#I want to set up a proper website and stuff too

[panthermouthh]

I’m finally setting up an online print shop!!

I’ll upload some art to it over the next couple of days and then post the link to it here :))

Stay tuned !! 🎉

[choccy-milky]

Their kids are so cute omg i'm gonna dir of adorableness

lewis: then die LMFAOO NO BUT FRR THANK UU IM GLAD U THINK SO🥹🥹💖💖💖all the love for them (esp lewis) gave me the idea to draw him deflecting all the attention so ty for giving me the excuse to post it....we luv our aloof distant boi🥰

its funny bc i was JUST talking about this recently, but i dont like pet names at all BAHAH, hence why seb and clora dont call each other anything, not even nicknames.... seb calls her the light/princess/a bird sometimes as playful and teasing jokes, but doesnt actually address her like that. and clora always calls sebastian by his full name as well, bc i was basing her dialogue/my writing off the game dialogue...bc for as close as anne and ominis are to seb, both of THEM call him sebastian in full, so maybe it was a victorian thing that nicknames werent really common? plus clora's so proper that it just feels like its in her personality to always call seb "sebastian"... i feel like if she ever DID call him "seb" he'd do a double take and be like ...HUH? who are you???......are you polyjuiced? LMAO. i do imagine seb calling clora "love" when they get older tho (not in hogwarts) bc i like how simple it is, and imagining him saying stuff like 'careful, love' makes me🫠🫠🫠🫠

aw TYY💖💖 honestly i didnt give the victorian setting TOO much thought, other than making clora more modest/not used to wearing trousers etc. like the actual victorian courting process was that youd ALWAYS be chaperoned by at least 1 other person and you wouldnt be able to kiss or anything, so the fact that our mcs are in a co-ed school with free reign already ruins that, so i wouldnt worry too much about it. a lot of it you can just wave off with the excuse that wizard society is more advanced than muggle society, which is true anyway LOL. i just kept the parts that i thought were fun/made it feel victorian ENOUGH but got rid of the stuff that was too annoying (one big example being the amount of clothing they wear....i said it in the notes for one of my chapters, but i wasnt about to make seb go through like 5 different layers just to touch cloras titty LMFAO) and no i didnt have 1 specific website i used, id just google "blank in victorian times" and look through all the articles and resources i could on that subject, and take little bits of it. SO YEA i wouldnt worry about it too much, just take what you want if you think it could enrich your story, and leave stuff out if its annoying to deal with BHAHA. and GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR WRITING!!💖💖

BAHAHA yeah sebs bark was defs bigger than his bite when it came to actually having kids/getting clora pregnant LOL. he defs loves the pregnancy part, but i feel like seeing her go through the actual labour was super hard on him/made him feel guilty bc he hates to see her in pain, let alone bc of HIM. not to mention that i imagine he would still work even once they have kids, so to leave clora with like 6 kids by herself isnt something he would have wanted to do LOL. once both lewis and celeste are in hogwarts tho i actually imagine seb and clora still doing curse breaking as well (albeit less dangerous jobs/not as far away) BUT YES having a third kid that looks like seb and is sassy like anne would be SO CUTEEE...a happy accident is a good idea too, tho i kinda like the idea of it being cloras idea.....like, she gets baby fever again now that the kids are kinda growing up and sebs like no i dont wanna put u through that again... but obvs seb wouldnt be able to resist if clora was begging seb to put a baby in her LMFAOOO its already as good as done at that point😇😇 AND THANK YOU, and im glad you liked it!!!🥹💖💖💖

@the-kcm-muggleborn AWWW ur right thats so pretty.....ty for showing me!!🥹and im glad it make you think of clora...SHE WOULD APPROVE OF THESE STUDIES👌⭐🌙

[yutzen]

The Mandatory(?) Masterpost

Welcome to my page! ...again. Website shutdowns aren't going to stop my sinful hands, but hopefully that won't be a problem.

Expect stories about weird underground creatures and their troubles most of all, but there will be other tales to be told here (and possibly actual illustrations in the future, but that's gonna take a while). A lot of this started as prompt stories spun completely out of control (this will be a recurring theme), so be warned about that one. I'll be outlining what I have under the break to browse more easily if you want to see more, as well as providing a couple extra links if you want to read my work in other sites (or just follow me elsewhere too). Here goes!

First things first: Other accounts to track me in

Archive Of Our Own (I'll probably link to it for cross-posts. Also contains stories that are either too 18+, too fanfic or too personal for me to toss out here)

DreamWidth (May be easier to read)

BlueSky (Maybe you want to be updated easier, but obviously I can't post whole stories there)

Next up: Tags to keep track of when it comes to my stuff. This will probably be the main way for me to sort these things out, since I got used to it back on Cohost and still know the value of proper tagging. Much as there's a few other things I don't know.

#yut-fiction - Any story I actually write will be going under this, no matter the origin

#yut-musings - This one's gonna be stray thoughts and occasional shitposts probably.

#subterraneum (yut) - Subterraneum stories, no matter who they follow and where they're set

#subterraneum: lightless road - Subterraneum stories following what I call the main crew.

I also keep individual characters diligently tagged whenever they recur (or I think they may recur), if that helps!

Finally: Stories so far! I will try to keep this updated but feel free to hit me with a question or comment if I forget anything in the future.

The Subterraneum: Lightless Road - Days in the life of an outlaw gang, plying their trade across the seemingly caverns that form the Subterraneum, the world beneath worlds

A White-Knuckle Climb

The Hard Way

Where the Thrills Lie

Left in the Cold

Reminiscing by Candlelight

Trial by Fire

Of Silk and Fangs

Where the Heart Is

Off the Beaten Path

Behind Every Scar (Part 1)

Behind Every Scar (Part 2)

The Subterraneum: Restless Compendium - The caverns are grand, and full of mysteries, and with mysteries come those eager to figure them out for the world to see. Here are fragments from the work of one such individual, one only known by the title of "Ever-Restless Nirrhamidh"

A Quick Biological Primer on Subterraneum Citizens (not in character)

Rock Bottom: The Subterraneum and its Known Exits

The Last Time Around

The Tree and the Worm

Perfect Echoes

Until the Rains Come

Castles in a Black Sky

Tak-Fizun, the Chained City

The Subterraneum: Other Tales - Day-to-day life in the caverns can be quite a thing. Here, a smattering of tales about other individuals, away from smuggler and scholar alike.

Rainbows in the Dark

Party-Crasher

Just Prime

The Events of Windchime Hill

What's in a Name?

A Raven's Rambles - Just because you're a grand necromancer hungry for conquest and treasure doesn't mean you can't have off days. Here, a few less serious stories about Raven Lord Kaspar Swartrabe and his faithful shrike, Al-Kaud.

Animal-Proofing

Cramped, or Cozy?

Written in Blood(?)

A Root That Wouldn't Square - What was meant to be a quick oneshot fanfic of Arcen Games' Heart of the Machine, quickly spiralled out of control, into the tale of an artificial intelligence using some spare cycles to introspect, and write it all down...

Germination - In which the journey has begun, and an intelligence can finally ask itself who it is.

Desert Bloom - In which an internal monologue becomes an internal dialog, and a fall is turned into a rise to unfathomable heights.

Other stories - One-shots unrelated to any of the above. For now; just about everything before this point started as a one-shot too, once.

