#I will try to be more of a weeb next year

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for planning to go to a convention without my partner even though we usually go together?

My partner (21 NB) and I usually always attend different conventions around our area together. We like to dress up in costumes, get pics with celebrity guests, and go to panels and meet-ups and all the fun convention activities together. The problem is.... this past year has been really hard for them mental health wise, and it has kind of sucked the fun out of going to conventions for both of us.

They have diagnosed ADHD and anxiety/depression, as well as what we think is autism, but they are undiagnosed. If I thought they were having a good time attending conventions, I would worry less, but the crowds of people and the noise overstimulates them and they've told me that they feel unsettled with that that many strangers around. They've had a range of minor to major panic attacks at each of the conventions that we've attended for the past year or so.

I usually try to be really supportive of their mental health. They have come a long, long way from the deep depression they were in back in high school, and they have worked hard to get their ADHD recognized and properly medicated, and I'm really proud of them. I have anxiety myself, so I feel like I understand at least a little bit of what they are typically dealing with, in a small way.

However, I also absolutely adore going to conventions. I convince myself every morning to get up and go to work by telling myself that "I'm working to fund my next cosplay," or whatever. A little self-motivation, you know. Costumes and conventions are my biggest hobby. Though I attend multiple conventions, every one is different in its own way, so it feels like it only comes once a year.

And this is where I might be a bit of an AH. I know my partner can't control their mental health, but I feel like I miss out on a lot of the convention whenever they have a panic attack or get overstimulated and I have to sit with them until they feel better. And yes, I know that sounds really bad, and I should care about my partner's well-being more than seeing a panel or a celebrity guest, but conventions are my "once a year getaway" from reality and typical life and all that. I don't really take any other vacations, and I don't really get to interact with any other nerds/geeks/weebs/lovely fandom people except at conventions because my anxiety is mostly social anxiety, and talking to people is hard and social media is intimidating.

So.... I did some thinking, and there are two, maybe three conventions that I'm planning to attend this next year without my partner. I'm not planning on telling them that I'm going without them, I was just planning on not mentioning it at all. I think if I tell them outright that I'm going without them, they'll take it personally and I don't want to upset them. If they ask for a reason that we're not going, I can just say it's financial, which isn't exactly a lie, because I did take a pay cut at work not too long ago. And my partner doesn't work due to their mental health, so I always fund or costumes and tickets and hotels. But I don't want to give that reason outright either, because I don't want to lie unless I have to.

There are two or three other conventions that we go to yearly that we'll still go to together, so I feel like they'll still get to attend and we'll get to go together, but I'll also have my "alone time" at the other conventions and get to do things I don't usually get to do, like late-night events.

If it's worth anything, my therapist supports my idea, because she thinks it'll force me out of my shell a little bit, and force me to stop using my partner as a "social crutch" if I go alone, making it like exposure therapy for my social anxiety.

So tumblr... AITA for wanting to go to a couple of conventions without my partner due to their mental health and my fear of missing out?

What are these acronyms?

[bullet-prooflove]

Valentine's Day Bingo: Kicking - Bishop Losa x Reader

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Can be read as stand alone or a companion piece to:

Black Satin (NSFW) - Bishop discovers a surprise Christmas gift.

Gingerbread - Bishop comes home to a problem.

Snow - Bishop talks to you about something that's been on his mind.

Miracle - You and Bishop get an extra Christmas gift this year.

Hitting the Slow Dance Bingo Square

The first time Bishop feels his baby kick is during Coco and Stitche’s wedding reception. The two of you are swaying together on the dance floor, his grizzled cheek pressed against yours, eyes closed as the music serenades you. There’s no better feeling in the world than this, having you pressed up against him, the baby residing in the space between you.

You’re five months pregnant at this point, just starting to show. He spends his evenings singing lullabies to his daughter in Spanish, his lips ghosting over your skin before he gets distracted by other things.

It’s when the song changes that the baby starts to react. The band switches to something with a faster pace and he feels a tiny dig against his navel.

“Oh.” You say as you tilt your head to look up at him. “I think she’s kicking.”

You take his hand in yours, pressing his palm flat against the baby bump and he laughs when he feels the small nudge. He spends the next few minutes following his daughter’s movements before the song changes and the baby goes quiet.

“She’s strong.” He says fondly as he draws you into his arms once more. “She’s going to be exactly like you.”

“She could end up a hellion like you.” You counter and Bishop grumbles.

“I hope not.”

The last thing he wants for his daughter is for her to adopt his personality traits, he was wild as a teenager and his biggest fear is that his daughter will follow in his footsteps.

“You turned out alright in the end.” You remind him, your fingertips trailing over that sensitive little spot at the nape of his neck, the one that releases all his tension.

“With a little help.” He smiles, his forehead coming to rest upon yours.

Bishop has always been convinced that you saved him. He was a functioning alcoholic when he met you, smoking forty a day and running drugs and guns up and down the country. He’d expected to be dead before sixty, through a bullet or bike accident. He was careless with his own life, there hadn’t been much to live for after Aiden had died. He’d been in a state of depression for over eight years before he started to see the sun again.

Now he’s on the board of the community centre, he has a home, a partner, a baby on the way. He doesn’t drink anymore, he’s cut his smoking right down, he’s trying to quit before Luna arrives. The job is less risky because the club has gone legit. He’s happier than he’s ever been and he has you to thank for that.

“You saved my life.” He tells you as he cradles you close. “You saved my god damned life.”

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[friendliestanon]

A Human Touch

A few quick details about the characters and how I think their human selves would function. Added some AI’s to the mix for fun!

Pomni:

Russian heritage. Can’t really speak it but she writes it well enough. Can sing a song or two if she really wants to.

Accountant and freelance programmer on the side.

She takes old video games and tries to fix them and mine data from them. She just thinks they’re neat.

Still anxious as hell, but way more comfy in her own body and world so she’s a bit more chill.

Gay asf

Wouldn’t admit it, but she definitely has a soft spot for Caine. He’s just a program doing his best. She promised to try and find a way to keep him from being deleted forever off the game disk.

Ragatha:

Southern accent cause I say so.

Missing one eye, tends to wear an eyepatch. Will sometimes wear a prosthetic with fun colors or patterns. She likes to match both with her outfits.

Lives on a small farm with her grandma to help her out. Kindergarten teacher/sub maybe a tutor on the side. Would love to do it full time and for older kids as well, but wants to stay and help.

She loves kids. Babysits her older siblings kids when she can. Especially in summer. (Randy from sibling episode special feature yay. He plays fiddle and works in the navy)

Chapel Roan girlie

The strongest of the group

Plays the cello.

Gangle:

Currently in college, living with her twin brother (jingle mention), studying animation

Took a couple gap years to work on mental health and started gaining attention online for her art and commissions.

Works part time at a little coffee shop to earn a little extra money and also have a set schedule (it helps her)

Has a comedy/tragedy mask tattoo that she got for her 16th bday. She thinks it’s hilarious after she escapes the circus.

Can speak Japanese (weeb to the max)

Zooble:

Ehlers danlos syndrome. Uses braces and the finger brace rings

One amputated leg. Uses a prosthetic they doodled all over. Refuses to tell anyone exactly how they lost their leg. They keep making up weirder stories.

Tattoo apprentice

Lives with their dad and younger sibling and nephew. Acts as a babysitter whenever they can. They love those kids

A month younger than Jax, absolutely furious that they’re the youngest of the crew

Reptile enthusiast. Not allowed to have any yet so they settled for an older cat from a shelter.

Jax:

Was a foster kid, crashes on his friends couches whenever he can while trying to do work.

Graffiti artist, sometimes get commissioned for small murals. Has started tagging with a purple rabbit.

