#I think I should reread this fic actually. I'm obsessed lol

[nyxronomicon]

i wanna hear about y'all's most obscure self ships... like tell me about your faves from media that doesn't have a large self ship community or it's old/obscure etc. Gimme those self ship deep cuts

[chobunz]

Hi hi hi!! I'm so free these days to read and I wanted to know what are some of your top fics or the fics that you'd recommend to someone who's visiting your blog for the first time, thank you <3

haiii <33 so i used to read a TON of fics on here but i haven’t been reading as many latelyyy, but i can def give some recs that are like some of my all time faves on this app !! ღ(>ᗜ<*)༡

firstly, you should def give little lamb by my lovely bff @leeechin a read. it is srsly one of the best fics i’ve read on blr i kid you not, it’s sooo good i’ll literally never stop talking about it !! plus, murderer!jake is actually the hottest shit ever. i could ramble on and on ab this fic but i won’t spoil anything lol, highly recommend it tho <333

strip for me series by @slutofpsh is so so so good like omg, before i even started this blog i was obsessed with this whole entire series, like when i tell you it had me in the tightest chokehold !! you should def read it hehe. i love that author’s work so much >-<

i absolutely LOVE this fic sm omggg… like it’s genuinely so underrated and deserves 1000+ notes, i’ve reread that fic at least 1837472725 times i’m not even joking LOL. i need sunghoon so bad plsplsplspls 😣

the lighthouse and meet me at our spot by @jjunieworld are both absolutely amazing !! they make some of the best fics i’ve ever read on here, i kid u not they are soo talented !! pls pls check them out !! >_<

bed chem by the lovely @p4ranormaluv is another honorable mention, i was hooked on this one IMMEDIATELY. jaz is such a wonderful writer and has so many other good works, i would simply recommend all of them shdhdhhs

this one is also rlly good, i loooove this one as well, this one’s an all time fave just bc i love me some dilf!sunghoon, anddd this is one i’ve read fairly recently that i’ve thoroughly enjoyed !! :3

i think that’s it for now but if i think of anymore than i’ll add them !! pls show all the authors some love bc they truly deserve it :D

as for my own, i would say jay’s body is my fave fic that i’ve created so far as it’s my longest work and i put a lot of effort into it, plus i just rlly love the movie jennifer’s body so if you’re into that kinda thing then you may like it !! but if dark content isn’t for you then i’d either suggest only if you say yes or my most recent fic stress relief !! i would also like to mention this fic too bc i loved writing it a lot and jay was so sexy in it hehehe, i love writing for jay if you couldn’t tell 😖

[lemoncrushh]

What Happens In Vegas...

Summary: Your Vegas trip to celebrate your friend's birthday turns into a night you hadn't expected when you meet Harry Styles in the casino.

Warnings: Fingering, hand kink, gambling (well, it is Vegas). 18+ ONLY!

Word Count: 3533

A/N: One shot originally posted in 2017. Inspired by Harry's performance at the iHeart Festival in Las Vegas. Edited to be a reader fic. This is for the gals with the obsession with his hands. Also, rereading this, I realized you aren't that great of a friend, but hopefully you can look past that lol.

"Thank you," he said to the crowd. "I am a narcissist, so that will help my ego, thank you very much."

"Oh God," you rolled your eyes. "Like he needs any help boosting his ego."

You felt Simone poke you in the side, her apparent glare of disapproval burning a hole into your profile. You chuckled as you lowered your head. She'd drug you to this iHeart Radio concert in Vegas. You hadn't really wanted to go when she announced she had tickets, but because it was part of her birthday trip, you'd agreed to attend.

Harry Styles. Give me a break, you groaned. The kid had come out looking like a cross between a court jester and a Tim Burton character in his harlequin suit and nearly see-through shirt with a big bow at the neck, and you were supposed to swoon? Apparently so, you thought to yourself when you heard the crowd made up of mostly females fill the room with screams louder than any heavy metal audience you'd ever been a part of. And you supposed the bow was supposed to signify his desire to be a present you were to unwrap?

You giggled during his set as he pranced across stage trying to be a rockstar. You had to hand it to him. He definitely had the stage presence and charisma, and despite the fact that you'd never been a fan of boy bands, you could see why he had so many fans. Plus, you had to admit even if only to yourself, he had an incredibly handsome face. No doubt he knew it though.

Stepping further out to the catwalk, Harry gave the audience what they came for, even if they hadn't initially come to see him in particular. You couldn't help it though. Watching him dance around in that suit had you laughing, especially when he'd bop his head from side to side as he sang about "having your baby" and "it's none of your business."

By the time his set was over and he'd walked off stage, you knew Simone was waiting to let you have it. You gave her a smirk as she shook her head at you and rolled her eyes.

"I don't wanna hear it," she said.

"What? I didn't say anything!" you laughed.

"No, but you're thinking it."

"What?" you held up your hands. "It was actually not bad. I kinda liked it."

"You thought it was funny."

"Yeah," you laughed harder. "It was. But that last song's gonna be stuck in my head for a while, so you should be happy about that."

"Ugh," Simone groaned.

You stayed for a few more acts that you didn't think were much better before finally calling it a night and heading back to your hotel.

"You're going to bed?" you asked when you saw Simone pull her bag of toiletries from her suitcase and walk to the bathroom.

"Yeah...why?"

"This is Vegas!" you exclaimed. "The city that never sleeps."

"I thought that was New York."

"Whatever. Let's go hit the tables."

Simone slumped her shoulders. "I'm kinda beat."

You stuck out your bottom lip in an attempt to sway her with a pout. "But your birthday's not over."

With a sigh, Simone dropped her items on the bed and grabbed her purse.

"C'mon," she grinned. "Just an hour or two."

"Yay!" you squealed as you opened the door and stepped out into the hall.

Luck was on your side for the first twenty minutes or so, and you were up a good three hundred when you suggested you make your way to the higher dollar tables.

"Are you kidding?" exclaimed Simone. "You'll lose it all on one bet!"

"It's called gambling," you snorted.

Despite her argument, Simone followed you to one of the exclusive rooms. You saw the pit boss eye you as you sat down at the table, but he didn't say anything when you laid down your chips. Hesitantly, Simone did the same and you caught her swallow hard when the dealer placed a card in front of her and then one in front of you, followed by two more cards facing up. You grinned when yours was an ace, and the dealer slid the cards into the finder. Flipping up the bottom card, he revealed a Jack.

"Woohoo!" you cheered.

"Damn, you are on a streak," Simone commented as she decided to stay on a six. Unfortunately, the dealer didn't bust and she lost. "Crap. I'm gonna sit the next one out. Meet you at the bar?"

You were barely listening. Something - or someone - had caught your eye as he walked across the room.

"I'll be damned," you muttered.

"Huh?"

"Look who just walked in," you nodded toward your right. "Mr. Ego himself."

"Holy shit!" Simone breathed. "Ooh he looks good, too. He changed out of his suit."

You turned your head slightly to notice that he indeed was wearing a basic white t-shirt and black jeans.

"Well of course," you mocked. "Even a narcissist like himself can't keep up the facade all night."

"Stop calling him that," Simone argued. "You know he was just being cheeky, and he doesn't have a big ego."

"Please," you rolled your eyes. "His ego is so visible; I can almost watch it grow."

"All bets up," you heard the dealer say.

"Oh, I'm done," Simone shook her head while you placed another healthy bet.

The dealer slid the cards in front of you. Your top card was a three. Not good. you took a peek at your bottom card. A queen. Shit. Fortunately the dealer had a four, so he was likely to bust. you went with the odds and stayed. Turning over his bottom card, the dealer revealed a ten. Taking another card, he turned over a king. Yes!

"Oh my God woman, you have some luck!"

You beamed at Simone just as you heard another voice behind you.

"Ah, wonderful," he clapped. "Looks like I picked the lucky table."

"Hello."

It was Simone who actually spoke. For the first time ever, it seemed you were tongue-tied.

"Hi," Harry greeted. You caught a glimpse of his dimpled grinned before his fingers grazed your back and he took the seat next to you.

Clearing your throat, you watched out of the corner of your eye as Harry placed a stack of chips on the table. But it wasn't the obvious amount of money he was willing to chuck on a single bet that caught your attention the most. It was his hand and the lovely rings that adorned it.

