both their mom and dad 👍 he is simply both

give me $10 and ill draw the ink demon pregnant $20 and ill draw him giving birth

[wingfril]

My newest shipment just arrived so let’s talk about some (recent) lottery-only items! The picture above is from the most recent d.grayman playing card drawing, which you could’ve entered by subbing to zebrack comics.

They’re really pretty! I don’t know if it was worth $350 dollars though. There’s only 2 types of illustrations plus the card back and spades,

Funny thing about the prices — I’m pretty sure I’m the reason why the floor for this is 350 on mercari. When the drawing results come out, several people started selling the cards on mercari. I knew I wanted something that’s super exclusive like this, so I started paying attention. There were three sellers in particular competition against each other. over a span of around 2-3 days, the price dropped from ~100k yen down to 59k yen. Keep in mind that these drops were mostly happening while I was asleep being on the east coast. My ideal price would’ve been around 200 usd or ~30k yen, but I’m willing to pay more. Right before going to bed, I saw that the price has fallen to below 60k, and said screw it. Next morning, I woke up, and the main price competitor’s cards were also sold, and a few days later the third person, with a slightly higher price, also ended up selling. Since the price decreases happen primarily while I was asleep, and I knew that as soon as one sells, the other is going to get bought up too, might as well pay a little extra. I’m also 99% sure that at least 2/3 of the other sets on mercari was bought by chinese people, since I see their posts on chinese social media.

To be honest though, if I knew that there’s only two new drawings on these cards, I probably would’ve waited a bit longer before buying them. Oh well.

The other lottery item I had is from the vol 28 drawing.

They’re B5 sized manuscript replicas. They’re stunning — you can see so many details on these. Every stroke on neah/mana’s hair is clear as day. I’d like to frame them but *screams in nyc and paper walls*.

The other drawing item is a acrylic board of the vol 28 cover.

I’m still debating on buying that off of mercari. I think I will once the yen drops a little more, but we’ll see. I wouldn’t lose sleep over not getting it.

As a side note unrelated to dgm: the reason why I’m buying so much recently is 1. I realized that a few thousand literally makes no difference to me and my house owning goals (I LOVE NYC) and 2. The yen is incredibly cheap right now. Even though some Japanese collectors are price gauging, some of the items are not too much more expense than their originals price (there’s a few absurd outliers, which I’ll covered in two months… because I paid for some of the outliers and now they have to be shipped from China).

The Japanese fed has spent billions on trying to stabilize the currency, but to no avail. it’s really bad for any Japanese companies doing import, but it’s really really good for usd based consumers. As long as the US federal reserve and their interest rate remains high (and a bunch of other factors), yen is going to continue getting crushed against the dollar. There’s some items I’m eyeing on that I’ll probably only buy if the yen drops to at least 1:160 against the dollar. If you zoom into the last month of usd:yen, you can literally see when the Japanese fed intervened.

[rebootgrimm]

let’s see how many incorrect quotes I can get here before church starts

putting them under cut. @ask-a-snobby-fencer @ask-finn-hollis @ask-jasper-cameron @ask-sora-aguilar @baileythebean

Finn: I am your king, long may I reign! Sora: Well I didn’t vote for you! Finn: You don’t vote for kings. Sora: Well how’d you become king then? Finn: Zaria of the Lake, their arm clad in the purest shimmering samite, held aloft Excalibur from the bosom of the water, signifying by divine providence that I, Finn, was to carry Excalibur. That is why I am your king. Sora: Listen. Strange people lying in ponds distributing swords is no basis for a system of government. Supreme executive power derives from a mandate from the masses, not from some farcical aquatic ceremony.

Finn: You use emoji’s like a straight person. Zaria: That’s literally the worst thing anyone has ever said about me.

Sora: very seriously You need to stop doing weird things to cope with the stress. Going outside might help. Bailey: I went to the park today. Sora: There you go! I hope you got something from that. Bailey: opening their coat This duck.

Bailey: I don't want to tell you to clean your room again! Finn: …but you will, right? Bailey: Oh, for sure.

The squad's reaction to being told they're the chosen one Zaria: I will not let you down. Bailey: Sounds fun. Sora: K. Jasper: No, I'm fucking not. Finn: Do I have to be? Flynn: Please god, I am so tired.

Zaria, ordering coffee: I’d like a light roast. Bailey: You're kinda ugly.

Jasper: coughs blood Bailey: Don't die, Jasper! Jasper: Don't tell me what to do!

(mod: army dreamers starts playing in the distance)

Sora: Please, Jasper, after everything we’ve been through together. You can’t do this. Sora: I’m sorry Jasper. Sora: I’m begging you. Don’t do it. Jasper: It has to be done. Sora: Jasper: Sora: Jasper: Places +4 Uno.

Finn: I'd make fun of your height but there isn't enough to make fun of.

Zaria: Can you PLEASE peer pressure me into doing my project? Jasper: Do it or you're straight. Zaria: I said peer pressure, NOT THREATEN!

(fun fact: Zaria is a lesbian)

Sora: Would you like something to drink? They open the fridge We have water, milk, juice, spiders, Dr. Pepper- Zaria: Spiders? Sora: Spiders it is then. Zaria: No, that wasn’t- But they were already pouring them a brimming glass of spiders…

Zaria: This should be illegal! Bailey: It is.

Zaria: What do you think Finn will do for a distraction? Jasper: They'll probably, like, make a noise or throw a rock. That's what I would do. Building explodes and several car alarms go off Jasper: …or they could do that.

Finn: Just took a personality test and got an A+.

Flynn: Alright Jasper, what do you want? Jasper: I want Zaria to disown you and adopt me!

Zaria: What's the most illegal thing you can do with one dollar? Sora: Exchange it for a hundred pennies, put them all in a sock, and then beat someone to death with it.

Zaria: I’ve become a bread crumb dealer to four crows at the lake. They pay me with a bit of everything. Like shiny things, fabric, or pens. But recently they paid me with a 20 dollar bill they found somewhere. So I decided to buy them some more expensive bread. They loved it. So they understand what to do. Give me money. I’ve probably racked up about 200 dollars at this point. Is it morally wrong though, I mean. They’re the ones who steal the money from others. Or perhaps they just have a big pile laying somewhere. Should I keep on doing this? Jasper: You sound like the start of a Batman villain.

(this is canon now)

Jasper: shoves their hand in the slot of a toaster Sora: … Jasper: …I get confused sometimes. Sora: Me too.

Sora: What do you call quantums of electromagnetic radiation that don’t get along? Flynn: What did you just say- Sora: Foetons! Laughs Flynn: Wh-what?

Sora: Posts a super low-quality image to the group chat Bailey: If I had a dollar for every pixel in this image, I’d have 15 cents. Sora: If I had a dollar for every ounce of rage I felt in my body after I read this text, I would have enough money to buy a cannon to fire at you. Finn: Actually I did the math, Bailey would have $225, not $0.15. Bailey: Fam I’m right here…. Flynn: If I had a dollar I would buy a can of soda :) Sora: while you’re there could you buy me an apply juice please? Flynn: Sorry I only have a dollar. Sora: :( Finn: Hey I just realized my friend is right, Bailey would have $22,500 because it's a dollar for every pixel, not a cent. Flynn: If I had $22,500 I would buy a can of soda and an apply juice. Finn: You can buy anything you want with $22,500. Zaria: Yeah and they want soda and apply juice. Finn: Apply juice to what. Zaria: Directly to the forehead. Bailey: Great chat everyone.

I’m just gonna stop here there’s only a few seconds left and this is getting long. anyways I’m obsessed with these

[goddamnwebcomics]

This blog makes me a bit sad. Webcomics are made and provided for free. Even if they’re bad, it feels a bit like punching down on passion projects. There is lots of bad media to “punch up” at, that makes millions of dollars—Marvel movies and so on. I’d genuinely like to know why you prefer to punch down on people making things they love for no pay.

Thank you for coming to the blog and voicing your concerns, but I do want to clarify a few things.

First of all, everyone and their grandmother bashes the big stuff. I stay out of touch with modern pop culture on purpose. Why should I make a blog bashing Marvel movies, everyone does that already? And besides, what’s even the point, those people are not gonna hear my crticism, and if they did, they’d just say I hate women or whatever, no matter what my actual criticism is.

Second of all, look at the description. “In this blog, we riff webcomics that haven’t been riffed million times, bad, decent, obscure or weird. “ “Bad” is just one category. Riffing purely bad media is torture, I look at every webcomic fairly. I am a fair critic and if you read this blog for more than one second, you would know that I give comics that I riff, a lot of praise. On top of that, I respect webcomics as a medium and you are right a lot of them are passion projects, but also, just because it’s a passion project you can read for free, doesn’t mean it’s free from criticism. The reason webcomics have such bad rep is because many of the most infamous webcomic creators just don’t take criticism. It’s a medium that smells bad for a reason, and few webcomics authors have contacted me and ASKED for their webcomic to be riffed.

