#I think is important to point out how grateful I am for the amazing hearts I got to meet because I chose to put down my walls a bit

[theformulaimagines]

Look at that woman (breaking my heart) | Part 11

Summary: For one and a half years Lewis and y/n managed to keep their relationship a secret, until it blew up in their faces. Now, they're trying their hardest to pick up the pieces...

Warnings: age gap (reader is 27), major angst, fluff inbetween, my first time doing smau

Pairing: Lewis Hamilton x fem Vettel!Reader

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f1: We saw 10 gorgeous liveries at F1 75 LIVE... but which one was your fave? 😍

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user 1: VCARB >>>>>>>>>

user 2: obsessed with everyone booing the FIA 😩🙏🏻

user 3: y/n tbh 🫡

user 4: @/user 3 you’re actually so real for that

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y/nvettel: tonight was so humbling! thank you @/f1 and everyone involved for trusting me to host and present such an incredible and exciting event! forever grateful!!!

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f1: stunning, spectacular give me 4000 of them

user 1: @/f1 😭😭😭😭

user 2: you looked amazing

user 3: the nepo baby of f1 gooood lord keep her off my screens

sebastianvettel: proud is an understatement ❤️

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user 1: now take a big guess WHO mentioned him

user 2: @/user 1 „i know im technically not allowed to be biased tonight but well…you know the rumors“ GAGGED

user 3: @/user 2 the way you could HEAR people GASP

user 3: god he’s stunning

A few weeks later.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to the Formula 1 testing week. The cars will be back on track in a few moments."; David Croft declares, looking over at Martin Brundle:" There is so much to look forward to and I am so thankful that Nico Rosberg is going to join us as well in a couple of minutes.“

Martin nods at the screen:“ And looks like Hamilton has just got into his car. I cannot lie to you, I am so excited to finally be able to look over some official data. After all those rumors of potential leaks were flooding the internet.“

„Red suits him amazingly.“, his colleague adds, making him laugh. „Looks like someone else is also amazed by him in-.“

„Good morning, guys!“, a voice cuts him off:“ Can you see me?“ The two men both turn their heads to the screen, catching sight of a grinning Nico. „Yes, hi!“, David says:“ It‘s so good to see you! How are you?“

„I‘m doing good.“, The blonde answers:“ But I fear, I interrupted you, Martin.“ He chuckles. „No, you didn't. I just wanted to point out that Y/N Vettel is in Hamilton's garage this morning as well.“ The image on the screen changes to the outside of Hamilton's garage, where Y/N is standing next to a couple of engineers. She’s wearing the signature red Ferrari jacket, while looking around the site.

„The last few months must’ve been tough.“

„Well, Nico. You know both personally. What’s your opinion?“

The blonde man sighs:“ Well, it’s important to remember that this isn’t really any of our business. Plus Y/N has a great relationship with her brother, and his opinion means everything to her. We all know how highly he speaks about him, so I believe if anything he’s happy she’s with a guy like Lewis. If they‘re both happy, I‘m happy. Everyone else should think the same about them.“

[avon7ade]

Well... Hello! :) It's been a while, theres a bunch (too much for my own comfort tbh) of you now and I thought it would be nice to put thoughts into words. So sit there a bit if you're doing nothing and have a minute to spare me if you care, we might do a face reveal at the end...

A few days ago I read a post of a mutual here and basically he said something about how we should read bigger texts and get out of this 140 characteres and 15s videos and this connected with a post I've seen ages ago about how we should make this site go back to the blogging era, and I thought I should do my part! (I'm sorry about grammar errors!!! Not checking those)

I've vented on here before about how it was difficult to make people know I'm a person and not a blog, I'm not a themed blog, I'm not just a body, I'm not your horny escape. This seemed like a good time to make you know the person behind this, perhaps it'll help some understand her or maybe you'll just find out the annoying piece of shit I am, either way I put it out there, I did my part, the rest is with you, you can put yourself out there too, or maybe connect with this one here, even if you're hiding away (just be nice!) but we really should get back to putting chairs outside and just get to talking with our neighbours - human connection is what keeps us alive, I'll try and remember that, hope this helps you remember that too!

So... I don't know where to start! Kkkkk How about this: I'm the first daughter of the first daughter and first son of my grandparents, but the second grandaughter on one side (Gabriela was in a hurry to come see this world and broke my numbers). And since you know the name of my older cousin, might aswell tell you mine: I'm Melina, a name chosen because of the nickname Mel 🍯. I always had dogs (and many more animals) as a kid, I always died a little with every passing. I absolute adore having no shoes on, I hate cars, to be honest I'd ban them if I could, but I can't yet so.... I love water, to swin in it, to drink it, to bathe in it.. also a fan of showers. Water, plants, the moon and yellow lights have my heart in a way that I feel it's like those stupid mosquitoes and lamps. I have a weird relationship with music, I can go a really long time without it, maybe because I get immersed in reading and thinking so much that when I finally stop and remember I CAN and I should put something on I relax and then it's an on-off thing. I have a green thumb, except when it comes to seeds, those babies hate me. I have no problem getting rid of everything, going places and staying a long time away from family. I'm really good at accepting things/people as they are, and that makes me a terrible boss and even worse ambitious person. I will always try to find reason. I don't trust people easily. "Trust the process"? No, who wrote the process? Why should I trust them? Who said that this process should be happening like that in order for it to end the way I want? What if that's not the way I want?? In fact, I'm a wary person and yet.. you can take advantage of me sooooo easily! I'm laughing because that's ridiculous, but I'm getting better at setting boundaries... I hope. I'm usually the one that gets hurt, I think I did that to someone for the fisrt time last year and I hate myself for it (how you people do that?). I'm terrible at keeping in touch, I love my friends but I need the everyday life to show it, I need the long walks with no destiny, the sitting and staring at the sky, the let's get together and make something to eat, the helping with grocery shopping (fucking hate it, that's torture to me) those things... I don't think text does it. I used to write A LOT and even tho I might do that I suck at texting/keeping things going on the internet, I'm so bad, I think I've got nothing important to say and that it'll add absolutely nothing to your life and you might have already noticed that so if you say nothing I say nothing. I hate being a nuisance. I will not go to a place if I'm not invited. I believe too much in the power of words so I will not tell you something if I don't believe it, but I'm going also try and ease the blow if needed. I'm very perceptive, to the point I know what you mean by the way you act and you put your phrases together, so I'm a great friend to ask about others intentions to you but that doesn't work with me, you have to be very clear with what you mean/want. I have a total of 0.05 luck. I've got very few regrets, I think everything is a lesson worth learning from - except some and those go into the regrets category - I look at every possible outcome before making a decision.

I hate talking about myself. I hate taking pictures of myself (:

That's why this is happening, I'm talking about myself, I'm making peace with my body, I'm forcing myself to keep in touch, I'm learning to be open to the unknown. We need to grow as humans and baby steps, I'm trying. I had a really nice text prepared in mind - I was in the shower obviusly that would be were the masterpieces would be created - but that's it.

I talked, and talked, and talked too much with a first person pov (omfg! send help) and yet... You still know nothing about me. Keep that in mind. I didn't tell you about the hurt, the difficulties, the traumas, the ugly. Be nice to people it costs you literally nothing. I'm not a blog, even the ones here that are very.. not personal, that are just memes, and a themed colour or something... there's still a person behing that. Just be nice. 🤍

So I see you're in a hurry... I laugh everytime I look at this hope you enjoy it. Now go back!

[hunieday]

Momo - 16PRODUCERS Rabbit Chat

Please note that I am not a professional translator and I'm only doing this to share the side materials to those who cannot access them, if you notice any mistakes please let me know nicely. Enjoy!

Yuki: Thanks for your hard work

Yuki: Anyone here?

Okazaki Rinto: You’re early, Yuki-kun!? I’m here!

Yuki: Okarin, you’re online. Yuki here

Okazaki Rinto: Yeah, I know. There’s still time before the interview though...

Yuki: That’s true, but today’s an important interview day and I finished composing, so I thought I’d camp here early.

