#I want to get better and better. I want to be able to draw komahina kissing in about three minutes. XD

[asaka-lucy-dr-rc]

hajime and nagito should totally kiss!

Definitely!

[anonzentimes]

how do people that dont immediately fall in love with nagitos character do it like chapter 1 he was so polite and nice i literally didnt wanna spend time with any other character, i caught on that nagito was responsible for SOMETHING before the first trial started and was genuenly so terrified he killed twogami cause i didnt want him to die, and then he had his breakdown and i was like yeah this is my favorite character in the entire series (i was still pissed at him for the rest of the trial lmfao

OH MY GOSH SAME!!! Like, everyone has a different experience, but as someone who loved him from day ONE I don't understand the experience of only eventually loving him lol. Even just people not loving his very existence and mannerisms is so different compared to me that I get confused! Finding him annoying sounds miserable I love him very much and not having him to hyper fixate on no, no, not having his impact on my life PERIOD would change my life drastically and I'd say for the worse. He's been so influential to so many parts of my life and continues to be such a fun brain worm consistently. I feel pity for those who can't experience the joy of his character and how happy he makes me, I know that there's no one with the exact impacts he's had on my life because he's so special to me.

At the time I saw Danganronpa 2 I was pretty depressed and every day felt the same, I was so miserable most of the time and was getting burnt out of life. I was loving Danganronpa though, I loved the first game and it gave me something to look forward to every day.

For Danganronpa 2 I had heard about Nagito, I knew he was popular but I didn't know why. I thought he'd be a major character so when he was just chill at first I was surprised. I was suspicious of him but that still didn't stop me from really liking him, my favorite from the first game was Makoto so his parallels and personality were really nice, fun, and interesting but I still was suspicious if there was more. When his breakdown happened my suspicion fell and instead of feeling conflicted and getting more suspicious it all made sense to me. He was so interesting and different, I loved everything about him and I wanted to understand him. It's kind of embarrassing but, it genuinely did help me at the time. After feeling as if every day felt the same in a weird helpless cycle my emotions about him were extreme enough that I loved that I was even feeling something which added to my love for him.

I saw the rest of Danganronpa 2 in 5 days because I was so invested and got a headache at Chapter 6, I cried at his death and it's the most I've cried at any specific media in recent years that I can remember lmao. I wanted to understand him more so I watched videos and read his wikis, I watched his free time events, I set him as all my profile pictures and wallpapers so I could have something that made me feel happy, I learned to draw him and his hair and he's all I wanted to draw which helped me improve, I joined the fandom early and met crucial people to my life before I finished the rest of the franchise because I loved him specifically so much, I got pinterest specifically so I could find more art of him, I read the komahina wiki just because I wanted to understand him more which led me to start shipping things that weren't strictly said to be canon, I discovered the term hyper fixations and realized I was neurodivergent because of him, like I could go on all day with the list of impacts on my life because of him but you get the point. He's still the most extreme hyper fixation I've ever experienced lmao. He's a special interest and I can say without a doubt that he still remains to be such a positive influence to my life. I'm grateful to experience such passion and happiness from something like him, haha! My love for his character STILL is helping my life even now by allowing me to practice articulating things about him, which has led to being able to get better at articulation in general, which has led to being better at english even having fun with it now and being less overwhelmed because I can express myself.

Oh my gosh I went on a yap sesh my bad LMAO!! But my point is, my experience with him is very specific and probably biased. But even so, I struggle to understand those who have such a different experience from me with him since I loved him from the start and my love only grew and has never stopped. I'm biased and I'm sure people have other interests that make them just as happy as he makes me, but I still feel sorry for those who don't experience what I do with him. But in the end one of the main beautiful things about media is subjectivity, so I'm okay being able to be so grateful for his existence and how it makes me feel.

Got a bit personal and sentimental with this since you struck something I was already thinking about when you sent this haha, sorry I said I agree in the longest way possible like it was a yapping content LMAO... thank you for your ask! <3

[nagitolovebug]

About the komahina kids death, its bebi isnt it :(? If you can spoil it howndoes the parents react to this?