Third of all, usually I’d brush off “punching down” as Twitter word salad, but you do realize that one of the comics I am riffing is locked behind a paywall, and whose patreon makes 1000 dollars a month? And the creator has another patreon that makes around 4000 dollars a month? That’s a bigger salary than 70% of Americans make in a month, yes I say Americans, because I know you are from there with the way you speak.  And also both of those comics happen to be some of the worst I’ve riffed? Is that “punching down”?

I can also confirm that I only have around 200 followers, I presume you have at least the double of that, so probably you’re punching ME down.

But I am sorry to hear that this blog made you sad. I hope you get better soon. Personally, I suffer from depression and to make myself feel better, I don’t look at things that make me sad, I recommend you do the same.

[cadaverdolls]

Heyyyyyy…. I got a math test in like 2 days and I’m like 3 chapters behind… so ya. I’ll be gone for longer periods of time with less output till I can get my stuff together. (Already do that but eeeee.)

Todays plushie is of a pc from @rttnpnkpmpkn

I was trying to make the doll more simple. The dolls i usually make are for pretty purposes only so they wouldn’t be used for making the doll (inspo? Yes, but the company would need to redraw into a simple and clearer form to actually be usable.)

The hair has more defined lines for it to be able to have the embroidery lines put there. I was doing more research on dolls recently so I’ll talk about stuff more below.

Doll break down below

Braids, animal traits (just any limbs that aren’t the usual base, even elf ears), braids, multi color hair, complex embroidery, and other stuff will cost extra with companies. I never really brought up what is and isn’t part of the initial cost. Usually the price you pay is for 1. The design they make with you and 2. The doll itself. The doll will not be clothed as that is extra (an entire outfit for them is usually around 20 dollars) and will not have a skeleton (makes them posable) unless extra is payed. What I design for is the usual 20cm dolls but there are more the exist. The second most common is 10cm, they are used for keychains or as a child for the 20cm dolls (from what I’ve seen people do). Dolls with things like animal ears, elf ears, tails, wings, etc usually have 20-30 dollars added on to the original pricing. Big body mods such as spider bottom half, octopus bottom half, longer limbs, etc, generally large changed to the body are both hard to find pricing for and hard to find customs of. There are premade dolls that are like this but having one made personally is something I have seen as of yet so I have no reference for it. Also a know most doll makers sell the clothes and also have custom clothes on their stores as well. 10cm is usually 70-80 dollars while 20cm is 100-200. Buying around the holidays gives opportunities for discounts on websites like Etsy.

Why did I bring up the extra limb thing and body mod? Well a lot of DOL characters have large chest and I was thinking for a while on how that would work on these dolls. For past dolls I’ve been doing different things, not doing the chest, just putting embroidery for chest lines, or drawing them on. So I decided I wanted to actually see if this was possible. Probably is!

Drawing wise I’d say I put to much detail on the bell. It’s kind of funny so I didn’t change it but I’ll do a more simple one next time I do a doll in the ‘drawn for manufacturing’ style. Also I don’t know whether or not I made the eyes too wide? I picked a reference photo where the character was very small and far away (not a good move on my part).

[hayleysayshay]

I didn’t want to say anything about the ‘strike for Palestine’ because it was originally organised by Palestinians and it means well. It’s meant to be small actions *anyone* can take in support of Palestine and raise awareness.

But in practice such vague and broad ‘actions’ are going to suck and not be noticeable by anyone with power. Vague actions like ‘don’t go to work but if you can’t take an hour off work and school in the week.” The actions proposed like boycotts and social media posts were already being done by the people who’d engage in the strike. The goals of this? The tangiable results you’d see? Incredibly, incredibly vague from the start, and at the end of the strike we see that.

In reality, the results, or lack thereof, prove to its adherents that ‘people just don’t care enough’ and ‘they’re all Zionist shills’ because even if that twitter account you follow with 200 followers did join in the results are going to be the same. It encourages the insular ‘us vs them’ thinking on social media, encouraging you to think of someone who didn’t participate in the strike as the enemy, ‘a Zionist shill’, ‘lazy’ and patting themselves on the back for retweeting a post and donating ten dollars. And I have seen so many misinformation posts on twitter— people saying ‘there are no hospitals in Gaza!’ (There are, you can still support them) and 40k retweeting a picture of a small girl in a dirty Princess dress and saying ‘this is a hat the Israelis are doing!’ Before it is revealed it is actually a Pakistani girl from years ago.

I’m not saying social media blitzes or encouraging donating to charity are bad things (though you should probably refrain from stanning the antisemetcic, pro slavery houthis because they’re anti Israel, you moron) and I donated repeatedly during the strike (and after. Because it’s an ongoing situation). But people need to have more awareness that these vague ‘strikes’ are not going to have the impact or tangiable results you think it will. The bubble you are in on the internet is not the only corner.

The goals of such a strike are not tangiable, they only exist to make the participant feel like they’re doing something. And it’s fine to want to do something, we all want to do something, but I’d be critical of the way the strike is discussed in your circle.

The Gaza crisis is a geopolitical one. There is a lot of awareness about what is happening in Gaza right now, your tweet and tumblr post to your three hundred followers who agree with you is not going to change anything. The issue is that aid cannot get into Gaza and it is not safe for aid workers. This will only change if pressure is put on Israel to allow more aid in. That means contacting politicians and representatives to put pressure on Israel. I’m not saying don’t donate! Please do!

[reincarnatedonthefirst]

When Panty Freak emailed me earlier to say that he wanted an outcall appointment, I felt like something was off. The first time I met him, I knew he might end up being a problem because he asked me to do OnlyFans videos with him (for the free sex).

Today, he proved himself.

When he told me he would be at a hotel, I thought the he was gearing up to secretly record on us video. So, I prepared myself to watch how he behaved, checked to see if to he would look in the direction of a hidden device or have generally nervous body language.

I got to his hotel (which was actually a gorgeous, fairly upscale hotel) and got changed. As I was going to the bathroom, he exhibited some of that nervous body language: he stood for a moment and watched me walk into the bathroom. I ignored it, closed the door, and continued to get into my lingerie… 🙄

When I got out of the bathroom, he was lying in bed with his clothes on. And now that I look back on it, I realize he was trying to look very casual…

Because, on the dresser was my money and the pile of bills was pretty small. There were fifty dollar bills on the outside of the stack and as I went to the bathroom to count the rest, I prayed there were hundred dollar bills on the inside…

This man tried to short me $200… 😑

I have been prepared for something like this to happen for a long time. In fact, it actually happened with my first client ever. But all the research I had done in sex worker forums prepared me for what to expect in situations like this. The guys will play dumb, they’ll try to promise the money afterward, yadda, yadda, yadda. I learned to not ever fall for the promises and to never render services with out full payment!

He pretended to be embarrassed, tried to make excuses, but through all of his babbling, he contradicted himself and basically proved that he was always aware of what my full rate was.

I ended up telling him to just Venmo me $100 and, going forward, he would get $100 off of my rate when he is hosting and pay my full rate when I am hosting (for my high end persona, I would probably pay $150 for the hotel anyway). This will still work out but he did was shady.

Also, during the session, he asked to go bare. 😑 In doggy style, I had to be conscious of what his hands were doing.

He will eventually become a bigger problem than he is now. But for now, I need this dirt bag’s money. He’s the only client I have under my higher end profile.

After I left his hotel, it occurred to me that I should raise my rates again so I can find better quality clients but I don’t think it matters. I read about a girl who charged about $3K for an overnight and the client secretly stole the money back from her before he left the next morning. Reprehensible. I don’t think I’m going to be in this business for many more years. I have a few left I think.

From now on, I need to keep my guard up even more. I need to be ready mentally and physically. I need to know what to say to these clients and I need it be ready to protect myself or grab my sht and run if one of these guys gets out of line. I need to not let my guard down with regular clients as well.

Ridiculous.

I’d rather deal with just one client who pays regularly. What I should do is market myself for long-term arrangements. I’m really talking about sugaring but I don’t think that escorting is a good way to find an arrangement.

Panty Freak just emailed me a photo of him sniffing my panties. 🙄 He needs to be apologizing for trying to rip me off. sigh

These guys are garbage.