You'd always had a thing for nice hands on a man. And Harry definitely had them. Long, slender fingers, great for playing piano, guitar and...other things.

The cards were dealt, and you peeked at your bottom card. You already had seventeen and the dealer had a five showing. You were definitely going to stay. You watched Harry's hand as he tapped lightly on the table, seeming to contemplate his next move. Suddenly, he leaned towards you and whispered.

"What should I do?"

You raised a brow. "Excuse me?" The kid didn't know how to play?

"Well, I...I know the rules of the game. It's just...you seem to have the luck on your side, so I wanna make sure I make the right move."

"Oh," you chuckled. You looked at the dealer's card and pointed. "He's only got a five. Odds are, he's gonna bust."

"And why's that?"

"Because...the dealer has to get to at least seventeen. You have to assume he has a ten underneath. So that's only fifteen. The next card has a high chance of being a ten or a face card. That would make him bust. So...you have a three. If the card you're not showing is anything over an eight, you're gonna want to stay."

"What if it's an eight?"

You grinned. "Well then, that's eleven. You're gonna want to double down."

With a stoic expression, Harry grabbed a stack of chips the same height as the first and placed them next to it. Then he nodded and gestured at the dealer who laid another card down for him. A queen. When the dealer revealed his own cards, your prediction had been right and he busted. Harry turned to you with a Cheshire cat smile.

"Thanks, love," he said.

You couldn't help but smile back. "Anytime."

You played several rounds, both of you winning most of them except when the dealer got an automatic blackjack. You heard Simone yawn behind you, and you felt a tinge of guilt that you'd almost forgotten about her.

"Are you ready to go?" you asked her.

"Yeah, but you can stay."

"Are you sure?"

"Of course." Then she leaned to whisper in your ear. "I told you he's not a bad guy."

You pursed your lips. "I didn't say he was."

"Yeah...you kinda did."

"Okay, okay," you nudged her. "We'll talk about it later."

You said a quick goodnight, and she walked away just as Harry got another blackjack. He hooted, making the dealer chuckle.

"I reckon you're good luck," Harry beamed at you.

You shrugged, nonchalantly. "I have my moments."

You watched as Harry inspected his next facedown card, completely mesmerized by his hands. You suddenly felt flushed as you wondered what they would feel like on you. You blinked hard and shook your head. What the hell was wrong with you?

"I really like that ring," you finally said aloud.

"Which one?"

"That rose-shaped one. Very pretty."

"Thanks," he looked at the ring and back up at you. "It's one of my favorites."

A handful of games later, you realized you must be up at least a grand. Unfortunately, luck only lasted so long, and you started to lose, busting a couple times and then staying when the dealer got a twenty.

"I think it's time to cash in," you admitted. "While I'm still ahead."

"Oh, don't go," said Harry. "You're my good luck charm."

You laughed. "I'm sure that's not true. You're doing great on your own."

"Stay. Please."

You sucked in your lips as you looked at his face. Goodness, he was cute. Perhaps you had been a little harsh, dismissing him merely because of who he was...or rather, who you suspected him to be. It wasn't fair.

"Okay, but I'm not playing anymore."

"Then we'll play something else," Harry suggested. "Craps? Roulette?"

"I'm not good at either of those," you frowned.

"Roulette's easy. It's just a guessing game. C'mon."

Taking your chips, you followed Harry to the roulette table where a larger crowd was gathered.

"Pick a number," he said.

"That easy, huh?"

"Sure," he shrugged.

"There's probably more to it than that, but I have no idea," you commented.

"Probably. But we're just playing for fun."

You watched the wheel spin and the little ball stop in the number twenty-two. A woman squealed and the dealer paid her her winnings.

"Playing for fun is for Monopoly money," you said. "This is real money."

Harry chuckled. "So was blackjack."

"Yeah, but I know how to play that."

"Pick a number, love," he said again. "Or a color if you'd rather."

You looked at the board and considered your options. Finally, you chose the number thirty-five. You watched Harry's fingers as he placed a stack of chips on the number itself, more on the column, and even more on black. You weren't sure how much money that was, but you weren't about to ask. Your stomach was in knots as you watched the wheel spin. Finally, the ball stopped.

"Number eleven!" the dealer shouted. Your heart sank, but you caught Harry smiling.

"What happened?" you asked.

"You won," he replied. "Twice."

"Huh? How'd I do that? He called eleven."

"Eleven is black and it's in the same column as thirty-five. That's where I put the bets."

"Oh," you mouthed.

Harry rubbed his hand up your back. "Told you, you're my good luck charm. Now pick another number."

"I can't keep betting with your money!"

"Alright. Then we'll use yours," he reached for your hand.

"Hey!"

Harry laughed harder, grabbing only a few of your chips. "C'mon, pick something."

"Fine, but I'm just choosing black."

"Black it is," Harry nodded, setting your chips down. Then he took more of his own and placed them between several different numbers in different places. you weren't sure what he was doing, you were lost. Finally, he turned to you.

"Have an idea," he said.

Sliding the rose ring off his finger, he kissed it, then placed it on top of your chips on the black.

"What's that for?" you inquired.

"That's yours if you win."

All you could do was stare at him. The dealer spun the wheel, you could hear the ball bouncing and the other players cheering. But you just stood there staring at Harry Styles. This guy you'd thought was a complete egotistical douchebag until about thirty minutes ago.

"Number seventeen!" the dealer called.

You cringed, trying to read the expression on Harry's face. But he merely stared back at you.

"Is seventeen black?" you asked him.

He threw his head back and let out a loud guffaw. "Yes, it is."

Your eyes grew wide and you pushed his chest with your hands. "What the fuck, no way!"

Harry continued to laugh as he covered your hands with his that clung to his t-shirt. Your eyes fell down to look at them and it was then that you noticed his shirt was almost sheer, just like the one he'd worn on stage, minus the pineapple shapes. You could see several splashes of ink displayed on his chest, and for a second you wished he would let you examine them all in private.

Your chest rose and fell from excitement and exhilaration, and you chuckled to yourself. Letting go of you, Harry collected the winnings and his ring.

"Here you are," he said, handing it to you.

"No," you shook your head. "No, I can't take that."

"Why not? I said it was yours if you won."

"This is too..." you felt the ring in your hand momentarily. "No, I can't accept it."

Twisting his mouth in confusion, Harry watched you as you slid the ring back on his gorgeous finger.

"That's where it belongs," you whispered.

"Sorry?"

"On your hand," you let out a sigh. "You have really beautiful hands."

You heard him giggle slightly as you continued to stare at them, taking them both in your own hands as though you were inspecting them. You were probably creeping him out, but you were lost in your own thoughts.

"Um...here's your...your money," he swallowed, releasing his hand from yours and reaching for your chips.

"Oh, thanks. I should..."

"No, thank you," his lips curled up. "I really do think you had a lucky streak tonight."

You grinned at him, your tongue darting out of the corner of your mouth. "Not completely lucky."

Harry's smile grew as he raised a brow at your cheeky comment.

"See ya, Harry," you winked and turned around. "I had fun."

"Wait, where are you going?" you felt his hand on your arm.

"To my room," you pointed up at the ceiling.

"Do you have to?"

You paused and glared at him. This guy was very hard to read. You could tell he'd been flirting with you, but it also could've been harmless, and he was just being kind. Now he didn't want you to go? You bit your lip and stepped closer to him.

"I guess not," you nearly whispered. "But I think I might be done with gambling for the night."

"No worries," he said low, his eyes looking down into yours. "We could go somewhere else."

"What'd you have in mind?"

"My room."

You should have known he'd have one of the biggest rooms in the hotel. It took up nearly the entire side of one floor, front to back. You stared out the windows at the city lights, the amazing view taking your breath away and making you feel alive at the same time.

"Here you are," you heard Harry say behind you.

You turned to see two glasses in his hands. Taking one from him, you murmured a thank you and took a sip of the best tequila you'd ever had in your life. You threw your head back with a sigh as you heard him hum in agreement.

"So you stay in rooms like this...all by yourself?"

"Yes. Sometimes."

"Must get lonely."

"Sometimes."

Taking another sip, you strolled around the outer perimeter of the room, stopping at the other corner window where you could see a view of the mountains.

