#I too am holding onto hope
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there goes my favorite drawing software ...
i defended their plans for the version2 and all, bc i didnt see much wrong with it and liked csp alot, but i guess i should have become a hater back then already
after that one big mistake that sparked so much outrage they really said but how can we actually lose EVERYONE, they saw deviantart doing it and thought BET I CAN DO IT FASTER
(they say they dont use user data but are basing it on stable diffusion of all things, they literally only ask people to think morally/ethically when using it to not use stolen stuff like thats ever worked with anything ever, plus "we cant guarantee that there will be no copyright infringement" OH YOU DONT SAY)
#ganondoodles talks#clip studio#AI crap#RIGHT when i was slowly getting back into everything#after having to come to terms with the fact that twitter is turning into a facists dreamland#WHY CSP WHY#i had FAITH#after deviantart pulled this shit why would you do it too#god i am fuming#fuck his hell world#see how you do once art disappears#you cant treat artists like replaceable dirt soup forever#since they said they will dis continue it once vers2 comes out#guess im never buying that new version and stay with 1 forever#i really yall spam their damn feedback survey once its out#maybe ... MAYBE if we yell enough at them#the hope for them to turn around on this is thinner than a spiders thread#and yet im trying to hold onto it#whats left really
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Collection of edits from this comic with Disco Elysium dialogue.
#What do I even tag this#mdzs#mdzs disco elysium au#There are so many line that work very well for them. Alas I was constrained by the panels I had.#So many hbd and kim conversations fit the wangxian dynamic its unreal.#Once again I am politely holding out Disco Elysium as a recommendation: So long as you are aware of it's content and warnings.#It is truly one of the most hopeful games about trauma and despair. It is hilarious in a way that frames the tragedy perfectly.#Be warned that it is a dark and heavy read. But it is truly a life changing experience.#It helped my get out of a bad place in realizing how much I was hurting myself by trying to hold onto the past and regrets.#Go in as blind as you can. If you are ready for it - you will not regret playing this game.#In other news...yeah okay so I meant to spend the rest of my saturday drawing more pd-mdzs#Then I started watching Link Click.... oops where did the time go?#Permit me another day of stalling and I will have comics coming soon. Might sprinkle some LC doodles in the mix too.
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this but jeg
#the bsf is barty#and this would absolutely break james btw#because i feel like both of them were holding onto hope yknow#they pretended they were just friends and put it all behind them#they said they ended on good terms but they just missed each other#and reg would think he was hiding it really well but of course barty noticed#and one day Reg wasn't thinking and let Barty have his phone and saw James everywhere#everything was still there#and Barty knowing how Reg was knowing he was still hurting just had to delete everything#and then as soon as Barty sent that text on his phone he'd block James too#and they'd still have Sirius#they'd still have that branch but the rest of them would crumble#James would just stare at the unsent text message for hours#it would plague every second of his waking hour s#my fluff era is over apparently#i want angst and nothing but angst#<- i am writing two fluffy chapters rn#jegulus
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That’s what she holds onto. A life—an eternal one—with someone else as Lord. Someone true of heart. Quick of mind. That’s the dream, right there. And all she has to do is clear the way. - Chapter 26
Another swrd art… what a surprise lol. go check it out guys! (i will never stop preaching about it)
hi @un-local how r u on this fine afternoon
#magdalene my favorite blorbo... i will fight the wolves for u#holding onto rogiers rapier... a small hope in these desolate lands where she is all alone with the golden grace#i hope that one day will i get to read the point where rogier lets himself hope too (that would definitely be the day!)#each others hope if u will#groovy brush my beloved 🫶#lighting.... my worst enemy#had a lot of fun with the background though!!#i was genuinely scratching my head over the stupid gradient map thing#ive been wanting to do something like this for a LOOONG while so yay!!!#tried to incorporate the mending rune of death and stars. and the carian phalanx (WHICH I AM REALIZING IS 4 BLADES NOT 3)#but yeah! not too much to go off of other than that.. hope u enjoy hare! or. un or local. not local. (scratches head)#thank you miami and mellow for the support!! i would have literally kept staring at the drawing for who knows how long#elden ring#tarnished#magdalene#swrd#still waters#envelop art
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Jon's lost his Jay-dating privileges, Jay deserves a hotter(but still a little fucked up) boyfriend.