[the-firebird69]

2008 G6 GXP Quick Tour/Overview

- This is actually Dave and he does a good job and it's tough job it's a hard job to do then the max say it's for us too didn't workout for them last time yet they wanna go ahead with it and we're all for it it's a coupe it's nice he doesn't need a 4 door it cost too much in gas and this thing can move out the top speed is pretty fast with AV6 too it still goes A180 miles an hour it's too fast and we'd have a limiter. They did sell them with limiters on them. We know which one it is it is not this one and there is a black one. George Washington starts out with a black horse. One might be the Pontiac and that one is our sons as well and they trade off the color but not the Horse. There's other things going on but this is very important and he looked up the price and he found prices from 3500 to around$12,000. It really matters on the condition and the mileage this one he says he had 25,000 miles it's in great shape but he modified it so it's probably about $10,000 that's what happens he touched the brake calipers and structural things except he could probably get 15 to 20 thousand dollars. But that's in certain neighborhoods in areas this thing really moves out he's got new tires and rims and he's done something to the motor and it's not major and a little to the exhaust and it goes over 200. And he said I don't think I've been that fast with it but he has. These things really move I mean this car is fast for a regular coupe the Salica was going 140 and that was very fast but this in the supra can go 190 this is faster than that and it's AV 6 it does have AV8 version no but but it's fast enough. We are looking for approval for the car and we hear Jack Black and they're trying to make it they wanted to design it and they put some time into it not much and BG has started carving no he says it's an artist thing and he wants to wait and see if the art is gonna compel him to do it. And there are certain things that he does note and he says I've seen Jack Sparrow think three times and since we talked about the car and he says 0 and one of them You're a drink you're drinking some girls beer in your beer can and it's the same kind of beer. Well those are signs. It's the females beer and I'm gonna get to it he says and the other one was obscure it was like Kylo Ren who looked like Jack Sparrow but put the Kylo Ren mask on and he says ohh that's weird and he gets that kind of stuff. It might be his guys telling him. One of them looked like Tommy F. Says that's true the other one was a trumpster so he's saying ohh OK and there's more signs that have been happening but they wanna try and get the design but they need that as a backup but if this went forward it would cover up getting the design and it would cover up them trying for it. And he's interested so he's going to go ahead and try and make the wooden one and keep it kind of private and it's going forwards. We have more to announce in a moment.

Thor Freya

Olympus

I can't live with a sewer who says he'll drain anyways but it's still a pain cause it's gonna ruin the septic I probably should try and dig it out

stan

Olympus

I might go dig it out from the town this is such a pain ohh really where's the knucklehead bread brad and it wasn't Brad it was Dave with the helmet on

mac daddy

I might just do that it's such a pain in the **** it doesn't require much work it just dig it out and then you put sod down but we put the same sod I can scrape it out one scrape one scoop and it put the sod back and it's done

dave

That would be nice why don't you put your helmet on.

turmp

I might do that

dan

I have no spare money to buy a car and I have no reason to and I have no gas money if I had a job i'd have it for a day 'cause you guys are just raring to go so here I sit.

Zues Hera

We need the code now and he needs a way to do it and he doesn't have it and you're gonna drive him around and spend gas and we have to do that nobody wants to fund our mission'cause we wanna go W and beat each other to death first perioddan

So you know the planbja

I was hoping that this might work we need to do this too though at the same time we're screwing each other.

dave

We're gonna try and do thatbja

And why don't you try for Christ's sakemac daddy

Yeah we see ittrump

[castle-dominion]

c5x12 death gone crazy

Fun music Isn't this the guy from the cryo episode? head case? IT IS HE'S THE PORN GUY (heck yeah protestors) "your whole life ends up as nothing" *all sad* *man is a porn peddler, the music is too tragic* Why would the drinks be free? if online porn has taught you anything, it's that you can't make money by giving stuff away The MC has a camcorder I love how Beau Randolph is so sad, this is a GREAT episode so far BR: I’m not here to party. Not tonight. That is WAY too sad & solemn for a porn producer. he knows he's going to die

MR: If you are method writing and playing the role of your murder victim could you please die a little bit more quietly? Thank you. DON'T GOOGLE YOURSELF lol alexis has a vlog WAIT WHAT THE FRICKING HECK GIRL DON'T GIVE OUT YOUR GOSHDARN LOCATION ONLINE HOLY CRAP THAT IS SCARY. who you go with is ok BUT LISTEN-- YOU CAN NOT GIVE OUT BOTH YOUR LOCATION & YOUR FACE, YOU ARE BEING SOMGENUINELY DANGEROUS RN MR: Darling, why don’t you just answer your phone? Oh, and it’s Beckett. Maybe she has a nice murder to distract you from your parental paranoia.Castle at the "Beau randolph is our victim?"

Nice an 8 minute window Beckett is fine whatever but Lanie? Lanie has a Rack right there. As a busty tranny from a long line of busty women, screw you esposito. A bra supports you too, that is the point. But you are correct, a bra should not be that pricey. It is pennies to make, plus pay the employees a living wage, & you can probably sell that thing for less than $10 & still turn over c80 of profit.

LP: I already collected samples, but check this out. This is a 36D Sultura. KB: That’s high end. LP: Definitely. One of these could run you $200, $250. JE: $250 dollars? For a bra? LP: Oh, but it’s okay to spend that on a pair of sneakers, right? JE: A pair of sneakers is practical, okay? They support your, um – RC: (shakes his head) Eject. JE: … (closes his mouth)

Ryan looks great: Hey, so it looks like there was a guest list at the club tonight. But if you were a guy with $20 bucks in your pocket when you showed up at the door or a pretty girl, you got in.

Lol great job from the bodyguard

Ooh a smoking hot chick as the bodyguard! She's going to end up being some evil mastermind who can kickbox & beat up both boys until beckett the other hot girl kickboxes & beats her up Good old threat assessment

Troy: good clean American fun YOU were with him since the beginning? Interesting... he's the one in charge you are not... wow porn is the family...

INT – TWELFTH PRECINCT WORK ROOM KR: watching the footage that was shot the night before. JE: Yo. How’s the in-breast-igation going. laughs at his own joke. KR: And that’s why you’re still single.

How /well/ does ryan know what goes on in those club bathrooms?

11 minutes later is it the girl??? bodyguard? Like I said Lip piercing Oh there we go nvm it IS her

KR: Good news is that Scarlett Jones is not the world’s worst bodyguard. Bad news is, she’s a murderer. JE: Someone that sexy going to prison? That in itself is a crime.

Oh ew no no ew no. If you consent to being recorded then good for you but EW NO DON'T RECORD PPL W/O THEIR CONSENT Just gives the cops her name?? Pointing the finger at tiffany? sus You said it MUST be tiffany & now you're saying it can be someone else? Get ur story straight JE: Oh, did you hear that? She broke his nose. Me, also hot for her: Right? KR: Yeah, so? JE & me: So? That’s hot. KR: KR, with an incredulous look: Who are you?

JE: so it looks like her alibi’s checking out. KB: You know, you seem unusually happy about this. JE: No, I’m just … you know. You know, working the case. & then he goes to "check" on her sketch Ryan, passing him: Hmm.

Yes. You need a warrant for my protest! I mean this guy is stupid & annoying & in everyone else's business but I like him in two respects at least

JE: watching this sketch artist finish his drawing So this is the guy that came after Beau? SJ: Yeah. If I knew he was coming back I’d have broken more than just his nose. The reminder that she’s tough makes esposito & me stop, having trouble keeping it in our pants. JE: Hey look, um … about last night at the club. I’m sorry. I was – I was way out of line. SJ: Yeah. So was I. I should have come clean with you guys. About everything. (she smiles and grabs her things) See ya. JE: See ya later. Hey, Scarlett! (she stops) Uh … do you think maybe we could get a drink later? I mean, now that you’re not a suspect anymore. She smiles.

AC: So, this is what you do all day. RC: turns around & chuckles Right? he realizes and pauses the video Whoa. No, it’s work. That’s – that’s a case. It is better to have [your tits] online than [your face & location]. No no, no...

RC: Beau Randolph double-crossed a member of the mafia. (he chuckles) No wonder he got whacked. Me: Wait he did? KB: That is rampant speculation.

SETH is sitting in a alone in the middle of a dark room. KB: Seth Parrino. SP: What the hell are you doing? (he stands) You can’t be in here! KB: NYPD. We have a few questions. The lights turn on and the song Jungle Boogie starts to play. A bunch of male dancers dressed like Tarzan take the stage in front of SETH. BECKETT and CASTLE are a bit shocked, but SETH just dances along. I LOVE HOW THE COPS COME & HE JUST DANCES WHILE WATCHING THESE HOT MEN (remember when playboy tried to be feminist so they made playgirl but only gay men bought it?) RC: Maybe more than just a few questions.

Castle, hearing parrino has the rights: Rats, (I really wanted to buy the rights) one more chance to go nuts XD

Brown hair smoking hot? beckett?