:) it actually isn't bebi! as the "mastermind" of their respective killing game, it wouldn't serve for them to die prematurely,,before the ultimate showdown between hope and despair! as for komahina reaction,,,it's definitely hard. even knowing it's just the neo world program and that their child is (physically) ok,,, I feel like they'd both force themselves to watch. as penance, for letting this happen at all. nagito says after the fact that he "didn't want her to be alone". I think, they watch as much as they can but...they probably collapse onto each other, holding each other on the floor and sob...nagito's health had been worsening due to stress and hajime refused to let himself be vulnerable at all but watching their child die in such a brutal manner....they just let it all out. I wouldn't discount the notion of one or both of them being physically ill, either. they are probably dragged from the room and forced to stop watching and rest, but I doubt either of them would be able to sleep for a very, very long time. anyway, spoilers for this hypothetical killing game!

it is actually their little sister, kiko, who dies- or rather, is executed- during bebi's game. kiko would actually be the "protagonist" of this game and as their class size dwindles down, she becomes increasingly desperate to get her twin brother (haruki) home to their family (the twins have lost their memories of bebi- a cruelty of junko's design). truly her father's daughter, kiko designs a murder plot in which haruki would be the blackened by her murder set-up- much like chiaki with nagito. however...kiko isn't the ultimately lucky student. she messes up, she's the real killer, but the way she designed the murder, she doesn't know that. at the trial they're gonna convict haru (which would've been wrong and kiko would've survived! but she doesn't know that) and that's when kiko manipulates and convinces the class to convict her instead, thinking she's saving haru. but when she's voted and revealed the blackened....it's a shock to them all. haru is shocked and confused, tearing up as they take half of his soul away,,,but he turns to the side and sees bebi, this random kid who barely spoke to kiko, sobbing inconsolably. "kiki-nii, please, y-you can't leave! please don't leave me.." and kiko clenches her fists and smiles. "it'll be ok, kurakura-chan..it'll be over soon. you're crying harder than my own brother, haha. .....haruki. take care of bebi. you guys..need to get out of here. together. get back to papa, haru. we can't....he can't lose us both." she's still smiling at them when the collar cinches around her neck and she's dragged away. the music that plays while she's killed is an eerie rendition of a lullaby hajime used to sing to her. after she's died, with haruki standing there numb, dried tears on his face, and bebi crumpled on the ground, monokuma decides to instigate further tension between the remaining siblings (half of which don't know they're siblings) "you killed her." "I...killed kiko?" "you killed them all." "no, I..I didn't. I didn't. I wouldn't. it's not possible." "your father did the same. orchestrate a killing game." "you're ..lying...daddy never hurt anyone." "hinata didn't. but he's not your dad, is he?" "shut up.." "you wanted so desperately to show them the despair in your heart that you killed them all!" "shut up ..!" "what kind of monster kills their own sister?" "SHUT UP! I DIDNT..I DIDNT..my ..iko...I just wanted them to stay.." haruki just wipes his eyes. "what..are you talking about?" ":) I'll let your sibling explain!" "kiko is dead." he spits it out. "good thing you have an extra one!" "kamukura, what is he talking about?" "I..I.." "kamukura. my sister..she just...you have to tell me. please." "she was my sister too." "what?" "I'm. you're. you're my brother, haru." "how is that possible??? no, no, I'd remember having another fucking sibling! my whole life, it's just been me and kiko and now she's dead and this..this fucking bear says its your fault! it's me and kiko, it's always been me and

kiko, and you took her away from me!" "I didn't! haruki, please, I, I didn't, I'd never hurt her-" "YOU DID! YOU HURT US BOTH! BECAUSE NOW SHE'S GONE, AND SHE LEFT ME TO CLEAN UP AFTER HER MESS! AGAIN! LIKE SHE ALWAYS DOES! FUCK! fuck. kiko. kiko. why couldn't you..why do you always have to rely on me. why am I the one who's left. you were better, and stronger, and talented, and im nobody, so why am I alone," "s-stop..." "you have some nerve to still be able to look me in the eye." "papa ...never wanted you to feel inferior for your lack of talent..so stop it. stop it. you can't.." "..what?" "he tried to make you do a billion hobbies..I remember gardening with you, and swimming, and drawing, and playing with..with uncle gundham's animals..you always hated the ducks for some reason..a-and papa would get so anxious and frantic and it'd make daddy worry terribly..I think papa was just scared for you...he never wanted you to be like him.. but he. he got better. he'd do everything with you, and tell you how special you were every day and how much he loved you, and if you say this now, you're spitting in his face." "..they used to bite you." ".....w-" "I didnt like the ducks because the mom bit you. when you picked up the little black duckling. I watched you cry for so long and you were my big sibling and you were so strong and it made you cry and it scared me. and it made me angry." "haru.." "I- I thought it was kiko. but..she would never cry like that. and the more I think about it, the more..I remember...you would...crawl into my bed when you had nightmares...because you were the least scared of me." "...." "bebi...I.." and then they crush him in a hug and start sobbing. if they're going to make it out, they're going to make it out together. for their family. for kiko.