"I love Vegas," you commented. "I used to want to move here. It's like it's own little word, separate fr-"

Suddenly, your glass left your hand and Harry set it on a nearby table. Then he grabbed you and kissed you, hard, his tongue darting deep into your mouth.

"Tell me what you want," he demanded as his lips traveled down your neck.

"What?" you asked, breathless.

"What you want me to do to you. I'll do whatever you like."

"Oh..." you said with a moan. "Your hands. I want your hands on me."

"Okay. Where do you like to be touched?"

"Anywhere. Everywhere. I just...I want those gorgeous hands and fingers on me."

Harry's eyes met yours, and he nodded his understanding. Reaching behind you, he found the zipper of your dress. It fell to the floor instantly, pooling at your feet. Though there was a cool temperature in the room, you suddenly felt hot all over as Harry's gaze roamed your body. Then giving you his hand, you stepped out of your dress and kicked off your heels. He pulled you closer to him until his hands cupped your naked breasts. You shut your eyes at the contact, the sensation already more than you could bear.

"You're so beautiful," he whispered, his thumbs grazing over your nipples causing goosebumps to rise over your flesh.

You covered his hands with yours, slowly guiding one of them down to your panty line.

"Mmm," he sounded as his fingers slid down and met wetness.

You heard his breaths quicken with yours, and he swallowed hard. His fingertip touched the outer rim of your center, teasing you in tiny circles. You bucked your hips to allow him access, but he was insistent on keeping with his own rhythm.

"Please," you begged softly.

"Not yet, love," he cooed.

Releasing his hand, he pushed your panties down and off. Then he kissed you again before guiding you to the plush sofa. He sat down and pulled you on top of him so that you straddled him, your hands on his shoulders. His eyes dark and lids heavy, his hands caressed you softly before kneading your breasts, his fingers pinching your nipples.

You moaned low, wishing he would put his mouth on them, but you could tell he was taking you at your word, giving you exactly what you'd asked for. You looked down at his hands as one slowly slid down your stomach, and his thumb met your already swollen bud.

"Oh God," you panted, lifting yourself on your knees so he had better access.

Harry then brought his hand to his mouth where you watched him lick two fingers before returning them to your clit. He stroked you slowly, making your knees buckle until he finally, ever so gently, inserted one finger, then a second.

You threw your head back, your own hands clawing at the neck of his t-shirt as you rode his fingers. You could feel the cold chill of his rings against your skin and you let out another cry of pleasure.

"Tell me how it feels," you heard him say as he picked up speed.

"So good," you breathed, urging his other hand up your breast to your neck. "Feels so good."

Harry brought his fingers to your mouth, where you licked the tips seductively before sucking.

"Mmhmm," he agreed. "You look so good, too."

"I want you," you sounded, looking at his face, his shirt in your fist.

Harry chuckled. "I'm right here."

"I want you inside me," you clarified.

"I am inside you," he smirked. Cocky asshole.

"No," you pouted, sliding your hand down his chest to the bulge in his jeans.

"You said you wanted my hands." Harry raised a brow smugly, his fingers nearly finding just the right spot. You leaned towards him, your head falling in the crook of his neck.

"Please."

"I'm gonna watch you come like this," he said. "Then we'll fuck, yeah?"

You moaned against his skin, your hips bucking as you felt yourself reach your peak.

"Say my name when you come," he growled.

You looked into his eyes and smiled. "So you are a narcissist. I knew it."

"You bet I am."

You rolled your eyes, but not at him. The truth was, there was no way you couldn't have said his name. He made you come harder than anyone ever had. Twice.

Harry Styles and his fucking ego.

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[ronearoundblindly]

So I was rereading this ‘This All Day’ from Fools Rush In that I absolutely loveeee. ( btw Fools Rush In is by far the most character accurate Steve fic I’ve ever read. You know him so well 🥰 ) In the fic where it’s like, “He won’t get hard until you’re warmed up with his fingers—not your fingers, mind you, because he got very defensive that one time”

I was wondering if this referencing a one shot where this happened and maybe I missed it cause thinking about how that conversation went down is hilarious but also so sweet. I find it endearing that he’s defensive about it. HE wants to be the one to do it- so sweet 🥰

How do you think Steve would react if she ever wanted to introduce toys into the bedroom? (possible fic idea?). I wonder if he’d be hurt by this and also take it as him not satisfying her properly.

🥴

Oh. Yeah. Right. Caught that line, did ya? Heh...

I'm gonna put this under a cut lol. We shall be discussing adult things.

Steve (if you've read all of FRI's 'Do You Two...Fondue?') has quite a few insecurities about sex, in general, but there is specifically a prowess he would prefer, which is to be the one and the only one to get you off. He doesn't like the idea of not being enough or not knowing how to be enough for his girl, right? But he doesn't exactly have a ton of experience, and his go-getter attitude tends to drop off just shy of "how do you want my dick" obviously.

You know I love Steve, but he doesn't only not have the words for sex--can't dirty talk worth beans because he can't really say things like, well, any of it, not pussy, cunt, dick, or cock, he'll say 'breasts' maybe but otherwise it's just "him" inside "you"--but he also has hangups about varied sexual acts, toys absolutely included in that concept.

He's honestly so slow and tender to warm up to new that he mistook what was meant to be a simple show of how excited and desperate he'd made you (i.e. toughing yourself while he got undressed) as him not being thorough in his foreplay, affection, and general sensuality. Steve doesn't get angered by these things; he gets upset. He gets sad.

There has never been a more laughable and heart-breaking moment in bed for you than the hurt look on his face. It's his duty, his privilege, his job to please you. Don't take his job away from him!

(None of that was in a specific one-shot, just sorta implied throughout.)

I actually think Steve went on several long missions away before realizing you might have wanted/needed to get off without him, and at first, he hates that idea. I think he'd pitch a fucking fit if you had toys for those occasions--even if the use of them is rarer once you two are physically intimate--and yes, you're correct in thinking he'd raise hell at the idea a toy can do something for you that his body cannot.

Except for he uses his body so carefully for you. He's delicate and hesitant. He's traditional and, buddy, sorry, but often very stiff in his approach. Warm and adoring--totally!--but Steve is obsessed with not harming you.

Nevermind how fucking long the conversation is that dissects the difference between pain and 'a minor discomfort that is in service of showing how intensely you need more of your partner immediately,' he still feels strongly that you should never be remotely unprepared to take him and now he doesn't trust you not to rush it (even though/especially because he was so overwhelmed at that first feeling of you that he just thrust in (Fondue pt.16)). He never stops trying to make up for that. He does not much understand that there is a gray area between pain and pleasure.

Of course, that's partly because that whole spectrum is dulled on him, so he is psychologically and emotionally far more aware of their distinction...as one would be when fighting, interrogating, and/or killing.

It is not the most rational train of thought, but Steve was small and weak. He realized that, as he was naturally, he might not be enough for a partner--but that was because he was small and unhealthy. The serum fixed those things, and frankly, Steve has not come to terms with a big, healthy guy perhaps still falling short of being everything you could ever want or need. He's a man. As forward-thinking as he is, he's still a man who absolutely wants to be your man.

There will come a time when...toys are used as aid in [redacted], but I don't want to spoil too much...

Hope all this made sense, and

Thank you for asking!

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[lesbianwyllravengard]

20 questions for fic authors!

I was tagged by the lovely @ugetelynx and @wisecrackingeric-2 <3 so sorry it took me so long to do this hfsgjhdj

1. How many works do you have? - currently posted on ao3 I have 57 works total. However I have almost twice as many wips it's bad

2. Ao3 word count? - 395,068 ..... I've got a wip that's almost over 100k but it's also been there for years so I doubt that'll change anytime soon

3. What fandoms do you write for? - of the fics I have on ao3, I have written for detroit become human, star wars, resident evil, assassin's creed, and the last kingdom. The fandoms I've written for that are not on my ao3 include lotr/the hobbit, bbc sherlock, bbc merlin, marvel, voltron legendary defender, percy jackson universe, and whatever the Carry On by rainbow rowell fandom is called. Most of those I will never ever write for again lmao

4. What are your top five fics by kudos? - In order:

Sapphire Moonlight (Tequila Sunrise) (Serennedy)

We Look So Good (Reed900)

Hold Fast, the Suns Will Rise (Stay) (Dincobb) (also, my first fic ever posted, and still the fic I hold most dearly in my heart to this day)

We Are Home (Hank and Connor family content)

Tomato Soup (Serennedy)

5. Do you respond to comments? - every single one. I'm obsessed with comments. I have them all saved and stored so I can reread them at any time. Thank you everyone who has ever commented I love you

6. What fic did you write the angstiest ending for? - I only write angst with a happy ending. But I did write You Should Have Killed Me for a friend's dbh x hunger games simulator result and it had an angsty ending by result of being a hunger games simulator.