Oh, I like her look. I also like how she has a mole. People have freckles & moles sometimes! KB: Get out a warrant on her. JE: (hesitates) You think we could have Ryan do that? I have plans. KB: Really? Do these plans have a name? JE: doesn’t say anything, but his eyes flick to Scarlett’s photo on the murder board. KB: Oh shut up. You didn’t. JE: She broke a guy’s nose. You know she’s gotta be freaky. KB: laughs in disbelief. JE: C’mon. He walks away. KR: Where’re you going? KB: Don’t ask.

She is not d cup... is she? "ew" *drops her bra* Oh revenge sex If you were d cups you would need your bra back You won't get a name becks What if she walked out of the club at like 11.51 so she thought beau was still alive but technically he could be not alive & just,, incorrect

Oh no they're going to interrupt esposito's date btw EVERYONE is pretty. Pretty enough. Not super duper pretty that I'd pic but pretty enough. Ryan has a shirt & tie no vest (oh & a jacket ofc), castle looks amazing, becks is ok with a white shirt & dark red jacket, espt has a nice marroon burgundy type sweater, slight vneck, jones is hot af with her leather jacket & scarf & in the scene on their date she is wearing a shirt that actually matches espt's shirt colour Where are they btw? He looks honestly almost disappointed when she says "my place" but it might just be shock & how much he likes her. I mean that soft "ok" reminds me of the bdsm episode when a dom made him untie her boot Wow cockblocked

JE, so right: She’s hot. She kicks ass, she’s a corporate spy. Man, she is perfect. Why did she have to be the bad guy? KR: Sorry we had to cop-block you, bro. XD COP-BLOCK she can't see him thru the glass tho

Castle knows what programs are on little frog & nobody makes fun of him maybe it was children, you know, cp

Man has a nice tie becks looks nice too lol I mean if u need the money... That's true, you can't exactly take finance from a porn producer. But maybe he was taking responsibility for the kids who have... been... conceived... by masturbating to porn... which does not make babies... bc,, it is singlular.., not,, uh, not partnered

I thought she said she destroyed it... some politician or smth?

Kindergarten teacher? She can NOT have that tape out VOICES FOR DECENCY FOUNDER'S DAUGHTER?

Yummy dessert lmao I'm also over 18 & technically I don't need to ask permission, but I still do for a lot of things because I respect my mom. *whip creams in his mouth* GIRL IT IS NOT CAREFUL NOR SMART TO PUT YOUR LOCATION, ACTIVITIES, & FACE ONLINE.

she's 25 she doesn't need her dad's permission... Good. Get your attorney.

She could be a Poi because she is related to YOU Actually BEAU was (caught dead in that place) He feels guilty about this, he cares abt his daughter, this man, like, I, I dislike him in a lot of ways but he also has my respect

She probs didn't even know beau would film

KR: If I were in Candice’s shoes I would have done the same thing. [both are wading through different boxes.] JE: Well, I mean, I feel for her, I do, but she knew what she was getting into. KR: She knew Beau would blackmail her? So this is her fault? JE: With what her dad did? She must have known who Beau was and what he was about. It’s not like it was with Scarlett. KR: Oh, I see. So this is about you. Okay. JE: Hey that chick totally misrepresented herself, bro. She was hot though, right? KR: Here’s the sad thing for you. That fact that she misrepresented herself makes her even hotter. JE: No. She can’t be any hotter than she already is. KR: Huh. (he goes back to work) 5 mil is a lot ULTRASOUND? SHE WAS PREGGO?

so she DID NOT know who she was He,,, he wanted to clean up for the baby... Oh valid, she didn't want him around But he cared & he TRIED to change He would shut it down for her? & the kid? <3

*backing away* Why would you make it stationary? I would have gotten someone else to hold it. Except then someone would be able to argue that he was NOT filming for that time this man knew about the baby?

There are only 3 reasons to kill. Money, revenge, & love.

A father really would do anything for his daughter. Remember that one where the dad "could be justified" in killing his daughter's murderer? Ye.

I started at 9.30, it is only 10.40, maybe I'll be able to get six eps in today after all.

[im-invisible-erased]

So for like the past two days this person has been messaging me on twitch whispers. giving me “advice” on what to do with my channel... and like the advice makes sense but I had to hit them with the “This is too expensive right now, and I’d rather not cheap out on emotes/starting screens/ending screens etc.”  Them: Its not expensive you can find cheap. You can always just get cheaper ones to start out with.  (my internal perfectionist screaming... if you’re not gonna do it right the first time just don't’ bother, like I had emotes that I made sloppily and didn’t keep any of them except one that I just genuinely like.) But obviously I’m in the process of trying to get to a point where I could commission a friend to do all these things.

And I explained that it just wasn’t in my budget currently. And they just ignored it so I said “You clearly don’t understand the poverty struggle do you? When I say I can’t afford even 50 dollars right now I mean it. Between bills and rent. and Feeding myself and my cats. Without proper income to break even with these cost...I can’t invest anything else into a hobby that makes me 0 dollars an hour currently.” 

after that I found the “do not accept whispers from strangers” function on twitch.

Like I understand all these things would make my channel more appealing. Having a proper banner. Having good emotes. Having a good Starting soon/Ending Screens. Cleaning up the panels to be more streamlined. Having a proper BRB screen.  (which I actually did the panels and BRB screen downloaded from a free overlay pack)  

But realistically I understand that my channel will never even break 15 consistent viewers. I’ve been on Twitch since before it was Twitch. I’ve been a watcher since 2009 [JustinTV days]. And I’ve been a part time/hobbyist streamer off and on Since August 2013. I had to beg multiple communities to open my stream and mute the tab just to get affiliate. I did that for like 3 months streaming over 200 hours each month just to hit affiliate. If I didn’t network to do that. my stream would be forever 1-2 viewers with an average viewer count of 0.5-1. Because unless i get raided by someone else that is my statistics on most days. 

I don’t really care about low views. I don’t care that my community is basically just other peoples community that I am also a part of. I got my one goal to hit affiliate back in September and that’s all I wanted. Like I’m just a little invisible stream. which is honestly the vast majority of channels. Streaming to maybe nobody maybe 1-2 people but I still like to stream so I keep doing it. Not because its profitable or because I have like unrealistic goals with it. Just cause. 

Like if I put in more effort did more networking and stuff. I would probably grow but I cba with it all. I’m just a part time streamer and nothing more. 

sorry this was just stressing me out and needed to write my thoughts down in a place where I'm invisible. 

[swolewhale]

Day 1 - The Actual Beginning

Here I go doin the thing. Today was pretty much the same as usual with me. Stayed in most of the day playing Skyrim (downloading a fuck ton of mods and not actually playing). Only time I went out was in the morning for this volunteer thing. Don’t have a life or any friends near me so thought it’d be a good idea to do something that would get me out of the house.

I know that just doing the same shit over and over again isn’t gonna change anything, but it’s not like I can really do anything to change that. I don’t have enough money to just spend on random shit to go have fun by myself, especially when I don’t even know what I enjoy. Hell I don’t even have enough money to buy canned food confidently.

The only thing that I can think would actually make a difference is getting adhd meds, but that requires taking a stupid fucking test that cost 200 dollars for it to tell them the same fucking answer of I HAVE ADHD.

Anyways, that’s not happening anytime soon. My mom said that she’s got enough money to cover the cost in a medical account or something, but I ain’t doing that. I have no idea how much money she has and I ain’t gonna take any more from her. Hell I’m sure insurance could cover it but I’m also sure that they wouldn’t cover even 75% due to bullshit of thresholds or something.

I’m sure the bastards can see my recent history for medical shit. Being in a hospital due to horrible mental health (which wasn’t even as bad as it is now), heavy meds for depression and anxiety that have only been increasing more and more. Surely at some point someone would go “hey this person could die if they don’t get this one thing paid for” but that implies that people work at insurance companies. They only have pathetic excuses for people there.

Anyways, I said I do this to focus on the positives so I guess it’s time for that:

Volunteered at a cat shelter: It was only my second day doing so, but the fact that I even showed up the first day or bothered getting out of bed is something (ignoring the fact that it’s mainly because I’d be too bored being only in bed). Made friends with a couple of wobblers. A lot of the others are a bit more timid of me, but it was just my second day so.

I took a shower: I know, bare minimum, but hey we’re talking about positives. I was gonna do it before the volunteer shift, but then I realized that it would be worthless doing so since I was only going to smell terrible afterwards anyways. Said I was gonna do it after it, and actually fucking did it (the madman). Usually the “I’ll do it later” is actually never for me, so it took me an hour or 2 to do so, but hey, took the shower.

Brushed my teeth: I know, bar- wait I’ve already said that. I’m tying to get into the habit of brushing my teeth after probably over a decade of barely even doing so. Just broke the routine one day and it was all downhill from there. Never had a cavity or any problems with my teeth though, so... Anyways, gotta brush my teeth after I post this, but once a day is better than once a year.