[hxpefulmuses]

[A little something I wrote based on a few inbox interactions between my partner @despairfound and myself. I'll go back and edit any name mistakes later. I just like writing their names this way for simplicity sake. Now enjoy a very ooc interaction done purely for self indulgence purposes of Izuru x Servant. I've got other drabbles I'm working on for Komahina and Saiouma]

The sound of a door creaking open was enough to draw the male sitting with his back to the wall out of his thoughts. He only heaved a small sigh when he saw the shadow cast on the ground of whom had come to pay him a visit.

"Kamukura!" The way her voice interrupted the silence made him turn his body in the direction someone had been speaking.

"Mn?" That was all the response that she really deserved.

"I have something for you." She approached him with her arms behind her back obviously holding something in them. Whenever Junko had anything for him he wasn't sure if he could necessarily count it as anything enjoyable, or entertaining for that matter.

"What is it?" Izuru heard the sound of his own voice, but he was never sure if he was only telegraphing or replying to his own thoughts; they were such a jumble at times. He would probably regret replying to Junko as it was.

"A surprise! It's Halloween after all." The blond with pink highlights in her long pigtails was in a "good" mood, and when Junko was in a "good" mood that meant that he or her servant had to put up with her antics.

Before Izuru got much of a chance to question anything the despair pulled out a pair of cat ears, and a tail, both black in color and presented them as if they were the most generous offering anyone had ever made before.

"What are these?" Crimson optics eyed what the fashionista had pulled from behind her back.

He didn't have to wait too long for an explanation as Junko was only too pleased to volunteer the details on her own.

"You're going to keep a certain someone company for me. How about it?" Junko placed a pout on her pink lips before giving a halfhearted wave of her hand.

Usually, Izuru would have shrugged her off or just listened as she went on about her ideas to bring despair to the world-- one of which she had succeeded in, yet for now he was interested. "Who?" He asked while only so slightly moving his head to the left. The dark curtain of hair seemed to move along with even such a small movement.

"That's a surprise for both of you." She told him in a sing song voice while moving forward to attempt to slide the ears on him. He dodged her attempts even throwing out a hand a few times, but in her perseverance she had managed to get behind him and place the ears on his head.

Izuru wanted this to be over and done with as soon as possible, and it was a break from doing nothing so he just decided to comply. Junko could be tolerable in doses after all. "Tolerable".

The pigtailed despair bounced with joy before placing on her cutesy persona. "Oh, I just knew you would go along with it!" She moved to fasten a tail to the back of his suit before taking his hand, this time a more mature voice and persona in play. "We wouldn't want to keep the puppy waiting, now would we? It's such a lonesome Halloween so far for him." As if she actually cared whether it was or not; much of this was for her own enjoyment too.

Izuru didn't answer that, and only chose to follow Junko towards a room down the hall. She opened the door and he spied a shock of white with shading of pink. The eyes belonging to the servant were currently occupied with the pages of a book.

"Nagi! Happy Halloween!" The despair called out as if she was just calling out to someone else on the playground. "I brought you a playmate!" A hand pushed into the long haired male's lower back urging him forward. Izuru just simply complied stepping into the room.

At the interruption to the silence the servant who had been enjoying a temporary escape frowned at the voice lilting in the air. Nagito knew that Junko only brought the silent and indifferent Kamukura by as way of keeping him complacent-- and probably her own twisted amusement in some ways as well. He supposed that was what he got in return for his unpredictable cycles of luck. Junko didn't necessarily fear him, but she was definitely wary of him all the same as if she calculated several ways things could go wrong with his very existence and planned ahead.