Okazaki Rinto: How wonderful. Momo-kun will be thrilled when he reads this!

Yuki: Yeah, who’s the star of the show today after all? Are you at the recording booth with him?

Okazaki Rinto: Actually, the recording ran longer than scheduled so Momo-kun should be back to the dressing room right around the interview time!

Yuki: Is that so. So it’s just the two of us for now.

Yuki: So what should we talk about until he’s back. Shall we have a competition to list what we find the cutest about Momo?

Okazaki Rinto: There’s no way I’m winning that. Let’s talk about what we like about you instead!

Yuki: Are you doing a bit

Okazaki Rinto: Momo-kun himself actually suggested it. He said "There’s a chance I’m gonna be late, you two can just talk about how super handsome Yuki is!"

Yuki: We thought the same thing.

Okazaki Rinto: I’ll start with my opinion! You used to say you weren’t good with people, but now you’re so approachable it’s amazing!

Yuki: Thanks. Do I have to say something too?

Yuki: I can write music

Okazaki Rinto: Next! I also think you’re an incredible actor. I feel so proud seeing you soar even beyond the idol world!

Yuki: Thank you. More new rivals keep popping up, so I can’t slack off anymore.

Yuki: Now’s my turn

Yuki: Now I’m out

Okazaki Rinto: That’s it!?

Yuki: That’s it

Momo: You barely scratched the surface!?!?!?

Yuki: Here comes Momo

Momo: Here comes Momo-chan!! Sorry for making you two wait 🥺🥺 I couldn’t stop smiling reading all the rabbichat notifications 🥰

Momo: But really, just three or four points don’t even compare in the sea of Yuki’s charm!?!?!?!? Like, his beauty mark is beyond handsome, the way he looks at me with such intensity makes me fall in love all over again. He’s so beautiful from the tip of his fingers to every strand of his hair?!?!?!?

Momo: And the way he calls me his “precious partner” is just too handsome…!!!

Yuki: You type really fast, Momo.

Momo: Lightning fast!!!!!

Yuki: I appreciate you saying all that, but today is all about you, Momo.

Momo: That’s trueee~

Momo: You’re gonna share,,,, what feelings you poured into producing my project right,,,,,,,,

Momo: aaaaaaaaaghhh can my heart even handle this ‼ Yuki, Okarin, please take it easy on me ‼

Yuki: I’ll be gentle.

Okazaki Rinto: Let’s get started! As requested, we’re aiming for a casual, relaxed vibe for this interview, as if you’re not even working. So we decided to do it over rabbichat!

Okazaki Rinto: First off, Momo-kun! Please tell us how you felt when you found out Yuki-kun’s gonna produce your song!

Momo: Hmm...he usually composes for Re:vale as a whole, but he did it just for me this time. To think that he created not just the song but also the lyrics, costumes, and the whole concept...I feel so lucky it’s almost too much to believe.

Momo: The person I’ve admired for so long brings me so much happiness now. I want to take that a hundred, a thousand times and deliver it back to all my fans.

Momo: Wait a sec is this real? I’m not dreaming, right?

Okazaki Rinto: Don’t pinch your cheeks so hard, Momo-kun!

Yuki: It’s real, Momo.

Momo: It is...

Momo: This is so special to me that it always felt like a dream! I mean, just singing with Yuki already makes me so happy, but I didn’t know there was even a possibility to ascend to another level of happiness.

Yuki: I’m just as grateful for the opportunity to focus on a project entirely for you, Momo.

Momo: Yukiiiiii~

Momo: Wait a sec, how come my darling is the most handsome guy in the world !?!? 😭😭😭

Yuki: I know. So what did you think when you heard the song?

Momo: It was so cool... I thought it’d be more cutesy

Momo: But it was completely different! And it has this super stylish dance number, I could picture us dancing together the moment I listened to the airy melody.

Momo: Even though we sing in a high pitch, the deep bass was so powerful, I love it soooooooo much…

Yuki: I’m happy

Yuki: I wanted to capture all your different sides

Okazaki Rinto: Interesting…! I’d love to hear more about your creative process!

Yuki: You could say it’s about Momo’s “switches”, in a way. A switch for when he’s singing, when he’s performing.

Yuki: A switch for when he’s pressing close to my side, thinking about lyrics to write. Working earnestly and wholeheartedly.

Yuki: They’re all different switches within Momo. It all shifts. The gap between them all is intriguing.

Momo: My “switches” huh... So that’s how you see me. 

Momo: You’re right though, I do change depending on the person or situation without even realizing. The gap between the melody and the high pitch reflect that.

Momo: And the electronic sounds are supposed to represent little switches, right? That’s just like you, it’s fascinating!!!!

Yuki: Thank you. It was challenging since I wasn’t allowed to compose the entire thing myself, but it was worth it.

Momo: And the lyrics moved me deeply. I could feel your message of wanting to face the future together, and to keep singing for an eternity and beyond.

Yuki: That’s right. This song is for you, who pulled me forward and shone your light upon me that day.

Momo: That’s because

Momo: Yuki’s music gave me the push I needed back then

Momo: So that’s why I

Yuki: Momo. You always say you’re thankful to me but

Yuki: "Beneath the countless stars, I can reach anywhere as long as I’m with you." Being with you lets me sing anywhere, Momo.

Yuki: Just like that day we sang together on the sandy beach of a deserted island, the place where you and I sing, the place where Re:vale is, will always be the best stage ever. (1)

Okazaki Rinto: Momo-kun’s crying.

Yuki: Don’t shed tears when I can’t be with you to wipe them.

Momo: Wh

Momo: Whoa stop stop stop stop hold up wasn’t that way too smooth?!?! That line was so hot my tears stopped on their own!?

Yuki: Hello, it’s me, the handsome Yuki.

Momo: Kyaaaa!! Please look my wayyy!! 🤩✨

Yuki: Yep. I’m looking straight at my phone.

Momo: lolololol thanks! I totally feel your eyes on me 🤩✨

Okazaki Rinto: Alright, I’m sorry but let’s get back on track. I’d love to hear about the concept behind your outfits and promo shoots!

Momo: I’m so excited to hear about it! I was hyped the moment I walked into the room for the photoshoot! It looked exactly like a gaming room 🎮

Yuki: The song doesn’t fit an outdoor setting. I felt like even indoors would still be too bright, so I went for a moody, neon-lit setup the moment I found out something like that existed.

Yuki: It was perfect for Momo since he loves gaming, but the gentle neon light reflecting in the dark felt especially very Momo-like to me

Momo: I’m so happy!!!! I really do love those kinds of lights toooo~~ I see how it is, hehe~~~~

Okazaki Rinto: Yuki-kun, your idea of what “feels Momo-like” is always very diverse.

Yuki: Is it? I think it’s normal

Momo: And don’t forget the outfits, I loved them so much >u< Yuki doesn’t usually wear clothes in that style so I snapped a ton of photos of him!

Yuki: I thought we might as well embrace the Momo vibe for this shoot too. We even took tons of pictures together.

Momo: Yup! We were dressed like Player 1 and Player 2! 🪄

Yuki: It's been fun trying a style I don’t normally wear

Momo: You looked amazing!! 😍 💚 Why don’t you start wearing clothes like that more often?!

Yuki: Then how about we try some different combinations next time? (2) 

Momo: Huh?! W-w-ww-w-ww-we don’t have to go that far!!!!!!!!!???

Yuki: Why not? Matching outfits always have a wide variety

Momo: Huh!!!!!!!!!! Okarin !!!!!!!! What do I do !!!!!!!! Work is one thing, but a private setting is totally different?!?!?!?!?!

Okazaki Rinto: I find it funny that you’re typing what you’re muttering in real life, LOL.

Yuki: How nice. I wanna be there too

Momo: You have work after this right? so Momo-chan will wait for you to finish!!

Yuki: Yeah. Thank you

Okazaki Rinto: The request was to make this a more relaxed conversation, but you might be a bit too relaxed right now, or maybe you’re just acting like you always are….