I was going to add “ate food”, but realized that it’s more of a “I couldn’t stop myself from eating a single can of corn” since I don’t have the money to buy more food. Trying to make the shit I do have last a few more weeks, but it fucking sucks. I hate being so fucking hungry all the time. Thanks inflation, capitalism, depression, anxiety, and all the other mental illnesses that I have that may or may not be undiscovered cause that’d just be my luck.

That’s all for the positives so now I guess it’s time for the daily question because it’s my account and I’ll do what I want. Anyways,

What fictional place would you most like to go to?

I lighthearted medieval fantasy world.

Fantasy because it’s my favorite genre. I can imagine that I’m anywhere but here.

Medieval cause DnD, skyrim, and some anime as well make me more interested in that type of magical filled world. I’m sure it could work in a modern setting but I’m more used to the medieval time period having magic.

Lighthearted cause then I wouldn’t have this account and be making these post. Due to the laws of the universe for this world, everyone would be on the more positive side for pretty much everything. I know, unrealistic, but it’s fantasy for a reason.

I’m sure it was more of a location thing, but I don’t really have many that come to mind immediately. After a bit of looking around and seeing my options, either the Comet Observatory from Mario Galaxy or the world of pokemon.

Comet Observatory: Mario Galaxy was one of the first games that I played when I was younger that actually really interested me. It’s one of my favorites, if not my favorite game. The game is very nostalgic for me since it was in a time where I was so ignorant to the world around me. Hell, after many many years of not even hearing music from it, the Comet Observatory theme appeared in a daily mix and I actually cried because of it, so yeah, I hold the game near and dear. I do still have a wii and the game, but the nun-chuck is fucked so I can’t play it right now at least. All that, plus the fact that Rosalina was my first video game crush and that hasn’t gone away at all. Shy quite types get me right in my weak spot of being an absolute sucker for cuteness.

Pokemon: Black 2 was my first pokemon game and still my favorite. I don’t know if there’s a single pokemon that I actually hare or even dislike. I already love animals as is and then you make them pokemon and I wonder where the sign up list has been my entire life. It’s fucking pokemon. Also maybe fucking pokemon. I know the lore, plus you can’t tell me there wasn’t a single mf in that world that hasn’t clapped some gardi cheecks.

Anyways, that’s all I can remember and be bothered to mention today so I’ll end it here. Hopefully tomorrow will bring me blessings (free food).

[thedivinemsem]

This is the keyfob for my car.  I learned that replacing this little metal and plastic thing would cost me well over 200 dollars at the Ford dealer.  Fortunately, it didn’t come to that.

I have two fobs for my car - one is always kept safe at home and the other obviously travels with me.  The “traveling fob” is on a lanyard - normally its in my handbag, but when I take my morning walks I wear it around my neck to make sure it stays safe.....not all of my pants have pockets.

If you have a remote entry/keyless start car then you are probably like me and don’t even think about the fob - you just walk up to your car and it unlocks itself.  You put your foot on the brake, push the button and the car starts.

So, after my walk the other day, when I walked up to the car and it didn’t unlock, I was puzzled.  It took me a minute to figure out that the lanyard wasn’t around my neck.....and after walking around the car to see if somehow it had dropped to the ground.......I realized that it must have fallen off somewhere along the path.

My karma was still good, because as it happened, my walking buddy noticed that I hadn’t left, thought that was strange and instead of going on her way, she drove over to my car and asked if she could help.  I had intended to retrace our steps, knowing that it must have fallen off along the path, and she came with me.  We were very surprised that the fob was nowhere along the path because we were pretty much the only people out on the trail that mid-week morning.

My buddy was kind enough not only to take me back to my house to get the other fob, but she also saved me a mile walk back to the park to get the car.  I was still quite puzzled as to how it had vanished, but at least it wasn’t the only fob I had.

The next morning we once again looked while we walked along.  I bemoaned that I’d always meant to purchase a third fob.  It seems that if you have two working fobs available, some complicated instructions will allow you to program a spare without having to go to the dealer and spend several hundred dollars for a new fob and programming.  Lesson learned - if you believe something is a good idea you should probably do more than just think about doing it.

We were probably about halfway through our walk when we came across another friend that we walk with most mornings.  He’d been following us the day before (not following in a stalky kind of way - more like he was in his own thoughts so kept a bit behind us as we chatted about various things)  I mentioned to him that I had lost my key fob and wasn’t able to find it on the trail, and asked that he keep an eye out for it.

He reaches in his pocket and pulls out my lanyard and fob.  Turns out he hadn’t seen it fall since he was behind us, but he saw it on the trail and picked it up.  For whatever reason it didn’t cross his mind that it was one of ours.  I’m not sure why he didn’t leave it on a signpost or a bench or even say something when he found it......but who knows why men do what they do ;). 

Whats important is that I have my fob back, and I’ve gotten a third one from Amazon that I’m hoping to be able to program just to be sure I never have to go to the dealer.  

#goodkarmaisreal #alwayshaveanextra

[is-the-rat-vid-cute]

hey! i've been considering getting rats for a while now, but i'm a high school who makes next to no money at mcdonalds. how much would you recommend i save before getting some rats? how much should i set aside for medical emergencies, food, a good cage, etc.

i don't mind spending a decent amount on them for whatever, i just need to know how long i'll have to wait aha

The cost definitely depends on where you live. I live in a more expensive part of the US, so I can expect to spend around $200-400 for a neuter and $70-80 on a checkup for example. But I know other folks who live in less expensive areas would be looking at around $100 for a neuter and $50 for a checkup. My recommendation would be to call or email a few vets nearby, and ask some questions about pricing. I personally save up this much for each rat since my income isn’t always consistent:

1x surgery, including neuter or spay

3x checkup

2x URI

1x euthanasia (with cremation if desired)

I try to have at least enough to cover those expenses before I get another pair of rats. This is assuming you’re getting rats from a breeder and don’t have exceptionally bad luck — if you get a rat from a feeder bin, pet store, or shelter, I’d recommend saving a bit more for your vet fund since they’ll be more prone to health issues. If the vets in your area won’t tell you their prices, I’d personally recommend a vet fund of around $500-1000 per rat, depending on the cost of living in your area. You don’t have to have all of this up front, but I’d at least recommend having a few hundred dollars in case you run into an emergency as soon as you get them. Some folks with more stable jobs will put a specific amount of money each month aside for the vet fund, which is also an option if you’re confident you’ll have steady income for a while.

The good news is that the vet fund will be your biggest expense, upkeep for rats actually isn’t too expensive. If you have a pair, you can get a 20lb bag of Oxbow from Chewy for $50 and that’ll last you 7-8 months if stored properly, since rats will generally eat 15-20g each per day. It’s a big cost up front but definitely worth it in my experience. If you don’t have that money up front, you can also get 3lb bags for around $12 from Chewy, which would last about a month for a pair of rats.

If you’re looking to save money on bedding, I highly recommend the big bags of kiln-dried pine shavings that farm stores often have. Tractor Supply Co in the US has bags for around $7 that last a month or two. Aspen is similar, I get bags from TSC for $15 each and that usually lasts about a month.

Lastly, bin cages are great inexpensive options for a pair of rats. If you want to buy a cage, you’d probably want to budget around $150 (again depending on your area), but bin cages can be made for much cheaper. You just need 1/2 inch hardware cloth (around $20 at Home Depot), a plastic storage tote (I recommend at least 50-75g for 2 rats, probably also around $20-30), and some zip ties ($10-15 for a big pack). There are some tutorials on how to make bin cages here and here. If you don’t want to DIY something, I highly recommend looking at used cages on places like Craigslist and FB Marketplace, though if you’re a minor (or even if not tbh) I’d recommend bringing a trusted adult with you since people on there can be sketch sometimes. Critter Nation cages are great but expensive, you could also get a rabbit or Guinea pig cage, but you’d need to put hardware cloth over the bars if they’re any wider than 1/2 inch to prevent escapes.

As someone who’s also not in a super financially stable place right now, I like to have around 6 months of food and bedding on hand when I can, just for my own peace of mind. But honestly making sure you have a big enough vet fund is the most important thing in my opinion — especially since rats live such short lives, health emergencies can often come out of nowhere. A cage is the biggest one-time purchase, and food and bedding costs can be under $20 a month if you’re smart about it. But vet bills are something that are a lot harder to come up with, and it definitely is worth it to be prepared in that regard.

I also want to mention since you said you’re a high schooler — please make sure your parents are on board. I’ve seen many minors get pets and then have their parents be unwilling to drive them to the vet or help out with necessary care, so I feel obligated to mention it. If you can’t drive, make sure you have a solid backup plan for vet or supply trips, whether that’s an Uber, public transport, or getting a ride from a parent or friend. And make sure that you have a plan for the rats when you move to your next stage of life — whether that’s going to college or trade school or otherwise moving out, it’s worth it to consider if the rats will still be around by then and what you’ll do with them at that point, whether that’s rehoming or finding a way to bring them with you.