"Enoshima," Nagito was wearing his usual cordial smile while putting his book off to the side. "To what do I owe the pleasure?" His last word was hinted with irritation laced within it. Did she say Happy Halloween wondered to himself.

"I already said I brought you a playmate. For Halloween!" Junko said with her arms cross over her chest. Her baby blues landed on the suit clad male, and Nagito who was always watching Junko's each and every move took the sight of him in.

"You bring someone like this to worthless scum like me?" He was so temperamental. His moods could switch on and on off just like they had been shifted into the on or off positions. "I guess Halloween isn't a total bust after all." He said giving a series of giggling that earned a shift in his breathing getting hitched slightly. To say he was pleased to see the dark-haired male was an understatement.

Once he managed to steady his breathing he took note of the cat ears and the tail trailing behind Kamukura. Both of which didn't seem to bother him in the least as he was wearing his usual mask of indifference.

Izuru walked forward, but not before moving out of the way of Junko getting ready to touch him again. He made his way over to the servant, and sat down with his back firm against the wall.

"Have fun you two." Junko had merely wanted to drop Kamukura off while attending to plans she had in mind. She couldn't very well have Mr. Wildcard getting in the way either. This left her shutting the heavy steel door behind her, and enabled Nagito to finally speak to the figure radiating hope and talent next to him. Besides, it was a good idea to keep both of them on their toes. It would be so much easier to throw despair at them when they least expected it.

"The look is surprisingly becoming on you, Kamukura." Nagito said with a wry chuckle before reaching out and running his fingers over the soft material of one of the feline appearing ears. "I really am lucky to be gifted with this..." He trailed off as the dark haired male wasn't so much as reactionary.

"Can you tell me why you would go along with such a thing?" He found himself asking as he removed his fingers from the cosplay ears, and slid down the wall, but not before edging closer to Kamukura.

"Sometimes it is easier to just go along with her whims all in the name of evading boredom." Izuru explained while moving a hand to lay atop his knee.

What he wasn't saying was the conflicted impressions that came into his mind whenever he was able to spend time with the snowy haired male. How he didn't mind his company.

Nagito's eyes lit up with an interest in them. He might as well enjoy the time he could get with the mysterious Kamukura. "You could easily best her in anything, but I guess I could understand." He made the last remark while bringing a finger to his chin in contemplation.

Izuru interrupted his thoughts leaving a surprised expression on the pale-haired male's face as the long-haired male spoke. "That is an interesting opinion considering you yourself could easily think several steps ahead of Enoshima." Before he was finished he spoke once more in a softer, yet still monotone voice. "I don't mind going along with her antics if they include you." After all the servant wasn't boring, no in more ways than one he was unpredictable. A small semblance of interest to Izuru.

"You give me and my lucky guesswork way too much credit." Nagito tells the hopeful with a smile on his features. He reaches up to a dark faux furred ear tracing his fingers along it between two fingers once more. "Ah! I get it you really do enjoy my presence after all." He chuckled. "I feel flattered!"

"I would say that your lucky guesswork has more credit to it than you would think." Izuru explained while trying to regain composure and indifference once more.

"More simply put, I tolerate you." Izuru said as once more he had been proved correct in that the servant wasn't easy to read. He hadn't expected the touch yet again.

"I see," Nagito's eyes took on a swirling of black in the grey green before twisting into despair. "So you simply tolerate me. That's fine!" Everyone else did as well. He said with a laugh. "They do suit you though." If Izuru's words had stung than it didn't show.

"Yes, I tolerate you." Izuru reiterated before his face fell from the total stoic mask, eyes gazing downward as if searching for a way to word what he meant. "Perhaps, it is a different sort of tolerate where you are concerned." Emotions could be complex for one who had been designed with the sole purpose of thinking in many ways and talents. "You are skilled in more than just luck." He tried saying once more.

Instead of trying to explain himself or his jumbled thoughts once more, he just moved in closer to the servant while his fingers found the metal links of his chain, and began idly playing with it. While he was doing that he reached up to the crown of his head and removed the velvety black cat ears. Without much deliberation on his actions he moved to place them on the other males crown of white tresses.

The corners of Nagito's lips turned up as he simply moved in closer towards Kamukura. He had a feeling that the one they called Izuru Kamukura was actually kinder and held a bigger heart than all of the indifference let on. Yet, appearances were often deceiving. "A different sort of tolerance? I can take that as an answer." He said before noticing that the cat ears had been switched ownership to his own head.