The Silver Revolution - In which a dragon finds himself involved in politics just for doing what he always did

More Times than You Could Count - In which an ever-stretching series of time loops is finally put to an end

The Rise and Fall of the Emporium - In which the idea of mid-dungeon shops is given a closer look

Where No One Calls Your Name - In which an angel of Diligence outlines unexpected complications brought about by how little some understand mortals

[misc-obeyme]

i just had a major breakthrough last night and wrote four pages of bullet points with random plot ideas, scenarios, and dialogue in my sketchbook 😅 IT WAS SO LATE AT NIGHT I CAN BARELY READ MY OWN HANDWRITING

I'm still trying to figure out the proper term, but Solomon is majoring in music composition !! Wiki says his favorite genre is classical music, and I like the idea he would want to create his own. His main instrument is piano !! But he has basic knowledge of guitar and the violin. (It'll be mainly running into the coffee shop together separately and living their lives, but once they get closer, Sol tries teaching me piano because i wanted to learn- THERE'S A BACKSTORY TO THIS AND ANOTHER PLOT IDEA !!!)

Simeon is also studying at the same college, and is writing TSL online. He has his own website, and Solomon creates pieces to go along with scenes in the book. (This is a whole other plot point)

I think right now it's going "Horror Night/Realizations" (the three of them going to see a movie that Solomon was excited to see, end up at a diner afterwards) -> "Burned CD's/Mammon Playlist Drama" (hehehe- WAIT IT'S NOT ANGST, GOTTA CLARIFY THE RECORD STORE DOES N O T BURN DOWN) -> "Halloween Party w/ Asmo" (A vampire, a werewolf, and a devil. What could go wrong? Or right? 👀) -> "Retail Therapy/Talks" (bookstores are a girl's best friend)

I haven't decided what role every character will play, but Levi makes an appearance with the CD stuff, Asmo throws the party and is studying to be a fashion designer, Satan owns a bookstore that I frequently visit (ANOTHER PLOT POINT AHAH), and Lucifer makes another appearance.

i keep writing things down and then getting more ideas and it feels like one big web, BUT IT'S ALL CONNECTED !! This is so much fun !! So technically yes, apprentice ish on the side, and Mammon does confess (kinda). I HAVE THIS PLANNED OUT BUT I DIDN'T WANT THIS TO GET LONG (IT DID ANYWAY), I JUST WANTED TO SHARE BECAUSE I'M WRITING THIS AS I GET READY FOR WORK AJDJJSD OKAY BYEEE

- ✨ anon

Wow this really is turning into an epic love story for the ages!! I love it lol!

Ohhhh music major, eh?!? My main instrument is also the piano! What a coincidence! Okay, actually, that's really easy to figure out considering my OC is a music demon and he is also known for his piano skills alskdfj. But Arsenios is a demon so he has magical talent that allows him to play any instrument. He's like everything I wish I could be as a musician lol!!! But anyway, got a bit sidetracked there, sorry. I love Solomon as a composer. That just feels like something he'd get lost in, you know? Music can be simple, but it can also be really complicated. And just imagine that guy getting lost in writing some kinda orchestral masterpiece... Or if he did a little conducting too, that baton is basically a magic wand...

Anyway, I love how we're getting all the other characters involved now, too!

See, you've already got the timeline, too!

I mean, what you're doing right now is basically outlining a story! I never outline anything because I am a degenerate, but that's exactly the kinda thing that a lot of people do before writing. So you're setting yourself up for success, I'd say! I mean, it's all whatever, writing is a personal process!

I'm loving your ideas and I'm loving the enthusiasm!! This right here is exactly why I write - because it's fun!

I hope you continue to enjoy coming up with ideas and if you do decide to write it, I hope you enjoy yourself!!

[lygma-nygma]

Hi! You talking about pre-new 52 's Jason and Tim's dynamic made me want to to read about them so bad! If its cool, could you list some comics of them you've mostly enjoyed so far?

Oh boy, this is a hard question honestly.

See, before the New 52 happened Jason was fully a villain so admittedly as fun as their dynamic is there isn't a lot of it. It's also worth considering if you're okay with reading a proper villain Jason before you get too far into this. He does some messed up shit during this era and some of that creeps over into his limited time with Tim.

That said if you're looking for the comics I read they were:

Teen Titans Vol.3 #29 - Life and Death (It's Titans Tower, way different from what I was expecting)

Robin (1993), also known as Tim's Robin run. Jason appears in #177 and #183 prominently

Battle for the Cowl (2009) This one is probably the worst and Jason acts as a major villain in the plot. I didn't mind it as much as some other people but it is really divisive.

And that's kind of it for Pre New 52 unfortunately. There's a lot of the two of them thinking about each other or talking about each other that add into my original post but those are admittedly much harder to track down or remember off the top of my head. But yeah, they don't spend a lot of time with each other in person.

That said there are some good newer Jason and Tim comics that have them interacting. I can't in good faith really recommend many of them because I've honestly avoided a lot of N52 like the plague. I did read Batman and Robin Eternal which was pretty good, at least for Tim and Jason stuff. The whole comic run is about the Robins so there's a lot of bits and pieces in here. It's primarily about Dick though and is set far into the future, currently considered non canon the last time I checked.

If you're looking for comics where certain characters interact I actually use the website DCUguide and use ctrl + F to search for comics that appear on both characters pages. It's a little tedious but it's a good way to do it, especially if you're only looking for a specific dynamic. At lot of interactions are hidden within one or two issues of random series and can be a pain in the ass to track down lol.

[swanandphoenixsong]

Off hiatus...?

So! it's been a loooong year, but it it's time to finally look back and review a little about what I've been doing...

It's officially been a year since I made these posts about my stroke (back then, I had not made any reblogs since the 23rd of June, I was hospitalized on the 26th, and I had entered rehab on July 6th. As you may note, I've been back on tumblr long since my hiatus explanation.

(However, now I look back and see I hadn't actually posted any creations - writing, art, edits, or otherwise since April of 2023. 😬Yeesh. I hope to change that during July or August. Before my stroke, I was coming home from spring semester on campus, and I was already planning to take a break from my studies for at least the summer and fall, and had hoped my writer's block would relieve itself after Father's Day and I had adapted to being home again.)

Anyway! What's been up more recently/how am I feeling? — Pretty good. Started feeling much more like myself partway in April this year, when I felt I could tap into the 'flow' of creative thoughts, for writing, and they were coming easier, and I was getting excited about getting back into it, and art, and other media. However, I decided to wait til I had some ideas planned, and to get more medical stuff handled.

I still have a lot to do over the latter half of this year, but I thought the anniversary of the hiatus post would be the best time to make an update. I'll be making other posts as well, including something to pin on my blog, until I have some new media posted.

Plans! — Of course, I’ve played various amounts of Animal Crossing, Pokémon, and other games over the past year, so I hope to share some edits/vids/experiences from them.

Art! — I eventually want to migrate my art either to Ao3, or here on tumblr, or on my own website, but basically just get it off DeviantArt or Instagram, since AI art generators are running rampant on them and other various websites. Not that my art is <that> good, but I don’t want to support websites like DA or Insta as much.

Speaking of, I will eventually be making my own website, and ‘locking’ my Ao3 to only logged in users, so that it will be less likely to be scanned by AI generators. I haven’t done it yet, but expect posts about that soon.

Writing — On the smallest scale of update, I’d revisit my first fic, Inhibitions, that I originally began in Spring of 2013 (I had forgotten I had started it in HS, 😅 sheesh!) I think I’ll be making my own comments on some of the chapters, and I’ll post about them on here as well. It’s still so important to me, as it was cathartic as I dealt with my own depression and anxiety over the near dozen years since, and I want to share part of the writing process, research, or my thoughts now.