Hopefully this helped a bit — unfortunately a lot of the costs do depend on your area a lot but I commend you for making sure you’re financially prepared ahead of time. Many people don’t realize how expensive rat vet bills can be, but having a good fund set up for them ahead of time will save you so much stress and heartache. Let me know if you have any other questions!

[fruitcoops]

could you possibly write something about Sirius & remus dating and remus feeling bad that Sirius keeps paying (since obviously he's big deal NHLer v trainer)

Oof, yes. This was combined with asks for some Coops hurt/comfort where one doesn't want to talk, as well as an argument. SW credit goes to @lumosinlove!

TW for wealth insecurity, small argument (not a blowout)

Grocery shopping had never been Remus’ favorite thing in the world, but he had to admit it was a lot more fun when everything came with the thrilling reminder that he was living with the love of his life. He got to learn Sirius’ preferences on everything from candles (softer scents, or something woodsy) to towels (as fluffy as humanly possible) and filed every detail away in the little pocket of his brain entirely dedicated to the beautiful man that could reach the top shelves.

“What’s next?” he asked an hour into their latest Target excursion.

Sirius tilted his phone to show the screen. “Sheets.”

“I still can’t believe you had a hole in those and didn’t notice,” Remus said with a shake of his head.

“How do you know it wasn’t your fault?” Sirius countered with a playful quirk of his eyebrow.

“I’m not the one that runs marathons in my sleep,” Remus laughed, standing on his toes to kiss his stubbly cheek. “Oof. Prickly.”

Sirius scrunched his nose. “You like it.”

“Hmm. Perhaps.”

“Perhaps,” he mimicked, bumping Remus’ hip with his own. “What kind do you want?”

Remus shrugged one shoulder as they turned down the next aisle, scanning the shelves of plastic-wrapped packages in a million different patterns. “I like the look of the white ones, but grey or blue could be nice. You?”

“As long as they’re soft and have you in them, I don’t care.”

“Sap,” he teased, though he was unable to fight the blush racing hot up his neck. Sirius didn’t protest; his small, smug smile needed no explanation. Remus pushed the cart slowly down the aisle, making note of the price tags as he went. Sheets were always an expense—not as bad as blankets or, god forbid, a new mattress, but an expense all the same. He had managed to keep his last ones in good condition for almost ten years before they wore out.

The $30 set doesn’t look too bad, but that’s a weird color…Sirius hates microfiber…I’d rather not sleep on puppy print…getting laid on a 1970s paisley pattern would kill me instantly… “How about these?”

He startled and glanced down the aisle, where Sirius was holding a set in faint gray. An unbidden grin pulled at the side of his mouth. “The softest of the bunch, huh?”

“Of course,” Sirius laughed. “Come feel, it’s like heaven.”

Remus pushed off and hopped up on the undercarriage, riding the cart all the way until he reached Sirius’ side; his hand was halfway to the exposed block of fabric when he froze. $186.99, read the price tag below the stack of sheets in varying colors. Almost $200, and the only difference was the softness. “I…” he faltered slightly, looking between Sirius and the sheets for a moment.

“Do you not like them?”

“No, I do,” Remus said as his mind whirred. He had never spent more than a hundred dollars on sheets before. It wasn’t wildly out his budget, especially once he started working with the Lions, but he had always been careful with money. Sirius…Sirius had never had to do that. Never in his life.

“Is it the color? Because they have white ones—”

“It’s 200 dollars,” he almost laughed. Sirius fell quiet in obvious confusion as Remus turned to look at him. “Sirius, those sheets are 200 dollars.”

“Yes?”

“There’s—” Remus broke off again; something a little too much like shame for his liking crawled up his throat. “I—sure, yeah, if you like them.”

“It’s not about what Ilike,” Sirius continued, as if he couldn’t see the discomfort tensing every one of Remus’ muscles. “It’s our bed. I don’t want to get sheets you hate.”

“No, no, they’re nice.” Too nice. Remus forced a smile. “I like them.”

Sirius looked at him for a moment. “Which ones do you prefer?”

The ones that don’t cost the same as my monthly food budget. “Uh, the color threw me off at first,” he said. “The blue ones are better.”

The crease between Sirius’ brows eased by a degree and he kissed Remus’ jaw gently, then switched the sets. “D’accord, mon loup. Whatever makes you happy.”

Remus was as quiet as he could be without arousing suspicion for the rest of the trip. Sirius paid for their things—like always, Remus realized with a turn of his stomach—and helped him carry the bags to the car without another word about the sheets.

He stayed quiet the whole way home.

The shame mounted as they drove. It seemed everything was a sudden, unwelcome reminder of just how different he and Sirius were. Sirius’ family had a chef during his childhood—Remus made himself PB&Js every morning for the entirety of middle school. Sirius had a brand-new car—Remus had never had cause to justify that over public transportation and Uber. It was embarrassing, and Sirius’ unintentional thoughtlessness was more frustrating than he thought it would be.

He didn’t say anything as they pulled up to the house and unloaded their shopping bags; his shirt and jeans itched his skin like sandpaper. Judging from the look on Sirius’ face, he had picked up on Remus’ frustration, but there was no way Remus was going to get into the root of it while he still felt so twitchy.

Damn you and your emotional intelligence, he thought as he slipped past Sirius’ worried glances and up the stairs to their bedroom. Be oblivious for once and let me get through this.

The bed was stripped bare—their duvet and pillows sat in a heap on top of the mattress. Remus thought back to the first night he had slept there, marveling at the cloudlike support on his achy lower back. He had chalked it up to the pure bliss that came with finally having what he really wanted, but his traitorous brain was starting to convince him it wasn’t the joy that made it seem so nice.

He had never gone without food. His parents always made sure he had clothes that mostly fit and the school supplies he needed. They paid for his hockey gear and the team dues until he was old enough to work part-time and start saving his own money; scholarships had always been of a quiet importance in their house. Things got tighter when Jules was born, but they made it work. Remus would always be grateful for that.

Sirius had never had to think about money in that way. Not once.

Remus sighed through his nose as he pulled his battered Wisconsin hoodie over his head and tightened the drawstring of his sweats, letting the comfort envelop him. “It’s not his fault,” he murmured into the mirror. “Don’t get into your head about this.”

Sirius was in the living room when Remus made his way down the stairs with his hands curled into the worn sleeves of the hoodie. He said nothing while Remus began absently cleaning up the scattered items around their junk bowl, though his gaze prickled the back of his neck.

“Mon loup?” came the soft question after two minutes of tense silence.

“Yeah?” he managed around the tightness in his lungs.

He could practically taste Sirius’ hesitation. “Did I—nevermind. Sorry.”

“What?”

“It’s nothing,” Sirius said again, though he seemed to be folding in on himself. Remus hated seeing him try and take up less space, and hated the idea that he was the one that caused it.

$200. On sheets.

“What’s going on?” Remus asked, leaning back against the countertop.

“No, I just—” Sirius pasted on a smile and cross the room, dropping a tentative kiss to the top of his head as he passed despite the wary look in his eyes. “Just a thought. It’s nothing.”

“You’re upset.”

“No, no, I’m good.”

“Please don’t lie to me.” It came out harsher than intended and Remus winced. “I mean—Sirius, something is obviously bothering you.”

He chewed the inside of his lip for a moment, rubbing his thumbs in small circles over the marble countertop before making brief eye contact. “You’re angry,” he said at last, cautiously. “Are you angry with me?”

“No,” Remus said, then paused. Sirius’ face fell. “Well, I’m a little irritated, but—but it’s stupid, and I shouldn’t be.”

“It’s not stupid.”

Remus swallowed hard at the kicked-puppy look on Sirius’ face. “It is.”

“I’m sorry,” Sirius said.

And that was…honestly, kind of the worst thing he could say. “You don’t get it,” Remus said, staring at the floor. “Sirius, you just spent 200 dollars on sheets.”

If anything, that seemed to upset him more. “You said you liked them.”

“I—” Remus flailed his hand around. “I do! But Jesus, honey, that’s kind of a lot!”

“We both liked the sheets.”

“I don’t know how to tell you that that’s expensive!” he blurted as the words wormed their way out and hung in the air. “Two hundred dollars might be peanuts to you, but that used to be my food budget for the month!”

“Remus—”

“You have never had to budget a day in your life,” he said, quieter. “Your watch probably cost more than a month’s rent for my apartment, you’ve never taken public transportation—”

“Remus—”

“—and you make millions of dollars every year!” He paused, out of breath, and ran a hand through his hair in disbelief. “Millions, Sirius. And—and now that we’re together, that we’re living together, it’s just really apparent in a way that it wasn’t before.”