7. What fic did you write the happiest ending for? - I write many fics w happy endings, but I personally think my fic series Din and Grogu | the Clan of Two Trilogy has the happiest ending because it happened against all odds. It's a fic about Din and Grogu's found family (before BoBF and Mando s3 came out, so it's not canon accurate) and it ends meaningfully to me.

8. Do you get hate on fics? - I have before, but it was all bullshit that showed me the person commenting didn't actually read what I wrote but chose to get mad at something that didn't exist. So it was discarded easily. Otherwise, I've had people try to tell me how to write things, but I ignore them all

9. Do you write smut? - yes. badly.

10. Crossovers? - I wrote a dincobb fic that was set in Assassin's Creed: Odyssey, with Din as Kassandra and Cobb as Anais. I also started a serennedy fic set in the detroit: become human universe but never got anywhere close to finishing it.

11. Ever had a fic stolen? - not that I know of lol.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? - I had someone ask to translate one of my fics, and I said yes, but I don't think they've done so yet, which is fine. Other than that, no. But I'd be honoured!

13. Ever co-wrote a fic before? - I started a dincobb fic with a friend years ago but we never got around to finishing it. Someday I still hope to.

14. What's your all time favourite ship? - that's genuinely impossible to pick tbh I've had so many that rewired my brain. top three are probably bagginshield, simarkus, and shadowzel, not in any particular order.

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will? - ehhhhh probably the klance fic I started when I was like 15. I don't go to voltron anymore and literally couldn't care less about it. In fact I actively hate it.

16. What are your writing strengths? - I've been told that I'm good at characterisation and plot. I think I suck at plot severely. As for characterisation, I study characters really hard and take a long time to write fics so they remain in character so I'm glad people appreciate that. I also prefer writing dialogue to anything else.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? - Writing. haha I mean exposition.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language? I have before, I find it fun but also intimidating.

19. First fandom you wrote for? - The Hobbit :') my first ever fic was a bagginshield fic I started when I was 13. I still mean to finish it someday.

20. Favourite fic you've written? - *sighs* I guess I should say Another Time. It was the most fun to write, and everyone's responses have made all the difficulties of writing it endlessly worth it. It took me months but I'm so happy I finished it, and I'm working on p3 rn I PROMISE. But again the fic I hold most dearly in my heart is still Hold Fast, the Suns Will Rise (Stay)

[attonitos-gloria]

For the ship asks:

Robbion (Tyrion x Robb)

Boris x Xandra

Wolf Finger

Jonsa

Richard Papen x Accessible Mental Health Resources

Henry x Camilla

you're so funny and evil for this lol i put colors in it.

tyrion/robb: absolutely zero sense, but compels me endlessly. it's insane how a single fic can destroy your life. this is one of the greatest works of art in this fandom

boris/xandra: huge ick when it happened, doesn't compel me at all but MY GOD if any relationship in that situation makes sense........ xandra depressed and taking advantage of a minor? boris feeling pity for her and also, drugs? the most likely thing. i hate that donna realized this and made it real.

Wolf Finger (ned/petyr): lololol this name is so funny. i'm afraid this ship makes a lot of sense and now that i'm rereading AGoT from a queer perspective (so much better??? than the first read??? i'll have to reread every book that i read before i realized i was bisexual) i actually find them compelling. when you take into consideration both sansa and catelyn lol losing my mind. bye

jonsa: putting them right in the middle because show!jonsa makes sense but book!jonsa does not, simply because sansa is another character entirely, and to a certain degree jon too. that being said: i'm not that interested in either version of them - though when i am, it's always the show version and it has to be like a radically tragic and taboo thing

richard papen/accessible Mental Health Resources: well do i want him to get help. of course. but you'll realize it makes so little sense that it's not even inside the graphic properly. because richard lacks the minimal self-awareness to even get there or to get help from it if he got there

henry/camilla: i love this ship because we spend so much of TSH seeing camilla from richard's obsessive projection of her, and we, as readers, can see that she's NOT who he thinks she is lol but nothing reveals this more than the fact she was in love with henry. one of the best psycopathic couples ever. camilla is a FREAK. meant to be. i love them.

y'all should ask me ships <3

[infiniteorangethethird]

(kskdkrkekd ignore my ask before i sent it on accident before i could finish it)

hiiii we haven't talked in a bit so this is me popping by

how have you been doing? :)

i have finished reading hamlet so i am going to reread i fell in love with hope any day now and give you your promised highly detailed essay. yay? also i have been seeing a therapist, idk if i told you about that and i'm pretty sure that's a yay!! she's very nice

question time!! i miss your aro fic so i decided to ask something regarding that. firstly, can i ask why are there different mating systems? like, what is the in-world explanation and/or what is the narrative purpose? (idk if that's too much spoiler, you can just answer in private if you want or not answer at all, whatever you seem fit)

other question is about björn bc i love him. does he like musicals too?? i know you said you, yourself are not that into theatre but if yes, do you have an idea what types of musicals would be his fav?

that's all for now i think. you answer when you answer, if you want to at all - as always. no pressure!!

bye-bye (´^_^)ノ

hiiiii sorry this took me so long to get around to, I've finally started on my summer job and I can count my free seconds on just one hand 😭 otherwise I'm mostly fine, bit preoccupied with getting obsessed over various crochet projects and trying not to lose my sanity over them lmao

oh I am so looking forward to that essay of yours, it's been a hot moment since I read I fell in love with hope so perhaps this is a call for me to reread it as well. I'd say we should do a race to see who can finish sooner but I get the feeling neither of us needs any kind of extra stress right now, lol. And I'm glad to hear you found a good therapist! I remember you mentioned you were looking for one, so happy to hear that turned out nicely!

Imma be honest, it's been a hot moment since I thought abt my aro fic 😅 other projects came up and then I started working on Absolutely Nothing At All, so that one has been kinda put on the backburner lately - it's probably a good thing you're reminding me of it, then. Tbh I don't remember if I had any specific reason for multiple mating systems, I think I just wanted to represent many of them to say: no, the problem isn't with one specific system, the problem is with the idea itself. Then again I have been considering going through every idea I had thus far again and sort of "restarting" bc I wasn't entirely happy with what I came up with thus far, so who knows. Maybe next time you ask I will stick with just one system lol.

Oh yeah Björn is a really funny guy I love him too, for some reason I imagine he would be the type of person who loves musicals but purely for their music, and otherwise has zero clue as to what the musical is actually about. He would listen to the soundtrack on 24/7 loop but if someone came up to him like "actually this musical is about [plot]" he would give you the most confused surprised pikachu face. (What kind would be his favorite, I am honestly not sure)

man I really should think about getting back to writing this Thang I have been putting it off for so long I'm already forgetting things about it 😭

Anyway, how are you doing? I hope everything's going fine with you this summer break and that ur resting at least a little bit (and that your brain hasn't boiled yet in the heat lmao). Doing anything interesting lately?