Yuki: Is that a problem? It’s fine, right, Momo?

Momo: Right, Yuki! 🫶

Okazaki Rinto: That’s right! It’s totally fine! And finally, please share a message for the fans!

Yuki: This new direction may surprise some fans, but from where I stand, Momo is strong, gentle, and full of warmth. Just like a sunrise that blends the dark and light, he’s a mix of many wonderful qualities.

Yuki: That’s why the song plays tricks with a variety of rhythms, melodies and singing tones. They reflect Momo’s ever-changing expressions. I hope you enjoy “Get in the Groove.”

Momo: I always spend every day thinking about how happy I am ever since Yuki and I became Re:vale. Sometimes so much so that I wish time could stop.

Momo: But you know, listening to “Get in the Groove” made me feel even happier! I know this project was born all thanks to our fans’ unwavering support. Thank you so much!!! I feel like the happiest person alive right now!

Momo: And that’s why I want everyone who supports us to feel as happy as I do, always and forever! I hope that you never get your feelings hurt! And if sadness ever comes your way, I hope our songs will be able to heal you!

Momo: Re:vale will always be a warm light, shining on everyone like the sun that rises each morning. Now and forever, with Yuki by my side!

Momo: That’s all I got!

Okazaki Rinto: Thank you both! This was Re:vale in full force!

Momo: Yup! I feel Yuki’s love overflowing more than usual 🥹❤

Yuki: Really? I’m not really good with words

Momo: Well no, you’ve gotten dangerously much better at that recently!!??!!!

Okazaki Rinto: It’s hard to believe you once had to practice saying stuff like this.

Yuki: Yeah, that sure did happen.

Yuki: Momo, promise me you’ll keep smiling by my side now and forever

Momo: Yeah. I promise!!

For those who are confused, the sandy beach of a deserted island refers to a specific plot point in part 5 of the main story.

I. am frankly not entirely sure how to interpret this. Because judging by Momo’s reaction I believe Yuki was Most Definitely Not insinuating an actual change of color combinations but. A Different Kind of “combinations”. 

[marsprincess889]

Feedback

Hi I'm really grateful that I got to participate in the goddess essence/archetypes game in the first place🥹🩷 The amount of research that goes into these readings is actually amazing. Nakshatra is a complex yet beautiful topic and you make it all the more interesting by the way you connect many concepts together! 🧚‍♀️✨️

I truly feel like the reading described me in a very accurate perspective. From all the beauty I carry to the challenging transformations that I absolutely can't avoid. 🥲 And the way I stand as an individual, my individuality was described in great detail throughout this reading. Mythology and the legends you chose for me are indeed very much similar to most aspects of my life.

"Purva phalguni is very creative and solar in its Venusian qualities, associated with the color gold."

This description is very true😭 And I have a yellow/olive undertone to my skin, wonder if that's the reason why.

I do relate to the story of sleeping beauty in many different ways. One, as I already told you the age 16 being very transformative in my life, two, I love sleeping a LOT😭🤧, like it's not even a joke because it's very important to me to have good sleep, usually very long hours to function well😭 I've been this way since childhood and all my close family members will agree with this. I'm not sure but I think it's due to the 12th house stellium according to an article I read somewhere. 🤧 And I always loved Sleeping beauty ever since I was a little child. 🥹

And I love Olwen and Blodeuwedd. Flower goddessess are really magical and also benevolent. I aspire to be kind and gentle all the time so I think they are great goddesses to look upto whenever I need creative inspiration.🌷💐

I kinda relate to the fiery and passionate nature of Freya too. And the fact that she is not only the goddess of love and fertility but also the goddess of war and death. I think that contrast is beautiful, soft yet powerful.

And I love Egyptian history, I don't know much about the gods and goddesses in detail but I know a few names and Egyptian history will always intrigue me. I'm glad you included Goddess Seshat as well. 🤗

And I also feel like the maiden archetype fits me quite well, I'd say almost to a fault🥲🙃 I do play the role of a damsel in distress oftentimes, although not intentionally I am mostly of that nature. I have a tendency to leave things upto fate and the story of sleeping beauty is also one of fate, isn't it😅 And I'm pretty naive being the youngest in my family, no matter how much wisdom I gain, or how older I get, I feel like there's this sense of not being able to have a commanding presence even if I wanted to sometimes. I will always be a girl, not a woman kinda thing🥲😭 People around me think I need rescuing too, a major theme of the maiden archetype. I don't know how to explain it better but I'm so go with the flow type of person, not my best trait ik 🥴😄 and I'm not proud of it hehe🙈 And I just know that things will turn out alright for me cause I have a good heart and I believe luck will be on my side. 😇 Just plain naive🤪 not fighting for things but instead waiting for things to fall into place naturally, that's me!😭

So EVERYTHING makes sense on a soul level😌✨️ You got it all right and I think your intuition was on point while making the best choices to go in this reading.

I really appreciate your knowledge and enthusiasm about nakshatras and mythology and thank you so much for sharing your interests with us! 😇🩷

THANK YOU SO MUCH for going out of your way to write such a long and detailed feedback💕💕💕

To know that this game is resonating with people so far gives me so much more motivation🤍🤍🤍🤍

Yk you can always mesage me if you want to talk about this or other stuff, and thanks for participating, for letting me read your chart and energy and to share my love for mythology💕

[fantasy-anatomy-analyst]

Hello, your blog is amazing. I know this is not realy your weelhouse but you seem like the best blog to ask. I need some help figuring out hove some traits my humanoids have would influence their anatomy and aperance.

So bot of them are heavily based on real life humans when it comes to apperance because i am boring but i wanted to put some subtle changes to indicate that neither of them are humans and to give an oportunity for them to have wow you are not like us shock moments when they interact.

So the first species? is the one with the most oportunity for fun anatomy changes. Their bones and muscles are not thicker but they are denser. So they can have immpresive feats of strenght and endurance. I know this would mainly be noticabel by touch. I am not troubeled by this. What could be some changes to their skeletal structure that would allow stronger muscles to anchor better to bones or some uniqe muscle structures in nature that allows for more tissue to be packed into smaller spaces. Also am i understanding it right that this would mean they need more food and would be more sensitive to a lack of oxigen? My second idea ties into that i wanted to give them different blood for better suply. I originaly wanted to just make it thicker with higher iron content but i realized that having ticker blood means the heart needs to pump harder to achive the same blood floow. I found my second solution while browsing your blog whic is giving them the blood particel that makes blood blue beside standard hemoglobin. But i know very littel about how that would influence their anatomy, would that make their blood purpel or another color? Would that mean that their skin has a light purpelis, or a greyish tint?

The third one is a freeby. So its well known that human anatomy is kind of a mess, especialy the spine. What changes would you, as an anatomy nerd make to make humans more efficent humans? I had the idea to give them more muscles around their ears, harder and sharper nails and hardier teeth in general and slighly pontier canines (yes that one is for the visual) as a kind of vestigal trait from back their hunter gatherer days but other than that I am stuck. Do you have any anatomical traits that could indicate a healing factor. I know its kind of vague but i don't know how to better word it.

The other guys, who i took to call mages for distintction because i am abundant in creativity, are kind of boring because their main trait that separates them from humans is having magic whic doesnt realy translate into anatomy. They channel it through their senses, voice and movements. I had the idea that they could have different voices that are more sing-song, but i think that would be more cultural norm, could there be some anatomical difference that helps it. My other idea was giving them on average more slender limbs, and more flexibel joints to allow for more gracefull and controlled movements. My other two ideas are that since magic produces heat they could develop thicker, darker fire resistent patches on their skin on parts where they frequetly direct their magic. Other than that i have no idea.

Sorry, this is long and rambly I understand if you don't answer it. I am also sorry for the grammar, english isn't my first language. I would be grateful for the smallest help. Thank you for even reading through this monstrum.

okay, so there is a lot to go over here! let's break it down point by point.