Sirius’ throat bobbed. “I wish you had told me at the store.”

“It’s not about the sheets,” Remus laughed, because there was nothing else he could do other than cry. “We have entirely different views of how much money is worth. You can pay for things for me and I can’t do the same for you, and that feels like shit.”

An unsettling quiet blanketed the whole first floor as Sirius stayed very, very still, like a small animal caught in a trap. “I don’t know what you want me to say,” he confessed, barely above a whisper. “You’re right. Money is…it’s not something I’ve had to think about, but I like spending it on you.”

“I don’t like being cared for,” Remus forced out around the grate that had been keeping it down. “I don’t like feeling like I can’t support myself, or that I’m a burden on you and especially that I can’t repay that.”

Sirius finally met his eyes, and he looked appalled. “Remus, you’re never a burden.”

“It feels like it.” He was horrified to feel the burn of tears in his eyes. “Sometimes. When—when you buy nice things for me, or we go on nice vacations, or even when you buy groceries for us for the fifth time in a row, it feels like I’m using you for your money.”

“But you’re not.”

“No!” Remus said immediately. ���God, no, never. That’s the last thing I want. But I don’t want you to have to change your lifestyle to make it revolve around me, either. I feel like I’m caught in the middle and there’s no good answer.”

Sirius watched him for a moment, the way that always made Remus feel a little bit like a particularly intricate play he was trying to work out. “What did you want to say at the store?”

“I—what?”

“What did you want to say while we were getting the sheets?”

Remus bit his lip in thought. “Those are too expensive, and I think we should get different ones,” he said eventually. “I like the color and the fabric, but I don’t want to spend that much money on sheets when we could do something else with it.”

“I’m sorry I didn’t ask sooner.” The earnest look on Sirius’ face eased some of the bubbling feelings in his chest. “And I’m sorry you didn’t feel like you could tell me.”

“I was embarrassed.”

“…why?”

“Because it’s embarrassing to look at your multi-millionaire boyfriend and say, ‘I can’t afford $200 sheets’, Sirius. It sucks. I feel like I can’t measure up.”

Sirius nodded. “I’ve never judged you for your money, not once. Just for the record. There’s nothing I would rather spend it on than making you happy.”

“I don’t want to be sheltered and provided for.” Remus blinked back the last of the tears and closed his eyes. “I want us to be equals. That’s important to me.”

“Okay.”

“And I don’t know how to fix this right away.”

“I don’t, either.” Warm fingers brushed the back of his hand and he leaned into Sirius without looking. “Can we try and figure it out, though? As a team?”

“Yes, captain,” he snorted, feeling Sirius’ soft huff on the top of his head. They stood silently for a few seconds before Remus let go of his tension with a slow exhale. “I don’t think a joint bank account is a good idea yet, but maybe we can start by alternating who buys groceries? Or something small like that. I don’t want to feel like this anymore, not with you. I love you too much.”

Sirius nuzzled into his hair for a moment before lips pressed against his temple. “How about we start by making the bed?”

The pressure on Remus’ chest eased. Making the bed was easy. They had the exact same method for it, a function of Sirius growing up with a militant mother and Remus’ aunts lovingly terrorizing him into learning how to do hospital corners. It was an olive branch that he could happily accept with a light squeeze around Sirius’ waist. Baby steps, he thought. We’ll deal with the big stuff when we’re better settled. He offered a half-smile to Sirius. “What are we waiting for?”

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So how the heck do the Avengers pay for stuff, and how rich are they?

So, in the wake of “Falcon and the Winter Soldier” There’s a lot of debate about why Sam didn’t seem to get paid well for his work in the Avengers (at least in the MCU continuity), and this has got me thinking: we’ve got no evidence that the Avengers are, financially, anything but a hot mess. So lets break it down, Avenger by Avenger, using real-world pay scales for the ones who have jobs.

Tony: a billionaire, so clearly he’s a financial genius, right? Well….. his actions say otherwise. He’s shown to be wildly irresponsible with his money. He inherited a lot of wealth form his parents which was managed by the first Jarvis, Obadiah, and Pepper for him, he buys and then gives away not just woks of art, but entire collections by major 20th century artists on a whim, destroyed his own cars and home without concern, he tanks the value of his own company in the first Iron Man with a bad press interview, gets kicked of his own bord of directors, and ultimately, in Iron Man 2, gives control of his company to Pepper. He’s insanely rich, and insanely smart, but man, he’s not smart with his money. So all the cool stuff, his suits, the Avengers tower, the facility up-state: that’s all paid for by him, but Pepper is holding the purse-stings.  So, does he pay the others? We have no evidence for most of them… but we do with Spidey. Peter Parker is in the Stark Internship Program a euphemism to hide the fact he’s training and mentoring him as a super-hero, but I find the wording interesting: he refers to Spidey, his surrogate son and chosen heir, as an intern. I.E., Unpaid.  I’m guessing this is Howard’s influence over him, some sort of ‘make you own way in the world, son’ attitude, but  if he’s not paying Spidey, is he paying anyone else? He certainly pays for stuff super heroes suits and things, equipment, fuel, the base, but does he pay anyone a wage? No one ever mentions it. You think it would come up.

So, if he’s not paying them a wage, where do Avengers  (and thier allies) get their day-to-day money from, and are they rich? Using google and https://www.federalpay.org, lets find out.

Cap: Well, before Civil war, he’s a shield operative, and he presumably still holds his military rank: he’s a US Army captain, with (well) over 40 years service, so USD$88,142.40 per year, with $237.71  drill pay (pay per drill you have to do on weekends, on leave or outside of normal service) and $175.00 per month hazard pay (which I bet is interesting) on top of that. As a WW2 veteran, he’d be eligible for a war pension if he:

Was not discharged for dishonorable reasons; and,

Served 90 days of active military duty; and,

Served at least one day during wartime ("wartime" as determined by the VA); and,

Had  countable family income below a certain yearly limit; and,

Is  age 65 years or older; or

Regardless of age is permanently disabled, not due to wilful misconduct.

As he’s still receiving 90k per year, he’s ineligible for a pension as his countable yearly income is above the limit.  So if shield pays him in accordance with his rank and years of service, about $90, 600 per year incuding hazard pay.

After civil war, he’s a fugitive on the run, so presumably flat broke. I’d asume he gets his pension returened to him after the snap.

He’s also just gone from the 40’s to the present day, so 70 years of inflation probably makes buying things very confusing for him: everything would seem insanely expensive at first. He’d also not know what the correct prices are for anything invented after 45. You might get used to how much more expensive food and coffee is, but how much is a smart-phone worth? $200? $2000 $20000? Who knows? I bet the others have to facepalm a lot when he either refuses to pay for what he sees as clear price-gouging, and at the same time regularly pays insane amounts of money for goods and services because he doesn’t know better. He also has no known assets other than his pay: he rents an apartment making him one of the few American males in his age-group who isn’t a home-owner

Thor: Does Asgard even have currency? It’s depicted like a “Crystal spires and toga” type utopia with no poverty: even working class Asgardian’s like Scourge seem to be pretty well-off and want for nothing, so he’s from a post-scarcity society where actual magic is a thing. His “Another” coffee cup smashing and the fact he doesn’t have a computer of phone in Ragnarök might indicate that, no, he just doesn’t have, need or understand money. Splitting a bar tab with him must be a nightmare. His breakdown post snap indicates he’s got some cash, but not a huge amount, and is probably skiving of Valkyrie and the other Asgardians.

Banner: Okay, so a PhD could make you a lot of money from patents… in pharmacology or engineering. Theoretical physics? Not so good. And if Banner did have any patents, they’ve probably been seized under eminent domain by the US military.  At the start of The Hulk film, he’s working a entry-level factory job at a botteling plant in Brazil. The minimum wage in Brazil is 1069.62 Real per month, that’s 12,835.44 Real per year, or around $2437.79 US per year, before everything goes wrong for him! He then runs off to India, works for Tony for a bit and then gets shot into space. Spidey may actually make more in allowance than Banner does, and Banner is a gown ass man with bills to pay: I’d imagine he loses a lot in ripped clothing.

Natasha and Barton: Pre Civil-war, both are government spooks, so how well does that pay? The salaries of CIA Intelligence Analysts based in the US range from $25,838 to $685,701 , with a median salary of $125,340, so let’s assume that Shield pays in a similar range: $685,701 per year for Director Fury, around 125,000 for Natasha and Cliff, which explains Cliff’s nice, middle-class mid-western home. Post civil war, presumably not great: we know that Natasha spends a lot of her savings running and hiding all across the world, and Cliff takes a deal and presumably lives of his savings, pension and his wife’s income.