Following that, I hope to update Aspirations soon too! Finally I’m figuring out some writer’s block, and wanted to show something for it.

Alongside, I may also have an update for my Star Wars Nouveau AU, on fanfics Aliit or Jedi Scholar soon, but am still figuring out some things on the back-burner.

Of the greatest relevance to me and to those of you in the Sandman fandom, I want to update my Sandman fic, The Nightmare of Orpheus, as again, I’m finally getting through some writer’s block, and I would like to update it before we get the “A Midsummer Night's Dream” episode (next year? Somehow sooner? Who knows?)

— as far as when I’ll actually have any updates before August, I aim to have proper goals set by my birthday, July 21st, so if I have fallen short, you can at least expect me to make a progress update then!

Thanks for reading!

[plasticpony4]

♡ My 2023 retrospective: egl version ♡ PART 1/9

I did the same thing last year, but I posted it to my private blog that nobody can read. This year I'm less scared of being posted to cgl, so I'm gonna try doing this.

January:

First thing first, my comm actually started existing at the end of the last year. Most members are new to the fashion, many are underage, and no one has a big budget. We actually grew quite a bit during this year, but we remain a small community of poorlitas who try to make do with what we have. At first, I wasn't very confident this comm would last and that people would try and get informed about the fashion, buy all the proper garments, make sure they're of good quality, and so on. I was used to being a lonelita and a solitary person in general, so I didn't really care that much if the comm lived or died, I could always wear my clothes by myself. But I can say now that I'm glad to have a community, because it makes it easier to stay involved in the fashion, and it's easier to get new stuff because we can always split the shipping fees, plus one member is a seamstress and we can have her alter our clothes or make new clothes and accessories at a really convenient price. I get along well with all of the other members, we don't have the never-ending amount of drama that is so common in other comms, and it's nice to see other people who share the same hobby and do our silly little activities together.

It's funny how I was still playing Shining Nikki at the time, it feels like a century has passed.

In January, I also started organizing my smaller accessories like this, and I'm very satisfied of how it's going. This set-up actually works!

I got this BPN velvet blazer from lace market♡ and I ordered the sax Milky Planet headbow. I actually have the yellow skirt that I got in 2011 from Closet Child in Japan, and I don't have the yellow headbow, but I thought the sax one would match more of my clothes. It was a mistake.

I went through a bunch of old paper stuff that I printed in like 2007 and things like cute tags and flyers, and these were some of the lolita-related ones:

I still love that pink coord, I want it so bad...

Then I received my first ever Closet Child website order, and it was mostly non-lolita stuff, but there were some exceptions.

This Beauty & the Beast Axes Femme blouse is made of polyester and quite simple, but I think it could work for some more casual coords, and this Milk cardigan is technically not lolita, but I love it and it's perfectly fine to wear in a lolita coord.

And then I got the Toy Parade skirt by Innocent World in brown, that I love, but haven't worn yet because it's too small, and the Tea Cup Print Sleeveless OP by Emily Temple Cute that I did wear in a casual outfit, but it wasn't a lolita coord. I am planning to wear it for our comm's next meet though.

I also got these ivory Axes Femme wristcuffs (they were cheap and they're nice!), the Innocent World Karenina JSK (I love it, I wore it quite a bit this summer), and the Alice and the Pirates Rosary Princess Corset skirt (gorgeous, but I wish it wasn't so tight, and I wish the bustle in the back was black instead of white).

And I finally finished acquiring all the volumes of Innocent by Shinichi Sakamoto. Look how beautiful the details of these rococo clothes are!

February:

I placed my first taobao order! I didn't do it by myself though, it was a big order with a lot of italian lolitas from all over the country. This is what I got:

I wanted to get more wristcuffs, but the ones I liked were sold out.

[END OF PART 1/9]

[gnomeniche]

other online locations: cohost and cara

hey, i now have a cohost page! i made it months ago during the height of the ceo’s transphobia controversy, but i didn’t have a lot of time to get it kicked off due to being busy with life. i just now finished mirroring some of my most recent art + some of my favorite pieces on there. because of image-per-post limitations, i’m waiting to post my proper oc profiles up there until i have all the pics i want for each individual profile completed, but i’m getting there. i’m not as active there as i am here because it’s just generally a less active site, but i’ll definitely keep mirroring my better posts there and slowly building out the pages, so follow me if you’d like.

i have also set up a cara page, but i haven’t gotten around to putting my art up there yet. if i’m being honest, i’m glad that people are moving away from instagram because, besides the shady facebook ai stuff, i very strongly dislike instagram’s format and how it works. on the other hand, as of now, i think cara’s website design is really cool, and i’m looking forward to exploring more of it. check me out over there! i’ll be posting bit by bit.

of course, i am going to continue using tumblr as my main social media presence unless it becomes completely untenable. i just like to have other places to be found, too.

[adultswim2021]

Aqua Teen Hunger Force #83: "The Creature From the Plaque Lagoon" | April 26, 2009 - 11:45PM | S07E05

Shake is trying to smash Meatwad’s one tooth out with a golf club. After various mishaps and some on-purpose gratuitous hitting, he finally gets the dang thing out of there. They want to make a “nice buck” from the Tooth Fairy. Shake intends to ambush her, thinking it’ll lead to riches and bitches. But “we got the fry man over here” indeed, Frylock simply walks in and conks out Shake with a dart, for there is no tooth fairy, only Frylock. 

A TWIST! A shadowy figure clobbers Frylock and makes off with not just Meatwad’s tooth, but also his mom and dad’s teeth. They search for the culprit fruitlessly, only determining that he’s the Creature from the Plaque Lagoon. They find his website, which has a scary flash intro Meatwad demands they skip. Eventually they run into Gary the Dairy Fairy, who shows up to promote the calcium content of your favorite dairy products. He knows where to find the Creature, but when they do he reveals that he didn’t actually do it, and that his identity was being stolen. Uh, I’ll spare you the flowery prose: it turns out it’s the guy from Dickesode but now he’s a tooth and the episode ends with Shake eating hotwings out of a blender.

It always seemed a little odd to me that they made a sequel to DIckesode and changed dicks to teeth. It seems like a less-extreme version of the previous episode would result in diminishing returns. I guess it did, but this episode was much funnier than I remembered. Meatwad asking Shake to tell him a story over the walkie talkie! The Newhart references! Shake talking about gripping on Days of Thunder, which I am accepting as canon. I believe him, this time. There’s also some good new guys in this. Gary the Dairy Fairy is voiced by Jon Schnepp, an artist who worked on Aqua Teen and Metalocalypse. He was also the voice of C. Ling Tile on Space Ghost and one of them Wisdom Cubes. He also died in 2018. RIP to a proper legend. 

The episode sorta peters out, but that’s okay. It was a fun time hanging out with my friends (Milkshake cup, French Fries, and Meatwd).

MAIL BAG

A tidbit I just remembered about the last Xavier: there's a joke in that about a room of mental patients who think they're Mohammed and they're all blurred out. When that aired on TV, the word Mohammed got bleeped. I think I accurately guessed what the joke was before I actually saw it uncensored on DVD. Why don't you use me for your next event?

I somehow don't remember this joke even though I try very hard to commit Xavier episodes to memory, completely. Damn. It really do be like that, though. It's a shame about the whole Mohammed thing back around this time, bombing stuff for disrespecting your religion is just too funny

According to a 2017 bumper they mention that "S&P unintentionally punched up the show by censoring lines like “Jesus, save me” which became “Jesus, BLEEEP me.”" That's probably what it was. They also mention that the lead who plays Jesus was super allergic to the hay on the set.