1: increased bone and muscle density. what does this mean? bone density refers to the internal structure of the bones. bones must be porous in the center because that's where the marrow is! it acts as a blood factory, basically. having porous bones allows for blood to flow through, and it also allow us to have more durable bones without making them so heavy. too little bone density makes them fragile, but too much bone density makes them heavy and more likely to snap because of poor shock absorption. so there's an important balance to find for the density.

muscle density jut means more muscle packed into a smaller space, and it is correlated to increased strength. I can't find much on what might be considered "too dense" for muscles, but since it's often determined by a ratio of fat to lean muscle, I think it's important to note that fat is important for the body and having less of it tends to create other problems. Intramuscular fat provides energy directly to the muscles, which is why humans are so good at endurance walking. it's one of the reasons we have such nice round butts! So you also need to keep in mind how to balance the muscle density with the body fat here.

Essentially, what is the purpose of the denser bones and muscle? simply increasing the density does not automatically mean these people will be stronger and have greater endurance. Having very dense muscle might make them good at performing short bursts of strength, like quick sprints, fast hard punches, etc. and having dense bones might make them more sturdy, giving a strong brace to their dense muscles. but they may also be more prone to exhaustion if they don't have intramuscular fat, and if their bones are too dense they might break faster and be less useful for blood production and blood flow.

2: blood color. as for changing the material their blood uses to carry oxygen, I have had trouble finding any sources on how efficiently different colors of blood actually carry oxygen. As far as I'm able to determine, haemocyanin, the blue blood component in molluscs, is better suited for low oxygen? Most sources on this are highly academic and I don't understand a lot of the vocabulary.

So, maybe these are smaller people, living in a low oxygen environment. Perhaps it's a warm climate, allowing survival with less fat, and their dense muscles and bones make them very good at quick bursts of strength and speed with lower endurance compared to the average human. they would be very lean, and I imagine their bones would be shorter and a little thicker to minimize the chance of breaks.

If anyone else here is a better expert on the fine points of what exactly dense bones and muscles as blue blood would mean for a humanoid species, please add your thoughts! As I've said, I'm not an expert on biology haha, I only know what I can find through internet research and a lot of it is academic vocabulary that's a little beyond my knowledge. and a lot of it is also niche topics that are difficult to find studies on, like the efficiency of different blood colors. I will note, however, that red blood seems to correlate most with vertebrates, while the other known blood colors correlate to invertebrates! the blood circulation of these groups can be very different!

the blood color might affect the skin tone a little, but it depends a lot on how translucent or pale their skin is, what pigments are coloring their skin, and what color their blood vessels are. humans have red blood, but some of our veins look blue! it does have a stronger color effect for blush though!

3: what traits would make humans more efficient? depends on what we're making more efficient! the spine is wack because we stand upright. our knees are wack because we walk bipedally. our teeth look like this because we are omnivores. we're very very good at all of those things, especially compared to other creatures. sharper teeth and claw-like nails would certainly make us more efficient as hunters, but only if we were hunting with our bodies as our weapon! humans are very very good at making and using tools. personally, as a human who spends most of her time sitting down (because of my creative work) I would appreciate having the butt pads that allow other primates to sit on tree branches for extended periods of time without going numb. and just in general having a body that didn't feel so stiff and sore from sitting in one position for so long.

4: anatomical traits that indicate healing factors: hard to say! the animals in real life that can regrow their limbs don't really have any special outward indicators of it until it's actually happening! like lizards and amphibians that can drop their tails or lose a leg and just cut off the circulation to the open wound and start growing a fresh limb. you might have some luck studying how all of that works, it's a pretty fascinating process!

5: voice anatomy: your mage people might have different vocal cord structure! perhaps theirs has more flexibility than the average human, and maybe they also have better lung capacity. This would allow a broader vocal range, volume range, and increase vocal endurance somewhat.

6: dark thick skin to resist heat: callouses could certainly develop with frequent magic use, just as they develop for physical activities (like the callouses on my hands from holding a pencil or holding yarn and thread over my finger for crochet). Melanin, the pigment that makes skin darker, is not actually for heat resistance. it inhibits UV radiation somewhat. so I don't think darker patches would really occur as a form of resistance to magical heat, though the skin would likely grow tougher in those areas. They may also develop anatomy that's more efficient for regulating body temperature. Large ears full of veins, for example, or maybe they'd have longer fingers and some form of membrane between their fingers that only exists to release heat.

Overall, I think you've got some pretty cool ideas! You're clearly putting a lot of thought into your worldbuilding! I hope this has been helpful and I wish you luck and to have fun on your creative journey!

[alllinesarebeautiful]

Day 453 art meditation, The days after the Peace / SF MoMA music …February 19, 2025

Dear You,

Of course my one day, 3rd day (ever?), of complete inner peace didn’t last more than a day. Which is why I’m so amazed at Byron Katie’s complete peacefulness within one day of her life.

But I am so grateful for the access to do The Work throughout my days now. It is the perfect thing for me to take on my 100 negative thoughts every day. And it is lovely to quickly ask, “Is it true?” / “No”. I mean some of my thoughts I can knock out with the 1st of 4 questions. I don’t even have to take the time to run with them …  

With Katie’s book “Loving what is”, I’m amazed at how quickly people get to the truth that connects all of us, with a little guidance. And I grieve at the thought that his interconnectedness is so easy, and it’s there now … I want to get the word out … 

Who would I be without those negative thoughts about my store? I think I have held onto those negative thoughts long enough. I would add more to my store. :) 

And so … I’ve added Unisex Hoodies of tree ring design, “This is all of us, Listen carefully”  to my store.

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Last year I experienced two big music events, and they helped me remember how important music is in my life. I forget this.

Ragnar Kjartansson, “The Visitors” was showing at the SF MoMA. It left, and then people wanted it back, so they brought it back. I took a photo of Tanya Zimbardo’s (Assistant Curator of Media Arts) description.

It was immersive and I cried. As much as I love visual art, it doesn’t affect me the same way as music does. Art doesn’t make me cry, but combining art and music does.

Ragnar is the white man in the bathtub. Some of the lyrics that only he sings - “Protect the world from me” - are pretty profound. Could you imagine if Musk or Trump could get to the self awareness point where they make art with those lyrics? I love the symbolism of Ragnar being in a bathtub filled with water - the confessional cleansing of his mind and spirit.

I don’t know where else this is going to show up - maybe in Iceland? But it is definitely a healing event.

All I know is there is going to come a day, when we KNOW that we are all interconnected. And we will all feel goosebumps, just like this music event brought to me. Thank you Ragnar and friends for your art and music and heart-spaces.

Much love,

Anne

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[themultifandomgal]

From 2010- YN’s Interview with Zane Lowe

Part 69

2017

“Hello we’re here with YN YLN welcome” Zane says to me

“Thanks for having me” I reply back with a smile

“So you’re new album has just been released congratulations”

“Thanks”

“How do you feel that is now out there?”

“It’s a mixture of emotions, I was so nervous to put it out, like its my baby that I’ve been working so hard on, but at the same time I was just so excited to get this one out there”

“Can we just talk about your singles, Shut Up and We Can’t Be Friends. What inspired you to write them?”

“Erm” I shift in my seat pulling the microphone closer to me “there’s a lot of lies out there and while I wish I could sit down and say this and that isn’t true, I know that there’s no point in arguing, people will believe what they want. The truth always comes out in the end. Early on in my career I let the press get to me, but I’ve been learning to let it roll of my back”

“I guess it’s like turning a negative into a positive”

“Yeah exactly” I nod my head “the haters and media want me to sit and cry about hearing how I can’t sing, how I’m ugly, that I need to loose weight, but instead they’re fuelling the fire in me to show them I’m not going anywhere”

“What would you like to say to those people?” Zane asks

“That they helped me write 2 singles off my new album, they are giving me some great writing material” I laugh jokingly, but part of me is also being serious

“I saw you a few weeks back crushing it at the MTV music awards”

“Thank you”

“How was that?”