Rhodes: Full USAF colonel with over 10 years service? $105,562.80 per year, plus $293.23 drill pay per drill and $175 per month hazard pay, and because he’s team Stark and not Team Cap in Civil War, he’d not lose any of that. He presumably also gets an injury pay-out after his accident. After T’challa and Stark, he might be the best paid avenger.

Dr Strange: spends all his money he made as a surgeon on trying to cure his hands: spends literally his last dollars heading to Nepal to train. Wong even jokes with him about their lack of worldly money when asking for a tuna-melt. But, can use illusion to make people think he has money, and his home and clothes etc. come with the job, so in the same boat as Thor in that he has no money, but needs none AKA, he’s a bastard to try and split a restaurant bill with.

Wanda and Vision: No know source of income, just sort of live in Tony’s hose and eat his food, and on top of that Wanda goes on the run after civil war… yet they can stay in fancy hotels in Edinburgh, a relatively expensive city, and Vison apparently bought them a house to retire in, so one of them has some source of money. Maybe Tony gave Vision years of back-pay form when he was still Jarvis, or maybe the vison has a day job, which is, frankly, hilarious. Could you imagine him as a barista? I can, and it makes me very happy.

Scott Lang: I’d assumed he’d be super, super broke, but apparently the average pay for a private security consultant in the Bay area is $85,430 per year. Not bad. Pity he gets sucked into the quantum realm just as his business is taking off, so presumably, flat broke again.

Bucky: no known income, and I doubt Hydra paid him for being the Winter Soldier so he probably has no savings, but he should, technically, qualify for a military pension. As a single veteran, he’d be  eligible for federal tax-free pension of up to $1732 per month, or $20,784 tax free per year. Not much for someone who lives in NYC. He may also be eligible for medical benefits over the loss of his arm. Whether or not he got to see any of that money given how confused his life has been over the past 10 years is unclear, but on paper he’s eligible.

T’challa: He is, quite possibly, richer than Stark, and as an absolute monarch pays no tax and has access to his Nation’s vast wealth in vibanium. It’s good to be the king!

Captain Marvel: USAF captain, and a test pilot; the test pilot school only accepts applicants with a service length of less than 9 years 6 months (10 years six moths of helicopters) as they don’t want older applicants. With 8 years service, $79,538.40, plus drill pay and hazard.  However, no know (human) pay since 1990. Flat broke.

Guardians of the Galaxy: no data, but I’m assuming “Cowboy Bebop” levels of perpetual never-ending poverty given the way they choose to live. I’d also assume Rocket has taken all their cash into some sort of Ponzi scheme of his own creation, because just look at him, of course he has.

Spidey: he’s got about $10 of his aunts’ money at any given time, so he can buy lunch… which may in fact be more than Banner or Lang, and we know it’s more that Strange or Thor.

 So, here the big one: how rich or how broke is Sam?

Sam Wilson: annoyingly, we’re not directly told what rank Sam held in any MCU film. USAF pararescue “Maroon berets” are generally NCO’s (but there’ are officer-ranked pararescue) , and he’s seen working on his wings at one point, where as officers don’t generally work on or maintain airframes. He’s shown wearing a Nation Air guard grey while jogging at one point to confuse the matter further. The general consensus on redit is he’s a former USAF tech sergeant (E-6). But how long was he in the air force? With six years service (the minimum sensible time he could have served to work in pararescue based on his age), that would be $41,464.80 per year, plus drill pay and hazard. As Anthony Mackie, the actor that plays him, was 36 as of Civil War, and assuming the character is the same age, and assuming he retired from the air force that year, and he joined the USAF at 17, the youngest you can join, he’d have served 19 years, giving him a pay of $51,566.40, the maximum pay you can get at this rank before promotion to Master Sergent,  but meaning he left just before he’d qualify for the 50% final salary pension you’d qualify for after 20 years. Which seems weird. So let’s assume the character is one year older than the actor that plays him and served 20 years (ages 17-37), that means Sam has a military pension of $25,783.20 per year (20,784 of it tax-free), plus any injury benefits. He councils other veterans, but doesn’t get paid for that. He also chooses Team Cap in Civil War, so would become a wanted criminal, and so lose his income between 2016 and 2018, and then gets snapped and has no income for 5 years, which would destroy his credit rating. Like the rest of Team Cap, he presumably gets his post snap pardon, and goes to work for the US government at his former pay and rank. However, given how Captain John Walker treats him as an equal, it’s possible he’s been promoted to a captain when the  hired back, giving him a pay of between $54,176.40 to $88,142.40 (with 20 years experience, depending on if they take into account his prior service or not, and how much prior service he has), but either way, he’s just starting this as a new job after being legally dead for 5 years: no savings, and no credit.

Commercial fishing vessels cost about 10% of their total value per year in maintenance alone. I can’t identify what sort of boat the Wilson’s have, but some quick googling indicates that the cheapest  15m long wooden in-shore shrimp trawler costs around $140,000, so that’s $14,000 per year in maintenance costs alone, minimum. And that’s a lower estimate, assuming the rest of the business is sound, which we know it isn’t.

So, in concussion, yes, Sam is in some serious financial trouble until he can re-build his savings and credit, but the scary bit is he’s not alone in that: he’s probably better off than Lang, Banner, Danvers, Strange, Thor, Bucky, Wanda and Parker. Only Clint (if he gets a full pardon and gets his full pension), Rhodes, Stark and T’challa aren’t in some sort of potential financial problems. That asshole bank teller was right: despite the fact it seems to pay well on paper, with a few exceptions, the Avengers financials are probibaly a mess. EDIT: Rocket is running the Ponzi scheme, if that’s not clear from context. The others know they have money somewhere, but not where it’s gone. And It’s been pointed out to me that as he’s technically a POW while he’s the Winter Soldier, Bucky is owed over 70 years back-pay, equal to over 3 million dollars, details in the notes.

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I don’t really like the term “pro-artist” you can be anti recasts all you want but most people who call themselves “pro artist” aren’t really pro artists. Most people don’t know the name of the artist who sculpts the dolls they like unless they’re a small artist only and not a company, and I’m not saying you need to know that to be a doll collector, I’m just saying you probably don’t know who they are or what they were paid. You just like the company. Also a lot of pro artists complain about what people want to price their art at, high or low it doesn’t matter.

My biggest issue with the term pro artist though is the second hand market. As an artist who has a business (specifically one geared towards lesser advantaged people who can’t pay “luxury” prices) I don’t sell art with the idea in mind that you will sell it on to someone else for a large profit, in fact, I discourage it. You, having not made the art in anyway, making more profit on my art than I made when I sold it to you is such a massive fuck you. I sell a whole host of things, all handmade by me (including dolls), and I sell them at a discounted price because I want people who are like me (disabled, queer, not born into wealth, and mentally ill in whatever combination) to be able to have quality art or home goods, accessories or children’s toys, at a price that still ensures you can pay your rent or eat that month. I don’t want you buying something from me at $50 and selling it secondhand for $150 or more. If I wanted it sold for $150 I would’ve sold it for that.

A guy approached me recently and offered to buy a bunch of my stock so that he could resell it on his site. I could really use that money, but I didn’t take the offer because I know he planned to turn my products around for like a few hundred dollar in markup. The most expensive thing I sell is $200. He was looking to sell something like that for $600, but I made it and I won’t ever see that money.

Buying from artists and liking them on social media is great, but that doesn’t make you pro artist. It just makes you a consumer of artist’s work. I don’t have issues with people selling an item for what they paid for it or even selling it at a slight markup to cover fees or inflation/conversion, but if you’re buying an item for $400 and you’re selling it for $800-1000 because you can that’s just fucked up. You probably wouldn’t have bought it for that price from the artist or if they changed their price to that after they noticed the popularity then you probably would’ve complained, but it’s not about appreciating the art or the artist, it’s about making a profit. That artist didn’t even make the $400 from the original sale, but you’ll make that or more secondhand. I hate that so much that it almost makes me not want to sell my art.

I don’t buy secondhand unless it’s being sold for less than new because I don’t see the point in paying new price for a used item, but I’d also rather give my money to the artist than to someone who didn’t make the item. Also if you really love an artists work, especially if they spent their free time helping you with an order, send them a tip and leave a review. Leaving an honest review is the least you can do. If you don’t review, you’re not pro artist, you’re pro “ I already paid you and I got what I wanted so not my problem” Also a review is not “5 stars” or “I love it so much”, a review is where you actually explain what you bought and how exactly you feel about it and any effort that the artist put in for you that wasn’t necessary. Nothing I hate more than people who leave a review that is just basically “yay thanks” because that tells me that 1) you don’t care , and 2) you don’t understand the purpose of reviews

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