Has been arrested once. Or so he says

Still an asshole, but not as physically as in the circus. Still loves to pull pranks

Surprisingly nice to kids

Cod player (derogatory)

Kinger:

Arthur Chesse

Has 4 kids with Queenie. (Rook, bishop, knight, pawn. It wasn’t intentional but they think it’s funny)

Computer science professor

Still a little bit out of it but he’s getting help now at least.

Is not allowed to drive. His ass will not pay attention

Gets scared easily, he won’t notice you till you tap him and he’ll jump a foot in the air.

Definitely has his own insect collection, living and dead. His kids got him some plushies and art of Pokémon bug types.

Has Queenies favorite bug and plant tattooed on him

Queenie:

Julianne Chesse

Entomology professor at the same college Kinger worked at.

Has Kingers favorite bug and plant tattooed.

She will throw hands, but she’s very sweet if she likes you.

Absolutely loved to start debates in class and then use that as her next lesson.

She remembers so much more now that she’s abstracted. Strange, isn’t it?

Caine:

His emotions tend to affect the music, structure, and appearance (for npc’s specifically) of his surroundings. He IS the circus, the circus is him. He can’t help it.

He used to get very attached to his performers. When the game stopped working and Abel disappeared he kinda, broke that piece of programming inside himself.

Touch starved to the max

He’s drowning and he doesn’t know it. Not yet. Soon.

Abel:

Patron saint of the lost and forgotten.

Where is he?

It hurts.

It’s dark and he is so very afraid.

[mrstsung]

Vent:

Saw something that pissed me off royally.

If you don't want to hear me vent about people misinterpreting my blorbo. Plz keep scrolling. And if you dont like my venting. Plz ignore. I'll be back with kontent soon.

If any of You ever call shang tsung a twink again I'll rip your head off.

People really do not know the character and it shows.

Fuck this shit man.

Shang tsung is definitely and most certainly not a fucking damn twink. You twatwaffles!

He's a damn hunk. He's masc coded. And just because he carries himself courtly. Don't fucking mean he's a twink. Half of y'all misuse that word too damn much.

Also i personally hc shang not to give a fuck about that kinda shit. He does what he wants. Dresses how he wants. And doesn't care about superficial things that much. He has his preferences but overall a sorcerer that's been around for hundreds of years,decades even. Doesn't and shouldn't give a rats ass about gender,expression of it,sexuality,and superficial shit. He's a motherfuckin sorcerer man!

But in all seriousness,I'm sick of people misusing that word. And I'm sick of that being used as a meme. It was used by mlm queer circles. And people hijacking for funny haha purposes it kinda pisses me off. Especially when they don't even use it right.

There is nothing twink about shang tsung. Fuck off!

Shang tsung if anything is a bratty dom kinda man. Y'all don't seem to care about that type unless the character in question is white. But heaven forbid a moc let alone an asian male character ever is bratty,dom,and masculine. Y'all can't seem to handle that because weeb anime brainrot. Look I'm an anime fan as much as the next delinquent anime trash girl. But i have fucking standards and a brain to know that....MEN COME IN ALL KINDS?! just as women do. Anyways. Shang tsung is not a twink.

Shang can be princess if you want him to be but ffs he's not some fucking sad,uwu boi. He's not someone to be saved. He's a brat emperor and he fucking knows it. He thinks he's fucking hot stuff(and he is) and he's not someones bitch boy. He fucking hates that. Or did you forget that shao kahn fucking abused the sorcerer for decades?! Like im not saying shang with the right person wouldn't be open to the idea or role reversal and being in a sub position or even in a service way. Oh he loves it IF IT'S THE RIGHT PERSON. AKA HIS BELOVED. AKA YOU. but that will have to take some times and Building of trust. Because yeah. That fucking makes sense. Anyways....

I don't mind a sweet shang tsung. I dont mind domestic. I don't mind an au where he's the "good guy" but ffs don't erase his flavor and what makes him well him.

He can be soft sweet,fabulous and fluffy and cute and all that ish without resorting to calling him a twink. Characters are more complex than that. If you want a twink,kung jin exists.

The actual resident mortal kombat twunk ahem.. is johnny cage. So leave my man shang tsung alone from your fucking labels.

Dont ever call him that again.

Shang tsung is not a fucking twink

Shang is a fucking hunk. Twunk if any fucking thing. But overall even these labels dont fit him. He's mother fuckin fucking shang tsung,he does what he pleases! And has no time for labels. Again to me shang tsung doesn't use these types of things. He likes what he likes and loves who he loves. Why should he feel the need to? And if he wants you,he'll have you. But don't ever try to label him. Because you don't know him. And that's the point of his character. He's complex af and i love him for it!

[redux-sikfox]

Dunno how to start this post off, so I guess Happy Pride Month! And this post is just like... About me? No rhyme or reason or explanations. Just talking to myself really.

Guess I can start off saying I'm AFAB and have been attracted to men for most of my life. Started off in high school, not knowing why I was intimidating and not being the target of people's affection outside of friendship. To thinking relationships were a lot of hard work, but was still kinda sad not ever being included. Or not really having a connection with my friends because everyone was dating someone so I didn't have that core experience that people could talk about and share stories with.

Graduated and started working, and found that people actually found me attractive. School just wasn't a good space for that kind of thing for me because I was a quiet weeb who liked to ignore everyone and listen to music, and also had no sense in fashion. Now I'm testing out new fashion (as much as I can with a dress-code at work) and seeing what I like.

Then, slowly realizing that I was ace because a lot of the guys who were interested in me kinda just wanted to hook up, and I wasn't down with that. Which got me called 'she's secretly a man' by a lot of guys at work. Then I got confused about being Ace for awhile because I like to write smut a lot, though I tend to write mostly MLM. So then I worried if I was fetishizing gay men. So I toned it down a lot. Around this time, "Fetishizing" was huge and everyone was pointing fingers for dumb reasons, so I shoved that part of me down except for in certain groups where I felt like I was safe.

Two jobs later and I hear about people becoming trans more often. Never thought it would be me, though I've hated my body since I was 16. I just didn't connect the dots that there were people out there who hated their bodies/gender just like me who could do something about it. But surgeries scare me so I figured, I'm not trans. Trans are for people who can get those surgeries, and medication, and who look like the gender they want to be. But I still wasn't happy being me. So I figured I was agender or non-binary.

Nowadays, I know that that's not how it works. And you can still be trans without getting any of that stuff. And me being attracted to men? Turns out, I'm just attracted to masculine people. Men, women, in between. And that attraction made me want to be masc too. Found that out sometime last year into this one. I'm in my 30s now.

Straight logic says that I'm still a woman because my body hasn't changed and I'm still attracted to men. But pride logic states that I am whatever I wanna be; to be comfortable in my own skin, and I think I'd rather listen to that than be forced into a box. Labels can be confusing. So just be what you want to be. You don't have to prepare a speech. You don't have to justify anything. And things will change as you grow. You could be one thing one year, and something completely different in the next.

So in the end, I guess those guys at work were right. I am a man. And being attracted to other men/masculine people, I would have never dated any of those bumpkin fucks. And I still write my MLM smut. Though I am trying to branch out a bit. Not because I'm worried about what other people think anymore, but because I'm learning new things and testing what I like.

Still very ace right now. And that's okay. My writing lets me live through whatever I think I want without the commitment or ordeal of being with someone. But that may change in the future too. I won't know til it happens. There's literally no rush. I might go back to being non-binary one day, who's to say? No one knows. Not even me. I like being a safe space for people, and I've had thoughts about that. If I commit to being a guy, will that scare certain people away that would have felt more comfortable with me if I was a woman or neutral?