[worldwright]

good evening ! im super early today bc im dying lmao

man, it was so fucking hard to fall asleep after my war against that fucking stinkbug, and someone i wont name fucking deserted and left her leader to fight this great and horrifying enemy

anyway, i checked which fucking painkiller i can take, and the only one i can is paracetamol but this fucker does nothing to my headaches, so im switching entirely to water from tea bc it works better than a fucking painkiller

i slept bad (what a surprise), my father woke me up bc he couldnt find me (man, the only day he wants to know where the fuck i am is the only where i dont wnat him to find him), a headache is there and my nap didnt help ;-; but at least i finished my second watch of glass onion (started last week) and watched the episode of dunmesh and now i can say w/o any doubt that chilchuck is my fav -he was from the very beginning but ude, now im sure)

ill be able to finally sleep in my bed tonight yay

and here a picture the coward from this morning (or icecream, or latte, or whatever you like to compare her to. my friends call her "table basse" [coffee table] or "chieng en format familial" [familiy-sized doggo]. youre too kind with your nicknames for her lol)

have a wonderful morning with your partner my friend !

o how decadent is her lounging !! would that we could all feel the same peace 😌❤️

(no that is not proper English grammar don't copy me 😭😭)

hehe tiny emojis 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🍃🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

immmmmm so excited to hang out with people I felt like I was withering lmfao

I think I'm gonna go up to see all my friends next weekend, since all of them are once again living in their dream life shared apartment with the besties ughhhh I can't wait to live there

the new office manager at my job is so cool :3 he's incredibly gay lmfao

I've officially caught up on apothecary diaries. ugh what do I do with my life now

obviously the answer is wait impatiently for every new episode and write analysis posts in the meantime

mmm I wanna reread witch hat atelier...... next week downtime obsession found 👍👍

egg salad last night was all right! I accidentally added too much mayonnaise and then had to overcorrect from there, so it ended up not having as much egg per volume as it should have. but still tasty and nutritious :3

speaking of food you're SO valid about Chilchuck. he's just ❤️❤️❤️ This Is A Divorced Father Of Three With Extreme Communication Issues ❤️❤️❤️ who looks like a middle schooler 🥰🥰🥰

also chatted with a friend about our fic ideas, which was really fun. the problem is that I have a really fleshed-out AU, but I don't know what actual plot to put in the AU. lol. ahhhhhhh

girlfriend weekend!!!!! girlfriend weekend!!!!!!!!

hope your headache goes away in time for you to get good sleep tonight!!

[padfootastic]

Hey there ! I missed seeing your posts so I am glad you’re back : ) so last week I reread where you go, i'm going (because there's no me without you) and like I just love it so so much because the main character energy they exude is truly awesome, I mean it’s just so perfect. Also when Sirius took his shirt off so the attention was shifted from James 🥹 was adorable because they’re just always there for each other. I love this fic so much that I reread it so frequently (not just this one tbh I love all your other works too so thank you so much for writing them ) I just wanted to ask you do you have anymore tattoo related head canons ? Also sorry it turned so long

omg hi anon 🥺🥺 thank u so, so much!!! that fic is so dear to me bc i wrote it in one stretch in the notes app of my phone and just. it’s everything i love about j & s and fanfiction, i think. and dude, main character energy is so right??? like just casually reforming extremely advanced magic for no reason other than to fuck around???

(also please never apologise for the length of anything, i am the queen of rambling for no reason here so if anything, it should be saying sorry for making y’all go thru all mt word vomit lol)

as for tattoo related headcanons, hmmm, so. there’s this fic about harry & sirius & tattoos postwar, where each chapter just has more tattoo content lol it has pretty much most of my hcs in some form or the other. what else, hm.

- james’ first tattoo is for sirius, always. he wasn’t really interested in it but he wanted it to get thru sirius’ thick skull that he’s family, always will be, and if he had to mutilate his own skin to prove it, so he will. of course, after that he realised he actually quite liked it so he just. never stopped.

- i mention this in the fic but james is very proper, buttoned up, perfect pureblood heir types & doesn’t have any visible tattoos. (have u seen that ig trend where these super ripped, tattooed dudes do that thing where they’re all well dressed in the beginning and when the beat drops, they’re set against a light backdrop, shirtless, showing off an impressive collection of badass tattoos? that is james potter coded)

- sirius is def the kind of person who’s get inked without a second thought. he loves the pain, the little rush of adrenaline, the feeling of being alive that comes with it. he also gets a tattoo from every single country he travels to, without fail, as a way to preserve memories.

- these dorks def have a marauder tattoo that they get inked on a dare or sumn. surprisingly (or not), remus was the one most hesitant and who had to be pushed into it. peter, of course, was the most eager

- magical tattoos!!! just. so many of them. that’s the tweet. (again, this is in the other fic, but i’m kinda obsessed with runic tattoos that can double as conduits for magic? and j & s doing it on each other, at risk of actual, literal combustion and not caring about it bc they have the invincibility of teenage boyhood)

[darwinquark]

Do you edit as you go or do you finish the chapter/scene then edit? I find myself rereading my work after I read and thinking it sucks and stopping it. Do you edit your work? I feel as though I compare myself to writers believing they write so well they don’t edit and that I must suck if i edit so much. So sorry if i’m rambling 😭. Writing is hard.

GORL I edit every word! 75% of the time I spend putting together a new chapter is editing - I edit way more than I actually write! I've spent months on like one page of writing before (not even a whole scene) because I need to keep stepping away from it to read it with fresh eyes and see what's not working. If you read TKOF at all, I can't even tell you how many microversions of certain scenes there have been - Jughead and Veronica's first kiss in that trailer had a few versions before I landed on the final one, their fight in Reggie's room went many directions, their fight in the supply closet also did (and honestly I'm still not sure it's 100% there) - so many scenes! And I often go back to re-read chapters I've already posted and start editing them all over again - if I re-read any chapter of mine right now, I'll find something that reads like hot garbage and edit it guaranteed.

I honestly don't know any writers who don't edit, so in absolutely no way should you think of it as a weakness! I think it's just as crucial a skill to being an engaging writer than the literal writing part. I have like entire scenes of different fics that I've scrapped after determining they just weren't working (I just shove them in a doc called 'extras' lol). So yeah, I am by no means the blueprint lmao but I definitely think your urge to edit is actually a sign that you're a thoughtful writer and hold yourself to a high standard. And if what you're saying is that reading other people's work makes you like yours less when you go back to read it, I've definitely been there too, but you know what it's a cool opportunity for? Challenging yourself to write something new and different from your usual style! I find this happens most often when I've gotten kind of lazy with my writing and haven't been pushing myself to grow, which I notice most when I read something by someone else that really resonates with/hits me, so I try to reframe that subpar feeing into inspiration, you know? And the beautiful thing about fanfic is you can post whatever you want, whenever you want, in whatever style you want, so it's such a great place to be experimental.

TLDR; I edit like a mofo, most of the writing you'll read that inspires you is also probably obsessively edited, and it is absolutely not a bad sign that you feel the desire to edit your things. Editing is how you grow and figure out what works better, so edit away, my friend!

[1d1195]

Oh I learned French too in highschool! It was honestly COMPLETELY USELESS BAHAH like now I just remember the names of certain fruits lol and I can understand how difficult it may be to see your students struggling so it’s can kind of difficult to not correlate that with how “good” of a teacher you are. Especially since you just want them to be successful in general and see them flourish! But I’m sure you’re not horrible! The fact that you are actively TRYING and not blaming the student is already more than enough! That in itself is already so helpful and yeah it will be difficult learning no matter the language it’s in but I’m sure you’re a great support system for all your students!!!

And those sound like such good books! And omg I didn’t know you were like into WWII themed stories!?! That’s so cute and honestly I see the vision! I went through a phase where I was obsessed with the 1920s, I know it’s not the same but I get it! And you should totally write something like that one day with Harry! You would obviously SLAY THAT SHIT!!!

I use to be such an avid reader but this year I just stopped and I think I made it halfway on one book that wasn’t assigned this year :( but I loved your book reading summary and I might just have to check it out during my break!

Omg no you aren’t ancient! But I get it being labeled as the “mom” bc I am sadly am one too 😔 I can’t help it lol and yeah I’ll be 21! And it’s so sweet you remembered! And I may be a psych major but I’m so unhinged it’s WILD lol and it’s so cool you live on the east coast, I’ve always been interested in visiting!

I have to thank YOU bc my answers are so long😭 and I love reading what you have to say fic or not fic related!-💜

I was also obsessed with the 1920s! If I could go back to school, I think history would be up there. I'm fascinated by it. I feel like everyone goes through a 1920s phase--like a right of passage.