Now this I did not know. If you are trolling me right now, just know that you are loathsome and will never see heaven. But I like that you read my blog, so that's all water under my bridge. I assumed he was saying "Jesus Save Me", but I recalled both "save" and "me" being bleeped, so idk what to think. They shouldn't bleep Bill Tush. There should be a rule that he can say whatever he wants on TV and it's uncensored always. Even slurs

[evieveevee]

Forza Motorsport (PC) Review

Scratched Paint

Forza Motorsport is the game I have been looking forward to all year, particularly since I sold my PS5 to go all-in on PC. Positioned as a new starting point for Forza Motorsport as a franchise, it promises a next-gen visual experience, alongside more robust physics and multiplayer. But, does it deliver?

A Note from the Author

Hi! It’s really special to be able to review something like this, and to be one of only a few creatives based in Australia/New Zealand, not to mention one of even fewer transgender creatives, given the opportunity to do this. It’s an immense honor that I take very seriously, and I’m proud to be bringing this out for you today. If you’re interested in publishing this review on your website, please contact me directly. Enough talk though! Let’s go racing!

Lights Out and Away We Go

Let’s start with the out-of-box experience with Forza Motorsport, the first stuff that everyone’s gonna see. There’s a brief accessibility setup, including the usual settings like Subtitles, and new settings like the Blind Driving Assist and support for low vision features too. For customization minded dorks like yours truly, there’s a handy shortcut to the settings menus so you can dive deeper into things like the graphics settings on PC with a “worst case” benchmark involving a full field of 24 cars on a rainy circuit with complex lighting. Also in the settings, you’ll find comprehensive controls over the assists, including a few quick presets to base your own off. I turn off the racing line and most assists, leaving only ABS on while I shake some of the rust off. Folks who want to make sure they’re getting exactly the experience they want out of this will walk away satisfied.

However, it’s after the configuration that the trouble starts. The game loads into a practice session on Maple Valley — a returning Forza original track — in one of Forza Motorsport’s cover cars: the 2024 Corvette E-Ray. I hit the accelerator, hear the awesome engines roar to life, but then I noticed: my wheel configuration was not at all right.

In the review build I had access to, my wheel (the Logitech G29) was not properly detected, did not show appropriate inputs in the UI, and it was wildly misconfigured, requiring 10–15 minutes of messing around with the wheel settings before I hit something that approached proper handling and the sort of response I expect. Forza Motorsport also does not have support for shift indicator LEDs, continuing this trend from previous entries and the Horizon series, something which is frustrating and I would appreciate being fixed in a future update.

Check Engine Light

About now is when I began to take note of the visuals of the game. With the promise of next generation visuals in Forza Motorsport, and the additional power that the Xbox Series X is able to leverage, I was hoping that the visuals would feel like they’d taken that generational leap. In some regards, namely those related to gameplay like dynamic time of day and weather systems, the leap is absolutely there. Forza Motorsport has incredible lighting and the dynamics are incredibly solid.

However, on PC, it’s clear there are some problems.

Let’s start with one of the most obvious generational visual leaps: raytracing. If we want to showcase the generational leap in graphics, an RT implementation is the way to do it. However, it’s clear that the state of RT reflections on — at the very least — AMD RDNA3 cards like the 7900 XT is extremely poor. The RT is being done at an extremely low resolution, providing a blocky and terrible facsimile of the environment surrounding your vehicle. This issue visible on racing suits with reflective materials or on visors. RTAO seems mostly fine, but this issue is very strange, and I hope that Turn 10 and/or AMD are able to fix this issue soon and provide proper RT reflections.

It gets worse before it gets better sadly.

Building It Up

While the PC version’s apparent problems are abundant and annoying, the core of the game is extremely solid, and it’s very evident in the Career mode that Turn 10 has created: the Builder’s Cup.

The idea is relatively simple. You’ll pick from one of three cars, and you’ll carry that car through the entire series. A series is about 5 or 6 races, during which you’ll improve the car you choose, pushing it faster and faster as the rest of the field does the same to theirs. There are larger rewards up for grabs for completing a series, but each race offers plenty in the way of credits you can invest into other new cars. You’ll do at least three laps of practice before each race, with a goal time that will indicate you’re competitive against the field. You must complete practice and the race in the same session. If you exit the event after completing practice, progress is not saved and you will need to run the practice session again.

Here’s where it gets complicated. If you’re not familiar with racing games, or even if you are, I want to stress something right now: the words I am about to say are not a joke, a prank, or played as something silly in the game. They are deadly serious.

In order to build up your car, you need to level it up. You level up your car by driving well through the various sections of each track and gaining Car XP (CXP) for sections that are quick and hew close to the racing line, with bonuses for passing certain thresholds. Each section is rated on a scale from 1.0 to 10.0. I believe — but may be wrong — you also get CXP for completing events. Get enough CXP, you get a level, and each level gets you a certain number of Car Points (CP), which can be used between events to apply upgrades to that car. Your CP and CXP are only available on that specific car, meaning that even if you have multiple copies of one car, each one has its own balance of CP and CXP. Each available upgrade costs a certain amount of CP, but adding an upgrade is not a permanent choice. Instead, it’s a flexible balance that you can move around into various upgrades according to your needs. Additionally, upgrades are restricted to specific Car Levels, so you need to level up your car a specific amount to, say, unlock the ability to change your aero parts.

Look, I think this one’s gonna be controversial. In a way, this system does guide you through what’s worth upgrading and all, a great feature for people who are learning their way around the tunes. For expert players who already know what they need out of a tune or are able to pick out the weak points on a car, it’s going to mean grinding out Car XP so you can get the upgrades you need, all the while dealing with the poor tune. It means that I’m definitely turned off of cars that I can’t immediately jive with, even if I recognize their potential. I think the primary audience that cares about Forza Motorsport will be frustrated by this system, but folks trying this out through Game Pass and wanting a more casual experience out of things are likely to be happy with it.

Zooming Away

Let’s look at the on-track experience a little closer now.

It’s worth saying that circuit racing is its own beast, and if you’re coming from Forza Horizon or Need for Speed’s open world racing experiences, you’re in for a unique, tight sort of experience. Be prepared to learn the ropes of non-contact racing though; contact is strongly discouraged in Forza Motorsport (and in real life), with penalties applied for egregious contact, or contact which nets you an advantage. Corner cutting is the same; you need to stay with two wheels within track limits at all times. Thankfully, you can turn on visible track limits in either marker (intermittent triangles) or ribbon (unbroken line) styles.

The experience of driving in Forza Motorsport is great, as you might I expect. With an appropriate vehicle and tune, you’ll be cruising from corner to corner, earning Car XP, and enjoying the intensity of competitive racing. Having full race regulations on in single-player content is great practice, and the system feels like it deals with both the AI opponents and you in very fair ways. All of this combines to make Forza Motorsport feel great, in that indescribable sort of way that driving tends to be; you kinda… just have to experience it to understand, I feel. But, I need to emphasize that this applies only when the vehicle and tune you’re driving are set up properly. It’s a bummer to see that the stock tunes are still rough, when competing sims have much more robust and good feeling tunes out of the gate. Combine that with the upgrade system locking certain parts of that tune behind levels, and it’s a recipe for pain.

As you drive, the information displayed is pleasantly minimal, but still conveys just about everything you need to keep focused on your race. In the lower right, you have a speedometer and RPM indicators, as well as indications of fuel remaining, tire life and temps, and your acceleration and braking inputs. All of this is useful information, available to you at a glance, but also reminds me that shift indicator LEDs are still not supported in Forza Motorsport, and that makes me sad. Limited customization options, besides turning them on and off, is also kind of a bummer.