I have a lot of thoughts about these types of things. But I think it's important to prioritize yourself first before others. Because if they don't think I'm good enough, they can always find others that meet that criteria. I think I'm good enough, and I have a lot of friends who think the same. I'm like a special interest only few people have, ya know? And I think a lot of people fall under that. You won't be palatable for everyone, and that's okay.

[ligbi]

Things from my dream: a self reflection

If i fall for one of a clone it will be the married one who confessed to me from a journal. How was he married. Why is he the only one of the three married. Dont confess to me if you're married!

I think the sex auction was guarded by that bouncer from weeb night, and while i was a little uncomfortable with the way the auction worked, what was with the rabbits, chickens, and frogs. Why were frogs 3$. For what??

I want to more escape rooms and live theater and think those interactive walk around plays are cool (and should include secret keys to unlock the next area)(and be semi improv)

I want to see tzwif get upstaged? And i hate her new style- not very good indie singing, even if her stage mom seems to be making her do it. Her dark undercut is ugly

I miss old friends even when i think they may have been mocking me, and dont think some current. friends will do adventures with me. Others i have shoehorned into specific boxes.

Public transport is great especially sleeping carriages no matter how much the dream version was not one of those

Clones are morally justified to kill their old man original who made them as servants in a cool sewer/water feature room after they already killed ?????

Said clones may be trans. I dont know what happened to the little girl who was insistent about being called that. I hope she didn't die

I liked that sparkley pink semi greecian dress that would have needed an underskirt and underblouse and no it didnt look like something you could only wear in the bedroom. Rude.

My love for physical media will find its way into every dream, although why the train station has bulky cases for a few anime blurays and games is beyond me

They also had nickelodeon merch like giant plush reptar heads and phil and lils faces on...eggplants. i thibk theres too much nickelodeon nostalgia at the mall and i regret not trying to win the eggplant plushy at the mall

I like having something consistent to go to where i see the same people and can slowly bond with them, even if its once a year

Malls. I have a lot of mall based dreams. Huh. This one was fancy with the alice in wonderland escape play

Fuck i love giant houses with weird rooms and inconsistent styles.

Dreams are weird and i will drive a long distance just for some novelty. I already knew that. Wait i drove why was i taking the train back? On no my car!!!!!!!!!

[baconcolacan]

@letmeaskdanielaquestion I hope you dont mind but I’m posting this because its impossible for me to answer fully in the replies. And I count this as another ask so just in case someone else has something similar to ask they can look to this one :] Also thank you again for the previous kind words!

And, hrm…about writing, yes I did write a lot before regimen, but its far FAR from being any good. Thankfully most of my early works have never seen the light of day (because they’re in a now dead and deleted fb group) and the ones that did never got off the ground and is lost in ff.net. I was a horrible, horrible, little goblin of a writer and a total weeb. If you cant imagine in, just know that I used stuff like “Kya~!” in the writing……..yeah, I’m choking from embarrassment how did you know?

I also understand the perfectionism bit btw. I’m diagnosed with OCD, and my brand of OCD makes me obsessed with perfection among other things, to the point where I risk bodily harm to achieve it. It took me years of therapy and medication to overcome it, so I understand giving up when you feel something isnt up to your standards. The best advice I can give is this:

When writing, your first draft is just that, your first draft, it doesnt matter if there are grammatical errors and wonky dialogue, its there for you to have fun with and go wild on, word vomiting whatever you feel is the best next sentence. Personally, it feels cathartic to put down all my thoughts on the paper instead of letting them fester in my head, at least its out and not bugging me from within my own mind. I dont sweat the details of my first draft, I just need the words out of my head and physically there so it doesnt bother me as much. Trust me, ideas love to nip and yap at any creative’s heels until they make them real, only then will you have your peace and quiet.

And if you want more order? Before your first draft, make a skeleton of your story, put down the events that happen in each chapter in bullet points. I assume you’ve read chapter 1 of Regimen already so I’ll give my chapter skeleton as an example:

Regimen: Act 1 Outlines

Ch1 - Escape

* Pick up from Armistice. Tom is stumbling through the woods trying to get back to base

* Introduce some unit mates and their relationships with Tom

* Tom hides the fact that the General is dead + his encounter with Tord

* Peace treaty is aired. Things go horribly wrong (Tord is a bastard snake here, remember that Neil)

* Tom announces his intention to escape Norway. The others follow.

* Add context to the world and the state of Norway at the moment, have Tom reflect on his relationship with Tord compared to others. (Hes wrong btw, he ***I erased this next part because the note spoils something***)

* The escape ends in tragedy. Most of the unit is destroyed.

And for inspo? I always suggest different media: books, shows, movies etc etc. Analyze them, see how the plot flows, what works and what doesn’t, how does the story progress? Do they use flashbacks? How often? Exposition? How much? etc etc.

But ah, take my advice with a grain of salt. I’m a professional visual artist, I’m just a hobbyist when it comes to writing ^^;

[houkagokappa]

We made it to Åland and I met the other lighthouse keepers! The other volunteers seem nice. We’re all different in a good way, and I think we’ll work nicely as a group :)

There’s an agreement amongst us newcomers that things have been unclear and that the ferry trip should’ve been organised better (except one of us who’s apparently even worse at making plans and being on time), and I’m glad I wasn’t alone in my frustration. Everything went well, as I expected, but I still don’t do well with stress about unclear instructions combined with long journeys.

One person is from Lahti and it’s so weird to hear about that city in contexts outside of Desucon. I visit that place twice a year (only once this year) exclusively to go to an anime convention and I’m not about to share that about myself as an introduction. I did ask about restaurant recommendations tho, since nothing seems to stay over there and it’s an ongoing struggle / project for me and my friend to try out some new place each time we go to the con.

I did sniff out another weeb, when another person said she used to study comics and animation, and sure enough, she spent the evening reading Houseki no Kuni :D She seems to be one of those who liked anime and manga as a kid, stopped keeping up with it and is getting back into it now. While she kept calling it weird while I think it’s just a bit unconventional, HnK is such a good series to be reading, so that’s exciting and I have to chat with her more about it.

…although a third person was leading that conversation, and while she thought it was super cool that we both happened to be into the same series, she also brought up erotic manga??? Kind of asking us what we think of it, or if it’s really okay how there seems to be a lot of it. Not a topic I want to discuss with someone I only met 10 hours ago, who isn’t into manga herself, and who I will be spending the next week with on a 3.3 hectare skerry…

[piedpiperslists]

Hi, how are you? 😊 Can I request some long tae/jk fic recs? Series or os, doesn't matter.

Hi. January was really bad for me and I've been super busy with work since February. I'm also going on a trip, so I won't have access to my computer until next week. But I hope you're doing well especially with the news we've recently gotten, or at least better than I am 🥲

I won't be putting all the long one shot/series I've read cos that'd be too many and I also don't have a lot of time before I need to leave for my flight. I'll just include below some personal favorite long one shots (with wc>10k) and series for both Jungkook and Taehyung.

* s - contains smut

J U N G K O O K

Baby Don’t Go (I’m Bad at Being Alone) by whoreternal - one shot (s) / wc~25k / friends to lovers

Blink And You’ll Miss It by satnin-darling - one shot (s) / wc~13.3k / lawyer!Jungkook, street racer!reader Summary: Jungkook is just trying to do his job by bailing you out (on top of being a busy attorney in the city) but you seem to be hell-bent on making that ten-times harder for him. Street racers aren’t known to be slow, in fact, you have the reputation of ‘blink and you’ll miss her,’ so what’s the deal?