One my first stories to break 100 notes on here, actually (it's on the garbage section of my blog so I wouldn't recommend reading it) was my "first big break." It was set in the 1920s. But at the time it was like super exciting and important to me. I think I reread it not too long ago and I think it's cute still, but very cringy. You can tell I wrote it when I was without a lot of real world and/or relationship experience and only read Sarah Dessen in my free time. I would love to do it over though. I have a mob/1920s vibe sort of story on my list of things to write in the future. So we'll see! 😊

I used to devour books. Then in high school/college the perfectionist in me just stopped and deemed the time too important to be reading for fun when I had scholarships to apply for and a degree to earn. I've got like 40 unread books on my shelf staring at me daily. But like I mentioned, I got back into the swing of things this year so hopefully I can narrow it further over the coming months. I would get married in a Barnes and Noble probably--it's one of my top 5 favorite stores and I would say my toxic trait is I can't leave without buying a book. I'm sure you'll get back to reading when you have the time. School is important and your brain only has so much time to handle everything.

I love it out East here. tbh, I don't think I could ever live anywhere else. I'm not sure if you saw my playlist thing (I wouldn't expect you to notice it) but I'm on a Noah Kahan kick rn. Several of his songs are about growing up in New England and it's like nostalgic even though I live here. Idk, it's like someone read my mind and put it in a song. It's magical.

That brain cell of ours working overtime being the mom of our friend groups. I remember in college it felt like a second job keeping everyone on track and I agree, I couldn't even help it! They were adults but it didn't feel like they were adults.

Thanks for indulging in my ramblings and I love your long responses (obviously--look at mine 🤦‍♀️). It's really nice to talk with you!

P.S. one of my favorite quotes is from Alice's Adventures in Wonderland: "Yes, you're mad, bonkers, off the top of your head...but...I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.” So if you feel unhinged I think it's okay. I think the best people are 💕

[cryiling]

oh my god im so insane about 4town it's not even funny atp

1.) my bias is TAE YOUNGGGGG 🤭 it's the kpop stan in me LOL he reminds me so much of jimin. but he's just so sweet and caring and I neeeed more content of him!!! his little arc in the 4town manga was so 💗

2.) guys I'm an ot5, I love them all 😭✋

3.) i have no idea if this is unpopular, but I headcanon that tae young is the beatboxer of the group! I saw a tik tok from his va, and turns out the va is the one who did the beatboxing on their songs! so I hc that therefore tae young is the one doing that ^^ I haven't seen this hc before tho

4.) tbh I have not interacted enough with the fandom to know many popular hcs ajdbsjfb. I do hc that tae young gets really into second gen kpop around 2007 tho! is that a popular hc? specifically I think he'd lovee wonder girls and snsd

5.) ok ik that after 4town disbands robaire goes on to have a solo career, but my big hc is that they all stay close friends and further down the line they do a reunion album/tour for funsies!! robaire would absolutely slay as a soloist but I don't think he would prioritize that over his friends

6.) omggg hiding my pain is one of my favorite fics, I relate SO MUCH to tae young in it and I really love the hurt/comfort of his friends comforting and supporting him 😭🙏

7.) stop omg this art is so cute!!! tae young as jimin will always be my fave 🤭

8.) ok wait I did have two oc for my 4town predebut au but I don't remember their names 😭 but basically the fic idea follower tae young's high school life and how he got to know the boys, but it centered a lot around around his coming of age and coming to terms with his ethnicity and sexuality. in the au, he joins his school's asian-canadian club, and there he made two friends, one boy and one girl. but I don't remember their names or anything abt them 😭 but they were his first friends before 4town, and after the group debuts they still remain rlly good friends! yaur I'll talk abt this au more in #13

9.) can I count the disneyland parade LOL i saw it this past week AND TAE YOUNG GAVE ME A HEART OH EM GEEEEEEE im dead i love him 😭🙏 but if not that, then fs the 4town manga!!! i actually should reread it bc I don't remember most of it, but it gave us so much content for how the boys interact with each other!!!

10.) guys back in 2022 there was this person on insta who was making 4town cds and photocards and stuff and i NEEDED ITTT so I bought it for $25 😭 but omg I was so obsessed with it, I had the tae young pc in my phone case for theee longest time, tbh I have zero clue where I put the thing but I loved that merch!!!

11.) me when I'm fighting a giant panda by singing my hit song

12.) AN ACTUAL COMEBACK WITH A FULL LENGTH ALBUM AND MV PLSSSSSSSSSS you don't understand how badly i need that

13.) hey guysss are u ready to hear my whole fic idea for tae young centric predebut 4town 😽

so basically this takes place when tae young is in high school, a large part of this fic revolves around his insecurity issues regarding being a queer korean-canadian and wanting to express himself more feminine (like by wearing nail polish). in order to connect with more ppl like him, he joins the asian-canadian club at his school, where he becomes friends with this boy and girl who are both also queer (or at least allies, I don't really remember?)

but his two friends help him come out of his shell and start embracing his true self! I thought it could be interesting if the guy friend was z or something, but maybe it's more impactful if it's just an oc? idkk

at some point, he connects with t, who's in the same grade as him but a few months older. they're working on a school project together, but even once the project's over, they stay good friends! and this is when he starts to connect with the other 4townies

tae young has always had a passion for singing, but for a while he was really self conscious of his higher pitched voice. but his two friends from the asian-canadian club helped him overcome this insecurity as well. and so he really connects with t, who has always loved dancing and wants to pursue that as a career

anyways idr how but the 4town members eventually all connect and become friends (this happens in tae's and t's senior year btw) and they all share the same dream of becoming music artists! eventually they're scouted by a music label, and they can't believe the good news, so they all sign asap. and under this label is when they put out their turning red album and do their tour from the movie and everything

but actually, this label they're under is kinda rlly abusive and they totally overwork the boys and don't let them have any artistic control over their work. so none of the boys are really happy. and eventually, this all comes to a head when the company's ceo gets rlly verbally abusive towards tae young, calling out a lot of the things he used to be insecure about. and the members have had it atp, so they all quit their contract on the spot (ik this isn't super realistic but they do something like loona did irl and sue the company and it all works out in the end) and the boys are able to leave the label and start making their own music independent of a label

this means that their music is more representative of who they are and what they want to do, and this becomes really clear to fans, who have been supporting 4town the entirety of their fight against their old label. so yeah happy ever after to the boys who can be the artists they want to be!!

i cannot believe I just wrote all of that for a 4town fanfiction 😭 I have not written that long of an au post since revalink last year omg

14.) ok tbh I don't really see myself dating any of them 😭😭 it would be super fun to hang out with tae, altho I think my personality would mesh better with robaire or t ajdbwjfn. I have zero clue what we would do, prob with tae we could go get boba or coffee or smth, maybe with robaire we could get dinner or a more traditional "date?" and with t I think it would be super fun to have a dance session together!

15.) well *I* would fs be fangirling the entire day LOL, idk I would honestly be scared to be perceived by them 😭 im content to do wtv SJDBEJFN

anyways this was so much fun to do!!! I've loved 4town forever but I'm still new to the fandom on tumblr so pls be kind to me 😣

4*Town Questions To Keep You Entertained

Keeping the 4Townie fish fed & enriched, more lil activities on the way

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1. Who is your 4*Town bias/favorite member? Why do you like them?

2. Who is your least loved 4*Town boy? Why?

3. Whats an unpopular 4*town HC you have?

4. Whats a popular 4*town HC amongst the fandom that you enjoy/share?

5. Whats your favorite 4*Town headcanon/idea?

6. Do you have a favorite 4*Town fic or headcanon set? If so, what one?

7. Do you have a favorite 4*Town art piece or artist? If so, who?

8. Do you have a 4*Town OC? If so, what are they like? Tell me about em! Show em off! If you dont have one, make one up on the spot briefly

9. What official 4*Town content is your favorite? (Manga, gifs, the website, movie etc)

10. What UNofficial 4*Town content is your favorite (it can be your own! Or a fic an animation, a fan piece, fanmerch etc)

11. Whats your favorite 4*Town song? (Except you cant list its name or any of its lyrics, you just have to poorly describe it)

12. If you could make any self indulgent official 4*Town content, no limits on VA’s, no cost problems, whatever quality you want, what would it be? Why would it be that?