#cameron kim#city boy#jay nakamura#gossamer#the truth#these bad boys have so many mommy issues#Jay Nakamura constantly fighting for the soul of his country#Cameron Kim who knows the cries and aches of cities too well#Jay who still puts up a fight-clawing and steadfast to hold onto hope and faith#Cameron who gave up and is struggling to understand why anyone would fight so hard#I am not even joking like they should be friends#it started as a joke but like it's not funny anymore#jaycam?#CamJay?#Jaymeron?
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the main party reuniting its two halves and all their respective new experiences, perspectives, knowledge, traumas, etc meshing and clashing together is going to be WILD and I can't wait.
#critical role#cr spoilers#op#c3e63#i started to list all the things but it's too long of a list and I'm not an episode scholar lol#but my faves include#the 'threesome/romance vs betrayal' experience#imogen and laudna being parted and having to stand alone#with laudna especially facing darkness and having to handle that without imogen there#(i am hoping their relationship will have some shakeups in some fashion because it would be interesting development)#orym's continual sacrificing of ideals he is holding onto like the regret for killing an enemy (tossing away of the locket)#(I'm enjoying his journey as-is but would LOVE an interlude with Dorian sometime)#Ashton learning more about the Hishari#So many juicy things#Mash! them! together!
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Every time I feel like my writing is mediocre I scroll through all the lovely comments people have left and it rekindles the same creative spirit I had when I was twelve years old and writing fanfic for the first time, when the thought of criticizing myself didn't even occur to me because I was finding so much joy in the simple act of creation, when I was still trying to unfurl my petals because I wasn't sure how to bloom but by god I was growing
#hannah's rambles#I'm not having those self-depreciating thoughts right now#I just think about the thousands of people out there who have read and loved the writing I've shared and stuck with me#And I hold them all in my heart which is too small to contain everything and now everything is leaking out onto the floor#I don't know how to think about people who have been inspired by me or cheered me on and not get overwhelmed with appreciation#And love and hopes and dreams and possibilities#I don't know what I'm talking about but God am I feeling things tonight /pos and /???
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I've been having fun dipping into martin's perspective lately... it's helping me flesh out my interpretation of him and he never fails to be suffering tremendously in a way that is excellent to write
#whenever I get to mention pax from his pov I go HEEHEEHOOHOO like a giggling little beast of a child#their dynamic is. so fucked up kind of. but in a subtle enough way that pax#(who routinely addresses traumatised middle aged men's sad little angst moments by giving them stolen food)#(and does not know any other way to cope with anything ever)#doesn't ever really register it#but martin spends the whole time going 'oh god oh fuck jesus fucking christ that is a small child. and that is a horse.'#'and I am going to cope by projecting onto the horse. and I am in a very cold mountain house. and this is hell. fuck.'#'and we sent the small child into actual hell. again. and she's way too excited about this. and nobody has any concerns.'#'and the child is threatening to die for me. uncomfortably common as of late. and all I can do to protect the child#is keep my sad middle aged angst in my head. and hope that he doesn't actually die. fuck. everything is awful'#and pax is not perceptive enough to realise just how much he's holding back in an effort to shield them from the only thing he can (himself#and then they die (more or less) and nothing is ever resolved! the end!!!#someone talk to me about them I love them so much. blease and thank you#oc tag#pax#martin septim
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Man oni can't do this to me I'm supposed to be preparing for artfight but all I can think abt is Them™ from the second I wake up to the moment I go to bed how am I supposed to prepare in these circumstances 😔