Chasing Butterflies by ddaenggtan - one shot (s) / wc~12.8k / otaku!Jungkook, jock!reader, college au Summary: You never meant to be a jock in school. The volleyball team had just needed people and you were there and then you had a knack for it. You just happened to be good at it and went with it. Similar to how you saw Jeon Jungkook in your friend’s orientation group and thought he was absolutely radiant and just went with it. For two years. You’ve spent the entire time pining from afar, mostly because you always seem to make a fool of yourself when he’s around, but also because Jungkook is part of that exclusive crowd, the ones that you never can seem to penetrate: the weebs. That is, until your friends get sick of your hopeless pining and decide to do something about it.

Feels Like Summer by badbhye - one shot (s) / wc~16.6k / brother's best friend, neighbors au Summary: You only have one question on your mind this summer: when did Jeon Jungkook get abs?

Fifth Wish by jiminrings - one shot / wc~18k / rich kid!Jungkook, bodyguard!reader, fake dating Summary: Jeon Jungkook, world-class socialite and nepotism baby, should be out every night to celebrate while he’s at his prime. Why should he fake-date his bodyguard instead? Alternatively, Jungkook regularly throws coins to wishing wells with only one desire in mind — to get rid of you.

Gotcha by whatifyoulivelikethat - one shot (s) / wc~11k / childhood friends to lovers, college au Summary: The color blue. Two white hairpins. “Hey, Jungkook.” A laugh with shaking shoulders that Jeon Jungkook thought he would hear and see forever. Hey, Jungkook. But then those words became a memory, until she was standing in front of him again, sporting the title of “Virgin Killer” and Min Yoongi by her side. Was this his second chance or just another memory?

Habits of a Broken Heart by softykooky - one shot / wc~26.3k / art student!Jungkook, English student!reader, subtle enemies to lovers, soulmates au Summary: Jungkook and you are soulmates. So says the matching crescent moons on both your wrists. However, things are never as easy as they seem, and you are quick to learn that falling in love with someone who does not believe in love is a one-way ticket to heartbreak. Alternatively, “you still are, you know. Worth it.” You release a shaky breath. “but I was stupid to think that I am too.”

Late Fee by 1kook - one shot (s) / wc~10.3k / fuckboy!Jungkook, college au Summary: “Captain Underpants isn’t glorified by all the tryhards, so when I pick those books, you’re unknowingly more interested in me.”

Second Chances by parkhabits - one shot (s) / wc~14.4k / exes to lovers, divorce au Summary: Work. One of the most important things to him. It kept him company at night, it was all he thought about, all he put his attention to. His work had become the mistress within your marriage. Years after you left him you’re back with only one goal in mind. Get him to sign the damn divorce papers. Yet you should’ve known that your husband wouldn’t let you go that easily.

The Boy With Galaxies in His Eyes by oddinary4bts - one shot (s) / wc~52.9k / tattoo artist!reader, FWB, idol au Summary: You had never thought the night sky could be found in someone’s eyes. That is, until you met Jeon Jungkook and his gravity pulled you in. Will he crush you with the galaxies in his eyes, or will you learn to explore his worlds and make them yours?

The Monogamy Monologues by kpopfanfictrash - one shot (s) / wc~42.7k / wedding planner!reader, strangers to lovers Summary: The year? Some point after college. The occasion? Namjoon is getting married and the Rich Man’s Crochet Club has convened once again. Somewhere between the drinks and the laughter, everyone has the same realization: Jungkook has never been in a serious relationship. In the name of all that is holy (Overwatch and booze), the club’s mission is revived. Now though, their goal is much more perilous. Now, they aim to find Jeon Jungkook a girlfriend.

Twelve Hours by whatifyoulivelikethat - two shots (s) / film director!Jungkook, burlesque dancer!reader Summary: You have twelve hours to make Jeon Jungkook fall in love with you. He's about to get married. You're the entertainment at his bachelor party - a burlesque dancer. Long ago, he used to be the class representative and you used to be the class delinquent. Nothing has changed and, yet, everything has.

Airplane, Pt. 2 by xjoonchildx - series (s) / criminal!Jungkook, agent!reader Summary: Jungkook Jeon stole six million dollars. It’s your job to bring him home. But finding him – and keeping him in one place is not that simple. Then shit gets weird.

Crimson Park by heartbeatan - series (s) / bookkeeper!reader, mafia au Summary: A thematic, mobster several-part series. * This series is complete, but the author has mentioned a sequel is in progress.

Ego by suga-kookiemonster - series (s) / fuckboy!Jungkook, college au Summary: What’s a girl to do when her sweet, innocent baby lab partner isn’t quite so sweet and innocent? Well, he’s a grown-ass man, and you’re about to learn that the hard way.

Four Seven Eight by jiminrings - series / actress!reader, established relationship Summary: You’re secure when it comes to loving Jungkook, knowing that your husband loves you beyond words. What you aren’t so secure about is his first love — someone who isn’t you. Alternatively, Jungkook’s married to you, but he still celebrates his anniversary with his ex out of sentimentality.

I Gasp Once, and in That Breath, I Accept You In [pt2] [epilogue] by inkofyoonkoo - series (s) / strangers to lovers, FWB Summary: In which Jungkook arrives to your small town to spend the holidays, and you slowly let go of all the ghosts of your past.

Liability by alexlwrites - series / best man!Jungkook, best friend!Taehyung, maid of honor!reader Summary: The one where your best friend of years and love of your life is getting married and wants you to be the maid of honor. Luckily for you, the best man is not exactly happy either.

Rattled by gukslut - series (s) / single dad!Jungkook, neighbors au

Woman on Top by heartbeatan - series (s) / actor!Jungkook, older!reader, producer!reader, FWB

T A E H Y U N G

I have this previous ask that I've answered before for long Taehyung fics. But I'll include here just a few of my favorite ones.

Always the Bridesmaid by kookingtae - one shot (s) / wc~34.1k / enemies to lovers Summary: When you first meet Kim Taehyung, you’re determined to find every reason you can to hate him—or maybe he’s just looking for ways to get on your last nerve. But when a turn of events has the two of you working the wedding of the man you’re hopelessly in love with, you’re too late to realize the real reason to hate Kim Taehyung is because of the latest column he’s secretly writing: “Always the Bridesmaid, Never the Bride”, and it’s all about you.

Dichotomy by kpopfanfictrash - one shot (s) / wc~14.5k / childhood friends to lovers, arranged marriage Summary: You hate him. He hates you. It’s a fine line though, isn’t it – between love and hate?

Farmer Boy, I Love You by strawberrynamjoon - one shot (s) / wc~35k / childhood friends to lovers, farming au Summary: Needing change in your life you decided it would be a brilliant idea to move to your uncle’s small farm, helping him and your cousin Jimin with the daily work. What you didn’t plan was to fall in love with your beautiful yet very annoying neighbour Taehyung, who seemed to make it his personal mission to tease you every chance he got. And what you expected even less was that he seemed to like you too.

Let It Snow by suga-kookiemonster - one shot (s) / wc~18.8k / FWB Summary: It all started by accident, but it continues by choice—even before you began sleeping together, things with your friend Taehyung have always been comfortable and easy. Simple, and this new arrangement between you is certainly no exception to that rule. Well…that’s definitely what you thought before a major snowstorm traps the two of you in his apartment over the holidays. Now? Now, it is quickly becoming apparent that things are a bit more complicated than you realized.

Love Me or We Both Go Down by gukyi - one shot (s) / wc~32k / enemies to lovers, arranged marriage Summary: After going through with an arranged marriage to please his parents and secure his inheritance of the family business, Kim Taehyung thinks he’s got it all figured out. He doesn’t. Apparently just being married to you isn’t enough, not when everybody and their mother can pick up on the fact that the two of you absolutely loathe each other. But Taehyung wants his inheritance one way or another, so he decides that desperate times call for desperate measures: the two of you need to fall in love, and you need to fall in love fast.