13. Make up (or talk) about a 4*Town AU thats self indulgent to you :]!! Whats it like? Whats it involve?

14. Who do you wanna date in 4*town? What would the date be? How would the guy behave?

15. You get to spend a day with 4*Town, what are y’all doin?

[tenderlyrenjun]

hi this might be long but it's purely from the good in my heart. i read time out and married and privacy all right when you published them but since my blog isn't a nct blog and i only come on this app to check on the fic tags every night i just didn't follow you but i recognised your url everytime you posted and it made me! so happy!!!!!!!!!!! more than my exclamation marks will ever convey you are A Very Good Writer despite what you keep telling yourself

i read law student renjun last night and i swear it got into my dreams so i checked your blog right away the morning after expecting sentiments from people who loved it as much as i did ONLY TO BE absolutely befuddled at some of your recent anons........ considering i've been reading fics my whole life p much and yours are truly remarkable and some of the most memorable ones i've read it makes absolutely no sense to me that someone would pick on your smut or punctuation or WHATEVER THE FUCK because your writing rocks my socks off. i genuinely genuinely genuinely mean it from the bottom of my heart

i do hope you do not get disheartened by the mean shit that you've had the displeasure of having to acknowledge in ur inbox. i just had to.. let you know how much i truly do enjoy and love your fics and cherish your characters and screw the ones who don't because i'm here! i'll be here! pls keep writing the way you do now because i will always be here to read them

hi, omg, sorry, I am just seeing this; I don't really scroll through my inbox so things get lost in my notifications sometimes :(( thank you so much for liking my fics ^^

sorry, I know that I always tell myself that I'm a bad writer (I'm not, like, an actual writer ... like, there are people who are better and actually writing enough to be actual writers) , probably more than other people; I just have a lot of anxiety. Every time I finish a fic, I kinda obsessively read and reread it until I, like, essentially, hate it - which is bad, i know, but, like, I just have a lot of anxiety about writing and finishing fics. I know that no one owes me, like feedback and stuff, so it's just me kinda, like, sitting with my thoughts, which can be ... like, really mean sometimes, but it's fine; it doesn't impact anyone except me.

I appreciate that people get, like, defensive(?) for me about critical anons, but I did ask for it, so don't worry!! You don't owe me, like, defense or anything. anons don't even owe me feedback and I should be grateful any time I get an ask; I'm just really focused on external validation, sorry, so sometimes it's just ... yeah, it's just hard lol, but it's fine! Not everyone has to think I'm a good writer, or even a writer in general; and I'm probably a bad writer, given that the initial reaction to my fics is to point out all the bad things; I have a lot to work on and I should be more grateful that people went out of their way to tell me these things because really, truly, no one owes me anything and I'm too focused on external validation, so don't worry. I asked for this feedback!

[sharkneto]

ok so you’re probably one of the only fic writers i’ve seen that writes five to the point that i can say “oh yeah, this is accurate” so i was wondering if you have any tips for writing him and his pov? i’ve written him before but i always feel like, at one point or another, he’s not five. like he’s fanon five, not canon five. and i was just wondering if you have any tips to make sure that i’m writing him the right way.

also i was rereading shifting mirrors last night and now i want a spinoff series to be made, just so aidan can act the hell out of five again (because the whole time i was thinking aidan would act the hell out of this)

also so we can compare aidan to whoever they get for number and say that they’re both really good

anyway, yeah. if you’ve got any writing tips for five, please lmk. i’m desperate lol

-jasmine

(@localfandomscribe)

Oh, wow thank you so much! Very validating that my Five feels so Five! Before we jump into the writing stuff, yes to the Shifting Mirror spinoff. I love that fic so much. I always want more Aidan as Five. The neat thing about him being like, a Real Adult now is that Aidan can just play Number. Finally winning instead of losing vs Aidan's inevitable aging.

Now, writing in-character.

I've talked generally about how I approach writing in-character HERE before, but at the end of the day I think it does come down to practice. I've only been writing fic for two years, but I've been making stories up in my head with characters from media in-character for more than a decade before that. It's a dance of getting familiar enough with the original media and the character in-situ to the point of "knowing" them well enough to predict what they would do in new situations. My way of doing this is obsessively watching the Thing and thinking about it for Hours and Hours, which is just what I'm doing anyway because I love the thing/character and I have a Super Normal Brain.

A quick rehash of what I wrote in that above, linked post - it's about being familiar with their speech patterns, what motivates them, their relationships with others, how they show emotions, etc.

(Adding a read-more because boy howdy i got long-winded. Very detailed thoughts on writing Five below. TLDR of it all, writing Five is a balance. He is an old man who has seen and experienced horrific things and his thoughts and actions should always reflect that. He's also spent almost no time in the real world or with people, and he should also reflect that. His logic can be internally sound but backwards. His family is his complete motivation.)

From there, it's recognizing when you're writing something that isn't quite right - which you seem to be noticing if you're recognizing more "fanon-Five" than "canon-Five" in your writing (which, I'll repeat from the other post, isn't necessarily a bad thing. All just depends on the story you want to write and the Five that feels right to you. There are lots of nuanced ways to interpret his character and there's no one Correct Fic Five). But, working to stay more canon-less-fanon, find that point in which you feel it's not Right and work backwards. What point isn't feeling right?

Is he doing something he probably wouldn't do? Is this actually out of character or are the pressures you're putting him under forcing him to act a certain way, in which case he's actually in-character.

If there isn't that pressure forcing his actions, what should he actually be doing with your given scenario? What does that do to your plot? If it completely breaks your plot, you need to go back and add pressures to herd things in the right direction rather than forcing Five (or any character) to act differently than they normally would to get to the next Plot Point. Or, maybe, where the story goes with Five acting as he would makes for a more interesting turn and better overall plot and story. Up to your judgement as the writer.

Is it dialogue? Is he not talking like Five would? For this, I'd recommend going back and rewatching a few scenes (or a whole episode, season, show), get his speech patterns and word choice back in your head.

A general recommendation I have for writing any character in-character is frequent and regular rewatches of at least parts of the source material, so that canon-version stays fresh in your mind around all the creative things you're doing with them.

That's generally just writing Five, but you also asked specifically about writing Five POV, which I don't actually do that often despite always writing about Five. It's tricky, because we have to extrapolate how he thinks from how he acts and talks on-screen (which is why there's no One Correct Fic Five, it's all interpretation). Aidan helps us a lot here with how physical and emotive he is as an actor - we often know exactly how Five feels about anything, which we know colors how he thinks and chooses to act.

The most important thing with Five is to never, ever forget that he is a fifty-eight-year-old man. He's tired, he's old, and he's used to always relying on only himself. He is inexperienced in a lot of the world, he is naive in certain regards because of this, but he is not a child and should not think like one (back to this in a second). He is not good with recognizing or dealing with his own emotions because he's had no experience with them/has been smashing them down deep for decades for survival. His experiences with the apocalypse and the Commission shape his thoughts and ideas a lot, too, so having an idea for yourself on what those times in his life were like for him can help you a lot in making him consistent. I have a whole wip on Five's time in the apocalypse that I'm slowly writing but is more or less complete in my head that all my Fives in all my fics draw from (you've probably noticed the repeat elements of that). He has almost always experienced something worse than what he's dealing with in the moment and that should be reflected in how he's thinking about what is happening around him when there are Problems. If he can downplay how bad a thing is to himself, he doesn't have to be as worried and can have more confidence that he can deal with it. It's a survival mechanism.

Back to the tack I put above, it's to come back to how I, at least, write Five's thought patterns. It's a balance of that he is very experienced and capable and that naivety about how the world works (childish in the sense of inexperience but not in the way he thinks about it). Five is very logical, very methodical, but that logic can be only internally logical. His logic to solving anything is built on habits and limitations of growing up and living completely alone in the apocalypse, so they can be backwards in the real, modern world. Five can be really stupid because he gets stuck on his One Solution. I think letting Five be stupid is an important part of writing him because he does cause a lot of his own problems by getting stuck on one line of thinking. When he hits a dead end he tends to self destruct and Drink, until he or someone else finds him a new thread that might work and then he's off again.

It's all about the balancing between that he is very smart and capable so his thoughts and actions should reflect that, that he's impulsive and very confident (so he is going to act on his first idea rather than necessarily continue thinking to find if there's a better solution; if that fails, then he'll move on to the next idea), and that he is drawing from a very specific set of life-experiences to accomplish things to create his particular brand of logic. I try to hit that in my... I think only few examples of writing Five's POV in Had Worse, A Rusty Cog, and the couple chapters in Sometimes Age Comes Alone.