"Those suit you much better, I think, but I'll wear them if that is what you want." His own fingers moved to ghost across the wrist of the hand holding the chain.

"Then I will wear them." Izuru promptly switched ownership of the ears once more, but at the compliment he leaned in and licked the Servant's cheek before giving a monotoned "Meow. Happy Halloween." It hadn't been entirely boring after all. Though he would never admit that. He still didn't understand a lot of the excitement about the holiday however.

Nagito actually blushed at the sudden lick to his cheek. “Ahah, Happy Halloween. I’ll make some treats just for you once the kids are all in bed,” he reached up to playfully scratch behind Kamukura’s ear.

[ieonaegi]

sendin you a dr ask about komaeda because i'm Predictable ,

Oh hey!!! My boy nagayto!

Honestly, the first thing I want to do is give him a hug and a lot of therapy. Like...honestly, I’m not like “he did nothing wrong” or anything like that, but like...it’s not exactly his fault that he thinks that way. He thinks his worldview is the absolute truth, and the fact that he has the illnesses he has and the past trauma just...

Everyone has a right to be upset with him--obviously. But he really just needs help.

He’s...such a complex character, like...wow.

I think in a non-despair timeline his actions are less extreme. He still shows symptoms but he’s got a better grip on reality. I don’t think he has a lot of friends, though. Not many people can handle him, his self-depreciating comments, or the weird way he comes off sometimes--or they don’t try to.

He hides behind a mask while also not outright lying. He’s usually truthful, deflecting or speaking in a roundabout way if he doesn’t want to reveal something.

He genuinely cares about other people but he just isn’t in the right headspace. He’s worthless and anyone with talent is the most amazing person ever. He wants to see others succeed, but he never gets close with anyone, because of how shallow and strange his interactions with them are.

It’s unclear whether he does this on purpose.

He wants to be liked, but he doesn’t think he deserves it. He believes that these bad things happening to other people is a direct result of being connected with him, and he doesn’t want to get close to others for that reason. He obsesses over his luck cycle and tries to manipulate it, planning out his next course of action in reference to whether the next thing to happen to him should be lucky or unlucky.

I do think that in order to get actual help he would have to be forced into it, and I don’t know who would be able to do that for him.

On a less sad note, he’s gay, I ship non-despair-timeline komahina, and my brotps with him are with Tsumiki and Kuzuryuu.

This was mostly me stating things that are canon oof I’m sorry gkdjlagdklj

Speaking of Nagito, now it’s time to draw the boy

[96percentdone]

What's the appeal of Komahina (Yes, I know) since you said you enjoy answering shippy asks?

everything. its all the appeal of komahina. i’m love komahina. its top tier.

Okay real talk but the biggest Advantage™ to komahina is that there’s like so much to work with in canon. we have a whole game’s worth of content. And because of having so much shit to work with, there’s a lot to talk about! under the cut!

So the draw to end all draws is obviously that Komaeda is canonically gay, and specifically, gay for Hinata. That cop out confession is a work of art. It really is. The man literally says “I love--the hope sleeping within you, from the bottom of my heart” as if the last second subject switch is gonna do anything to disguise how gay it was. You used aishiteru Komaeda. We all know.

But you don’t even just need that free time event to confirm Komaeda’s Gay Feelings™, contrary to the belief of fools, Komaeda even alludes to it in chapter four. Sure he’s also busy being a total dick, but even then he can’t stop himself from commenting on how he’s still attached to Hinata, and that it’s making him emotional. The fact that Hinata, the man he loves, is the epitome of all the things he’s decided he’s supposed to hate, is what’s killing him inside, and you can argue its why he’s so vicious to Hinata in particular. it’s not something that Hinata deserves, of course, but its a side-effect of his perceived betrayal. 