“It was crazy. Im so grateful for the opportunity. It was emotional because it was the first time my fans were going to hear the song and for it it be an acoustic version of the song made it even more raw”

“This year has been quite a big year music wise for you. You have been nominated for 3 awards, but won British female solo artist at the Brit awards. How was that excepting the award?” Zane asks. I take a moment to think of my answer still feeling so overwhelmed by the fact I’ve won something

“Erm. I still don’t feel like it was real. I think everyone could tell when it came to my acceptance speech how shocked I was”

“You dedicated the award to your mum and late partner Alex”

“I did” I give a small smile “I don’t think I would be were I am today without them, so I wouldn’t have won any award if it weren’t for them”

“I’m sure they would be extremely proud of you” I can feel my eyes starting to tingle with tears

“Sorry” I say as a tear escapes. I quickly brush it away

“No don’t apologise. You’ve been through a lot, whether that’s heartbreak or loss, it’s a lot” I nod my head not trusting any words “how do you deal with that?”

“Therapy” I laugh while tears run down my cheeks “erm I don’t think I’ve ever said but I was on antidepressants after Alex erm… yeah and a lot of therapy which I still do now, just not as often as before. Mental health is so important and I think we need to talk more about it and encourage anyone who feels like they need to speak to someone to do that, it’s not weak to need to talk to someone” I wipe my tears

“I think it’s so strong of you to talk about this and I agree it should be more of a topic than it is. I’m going to give you minute to compose yourself before we move on”

I take a minute to calm down and Zane begins the last part of the interview

“There’s been a lack of Cookie pictures on Instagram, how is she?” I laugh at this question

“She’s good, I will definitely have to take more photos of her”

“Your fans love her don’t they?”

“Yeah they do. Shes stole their hearts since the start of One Direction”

“Speaking of One Direction, Harry has also released an album, you went to the launch party so you were one of the first to hear it, what were your thoughts?”

“Im so incredibly proud of him and the album is amazing. It’s been on repeat in my apartment since it’s come out”

“Favourite song on the album?”

“Two ghosts” I reply immediately not even having to think about it

“That was a quick answer, you didn’t even think about it”

“I can’t explain it, it’s just so good”

“Thank you so much for talking to me today”

“No thank you” I smile finishing the interview.

[zepskies]

I just have to say, genuinely everything in the BMD-verse is some of the best stuff I’ve ever read, BMD has managed to climb it’s way up to being one of my all time favorite fics that I could endlessly re-read and I can’t thank you enough for that. It was so well written and so many subtle details went into making the word feel so real, to the point where I truly felt immersed in the plot and could clearly visualize everything in my head. This fic made me laugh, cry, and had me on the edge of my seat wanting to read more to see where everything went with these two. Reading it helped brighten my day when I wasn’t having the best one. Also I don’t think I’ve ever loved OC’s quite as much as I absolutely love Frank and Loco, you put so much world building and detail into this fic and it really shows so beautifully, you were able to encapsulate the personalities of each character so well, down to the little details in how they react to certain situations or things they’d be likely to say, all while still giving your OC’s just as much depth and personality, you even executed the character arcs so realistically and it was done so damn well. This fic truly felt like a masterpiece and I am so grateful that you decided to create it, so genuinely thank you!

Okay, I didn't expect to cry today but you managed it, lovely Anon. 🥹💚

I've actually been going through a roughish time in my personal life, so you sent me this amazing note at the perfect time...

I'm having a hard time forming actual words right now, but I'm so happy that Break Me Down has become one of your favorite stories, and most of all that it helped brighten your day when you weren't feeling so hot. I definitely have my comfort stories, books, movies as well.

I genuinely put my heart and soul into BMD from conception, to outlining, to writing and editing each chapter. Even now I look at those 19 chapters and can't believe it's something I actually wrote. I'm just a sucker for a redemption story, and after SB's character hooked me, something crazy told me that he should get his chance to become a real hero.

(Here are some more details you probably don't want/need to know about how BMD began. 😅):

After writing Checkerboard, @deans-spinster-witch knows, as I've credited her many times, but she encouraged me to write a "prequel" to expand on how SB might get to that level of character growth.

...And somehow, BMD became an "enemies to lovers" epic. 😂

Thank you also for loving Frank and Loco! I've said this before, but one of the best writing tips I've ever gotten about writing minor characters is this: Write them like they're the protagonists of their own stories.

Give them their own character arcs, however short or long, whether tragic or fulfilled, etc.

When they're in the scene, give them something important to do or say that furthers the plot.

If you can't name a character, 9/10, they probably don't need to be there.

Without both Frank and Loco, Ben and the reader wouldn't have made it through until the end. And those two (especially Frank) now live in my head alongside Ben and the reader and their ever-evolving story.

This fic truly felt like a masterpiece and I am so grateful that you decided to create it, so genuinely thank you!

Damn it, who's peeling onions?! 😭😭

You're so very welcome. 💚💚 It's an absolute pleasure to write for you guys, but also to express myself and get out these stories that live rent free in my head. 😘

(Btw: I totally respect that you're anonymous in my inbox, but feel free to comment on this and let me know who you are -- only if you feel comfortable! You absolutely made my day, hun. 💓)

[thewhumpcaretaker]

Not sure if I’m genuinely aroace because I was ab*sed but I DEFINITELY use h/c and whump as substitutes for sex. I always feel guilty when everyone wants to ban inappropriate sex in stories but no one cares about banning my jam because to me, it is what sex is to normal people. And guilty about how I use to preach to my friends for wanting premarital sex when what I fantasize about (even if I don’t really want it irl) is so so much worse. Aaaand guilty about how my response to childhood ab*se, ie becoming virtually sexless and substituting violence is more accepted than the victims who process it by writing similar things. Just grateful for posts that let me know I’m not the only weirdo in the world

I'm glad the whump community is making you feel like you're not the only one!! This is a ramble but I really want to say a couple things:

CW: brief mention of CSA, discussion of links between whump and sexual desire

Quick thing: you don't have to censor the word abuse - obviously carry on if you're doing that for your own peace and not wanting to type it but I say it openly on this account. I don't think it affects whether posts are shown and even if it did, I wouldn't mind. You never have to feel ashamed of talking openly about your abuse history in any way, including using direct words.

It's really cool that people explore their desire for intimacy through hurt/comfort instead of sex. I am not aroace myself (for me, it's more tied to sex like a kink rather than a direct substitute) but I think it's amazing that the human mind can do that. People will truly adapt and find ways to connect with each other if the typical pathways aren't working for them. This is not a bad thing or something to feel guilty for, it's beautiful.

I am not aroace, but I WAS asexual, or thought I was, for a long time. And I'm almost certain it was because of childhood abuse. Becoming "virtually sexless" is an okay response - sex can get associated with trauma, and it is absolutely okay to not want to touch it again for a while or ever. It's also valid to just not want sex to begin with and to be more interested in other ways of exploring intimacy. Being sexless is not anything to be guilty for.

Going more in-depth about not feeling guilty: I don't know that fantasizing about hurt/comfort is "worse" than sex. The desire to make someone happy, to bring someone from their lowest point to their highest...I truly don't think there's anything wrong with that. If anything, it is more productive than sex. It can have a lasting positive impact on people's lives. Yes, it involves one person being hurt initially, but people in this world ARE hurt. They're so hurt, and often have no one to comfort and heal them. Both in dramatic ways and in everyday life. Every day people get sick, people have long days, people have trauma. And we are all supposed to move on and ignore that - to be tough, to be independent, to keep working, to not touch topics that are "dangerously" sad. Whump presents a vision of a kinder path. It seems very wholesome to me, to want to witness others' pain and sit with its emotional importance, and comfort someone out of it. Or to want that done for you, to want to be open-hearted and vulnerable with people, if you're taking the perspective of the whumpee. I don't think there's anything wrong with dwelling on that and taking pleasure from it.

Overall I wish you lots of luck and happiness and pride in whump! There are indeed lots of people like you and I hope you feel accepted.

[inyunjin]

what are your fav ryeji aus? PLS RECOMMEND 🥹🥹🥹

Howdy, anon. Thank you for the ask! It was an absolute delight to go through my bookmarks and remind myself of all the lovely ryeji fics I've read, but here are the AUs that have stuck with me the most.