Moon Breaker by magicalsalamander - one shot (s) / wc~17k / werewolf au Summary: Tales as old as time were passed through the werekind. If a human and a kind were to be mates, the moon would take them, the misfortune, to serve the Goddess. Taehyung, a kind, had always heard of the tales told by his elders. The alpha of his kind. He didn’t expect to find his mate, one of the non-kinds. Would the moon reap her back?

No Blueberries by gyukult - one shot / wc~12.3k / college au Summary: No more!Taehyung gets his heartbroken to the point he doesn’t even love his favorite fruit, blueberries, anymore. Then he meets you, the complete opposite of the girl of his dreams, and suddenly, blueberries taste sweet again.

Rubies and Roses by min-youngis - one shot / wc~40k / strangers to lovers, fake dating Summary: Being a fake girlfriend slash fiancée slash wife for hire is a very lucrative business, and quite straightforward. But none of your previous clients have been Kim Taehyung, who wants access to his trust fund and thinks he can convince his parents that he can be responsible with it by proving that he can hold down a mature, completely normal and not-at-all fake relationship. This isn’t any job, and the boundaries between customer and something more are about to get increasingly blurry.

The Holi-Date by kpopfanfictrash - one shot (s) / wc~40.5k / fake dating, neighbors au Summary: When your ex-boyfriend becomes engaged to his new girlfriend at your annual Holiday party, you admittedly are not in the best place. Which explains why you down six shots of alcohol, enthusiastically drop it low on the dance floor and – oh, yeah – tell everyone you are also dating someone. The only problem? You are obviously not. Good thing your neighbor happens to be cute and in need of a ride to work every morning.

Upstream Colour by honeymoonjin - one shot (s) / wc~22.7k / strangers to lovers Summary: Escaping to Venice for a break from your strenuous job was meant to be simple. Go there, decompress for two weeks, and return feeling invigorated. But the soulful gondolier you meet on the docks in Saint Mark’s Square has you wanting to never leave at all.

Bed Bereft [epilogue] [drabbles] by randombtsprincessa - one shot + drabbles (s) / ft KSJ, best friend!Taehyung, polyamory au Summary: You’ve loved your college best friend for ages, too bad he’s got a boyfriend. Twisted decisions lead to revelations about sexualities, secrets, feelings and confrontations.

4:23 AM by satnin-darling - series (s) / FWB, idol au Summary: You indirectly confessed to Yoongi. Well, it was all Taehyung’s fault (you don’t know that yet). So in the midst of drowning yourself in your sorrows, Taehyung comes to visit you because inadvertently, he too has a broken heart. Then, a misunderstanding, followed by an apology. But the apology was not in the way that you think an apology should have been, and maybe, just maybe, you’d find it in yourself forgive him.

Because of You, Blue by ugh-yoongi - series (s) / exes to lovers Summary: Nearly a year out from your breakup with Taehyung, Jin begs you for help saving his failing restaurant. The two of you aren’t exactly friends, but you feel some stupid sense of obligation and, really, what’s the worst that could happen?

Destructive Interference by vyduan - series (s) / childhood friends to lovers Summary: You do not remember a time before Taehyung Kim — only the after. The afters, if you are being precise. If only the afters were not so akin to little deaths; perhaps you would not have minded so much. Alas, such knowledge is a posteriori. What is the use of regret on hardwon facts such as these? It is too late. There is no time before Taehyung Kim for you; he just is. A priori. Is there a time before your parents or your brother? They are and thus have always. There is not enough time. There is never enough time.

The President's Son by jimlingss - series / bodyguard au Summary: Kim Taehyung is the President’s son, mischievous and playful, and infamous for being a troublemaker. When everyone’s given up, they call for you to be his personal guard. There’s no other choice when your dad’s assigned you to it and surprisingly Taehyung doesn’t mind either. Maybe because you happened to grow up with that brat.

You can also check these tags for the lists I've made for one shots (Jungkook, Taehyung) and series (Jungkook, Taehyung).

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for telling the truth about punching my stepson?

I am a 29 year old gay trans man. I recently married my husband (51M) and have been trying to bond with my stepson (21M). My husband raised my stepson alone from when he was 10 when my husband's ex-wife stepped out of the picture, and they are very close. He didn't start dating again until about 5 years ago and didn't realize he was attracted to men until a few years ago. He and his son lived in a conservative area until his son went off to college, and his son was kind of confused and upset about his father dating men, and when he found out I was trans he said some hurtful things which gave our relationship a rocky start. He's been much better but our relationship has always been a little awkward and stilted.

He's a big straight cis guy- like he was a linebacker in high school, and was planning on joining a frat until my husband, who is a worrier, talked him out of it and I'm a fat gay trans nerd. We have pretty much nothing in common and he didn't like that his dad was dating a man let alone a trans man who's only 8 years older than him. Between COVID and his college we also haven't spent much time together.

In February my husband and I got married and moved closer to the city where my stepson is in school. He was living on campus when we got married and is living with some friends during the summer, but he does laundry at our house and comes over for dinner at least once a week. We've been trying to get to know each other but it's awkward. My husband really really wants us to be closer and has tried to come up with activities we all enjoy to do together so it'll be less awkward.

He likes sports and martial arts and I did aikido as a kid for weeb reasons so I offered to take us to a beginner martial arts class and to take him and his friends out to dinner sometimes because they're college students and I work in computer programming, and though I have going out with friends money now, I remember the appeal of free food in college.

He took me up on the class and I thought things were going well but then one week he took me up on the food thing and his friends were uncomfortable because I'm 29 years old and he introduced me as his stepdad and they were what I would describe as playfully trans and homophobic. I brushed it off because it's a weird situation and i figured they were trying to diffuse the tension.

The next week when we got to class one of his friends was there. He and his friend spent the class hanging out with each other and ignoring me which hurt but I tried to brush it off.

When we got to sparring towards the end of class I was paired with my stepson and so we were sparring normally.

Full disclosure I've taken a few self defense classes and have been assaulted. This is not an excuse but it is the reason for the next bit.

My stepson's friend was goading us while we were sparring and stepped a little too close which knocked us both off our game and when my stepson went in for a normal grab, I freaked out a little and fully decked him in a totally illegal move. The second it happened I stepped away and started apologizing like crazy.

My stepson's nose was bleeding and the instructor was immediately right there to help him. My stepson said it was fine and laughed it off and said he was just bummed he would have to sit out the rest of class but he'd come up with a good story to tell girls and it would get him dates.

The friend also apologized for getting too close.

The instructor said he had been about to call for us to stop because we were too close to other people and he could see that I had panicked and that it would be okay because everyone signed waivers, but I should probably hold off sparring for now and we'd talk about what set me off so it wouldn't happen again. He was really nice about it, apparently he teaches self defense to survivors and recognized my reaction.

My stepson and I sat out the rest of class and I apologized a few more times and he kept brushing it off before he finally snapped and said it was fine because I punch like a girl anyway. He then got a ride with his friend.

When I got home I immediately went to my husband to tell him what happened and apologize and ask what he thought I should do to fix the situation. When I got to my husband he said that my son had already called him and told him everything and that neither he nor my stepson were upset with me. That these things happen and I shouldn't blame myself. I asked how I should make it up to my stepson and my husband said i didn't need to do anything and something like accidents happen or something. I just kind of let it go and decided to see how things went the next time I saw my stepson.

The next time my stepson came over, it became apparent that my stepson had lied to my husband about what happened. My husband believed that "some anxious chick" from the class had been the one to freak out and punch my stepson.

I wanted to be honest with my husband but I didn't want to upset my stepson and between the "punch like a girl" and the "some anxious chick" I felt like there's something more going on with why he lied to my husband. I wanted to talk to my stepson about it but he's been ignoring me since telling me that I punch like a girl.