SPEAKING OF PERCEIVED BETRAYALS, let’s talk about chapter 1! So you’ll notice that I haven’t really talked about Hinata’s feelings towards Komaeda yet, and that’s because chapter 1 is what royally fucks those to high hell. Before the trial, Hinata really likes Komaeda. He enjoys spending time with him, and is happy to investigate with him. He considers Komaeda reliable, and that first free time event has him call Komaeda’s smile soothing, similar to how Naegi talked about Maizono’s. And we all know how Naegi felt about her. He doesn’t really think he knows Komaeda all that well, and Hinata is somewhat distrusting but not to an unhealthy degree, but despite all that, he still likes Komaeda. More than he’s probably aware of (hi Hinata I see you wrote down word for word Komaeda’s confession in your report card you wanna elaborate on that decision or--)

But that’s why trial fucks everything up so badly. Komaeda turned out to not be the person he thought. In that confrontation in trial, he’s incredibly distraught about having to do this despite only having known him for a few days. I think he even uses that sprite where he’s got tears in his eyes he’s that fucked up about it. He’s taken that perceived betrayal very personally.

I wanna make something clear though: Komaeda did betray the group but not to the extent Hinata takes it. Komaeda never really hides his issues or his true nature from people. His self deprecating nature is clearly visible and he does seem weirdly focused on hope a few times. Komaeda absolutely betrayed the group by kickstarting the killing game, however, he did not sell himself as anything other than himself, something Hinata firmly believes he did. It’s not that Komaeda ever behaved like a different person, it’s that they were unable to realize how deep his issues and complexes went until he acted on them. But because Komaeda is always personable and friendly, if not somewhat a nihilist, they didn’t realize what was wrong.

But despite that...Hinata’s still weirdly drawn to him. Despite wanting to hate Komaeda and feeling extraordinarily hurt by his betrayal...he still doesn’t quite let that go. Sure he’s pretty cold to Komaeda sometimes, but he still checks in on his despair fever. he still talks to him and tries to understand what makes him tick, even if he seems very unhappy about it. Hinata’s understanding of Komaeda in chapter 5 comes from this. In that final free time event, he’s even willing to forgive him before Komaeda backpedals hardcore. I think that’s proof enough that Hinata cannot hate Komaeda, and moreover deep down, that he doesn’t want to either.

But all that just kinda reeks of “tragically fucked up huh I doubt that would ever work out” but oh no you silly little potato chip. No it’ll be fine because sdr2 gave us the glorious virtual reality, maybe one day they’ll all wake up. And that’s the key place where things can get better. After canon, where they have all the time in the world to recover.

Chapter 6 tells Hinata a lot of things, but most importantly, he’s not better than Komaeda. They all fucked shit up. They were all fucked up and damaged emotionally; Komaeda just broke catastrophically before they did. They all need to recover and go past their issues; Komaeda is not exempt from that. And I think this key bit of information would help, at least in part, Hinata get past that perceived betrayal. Plus time and actually talking to Komaeda would do that too. 

So what would either of them get out of a relationship? To me, that’s the most important thing about a ship to me: how either of them grows and become better, happier people. I think a lot that Hinata gets from it comes from helping Komaeda, and in doing so, he learns to understand more about himself. They both have similar complexes about talent, and feeling worthless in relation to it, and in helping Komaeda come to terms with that, among various other things, I think Hinata would come to terms with it himself, and be more confident.

They have a surprising amount in common with their lack of self-esteem and complexes around that. I also think Komaeda, in general, is encouraging, and if Hinata finds him soothing, it’ll help Hinata’s anxiety mellow out over time. Komaeda’s very good about taking things in stride which is something Hinata definitely needs in his life to help him.

And Komaeda? Boy. Well okay, Komaeda needs like a lot of actual therapy just. Just all the time. Hinata can’t really help much with that just support him. (To be clear Hinata also needs a therapist I just think talking to Komaeda will help him figure out what he needs to say to his therapist). But Komaeda desperately needs two things. The first is Komaeda really only feels like he can connect with someone he feels is the same level as him, which he definitely feels about Hinata. He has a line about them both being “bystanders to the other shsls.” 

But moreover, Komaeda needs someone stable. Someone that can prove his life is not ruled over by a luck cycle. Komaeda’s luck is real, but it’s not the cycle he thinks it is. That’s just a coping mechanism he uses to cope with the immense tragedy in his life, because his “good luck” does not balance out his bad luck. Komaeda’s luck just tends to guarantee his success the more likely he is to fail. So he survives the plane crash, even though it should have killed him. So he gets the winning lotto ticket, even though the lottery is a scam designed to take your money. So he gets into hope’s peak, even though every other high school student his age was eligible for that slot. That’s how his luck works. 