Wheel, Snipe, Celly by lonewolflink

This fic has changed my life, no joshing. I am literally sitting at my computer wearing a Ducks jersey while waiting for the game to start right now because of this fic. Link's passion and knowledge of hockey shines so bright, that as someone who did not care about hockey or sports at all before this, I just had to get into it because of it.

One could argue that the ryeji aspect of this hasn't gone full throttle yet. But the build up and relationship building is there and it's so good and not only that, just a great ensemble fic featuring not only the ITZY girlies, but the TWICE girlies as well.

quiet afternoon crush by ddeongies

Another ongoing one, this one would definitely sate any ryeji-wants you might have. Vicariously live through Ryujin/Yeji as they experience all the sapphic-college-twists-and-turnabouts you didn't get the chance to experience.

Man, what a journey this one is. To me, it has all the feel-good, love to see stuff you get with a budding relationship between two (kinda) idiots, but without any of the unnecessary drama one might see with this kind of story? The ryeji in this is so incredibly sweet and soft, while also being super hot, oof. So good.

i'd rather your body (than half of your heart) by ghostheadlock

I don't know what to say about this one. Wouldn't call it a feel good fic, but man, this thing has continued to haunt me ever since I've read it.

A Ryujin character study about her liking Yeji and how that might manifest in different ways? Is that how I would describe it? I don't want to go too deep into this and I'm terrible at summarizing things.

Read this. It will latch onto you.

heaven is a place i know (when i'm with you) by anonymous

Ryujin is a fallen angel in Hell.

Yeji is an angel from Heaven that comes down to visit her.

Beautiful.

give us a chance (please) by qaisal

I don't read a lot of soulmate AUs.

I love this soulmate AU. It's not a simple "Oh, hey, looks like we're soulmates, let's fall in love," and I think we get to see a lot more out of Ryujin and Yeji because of that.

where we are by snowddeong

There is SO much here that I want to see more of. I feel like anyway I could describe this fic would be a disservice to what it's actually about? Yeji's engaged to be married, but she has an affinity for Ryujin who's a phone sex operator and, like, huh???

This is only a one shot that kinda suggests a bigger world around it, but this thing is such a mood and I love it.

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And I could go on, but at that point, I'd just be listing every AU I've ever bookmarked. I hope I was able to throw a couple of suggestions your way or maybe give you a chance to reread some stuff you've already read.

Ryeji is super important to me (it's the ship that got me into reading/writing Kpop fics), and these are the ones that I am just absolutely enamored with. I'm so grateful you limited your question to AUs, 'cause this list would've been impossible to make if it was just no-holds-barred.

I've yet to throw my hat into the ring when it comes to AUs, but I have a couple of ideas that will hopefully see the light of day one day. If not, as you can see, there is absolutely no shortage of amazing writing out there.

Anyway, thank you again, anon, for the ask and a big double thanks to all the ryeji writers out there! You're amazing folks and I love you all!!

[ashtraythief]

Hey! So ive been a long time reader of ur underneath verse (since like.. 2018? Maybe even 2017?) and i just wanted to drop by and tell u how much im enjoying rereading ur writing! Like in general i think this is one of my fav fics series just bc its so extensive and well done and thought out and fleshed out so well it works so well? Like seeing all the different angles and the way u choose to frame things is really fun for me and kinda inspires my own writing in some aspects.

Ive never read the whole thing all in one go before so ive decided to do that right now and im just about done with the pied pipers song - more specifically willys chapter. And i kinda needed to let u know that ur series really stands out to me just bc of how many glimpses into other characters and all these different povs of the same thing like on it stands out on a technical level but then ur actual writing of these things is so good and compelling and like as an outsider pov bitch it hits the spot for me so well? Like ur writing is never stale and its always interesting.

I specifically wanted to take this time to mention that i really love willy and winstons characters and how u went about it. Like im ngl the way u wrote them kinda makes me want to cry tears of happiness for them bc they have found ppl who appreciate them and they have connections with other ppl but then the bittersweet tang of jensen and willy is kinda fucking me up rn /pos djjdjdjd like in general u really do the bittersweet jensen is stuck undercover angle really well and it HURTS so good

But yes i dont really have a good concise message or comment to leave beyond the fact that i keep stopping every few sentences to get up and jump bc im so excited about what im reading i need to get rid of that excess energy lol so sorry if this is all over the place and a really messy message! I just really wanted to let u know how much im enjoying reading it all rn. Thank you so much for sharing ur writing with us and for continuing to write for this series its so fun!

omg nonnie, I'm kinda speechless here (this is the second wonderful message in two days so I'm kinda overwhelmed. is it send wonderful messages week somewhere??)

I just am so grateful and this message made me so happy. never apologize for maybe not having a five point outline lol, this is amazing.

The underneath verse has always been my fandom baby, so praise for it is already amazing, but the pied piper fic and Winston and Willy epsecially, it just makes my heart so full. Ten years ago, they definitely started out as stock characters of mob drivers, because I didn't think this fic would get so big, but then it did, and Willy especially became a real character. a) because I knew he'd fall in love with Jensen too, as anyone does really and b) because I looooove the bittersweet undercover Jensen shtick where I write from other character's POV and the reader knows how wrong they're getting it but they don't *mu har har* (yeah I'm a little mean sometime. sorry?)

but in all seriousness, the Willy chapter, I'ev been working on that for months. And I kept adding things and rewriting things and trying to get it perfect even though I know that most people who read the story mostly care about Jared and Jensen (which is totally fair and understandable), but I care about him and there are a few people out there who do too (and I love you for it, so much), but with Willy, I just wante to do this /right/. I've come to love him so much, and he's come to be so important to Jensen, it felt like he and Winston really deserve their own story told even though that's kind of ridiculous because they're not real, but they're a little real to me now. All this to say, nonnie, this comment and your appreciation of Willy means so fucking much to me. And my poor alpha reader who read like four drafts of this (seriously, M. is a saint) and my beta readers who then had to beta four iterations of this. To know that this effort is appreciated this much honestly make me cry a little (I am not having the greatest time right now, so I cry easily but the point still stands. Thank you.)

This message was actually such an energy boost I'm currently trying to fix the next timestamp, lol so I'll have something to post next month. You're a true treasure, nonnie <3

[happypot0001]

Just find it

…Where?

!!!!!!PROBABLY WILL DELETE LATER!!!!!!

Guys I’m such a cry baby istg HAHAAA….anyways…..👋

Uhhh I made this post because I was feeling a bit upset today..obviously 😭😭 ig I’m feeling a bit better but I hope there are people that can relate to this too!! Can I just say first though that I had to STRUGGLE to make that stupid gif HAHHH! I’m now going to try to go into depth of each of the important parts of the gif ����

Feet - I seem to kick everyone around me down. I’m pained that people suffer regarding my sake. Be it for me or because of me. Be it physically or mentally. I can’t help but hurt people who are close to me. I’ll end up with no one because everyone has been harmed by my presence. I only see the backs of the people who have turned away from me, unwilling to speak to me as I’ve already disappointed them far enough.

Hands - I seem to have no talent. I’ve used these hands to draw. To play. To write. To learn. But it has never been enough. It seems like it never will be. No matter what I’m always one step behind. I can only try to work harder, but all my efforts only seem like they’ll eventually end in vain. When is it good enough? It never is…as that’s what I’ve learned. Am I on the right path? No one can tell me. These hands have done me good, but in the end is it of any use? To play. To draw. To waste time. What’s the point if I’m not good at it.

Heart - I seem to succumb to my failure with ease. Help me find it. Is it my heart? Is this why I feel that I’m being tortured inside? Is that why I feel my heart wants to leap out of my chest? Is it my weakness. Is it my lack of willpower. This sick feeling in my stomach, it’s because I’m weak? It’s because I cry too often? It’s because I take their words to heart? It’s because I know they’re probably right. Everything is connected to the heart. That’s why I feel this way. I need to find it. Maybe that’s the answer: I’m weak. There’s no problem. No. No one did anything. I’m just weak.

