#I used to be such a crybaby ahahha

[kensingtonbae]

So lately I’ve been thinking (which is weird and rare) and yk i realized just now that my childhood was not the standard, that very few people experience what I’ve been through. I thought that it was very normal and not a big deal crying every week because your elementary school friends invited you over after school and you had to decline every time because you had training and not going wasn’t an option. I thought it was like very normal to cry for 5 hours straight most of the days because of pain and frustration??? And breaking bones was like, common sense, that’s gonna happen eventually, multiple times too, not a big deal. The skin on your hands exploding? Spit on it and go back up, another round. Not being able to eat after 7 hours of training because you’re too exhausted to even stand up? Yeah it’s okay ima take a shower. You’re scared shitless and having a panic attack because survival instincts are taking over but you HAVE to go up on that beam and flip or you’ll be sent home? Alright, geez, I’m going I’m going. “Today you misbehaved, you went to get water without permission after not drinking for 2 hours during floor in a 35 degree weather. After lunch break you’re doing 200 push ups, I’m counting”. You smashed your nose during enforcement and now you’re bleeding? Shiiiit I’ve gotta go stuff some toilet paper up that nostril or I’ll stain everything. You’re throwing up because you’re too exhausted? Fuck please gimme a sec in the restroom please don’t punish me I promise I’ll catch that yeager later. Not to mention the jealousy towards all your friends and family because they could do whatever they wanted in the afternoon and during summer cause they didn’t even know what a gym was.

AND UP TIL NOW I THOUGHT THIS WAS STANDARD FOR EVERYONE??? LIKE I NEVER QUESTIONED ONE SINGLE THING OF THEESE IN MY LIFE??? that feels so normal to me though growing up as an elite athlete was definitely smth

[anas-tasiaa]

Awwwwww ahahha

Ray is just too soft, so kind and adorable, even a crybaby 🥲 with his soft and low voice, omg he's completely an opposite with Unknown HAHAHAHHAHA I just don't used to this new personality of Saeran, it's weird but I think I would get used to it soon.

Protect this baby at all cost!!

[heyhyuck-blog]

Tag!!

tagged by my @renjunstoothgap (thx bb sorry this took so long) rules: complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. when you are finished you have to tag people to do this survey. have fun and enjoy!! 1: are you named after someone : yeah my gramma 2. when is the last time you cried : last night bc i saw donghyuck glowing in the sun 3.do you like your handwriting : okaY STORY TIME my handwriting last year was a++++++ but now it looks like shit high school amirite (so no not at all) 4. what is your favorite lunch to eat : i dont???? eat??? lunch???? 5. do you have kids : i am a mom friend but no im like 15 wtf 6. if you were another person, would you be friends with you : hell yeah im,, cool, 7. do you use sarcasm : hahahahha do i 8. do you still have your tonsils : mhm 9. would you bungee jump : hahahah i would rather die hahahahhahhah 10. what is your favorite kind of cereal : life (jk frosted flakes are the only acceptable cereal and u can fite me if u think otherwise ;)) 11: do you untie your shoes when you take them off : always otherwise my shoes are gunna rip in half bc theyre like 5 years old 12: do you think you’re a strong person : depends,, like sometimes especially when me or mah friends are being picked on but physical pain???? im such a crybaby even if its like a friggin papercut tbh 13: what is your favorite ice cream flavour : sea salt n caramel 14: what is the first thing you notice about people : nose bc noses are weird 15: red or pink : red!!! gimme that blood color!!!! hit me with tha crimson!!!! 16: what is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself : so most peoples hips are really smooth and nice but my hips have an indentation and i h8 that!!!! That and i also hat e my wrists bc theyre rlly skinny and make my hands look unproportionately large 17: what color pants and shoes are you wearing now : black leggings and no shoes 18: what was the last thing you ate : tbh breakfast (its like 5:00 pm yet and im starving but dinner isnt for another 20 mins ah ahahha a) 19: what are you listening to right now : i have recently been binge listening to the weekend so,, nothing without you by the weekend 20: if you were a crayon, what color would you be: i will have u know i googled the name of this just to answer this- the crayola crayon called shamrock,,, so green 21: favorite smell : bread baking!!! I lov that smell idk why 22: who was the last person you spoke to on the phone : mom probably (i never talk on the phone tbh) 23: favorite sport to watch : ummmmmm probably volleyball??? or swimming bc im a swimmer and i get hella competitive about that ahhhaaa 24: hair color : dark ass brown but thats not my natural color, its naturally a light brown 25: eye color :hazel so like not quite green, not quite blue, not quite brown,,, 26: do you wear contacts : yeah but i wear glasses or just stay mildly blind more often bc putting little discs on my eyeballs??? no thx??? 27: favorite food to eat : salt n vinegar chips bc i connect with their salty vinegary-ness 28: scary movies or comedy : i love horror movies but they freak me out 29: last movie you watched : Hidden Figures!!! 30: what color of shirt are you wearing : its this really pretty dark green sweater (if you cant tell i like the color green) 31: summer or winter : spring 32: hugs or kisses : botH im such a sucker for skinship and im needy so yeah both 33: what book are you currently reading : its a book for my english class about females in leadership positions 34: who do you miss right now : by bff in california lov u momo 35: what is on your mouse pad : i legit use one of my old sketchbooks as a mouse pad bc im cheap 36: what is the last tv program you watched : criminal minds?? i think?? idk i dont really watch much tv 37: what is the best sound : RAIN BUT NOT THUNDER BC THAT SHITS FREAKY 38: rolling stones or the beatles : i grew up in a beatles household,, so,, 39: what is the furthest you have ever traveled? : usa to morocco! 40: do you have a special talent : my dad taught me a weird party trick when i was little and ive been perfecting it recently: basically you put a stck of coins on your elbow and the flick your arm down and catch the coins without them hitting the ground its really hard to explain ahhhhhhahah yikes 41: where were you born : cali but i dont live there any more rip 42: people you expect to participate in this : uHhhh okay so you dont have to do this!!!!! @smolmarkhyuck @secretlymadeoutofcups @haecchan