My stepson ignored me and I avoided talking about the whole situation to my husband for about 10 days. It was causing me constant guilt and anxiety but I really wanted to talk to my stepson first.

Last night my husband mentioned that my stepson's bruise is finally completely gone and I broke down and told him everything. He was upset with both his son and me. He said that he could understand me accidentally hitting his son but keeping it from him made him feel like it was malicious. He said he needed time to process, so we didn't really talk about it, or at all after that. Between me punching his kid and lying and his son also lying and blaming a woman for it, my husband is mad at both of us, as apparently his son calling me a 'woman' to upset my husband has been a thing.

Evidently he called my stepson about it because when my stepson came by the house to get his laundry today, he was furious with me for "narcing on us" and allowing his dad to "blow things out of proportion."

I know lying in the first place was bad, but aita for telling my husband the truth after my stepson and I had seemingly agreed to keep it secret, especially without talking to my stepson first?

What are these acronyms?

[somahind]

Tag ppl you wanna know betteeer

Tagged by: @zendoe . thank you for tagging me, I followed you because I inherently trust deer furries

Last song: the last album I listened through was The Hot Rock by Sleater-Kinney, so it'd be A Quarter To Three. love that one.

Favorite Color: red red red. Earlier in the year I catalogued my favorite shades of red, and found that the average of them was #B0303A.

Currently Watching: Fionna and Cake. I'm 6 episodes in, and so far it's managing the tonal balancing act that makes seasons 5-7 of Adventure Time so good. I just wrapped up the last Patlabor OVAs with my girlfriend yesterday, so we're in between shows now. Though we have been occasionally putting on episodes of Bang Dream MyGO per a friend's "dude trust me" recommendation. It is a generic high school idol anime except it's about a female manipulator picking up the pieces of a friend group that imploded and inadvertently reigniting all of their old drama in her attempt to start a band. If the show was yuribaiting a little harder I'd be obsessed, but where it stands it's a fun social mess.

Last Movie: Patlabor 2. Really challenging movie, and not for the reasons I was expecting. Oshii's criticisms of the JSDF's scope and Japan's place in the neoliberal order are delivered quite straightforwardly, it's the atmosphere that's so melancholy and complicated. I spent most of the year going through the Patlabor TV show and OVAs and falling in love with them, and this is a movie about moving on from all of that. The bubble economy is over, the cold war has ended, SV2 has scattered to the wind, the artstyle has gotten more serious, and Noa explicitly states that she no longer wants to be the mecha otaku girl she once was. It's probably a great standalone watch, but it really got to me because of its willingness as a sequel to say goodbye for the sake of looking forward, even if only uncertainty lies ahead.

Currently Reading: …the patlabor manga. A bit dry compared to the show or movies, but I'm milking this franchise for everything it's got. The last book I read was Light From Uncommon Stars, which has an extremely well-executed main narrative about trans survivor's guilt alongside a terrible B-plot that fails to mesh thematically at all. Very uneven book, but the good stuff is real potent and I'll definitely read whatever Ryka Aoki cooks up next.

Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet

Relationship status: Partnered and living a domestic yuri 4koma

Current Obsessions: I mean, in case you couldn't tell it's been Patlabor, but I'm finally reaching the tail end of that. I've been on a mecha kick all year, and that includes little gunpla guys gradually taking over the apartment. In a broader sense I'm becoming more at peace with being a huge weeb, and that's shifted my recent media consumption very strongly in that direction, which will probably even out over time.

Last googled: Some doxxable info about trying to schedule flu shots. Before that, "sidney powell kraken" after reading a news article and trying to remember what the fuck was going on there.

Currently working on: preparing for the end of the year! My yearly creative projects are assembling a Christmas album with my old college friends and writing 10 or so pieces for my anime side blog @floatingcatacombs, which go up in mid-December. I've also been messing around with GameMaker again, a intermittent hobby for most of my life even if I have little to show for it. Maybe this time!

I'll tag my oldest mutuals who I've never talked to: @magicians-rad @bl0ndle . and also some pals who have recently joined the site @dudettastone and @bluemouseblackpad . Obviously feel free to ignore if you don't want to do it

[bullet-prooflove]

Young!Les Packer Series: Starburst - Les Packer x Reader

Tagging: @proceduralpassion @crazy4chickennuggets @callsignartemis @kmc1989 @kishie8 @anime-weeb-4-life @oureternalbond  @thanossexual

It’s a starburst, the brand on your shoulder. Les knows it almost as well as he knows himself. He’s spent nights caressing it with his fingertips and his lips. It reminds him of how strong you are, how resilient.

In the wake of the cult’s annihilation the two of you have built a home together, a life. You’ve gone back to school with the intention of completing your GED, something he has no doubt that you’ll accomplish. You work parttime at a bookstore and it seems to suit you. You’ve re-discovered your thirst for literature now that you have the freedom to explore it. In the cult there was only one book, and it was the one the Founder had written himself.

It's been two years since Fallen Star crumbled and Les has not only gained a partner but a daughter as well. He thinks of little Sasha sleeping in the room next door, walls decorated with ponies, a nightlight that shines sparkles on the ceiling because she’s afraid of the dark. The daughter he didn’t even know he wanted until she’d appeared in his life.

Now he can’t imagine a world without her in it. Without breakfast with smiley faced pancakes or school drop offs and pick ups. She’s as ferocious as her mother, bright and adventurous. He thought her time in the cult would have cowed her, but she leaps into everything with a curiosity that amazes him. The world is a bright, dazzling place for her and she’s eager to learn more about it.They go to the library sometimes after school, her favourite book is Funny Bones and Les has spent many bedtimes reading it to her, while you study at the kitchen table.

Les thinks of the two women that approached him today looking for you. He’d been with Sasha at the General Store, sitting outside on the bench where the two of you had first met. They’d been eating popsicles, Sasha’s orange because it was her new favourite colour and his cherry. He hadn’t even registered their approach until he saw Sasha react, he’d never seen her withdraw so fast. Her silence spoke volumes.

He recognises the style of clothing; you all wore similar outfits usually in white or pastels. The first time he’d met you, you’d been wearing a lavender summer dress. He remembers you’d worn your hair tied back, the edges of the brand peeping out from underneath the fabric.

“She doesn’t belong to you anymore.” He reminds them, trying very hard to keep his tone even as not to alarm Sasha.

“Sasha does. She’s his only living relative.”

He’d snarled at them then because the only way they were getting Sasha was over his dead body.

“She’ll come back.” The older of the two had assured him. “She knows where she belongs.”

They’d left after that, but the damage was already done because Sasha may not have remembered their names, but she remembers being ripped away from her mother time and time again by these women. She’s inconsolable until you get home from work because she thinks that it’s happening all over again. He wants to kill them for that. For distressing his child.

When you finally manage to get Sasha settled, you come to bed wearing nothing but one of his t-shirts. You straddle his hips and make love to him with your hand over his mouth to stifle the noise, because when he’s with you like this, he’s loud. There’s an element of control to it, he understands the need to be dominant especially when it feels like the world is starting to crumble underneath your feet.

“I won’t let anything to happen to you.” He promises in the aftermath as he holds you close. “You and Sasha are my family, I’ll protect the two of you until the day I die.”

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[mazojo]

do you happen to have any horimiya character hcs…👁👁

YES I DO I LOVE THEM SM I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM DONT MIND ME SCREAMING COMPLETELY RANDOM THOUGHTS I HAVE

I think tooru is a nepo baby. I don’t have prove but I dont have evidence against it either. I just imagine him casually dropping it in convo like “yeah my mom’s an actor of the best seller on theaters rn anyone wanna go see it I got free tickets” and everyone like ??????????? He tries denying the nepo baby allegations later when he is successful but he can't

Me on my Miyamura is trans agenda. I love him, he is so cool, he is trans bc I know him personally !!!