Besides that, in the upper right, you’ll have visibility of your segment scores and car XP, and in the top left, you have visibility of your current lap time. All of the UI can be toggled on and off to suit your needs. However, racing enthusiasts will also note there is no radar showing nearby cars, nor weather radar to allow you to plan around the new dynamic weather systems. Much of this sort of information, as well as control over TCS and Brake Balance, is available in Gran Turismo 7’s MFD, a feature I desperately wish was in Forza Motorsport, but if they can only choose one bit of UI to take from that, I hope they add a radar, because the current system of proximity arrows (which, perplexingly, are not on by default) is not adequate, and it can make dealing with traffic on tight courses unpredictable. I also hope that the input UI can be made a bit larger, and the information about tires can be made more reliable.

Tires, worth noting, seem like one of the weak points of Forza Motorsport. Tire data was unclear to read at first: tire temps are shown on the larger real-time view, but tire wear is only shown via the small meter to the side of it. Tire life predictions are *not accurate* and will rapidly go from 3 laps to 1 lap over the course of a single lap even with clean driving. It’s super unclear if some sort of accelerated wear is on, but if it is, that information is both not exposed to the player and creating incorrect predictions about tire life, both of which are frustrating.

Star of the Show

For all that though, we still need to talk about the multiplayer experience. Before launch, I had the opportunity to play with other reviewers as well as Turn10 employees in full multiplayer lobbies, and I was extremely happy with the experience!

As you do those races, you’ll notice that each race starts at a fixed time, and that there’s time for practice before each session. This is a great change! You’ll get the chance to size up your competition, get a feel for the track, and set a qualifying time for the final race. This change continues beyond the introductory series as well, and modes like Forza GT and the Touring Car modes will always be there. There’s also a slot for a rotating featured series, and open series’ as well, allowing to show off your project cars on the track. All of these use the same structure and it makes me extremely happy; it feels more like a fleshed out version of the Sport mode in GT Sport/7.

There’s also the ability to do custom multiplayer (and singleplayer) events, just as you’d expect. You can make lobbies as desired, and race away to your heart’s content! I did not test the multiplayer side of that during my review period though, sorry about that. My focus was on the featured multiplayer, as that’s where I’m going to spend most of my time, and expect that’s where most players will be as well.

Chequered Flag

So, wrapping up here, crossing the finish line. Forza Motorsport is a pretty damn good experience, and makes meaningful improvements over previous entries (and over competing sims such as Gran Turismo 7), but it also comes with its own unique set of regressions, particularly in the PC version. However, all of my complaints about this are primarily quality-of-life (with the exception of the state of the visuals on PC, and all the sorts of things that Turn 10 can fix up with some TLC.

Career and Multiplayer are the real standouts, providing a ton of depth for players to explore and a lot of options for how they want to race, and comprehensive new systems for both of them mean that the overall experience is going to be incredible for the primary audience of the game. Hardcore racing sim fans may find aspects of it disappointing, as I did, but hopefully their feedback will help them steer the future of this title into true greatness.

For now though, I can softly recommend Forza Motorsport for PC! I hope to see improvements to it in the future but what’s here is a great package that’s likely to please fans of all stripes.

My copy of Forza Motorsport was done using a copy of the game provided to me by Xbox Australia and New Zealand (Xbox ANZ) for the purposes of review. Xbox ANZ also provides me with a subscription to Xbox Game Pass Ultimate to use as part of my streams and coverage.

[thesugarhole]

i'm thinking about a certain christophorus pi hatchenson and all that wasted potential because the website burned and the rewrite is on hiatus for other stuff "set in the same world", but i don't care about that and EVEN before that the thrown out potential with how his arc was going in favor of. what? i don't even know and i can't trust my memory to know. boobs? last time i saw him on the website version of the webcomic my poor guy was done for. he was decapitated and his head was just a skull by then but man.jpg i want him carnally.

it doesn't work if i announce my gaslighting intentions before gaslighting proper but if you see me talking about romac from now on its not about the webcomic. its about the excruciatingly obtuse dating sim where you control snippy and i'm trying so so hard to get into pilots pants but you start with max negative affinity (for reasons both real, imagined and misunderstood) and also he's in love with captain so overturning all that? WITH the major boss battle you have AGAINST pilot (when he reconnects to annet 😔) that finally gets him to warm up to you?? this is brutal. this game is brutal. the timer limit too since marrying cancer and letting them fuse your body to your clothes is mandatory. how do i unlock the sloppy wild gay android sex cgs. come on man

(edit to add more to the previous concept because i thought it was funny)

i'll go some steps further; the captain route would be most enticing as a first run because zee's mysterious and whimsical and nutty and etc. but also the main road blocks of it would be lore dumps through riddles that a first time player would simply not understand. endgame after you get everything from everyone else and cross question them and get their endings etc (the dating sim is meta connected but in a way only captain and maybe annet can control. you fumble through it) you are zirs best and prettiest little minion and you lost your mind by then trying to comprehend the cosmic horrors (and beauties) behind zirs mask and are ok with it. pilot hates you so so much though. aoorfjaosoaka

next to captains route, pilots route would also be lore-through-riddle heavy, but it would be somewhat easier to understand if you gave him a chance and didn't immediately write him off as equally/more insane as captain. getting him to talk about specific lore in a specific way that makes snippy (and you) understand is a herculean task though

in terms of attractiveness of first runs, next to pilot is engie, who joins late, is beyond terrified of your presence (despite you honest to god being just some goober. a brit. a bife, a camone) (for reasons only he himself is guilty of also) and knows way more than hes letting on. and, mad scientist rants aside, would probably... eventually... be straightfoward with you about the lore. of course, he wont tell you everything on a first run, you have to squeeze that fateful 'i was ordered to kill you by one of annets engineers' out of pilot then come back to engie to get the full tea spill (i am trying to romance my ex boss?!)

cancer has a 'hidden in plain sight' route since you unlock them earlier than engie and have no choice but to marry them. similar in concept to captain where you have to let go of your sanity and let them monopolize your time and affection. its like if a catgirl yandere was a hivemind alien lawyer.

annet is not romanceable in any way. engie is her one true love. any attempts will devolve into her manipulating you into death one way or another. #girlboss

mug/zero, stalky, kittyhawk, photoshop, amber, lifealope, random coworker that made you drop your sandwich, tourists, whoever else also not romanceable. because i said so. no. denied. no questions

[talkisnevercheap]

It happened…….

Something that i spoke about months ago on the app.

I couldn’t believe it.

I was soooo shocked…gagged even.

Fuck.

I can’t believe i did that but like i don’t regret it not one bit.

We texted and then I initiated the call……I-

The call consisted of some story telling of the past in terms of reminiscing- walking down memory lane if you will.

I was clear and upfront with my intentions.

I don’t want him to be my boyfriend.

I want to be my boyfriend.

I don’t mind speaking to him though.

ATM the moment though im having a challengers moment.

A is Art and D is Patrick for sureeeee bro.

Hearing his words and confessions were so baffling…..after 3 years who knew that i had this affect!

A bit of an ego-booster i cannot lie but it seems as though that he’s been having a hard time finding love.

He claimed me to be his first..

He realized how good i was too him …..so did Art omg i can literally refer to them as Art and Patrick

I told him to wrap up the reminiscing stuff and all the lovely shit because I didn’t get back in contact with you for it to be long-term nor would I just jump right back into a relationship….A 2 YEAR RELATIONSHIP AT THAT

But fuckkkk Patrick told me sm shit and he literally has his whole life together life FUCK WHY COULDN’T THAT HAVE BEEN ART

FUCK

I WANTED THAT FROM ART….