But his life is so tragic he has to assume its a good and bad cycle. He believes that anything good that happens has to cause something terrible, and vice versa, and its the basis of his worldview, but what he needs, is someone to stick around by him and prove him wrong. For someone to try to understand him, and not disappear on him. He needs a constant, and Hinata, who tries to understand him and is similar to him, is that constant. And I think by having that constant he’ll be able to let go of such a harmful worldview and move on into a happier place in his life. 

Anyway tl;dr Komahina is good because it’s complex and mutually beneficial thank you good night!

[kimmysfandomblog]

Plushie blog musings

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It wasn't easy and they together cost me way more money than I should have spent, but I finally have Komaplushie and Hinaplushie from both the DR3 and DR2 lottery prizes ♡♡♡ these two were my main inspiration (aside from, of course, Meshinui, but like HELL will I ever be able to afford the smiling little devil.

My main drive for the plushie blog, however, has always been not being able to have them myself, so now that they are here, with me, I have been not feeling like drawing much (unless it is TPG-related, in which case I will literally throw myself into it no matter how tough it goes XD). With the start of school and a new job and trying to write for the zine (pleaseinsertcoinzine), this isn't getting any easier to feel any motivation to draw, and the more time I don't draw, the harder it gets to be able to do so (lack of practice really wrecks me). I still have an interest, but I just lack that motivation (again... unless it relates to TPG. I will break my own rules to not draw more V3 characters for the sake of TPG- hence we have Rantaroplush XD).

Also, I am considering making my plushie sideblog into a separate "main" blog, but there is no real way to do this without completely remaking the account. It isn't that I have given up on the blog at all or don't care for my followers there, but I simply don't want it as a side blog anymore... at the very least, I want my V3 and KH blogs to be more easily accessible instead of buried in side blogs that I don't reblog to (well, only V3 was but still)

I think my only solution for now is moving it away to my main blog (haha... main... haven't touched it in weeks) I mean, I guess the downside is not seeing the notes as quickly, and a lack of motivation from it, as well as not being able to track polls and other events I may hold there. But it is the only thing I can think of (until Tumblr let's us order our sideblogs in the order we want them to be in, of course). If this honestly doesn't help me, then I might actually make a new primary account and slide the plushie side blog over (using my old url)

Also, just to prove that I do have things planned, here is my To-Do list:

Talentswap requests: Ultimate Princess Maizono for serahne (this is over a year late lol)

Possibly another KH exchange thing, it all depends on the prompts I get, but Kimmy's participating for her third round ✌

For myself: A side image of festival KomaHina in the same style as in a cafe event earlier this year (Akibahara Cross)

Rarepair requests: Kom/aZumi (ochakuro),Hinat/sumi (serahne),Naeku/saba and Amama/tsu for despairandhcpe (I am adding in the second one since I drew Amami for the sake of my OT3 XD)

And something that has been on my mind lately, a Food Fantasy crossover poll event (maybe I will take more talentswaps now that I have a few more plushies to offer)

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And unrelated to the plushie blog, but I had so much fun with Hinaegifestival that I want to run another event for another important rare pair, HiNatsumi! I think that unless I get another mod, it will only last one day, or maybe two, though. If I do end up deciding on making it, I think the best course of action would be to set it in April on a weekend (interest check likely in... December?)

And I also know there are a few asks that have been just sitting in my inboxes. One is on the V3 blog, two are on here, and another... two? are in hinaegifestival. My motivation to answer have been really fluctuating lately, and I am sorry to those I am keeping waiting (if any of you have even gotten this far lol). I don't have an excuse, like I went halfway through most of these asks, and then suddenly lost motivation entirely. That has been happening quite a bit to be honest. I'll get my act together eventually.

The plushie blog has been set to pretty much lowest priority in favor of the events that actually have deadlines, and real life, of course, but it's better this way, I think. I want the plushie things to be a passion project, not an IOU thing. It's the reason I try so hard on designs and backgrounds, and to try and do them without any drive is just... unfulfilling in the end. I know I will pick it back up eventually, but now is just not the right time, even if I truly wish it was.

Well, that is all that I have been sitting on for quite a while now. To who ever actually reads this, thanks for bearing with me XD I appreciate it ♡