Mouth - I seem to speak only for me to displease others. I’m boisterous. I’m loud. I’m too much. It’s all too much. Don’t talk to me. I’ll spill. I’ll speak. I’ll practically yell. Listen to me. Or don’t. You’ll go deaf by the time I’ve finally shut my mouth. So I won’t. I won’t speak. Zip. Nothing. Nothing out of me. But. Right. It’s seems they’ve all left. Once an enthusiastic fool, after a ghost to not be seen. To be the loud me or hide it. It seems there’s no choice for me. How do you find that balance. Tell me your secret. But I can’t ask you. I have a terrible ego I have to protect. Why do so many people like you? I’ll never know.

Head - I seem to never have the time to think. The biggest. The one that matters. The one I know will only lead to a path of misfortune and disappointment. Still. It matters. I can’t help it most times. Am I smart? I’ve been told numerous different claims. I can only divide them into two sections. Smart. Stupid. I’ve been called stupid……why? Why. I DONT WANT THAT. IM NOT STUPID RIGHT? Then why can’t I think. Why can’t I learn like I’ve seen others learn. I’m not smart. I’m not creative. There’s no form of intelligence I can seem to fit myself into. I can ace every other test with a 100 in math….but the time I fail…I feel like my life has shattered. I’ve seen myself do it…so how could I mess up. But I do. I’m grateful. I’m grateful I can do something. But what if it wasn’t enough. Some call me smart. But I can only see someone dumb. Past mistakes have affected me in today’s time. Because. I was dumb. I was really dumb. I made mistakes and I was so dumb. I was so so dumb. It still affects me. I was so dumb. I can’t believe I did that. And because of it. I have to suffer. I was so dumb. I was so absolutely dumb. I shouldn’t have messed up in the past. I wish I hadn’t been dumb. Everyone else around me seems so smart. All of these artists. Unique characters. Compelling stories. Amazing people. I’m not like that. I’m not creative. I don’t have a complex enough brain to form new ideas on my own. I always need help. I always need support. I’m dependent. I can’t stand on my own. I need help. Help in every way possible. But I can only fail on my own. And I’m sorry if you’ve had to carry by burden. I’m dumb.

Hahaaaa….I’m sorry I wrote all of this. This was kind of a downer…huh? 😭😭 Heh. I’m sorry if you’ve read it all. It’s not great. And it’s not entertaining. It’s sad. It’s a disappointment of a post. I can’t make it any more appealing. 😆 Because that’s who I am. I’m a simple minded person who overthinks for the wrong reasons. I’m scared of change. Oh my god…I’m so scared of change. But I don’t want everything to be the same. The idea of something being permanent…it…it’s scary. What if I want to change it later? What if it wasn’t worth it in the end. That thought is terrifying. And…I think that’s why I feel I like my hearts about to burst. I’m scared. I’m scared? I don’t know….but…I’m sorry. I’m sorry to anyone who can’t find their pain. I hope this helps you relate to something. And I hope you can find whats hurting you. But don’t worry, you don’t have to find it right now! If you do find it, I hope it helps in the long run. I wish that you do well in your future. ❤️ 😆😆

Lots of love to anyone who may be reading!💕💕

[damn-daemon]

I intended to write this for you a while ago, but things have been crazy busy, sorry.

I first started reading fanfictions when I was about 13 and I came across your work (AVWH) a couple years later in 2016 (when I was in High School) and that was a big deal for me because I remember being completely amazed by your writing (and still am): it was fluid, compelling, felt real, and made me  feel so completely immersed that I would easily spend 30 min or more reading in the same position, with my eyes glued on your story.

You're also became a big inspiration to me when it comes to writing/publishing an original material. I've published one OUAT story years ago, it was just a couple chapters and not really well written (I was still beginning to learn english then) but I remember only feeling confident enough to do it, to finally publish it, because you said something then about how you also overthink about your writing now and then, the struggles you have with it but you still do it anyway. That was really important for me to hear! Now a days I'm currently writing articles on movies and stuff, but I look forward to going back on writing fanfictions and publishing my original work out there :)

So yeah, thank you for putting so much dedication on your work considering that you do it all for free while also having other things to worry about such as a job and life itself (which isn't easy at all). Also, thank you for doing it during the pandemic, God knows that reading your stories was one of the things that helped me keep my head sane those days.

I wish you the best! 💜

P.S: I loved your last update!

This was so wonderful to read. I think I've read over it a few times at this point. It just gives me such a wonderful, light-hearted feeling. I definitely teared up the first time I saw this. And you've been around so long, so there is something so profound about hearing this from you. Words cannot describe how happy and at ease this all makes me.

It still blows my mind, the concept that my story really has been around for a while. It still feels like something I came up with yesterday (also I won't lie - I did feel a little old when you mentioned when you started haha). The idea that you have journeyed with this and inspired to do your own work because of something I said...I don't know, it's just equal parts crazy and wonderful to me. I never thought my story would be anything when I started out, and seeing and hearing this from you just helps reassure me that this has all been worth it.

So thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all the kind words you have said to me. And please, don't feel the need to apologize for not saying it sooner. Life is life, and so many things go unsaid. I am simply grateful you took the time to say something at all. Thank you.

I wish you all the luck on your current and future writing endeavors. Kick some butt out there!

[kevjrr]

KEVAAAAAAAAAH

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Happy birthday you sweet sweet soul! I love you so much and can't express how grateful I am to have known you!

You're a very special person to me, we've shared lots of special moments together, and no matter how much I try to get my feelings to word, it will never be enough ❤️

But it's worth a try, and what more fun way than to express it using your name:

K - Kindness: and everyone agrees with me that you're the kindest person on this site. You always seem to know how to comfort, check on ppl when they're gone, send love messages and appreciation asks to your moots. Everyone knows you're kindhearted and pure! 🤍 Never lose that trait!

E - Easygoing: one of the things I adore about you! You're just really easy to talk to, you never take bad things to heart and move on. Chatting with you is the most effortless thing in the world and the best thing one can do.

V - (is very very extraordinary) Vast: because you're very important to all of us! There's no one like you; the one who gets to know you, knows how much their life is incomplete if they don't have you as a friend 🩷

A - Admirable: and honey I'm not just talking about you as a person, but also your insane talents! I'm talking: your edits, web weaves, mood boards, your writings, you just have it all, huh? I still can't get over the mood board you did for me 🩷🤍🩷

H - Heroine: You've been through so much, now I'm not gonna share your struggles here out in the public, but we both know how much you've suffered (health, personal and family wise) I admire your strength and your will to move on. You stood in your feet in your most vulnerable points of life. Kevah, you're a true heroine and an inspiration of a young lady with lots of strength; a true heroine! 🩷

You deserve all the love and all happiness!

I love you so much, I can't say it enough. Mon petite bébé, je t'aime tellement 🤍

Tellement 🩷

- Maha

Can you hear me crying?!?!? THANK YOU SO SJKJSKJKJSKJK MUCH

Maha, I read this earlier today and I had to look towards the window to hide my huge smile from my parents…you had made my day before it even properly started. I couldn’t stop smiling during the whole trip, you have no idea how much this means to me. You made my whole year, this is one of the sweetest things someone had ever told me❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I don’t know if I told you this but I’ve always wanted a big sister. Someone who would be there for me when my parents behaved like assholes, just someone who understands you know? And someone who will listen and stand by me even when they don’t understand. You’re that person, you and Lyn. I know you always tell me not to thank you so just know that I’m forever grateful for you. You’ll always have me in your corner🩷

You mean so much to me, you can’t even imagine how much. You’re the coolest, most amazing, kindest, sweetest, gentlest, most generous…sister I could ask for. I don’t think you know how much you actually helped me. You know what I was going through and I was spiraling…I had so many breakdowns but the fact that I knew you were one text away helped so much🥹❤️