Patrick is currently a welder and he makes a good amount of money. He is so focused and bruhhhh im so upset. I could never do that to myself again.

Knowing i left this affect on all the men in my life makes me truly believe i am not the problem (in most scenarios)

Torn between two men so i just choose myself #i’mbetterthanmen

But it’s giving its giving Patrick.

But it’s also giving Art because he’s showing growth?

Who will win Shania’s heart?

Find out next on…..

I truly am in shock…..THIS IS NOT REAL LIFE

Talking to Patrick felt refreshing it seems we both grown especially him I am very proud of him.

Patrick and Art want me to be their wife…

Patrick told me to come home.

And

Art told me not to leave.

Like they want me to be married to them……if I am being completely honest I would love to just jump right back into something with Patrick but that would be fair to Art or myself. Especially myself. Art wouldn’t have to know necessarily but it would be so grimey to not be honest and transparent.

Patrick never lost love for me but gained 19 bodies-insane (but no judgement- he was single man so there’s no shame)

- he felt bad once i confessed that I only had sex with Art after him.

Patrick has been going through a lot and dealing with on and off toxic girlies so thats not something I’m with.

Fuck he made me so nervous- it was so natural

He told me he would come and see me…..he also told me he would drive and pick me up to go anywhere and he would pay for everything????

He told me we’re getting married and I find that soooo funny because Art told me the same thing.

I’m glad I’m able to set proper boundaries with the both of them….no longer being scared of reactions feel how you feel.

Art on the other hand um- we got into it a bit earlier today and we cried and he apologized

- he sent me something like he sent me a picture ss of the motor vehicles website to sign up for an appointment.

He’s feelings more and more like a friend and I’m scared I’ll lose feelings for him….wowwwww Deja vuuuuuuuWOWWWWWWWWW

[chasing-rabbits]

Finally the good weather is starting to come in. Well it is still pretty cold at night and early in the morning BUT during the day the sun is shining through my windows and going out yesterday it was actually quite nice. It was warmer out than in my flat. Honestly the moment the sun started shining through my windows is genuinely when my not going to say depression but definitely low mood, but anyways yeah seeing the sun shine through is when my low mood just went like bam. Idk what it is well I do thats called seasonal depression but you know just not even good mood but even my motivation just comes back more when the suns out & even my energy to an extent. I can't wait til we get like proper summer weather where its not still getting really cold in the evenings and the sun has disappeared for the day now but it is nice and light out usually by now it would be darker. I see now why my Grandma who was diagnosed with SAD moved across to Spain for her retirement and even then they'd take holidays to different parts of Spain during winter to less colder areas I guess than where they lived. The only downside is global warming = crazy heatwaves which our British homes absolutely are not made for & its like living in a furnace. Last year wasn't too bad actually but the year before that it was so SO warm. In other news though I actually came on here to talk about how this motivation & good mood has meant I've been working on the website!! And by website I mean the one I keep on & off very slowly working on which will be selling crystals, jewellery, zodiac based stuff and whatever else I decide. This one will only be able to ship to the UK though as the wholesalers I bought some products from now ship direct to customers but only within the UK as they are a UK based company. At some point I will finally have the garage completely set up at my parents so I can start selling the physical products I bought. When I say garage its a big outbuilding & it is technically a garage but its got proper insulation and was going to be used as a workshop as well so its adequately set up for this. My cat keeps coming to try and sit on me as I'm trying to work though which is a bit of a distraction but I dont want to keep moving him off to the side I feel so bad the lil baby. He's such a needy little baby and I love it. My other cat is not a lap cat at all but he is, he always wants attention.

[bell-arina271]

Day 20 of Building Elsa’s Ice Palace

So this morning I woke up to a heart attack lol. I got an alert that there was a random charge on my card for like $250, but thankfully my bank is one that keeps an eye out for fraudulent activity.

Then it turns out it wasn’t some random hacker, but it was Legal Zoom, trying to charge a “Renewal fee” to keep acting as an agent or something. I’m pretty sure I told them I didn’t want to pay for their services until next week, so I don’t know why they charged me suddenly. Anyway I’m mad at them, but I’ll have to bite the bullet and pay them soon anyway to get my EIN and other things. :/

I have a ton of work to do later- to get my website up and running, and get things like my domain, and a tax expert, and other things to make all this work. Maybe trying to do this WHILE I’m moving wasn’t such a good idea lol OH WELL TOO LATE NOW.

I’ll need to make a proper to do list to cross everything off. Things I’ll have to do in order:

Choose my home insurance

Get my headshots picked out so I have some pretty, professional pictures for my official site, logos, etc.

Fix up my website and get feedback on it from others so I can polish it.

Get some coaching practice sessions under my belt.

Get my legal stuff in order and my accounts all set up.

Start up daily vocal practice again.

Start up some daily exercise.

Get some roommates

Help family with unpacking.

It won’t be easy, but if I can get through these things and cross them off my list, then I’ll be able to hit the ground running.

[princessb4mbi]

MESSAGES I CAN’T SEND

꩜ tags black!reader, therapist!eren, college setting, age gap (reader in 20s, eren in 30s), power dynamic, not so protective sex? mentions of death [not proofread]

꩜ synopsis isn’t it obvious to hide your private life better? or was it not obvious when a video of you dry-humping a pillow was sent to your therapist.

@ word count 3.6k

story below the cut !!

ever since you’ve lost your mother to old age, your mental health has spiraled downwards a little bit. you’ve had the privilege of knowing when she WOULD die and at-least died in a proper place rather than somewhere shitty, so that’s cheered your spirits up a little bit. she was your best friend though, and losing your best friend is painful. you went to her whenever you could, talked on the phone for hours, and slept in her bed every night as if you were still five years old. 

you weren’t the only one suffering though, your childhood friend sasha couldn’t stand watching you wither away. even though she did everything she could, she knew she was capable of oh so much. 

you weren’t the only one suffering though, your childhood friend sasha couldn’t stand watching you wither away. even though she did everything she could, she knew she was capable of oh so much. 

“do you want me to hook you up with my therapist? he’ll seriously help you clear all cloudy thoughts away y/n,” sasha says caressing your cheeks

you move your face away from her hand, “they aren’t cloudy thoughts sas, im just grieving my mother..” 

“i know baby, i know.. but i don’t want to grieve YOU if you die of a heartbreak. i want you to get better, physically and mentally.” sasha looks at me emphatically.

she pulls out her phone and scrolls through her contacts until stopping at a card called “dr.jaeger”. “listen, give him a call please. his prices are cheap and his place is nice. it’s not like those dull white offices with an ugly long chair and a monotone person.” 

you sighed, reluctantly agreeing to her copying and pasting the number to your phone. “okey, i gotta go now babe, but PROMISE me you’ll give him a call, he’ll help you, and if he doesn’t i’ll play for any of your bills ok?” sasha says packing up her stuff. she kisses your cheek before leaving the quiet study area, leaving you alone to your own thoughts. 

you stare at the contact card, pulling dr. jaeger’s name up on your laptop and scrolling through his website. sasha was right about one thing, his prices WERE cheap. about $65 an hour and he also had packages where two weeks of therapy would be about $350 in total.   

the prices however, weren’t enough to convince you fully, as your scroll down to see the reviews.  