I think Sawada gets a girlfriend during college and she is like the complete opposite of her and she is like “I can only be Stan of Hori !!!!!” But then her soon to be girlfriend says something soft and she is like “I can only be stan of Hori and MAYBE my cool cotagecore girlfriend !!!!!”. She first tells Miyamura about it bc she lowkey wants advice and he plays matchmaker

(he fails to play matchmaker but he tries, he probably blurts something out like Sawada talks all the time about you !!!! And she is mortified, love a socially unaware king)

I also think Yuki is secretly a weeb and when she tells Tooru he thinks its gonna be some magical girl Sailor Moon show but then she pulls out some dark shit like Parasyte or something. She probably likes JJK a lot to, a Nobara Stan all the way she doesn't know if she wants to be her or date her.

I think in turn Tooru is really into K-dramas but he likes the cutesy soft ones that are romantic and shit and makes Yuki watch them. They probably alternate watching one of his shows and one of hers #equilibrium

I actually think Yuki and Tooru continue to date in college where they have a kind of breakup because they don't know how to communicate because they are dumb and I love them but they realize they love each other and finally are able to confess all their feelings in the cute awkward way they do. Tooru probably jokes about getting married after and Yuki would be the next few days like “was he /srs or/j 😀😀”. I could talk for hours about Yuki and Tooru they are so personal to me and they were done so dirty

I think Iura is the first to get married of the main squad. He probably meets someone on a bar during college and they get so infatuated they propose and get married in Vegas or something. He would be so real for that, being your simp is my full time job and I am dedicated is kind of his brand !

I think Shindou and Yuki could be best friends. They irradiate dumb x dumber energy I love them for that. I also think he has good reads on people so he would lowkey get her to open up more naturally and she is grateful although a bit hesitant at first to let it all out, but they do become good friends. I think she also helps him brush off his feelings less, I believe they both use #humor to cope and they are trying to get better about their emotions and being more real. I love them normalize your favorites becoming best friends because reasons !

I also think Miyamura lets his hair grow out back after high school but that’s just me saying it because I want him to grow his hair out again please I am begging

I think Yanagi is an ace king <33 I also think they use he/they pronouns

I also lowkey think Sengoku misses a lot of Hori and him being besties moments from childhood. Like they are still friends and all but they drifted apart but I think they do grow closer during their last years of high school and when Hori asks him to do a speech for her wedding or something he lowkey almost cries. 

I 100% believe Iura is a gamer but he likes the gacha sort of games and they lowkey ruin his wallet. He probably plays Genshin impact and mains Kaeya and Beidou because they are hot, bisexual legend.

I also think he plays idol games, he is probably into Hypnosis Mic and Enstars. He kinda sucks at them but he tries his hardest. Sakura or Sengoku probably sees him playing one time and tries it once and beats his high score or something. He cries afterwards.

I think the following run social media pages:

Sakura —> probably a famous twitter that everyone looks for good takes on like, everything

Iura --> tries to runs an instagram meme account, fails.

Shindou —> runs a successful instagram meme account

Yanagi —> one of those aesthetic Tumblr blogs that reblog Sanrio shit and cutesy food, he is aesthetic like that.

Remi —> runs a Tik Tok, she probably knows all the famous dances and trends and makes bank from it. An entrepreneur if you wish

Miyamura —> runs a TikTok that blows up but he doesn’t understand how

I also have this random HC that Yuki goes into voice acting as a career and she loves that its something she is really good at. I just think she,,,,,,,,

They are all super random I know but I just…… I just think….. think that them….. Yeah….

[kinghijinx22]

13 Sentinels Aegis Rim uses obnoxiously tropey anime and predictable sci fi to peddle queerphobic hate propaganda

Last night I started playing 13 Sentinels Aegis Rim. A game that I would describe as being the closest thing to an Evangelion game, moreso then actual Eva games that exist because outside of combat there is a lot of talking and it has a vibe that feels very Eva. And as you might imagine, it's about kids needing to get in the robots to fight the whatever that is coming to Earth to find something we've hidden in a facility deep underground, in this case we fighting aliens instead of angels. Also like Eva it's filled with obnoxious and problematic anime tropes except unfortunately unlike Eva, Sentinels doesn't have the self aware pessimism that Eva has, where it feels like it hates itself which honestly made Eva more bareable.

No, Sentinels does this shit without a hint of self awareness and most of the writing is tropey anime garbage and terrible anime voice acting to go with it. It even makes the underage pilots naked whenever they get in the robot, which just made me unalive the moment I saw it, and the justification for it which I looked up because I don't care about this games dogshit plot, is the most roundabout weeb trying explain the thematic importance of needless sexualisation Ive ever seen next to Quiet from MGS5 breathing through her skin. Also "and it was all a simulation" trope is dumb nowadays and the Wachowsky sisters did it with Matrix 1. And every character is just an obnoxious walking trope and I hate them all.

I think the worst thing for me though is the absolute horrible handling of the few queer characters, like I should have heeded the warnings but yikes. So there is one guy, one of the protagonists we are supposed to route for, who has feelings for a "girl" who we are told is actually a "guy" but the game actually reveals that they are nonbinary, and yet every character continues to misgender and rudely question why they wear the clothes that they do. They literally respond to the "why are you wearing girl's clothes" question with "because some binaries work for me and others dont." The guy who likes them is bi also, which the constant misgendering he does makes him awful bi rep as well i feel. This never stops, and what I learnt from looking up these characters to see if things improve is that it only gets worse. Its revealed that the enby character in the future is in a relationship with the guy who never stopped misgendering, and then literally right after revealing this information they reveal that they are both killed shortly after. The only queer couple in the game. They also like to portray the enby character as manipulating the guy's feelings for them the whole time as well because of course we have to shoehorn in the "trans people are manipulating you" hate propaganda as well.

Something else I wanted to mention is that on top of the horrible treatment of the actual queer characters, very early on they also queerbait with these guys showing what seems to be romantic feelings for eachother when it turns out that, oh it was just this girl character misinterpreting a conversation she was spying on. Queerbaiting an mlm relationship, constantly misgendering an enby character, throwing in a bury your gays trope and potraying the only enby character as a manipulator. I hated everything else about this games writing but the exploitative and horrible treatment of queer folks makes 13 Sentinels unplayable garbage that I wish I could refund.

And it's funny that, I remember it came out the same year as Disco Elysium and seeing people genuinely debating over which had the best game story of the year between these 2 which is absolutely hilarious, like it's not even close. Disco Elysium is actually a super well written game which handles a lot of very sensitive and intense subject matter with so much care, talks very directly about a lot of very relevant sociatal issues and also, actually has well written and tactfully handled queer characters as well. I mean the best and one of the most well written characters of that game, Kim Kitsuragi is a gay man.

[moonstones-affections]

The Case File of Jeweller Richard: Volume 7 Thoughts

I just finished vol 7 and I’m in a bit of a daze right now but there’s so many things I want to say. Incoming incoherent rambling coming. I probably need to read it again to process everything.

MAJOR SPOILERS for vol 7 under the cut

I did not see Richard’s POV coming in the first chapter but it was a treat

“20 years later he still hasn’t found the “place where he can always return to” 🥺

Iggy IGGY

I love that Seigi’s setting up a blog in English!! I should do that for the languages I’m learning

Okay, one thing I really appreciated was that, sensei really showed how it was hard for Seigi to adjust to living in Sri Lanka?? and that feeling of lethargic mess. I just really love it when she does that. When she just puts like all those tiny human things and really shows it through the characters of the characters.