The final piece for writing Five, which is maybe a headcanon but is so supported in the show, is that he loves a tremendous, incredible, painful amount and his determination is second to none. Everything he does is motivated by his family. His own self-preservation and happiness comes second to theirs, nothing matters more than that his family is Alive. His personal feelings on one thing or another are very low priority when it comes to accomplishing this - he can survive four decades of isolated hell and insanity if it means there's a chance he can get them back, he can kill hundreds of people in cold blood if it gets him to where he needs to go. He doesn't like it, but when has it ever mattered what he likes.

At the end of the day, it's all a big balance that just takes practice to hit. Don't be afraid of rewriting until you've got what you like and there's no one correct way to write him.

[transhorrors]

holds mic out... actually there's nothing i would love more than hearing you talk about fandom's views of how trans men are allowed to exist in both fandom and transformative works :)

bestie............... thank you

honestly, doesn't it always come back to a/b/o and mpreg? and i felt this way before i was consciously trans and it's only gotten more pronounced as i've pushed forward into the non-fanworks world of fiction writing. there's a distinct lack of trans characters in both, but there is an especially noticeable lack of visibility and representation for ftm/transmasculine characters. i've speculated a lot about why this is (best i can come up with is the societal fear of a surprise phallus is greater than the surprise of a lack thereof, but this is a really hard thing to articulate and incredibly nuanced, and it'll take me way off topic), but people in general are just incredibly adverse to writing trans male characters, in particular trans male adults. adults who hold positions of power and adults who have sex and adults who fuck up.

and trust me: i have tried to read a/b/o. i have tried to understand the appeal. but i'm just like, goddamn, why are so many girlies choosing wet ass when you could just write a trans character and fucking have your cake and eat it too! trans men have dicks, natural and surgically! if you're that obsessed with needing two cocks, you can still have that with a trans character, and you don't need this gross, cissexist trope that requires ass pregnancies.

and that segues nicely into how fandom writes characters when they are actually written as trans which is... still woof. because it's never just normal. 80% of it is pregnancy whump, "woe to me, for i, a transsexual, am pregnant, and this is the worst thing that could ever happen to me". obviously there's nuance to this (hell, when i was a teen i wrote a polyam series where my trans character got pregnant. i also wrote a lot more porn than angst, though, it wasn't just endless angst), but when that's all there is?? and when it's not pregnancy angst, it's g or t-rated, which, fine, whatever, but why can't we have casual pwps? why is it so hard to get casual explicit stuff with a ftm character? fandom is full of all kinds of weird porn, but i have actually gotten yelled at by Fandom Girls for asking why people write a/b/o over making a character ftm lol.

obligatory "if people aren't comfortable writing trans characters, i would obviously rather ignore their weird cis porn than have to suffer through shitty trans fetishization". but also. people should learn how to write trans characters, in fandom and in general. a character can (and, imo, should) be trans without that being the whole plot. the problem is trans people still exist primarily as inspiration/tragedy porn in the cisgender eyeballs, and so we don't get to just... be a character. we don't get to have casual sex or get put into cutesy little au's or any of that.

(that's also why i'm happy that my chris/adrian series has been doing well because like..... this is not meant as shade to anyone in the ao3 tag. but right now, besides me, there's, like, 2 other trans adrian fics that i would go back and reread. everything else is a/b/o, and one tagged as "mpreg" that i refuse to touch on principle. but the two good ones are i think both t-rated. we have far more fic for breeding kink, which, fine, whatever. and i really want other people to write trans adrian, because i think combining his obsession with identity makes him FASCINATING to write as trans, and i want people to get fun and freaky with explicit stuff like they do when they write him as cis, but also i trust a maximum of 5 or 6 writers to do that decently. and at this point, i've dissected and analyzed so much fucking trans media that i just emotionally and mentally cannot. spare the time of day for people who are still doing it objectively wrong. lol)

[ai-the-broccoli]

man, this is really hard; I spent many hours on this and it's still definitely not the most accurate list but. here it is!

Magia Record appears four times. and I think I'm understating it even so tbh, it's such a massive influence on my writing; many different aspects of it, from various different story sections

four Agatha Christie books on here. Have I mentioned that I love Agatha Christie books before? I love them I've reread those four novels tons of times. like, I LOVE unreliable narrators so much and I think those books were a contributing factor lol

Romeo & Juliet has a chokehold on me, not even because I'm into their actual relationship. like the. the Themes holy fucking shit, I'm obsessed I love fate and rebellion and everything and it's SUCH a useful thing for references because it can be used for its themes AND it's such a easily understood cultural reference, ripe for all purposes, and it can also be used in a specific way that complements my love for like. subverting or parodying a Traditional Idea of RomanceTM etc idk I need to sleep is this making sense? anyway yeah there's a reason I literally reference it in 80% of my fics from any possible genre ever. yep.

NGE is a big one too

TPoDG is obviously here but I'm including like, Wilde's other essays and stuff into it too because they directly deal with the topic of art including writing so yeah very influential

Madoka Magica. MAN. yeah PMMM my beloved (I'd write more but it's late)

MLP is here in general. just because.

Heathers is great and I love JD, "our love is god" sure is a line

some other key influences I didn't include in the chart:

The Tell-Tale Heart by Edgar Allan Poe; forgot to add it

music (other than the Servant of Evil cover): random examples include songs by LDR, tswift, halsey and others; romeo & cinderella (although for that one I suspect it's largely owing to my already being obsessed with romeo & juliet as well as fairy tale motifs in my work lol); Magia Record songs

many of my friends' works of fanfiction for Magia Record and others, especially the ones by my partners; those influenced me strongly [I didn't include fanfics in the chart otherwise I'd have many more to add]

other fanfiction as well, probably!

The Miscalculation of Lightning Girl. it was very relatable but also gave me extra OCD symptoms after reading it

potentially Journey to the West. like the original version in classical Chinese, I've reread it enough times throughout my life for it to be quite possible

OHHHH WAIT. FUCK. can I say "classical Chinese poetry" because I feel like it should 100% be here although there are too many poets to list for this one.

unfortunately also the now-notorious children's books series that I'd hate to name, I think

also Magic Tree House?? maybe??? and/or Jane Eyre (not sure enough about either of them)

... Amelia Bedelia is also a possible option. no like. seriously.

whatever other thing I'm forgetting right now

also, special shoutout to that one non-explicit Gossip Girl dan/chuck fic about breathplay, it's a very good character study and also indeed an important influence on my writing

WAIT ACTUALLY. FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING ELSE, THE MOST IMPORTANT INFLUENCE IS THIS: story time: when I was in Grade 6-7 I never spoke to any peers and had a covert "I'm Not Like the Other Students" superiority complex that had me looking down on everything my peers liked, from having phones to gaming to romance manga etc. yaoi was popular among my classmates at that time, so (combined with mild passive homophobia) I strongly looked down on that too. anyway at that time I joined the school literature club, and the club leader was a cute girl. on the second meeting we each read aloud to the club a piece of our own writing, and I remember being absolutely MESMERIZED by the piece written and read by the club leader; it was just SO good and heartbreaking/warming and awesome, I was extremely impressed. it was a fanfiction, of a ship/romance, and it was about the story about a man who was always trying to commit suicide by drowning himself in the river, with a romanticized idea of death by suicide drowning, until one day he comes across another man and bonded with him, and now in a way he no longer really wants to commit suicide. I was so moved, and I think it greatly helped to cure my latent homophobia and prejudice against BL & gay ships. In hindsight, three things became obvious to me:

That writing was definitely a (very brilliant) work of BSD fanfiction, about Dazai (they mentioned that in the meeting, it was my first introduction to BSD, Osamu Dazai and No Longer Human) and I assume probably Chuuya (based on recently acquired knowledge of BSD).

This fic significantly influenced my taste and writing for years to come, especially in terms of my obsession with/love for drowning & suicide by drowning (in fiction, not irl; drowning is very romantic to me) and my penchant for writing about themes that deal with suicide and defying suicide, etc., on top of y'know. opening my eyes to ships that are m/m and f/f.

I definitely had a crush on the club leader girl at that time. (I didn't realize I liked girls at all until later)

...so yeah, major influence absolutely. even though I do not remember the title

and that's all I can think of rn I think

you know what would be silly. if i made a starter pack for all of my literary and cinematic influences...a list of all the games and movies and books and shows that have influenced the way i write and think about writing..........