#rat rambles#oni posting#and dude the beta is probably still going to be going during that time klei how could you do this to me#like I will still be participating in artfight but I fear Ill be on oni lockdown for the first week or smth dhskdhkdh#Ill try to at least sketch some stuff out but god if I can get my hands onto any amount of lore its so jover#now thats not a guarantee this is a beta after all but god man. fuck.#also I need to know the new dupes name right now its important#mostly because I want confirmation that I got z on the cypher right lol#chances are theyll just have another a name or smth#who knows maybe theyll have a w name and be the second ever contender for being sent to the constant#although for all we know there could be plenty more w names in the cast that are just hidden in the full names like with nails#I am in such agony rn with seemingly every place ppl post abt oni being dead silent still hello is anyone there#I thought Id at least see some more speculative stuff on the gameplay side of things but Ive seen like 2 things where ppl even bring it up#tbf some of the new stuff seems pretty obvious to deduce to me like there's no way the new fox deers dont produce lumber#and we already know the bunny guys (or the big one at least) provides reed fiber at least#the plants are mostly more mysterious tho#we have the obvious one being our new bestie the oxylite plant and the lil puffball tree thats probably the new decor plant#and the crystal grapes are probably going to be a new muckroot equivalent and at least one of the new plants probably produces smth edible#as for what recourses they need we know that at least 2 of them need watered in some way#Im currently betting theyll need ethanol but thats not based on a lot#honestly if any of them use plain ol water or even any water variants Ill be surprised#I wouldn't be surprised if most of them take ethanol or some liquid gas or smth#I still am holding out on a plant that consumed liquid carbon dioxide but Im not too hopeful#one thing Im very curious on is just everything abt how the oxylite plant grows I wanna know how good itll be so bad#because I am a proud member of the desperately wants more viable oxygen production option in oni gang and I wanna see this baby flourish#but based on how seemingly abundant it is Im afraid itll just join the squad of early game oxygen options that become too much of a hassle#to sustain late game so you're usually just going to switch to exlectroliszers each time#I hope Im wrong but I wont be surprised if Im not#they already took one oxygen plant out back and shot it dead so this guy might just be a corpse on arival if we're unlucky#well hey thats why there's a beta ig gotta make sure things are balanced or whatever
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saw a bit of the one piece fan letter (?) animation thingy and god that style, the way it was animated and the different perspective (it was the bit with the marine guy ar marineford, possibly not even the full part) felt so .. different and refreshing, and i didnt even watch it with the sound
one piece has long lost me, it was my fandom before i got into zelda but around whole cake island i stopped reading/watching and with the reveal about luffys fruit it was the last nail in the coffin for me- still that animation is somethign else ....... almost makes me sad bc it looked so much more interesting than the actual thing is (to me)
#ganondoodles talks#personal#idk what that animation even is#bc its clearly professionally made but also a fan letter?#i almost miss one piece#but dont actually#its yet another one of those things that were my everything for years and years#until it started to turn into things i liked less and less until i was completely alienated from it#the same happened with my previous fandom before even that (transformers prime)#and im afraid its happening wiht zelda now too#even though at least with this one i got a more solid take on the lore and a big project to hold onto#still.... i dont want to lose zelda the same way#but its kidna already happening#i turned into a super lore guy with botw#and now i am just so .. indifferent to it#if totk and eow are anything to go by#.. even though eow isnt as bad as totk in any way i just ... dont care about the lore#and its kinda scary ......... i am so not interested in it ... idk i dont think it can all be bc of its format and style that isnt my thing#of course i am HOPING to like another zelda game ... but i really cant imagine they will make anything better again
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So i did manage to make myself a bluesky account, and welp gonna say it is too much like twitter to be likable
#I am going to hold onto it but like#I am really hoping to find an alternative that is more tumblr than twitter epecially when it comes to privacy#I will stay here till tumblr's dying breathe and longer#It is just really depressing#Whole two months have been just one depressing thing after another#I know tumblr isnt going immediately. But the fact that it is still going to go#And there probably never going to be an alternative that doesnt include me having to give up any form of privacy#Just- it's scary. It is heartbreaking#I hope something better comes up soon#Maybe they manage to make a site like tumblr#Maybe tumblr does get saved#Maybe this too will pass#But right now i am just so tired and terrified#I have been dealing with a lot of stuff irl already this felt like a final straw#empty thoughts
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something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.