“dr. jaeger saved me. after the loss of my wife, i never felt like so lonely, but my daughter told me about him and he’s helped me heal properly and not turn to anything crazy. he’s an amazing person with amazing talents as such a young age. 5 stars” 

ok.. that was something. not that you were going to invalidate them, but that seemed just.. fake. you decided to read another one.

“oh my gosh. no one would believe how amazing someone is at listening and understanding a person’s thoughts. dr. jaeger was nothing like those terrible therapists who make you pay $100 for an shitty hour call. oh how i wished i can say more, but the character limit is fu” 

you giggled at that one. maybe i should give him a call. with a deep breath, you called the number. 

“hello? my name is y/n, i’d like to speak to dr. jaeger please.” 

— 

it’s been about a month since you’ve scheduled a session with dr. jaeger, only having to wait that long due to “heavy traffic”. sasha is currently driving you to the building. 

“you know, i’m really proud of you for calling. i was scared you were going to stay depressed forever.” sasha says over her 80s radio playing. 

“let’s not get too happy yet, he could still be shit at his job..” you say cutting down any happy thoughts. 

“you’re STILL doubting him y/n? i get that some people are money hungry, but i promise you he’s not. if he was, do you think ME of all people would be recommending you to him? i mean c’mon, have some faith please.” 

“i’m sorry, i just nervous ok. my stomach is doing backflips at the moment.” 

“hey man, if you feel like farting, ill park somewhere and you can walk the rest of the way.”

you two pull up to the parking lot, fancy with a modern style front. the office itself if very modern and 2 floored. 

“k, i’m gonna drop you off here, call me when you’re done ok?” 

you walk out of sasha’s car, waving her goodbye while she drives away. you walk into the sleek office, with painting from what you the assume were from the last two centuries. 

the receptionist greets you with a nice smile “welcome, how may i help you today?” you give her your name. “ah i see, you right on time then, ill have this guard guide you to dr. jaeger’s office.” just then, a semi tall man with a black uniform from comes in-front of me. “right this way.” 

he leads me into the elevator, where he then leads me into a hallway with lots of rooms. there’s multiple therapists in this building, all with different ways. as i look through the glass windows, i see pet therapy, group therapy and even massage therapy. the guard finally stops at a door, with a name tag having “DR. JAEGER” on it. “here’s your room, have a nice day.” he says as he’s walking away. you give him a quick thank you and knock on the door. 

a deep “come in.” follows shortly after, and you enter the room. first impression of when you enter the room was that sasha was right. the room was anything from boring, and didn’t have white walls but instead had a mix of brown and auburn. there was lots of old-style decor too. a record player, cd’s and even the tv was kinda old. 

however you were greeted with the most shocking thing of all, dr. jaeger himself. he looked away from his papers, to look at you and gave you a warm smile. his visuals was… something you didn’t expect. most therapist are middle-aged men and women, that are sort-of not the most attractive. but that was ok, because they wanted to help you, not seduce you. dr. jaeger on the other hand was extremely beautiful. he has dark brown hair, put up in a semi-messy bun, the most luscious green eyes, and very kissable pink lips. 

i guess you were admiring his facial features for too long to notice dr. jaeger looking at you weirdly. “maybe un-responsive.” he mutters to himself, typing down on his laptop. upon hearing his words, you apologize and scurried to the seat in-front of him. 

“or not. . . my name is dr. jaeger, if you’ve haven’t gotten a chance to see on the door.” 

“i did, sorry for not responding earlier.” 

“it’s ok, its common for most genders to be shocked at how i look.” dr. jaeger said in a non-concerned voice. you were took aback a little by his comment, most genders to be shocked at how he looked? you were wondering if he was just annoyed at the common occurrence or just knew that he was an attractive man. “pushing that aside,” he sighed “sasha has told me a lot about you.” he says looking up at you. 

“she did?” you question.

“mhm, she cares for you ms….” he looks at the paper look for your last name. 

“y/l/n.” 

“ah, thank you. sasha cares for you ms. y/l/n. she talks about your recovery, and wants you to best happy for her.” he says maintaining eye contact. you can’t respond to such kindness. all you can do is nod your head and smile. 

“but as a therapist view-point, the death of a loved one is one of the hardest battle we have to overcome as a human being. no matter how emotionless a person may be, the death of anything else to them will always cause someone to break. that’s just how we are, we humans . . . after all.” he says empathically. 

“my job isn’t to make you forget your mother, or forget the pain you feel about her. you always feel pain lingering about her, and that’s ok. i’m just here to help you reduce that pain.” 

you were shocked. cheap prices, handsome therapist AND a good one at that? maybe it’s good to stay faithful after all. 

— 

it’s been about 3 weeks since you’ve had daily therapy sessions with mr. jaeger and he’s honestly been helping you a lot. you had different kinds of sessions, like walking around and even some pet therapy. today was for a usual one-on-one walk around the building beautiful outside landscape.

as you and dr. jaeger walk around, you wave to the other clients with their own therapists. “see how social you’ve gotten? when we first came here, you were begging to stay back inside due to all the people,” he jokes around. “now, you’re friendly with them. it’s good progress.” he smiles to himself. 

“it was only because of you, dr. jaeger. i don’t think i’d be the way i am without your help.” 

“ah. . . don’t flatter me too much. let’s sit right here yea?” he says pointing towards the swinging wood benches. “it’s beautiful outside, isn’t it ms. y/l/n?” he turns to look at you. 

“yea, it really is.” you turn back to stare at him. god, you can stare into his eyes for hours. it’s something that about that were so addicting, that you couldn’t look away if you wanted to. to break the silence, you decided to follow up with a cheeky comment. “say dr. jaeger, you really know how to keep a client.” he moves his head to the side, confused. “i like to believe that my clients stay with my due to how i help them and not my looks.” ah fuck. it was not received well at all, and you just profusely apologized to him. 

“but, if my looks did make people stay, that wouldn’t be all too bad huh,” he says giving a hearty laugh. “but tell me now, ms y/l/n. does my looks make you stay?” you were at a loss for words. one part of you wanted to say “fuck yes” while another part of you wanted to say “absolutely not”. and you of course went with the latter. 

“whatever your answer is, it doesn’t bother me either way. . . but it looks like our time is up ms. y/l/n.” you look down at your phone for the time. it was up after he exclaimed. the two of you head back to his office to pick you up your stuff. 

that night later, you were chilling in your bed, getting ready to dose off. you however, couldn’t sleep without thinking about a fantasy. it didn’t matter what type, other than it having to be something interesting. you close your eyes, your mind shifting to dr. jaeger, and the moments between you two that drove you insane. like that one time he wore a turtle neck, showing off his clothed six-pack abs. you imagined yourself touching them, feeling the rock-hardness of them. you open your eyes again, looking around the room. to be honest, you haven’t.. you know what, in a while and you thought it might be time to do it again. 

you move your bedsheets closer to the edge to give you more space. and moved all your pillows away except for one. you pulled your phone out and started to record. it might seem weird to other people, but you like to record yourself, in the time that you couldn’t find anything good on twitter or reddit. 

you start to rock your hips back n forth on the pillow, assuming it the body of a male. maybe it was dr. jaeger body you could’ve been assuming it off. either way, it turned you on, seeing how you started to move faster on your pillow. one of your hands grip the pillow, as the other hand massages your boob. you move faster, enjoying the friction your clit is getting between the pillow and your soaked panties. you close your eyes, imagining dr. jaeger guiding your body with his big, veiny hands. as you’re about to climax, you can’t help but subtly whimper his name. 

once you’ve finished, you end the video. while you’re cleaning up, sasha enters the room. “hey girlie, i was thinking of getting some drinks tomorrow night? wanna come?” she says exciting. “i would but i have a session with dr. jaeger tomorrow.” 