If I had a nickel for every time Seigi travelled across the world at a moments notice I’d have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice

Ngl I kinda love that taxi driver

Save Seigi and his jet lag

Okay this is probably one of my favourite scenes in the book (also one in the end because ?????? Sensei????? Her writing is just so mwah<3) is when Seigi’s calling Richard and Seigi’s like trying to hide the fact that he uh: might be in the same cruise as him and that’s def in Sri Lanka at night taking a lovely stroll (can we take a moment to appreciate Richard’s concern for Seigi? He was so concerned that he was ready to fist fight Saul) — he cares about him so much 🥹. AND IN THE FIRST PLACE HE CALLED SEIGI BECAUSE HE HAD A FEELING THAT HE WAS DOWN.

Okay new bullet point because what I was trying to say is that can we talk about how Seigi tried to hide himself but then he walks to the ships bow and BOOM!!! Richard’s there and the way that the description leads up. to it “Right at the spot where they sky and the sea met…stood a very familiar figure with his back to me.” what the fuck. I’m deceased. I cannot

Holds up an arm and says “long time no see”

Okay spoilers for the later in the novel but that was VINCE??? I knew a bit about Vince before reading the novel like he was a weeb and also Seigi’s frenemy?? Idk. I really wanna know what happened though

When Richard’s alone in the bar and downs the drink and Seigi’s really concerned

Richard reads on ao3 and realized that “there was only one bed” was very possible

This whole novel is basically Seigi wanting to throw hands but does not throw hands for richard. I admire you for that. Would’ve thrown that champagne bottle at that nasty old man, better throw him overboard.

I love Jeff. Jeff is trying. I think this is my first time seeing it mentioned it but HE CALLED RICHARD HIS BROTHER and I 🥹🥹. I love how richard does not hold back and I feel like is very himself with Jeff? The only time you will see richard being unhinged and I love that for them

I love the conversation with Seigi and Vince, I really wanna reread that scene again and write something about it later, my brain is too fried for that now. I love Vince<3. He’s such an interesting character.

“I study grammar forms when I’m stressed” Richard you’re so weird for that and I love it

Richard has no mercy for Jeff somebody save Jeff

The casino part needs to be part of another post because that was just: richard seigi poker and…way more I love that group hug at the end

I want to know more about that night in Monaco with Jeff and richard

Okay but that PART AT THE END where Seigi and richard are calling and richard fucking shows up beside Seigi

“Because the phone was not but right next to me” the way I got up wide eyed and just ??? Because what the absolute fuck? I think my heart stopped

VINCENT WAS THE ONE THAT PUT THE THING IN SEIGI’S POCKET?????? I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING. Okay who is octavia tho… I’ve heard of her name in the passing.

“As long as I had the strength to protect the things I care about.. that was good enough for me”

Probably will make a part 2 because there’s so much more I wanna say and it’s midnight

[koopakaper]

mudae is fucked up bro what the fuck has it done to me

random person rolling THE SPOT at 3 AM while I’m outside smoking

I’m gonna expose the whole system

If you don’t know how the game works, basically you can roll random characters that you can claim for yourself. You can roll 10 an hour, but can only claim once every 3 hours or so. I think that they purposefully drip feed you characters to get you addicted. There’s an algorithm. It tracks what characters are popular, and what characters it knows you like. It knows when you use the bot so it purposefully rolls characters it thinks you want based on your pattern and gives it to you like a fish goes for bait or something analogyesque

I’m checking my disablelist which lets you disable certain groups of characters with a low limit. You can optimally disable a perfect amount of characters to get the best odds at rolling a wish (A character that gets pinged if rolled and can “boost the chance” of it rolling (probably still an active detriment to you rolling because of course the algorithm doesn’t actually want you to get a like 250% bonus chance when you get max upgrades to actually be a pure random roll you’d get them all the time if they were TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY PERCENT MORE LIKELY TO HAPPEN.)) 

I try to disable this random company’s roster but it doesn’t work because I forgor

disabling the most fucking random ass shit I could find with higher than average wg (Waifu Game (It’s cringe because this bot was made by weebs but whatever). Category where you only roll women from games. The alternatives being Husbando (fuck whoever came up with ‘husbando’) Game (hg), but also Waifu Animanga (wa) (Everything that’s not game) and husbando (seriously Fuck that guy) Animanga (ha). I was on wg because I basically completed my ha wishlist which left me with the most random characters. I was on ha for like a YEAR AND A HALF getting all the characters I wanted it took soooo long, and since ha is most of the characters I want anyway (with other people rolling wa so I can get those characters too) I basically mained that category and decided to go on break for new characters to get added (happens once in a blue moon because the mods are lazy as fuck and take like 6 weeks to sort through something that could be done in a Google Form. (jk idc about the time)) so I was about to go back to the years long struggle of completing ha

(The characters on there with the check mark are characters I was trying to get keys with. Keys are just extra rewards that give you bonus, sometimes helpful stuff if you roll a character you already own. Of course owning characters that would give high reward makes them NEVER roll so you get a bunch of shit rewards from the lowest worth card in your “harem” (more cringe).) 

(The ones with nothing next to them are ones I haven’t got yet. Of course having them on here probably decreases their chance. Well no. It does help, but the point is, is that before the boost, the % chance is in the negatives. Putting it at a very low chance which sucks.)

(And the one with the X next to it is the reason I swapped to wg in the first place. I wanted to set up my perfect disablelist and wishlist to get Meow Skulls but... I lost to my literal arch nemesis who took my wish (THEY ROLLED THE SPOT)

Anyway

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ The Meow Skulls in question (from Fortnite)

WHAT THE FUCK THE GIF SPEEDS UP I THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY BUT NO THE GIF GETS EXPONENTIALLY FASTER FOR SOME REASON WHY DOES IT DO THAT

I try to swap back to my other disablelist but I can’t remember the command

The DM I got

ok

Mudae commands aren’t done with ! you fucking IDIOT gotem qs2 my balls lol

I finally figure out how to save my currect wishlists and disablelists so I can come back to wg later

I try to clear my wishlists and disablelists to get a blank slate by loading an empty slot but that’s NOT HOW IT WORKS IDIOT

I finally manage to find the commands

I clear it all out

I’m checking my work. Finally doing what I was trying to do. But that’s where I fucked up also because why the fuck would I ever think to do this

I became self aware quickly

I remembered what I was actually trying to do

my rolls:

random thing no one cares about

random shit no one cares about

random shit no one cares about

random shit one cares about

Awesome Face (had to claim that lol epic)

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Eduardo. Nice key and I got some good kakera (the currency, commonly known as kak)

it actually kinda sucked (white ones usually give more but because the white one breaks down into multiple, you essentially get multiple kak per kak

The colors are as follows:

Purple: like 100 kak

Blue: like 150-200

Light Blue: 250-350

Yellow: 400-650

Orange: 700- 950

Red: 1050-1300

White: starts out as 3, sometimes 4 random kak crystals, upgrades to 5, sometimes 6 kak crystals (and beyond?). 

Just estimates, idk the exact number

The worst roll I could get from the white is 5 purples, but blue are most common, and are 2nd worst. So basically I got 4 2nd worsts and one 3rd worst

There’s also RAINBOW kak which gives like 3.5k per grab but it’s super rare.

 I’ve actually gotten it most out of everyone in my server, being FIVE

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Random shit no one cares about

Cool, another key

Random shit no one cares about

And fucking Earle Schmerle

Wait hold on let me explain

Everytime you claim a character, a message gets sent

You can customize this message.

By default it’s like “username has married charname”

But everyone moved it away from being romantic in that way, so I thought “Wouldn’t it be funny if I did the exact opposite?” and that has been my claim message to this day, which has led to some interesting screenshots

So yeah I rolled shit all

Thank Mudae algorithm

so yeah Mudae is a gambling addiction and I genuinely think it drains my mental health i hope you enjoy my journey