You’re the big sister I never had and will forever be thankful for

I love you. je t’aime🫂🫶🏽🫶🏽

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So I thought maybe Taylor Swift’s red with PuenTaylay since their colors are blue lol. Idk. I honestly can’t think of a good quote. If you think of one and tag me that works too 😂 I just want to see JimmySea on my dash again 😍 I miss them already

hello deanna ♥

i am somehow so very grateful for this prompt :'D it was delightfully vague despite being so straight to the point, and this is why i decided to both follow it and not follow it at all.

here's the result

everyone keeps telling me puentalay are taylor swift coded but i've never really listened to taylor swift that much (i don't really count the radio hits i was subjected to throughout my life). so this was my excuse to finally get into her music! mostly through jessi's @patprans amazing vv edit from a while ago. i went through that whole list of songs in it and i have to say it was a journey.

from it, this love stuck with me the hardest. tbh i cry with it now if i listen to it bc it feels so right for these two. so thank you to you both for opening my eyes, i suppose XD not that i ever really was against any of this, i just didn't have the right motivator before. now i had that and the time. it was fun ♥

and don't worry, i also looked into red! i do know that song haha, i haven't grown up under a rock after all. but i had to look at the lyrics properly and i do get where you're coming from with this prompt. i can feel puentalay there, especially bc of the colors. which i wanted to hold onto even when i abandoned the song itself!

so there's blue, as their beginning and ending. there's black and gray for the missing part, for the loss and grief and longing. and then there's red towards the end for the love! which. truly if loving puen is red am going insane for a little bit. we have had the convos about puen and red, am not digging into that again.

i just hope you like this! and thank you so much for joining in and always talking with me even when our tastes are very different ^^ i appreciate it a lot! have a wonderful rest of your week ♥

(some more rambles under the cut!)

i really love the way this song starts and how it seems to tell the whole puentalay journey in just, what is that, one verse? well, you know. in just a few lines we've come from their starting point to the inevitable tragedy of them having to separate, and then we've come to their reunion and persevering love.

so the edit tries to interpret all that. the first pic is about the water (which i've been thinking about so much and am going insane about it currently, there's so much Water!!), about how talay gets swept into this other universe and how he finds puen. which. i hope you get it that this is also about that glass house scene in ep 4 where talay runs through the rain to get to puen again. that's important. that's puen's tide - that rain.

and then there's a bit of fluff there. about the things they could go on and on about. about these moments where they find each other. about these moments where they... idk. are just lovely and in love. i wanted to show that.

bc i needed that before we hit the angst town! skies grow darker? currents come and sweep you away again? yeah, so true. puentalay literally just get together and then they're fighting which leads them to the secret island. which then, kind of, steals puen from talay a bit later. I tried to show all that too.

and then it's just. episode 11 part 1/4 heartbreak hours. that part is legendary and i love the angst so much even if watching it feels every time like someone is trying to carve my heart out with a plastic knife. but this line in the lyrics!!! it was just so perfect. gosh. (paired with the "and this love came back to me" like CMON i could make another edit only for that)

this then leads to the pink and the red. bc next we see what they had, what good things they got. the "silent screams" are, for me, about talay. about how he's saying he doesn't do love, doesn't really think about it, but still ends up seeking it. and idk, the dusty heart thing always gets to me. that's kind of his silent scream; talking about the love he does not want to the guy who wants nothing else but them to fall in love. how ironic.

puen got the "wildest dreams" then bc damn, that man has so many Wild Dreams. i didn't want to include the popcorn eating in this bc that would've made this edit cracky imo, so there's now just puen intensely staring at talay. this man is up to no good. his fantasies are horrible yet so, so cute. am so happy he actually got to finally live his popcorn fantasy XD what a doofus.

and then finally! all the things they never even dreamed about! aka everything in the our skyy eps. all of that was so good and domestic i bet they never thought they would have something like that. so that was for the last one. am kind of happy this took so long to make so i got those eps before this ♥ they're such a joy.

idk how much sense any of this makes bc it's 2am and my brain is fried but i just had to get all of this out. thank you once more for giving me this chance ^^ ♥

[bent-visions]

Jeff!! I Love you SO fucking MUCh ARGGGG. My passion, devotion and purely genuine Love for you has literally not lost a smidge of momentum all these years. In fact, i truly believe it grows stronger and stronger every single day.

Because of that continuous build-up, i have had a subconsious, impossible fear that one day all the atoms in my body will self destruct because of how many incredibly powerful emotions flow through my whole being every time we are together, even if i just see your picture, even just THINKING about you brings me these great emotions.

Being with you, especially in person together, is the most amazing experience..because im getting to be in the same room with the one person i absolutely adore, admire, swoon over and look up to, more than anyone i have ever known.

You are my hero, you genuinely saved me from death and, at the time, a closely looming, deep insanity. Mostly same way i have done for you, as you've told me.

I have said it thousands of times and i will say it again because it is my strongest truth: out of every single blessing and miracle my god has bestowed me, I am the absolute MOST grateful for our destiny of attempting to leave this world at the same time, resulting in the fateful day we met.

I believe it was February 22nd, 2021, three days before i was discharged from Ridgeview. I got to spend three wonderful days learning you, memorizing your profile, the way you moved your lips when you talked and your frame when you leaned against walls or walked, plus the ways you displayed your emotions and kept a solid poker face consistently. I did this because from the moment i first laid eyes on you, i thought, "This man is INCREDIBLY attractive and i desperately want to speak to him." Lol.

I remember vividly watching you walk boredly around the ward the first day you arrived, and the moment our eyes met for the first time..that feeling is still indescribable. As we talked and got to know each other better, the energy, electricity, curiosity and emotions rapidly grew, but honestly..i knew there was something extremely important about you.

I have been drawn towards you ever since i first saw you and that has only grown to become complete and endless dedication, devotion, loyalty and eternal Love for you.

I swear this on my life, my families lives, my precious fur babies and my relationship with my God. Which all of is extremely serious...

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I will always Love you, more than anyone i have ever known and anyone i will ever meet again. I will Love you forever as we walk this life together, i will Love you forever even if the tiniest chance that you grow tired of me and leave me. I will Love you forever if you are alive on this earth or not...

Every single day is a new day, and im sure there will be some days that huge things happen which could easily flip our lives upside down. We will have our bad days, bad phases, bad mental health episodes.

BUT those dark times will totally pale in comparison to the much more indescribably amazing, joyful, comfortable, safe, HAPPY years we will spend the rest of our lives enjoying.

Being by your side forever is my biggest dream for my(our) future. I dont care how life ends up treating us. I will be loyal to you and be by your side forever, even if we are living in a car or under a bridge, even if we have absolutely nothing, even if your or my schizophrenia worsens to the point that i can no longer speak or even recognize you anymore (God please...dont let that happen.)

And especially, i want you to never forget this...even if you have a slip up and relapse again, even its continuous relapses, even though witnessing your most severe suffering and having to live with knowing i cannot save you, it always has to be You that chooses to live, and it has absolutely broken my heart again and again..i SWEAR to you i will never falter in supporting you, being there for you, Loving you, believing in you, helping you, and being your rock/anchor to stay on track in your life.

And i say this next part with 1000% faith and belief in the consistent determination, effort and ability that you have to be sober and stay sober. But if a horrible day comes, and the doctors tell us that what they were warning us about your health is happening...i will NEVER abandon you or give up on you, and i will always, ALWAYS Love you with this passion for our Love that only constantly grows. I will never stop telling you that I Love you, even if the darkest possible days blindside us and i know for a fact i will never hear you say it back to me again.

Our bond is eternal my Love.

Be true to yourself, but only in the most positive ways you can, like youve been teaching me. Together we will let go of our negative habits and start manifesting a brighter, more positive life.

I look forward to every second we will spend together for the rest of our lives my darling.

I know you are going to go to sleep soon so that you can stay on the same schedule that i have for work, (VERY kind of you my love ❤)

So i will post this quietly, to add another of my Love letter novels to you in our facebook memories.

I Love you so much my handsome man.

I wish for good, successful and restful sleep for you tonight, and the most peaceful and softest dreams to comfort you all night.

I will message you as soon as i wake up, as always.

Goodnight my most precious and deepest Love.