“boo, you’re boring.” 

“whatever, i’m going to the shower, so let me know if anything happens ok?” 

“yea yea boring y/n.” 

you go to the bathroom and take off your clothes, hopping inside the shower. you turn on the water, letting the lukewarm water hit your skin. you are alone with your thoughts until sasha comes inside the bathroom. 

“not to be nosey, but dr. jaeger texted you.” she says. 

“mhm really? what did he say?” 

“i didn’t look at it properly, but something about a daily wellness video?” you knew right away. dr. jaeger usual makes his clients make videos of themselves with positive affirmations, then with their consent, he’ll use it on his website for future clientele. 

“ahh ok! just send him the most recent video.” you photo gallery takes forever to update, so there’s a chance it’ll take forever to show the video of your “naughty time”. 

“ok, sending right now… and it’s sent. if he wants a further conversation, i’ll let you know.” 

“thanks sash.” 

as you walk out the steamy bathroom, and get ready for bed, you check your notifications for any new ones. you go into the chat between you and dr. jaeger, seeing if theres anything new. you took a look at the video of your affirmation, seeing the shirt you wore today as the thumbnail. you clicked on it, expecting your face to zoom out, as you were testing the camera quality always. to your shock, you camera didn’t zoom out. but instead was your body moving back and forth on something. your heart dropped. it couldn’t be. you’re praying it wasn’t. you skip some of the video to see if it was truly what you think it was, but the video suddenly changed to a more in-depth shot of you humping the pillow with your panties being in view. 

your heart start to beat faster than usual. you click off the video to delete it right away. dr. jaeger didn’t respond to it, and it said it was ‘delivered.’ you wanted to tell yourself that he hasn’t seen it, and probably watches those videos early in the morning. you weren’t going to stress yourself out though, you were just gonna go to his office per usual, and get counseling per usual.

— 

you take a deep breath and knock at his door, hoping it all ends well. you hear his “come in” but it sounds different from before. his voice went an octave lower. you walk into the room, seeing a more “messy” side of dr. jaeger. at-least he didn’t look at cleaned up as he usually does. his bun was a lot more frizzy from before and he had two buttons undone on his button up shirt. 

maybe he had a rough morning. you think to yourself. “good morning ms. y/l/n. how was your night?” you stopped for a second. such a simple question was something so dangerous to you. “it was fine, dr. jaeger. how about yours?” 

“oh. one of the best i’ve had in a while.” 

“ah. mine was the worst i’ve had in a while.” you mumbled. 

“really? i would’ve assumed you’ve had a very nice night ms. y/l/n.” 

you stare at him confused. what could he mean by that? yea, you fixed your hair a little better than usual, and your eye bags have gone away overtime, but you truly did have a sleepless night yesterday. dr. jaeger gets up from his chair, to lean on his desk, standing in-front of you. he stared down at you with his usually lighter colored eyes now displayed a dark-green. and his pupils were more extended. 

“i don’t know what gives you the impression that i’ve had a nice night dr. jaeger.” 

he bends to to match the height of the chair, and put both of his hands on the rest, restricting me from mounting off of it easily. “let’s cut the crap, y/n. i saw what you sent me.” at this moment, it felt like 100 daggers were suddenly lodged into your chest. 

“i wondered why you asked what you did yesterday. i thought to myself ‘maybe she thought i was attractive’, but i see it was more than that i see,” he says not breaking eye contact. “you see, as a human, we see something we like, and have many kinds of thoughts about it. and i see the thoughts you have towards me are stronger than what i expected.” 

“i’m truly sorry dr. jaeg-“ 

“call me eren, seeing as that is what you called me in the video.” 

“i’m sorry eren, truly. i don’t want to do anything to make you uncomfortable or hurt this relationship between us.” i say holding back my tears. 

“hurt? uncomfortable? those words are out of the park right now,” he says standing up. “to be honest, tell me why you came today y/n.” 

“to have a therapy session with you.” you meekly say.

“is my looks standing in the way of you healing with the death of your mother?” he says standing behind me. 

“not at all, dr. jae- eren.” 

“so then what provoked you to send me a five minute long video of you fucking yourself to a pillow in the imagination that it’s me?” you were at a loss for words. he was right. your heart sank as his word dug deeper into you. and you couldn’t hold back your tears anymore. you started to quietly sob, feeling large hands down your shoulders. you feel a hot breath near your eyes chill down your spine. “don’t cry, not in this manner at least,” he says in your ear. 

“cry because you can’t handle it, y/n.” 

you stopped and turned to look at him. he had a devilish grin on his face. “handle what?” you say, not catching his gist. 

“you’ll find out soon enough.”

eren lifts you up by the arm and spins you around to face him completely. you didn’t know what was going on, but you didn’t want to push away. your faces was a mere 4 inches away from each other. “can i? y/n. . . can i give you what you want?” 

you look at his eyes then his lips then his eyes again. fuck it, you nod your head and eren kisses you passionately. he stops kissing you for a moment to push the chairs aside. you look at his desk to see his usually messy papers cleaned up to the side. he planned this probably . . . eren picks you up and places you on his desk. 

he places a hand on your chin, rubbing it gently. “open it baby,” he says as his kisses you again, but placing his tongue all over the inside of your mouth. his hands tug on the bottom of your shirt, signaling for it to be removed. in between each kiss, you both take off a piece of clothing until you up to your undergarments. eren slips his large hand under your breast, fondling with it while he leaves wet hickeys on your neck. with the other hand he unclasps the bra, throwing it the ground. he kisses you again, muttering “nice tits”.

you pull at the band of his underwear, “want you in me ren’.” you whine. “patience baby.” eren says sliding your panties off to the floor. 

“are you on any pills by any chance?”, he says rubbing ur slick all over your cunt. “m-mhm ren.’”

“good. so i don’t have to hold back.” 

eren slips his underwear off, revealing his long, veiny and girthy dick. you want to guess it’s around 6-7 inches, but it was gonna tear you up regardless. he strokes his dick, ‘lubing’ it up with his pre-cum. he inches closer to you, having his dick and your hole just one insert away from each other. you open your legs wider and lay down on his desk, giving him more access to yourself. “didn’t even have to ask.” eren said.

he teases the tip of his dick on your clit. your whole body tingles in response, arching your back off the cold desk. “please ren’…” you beg, desperately wanting his dick buried into you. “please fuck me eren.” 

“as you wish.” with that, eren aligns himself with your entrance, slowly pushing himself in. the both of you moan simultaneously from the pleasure you both felt. eren starts to push his hips back and forth into you, keeping a firm grip on your waist. eren keeps a nice pace, making sure to satisfy both sides. suddenly, eren lifts your legs, wrapping them around his waist. you jolted from the tingle he gave you. you were trying to conceal your moans, but every time it was getting louder than usual, eren made sure put his hand over your mouth.

eren’s pace starts to unstable, moving fast at times and then slowing down to grind himself on you. you can tell he was close to his climax, seeing how desperate and shaky thrusts were. 

“‘m so close baby. . .” he grunts. 

“‘ren please! mhm.” you whine, begging him to release. 

“at the same time? what a good girl..” he barely breathes out. 

eren picks you up by the waist to pull you closer to him. there wasn’t enough space between you too, but he didn’t care. eren grinds his dick into you, feeling his dick throb in your walls. then, you feel a warm liquid pour inside of you, while at the same time cry out from your orgasm.