#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love#what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it#why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties#of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often#so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk#and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore#i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them#. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec#but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd#but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE.#OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL.#and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness#but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart.#this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it#that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too#and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch#now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it.#because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do#something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope#and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude#this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post#ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting#all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever
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@walkedfire said: "nothing you can say to convince me otherwise."
"c'mon just, pleaseeeee," andie tries reaching around buck, but he's just way too tall for her and this plan is never going to work. every time she gets anywhere close he moves his hand further out of reach.
he raises it above his head. unfair. andie jumps for it with unsurprisingly little success. he's got nearly a foot on her.
"just," she makes one last attempted jump, but buck is unflappable, "give me the cookie!"
#lmk if its not food or if i am moving buck aroudn too much 🙏🫶#*good not food#walkedfire#PLAY EPISODE: HOLDING ONTO HOPE — 911 verse#AIN'T NOBODY IN THIS ROOM ALONE — threads
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Feeling a lot of gender envy about every single character played by The Stupendium in this musical video
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#someday I'll be able to make a proper wardrobe full of outfits half as amazing as their costume collection#Mr. Byron Brimstone's 3 piece suit is delightfully busy also I too am a real and human man-thing#Cassie's expressions and makeup are to die for#Mr. Tubes is a faceless behemoth that sings over a scrying bowl#Robert Racket holding onto the hope of finding romance and love despite how much he's had to turn to petty crimes to keep living#and of course Harry Teller is a charming young man who's recently recovered from that increasingly common ailment of death#Youtube
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makes no sense to me that i started this blog when i was 16 and i’ll be 25 in two months. like where’d all the time go? it’s starting to fly
#that song never fails to bring tears to my eyes. something about wasted time and all that#oh okay i’m actually crying right now. epic!#i hate that time keeps passing and it just. won’t stop. life goes on whether you like it or not. just want to stop it all for a second#let me figure my shit out. who am i? what do i wanna do? is it too late? when will it get better? will it get better?#all we have is hope. but i don’t know for how long i can hold onto that#sorry for the depressing ass post yeah good old F#effie talks to the moon
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Go and hide and run away
Run away, run and find something better
Go and ride the sun away
Run away like it's simple
Like it's right
Jamie is over, and where can I turn?
Covered with scars, I did nothing to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm
Still hurting
#music#musicals#still hurting#the last five years#tl5y#going through and trying to get rid of things when I’m ridiculously sentimental#but I have to downsize and half the things have tainted memories attached now#and I still can’t rationalize who I thought he was with who he turned out to be#thanks dad for making everything so fucking hard#finding cards full of lies and lanyards from the comedian we saw that I’ve never been able to watch again#after you did what you did that day that made it a horrible time without mom who should have been able to go with us but you exploded#having to part with other relics of my childhood that feels so far away now that I’d been holding onto#trying to rationalize hanging onto the ones that I am even though there will be no space for them now#do you know how many times I’ve had a breakdown over you since you did what you did?#because I see now. I see that that was always you and I didn’t realize how much more guarded I should’ve been.#but part of me misses my innocent ignorance. misses thinking you could love and be loved despite it. not knowing why you were how you were.#why couldn’t you be the person I thought you were. the one I looked up to as a kid and followed around with my plastic tools#until I got old enough and sick enough of you yelling at me that I got so self conscious of every fucking mistake I made#and figured it wasn’t worth trying anymore. why I’m so anxious. why I say sorry too much.#do you know you gave your attitude to your son too? I hope you didn’t give him your inclinations and lies too.#I know you gave me your attitude. I’m trying to be better than that. but it’s hard when that’s what you know.#how does it feel? getting that right back at you now? finally facing the consequences?#but then we are all facing the consequences of your decisions. while you’re sitting pretty having your cake and eating theirs too.#you probably don’t even care. Jamie is probably feeling just fine. and I’m still hurting.#Spotify#(I should clarify. bc reading it back sounds sketch. when I said about his son I meant my brother. my brother has his attitude and more.)
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